#i felt compelled to share it

[spookyllamatree]

I got accepted back into grad school to do my PhD!!!! I've literally been crying with happiness since I found out.

I feel like the horror of working a 9-5 (because honestly it is horror for me) is finally done 😭😭😭 there's light at the end of the tunnel. I've been working at my new job for less than two months and I'm already struggling really hard, and I feel like I can't let anyone know because I'm afraid they'll fire me if they think my mental illness is affecting my productivity (since that happened at my last job.....). Like it's gotten bad to the point where I've barely been able to be on tumblr, I haven't been able to read fanfic (!!!), when I do I'm struggling to leave comments. Everything feels too hard, even engaging with things I like and that calm me down.

I told my friend going back to school makes me feel like I get to go back to being myself and I realized it's because I mask way less at school. They can't fire me for being neurodivergent/mentally ill there, I can be myself 😭😭😭

I didn't even know I had this weight on my chest but it's lifted. I really didn't think I'd get in anywhere.

This is my second choice school, so I'll wait to see if my first choice accepts me, but I'm still so happy 😭😭

[faggotinni]

argentinian football player miku by @Ag_TheMatambre on twitter

[pirateprincessjess]

When I was a child I was struggling at school, and I was unhappy, so my parents started taking me to a therapist. I ended up telling this therapist that I wanted to be a girl. I hadn’t heard the term transgender yet, but I knew I wasn’t a boy.

This therapist told me that it was a fetish. It was my first time hearing the word fetish. She told me that wanting to be a girl was something bad that I should be ashamed of. I was told not to tell my parents because they would be disgusted, and that if anyone found out it could ruin my life.

I held onto that shame for a decade until my senior year of high school when a transgender student started going to my school. I never met her, but I saw her around, and heard people talk about her. This was a transwoman living her life openly and publicly. She was doing the very thing that I was told would ruin my life, but her life didn’t seem ruined. She had friends, and seemed happy. Happier than me.

A year later in October 2013 DC comics published Batgirl #19 by Gail Simone. In this issue Batgirl’s roommate Alysia Yeoh came out to batgirl as a transwoman. Batgirl was so loving and accepting in that moment. My favorite superhero didn’t see anything wrong with being transgender. I sat at my computer reading peoples reactions and reviews to this comic for hours. I sent the author an anonymous message on tumblr thanking her for helping me find the strength to love myself.

I still had a long way to go before I was able to come out, but these things helped me start to heal. This is why visibility and representation are so important. Seeing another trans person in real life, and seeing trans people in the media I was consuming helped me be less afraid, and helped me hate myself less. In october 2019 I started HRT at 25 years old. Nearly 5 years later I’m happier than ever, and I love life.

[ruushes]

was going through old art and remembered i had a phase of trying to paint my weird dreams, this one kind of rules actually?

[gotta-big-ego]

Mark's Only Fans, but it's just Mark dressing up as his egos and does random domestic household things i.e. Dark cooking dinner, Wilford doing laundry, The Host reading a book

[trentskis]

[sarabethsilver]

GIF by literatigifs

Obsessed with the way Jess licks his lips after saying this.

[jeanmoreaue]

okay sharing how i picture aftg characters below bc I feel like it lol

Neil Josten - i am most unsure about how i picture him lmao but this little boy from the lord of the flies movie has young Neil vibes + this dude in an outfit Neil would not wear on the right has Neil vibes as well

also I've said this before but tennis us open winner Jannik Sinner serves Neil Josten

Kevin is who i have the most definite idea of bc he’s easy to find pinterest references for bc all pinterest references are gonna be unrealistically hot and with Kevin that works perfectly so here’s that hot hockey player everyone thirsts after Michal Mrazik

and then I also am convinced that Shohei Ohtani serves Kevin Day vibes (record-breaking baseball player/arguably top player of all time, hot, he even had a career changing arm injury and made a massive comeback + had a very public drama with his "lifelong best friend" who stole a ton of his money lol sorry Shohei) and bonus: Shohei Ohtani with his equally talented basketball player wife Mamiko Tanaka (Thea)

for Jeremy this random dude from a Yale ad is a little too hot, but very close to how i picture Jeremy but yes also i’ve been convinced by everyone’s Damon Albarn idea lmao

i can’t find one person in particular who looks like Jean, but here is a "actors who if all combined would probably look like Jean to me" moodboard:

