#i feel bad for being so awkward but idk it felt scary for some reason

[purple-is-great]

I bought a trans flag today! We'll see if I have the guts to bring it to pride this year (my town's pride week is rather late in the summer), but i own one now!

[nekohime19]

AITA for punching my girlfriend in the face?

(Part two of the previous post!! Let's go! Love writing funny looney toons style things like that. It's still Wukong POV.)

I didn't expect to get that much answers 😅. Anyway, thanks for the wisdom.

For those who didn’t see my last post (AITA for sleeping with the guy my girlfriend is cheating on me with) : I have a girlfriend (Venom) who cheated on me with another guy (Six). So out of pettiness I went to see Six. I learned he wasn't aware of my existence and was getting played too. We bonded, got wasted and kinda slept together.

Here are my answers to all your comments :

LaZen :

NTA, thought you definitely need to break up with her like yesterday, cheating is not cool and poor six who was the side dish :c its going to be awkward but six and you need to talk with a nice breakfast about what you two want to do now, revenge? Just a one night thing? Or get to know each other, wich i think is going to be the latter since both of you were getting along, the guy just got to town, maybe show him around as friends?

OP response :

Yeah, I think it's due time I confront Venom, even if I really don't want to. Idk, guess she's been with me for a long time so it's somehow scary to move on. I honestly don't know what I want with Six. I've never been interested in guys before? And maybe he only got pulled by the mood? Anyway, you're right, we do need to talk. Idk if I can make breakfast but, hey, burned egg aren't THAT bad.

Lagt :

Anyway not the asshole, maybe a stupid move but at that point why even bother coming back together if you two were already broke up? Like it feels like she couldn't decide

NTA

OP response :

😬 You're really calling me out with that one. Venom and I do have a pretty weird way to settle things. Guess I just got used to the constant breaking up and getting back together.

Sakurabloom_26 :

NTA, OP it doesn’t matter the reason, she cheated on you and played Six for a fool by making him her AP.

It wasn’t ok that you slept with her AP before breaking up with her (especially since the two of you were drunk), but considering you both were played for fools, I can’t blame you for shooting your shot.

As for what to do, wait for Six to wake up and decide on how the two of you are going to catch Venom in the act and then dump her.

Regarding Six, I’d take it slow, offer to be his friend and if you think there’s a genuine connection there, ask him out on a date (something simple like a coffee date, or a picnic), but be sure to assure him that if he doesn’t feel the same way that you still want to be friends (you both sound like you just need someone to genuinely be there for each other, so awkward emotions shouldn’t mean that your friendship has to end 😌)

Best of luck to you OP, I’m rooting for you 😊

OP response :

Yeaaah, wine really got into our heads and maybe we shouldn't have slept together. Honestly, being friends with Six doesn't sound bad. I’ve never been interested in guys before so it's pretty new. The thing is I don't know if I felt like that because of the mood or because of genuine feelings? Taking it slow might be better, especially since we're both kinda still with Venom at the moment?? Thanks!

Mystsong :

NTA, you were cheated on by Venom and Six had no clue what is or was going on. Not sure it was a good idea for you and Six to sleep together but you were also both impaired by alcohol so you both weren't thinking at the time. I'd definitely stay away from Venom and take things slow and steady with Six and see if there's something there. Also please be careful with Venom I've heard of some ex boyfriends/ex girlfriends doing some crazy things when they get mad at their exes or to keep control of their exes...and she sounds dangerous to do that. Also getting advice from some friends and family like your successor, Bud, might also be a good idea especially if you want to get proof of what Venom is up to and has been doing. Hope this helps you out. (Hugs sent)

OP response :

The things alcohol makes you do. Talking it out with Six might be for the best, idk if he'll want to see me again though? Guess I'll just have to ask. Maybe we can just be friends for now until we figure it out. Venom can be intense, yeah. I wouldn't put it past her to pull some shit like that. I don't want to involve Bud in this mess though, he's not really aware of me and Venom and he has enough problems because of me. (Hugs received)

Sag3mint :

Honestly wondering what Venom's reaction will be. Anger probably. 🤔

But once she realises that the reason why you and Six met is because of her, oh boy...... 🤭 That's gonna be massive blow to her ego.

