#i fucking love her uggggghhhh

[eleanor-bradstreet]

Sitting here, listening to the song on repeat, feeling so many feelings. There absolutely is a whole story written into these lyrics and for you to weave that together with a Benedict love story is just *chefs kiss* for my angsty little heart.

Would it surprise you to learn that I am also a big fan of apocalyptic/post-apocalyptic stories? I guess that naturally goes hand-in-hand with angst and whump, when your life is reduced down to basic survival at every moment. And the message of all these stories tends to be: at the end, all that matters is love. Human connection. When the world crumbles around us, all we have is each other, and the only thing we can avoid losing are the feelings we hold inside. The tenor of your story captures this perfectly. Where does your mind go when everything else falls away? It goes to love. What do you want to see when you think you’re in your final moments? Someone you love. And for that to be Benedict…...my bones hurt because I love it so much.

You have been so generous with your feedback to me, so allow me to reciprocate. This is a masterpiece in its entirety, but for the sake of clarity I’m going to sequentially call out my favorite bits:

First, the graphic. Did you make this??? It’s gorgeous!

“What you didn’t anticipate was what forever would feel like without him.” Ooof. Isn’t this just how we all feel without our own Benedicts at home? 😉 Already we can see Reader took some action, perhaps impulsively, to end their relationship. Sounds like true feelings weren’t addressed. You’ve laid out a mystery here. What was she thinking, and why hasn’t she course-corrected for over a year? Also a bit of foreshadowing. She’s already depressed contemplating a ‘normal’ forever without him because they are separated, but in just a moment she will be facing the possibility of a forever where he’s no longer alive. Ouch. 

Love the use of oversized couch, oversized sweatshirt (perhaps orange?), overfilled wine glass. Perfect imagery to show how she is burying herself in creature comforts to avoid addressing her feelings. Something we can all relate to.

Uggggghhhh the officer 😭 Kind eyes, authoritative tone, committed to duty, concerned for your safety, you would have liked him in another situation, his dying action is to protect you… Have I assigned this man a face in my mind? Yes. Am I fairly certain you intended it to be that guy? Yes. 💔 Fucking hell I’m already hurt.

“If the world hadn’t lost a precious light in its ever dimming landscape.” The evocative beauty of this. Benedict is nothing if not a precious light, and a light in the landscapes he so adores capturing. This sentence is absolute perfection.

“the heated arguments that he cared enough to start with you” This cut me deep. This is so true of genuinely passionate relationships. The ones that stand out amongst the mediocrity.

“If the love he felt for you didn’t inspire him, then the pain you provoked surely would. Anything that brought him joy, anything that broke his heart or enraged his temper, he wanted to share it all with you.” Gaaaaahhhh our artistic boy loves with his whole heart. Unquestionably. When he is devoted, it’s forever, and he will channel everything, even pain, into his work and into his motivation to carry on. Even if he despairs of ever having you again. So quintessentially Benedict. 

“There was only you and him, and a cold, flat countertop that was begging to have you pressed into it while he ravished every inch of you.” *fans self* pass my smelling salts please 🥵

“the sight of you huddled on the floor of the tub almost brought him to his knees, but it was the gunshot that actually did the job…” THIS is when I gasp-shouted so loud Mr. Bradstreet came to check on my wellbeing. THE SUSPENSE! THE DRAMA! I was terrified to read onward, each sentence making me wonder if you’d really go there. If you’d write in a most fatal mistake (which I would love you for regardless). Holy hell, edge of my seat. Thank god she was barely looking and missed.

It’s not mentioned, but I can’t stop thinking about the fact that Reader is wearing his sweatshirt, and how he might have felt upon seeing that. If it keyed him into the fact that she missed him just as much as he missed her. Absolutely beautiful.

“I don’t want you to die” THIS is when I fully broke. The volumes this speaks, that Reader doesn’t care about her own life, she just doesn’t want him to suffer. She cannot imagine a world without him. She would die 1000 times if it meant he could live. The depth of that love, and how it poured out of her raw in a moment of terror. You’d expect anyone in this situation to cry out that they don’t want to die, but this subverts that. Her thoughts are only of him. I can’t handle this…

“Don’t… Don’t do that. Don’t tell me goodbye.” Our eternal optimist. Our romantic boy, so full of hope. So full of love he can’t even articulate it. I’m imploding at this point.

‘“I love you so much. The immensity of it terrifies me.” You knew exactly what he meant. It was the whole reason you pushed him away in the first place.’ And THERE it is - mystery solved! Reader ended this indescribably powerful relationship for just that reason. It was too perfect, too all consuming, a tide too strong to contend with. She was bowled over by the intensity of it, so she ran. Convinced she wasn’t strong enough to lean into it, convinced she wasn’t good enough for such a man. But of course the answer was to give into those feelings together. My heart is in tatters.

And then the ending - the impenetrable hope he gives her, the happiness they are able to find by just being in each other’s presence even as they are surrounded by horror and doom. The fact that she is thinking of marriage in a world where all social constructs have shattered. But it wouldn’t matter if they just stood amidst the wreckage and said vows to each other alone. It would be true, it would be real. And the ambiguity of it. This isn’t like the music video for the song where an asteroid is approaching and doom is guaranteed. This seems to be a military siege (assuming aliens aren’t involved 😜) so who knows? They very well could survive into the morning in a world entirely redefined, and have to chart a new life forward, but it would be okay because they would be together. And if not, they are happy in these final moments, committed to each other, wrapped in the warmth of true love which is the best way to go out any of us could hope for. Fuck I love it, I love it, I love it.

All this to say, a breathless bravo to you. This is exceptional. Be proud of yourself! You have given me such bone deep introspection and satisfaction and delicious angst. I would love to read anything else that you are inspired to write. My goodness, thank you for a wonderful ride. 💙

If The World Was Ending

Parings: Benedict Bridgerton x fem!reader

Summary: Modern AU - Inspired by a song with the same name. What would you do if you thought the world was ending? Who would you seek?

Warnings: Angst and Heavy Emotions, Violence, Blood, Explosions, Gunfire, Implied Sexual Content, Whump

Word Count: 3.5K

A note from the author: This is my first dalliance into the Bridgerton world so please be gentle with me haha. I’ve been on a long writing hiatus but I felt motivated and inspired by so many of the kind, talented writers in this fandom. A big thank you to @angels17324 for the beta read. I hope it didn’t make you too anxious lol. This fic was inspired by the lyrics of the song with the same name. I definitely recommend giving it a listen before reading so you can get the complete feels. I will link it here: https://youtu.be/1jO2wSpAoxA

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The day was ordinary. There was absolutely nothing remarkable about it. In fact, you thought to yourself, it was bordering on the mundane. It was the same as every other day without him. 

It had been over a year now. The misery wasn’t as raw anymore. You had become a master in the art of distracting yourself. The long, lonely nights faded into the background and you settled into a merciful numbness. 

Every day, you remind yourself that this decision was your own. At the time, you were sure that this was what was best for the both of you. You were on different paths. You were from different worlds. Even when you first let yourself love him, you knew you weren’t meant for forever. And that was fine… What you didn’t anticipate was what forever would feel like without him.

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[simsthatsparkle-blog]

moon schmasda :: a queen

i started playing with the schmasda fam when toddlers came out (so over a year ago wow) and watched moon be born, and slowly grow up to become the confident, bisexual woman that she is today. i’ve wanted to play w/ her for ages and i thought why not now!!

she lives with her half-sister deona + her cousin lacy in a scruffy flat in san myshuno. moon is an aspiring social media influencer, and mostly just wants to have a good time w/ her friends and family. she’s still discovering who she is, and who she wants to be, and that’s what this story will be about!!

so, expect some sporadic, pretty story based gameplay w/ her,, as i just love her sm and she was one of the first sims i fucking fell in love with so weeeeeee let’s a go

[avocado-writing]

I JUST HAD THE BEST FUCKING IDEA EVER HOLY SHIT

PHONE SEX SMUT AND PRAISE WITH MARIA (ladybug’s handler) and female reader please

Her voice over the phone telling you what to do and praising you when she hears how wet you are is just UGGGGGHHHH

Enjoy!

You don’t know how you can have fallen so hard for a woman whose face you’ve never even seen. 

But here you are. Maria only has to say one word and you’re hooked. How couldn’t you be? She always looks out for you, keeps you safe, never given you a job you didn’t complete with flying colours. Her reassuring voice on the end of the phone calms you down from any frantic moments, you can hear her smile when you talk in your easy banter. Yes, she takes care of you. 

She also takes care of you in a completely different way. 

“Are you naked?”

You swallow thickly, laid out on the hotel bed. The duvet is overly starched and crisp, so you kick it out from under you with bare feet. The under sheet isn’t much better but needs must. 

“You’re not comfortable, are you?”

