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Entry 10: The One About the Audibly Loud Lukola FanFic
Iâll address the elephant in the room. And, no, Iâm not talking about Jake Dunnâs brown suit! Or, that heâs posing with a man. Or, that Tyler commented âBellissimo!!!!â on Jake's post.
I donât think a lot of people understood the connection I was making this morning about âMis-Directed,â Gwilym Lee, and Jake. Â So, now I feel the need to explain because I donât want people running with a narrative that goes in the opposite direction of where I was taking it.
Sorry, JVN, youâre getting pushed to the side again. I promise, Iâll get to you one day.
Letâs go back two monthsâŠ
On September 25, Nicola posted to her Instagram stories a link to Alex Babskyâs post, which was a picture of Nicola. She had her hair and make-up done but she was wearing one of her own dresses (the black dress she wore in Australia and Brazil). Babsky captioned his post â[pink bow] @nicolacoughlan in London today forâŠwell, never mind what for actually [laughing emoji with hand over mouth] [winking emoji] [shushing emoji].â Nicola responded, âYouâre amazing it was so gorgeous to see you xxx.â
Babksyâs caption sent the fandom into hysteria wondering what the hell Nicola was up to. It didnât help that this was the same day Luke updated his Instagram bio and used âXxâ and it didnât help that Nicola was wearing the black dress she allegedly wore on her beach walk in Brazil with Luke.
Do you want to know what I thought the photo of Nicola was from? Iâm not going to lie â I thought it was pre-wedding makeup. Seriously, not kidding. It reminded me of my own wedding day. Formal hair and makeup and my own dress that was easy to take off without messing up the hair and makeup. I never said I wasnât a little bit delulu.
On November 5, an author named Lucy Parker announced on her Instagram feed that she had a new Audible book called âMis-Directedâ being released in February 2025. The post came with pictures of Nicola wearing the black dress and the same hair and makeup as the September 25 post. Nicola (presumably) is reading the part of Hattie Murton, and Gwilym Lee (presumably) is reading the part of Anthony Rafe.
Oh, okay.
Turns out, I was wrong.
So, Nicola and Luke didnât get married.
Fine.
I have always liked crows.
But, wait a minute â what the fuck is this Audible book about? A woman who stars in a romantic drama called âLeicester Squareâ (what the fuck?) which was adapted from a best-selling romance novel (what the fuck??). Then, in comes our antagonist, Anthony Rafe, who plays opposite of Hattie and, let me quote here, âBut when very real chemistry sparks during their scripted love scenes, Hattie begins to think the industryâs legendarily heartless Bad Guy [Anthony] might just a have a pulse after all. And Anthony, for his part, is caught off-guard by the way his heart races when heâs around his aggravating onscreen lover. As reality starts to imitate art a little too close for comfort, the worldâs most unlikely couple might just have more in common than they thoughtâŠâ (what the fuck???).
Letâs start with Leicester Square. What the hell is Leicester Square? Oh, the name of the fake television show on which Hattie and Anthony star. Sure, Jan. Is it odd to anyone else that Leicester Square is the name of the location of where the London premiere of Bridgerton Season 3 took place? You know, the event that happened hours before Papsmear.
Then we have the make-believe show being adapted from a best-selling romance novel. Mmm hmm.
Letâs try and not make the connection between Luke and Anthony. Mmm hmm.
And, letâs add fuel to the fire and have two co-stars falling in love with each other.
Yeah, we get it. Itâs a Lukola FanFic being read by none other than Nicola. I mean, the only way it could be any better is if Luke was reading the part of Anthony Rafe! But, no, that part is being read by Gwilym Lee (who is fantastic in everything he does, by the way).
Who is Gwilym Lee? Well, heâs an actor (my father calls him âMidsomerâ). Ask Mr. Google about him. But, if you check out his Instagram feed, you will find that he knows Jake and has since, at least, 2022. Is it possible that Nicola met Gwilym through Jake? Yeah, it is.
Now, why do I find this situation intriguing? Specifically, why did I find the post from Jake this morning posing with Gwilym interesting (and a bit shady)? Let me explain.
The Jakholes took the âMis-Directedâ FanFic as shade towards the Lukolas. Yes, they went there because that FanFic does not (in the least) fit nicely into their Jakola narrative. I mean, if it wasnât shade to the Lukolas, how weird the storyline must have been for Jake! The writing was audibly on the wall, in big red letters, but the Jakholes chose to spin it into something messier than my hair in the morning after sleeping on it wet.
What exactly is this theory? Well, per the Jakholes, Nicola hates the Lukola fandom so much that she sat and read (likely, for hours) this Lukola-coded FanFic just to spite us! I mean, Anthony is a bad boy in this story and âeveryone loves to hateâ him (donât forget, Luke became the devil incarnate after Papsmear). And, Hattie is tired of the âbrutal press, overly invested fans, and a cutthroat industryâŠ[that] would give even Pollyanna an edge of cynicism.â The Jakholes believe this means Nicola is saying sheâs really in love with Jake and she wants us all to know that by reading a Harlequin-style romance about a woman who falls in love with her costar! Oh, my God!! How could she?!
What in the actual fuck are the Jakholes drinking with this bullshit? I know, I know. I shouldnât expect anything better from people who ship Jake with Nicola. In fact, if I was a Jakhole, I might buy into this conspiracy theory. But, Iâm not a fucking Jakhole. And, guess what Jakholes? I donât mind breaking the hearts of Lukolas by saying weâre probably never going to see sexy-hot Brazil pictures of Luke and Nicola, so I donât mind telling Jakholes to put this theory back into Davy Jonesâ locker and feed it to that bitch Kraken.
Letâs talk a bit further about the absurdity of this âNicola is shading Lukolaâ subplot from Hell.
We will pretend Nicola hates Luke. She hates Lukola. She baits the Lukola fandom for shits and giggles.
What would this make Nicola?
It would make her a villain, for starters (and âvillainâ is me being extremely nice).
More importantly, it would make Nicola a PR nightmare.
Even if Nicola and Luke despised each other, do you believe Netflix, Bridgerton, and Shonda Land would allow Nicola to play games with the Lukola fandom? Talk about playing with fire!
The reality is the lines between Polin and Lukola are heavily blurred at this point. I hate to say it â and maybe a lot of you will view me as a complete asshole after I say this â but, if I learned Nicola was shading the Lukolas (therefore, in my opinion, trolling Luke), I would not be interested in Bridgerton Season 4. Or, Season 5. Or, any season after that. Or, in Nicola, for that matter. Youâre welcome to have your own opinion about this but I would feel incredibly betrayed, and not just by Nicola. On top of that, for me, Polin has become Lukola. Theyâre so blurred, they donât even resemble a line anymore. Maybe thatâs a bad position to be in, but thatâs where Iâm at. Sorry, not sorry.
Iâm not going to rehash the breadcrumbs left by Nicola that support Lukola â if you know, you know (or you can catch up by spending an afternoon on Tumblr). Even Luke, in his own way, leaves Lukola-coded crumbs. We also have damn convincing evidence that Netflix, Bridgerton, and Shonda Land support Lukola. I mean, even theyâre blurring the lines with âNicola and Lukeâs Cutest Momentsâ and interestingly timed images of Polin. So, do you think theyâre going to let Nicola fuck with that on a public forum?
That would be a cold, hard NO.
But, this Audible book â âMis-Directedâ â is loud and made louder because Nicola is reading it.
So, what is this Audible book? Shade? Or, Nicola being cutesy? Iâm going to place my bets on the latter solely because, like I said, the Corporate Office is not going to let Nicola shade Lukola because it has a direct effect on Polin.
Thatâs not to say that the excitement of this Lukola-coded âMis-Directedâ FanFic wasnât attacked by the Jakholes from all sides, and the wind â for the moment â was kicked out of it. Thatâs a different story for a different day.
But, what I found so intriguing about Jakeâs post today is that, of all the people he could have included in his photo (because thereâs obviously lots of people at this event), he chose Gwilym. And, this means people will look into Gwilym. People will realize that Gwilym is the other side of âMis-Directed.â People will realize Jake and Gwilym are friends. People will realize that Jakeâs friend is reading a Lukola-themed romance novel with Nicola.
And, if we agree that the book is not shade towards the Lukolas and we agree that Jakola is not real, what is the significance of the connection between Jake and Gwilym? Maybe itâs nothing. Maybe Iâm overthinking it. But, the connection â at least in my mind (and itâs been there since November 5) â is that Jake supports âMis-Directedâ because he supports Lukola and he has always been there, helping Nicola lay the breadcrumbs. He wanted people to look into Gwilym and make the connection. Jake could very well be the one who suggested Gwilym read the part of Anthony. Jake is the degree of separation.
I want to close this out by noting that Jake also liked the post Nicola has pinned on her Instagram grid â the black and white one about her Time 100 article. You know, the one where Nicola says, âA lot of people really want me to marry Luke.â Follow the links and it will take you to this article. Thatâs an interestingly placed like by Jake, in my opinion â as is his photo op with Gwilym.
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đđ y. jimin ( ì ì§ëŻŒ )
synopsis | she was the bestest friend you...had.
pairing : karina x fem!reader genre : drabble, fluff, f2l warnings : language, mentions of kissing & being drunk word count : 435
authors note : i need a gf but i also live in the us lolz
âYouâve got someâŠâ The woman sitting across from you trailed off, swiping her thumb across your upper lip. She leaned on her elbows, further over the table as your eyes went wide.
âO-oh, sorry.â You stuttered, mentally and verbally.
She laughed, her head angling. She stared so deeply it wouldâve been intimidating if it was anyone else. Truthfully, you and Jimin have flirted shamelessly your entire friendship. However, now that you were actually on a date together, all you could be was shy, avoiding her eye contact.
