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peanut-in-the-goal · 4 years ago

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I just want you to be happy

Ahh Hi :) Here’s another O’Knutzy post because I don’t want to write my essay @kielemarie O’Knutzy angst as promised. Thank You for beta @cute-little-mousie! ok here’s like, almost 1.2k of angst. Characters by @lumosinlove

Finn and Logan come back to the apartment to the sound of low sobs. Worriedly they glanced at each other before dropping their bags and rushing to the cause of the sound. They pass through the kitchen, noticing the burned broccoli on the stove, still in the pan. Logan takes note of the disheveled couch and blankets on top of it. The TV was left on, paused on what Logan thinks is the news.

Of course, Logan realized. Leo. He was the only one home. Oh god was he hurt? Was he okay? Was he safe?

“Leo?” Finn asked softly, knocking on his door. They got no response other than the sobs quieting a considerable amount. “Leo?’ Finn called again, a little louder this time. They could hear his breath shaking he tried to gain control of them.

“Can we come in? Please? Leo s'il te plait parle-nous.” Logan said. Trying to keep the panic out of his voice he added, “Don’t shut us out. Please love.” He went to open the door, unlocked he noticed.

“Leo we’re coming in.”

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*Ding*

Leo smiled and checked his phone. It was another text from his boys. They had sent a picture of Logan kissing Finn on the cheek. “Miss you,” it said. Leo couldn’t help the way that it warmed his heart, he smiled. He took a long breath in, holding it, before letting it out.

He loved getting texts from his boys, especially when they were out of town. It was reassuring for him when they texted him. Like it was a reminder that they still wanted him around, that they still loved him.

Honestly, he knew that wasn’t the case, he knew they loved him. He loved them, just sometimes there was this voice. This nagging voice that tells him he isn’t good enough. Finn and Logan go way back, they have a history together. They went to college together for crying out loud. Part of him wonders why he thought this would ever work. Of course, they’d pick each other over him.

All the times he’s woken up to them cuddled around each other, or when he had gotten home they’d be laying on each other on the couch, watching TV. Always seemed to be near each other, inseparable. He hated the pull he felt in his chest. The way he was letting that voice win, and believing it.

Leo could feel the sob building in the back of his throat, tears welling in his eyes.

“Merde,” he silently curses. He reaches out to brace himself with his arms on the counter, tears slipping silently down his cheeks. He lets out a sob and can feel himself crumbling. Slowly he sits against the cabinets sliding down to sit on the floor.

He knows he shouldn’t feel this way, he knows he can trust them, but still, just the thought of the two boys he loves abandoning him starts a whole new wave of tears.

Slowly, with tears tracks drying on his cheeks, he gets up turns the stove off, deciding he wasn’t going to eat tonight. His appetite was gone. He blindly navigates himself into his bedroom. Closing the door behind him, forgetting to lock it.

What feels like hours, but was only mere minutes pass, he hears the knocking and soft calls of Finn and Logan. He doesn’t know how to respond, how does he tell them? The two boys that love him and accept him, that he’s afraid of them abandoning him. How he could believe they could ever hurt him.

So he doesn’t respond, instead, clenching his jaw, trying to control the hitching in his breath. He doesn’t know what to do with this feeling, He is so unbelievably grateful that he has these two amazing boys that are here to help him, and to care for him, but at the same time, he doesn’t think he’ll be able to take, if or when they decide they don’t want him anymore. He doesn’t think he’d be able to live with himself knowing he did something that made them not want him.

His breathing picks up again, and he hears the door creak open.

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Finn’s breath catches when he opens the door.

Leo’s laying in bed with his duvet pulled up and around his shoulders. His face is wet and blotchy, tear tracks on his cheeks. He startles when he sees them and immediately goes to wipe at his face.

“Baby,” Finn breathes. He and Logan seem to be snapped out of their trance and rush over to the bed.

“Leo? Mon chou, qu’est-ce qui ne va pas?” Logan asked, cradling his face in his hands. His thumbs wiped at the tears, as he leaned forward to place a soft kiss to his forehead.

“Knut,” Finn sounded sad, his big brown eyes swimming in confusion and concern and love. Leo’s lips trembled, both of his hands coming to cover his mouth as he let out another sob.

“I— I’m sorry,” he stuttered, squeezing his eyes closed. “I—,” he broke off, his breath catching.

“Shh,” Finn soothed, rubbing circles on his back. “Breathe Leo.”

Leo took a few shaky breaths, focusing on hands cupping his face. Slowly he blinked open his eyes, meeting the green ones in front of him.

“What’s wrong?” Logan prompted softly.

Leo’s eyes flickered between Logans and Finns, noting the way they danced in the light. It hurt him to think that he wouldn’t get to look at them all the time one day.

Carefully he put his hands over Logans and pushed them away. Logan’s breath hitched and let his arms hang down by his sides.

“I-if you w-want me to leave, I’ll l-leave,” Leo mumbled, looking at his lap.

“What?” Finn exasperated, his eyes going wide. “Leo we don’t want you to leave! D-do you want to leave?” he added, almost as if it was an afterthought.

Leo’s head snapped up to look at him, his head shaking frantically.

“N-no. No! I just want you to be happy… even if it isn’t with me.” he said. He was crying hard again.

“Leo,” Logan said softly, going to stroke a hand in his hair. Tears were threatening to fall from the corners of his eyes. “Je suis content. Tu rends me heureuse.”

Leo looked up with a watery smile.

“Really? Y-you really want me?”

Finn made a low, sad sound from the back of his throat.

“Leo… Why would you even think that? We want you. We love you. We need you.”

Leo looked at him, eyes flitting over his face.

“Why?” He asked, almost to quite to hear. Another sob ripped its way from his throat. “W-why do you even l-love me?” he stuttered.

“What?!” Logan all but yelled. “Leo! Que volez-vous dire? Je t’aime. Nous t’aimons. Don’t doubt that for a minute. Okay?” He ran his thumb over Leo’s trembling bottom lip, and then down his jaw. He pressed a hard, firm kiss to his lips, before repeating the question. “Okay? Tu comprends?”

Leo nodded his head, a smile tugging at his lips and Finn pulled him into a hug.

“Oui, I understand.” He pulled Logan in to join the hug. “Thank you, mes amours.”

#O'Knutzy #Coast to Coast #c2c #SW #Sweater Weather #Leo knut #logan tremblay #finn o'hara #lumosinlove #GG writes

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ill-be-istj-if-no-one-else-is · 4 years ago

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Peace! It's nice to meet you, fellow mbti person! I'm so glad to have stumbled upon an ISTJ who is into typology! I have a request. I typed Elsa from Frozen in a post (I'll tag you) and I argued that she is not an ISTJ. I wanted to know what you thought, particularly if I made any mistakes in understanding the ISTJ personality type. Thank you so much in advance! I hope it's not too much of a bother. I'm an INTP btw.

Hi,

I want to start out with the following: for anyone reading, do not make a habit of having me analyze your posts about fictional characters. I am happy to help you type yourself, or answer questions about MBTI. However, in case it was not clear from the fact that I have only typed fictional characters in response to direct questions, that my answers have typically been very brief, and that I’ve repeatedly directed people to blogs that specifically focus on character typing, I’m not really interested. I should note: I had fun because I love picking up my metaphorical red pen and writing “wrong” over every other sentence, but it did also take me like an hour and a half and it’s over 3 pages long, and I don’t have time to do that regularly.

With all that said, the post had sufficient issues with both basic logical argument structure (I would very strongly recommend you revisit that INTP typing of yourself and look at something with high Fe instead) as well as understanding of MBTI that, because you asked directly, I will go through said issues. I want to make it very clear: this is going to be harsh. For both that and for the length I’m putting it below a read-more such that if you were looking for a brief thumbs up or down and not for extensive criticism, you are welcome to ignore it, block me, or whatever is best for you.

Basic argument structure: you open repeatedly with the most subjective arguments - that she gives off Fi and Ni vibes and you don’t see the Si in her. This will convince no one but yourself.

This argument is also mostly focused on “other people think this, but I don’t” which I find is only useful in a process of elimination argument. We’ll get to the final typing eventually but it is generally stronger to argue in favor of what you believe and then address potential disagreement rather than the reverse; by the time you get to ISFP I’ve read so many incorrect assumptions and subjective asides that I’ve long since stopped valuing the analysis of the work.

Issues with the ISTJ argument

(note: I have, and continue to type Elsa as an ISTJ so this will be the longest section in that I’m both pointing out flaws and arguing in favor of ISTJ; the rest will be solely focused on MBTI misconceptions or logical fallacy).

While it’s true people often mistake trauma for Si, this argument seems to equate trauma with being stuck in the past (people can just be stuck in the past without trauma for whatever other reason - it’s not healthy but it does not necessarily indicate literal trauma). There is also a false opposition here: It’s absolutely valid to argue that Elsa is traumatized, but that does not preclude her having Si, merely removes one argument in favor of Si.

You define Si (gathering concrete details to understand what to expect) but don’t actually argue why Elsa doesn’t do this. I’d argue, in opposition to the statement later in this paragraph, that she does. She is aware from the past that her abilities can harm her sister. She is aware from her past that when she avoided Anna, Anna was safe. She hasn’t been happy with the “conceal don’t feel” line, but it has achieved her goals and her expectation is that she’ll hurt someone if she stops following it.

If you’re referring to an Si-Fi loop (wallowing in self-pity), it doesn’t use Te since that’s how loops work. You don’t explicitly say this is in the context of looping although you introduce looping in the second sentence, but if you are referring to a loop this is incorrect. It’s true that ISTJs are often likely to use Si (preference for familiar/existing structures) and an Fi understanding of morality to direct their energies when they wish to change something (ie, they will change things through existing channels) but the focus on speaking out about injustice here is much more in line with enneagram 1 - a very common enneatype for ISTJs and an enneatype that’s rare for any non-TJ types, but not the enneatype I’d give Elsa nor an inherent ISTJ trait itself.

The part about self-discipline is mixed - a lot of ISTJs are very disciplined in certain areas (particularly professional/familial) but can neglect the self (not getting enough exercise/not eating well, not addressing burnout or more emotional issues) and I’d argue again, Elsa shows this: she’s not addressing the fact that she’s lonely and miserable, but she’s highly disciplined with regards to concealing her abilities and avoiding Anna even though it’s the very thing making her lonely and miserable.

I don’t necessarily think Let It Go is indicative of an Ne grip, but one can make changes outside of a grip, so this isn’t a useful argument, as it argues why an Ne grip is wrong, not why ISTJ is wrong - I would merely argue she’s not gripping at that time. Which is a general issue here: the argument you provide in this paragraph isn’t arguing against ISTJ, it’s arguing against other people’s arguments for ISTJ, which is an important distinction.

The final paragraph of the ISTJ section has numerous issues: ISTJs are not rebellious. They are not as resistant to change as stereotypes indicate, but even a healthier version of ISTJ Elsa would be unlikely to rebel and rather try to understand her parents’ argument, research other options, or look for a way to gain control over her powers while still working within the normal hierarchy. I addressed self-discipline (I should add: I don’t think a child/young woman having difficulty controlling magical powers with no training is an argument against self-discipline; my argument for self-discipline is that she stays in her room and away from her sister despite clearly hating it). It is also, to be blunt, mind-boggling that you (correctly) argue that trauma responses are not inherently Si but then refer to obsessive-compulsive behaviors as Si when that’s also a medical disorder completely divorced from the MBTI framework. Finally, her continuing to follow an order from her parents after they die is first, quite literally the definition of self-discipline (she’s the queen; no one else is going to discipline her for it, after all) and second, entirely in line with Si (this is what she has always done and it’s not great but it works) and is, arguably, if not medically obsessive-compulsive, an obsessive need to follow a compulsion. To be clear: this isn’t healthy ISTJ behavior, but since you’ve acknowledged grips and loops here I think an unhealthy interpretation of the type is very much on the table. You say her behavior is more in line with F types; it’s not and you don’t explain why.

If I may it seems as though, much in line with the argument here being against other arguments but ultimately not debunking the typing, your arguments against MBTI stereotypes focus on what’s incorrect but they tend to merely swing the pendulum to the opposite side (eg, that ISTJs are likely to rebel, in opposition to the stereotype that they’d mindlessly follow orders) rather than find the more nuanced middle ground of how people of a type or with a certain function behave.

Issues with the INFJ and INFP sections:

Ne users can and frequently do go out into the world; simply because Ne can be engaged without external physical stimulation doesn’t mean it never is. I’m also not really a fan of reading being classified as a strictly introverted pursuit; that’s falling into a pretty significant stereotype trap. Going out and exploring is a thing anyone can do but if anything I’d either associate that more strongly with high sensing (either Si or Se) or with extroversion.

My biggest issue here is the implication that searching for a meaning for existence or a purpose is in itself an indicator of Ni. This is just the human condition. If you’re going to argue that Si users are driven to rebel against injustice I don’t see how you can miss that that might in turn be driven by a belief that this is their purpose. Perhaps Si-Ne users aren’t as invested in having a single purpose, but wondering why you are on this earth and what it is you are here to do is just being a person, and to be blunter than I have been, I am struggling to understand how there has been so much effort made earlier to push away from stereotypes to the point of overcompensation in the opposite direction and then when it comes to the idea that only Ni users have a desire for meaning in life you just accept it without question.

Issues with the ISFP section:

At this point I’ve probably covered most of them though I’d like to point out that I don’t think there was an argument ever made explicitly for introversion; while the structure of the earlier arguments and focus on debunking was, as stated, flawed, I would at least round it out by eliminating ESFP as an option.

The argument here rests heavily on Let it Go, which is interesting because most of the terrible arguments for Elsa being an intuitive also rested squarely on that same brief if admittedly pivotal section of a full movie; in attempting to differentiate itself from those arguments it has in fact replicated the most significant flaws. Anyway, I’ve addressed that I don’t personally think Let it Go being indicative of a grip is how I’d argue for ISTJ, so that becomes invalid; I’ve tried to focus more on issues with logic MBTI than the contents of the movie but I’d add that “she was happy” is open to interpretation and her emotional state was probably fairly complicated. Relieved, sure, but she’s still ultimately isolated. (Also while mentally singing Let it Go, I realized that here’s that rebellion you were asking for in the ISTJ section).

You also outright say that when Elsa tries to reassert control it’s through Te. Yeah. That’s what a high Te user does. An ISTJ in a grip would indeed use Ne, but in quite literally any other circumstance (looping or just existing as an ISTJ not in a grip or loop) would reassert control via Te, so again, your argument does not sufficiently eliminate that Elsa is an ISTJ, just that she’s not a gripping ISTJ, which I’d agree with.

“She acts out when she is stressed and makes bad decisions” is also the human condition (and why I’ve frequently on my blog argued very strongly against typing via stress behaviors, because in the end most people...act out and make bad decisions when stressed), so this isn’t useful as an argument for anything.

In conclusion: multiple misconceptions about Ni and Si; no argument that I could find presented for high Fi, just Fi in general; inconsistency regarding whether or not Elsa rebels, and an overall reliance not on making a new argument but on arguing why other arguments were wrong. Given the title of the post you asked me to analyze I have to (admittedly this is extremely cynical of me) wonder if there was an underlying goal to come up with a typing that was different from commonly accepted arguments, rather than to simply type for its own sake.

#mbti #character typing #istj #seireinocookies

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funkymbtifiction · 5 years ago

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Hi guys! I I'm an ENXP and I was looking for some advice about knowing myself better. I saw the mods are ENPs and maybe you guys could help me. I recently noticed a pattern regarding my own actions that is basically ruining my life. I seem to rely too much on my Ne, specially about my future and my career. I'm ruled by a need of pursuing anything that catches my attention in a determined moment. I obsess over it for a while and then move on. I've changed my major 4 times now. Every activity I do is temporary. And if I don't find something I can obsess over I get depressed and bored. Anyways, I think this has led me to not trust myself anymore, since I can't commit to anything because I lose interest in everything and I'm always looking for new possibilities. I have reached a point where I can't allow myself to pursue everything I want and I have to make decisions and commit. But I'm too scared to become trapped and take responsibility for my own decisions. I think this would be easier if I knew myself better, but I don't think I know who I am besides my own random interests, which is weird I guess. How can I develop my own Fi? Or Ti? How do you guys deal with your dominant Ne? How do you commit to things? I'm 23 by the way. Shouldn't I have developed some Fi or Ti or something by now? I turned to mbti because I wanted to gain a better understanding of myself but holy shit this is hard. I could only recognize my dominant Ne. All this self analysis seems useless if I don't really know myself, I realized I'm not self aware at all. So anyways, as fellows Ne doms how did you guys developed your auxiliary functions? Any advice will be amazing! Thank you guys for everything you do here!