Damn, she’s good. You laugh a little. 

“No, but that’s okay. I’m sure you can make me forget.”

There’s that smile in her voice again:

“That’s the idea.” A brief pause. “Touch yourself for me.”

You don’t need telling twice. You skim your fingers down the front of your body, slow, sensual, imagining they’re hers. A shuddering breath leaves your lungs. You put Maria on speaker and lay the phone down next to you, wanting to have both hands free. 

“Where are you touching, baby?”

Oh, you love when she calls you baby. The word goes straight to your cunt. 

“Just my sternum,” you whisper. Your hand gravitates to your breast, and you gently squeeze yourself. “My nipple.”

“Good. Do you want to go between your legs?”

“Yes, please.“

“Then do it. I won’t stop you.”

Well, it’s not like she could, she isn’t exactly here - but you also know if she said a word for you to pause you would. 

You’re already pathetically wet. Her voice… god, her voice. So delicious and syrupy. You could listen to her read a phone book and probably still get off. 

“You sound like you’re enjoying yourself.”

You are. You run your fingers over your pussy, push two inside. They slip in easily. 

“Oh, I heard that.”

You whine. Fuck. She has you totally around her little finger. 

“Will you fuck your hand for me?”

“Y-yeah…”

You use one hand to finger yourself, spreading your needy entrance open, and the other comes to play with your clit. You gasp at just how desperate you are, arching into your own touch. 

“That’s it, baby. You’re doing so well for me.”

“Maria…”

“I’m here, honey. I’m here.”

Listening to her voice you add a third finger inside, cunt weeping from just her words. You cry out loud when your orgasm hits your, rolling sensually over your body like the waves after a storm has calmed. 

“You came? Already?”

You can hear her smirking. You roll your eyes. 

“Well, maybe if you didn’t sound so sexy, I’d last longer.”

“Hmm. I’ll take that,” she agrees. You turn over to lie on your side, looking at your phone like a lover in bed next to you. 

“Any new jobs for me?”

“Several. What sort of thing do you feel like?”

Anything she’ll give you, you’ll take. 

[isitbussinjanelle]

Frost Bite

Winters in spine are the worst...or are they?

Raya: shit...it’s c-cold out here..

Namaari, walking by: Raya? s’That you?

Raya, shivering: [rolls eyes] yes, Namaari clearly.

Namaari: gee, why so snippy?

Raya: oh I don’t know...maybe it’s because it’s fuCKING -36° CELSIUS OUT HERE AND IM COLD AS SHIT. [puffs out visible air]

Namaari: [chuckles] yeah it is pretty cold isn’t it? Dumb of you not to bring a coat.

Raya: shut up I didn’t check the weather. [shivers]

Namaari: should’ve.

Raya: you “should’ve” SHUT THE HELL UP.

Namaari’s mind: she’s kinda cute when she’s mad...wait why am I thinking like that? Brain, SHUT UP.

Raya: why are you out here anyways? Shouldn’t you be...I dunno kissing babies in fang or something?

Namaari: [chuckles] nah, I like the cold, sorta. We don’t get much snow in Fang because of our tropical climate. So I come to spine when I know it’ll be the most cold.

Raya: it is almost Christmas so...yeah.

Namaari: why are you here?

Raya: I’m waiting for my Ba to get here with his boat. I was dropped off here by Boun so I could deliver a contract to the Spine chief, but Boun left me here because he had places to be I guess. [huffs]

Namaari: [laughs] gotta love boun.

Raya: I won’t tell you again, shut up.

Namaari: you know, I could always give you a ride back to my place. We could make hot chocolate, sit by the fire, play some carols~

Raya’s mind: wait that actually sounds really nice...wait why am I thinking like that? Brain, SHUT UP. I don’t even know why I would even think to wanna go with this stupid...hot...binturi- SNAP OUT OF IT.

Raya: yeah, thanks but no thanks. I don’t need your help, I’ll wait.

Namaari: okayyy well, do you wanna share my coat? [extends coat towards Raya]

Raya’s mind: that looks cozy...and I would get to be closer to her...okay WHAT THE FUCK.

Raya: I’m good. [hugs her self to preserve heat]

Namaari: [shrugs] suit your self. I’ll wait here with you. :)

Raya: why? Your being kinda annoying.

Raya’s mind: ARE YOU SERIOUS?! Raya you idiot why do you always push her away when you’re in love with her??! ;-;

Namaari’s mind: ouch... :0

Namaari: oh. Sorry for ruining your day? But I hope you get home safe, princess. [walks away]

Raya’s mind: she’s too nice to me. I don’t deserve her. Say something. Now. Stop her from leaving.

Raya: wait Namaari-

Namaari: [stops] ?

Raya: I’m sorry...sorry for being rude to you for no reason...I’m just pissed right now...and you can tell...

Namaari: [grins] it’s alright. I wasn’t actually gonna leave you out here by yourself anyways. You still wanna share my coat?

Raya, reluctantly: yeah...

Namaari: alright, get in her, you. [pulls her in close]

Raya’s mind: warm~

Raya: this is actually really nice..thanks...

Namaari: of course, princess.

Raya: why do call me princess?

Namaari: because you are one?

Raya: the real reason.

Namaari’s mind: because your my princess.

Namaari: [looks down at her and] because you are one. You even got a crown [caresses her braids].

Raya: mhm.

Raya: um...is that offer for hot chocolate and carols still up for grabs?

Namaari: [smirks] awwww

Raya: what?! What why do you have that face?!

Namaari: [sing song voice] you like me~ you’re warming up to me~

Raya: PFFT- what?! No I just-

Namaari: admit it. I’m not as bad as you think and you’re enjoying my company. Sayyyyy it~

Raya’s mind: she’s adorable...

Raya: I guess...your presence isn’t totally...completely...unbearable.

Namaari: okay! I’ll take it! :)

Raya’s mind: HER SMILE IS THE CUTEST UGGGGGHHHH- THE WAY HER LITTLE FANGS JUST- JUST- UGH SHES PERFECT

Raya: so is that a yes?

Namaari: [side hugs her close] of course it is, princess.

Raya: :^>

[secretaryunpaid]

Facing angry parents...

When your actions begin to spread out of your control, all that’s left to do is face the music...

TNA Fic

Word Count: 1,800 approx.

Rated: General

Warnings: possible explicit lyrics, anxiety, frustration

A/N: Taking it back to the college days this fic, simply because I left some things unanswered... Plus, I need to reduce this drafts folder...

Dahlia sat in her bed curled into the fetal position anticipating the arrival of her parents. Oh how she wished that it was her Grandma Addie who was coming instead. But, she’d never again witness the scene of her running into her grandma’s arms, tears flowing, receiving the comfort that always took place at just the sight of her.

She wiped her eyes clear of tears just barely enough to read the screen of her phone. She frantically scrolled until she was there before her... her smile of wisdom ... her twinkling eyes filled with love... her hardened cheeks of pure pride...

Oh Grandma Addie, I had this idea of what love was supposed to be like, but Princeton totally shattered that for me. I remember everything you taught me about heartache... That even though my world seems at its worst, the best comes after the scars... I am reborn into the image that I choose, not what people try to make of me.

From now on, I am choosing myself first, just like you told me to. You always said that men are a luxury, not a necessity. Find strength in yourself, not in what someone else brings to you.

So I’ll be powerful alone... but, I sure wish you were here to handle daddy when he gets here... You know what type of crazed lion he can be. Let’s hope mom will help with that... It’s just... No one understood me like you. I miss you.

The time comes for me to meet mom and dad. Goodness, why does this feel like I am driving into a trap. Like I’ll never be able to return to MY life.

I finally arrive and make my way to dad’s study.I know I’ll find him there, because this is where all of the “You Fucked Up!” lectures are held. Dad is so predictable... Mom on the other hand, who knows what to expect from her...

Dahlia’s father is the Minister of Entrepreneurship and Information Technology... Her mother, a U.S. citizen working for the International Trade Administration.

Immediately upon walking through the door, dad goes in on me. I already knew that I wouldn’t get a word of explanation in .. just sit there and take in every word... I just may be asked to repeat it... Uggggghhhh!.

Dahlia, your mother and I were already against you going to Princeton. Our choice was Harvard, and you know that. We tried to give you the independence that you promised would not lead to this moment right here.

When we got the call from the Dean of Student Affairs, do you know how livid we were... knowing that we would have to interrupt meetings that have been on our calendar for months now? What is this we hear of rumors being spread about you and Zeta Psi Frat boys? What in the Hell has gotten into you?

Dahlia, this is not what your mom and I paid your tuition for... We did not raise you to be some pass around for some damned Fraternity!

NOW PULL IT TOGETHER!!!!

Even her sister Riley is here and, although she is normally on Dahlia’s side, she can’t help but side with their parents on this... But she will save her discussion for when their parents aren’t around. She also has to tell her the news that she is leaving town, and it could possibly be for good.

