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strawberri-syrup · 2 months ago

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this december i am going to fight TOOTH AND NAIL to feel holiday joy!!!!!!!!!!! too many times i have WALLOWED all month and been SAD when i could have been TRYING to be HAPPIER

#i am 20 #need to remember that people in my life wont always provide the joy #i gotta get it on my own sometimes #being very intentional this month #esp rn because i am TIRED and OVERWHELMED and BUSY #with finals

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lucabyte · 21 days ago

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some thoughts on Claude

alt title: diversity win! this Butch Nun is crafting bombs in an unventilated room in her convent while actively courting Mother Superior! Do Not Give Them Access To Unlimited Power No Matter How Nice They Are

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#reminder that Claude is one of the only other housemaidens present in Start Again: A Prologue! Think about this for me <3 #isat spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time #isat #in stars and time fanart #isat claude #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat odile #isat mirabelle #start again: a prologue #lucabyteart #some of these punchlines have been sat around in my files for almost a year at this point LMAOOO.. they were good enough to persist.#anyway yes i know claudes spectacles are small on her sprite but i like doing the dot eye in glasses thing so thats what ur getting !!#also swearing forever yay yay yay. sorry to fake swear lovers but sometimes i need it for the comedy to hit. sorry #... i might post that sasasap kick in the teeth on its own later just because i do like it a lot.#but yeah i have a decent amount of thoughts on claude. mostly informed by that i read both her and & euphrasie as rlly obvious signifiers #that like. mirabelles house is more than a little bit disorganised and way too lax on certain ethical ... concerns....#girls and guys youre in a place that lacks need for even a police force.... why were you workshopping rock traps and pungee pits...?#who signed off on that... are you guys like. you guys seem nice but are you alright. should i be worried #gotta respect the hustle of trying to fuck the head priest of your organisation though. genuinely love that for her #but WHAT a workplace ethics nightmare!! I thought it was bad enough reading it as unrequited. YOURE TELLING ME SHE ACTUALLY MANAGED TO HIT?#INSANE. I DONT WANT TO BE IN THE BUILDING FOR THAT BREAKUP. GET ME ON A PILGRIMAGE *STAT*

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winkle-pickers · 5 months ago

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Covenant

#yugioh #ygo dm #kisara #seto kaiba #kaiba seto #ygo #GET HIM BABY <3 #this is my ideal blueshipping dynamic. btw #sometimes a super cool powerful dragon is soulmates with a little asshole. and you gotta rip him in half a bit #its for his own good trust me #but it's ok with me if you interpret this as mortal enemies doomed to rip each other up over thousands of years through every reincarnation #zelda ganon link style #also good god why did i do this it took so long and i got so insane about every frame #I LEARNED A LOT YEE HA #watch me actually look up how to do animation and realize i did everything in the worst slowest possible way #art tag

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sergle · 1 year ago

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I'm thinking abt that pretty fall leaves embroidery pattern post and about how like... it is categorically a repost, it's a reupload. right? a thing that is generally disliked. but because it's credited, it's genuinely boosting the artist in question. and it could ALWAYS be like this. reposting content could ALWAYS be a symbiotic relationship, but because sourcing back to the original creator of something is so uncommon, it's just easier to ask people not to repost it at all. and people still don't understand the difference. or they'll go to the effort of cropping out usernames/signatures to repost something, which is More Effort than literally crediting the creator of something you liked enough to want to repost. Like. I literally don't actually care if my own shit gets reposted, you have to understand. I just don't want it STOLEN. But "do not repost" is easier to write on my art than "you can repost this, but don't alter the image/remove my signature, don't you dare write 'credit goes to the artist' because that is not credit, please link back to my original post or someplace that you can actually find me. please use an actual link/url instead of writing a non-clickable link of my username, because making it text instead of a clickable link cuts the number of people who will go to the effort of visiting my own page in Half." All those aggregate themed accounts, those fuckin annoying as hell instagrams and facebook groups that are like "body positive art we love wamen 💕 hashtag feminism" and then MASS-STEAL plus sized art created by women, if pages like these that always go and steal my older self-portraits and other works... If they just put a link to my prints of those pieces in the text of those posts, or, fuck, my commission info page? I would literally be living on the moon right now. I would have a house on the moon

