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78/? - Underline the Black (omegaverse) - Efnisien/Gary
Title: Underline the Black Rating: Explicit Pairing: Efnisien ap Wledig/Dr Gary Konowalous Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Darkfic, Disturbing themes, Age Gap, Omegaverse, Alpha/Alpha, no Mpreg, Medical experimentation, Medical trauma, Dominance/Submission, Dystopian universe, Forced bonding, Forced relationship, Imprisonment, Nonconsensual medical procedures, PTSD, Flashbacks, Nightmares, Chronic illness, Mating cycles/Heats, Knotting, Miscommunication, Trauma recovery, Mind control, Child Abuse, Hope, Hopeful ending.
Summary: Efnisien ap Wledig is an omega born into an all-alpha family. Abandoned by his birth mother and raised by his aunt, he is subjected to a lifetime of medical experimentation and brainwashing and believes himself to be an alpha. But the experiments begin to fail, and he is abandoned yet again to an Omega Rehabilitation Facility, where the family expects he will be retrained into the āperfect omegaā and placed in an arranged marriage, or be eliminated if this is no longer possible.
The Facility donāt know about the experiments, and Efnisien doesnāt even know why heās in there in the first place, since heās an alphaā¦isnāt he? One thingās for certain, he definitely doesnāt need an alpha companion, no matter what the staff at the facility seem to think.
Underline the Black - Chapter 78 - I Missed You @ AO3
In which Efnisien meets some new people for the first time without Gary watching over him, and it doesn't go too badly. Later, Gary returns from his visit to Perth, learns about Efnisien's adventures, and talks to him about the state of his heart.
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The following early access extras are also currently available on the Augus & Gwyn, and Efnisien & Gary tiers at Patreon and Ream:
Underline the Red - 05 - Caleb/Faber Underline the Red - 06 - Caleb/Faber Underline the Gold - 07 - Flitmouse/Anton The Nascent Diplomat - 41 - Augus/Gwyn Constellations - 03 - Efnisien + Gwyn (post Falling Falling Stars) Constellations - 04 - Efnisien + Gwyn (post Falling Falling Stars) Constellations - 05 - Efnisien + Gwyn (post Falling Falling Stars) Underline the Blue - 10 - Nate/Janusz Underline the Blue - 11 - Nate/Janusz Underline the Blue - 12 - Nate/Janusz
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#chapter update#underline the black#underline the rainbow#omegaverse#efnisien ap wledig#dr gary konowalous#hurt/comfort#angst with a happy ending#whump#queer romance#mm romance#alpha alpha#i literally thought today was the first day of 2024#i cannot tell you how much i believed that#because i have existed in like#dead-ass timelessness#goddamn#i guess my year starts today!
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CringetoberĀ Day 1. Screenshot Redraw
inspired by this early eah scene where raven "lets her bad side out" playing guitar and my cousin and I go "apple's probably losing it" and then they cut to her and she's making this face ā
#starting off cringetober strong with day 1 on day 4 lol#I'm gonna steamroll through 2 and 3 today (and I have 4 unposted from last year so that's convenient)#prompt months are a good excuse to a draw bunch of media But last week my cousin and I rewatched some eah (my first time since high school)#so it's in my brain right now anyway :)#ever after high#eah#raven queen#apple white#rapple#tagging rapple because I made this with rapple intent but technically this is literally just what happened LOL#I Still feel like I didn't push her expression quite a far as they did but you can look at the screenshot. she's sooo funny she's so#unsubtle#this also started out as a meme redraw can you guess the meme#huge shoutout to the heart card in the bg looking like a deliberate choice on my part to make this look romantic#september 2024#(yes I did start this a little early)#cringetober 2024
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Took Kaija to an informal baby nosework class today where she learned how to search for and retrieve a piece of a red deer antler š¦
#3 years#australian shepherd#dogblr#dog training#nosework#my tentative plan is to get a full roe antler from somewhere (i.e. probably from a hunter) and switch to using that#and maybe actually go out looking for real shed antlers at some point?? i've always wanted to try that.#a couple of things from today:#1) i don't really think this is something kaija has loads of natural talent for š
#considering that at some points she was walking right past the antler or seemingly relying more on her eyes than her nose#but i guess time will tell maybe we'll figure it out eventually#2) we have a retrieve to hand now :')#i remember i was working on a (more formal) retrieve at some point but then the RO trial season started and that fell to the wayside#her retrieve atm may not be pretty but it works! and i'm happy about it!#3) nosework really tires her out fast. those wheels in her head were TURNING today and she's sooo exhausted now#so if nothing else then at least we have a fun new activity that we can do both indoors and out