But ... MOM! Dad never lets me explain... what am I supposed to say here?

“Do you know how hard it was for me to convince your father not to pull you out of Princeton right now? We have talked to your professors and arranged for you to attend your classes virtually. You will take your exams in their office during their free hour.”

“But, mom!” Voice cracking and tears forming, Dahlia tries to interject, but is promptly cut off by her mom.

“I don’t think you realize how you could have permanently damaged your future... you’re lucky to be alive, and still fully functional... There are parts of this whole ordeal you may never remember, but take heed dear...

We won’t give you another chance. You will NOT cause any further problems for this family. The amount of money we have had to throw around to keep this mess you’ve created under the radar and out of the headlines is unreal!

Last chance... NO MORE SCREW UPS! Do you understand me? And that answer damned well better be, “YES, MA’AM!”

At the end of this term, you’re leaving Princeton. We’re moving you to Harvard. Lucky for you your acceptance letter is still valid.”

“Yes ma’am. I promise, I will turn this around. Just, pleeeeaaaasssseee let me stay at Princeton.”

“Good that you know you need to be begging right now... but I’m putting a lid on all of this free time that you seem to have for trouble...

After your last final exam, you will start a job at Russo Industries. It’s already been arranged. I’ve already made arrangements. Don’t screw this up Dahlia... Understood?”

Her mother approaches her husband in a final attempt to reason with him. He still feels that enough punishment hasn’t been issued. Dahlia doesn’t seem to be remorseful about her actions, only throwing a privileged tantrum in his eyes.

“Babe, let me handle this with our daughter before it blows out of control for all of us emotionally ... Please... You’re a very wise man, but when it comes to the emotions of young girls and male attention... I think you may miss the mark with her ...  We don’t have all of the facts, and she probably won’t open up now that we have come in so roughly with this... Please, trust me...”

Her father is reluctant, but he waits in the car after stressing that something more firm than words has to be done to get her attention... He agrees to giving her the lead in this, but if he feels like she hasn’t acted strongly enough, he will step in and she will have to agree to his way of handling it from that point forward.

She walks to Dahlia’s side, and takes her shoulder firmly. “Young lady, we need to talk before we get in this car with your father... So what do you plan on doing about these young men?”

I don’t talk to anyone but Jenny Klein after everything that happened mom.

Then keep it that way! Now, go change, we have a lunch meeting and you’re coming with us. There are some people you’ll need to meet before we catch our flight out.

So that’s it... you just fly in, turn my life upside down and then.. just fly off... Can’t you see that I need you mom! If Grandma Addie was here...”

DON’T YOU DARE! Listen good Dahlia... I won’t have any of your smart mouth. You know our work schedules and demands. You should feel privileged to have the freedoms that you do! NOW, change... we’ll be leaving within the hour.

Feeling like she was the five year old kindergarten student again, being dropped at the doorsteps of this large school without care, no affection or words of encouragement offered, she leaves the room to change.

As they prepared to leave, feeling that they had made their position clear with Dahlia, their last act was to take her Black Card and her car.

This has nothing to do with love, and everything to do with your LIFE! You’ll thank us later... maybe much later, but you will.

--- Meeting of Sorority Sisters ---

Later, Dahlia meets with her sorority sisters after having avoided them after the whole Zeta Psi incident. They have been constantly reaching out, but she has only answered Jenny, requesting that she not say anything to anyone...

Guys, I am so angry! All because of this shit with Jay, my parents are moving me to Harvard! My life is under their thumb now! I can’t believe that I let this happen to me ... AGAIN!!!! ...  Why would he do this to me???

“He said that you did this to yourself,” Sabrina blurts out accidentally.

“WHAT????? Wait, wait, hold up... Since when have you and Jay been talking about me? He’s not even on campus anymore. You’re calling him now?”

Everyone falls silent, but turns to face Sabrina with total confusion.

“Well, no... I ... Umm, well we...” is all that Sabrina can mutter out...

“WE!!! ...  WE!!!...  So you’re a we now??? Sabrina, you’ve got five seconds to start talking, or so help me... The anger I feel right now... You are about to receive every bit of it...”

“We’re dating okay! We have been since before he met you...”

“WHAT... THE... FUCK!!!! ... Tell me why I shouldn’t rip your damned head off RIGHT now! You know what, I don ‘t want to hear another word from you... I’m calling Jay!”

“Hello...” Dahlia is giving Sabrina the death stare, and she receives the clear message to shut up and wait.

“We need to talk NOW! You owe me this!!!

It doesn’t take long for Jay to reach campus, and to text her saying he is outside. “I’ll be right out... meet at our old spot?”

“...’Kay...”

“Tell me this isn’t true...”

And so the solution to the question of why her life has been turned upside down begins to unravel... What will she learn next???

--- Transitioning to Howard----

Hey Jen! I tried reaching you, but this video message will have to do I guess...

Well, I just got in. I will call you once I get my boxes settled! I’ve got to tell you all about Russo Industries... First day, and I clumsily ran into the CEO’s daughter coming out of the elevator ... OMG! She has a resting bitch face... and her attitude...dayum! Privileged much?

Oh.. And I guess going to Harvard won’t be all bad, I have my own place !!! ... Get this ... It’s OFF-CAMPUS!!! So we’ll have to spend breaks and holidays together! Mom talked dad into giving me the keys to my baby back! I’m on my last strike, though.

Love ya! Call Meeeeeee!

Byeeeee!

I told you that I knew the best spots to eat on campus. That’s all the more reason to stick with me...

Girls, I have met someone new...  I’m so happy, I have even decided to forgive Sabrina... I don’t have time to worry about the past... we are Sisters after all, so I may not trust you ever again, but ... I forgive you.

[smolslothloaf]

Yo as the only Micheal Crew fan (prolly), can I just say I’m so fucking salty that he died how he did?

Homeboy’s been hinted at since the fourth episode in this entire goddamn series, he’s been repeatedly connected to the Leitner books (which I guess are less important now that we’ve met Jurgen Leitner and we’ve got Gerard but uggggghhhh), he’s got a cool lightning scar and backstory and everything!

And once we get to meet him? He’s so intriguing-he ‘s polite even as he forces Jon to just fall through the air, he has a great voice (both literally and writing wise), and once he explains his backstory it doesn’t dissapoint. You get the image of this scared child whose been searching for protection and meaning his whole life. This creature’s been following him ever since he’s gotten his lightning scar, you kinda get that it’s the personification of his past even if he connects it all back to the Vast. To an extent, he kinda describes his relationship with his scar and his journey in self discovery all as both finding meaning and acceptance in the Vast. The moment he figures out what’s been calling to him is also the moment he accepts his past and his trauma. It all makes sense and comes together.

What I also find particularly interesting the way he laments about never being able to remember the most important events of his life, as I feel it’s something we all can relate to. Traumatic or not, negative or positive, many of us have trouble recalling the most life-changing events of our lives. We feel frustrated over this, we beat ourselves up for it, it’s just apart of life. In Mike’s statement this is such a small detail but it’s one that resonates with me deeply.

They set up Micheal Crew in such an engaging light and make him feel so real. I will admit that I’m not sure how much more they could do with him as this episode tied up pretty much all loose ends in his story. That being said, I would’ve absolutely LOVED to see more of him! He has an intruging personality, a cool backstory, he could’ve been a neat reaccuring character or something.

But no! Daisy Fucking Tonner just needsa bust down the fucking door and be like “YO THIS BITCH HUMAN?” And Jon’s like “uhhh ig not” and Daisy’s like “WELL THAT MEANS HES GONNA CATCH THESE HANDS.” AND JUST FUCKING SHOOTS HIM???

FUCK THAT NOISE.

YOU BUILD UP A CHARACTER OVER THE COURSE OF THREE SEASONS, WE MEET HIM AND HE GIVES US HIS LIFE STORY, THERES STILL SOME ROOM FOR HIM TO GIVE US ANSWERS OR SOME SHIT, THEN YOU HAVE THE A U D A C I T Y TO JUST YEET DAISY IN AND HAVE HER SHOOT HIM OUTSIDE?

O K A Y

LIKE,,, IG THEY NEEDED TO SET UP DAISY’S STORY AND GET MICHEAL OUT OF THE STORY OR SOME SHIT BUT. NOT LIKE THIS PLEASE?? IM FULLY WILLING TO ACCEPT THAT IM JUST UNREASONABLY SALTY ABOUT THIS BUT SERIOUSLY?? SHE JUST. SHOWS UP. SHOOTS HIM. THREATENS JON. BITCHES FOR AWHILE AND WE’RE SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY WITH IT?

