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neuroticboyfriend · 9 months ago

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dissociation go brrr

#hi my name is. mentally unstable #i feel happy in a sick way #even tho the reasons im happy are healthy #the actual emotion feels. too much. too much. like.#i cant explain it #its like when a cake is too sweet #like yes its food its good to eat and its yummy but its also too sweet #so you dont wanna eat too much of it but #like i cant just Turn Off my emotions ykno??#-_-#julian rants #vent

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rendevok · 5 months ago

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Act I ~ The Prince

A tapestry for Let No One Sleep by @azalawa-scroggs on ao3

#narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #nmbb24 #happy nrmt big bang!!! there are two more of these…..#but you’ll have to wait for them #fan art #aa #ace attorney #dick gumshoe #maya fey #manfred von karma #…bro is creeping…#wHEEWWWW ok took me a bazillion years to catch up with my day but HERE ARE MY THOUGHTS ON THIS ONE:#the border is intended to be read in counter clockwise direction #so: top -> left -> bottom -> right #and YES the sun and the moon are intentionally associated with the attorney's and prosecutor's badges respectively #phoenix and miles are our sun and moon throughout this story so be sure to look for that in the fic too!!#this style was very experimental for me but i wanted it to mimic the feeling of a tapestry hence me referring to it that way #i WISH this was fabric that would be sick as fuck #i will eventually share a proper breakdown of the thoughts and intentions behind everything but for now...#im gonna miss Phoenix’s cloak bc im obsessed with the design actually. wish that thing was real too #miles is my cunty little bitchboy in this wearing his thousand pound fur coat and the suitor stompy boots #if you thought that was a rug and went Oh. ...that was on purpose :^)))))#rendevok #id in alt text

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ohrackham · 4 months ago

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what was the point of lila thinking home was a feeling she didn't deserve and could never earn until she found diego. what was the point of them finding deep, meaningful love in each other. what was the point of lila opening her heart and confessing that all she really wanted was a family with him.

what was the point of developing diego and lila over two seasons, creating such a beautiful, chaotic bond, just to destroy it for no reason.

#the umbrella academy #diego x lila #lila pitts #diego hargreeves #what was the point!!!!!!#isn't it great when there's no character resolution and everyone just gets erased from existence #instead of giving us emotional closure they just added more pain and trauma and called it a day #what was it all for exactly. to give the handler a peaceful happy life of all people #don't even get me started on the bracelet or that awful pointless love triangle #steve blackman is gross and so is the way he talks about lila like she's not even a character in her own right but just an afterthought #someone who was there to pair with five while diminishing all that she is #five needed a love story so they just shoved lila into that role as if she were some random accessory to five's story #rather than her own character with thoughts and feelings #a woman's entire character arc is ruined just to give a guy a love interest #i feel sick #i've already mentioned some of this on twitter but whatever #as you can probably guess i'm not going to gif this so-called new season #lila deserved better. diego deserved better. we deserved better

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crystallizsch · 2 months ago

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AGH happy (definitely-not-late) bday to mr jamil viper 💖🐍 and thank u harveston jamil for coming home as well as two of his bday cards 💖💥

#i put WAY too much effort into this and;; i dont even like it 100% 😭#i gave up on the patterns </3 #but anyways #thank u jamil for ruining my life ily #also happy holidays everyone (it’s literally still back-to-school season)#actually technically it's already christmas in the philippines #so uhhh #it fits???#thank u harveston sledathon for the perfect timing #[—✦-#-✧ my art #twst #twisted wonderland #twst art #jamil viper #harveston sledathon #-✦—]#also also i havent??? posted art in almost a week???#das crazyyy #i got sick the day after his bday when i was supposed to be finishing up his art >:[#then i just lost all energy for a bit i couldnt do anything 😭#anyways it’s like. 4am i cant sleep #so i decided to just finish up his bday art 😤#who knew drinking thai boba milk tea at 5pm wouldnt be such a good idea #i feel like i’m unnecessarily rambling more than usual lmao sorry 😭

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sheetzking · 5 months ago

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aughhh im so late but i hope everyone has been enjoying pride month! huzzah!! gay people!!!