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#feeling very hopeless about the future tonight...#regarding my dysphoria and my transition that very likely will never happen#and just overall feeling very jealous of tras dudes on t or recovering from top surgery#just feeling pathetic today nothing new but i wasn't expecting it honestly#i would love to get herapy this year if possible to help me not feel so hopeless#but before i do that i have to get proper and regular well paying work so that i can even afford therapy#and that's a whole other thing...#it's just a never ending and never even starting cycle my life is#like to do one thing i have to do another first and before that can happen i have to do something else#and it keeps going so i can never start#idk how#idk where to start#it seems like i'm always missing something to be able to#and it's so frustrating and just hopeless you know?#i just want to solve ONE thing at least#but i feel like everything is out of my control#out of my hands#and i just don't know what to do#I don't even know if i CAN do anything about it#...#we'll i'm kind of spiraling now so i'm gonna go to bed#i just got caught by surprise with this dark mood#i guess it's the 1am blues#who the fuck knows#angel talks#personal
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puppet of deceit
#artists on tumblr#my art#I swear this is the last thing Iāll post today#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#it took me stupidly long to figure out how to do his pose#Starting off this year with a bang I guess#shadow milk fanart
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How fortunate am I to have so many Things to love and be excited about, to appreciate and look forward to?
Things I feel so strongly about that they stumble into my mind, univited, at random times of the day? Things that spill into my speech and vocabulary without me noticing? Things that impact my vision to the point where everywhere I look, everywhere I go, I see ghosts of them?
How lucky am I to have so many Things I love and cherish enough for them to reshape my very person, change my beliefs and make me grow? Things that make my own loved ones see the Things out in the wild, and go out of their way to make sure I see them too?
How wonderful is it that I have Things that I love so much that the very act is deemed and dubbed "not normal", making my love for them seem like it's more than they are supposed to recieve? An out-of-the-ordinary and above-the-norm appreciation for the Things that make the people around me shake their heads, call me "silly".
My dear, beloved Things, may I always stay silly for you ā¤ļø
#yes this is yet another post about legendborn lmao#but also one of my friends sent me a post with a reminder to log into Genshin today#just to get the birthday-greeting card for one of my/my favorite character#and they send me this because even though it's my favorite character#this person also knows I don't actually play genshin that much and knows that I would probably miss it if they didn't remind me š„ŗš„ŗ#and my friends let me yap about Legendborn the other day lol#and my fellow legendbornian-in-crime commented on my insta story about annotating the book that ānoone loves this series more than youā#which ofc isn't *TRUE* true but it still made me feel all fuzzy lol#my parents also got me a few sets of silver earrings for christmas bcs I mentioned in passing I wanted more silver jewelry#and one of the pairs they got me was with owls because Owl City has been one of my favorite artists since forever#and I THRIVED in 2012-fashion bcs the owl jewelry was fkn EVERYWHERE and I got SO MANY because it made me think of Owl City lol#and my brother got me The Book Of Bill bcs both he and I love Gravity Falls SO MUCH#I just love āØļø loving āØļø things I guess#so this post is very much a love letter to my special interests and hyperfixations <333#currently have had 'Tears Run Dry' by Patrik Jean on repeat for the past 2 or so days bcs it's fkn STUNNING#but it also makes me think about my friend's ArleFuri fic bcs it just fits so welll šš#and at the same time (and the reason I have it so within reach lol) is bcs I have added it to an OC's playlist for a story I'm writing#I have so damn many things I love and I almost start crying thinking about how fortunate I am to have all these things I love so dearly#and live in a time where all of these things exist and I get to experience them all at a moment's notice#and just simply get to indulge in fandom behaviour and have people around me who also LET ME do that#i love hearing people yap about what they're passionate about regardless if I know what it is or not#like how beautiful isnt it to see someone's eyes sparkle and looking like they're itching all over because they simply can't help it#they just can't contain their love and passion for the Thing ??? absolutely incredible#tove rambles#oh and don't fkn get me started on how 'Dream Catcher' by Set It Off basically is the reason I'm so determined to become one#and it being part of how I made my 17-year old self believe I could actually do what I CURRENTLY DO nearly 10 years later