MICHEALS NOT EVEN BROUGHT UP AFTER THAT HE KINDA JUST GOT SHOVED TO THE SIDE FOR IMPORTANT PEOPLE PLOT(tm). HE GETS. PUSHED. TO. THE. SIDE. IN. HIS OWN. FUCKING, EPISODE. WASNT JON GONNA QUESTION HIM MORE? WASNT THAT WHY JON WAS THERE? I MEAN I GUESS HE COULDNT CUZ MICHEAL COULDDA DEFO KILLED HIM, BUT HE DIDNT EVEN DROP ANY BREAD CRUMBS FOR JON’S INVESTIGATION. JON LITERALLY GOT JACK SHIT FROM THAT INTERACTION ASIDES FOR MORE FUEL FOR HIS STATEMENT KINK. AS FAR AS THE PLOT’S CONCERNED, JON DIDN’T NEED THE CONTENTS OF MIKE’S STATMENT. THE KNOWELDGE WAS GOOD BUT HE GOT NO FURTHER ON HIS INVESTIGATION OF THE STRANGER. HE WAS DIRECTED TO MIKES DOOR FOR THE PLOT BUT THE PLOT AINT THERE, THE PLOTS AT DAISYS HOUSE

TO REVIEW:

THEY

DEADASS

JUST

THREW MICHEAL CREW IN THERE

HAD HIM EXPLAIN HIS BACKSTORY

THEN KILLED HIM OFF

AFTER HYPING HIM UP

FOR

THREE

FUCKING

SEASONS

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???

ARE YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING KIDDING ME???

YA KNOW THATS PROLLY THE ONE BIG BONE IVE GOTTA PICK WITH THIS SHOW. THEY BUILD UP INTERESTING CHARACTERS OVER THE COURSE OF FULL SEASONS, THEN THEY’RE ONLY GIVEN THEIR TIME TO SHINE FOR ONE EPISODE BEFORE BEING ADRUPTLY KILLED OFF AND NEVER MENTIONED AGAIN. I HEARD IT GETS BETTER BUT ITS A PRETTY BIG PROBLEM FOR THE FIRST TWO SEASONS.

JANE PRENTISS COULDDA BEEN COOL! AND SHE WAS COOL! BUT SHE ONLY ACTUALLY DID SHIT FOR ONE EPISODE THEN WAS KILLED WITH LITTLE RESISTANCE. SHE DIDNT EVEN MAKE A COMEBACK OR ANYTHING, THEY REALLY JUST WENT “THAT BITCH DEAD AND DID JACK SHIT” AFTER HYPING HER UP THE WHOLE SEASON. LIKD OKAY SURE GO OFF. THEYRE BUILDING UP BREEKON AND HOPE A BIT MORE NOW, CANT WAIT FOR THEM TO BE KILLED OFF AS SOON AS WE MEET THEM.

LIKE I GET IT I GET IT. MICHEALS STORY WAS COMPLETE. NOT EVERY CHARACTER NEEDS TO BE PLOT RELEVANT. NOT EVERY CHARACTER THATS BUILT UP NEEDS AN ELABORATE PLOT. NOT EVERY CHARACTER NEEDS A SATISFYING SEND OFF.

BUT IM STILL FUCKING MAD ABOUT IT CUZ I FEEL NOTHING. I LOVED HIS STATEMENT AND IT WOULD’VE JUST BEEN FINE IF MICHEAL WAS JUST LEFT ALONE AFTER THAT OR SOMETHING. OR HELL HE EVEN COULD’VE BEEN KILLED IN A DIFFERENT WAY I JUST HATE HOW DAISY CAME IN THERE OUT OF BUTTFUCK NO WHERE, SHOT A GUY SHE BARELY KNEW CUZ “he spoopy” AND ITS JUST NEVER BROUGHT UP. MIKE DIDNT EVEN NEED TO BE THERE. JON WENT THERE FOR ANSWERS, MIKE GAVE HIM NOTHING CUZ INSTEAD OF HAVING AN INTERESTING LITTLE CONVERSATION, DAISY NEEDED HER CHARACTER ARC. IM REPEATING MYSELF AT THIS POINT BUT IM JUST SO FUCKING ANGY ABOUT THIS.

FUCK DAISY, ALL COPS ARE BASTARDS

I am fully aware that I’ll wake up tomorrow and deem all of this as invalid and unreadable, I just needed to get this all off my chest. In all honesty the main reason I’m upset is because the Vast is my personal favorite entity and Micheal’s statement is a good summation of why

People affected by the Vast are just that-people. Well, all statement givers are people, but the Vast’s statments I find are much more grounded and down to Earth. They aren’t as out there or over the top like the Corruption or the Stranger. They’re just little ‘tweaks’ in someone’s perspective that shakes their core. It takes mundane occurances and pushes them to their extreme. All the Vast did in “High Pressure” was make someone feel as though they were sinking forever and forced them underwater. It’s some you could probably picture happening to yourself more clearly then say, being attacked by War Ghosts. (NOT bashing on War Ghosts btw, they’re just a different brand of spooky.) The type of fear that the Vast victims have is also kinda different to me. I’m not sure how well I can explain it but best I can describe it is that it feels like geunine trauma that someone with that phobia would experience? I still don’t think that’s quite right but take “A Long Way Down” for instance, where the statement giver’s brother suffers from Acrophobia. That’s a real boy with Acrophobia! I feel who he is as an actual person as I follow his life, I know his worst nightmare, and once you see what happens to him, you completely feel both from him and his brother. Or in “Freefall” where you see a mother mourn for her son’s trauma and death. She saw something he loved suddenly turn him so, so afraid then saw the very thing he feared swallow him up.

It’s just any average person greiving their loved one’s trauma or being pushed to a limit you can see yourself being pushed to. It’s all very grounded in reality and makes it all feel that more real. And I feel like Micheal Crew’s statement just summed that up so well. He’s such a perfect face for what I love about the Vast. He’s just a person at his core, who was scared and needed guidance.

It’s just that the way it ended and how adruptly he was killed left a sour taste in my mouth.

[itsybitsylemonsqueezy]

So I finally saw Endgame. And I’m not remotely sorry I waited this long. 

But now I do understand why when I came back to tumblr there was absolutely nothing on my dash about it. 

I saw it last night and I’ve been so angry this whole time I couldn’t sleep. What even the fuck was that?! Look, as a Thor fan, I’ve grown accustomed to having my baby written poorly. but WHAT the FUCK was THAT?!?!?!

Holy christ. Holy god. Just... just... I’m so angry. 

I thought Tony’s arc was good, but, as usual, he carried the fucking movie because Tony is the only character they can consistently write. Everyone else eventually devolved into trashfire. Well, that’s not true, Scott Lang sure got some good shit in. So, if you’re an Ant-Man or an Iron Man fan, this movie was a good time for you.

But everyone else... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my god. 

I’m 50-50 on Steve. There were some good Steve moments, I liked that FINALLY we got a taste of the consequences of Civil War that I have BEEN WAITING FOR. It fucked me up watching Tony pull off his heart and shove it into Steve’s hand saying, “Take this and hide behind it.” I... wow. holy fucking shit. I’ve been waiting for THAT. And Steve did a good thing when Tony comes back, all fucked up about Peter, and Steve has the good grace to say “We lost him” to acknowledge Tony’s guilt and to understand, apparently for the first time, that Tony always thinks it’s his fault and he will carry this burden right into the fucking grave. Thanks for retroactively paying attention to Tony’s character arc Steve. 

So, that bit was good. But then we married him to Peggy? Really? Like, Peggy Carter is a wonderful lady but... we’ve spent the majority of Steve’s arc digging him out of this, getting him to move on. And I know every team movie has amnesia and doesn’t understand how character development works, but you have all of Steve’s relationships right here. Bucky’s alive, Sam’s alive, but no, Steve goes back in time to live out his days peacefully with some lady? Again, not that Peggy doesn’t matter, she does, but.... oh my GOD WHAT EVEN WAS THE POINT of introducing Bucky back into Steve’s life if not to force him to live in the NOW? Why bother giving Steve ANY friends??? I just... UGGGGGHHHH. And doing that ACTIVELY CREATES MORE PROBLEMS. What if they had kids??? We don’t know if the super soldier serum can get passed on. What if the descendants of Steve Roger are running around??? I just... I get that we had to put these characters at peace and they tried to give them a “happy ending” but... this seems like a backtracking. Steve could still pass on the mantle in the present without totally fucking over his character arc. 

Bruce... was fine. Thought it was a little rough how they addressed the Bruce/Natasha situation but as apparently everyone retroactively thinks that was a bad idea... I guess this is what we get. Also, I love how we nixed all of the possible ships with Valkyrie in this one. Which I guess follows what with NO ONE knowing how to pick up from Ragnarok. I mean... okay, I guess. 

