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loth-caatgirl · 9 months ago

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ADHD medication is NOT a magic motivation button, but it WILL give you the kick you need to initiate task when you think to do the thing.

And I'm using kick deliberately here, because the gears shifting into action can really feel like a jolt at times like it's going "OH time to do this thing!! Lets go!"

#i guess i really am the dog now #the caatgirl yowls #adhd

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titsthedamnseason · 5 months ago

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HAPPY LONDON N1 YALL!!! i can just feel this run of shows is going to be CRAZY. also if you haven’t realized hi it’s me juli titsthedamnseason and yes even under yet another new url i am hosting the surprise song game! the rules are simple: leave your guesses in the tags or replies and if you’re right i will give you a shoutout <3

i’m personally about to give the worst guesses ever but i already submitted them to mastermind so i feel like i have to stick with it. so im going imgonnagetyouback / better than revenge and robin / never grow up i definitely should be going with a london song or the black dog but hey. whatever

#i’ve won a lot lately anyway i can take a back seat now #also i really hope when she does robin it’s just by itself tbh #i’m such a mashup hater i’m sorry i don’t know why im like this #when i watch the performances they’re always amazing i don’t know why i insist on this negative mindset #I JUST WANT EACH SONG TO HAVE ITS MOMENT OKAY #also if now is when she plays the albatross and i don’t guess it that will be a double sting #mine #taylor swift #surprise song game #anyway i’m literally THRILLED to hear so long london on piano at some point in the next few days #i just hope it isn’t tomorrow because i AM a truther #i just felt these guesses in my bones and if she doesn’t play so long london n1 i plan on guessing it every night until she does #as well as the black dog #london boy….idk about that one though haha i guess we’ll see #also yes both my guesses are ttpd / speak now mashups. i didn’t plan this but alas

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muckyschmuck · 4 months ago

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AAAAAAAAA

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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 year ago

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this torture we're going through with the anime must be divine karma for slandering Bones all this time...... they said "oh, you don't like how we adapt things? you say the manga does it better?? okay then, well now there is no more manga. it's Bones or bust, bitches."

#bungou stray dogs #they really said now either you get the story from us or you don't get it at all 😭😭😭😭💀#screaming crying throwing up shaking HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CARRY ON FOR THE NEXT WEEK LIKE EVERYTHING IS NORMAL #NOT KNOWING WHAT THE FUCK 'TWILIGHT FAREWELL' MEANS #NOT EVEN A FULL WEEK BUT FIVE DAYS CAUSE THE PV ALONE WILL END ME #seriously though how can i be okay with getting canon content for the first time in the ANIME #they already do terribly with content that ALREADY EXISTS #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL GETTING /NEW CONTENT/ THROUGH /BONES/#i guess looking at it another way though...... i should be glad if they deliver me some fucking hope a few weeks early #like obviously i'd rather none of this have happened and have gotten to this point in the last episode in the manga first #but since it did turn out this way....... if good things happen i'll take it i can't complain at this point just GIVE ME HOPE #mexican standoff with bones now that there's (basically) no manga content left like 'so it is down to you and it is down to me'#bones at the end of the fucking bsd world: 'never thought i'd be fighting side by side with a bsd anime hater'#me: 'how about side by side with a friend?'#bones: 'aye i can do that'

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talkorsomething · 5 months ago

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I have Got to get more transgender

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #transmasc #trans ftm #transgender #i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever #so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL #it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks #such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also #or like. exist in general maybe #reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically #idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again #i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this #i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian #like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty #miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes #partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it #as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once #didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.

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wellthatschaotic · 6 months ago

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neurotypicals are so frustrating,, i keep forgetting that "can you do x" means "go do x"