You used to never be able to beat the dating allegations, but now that they were trueâŠyou had no idea what to do. Could you still hold her hand in public spaces? Could you still say you were gonna kiss her and when sheâd do something to help you out? Could you still promise her you were going to marry her one day?
You guess, in reality, nothing and everything has changed.
She laughed, âDonât apologize, itâs cute.â
You fought with another stutterâGod, you donât know why she was making you so nervous. Youâd known her for a long time, she was your best friend for fuck sake. Whatâs the difference if now sheâll become your girlfriend one day?
Somewhere deep down, you knew it was bound to happen anyways.
From the stolen glances, to hands held too long. The drunken kisses shared between friends who always walked a thin line. It was the arms wrapped around each other in the dead of night, when the moon was your only witness.
It was her hands that always knew just how hard to pull on your heartstrings.
She finally earned your eye-contact, pupils dilating with attraction. You could see it.
The green grass, the gray sided house and wooden holiday cabin. You could see the smiling faces, and teary-eyed I doâs. Everything flashed. The first time your fingers brushed and the lips pressed. The first argument and sorrowful hugs of apologies. The first sleepover after a movie night that went a little too long. Meeting friends, and going out to eat. Dancing and singing around the kitchen at all hours of the night. Breakfast in the morning. Surprise birthday parties that were thrown year after year.
Your eyes met and everything around you stopped.
If this wasnât what love at first sight was supposed to feel like then the movies mustâve gotten it wrong. You saw her under a different glow now that the title has changed; through eyes that said I love you a little too seriously.
But you loved her, seriously. You always have, and now, you always will.
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25 Asks! Thank you! :}} đŹ
@stargirldrawsx3
Oof, that's a tough thing to answer/explain.. Motivation to draw OCs.. uhhhh..
I guess I sometimes just picture them in my head and think "man that would look really cool if I drew it" And then I.. draw. it. đ
idkkkk-- my apologies, I'm not the best at explaining art stuff. My motivation for drawing/creating OCs just comes and goes. Idk what sparks it or haw to spark it artificially. If I'm not feeling motivated to draw OCs I just draw fanart or other OCs that I do feel like drawing.. sorry i cant be more helpful here! <:(((
Thank you! :DD And I've been drawing for literally as long as I can remember. Some of my earliest memories are drawing stick figured in my school notebook in my back yard.
Of course though I cant really tell you the estimate of years without revealing my age <XD but I can say that its a very long time! :))
YES SIR MR ANON SIR! WILL DO SIR! đ«Ąđ«Ąđ«Ą
He's an interesting character to me. :0 Aside from his voice being a bit annoying at times. (He sounds like Finn the human but more theatrical.)
Something I've noticed is that it seems like a lot of other characters dump a lot of stuff on Gingerbrave and depend on him to help them. I always wonder/feel like he's got a lot on his plate. I'm surprised he doesn't act more stressed or seem tired at all..
This has made me think of angsty scenarios where Brave gets hurt or sick and has to rest for a few days. But he just cant. He's gotten so used to helping people and always being asked for help that he doesn't feel like he can just sit around and do nothing.
I wonder how much of his self worth is pinned on being the helping hand or the hero. I wonder how he would feel if he suddenly became a "burden" to his friends or Pure Vanilla..
Over all I don't mind his character. He's pretty neat! :))
@wolfie-777
Tbh..? I didn't really like them <:(
The characters voices in Indigo park were so theatrical and annoying to me that I could hardly focus on the game. I just kept thinking "pleasestoptalkingpleasestoptalkingSHUPUPLLOYD" Also I wasn't a fan of the characters of indigo park being.. living creatures..? They looked uncanny and unrealistic.. how did they even get there-
I would have liked indigo park more if their voices weren't so theatrical and if they were big animatronics or something instead..
Secondly Finding Frankie. I liked the concept actually. Having this fall guys type gameshow thing with a grand prize was cool! And all the parkour gamplay was really unique and fun!
But then Frankie came along and broke the fourth wall. "I'm here to make the game more interesting and spark fan theories!" It took me right out and made the game feel cheap. Then of course the characters are these big monsters with blood that makes no sense... I would be more immersed if they were just big animatronics that went rogue.
All in all, not the biggest fan of these two games đ
Thank you for all of this <:)) I'm trying my best to get past these bad health days and get back to drawing. Its been really tough but i hope to come back soon.. Just not to the Octonauts fandom <XDD
@vivicantdraw
:000 You like my handwriting?? :DD Why thank you! That's very sweet of you to say! :))
Also, that's a great drawing of Barnacles! :00 And akjwendfjef XD The thieves just on fire in the background XDDDD
I wouldn't count on it <:( I never even finished the show when I was really into it... but hey its always possible I suppose-
Thank you.. I'm trying my best to just move on and keep drawing. But ngl this has really sucked. My health has been weighing me down so much for months, and now all this art theft and blatant disrespect on top of it? I've tried drawing on my own time but this art block has just not let up.
@chromchill
I'm doing my best to draw privately, but I hadn't realized how much I relied on peoples nice comments for motivation. This art block has been killer.
@bred-by-insanity
Awe! Cute dog! :))
And thank you.. I'm doing my best. But man this just sucks.
I will never accept anyone's excuses for disrespecting my, or other artists boundaries.
And yeah, thank you.. I miss people interacting kindly with my Octonauts stuff.. But its not worth all the theft. Same with FNAF. I've decided to just draw those in private.
Well don't get me wrong, my FNAF stuff gets stolen, traced and copied a lot too. The Octonauts ones just happen more frequently. đ
(Referencing this post)
XD Yeah he got out eventually
I do not, I'm only found on here on Tumblr! (And my YouTube channel that I never post to)
Remember, if you find my artwork anywhere else, it is 100% stolen every time. No exceptions.
@misfortuneandflamingos
AAAA THANYOUU!! :DDDD
<XD Thank you. And yeah the world just be broken like that đ
I've seen fanart of those things, but haven't looked into it myself :00
Also thank you!! :DD
(Link in ask)
Thank you! I'm hoping to find ways to post some TADC stuff soon <:)
Also wow- I see the resemblance! But this is the first time I'm seeing this character, its purely a coincidence :0
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Aww!! I love Sylveon đđđ
Thank you, and don't worry- I see what you were getting at <:)
I'm doing my best to move on from this and I'm working on getting my confidence back. I think I just needed a big break from Tumblr to just indulge and games and stuff.. I'm hoping to return soon.
(Referencing this post)
XDD I'm glad you like it! :DD That one was really fun to draw đ€Łđ€Ł
@smil3y-f4c3
Hmmm... good question.. Well, my favorite is Dusknoir. I can see Bibi liking Sylveon... hmmm.. Jangles probably likes weird or funny looking Pokémon, mayyybe Mr Mime..? I can see Cici liking Mimiku.. as for Gerald I can see him having a surprising interest in pokemon like Xerneous, Dialga and Deoxys. Maybe Xerneous being his favorite.
@smg6-the-memer
I'm hanging in there as best I can <:/ I hope you're well! :))
@neo-metalscottic
Oof, been there buddy! I hope you have a speedy recovery. <:) As for me I haven't been doing so great. Have had some rough health days recently and lost a lot of my confidence about posting my artwork online. It feels like every time I check here someone has sent me yet another stolen piece of art I made. I've spent my time just screwing around on Roblox to get away from it all đ
Now Mario and Luigi: Brothership.. I've heard of it but haven't played it myself. I've been meaning to watch someone do a playthrough of it sometime <XD
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NNN day 21 | Uninvited Judgements
summary: you were invited to a party by one of your friends, of course you brought Matt, your boyfriend along despite him being slightly younger, everything was going by smoothly and everyone was having great fun until you went out to the bathroom and when you came back you saw your drunken friends surrounding Matt, not suggesting anything good by their loud laughterâŠ
warnings: ANGST, heavy language, arguing, party setting, drunk guests, bullying, age discrimination, age gap, all of the drinking characters are of age please drink responsibly and be aware of the possible consequences! & possibly more
authors note: nnn is soon coming to an end and the Christmas season will start which means⊠more Christmas fics! (And more smut) I am already feeling the spirit and love this season so much, also sorry for not posting this fic when I was supposed to but something personal happened and I couldnât finish it that day and I hope yâall understand , but anyway luv yâall sm and hope yâall enjoy this one
The music bounced through the walls of the small apartment, a vibrant background to the laughter and conversation that filled the air. Matt adjusted the collar of his shirt, visibly feeling a little self-conscious under his excitement. He was still getting used to being around my friends, most of them were several years older than him. We had been dating for a few months now and while I loved spending time with him, he couldnât shake the feeling he was still trying to prove himself.
I took his hand and squeezing it gently. âIâll just be gone a minute,â I said, leaning in to kiss him softly. âJust need to use the bathroom. You okay to hang out here?â âYeah, Iâm good,â he replied, forcing a smile. âIâll grab a soda or something.â As I slipped away into the crowded bathroom, Matt leaned against the counter and glanced around. Most of the partygoers were off in groups, cups in hand and laughter mixing with the music. He was about to reach for a drink when he noticed a couple of my friends gathering near him, their faces flushed and attitude high from the alcohol they have consumed.
âLook who it is!â one of my friends Mary slurred, her eyes shining with mischief. âLittle Matt. Whatâs he doing here all by himself? Waiting for his mom to pick him up?â Matt felt heat rush to his cheeks, an uncomfortable mix of embarrassment and irritation. âIâm fine,â he muttered, trying to brush off the comments but the lack of a reaction from him it only encouraged the others. âOh come on!â another friend chimed in with her laughter ringing loud. âYouâre dating a woman who could practically be your aunt! What is she like, 25?â The group burst into drunk giggles, clearly enjoying the show of the younger guy, considering him as an easy target.