But SPEAKING OF NATASHA.... fuck you. Just... fuck you. Clint easily could have died there and it would have been justified and it would have been fine. It wouldn’t have affected the plot in any way. You do sort of double-down on taking fathers away from their families by killing both Clint and Tony, but... Clint’s character has been a trashfire this whole time. The man wanted to go to atone for what he had done in his family’s absence. And I know Marvel offered us the peace offering of lining up every female Marvel character to protect Spiderman to prove how many female characters they have and it was really nice to see Pepper matter again and that great scene with Frigga and that’s all really sweet but... you still killed Nat for no reason. And definitively made her one of the two people that cannot ever come back, Incidentally, the only two people who can never come back are women, so. No matter how you sliced that, it was always going to be one-sided one way or another. 

But I really do think it was justified to sacrifice Clint to the Soul Stone. Clint had other people in his life, his family, he was functional, supposedly, before all the shit went down. Natasha has always had nothing, Clint’s always been remarkably important to her. As a sacrifice, killing Clint feels worse than killing Nat. And Nat’s been trying to die for her found family this whole time, those scattered people she was trying to hold on to, that she struggled to function for. It just would have been nice to reward all her trials by giving her her family back and letting someone else take the bullet for a change. *siiiiiigh* 

Nebula was great, I liked what was done with her. I fully gave up on our time travel making any sense when she shot her past self and then didn’t blip out of existence. I guess the argument for that is that the Nebula that exists branched out further back in the time line so killing herself from slightly further ahead does nothing, but... still, our time travel was a hot mess and y’all know it. 

I think I’ve covered all the major players now except... my baby. So, the first half was great for Thor. I love that he was the one to behead Thanos. I love that he was SUPER fucked up about his failures, his failure to protect his family, to protect his people, his failure to make good on all his promises. Absolutely accurate, Thor WOULD be wrecked by what he couldn’t do. And, sure, okay, he drank enough to give him beer gut, I... fine. I do NEED to point out that he’s a god, his metabolism is different so the quantity he would need to drink to even achieve that level of pudge is beyond reckoning. And, as a god, he should have been able to drop it too. But Okay.

And then there’s that sweet scene with Frigga. I did love that we brought back an underserved female character and let her have a moment with her son. I enjoyed that a lot. What I did not like was Everything That Came After That. I don’t like that they wrote Thor tackling his guilt as a stumble in his self-confidence. I don’t like that because Thor’s depressed now, he’s also stupid. But, y’know, no one has EVER written Thor’s intelligence well (Except you Taika, you, as always, did nothing wrong and I love you) so why the fuck should that change now. I don’t like that Thor ABSOLUTELY should have used the gauntlet the first time because then MAYBE YOU WOULDN'T FORGET TO WISH BACK ASGARD. Like that’s an actual, genuine plot hole. Half of Asgard is STILL DEAD and that’s never addressed because y’know fuck the Asgardians I guess. What they lost doesn’t really matter because that didn’t happen during the Mass Dusting so fuck your problems Thor. No no, it’s fine, it’s absolutely fine that Thor had to destroy his homeland, lost half his people, lost every meaningful relationship he had and then FUCKS OFF WITH THE GUARDIANS?!?! FUCK THIS FUCKING SHIT! 

No no ABSOLUTELY FUCK YOU. FUCK. YOU. I am SO mad. God, what a CARDINAL misreading of Thor’s character! And HOW DARE YOU use that “Be who you are, not who you’re supposed to be” BULLSHIT! How DARE YOU use Frigga’s words to negate Thor’s character development! We settled this back in THE FIRST FUCKING MOVIE but no one can EVER be bothered to write Thor right so FUCK ME I GUESS. Absolutely FUCK THIS. No yeah no, Thor who has been constructively making amends and shouldering his father’s mistakes FROM THE BEGINNING no no, he’d just fuck off, abandon the people he failed, yeah no it’s FINE That’s ABSOLUTELY FINE yeah Thor feels absolutely no loyalty to his people or desire to do right by them, fuck every last one of you sons of bitches. 

And I won’t lie that I am personally pissed about Loki but this disgusting, final betrayal of who Thor is is the Last Fucking Straw. And if the point was to retire the originals WHY DID YOU SADDLE HIM WITH THE GUARDIANS WHO OBJECTIVELY ARE NOT FINISHED?! Like, they have past Gamora now who has no relationships with any of these fucks, their shit is NOT straightened and you’re just throwing Thor into the mix??? What the fuck for?! Just let him be king of Asgard and then you NEVER HAVE TO SEE HIM AGAIN. That was his retirement! Ruling his people like a GODDAMN MONARCH. Y’KNOW. LIKE HE’S ACTUALLY GOOD AT AND HAS ALWAYS WANTED TO DO. *screaming* 

I can’t, I just... and “Asgard already has a king” exCUSE ME?! Valkyrie’s only been back with her people for FIVE YEARS after being gone GOD KNOWS HOW LONG. Literally LONGER THAN YOUR LIFESPAN THOR. And Valkyrie ISN’T a leader! She’s a soldier! What did we watch her lead??? What exactly are yoru examples of her credentials??? What proof do we have that the, I remind you, GREATLY traumatized, Asgardian people even trust her?! It heals far more damage to let the prodigal son redeem his family and make up for the mistakes. And this isn’t to shit on Valkyrie, she’d probably do fine ruling Asgard but she DOESN’T want to, there’s absolutely nothing in her character description that says ruler and this was all just a fucking excuse to let Thor go off and play Big Lebowski with the Guardians of the Galaxy and I am PISSED TO HIGH HELL about it! 

The thing that pisses me off the most is that it would not have materially changed their plot in anyway to just bring Asgard back, let Thor use the Infinity Gauntlet. Yes it would have fucked him up, but does that really matter? You weren’t using Thor for jackshit anyway. Let Hulk triple team Thanos instead, you know you want to. As you bothered to write Bruce like a person today. What would it have changed to bring back Asgard? Other than y’know providing more hands to fight Thanos’ army. Like, did anyone else notice that Wakanda is apparently the only army we know? That was some fine ass tokenism at the end there, woof. Letting Thor use the gauntlet was their last chance to let him be the person he actually is. And... instead they trashed them. Because they have never cared about Thor. They NEVER believed they could sell him, never had confidence in him as a character, never marketed him effectively, convinced themselves that the audience didn’t care for Thor... and so here we are. 

I’m so... mad. About all of that shit. That not once could these writers do right by Thor. I’m just going to go back to living in Ragnarok, fuck all of this.

[meddows-taylor]

2, 5, 9, 25, 40 and of course 7 for your study break (no seriously go to bed)

Queen questions ask (yep it’s early morning and I swear I’m going to bed, I swear)

Whose voice do you like least of the 3 singing members of the band?

Uggggghhhh why must you do this to me??? This is impossible because I honestly love all of their voices so much. I would feel inclined to say John, but just yesterday I was replaying the Somebody to Love video just to hear his lower “find me….” Over and over, And of course I melt when he sings in Liar, and his voice in interviews????? When he says “I’m John Richard Deacon and I was born on August 19, 1951” ????? That can be my fucking ringtone….. but then again I can’t say Brian because he has one of my favorite voices on the planet?? When he sings and when he talks.… he can lull me to sleep or calm me and make me emotional. And I CAN’T say Roger because I live for his growl and his stupidly high falsetto, my friend dead-ass thought his screech in Somebody to Love was actually Brian hitting a note with his guitar and I had to enlighten her and is like? That’s his voice he produces those sounds, and then he sounds like a mythical creature when he is speaking??? And do you expect me to say Freddie??? HOW?

Have you ever seen Highlander or Flash Gordon?

I’ve seen Highlander with my mom when I was young, I think we still own a VHS copy that came with a magazine or something. It’s a fairly decent film from what I remember, the type that they would play on tv on Sunday afternoons while I was doing my homework.

If you were friends with the band who would you go to for comfort?Already answered, but Brian or Deaky 💜

Have you seen Queen in any form? (With Freddie or Adam or Paul)

I haven’t! But I’m seeing them next summer and I’m kind of freaking out a little bit more with every passing day

Do you like cats?

I used to really not like them because they didn’t like me back, but a few years ago we reconnected and now I love them. Even if I’ll always be partial to dogs, I can really see me getting one when I move on my own

(And of course) Do you know how to boil an egg?

HAHA! I do! You put some water in a pot, wait for it to boil, put the egg in and in about 13/15 minutes it should be done (you can put the egg in first and start counting 13 minutes after it boils too). @rog @fred, you’re lucky I love you because it’s really not that hard

[bring-me-bellarke]

The 100 Ask

Tagged by @griffinnblake ! Thanks, Lindsay! Honestly, what a blast this was.

rules: answer as many as you want if tagged and then tag three more people OR just reblog it and treat it as a regular ask meme!! have fun xoxo

1. What would you get arrested for on the Ark?  Probably for punching a guard or something, tbh. Maybe starting underground resistance (yikes)

2. Would you take off your wristband when you landed on the ground?  Maybe. 

3. What would the necklace Finn would make for you look like? (Clarke: deer/Raven: a raven duh..)  Probably a fist or some sort of cool resist sign. 