OP response :

Oh boy, she's not gonna be happy that her bf and her side bf are getting it on together. This is gonna be a nuke field to travel through.

Halfdeadhalfpaniced :

Oh she’s definitely not going to take it well but technically none of this would have happened and you two would never have met if she didn’t cheat first. Honestly OP? He’s probably not the only one she’s ever cheated on you with and might not even be the only other person she’s currently seeing.

OP response :

It hurts to think about that, I hope she didn't… But I can't be certain.

Littleguy-dot-io :

nta.. you seemed to be doing yall a favor. venom. seems kinda like a bitch??? like bro.... pick a struggle. anyways sorry she did that to yall both but break with her

OP response :

At this point, Yeaaah, both Six and I really need to break up with her.

Furornocturna :

Okay, a LOT to unpack here, but I’ll try my best to give you some advice you desperately need.

Overall consensus? ESH.

Let me elaborate before you dismiss me outright.

Venom clearly sucks the worst here for cheating and stringing you and Six along.

You weren’t wrong for wanting revenge (I would too) and you weren’t wrong to tell Six about the situation (probably should have done it sober tho), but the two of you cheating on her back with each other… while admittedly a little hilarious as an outsider hearing this story secondhand, that doesn’t do either of you favors here. Not only did you sink to her level, but now the situation is messier than before that you now have to deal with when she finds out (which she will). You are going to have to confront Venom to end things with her, OP. Because that’s what you need to do.

From the looks of it, she checked out of the relationship three months ago, and the love there on your end was gone after you found out she was cheating, plus was likely already heading in that direction with the other background you gave on how things have been. And Six doesn’t deserve to be the side piece to her either.

First and foremost, you and Six both need to break things off with Venom (and deal with the fallout that comes with, as I have little doubt she’ll take the news well) before you proceed with anything else with whatever it is you want to do with each other. Which, despite the rather unorthodox circumstances, it appears that you two really hit it off.

But if this is something you want to pursue, platonically, romantically, or whatever else, you need to sort out yourself. You mentioned questioning your sexuality at the end of your post, so you’ll want to figure things out there before jumping headlong into another relationship. More than that, if you really like Six in any form, the last thing you want to do here is make him think he’s just a rebound. He was also hurt by Venom too. And make sure Six isn’t just rebounding on you either. You both really need to communicate on your wants, needs, feelings, etc, and how you want to proceed.

I hope things work out for you and Six. It really sucked that this happened (Venom cheating on you two, not you two finding each other), and I hope you both can recover from this and come out happier.

ALSO

Since you mentioned Venom causing city-wide damage in the past and how she’s caused issues with your successor, I worry both Bud and the city might also become casualties if Venom decides to retaliate against you and Six for breaking up with her/finding out her cheating. Don’t let them get caught up in the crossfire of this.

Make your next moves carefully, and you’ll get through this with the least amount of hassle.

Hope this helps!

OP response :

Honestly, I do feel kinda bad for sleeping with Six because of Venom. Even if I'm really angry and some petty part of me thinks she deserves it, I didn't intend for things to turn out like that. Things with Six just… spiraled, the alcohol didn't make it better. Not the first time wine makes me do stupid things. But, somehow, I don't regret it?? I definitely need to confront Venom and I sure as hell don't intend to keep dating her after this. Things will be messy and, you're right, I do need to watch out for her reaction and make sure things don't get out of control. I don't know how things will go with Six. Tbh, I don't know what I'm feeling for sure either, everything is kind of a mess right now? But right, talk, we need to talk.

Sorry if I made a mistake on you guys names, 😅.

And sooo, I have an update 👀

AITA for punching my girlfriend in the face?

After that night with Six I got up and tried to make breakfast. You know, something nice to set a nice mood. Problem is idk how to cook (I usually eat hair, it's a mystic monkey thing) sooo my attempt failed miserably and I ended up with a black goo that was supposed to be eggs.

I just settled for fruits. Like Six should like fruits, no ?? He's a monkey. So I prepared a nice basket and waited.

I was kinda nervous.