Matt clenched his fists at his sides, feeling a swirl of emotions and his gut twisted in upset. The teasing only got worse, the insults sharper, the references to our age gap digging deeper until he just couldnât stand it anymore. âIâm not a kid for gods sake,â he shot back but his voice barely cut through the intense crowd. Their laughter only grew louder, cutting off his words. When I finally returned with a bright smile lighting my face while Matt was the opposite, livid and his skin prickling with anger. I noticed the tension immediately as I maneuvered through the crowd toward him.
âEverything okay?â I asked concerned looking from him to my drunken friends who had just finished their turn of jokes. âThey think itâs hilarious that Iâm younger,â he said, unable to keep the annoyance from his voice. âWhy do you even hang out with people who think itâs okay to make fun of someone like that?â I looked caught off guard while blinking rapidly. âI donât think they meant anything by it, Matt. They were drunk and you know how that goes. They joke around, they donât always know where to draw the line.â âA line?â he snapped and frustration spilling out of his expression. âIt feels fucking disrespectful to make jokes about someoneâs age! Like Iâm some boy toy youâre just playing around with. Do you think I like being the center of their jokes?â
âMatt, just chill out for a second,â I ushed, raising your hands for him to calm down. âYou know they didnât mean for it to hurt you. Itâs just banter! They were drunkââ âNo, itâs not just banter!â he raised his voice louder than he intended. âItâs condescending and youâre just brushing it off like it doesnât matter!â I felt my heart racing, a mixture of anger and hurt beginning to swirl in my veins âYouâre making a huge deal out of this. Theyâre not bad people, they were having a good time! You canât just get upset over everything people say when theyâre drinking!â âItâs not âeverythingâ! Itâs just this! Ugh!â he exclaims, frustration lacing every syllable that left past his mouth. âSometimes I feel like you donât even see how it affects me. You just make excuses for them.â With that, one of my friendsâa guy named Jake who had been listening nearbyâsnorted. âWho knew Matt had such thin skin? Canât handle a little fun?â
Mattâs gaze flicked toward Jake, becoming stiff in his stance. âAnd youâre an ass.â âThatâs rich, coming from someone whoâs basically a kid,â Jake retorted and shaking his head. âMatt, just ignore him,â I pleaded but he was too far gone now. âNo, fuck thisâŠâ he muttered, stepping away from the group who had been laughing at his expense. He turned to me with his eyes blazing. âIâm not playing this game. Iâm not gonna sit here and take your friendsâ bullshit. Iâm done.â Before I could get a single word out past my lips, Matt turned on his heel and moved toward the exit, the door slamming behind him. The sound echoed in the now silent apartment as everyone exchanged glances, the party suddenly feeling much less exciting.
I tried to process what had just happened, a storm of emotions swirling inside of me. My friends still buzzing from the drinks, didnât have the capacity to understand. They were just drunk and careless. But Matt? His feelings were painfully real and visible for anyone and my heart sank knowing I would have to find him and somehow make sense of this mess my drunk friends have put me in now.
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heyy, i was wondering if u could do a kimi fic even tho u r getting unnecessary backlash for it ( sorry babes ) maybe with an italian reader that reacts badly to kimi getting into a f2 crash bc a family memeber passed from a car accident and after hes i nthe hospital the ready gets clingy with him?
I'm Not Going Anywhere (Andrea Kimi Antonelli X Hubert! Reader)
Fandom: RPF/F2/F3
Requested: Clearly (I changed it to French, hope you don't mind <3)
Warnings: Imola crash, heavy mentions of Belgium 2019 (Hubert reader i mean-)
POV: Second Person (You/your)
W.C. 1887
Summary: Kimi's crash brings the reader back to the darkest time of their life
As always, my requests are OPEN
MASTERLIST // HITLIST
~~(^@/kimi.4ever on Insta from 7/25/2024)
You had finally let Kimi convince you to come to one of his races. It was one of his home races, Imola specifically, and you had never gone to a race with him. You had some deeply buried trauma with races, so you were more comfortable supporting from afar. Well, when Kimi came up to you and practically begged you to join him, you couldnât say no. The weekend was fine. You and Kimi were doing track walks, you got to sit in his car, you got to meet some of the grid, and it all helped to ease your nerves. George and Carmen were amazing, it was fun catching up with Ollie on track, and all was well.
Qualifying went well, with Kimi ending up in the top 10, and the race was going to be a piece of cake, he said. Why was it a piece of cake? Because it was projected to rain. Why would this make it a piece of cake? Oh, because Kimi was more comfortable with driving on the wet track. You knew this as he always took you on late-night drives whenever it rained. It was just more calming to him, so you took his word as you stood beside Toto in the Mercedes garage.
Then, it was like everything was in slow motion. One second, you were listening to Toto praising Kimiâs skills, but the next, everything was silent. You had looked over at Mick as he tapped your shoulder, and out of the corner of your eye, you saw a silver car lose control. Your ears were ringing, and you couldn't focus on anything. Suddenly, you felt like you were back in Belgium 2019. The worst day of your life, the day you tried your hardest to forget, the day you lost your older brother, Anthoine. The flashbacks you tried so hard to bury were coming back in full force.
You didnât register your legs giving out, but you felt someoneâs arms wrap around you. Was it Fred? Mick? Carmen? Toto? Susie? You donât know. The view of Kimiâs Mercedes hitting the wall replayed over and over and over again in your head. You couldnât feel anything, and it was just like back then. Your brain was glitching, mixing up the two accidents. With that, your anxiety ran wild.
Your breathing became unsteady, you felt your heart beating at your fingertips, and your hands and forehead became clammy. You felt like you were going to throw up or pass out as you brought a shaking hand up to your chest. There was nothing you could do. There was nothing you could do to save Kimi and nothing you could say to help the situation. You were helpless.
You vaguely remembered someone lifting you to stand and help you into Kimiâs driverâs room, but you couldnât recall who. You felt like you had no control over your body. It was almost like you were watching everything from the outside. It was the same as Belgium 2019, and there was nothing you could do.
You briefly registered a blob of someone kneeling before you. They grabbed your hands and ran their hands across your knuckles. Then, up your forearms to your shoulders. They drew shape around your legs and shoulders, coaxing you back into your body. You blinked rapidly as they did so, and after a few moments, you felt like the bricks on your chest lessened. You saw Mick kneeling in front of you. You let out a huge breath as you collapsed into his chest.Â
Everything was still a little hazy, but you were able to semi-follow along with what Mick was explaining. Something something breaks failed. Something hospital. Something something get in there. Mick helped you into the back of an ambulance, helping you sit next to Kimi before he said something to the medics.Â
No one looked at you twice as you reached out to grab Kimiâs hand, but you stopped in the air just before you could. If this was it, you knew you wouldnât be able to hold it together if you held his hand. Your mind still replayed the ambulance ride with Anthoine, and you couldnât shake the feeling of deja vu as you looked at Kimi.
He was unconscious, but he looked peaceful. Then again, so did Anthoine. You dropped your head for the entire ride, not wanting to face what you believed to be inevitable.
When you arrived at the hospital, a nurse directed you to a waiting room while they attended to Kimi, giving you the chance to come back to the present on your own. You clenched your fists a few times and walked around the room. You just couldnât sit still. It felt like hours, and maybe it was until a nurse came in to update you on Kimiâs condition. Part of you had convinced yourself that he was gone, but that changed when the nurse walked in with a comforting smile.
âHeâs alright,â She said as she led you through the halls to his room, âHeâs a little out of it, but he should be just fine. He hit the wall pretty hard, so he has a concussion and broke his wrist. He should be back in the car in a few weeks, depending on his progress.â
âHeâs alive?â You asked hopefully as your voice cracked. âWill he be okay?â
âWeâre projecting a full recovery,â She comforted as you threw your arms around her and cried. The biggest weight was lifted off your shoulders after hearing this situation was different from before. Different from Anthoine. You still had Kimi, and thatâs what you needed to focus on. You finally regained your senses before pulling back and wrapping your arms around yourself with a sheepish smile. âI can take you back to see him now.â
With a nod, you followed behind her silently through the halls. There was nothing you could think to say at that moment, and you didnât want to disturb anyone you walked passed. Eventually, you both got into the lift, and she pressed the button for the fourth floor.
âJust so you know, he was asking for you,â She added just before stepping off the lift and walking towards a room to the right. It was the first door, but before she could open the door, you gently grabbed her wrist.
âWhat do you mean? I thought he was unconscious since the crash?â You questioned, dropping her wrist when she turned to you.Â
âHe woke up momentarily when we were transporting him to get a CT scan,â She replied quietly. âHe just whispered your name a couple of times and asked us to tell you he was alright, but he went back under almost immediately. It was very helpful actually because it showed us that he still had some memory, so we didnât need to worry too much about amnesia. Here, head in, and Iâll send someone by to get you dinner.â
You nodded in response as she continued walking down the corridor, but you took a deep breath before walking into the room. It was just as bland as you remembered- no. You were not thinking like that. Heâs fine! The nurse said so herself!Â
There was no color, no sounds other than the heartbeat monitor, and no movement. You would change that whenever he woke up, or you would text someone to bring flowers or something. You pulled the chair closer to his bed. He didnât look bad for someone who just got in a life-threatening crash. He had some bruises around his temple, his left arm was wrapped, and you could see some bandages around his chest. Honestly, you were scared to touch him.Â
You finally got the courage to link your pinky with his. It was minimal contact, but it made you feel so much better. It also accidentally opened the floodgates. You barely registered the tears that fell from your eyes as your eyes zoned in on his hand. You analyzed the amount of wires that came out of it, the slight bruises on his wrist and fingers, and you noticed how bare his wrist was. He always had a watch or fan bracelets on, and seeing neither didnât help the onset of tears.Â
You pulled one of your charm bracelets off and gently slid it on over the wires. It was one he made for you, saying âTesoroâ with a (color) heart. You made him an identical one with a red heart, but it was with the rest of his things back at the track. Just seeing one semblance of normalcy helped calm your nerves as you fiddled with the bracelet. Eventually, the day caught up to you, and you laid your head next to Kimiâs hand. You briefly looked up at him before exhaustion hit you full force.