The first thing you need to do is recognize is you are an Enneagram 7 and all of this is ‘normal’ for them in lower health levels. To overcome this, you have to ‘grow up’ as a 7 and stop allowing fear of commitment or quick loss of focus from dominating your life. You have control over yourself, you are not utterly helpless to your whims (said the Fi user who has a moral tone of ‘you make your own choices and messes and you have to get out of them’ ;).

7s have to learn to be open to the scary idea of commitment to reap the dividends of hard work.

Read the 7 profile and see how allowing yourself to ‘run away’ from commitment (which includes not finishing or devoting yourself to any project) can hinder your life. Once you recognize WHAT you are doing, and WHY you are doing it, you can develop the power to STOP YOURSELF from doing it, or from allowing ‘excuses’ or fear to run you away from good things.

ENTP Mod. : Charity is right. Here is also where the judging functions come into play. With Fi, you can eventually weed out that which you aren't personally passionate about/ those goals which don't align with your personal values. With Ti, you can see a chain reaction of the patterns in your life, and determine the most effective path to help yourself using logic to streamline your processes, make it more elegant.

Slow the hell down. Force yourself to stop running toward the future and live right now. Repeat the mantra of ‘right now is all that matters today’ a 100 times an hour if you have to. Be present. Be invested. Bring yourself into ‘now.’

My co-mod is a 7w6 ENTP who suffers from a lot of the same issues; I will nudge her to offer her two cents to this post, in regards as to what she is currently doing about it. Basically, she had to talk herself into getting a permanent job rather than talking herself out of it. Once she got into it, she realized it didn’t suck as much as she feared. Her brain is her own worst enemy.

I had to talk myself into this job. I gave myself lots of reasons why I would love it. It might sound a little unrealistic going in with pre set expectations but at least you will not go in blind. Making a pros cons list is always a good idea. It helps to sift through your multiple ideas, and narrow down the ones which can really work. Test out the feasibility of your ideas, opportunities before hand. Talk to people, do your research. Just remember that things will never be as bad or boring as you think them to be. This is a cliche but something which helps me in the mornings when I know I have boring work to do is "Get up, dress up, show up. Never give up." Also it helps to live from day to day. Don't worry too far into the future, you never know what variables might upset your plans.

Work-wise, a 7 needs to travel, get the ‘high’ of meeting new people, and not to be involved in sheer detail-driven grunt work. They need challenges to work toward and obstacles to overcome. Pick a career that offers you all of that. If you do not, you will have a string of 6 months at ___ jobs that do not look good on your resume. Find a career in something that you feel passionate about, that offers some kind of mental stimulation.

ENTP 7 co-mod is an attorney who loves to find ways to ‘get around things’ in the law.

ENTP Mod. note: Always try to remember the root of your passion when you feel like defecting from one option to another. If you must leave, leverage what you have learned in one place and how you can dress that up to make your hopping about look good. That's what I did, and it worked for me. Some of the reasons I love my job are the constant intellectual stimulation, creative aspects of it, my love for criminology pays off, meeting interesting people. Sure there are sucky days when you have to deal with the bureaucratic demons. But that won't be every day. Unless your role requires you to do something like it. In which case I would suggest that you avoid picking up detail heavy, low Si or adherence related work which will make you feel miserable and frustrated. Try to pick something that plays to your strengths, improve your weaknesses. Compete with nobody but yourself. Every day you are better than you were, yesterday. Even with a little effort. It is important to not give up. It is so hard for 7s but we have the gift of rationalizing. So instead of using it as a mechanism to justify dropping things, use it to tell yourself why you should stick around. You as a 7 can make most things fun. So find little tricks and ways to make the work day fun. Whether it is achieving small, impactful targets or making games out of small, low stakes things. Also, having money and being able to live nicely is fun. Nobody is gonna pay you if they think that their money will be wasted on training you if your pattern is just leaving jobs. It took me a long time to develop this perspective but I am glad I did.

I (ENFP 6w5 sp/so) chose a career in magazine editing, because it gives me time to do what I actually love, which is write novels. I’m afraid I can’t give you advice from my own life that would work for you, because a 6w5 sp/so is far more focused and driven to finish their projects than a 7w6, which means I push through ‘the boring, tedious bits’ of projects regardless of how ‘excited’ I am. It’s not fun to edit a book 7 times, but I still do it. I force myself to show up to work, to sit there for 3 or 4 hours, and commit to X amount of words, pages, etc.

Do you think it’s “fun” for me always to keep this queue stocked, or to type up characters at the end of a long day because the queue is low? Or go back and update old profiles and move them from this blog onto wordpress? No. I hate it sometimes. It’s boring as hell. But I committed to it, I will see it through, even though looking into my “to update” folder makes me want to scream. I tackle huge projects one step at a time. I’m disciplined but I can procrastinate at work, rather than doing whatever needs doing.

Which really is the bottom line. You want to finish things? Just do them. Force yourself to show up and do the work, even if it’s “boring.” Most of life isn’t fun. Paying the bills isn’t fun. You do boring stuff to make a living, so you can have the money to do fun things. If you do not learn to do it, whether or not it is fun, you will wind up ‘stuck at home this month, because I have no money.’

That frustrates a 7 even more than being bored at work.

Accept that your fear of commitment is a fear-driven lie.

You are not going to get trapped by committing to something or someone. Head types massively over-think things and allow fear – in the 7’s case of “missing out” on better things – to dominate their life. Admit it’s fear. Admit that allowing fear to ruin your entire life is stupid. Then do something against the fear. Do the thing fear tells you not to: commit and work at it. Fight the urge every day to leave. Stick it out, and prove you ‘can’ to yourself.

Middle functions. You’re in college so you should be seeing either some Ti analyzing or Te “buckle down and set goals and get this schoolwork finished by the deadline” kicking in. Are you more inclined to self-doubt and beat yourself up like a young FiTe user after ‘failing’ to organize your time efficiently or to make excuses and blame external circumstances like a young TiFe user?

My Fi has always been strongly evident, though I didn’t know what it was at the time. Things that set off a NOPE response in me vs. the ‘rest of everything, which I don’t care about.’ The intense sensitivity as a child. The compassion for other people and especially for small animals. The understanding of emotional dynamics and how people ‘feel.’ The constant angst between caring too much about people’s feelings and being low Te blunt or rude when I’m having an off day. The ‘going away from everyone’ to deal with my feelings in private. I have always fiercely, Fi-ishly known what I like and do not like, and have no ability to ‘tolerate’ things that I do not like. Once, I didn’t like half the people seated at my table at a public event, so I shut down completely and did not say a word to anyone at the table for two hours. My Fe friend also hated them, but smiled and charmed them all. Lucky girl. She can fake her feelings. I can’t.

- ENFP Mod

#enneagram #enneagram 7 #enfp #entp #mbti #7w6 #entp mod

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redefiningthirtysomething · 5 years ago

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My friend and I started a Spanglish Podcast - Rollos De Amor_Podcast.

Mar: Y como dijo Maria Felix: “Si uno está guapo por dentro naturalmente se refleja y embellece el exterior”

Gracias a todos for joining us today. This is our first official episode and we are very excited to share it with you. We figured a little laugh might just be the thing to get our minds off the Coronavirus Pandemic. (I still can't believe this is a thing)

On today’s episode we will talk about Las Conchas Amargadas. A qué nos referimos cuando decis, Conchas Amargadas AKA bitter ass people (Laugh) simplemente es una mujer amargada. Una mujer amargada no es ni fea ni bonita, but I feel que una mujer que es así es porque.

1. Es infeliz

2. La han dañado

Y todos la conocemos, alguien que no es feliz, que no apoya a otras mujeres. She is just never happy for anyone or anything. She always has something negative to say. And actually goes out of her way to be a bitch. Ella es alguien en nuestra familia, a co-worker, even a close friend. Mmmm huh tú sabes de quien estoy hablando y si te quedo bien el saco, hoy venimos a rescatarte de tu amargadez hehehe.

La persona que es amargada was not always this way. Something happened that turned them into this person. Some are stuck blaming other people because they couldn't or didn't go after their dreams. Some of them may be sick, maybe they have a health issue that is causing them unhappiness, which I understand. Pero qué culpa tiene la gente ? but, you don't really know unless you are in their shoes. If you feel like you have mood changes and don't know why, I suggest going to see your PCP … aver que está pasando contigo.

Let’s talk about what Psychologist say as to why women have develop into such haters:

Theory #1

Women do Indirect aggression/relational aggression

Gossiping

Public Humiliation

Insinuating Comments

Divulging Secrets

Sabotaging each other

Undermining.

Betrayal

Lying to one another

Compete

Such behaviors are formed because when we were little girls, everyone had a playing field that was leveled.

Fast forward 20 years. You see the same girls trying to keep the playing field leveled.

Theory #2

Psychology Today states:

That’s it is instinctual to protect our wombs, our desire to procreate.

Feminist Psychology states:

That we are competing for Men’s attention to procreate

We are condition/programmed to believe that if you get yours. I won’t get mine.

5 Reasons Women Betray Each Other

Self Hatred

We do not honor ourselves

We don't honor our relationships

We seek external validation “Comparison is an act of violence against the self”

We mimic what we’ve seen in the pass (mother, aunt, friends)

We hold unrealistic demands. - pass friends making things that did not include your significant others.

Fear we are not enough

Prove our Worth “Hard to be a Queen Among Queens”

For personal gain

Ego driven fears and beliefs.

I have reflected on the times I have been unkind to other women (running).

Social media bullies. I hate social media bullies. But, generally it’s because they feel brave sitting behind the little screen, you can't see them. Anyone can change their identity online and it’s easy to be mean. These are people who are haters, porque? Because they're amargados.

tips:

Ignore the social media bullies.

Don't give them control of your life

The more you interact them the more fire they get

Don't deal with it. Period.

We have a choice. We can choose to be HAPPY or be bitter, amargada. Acuérdate que ser amargada también es mal para tu salud.

Tips for a happy life:

Decide that you and only you are accountable for your life

You can make a change in your life at any time you want, you just have to take the first step

No todo es eterno

Accept was it is

Attitude is everything

Read books on personal development. I love those.

Mindset and focus on improving yourself

Establish warm harmonious relationships with women 1 by 1. Get to know them and do small favors for each other.

Forgive yourself, in the way you treated other women, you must in other to be a better woman for women - this is very important

Soften the message when speaking to other women (sandwich method- good/bad/good)

Celebrate your friends

Create your chip pile- everyday do small favors or complements to other women.

“The way you achieve your own success is to be willing to help someone else get it first.”

In conclusion Conchi-Fans, it is my opinion que nada más tenemos una vida y hay que disfrutarla al 100, fiero lol. Porque el estar amargados, infeliz esta cabron? O no? Mejor preocupate en quererte mas. No te des por vencida. A Veces hay que pelear por nuestra felicidad. No es fácil, yo entiendo que hay conflictos en la vida. Y a veces está fuera de nuestro control. But, I mean … we only really get one chance. Se feliz, feliz como una lombriz. But, if you believe in reincarnation …that’s another story. Look, no judgement. We get it. Some Days we are just fed up. Las mujeres trabajamos bien duro para and we carry out different roles in our lives let's leave the hater one behind us.

Girls who smile and say hello back, thank you for not being an amargada.

What do you guys think?

#podcast #spanish #spanglish #friendships #podcasting #discover

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 years ago

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let's see those Prime Numbers for the ask meme

2) favorite albums?

well i was Ready for kesha’s album Warrior to come out in iiii think it was the end of 2012 or early 2013?? i snuck out to that tour in dc that summer also. totally solid album and it was fun to have something so fun during a totally Not Fun period lol. i was also pretty into owl city at the exact same time lmao, that’s Blatantly for when you’re depressed lol...and i also eventually saw that guy on tour when a new album came out in 2015, and that was fun too, and was Enjoying Myself a factor in the tipping point of “ah jeez i gots 2 get outta here” that i had in the next month? maybe! and uhhh i listened a lot to the phoenix te amo album. that one wasnt tied to anything at all but i have heard it So much. super short and also rock solid and relistenable. and then here we are and the bmc obcr is a gift to the world b/c a) it exists and b) Cuz It All Slaps and c) it’s so fun to either sing or dance along, or cry along if it’s the agtikbi reprise and d) lgw... and e) all the eternal, well-mixed wroland vocals

3) favorite memes?

oh god lmao idk......real earlier 10s stuff was the I Say Hey he-man meme, and the “that really rustles my jimmies” meme which was real underrated......there’s been plenty of Memes where i’ve been like “this one is funny to me Every Time” but of course now looking back on it it’s like. what’s a meme??? Vine

(skipping 5 & 11 cuz that’s the Entirety of someone else’s ask and i don’t wanna just have to scrap theirs completely and i’ll get to it next!!)

11) favorite fanarts?

you know what, there’s continuously been a ton of amazing fanart where i’m like, i’m so glad i’m seeing this, & this is Artistic Fuel, and marge simpson anime has really been just this Standout Experience lmao like......idk for as Inspiring as it is, there’s only a couple things i’ve drawn that are Directly inspired, but i just flip for it all the time and like, it’s supremely expressive and like, comics that aren’t chronological but more like a Collage Of a Moment / Concept which i think is super cool and also i love when stuff reminds me that it doesn’t have to look ~super cleaned up~ to look great.

13) favorite people you know?

oh god this one really got out of control lol i started like, talking about everyone ever from this past decade. so for Convenience i’m interpreting this as “people *i* know, but they don’t know me” so that i can cheat and say will roland, voted person of the year 2019. by extension, essential supporting crew who helped us reach this point, like john simpkins or joe iconis. leave it at that!! it’s 5am and you know i’m not lying. who knew where going “wow, This guy” in late 2018 would have so much Value.

17) a fandom you wish more people were in/you had more people to talk to about?

oof hmm.......amnesia tdd didn’t really have a “fandom” even though it obviously got a lot of attention, it’dve been fun if it had though lol. it’s tricky to answer this one cuz i always prefer like, smaller fandoms and/or finding the Niche or some other way of just like, interacting with a small corner of things, so i’m never like wow god damn wish i’d been absolutely in the thick of it with this thing. i’ve been in Corners n Niches and it’s been fine by me, really

19) a fandom that you had the best time in?

HMM lol.........marble hornets sure was fun but like, a lot of that was just the content itself and not necessarily The Fan Experience, tho i sure got a lot out of it in a ton of ways. i mean tbh that’s true of each thing i’ve really Gotten Into majorly, i go hard af and then walk out the other side with these #connections or #experiences like whoa where’d these come from lol!! but really like, overall, i’m probably having the best time right now. the “fandom” is basically just our agenda lmao but like i said i’m always having the best time when it’s a pretty niche deal, And the sheer variety of Contents n Characters to draw from here is super nice, and the fact that it’s like, oh yeah and i’m finally recognizing this should’ve-been-obvious entire Passionne i’ve had since always, and that’s great too, and like, also just having the Variety Of Live / Current Unfoldings that go down.....like, everyone havin fun with the Joe Iconis Xmas Xtrav was entirely great. and just the Engagement level is basically the best, cuz like there’s the times where maybe i’ll get a zillion notes and that’s definitely fun in its own way but i always enjoy just the way smaller amount of ppl who are Particularly Enthusiastic, and like, there’s times where like, maybe i’m *technically* in this larger circle of ppl but like, totally more of like a Tangent or peripheral to that circle or whatever lol........this feels like a really solid balance of like, being sorta in this orbit of people in a chill way, but also definitely the direct interactions Existing, which is always important lol but hasn’t always been a constant throughout my Fandom Experiences at all

23) who were you at the beginning of this decade?

