#i had to cancel plans that i was looking forward to bc i feel like shit :/

[iguessyouwonderwhereivebeen]

this was actually my entire day today, I woke up feeling so restless and agitated and wanting to escape, probably bc of the nightmares.. I had a honey cinnamon latte in bed and half a bagel for breakfast. Then I went on a run and ran 5 ❗️ miles which I was surprised I could still do. My sister ended up picking up a bartending shift and canceled our plans to go a 80s rock and new wave show, which I understand and was supportive of but the dissipation of the plans I had been looking forward to for the last 72 hours left me at such a loss. I tried reaching out to someone to do something but by the time they got back to me I was already in pjs and a face mask. And then I cried, finally, fully, after weeks of being unable to do so. And I’m just trying to feel everything I’ve been feeling, like they tell you to in yoga, smile through the discomfort bc it’s a sign you’re alive and growing.. loneliness is such a hard feeling and it’s a feeling I’ve always felt so familiar with. Decided to give myself grace to have an easy night in without guilt, especially since work has been so insane this week and I have to logon tomorrow at 11. But I will and fully intend on taking every opportunity I can to go out and meet new people in the next few months. It’s so necessary I do, I can’t exist in solitude. I crave community and humanity and life, my heart beats for it

[yeehawgeek]

i was gonna start posting the redneck-ification of tbb today but i have such a bad headache that i can barely even look at a screen

i’ll probably start posting them tomorrow, but in the meantime:

[opiopal]

MC who hates Lucifer’s guts, yet will go into his study or the music room when overstimulated by all the noise of the HOL. Like, they’ll plant a glitter bomb in his room, and after he’s done finally cleaning up MOST of it, he walks into the music room and sees MC sleeping on the couch listening to a record all peacefully. Or just like…the brothers will randomly notice MC goes missing and is found either spaced out in their rooms or fast asleep.

uhh…basically, an MC who is usually very loud and competitive, will get overstimulated by all the sounds and general loudness of the HOL, and later be found hanging out or asleep in the most random places.

this is so long I’m so sorry-

(Like sleeping in mammons car boot/trunk)

omg YES, but this has also got to be SO hard for mc like omg,

I am imagine them absolutely getting into it with Levi or S8n or literally ANY of the brothers over small things, mc is just digging for a challenge always. “I bet I could eat this faster” “I bet I could beat you in this game” “I bet I could win more money than you” Ect. Ect. but eventually they’re social battery runs out and they can’t help but curse their own behavior, so eventually they slowly separate from the chaos they had created and go into a quiet room, and honestly luci’s room would be so perfect for that. Who in the world would willing bother him in his office? ESPECIALLY when he’s working? Well Mc would, I can imagine Luci is just so used to his brothers going from plotting against him then switching up to needing their older brother, so he doesn’t really mind most of the time. Though he does think mc can be.. a little annoying, but there’s nothing he hasn’t seen when each of his brothers are all uniquely problematic. so typically when mc comes into his office silently, carrying headphones, or a book, or a sketchbook, he just motions for them to take a seat in one of the chairs he has in there as he turns back to the paperwork he was filling out. which they both just sit in silence as mc unwinds in their own way. Though mc makes sure to make it obvious they don’t do this bc they enjoy being around him,

“you know this doesn’t mean anything. Right?”

“of course mc,”

Though he smiles a bit when they aren’t looking.

with the other brothers I could imagine it just feels like another belphie is around whenever mc needs to chill, cause despite being such a loud and obnoxious creature, mc still somehow manages to sneak around so quietly that they wouldn’t have even realized they entered the room. honestly, maybe it’s just a me thing, but I think Beel would be one of the best people to just relax against. Like, I can only assume he runs pretty warm, and no one in the world could convince me he isn’t pudgy in a lot of areas, so he’s comfortable. And he doesn’t mind in the slightest! He’s used to his brother sleeping on his arm, so why would he care about mc doing it to? And he’s very good at sitting in silence…. However the constant chewing would probably add to the overstimulation lowkey, so if Beel is mc’s chosen unwinding person for the day, they might need to bring their headphones with them. belphie may also be a very good chilling out person, I could totally imagine he’d be a great weighted blanket if that’s what mc needs in that moment, if mc is also on the chunkier side he would also very much so look forward to it. To him it’s just like laying on a pillow, so he doesn’t mind in the slightest!(though he’s such a heavy sleeper I don’t think he’d care if mc was a bit on the skinny side, honestly any discomfort will be forgotten the second he closes his eyes lol) though I’m sure he’d be asleep for way to long and mc may have to fight to be freed of him, so if mc decides they need their living weighted blanket and they have plans later.. they’ll probably have to cancel their plans cause they’ll be there till dinner.

