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nobody talk to me about that new shoko illustration bc i will lose my mind
#[𐐪— rheya talks. 𐑂]#she’s actually so gorgeous#i had to take a breath#her hair????#the smile?????#i love her#OH AND TOJI?????#WHY DID HE GET BIGGER#i’m sick to my stomach#no seriously if he was real you wouldn’t be able to keep him away from me#i need him so bad#anyways
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having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!
there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.
#and before one of u is like '' i have no friends :(" i used to be there too actually#abusive partner cut me off from ALL of 'em. i didn't think i was lovable#it made me EXCEPTIONALLY shy. i still am actually!!!!#i just ... started saying ''yes.''#i would take pictures of flyers in my library and go to whatever events they had#i started taking community classes#if someone mentioned like ''i am gonna start x group'' i actually took a deep breath#and approached them to be like . okay i want in.#i started making the first move with new people - a small compliment#a smile or a little joke. just to share the space with them.#i have MASSIVE social anxiety. bad parent and bad relationship will do that to ya.#but i just... kept going. and going. and going. to each of these little things. and then...#like. .... idk i just am very blessed. i have a STUPID number of friends#a lot of which i reconnected with. bc it turns out love is never wasted. adult life just.#like. gets in the way. but also... i loved u as a weird little kid. i love u now as a weird big adult.#i promise i PROMISE ur friends are out there. u just have 2 find them. and btw#i didn't make friends with everyone. but i did get a lot of people to smile or laugh.#aint that something.#this process took me something like 2 years. it was HARD!!!!!!!!!!#i love u!!! hard things are often worth it!!!
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i don't know man. but sometimes i think about percy breaking the news to nico that his sister's dead. and nico plummetting into depression, screaming at the boy he once thought of as a hero to die. and percy watching this ten-year-old disappear into the shadows mid sobbing. and percy's shaking and traumatized and exhausted. but he forces that pain down his throat and accepts the role as the prophecy kid so nico has a chance to create a future he wants. while percy's is set in stone. and i don't know man.
#like poor baby#you shouldn't have had to make a sacrifice like that#and poor nico getting the only sense of permanence he had ripped from him in a matter of weeks#and each breath he takes is a reminder of all the ones bianca won't get to#and then i die inside#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#pjo text post#percy jackson#nico di angelo#pjo spoilers
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i feel like we do not talk about this line enough…i love unnecessary feelings as much as the next guy but my god this is a convoluted love confession of Shakespearean proportions…it should be taught in schools…
#when i tell you i had to put my switch down and take deep breaths#it’s my bio on here so people prob already knew how i felt about it but i had to post!#it’s on my mind day and night!#ace attorney#phoenix weight#miles edgeworth#narumitsu#wrightworth#becstxt
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I just opened this app on gods internet and frankly I wouldn’t have it any other way
billy definitely just blurts out "oh, good girl" the first time he ever says it, his fingers tangled in your hair -- keeping it away from your exquisite face, the better to watch you as you bob your head up and down. your lips are wrapped around him so fucking perfect, the pressure and heat of your mouth are driving him crazy, and he practically sees stars every time he hits the back of your throat.
and then when you moan around him, he realizes he's accidentally struck gold. his fingers tighten in your hair, giving an experimental little tug, and he grins deliriously when you moan again.
"my good girl," he mutters. "no one -- oh -- no one treats me better, no one...fuck, no one has ever been so good to me..." he presses his lips together, stifling a groan of his own, the better to hear the sounds escaping your stuffed mouth. "mmm -- such a good girl, sweet girl, takin' all'a me like that."
you keep whimpering and moaning around him each time he praises you, and his hips flex without his permission, pushing himself further down your throat. "ah, god, yeah -- my good girl -- so fuckin' pretty with her mouth full'a my cock--"
you bob your head faster, pressing your tongue flat against the length of him and hollowing out your cheeks. billy's head presses back against the pillow, his fingers tightening in your hair. "yeah, yeah -- just like that, oh, shit -- just like that, so fuckin' amazing, so good -- my perfect girl, so good with her mouth, so good to me -- "
he whimpers helplessly, watching you work. "fuck, i love you," he mumbles. "ah, shit -- a good girl deserves to be treated right, don't'cha think? i'm gonna fuck you with my tongue while you ride my face, i-i wanna make you come all over my fuckin' mouth..."
in the end, he makes you come first with his mouth, then his fingers, and then you ride him in a way that has him calling you his good girl all over again.
suffice it to say, you're both deliciously exhausted by the time it's over, not to mention deliciously aware of the fact that you love praise when it falls out of billy's mouth.