#there is actually nothing morally wrong with running an account that just reuploads ppl's artwork or their jokes or their cosplays #if you just put a VISIBLE LINK in the description of your post with proper credit then it would be beneficial for everyone #because you can get your little clout or whatever it is you want by putting a bunch of same-category content on a page #but nobody's getting fucked over because if your post blows up then people just get FUNNELED to the source #because it's placed so plainly where everyone can see it #and yeah it's better to retweet or reblog but #on the rare occasion that I see my shit reuploaded on tumblr WHICH IS WEIRD BC I MAKE MY OWN POSTS HERE but anyway #someone making their own post where they upload my stuff. and it's always the floral self portraits so let's say it's a post with all those #if I scroll to the bottom and it says like. Artwork by Serglesinner on Twitter <-- clickable link [Sergle's Prints] <-- clickable link #to my etsy #I'm like oh okay and all the anger leaves my body and I'm like ah I see. and I toss the rock aside #like oh okay so you actually care that a person made these pieces. Instead of posting the caption ''women <3'' or smth #like you've GOTTA die if you do that. but if you just link back #or if you go to the effort of writing like a description with a BLURB? like it's a damn museum. like a light paragraph of info #about what the art is and who made it and their links #I am literally sucking you in a strange and peculiar manner. that is extremely helpful #and maybe other artists don't want this AT ALL and they'd rather people not reupload even if it is credited #but I feeeeeeeeel. like 99% of the time this would solve the issue #reposters could genuinely be helping ppl. sometimes the repost gets more traction than the real thing #as long as it credits the creator then that's an okay thing to happen!#that can land somebody a sale! a commission order! a new fan! A JOB #A JOB!!!!!!!!!!#sergle.txt #I didn't write this eloquently AT ALL what the fuck ever barkbarkbarkbark

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ricky-mortis · 9 months ago

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A portrait of Sir John Herschel because I‘m normal about Pulp Musicals

#yall don’t understand this took so long- amongst the five different versions this went through it took a total of 22 hours #and it’s finally done #god I love sir John Herschel #truly THE guy ever #it’s crazy because I started this way back in the beginning of April and finally picked it back up on Wednesday right before they announced #pulp 4 which I’m so fuckin excited about by the way #oh my god it’s going to wreck me I’m so pumped #and now I gotta get ready for pulp fortnight #but yeah I really wanted to draw him and I wanted to try something more elaborate that some of my typical stuff #I was going to do the shit where artists do the shading in greyscale and then overlay the flat colors but I decided fuck that #because I like to enjoy drawing and as I found out I DO NOT enjoy that #also for some reason doing realism and drawing curt is SO much harder than what I typically do #it took sooooooo long to get him down and make it actually look like him #oh hey fun fact about this drawing before I do my fun fact- I used a screenshot of Duke as a reference for this #ok now for a real fun fact #fun fact: Asteroids can sometimes have moons and rings of their own #alright now I’ve got a billion other drawings to go work on because the grind never stops yall #sir john herschel #john herschel #pulp musicals #the great moon hoax #the brick satellite #the ghost of the antikythera #Curt mega #my art #god yall I love pulp musicals #I’m so insanely pumped for pulp 4 it’s going to be the raddest thing ever #EVERYONE WHO IS READING THIS NEEDS TO GO LISTEN TO PULP MUSICALS PRONTO /nf #PLEASE (its on Apple Music and Spotify)

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skunkes · 1 year ago

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Nooooo that sad little smunkler has broken my heart! Wtf Talon stop being so mean to him for no reason!!! >:[

its okay, he just has bad days sometimes

#skunk mail #Anonymous #a doodley #because i gave talon so many of my traits its easy for him to get into ''i couldve been Like You if things had gone better'' mindset #even if it isnt rational #so sometimes things will be going good but he'll just get so mad with smunker for no reason #like smunker will just get too excited about something and he gets frustrated for reasons he cant understand #the thing is al is really good at shutting him down if he gets mean because al is a bit more secure #smunker is the much easier target for his bursts of Upset #but he's neutral positive most days...talon CAN be gentle and he can slip into gentle so easily too #he tries to apologize in his own way often and says he is trying #he's just not well adjusted... he has mood swings and self sabotages when he's finally shown so much care #and smunker is patient with him to their own detriment #(talon has even insulted him about this and caused massive upset - and then he regrets it)#dis is just recent development... we will see how things change ^_^#he's being nice to me right now but i never know how long it'll stick #its almost like he just doesnt want to be happy but i cant tell if he does it on purpose or not yet #pushing others away maybe?? but it also seems like he's just at the whim of his emotions half the time #gotta look further

