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corneille-moisie · 2 years

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i was curious about the word count of my outline was getting at...

9907...

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it's just an outline lmao 🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈

#and im not done either #i feel like im still far from done...#but then again i already know im gonna have enough materal for several books so...#im currently reviewing old notes and i realize that a lot of my new ideas are just reworked old ideas i had forgotten about lol #but im now getting a pretty good idea of the story and its chronology #its satisfying #it used to be just some random ideas i had in no specific order #i was going more with the feelings that became very specific scenes #its also easier to parse through the story in text form rather than relying on the unreliable narrator my brain is🤔🤔🤔🤔#like i know duh #but i had to mature on that you see lol #i wrote so many chaptered fanfiction without an actual plan and making it up as I go to know that this isnt how i work best lol #but you couldnt tell that to 18-21 y/o crow 😂

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cogdominium · 2 months

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saw a post in the corporate clash tag that caused me to black out and make this

#toontown #corporate clash #ttcc #misty monsoon #rainmaker #misty is not even remotely closed to being a character like vriska but the discourse surrounding her is exactly the same n its crazy #misty is a rly fun character that is done dirty by the uninteresting format of toontasks inherented from toontown online #she has so much potential tbh but we just don't have enough content of her in game to rly matter #as far it is rn she's just a very awkwardly placed plot point cuz you dont rly know how to actually feel about her #barnacle bessie tried to rip her to shreds and its you're almost made to feel bad for misty cuz of it #but like she's still actively involved in a mega corporation trying to take over and pollute bessie's home #how can u blame her for that reaction #basically all im sayin is that misty could be so good but rn she's confined to a singular kinda awkward fight at the end of BB kudos #so maybe in the future she'll be a rly good part of the plotline of clash who knows #idk why i felt the need to rant in the tags sorry my autism

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technitango · 22 days

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oh great in episode 6 of 4 minutes my beloved. he's so fucked up. i love him.

#can you believe this was the best episode of the whole show so far #it was so messed up this is all i wanted from this show #like is it my birthday or something #im so obsessed #everyone was displaying unhinged behavior and i am here for it #also great is so multifaceted #like he's not a bad person perse but he does do bad things #due to his upbringing and his complacency and his fear cause he is a bit of a coward yes #but like he does feel bad about the effed up stuff he's done #he is just trying to drown it out and ignore it #i just love it when a character is allowed to do the absolutely wrong thing sometimes #and suffer the consequences of their actions #while still also not being an awful awful person deep down #great is a person that's not that good but not that evil either #and he is lonely af and deep down seeking genuine human connection and doesn't even realize it #love that #4 minutes #4 minutes the series

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jrueships · 1 month

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im going into my new work tomorrow, first time ever😐

#i was supposed to go in yesterday but um #so basically i did whatever training i was never even aware existed on a platform i was never told of #which has progress for every lil step i do so my manager literally could see i hadnt even logged on n couldve warned me any time #but never did 4 some reason. like even a days notice like heyyy have u gotta blah done n not as im abt to exit to work #BUT ANYWAYS so i tell her i got it done n shes like awesome i make new schedule (since she said we have 2 completely rid the old one #i dont get an update until 4 days later. all she did was add THREE training days (im supposed to have 6 cus it's a hard job)#on TOP of my old schedule. so i have 3 days i know are training days and then a solo day bcs that solo day was going off my old schedule #so it's like. which days do i go on then. bcs u said i cant come in at all bcs we'll have to make a completely new schedule #and then the new schedule is just. 3 added days. on top of my old one #sunday i was scheduled for training & there was No trainer scheduled with me. it was just me #sunday wasnt one of the 3 new days added. it was from the old schedule she literally told me to ignore #n then all a sudden today i get an email from someone who was supposed to be training me (name not even on the schedule tho)#n shes like hey im in the building are u lost or smthing :)?' mind u im asleep . so she probably thot she was wasting her time for a good hr #i emailed her an apology n an explanation but UGH r u fucking serious?? IF I KNEW THAT WAS A (NEW) TRAINING DAY I WOULDVE WENT #I JUST WANT TO GET USED TO THIS NEW THING & IT'S JUST GETTING FUCKED LIKE I DONT EVEN HAVE A BADGE YET BRO #like i was suspicious of going in sunday bcs it wouldve lined up nicely with the 3 added training days #but manager TOLD me she was adding a whole new training schedule! i double check n all she added were THREE days! thats it!#how was *i* supposed to know sunday was supposed to be 1 of those days when ive been staying at home ignoring the schedule u said 2 #BCS U SAID 2. AND ALSO. THERE WAS NO TRAINER ON THE SCHEDULE.#even tho the drive is far. i wouldve driven up there today to see if i could shadow if i had known there was someone to shadow there #bcs even if i was wrong abt the day 2 come in at least i wouldnt waste my time but i didnt even know if there was someone there with a #trainer title. so i just missed a day i didnt even know i rlly had. FOR NOTHING. UGHH. I FEEL SO STUPID. I HATE MISCOMMUNICATION #im so scared of coming in now. sverybodys gonna think im dum n what if i have issues training then theyre gonna be like #we spent all this time on bro n he had all this time 2 prepare n he still sucks like damn we should just give up #i would 2 but i hate not seeing things to completion so. ugh. hate it here. idk what 2 say. EMBARRASSING #i hate miscommunications i hate feeling stupid