Which was very unlike me. I'm not a nervous guy. But I never did hook-ups before, not with a guy, and not with my girlfriend's secret side boyfriend much less. It was a messed up situation tbh and I felt guilty for what I did (somehow it kinda felt I cheated on Venom??), angry at Venom and also excited to see Six again.

Six woke up after a few minutes, he looked ruffled and very much like he spent the night having fun in the sheet (I'm proud of that tbh). He froze when he saw me. Dear in the headlight froze and we stared at each other for a long minute before I managed to awkwardly gesture towards the basket.

Six sat down and nibbled on some mangoes. Our conversation kinda went like this :

Me : “so, last night was… ?”

Six : “... A lot.”

Me : “Yeah… Huh, what do you wanna do?”

Six : “Don't know… Guess I'm just gonna keep my distance a bit.”

Me : “From Venom?”

Six : “Yeah…”

Me : “How about we confront her together?”

Honestly I said that because I didn't really want to confront Venom alone. She could be intense at times and, well, it was perhaps better to do it with everyone directly involved present.

But before Six could reply, Bud barged in.

Now, I'm not the best at keeping track of time but I usually know when Bud is coming. But with the whole situation it just slipped by me. The three of us froze and Bud's mouth fell open… For context, the marks of what we did last night were still very visible so it wasn't hard for Bud to connect the dots.

Now, Bud knows I'm with someone but I never told him of Venom. The main reason is because Venom is more on the “bad guy team” and doesn't think that kindly of Bud. Moreover, Bud has been the cause of a lot of arguments between Venom and I and I didn't want him to be involved with an angry Venom. I just didn't want things to get complicated and thought it was simpler to separate my love life from my mentor life. Maybe I was also a bit scared of how Bud was gonna react to me dating a “bad guy”.

Maybe that's why Bud's first reaction was to be excited and rush to Six, rambling about how he's finally able to meet my partner. I'm not blaming Bud for thinking this but Gods above it was so awkward.

If I said that Six wasn't my boyfriend, then Bud was going to think I'm cheating on my true partner (Venom)... Which is kinda the truth?? Somehow???

I honestly didn't know what to do and, at this point, I was feeling a lot of different emotions. I didn't want Bud's image of me to be tarnished but I didn't want to lie to him either about the situation. Six, who looked quite overwhelmed as well, didn't outrightly reject Bud's claim but clearly didn't agree with it either. He just… excused himself and took the opportunity to leave. Which I can understand. Dealing with Bud isn't his responsibility and he just learned he was a side piece yesterday, he probably needed some time to cool off and think clearly about what happened.

He smiled at me before leaving so I assumed that he's not that upset with me.

Gods that smile.

I avoided Bud's questions after this and put the subject to rest. Neither confirming or denying anything. I just told him we'd talk about it later. It's not like I didn’t want to confide in Bud, but I didn't want to drag him into this mess, he has enough already on his plate.

So now, fast-forward to three days after that incident. I took a lot of tests on the internet to know if I'm actually bi ?? I questioned a lot about myself, my own sexuality, and what I wanted to do with Six and Venom.

Six and I decided to meet again and clarify things. Mainly about what we wanted to do with Venom and how we should confront her. He came to my mountain and we sat down around some fruits, trying to figure out this whole mess and how we should go about it now. Honestly, both of us agreed we should break up for good with Venom. But we weren't sure if we should tell her about our lil “fun in the sheet”. Venom can have an explosive temper at times (she did destroy half of the city) so we didn't want to anger her more than necessary. I know I may be TA for wanting to keep my “kinda cheating” with Six a secret but at this point I just wanted to be done with Venom and not give her any more reasons to put the city or Bud in danger. It was a moment where both of us were emotionally vulnerable, and waisted. It wasn't wise, especially given the context, but I did insist that I didn't regret it. I really felt like we had a connection that night. However, before Six could reply, I saw Venom stomping down this way with an enraged look.

We both panicked. The marks of our night together were still somewhat visible and both of us didn't want to aggravate Venom more than she already was. In hindsight, maybe it was kind of a stupid move and would seem even more suspicious to Venom, but I pushed Six in the nearest cabinet. He looked livid so I just told him it wasn't the right moment yet and that I'd deal with her for now. I quickly applied some glamors to hide any marks and waited for Venom to arrive (for context, glamors is kind of like magic make-up).