2009-2010 was a real distinct year lol i was in my second year of college in the middle of my teens, when i’d hardly really been getting to Explore My Interests Freely up to that point and still wasn’t, but all of a sudden it’s like goddamn i have to figure out my major???? and i’m like, obviously in the middle of only just now Really getting to figure out my identity in this deeper and more genuine way, thanks to being lucky enough to Live On Campus and be away from home like, 2/3 of the year, but i was just like, oh god i’m in Stress Hell now all the time cuz like. i’m trying to figure out my whole thing and what my ~Career~ should be and i just have no idea but am like, trying super hard all the time lol it was not successful and i was just really stressed about it all the time. i was def quieter back then.....pretty lonely at the time, i did not get into mh and gain the presence of any Online Friends until late 2010, and i hadn’t yet been sort of accepted by a small faction of theatre people via my roommate’s connections.....i wasn’t at all Out yet, and was def In Progress of figuring it all out.....i didn’t have nearly the Self-Esteem i have now lmao, it was Not a great time and in a lot of ways ‘09-’10 was the start of a downturn into Worse Than Usual Times, though in Other ways it was definitely an upturn lol like. the latter related to stuff that was important to me / who i am, the former tied to the situations i was in and the godawful morale that resulted

29) a time when the worst case scenario happened but you pulled through?

well by the end of 2012 i had my Wrath Parent deluxe mad at me big time, AND i was stuck at home all of thee time with that (not at all hours but. every day.) it was terrible!!! tf was going on in 2013, cuz that shit was definitely like, a gross blur of a lot of indistinct misery. and then, relatedly, when it was so shitty in 2015 that i was like fantastic, i am so officially sick of this i’m outta here. i revisited some Misery Posts from that period lately for someone stranger on twitter’s project or something, and boy i was having a bad time Summer Of ‘15 lol, things not getting better at home And a job that was so shitty that it was like..................bye. lol. and then i spent a year living out of a minivan. which was real lucky in ways b/c like. infinitely better than if i had not had that minivan. and when that broke down i was also then lucky enough to have this friend who was relatively nearby who’d also been willing to just like, set me up to Not have to ask the lgbt center where that trans-friendly forest zone a couple cities over was. nothing as dramatic as it could’ve been, fortunately

31) a time you were scared?

hmmm when leaving The Parents Home overnight, that was intimidating. bit of completely jumping into the unknown there, and also like, when you spend your lifetime assuming that Someone’s Arbitrary Wrath will be uponst you always, it’s hard to shake that sense of dread and doom, like ah jeez i am really potentially bringing hell on myself here........and like i mentioned with Start Of The Decade, there was just a ton of fear there all the time lol, trying to figure out virtually overnight The Whole Of Who I Am And What I Want when i’d only just even gotten to start......also i wanna say i maybe came out in 2011?? and i sort of also felt obligated to come out to my parents also (plus i think i was giving them like, one last chance to surprise me and be decent and kind of Grow Up themselves even tho i was the like, 16 y.o.) which yknow, kids you do not have to come out to anyone at all. someone was talking the other day abt how they didn’t think lgbtq “discourse” had evolved as much as you’d hope over the past decade, but idk about that, it's only a little bit of a wildly complex topic, and for starters Online Trans “Discourse” of a decade back was wayyyyyy in a vastly different place than it is now, leaps and strides really. so the way to ~really~ do it was presented kind of more rigidly i think. anyways i did it via email and was incredibly stressed to even open the reply a couple days later lol......which ended up being really weird and vague, and then there was a phone call where no one brought it up, and the only result was increased ire and resentment :( ........and then there was still like, cops encounters! near or not-as-bad-as-they-could’ve-been vehicular collisions! but tbh generally my reaction to the latter was underwhelming, except for one particular time when i was a passenger and also tense af for the rest of the ride. that’s it for Immediate fear really lol......oh wait one time i was at this decent sized Convention Panel Event and when i’m nervous i can Only talk more (it’s possible!!) and i snuck into line for the q&a and Right when i got to the mic (intimidating) they were like oop we’re low on time, lightning round!! :��] that was obviously more just a crapton of l’anxiete

37) a fashion that fell out of style that you wish would make a resurgence?

were Gladiator sandals this decade? the strappy deals that like, went up the ankles / calves? that was in fashion for a year or two and i’m into it. i like sandals and that kind of drama

41) something you learned a lot that not a lot of other people might know about?

i don’t know that i learned way a lot of anything that’s real in-depth knowledge and niche lore.........i have learned Nothing

43) an important relationship (of any kind) you had?

i had???? lmao well either way let’s say current relationships count and like, pretty much everyone in my Sphere i value a lot! i never like, have or have had a ~close~ ring of ppl around me lol like i thought it was lucky if i talked to someone Every Day (and not at all the Usual thing) and now it’s more likely that i talk to two people every day and maybe that sounds sarcastic but it’s not at all lol. i know my social stats aren’t impressive but i so appreciate what i get to enjoy and have. and other Connections might be way more like, we are friendly acquaintances, we talk on rare occasions, we haven’t talked at all in ages, we talk but only to trade cute pics of cats, Etc etc, but i seriously do appreciate all of everyone who’s cool who i get to interact with in any way and like, be in each other’s spheres and Not just like, absolutely on nobody’s radar. also obviously soph you are here in that list in case i wasn’t implying it good enough lol it is 5am and god knows deciphering what i say at any time can be its own challenge.....ur Epic Highs and Lows of bmc 3.0 is so good lmao

#hell yeah tysm now also i should go for Passing Outs #(where you pass out like knocking out)#thank you Three Other Asks i see and appreciate it as well #oh wait shit four!!!#lol #it's 5:20am bed time bitch all day hit the hay #i forget what i say here i've been on and off doing whatever for the past 5 hrs obviously lmao #nothingunrealistic1

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infpsupport · 6 years ago

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INFP super ego

I think that INFP is seriously the least fortunate of all mbti types. No, it is not because INFPs are sensitive. No, it is not because they like their comfort zone or whatever other bullshit. You want to know why? Here you go, sweetheart.

INFPs lead with introverted feeling Fi and their inferior function is extroverted thinking Te. If you are turbulent to that and are not practicing your Te sitting at home endlessly drawing unicorns you basically have no fucking idea of reality. I know right, so many times it is repeated in case of INFPs, ‘’perception becomes reality’’ but seriously how dangerous that is, think about it. I don’t get the idea when people think INFPs are cute and adorable whereas, if that how they look like, they don’t even live in reality! Their Fi was cherished over their entire life, they have no discipline to accomplish anything = weak Te and instead are in their bubble of comfort Si. They don’t experience real things. They don’t have even real Si.

Well then, yeah, that sucks, but what then would happen when INFP decides to actually get out of their comfort zone and move out and start working and be independent? Reality hits them. Reality is brutal, life is a jungle. It is not about being pessimistic even here, it is true. People hurt each other, people don’t understand each other, people compete, are cruel, people disappoint. Any other type would deal with that better than INFP. Why? Well, INFP hero is Fi and parent Ne. INFP IMAGINES his reality and he fucking believes in it (if Te = objectivity is weak and Ti not used = demon). So he goes there and offers smiles and rainbows and very well if he meets mind like people but most likely he will meet variety of people. Fi starts to crush. Crushing and crushing... Oh, INFP can’t make much sense of what is happening, I mean, what happened with my ‘’reality’’? If INFP doesn’t feel good about reality, if he isn’t respected with his Te, if he doesn’t think he is doing something meaningful and important for him, then INFP’s soul is dying. In such case, INFP should go see therapist. What is happening then? Fi is taken over by... Ti. yep, his demon function. INFP is no longer INFP but becomes ISTP, super ego replaces ego, and now original INFP is just broken, demon rules his mind and mody, yep, Se. This is why you can read INFPs are sluts, well, that is because they are most likely taken then by their super ego, no morals, ding something completely against themselves. They abandon ideas Ne (imagination and “reality”, I mean, it didn’t work anyway, right?), doesn’t have comfort zone Si anymore, and weak Te is replaced with even more weak, childish and lash outing Fe, wonderful. INFPs are so interesting.

All right, things are bad for our INFP now. What INFP can do to snap out of it and become healthier and stronger? Well, there are couple of options. Like you maybe know, our psyche is split into 4 sides, conscious = ego, unconscious, subconscious and super ego = demon. Our INFP knows his ego and now discovers his super ego, but doesn’t have any control over the latter as it is our most primitive and often pathological instincts and fantasies. Think now how INFP can go bad now with ISTP super ego. Exactly. So best would be if INFP from earlier stages was developing his Te. Then he wouldn’t trust blindly Fi but that Fi would be balanced by objectivity. This is the key, the ultimate key to happiness for all types. To balance hero with inferior function. To not let demon out. Demon lets out through having inferior function violated or through inferior function not working well enough. I should probably make some algorithm for that. Te violated (people don’t respect you), but you actually have Te -> take care of your Te, change environment, change what you are doing, change attitide you have toward those people, whatever you do you have to feel important and that your input matter. This is relatively easy to solve in my opinion. As adults and assuming with an income we can change our environment and job. Okay but what if demon is entering ego and INFP does not any longer believe in good in world? Go use your Te. But not work wise. Write your feelings. Understand them. Fi + Te. Know what went wrong. Ultimately this is why that happened. You failed to see reality. So now go and check how that happened and understand (!!!) that life is not like Fi + Ne. Or Fi + Si. Life is Fi + Te and then you work on what is in between. So organise your feelings and impressions, expectations, understand you can’t control people develop healthy and Te. It is not about work. Many INFPs turn to work when under stress, organise some random stuff. Don’t. Or maybe at first. But the key is to relate Te to Fi and that will save you and you will be so damn strong. So yeah, again, it is not about work. It is defining your own, personal strong life philosophy based on values AND OBJECTIVITY. I recommend that INFPs read works on objectivity btw, e.g. Ayn Rand, that will make you tougher. Only then you can go and rule the world. What else? Toughen yourself up with stuff like discipline, discipline your mind, wake up early, have cold shower, meditate, workout. This Te is not about work and achievement and supposed feeling of importance that that gives to you! Never let your self esteem go down by not speaking up, say what you think, be blunt sometimes, use Te not only to defend yourself (so in stressful situations) but also daily things.

And what else. Of course you have 3 sides of the mind, after having ego set up, you are in you subconscious pretty much, you are working on your Te, become ESTJ like. Te being the gate to happiness. But the right Te! Okay, want more? You enter your unconscious = shadow, ENFJ, develop it, you become wiser and mature. Finally you master your super ego and you gain enlightenment -> your all 4 sides of psyche are integrated and you no longer lead with merely ego side.

Summing up. What INFP should do to survive in REAL world? Go develop your Te that works for your Fi. Learn what is objectivism. Accept it. Use Te to balance Fi. Fi is awesome but if not balanced, then combined with Ne is most dangerous for the user of all types! This is why it is so important to develop healthy Te. If in super ego stage already, then go also to Te and understand in an objective way your Fi feelings and values and how they are really helpful for you, update them.

Ah, so much to say, but for now I am done.

#infp #infp problems #infp ego #infp thoughts #infp depression #infp mbti #infp demon #infp super ego #infp feelings #infp fi #introvert #introverted feeling #extroverted thinking #mbti #jungian psychology #infp help

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naernon · 6 years ago

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July TES OC Challenge || Days 6-10

I give up on trying to keep up with this. I’ll just do them freely from now on. My motivation is too jacked to get anything fucking done.

Challenge Here

6. Hobbies and Skills

What does your character do in their free time? Do they prefer to spend their time with others or alone? Are they interested in reading? Do they enjoy art, either creating or perusing? How do they make money? Do they have a knack for anything illegal? Why do they enjoy the things they do? What would they consider their major asset?

Estryon has trouble sticking to one activity, hobby, etc.. He gets very quickly bored. But, pastimes that remain somewhat consistent include horseback-riding and practicing destruction magic.

He prefers to be alone rather than spend time with others (he tells himself people are a waste of time in general), although i should note; sexual matters are a bit of an exception and are also a pastime of his that i neglected mentioning. He’s lost a lot of his academic spark, over the years. He was never outstanding, really, I’d say more so average or maybe a bit above average and he had a particular fondness for ayleid history and linguistics that lingers... so, he isn’t 100% opposed to reading at all but it’s not his first choice in a room full of activities.

He has no artistic sensibility whatsoever. From age 11-19, he worked in the Sunhold Stables before doing minor work while in the Thalmor Academy for money. Upon graduating, the Thalmor was his source of income.

Being “stationed” (more so suspended + demoted due to ~crimes against the Thalmor~) in Skyrim brings in its own amount of despair to Estryon and he becomes even more wayward and reckless than before. He’s thrown between multiple fields of work across the entire damn province as higher-ups figure out where the Hell to put a suspended elite Altmer from an equally-as-elite squad of Thalmor, and even when his work seems to steady out into his actual field of work (assassinations, framing, etc.) he’s incredibly bored which leads him to do a lot of shit that would land him in trouble on a functioning province with a good justice system and effective enforcement but since he’s in Skyrim he ends up fine.

Burning down hunting shacks that he finds/arson as a whole, light thievery, and a moderate amount of off-duty assassination of anyone he deems a heretic, for, (Estryon shrugs) “They’re to be cut down eventually by the other Thalmor anyways; I’m just ending it early.”, etc.. Boredom’s funny like that.

Estryon simultaneously considers everything about himself to be a major asset and considers nothing to be his major asset. Sh, no one knows the latter, not even himself, really; his over-blown ego is just a way of dealing with all that insecurity within him and he doesn’t even realize it.

Anyways, should you actually ask him such a question and demand he answer in actuality after getting past him giving you the cold shoulder... after some thinking he disguises as nonchalant, he truly does consider his skill in destruction magic, fire in particular, to be hot shit, he has a liking towards his complexion + the tidiness of his hair, is confident in his... bedding ability, and finally, he fancies his skill with the dagger.

7. Emotions

How do they respond to stressful situations? Do they have any way to cope with them? How do they deal with sadness or grief? Do they express their anger hotly (through aggression, a raised voice, and an intimidating posture) or coldly (through passive-aggressive behaviors, a calculated voice, and a suspicious posture)? Do they control their emotions or do their emotions control them? Why is that? Has anyone remarked on your character’s ability or inability to control their emotions?

The way he deals with anger and emotions as a whole depends. I tend to display him as very fiery-- when he gets angry, he won’t let you goddamn forget it-- but I’d say that’s very much only with those he knows closely. Emotions = good ONLY with those close. Encounters with Ohtehil after years of not seeing her lands him with eyes overflowing with tears despite his best efforts to stay aloof. Spats with Ondolemar leads to a raised voice and stressed behavior. In any other situation, he simply suppresses. His anger in public to say, a rowdy Stormcloak sympathizer in a tavern or a rude encounter makes him fume but in a different way than hotly. He becomes cold. He already tends to be very dominant in conversation and in presence, and his anger is no exception. He flushes slightly and you may see a tremble to his fingertips but any more words than brief, cold responses are said steadily and slowly. Sometimes he just stares. Rubbing his fingertips along his glass, a slight quirk to his lips, and an intense gaze, just staring. Sometimes it earns a shaky laugh from whoever he’s pissed off at because he’s so young and definitely looks like it. Anyone who wished could very much catch him off-guard and fling him across the room. But other times, the target gets unsettled. Best case for them is Estryon laughing about it later to himself and proceeding with his day, worst case is you landing on his hit-list.

He controls his emotions, I suppose. Barely. Although I guess there’s a difference between repressing emotions and controlling them. Repressing makes him a ticking time bomb on the verge of goddamn exploding. That’s just how he dealt with the social limitations of Altmeri society and the scrutiny of Ciryarel (father) previously being an Ouster/Aprax (Arelnian was shunned by association)

Estryon was born a bit late to the party but the effect of the harassment and relentless rumors of their Altmeri blood (typical Altmer BS, you know) was clear on Ohtehil and Arelnian and that led to Estryon being hyper-conscious of all that “makes” an Altmer. Ohtehil joining the Thalmor and aligning herself with them didn’t help.

8. Physical Health

Are they happy with their weight? If not, would they like to gain, lose, or redistribute their weight? Do they have any disabilities? Does your character get sick often? Injured? If so, how? Are they life-threatening? Have they ever needed attention for any injuries or illnesses? If so, do they utilize potions, spells, scrolls, healers, temples, or something else?

He’s fine with his weight. At the start of Skyrim he broke his ankle. He has a fine immune system. He’s a bit reckless so minor injuries are decently common. No life-threatening so far. He usually heals himself or lets illnesses pass but occasionally, yes, he does need help. Potions, spells, temples. The like.