#yesterday i was At Work #i opened alone (we are so fucking understaffed)#at like 945 (coworker came in at 10) these two women-#who until now have done NOTHING managery. they have walked around and talked to each other and asked questions #come up and in a pissy voice like um why hasn't group started #i say i'm the only one back here #'well can't you start ONE group?'#no...im the only one back here #'can you start individuals?' yeah i'll ask [host lead]#(annoyed voice) 'um why do you have to ask her?' because i'm not a lead so she's in charge?#(angry voice) well WE are GENERAL MANAGERS and we are TELLING YOU to do SOMETHING like START INDIVIDUALS #like. chill i am literally just some guy and i am the only guy back here #i also feel its worth noting that apparently since they caught me in the hallway they assumed i hadn't been doing anything #when in reality i hadnt sat down since i got to work. all i did was doing things. there is more to my job than Watch Dogs. especially when #im the only guy doing any of the anything #and i couldnt start individuals immediately because i had to do spot cleans. because i prioritized Not Letting Dogs Sit In Their Own Shit #before dog getting some playtime #like. yes i am a Lower Level Employee. yes i havent worked here that long. but i have worked here longer than you #and im gonna take a wild guess that i care about the dogs more than you #also worth noting that i got no breaks that day (if you work a 6+ hour shift you get a 30 and a 15 at my work)#so i sat down for a total of 5 minutes and that was to take a piss #for context. i worked 7 hours. 6:15am to 1:15pm.#so i have a Bad Feeling about these new general managers. really hope im wrong and this is a one-off thing but. ohhhhh boy

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spacespore · 2 months ago

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HI TUMBLRR it’s me

#I ate ramen just now it was soooo god I think ramen is just it just is better after 10pm #im right #ughhh ok that actually reminded me earlier my classmate was making an Asian people eat dogs joke like he put on this awful accent and he wa #all like ‘dog tastes so good with rice’ and then he did other stuff too #but what really made me upset is that someone who I thought was my friend found it really humorous! wow okay!#I know it’s not really a big deal but im still kind of sad like I’ve lost all my respect for you now #anddd they were my only friend in the class so now I’m stuck there for the rest of the semester I guess . I mean I’ll still be nice to them #but I just don’t think I can bring myself to like them anymore sorryyy . not really . but kind of #idk if I’m overreacting . in elementary school though people would make jokes actually about me eating dog and it always made me really sad #but I never held it against them cause we were children #but now I feel like you’re old enough to know what you’re laughing at..#wow ok this really derived away from me being on tumblr and having just ate the worlds best ramen #well . not really I mean it was good but I’m allergic to normal noodles and I need to eat rice noodles and they’re not bad I just don’t lik #them as much Lol #I feel like my actual posts say nothing but if anyone ever reads the tags they probably know everything about me..#I use tumblr to complain half the time loll and I used to post my drawings more but I haven’t made any good drawings recently😭😭😭BUT WAIT!#i have a comic I’ll post in October we’ll see how far I am in it by then…#im like . halfway done with chapter oneeeee so maybe like I’ll post all of chapter one on hallowern.. how does that sound… cause actually #for those of you who don’t know my story has ghosts in it #im like trying to keep it a little silly right now but the tone might shifftttt idk!!!!! we’ll seeeeeeee cause actually I have NOT worked #out the entire plot.. just like. most of it.#but I keep having ideas like midway through ughhh it’s an endless cycle!!!!!#like Francis . she used to be a random character who shows up once but then I was like . wait no! anjali should have ghost friends! and tha #that’s how Francis came to be #and actually today I kind of finalized her design^_^ albeit in my math notebook lol

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months ago

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thinking about vampiric arakawas again just so i can make a 'blood-sucking politician' joke

#snap chats #have i ever posted my vampire arakawa musings. i think i did long ago in a distant land. or at least for halloween vjaERLVKJ #anyway i was having my evening stroll with my dog and thinking about how much i love dark-renaissance age stories and whatever #which is a weird way to lead into vampires since At Least Dracula vampire stories dont start until the victorian - progressive era #though i guess you can do whatever you want with mythical creatures and its not as if vampiric stories cant start during the 1400s either #theyre immortal and Not Real (i hope) so anythings possible theres no need to be super restrictive #i am. literally not getting to the point Point Is it could be funny .....#thats why they cna be really good assassins like just eat your targets tf <- vampires dont eat people #but then of course i have to wonder the implications ... oh ive definitely made this post but im still curious #fuuuck man i wanted to make my joke but i just realized how do i even get to that joke cause i dont think masato would be a vampire #dhampir as i definitely said way back then IF THAT. what were the circumstances wait shut up why are there police next door #bro im too nosy this post is interrupted hang on #not nosy enough to keep watching im bored its probably nothing anyawy. cause i think sawashiro and ikumi woudlve been human #like during the uhhh idk dark ages and maybe arakawa turns sawashiro into a vampire later on but what of masato .....#idk im not gonna think too hard about it. right now just take my blood-sucking politician joke idea we'll figure it out later #stopppp i was wondering about vampires in japanese pop culture but then i rmemebered mandurugo WHICH. are filipino but STILL FOUL #im everywhere im ending the post now bye #wait i have to end this post cause why tf did my bestie send me a tweet being like 'look forward to the future of chao'#since shadow x sonic generations is coming soon LIKE DONT PLAY WITH ME AVBOUT CHAO I DONT PLAY ABOUT THEM FUCKERS #ok im ending the post now for real bye im gonna throw up