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cent-scratchnsniff · 6 days

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i wish to be your shadow , forever behind you , even if i am not good enough

plus some extra. they are quite literally metal boxes. i wonder how large they are in actually. im assuming human size? i also never realized just how complicated hokma's was.. i think its all the gears

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #lobotomy corp spoilers #hokma #hokma lobcorp #ayin #ayin lobcorp #im always worried about ooc but then a realize. IT DOESNT MATTER!!! i want them to hug #but then i think abt it and i dont know how to draw hugs. does it matter? NO!! you can tell what it is . good enough #anyways tagging w ayin is always weird because its not QUITE him (from my understanding im not even done im on day 47(pain))#its a mix of consciousness between a blank slate who processes and feels things in a similar manner but then memories put onto him that --#-- logically are his but even then theyre seperate entetied in a way even still (angela noted this in one of the days cant remember which)#so its like.... x and a put into one . i thinkk where its going w it is that each are different aspects ended up experiencing and processin #this grief and hopelessness in different ways? and then ending up being assigned a name as a reflection of different aspects born of the --#-- character that was the entirety of 'ayin'. different aspects isolated via extreme measures when they are ALL ayin just... yknow extremes #FROM MY UNDERSTANDING DONT CORRECT ME IM NOT DONE!!! IM NOT DONE!!!! ITLL HAPPEN 98 HRS SO FAR TRUST #((well day 47 when i queued this to be posted .. hopefully ill be past that and with a acceptable death count))#(((I did btw what the fuck hatbthe fuck whayt hfbf ck)))#I FROGOY i #x lobcorp

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yuckydraws · 9 months

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Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

#if you feel like reading it - I'm gonna ramble in the tags.#Don't really feel like having it attached to the post for forever... cause what if i just wanna reblog some fairysona art??#anyways #this year sucked a lot. in a lot of ways. but im grateful for it.#healing is stupidly hard and annoyingly enough? not linear in the slightest. Yet infuriatingly - it is worth it.#I am far from done with healing. I've barely scratched the surface.#but im learning and connecting with myself along the way.#The biggest step I've taken this year is working on my people pleasing ways. it's a bad habit birthed from a lot of different traumas.#but it no longer rules my life.#I am not passive anymore - and surprise! that doesn't make me a horrible or evil person.#my kindness is no longer a weakness. its still a part of me and always will be. i won't let go of it.#but it is no longer to a fault #there are people undeserving of my kindness... i realize that now. I know what i will and will not put up with in every kind of relationshi #im still learning and exploring - and i've said a lot of goodbyes this year. I'm sure i will say more.#but that's okay.#some relationships are forever - some serve you for a while and teach you a lesson when they end.#and some relationships stick around and don't *have* to have a deeper connection #and that's also okay.#I didn't think I'd make it through this year in all honesty. I was very close to ending it all on multiple occasions.#But. for what it's worth - as of now im glad im here.#i will continue to struggle and have my hard times. im not naive enough to think depression just goes away.#but im okay for now and im moving forward.#there will be pauses and abrupt stops and likely some good ol' rotting involved. but when i can - ill be moving forward.#i will not speak a word of 2024 because no matter what it will have it's ups and downs.#but i will continue to keep working on myself. and that's all anyone can do in this weird life.#if you made it through all of that... uhhhh wow you got a crush on me or smth? /j/j/j/j #but fr - if you read this far... thank you. i hope you're faring well and that you have a happy celebration tonight.#sleep well and dream well when it comes to you #yucky draws #my art