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Thinking about the fact that Mabel and Dipper didn't know they had two great uncles.
Yeah they are 12 and at 12 I had a shotty understanding of my family tree- But really? Nobody brought up their great uncle? Stanley? Especially since they'll be staying with his twin brother, Stanford?
Shermie never went to Stan's fake funeral, which to me means the twos relationship was strained on some level. If Shermie is older that means his view of Stan was poisoned in some way, that even as kids they weren't close. If the Shermie is younger then he never even got to meet Stan and all he knew about him was how he failed his family. Hell, people probably barely mentioned Stanley TO Shermie.
The fact that Stan had become a black stain upon the Pines family name makes me so vividly upset. Stanley faked his death and the family just- seemingly decided to strike him from the record. To pretend he didn't existed to spare themselves the sadness and shame.
Stanford and Shermie Pines. The only children worth mentioning of Filbrick and Caryn Pines.
It was never Stanford that was lost to the world. It was Stanley, ever since he had to leave New Jersy- it was always him that had to be struck from the record. Change his name, change his state, change his affiliations, destroy the remains of ghost that was Stanley Pines. Kill him so the family doesn't bring him up, doesn't ask questions, stops asking "Stanford" about his twin.
I just keep thinking about the fact that since the day he made one single mistake all the way up until Ford walks out of that machine- Stanley Pines was killed and did not exist. And Stan himself had no one to blame, he had to play the part in his own demise- He is the only one who ever knew Stanley was alive and has been for decades.
He lives in the multitudes of every personality he's ever taken, all in the hope that he himself can stop being Stanley Pines.
#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#STANLEYYYYYY#STANLEY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU STANLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#sharky rants#Just. Imagine the fucking shame you have to live with#the shame that you can never be yourself. That anything you were is unwanted and forgotten#The shame of just BEING- Of taking space of- of /breathing-/#Imagine the world; your friend; your family; your colleagues being so ashamed of having known you#that you feel more comfortable with a persona to present.#You feel more comfortable stealing the identity of someone you care for deeply if only to help#If only to feel capable for once. To feel like you belong- Like youre doing something good for once#Imagine the shame that brings you to be comfortable not being yourself for 40 years.#ALL CASE YOU BROKE ONE FUCKING PROJECT??????? COME ON#I mean- the deeprooted shame was started from earlier. He was 'the stupid twin“; 'the troublemaker”; “the cheat and thief”#This was a long time coming#But those werent MISTAKES- The one time he genuinely made a Mistake he lost everything#Like he really mattered so little to the people around him#and he cant really blame them.#My cousin is a genius. Hes smart and academically achieved since I was a baby.#The only thing I had that he didnt was my ability to draw. to be creative. The guy for the longest time had a better social life then me too#I used to get brought to tears seeing his accomplishments- seeing people praise him. The shame lived in me any time I had to see him#The shame that I was the black sheep of the family next to the golden standard for a son- for a student- for a friend.#when I was none of those things#And Im lucky he was my cousin- cause if he was my brother that would have haunted me EVERY DAY rather then once or twice a year#Im better with it now; Im more content with who I am- But trauma dump aside-#I very very very much understand Stans shame in being the stupid one. The unachieved one in a family full of achieved people#the shame thats angry at him for being better. at the family for treating him special. and most of all at yourself that you cant be better#its a visceral feeling that I sadly understand
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He [Henry] knows that this is the most meaningful relationship that he's ever had. And he's probably been the happiest he's ever been in his entire life. And Alex knows that too because he knows him in and out now. - Taylor Zakhar Perez | TV Insider
#rwrb#rwrbedit#red white and royal blue#firstprince#alex x henry#userninz#chrissiewatts#userveronika#usersteen#userclara#lookstevie#userlang#mine*#had to pause and take a long deep breath when i heard taylor say this#he gets it so bad.#please i never want him to stop talking about this little film :(#'happiest hes ever been in his entire life' :(((((((#yeah!!!!!! and alex did that!!!!! they did that!!#this is an important part of their relationship. alex caught up to really knowing henry. ALL of him. the good the bad and the ugly#and he loves all of him for it. on purpose!!
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Young queers.
I know you're scared.
But take it from an older queer who grew up in New York City in the 80s - we do not go quiet into this night. Queer people aren't a funeral dirge, we are a community, a celebration, a riot.
Be loud.
Get angry.
Take up space.