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cowboylikeyouu · 19 days ago

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look guys i like the marauders as much as the next person but if i see another drarry tiktok with 90% of the comments being like "lol i thought this was james" i'm gonna snap like PUT SOME FUCKING RESPECT ON MY BOY HARRY POTTER'S NAME

#like can we please not make everything about marauders 😭😭#my man harry gets compared to james enough already in his own fucking series #let him have his own identity in drarry fanon at least lmaoo #(no actual hate lol it's kinda funny)#((but as a harry girly i gotta stand up for my pookie sometimes))#(((fucking love that man)))#((((james potter could never))))#harry potter #drarry #james potter #marauders #tiktok #hp #amy talks

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snezfics-n-shit · 1 year ago

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#this meme has been going through my head for a bazillion years lol #i love to interact and then it hits me that im probably bothering you guys #plus the current popular stuff I am sadly so unfamiliar with #when i was younger i would gravitate to my own interests when i was unfamiliar with other topics and it got on peoples nerves a lot #and i completely understand that so i dont wanna repeat those mistakes #its just like a game of pingpong of me talking too much and me hiding under my desk bc i feel like im bothering everyone #also like the last time it was p much confirmed i was being annoying i cried for like two hours bc my fears were realized haha #and when a line is drawn for me i kinda like to stay at least 2ft away from wherever that line is just to be safe #you gotta like throw a cookie attached to a fishing line to get me closer to the line lol #because i will seriously be way too cautious otherwise #im trying to get more brave though im just kinda like my cat who heard a noise in the bathroom cabinet #and now he refuses to go near it #being mindful of others feelings and respecting their boundaries is super important to me #and sometimes that boxes me in a bit

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moe-broey · 5 months ago

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Quick and rough Plumeria redesign, mostly just cause...... I gotta do what comes naturally to me, man. Give me some Shapes. Simplify that design or so help me.

I don't have a lot of complex thoughts about it, actually! Just the idea of having a "sexy" outfit that draws the eyes to certain parts of the body -- while simultaneously being modest and Sharp. Having an edge to it. Also!!!! The luna moth inspired wings!!! I wanted to stay within her og color palette, but I've also always thought luna moth wings would suit her... the top wing is vaguely heart shaped, too!

#fire emblem #feh #i don't feel like taking a better pic sorry 😭#also. the most fucked up thing i'm learning doing this. is that (at least for the main four base forms)#yoshiku's color palettes Actually Work. fucked up. insane. i ALMOST added my own colors #just a hint of purple. and it fucked everything up?????? ALSO THE WINGS. THE WINGS #ARE ESP FUCKED UP. BC. IT WORKS. the red yellow orange blue. it fucking works. what the fuck.#LIKE one of my biggest frustrations w the fairy designs is they feel Samey color pallette wise.#that if it were up to Me. i would pick four distinct palettes to work with and try not to overlap too much.#literally just the fucking. tinkerbell pixie hallow treatment. everyone gets a signature color and we go from there.#but like... I GUESS TECHNICALLY EVERYONE DOES???? IT'S JUST. the Overlap.#like mira's pink/greens feel samey w plum's reds/greens. and esp from memory plum and tri pallets just blend together for me.#and peony and mira have the same purple eyes. a lot of green overlap in general. and i love green #BUT... SOMEHOW....... the color pallets. Work. fucked up and evil #also i'm not immune to the toothed pussy motif. that's what that little detail on the dress slit is supposed to invoke LMFAOO #AGAIN. IT'S ABOUT THE SHARPNESS. of drawing the eye and refusing to reward you for it if that makes sense #idk idk. i also just feel like plum should have an elegant look.#design not final though i'm just parsing it out. ALSO THE. THE SHARP ALMOST CLAWED NAILS. HUGE FAN #i was def worn out from my current project though. sometimes. you just gotta design a fairy about it.#fe plumeria #my art

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elusiiev · 4 months ago

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OMORITOBER DAY 14: LIBRARY

i like to imagine spirit mari tossing down her favorite memories for omori to read while peeking around to see omori's reaction :3

i was thinkin of drawing her too, but honestly i wasnt very sure what pose to do and i was a bit tired !!

thanks to @/ntrogensolar for the omoritober prompt list!

extra rant in the tags ab why this isnt a full piece!