It felt like you were asleep for hours, and maybe you were. You felt something gently running through your hair, across your cheekbones, down your arm, and eventually stopping at your hand. You registered that it was someoneâs hand, and when you finally connected the dots, your eyes snapped open to see Kimiâs half-lidded eyes looking back at you.
âIâm sorry, did I scare you, Tesoro (sweetheart)?â His groggy voice asked quietly as his hand moved back up to cup your cheek. He gently wiped away the stray tears that had collected on your lashline as you struggled to form words. âYou donât have to say anything. We can talk later. All you need to know is Iâm okay, Iâm here, and Iâm not going anywhere.â
âCan I lay with you?â It came out before you registered it. Was it against hospital policy? Could be, but it didnât stop Kimi from shifting over in the bed to make space for you. It also didnât stop you from immediately climbing on next to him, being careful of the wires and injuries he had. You gently laid your head on his chest and wrapped an arm loosely around his stomach before looking up at him, âIs this okay?â
âIf youâre comfortable, itâs perfect,â He replied in a soft tone with a smile as he placed a kiss on the top of your head. He adjusted his arm around you so the wires hung off the side of the bed, and he could still hold you. âAnything to make you feel better.â
âYou just got in the accident, not me,â You chuckled halfheartedly. âI should be working around what youâre comfortable with.â
âYou are,â He pointed out, âIâm comfortable when youâre comfortable. And itâs not like you're pulling on my IV or anything. Weâre both comfy now, so why donât you try to get some more sleep?â
âWhat about you?â You asked sleepily. The now-comfortable position made it a lot harder to stay awake, especially now that you were able to talk to Kimi and give yourself peace of mind.
âThey should be in here shortly to check in,â Kimi answered before kissing the tip of your nose. âGet some sleep. I feel like it was a hard day for you. Iâll be here when you wake up, donât worry, Tesoro.â
âTi amo, Tesoro (I love you, sweetheart),â You whispered against Kimiâs lips as you placed one last kiss before falling asleep.
~~~~~
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Something Stupid â Kim Taehyung One-Shot
navi ,, m.list ,,
warnings: ANGST. unspoken love, one-sided love, co-workers, Taehyung's POV, tae doesn't speak much, he's just a little sad guy. lowercase intended.
wc: 3.6k
pairing (well not really): quiet taehyung x fem!reader
a/n: apology one-shot for discontinuing the art of love đ (worst kind of apology ik but idc huhu suffer w me <3) i teared up writing this. don't let this flop i swear đ«”đŒ
November 21
a year ago.
it was the day i met you.
it was your first day at work. you were glowing, so full of excitement, and so happy to be starting your dream job. i could tell from the way your eyes lit up that you were ready for this, ready for everything.
i remember how i welcomed you, and you looked at me, and you smiled.
âthank you! iâm ___, nice to meet you.â
there was something in the way you smiled that made my heart skip. it was simple, but it made me freeze for a moment. i couldnât help but stutter.
âi-i⊠iâm kim taehyung, nice to meet you tooâŠâ
you nodded, still wearing that bright smile, and then turned to greet the others. and i just stood there, watching you.
i didnât realize it at the time, but i couldnât stop stealing glances at you. the way you came in every morning, the way you greeted everyone with a bright âgood morning!â and how you always wished everyone to have a great day, no matter what.
even though we barely talked, even though you never really spoke to me much, it still made my day. just seeing you, hearing your voice, feeling the warmth you radiated. it was genuine, simple, but it made everything feel a little better, a little easier to bear.
November 28
you baked cookies, and handed out small bags, each tied with a neat bow. you didnât miss anyone in the office, not even me. you made sure to thank everyone for making you feel so welcome.
everyone was happy to receive them, and so was i. but i overheard a few people talking behind your back, saying you were trying too hard, that it was all a little much.
but when i looked at you, all i could see was that you just wanted to fit in, wanted to make everyone around you feel comfortable. i saw it in the way your eyes shined, even though they were tired, like you were trying to prove something.
your dark circles told me you probably stayed up all night baking those cookies. i wanted to tell you how much i appreciated it, how i felt like you didnât need to push yourself so hard. you were perfect just the way you were.
âi hope you like them, mr. kim! let me know if you prefer chocolate cookies, i have those too!â
but i couldnât bring myself to say it.
âthese are fineâŠâ
December 10
the office holiday party was approaching, and the excitement was tangible. decorations were put up, and the air smelled sweet. everyone was talking about their plans, about what they were wearing, about who was bringing what dish.
and there you were, always the one to make sure everything was perfect, organizing the little details, ensuring no one felt left out. you were always so kind, always so giving.
i watched you from across the room, helping the others with the setup, your smile lighting up the entire space. you seemed so at ease, so comfortable in your role, but i could still see the exhaustion hidden behind your cheerful demeanor. the way your shoulders dropped slightly when you thought no one was looking, the way your eyes would gloss over for a second before youâd catch yourself and smile again.
i wanted to say something to you, tell you how much i admired your strength, how much i wished youâd let yourself rest, how iâd do anything to make things easier for you.
but i never did.
instead, i just kept watching, my words trapped in my chest, my heart pounding every time you passed by, hoping maybe, just maybe, youâd catch a glimpse of the way i looked at you.
"mr.kim, can you pass me the tape?"
âyes,â
December 25
i was walking to a store. christmas had never been anything special for me, but today felt different. i wanted to get you something, something to show you that you matter to me. that youâre someone special.
i found a little keychain; red flowers. when i first saw it, it reminded me of you. so bright and beautiful. i thought, âmaybe youâd like this.â
as i walked out of the store, the cold air hit me. it was christmas, so the streets were packed with people rushing around. but i wasnât in any hurry. i just wanted to buy you something, to let you know how much i appreciated everything about you.
then, i saw you.
a figure i recognized, standing by the candy store, looking at candy canes. the world seemed to slow as i watched you. you were wearing a soft, fluffy coat, a muffler wrapped around your head, your hair dusted with snow, your cheeks flushed from the cold. you were smiling at the candy canes like they were the most magical thing in the world.
i stopped, not sure if i should approach. i had the keychain in my hand, clutching it tight. my heart raced at the thought of finally giving you something, of finally telling you how much you mean to me.
i thought, this was it.
but then, i saw him.
someone else, someone taller, someone who looked like he belonged with you. he walked up to you, took your hand, and smiled at you. your eyes lit up when you saw him.
i froze.
my stomach twisted when he leaned down and kissed you. i watched you smile against his lips, and i could see the happiness in your eyes.
i stood there, completely still.
the moment iâd imagined for so long, the one where iâd finally be brave enough to talk to you, to give you the gift and the words that had been stuck inside me. but it wasnât for me.
it was for him.
i turned away, my grip loosening around the keychain. i donât know why i thought youâd feel the same way. i shouldnât have been surprised, but it hurt. it hurt more than i could have ever expected.
as i walked, i bumped into someone. the sudden jolt made the keychain slip from my hand, and it fell to the ground with a soft clink.
in a panic, i reached out, my hand stretching toward the tiny flowers that had somehow come to mean so much to me. but the crowd was relentless, people moving quickly, oblivious to anything but getting to their next destination.
someone stepped on it.
then another.
and another.
the red flowers, so beautiful just moments ago, was crushed underfoot. pieces of it scattered across the pavement, the petals breaking apart with each step
i stood there, helpless, my fingers trembling as i watched it all happen. i wanted to scream, to shout, to stop the world from moving so fast. but all i could do was watch the remnants of the flower.
i shouldâve known.
you were too perfect.
too perfect for someone like me.
January 23
"mr. kim?"
i looked up, surprised to hear my name. it was you, standing there with a soft smile on your face.
âyes, ms. ___?â
you smiled again, this time a little warmer.
"you can call me ___," you said gently, as if you were giving me permission to speak to you like a normal person.
i nodded, too nervous to say anything else. i wanted to tell you that you didnât have to call me mr. kim, that taehyung was fine, but the words never left my lips. they got stuck somewhere in my chest.
âme and my friends are going out for lunch, and i wanted to invite you too,â you said, still smiling.
"m-me?" my voice caught, the surprise clear in my tone. i couldnât understand why youâd want me to join you. i barely ever spoke to you outside of work, and i could never bring myself to be as casual as everyone else.
âyou always work alone, well i am sure you prefer it that way..â you chuckled. âi donât know, i just thought you might enjoy spending time with us.â you looked at me with those hopeful eyes, as if you were waiting for me to say yes. as if you genuinely wanted me there.
it felt like the moment when i first met you all over again. everything became still. my heart raced in my chest, and i could feel the weight of your gaze on me.
i couldâve said no.
i couldâve come up with some excuse.
but i didnât.
"that would be nice," i managed to say, the words barely above a whisper, but enough for you to hear.
you smiled again, and for a brief moment, it felt like the world was just you and me.
February 12
"you know, i like your quietness, mr. kim."
we were walking together, you had invited me to lunch, and you mentioned you had something you wanted to ask me.