Fight with whatever weapons you have, with honesty and integrity and determination and hand-in-hand with other oppressed targeted groups.
I'm scared too, and I have been fighting for as long as I can remember, and I will keep fighting, and you can join us and fight too.
Endure.
We will not go quietly.
We are gonna be *huge* bitches about it.
#unforth rambles#uspol#politics#current events#look dont stop me now played on ym drive right now#and i stg im gonna go jnto the years to come with as much freddie mercury energy asni can fucking muster#i remember every person i saw at age 7 at aids walk 1990 in nyc#they were terrified too and yet it was joyous and hopeful and optimistic#that is what they cant take from us#we have always been here and we always will be#take a deep breath and ask yourself what would david bowie do and fucking do that#okay well maybe not everything bowie would do lmao#i am exhausted but when i got married we had to plan travel around what states our marriage was legal in#that was only 11 years ago#things have come so far so fast#and we old queers still remember all the ways we fought then#take our hands lets battle these fascist fuckwads together
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Rebuilding 🔧⚙️🥚
[2022]
#zelda#legend of zelda#age of calamity#hyrule warriors age of calamity#breath of the wild#botw#zelda botw#BotW Zelda#king rhoam#terrako#zelda fanart#hw aoc#daeyumi art#i drew this piece for the age of calamity zine back in late 2021/early 2022#ever since age of calamity came out i really thought about king rhoam making amends with zelda and really taking an interest in her hobbies#after realizing the mistakes he had made as a father#since age of calamity would’ve afforded him that chance he never got in canon botw#so this piece was about the parallels of zelda repairing terrako while also mending the broken relationship with her father#anyways i was rly proud of this piece at the time & i still am today
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self-indulgent link designs
#link#totk#botw#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#zelda#loz#the legend of zelda#legend of zelda#loz link#character design#not sure if i should tag nudity?#trans link#also i wasnt trying to give him the gay earring lmao i forgot he already had them both pierced#but in my version he just keeps getting more earrings lol#the clothes at 23 and 25 are based on his casual clothes from twilight princess and skyward sword#just generally#and the cape is based on zeldas tp cape#implied zelink#but you can take that however you want#2023#i think post canon link can still shoot a bow with one arm#he uses his teeth like a rito#also hes 5'2". btw
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Welcome to the Restraint! (Restaurant)
Imagine Danny runs to Gotham and starts squatting in an abandoned old building in Crime Alley. Slowly putting some ecto into the place to claim it as his haunt (while recovering from the sudden loss of his old one). And he does the normal stuff to survive. Finds some odd jobs, often as a messenger, and is just surviving. Another thing he does is make his own food. It’s cheaper than takeout and he’s gotten pretty good at cooking (out of necessity instead of eating sentient hotdogs). Then he ends up accidentally taking in some street kids. Or more like they follow him home. He can’t just turn them away so he makes a meal for them and lets them stay the night then sends them on their way. And then it happens again. And again. And ok, so maybe he saved a girl from getting molested. And that older guy from getting his only good blanket stolen. And sure, maybe letting that poor pizza delivery guy rant was unnecessary but he looked like he was having a bad day ok? Pretty sure that kid with the scar is a meta too but…he needed a place to stay a few nights alright? It’s not like any of them stay permanently. Danny’s started picking up a few more odd jobs to pay for all the extra food he’s had to buy. Always keeping his place stocked. At least he doesn’t have to pay for water and a fridge, he just makes some ice (or melts it). Sure the water is cold, but it’s probbaly the cleanest water in Gotham. And then some of the people start paying. Like…actually paying in exchange for food. Not sure if it’s because of guilt or pity but Danny won’t look a gift horse in the mouth. And with all the money, he hasn’t had to take as many dangerous jobs. Soon, his little abandoned apartment became what’s essentially the closest thing to a legitimate restaurant in Crime Alley.
It didn’t look normal. The chairs and tables were more like old couches and stools pulled up to coffee tables and cabinets turned on their side. Although with the bulling becoming more like Danny’s haunt, the walls naturally started repairing themselves so at least it didn’t look like it was gonna collapse anymore. And ok…so Danny might have rescued a few feral kids who…weirdly have gold eyes. And possibly stopped a meta trafficking ring on accident. And look, these people didn’t have anywhere to go! And the apartment did have empty rooms. It was already known as a place someone could crash for the night (last winter the entire place was cramped with people. Danny had to break up multiple fights but they usually calmed down when he got there.)