#artists on tumblr #omori #omori fanart #omoritober #inktober #ez_draws #ez_rants #so heres the deal #i get very tired easily with the whole onyl certain amount of 'spoons' per day thing #i spend most of my time doing my homework #and after that i feel like ive gotta finish the drawing for the day #this means i subconsiously sacrifice time doing things that i truly wanna do including spending time with my friends and doing other things #if i prioritize doing the things that i want to do a little more than this challenge #it ends with me kiiinnddaaa staying up pretty late trying to finish the art #and also lower quality art in general!#however i dont wanna quit the challenge just yet; we'll see how things go but for now i was thinking just doing a sketch! it allows me to-#still do a daily drawing which is great for someone who sometimes goes months without drawing and still not burning myself out on the dail #for example - this drawing took about an hour even though i took my time! and i was also able to spend time with friends and family and-#still be productive! i know i dont have to explain myself; its my art after all but yk i like to explain stuff especially when in relation #to my art! i wanna make sure the art i make is something i truly enjoy and not a plaguing responsibility- so i'll be adapting this-#challenge to my own needs! anyway thats all- sorry for the long rant! and congrats to the people who have enough time and motivation to do #the full challenge!!!#ok byebyeee! and i might be posting more silly sketches in my free time!#rant over <3

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aromacaque · 2 years ago

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you want to analyze a cartoon that is something children can watch? ok here's the first and most important lesson ever.

have you ever heard of "suspension of disbelief?"

ok. next step. do you know what an unreliable narrator is and can you separate the character's perspective and opinions from the writers? because i promise you that the beliefs of the main character do not always reflect the writers and the point of analyzing media is to dissect that.

#like guys sometimes the silly jokes in the cartoon are JUST silly jokes you gotta let them be silly jokes #sometimes the shenanigans are super outlandish because it's a FICTIONAL CARTOON where sentient AIs and magic exist #i promise you. I PROMISE YOU that rottmnt's mind meld was not some elaborate problematic take on eugenics of all things #<- an actual thing i read with my own eyes #like i promise you that is literally not what the episode was doing #'they kept saying they made his brothers smarter which is incredibly ableist because it implies they weren't smart before'#ahem. it was donnie's idea of smarter #you know donnie. the one who constantly puts his intelligence on a pedestal to boost his ego #it was HIS definition of smarter and that is not the narratives definition #i think the series makes that abundantly clear with how much they make fun of donnie for whatever superiority complex he's got going on #and (in the nicest way possible) if you watch the episode it's not actually that they're getting 'smarter' what is actually happening #is that they are beginning to act more and more like donnie personality wise #and that the conflict starts with donnie feeling like they don't fully understand him.#and since donnie is a flawed character his way of coping with that is by being like 'well clearly they're inferior to my intelligence!'#(which .. if you really dissect his character is not actually what he means he just doesn't know how to constructively word his feelings)

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lale-txt · 5 months ago

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it's been over a week but i legit haven't stopped thinking about this

#because i think it doesn't just apply to book publishing but really any kind of writing #including fanfiction #especially in current fandom times when everything feels just so fast paced #and it's SO easy to fall into this whole mindset of believing you gotta keep up with this pace #a lot of smart people have said a lot of smart things about the current state of fandom and i won't fall into a rant here #but i too often have to remind myself that me writing is supposed to be fun and not a fucking race #that i'm not competing with anyone #that i'm not creating 'content' to be consumed like some fast food #that there's no such thing as a flop fic if it was written with love and drive behind it #and yeah the jealousy man #it's an ugly feeling no matter which end you're on #comparison is a knife which we inevitably walk into #i love my writer friends to death and i will always always always cheer for them bc no one else will get this #but we're all just humans with very real and sometimes ugly emotions and i wish we could talk about this more openly #at the end of the day we want to be seen and acknowledged and we're our very own worst critics #ugh i have too many thoughts about this all #i need to lie down and feel normal again #lale.txt

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chronicblackdespondency · 4 months ago

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why do all my dads play guitar