I think the most optimal people for mc to hang around would be the older three tbh, Luci would know when mc just needs silence and he’s more then happy to give that to them as long as they reciprocate said silence. mams would probably be baffled the first time he just finds mc hanging out in his room, either drawing or taking a nap, but he makes sure mc’s peace isn’t disturbed, like he’d actually be willing to fight off his brothers at the door because he know his human needs their silent reading time. So there’s no way in the three realms he’s going to willingly let their peace be disturbed because asmo wants to go shopping or the anti Lucifer league wants to plan a prank! They can forget about it until mc is ready! And honestly, Levi would probably be the greatest, he knows what getting overwhelmed often is like so he understands that mc just needs to do their thing.. but he is absolutely honored and crying on the inside because they chose him!! So he makes SURE his room is in the perfect condition for mc to hang out in, he gets his good headphones out so then mc can’t hear his game or anime, he lets them know they have free access to his mini fridge(he totally has one guys idc if it’s canon or not, he literally lives in his room he totally has a fridge of snacks, soda, and water) and he’d probably very shyly get them a sketchbook, or a box of yarn for crotchet, or literally anything they usually do when they need to relax that’s just in their own spot in his room. though giving the other two some love, I know that asmo would absolutely do some like, calming skincare face massage stuff, basically if mc needs a silent spa day amso is absolutely willing to do such a thing with them! And though he understands that’s not what they always need, he does get a little bummed when mc doesn’t go to him for detoxing. But he gets it! Go to ur thing pookie!! and with s8n, he’ll always have a book and a spot on his bed for mc when they need it, he’s good at being quiet and obviously he wouldn’t need to fight anyone off from entering his room, since it’s the same deal as luci’s office. Unless someone has a death wish, they’ll stay out of his room, even if mc is in there.

[artificialbreezy]

ya know? imma say it because it’s true!!!

Matty boy is 100% into free use. to the fullest extent. let me tell you why.

it’s his favorite way to get close to you again. he’s gone a lot. he’s a busy bee. so when he’s gone for 2+ months at a time and his little honey bee can’t come with bc who’s gonna keep an eye on the garden and boo and zeus. so maybe you’d bring it up on facetime just casually. a little “oh! i read a book that had something called “free use” and um. i’m a little interested.” he got hard just at that. so when he actually did research and came home with all the information and ideas and healthy boundaries for it, that’s all you two looked forward to. decided to keep it specific to coming home (maybe a birthday if this went really well)

code words are key to this. when he got to the airport he’d always call. just now he mentions how excited he is to see the peach tree in your yard (that you totally didn’t have) and you knew you’d better be ready to get bent over the minute his bags hit the floor. safe word is so big in this, he knew if you said “basic” he’d stop. all plans are canceled and you’d reassess later so you were safe from ever feeling uncomfortable again.

remember how i said it’s his favorite way to get close again? i don’t mean like “reconnecting”, i mean like “i need to make you ache and feel my cock days after it’s happened”. plus, he’s gone months not feeling the way your sweet pussy felt around him. he needs the reminder that you were made for him. now, he’s not gonna just shove his dick in you either. nay nay. he’s gonna just play with your pussy randomly, whenever he wants. maybe you’re just reading on the couch, he’s gonna come over and plop down, spread your legs and just run his fingers through your folds. maybe if he’s nice, he’ll gently rub your clit for a little. then he’ll go back to whatever had his attention before, leave you clenching around nothing.

after hours of doing that, he’ll see you folding clothes at the table and he says “yeah. now’s the time”. he’d walk up behind you, push your head onto the pile of his laundry, bend down and pull your pj shorts to the side, he’d feel how soaked your shorts would be and just scuff at you. “wow, such a whore huh? look at her, just begging to be ruined.” then he’d just use your hole until his cum’s dripping out of you, smack your ass and say “finish folding honey bee. when you’re done, i’ll take you upstairs and maybe i’ll let you cum with me.”

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for not saying goodbye to my husband’s friends from childhood?

I (24F) am a white American, my husband (25M) is a black immigrant from a country in the Caribbean. Where we live, there aren’t many people from his country and he has few opportunities to speak his native language. But a family friend from his childhood came here recently and he invited the friend over for dinner. The friend and his wife said they’d come over a few days in advance and I was excited and made plans for dinner, but the day of, they canceled. I was a little annoyed because I already had all the food and everything but I was like “ok whatever.”

Well the following Saturday, I was stressed about work and stuff and in a bad mood, and was looking forward to catching up on a show I liked. When I finally sat down to watch, my husband said his friends who canceled the week before were going to be here in an hour and asked me to clean up. I was annoyed bc they canceled when I was planning on them and rescheduled last min when I wasn’t planning on hosting or spending the evening with anyone, but I helped clean up and prepare. They got here, and I tried to be a good host, but I admit while I wasn’t rude, my attitude wasn’t super warm and friendly. They didn’t want dinner so we offered juice and stuff. I tried to be present in the conversations but 1) I’m very shy and 2) they were talking about 60-40 their native language to English, so I didn’t know what was going on more than half the time. (I do love that language and am trying to learn on DuoLingo but it’s hard. I’m also glad he has people to talk it with, it just leaves me unable to participate much). Also, tbh most of the conversation was suggestive jokes and joking about each other’s sex lives and as an ace person I don’t really feel comfortable with that kind of conversation particularly with people I don’t know very well. So I kinda just zoned out, and I kind of have an RBF so I guess I looked not happy to be there. Anyway, we watched a James Bond movie I wasn’t interested in so I was on my phone a lot, then I went upstairs to get ready for bed because it was almost midnight and I was tired.