"oh..." was all i could manage to say.
you glanced at me, your eyes catching mine for a moment before you looked away, your smile barely noticeable. i felt a little flushed, a little nervous under your gaze. i quickly looked forward, trying to focus on anything else.
you chuckled softly, your voice breaking the silence. "you remind me a lot of my boyfriend," you said, the words casual, like they didnât carry the weight they did in my mind.
"oh..." i stammered. so it was your boyfriend.
"do you like him?" i asked without thinking. it was a stupid question.
you laughed, a soft, light sound that seemed to come from somewhere genuine. "i wouldnât be dating him if i didnât."
my heart sank just a little.
of course, you liked him. why would i even ask? but i couldnât take it back.
when we finally reached the restaurant, you led us to a quiet corner, and i sat across from you, feeling a strange mixture of comfort and tension. you looked at me, as if expecting something.
"i thought youâd prefer it like this," you said.
and i did. it was peaceful, calm. just like you.
"so!! the thing i wanted to ask you about," you started, leaning in slightly, your voice lowering in a way that made me pay attention to every word. "itâs valentineâs day soon, and i really want to get something cute for my boyfriend."
"oh..." i said again, my voice barely above a whisper.
"donât take me wrong, but like i said, you remind me of him. youâre a lot like him. quiet, calm. so maybe you could help?" you leaned in a little, and i could feel my face getting warmer.
it felt strange. unsettling. like a weight pressing against my chest.
"i don't know, ms. ___â"
"you can call me by my name," you reminded me, your voice soft. it made me feel even more unsure of myself.
"___, i think youâre asking the wrong person... i-iâm not good with stuff like... valentineâs day," i stammered, my gaze shifting away from you. i couldnât meet your eyes. the words felt wrong, awkward.
you studied me for a moment, then leaned back in your chair. "thatâs okay, mr. kim," you said, and there was something in your voice that made me feel even worse.
what if you were just trying to make small talk? what if i had ruined it? what if you were just being kind, as always, and i made it so... uncomfortable?
"b-but you like to bake, right?" i suddenly said, not really thinking. "so... thatâs a good present, i guess. i mean, i would love it. i mean, they were delicious! so.." i quickly added, flushing slightly at how ridiculous it sounded.
your smile returned, this time wider. "that sounds nice!! and i am glad you liked them" you chuckled, and for some reason, the sound of it made me smile too.
just then, your phone rang. you excused yourself, your voice light as you answered the call.
"oh, excuse me," you said, and i nodded in response, trying not to listen too closely.
"hey, honey... oh, iâm just with a colleague right now.â you chuckled. âi miss you too, joon"
it mustâve been him.
i didnât mind.
i couldnât. i just sat there, watching you, wishing this moment could last a little longer, even if it meant nothing more than a colleague relationship. even if it was just fleeting moments like these.
and as you spoke softly to him, my smile faded slightly, but the warmth remained.
February 14
valentine's day.
i hated this day.
but that morning, i couldnât help but notice you. smiling to your coworkers, your friends, as you handed them small boxes of what i guessed were chocolates, all tied with a bright yellow bow.
even though you werenât smiling at me, just watching you made me feel warm. it softened the bitterness of the day, just a little.
by afternoon, i was at my desk, buried in work as usual. i didn't see you approach, but i felt the air shift when you stood infront me.
âmr. kim?â yourvoice was gentle, like you always were.
i looked up, startled, and you placed a small box with a purple bow on it in front of me.
âhappy valentineâs day,â you said, your smile soft but genuine. and just like that, my heart skipped a beat.
you turned as if to leave, but i couldnât let it end like that.
â___,â i called out, my voice catching in my throat. you stopped and looked back at me, waiting.
âyou can call me taehyung,â i said, the words coming out almost too quietly.
you smiled again, that same warm, reassuring smile. "taehyung," you nodded, as if it were something important.
it was.
to me, it was.
June 13
it was the day you were transferring to a different city.
it was the last time i saw you.
you were a little emotional. there were tears in your eyes as you bid goodbye to your coworkers.
i didnât expect you to talk to me. i stayed at my desk, silent, watching everythin
it was sad.
hell, it was heartbreaking.
then i saw you walking towardsme, and for a moment, i froze.
âtaehyung, iââ you started, your voice soft, hesitant. you looked down, a little sad. âi wish i got to spend more time with you.â
thatâs when everything around me shattered. again.
âi regret not becoming a good friend of yours,â you said, your voice wavering, âi⊠i tried.â
you looked up, your eyes glistening.
âyouâve always been so quiet, so reserved,â you said, letting out a nervous laugh. âi guess i never knew how to reach you. but i wish i had.â
i wanted to say something, anything. but the words got stuck in my throat, just like they always did.
âi hope⊠youâll let someone in someday,â you continued, your voice growing softer. âyouâre a good person, taehyung. i hope you know that.â
i felt my chest tighten, my heart aching with every word you spoke.
you turned around to leave, taking a few steps, and something inside me broke.
i love you.
you froze for a moment, then turned back to face me, confusion etched across your features. âdid you say something?â you asked, your voice tentative, uncertain.
i said it. but it was all in my head.
i hesitated, my chest tightening. âyou are a good friend, ___.â
your eyes widened slightly, and for a moment, we both just stared at each other. your gaze held something i couldnât quite place.
was it surprise? sadness? relief?
âthank you, ___,â i added, trying to steady my voice.
your lips curved into a soft smile, one that reaches your eyes. the smile i love.
âthank you, taehyung,â you said softly.
you gave me a small nod, and then, with one last lingering glance, you turned to leave again.
i stood there, rooted in place, watching as you walked away, your figure growing smaller with every step you took.
i wanted to chase after you. to call out to you.
but i didnât.
instead, i stayed silent, clutching the words i couldnât say louder in my chest, where they would remain forever.
you disappeared around the corner, and with that, the last piece of you i had left slipped away.
and all i could do was whisper, too late for you to hear.
âi will miss you.â
November 21
today.
the day that started everything.
itâs strange how vividly i remember it, even after all this time. it feels like it was just yesterday when you walked into the office for the first time, bright eyed and full of energy, ready to take on the world.
i miss you.
a lot.
i donât know where you are now. i donât know what your days look like, or how youâre living your life. i donât know if youâre happy, if youâre struggling, or if you ever think back to those days.
but i know one thing for sure. youâre strong.
no matter how tough things get, you always find a way to smile and keep moving forward, like nothing can hold you back. you donât dwell on the past, donât let it weigh you down. you just... keep going.
maybe thatâs what i admired about you the most.
maybe thatâs why it hurts so much now.
because you were always moving forward, and i was always staying behind.
i think about you every day. the way you smiled, the way your laugh lit up even the dullest corners of the office. i think about how you never seemed to falter, even when things were tough.
but i also remember the small things. the moments when you were quiet, staring out the window like your mind was somewhere else. the way your hands trembled slightly when you were overwhelmed but still tried to keep it together.
i wish i couldâve told you then how much you mattered. how much your presence alone changed everything for me.
but i never did.
and now itâs been so long, and i donât even know if you remember me. if i was just another face in your story.
maybe i was.
but you were everything in mine.
âhey, taehyung, can you get these copies for me?â jiminâs voice broke through the quiet hum of the office.
âyeah, sure,â i said as he placed the stack on my desk.
he lingered for a moment, his teasing smile creeping onto his face. âyou look happy today,â he said, raising a brow. âthinking about someone?â
i looked down, avoiding his gaze. âsomeoneâŠâ
he doesnât miss a beat, his eyes catching something around my neck. ânice necklace you got there. what is it?â
i held the pendant gently, a faint smile tugging at my lips as i showed it to him.
âuh... a red piece?â he guessed, leaning in to get a better look.
âitâs a flower,â i muttered, my fingers brushing over the broken piece of petal.
he squinted, then tilted his head. âthat looks like a piece of broken glass.â
âit is,â i whispered, my voice soft as i stared at it. âbeautiful, isnât it?â
jimin gave me a look, clearly confused, but he didnât press further. âright, okay.. uh iâll see you later,â he said, walking away with a shrug.
i closed my eyes, clutching the small, shattered piece in my hand.
even now, i couldnât forget you.
your eyes.
your laugh.
your cookies.
your smile.
how could i ever forget you?
i would keep you in my heart, even if it hurt. forever.
i hope youâre happy.
i hope youâre smiling the way you always did, bright, warm, as if the world didnât weigh on your shoulders the way it did on mine.
i hope whoever stands beside you now knows just how lucky they are. i hope they see you for everything you are. your kindness, your strength, the little quirks that make you... you.
and iâm glad
truly glad that..
that day...
i didn't go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like..
i love you.
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BoyAge Vol.25 ft. Chinen Hidekazu (other pages and translation below)
Publication: November 11, 2024
Chinen Hidekazu-kun, who currently plays the role of Shouma in "Kamen Rider Gavv," makes his first appearance in BoyAge! During the interview, Chinen-kun's genuine kindness and personality was overflowing. Make sure to also check out his mature styling in the beautiful gravure!
Miraculous Encounters
"We'd like to hear about these "miraculous encounters" of yours."
Chinen: I believe I'm here now because of many miracles. First, becoming a Kamen Rider was the greatest miracle. I hadn't done any entertainment activities, but I came to Tokyo from Okinawa saying, "I want to become a Kamen Rider!," and not even a year later, I participated in my first Kamen Rider audition. I think it was an amazing miracle that that's where I was chosen, and I even shocked myself. Then there's the bonds I've made with people. Ever since I was a child, I've been blessed with the teachers and friends that surrounded me at school. Along with everyone affiliated with my agency, all the Rider staff, including the Directors and Producers, understand my traits and are trying to help me grow. I've been blessed by so many people, that I'm confident in saying that I'm a "miracle man."