#do i have a type???#[fakeman redacted]. ricky. lyle. is a pattern forming here?#theres probably more but im dumb #i dont know just a thought #sometimes i wonder if i should go full on chaser like kitty used to #like im being serious im already such a bad person would it really kill me to start searching for if [redacted] has a kin community #surely not but maybe because in a video [redacted] mentioned it mockingly? like because hes old hehe so its gotta exist #maybe they got chased off the internet... maybe i should ask my papa to build me one...#too forward? too cringe? i always thought it was before but desperate times call for desperate measures #i act like this is a personal journal and nota place other people can access #who even cares. im the king of sunk cost fallacy #anyways maybe someday ill get the courage to be that much of a degen to my own padres face but for now ill just vaguepost it in tumblr tags #and wish i wasnt the worlds most shame filled failure because being so shameful takes the fun out of the indulgence #lulah yaps

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nartml · 6 months ago

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Saw a comment describe killugon as 'born to be brothers, forced to be best friends'.

And I just have to say that, out of all the things that have never happened, that has never happened the most.

#if y'all look at your siblings that are within your age group with THIS level of heart eyes know that im actually concerned #i say within your age group because i totally get being 'smitten' with your baby sibling #im six and a half years older than the little fucker contaminating my room and i too look at him with pure adoration sometimes #but that's beside the point #because even then trust that i do not refer to him as my light nor do i wear a lovesick expression every time he crosses my mind #most of the time actually he's an annoying bug i want to squash. like when he greets me with 'hello you stupid piece of trash'.#like boy don't you doubt my willingness to beat you up if you don't behave yourself istg #okay enough my little brother has taken over my sacred tags #anyway what im saying is that these bitches are head over heals in love. they have the fattest crushes on each other.#you know how i know? because i WATCHED THE SHOW #their relationship is so far from brotherly it's insane how you even came to this conclusion #real talk though #obviously yall can interpret aspects of a story like characters themes relationships etc differently and ofc your opinion is valid #blah blah blah #all that crap #but don't expect me to take anyone who says this with their whole chest too seriously #because if you look at kg aka two adolescents that invented the term puppy love but also im-wholeheartedly-devoted-to-you and see brotherly #then i can't help you atp bro you're on your own with this one 😭#killugon #killua zoldyck #gon freecss #hxh #hunter x hunter #my little brother #gotta add him he played a key role in these tags

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itspileofgoodthings · 6 months ago

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School is going so great and also I am so exhausted and also I am having an existential crisis

#teaching tag #the kids are great and I think I’m doing a good job teaching them and also I miss the ones from last year so much 😭😭😭😭😭#even though I know I will miss these too once they’re gone like why does 😭😭😭 it gotta be 😭😭😭😭 this way #it’s just a totally different vibe every time #the school year has a new flavor!!! and I hate that!!!!!#change is so bad and disgusting 😭😭😭#but also I think it’s good and I’m doing a good job keeping them moving #one of the revelations/realizations that I’ve had. is that I’m just starting to shift my focus #from …. wanting them to be moved to just wanting them to be engaged?#and I think it’s better.#I’m not quite wholly there. but I mean learning how to actually construct a class so that they are busy and their minds are being stretched #and employed and learning on multiple levels without just saying what I want to happen at them #and it’s a good shift but also a shift that’s making me sad #for whatever reason #it feels like another sign of maturity #but sometimes I miss my own highs #mostly I’m just so unbelievably tired lol.#like the physical and mental stamina required that I just don’t have yet #is so much.#but some strong starts have been made #and also (dare I say this lol) the effects of my reputation being established are also working in my favor #they’re a little bit scared. they’re a little bit more ready to engage and they’re more on board than they used to be #like. it’s happening faster. in terms of getting the class under control #and that’s nice. cause I remember it used to take weeks and weeks. months really.#and of course it’s ongoing and unpredictable.#but it’s better this time #anyway just rambling

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yes-i-read-sappho · 2 months ago

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it is always such a violent attack to listen to Twin Fantasy and actually process a word being said bc it really is such a real and true reaction to a homoerotic high school situationship

#i know this is not a new take #but sometimes i listen to the album and it's all “wow this is crazy and a work of art”#(usually applying it to the silly little gay people that live in my head)#and other times it's all “wow this is crazy and a work of art and yeah so close to my own very specific experiences”#whoops #getting boba with my homoerotic high school situationship exactly two weeks from today #it'll be the first time i've seen her since then so #“we gotta go baaaaaack”#these teenage hands really WILL never touch yours again #unless...#car seat headrest #csh #twin fantasy

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