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poolboyservice · 1 month ago

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stuck in the time loop for the first time since a little while. I just want to feel, and know my name, again

#I sometimes question if you guys understand me; or if it all comes out jumbled #It isn't because of something you guys have said or did; really #I just know I am very difficult to talk with; especially recently #Who is this “you guys” I'm referring to? Myself mostly #Maybe my dog #Or my alters #ramble in the tags #semi vent #I guess #derealization tw #depersonalization tw #dissociation tw #why do I tag things as “decayed vocal chords” anymore?#I'll do it now but still #I guess it's for my sake more than anything #decayed vocal chords !!

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hurricanek8art · 2 months ago

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Iiiiiii did not realize I hadn't posted in *checks watch* four months 😬😬😬 so update on the dog: she's amazing and I love her but she is CONSTANTLY moving and smart and I am so tired. 🤣 To fulfill my dog tax duties for my 20 followers who probably forgot I exist, behold *booming announcer voice*

THE BEAST:

(And also like. The top of my head in that one photo. 🤣🤣🤣)

Her name is Sylvie and she is bonkers and brilliant and really weird, and LORD she needs a haircut already and she's only 7 months old but she's HUGE and she and Lucy would have caused SO MUCH TROUBLE together. I can't get a good picture of her for the life of me because if she's not glued to me she's constantly moving and getting into trouble, but when she focuses she's amazing. She's picked up on so many of my anxiety/ptsd/autism meltdown habits already and immediately started interrupting or laying on or up against me without any prompting, so if we can just get her trained for real without all of us losing our minds, this might just work. I love her but I'm exhausted.🤣🤣🤣

#K8 Rambles about The Dog #iiiii dunno what to tag this?#dogs #dogs of tumblr #dogblr #poodle #standard poodle #i guess those work? i'm not really doing this for notes #it's more a virtual version of shoving my phone in faces and squealing “LOOK AT MY DOG ISN'T SHE CUTE?!?!”#i am. annoying at family gatherings 🤣🤣🤣#not planning on halloween anything this year due to *waves vaguely at world state*#but now i wanna do a joint wander over yonder costume with her because of how much i frantically yell “SYLVIA!!!!” 🤣

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bitegore · 22 days ago

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ngl i think i kind of was a genius for being like 'yeah this character is a scary killyou cannibal scary killer who scary kills you' and then realizing that the way my worldbuilding works out is that there's a nonzero chance that if you leave literally any body parts over they can just come back, depending on what they believe in their heart of hearts can kill them. Of course she'd start eating her kills. She probably tried normal stuff first and then realized it didn't work and she had to try harder if she wanted to actually keep them dead.