i had to rush this one out since ive been busy with other things,but i just couldnt miss out on drawing juza this month, since hes such an important character to me, for so many reasons! <3

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mulderscully · 2 years ago

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— OLIVIA GATWOOD

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bleue-flora · 6 months ago

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#look at him so happy in his little torture box :) home sweet home….. I see nothing wrong with this whatsoever…#this is fiiiiiiine…… I was gonna wait to post this but… it reflects my current mood so..#dsmp memes #dsmp meme #c!dream #y’all knew I had to do it… it’s just my fav meme… like ‘this is fine’ should be written on my tombstone #prison arc #dream smp #dreblr #dsmpblr #this is fine #dsmp #pandora's vault #no one does it like c!dream #I spent way to long on these memes btw… I have over 1000 Minecraft photos on my phone now…#not me getting sick when I’m supposed to be going to a concert on Wednesday and beach this weekend…. let’s all just hope I feel better #tomorrow 🤞 pleeeeeaase….

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speakercrab666 · 3 months ago

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Republican Green Day fans just now realising American Idiot is about them has gotta be the funniest thing i've ever fucking seen. like my guy they are a pop punk band. they be popping and punking. they've BEEN popping and punking. who the fuck did u think they were talking about????????

#like what the fuck #how?????? how do u listen to American Idiot and know the lyrics and not go oh yeah no way these guys voted trump #media literacy please i'm begging u :')#context #Billy Joe recently held up a Trump mask with idiot written on it in a performance #and now Republican fans are like noooo!!!!!!! we're gonna boycott!!!!!!!!!!#ok?#good?#i wouldn't even necessarily call myself a Green Day fan i just like some of their songs and think they're cool #but i guarantee no one is complaining lmao like we don't want u here either dude boycott away #what did u THINK a punk was #certainly Green Day don't care that they're boycotting they're probably happy!!!!#i'd feel sick to my fucking stomach if my art was enjoyed by Republicans and i'm so serious #i make my art so that it makes conservatives uncomfortable and SO DO THEY #they literally could not have been more obvious if they tried what the fuck

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heich0e · 7 months ago

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sometimes i listen to 'the view between villages' and i wonder if oikawa feels resentment when he goes home to japan

#he steps foot in miyagi and all the sudden he's 17 again #he feels the phantom ache of the growing pains he used to get when he hit his growth spurt in first year #remembers the way his uniform blazer smelled when his mom had just washed it #can hear the sound of the bell at seijoh that rang between classes #and he gets a terrible sick feeling in his stomach #because more than anything he remembers the optimism he had about the future and what was in store for him #and he's happy now in argentina. he is. genuinely.#but he also loves his home more than anything #and there will always be a part of him that can never forgive the fact that he had to leave it just to follow his dream #basically i encourage you to listen to 01:47 onward of the view between villages and suffer with me

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genderkoolaid · 2 years ago

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okay something ive been curious about is how people feel about their self harm scars. because mine are really important to me and I honestly feel love for them, and i enjoy when they are visible.

also this includes people who have any kind of permenant mark from self harm. and tbh if you have only self harmed in a way that leaves temporary marks then feel free to answer this too, or if you used to have some but now they aren't visible

#also this is not bc i get a lot of compliments on them #lord knows almost every member of family has said Something about them & my mother made me cry the first time she saw them #but they are important to me and i feel comforted by them #they feel like something very personal & smth thats truly my own #i absolutely do not blame people for having any sort of reaction towards theirs #my cousin has been getting his covered by REALLY fucking sick tattoos n im very happy for him #im just curious bc i dont feel like ive ever seen someone talk about their relationship w their scars in a way that feels similar to mine #m.#self harm tw

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daeluin · 1 year ago

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I still think "my mind is a safe and if I keep it, then we all get rich. my body is an orphanage we take everyone in" is one of the rawest most fucked up lyrics pete has ever written that then got put into a song.

like srsly 27 is such a fucked up song, specially if you put it in the context of when folie came out