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Recent-ish things ~
#photo diary#1 - love this image of Noodle.. such a weird angle that makes his head look entirely round like a puff ball or something#2 - a more recent (still from months ago) collection of my pressed flowers and 4 leaf clovers I found.#3. Being one of the only people in 2024 still going 'hee heee I've just bought a new wii game!' but.. I have. >:3#It's kind of like Wii Sports Resort but is like.. open world? so your character can actually walk around and stuff. REALLY makes me#wish I had the type of set up where I could record video from my wii and stuff like some gaming youtubers have. I think it'd be a really#fun game to play on video and to DOCUMENT it!!! I keep wishing I could screenshot my little guy walking around but I caaant..#I've literally just been taking out my phyiscal camera and photographing the screen which always looks bad.. augh..#4. Something in the froxen food aisle called 'Wellington Bites' a play on beef wellington. suprisingly good actually. but I guess anything#with like beef and mushrooms usually is. But it seems like.. oddly decent for frozen food stuff.#5 - boye looking Round again.. 6 - updated score in the wii fit minigame again. This time less than 4 seconds#for each round? which may be a record for me? 7 & 8 - fat bird in the snow. fatt bird in the SNOW!! Hoping that climate change and H5N1#don't eventually remove all trace of birds and winter weather from my life in the future... -_-#9 - ..ough... a few paltry writings.. Except for the one day of 4000 words. But for the most part I have been making soo litte progress#because of the holidays and drs appointments and such a rush of all these other mind distracting things.. Or if I'm not doing something the#I'm feeling tired from having PREVIOUSLY done something so I waste the whole day being sleepy and headachey... GRR...#the funny thing is that like many many years ago I wrote a note on my wall saying 'FOCUS! write 2hr a day or more or youre going to finish#your game in 2025!!!' - which back in 2018 when I wrote it was like unimaginably far into the future but now... ahem.. hem... I guess that#is quite literally the case LOL. To my credit I did parctically abandon it entirely since late 2019 and JUST now picked up really#trying to focus on it in mid 2024 but still... My '''ridiculous'' projection being actually likely the correct one..#10 - I just thoughtit would be silly to put a bunch of keychain things on the wii remote. imagine playing this way. getting constantly#jabbed in the hand by plastic bits. and the jingling clinking noise it would be always making lol#11 - sky.. huzzah for the sky as always. Clouds my beloved#Gr.. I just really want to wriiite. My new years hopes are to finish my game and to get stuff set up to start selling sculptures again.#AND then maybe do more game videos lol... I miss playing games. I dont think I've posted on that youtube for like 5 months#I've just had so much appointments and Things and Stuff and focusing so much on other projects. But that is the thing that really#feels relaxing and fun for me. so like.. 1. finish game 2. sell sculpture/make sculpture 3. play games 4. find more friends#and social connection and networking or whatever the hell people have to do to be successful 5. do more costume/outfits.#<( saying this all on a day where I did none of those things LOL... I got erm.. maybe 400 words done today.. >:'3c )#6 is MOVE away from the evil west coast (hot.. fires in summer. etc) but like. not happening unless I suddenly become a millionaire so. -_-
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i was tagged by @localsealboy (and ages ago, i believe, by @eg515 (? if i'm remembering wrong, then uh. consider yourself tagged now friend)) (edit: and @smileylover99, just now, very fiendishly. i see youuu) to post 10 gifs of 10 favorite movies without naming them - a fun task! thank you!! <3
so, in order of year of release:
i will tag 10 people: @redgoldblue @actingcamplibrarian @theartichokesarepurple @randomkiwibirds @glassmirrormask @beansterpie @ruztyryan @littlestarsailor @theparadoxmachine @vimesbootstheory! āØļø of course with zero pressure, and also in the knowledge that i'm probably tagging some people who already did this, because i saw this going around a while ago.