#red rambles #im working on a character who i made up years and years ago and wasnt even happy with then because he didnt seem to have enough like #interior thoughts he was just like a guy who killed people when he was stressed and his life was constantly stressful and then he killed on #person too many and they were like 'this is fucking untenable and he has to die' and then they killed him #which is soooooooooo absolutely nothing honestly. Like it works as a barebones summary but i want to stress there was actually straight up #nothing else there. the entire rest of his whole whatnot was just being entangled with Haven who is a different character who at the time #ALSO felt unsatisfyingly lacking in interiority but at lesat he had really complex motivations and action flowcharts. that werent just 'i #get grumpy and i just go kill some random person with no regard for what the consequences will be and then i am so mean and i kill you'#now theres a lot more happening. i really didnt. like.#okay so i had a Backstory worked out but it was vague because i didnt know what the fuck he WANTEDDDDDDD right like. i had no motivations a #literally all except 'oohhh i kill people ooohhh i like killing people ooohhh im erratic i kill people' and the background i HAD was like.#Upper class scion of some rich family whose family honest to god just did not like him very much and also [gestures vaguely] i guess he #maybe kicked dogs or something and then he ??nebulous timeline meets haven and then kills his sister or kills his sister and very quickly #thereafter meets haven but i usually lean toward the former because haven LOVES convincing people to kill their whole families its like #cathartic for him because he would love to kill his entire family but physically cannot do it. but like kind of the implications of this #as far as i was concerned given this is set in the mid 1800s was like. ehhh he's getting away with this because he's rich white and male an #it pays to turn a blind eye to his indiscretions or w/e. a genderswap means that she'd be subject to a lot more scrutiny on basis of like #misogyny. LOL. and i already had the preexisting 'hates half sibling' (i genderswapped the sister into a brother because why not) and 'hate #parents' and 'parents strongly dislike her' and 'unsettling' and it worked nicely to start giving me actual fucking. Literally anything to #work with there. because it means that by going off with Haven she walks out of one situation where she has like 0 agency into another one #and like to be clear i respect anyone who is sitting around in haven's general vicinity for snapping and just starting to kill people. me t #but this works. SOOOOOOOOOO much better for real #im still working the kinks out but like also this means that she wins. she wins like multiple times actually. she comes closer to killing #haven than anyone since he learned what fucking species he was and causes him more trouble in the interest of getting the FUCK out of there #than anyone else has and then she fucking gets what she was going for against literally every effort haven could've made over ~five decades #get owned loser.#every time i draw her i cant help it i write some shit like PLEASE JUST GET DIVORCED on it even though i wrote the fucking narrative i know #it will never fucking happen and thats why she does all this shit instead #in another world she'd be like the wildly capable owner of Raytheon 2 or some other shit like that. like she'd never be a nice or good #person but she wouldn't be dead. god she could be in charge of a country or some shit. Alas. Please get divorced.

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the-brainrot-central · 2 months ago

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Writing over 30,000 words worth of content for a fic only to realize it’s all pointless because you have no interest in it anymore and you were never gonna finish it anyway….

What even is The Point anymore

#current mood #it’s so joever #this isn’t even the worst part honestly #what really sucks is that this project was the last thing in my life I had any sustainable interest in and now that’s gone too.#now I have nothing. like #the fuck am I supposed to do??? get a new interest??? that’s fucking impossible #nothing hits like it used to and everything is just….bland….and SO MUCH EFFORT to get into #like hobbies are so difficult? and my old hobbies (ex writing) are becoming more and more toxic and like a chore rather than something fun #like writing at this point has become a battle of perfectionism and I’m fucking losing #what am I supposed to do. nothing inspires me. I have no interests. no hobbies. not many friends irl #and it’s not like we ever hang out because people are a fucking piece of work #either they cling to you like dog shit or they never respond to your texts no in between #im just so tired of existing??? and also college??? is fine but like #what the fuck am I DOING here like #why am I getting an art degree??? is this really how I should be spending my time and my parents money?#what the fuck am I gonna do for a job??? what do I WANT from a job???? I don’t even fucking know #i can’t see myself being happy in life doing anything and that’s such a nonstarter #it makes it impossible to start planning anything because I feel paralyzed with fear #and like I said….i don’t have any interests. I don’t LIKE anything. I am the antithesis of curiosity and interest like. there’s just nothing #i can’t do this anymore #im so done #idk why I made this so long but #I guess I have a lot on my mind I wanted to share #sorry for cringe posting on main it will happen again #im sorry in general actually for everything im sorry for being needy and attention seeking and annoying and flaky and never finishing any of #my fics because I lose interest and for not responding to anyone in my inbox I’m sorry #personal #cringe #cringetober #long tags

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evilvvitch · 10 months ago

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#having an awful awful horrible really awful week #partner of four years and I broke up I guess??#i don’t even know how to process I thought we were going to be together forever #it’s fire when I breathe and I can’t sleep #I still have to go to work and go about life regularly and everyone treats it like just another day #I have no friends and am so depressed #why did this have to happen I was so happy with him #I’m actually heartbroken and do not know how to cope #worst week of my job also like why couldn’t it have waited #I don’t know what to do #just me and my dog now I guess #we still live together but he hasn’t talked to me yet #I wish I could be everything he wanted and needed