#like i don't have the words in english to explain it but??? thinking you'll get rich as long as you keep the mess in your mind locked there?#feeling like you're just a body taking people under your care? but not getting it back? feeling used in a way???#and then patrick choose to follow it up with 'doing lines of dust and sweat off last night stage just to feel like you'???#the parallel between drugs and having a bit of the person you want but can't have?? the recognition of the self in the other???#like you can just inyect a person in you like a drug and be them and feel like them/happy? the I shoot the sunshine in my veins of all it???#INSANE. THEY WERE SICK FOR DOING THIS SONG

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rexscanonwife · 22 days ago

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Hey guys!! Sorry for being gone for a while, but I really needed a little break and my vacation was super refreshing, I had an awesome time with my partner and visiting my best friend.

Still not sure how high my engagement will be here but I'll probably be around a little bit more!

#jane journals #ive had a post in the drafts for a while so maybe ill post that before i get on my first flight home #its gonna be grueling but ill be happy when we're back in our own place #and ive got a few more days off work thank god #i usually get sick after vacations too so ill see how im feeling by the end of the night ajfjgkg #either way i got a lot of posts ive been tagged in to catch up on so ill be rbing them soon

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lulu-the-bugaboo · 4 months ago

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Having Ace as a fav is weird because the takes I see on him are either the type I've always wanted on my favs, digging into his character despite the low screentime and sharing fascinating views or the most brain dead, disappointing, shallow takes known to man

There is no in-between

#the way his fans see him makes me so happy as someone who always wanted others who looked as deep as I did #we are an insane bunch but we aren't alone so it feels so good #there are so many interesting views #then there are the wildly stupid ones #like if you aren't gonna bother looking at a character past surface level just move on and shut up #the way powerscaler dudebros' brains function is downright embarrassing #nothing wrong with enjoying cool fights and the action ofc #but judging everything by strength like some elementary schoolers is :/#it's mostly grown men too #sorry for the rant I just can't believe some of these people #I'm sure it's the same for the other characters too #lulu rambles #one piece #portgas d ace #portgas d. ace #dunno if I'm having the time of my life or wanna pull my hair out #I'm sick my brain isn't functioning normally lol #God forbid you have to think about a character beyond what the story directly feeds you

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sugarsweetvirgo · 11 months ago

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It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas... 🐑🎄🎁

#cult of the lamb #merry christmas #happy holidays #ssv #art #digital fanart #sugarsweetvirgo #COTL #so fun fact i started this on the 12 #and i got sick. twice. so i put it off literally 1/3 the way through #but then it became the 25th and the irrational side of me was like “oh my god we need to get this done today”#yall know that feeling lmao #I'm still sick but i had to finish it

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quackurucho · 12 days ago

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i think its very funny how embarrassingly down bad cquackity was for ccharlie Immediately right off the bat. maybe its just their limited improv/semi-lore screentime that enhances the feeling but like he literally just took him, taught him how to gamble for like 40 minutes and then immediately started saying shit like “you are my best friend you are the greatest friend that i have”. there was NOTHING gradual or reluctant about it he pretty much leaped into his arms without question

#i hget so sick when i just think about how in love they are and how explicitly happy they make eachotjer #the way cquackity is just constantly giddy and happy whenever ccharlies around and all the times where he’s like excited to introduce him #and the moments where ccharlie seems especially interested in whatever it is that cquackitys doing rather than something else #hashtag that was a nice hole earlier but i do miss quackity from las nevadas Hashtag canon line that slime actually said #ALSO while ranting. this could just be a me inside my own head thing but what honestly gets me the most abt ccharlies feelings for cquackity #is. nobody told him to be like that really. his fondness for him was Not something that he was taught or conditioned to do even right at the #beginning when hes literally talking about killing him ccharlies still like. He kisses him dude #as far as im concerned the way he sees kissing is just oh people do this when they like someone and i REALLY like quackity #so im gonna kiss him 3 times sounds good #One more thing abt their first meeting. i just love how despite how like not attached to or liking ccharlie cquackity is in that scene #he still Cant help but compliment him and be amazed by him with remarking how its incredible how a slime could do thjs #whmat fuciing ever bro

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icewindandboringhorror · 7 months ago

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boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future''#things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol..#Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

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