#the years here are 1948 / 1957 / 1961 / 1969 / 1971 / 1996 / 1999 / 2004 / 2007 / 2017. so @ the eighties. step up your game i guess#(this is a joke because the 80s did give us star trek IV. literally what more could i ask for)#anyway. it fully escaped me that there's a modern remake of that second movie and i got jumpscared by gif results in color#also like. did i bump rope (1948) to smuggle mr. blandings builds his dream house (also 1948) on here? yes. because i understand film#(how Fun it Is to Love Mr. blandings builds his dream house)#i think there is a grand total of uh one (1) movie here that is not either queer or has a very obvious queer reading#and that's the one that currently has gay hitman fanfic airing. which is NOT how it got here it's just something that's also happening#yes yes worst timeline. but also. sometimes we just live in the funniest one#okay i'm done now. cutting myself off from adding more tags#i could say some things about ckr being the only actor who is in any of these casts twice and about all the runners up. but i won't.#what i learned today is that i a) need to rewatch letterboxd likes of which my memory is too hazy to know if they should be in this top 10#and b) that i should start checking off some of the thai movies i keep adding to my never ending watchlist#*#tag stuff
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new di x warrior cats
name explanations and more info below :3
basic stuff
-each agency is a clan, not each unit. 14-15 clans would be silly and then we would have some clans with 5 cats and some with 2.
-starpro -> lightclan. i couldnāt call them āstarclanā for obvious reasons. light is somewhat synonymous with star, so iām going with that.
-cospro -> nightclan. i donāt think the cats in warriors know the word ācosmicā, but cosmic implies cosmos implies night sky, so weāre going with night
-rhyth lin -> rippleclan. ripple is sort of a synonym to rhythmā¦.? this one was hard
-new di -> fortuneclan. this one is a stretch but neither ānewā or ādimensionā have synonyms that really fit a clan name. fortune is something that relates to multiple characters in new di though
-starclan still sort of exists, but the cats do not believe in them the way they do in warriors. they are more of a nursery tale than anything, and select cats (ex: tatsumi) believe in them, but it is not written into their code. medicine cats can still interpret signs, but they do not necessarily think of them as coming from starclan.
-medicine cat forbidden romance is not a thing here
-intermingling of clans is ok and common
-thereās like. other cats in their clans besides just the enstars cast i assume
cat names/why i chose them
fortuneclan:
knights
-tsukasa -> scarletstar (scarletblossom) . he is the leader of fortuneclan because he is one of the new di reps for the summits. both scarlet and blossom were chosen bc of his last name (scarlet is a red colorā¦ kinda similar to cherryā¦. and blossom for the cherry blossom).
-leo -> lionheart. ok this one is kind of cheating because lionheart is already an existing warrior, butā¦come onā¦.