9. Mental Health

Does your character have any mental illnesses? Feel free to list what they would have been diagnosed with had they lived in modern times. Have they experienced a traumatic event? If so how did they respond to it? Do they have a good memory? What is their learning style? Do they sleep well at night? What do they typically dream about?

Yes, Estryon is mentally ill. The death of his parents and then a major parental/mentor figure in his life, Reldaale hurt him early on. Having to be the one to stumble upon his ex-boyfriend’s dead body wasn’t much of a help either. Again, Estryon represses his emotions.

He’s a visual learner, and a moderately sharp memory, although he has a tendency to take details about events he doesn’t like and omit them from his memory. He won’t remember a week before when he made a foolish mistake but you know damn well he’ll remember your ugly ass outfit that day.

10. Psychology

What is their MBTI type? Their Enneagram? Their temperament? Their archetype? Would your character accept these results, regard them as fiction, or work to change them?

MBTI - Virtuoso [ISTP-t]

Enneagram - 8w7 [Type 8]

Temperament - Choleric/Melancholic

Archetype - Rebel (67%), Athlete (21%), Explorer (16%)

Estryon would regard them as fiction despite a healthy bit of curiosity to the results of these tests, provided he doesn’t take the results as a slight against his person for whichever reason.

#tesocchallenge #oc talk #oc; estryon #ask memes #i put oc memes under ask memes.

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mbti-notes · 7 years ago

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How should an ENFP parent deal with their child which is their same mbti type and is prone to making the same or worse mistakes (risky endeavours)?

How old is the child? Are you the parent? Good parenting habits are more effective the younger you start them. Generally speaking, good parenting is about establishing the right balance between structure and freedom. All kids need to learn that the world can be dangerous so it is important to make decisions responsibly; all kids need space to explore and learn from their own mistakes in order to become the individual that they are meant to be. As a parent, the best you can do is give them proper guidance, hope they take it to heart, be there for them when they meet failure/tragedy, and take full advantage of teachable moments. I would suggest that every parent learn the strengths and weaknesses of their child’s type in order to facilitate personality growth and avoid personality clashes. Even when your child is the same type as you, it is no guarantee that you will understand them well if you yourself haven’t yet achieved good self-understanding or if you suffer the same problems they do.

Young ENFPs easily get confused when decision making because Ne is too open and scattered and, if no one steps in to help, they may default to immature Fi and just do whatever they feel like doing. This is when the parent should intervene to conduct frank and open exploratory discussions, to help them evaluate situations, to weigh the pros/cons, to inform them of the dangers or disadvantages, to teach them a system for analyzing situations properly (Te). This is only possible if the parent themselves knows how to do these things and also if there is a good foundation of trust which allows the child to feel comfortable seeking help. A child won’t trust you if you frequently get angry, critical, or retaliatory when all they wanted to do was explore some ideas with you, or if you seem hypocritical in forbidding behavior that you yourself engage in.ENFPs are sensitive to criticism but it won’t change their behavior if they don’t understand where it’s coming from or if it feels unfair to them. Criticizing them too much can backfire as they may simply just give up trying to be better (Si grip). Thorough discussion about the bigger picture is paramount for them to gain good understanding of complicated issues.

ENFPs need freedom to explore, so be flexible in allowing them those opportunities. Restricting them unnecessarily is going to stifle their creativity or produce rebellion as they get older and take control of life (Te loop). They can be risk takers, so make sure that they suffer the full consequences of their bad decision making, otherwise, they might develop the bad habit of relying on others to clean up their messes - don’t let them use manipulative Ne tactics to weasel out of responsibility. Unfortunately, ENFPs often have to fall down repeatedly in order for a lesson to really sink in, so be there each time to explain what went wrong until it gets into their head.You can teach a child in a way that is also emotionally supportive. Avoid guilting them because then they’ll just sneak behind your back, avoid personal attacks or they’ll develop low self-esteem, avoid rubbing in past mistakes for no good reason or they’ll lose faith in themselves. When dealing with Fs, it is always good to remember that you catch more flies with honey. Be firm but also affirming. Let them know that you love them, respect them, have faith in them, and want what is best for them before calmly discussing harsh truths.Let them know that mistakes are okay as long as they learn something and do better. Calmly explain to them: how their faulty judgment led to a bad decision, why what they did was wrong, how to avoid making the same mistake again (in easy-to-follow steps), what will happen if they go that route again (in terms of punishment), etc. If they want to do something that you deem too risky but they can’t be dissuaded, teach them to plan or prepare well so that they understand how to mitigate risk when risk is unavoidable. ENFPs are passionate, so encourage them to channel passion towards morally acceptable activities in order to distract them from dangerous temptations (idle hands are the devil’s workshop). They like to feel good, so teach them to feel good by doing good. This will allow them to discover their strengths in being a driver of positive change in the world, rather than just indulging their whims and jumping from random interest to random interest. It is best to lead by example when it comes to teaching morality to children. Do some volunteer or community work with them, give them a chance to experience firsthand how good it feels to do morally positive things. Spend time together and learn together.

#enfp #parenting #ask

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ifuckinglovestvincent · 7 years ago

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St. Vincent Is Telling You Everything

“I told you more than I would tell my own mother.”

September 10, 2017, 10:34 a.m. By Laura Snapes | BuzzFeed Contributor Reporting From New York, New York Annie Clark was reconfiguring some older material for her upcoming tour when she realized how alien it felt to play it. She could adapt the arrangements to her harsher new sound — the sleazy, acid aesthetic of Masseduction, her upcoming fifth solo record as St. Vincent — but the writing’s proggy complexity was cockblocking the emotion. “In so many ways, I thought I was being completely transparent and brave in every record, only to realize that they are very oblique,” Clark told BuzzFeed News. She cackled and looked delighted. “Who knew! I had no idea.” Clark is much too self-aware for this to be completely true. But the difference between her polite, guarded Texan past and confrontational present is colossal. When I first interviewed Clark in 2009, she nervously pressed her pendant against her lips and face, leaving a red lipstick pox on her insane cheekbones. By 2014’s St. Vincent, Clark’s public persona would be imperious. But these days, she’s a playful freak who revels in showing the tightness of her grip, a disposition aided by long, straight eyebrows that dance like Memphis squiggles. In late July, she appeared in the lobby of New York City’s Marlton Hotel, her temporary home during the making of Masseduction. She had come from pilates — which she likes because it makes her sing better and “come a lot harder” — and disappeared to change out of her leopard-print gym shorts. When I mentioned a recent paparazzi photo of her looking like a sexy detective in another skintight leopard-patterned getup, she asked twice, with predatory delight, whether I’d looked at her camel toe. (No! Okay, maybe!) The only time her control slipped was when the hotel’s stereo started playing “Who,” a knotty song from the album she made with David Byrne, and she shriveled like a salted snail at hearing her own voice. Self-possession like hers is often interpreted as pretentious, or pathological. But over time, the confidence that the younger, anxious Clark had to fake has become bracingly real. You can hear it in Masseduction, a record of pop fluidity and queer possibility. It’s the best thing she’s ever done, and there are no bad St. Vincent records. It’s partly harsh, heady, erotic synth-pop visions steered by her diamond-sharp guitar, and while Clark has written plenty of ballads, there have never been any as brutal and gorgeous as these. Its lurch between apocalypse and ecstasy mirrors how it felt to be kicked in the head by the past couple years. In a way, Clark was right about the obscurity of her past work, filled with archetypes and distanced observations — emotions through a stained-glass window. If not a clear pane, then Masseduction is at least a peep show on heartache, fucking, addiction, destitution, and suicide. And her relatively new life as a very public figure, thanks to relationships with Cara Delevingne and Kristen Stewart, gives it an extra frisson. Tabloids will rush to find the former, the famed British supermodel, on an album littered with wasted bodies, especially on “Young Lover,” where Clark finds someone overdosed in the bathtub. She recounts the night with terror but also arrestingly ugly indignation. “Oh, so what / Your mother did a number / So I get gloves of rubber / To clean up the spill,” she sneers. “Scenario has to rhyme, babe,” is all Clark said about its veracity. She was bemused at being asked to explain the lyrics. To her, this record is butt-naked. “I told you everything,” she stressed. “I told you more than I would tell my own mother. It’s right there.”

Annie Clark Nedda Afsari Masseduction started out with three tenets: It would feature programmed beats and pedal steel guitar, and examine power and seduction. “What does power look like, who wields it, how do they wield it — emotionally, sexually, financially?” Clark ticked off her fingers. The album was properly born over a creative first-date dinner with Jack Antonoff, the Bleachers frontman who also recently produced and wrote with Lorde and Taylor Swift. Clark was looking for a teammate; they told each other everything that was going wrong in their lives and decided that total oblivion was the only way out of their heads. “It wasn’t, ‘Hey, let’s make a record together, that’ll be fun,’” Antonoff told me. “It was, ‘Let’s absolutely go all the way and find the absolute best thing that exists here,’ which is really the only way to work on things.” That grit is Clark’s MO. Until recently, she claimed to have taken approximately 36 hours off in between returning from touring 2011’s Strange Mercy and starting work on 2014’s St. Vincent. The concerts for the latter were bonkers, starting the run as avant-garde, meticulously choreographed deconstructions of a traditional rock show, and ending it with exorcisms that entailed Clark crumpling down a 10-foot pink plywood pyramid like a drunken horse. She often stole objects from the crowd: a pair of crutches, someone’s dinner. The spectacle of her murdering the thing she’d trained for was addictive.

St. Vincent during the 2015 Coachella Valley Music & Arts Festival. Frazer Harrison / Getty Images “Touring became a blood sport for me. I mean, I was born with a whip anyway, and touring became this self-flagellating exercise,” she said, clenching her jaw and lashing each shoulder with an imaginary strap. “And I was seeking that kind of physical exhaustion; I was seeking the pain.” She doesn’t know why, and she’s okay not knowing why, though eventually she did accept that her relationship to touring was a form of delirium. On the new album’s “Sugarboy,” a dystopian, post-Moroder disco banger, she describes herself as a “casualty hanging on from the balcony.” (She literally climbed rafters in some theaters, kicking away security guards.) This hysteria is one of the reasons she considers Masseduction her saddest record. “I lost my mind, I lost people, I gained people, I stopped touring,” Clark said of that period between 2014 and 2017. “It was just a lot of a lot, you know.” After the St. Vincent tour dates ended, Clark had to learn to construct and value life away from the road — she had been on tour since age 16, when she worked as an assistant for her aunt and uncle’s jazz group. “And I still love that,” she said of touring, “but it’s more like a component of my life now rather than…my life.” Back home she indulged in a “period of bacchanalia,” and briefly got into self-medicating, an experience she turned into the lunatic track “Pills”: Imagine the Stepford Wives lost in Willy Wonka’s chocolate factory (Kamasi Washington guests on saxophone; Delevingne sings on the chorus). She’s transfixed by the forces that can swallow us — “You know, drugs, sex, and rock ‘n’ roll,” she winked. “So corny. Kill me! Kill me dead!” Though sometimes she uses those themes to dress up more mundane relationship dynamics. “Savior” explores the unhealthiness of mutual projection through a funny S&M parable involving nurses and nuns and our tediously prosaic concepts of kink: “You put me in a teacher’s little denim skirt,” Clark moans on the song. “Ruler and desk so I can make it hurt / But I keep you on your best behavior / Honey, I can’t be your savior.” The album’s self-destructive dynamic comes out on the title track — “I can’t turn off what turns me on,” she wails over twisted guitar — and her protagonists never stop annihilating each other for their own benefit, whether for carnal kicks, or for the mothers who “milk their young” in the song “Los Ageless.”

The album cover for Masseduction. Loma Vista Recordings And then there’s the heartbreaking “Happy Birthday Johnny,” which sounds like a snowflake but crushes like an anvil. It calls back to the title track of her 2007 debut Marry Me, about “John” who’s “a rock with a heart like a socket I can plug into at will”; and to “Prince Johnny,” the decadent downtown royal from St. Vincent. She said she feels compassion and hopelessness for his self-destruction, but can’t judge because she’s just like him. Maybe he’s also a cipher for the way humans use each other — Clark flatly refused to talk about him. “One thing I have learned in six records and 10 years is that I’m not obliged to answer any questions — a lesson I more or less only recently learned.” She stared into the bar, fixing a grim expression through her orange aviators. “Next question.” At any rate, the song is a whole story. Once conspirators, her and Johnny’s literal fire-starting days are behind them, and now he lives on the street, calling up Clark at New Year’s for “dough to get something to eat.” She demurs, and he calls her a queenly miser who’s sold out for fame. “But if they only knew the real version of me / Only you know the secrets, the swamp, and the fear,” she pleads. It is deeply tragic, being shamed — perhaps rightly — by the person who once understood your shame. Antonoff theorized that she’s mourning a past on the record. On the forthcoming Fear the Future Tour (named after a new song, and to resemble a Jenny Holzer maxim), Clark said she probably won’t be flinging herself around stages as much because “I think I’m emotionally throwing myself around a lot more.”

A still from St. Vincent’s “New York” music video. Alex Da Carte In late July, Tiffany & Co. announced Clark as one of the faces of its fall advertising campaign. Diamonds and waspy Americana are a weirdly prim contrast to the freaky propaganda aesthetic that Clark is calling “manic panic” — the Masseduction album cover is a photo of a nice ass in a leopard-print thong bodysuit. But like any savvy propagandist, Clark’s image will be everywhere this year. Having directed a short film, The Birthday Party, as part of the horror anthology XX, she’s now due to direct a feature-length, female-led adaptation of The Picture of Dorian Gray. (“The most rich text I have ever read: transgression, modernity, society, repressed queerness.”) There’s also a multimedia performance as part of October’s Red Bull Music Academy in Los Angeles, and an upcoming art exhibition in New York. A coffee table book. Essays. (She calls art “a fountain of youth” that’s given her everything and everyone in her life, hence her urge to make everything.) And that’s just the exposure she has control over. Celebrities like to pretend that their success is the result of some cosmic fluke, but Clark has said quite openly that the best part of becoming more famous thanks to her love life is “just getting the opportunity to do more work in different fields,” which nobody ever admits! (Though her 2015 Grammy for Best Alternative Album and overwhelming critical acclaim probably helped, too.)

St. Vincent, Zoe Kravitz, and Zosia Mamet at the Tiffany & Co.-presented Whitney Biennial VIP Opening in March 2017 in New York. Mike Coppola / Getty Images One of Clark’s best-known songs, 2014’s “Digital Witness,” is about social media voyeurism. “I wonder if, in the future, privacy will be something that only the 1 percent can afford,” she told Rolling Stone that year, which now seems beautifully naive. From the second she and Delevingne were spotted together at the 2015 BRIT Awards, the UK’s pervy yet ever-scandalized tabloid media went nuts that their hottest young model was dating a woman, and pursued them so staunchly that the couple once took revenge by firing water pistols at the paparazzi. “She really is so famous!” Clark said of Delevingne, feigning hammy disbelief at the attention they received. “That shouldn’t have been shocking to me, but it was shocking to me in the sense that she’s such a sweet, really, deeply kind, unspoiled person. She has more compassion in her little finger than—” She waved her hand around her torso with a grim laugh. (The pair reportedly split last fall, but Clark would only say they were “never not close.”) Clark’s self-assurance helped her to perceive the tabloid aggression and celebrity weirdness as baffling rather than distorting. She was too classy to run with my suggestion that attending that Taylor Swift 4th of July party must’ve been an interesting anthropological study. “That was, I think, in the midst of a game of Celebrity,” she said of a photo of her wearing the same stars ’n’ stripes onesie as Gigi Hadid, Karlie Kloss, and Ruby Rose. She took a long pause. “I was very bad at it!”