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whiskeyswifty · 1 year ago

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#this is such a niche gripe i guess idk its why it's in the tags #but i really get so annoyed by how a lot of this fandom acts like they know everything about her especially like where she goes #and what she does in her free time because they think they KNOW about everything but #all you know is what she chooses to show you like specifically paps like...... she calls them. all celebs do. 99.999999% of the time #these days it's how that industry works which i KNOW for a fact but like don't take my word for it if you don't believe me fine #but it's how it is and i can tell you that from professional experience but also like #the amount of friends and people i know who've seen her places all over the city for YEARS now #and there are no pap photos of her in those places nor did anyone know she went to that building/restaurant/bar/event #there are a feeeeeew places in the city which are celeb hotspots and the paps might skulk around there but that's cuz #they are known spots for that and waiters and staff tip them off for profit shares #like i know someone who saw her literally last night at a restaurant #there are no photos of her there and no paps outside #like if you think she doesn't leave the house or go somewhere without you knowing cuz you think she's papped everywhere...#thats just simply not true lol couldn't be FURTHER from true #she goes so many places and does so many things that you just don't know about. it's VERY easy to live a private life in the city #EVEN THIS WEEK she's gone more places than you've seen her getting papped at cuz i know people who've seen her!#i can't tell you the amount of famous people i've come across in these situations and the press and social media were none the wiser #people i've sat next to at a crowded brunch counter or people walking their dog or taking their kid for a bike ride like.... ALL THE TIME #famous people love new york cuz new yorkers don't bother them and they can live in relative obscurity #idk what i'm getting at i guess this weirdness like I AM GONNA SHUT DOWN ANYTHING THAT I DONT HAVE PROOF OF #is so deranged to me because...... you only have ~proof~ of like 10% of her life #so the other 90% of it didn't happen cuz.... you a blogger on the internet don't have photographic evidence of it????#IS THAT NOT THE MOST INSANE THING TO SAY????#idk really weird that people just think they know her and shut down any one who poses something that doesn't fit into their #frankensteined version of her that they made out of a bunch of paparazzi photos and flight trackers and deuxmoi posts taped together #as if THATS somehow MORE sane and a more realized person #idk if i'm making sense i'm annoyed whatever whatEVERRRRR

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apathyfairy · 3 months ago

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me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

#i want a corn dog so bad rn #ngl u guys im actually really struggling with turning 30 at the end of the year lmao #not lmao bc it really is bothering me which is so stupid i know I Know #but. and i know we're All struggling with this. but it's like god i have done nothing with my life #like fr. everyone says that but i literally have done nothing. ive never had a real 9-5 ive been freelancing since college #and tbh i guess that's not a bad thing? but self worth wise i feel like a complete loser.#but ive just made one mistake after another and i know that's what your 20s are for and u know what this is my tags and im not going #to keep contradicting myself i feel like shit bc i feel like shit and ive wasted my whole life thats that #i just feel like such a sham like i cant believe this is what 30 is like i on god feel like im still a teenager #not in a carefree kind of way OBVIOUSLY. which i never was anyway. but i just ?? feel like that #scary fucking episode of rugrats where tommy and chuckie become their dads and they go to work and theyre so fucked up bc #well theyre babies and they dont know anything. and even the fact that i just referenced rugrats to explain how i feel lmaooooo #relationship wise well u guys know how that is. and i truly couldnt care less about what people think about me not being in a relationship #ever and tbqh i dont give a fuck anymore either like. and here i go bringing this up again. but after my ex im like ok life truly is so #short fr i dont even care like anyway. anyway. the point is there is just no reality whatsoever where i pictured my life where i am now #once again living with the abusive relative i moved across the ocean to get away from.#no love life to speak of. fr dont care but god wouldnt it be nice to be loved fr.....#no career. living in a state i hate with all my heart. barely surviving money wise. which is everyone rn but #if i had known 10 years ago this would be my life i would have honestly killed myself.#like if i knew it would all turn out like this i wouldnt have moved i wouldve just fr killed myself and i wish i did lol #to be fair. i didnt see myself living past 18 but like. i just thought something would have saved me by now

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yumemiruuuu · 11 months ago

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okay no hear me out:

MO RAN IN THIS OUTFIT???????

#CAN YOU ALL IMAGINE #tgcf brainrot and now it’s the erha brainrots #mo ran would absolutely slay in this outfit #hi it’s 2024 and the erha brainrot made me realize my type #i am horrendously down back #mo ran had me #mo ran really got me #i just really like the dumb dog types i guess like okay #the more loyal and dog like the better xoxoxoxoxoxoxo #bark bark woof woof awooga awooo #erha #erha he ta de bai mao shizun #literally started 2ha right after i said i don’t want to read anything other than tgcf #2ha #the husky and his white cat shizun #dumb husky and his white cat shizun #tears of themis marius #marius von hagen you sexy bitch

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