-izumi -> silverspring. sora describes his color as silver, and spring is in his first name
-ritsu -> frostmoon. his first name means cold moon according to the wiki so i just rehashed it
-naru -> goldenroar. since she doesnāt like her first name i didnāt want to use āstormā, and her last name can be read as āthunderā but thatās a little too close to storm? so golden for her hair and roar for her last name
switch
-natsume -> sageeye. a sage is similar to a wizard, and eye is in his first name . also the ādovesongā mentioned is wataru :)
-tsumugi -> bluewing. he is a bluebird. warrior cats probably wouldnāt straight up call a cat ābluebirdā so i put wing there instead. deputy cause heās the vp
-sora -> skyspring . sora means sky. spring is in his last name. i could have used āstreamā instead to differentiate him from sena but i think spring is cuter
mam/df
-madara -> tawnystripe . tawny bc itās like kind of close to calico if you squint. stripe(s) is in his last name
#my art#enstars#ok so maybe we WOULD have 5 clans bc guess what was announced today#a new agency. and a new unit (or fucking 5? idk)#BUTWHATEVER#um i donāt know why i did this it was a joke at first but#then i started getting really into choosing namesā¦.#like originally it was just gonna be switch but then i was like hmmmā¦ what if the agency is the clan#iāve been reading so so much warrior cats iām about to finish avos and then iāll be caught back up to where i was#when i started this rereading journey last year#so like i have to apply it to my other interests#iām proud of the names i chose i think theyāre fun#yes leoās is a cheat but idc#i hope someone else will appreciate this itās mostly just me doing stuff for fun#i want to do the other units/agencies too but that might be a while cause yall this took#like a week . granted iām busy rn but god damn picking designs for cats is hard!!#thatās why so many ended up being tabbies i just canāt resist theyāre my favorites iām definitely not biased#but also realistically tabby is a pretty common pattern so itās fine#my fave design is naruās btw i wanted to make her really pretty and i think i did ok#ok iām going to bed bye#also forgot to mention i wanted to keep the names as close to canon warriors as i could so i had to find words similar to things that#the cats in warriors would know#sage is pushing it i donāt think they use sage in medicine . they def donāt know what a fortune is either but i donāt care
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everyone thinks i am a junior or younger this SUCKSSSS
#boycritter et al#over the summer guy was trying to guess my age#he said 16 i said nope he started going lower#earlier this year someone askd if i was a FRESHMANNNN#today a math teacher i dont have for an actual class asked if i was a sophomore or a junior.....
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yāall ever heard of fmab?
#jk i know yāall have#anyway guess what i just started watching#(dw liv i will be watching ds9 later today)#so. confession: i watched fma but only as far as the infamous Dogā¢ļø scene#wasnāt even aware fmab was a thing until a year or so of stopping fma#but yeah *jazz hands* now i am finally watching this after years of it being on my list
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grief is such a stupid thing.
#the older I get the closer I swing towards wanting a plot and a headstone when I die#i guess itās fanciful and romantic to want someone to come sit at my grave#but i like the idea of having my own space that i exist in even after death#i wish my brother had a grave i could sit at#take my son to see#itās only been 6 years but i keep forgetting the date#until my mom gets drunk and starts sending shitty texts blaming everyone else#i feel guilty today#shut up krissy#itās not even for another week#sorry Iāll delete this in a minute#just have to put my feelings out there into the world
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Carpe Diem, Joker Out | Slovenia, Eurovision Song Contest 2023
#eurovision#eurovision 2023#esc#joker out#slovenia#slovenia '23#carpe diem#another one that underperformed I guess#but I'm sure they'll be fine#how have you guys been? today I had an interview for a job I'm pretty sure I don't actually want#it's too far away and it's in 3 shifts#I could do either but both?? we didn't talk actual ā¬ā¬ but I don't think it'll be worth it#driving more than 45 mins to start at midnight?? I don't think so#I got there and the hr person is actually a woman my age I went to high school with (and same university too)#and one of the other women also looked familiar and that's because she went to the same high school too only she's a year older#ofc the job I actually want has been silent since last week when they did confirm they got my resume#idk it doesn't take that long to look at it and conclude I don't fit the profile (and I don't)#and just tell me 'no thank you'
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iām pretty surprised that you can be in a fandom without really checking the tags regularly for new content or discussions thatās pretty impressive
ive got twitter for that and twitter has shown me enough as is