From left: Cara Delevingne and Annie Clark Schiller Graphics But she was disturbed by dangerous high-speed car chases from paparazzi in pursuit of photos of the couple; she thinks the gossip industrial complex relates to a wider societal disparity. “The biggest problem was that the value system of it is all based on aspiration,” she said with genuine concern. “It’s wealth aspiration, fame aspiration. But if the government, if the world was just generally a more compassionate, empathetic place, people wouldn’t be aspiring to…that. They would be more fulfilled with their own lives if the wealth gap in general wasn’t so insane.” Admittedly, it was hard not to want to look at them, in matching sharp suits and laser-cut Burberry, queering the archetype of the male rock star dating the young supermodel, watching the context around an established artist mutate in front of you. There is the kind of halfway-benign personal invasion where paparazzi follow you and your girlfriend around an airport. But then there is the kind where the never-not-creepy Daily Mail doorsteps your older sister at home in Texas and calls up your well-meaning uncle to sandbag him into revealing that your father went to prison in 2010 for participating in multimillion-dollar stock fraud. Although it is grotesque to treat the paper’s muckraking as a puzzle piece, it did illuminate part of the story behind Strange Mercy, which Clark had — understandably �� only ever vaguely attributed to an overwhelming period of loss. “Suitcase of cash in the back of my stick shift,” she sang on “Year of the Tiger.” “I had to be the best of the bourgeoisie / Now my kingdom for a cup of coffee.” (She cowrote the song with her mother, Sharon, who split from Clark’s father when she was three.) “Everybody has their personal tragedies and their crosses to bear,” Clark said in a clipped tone. She calls her father’s 12-year prison sentence “a horrible tragedy. On so many different levels. So absolutely heartbreaking.” She — an adult — could handle it. But her younger half- and stepsiblings on her father’s side are still teenagers. “And I specifically would never talk about that or have ever mentioned that in a myriad of questions about Strange Mercy because it seems like an incredible betrayal of my family. But most specifically, my youngest siblings who are innocent children. They were kiddos.” She described the Daily Mail story as “faux concern,” and reiterated that the paper couldn’t find any dirt on her, no matter how outrageously they tried. “I’m not ashamed of my family,” she said. Then I asked her whether her father going to prison had spun her own moral compass, or made her reconsider any values of right and wrong that he may have instilled in her. She was momentarily confused, and then let rip a massive, absurd, demonstrative laugh. She kept going. “I love my father,” she said eventually, still tickled. “I love my father very much, as any child loves their parent. He’s very intelligent and erudite and a good writer and incredibly well read, and those are all things that I value and I’m glad that he instilled in me.” She paused, and kept on laughing. In the run-up to announcing Masseduction, Clark was Instagramming absurdist junket-styled videos, in which she wears a hot pink skirt and a transparent rubber top the color of ash, and takes questions from an off-screen interviewer. Her answers were scripted by the musician and comedian Carrie Brownstein, who is also her ex-girlfriend. One video poses the question of whether Annie Clark and St. Vincent are the same person. She pauses to consider. “Honestly, you’d have to ask her.” What’s it like being a woman in music? “Good question,” she muses, as the camera zooms to her black and yellow fingernails, which spell out “FUCK OFFF.” These films might factor into her upcoming tour, but the answers were also written for journalists. Earlier in July, in London, Clark found alternative ways to conduct interviews for hours at a time. She invited some female journalists to get massages with her (too weird with men, even though she was face-down on the table the whole time, avoiding eye contact). Other writers were invited into a 10-by-10-foot pink wooden box that was constructed in a North London studio especially for the occasion. Her interrogators had to duck through a low door to enter the blacklit space. “Not full-on crawl, because that’s a little heavy-handed,” she clarified. Inside, she looped a pedal steel recording and lit a Diptyque candle that struggled to mask the paint fumes.

St. Vincent / Via Instagram If anyone asked her an obvious question — like where the name St. Vincent came from — she planned to play prerecorded answers and “check my email, or stretch, or zone out for a second,” she said, sounding almost disappointed that she didn’t get a chance to enact her schemes. She insisted she wasn’t being antagonistic. But sitting opposite Annie Clark for two hours is often intimidating enough without the added fear that she’s about to make fun of you to your face: It is a gigantic power play! “Oh, deeply so,” she said, affecting a wryly elegant tone. “But then also not at all because I was the insane person stuck in a box for eight hours!” If critics and fans are bored of this sort of thing — see Arcade Fire’s recent album campaign — they are clearly not as tired as the artists who have to smile politely at writers who don’t know how to use Google. Plus, Arcade Fire’s hijinks felt cynical; Clark’s feels like a rejection of the idea that women artists are meant to be relatable, having endured a career’s worth of inane juxtapositions between her pretty face and gnarly shredding like it means anything. The point, she said, was that putting ourselves in a totally different, slightly strange context can produce interesting results. (She and I were meant to do Pilates together — before an oversold class spared me the indignity.) Why not make everything thoughtful and curated? If the stakes are already high, why not aim even higher and put yourself in extreme circumstances to see what happens? If Clark has done two things for the cerebral indie-rock world that she’s long outstripped, it’s teach about sex (thank god), and expose its low-risk complacency for a con.

Nedda Afsari Of course, in some people’s eyes, this makes her a phony, a manipulator. Earlier this year, legendary cultural critic Greil Marcus wrote an admirably dim-witted column for Pitchfork where he compared Clark to the slippery Father John Misty, aka Josh Tillman, claiming that they “perform as artists of such pretentiousness you couldn’t possibly figure out how to talk to them. … There’s no way to address a saint: To be a saint you have to be dead … Such characters allow themselves to appear as if touched by God, which is what they’re selling, and laugh at you if you’re so square not to know who they really are: to join their club.” If Marcus had read any of the million interviews that Clark is parodying in her high-concept clips, he would know the name is rooted in humiliation and squalor — the hospital where Dylan Thomas died — rather than divine aspiration. “And I have never, nor would I ever, put the kind of trapdoors and booby traps in my music to make the listener feel dumb,” Clark told me in response to Marcus’s theories. “I have enough hubris not to kill myself, but I actually have such a deep respect for the listener that I have never tried to pander. Songs and arrangements were complex and convoluted at times, but they were sincere attempts at connecting.” She hoped there will be no mistaking her intent with her new record, which “is so first-person and sad.” But if anyone does, she knows it’s not her job to correct them.

A still from the “New York” music video. Alex Da Carte A still from the “New York” music video. If you want to use Masseduction as a treasure map, then this is what it tells us about Annie Clark’s personal life. She experienced a complicated kind of heartbreak. Sometimes that makes her crazy and neurotic: “I won’t cry wolf in the kitchen,” she swears on woozy opener “Hang on Me,” but threatens to jump off her roof “just to punish you” on the vengeful, cracked opera of “Smoking Section,” the last song. Sometimes a mental safety net stretches out when she might otherwise get hurt. “Slip my hand from your hand / Leave you dancing with a ghost,” she sings on “Slow Disco,” the most tender song she’s ever written. “Don’t it beat a slow dance to death?” a forlorn and disembodied voice repeats as it fades out. Her world is changing, and that’s unsettling. “Too few of our old crew left on Astor,” she sings on “New York,” a song about lost heroes. On “Fear the Future,” she belts the title as the song reaches a pyrotechnic cataclysm that sounds like a truckload of fireworks being dumped inside a volcano. But if you respond in kind to Clark’s vulnerability, then these are the more meaningful revelations that we can take from Masseduction into our lives: Relatability is a crock, and sincerity doesn’t take a single form. “I refuse to seem less threatening, if that’s how I’m perceived,” said Clark. “Ultimate freedom is not caring whether you are liked, because you are making something you really love and believe in.” On Masseduction Clark tells us that all the good forms of desire — love, sex, art — are self-destructive. But at their best, they create just that little bit more than they consume, and can eventually alchemize anxiety into total power.

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The Truth About Islam

I hated history when I was a little girl but today I appreciate it. Now I understand why they say those who don't learn from history are doomed to repeat it. In order to understand why the Islamic world is entirely different and in many ways incompatible with Western civilizations, at least until they are ready to reform as all other religions have done, you need to understand the history of Islam. By understanding its history, you will better understand the current crisis and events happening in the world today.

When Muhammad supposedly revealed his revelation from the angel Gabriel that he was supposed to be the last of the Prophets in the early six hundreds, he started preaching his claim in his own city of Mecca, he tried to recruit friends and followers so they could help spread his newly formed religion. He tried for 12 years and failed. After 12 years he was only able to recruit his immediate family and friends, so he decided to go to Medina, which was the Jewish hub of Arabia. He figured if he went there and preached his religion to them, they would accept him and that would buy him respect and stature and his religion would be accepted too.

In order for his religion to interest the Jews, Muhammad started borrowing a lot from the Old Testament to make his religion more palatable to them. This is why you see a lot of similarities between Judaism and Islam. For example, Jews don’t eat pigs so Muslims don’t eat pigs, Jews practice Kosher so Muslims practice Halal, Jews pray several times a day so Muslims pray several times a day, Jews fast on Yom Kippur so Muslims fast on Ramadan. He made things up as he went to attract the Jews.

This is also why there are a lot of good scriptures at the beginning of the Quran, when Muhammad was saying all the good things about the people of the book and talking about how similar they are, he was trying to recruit the Jews and make it easy for them to convert. Except the Jews still refused to accept him and follow him so this is when he turned against them, he started killing them and started expelling them. This is the moment Islam went from a spiritual movement to a political movement disguised as a religion, this transition into vengeful, violent jihadism is clear as the Quran goes on.

Muhammad quickly became a military warlord and declared war on the Jews that refused to accept him. Jews and Christians became Dhimmi, second class citizens, and they were only allowed to be kept alive by paying the Jizya, a tax paid to Muslims. So Jews and Christians had a choice: convert to Islam, pay to be kept alive or be killed. Jews and Christians weren’t allowed to blow the Shofar or ring church bells, they could not pray publicly or too loudly, they could not gather together or build new churches or new temples. They were humiliated, often having rocks thrown at them by children and to pay their Jizya they would be forced to kneel during ceremonies and hand over their goods to the Mullah.

In many areas, Jews and Christians were given necklaces to wear as a receipt for their Jizya. They were considered Najis under Islam, equivalent to bodily fluid or garbage, something so dirty and disposable. If a Jew walked on the same side of the street as a Muslim, the Jew had to cross to the other side so the Muslim would not feel dirty by the filth of the Jew. Today it continues, none of us infidels can step foot in Mecca because as far as they're concerned, we are still Najis under Islam, equivalent to dirt or garbage. It’s also why sixteen Muslim countries ban Jews from entering their borders (but hey let’s all close our eyes again and call Donald Trump a bigot and antisemite.)

As Islam continued to grow, the more Jews and Christians were forced to submit and become Dhimmi. Jews and Christians were given identifiable clothing to wear, the yellow star which most people think is a German invention was actually an Islamic invention in the ninth century, it marked Jews and Christians with a badge of shame. Furthermore, the infidels each were forced to hang a piece of lead around their neck with the word Dhimmi on it and the infidel women were forced to wear one red and one black shoe and wear a bell around their necks like cows.

Islam continued to grow as more people became fearful they too would suffer if they did not submit to Muhammad and convert. The Muslims went all the way to Jerusalem, they conquered it and claimed it as their own, either killing, converting or enslaving the local Christians. The Pope in Rome asked his men how they could they sit idly by and allow their brethren to suffer in the Holy Land. He pleaded for them to go liberate the Christians, to go save the Christians, that's why the Crusaders were launched. The Crusaders were able to liberate Jerusalem before Saladin took it back and Jerusalem remained under Islamic control until 1967 when it was freed by the State of Israel.

The Crusaders continued fighting Islam and for 300 years they tried and failed. By the 1300s the Crusaders disappeared because they could not win against Islam, leaving Islam to continue their expansion. They went all the way to Central Europe, they went all the way to China, they went to India, they conquered Spain and as they conquered more nations, more people were forced to pay the Jizya and were forced into slavery. This is how the Islamic Empire became so dominant. They were preparing to overtake the rest of the nations and wipe out Christianity altogether until they were stopped at the gates of Vienna and they were pushed out in defeat.

By the 1600s, Islam had covered more of the Earth's surface than the Roman Empire did at its peak. Between the 1600s and the 1800s, the Europeans were experiencing their industrial revolution where they were able to invent products on factory lines and they were able to sell products which gave them the money to build a strong army in order to fight the Muslims. That's the only way they were able to stop them in Vienna. The Europeans started the pushback against Islam, they pushed them out of Europe and pushed them all the way to the Middle East and North Africa. By 1924 the Islamic Empire ended.

It ended in Turkey by President Ataturk who was a secularist. He ended the Islamic Empire and he gave women a right to an education, the right to work, a right to choose a husband, he stopped making women wear the hijab and Muslims hated him so much that they considered him a Jewish agent. By the time the Islamic Empire or the Islamic State had ended in 1924, they had existed for fourteen hundred years and it ended less than 100 years ago. This is why Islam still appears to linger in the stone ages by modern Western standards, the world’s biggest and most brutal empire driven by this ideology has only just ended when put into perspective. We look back in history and condemn every single empire or supremacy movement but the moment we reach Islam, we close our eyes and convince ourselves that none of that really happened, Islam is the religion of peace.

We have failed to educate our students about history, we have failed to educate our population about history. Take any 17 or 18 year old kid and ask them about World War II and most won’t be able to tell you what happened while we still have over half a million of our American World War II veterans walking around, and it’s these same kids who demand with such conviction for us to believe that Islam is the religion of peace, that there is no link or history of violence, death, supremacy or oppression? They wonder why they are called gullible idiots.

When the Islamic Caliphate ended in 1924, the people thought the Caliphate will never be resurrected, it will never come back. But two things happened in the Middle East in the last century that made the Islamists be able to resurrect it. The first was the discovery of oil in Saudi Arabia and the second was Ayatollah Khomeini coming to power in 1979. This gave the Islamists the money and also the spiritual covering in order to explode back onto the world stage. This is where we welcome modern day terrorists, better known as Islamic traditionalists. These modern terror groups are not a different sect of Islam, they haven’t perverted the scriptures, they follow the authentic preachings of Muhammad, exactly the way Muhammad lived and practiced his religion. They brought back the Islamic State long before the West went to war after 9/11.

ISIS is not a new invention. All they have done is simply resurrected the Caliphate that ended less than a hundred years ago and they are trying to finish what Muhammad and the Islamic Empire started and almost finished. Except we are too naive and scared to offend to understand why the Islamic State are doing what they are doing and why they are succeeding. We are quick to ask the question, “What would drive someone to do this?” but then the very answer is shot down and dismissed and we instead choose to just sing John Lennon covers in blissful ignorance. The concerted efforts to dismiss it as “just a few random nutjobs that have nothing to do with Islam” is exactly why we remain as weak, naive and vulnerable to Islamic terrorism as we are today.

There are two things you need to understand about Islam and the principles of war in Islam. One is the law of Taqiyya, which means lying and deception is allowed to gain the trust of non-believers. A Muslim man can lay his hand on the Quran and swear that he is telling the truth, knowing that he is lying but also knowing that the Quran will forgive him because he is advancing the cause of Islam.

The second is the Treaty of Hudaybiyyah, which is an Islamic principle of war and a model on how to deceive the enemy when you call for peace. It is based on when Muhammad was attacking the Meccans. He attacked them, he robbed them and spread the goodies among his men, this is how he was able to recruit. Though he realized he didn’t have enough men yet to defeat the Meccans so he signed a ten-year peace treaty with them. He said he will not attack them, he will have peace with them, he will not declare war on them. Muhammad used this treaty for two years to silently build his military, to strengthen his army and when he realized he was strong enough to attack his enemies, he waged war when they least expected, they thought they had a peace treaty with him and Mecca fell within 24 hours.

This became a principle of war in Islam that has continued on through the ages. Iran is a perfect example of how it’s been practiced in recent times. Yasser Arafat met with the Israelis and signed the Oslo Accords in 1993, it was all over the news, the handshaking on the lawn of the White House, Bill Clinton proudly congratulating, Arafat was even handed the Noble Peace Prize.

When the Egyptian press would interview Yasser Arafat and asked him how could he sign a peace treaty with the devil, how could he sign a peace treaty with the Jews, Arafat would tell them to remember Hudaybiyyah. That's all he would have to say and of course the whole Muslim world knew exactly what that meant but everyone in the West and all the Jews in Israel, it went over their heads, nobody understood what he was referring to. The peace treaty was used to make Israel give him his territory, to finance his military, to train his police and give his police the weapons. Like Muhammad, they later broke the peace treaty once they had the power and declared the Second Intifada in 2000. This is the type of deception that we are dealing with still today. They are using us as useful idiots.

