#i feel like im dying!!!

[isjasz]

Stellar death

[catboybiologist]

By now, there's lots of people have heard about the internal CDC memos for all newly prepared manuscripts (like future scientific papers waiting to be published):

There's so much to comment on, and I'm seeing it all right now. What the state of science is. What this means for the queer community. All of that.

But fuck, I think I might genuinely start crying over this. As a transgender biologist, this feels like a brutally personal blow. I slowly accepted my gender alongside my biology education. The more misinformation that was spewed about "biological sex" by mainstream media, the more my professors, colleagues, and primary sources would casually drop information that proved they have no idea what they're talking about. I'm not an expert on sex determination, gender, or transgender biology specifically by any means. But my worldview has been crafted by my studies in genetics and molecular biology.

Engaging with this research helped me demystify transition. It helped me optimize my transition. It helped me explain how HRT and other steps of trans healthcare work to other people. And it helped me overcome my own internalized transphobia, and finally start transitioning, despite knowing I wanted to since my preteen years.

Who knows how enforceable internal guidelines like this will be. But its certainly going to scare a lot of researchers away from transgender healthcare and science in the coming years, and that breaks my heart.

There's a lot I can say here, but fuck. I just needed to vent for a moment. Fuck.

[skitskatdacat63]

Mark smiling after Oscar said he had to "hang on for dear life."

[hinamie]

itafushi nation how r we Feeling!!!!!!!!!!!

[collieii]

someone probably said this already but in spiderverse i think it's interesting how when pavitr was first introduced everyone thought something bad was gonna happen to him bc of how confident and optimistic he was. and then in the actual movie we see that something bad was supposed to happen to him (police chief dying!) but it doesn't! miles stops it! and miguel berates miles for this, says it's going to cause the universe to collapse or whatever.

there's this idea that tragedy is inherent to spidermans growth, and while it's true that some spiderpeople learn important lessons through loss, no one stops to ask, is it really necessary? yeah, maybe the chief was supposed to die. but why does spiderman have to be formed through tragedy? why do we (as heroes) have to let people die? pavitr didn't lose anyone, and he's still a good spiderman! maybe, if he doesn't suffer, he'll end up better off for it!

so while miguel is arguing for all this big picture stuff about saving the multiverse he's lost sight of what it really means to be a spiderman, he's not looking out for the real individual people. yeah it's just one person who would die, but that one person means something to someone. shrugging and saying "stuff just sucks sometimes, we can't do anything about it" is the opposite of what superheroes do. pretty obviously, miles arc is also a reflection of the struggles people face in real life, working within unequal systems, where it's easy to shrug and say "that's just the way it is" and not ask "but why does it need be this way? can't we do something about it?"

miguel is arguing that you can't have your cake and eat it too. presumably, miles and co. are going to find a way to get around that and change things for the better (and maybe that's why miles has that line about two cakes in the advisors office!)

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

Transcript :

Gabriel : Machine... I did my top surgery myself!

Ghh... Bleeding..? Blood loss..? Hah!

*deep breath* Nooo... haha.

Ugh whyyy... Why-why would I be...

*shortest vineboom ever*

*another vineboom*

V1 : Sucks the blood from your ex boobs, yum yum yummm.

Audio source

[sunlit-mess]

snap out of it

[blossoms-phan]

everybody moved on i stayed here

[bytedykes]

[ID: SVSSS fanart of Shen Qingqiu and Liu Qingge. It's the scene from volume 1 where Liu Qingge is having a qi deviation. He's on the floor, face and clothes splattered with blood. Shen Qingqiu has a hand on his shoulder, and smiles as he says, "You're too hot- I mean too young to die. We should be friends now." Liu Qingge scowls at him, angry and confused, thinking "wtf" repeatedly and with question marks floating around his head. /end ID]

this is basically what happened i think

[kitamars]

although it dooms me, consumes me

[brookriver-mudlark]

sick atm, decided to draw Optimus convalescing post-Cybonic Plague

[atelierlili]

Let's have a toasting

I don't think it would take very long for these two to die the knot and toast that bread. 🔥🍞 

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[quirkle2]

it's nice to feel childlike wonder again

[nonranghaes]

heads up: reader crying. physical pain in lower back.

no matter how gentle or how hard felix is massaging you right now, you can't stop crying. you think this is probably your fault anyway: you woke up hurting today, and still pushed to overexert yourself to handle daily chores around the apartment. he kisses the back of your shoulder for the third time since he's started massaging your back, apologizing yet again because he thinks its him no matter how many times you tell him it isn't. it'd hurt with or without him trying to help you.

"i can stop," he says again. "if it's hurting more than it's helping, then i can--"

you shake your head furiously. "it's helping," you swear, because it is. it still hurts, but the way he's kneading your lower back is still doing something good.

"are you sure?" his voice is softer now, more timid. no matter how many times you tell him, you think he's going to struggle with believing you while you're crying. he stops for a moment, reaching up to wipe away your tears. "sunshine..."

you push yourself up despite the spasm it sends through your back. "i don't know what i did."

"if it doesn't go away, we'll go see someone." we. he always says we. it's reassuring, at least: you two stick through things together. you often catch yourself saying that magical "we" when felix is struggling, too, just so he knows he's not alone. he leans forward to kiss your forehead, then shifts. "lay back down. stop me if it hurts too much and we can get the heating pad out to see if that helps."

so you lay back down, and keep your trust in felix. maybe this really will help.

[moeblob]

Ruining Hank's life with one simple introduction (for the fourth and not final time).

[tiessunnyskies]

We deserve a drop of sunshine now and again.