4. If you could resurrect any MINOR character who would it be?  WELLS JAHA DESERVED BETTER. (close second would be Anya) (close third would be Ilian)

5. Create a squad of 5 characters to go on missions with. Who are they? Bellamy, Clarke, Raven, Monty, Miller.

6. Minty or Briller?  Mintyyyyyy all da way. Briller just never did anything for me. 

7. What would your name be in Trigedasleng? (example: Octavia=Okteivia…just make it up!)  Jessei, Jessai, i have no idea. 

8. Thoughts on Finn? I’ll be honest, I was blind when I first started watching and thought Finn was a good guy...until Raven showed up and was like WTF ....and then he massacred a bunch of people. Then I looked back and realized how manipulative he was with Clarke, and what a shitty person he was in general.

9. Be honest. How willing would you have been to take the chip without knowing all the horrible things it does? I don’t think I would have. It wouldn’t really appeal to me. I could see myself giving in if someone I loved was threatened (like Clarke with Abby, I would’ve folded like a lawn chair)  

10. What character do you relate to most & What character do you like the least not including the obvious ones like Pike, etc… I relate to Clarke and Raven the most. I’m bossy and serious like Clarke, but also sassy and passionate like Raven. The character I like the least was (don’t bring out the pitchforks) L/xa. To me, from day 1, she was too bland of a character. It’s like she was always putting on this brave facade that I just never bought into. But I truly love ADC and she’s awesome. I just didn’t believe all of L/xa’s dumb philosophies and thought she wasn’t a good leader. Also, Octavia was on my most hated from the moment she laid her hands on her brother (i will never be over that. bitter 2kforever)

11. Describe your delinquent outfit. (Would you wear something like Murphy’s jacket with the spikey red shoulder patch or have a trademark like Jasper’s goggles? Be creative, yet practical)  I probably would have had a patchy black leather jacket, gray t shirt that read Space Sucks, combat boots, black ripped up jeans, and the jacket would’ve had RESIST stitched onto the back in big letters (or maybe a patch). I like to think I would’ve been a total badass but who knows. 

12. Favorite type of mutant animal?  I don’t think we saw many besides two-headed deer, pauna, and maybe some panthers? Oh, wait! Glowing butterflies, those were cool.   

13. What would your job be on the Ark? Oooooh, I don’t know. Sounds weird, but I would’ve liked to work in the archives/library, making sure all the history was preserved (sounds like a Bellamy thing, I know). But tbh, I probably would be jailed for starting a resistance as a side gig. 

14. Would you have willingly pumped Ontari’s heart if Abby asked?  I’m squeamish, but I would’ve done it to save Clarke (and everyone else in turn). 

15. If Lexa wasn’t Heda, then who would make the best commander?  Hmm, good question. Well I loved Anya and think she could’ve. I think Luna might’ve if she’d given up her weird ways and NOT BEEN TOTALLY RUINED in s4. ALSO LINCOLN (RIP IM NOT OVER IT). If all 3 could’ve led as like a council, that’d be fire. 

16. If you were a grounder, then where would you live and who would be your mentor? Oh god, I don’t know the tribes. Maybe Trishanakru (sp?) just cause Ilian’s such a hottie and it would’ve been cool to be friends. 

17. How would you act if you ate the hallucinogenic nuts like Jasper and Monty?  I’d probably dare everyone to go jump off a waterfall with me (but like a small one)

18. How would you have dealt with Charlotte’s crime? A more John Murphy approach or Bellamy Blake?  Uggggghhhh, this is hard. Listen, neither method worked. Charlotte wouldn’t have survived on her own and Murphy’s dumb. Maybe like a jail or something they could’ve kept her in? Idk, there’s too many things that went wrong with all that. 

19. Who should be the Chancellor, if anyone?  Anyone at all? Crap, I don’t think there should just be one, it’s too much power. I like the idea of council/committee with the mains like Bellamy, Clarke, Kane, Abby, uhh idk who else. 

20. Mount Weather had a lot of modern commodities. (example: Maya’s Ipod) What is the one thing you would snatch while there?  Headphones to escape all the drama, probably. Maybe some good hiking gear because goddammit how do they all travel through all these jungles/woods? 

21. Do you think you’d have caught the virus spread through camp or would you have been immune like Octavia?  I would’ve caught it probs. 

22. What would your grounder tattoos look like? Hairstyle? War paint? I’d have just cool geo shape tattoos probably. I’d wear a high pony because how do the girls deal with humidity/sweat wearing it down???? My hair is hella thick, so no thanks. War paint would probably just be a few lines on my cheeks, maybe diagonals. 

23. Favorite quote?  I CAN’T JUST CHOOSE ONE. OH GOD MY HEART LITERALLY HURTS AT ALL THE ONES I LOVE. (this deserves its own post tbh)

24. Can you forgive Murphy for his actions? How about Bellamy?  Murphy’s a real pain in my side. Full offense, I hate that we move on so easily from a white boy’s VERY SIGNIFICANT MISTAKES, yet poor POC Bellamy has to keep suffering from the repercussions. Like Murphy LITERALLY permanently damaged Raven’s body yet they’re cool now? Idk, I hold grudges, and I don’t think I’d be able to let it go. Kudos to Raven, ig. Though I won’t hesitate to admit that Bellamy has royally fucked up too, from the radio to the army (which happened in a season I hate altogether). It just seems like we forgive Murphy much easier than Bellamy and it kills me. Whooo, sorry for that. 

25. If one of the characters was in the Hunger Games, who would have the best shot at winning? Hmm, I was gonna say Bellamy but he’s a real softie. Clarke is sneaky and sometimes heartless, so maybe her. BUT ACTUALLY Octavia would because she’s absolutely bat-shit crazy.

26. Least favorite ship? Favorite ship? NOT INCLUDING CLEXA OR BELLARKE  Aww crap. I didn’t like Flarke. Fave ship (that never happened) was Ice Mechanic, like imagine the chemistry/hotness. Ugh, still upset about this. Fave canon would be Kabby, I guess? They’re great, but it’s weird to think Kane had Abby tortured. Idk (Y’all know I’m ride or die Bellarke). I was conflicted for a long time about Linctavia because I loved them but when you boil it down, he was way older than her and it seemed kinda Stockholm Syndrome-y? Plus, she turns psycho and he would’ve hated it. IDK ALL SHIPS ARE PROBLEMATIC DAMMIT.

27. A song that should be included in the next season, like when Radioactive was? If there had to be another guest star like Shawn Mendes on the show, who would you want to make a cameo?  Lindsay said Home II by Dotan and I 100% agree because that song is amazing and would work so well for S5. Oooh, cameos! Um CAN YOU IMAGINE IF STEPHEN KING JUST SHOWED UP OUT OF THE BLUE? Like I would die. Or Kass Morgan, the original creator! 

28. What would you do if you were stuck in the bunker with Murphy for all that time?  Honestly, I’d probably be very annoyed and want to be far away from him. BUT if we did warm up to each other, I think we’d bond over cooking (if there was any food). 

29.Opinion on Emori? Roan?  Both badasses. Kinda indifferent on them actually. Like I don’t love or hate them. 

30. Would you want to be an extra that is killed off in a brutal way?  Yeah, sure. It’d be cool if it was memorable, poignant, and really related to/impacted the storyline. High hopes, amirite? 

31. A character you’d like to learn more about and get flashbacks of? Raven, I think. All her flashbacks were related to Finn and I hated it. WHO WAS SHE BESIDES FINN’S GIRLFRIEND? Show us her mess of a mom, how her love for science started, how she became a mechanic! God, there’s so much we don’t know. 

32. A character you’d bang?  BELLAMY FUCKING BLAKE, ladies and gents.

If you made it through all this, bless your soul! BUT THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN!! I loved having to really think about the hypotheticals and what I’d do if I was in this world/show. Side note, I’ve been totally gone from this blog and not even tagging my stuff (which is where I freak out the most). I’m slowly coming back and hope April comes soon! All right, this has been long enough. I tag @littlebellarkemix & @southsideserpentine & honestly anyone who wants to (it’s a lot of fun). 

[dingoat]

(Tagged by @cassie-qq aaaaa!!)

Rules are:

- Post the rules - Answer the questions given to you by the tagger - Write eleven questions of your own - Tag eleven people

My questions:

1. If you could change one thing about your current government, what would it be and why? (only one thing!)

Aw damn. I feel like I aught to think on this more and answer intelligently but right now all my brain can manage is ‘make One Nation’ disappear.