"Do you ever feel afraid because these miracles are progressing without a hitch?"
Chinen: "Afraid" is certainly one way to describe it, butâŠ..Maybe it's because of all the things I've done up until now? I was told from an early age to "practice good in secret," so perhaps luck is on my side.
"Is that like good deeds that are done without anyone knowing?"
Chinen: Right. That's why it's not something I tell people, but as an example, if flowers on the road were drooping, I'd stop to straighten them up, even if I was in the middle of a run. When I throw away worn out products like a toothbrush, I say "thank you" to it out loud. Because it's such a rare thing, people ask me, "You're still doing that at your age?" (laughs), but it's become a normal thing for me. Sometimes people think it's strange that I talk to flowers, but I think that's also part of my identity. I'm not embarrassed about it, as I do it with confidence.
"Is that something your parents taught you?"
Chinen: Yes! My parents were incredibly strict, as they only allowed me to eat sweets on weekends. The first time I went to a fast food restaurant was when I was in middle school. I haven't walked down any of the "paths" that everyone around me has taken. Shouma, the character I'm currently playing in Kamen Rider Gavv, also came to the human world from another world, so I can relate to his fresh approach to everything.
"You weren't unhappy as a child?"
Chinen: No, that's just how things normally were, but in exchange, I was allowed to do whatever I liked. I was also doing five extracurricular activities at the same time. They didn't buy me gaming consoles or a smartphone, but I now think that it was a good thing. I was able to become interested in alot of things because of that, and in this era of information overload, everything is convenient, but sometimes that makes me feel lonely because of the distance between me and others. And of all the activities I took on, I'm especially grateful for karate, as I'm using it in the action scenes in Kamen Rider.
"How long did you practice karate?"
Chinen: I did it for 4 years, from my third to sixth year in elementary school. I was doing full contact karate, where you can seriously strike your opponent, but I was so small at the time, that I was weak enough to be beaten by girls (laughs). However, there were also advancement tests, and I could actually feel that the more I did them, the better I got, so it was worth doing. Then one day I decided, "I want to play badminton," and so I quit and became devoted to badminton starting from middle school.
"You had so many things you wanted to do (laughs)."
Chinen: That's right (laughs). It's one of my weak points, but I'm interested in alot of things, so I move quickly. Acting was just something I was curious about at first, and I thought, "Ah, I want to do that," so I quit badminton, which I had been playing until my second year of high school, and during Summer vacation, I thought, "Alright, I'll go for an audition." The audition I had during that Summer vacation was the audition for my current agency.
"The gap between your enthusiasm when you start and the honesty when you stop is amazing, don't you think?"
Chinen: Yes (laughs). I was so passionate about badminton, that I thought I'd have to burn myself out before I'd stop. I was able to compete in the Inter High Championships with my seniors, who were one year above me at the time, and since I felt satisfied with things, I was able to switch directions quickly and easily.
"So once you're satisfied, it's onto the next thing, huh?"
Chinen: When I focus on one thing, I can't think of anything else. In the future, I'd like to make use of that in my acting career.
"What will you do if you feel satisfied as an actor?"
Chinen: Don't worry! Acting is something you study your whole life. It's a world with no limits, where you develop until you die, and that's what makes it so appealing, so I think I can continue to be enthusiastic about it. In addition, I can experience various occupations through my roles, so I was able to find the perfect job for myself.
"Yeah, that's good (laughs). Now then, who's the person Chinen-kun wants to meet the most right now?"
Chinen: There's a ton, but I'd like to meet my middle school teachers. Ever since I was in elementary school, I've been closer to my teachers than my friends. I'd go to the staff room or music room to talk with them during breaks. There, I'd always say, "I want to be an actor," and they'd give me encouragement by saying, "If it's Chinen, you can make it." The reason why I was attracted to this world in the first place was because if I appeared on TV, tons of people would be able to watch me through the airwaves, even if they're far away. I hope they're happy that their student is now making appearances. I think it's thanks to my teachers that I was able to enjoy a fulfilling youth. I want them to see me after all these years and see how much I've grown.
"We're sure they'd be overjoyed. Now that you're currently appearing in Gavv, and it's been half a year since filming started, do you feel more relaxed?"
Chinen: I don't have the time to say, "I'm totally OK now!," but I think I've developed alittle bit of enjoyment in my heart. At first, I had no experience, so I was the one receiving advice, but now I can ask by myself, "Can I try doing this?" Other than that, I've also expanded my interests by watching films I wouldn't normally watch as references. I'm having the most fun right now. I've found what I want to create, and I feel that I've finally reached the point where I can enjoy it. I was hesitant at first to talk to the other cast members and guest cast, but now I'm trying to talk to them myself.
"Did you feel any pressure in the beginning?"
Chinen: Yes, it's not completely gone now, but I'm still concerned about the reaction of the viewers every time a broadcast airs, and when we were filming on location in town, the neighborhood children would cheer me on and say, "Go for it, Shouma!" I'm conscious of the fact that I'm participating in a production that's supported by tons of people, so I make sure to never forget that. I'd like to create this show while keeping a certain level of tension.
"Filming a tokusatsu program is hard, isn't it?"
Chinen: I think so. Nevertheless, I spend my time thinking that everything is a positive thing for me, and that I'm living in the best environment possible. It's all been a learning experience, and I appreciate all of it, so when we reach the end, I want to be sent off with pride in my chest. I entered this world on my own because I admired it, so it doesn't bother me at all.
"How do you raise your spirits on days when things aren't going your way?"
Chinen: I think it's important to be properly let down. It'd be a waste of time if I thought, "Oh, alright," and then forgot about it a week later because I was too busy with filming. I think you'll grow faster if you really think about each and every thing and think, "I'll make sure that doesn't happen next time." So, I try to cherish the time I have alone to properly sulk. I love music, and before I started working on Rider, I was the kind of person who always had to have background music playing in my life. However, one of my seniors told me, "It's also important to take time to create silence and listen to your heart," and I thought that was a really good method to follow. I may get really depressed on a certain day, but I can reset myself after a good night's sleep, so I try not to drag it over into the next day!
"Self suggestion is also an option, huh? (laughs). Have your impressions of Shouma changed since playing him?"
Chinen: Shouma's abit different since he's from another world. In the beginning, I was conscious of making the viewers immediately think, "Huh? There's something off about this kid." Things like how only the vibes around Shouma are different. Still, as the episodes progressed, I began to think that I wanted to see Shouma as a human being and began to play him as such. I think that as the second half of the show unfolds, we'll see his humanity, and the parts of him that'll seem to be no different from everyone else's. The Director also changes every two episodes, and their approach to portraying Shouma is different from each other. There's alot of action and highlights in every episode, so I think that's one of the things that'll keep you coming back to the show.
"You mentioned earlier that "the neighborhood children would be cheering you on," but how has the response been since the broadcast started?"
Chinen: It's trending every week, so I'm beyond happy that tons of people are watching and caring about it. It seems that even the little monster toys known as Gochizou are hard to acquire. I'm really happy that there are people who watch the show, find it appealing, and want to "own it." They're so popular, that even we can't buy them (laughs).
"It's a Kamen Rider with a sweets motif. Every time we finish watching an episode, we want to eat something sweet."
Chinen: That makes me happy. I also heard that girls are watching the show because of the sweets. The visuals are also colorful and pleasing to the eyes, but there's a part of the show's story that's abit "bitter." Since the broadcast started, the atmosphere on set has changed again. We got off to a good start, so everyone's even more enthusiastic. I hope you'll continue to support us as you've been doing, and to see this through to the ending.
#kamen rider gavv#kamen rider#hidekazu chinen#chinen hidekazu#shouma inoue#shouma stomach#shoma stomach#inoue shouma#shoma inoue#toku cast#tokusatsu#my scans#my translation#interview#boyagemag#most precious boy đ
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prompt list for requests!!!
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please allow me some time to write them though I promise to get them out as fast as I can within my capabilities! word count will vary for each prompt!
prompt list includes: fluff, suggestive, second chance romance & angst
+ please let me know which genre + no.
+ for angst, please indicate if you want a happy ending or not, or if you would like for me to decide!
full prompt list under cut! check here for all completed req works: #daisymbin: reqs
fluff —ïž
1. "you look good in my clothes/hoodie/sweater."
2. "you looked cold, so i brought you a blanket/jacket/sweater."
3. "do you wanna come over and watch that movie we always talk about?"
4. "stop stealing my food."
5. "you can stay over if you want."
6. "your hands are freezingâhere, take mine."
7. "your laugh is my favorite sound."
8. "why are you hiding behind the door?"
9. "i didnât mean to fall asleep on your couch."
10. "do you ever think about us like⊠as more than friends?"
11. "you remembered my favorite drink?"
12. "you canât fall asleep without your goodnight hug, huh?"
13. "i kept this photo of usâdonât laugh."
14. "oh, so now weâre holding hands?"
15. "youâre my favorite person, you know that?"
16. "how do you look good even in sweatpants?"
17. "you forgot your umbrella, so i came to walk you home."
18. "wait, donât fall asleep yet."
19. "you can borrow my jacket, but donât lose it, okay?"
20. "you can braid my hair if you want."
21. "we should bake something togetherâitâll be a disaster, but fun."
22. "do you think you could ever love me back?"
23. "you stayed up all night taking care of me?"
24. "youâre the only person who knows how to make me smile like this."
25. "your playlist is basically my soundtrack at this point."
26. "are you⊠blushing? because of me?"