After I was ready for bed, I wanted to say goodnight to the friends, however one of them had to record a video for an online class and send it in before the deadline in like an hour. So he got on the computer and went into the stairwell and his wife got on her phone and went to the kitchen so they could record the conversation and submit it. Which meant I was stuck upstairs (unless I wanted to pass the guy in the stairwell and show up on his video) and I’d have to wait for them to finish recording the call before I could go to bed. Well, I was tired so I just lay in bed and ended up falling asleep. Around the 12:45, my husband woke me up by coming into the room and turning on the light to give the friends a tour of the house and I grumpily growled “I’m asleep! Turn off the light!”

The next morning, my husband was livid at me. He said the way I treated them was horrible and rude, I wasn’t paying attention during the movie, I didn’t even say goodbye (which greetings and goodbyes are a big deal in his culture), I growled at them when they came into the room for the tour, I was “acting like a bitch” to them the whole night, and he felt like he invited them to his house only for me to act racist and like I’m better than them. I feel terrible that my actions could be perceived that way when in reality I was just tired, shy, a little grouchy because these plans were sprung on me last minute, and out of the loop (because I didn’t understand a majority of the conversation). But I think the whole cancelation and then last minute rescheduling and expecting me to be a good, present host late into the night wasn’t cool. If it had been last week, I would’ve been prepared with dinner and also mentally, since I’d be planning on hosting people. Also would’ve been nice to be made aware beforehand that we would be entertaining guests until 1 AM, so I could be planning on it.

So AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[nefres]

I dunno, as much as I love Flying Bark's work, I'm not really into the doom and gloom surrounding the future of LMK. Flying Bark is still going to be creating some amazing things! They're not going anywhere, and I can guarantee they're going to keep animating stellar cartoons like LMK, Moon Girl, Rottmnt, Glitch Techs, and so on.

I LOVE LMK's Flying Bark animation, but that's not why I love the show. The writing and characters are just as big of a part of it for me. I'm stepping away from the LMK fandom for a bit, not because my love has diminished but bc the negativity is really getting to me.

I'm looking forward to seeing my favourite characters again in S5. And honestly I'm just glad the show is continuing at all. As someone who's had so many beloved shows get canceled on me for the 20-odd years I've been a cartoon fan, knowing it's continuing at all with the same writing team, that the theme is continuing, sets are still being created... I plan to enjoy it for as long as possible. As a LEGO fan, LMK is THE theme. I'd enjoy the quality of the sets if there wasn't a cartoon at all, but the success of one feeds into the success of the other. Support S5! The LMK crew you love is still there.

(Obligatory disclaimer: I understand being upset, I'm not telling anyone how to feel. This is just how I feel!)

[museum-spaces]

Oh nerds, I have had a week of a week. Frist off; house keeping. I got the job in Vancouver and my last day at Camel Town was yesterday. I start in Van in 7 days.

Now for my week of weeks,

While still interviewing find the Perfect Place to live. A 2 bedroom condo in my price range available in time for my start date. Stop looking for other places.

Get job offer, tell new landlord to move forward, get emails from his rental company, look up rental company and see it is a real one that exists.

Make plans with Sister to transport Ianto and I to Vancouver. Sister's partner takes a day off work to help.

Send deposit of 3400CAD to rental company [deposit consists of 1 month rent 1700, and two damage deposits - one for Ianto -totalling 1700]. Normal and legal in Canada. Most places just ask for one of the deposits but not illegal.

Do all that by Friday [9th]

Walking Ianto at 6;30am on Monday 12th - 4 days before planned move in date - and get email from rental company asking for another deposit of 3400 as 'insurance' because they have been 'having issues with transactions from Canada and the United States'. Will not send keys and paperwork before getting the additional funds.

Think for a minute and reply something like 'Landlord and I agreed on 3400, which you have just confirmed you received. Please send the keys etc asap.'

Alarmingly quickly Landlord [not company] emails me to say company got in touch with him and this is their policy. He will give me 20 per cent off rent for first 6 months if I just send the money. [This is the first red flag I actually notice]. I replythat I am moving in 4 days and if the transaction takes as long as the first one, I won't have anywhere to live but be out a fuckton of money.

Calll my parents. It's 6;30 in BC but they are visiting Ontario where its 9;30. Not worried about waking them. Mum immediately offers to transfer the money for me because part of the issue is that I have to move money around to get that much which takes up to 48 hours. I cut her off and say 'I feels scammy' which dad agrees with.

Dad is a retired real estate agent, gets in contact with folk in BC a few hours later while I go to work and freak out [had already packed my anxiety meds... not fun]. Turns out 'Landlord' doesn't have title for the condo.