One benefit from controlling a haunt is controlling the temperature inside so it was one of the only buildings with ‘heat’. But back to his…strays. So yeah…most didn’t seem like they could rejoin society…so he let them stay. And…they kind of became employees? Impromptu bodyguards? (Some of the golden eyed people almost felt like he was rangling feral ghosts again.) they came in all ages. A few kids, lots of teens, and a few adults. Same with the metas he rescued. They mostly helped deliver food to costumers. They even got a phone line working and could take orders. (Although the new…employees…also got more protective whenever a fight broke out.) With all the extra money he’s been getting he was even able to afford some medical supplies. A lot of his customers(?) came in injured and he tried his best to patch them up but now he could do more than tie some ripped clothing around the wound and use ice to numb it. He’s got bandages. And pain killers. Plus other medical stuff. He can even give someone stickers now! All that experience as an injured vigilante was paying off. Even Villains and goons start attending this place. The place was unofficially designated as one of the Alley’s ‘safe zones’ where no fighting takes place inside (the body guards make sure of it.) the metas and Talons are getting an identity for themselves, the street kids even get a job and a hideout, random people can go there for help or to pass messages, this place provides food, shelter, and medical care. No one wants it going down.
So yeah, welcome to the restaurant!
(I’m debating whether I want this to be the weirdest restaurant/safe place/truce area in the alley, or whether I want Danny to accidentally become a crime lord. Possibly both.)
Also, this place is called the Restraint because I keep misspelling Restaurant and I think Danny would do the same so the name stuck. (Or one of the kids spelled it when making a sign or passing around messages to spread the word of this safe place.)
So anyways, to add some angst, after Danny adopts a bunch of crime alley kids/villains they find out about Danny’s powers and that he’s a ghost, only they don’t know about Halfas so they think Danny is fully dead and this super kind guy who has been the only person to ever treat them like people…died. He died likely a long time ago and there’s nothing any of them can do to change that.
(And if the GIW dare to come into the alley, they better be prepared for the entire place to turn on them.)
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#Kizzer55555 ideas#I kinda like the idea of Danny also being able to cure joker venom#So like what could happen is a recent attack caused some people he knew to get infected#they came into the Restraint laughing while tears trailed down their face and they were gasping like they couldn’t breathe.#Danny can immediatly tell something’s wrong and can practically see their veins glowing green.#They had enough joker venom that it should be perminant but Danny uses his powers.#What he does is concentrate and phase shift them and ONLY them. Letting the venom fall through and splatter the ground with a hiss.#It’s the first time anyone has seen Danny use powers but everyone unanimously agrees never to mention it.#Of course. There are many people people who might then bring their loved ones to Danny. Hoping he could help.#You would be surprised how many kids are in the alley because their parents were gassed with joker venom#and the foster system wouldn’t take them. Or people who lost their jobs to pay for medical bills for loved ones.#So then an alley guy brings his gassed sister in. She had been in the hospital for 2 years now and he knows it’s a long shot.#But he has to try.#It’s harder than the fresh venom since the drug had been more absorbed into the girl. Danny has to really focus and it takes longer#But bit by bit he manages to separate the joker venom and her laughing soon turns to sobbing as her mouth stops smiling.#When he’s done the brother and sister are both crying. The girl is malnourished because it’s hard to eat while laughing but she’ll be ok.#Soon all the alley people start bringing in loved ones. It’s very subtle because there’s NO WAY they are exposing Danny’s abilities.#However people start noticing that joker victims have started to disappear from hospitals.#Danny is covered in scars from vigilantism.#He may or may not have vivisection scars.#Whether it was from phantom and he just escaped before revealing his identity or bad reveal is up to you.
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"The Vampire Chronicles characters are exercises in the cycle of trauma and abuse and how they are capable of complex emotions and receiving and giving love and empathy alongside all the horrible shit they do to one another" and "Anne Rice herself was a bigot and had some shitty personal beliefs and just because the genre is Gothic Horror doesn't mean you ignore the way those ideas bleed into the writing. Not all commentary is good commentary" are two sentiments that can and SHOULD co-exist, what the fuck are we doing.