Everything terrorists are doing today, is no different to what Muhammad and the Islamic Empire did for over a thousand years. Tell me one thing that terrorists do today that is unIslamic or isn’t in Islamic scriptures. In the Quran, it promises paradise to those Muslims who kill for Allah and condemns those Muslims who do not engage in fighting (4:95) and (9:38-39) It calls for you to kill even if you don’t like it as it’s what Allah has prescribed to Muslims and he knows what’s best for them (2:216) It calls to “cast terror into the hearts of non-believers” (3:151) - sound familiar? Those who reject their faith will be punished with terrible agony (3:56) It tells to cut the hands and the feet off anyone who attacks Allah (5:33)

It calls to behead and cut the fingers and toes off non-believers (8:12) and another call to tie up and behead non-believers, though you must first try get ransom money from them or convert them to Islam to avoid hell (47:3-4) - sound familiar? And calls for his followers to never stop fighting the non-believers until everyone worships Allah - sound familar? It warns that Islam will be offered to people in towns they wish to destroy, if they refuse then there will be “utter destruction.” (17:16) - sound familiar? Remember when Osama Bin Laden sent a letter to America offering them to submit to his demands or face total destruction just before 9/11? He didn’t just come up with this out of nowhere. It also demands to cut the hands off thieves (5:38) and to lash a man or woman one hundred times if they commit wrongful sexual intercourse (24:2)

Muhammad permits children and women being exposed to terrorism as they are the children of the enemy (52:256) Muhammad says, “O Muslim! There is a Jew hiding behind me, so kill him" (52:177) Mummamad gloats, “I have been made victorious with terror!” (52:220) Muhammad says: “I have been commanded to fight against people till they testify that there is no god but Allah, that Muhammad is the messenger of Allah” (1:33) Muhammad says, “I have been ordered to fight the people till they say: “None has the right to be worshipped but Allah.” (8:387)

Ibn Ishaq/Hisham 990 decalres “Cutting off someone’s head while shouting ‘Allahu Akbar’ is a tradition of Islam that began with Muhammad.” Ibn Ishaq/Hisham 992 says Muhammad would instruct his military to "Fight everyone in the way of Allah and kill those who disbelieve in Allah” before each one of their raids. Tabari 7:97 talks about Muhammad declaring to,“Kill any Jew who falls under your power.” He instructs to strike a disobedient wife (4:34), he took a 6 year old little girl away from her family to marry her and use her for sex (8:3309), he speaks of it being mostly women in hell as they are disobedient, they are worth only half that of a man, that they are unintelligent and they cannot be efficiently religious as they have periods and their presence makes a prayer invalid (6:301) and he passes around captured female slaves to his men (Tabari VIII:117). Where did we get the idea that this is a man of peace and a religion of peace? Oh I know, to say otherwise is blasphemy and you can be killed or arrested. This is how Islam worked then and it’s how it works today.

The problem we have is deliberately keeping ourselves ignorant to what is happening, to what today’s Islamist groups are trying to do, they are reviving Muhammad’s Caliphate and are hellbent on finishing off his plan. They tell us this over and over, they make it clear attack after attack, yet we still close our eyes and pretend like it has nothing to do with Islam. It’s authentic Islam and it’s not just 0.0001% of Muslims who share their views.

Only 57% of Muslims worldwide disapprove of al-Qaeda. Only 51% disapprove of the Taliban. 81% of Muslims on Al Jazeera approved of regional conquests by ISIS. 2 in 3 Muslims in Britain would not report a terror plot to police. 40% of British Muslims want British law replaced with Sharia law. 1 in 4 British Muslims say 7/7 bombings were justified, 12% of young Muslims in Britain believe that suicide attacks against civilians in Britain can be justified. 1 in 4 support suicide attacks against British troops. 36% of young British Muslims believe that those converting to another religion should be executed.

78% of British Muslims support punishing the publishers of Muhammad cartoons, 24% of Muslim-Americans say that violence is justified against those who "offend Islam", extreme Islamists comprise 9% of Britain's Muslim population, another 29% would "aggressively defend" Islam. 11% of British Muslims find violence for religious or political ends acceptable. 51% of mosques in the U.S. have texts on site rated as severely advocating violence, 80% of young Dutch Muslims see nothing wrong with Holy War against non-believers. Most verbalized support for pro-Islamic State fighters. 28% of British Muslims want Britain to be an Islamic state, 68% of British Muslims support the arrest and prosecution of anyone who insults Islam, 62% of Muslims want Sharia in Canada (15% say make it mandatory).

82% of Egyptian Muslims favor stoning adulterers, 70% of Jordanian Muslims favor stoning adulterers, 77% of Egyptian Muslims favor floggings and amputation, 82% of Pakistanis favor floggings and amputation, 78% of Pakistanis support killing apostates, 81% of South Asian Muslims and 57% of Egyptians suport amputating limbs for theft. 65% of Muslims in Europe say Sharia is more important than the law of the country they live in, 43% of Islamic teachers in Austria openly advocate Sharia law over democracy. 33% of Muslim-Americans say that Sharia should be supreme to the US Constitution. 21% of British Muslims decline to condemn stoning adulterers and more than half want gays to be outlawed. 23% of Turks living in Germany say that a Muslim should not shake the hand of the opposite sex. 33% say that a woman should wear the veil. 73% say that books and movies which offend their religion should be banned. 29% of French Muslims believe Sharia is "more important than the laws of France." Muslims comprise less than 1% of the population in the United States but 9% of prison inmates. Muslims in France comprise 12% of the population, but 70% of prisoners, Muslims in the Netherlands comprise 4% of the population but 20% of prisoners and Muslims comprise 5% of population in Britain but are over half of the highest security inmates.

1 in 3 British strongly agree that a wife should be forced to obey her husband's bidding. 1 in 10 British Muslims support killing a family member over "dishonor". 91% of honor killings are committed by Muslims worldwide. 95% of honor killings in the West are perpetrated by Muslim fathers and brothers or their proxies. 90% of child sex abuse by gangs in Britain are committed by Muslims. 1 in 5 young British Muslims agree that 'honor' violence is acceptable. Honor killing the woman for sex outside of marriage is favored over honor killing the man in almost every Islamic country. 51% of British Muslims believe a woman cannot marry a non-Muslim and only 51% believe a Muslim woman may marry without a guardian's consent, 62% of British Muslims do not believe in the protection of free speech. Only 6% of Muslim men and 2% of Muslim women would "have no problem" marrying someone from a different religion. 60% of men in Morocco say that if a woman is raped, she should marry her rapist. Just take a moment to think what the reaction would be if this were white Christian American men saying or believing any of these horrific things. Yet we don’t bat an eyelid because it’s coming from Muslims. These are just our average moderate Muslims by the way. Remember that. Let’s continue.

81% of British Muslims refer to themselves only as Muslim, not British. 49% of Muslim Americans say they are Muslim, not American. 74% of young Muslims prefer women wear the veil. 46% of Muslims in Germany want there to be more Muslims than Christians in Germany. Muslim-Americans are four times more likely to say that women should not work outside the home. 26% of Muslim-Americans refuse to assimilate. 26% of young Muslims in America believe suicide bombings are justified, 35% of young Muslims in Britain, 42% of young Muslims in France, 22% of young Muslims in Germany and 29% of young Muslims in Spain believe suicide bombings are justified. Muslim-Americans who identify more strongly with their religion are three times more likely to feel that suicide bombings are justified. 19% of Muslim-Americans say that violence is justified in order to make Sharia the law in the United States. 38% of Muslim-Americans say Islamic State beliefs are Islamic or correct. 25% of Muslim-Americans say that violence against Americans in the United States is justified as part of the "global Jihad”.

45% of British Muslims agree that clerics preaching violence against the West represent "mainstream Islam". We have British mosques literally beating Muhammad’s teachings into Muslim children, teaching them “the disbelievers are the worst creatures,“ “they face torture in the afterlife if they adopt western customs” and to “never trust a person who has less than a fistful of beard.” British Islamic private schools are teaching pupils that British customs are anti-Muslim, intent on “poisoning the thinking and minds“ of Muslims and calls on their students to “expend even life to create a world organized according to Allah’s just order.” We have police who have become too scared to investigate Muslim human trafficking and child rape rings, they have become too afraid to make public the mass sexual, violent attacks and the details of massacres committed by Muslims across Europe, they have even become afraid to report their fellow officers who express radical Muslim beliefs. Teachers are afraid to alert authorities when their Muslim students show warning signs of becoming radicalized.

The problem we have today in the West is being forced to believe that terrorism or even extremism has nothing to do with Islam, that extremists are only 0.00001% of the Muslim population, that this is a religion of peace and it has no links to violence or jihad, all of history on Islam and Muhammad and the Islamic Empire, none of that’s real, none of that happened and anyone who says otherwise is a racist islamophobic bigot who wants to kill and expel all Muslims. Could we be any more naive? Any more stupid? Could we make ourselves any more weak and vulnerable? Nobody is blaming all Muslims, we just want there to be a glimmer of honesty for once and identify what is actually happening in the world, be truthful about what it is that the Islamic State want and what their end goal is. Remember, their Islamic Empire only ceased less than 100 years ago, Islam is only learning to walk in terms of progressiveness, human rights, equality and assimilation and many followers just aren’t ready to give up on Muhammad’s dream of Islamic domination. Not all, but many.

We have slowly began to have the courage to discuss it more openly and it’s been met with a lot of resistance from Muslims and apologetic activists, such as the introduction of Canada’s blasphemy bill, the ban against Britain’s only prevention strategy, Britain’s latest hate crime policy where it’s easier to be arrested for saying a mean thing about Islam online than it is if you’ve been fighting for ISIS overseas or planning a terror plot. Still, people are slowly waking up. The British Prime Minister recently said we're going to have to start having more embarrassing conversations about what is really going on, but there’s really nothing embarrassing about being honest. We should have been having these conversations for many years now. If there is only one good thing that can come from each of these endless attacks and that is learning from them, yet we are refusing to even do that.

We should have far more faith in the people than we currently do to talk about this honestly with each other without resorting to violence. We are told that we cannot talk about Islam because if we do, then it will incite masses of hate crimes against innocent Muslims, it will make moderate Muslims turn to terrorism and when they kill us it will be our own fault for talking about Islam. Really? Is this not the greatest example in modern history of blatant fear mongering drivel to protect the only ideology in the world which you can die for simply criticizing? Well I don't think that we are a lynch mob in waiting, I certainly don't think we are a rabble who have to be lied to, who can't hear the truth or can't handle facts, that’s not who we are, we are not them. We are reasonable, civilized, liberal people who have a right to be very worried, we have a right to feel frustrated about being deceived and silenced, we have a right to expect honesty and action to be taken against the greatest threat of our time.

We are kidding ourselves if we believe that by changing nothing and moving on with our lives will stop the threat or will stop the attacks on us. We have to stop seeing terrorism as just a few nutjobs who we can defeat only if we hold hands and show them that killing our children and loved ones doesn’t effect us. Thank god the Viennese didn’t take this approach when the Islamic State came to their door. We know that today’s Islamic State is the minority of Muslims, obviously, but to tackle them we also have to tackled the far larger number of people who are basically providing the mood music for the extremists and opening the door wide open for them, these are the moderate Muslims who I’ve mentioned above, the sympathetic social justice activists who would rather die than be seen as problematic and the politicians of all parties who think that they can condemn an attack and then spend all their efforts trying to stop their country from having any effective counterterrorism policy and it’s about time these people were called out. Their biggest concern has become taking action against those who are pointing to the problem rather than the problem itself.

These are people who are actively trying to undermine everything in our country to stop the terror from getting any worse than it already is. We are told to just live with it. It’s part of our lives now. What? That’s it? We just accept being killed? At least if we don’t fight Islamic extremism that will spare our Muslim neighbor’s feelings I suppose. In a recent interview with former police chief and Britain’s most prominent Muslim lawyer, he told of many British Islamic community groups who are undermining the fight against terrorism by peddling myths about the government’s key anti-radicalization policy. Mr Afzal condemned the self-appointed community leaders, who he says have an agenda of presenting Muslims “as victims and not as those who are potentially becoming radicals”. He also hit out at the Muslim Council of Britain, saying he was staggered that its agenda for last year’s annual general meeting including “absolutely nothing about radicalization and nothing about the threat of people going to Syria”. “We all have a responsibility to stand up for British values and the rule of law. When they do decide to come to the party, it’s always reluctantly, rather than routinely doing so because it’s the right thing.” Afzal said. These community groups and these Islamic leaders have to be called out as well. Groups such as the Muslim Council of Britain and the Council on American-Islamic Relations have to be held accountable for their fear mongering and the stigma they have forced on anyone talking honestly about the problem.

We have to put the pressure on all of us to understand the reasons and history of Islamic terrorism, to identify what their end goal is and we have to put the pressure on these Islamic groups and leaders to admit this is just as much their problem and they have to sort it out. The message has to be made so clear to stop playing the victim, stop pretending the greatest threat is coming from people telling the truth and let’s start doing all that we can humanly do to fight this very real threat from finishing the job that Muhammad began 1,400 years ago. We have to remove the fear of reporting, police have to stop being afraid to investigate and the media have to stop being afraid of being honest and transparent. The more time we put into protecting ourselves and the less time we spend creating phobias and illnesses to describe the people who identify the problem, the sooner we can all solve it.

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sherlockxreader · 8 years ago

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30 Day Writing Challenge - Day 24

Day 24: Making up

Summary: After you had walked out on Sherlock after a fight, you and him get the opportunity to reflect on your relationship. Author: Maddy (@laterthantherabbit) Words: 2000 Characters/Relationships: Sherlock x reader, Molly x platonic!reader, John Watson, Greg Lestrade Warnings: Angst again I think but it is a happy ending so yay!

Author’s Notes: Hey! Sorry this is late, I got side-tracked watching Doctor Who haha. As you may or may not know, this is a continuation from yesterdays fic for ‘Arguing’. I’m also sorry that requests are taking so long. I’m trying to write as much of them in between this and work and it’s just taking a while. Once this challenge is over I’ll be able to write much more of them. Thank you all for being so patient me and Nyla. It’s really appreciated. Anyways, here you go, hope you enjoy this!

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The walk to Molly’s had done little to clear your head and by the time you reached her apartment, it was aching with all the emotions that the past hour had brought. When Molly opened the door, her bright face dropping at the sight of your tear-stained and rosy face, your watery eyes had stung and fresh tears flowed down your cheeks. She had crushed you in one of her warming hugs immediately, cradling your head to her shoulder with one hand and rubbing your back with the other, the motion doing little to sooth your body-wracking sobs. She ushered you into her cosy home and placed you on the sofa, handing you a box of tissues and a warm mug of tea on the table. She wrapped you in one of her softest blankets and continued to hug you until the sobs subsided into sniffles and finally into silent tears. She leaned back to look at your face and wiped away the stray tears. “Y/N, hun, what’s wrong?”

You sniffled and blew your nose, taking a sip of the now luke-warm tea before answering her. “I-it’s Sherlock. We argued and… I said things and he did too and…” You trailed off your sentence and shook your head, your eyes shutting tightly to ward off oncoming tears.

“And what. Y/N, what happened?” You couldn’t look Molly in the eye as you told her that you had walked out on Sherlock in anger, ashamed by the coldness of your move, but not sorry for doing so; you had needed this time away from Sherlock. Your ashamed blush soon turned to angry flush as you once again recalled the reasoning behind your leaving, your eyes beginning to sting once again.

“I don’t understand! This case, it’s like any other we’ve had before and he just tries to control me like everything else! It’s like he doesn’t trust me with this.” You sniffled again as the tears threatened to return. Molly looked sympathetically at you as you ranted and cried into her shoulder some more. She rocked you as she tried to think of something to say.

“I don’t think that it’s about trust here.”

“What do you mean?” You sniffed and pulled back away from her embrace to look into her eyes, dabbing away your tears from your splotchy skin whilst doing so.

She sighed as she contemplated some more, trying to form her words into some advice you would accept without making it seem as if her crush on the detective was biasing her words. “Well, Sherlock says that he doesn’t feel like the rest of us right?” You nodded. “The truth is, he is human, Y/N. Just as much as you and me, which means that he feels just as much as well, if not more so as he rarely expresses himself. He cares so deeply for you Y/N. I can see it every time he looks at you and this is just his way of expressing so, I think.”

“How so?”