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todayisafridaynight · 1 month

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We rlly don’t need another majima game 😭 please give other characters a chance he already had the spotlight in 0😔

lord if i speak on goro majima.

#snap chats #my last nerve was seeing him front and center on that Three Legends shirt with daigo and saejima im SICK OF HIM #what do you MEAN the Sixth Chairman is backseating majima. like thats his retainer PUT DAIGO UP FRONT #it aint even bias its gen just like. why is the sixth chairman not treated the most important. thats The Chairman of the whole shit #EX chairman whatever we know what i mean #'snap its just a shirt' and these are just my balls alright its all the little things that are like Dawg Cmon #i woulda got the shirt cause it looks like somethign youd get from claires and thats hilarious However ... im annoying.#ill say this then play y0 and be like Ah..... i love you...#fr tho im sick of him GO AWAY YOU ARE NOT THAT GUY #im that meme of spiderman holding back the train and the trains saying mean things about majima #this ire is only brought by rggtwt mates insisting majima needs any more content. like at all.#they gave majima a y0 statue but as far as i can see kiryu doesnt have one like What.#ik i say id skip y0 kiryu if i could during replays and its never that serious but still .... the hell...#my brother in christ majima does not need any more why are you acting starved #i get it hes your fave but my god. goku this trains heavier than i thought i cant do it #ive had beef with rggtwt ever since they tried to say majima was more important to kiryu than haruka. like brb eating a cactus #rgg making gaiden was the worst thing they couldve done cause now everyone wont stop mentioning charas getting a gaiden game #MAJIMA OF ALL OF THEM DOES NOT NEED ONE MFER THATS WHAT Y0 WAS FOR. WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT #THEY GAVE HIM AN EXTRA STORY IN YK2 ALSO LIKE RGG IS DOING THE MOST FOR A SIDE CHARACTER #anyway this is why im happy saejima and akiyama are getting figures. ESPECIALLY AKIYAMA #I FEEL LIKE WE NEVER SEE SHIT OF THAT GUY and saejima. tbh. but still ... akiyama esp just feels left out #big hope other charas start to get more love. like my daughter haruka ok rgg plesae drop one of her idol statues thank you #on a lighter note september is almost upon us which means two things #1.) i have to move back to school at the end of the month 2.) rgg news is soon .....#SOOO curious as to what's on the horizon .. maybe ill stream it for the first time in nine thousand years #ok bye im gonna eat cereal <- diced spam and rice

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genekies · 3 months

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tag vent

#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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ganondoodle · 1 year

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so .. i did all the glyphs (but by far not all dungeons and theres still ton to do) and boi

i feel weird about saying this but i am … not invested at all in the story, like even the stuff with zelda (a plotpoint which i called out correctly right shortly after the beginning even lol) didnt get to me even a little bit and ganondorf feels even flatter as a character than before :I

#ganondoodles talks #totkspoilers #totk spoilers #totkspoiler #totk spoiler #im far FAR from done but at this point idk if it can turn how i feel about it around anymore #but we will see #im still having fun tho #but even with setting my expectations incredibly low i was still disappointed in quite a bit of stuff #i obviosuly havent seen everything yet so i will not form a final opinion on everything but so far #i care more about koga than about ganondorf #and i dont think that will change lmao #also dare i say it feels like both sonia and zelda got fridged lmao

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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i've also realized that there is no therapy that can fix what's broken inside of me