Also Rental Company email is very obvious fake. I googled the company but didn't check the email. Like a fool.

Tell 'landlord' that I cannot move that amount of money in the time allotted and would like my deposit back please [didn't expect to get it back but... its the presidency.]

Looked for another rental. Found one that wasn't dog friendly. Ianto is a service dog but is not yet certified to BC standards. Thought I'd give it a shot anyway. Called and was very frank; just got scammed, moving at end of week for work, have a dog. She gave me a short list of other rentals she knew accept dogs because she could not allow Ianto before his test.

Contacted a few, Ianto was too big for a few, filled out an application to one, and got a virtual tour set up for the other [this takes us to Tuesday].

Tuesday email my contact at job in Vancouver to let her know that I might not be able to start on the 22nd because no home. She [witn permission] then contacts my board to let them know. One has a line on an apartment.

Discover my mattress is very mouldy.

Application denied with no option to contest, virtual tour cancelled because property manager got sick and couldn't reschedule until this coming Monday.

Call my bank about the scam. They start an investigation which will take about 10 days and cancel my debit card because... I don't know. [bringing us to the end of Wednesday]

Application to board member's suggestion accepted. Need to pay the down payment which is just one of the damage deposits. They take in-person payments or money orders. Because my card is currently... gone. I cannot do online or app banking. Would have to do in-person or phone. Nearest branch to me is 2 hours away by car and I don't drive. Try calling. It takes over an hour to discover that because of the investigation I cannot get a money order done via the phone. Because that would be too easy.

Call my parents - they were busy - texted my brother. Asking both if they could help. Brother puts me in contact with his partner who would have their car tomorrow at the same time my parents offer to do a money order for me. Get the address etc from new rental company [legit]. Send confirmation.

Move in date is [probably] Saturday.

So, a very week of a week if I do say so myself and it's not over yet. I need to finish packing still [wall art, blankets, the last of Ianto's stuff and odds-and-ends]. Still need to get there. Chance the Money Order won't get there in time - as it has to go from Ontario to BC and tomorrow is Friday. but... Better position by miles than on Monday.

There is a small chance my bank can get my money back but.... Unlikely and it was a painful lot of money to say the least.

[jinkoh]

let me make it better

kino/hyunggu x reader

Tags: idol!hyunggu, established relationship, angst, hurt/comfort, g/n reader but they wear make up/lipstick

word count: 808

a/n: my best friend is literally writing the most heart-wrenching hyunggu fic ever so this is an homage to her and her story (i would love to give y'all a link bc it's is so so dear to me but it's not online and i only get to read it because i have best friend privileges)

either way have some angsty idol!hyunggu x reader trying to make it work~

Masterlist

There’s been some issues and I don’t think I will make it tonight. I’m so sorry🥺 i really love you 🤍🤍 i know it’s last minute but I couldn’t get to my phone earlier. I’m so sorry, i really wanted today to work out. I love you 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 I promise i will make it up to you. I really am so sorry I love you so so much 🤍🤍🤍 

You stared at his messages for a moment. You weren’t surprised, not really. But you’d really hoped for things to work out for once.

With a sigh you blew out the candles you’d lighted on the kitchen table and put the dinner you’d cooked into tupperware to store it in the fridge. It could be eaten later or tomorrow—for now you’d lost your appetite, your stomach feeling sick with disappointment. 

You knew Hyunggu couldn’t help it—it was his job. Sometimes delays happened and schedules dragged on longer than planned and there was nothing he could do about it.

Still, when he had to cancel yet another date with you, it hurt. At this point you should be used to this; it happened all the time. But somehow it never got easier at all.

You hadn’t seen him in quite a while and you’d really looked forward to this. You knew he had too, continuously telling you in his messages how he couldn't wait to finally see you soon.

Surely he was beating himself up about this, worried about hurting you even though he had to be hurting just as much.

In an attempt to ease his mind, you sent a quick don’t worry about it, love, before setting your phone aside. You dragged yourself to your bathroom, getting bed ready. It wasn’t like you’d see anyone tonight anymore.

Somehow, the moment you started removing your makeup that you’d put on especially for this, the dam broke and tears started rolling down your cheeks. It wasn’t that Hyunggu put a big emphasis on you wearing makeup or dressing up—he loved you just as much with unwashed hair and ratty sweatpants. But you’d been excited to get ready for him today, specifically choosing an outfit you knew he liked, and a lipstick to match.

Now all of that felt like a waste. He wasn’t going to see it anyway. No one was. You’d remove your lipstick and slip into your pajamas and Hyunggu would never get to see the thought you'd put into everything tonight. His face wouldn’t light up with a smile upon realizing that you'd dressed up for him, nor would he stuff his cheeks happily with the food you’d cooked.

Along with the makeup you wiped your tears away, got changed and trudged into your bedroom where you curled up on the mattress. You pulled the blanket over your head, trying to fall asleep so this day would just end already.