“Well, he doesn’t want to see you hurt at all. Remember that time you burned yourself? He went into a little meltdown I swear.” You and Molly shared a laugh at the memory, your laugh melancholy as you recalled the distress Sherlock had shown for you, recognising it’s similarity to the face Sherlock had made when you began to leave. “He wanted to keep you safe and it seems to me that he thought that by keeping you away from the most dangerous aspect of himself, he was sparing you from ever becoming hurt at his hands, or through his actions?” You could hear Molly’s voice become more unsure of herself as she talked, however you could only see how accurate her observations were.

You began to sob again and crumpled into Molly’s arms once more, beginning to regret fighting with Sherlock over something so menial anyway. Molly suggested that you stayed at her flat that night, to which you declined. If there ever was a chance that you two could repair what damage that had been done, then the opportunity to do so was fading. You left Molly’s apartment as the sun was dipping below the horizon and you called a cab, heading back to 221B, hoping that there was still time.

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Watching you leave 221B had been the hardest thing Sherlock had ever done. It broke his heart to watch you turn the street corner without so much as a glance back at him, on his knees with tears streaming down his face. As he cried into his hands in the middle of the Winter air, all he could think was that he had caused the most important person in his life to walk away. He didn’t realise that Lestrade and John had arrived in Greg’s car until he felt John’s hands moving his, checking his pulse and pupils, and Greg’s lift him from the armpits and basically carry him upstairs.

He was hollow. Greg sat him down in his chair as John kneeled by his side, trying to gain his attention away from his turmoiled mind. A clicking noise in his ear brought him back to the present; John’s fingers clicking in fact. “Sherlock? Sherlock can you hear me?” John’s voice followed the clicking. Sherlock looked around and saw that his was in his apartment and he could feel the tear tracks drying on his cheeks, coaxing him back into the fight just minutes before. John’s voice and that of Greg’s were the only things keeping him tethered to reality. “Sherlock? What happened? Can you hear me?”

“Do we need an ambulance?”

“I don’t think that’s necessary Greg. Sherlock?”

“John?”

“There you are. Are you all right?”

“It’s Y/N.”

“What about Y/N? Is she okay?” Sherlock’s lip quivered as he imagined you crying as you walked down the street. All because of him.

“No. No I- I hurt her John. She- She’s gone.”

“You don’t mean-” Sherlock nodded his head quickly and tried to take some breaths to calm himself.

“She left me. We argued and I- I’ve ruined everything John.” Sherlock couldn’t look anywhere without seeing something that reminded him of you, in 221B and within his Mind Palace. You were so vital to him that he had spread you throughout every aspect of his life so to ensure that you would always be with him. He had never imagined that he would not always be with you. His vision became blurry as the tears became thicker and his hearing became dull as the blood that rushed through his head became louder. He could vaguely hear John standing to talk with Greg, sending him away with a quiet word and touch. He thought he saw Greg looking to him sympathetically, hesitating before he relented and left the friends in the flat. He heard John’s footsteps become quieter as he moved to the kitchen, returning with two glasses of scotch which he sat on the table beside Sherlock.

“Do you want to talk about what happened or…” John’s sentence trailed off as Sherlock shook his head.

“No I… I just need time to think.” Sherlock reached for the glass and swallowed the drink, savouring the burn that it left down his throat and into his stomach as it grounded him to the present.

He knew that trying to keep you from cases and The Work was the most effective way of keeping you safe from the enemies he had made, however what he hadn’t anticipated was the onslaught of raw emotion that would come from your hurt at being kept from them. He shuddered as he remembered the confused and, at first, amused face from his suggestion before it had morphed into disbelief and shock, and finally betrayal. That look had been brandished in his mind as soon as it had been created on the perfect features of your skin. The eyes that had filled with tears at the notion, the mouth that had quivered and stuttered as you tried to voice the many emotions and thoughts running through your head, the streaks that shined on your reddened cheeks as the tears fell.

He knew that he let his own emotions affect the actions of the fight you two had had, his own anger at yours coming out to lash at you. He felt that it was his inability to voice his emotions after years of maintaining a sociopathic persona which had ultimately had created a rift between the two of you that he feared may never be repaired. He felt his tears stream down his face as he repeated in his mind that it was his fault. You had left because of him. How could he have been so stupid. His breaths quickened when he thought he could hear your voice in the flat. I’m going mad, he thought. You couldn’t be here not after what had happened. He fisted his hands and pressed them harshly against his temples. The pain did little to alleviate that in his heart. The tears continued to stream continuously down his face.

Until they didn’t.

He opened his eyes at the unexpectedness of the gentle touch. Your touch. You were crouched in front of him, your hands on his cheeks and your thumbs wiping away the tears as your own fell down your face. He saw that the flat had turned dark and John was nowhere to be seen. He looked back to you and saw that your eyes were raw from crying and that your nose was dry from repeated tissue use. You surged upwards and wrapped Sherlock in your arms, stroking his head as Molly had done for you. “I’m so sorry Sherlock! I’m not leaving. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Your blubbering was the final trigger to pull Sherlock out of the recesses of his mind. He returned your embrace and moved out of the chair and onto the ground so that you weren’t in such an awkward position.

“I should be the one that’s sorry. Forgive me?” His voice was thick with tears and emotion as he spoke, causing you to cry a little harder.

“Of course. It’s not your fault, Sherlock.” He squeezed you harder as you spoke to him through your tears.

“But it is. I shouldn’t have tried to keep you from cases Y/N I-”

“I know. Molly helped me to understand. And you were talking whilst you were thinking just now.” He pulled back from you to look into your teary eyes.

“I was?” You nodded and your bottom lip quivered as you pulled him back into a hug.

“You scared me half to death! John said you were out of sorts since it happened and when I walked in to see you crying and mumbling and blaming yourself- I couldn’t bear it Sherlock.” Sherlock’s tears stained your shirt as he listened to you. He breathed in your scent which calmed him enough to speak clearly for you.

“I am so sorry for everything Y/N. You’re not an idiot, I am. You are the most important person in my life and if anything were to happen to you, I don’t know what I would do to myself.”

“You don’t have to worry about me Sherlock.” You cupped his face in your hands and moved him so that he was eye to eye with you. “Whatever we go through, no matter how dangerous or how life-threatening, I will always, always be by your side. I can take care of myself you know that, and with you by my side, I can think of no place anywhere that I would feel safer.” Sherlock reached back to lay his head on your shoulder, his arms moving up and down your back in time with yours. His voice was quiet when you had both reduced your sobs and tears into raspy breaths and sniffles.

“Stay? Please.” You kissed his temple and after you answered, he kissed yours.

“Of course, Sherlock. Always.”

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phemonoi · 8 years ago

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BTS A.R.M.Y: RULES TO KNOW IF YOU ARE NEW TO THE FANDOM

As you may have noticed, BTS are now having a huge time in America and a great impact in te world’s music industry. That has brought to them a big bunch of new stans. The A.R.M.Y family is growing huge, and if you are new to the fandom of course all of your unnies and oppas will welcome you with a smile. BUT there exist a bunch of rules and behaviors us, A.R.M.Y, need to follow if we want to keep up with the tag of «most loyal fandom» and the peace, order and good connivance.

Well, so let’s begin.

Rule #1: You WON’T start fights with other fandoms. Avoid fandom wars.

As you may notice, A.R.M.Ys have a delicate relationship with our EXO-Ls sisters. Most of us are tired of the ones in the fandoms that start fights. So PLEASE be careful with what you say. Praise all groups for their hard work. If you don’t come to like EXO or any other K-Pop group, you don’t have the right to express disapproval by insulting them or their fans. Be mature. Let’s show the K-Pop community that A.R.M.Y has grown up.

Rule #2: You WON’T call BTS kings or gods unironically.

BTS are a great group that has come too far by themselves. Yes, they tend to break stereotypes and be different, and yes, they may be one of the bests boybands out there. BUT that doesn’t make them any superior to other groups. What we want is to have a harmonious community, and avoid fandom wars. Fandom wars regularly begin when proud and egocentric stans call their groups the best in the industry. All groups are doing their best and have done their best. There is no king, no queen, no god or goddess of K-Pop. In a subjective point of view, BTS may be the bests for you, but just remember there exist variety of opinion in the community and you shouldn’t try to convince anyone of your own truth.

Rule #3: You are NOT going to compare the members.

BTS is a group that has been outstanding because of the unbelievably great relationship the members have, plus their humility and sincerity. They love each other as brothers and are a true example of brotherhood and team work. As well, us A.R.M.Y have to appreciate their hard work by equal. In this band, there is no rapper better than other, or singer better than other. They all have their talents and stand out for their own unique skills. I beg you to please don’t compare the members ever. Rule #3: Avoid talking about BTS everywhere. Some fandoms are tired of A.R.M.Y bringing up BTS in every topic. It’s not surprising since we are known for being loyal and passionate to our boys. However, this tends to tiren up other fandoms. Let’s say that right now the A.R.M.Y community doesn’t have a very honored title among the K-Pop stans because of that. Much of them hate the fandom and even hate our boys’ success because of the fandom itself. I know it sounds ridiculous. But let’s try to change it. If another group is in the highlights, let’s congratulate them and their fandom. Let’s not fall in haughtiness. Rule #4: Defend the boys. Up there I mentioned to avoid fandom wars. And yes, avoid them. BUT defend the boys in a good manner whenever you see someone insulting them or the fandom. If you are A.R.M.Y you’ll soon fall in love with the family, and as a strong family we protect each other. Actually, A.R.M.Y are known for being protective, so lets keep up on that. If you are having trouble defending the boys or the family to someone that is being missbehave and rude, call other A.R.M.Y to stand out in defence WITH GOOD MANNERS. Cease to fight with anyone who is being stubborn, better leave them in their own ignorance. Rule #5: STAN MUSIC, NOT JUST LOOKS.

BTS are a group well known for caring a lot more about their art than their visuals. If you want to be a true A.R.M.Y you should clearly listen to all their albums, the tracks they’ve developed outside the BigHit label, their mixes, read their translated lyrics, realize how poetic and beautiful their music is. If you gotta show off something about the boys, its their talent, trust me. Sure they are handsome and charismatic, but they are real for their music. Sure they may have called your attention at first glance because of their great looks, but know there is more about them than just pretty faces and expensive clothing. Rule #6: GET RID OF THE APPROPIATION SENSE. This is very important: your bias does not belong to you. It hasn’t happened yet, but if one of the boys ever decides to have a public relationship with whoever, you must not insult their partner or hate on them even if the jelousy is killing you. Realize how immature and ridiculous that is. Rule #7: Don’t take the ships too far. I know a lot of fans that get really obssessed with ships. It happens in every fandom. But please, remember that being too obvious about the ships can make the boys uncomfortable and also other stans. Don’t insult your fellow unnies and oppas if they happen to ship anything different from you. Don’t start ship wars in the fandom. Don’t make yourself any illusion that your ship may be canon, because by now we are not sure about the boys’ sexuality and we’ve only see their brotherly love side. They are adorable, I know, but don’t make yourself any wrong conception of what they really think about each other. Also, you will notice that in this fandom specially there is… hum… how can I say it… Poligamy? xD Kind of, there are tons of ships. Basically you can ship every member with every other member, even outside the group! You’ll find some crazy shippers, some multi-shippers (as me), and some rare species that only happen to ship one thing (I don’t have a clue of how they manage to stay loyal to their only ship omg). However, you can have fun with this, but just don’t take it to insanity. Please. Rule #8: Learn which kind of jokes may result offensive. I’m not going to lie, A.R.M.Y is a dope fandom. The best thing I love about this family is its humour sense. The jokes, the memes, the crack vids, its all fantastic. BUT as in everything, you need to know what is accepted and what is not. For example; don’t call Seokjin a princess. He doesn’t like being called that way, its disrespectful. Instead, why not call him a charming prince? or an egocentric bitch, I don’t know xD (Also realize that Seokjin is a very sarcastic person and he may seem arrogant if you can’t catch the joke, but he’s just very funny and his humour tends to be ironical. Just a little fact here) and also, don’t call Taehyung an alien. He doesn’t like that either, and I don’t want to talk to you about the scold you will receive from a V biased if they ever hear you call him an alien. I, myself, am an example of that. Don’t call him stupid or dumb either, he is not. Don’t call Yoongi lazy too often, if you do that sure there’ll be some Suga biased claiming to you he is not lazy at all (tho that may be a lie and we know it xD). Don’t EVER dare to say Namjoon or Hoseok are ugly. Ever. You’ll get hurt, trust me. I mean, I don’t even know why someone would joke about that, they are like the most beautiful creatures I’ve seen in my freaking life ??? I’ve been a long time on this fandom, and I think by now some very acceptable jokes that have always been funny are jokes about Jimin’s height and Jungkook’s bunny looks. However, these are jokes that the boys themselves started and tell, so we assume its correct if we use them. Whenever the boys end a joke, we stop making fun of it. Rule #9: Guide your new sisters and brothers into the fandom. Help people know well their new family. More important: get people interested in BTS! Show your friends the MV’s, tell them about the crazy theories and how charming and talented the boys are. As good A.R.M.Y our work is to help them gain recognition, and guiding new people to their concepts and music is a way to make it.

Rule #10: Don’t be a koreaboo. We know Korea is a very interesting country and the mother of one of the greatest cultures, but a lot of people will find annoying and even racist if you get too obssessed with South Korean’s popular culture or Hallyu. I may have to admit that me myself was a koreaboo for a long time and have been sometimes. South Korea its fantastic and its media culture its very attractive, but know that there also exist other means of comsumption and markets around the world. Also, please, don’t create yourself a fetiche around asian people. That is racist. Control yourselves, fam. Don’t get me wrong; support the hallyu, but don’t take the obssession too far. Also, don’t trust the website named “koreaboo” because it’s bullshit. I think that’s it for now. Those are kind of the important points I think of. Thank you for reading this and please reblog! If you want to add anything please feel free to do it.

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Liam Booker (Faking It): ISFP

Dominant Introverted Feeling [Fi]: Liam has very strong morals and is first and foremost concerned with doing the “right” thing. His conscience rules him, and if he does anything that contradicts his internal values, he obsesses over it until he’s able to correct his perceived shortcoming. Liam takes a stand for what he believes in. He is socially, economically, and environmentally aware, and wants the way he lives to reflect his principles. He’s opposed to lying and sneaking around, which makes his relationship with Karma difficult for him because he’s under the impression that Karma is dating Amy. He doesn’t want to get in the way of their relationship, and even though he cares about Karma, he feels that getting in the middle of their relationship is wrong. That’s just not who he is. Liam values honesty and hates that Amy is forcing him to keep their secret from Karma. He just wants to fess up, tell her the truth, and deal with the consequences. He can’t live with the guilt. Liam believes in punishing himself when he breaks his moral code and vows to abstain from sex after sleeping with Amy. He doesn’t like to openly discuss how he’s feeling, and prefers to do something to fix things rather than talk about it. Liam is very loyal to the people he loves and gives up his dream to get Karma and her family out of jail. He doesn’t tell her about this, though, because he didn’t do it to gain favor with her. He wants to earn her forgiveness and had no intention of using his good deed to sway her. He’s outraged when Karma considers taking the $250,000 check Mr. Booker wrote her to keep her away from Liam. He turned Zita down after she threw herself at him while Karma was contemplating accepting the bribe money, which hurts even more, because he knows she wouldn’t consider it for a single second if the money was given to her to stay away from Amy.

Auxiliary Extroverted Sensing [Se]: Sometimes, Liam makes shortsighted decisions in the heat of the moment and often comes to regret them after having time to reflect. He keeps seeing Karma, even though he’s against being with her behind Amy’s back. When he’s angry or upset, he tends to react without considering the ramifications. After his breakup with Karma, he learns that she had faked her relationship with Amy. In his outrage over being lied to for so long, he sleeps Amy and becomes immediately remorseful of his actions following the incident. Liam enjoys sensory pleasures, particularly sex, and is a talented artist. He expresses himself by creating, and is very good at translating his feelings into the works he produces (Fi-Se). Liam tends to work through his feelings physically – whether it’s by producing art or going to a mixed martial arts class with Theo.

Tertiary Introverted Intuition [Ni]: If Liam gets a hunch about something, he usually believes in it, fully committing to the idea, even if he’s completely mistaken. When Jackson Lee takes a special interest in him and his art, Liam is convinced that Jackson is his real father. He begins investigating to confirm his suspicions, and believes that he found “evidence” to prove it (his mother in the same photo as Jackson). However, it never occurs to him that it’s just a coincidence and his theory turns out to be incorrect. When Liam has a goal in mind, he can become singularly focused on achieving it, particularly if it’s something that is important to him morally.