#snap chats#i dont even check twitter specifically for rgg its just that my algorithms been formed that way cause friends send me tweets#on the real though jvALEKJEKL ive always. how you say. played with dolls alone#so being alone online isnt hard or anything particularly 'impressive' to me its just how i roll#ive always lived in my head i guess- with my interests that is. its fun up there vlkeajkla#i still like to hear from other people of course but for the most part im happy with just myself im not all that pressed for others#i think its also just. i have. other interests? so i dont really think i want to look at One Particular Thing that day. at least for tumblr#i MIGHT just cause thats how the day goes but i dont think 'i feel like looking at rgg art today'#whatever i see I See and that'll be that yk i love a lot of things and think of a lot of things#evidently SOME things take a hold of me more than others- or ill wanna be more public bout it at least#but thats jsut cause i just feel SO MUCH for Whatever Thing It Is At The Time that i want to share it. so then i do jvlskjs#with that in mind can i really say im 'in' a fandom when i dont particularly interact with it LMAO#again always happy to do so but im like an estranged uncle if anything#come over once a year to drop gifts off then i leave. ill still respond to holiday cards though if theyre sent#also for discussions ill usually just talk to my brother about it since he'll usually be The Main Sponge for my rambling LOLOL#god's strongest soldier i promise i try to hold back but im afraid i feel my brain physically tickle my skull#my brother always has to watch in real time me be consumed by a piece of media. like its a symbiote its really funny#cause at this point we'll meet in the kitchen and ill start like 'you know whats really funny..'#and he'll just. 'ok so who's it about today' LIKE PLEAAAASSSEEE. anyways prepare for my ninth 90 minute lecture about This Character#i also have a friend that i talk about my interests with- not all the time but enough that im like. Yeah Im Good Talkin Bout This#like the dopamine in my brain is activated JUST enough when i get to have quick short convos bout it with her#honestly maybe i should use my blacklisted main and rb ALL of my sideblog posts there#just so the people following that can Also witness me be consumed in real time <- will not do this
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I am pretty responsible when it comes to money... someone could also use the word "stingy"
However:
Snacks
Little stupid but actually useful gadgets that ALSO look cool/nice
Museums/art related stuff
Make me act... unwisely
#and this is the reason i can NEVER go to Japan kids...#steel rambles#by the way this is the difference between living and surviving#if you want to survive you can spend as little as possible#but you still will find yourself paying a bit too much on things that costed less (once)#if you want to LIVE you will find yourself having to pay even more for things that 100% costed less once and shouldn't be so overpriced now#if you want to add something fun or more of a guilty pleasure well buckle up buckaroo your wallet is going to bleed...#some prices are fucking nuts btw#I'm talking about water bottles#like#dude#no.#hey udk what happened in these tags and what I'm yapping about#but yesterday and tonight my friends and i talked about politics and made some cool hypoteticals and had passionate (but respectful) debates#we finally reached a conclusion whennit was... 1 am i think?#and today i was going to start a rant about swimsuits and feminism after finally going to sea after 3 years...#so uh#this is the feeling I guess
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when freedom is in sight!!!!!!!!
#(aka itās my last day of work!!!!!!!!! i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!)#itās like 2.30 in the am rn and i have to get up in less than 4 hours but. still!!!!!#im too happy to sleep lmao i feel like a kid on christmas eve again#this weirdass company culture says that we (the leavers) have to treat everyone to pizza or sth#isnāt it usually the other way round though? shouldnāt they be treating the leavers as a show of gratitude for their hard work?#but āeh. the place is filled with cheapskates who only think about working us to the bone for the sake of their profits (i think)#so āØs o r r yāØ dear managers no treats for you~~~~~ im giving ind*m*e (censored for copyright) to my immediate colleagues only~~~~~~#you can always feel free to treat me though~~~~~ :)))) my wallet is always open for donations dear managers oā mine~~~#(this manager who expects me to treat everyone also outright refused when i asked her to treat me to beef wellington though :( sads :( )#(i worked sooooooooooo hard for you over the past couple oā years and i dont even get free beef wellington~~~? :( )#but euuuugghhhhhhhhh since the team leadās on leave today ig iāll be the one in charge for the morning shift today tooā¦#but itās my last day~~~~ i wanna relaxxxxxxxxxx (<-same person who took a short nap on the clock earlier)#anyways!!!!!! iāll finally have time for idol sengen after this aw yissssssssss wait for me asuna-chan im almost freeeeeeee#though. speaking of idol sengenā¦ im still waffling about whether to have asuna drop swear words during the [spoiler] sceneā¦#i mean. itād make sense in terms of context/how abrasive she was being but. sheās an idol!!!!!!! choices man..#well. i guess that itās retirement-meās problem to think about lol. i need to get through just 1 day of work first!!!!!!#āitās starting to sound like you quit your job to tl idol sengenāā n-noooooooo~~~? totally not i s w e a r!!!!
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