At some point it must have worked, because you woke up to the sound of your front door being unlocked. You knew it had to be Hyunggu—there wasn’t anyone who would just come into your apartment like this, especially at this time of day.

You heard Hyunggu carefully opening the door to your bedroom and shuffling inside. He shimmied out of his pants and slipped into bed behind you.

You curled up even more, not knowing how to face him. You knew it wasn’t his fault, not really. But you were just so hurt over all of this.

For a moment it was quiet, a weird distance between the two of you, but you didn’t know how to resolve it.

“Y/n?” Hyunggu finally whispered into the darkness and your heart broke at the quiver in his voice. “Are you still awake?”

You wanted to reply, but the moment you opened your mouth a small whine escaped your lips. The sound made Hyunggu draw in a sharp breath.

“I’m sorry,” he pressed out. “I know this is all my fault but—can’t I still make it better?” 

He sniffed. “Let me make it better.”

Unable to endure it even a second a longer, you turned around to him, your hands reaching out to cup his tear stained cheeks.

“It’s okay,” you whispered, your own voice sounding choked up. “It’s okay. This is not your fault. We’ll be fine.”

“But I—” A small sob interrupted his sentence.

You instinctively pulled him closer, hugging him close to your chest. He clung onto you, his hands wrapping around your back so tightly it almost hurt and his tears soaking the fabric of your T-shirt. But you held him nevertheless, not letting go until the both of you had stopped crying and even then holding on a little longer still.

“We’ll be fine,” you repeated softly, not sure if you were trying to convince him or yourself. “We’ll be fine.”

Masterlist

[h-doodles]

oh, so many ideas so little energy and time,,, so ummmmm authors feel free to take a spin if you find something u like <3!!!!

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1.) inspired by Loving you is beautiful (darkfic) by @rippersz — wherein reader learns to enjoy Larissa's red flags rather than slowly wilt from the distinct skewed version of love :)

Excerpt:

You've been hurt by the world.

Pain is the only thing you remember, ever since you were young. Always remembered a yearning hunger deep inside your heart. Wishing to be loved, to be saved by someone.

But humans were monsters— it wasn't until you've found yourself on the gates of the so called Monsters' precious academy that you've found what seemed to be the shelter from the storm that is your life; found the answer to your prayers.

Found her.

Your savior, your goddess, your beloved.

You won't lie, trusting such a vision was a bit hard to bear, because to be so lucky was not in your nature. But oh, Larissa is so tender, is so sweet, is so caring, and is ever so patient— to stay by your side, equal parts loving and protecting you from harm. You feel a little silly now, asking all those questions then, about her kind; of how outcasts like her lived.

Isn't it such an irony, that it took you finding 'monsters', to find humanity?

Well. Well.

--and thats all ive got for it rn lol--

2.) ICE SKATER AU or wherein reader was a former ice skater but has since been retired, and is a part of their past they'd just occasionally brush off for stress relief. Can either be a new teacher for Nevermore or the new barista in town, who gets pestered to sign up by their former partner & still best friend (also a new hiree crushing majorly on one Coach Vlad :]) to a local skating contest. They didn't initially plan to, but after overhearing that a certain principal was interested in seeing the performances, well... local disaster gay brushes off the dust off their skates ;3

"You. Me. The lake, with your skates. NOW."

"Woah woah woah Y/N, hold on a moment. I thought we were going to the booth to cancel—" Elijah says, but I whap him with a rolled up newspaper.

"Well, that was BEFORE I learned SHE was looking forward to watching the event." I start. "And since we both know I am a small, disaster gay with 0 rizz and speaking skills, THIS is my chance to get her attention! It's brilliant! It's foolproof! She'll never see it coming!"

"Who'll never see it coming?" Coach Vlad pops up half dressed behind Eli, and I blink.

"Hold up, are you guys—"

"Yes." "N-Um." The two men look towards each other, before looking back at me. Eli mouths a yes.

"I cannot believe YOUR fucking luck!"

Bestie in Christ I WISH I had the luck, skills, AND charisma of THIS manwhore of a bestie-slash-longtime-skating-partner I have. Maybe then I COULD grab a whole fucking date with one Principal Larissa Weems. Is it too much to ask???

3.) academy time! Morticia/Larissa/Reader or where before everything went downhill, three girls had a secret worth keeping. bc i need the "and they were roommates + they're galpals <3" soooo bad

4.) 5 times they kissed + the 1 time they didnt FLUFF & then major angst >:) bc i love me a relationship establishment fic and then the worst pain imaginable to man aka Wifey death /// or if more fluff, just 5 dates and 1 wedding (BUT OFC THEY HAVE MORE DATES) :)

5.) Sleepy reader being a clingy mess and touch starved Larissa sooooo torn between having to get ready for the day vs staying in bed for 5 more minutes just to savor r's presence :')

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...and then the NSF ones

6.) Reader is being more of a brat than usual so Larissa punishes them the next day by making them wear a remote controlled toy for the WHOLE day & getting teased at the most inopportune times but they are not allowed to cum >:)))