#interview with the vampire#iwtv#tvc#the vampire chronicles#char.txt#I was thinking abt this earlier but decided to not waste my breath writing an essay abt it under someone elses post#+ i am at all times failing to protect my own peace but it does genuinely drive me fucking mad the way people wave off critique#because ''its supposed to be uncomfortable'' like i get that but there has to be a middle ground#between ''its all problematic garbage'' and ''genre absolves us from having intelligent thoughts about the work'' can anyone fucking hear m#At the end of the day AR was a rich white woman in america who had some Choice Takes and maybe we should remember that
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Just got back from seeing Sonic 3 and HOOOOOOLY SHIT y’all. Oh my fucking god. OH my god. Ohhhh my g o d
#IT. WAS. PHENOMENAL. PERFECTION. LITERALLY EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE ASKED FOR#SPOILERS AHEAD IN THE TAGS BEWARE#They gave us Shadow on a motorcycle. Shadow with a GUN. Shadow flexing by POPPING OFF HIS LIMITER RINGS LIKE A BADASS#AND!!! THE MOST GORGEOUS CREATURE I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY GODDAMN LIFE. HOMIE WENT SUPER SHADOW AND HE WAS G L O R I O U S#THE LIGHT FUR…..THE SPARKLES…..THE GLOWINGGGGG!! HE WAS GLOWING!!!!!!#WE GOT LIVE AND LEARN!!!!! WE GOT LIVE AND LEARN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO genuine family bonding? Sonic Team bonding? SONADOW BONDING???#Shadow’s little smiles during the flashbacks with Maria MY GOD I WAS GOING TO BLOW UP.#Shadow did the Akira slide on his bike and I said repeatedly under my breath I’m not a furry I’m not a furry I’m NOT a furry#I’M NOT I SWEAR#I’M JUST A HARDCORE SHADOW GIRLIE#Homie had me swooning tho I WILL NOT LIE!!!#I felt so bad for my friends I was probably insufferable for the entire film I tried SO hard to reign my fangirling back#I squealed and stimmed a LOT. SORRY Y’ALL THE AUTISM LEAPT OUT. THAT WAS BEYOND MY CONTROL#OH AND THE END?????? METAL SONIC??? A M Y??????#I KNEW they were gonna tease Amy I had a feeling#Also also it was so funny as we were walking out of the theater this guy was like ‘TAKE THAT OBAMA!!!’ and waited for an answer#And then he was like okay nobody got that. But then I said ‘I PISSED ON THE MOON YOU IDIOT!!’ and he started CHEERING LMAOOO#That movie was a religious experience. For ME. I feel like I’ve ascended to heaven#I’m so. Fucking happy right now I’m SO happy it was so good I’m going to cry#I love you Shadow the Hedgehog I love you Sonic the Hedgehog I’m going to break apart literally right now#Also one more BIG thing but I’m putting that in a separate post. Hold on.#Shima speaks#Sonic 3#Sonic#Sonic the Hedgehog#Sonic movie 3#Sonic spoilers
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The way Mario's eyes dart up and down Luigi with that sheer look of relief on his face 😭
I'm still not over this ;_;
#this is a a redo of the same post#the other had a guf that was too blurry#but someone kindly got me a better definition one i can use#super mario#mario#luigi#the super mario bros movie#mario movie#super mario movie#mario and luigi#brothers#brotherly love#protective mario#NO BUT LISTEN#the look on Mario's face is a million emotions and the animators did so good#also also#the way luigi takes a deep breath but mario doesn't even allow himself time to breath#mario movie 2023
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whoa my hand slipped what happened
#hey babe... wake up... you were having a bad dream about kinich being the color of tofu? it's okay... this is the real kinich....#in full denial atp-- soymilk kinich is just a mass delusion frfr#anyway i was scrolling a moot's blog and was inspired by the natlan skin color edits so much i had to draw kinich w dreads#melanated kinich save me....#while drawing i had to take several breaks to take a deep breath#bc he is crazy attractive with the melanin he actually deserves#now this is a character i'd bankrupt myself for#what who said that#my art#genshin impact#genshin fanart#kinich genshin#genshin kinich#kinich genshin impact#natlan#kinich#kinito my beloved#kinich edit#natlan characters#natlan edit#kinich my beloved
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-Julio Cortázar, from "Bolero" (trans. John Joseph Lyons)
Loki S2 Anniversary x Episode 2 - “Breaking Brad”
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#taking a deep breath. clenching my fists. I WAS FOLLOWING YOU NO I WAS FOLLOWING YOU 🥺��#had the most successful day in recent memory so treated myself to the official anniversary rewatch of episode two forever beloved#or episode(s) two that is 😅#and will never be over the emphasis of how their lives have reflected in such a way they can see right through each other#to the point where they're actively willing to challenge everything they know and have boxed themselves into#it's about moving forward where you used to stand still and choosing to stay when it's easier to run away!!#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs#flashing cw
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