27. "did you plan this whole day just to make me happy?"
28. "youâve been carrying that photo of us in your wallet this whole time?"
29. "youâll always have me, no matter what."
30. "is that my shirt youâre wearing?"
31. "youâre like my personal sunshine."
32. "hold my handâjust until we get there, okay?"
33. "you fell asleep on my shoulder again."
34. "you make my world feel a little brighter."
35. "i know you hate hugs, but iâm giving you one anyway."
36. "i couldnât imagine my life without you in it."
37. "you brought me flowers? just because?"
38. "stop looking at me like thatâitâs unfair."
39. "you talk about me in your sleep, you know?"
40. "i canât believe you remembered my favorite ice cream flavor."
41. "youâre staring againâwhatâs on your mind?"
42. "sometimes, i wish time could just freeze when iâm with you."
43. "youâre my home, more than anywhere else."
44. "letâs stay up all night talking, just like we used to."
45. "you really trust me with your secrets, huh?"
46. "you doodled hearts in my notebook again."
47. "did you really save the last piece of cake for me?"
48. "youâre the best part of my day."
49. "what would i do without you?"
50. "youâre my personâalways have been, always will be."
suggestive —ïž
1. "if you keep looking at me like that, i might kiss you."
2. "are you trying to distract me on purpose?"
3. "youâre lucky youâre cute, or iâd be mad right now."
4. "youâre playing a dangerous game, sweetheart."
5. "is that your way of asking me to stay the night?"
6. "you canât keep teasing me like this."
7. "come closer, i wonât biteâunless you want me to."
8. "you donât have to pretend to be innocent with me."
9. "your hands feel good on my skin."
10. "youâre thinking about me, arenât you?"
11. "thatâs not what you were saying last night."
12. "stop biting your lip like that, itâs distracting."
13. "donât act like you donât know what youâre doing to me."
14. "youâve been staring at my lips for the past five minutes."
15. "if you keep talking like that, i wonât be able to hold back."
16. "do you have any idea what you do to me?"
17. "come here and let me take care of you."
18. "why donât we skip the movie and go straight to the good part?"
19. "youâre going to be the death of me, i swear."
20. "youâre not as innocent as you look, are you?"
21. "do you want me to kiss it better?"
22. "your place or mine?"
23. "i didnïżœïżœïżœt say stop."
24. "you know exactly what youâre doing, donât you?"
25. "do you trust me?"
26. "if you donât stop teasing me, i might have to do something about it."
27. "come here, let me help you out of that."
28. "youâve been on my mind all day."
29. "donât make promises you canât keep."
30. "youâre too tempting for your own good."
31. "what are you doing in my bed?"
32. "i think weâd both be more comfortable if you took that off."
33. "youâre cute when youâre flustered."
34. "what if i said i wanted more than just a kiss?"
35. "you have no idea how much i want you right now."
36. "is that a dare?"
37. "you look so good like this."
38. "tell me what you want, and iâll make it happen."
39. "youâre mine, remember that."
40. "donât look at me like that unless you mean it."
41. "youâre not as shy as you pretend to be."
42. "i love it when you get all worked up."
43. "keep talking like that and see what happens."
44. "you drive me crazy, you know that?"
45. "you have no idea what youâre doing to me right now."
46. "iâm not sure i can behave if you keep looking at me like that."
47. "let me show you how much i missed you."
48. "is it bad that i like seeing you all flustered?"
49. "youâre the best kind of distraction."
50. "youâre irresistible, and itâs so unfair."
second chance romance —ïž
1. "do you ever think about what we couldâve been?"
2. "i never stopped loving you."
3. "if i could go back in time, iâd do everything differently."
4. "do you think we could try again?"
5. "i still keep your picture in my wallet."
6. "this place reminds me of us."
7. "do you ever miss me?"
8. "youâre the one that got away."
9. "i canât stop thinking about what we lost."
10. "i wasnât ready to let you go."
11. "you always had a piece of my heart."
12. "every song reminds me of you."
13. "itâs been years, and you still feel like home."
14. "i hate that i lost you."
15. "you deserved someone better than me."
16. "you still wear the necklace i gave you?"
17. "i saw you in my dream last night."
18. "we were so close to forever."
19. "do you think we could ever be us again?"
20. "seeing you again feels like a second chance."
21. "i thought i was over you, but then i saw you smile."
22. "you were my first loveâyou still are."
23. "i thought iâd never see you again."
24. "every road i take somehow leads back to you."
25. "do you remember the promises we made?"
26. "itâs always been you."
27. "i thought i was okay until i saw you with someone else."
28. "why did you have to come back into my life now?"
29. "i wrote you so many letters i never sent."
30. "youâre the only person who ever truly knew me."
31. "i donât think i ever really moved on."
32. "i kept the gift you gave me."
33. "can we start over?"
34. "it still hurts, seeing you."
35. "i thought leaving was the right choice, but now iâm not so sure."
36. "youâre still the first person i think of when i hear good news."
37. "i was so stupid to let you go."
38. "do you think we could fix whatâs broken?"
39. "we ended too soon."
40. "i never wanted anyone elseâit was always you."
41. "youâre the reason i came back."
42. "i miss the way you used to look at me."
43. "it feels like iâve been waiting for you forever."
44. "you used to love me."
45. "i wanted to call, but i didnât think youâd pick up."
46. "i still dream about you."
47. "do you regret what we had?"
48. "you taught me what love is, and no one else has come close."
49. "itâs not too late for us, is it?"
50. "i still believe we were meant to be."
angst —ïž
1. "i saw you with themâdonât deny it."
2. "you promised you wouldnât hurt me."
3. "why didnât you just tell me?"
4. "i thought i meant something to you."
5. "is that all i am to you?"
6. "you chose them over me."
7. "i donât know if i can forgive you."
8. "was anything real between us?"
9. "i canât keep pretending iâm okay."
10. "you donât trust me, do you?"
11. "do you even love me?"
12. "did you even think about how i would feel?"
13. "donât act like you care."
14. "you never really loved me, did you?"
15. "iâm not enough for you."
16. "do you even know how much you hurt me?"
17. "please donât go."
18. "i thought you were different."
19. "itâs too late to fix this."
20. "i wish i could hate you."
21. "you donât get to walk back into my life like this."
22. "i canât lose you again."
23. "you broke me."
24. "i waited for you, but you never came."
25. "how could you keep this from me?"
26. "i wish weâd never met."
27. "this isnât how it was supposed to end."
28. "you always put them first."
29. "stop pretending you care."
30. "i saw you with themâitâs over."
31. "donât lie to me."
32. "you said youâd never leave."
33. "what about us?"
34. "you made me believe in us."
35. "why am i never enough?"
36. "you couldâve told me."
37. "donât walk away from me."
38. "it wasnât supposed to hurt like this."
39. "why are you pushing me away?"
40. "i thought we were forever."
41. "did you ever really love me?"
42. "please donât make me choose."
43. "how could you think i didnât care?"
44. "i loved you with everything i had."
45. "you were my everything."
46. "we canât keep doing this."
47. "saying you're sorry isnât enough this time."
48. "you knew this would destroy me."
49. "youâre too late."
50. "i hope theyâre worth it."
#seventeen imagine#seventeen#svt#svt x reader#seventeen fluff#svt fluff#svt angst#seventeen x reader#seungcheol x reader#jeonghan x reader#joshua x reader#jun x reader#hoshi x reader#soonyoung x reader#wonwoo x reader#woozi x reader#jihoon x reader#seokmin x reader#dk x reader#dokyeom x reader#the8 x reader#minghao x reader#mingyu x reader#seungkwan x reader#dino x reader#lee chan x reader#chan x reader#vernon x reader#hansol x reader#daisymbin: reqs
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What about a relationship with the yellowjackets girls post-rescue. Or what about 25 years later, reuniting with them. Like in the show, they all find a way to come back together, but with the weight of their shared history in the wilderness, how would that be? Would old feelings rekindle? (By the way, I love your writing!)
hc. reunion with the adult timeline yj girls (shauna, tai, van, lottie, nat)
A/N: sorry this is a bit small nonnie!! and that i took so long⊠this is such a cool ask so I had to do it đ and again peep the van favouritism. a bit nsfw tee hee, implied wlw (duh), drugs n shit, vanâs cancerđ not proofread because nnnmnhnhbâŠ.. uhhh mmm. nah.
NATALIE:
Natalie would be almost embarrassed to see you again after it all. Being such a pillar within the group in the wilderness, and having lost herself so much after would really hit her when she sees you again.
Youâre engraved in Natâs mind during those 20-something years, a spit image of your face lurking in her subconscious. Somehow, each time Natalie found herself blacking out, or hitting the peak of her high, youâd come to mind. Your face, looking at her- and suddenly sheâs 17 again, sat next to you by a fire.
Natalie would be torn between never wanting to see you again, and craving your company so deeply. So when youâre thrust into her life again, likely by Mistyâs influence- she doesnât quite know how to react.
Youâd catch her staring- all interactions short, yet packed. As things with Lottie pick up, Nat would be quick to defend you, never leaving a few metres distance just like she used to.
After that, she wouldnât be as subtle about her feelings toward you. Sheâd be hesitant to go into anything serious let alone long term, but having you back with her would do a lot for Nat. Sheâd have someone she can really trust- and who would that be if not you?
Any intimacy with adult timeline Nat would be wild, impromptu and more than likely when youâre both under the influence. Rough, and fast and heated- but lying together after? Maybe, if youâre lucky, Nat would let you look into her soul a little. Maybe sheâd let you in. Keep at it and who knows where you two would end up.
TLDR; Natâs very confused. But aroused?