7.) OH GOD TRADE OFF where usual brat reader has been a V good girl™ for some time and in turn Larissa allows them one (1) wish...... and R picks revenge by having mommy wear the accursed toy and being teased 👉🏻👈🏻

8.) R making Larissa jealous soooo bad they need to be taught a lesson, marked & properly bred to appease the green eyed demon in Larissa's mind :) :) :) (and it works out bc R has been. entertaining v v filthy breeding kink thoughts oop)

9.) R has quite the closet of costumes and they find a cat maid cosplay 👉🏻👈🏻 practicing their meows and nyas and being all cute not knowing Mommy's been watching from the door the moment they started meowing

10.) oblivious reader unknowingly teasing Larissa all day and the woman is abt to FUCKING burst in horny except oh no???? reader was not oblivious and this has been part 7 of the 10 step plan to get Larissa as her gf >:))))))

[oddinary4bts]

Hi!! I’m backkkk, I literally had to collect my thoughts and sleep on it lmao but bro CH3 of Chasing Cars was a masterpiece. Although I felt really bad for OC with how her day started, girl would be lying if she said that was not the best night of her life.

It just worked out perfectly, the storm, the power being out, Hoseok canceling on her, JK taking care of her and immediately canceling his plans when he saw her crying and not telling her so she wouldn’t be able to object to it, her choosing to stay at the apartment with JK instead of going to the dorms, JK cooking for her and giving her the Valentines date that she was supposed to have with Hoseok 🤭 her seeing Shelly’s text and getting jealous 🤭 THE FLIRTING AND TENSION, THE KISS???!!!, and then everything that happened after 🫠🫠🫠 I’m gonna keep my thoughts to myself bcs damn. 😭

Bro I have no words, I love them so much. I’m rooting for them but I know it won’t be an easy ride or journey but god they’re so damn cute and clearly made for each other. Tae not being there is a sign for them to just do what their hearts (and bodies 🤭🤭) desire. I know there will be a lot of reluctance on both sides but I hope they’ll break their own rules a little bit. I saw the titles and small synopsis you wrote per upcoming chapters so we kind of know what to expect but I’m praying for the best.

Looking forward to Friday!! Also can I just say how much I appreciate the longggg chapters!! It makes it definitely worth the wait and even thought the ending of each chapter has had me craving so much more it also makes me feel satisfying with the length of the chapter. Thank you sooo much for sharing it with us and writing those long ass chapters. 💗💗💗

Lots of love!

Honestly it definitely was the night of her life….. so far🤭😂

Everything aligned for them🥹 and oof yeah the tension is HIGH between them

I’m happy you love them!! I love them so much too and I just want them to be happy🥺 and yeah, if Tae hadn’t left for the semester they definitely wouldn’t have gotten so.. close

I’m glad you like the long chapters!! Sometimes I feel bad that they are so long but it’s reassuring to hear you like them✨

Love you lots🩵

[maluinks]

I only know taylor swift as someone who sucks ass at writing lyrics, what are the banger lyrics im missing??

lmao i totally get that. I think it will always be a bit of a personal preference thing, just like some ppl love some writing styles which others cant stand, same with lyrics.

I personally love the lyric writing that tells a good story i can see in my head, and the song creates an atmosphere which you can touch and even smell. I think Taylor's strength is in her storytelling, which shines through especially in folklore and evermore. I personally love "seven" ("Please picture me/In the weeds/Before I learned civility/I used to scream ferociously"), august ("To live for the hope of it all/Cancel plans just in case you'd call"), peace ("Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?"), "illicit affairs" ("Leave the perfume on the shelf/That you picked out just for him/So you leave no trace behind/Like you don't even exist"), "champagne problems" ("Sometimes you just don't know the answer/'Til someone's on their knees and asks you"), "cowboy like me" ("Perched in the dark/Telling all the rich folks anything they wanna hear/Like it could be love/I could be the way forward/Only if they pay for it"), "'tis the damn season" ("We could call it even/You could call me babe for the weekend/'Tis the damn season, write this down/I'm stayin' at my parents' house/And the road not taken looks real good now"), "ivy" ("Oh, goddamn/My pain fits in the palm of your freezing hand/Taking mine, but it's been promised to another/Oh, I can't/Stop you putting roots in my dreamland/My house of stone, your ivy grows/And now I'm covered in you").

Now every album she releases has its misses and its hits. I don't love "Lover" that much bc it's a bit too happy poppy for me, though the song "Lover" itself tells a very palpable feeling. Other songs I like are "All Too Well" ("And you call me up again just to break me like a promise/So casually cruel in the name of being honest"), "Dear John" ("Long were the nights when/My days once revolved around you/Counting my footsteps/Praying the floor won't fall through again"), "Back to December" ("It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missin' you/Wishin' I'd realized what I had when you were mine"), "The Story of Us" ("I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how/I never heard silence quite this loud"), "Clean" ("Ten months sober, I must admit/Just because you're clean don't mean you don't miss it"), "Begin Again" ("And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid/I think it's strange that you think I'm funny 'cause he never did"), "Don't Blame Me" ("Don't blame me, love made me crazy/If it doesn't, you ain't doin' it right/Lord, save me, my drug is my baby/I'll be usin' for the rest of my life"), "Delicate" ("We can't make any promises/Now can we, babe?/But you can make me a drink").