2. Which poem/quote/lyrics do you often find yourself thinking back on, why?

I blame @humanrevolt and @nutterbutterbox fiercely and eternally for the lyrics currently stuck in my head!!!! But on a more thoughtful note, ‘wolves don’t lose sleep over the opinions of sheep’ is one of my favourite quotes that I try to keep with me.

3. What are you most looking forward to in 2018?

MOTHER FLIPPING EURO-TRIP :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

4. You have the opportunity to meet one fictional character from any franchise/media (movies, tv-shows, books, online comics, games, etc), who would it be and why?

OH FUCK. This is a torturous question. ONLY ONE??? The longer I think the harder it gets so I’m gonna try not to dwell too long or the candidates will be endless but right now I’m gonna go with a really hard toss-up between Obi-wan Kenobi (because Obi-wan ffs), Nighteyes (from the Realm of the Elderlings series by Robin Hobb, because he is easily the best written wolf character I’ve ever read and I love him forever) or one of the werewolves (prob. Elena or Jeremy) from Kelly Armstrong’s series (because. Duh.).

5. Forced to spend the entire day on the internet, but unable to go to any sites that you’ve been on in the last six months, which website would you spend the day on?

Holy shit what a question. UHMMMM. I’d. Probably find some obscure free email client, get in touch with whoever has email addresses I can remember offhand, use them to get in touch with anyone else I want to chat with, and spend my day emailing folk for conversation.

That or visit Neopets nostalgically and waste my life there.

6. If you could only eat one meal, made the same way, for all of 2018, what would it be?

Hnnnnggg I think I’d go mad no matter what I chose but... idk, does this include dessert? XD Probably something like chicken kiev with a variety of veg, and (if I’m allowed) a fruit platter (berries and stone fruits yo).

7. What do you like most about (one of) your OC(s) - (or favourite character if you don’t RP)?

I love how basically normal Ahuska is, but still so hopeful and resilient, motivated by love for those she holds dear but without carrying the weight of the world on her shoulders like many of my other characters tend to do.

8. You’re transported to another world, one that seems to be a replicant of Earth’s Medieval times, but you’ve everything that you normally take out with you (phone, wallet, keys, etc); what is the first thing you do?

Check if I have trans-time-dimensional internet access.

9. What’s your most favourite image and why do you like it so much?

I could never pick a single image, oh man, but I am hopelessly drawn to any images featuring snowy/wintery forest-and-mountain landscapes in soft pink and gold morning light. Hnng.

10. How do you feel about socks with sandals?

You do you. I will never judge.

11. You’re given 100,000$ and a full six hours to spend it. You’re not allowed to invest it or return the items you buy to get the money back, and if you don’t spend it in those six hours you lose the money and any items you purchased with it. What do you spend the money on?

Uggggghhhh I’d probably do something painfully responsible like put it into paying off the house or something. Get the bathroom and kitchen renovated, ew. Maybe use a couple of grand for frivolous spending on video games and art commissions and presents for my friends and family.

OKAY NOW THE HARD PART. THINKING OF QUESTIONS and seeing if I actually know 11 people.

Cats, dogs, or both? 

Fave animal that is neither cat nor dog nor both.

What’s the last book you read, and would you recommend it to anyone?

Favourite episode of your favourite TV series?

What Internet Video do you think everyone should see?

What’s your favourite season, and why?

TROLLEY PROBLEM! Pull the lever or not?

You get to change history by allowing one fictional character that has been killed off by its creator to survive. WHO DO YOU SAVE?

What memory of yours fills you with pure joy to recollect?

You’re stuck in a car and your music player has jammed- whatever you were last listening to is now your road trip music, on loop, for the next six hours. What is it and how much do you hate the next six hours?

Do you like camping, and if so, do you have a favourite place to camp out?

TAGGING! @humanrevolt @cassie-qq (I know you both already got questions so no sweat if you can’t be arsed doing more!!) @nutterbutterbox @shahfla @cinlat @picturesinhismind @rekkingcrew @nacyle idk I don’t have enough friends on this website whatever nobody has to do this and especially not the last part. Sob. XD

[steroidusr]

pokemon crystal randofuser (ver.1.0) part 2: bruel and unusual punishment

TODAY ON GUMPS: more of this cool hack

these guys are here too

(so it turns out 4/5 of my team is weak to ice. uh... oh dear)

i love that name

poliwubat is kind of fucked up

:(

IT'S YOU

oh god

OH GOD at least he's not dana I guess

ten gigabytes

why the fuck would I want to do that

[i have no recollection of what those last two tweets are referring too and that’s probably a good thing]

ALREADY???

I SAID NO

you didn't level your ratcrab up at ALL, joey

btw we're gonna have to box two (2) of these guys later so we might as well vote them off the island now

"what about hopichu" I fucking love hopichu and will never let her go

uggggghhhh I'm gonna have to play this shit early in the morning if I wanna catch ledyba I still need to catch caterpie and weedle too. fucko

gotta catch 'em all, even if most of 'em are shitty

it sure is dark here

I LOVE IT

LOOK AT IT (NAME IT TOO)

look at this lil fucker, he's only level 2 but he was such a pain in the ass to weaken-- oh, I guess because he's rock-type

...oh... he's... rock... type..........

hhhhhhhh

whaaat

name this... gas turtle

finally

so after a bit of organizing here's the team we're going with for now

too bad goodude's moveset is shit right now

onix...what

sorry dude we're not playing Vietnamese crystal yet

wow I didn't know bellsprouts had rectangular bodies

it's like... an autumn bellsprout too bad you cant actually fucking catch any bellsprou--

--too bad you cant actually fucking catch any bellsprouts in sprout fucking tower

reminder that g2 invented held items

at least bellseedles give out a lot of exp ...but they also have poison sting. you win some, you lose some.

level up your fucking pokemon, joey

and on the way back from that entirely pointless rematch...!

tricky do you still want me to name it after you

I caught a second bellseedle so I could trade it for... 

this sleeping purple turd I guess "fing" is from "koffing". maybe it evolves into "steelzing" actually that's kind of a cool name

wade I don't even have the first fucking badge yet how am I supposed to get all the way over there today

this bellsprout is really deep... it inspires me

FINALLY

DOUBLE FINALLY. I have acquired the second most useless move of all

[inkblackfingers]

Thor: Ragnarok in no particular order

I can’t even begin to articulate how much I loved this movie, it was beyond gorgeous and I love everything about this.

Here’re some thoughts I had about it, as always, in no particular order.

SPOILERS AHEAD

It’s a bit long, so I put it under a read more.

I was completely and absolutely expecting a record screech at the beginning. Everything about Thor slowly turning on a chain and literally interrupting a giant flaming being as he slowly, slowly rotates is perfect. 

Okay, but the entire theater burst into laughter when Skurge said that he got Dan and Ger from Texas, because ofc.  And the shocked horror on those girls faces when they get absolutely coated in dragon slime is hysterical.

That fucking statue I’m still laughing at it. And the play?? Loki, what the actual hell were you thinking? Yeah, I’ll pretend to be Odin, but I won’t act anything like him and I’ll make a giant statue of me and commission a play all about my heroic and tragic “death” and just laze around eating grapes all day and nobody will say anything. How on earth did nobody else realize that it wasn’t Odin?? 

On that note, Thor instantly realizing that it’s Loki is the actual best and I love that his preferred method of solving problems (a blow with Mjolnir) has now been upgraded to forcing his opponent to choose whether they’d rather get a face full of star metal or lose.

As much as I loved everything about Loki’s “human” outfit in the Avengers, I really really love the all-black ensemble, especially next to Thor’s actually normal clothing. 

Also, Tony is totally still keeping an eye on the internet, and there’s going to be a random picture of Thor on a random corner in NYC with two girls and he’s going to be so confused.

Stephen Strange you absolute dick I love you to death.  I would watch an entire movie of Stephen just being a complete dick to other superheroes with his magical powers. 

Thor calling for Mjolnir and both of them just listening to the sounds of breaking glass and his little smirk when he apologizes? Payback’s a bitch, Stephen :D

“I have been falling for THIRTY MINUTES”

Strange, who just spent the last ten minutes generally fucking with Thor, taking one look at Loki being furious and going, fuck this, get out.

Everything about Odin saying “my sons” (i’m not crying you’re crying) And him praising Loki for the spell that he used against him?? I mean, he’s still a shitty dad, but at least Loki has at least one (1) memory of him being a good dad.

Hela: long black hair, black cape, black and green clothing, obv v dramatic.... Are we sure that *Loki* is the adopted child?

I immediately remember I’m so gay when faced with Tessa Thompson as a drunk hot mess. 

So the god of *thunder* is taken down by....electricity?? @marvel, does not compute

Everything about the little amusement-park ride of the history of Grandmaster is pure gold, especially with Thor just screaming at the end.