VAN:
Reuniting with Van would definitely go the smoothest out of all the girls (women)? Sheâd let you stay in her shop, keeping you for days- enticing you with nostalgic movies and shows youâd watch together as teenagers. Cuddled up at night referencing some dumbass sitcom- watching all the films that came out while you were stranded that you never got to experience together as teenagers. Dumb reality TV, some Jim Carrey âAS SEEN ON VHSâ movie for the 80th time- anything to be close to you.
Van wouldnât be the one to bring up getting back together by any means, but she wouldnât shut it down either. It would be great for a while- until you find her discreetly sneaking around her medicine cabinet, or her constant complains of pain. Van would gradually grow distant, and knowing her- youâd pick up on it pretty fast.
Sheâd be reluctant to let you know about her cancer- but it would be a huge weight off her shoulders once she did. Sheâd be able to enjoy your time together way more, and your company would make her feel a lot better.
Chances are youâd be with Van a good while before all of the things with Lottie and the others- meaning youâd meet back with the group as a united front, secure and positive through all the bullshit. Youâd be a huge anchor for Van through it all- and no doubt she would be for you too.
(Vanâs cancer was totally cured btw. Showtime told me themself sorry) (Iâll be so mad if she dies) (my babyâŠ.)
Vanâs still silly as shit, too. Everything that happened in the wilderness would no doubt just become fodder for her twisted sense of humour, but deep down sheâs deeply hurt. Having you back and repairing those old relationships would really help her, more than you could understand.
Adult vanâs strap is like. That retro pinky-reddy-orangey by the way. Canon. I can see the future (and because she used it on me yesterday)
TAI:
I feel like reuniting with Tai before everything would be rather inevitable. Sheâs a public figure- and after months and months of seeing her on TV, youâd reunite- maybe teaching Sammy at school, only to see her walk in for a parent-teacher conference. Maybe youâd see her posters around, enticing you to vote for her.
(I want to write a reunion, Sammyâs-teacher fic nowđ)
Tai has legitimately nobody to confide in about what happened- and with all the drama surrounding her campaign for senator, you can imagine how relieved she was when you find your way back into her life.
I imagine youâd reunite at the peak of her stress; maybe after the whole âSPILLâ drama. Taiâs sleepwalking again, she knows it- and she remembers how it was you who knew how to calm her. So, when you drunkenly stumble your way into her bed after meeting in a bar sheâs not surprised that she can finally sleep the whole night. Only with you does Tai ever feel well rested. Only in your arms can she relax.
Which, given Taiâs whole marital downfall, would lead to a passionate and almost desperate love affair. Change my mind- wait, you canât. It would be almost scandalous, the fact that the esteemed senator candidate and yourself, both having endured the wilderness together, are together. If the press found out, theyâd have a fit. Tai never fails to remind you this, so your relationship would be kept under tight, tight wraps.
Any intimacy with adult Tai would go one of two ways. Option 1, as an act of comfort. To remedy sadness, take that stress of eachotherâs shoulders. Slow, and tender- a mature kind of love, like Taiâs always been. Youâd lie for hours after, talking. Maybe youâd unload about all the nightmares and flashbacks to the wilderness, or maybe Tai would ramble about Sammy and [WIFE NAME].
Or, option 2. Rough, angry sessions that last hours at a time. Unloading all of the bottled up negative emotions which between the two of you is enough to last a lifetime. Tai would pull your hair, rut into you without a care of how you might bruise- or maybe sheâd let you dig your nails into her thighs, bite at her skin and just pray that it wouldnât show the next day in time for her meeting.
LOTTIE:
I feel like reuniting with Lottie at her retreat alongside the other girls is the obvious answer, but Iâm inclined to say that youâd actually turn up a good while earlier.
Lottieâs presence in your life would never cease- not since youâd met her, no matter where she was or where you are. Lottie lingers- and she always will.
Sheâd think that some spiritual presence, be it fate or the wilderness drew you back to her. That of course you found your way back to her somehow. You were Lottieâs girl the second that plane went down, and thereâs no doubt in her mind that youâll always be.
Thatâs why sheâs so happy to see you at the gates of her commune- eagerly offering you a room in her best suite, right beside her own. Sheâs cater to your every want, showing you around and explaining how everythingâs connected to what you all experienced out there.
And no doubt, youâd fall for it. Maybe youâd want to. Either way, you do. With Lottie, old feelings donât rekindle per se, they were always just there. Even when you didnât talk, even when she was god knows where- Lottie was there, and so were you.
Having sex with adult Lottie would be less ritualistic and spiritual than it used to be when you were out in the wild. At first, it might even seem normal. But, the passionate sensuality, the way she worships you and insists that âno, no, you just lay back, let me take care of youâ or the way her tongue spells a prayer against you while her headâs buried between your thighs brings you back.
SHAUNA:
While with the other girls itâd likely be themselves or maybe the hand of fate drawing you back together, with Shauna it would have to be you starting things.
Youâd reach out a few times- maybe sheâd humour you, and youâd grab a coffee while youâre in town. Shauna couldnât deny that it did make her feel a certain way and sure after a few drinks and if you were lucky enough to catch her during the whole âJeff allegedly cheatingâ thing, maybe sheâd concede and youâd hook up.
As hard as I try, though, I canât imagine it going any further. Shauna cares about you; of course she does. But, sheâs resilient and now she has a whole family of her own. We see Shauna do her best to distance herself from everything that happened, and having you like that would only bring her back.
So, sheâd blow you off. Maybe youâd be a new victim of her drunk, sad booty-calls, but beyond that? I donât think Shauna would be so quick to get back together. But the love? Of course itâs still there.
(Sorry to my shauna girliesđ I cannot lie and say she would because I just donât think so!!)
#listened to Adrienne lenker while listening. appropriate#sorry this took forever âŠ..#new stuff!! soon?#I hope#I have many many reqs#mmmmmnnmnhnn#love u nonnies#Yellowjackets x reader#shauna shipman#shauna shipman x reader#Yellowjackets#wlw#lesbian#Lottie Matthews#lottie matthews x reader#natalie scatorccio x reader#natalie scatorccio#van palmer x reader#Vanessa Palmer#taissa turner#taissa turner x reader#tai#van#taivan#farts
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25 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS (4/25) âł spirited (2022)
#spirited#spiritededit#christmasedit#will ferrell#ryan reynolds#patrick page#filmedit#movieedit#25christmas22#this movie as SO cute#i feel like i could do 25 days with just it#the buddy the elf nod#moviegifs
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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?
*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)
*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)
(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )
(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)
#polls#tumblr polls#I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup#the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli#section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff#so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just#blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most#neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol#I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me#but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T#I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee#person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times#But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol#And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly#When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one#sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it#Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something#Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and#coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single#coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to#have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus#make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as#possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get#to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol
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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,
Anime:
GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)
VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!
Manga:
GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.
#dbtag#I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd#Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao#they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of#Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT#Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants#to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies#They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted#He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok#He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be#because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that#Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt#+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow#realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat#you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here#And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship#and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there#you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad#anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay#And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe
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hi! can you tell me how old dick was in battle for the cowl and then when he was batman to damian's robin?
Based on Tim and Jason's ages, Dick was prob mid-twenties. Like 25/26. He was probably the same age during both events since they happened near each other.
#though i prefer 27 just bc number 6 is ugly to me lmao#i usually do a 7 year age gap between dick and jason#and i remember painstakingly going through red hood lost days and calculating the years that passed#and i think jason came out to be 19 (though for some reason i always think of him as 20. 20 feels correct)#19 makes more sense with tim being like 17 or whatever#so dick 26. jason 19. tim 17. damian 10.#though if you prefer a 6 year age gap between dick and jason (which i can accept) then you could put dick at 25#Dick Grayson#age#anon
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on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life
#it did make me fucking miserable bc i lost all my teenage years to crippling mental illness + being closeted so i never got to experience#that feeling of freedom. or at least i cant remember & i cant help but feel like something was stolen from me#i wish i could grab 13 year old dante by the shoulders & tell them to please please please make the most out of it#i know it feels like the world is going to end every single day but theres so many beautiful things to experience#& one day you will be 25 & you will miss yr friends & ask yourself why you wasted so much time#i know its not your fault you were just trying to survive & you did do beautiful things!!! but God#dante.txt
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#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED#I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn#so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and#I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever đ#how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but#SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad#I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for#herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean#I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to#I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore#I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit#is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia?#and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD#I don't have severe pain (yet).#I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it#so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive#I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!!#I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!
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Aaah. So it's neverending huh.
#my dad had been bugging me about getting a raise for months#it took me a while to actually find who to email to ask and how to go about it too.#but i did it! and i went from 19$ to 20.72$#and i was happy with that#and originally i wasnt going to tell my dad but he wasnt letting up about it and when i told him the numbers#he was dissappointed.he told me he spoke to people working from another company and they make 25#this was while i was stuck out on the supposed to be a hike but was actually hunting trip#now i just feel bad about it again. and i cant get my good feeling back goddamnit#i know its out of love/concern because hes very financially very successful and its tough seeing your kids work so hard and still be poor#but hey im now technically making 40 cents less than your daughter whos a doctor.#you graduated during a time where universities had skip days and they were less focused on proper essay formats#you also had living accommodations where apparently you could make your whole rent in a week of work#you also didnt need to pay for internet the way we do#you also had rrsp matching and Christmas bonuses and health insurance and company retirement funds#you had days off. you ask if i get a certain holiday off. like i havent worked full days christmas eve and boxing day the previous 5 years#also gas probably wasnt 80$/week just to go to and from work#and thats if you work and live in town#we had a phone call and he brought up my wage again this morning
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