[neixins]

hm. i apparently have an unpopular opinion about yona’s decision during her conversation with hiryuu…… like. obviously she’s motivated by the desire to save her friends—she loves them and cares about them deeply and is scared of losing them—and there’s some selfishness in that (on a more facetious note though, god forbid teenage girls do anything i guess…). but the interpretation of her decision as selfish to the point of cruelty and/or naïveté just doesn’t sit right with me. like there is no solution to the conundrum she was presented with that doesn’t involve tragedy. and i’m never, ever letting anyone forget that jaeha, gija, and sinha were never given a choice regarding zeno’s whole murder-suicide plan, and they don’t regret being alive, so wouldn’t changing the past and effectively erasing them from existence (when they already have no agency atm!!!!) be so much more cruel? wouldn’t discarding two millennia worth of lives, regardless of how painful they’d been, be so much more cruel? does a life lived not matter because there was suffering?

and yona values life, even when it hurts, so she was never gonna make a different choice, and i just don't think that that's extremely selfish or naïve of her; the dragon warriors are not just vessels for the gods, they're people, and they don't deserve to be erased because the gods don't care about the pain they cause, and she can't confront the gods in the dream realm, she has to do it in her present which can't exist if she changes it! (also on a purely narrative level, any other choice would've basically rendered 40+ volumes of the story pointless.) and besides, it's more interesting to focus on trying to make things better rather than rewriting the past, and she'll have to sacrifice something to save everyone (the part of her that's a reincarnation of hiryuu, obviously, and possibly something more) which will even things out anyway.

[justghoulythingz]

“Y’make a habit ‘a sittin’ on old fellas’ laps, huh? Or maybe them youngins are jus’ too polite t’put you in your place.” Warm breath caresses your ear, breezing through your hair. “There’s a nice spot on the floor in front ‘a me. ‘S got a couple l’il dents that match the knobs ‘a your knees.” Forcefully, he bounces one leg, and you have no choice but to bounce with it. Hmmm.

“What are you waitin’ for, dumplin’? Permission?”

[drinkinggblood]

Frogs

[onedoors]

YUGO TAKANO photographed by PARK SANGJUN

[aropride]

[read-write-thrive]

point I would like to add to the Charles’s earring is a star or cross debate: there is no way an all boys school was chill with him having an earring at all but I do think it would be hilarious to say he only got away with it because it’s a cross

[rascalentertainments]

Dario: "Say, just out of curiosity....are there any stargirls up there?"

Star: "Oh yeah, lots of them! I even hanged out with a few of them when I traveled."

Asha:

Sharing a draft for a later chapter

@oh-shtars @tumblingdownthefoxden @your-ne1ghbor @chillwildwave

@kenihewa @ishadow246 @signed-sapphire @uva124

@snackara @spectator-zee

[bread--quest]

sometimes when i'm doing a Less Than Ideal Activity, like standing up on public transit wrapping an elbow around a pole and trying not to fall over, or trying to pull my head as far within my coat as it will physically go to protect me from the wind, or trying to motivate myself to go shower and not just fall onto my bed and go to sleep in my work clothes after a particularly long shift, it comforts me to find some solidarity in history. like, think of people in 1940s new york, trying to juggle their purchases and waiting to hear the name of their stop. think of people in victorian london turning up their coat collar and hurrying home. think of all the workers in all the years who've been so relieved to get home and clean up. and it makes it a little easier to get through. and maybe im extra happy to see my front door when i reach it. and maybe i take a moment to be grateful to have indoor plumbing and hot water. and maybe i wave the people sitting down next to me off the bus first when it arrives. and it just helps a little, i think.