Now many people have been dissing the latest album's cringey lyrics for a while, and while I hate them too (god the vigilante one is such a skip its unreal), i actually like some songs with cringey lyrics. "Anti-hero" really grew on me bc it's Taylor self-analising and talking about how she is her own worst critic, which is something we all experience, and I think she made it in a fun self-deprecating way in the song that still delivers the message. other songs in the album which i love and dont have those kinds of cringe lines are "you're on your own, kid" ("'Cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned/Everything you lose is a step you take"), "Lavander Haze" ("The only kind of girl they see (only kind of girl they see)/Is a one-night or a wife"), "High Infidelity" ("Do you really want to know where I was April 29th?/Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?"), "Would've, Could've, Should've" ("If I was some paint, did it splatter/On a promising grown man?/And if I was a child, did it matter/If you got to wash your hands?") (tbh I love all the lyrics in this song it's my fave atm).

Sorry for the long post! I really feel like Taylor's best lyrics are hidden away in her albums many times, but I do get how she gets called a good lyricist, because she is good at telling stories in them. I believe many people look at her stuff from a biased perspective most of the time bc of the way the media has portrayed her in part, and also bc she got a lot of hate from misogynists when she was young and it stayed around as mindless hate/disregard. She isnt the greatest ever but she's earned her reputation as a lyricist imo.

[feytouched]

back hurts again, seems like every time i try to get work done it starts acting up again. but i pushed through it to finish lineart for the last comm of october, i can't wait to be done bc i need to reopen since i need money again (meds turned out to be more expensive than i expected this month). and i couldn't sleep bc my arm on the side i always sleep on aches bc i got a pneumonia vaccine yesterday. and also there was a horrible mosquito keeping me awake. so i was in a horrible mood all day. and then i overheard my mom cancelling plans to go to a concert bc she would have to be wearing a mask and sitting away from ppl (bc of me) and it's uncomfortable and pointless and like. knife = twisted. i'm ruining so much of the lives of those around me, not just my own. and the stupid thing is! i would kill to be able to go to a stupid classical music concert now! i haven't left the house other than grocery shopping and medical appts and i haven't met anyone outside of my parents and bf in over a month! all i do is work or rot in bed when i'm physically unable to work. we were supposed to have some of my moms coworkers over this sunday and if you can believe it i was actually looking forward to it just to! fucking talk to people! but then they cancelled out of respect to me bc they had to attend a dinner where there were a bunch of sick ppl. so yeah i want to vomit actually i feel so lonely and everything hurts

[sobuildabeautifulcity]

Your disappointment warrants a disclaimer though, otherwise you're seeding a certain sentiment a lot of trolls and shill are trying to whip up. Don't be that person who thinks writers and actors owe you endless content for less than a living wage.

i respect your opinion and you’re not strictly incorrect but… thats not my point lol & you’ve kinda proved my issue.

the main part of my thoughts was that i have an issue with, and i quote: not being able to post when you’re experiencing multiple conflicting feelings without explaining all of them without being attacked.

it’s not only about the strikes, it’s anything that someone thinks you cant have complicated emotions towards if you don’t explicitly say so. my example was about the strikes because thats the most recent thing i’ve seen, but it’s more than that. not allowing people to express only their negative feelings in their own space online, simply because it might overlap with people being dicks intentionally about it isn’t the right way to go about it. for example, saying you’re disappointed because your favourite band pushed back their album release doesn’t mean you’re not sympathetic to the fact they delayed it due to health issues, it just means you’re disappointed because you were excited about it & had planned for it happening on a specific day. you expressing that upset online shouldn’t need to involve a disclaimer, because it should be implied - until proven otherwise - that you care about your band’s wellbeing. if you send a string of posts abusing the band for postponing it, yeh, youre a dick. but if you send one which is ‘aw man this sucks so much we wont get the album’, thats not something you should associate with the people being dicks about it despite it being negative in tone.

idk, i like to assume the best of people rather than thinking they’re dicks & don’t feel a complicated way about things.

if someone expresses disappointment about their plans changing due to something, that doesn’t mean they disagree with the thing that changes their plans? it solely means they are disappointed that their expectations for the coming time period changed & to assume otherwise unless proven only makes your worldview more negative.

this… insistence that all your feelings must be explained entirely and in full in order for you to grumble about something online is exhausting, and unnecessary if you simply assume the best of people. and, quite frankly, it is why i stopped using my tumblr for anything beyond reblogging stuff until recently.

i’ll add a disclaimer here, as well as the one that’s in the tags, bc my point is being proven lol: i support pretty much all unions & their decisions to strike (us police unions are not included hence my ‘pretty much all’). i am 100% sure that the wga & sag aftra should strike & fully support them doing so, shutting down hollywood is a great way to have bargaining power. the conditions they are expected to work under are abhorrent & they need better protection. it is also absurd to say that you can’t express disappointment about things you were looking forward to being cancelled without needing to add a disclaimer that your frustration is aimed at the other side of the negotiations for not capitulating, and not at the sag members. if you are posting your feelings on your blog, you should not need to caveat those feelings. the default of people assuming the worst of others makes the world a worse place.

i have a tendency to over explain my point so that it gets across, and often that means my coherence suffers lol. please bear in mind i am cognitively disabled & severely ill.