Listen..... Loki totally got a sugar daddy. That is all. 

15/10 Best Stan Lee cameo ever

Oh my god Hulk I love you bb and I’m so glad that you finally found a planet that totally accepts you. (Now if you could work on that being a planet that doesn’t require you to be angry all the time or uses you as a form of entertainment, that’d be great, thx)

Thor finally using his GODDAMN powers, perfect.

Everything about Hulk is perfect. Especially him sparring with Valkyrie, and everything about his conversation with Thor that totally doesn’t have me crying a little inside, but also how he’s basically a giant toddler

Hulk butt. Somebody had to animate Hulk butt. Is it based off of the butt of @markruffalo? People (me) need to know.

Also, I’m really reminded of that one post?? It’s basically etched into my mind at this point, and I can’t stop thinking about it.

That fucking bounce off the window and Thor just picking himself up and going straight through the window and sliding down literally all the buildings.

Pointbreak is the password I’m dying of laughter (@marvel, I need to know all of the avengers’ sign-ins ASAP. Is Steve’s Capiscle or Captain Handsome? Is Clint Hawkass or Legolas? Is Nat Itsy-Bitsy Spider? Also, what’s Tony’s sign-in? You know who I am? The Mechanic? Please, my crops are dying)

Also, once Tony finds out about everything that just happened, Thor’s sign-in is definitely changing to Sparkles.

Why are Tony’s clothes on the quin-jet? (Actual question: why haven’t I already seen fics/art about why Tony’s clothes are on the quin-jet?)

Bruce’s password being Strongest Avenger, and Thor’s look of betrayal in the background is beyond hilarious. (Also can we talk about Tony’s nicknames for literally everyone??)

Okay, but drunk Valkyrie and Bruce trying to figure out how they know each other is the actual cutest.

Thor just chucking something at Loki to check if he’s actually there is beyond perfect. Yes you did good my space labrathor, you have finally learned.

Everything about Thor’s childhood story. (Also, can we just appreciate Frigga for a moment? An eldest daughter that got banished by her husband, and two sons, who basically hate each other. One of them likes picking up snakes and the other likes stabbing his brother. You deserve all the awards for parenting. All of them.)

Idris Elba is beyond the best and if Asgard was a democracy, he would totally have been running the Nine Realms. (Like he basically was already)

Everything about Asgard being the people, not the place is going to make me cry.

Thor sitting on the throne, literally calling Hela to him from across Asgard is something that he totally came up with after asking himself What Would Loki Do? (Answer: be as over the top extra as possible, always)

Well, now Thor can inherit the kingly eyepatch

GODDAMN it Thor, go pikachu already, you did it before and you don’t need to talk to your father while you’re literally dying

Thor descending on the horde of zombies in slow motion, lightning sparking around him as he lays waste to them with the Immigrant Song playing #aesthetic

I know that Fenris is basically a giant zombie wolf, but there’s a part of my brain (the largest part. like 85% of it) that’s going PUPPER!!! WHO’S A GOOD DOGGO???

Okay, I know I already said stuff about Valkyrie, but that stride down the rainbow bridge with explosions in the background and her just absolutely destroying those zombies?? #aesthetic

Also, I thought I had reached peak gay after watching Wonder Woman, but then Tessa Thompson happened.

Loki doing his knife flip and Valkyrie swinging her sword #reasonsi’mpan

I love circular prophecies so much, but also: 1) what happens to the rest of the stuff in the vault? like the tesseract or the casket of ancient winters? the tesseract’s an infinity stone, so it’s not going to be destroyed by the explosion right? 2) I’m not entirely sure if this is comics or mcu, but isn’t Asgard necessary to the stabilty of the other realms? what’s going to happen to the other ones now that Asgard is literally dust??

Other things I love in this movie: Thor finally learning to not always blindly trust Loki, every single rock paper scissors pun, Hulk being a giant cranky adorable toddler. 

Things I dislike about this movie: why on earth did you cut the bisexual Valkyrie scene???,  @marvel give us the goddamn hug that we’ve been waiting for since the first Thor!!!!

Is that a skrull ship? Or Thanos’ ship? Or the Guardians/someone related to them??? Uggggghhhh, I need the official Infinity War trailer already (like I haven’t watched the leaked version like a dozen times)

Also, Taika Waititi directed one of my *other* favorite movies, What We Do in the Shadows, so that’s another reason why I like Ragnarok so much. (Also that it’s super colorful, has no bullshit romance, has an interesting plot and characters that aren’t ooc...)

[joestrummen]

Watching X-Men

It feels narcissistic to post liveblogs a lot of the time I watch stuff, but then even when I had no friends I used to write these things in me diary. I was a sad kid...

Did I learn about evolution from X-Men I stg

Damn this labour camp scene used to fuck me up (I remember it like I used to watch it over and over)

If the presentation of powers is brought on by traumatic events what the fuck happened to Rogue (was kissing that guy the first time it happened?) (Jean said it was heightened emotion, maybe she was just turned on...)

y i k e s I forgot about mutant registration

You think Patrick Stewart hasn't aged and then you see him from ten years ago and damn he had dark eyebrows and smooth skin

Did Charles just look in Magneto's brain? I thought he agreed not to do that?

AW

YEA

BRING ME THE CAGE FIIIIGHTINNNN

MNMNMNMNMN

Oh my God Rogue is so thirsty X'D

I just realised my ultimate dream in life is to impress Wolverine in a cage fight

[head in hands] they put in clanking sound effects when wolverine hit the other guy why did the year 2000 have to happen to good films

if han solo is a butch icon can logan be one too i stg these bootcut jeans, the big brown cowboy leather belt, the ... whatever the fuck his hair is im wilding

im literally losing my shit every time he's on screen im fucking dying he's in that leather jacket that cigar end me END ME

two queers clocking each other in a shitty dive bar YES

wolverine's life as a metaphor for the cycle of poverty that being queer traps you in

(and one thing that mutants and queers have that jewish people don't is ostracision for their family, which can have impacts for isolation and poverty) (correct me if i'm wrong)

wolverine dresses like a dyke im losing my shit

can someone explain to me what is the fuck wolverine's hair

omfg he's such a grumpy goofball

I always loved Rogue's magicka coat

She is fucking wild omfg u chase that man omfg

being like fuck off im not helping, driving away 50m, and then being compelled to stop is Everything I Look For In A Character (am i being like a reylo like if he hadnt she would have straight up died idk)

and now he's feeding her killlll me

I’m getting kinda philosophical about how I so instinctively loved the tropes in this film and they are STILL sending me wild like what in fresh biological determinism is this

i cant deal wiht every single got damn second between wolv and rogue every inch of me is ascending to a higher plane of id

this film is made of literally every non-sexual kink ive ever had i cant deal with this not at all

uggggghghghghghghgh he was being all uncaring but he fed her and turned on the heater even though she didnt complain about the cold and when she flinched when he nearly touched her he reassured her and now he just told her his name im fuckin dyin larry

wow waking up in that hospital must not have been a fun flashback like experience for wolverine he must fucking hate hospitals

HOly Shit Charles speaking directly into his head while he's that freaked the fuck out is NOt Helping the situation

uggggghhhh oh my god Charles 6000% sees Logan like a son end my entire body I don't neeeed this Wolv and Rogue is bad enough fuuuck

also lol @ Charles holding a supervision what a Cambs boy

oh my god baby logan is only 15 years old

and i stg if charles promised not to look in people's heads because he is all up in logan's business

oh shit add amnesia to the list

wolverine is so protective of rogue enddd me

BOBBY HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO PERFECT MAKING AN ICE ROSE LIKE WHAT A PLAYA HE IS RIGHT IN THERE

'when i was 17 i met a young man named erik lensherr. he too had an unusual power' this is literally a description of meeting the first other gay man in your life (and/or falling for them)

im still unsure about magneto as a radical activist (is that the word)

lol can i blame this on the troubles again. i cant find anyone who's activism incites and escalates violence to be a good or productive thing.

I love that Jean Grey is the kind of woman that Logan is into

WHO wrROTE the flirting in this film they are all creeps omfg

If Logan is in a different timeline then I could correct his behaviour to be actually like a radical activist, though that would take some research

Wtf Charles theyre talking about a register it would be exactly like getting a number tattooed on your forearm

McKellen is reeeally giving me a Ben Whishaw vibe

If Magneto is a good guy why didn't he just recruit her instead of kidnapping and planning to kill her. Wouldn't it be much more fascinating if he had recruited her. Maybe in the fix it timeline he did.

'If you were really so righteous, it'd be you in that thing.' too right wolv

awwwww wolverine you lil self sacrificing fluff ball

So in the fix it verse I'll have Wolverine blame Magneto for Rogue's death or something and Magneto will be like she came by choice and wolv will be like she was fifteen