Inferior Extroverted Thinking [Te]: When Liam believes in something, he does something about it. He organizes protests and inspires others to rally around him and fight back. When in protest mode, Liam is able to take charge, make decisions, and shout commands to the crowd. He doesn’t like when things are done for money, power, or control, which is why he refuses to drive a fancy car or buy expensive clothing, even though he comes from a rich family. He doesn’t like what money has done to them and rebels against that lifestyle. Liam is very upfront and lays down rules when need be – he tells Brandi upfront that their relationship must be casual sex or nothing. He’s not looking for a girlfriend, and if she can’t handle that, they have to stop hooking up. He knows what he wants, and has no problem speaking up.

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Quotes:

Brandi: Where have you been, Pooh Bear? Who’s this bitch? Liam: Whoa, Brandi, you’re drunk. Brandi: He’s mine, so keep those nipples to yourself. Karma: That was my goal from the beginning, I promise. Liam: Look, I am not your boyfriend. We’re just good friends who occasionally have sex, but if that’s too confusing for you, then we have to stop. [to Karma] What? Karma: Nothing. Liam: Look, I’m not a douche bag, all right? I’m always clear about my ground rules. And girls, they always agree to them, and then they get- Karma: Clingy? Women are genetically wired to mate and start a family. In fact, if we weren’t, our entire species would’ve died out, so have some respect.

Shane: They’re here, they’re queer, they need your votes. Nice work, minions. Liam: Anything to help the gays.

Karma: Liam’s parents are rich, but he drives a beat-up biodiesel, which means he’s socially aware. His best friends are a gay guy and a feminist, which means he’s tolerant and accepting of strong women. And he’s an artist, which means that deep down inside he’s wounded.

Liam: I’m glad you got back together with your girlfriend. You two are like the school’s Portia and Ellen. Karma: Which one am I? Please say Portia. Liam: Trust me, you’re the Portia. Which is why we probably shouldn’t make out again. I don’t want to be the asshole that breaks up Hester’s cutest couple.

Liam: We can see through your lies! She’s just trying to buy us! Robin: Trust me, no one is trying to buy you. Though you’ll each be getting new Skwerkel smartphones and tablets. Liam: What do you get out of this? Robin: The satisfaction of helping a school in desperate need of money. Also, Skwerkel will own all data collected on these devices. Karma: That means our photos, our emails, our text messages. They want to make us their digital slaves. Are we gonna let them? Crowd: Hell, no! Liam: Time to occupy Hester. Man your stations!

Liam: Money has made my family secretive, image-obsessed ass. I want nothing to do with it or them.

Liam: Look, maybe you two are okay with this sneaking around thing, but I’m not. I tried to be, but it’s just not who I am.

Liam: They’re right. I knew Karma had a girlfriend, but I kept seeing her. Shane: Why are you beating yourself up like this? It’s not your fault they broke up.

Liam: Six months? That’s forever. Karma: I know, I’m sorry. But if people at school think I left Amy for you, they’ll hate us more than oil companies. Liam: And Amy is okay with this? I just, I really don’t like lying.

Amy: This is kidnapping. Shane: It’s really more blackmail. Lauren: We’re going to take photos of this assjolr that are so shocking and deviant, he’ll never tell anyone my secret. Shane: Conveniently, my mom sells sex toys out of the trunk of her car. Amy: Guys, guys, this is illegal and highly disturbing. Lauren, how bad could this secret be? Lauren: Ugh, I’m not telling you my fucking secret. Shane: She’s not. Trust me, I tried. Liam: Guys, I’m with Amy. Maybe it’s a good thing this thing gets out. They say you’re only as sick as your secrets. Amy: What? No, who says that? Who, the voices in your head? Tell ’em to shut up. I changed my mind. I’m on board. This is America. We are all entitled to our secrets. Will you excuse us for a second? What the hell was that? “You’re only as sick as your secrets”? I’m sorry, but the guilt is killing me. Amy: Oh, this little piggy went boo-hoo-hoo all the way home. Man up. Look, it’s killing me too, but what would it do to Karma if she found out that her soul mate slept with you? Liam: So what, we just pretend it never happened? Amy: What happened? See how easy that was? And before we never speak of this again, do I need to add contracting syphilis to last night’s list of tragic events?

Shane: You’re still hung up on Karma, aren’t you? I don’t get it. Are her lips dusted with cocaine or something? Liam: No, this is not about Karma, and I’m only hung up on her because Little Liam wanted to meet a lesbian, so he needs to be put in time-out. Shane: Why are you punishing your penis? Hey, Karma is the one who lied. Liam: Trust me, I deserve to be punished. Shane: No, you deserve to move on, and the best way to get over someone is to get under someone new, stat. Unless you don’t want to get over her. Liam: Of course I want to get over her. I just think celibacy is the best way to do that. Shane: I don’t know. In my experience, it only leads to blue balls and long, incoherent speeches about wolves.

Amy: This is your last chance. Promise me you won’t tell Karma or I’m about to make a scene so juicy I might win a daytime Emmy. Liam: What if I tell her I slept with someone and I don’t say that someone was you? Amy: Not a negotiation, last chance. Liam: Wow, you’re completely mental. This is what secrets do to people. Amy: Three, two – Liam: You wouldn’t dare ’cause then you’d have no leverage. Amy: [hits Liam in the face] How dare you? That was one. Liam: Amy, come on. Amy: Don’t touch me! Liam: Amy. Amy: Do you know where I met Liam? At a protest. And do you know what we were protesting? Skwerkel. Mr. Booker: Liam. Amy: But it turns out, he was just seducing me. He never told me his father founded the company. Who are you, Liam Booker? Liam: That’s hilarious. Amy has been taking improv classes, and she’s getting very good. Amy: And if that weren’t enough of a betrayal, I also found out that he slept with my best friend.

Liam: I cannot believe – Did I just really say all of that out loud? Amy: You did. And your family… Liam: Probably disowned me, but right now, I do not give a fuck. I have a huge weight off my back. Amy: Now I get why you’re so hung up on honesty. Liam: Yeah, well a few years ago I accidentally found my original birth certificate and my whole world cracked. It weighed me down ever since. I wish somehow I could un-know it, but, I can’t. I don’t want to tell Karma something she can’t un-know, I care about her way too much. Amy: That’s just how I feel, thank you.

Shane: Quit taking it out on these innocent art supplies. Liam: Shane, really, I don’t want to talk about it. Shane: That’s just your straight guy resistance to talking about your feelings. Push through it. Theo: What are y’all on about? Shane: It’s Karma’s birthday, and Liam can’t be with her for reasons too complicated and fucked up to specify. Theo: Wanna go hit stuff? Always makes me feel better. I’m taking this mixed martial arts class downtown. Shane: Nice try, Theo, but what Liam needs is to talk it all out over some grilled cheeses at Millie’s Diner. Theo: What is this, The View? Liam: Shane, I’m sorry, but that class is just what the doctor ordered. Shane: You’re not the doctor. You’re the patient. You can’t prescribe your own medicine. Theo: Wow, you really think you know what’s best for everybody, don’t you? Shane: It’s a gift. Liam: We’ll talk it out later, I promise. But right now, I just want to punch someone in the face without getting arrested. You wanna come? Shane: I’ll pass. It all sounds a bit too aggressively heterosexual for me.

Karma: If she can’t handle our relationship, then maybe it’s not meant to be. Do you want some dessert? They have homemade doughnuts. Liam: She doesn’t want doughnuts. She wants Reagan. Karma: Amy loves doughnuts. Liam: Karma, we get it. You know all of Amy’s favorite foods, but can’t you see that she’s really into Reagan? You can fix this, but you’ve gotta go and stop her. Amy: You’re right. Liam: No, Karma. Karma, this isn’t about you. You need to give them space.

Karma: You gave up art for me? Liam: Zita told you? Karma: The real question is why you didn’t. Liam: Because I didn’t do it to buy your forgiveness. I want to earn that. But do you think I ever will? Karma: Look, I want to forgive you. You’re doing all the right things. I’m just scared of getting hurt again, which is why I need to be in control. Liam: I’m okay with that. Karma: Then put your hands behind your back.

Shane: Grr! Young Jackson Lee was cute. Liam: And that’s Robin in the same picture. That’s proof! Shane, he’s my dad! Shane: I don’t know. I’ve been in plenty of pictures with people I haven’t impregnated. Liam: No, it all makes so much sense now! Being an artist is in my blood, and now my dad has come back to build some kind of relationship with me. I’ve dreamt about this moment. Shane: Liam- Liam: Shh! When I dreamt about it, there was no talking.

Amy: Who wouldn’t consider taking $250,000? Liam: I’ve been such an idiot. Karma: It could help my parents get back on their feet, help pay for college. How could I not consider it for even a second? Liam: After you left L.A., Zita kissed me. She made it very clear she wanted more, but I turned her down. It didn’t take me a week to think about it. Karma: Oh, yeah, well, too bad you didn’t think before you slept with Amy. Amy: Karma, please leave me out of this. Liam: Here we go again. You’re taking a bribe to stay away from me, but I’m the one defending myself? Karma: I’m not rich, Liam! I didn’t fall asleep in class because I’ve been studying. I’ve been working every catering gig I could get. And I live in a freaking juice truck! Liam: It’s so besides the point, it’s not even funny. If you were offered that money to stay away from Amy, you wouldn’t have considered it for one second!

Principal Turner: These are all of the school’s known visual artists. One of them has to be “B.” All right, you Banksy wannabes. You’ve had your fun. Now if someone doesn’t admit to being “B,” you will all be suspended. And yes, I can do that. Again, read the Terms & Conditions. Liam: It was me, okay? I am “B.” Now, let everyone else go. Principal Turner: B for Booker. You know, I think we might just skip right past suspension to full-on expulsion Penelope: Stop! It wasn’t Liam. It was me. “B” is for Beaver. I mean, Bevier.

Liam Booker (Faking It): ISFP was originally published on MBTI Zone

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The Tenth Parable: About Pride, Humility, and Ability to Dissolve Oneself and Merge with Tao

Lao Tse kept travelling. Now He often stayed in the villages or towns to which Huang Di pointed. His fame of a healer and wise man grew and spread… Huang Di taught His Disciple: “Don’t reveal the great secrets to the unworthy! “Besides, You shouldn’t rejoice too much because of the glory that surrounds Your abilities now! Don’t forget that You’ve learnt all that You can do now through the communication with Me, thanks to Me! “Only great humility and great love allow obtaining the Great Power, Which is the same as the Power of Tao! “A disciple should never lose the impeccable humility! This is the key to the great victory over oneself; this is the basis of the correct achievements in the transformation of the soul! “You can’t be half agreeing with Tao: this will cause a dangerous breakdown. “If one starts presenting one’s will as the Will of Tao, that person stands on the path that leads to the downfall, which will absorb silently all previous achievements of a soul. “Only complete humility before the Supreme Will is the cure for this deadly disease — pride. “The proud and selfish are ‘heavy’: they drown in their own vices, which entangle them with their ‘weight’. So they lose a major battle of life! “On the contrary, the humble and selfless are ‘light’. Thanks to this, nothing in their lives can be a serious obstacle for them! They can quickly achieve the transparency of the body and subtlety of the soul. “Sadness and anger are companions of pride. “Peace and joy are companions of the perfect humility. “In the state of the great peace, accept the inevitable! “Everything in the world of matter is under control of the One Who lives in the Mergence with Tao. “This Person has no desires different from the Will of Tao or opinions different from the opinions of the Great Te. “There are many people who only heard about wise and helpful things, but never made of them the foundation of their lives. In spite of this, they consider themselves as men of knowledge and are proud, thinking that they have no equals… See how ridiculous their pride is in the Light of the Truth! “Proud people with the vicious minds tend to see defects of others and condemn everything around. Yet they don’t notice their own imperfections! “On the contrary, truly intelligent people, seeing defects of others, will eliminate the same bad qualities in themselves, as if they were looking in the mirror placed before them by Tao. “It’s possible to help others only if they strive for the self-transformation. “It makes sense to speak to those who are willing to hear. “You shouldn’t interfere in the destinies of people who rejected the recommendations of Tao. “The wise look at all creatures from the position of Tao, that is, with the eyes full of love. “The wise acts, maintaining the Mergence with Tao inside Its Great Calm. “The actions of the wise are perfect because they come from Tao. That is why, the reproaches of vicious people don’t affect the wise. “The wise are immune to hatred and condemnation! Such emotions can’t touch them since they live in Tao! “Even bodies of the wise can be hurt only if there is the Will of Tao for this. “To help people to understand is a hard and thankless task, but it serves for the good of Tao. “Even if only 9 people out of 9000 really hear and understand You, and if only 1 of those 9 can accomplish what he or she heard — even in this case, the benefit will be great! It is so since this 1 will achieve more than 9000 taken together.”

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Once Huang Di said: “Now it is the time for You to return to a life of solitude. Go to the mountains…” “But, Huang Di, so many more people still need my help!” “Well, do as You wish…” … Lao Tse directed His donkey to the valley, to that place where the next village was seen in a distance… He began to submerge himself into meditation but noticed that the donkey changed route by itself and started climbing the hill slowly. Lao Tse asked Huang Di: “Why don’t You approve My desire to help people? You Yourself recently has advised Me to do so!” “There are different ways and possibilities of helping people. I am, for example, doing this right now, too. And not only for You. I can help a lot of people at the same time, because I have the Great Power of Tao in Its totality. “One shouldn’t oppose oneself to Tao even in the smallest things! It is important to learn to feel the Will of Tao always! “Total submission of the developed human mind to the Will of Tao is one of the points of education. “If You completely cut off Your ability to think — I will laugh at you since I don’t need fools! But if Your mind puts up resistance to My Will — then I will step aside and wait until You finally start wanting to merge with Me again…” “Do we need to find the ‘golden mean’?” “Yes. Only following carefully the ‘golden mean’, You can remain on the Path to Tao! On this background — I teach You to feel every nuance of the Will of Tao and Te! “Now for You the time has arrived to become fully connected with My Great Power! “Yet in order to attain the Full Mergence, You should master the ability to dissolve yourself. You should learn to disappear in the boundless Ocean of Tao! “Just as a drop, falling into the large volume of water, loses its boundaries and becomes the inseparable part of this water, just as a river, flowing into the ocean, loses its current and shores — so the soul should be able to lose completely its individuality and separateness, merging with Tao, so that only one united Love, united Wisdom, and united Power remain! “You’ve learned to be in the state of dissolution in Me. “But now You should go deeper — in comparison with Your usual perception of Me! “I — by Myself — have laid the Path from man’s developed spiritual heart to the Abode of Tao! Having passed it, You will be able to live forever in the Mergence with the Subtlest! “Feel what I am! All that is not I — is like a dress on My Limitless Universal Body of Consciousness! “Feel My Universal Greatness and Power! “The slightest movement of My Arms can change worlds! But when there is no immediate need, I maintain the Great Peace. “Tao exists in the state of the Great Peace. “It is only by the Will of Tao that a movement begins from Its Abode — movement that creates a new reality. “This movement is the Creative Divine Fire of the Great Te. They have Power to create or destroy parts of the universe, as well as to control and direct everything that exists. “Thus I rule over everything, remaining in the Mergence with the Transparent Calm of the Ocean of Tao, Which lies in the depths, deeper than the Creative Flame. “Regardless of whether I have a material body or not, I always feel the entire Absolute with Myself. “My body — when I create it — is like a little finger on one of My numerous Hands. I can act with that ‘finger’, however it doesn’t limit My self-perception to such a small piece of the universe. “You, too, can gradually expand Your self-perception inside this world and inside the subtlest worlds — embracing with yourself as a soul, consisting of love and peace, increasing volumes of the multidimensional universe. “At first, you won’t be fully merged with the Divine Power. But gaining more and more experience of life in the Mergence with Tao, You should grow in Love and Wisdom! Through this, You will gradually obtain more and more possibilities to manifest the Great Power of Tao. “Be One with the Infinite Transparent and Subtlest State of Primordial Tao! “Don’t cross the boundaries of the Ocean of Tao, even when entering the shell of Your body!”

[to be continued]

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