[bitchesmoonwalkin]

rah

for context i am either a very femme person (full cleavage showing, nails and lashes always done, salon-blowout quality hair, absolutely dripping with gold jewellery) or else solidly masculine (wearing a binder, chunky silver jewellery if any, bad hygiene bc dysphoria makes it impossible to shower, etc) and typically i switch between the two every few weeks or months (with outlier days, but it's usually consistent) which, chill, that's a large part of how i experience gender but i've been feeling very femme for MONTHS and now, with a very fancy formal event in less than 72 hours, i've spent the last week feeling SO dysphoric at even the thought of wearing the dress i was planning on wearing (had to try it on to get it altered and nearly cried) makeup & hair appointments have been cancelled, i got my brows & lashes done solely bc i like yapping with my lash tech, but the nails. I NEED THEM FOR THE OUTFIT even if I wear the suit I got, my nail tech designed them to match my girlfriend's dress?? like i can't NOT get them done it'll make both our outfits so much more cohesive (especially if I ditch the original dress and wear the suit but idk man idk what to do the appointment is TOMORROW

[no-ctrl]

All I want from you was to fight for me. All I wanted was for you to want me. Embarrassingly enough that is too much to ask of you. It’s okay. It’s just not meant to be. This past weekend really broken my heart. It was the proof I didn’t want. Deep down I have known I am not a priority to you but for you cancel on me (you didn’t even do it outwardly I had to assume our plans just fell through) and then ignored me. It’s hard to accept my reality. It’s hard to understand that I’m just not the person for you. You don’t chase me. You don’t pursue me. I’m just not it for you. I know this to be true because when I was the person for you there was NOTHING in the world you wouldn’t do for me and now being taken on a proper date or receiving flowers is unheard of. I don’t feel loved or taken care of. Even now the radio silence is killing me but I’ve gone through this before so it’s possible to get thru it again. It just sucks that I want this to work so bad but if things go south if I don’t cry/fight for you then it’s done. It’s done. I feel so small and insignificant. It’s insane how I’ve allowed you to have this power over me. This is my own fault. I will always be second to everything else in your life. I’ll be second to your family, your mom. I’ll be second to you and your work outs. I’m second to sleep. I’m second to your desire to not use your phone. It’s okay I accept it. I accept I’m never going to be a priority. I will never get married to you or have kids with you or have a future overall. It doesn’t take away from the pain I feel knowing this truth. I feel so small and inadequate. This is all my fault. I reached out to you. You were doing just fine without me. I wish I could understand how that feels like bc while we were apart I felt like a piece of my heart was taken from me. I felt like nothing in the world could make me feel better unless it was you. You were so okay without me and of course I’m happy for you but I wish I could relate. I don’t want to live a life without you but if I want to truly be happy it’s clearly going to have to be without you. You make me unnecessarily suffer bc you don’t consider me. I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt but you made me look stupid on multiple occasions which makes me feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself for allowing this treatment. I wish I didn’t feel this way. I have outdone my role and there is not much more I can do. I’ve communicated, I’ve tried being understanding and flexible, I’ve tried being empathetic. I put my best foot forward and I cannot do anything more than that at this point. I wish I could make you care but I can’t. I hate this.

[overturetoanadventure]

Was meaning to text Nellie back on Saturday after we mutually canceled on yoga classes an hour away to catch up with one another bc she had gotten off work at 7 am and I woke up having began my cycle and lost all will to get out of bed then.

Kept forgetting to actually craft a response to her life updates and when I saw she sent a meme in an insta dm at one am, instead of looking at the post, I finally texted her my life updates. We last truly talked in mid March so she didn’t know about some of the recent drama and I gave a glossed over blurb on. She immediately called me to say he is such an asshole and I deserve better and such sentiments of a supportive friend.

Mind you I think I’m like 85% over it to the point of not caring and mentioned it as like lol listen to this juicy bullshit drama I experienced and she gave me a call not even a minute after I sent that text.

She validated my feelings of anger at the initial argument that led to everything else and was so kind and supportive. I am so thankful for having good friends in my life.

Anyways yeah we ended up talking for a little over two hours about all of life; her finishing up her intern year at the hospital and taking the step 3 exam, potential trip plans for this time next year when Fatima will be graduating, concerts I’m looking forward to, and having fun with thinking up ideas of what I wanna do as an art teacher this next year.

I’ll be helping her move on Saturday and I’m so excited I’ll get to see her 🥹🥰