She was furious. She paced and accused me of cheating on her. I pried a little for information and it turns out she overheard Bud talk about my male partner and, yeah, things spiraled down from there.

So my soon-to-be ex was ransacking the house in search of my supposed side piece and I was just nervously standing in front of the cabinet with Six inside. She approached the cabinet and was ready to throw hands. In a moment of sheer panic and instinctual reaction to years of fighting demons, I punched her in the face, not enough to truly do some damage (I can pack a mean punch) but enough to knock her out.

So now Venom is passed out on the floor and I'm feeling very guilty and Six is still inside the cabinet, I'm typing this with the speed of light.

Should I just tie her up???

So AITA??

AND WHAT DO I DO????

[midnightmisadventures]

Had a dream where bff was dating Zeth....

but like maybe it wasnt zeth but it was. I went over to hangout and meet him and he was amazing, and i wanted to feel jealous but i was happy for bff. 

Bff was explaining that when they started dating she was confused as to literally why he liked her like she was like, he loves being active, running, biking, hiking, and she hates all those things but he was still into her and didnt care. And she was basically saying, hes so hot and nice and cool and out of her league but for some reason he still likes her. 

And i was like bff, youre great don’t worry about ti. But then i met him, and i was like omg he’s amazing. I wanna marry him lol not to be rude but.....i see where shes coming from. 

And he had a big truck, with a bike always attached to it. And he was really nice and gentlemen like to me. He was zeth. We would be riding in the truck and he was like speeding down the highway with the and open the door and stand up while driving like WOOOOOO and i was like omg! like it felt so dangerous but so fun and freeing. I think thats what i was a little jealous of, like he was just so cool and adventerous and i wasnt sure if bff appreciated that. 

Like we almost crashed sometimes and i was so nervous, but he always had control of it. He was so spontaneous lol

We went to dinner? or something and then after we were driving around before we had to drop bff off at dogs to work. And he was riding through his childhood neighborhood and explaining stuff. And then he was like i used to get ice cream right here and then we saw the truck and he did a 180 and tire skid turned around for us to park and get ice cream. 

It was like a ice cream/magic shop. And it was mobile but you could go inside and order and sit. Like a small little room. And we went, and again he was being really sweet and offered to pay for both of us. And he went to the bathroom and bff and i were sitting there and all of a sudden. RON is there with friends, and he can clearly see us, its a small room but its so awkward, and i was like he he its kinda cool being here with zeth like idk he gives off cool vibes. I was also thinking “would this have the same effect if it was Liam hm” but i wasnt sure if ron had already seen liam and he wouldnt be a “new face” 

But i was picturing if Liam and i were on double dates with bff and zeth like that would be fun right? But i tried not to think about it cause it the dream it seemed far fetched that Liam and i would ever actually date. 

Then fucking alpha was there?? it felt like so many people from our past was in this tiny ass ice cream shop and bff and i kept making jokes like wooo its so hot in here, like geesh theres so many peoppleeeee 

Anyways, we paid and left and when we went out it was sooo dark and scary and there was a guy lurking and being creepy and weird. So zeth was like hold on, im gonna go check this guy out. So he grabbed his bike off his car and was trying to lure him away from us but also get a closer look. 

And bff was like “stay here, he’s gonna check if he’s a bad guy” like trying to explain to me what he’s doing like im stupid but also just so she could brag about the fact that he was so protective and strong oooo, he does this all the time for her oooo. And i was like OKAY i get it, your boyfriends perfect, and fun, and protective of women and thats hot. lmao 

But things got out of hand because people started chasing us, and i couldnt find the truck. We all got separated, and suddenly i was running and terrified. But we were on the steepest incline grassy hill. So trying to avoid the creepy guy was exhausting because i was trying to run away from people i thought was bad but it was up and down and up and down the steepest hill. In the darkness, literally gripping the grass to keep from falling when it was completely vertical at times. 

Insane.

We made it out and was safe and everything

Thats pretty much it...,

[reidsnose]

horror film

overview: reader and spencer watch a scary movie and spook themselves into cuddling

genre: fluff/angst?(yall are scared bc of the movie)/kind of humor

warnings: light swearing, mentions of idk like spooky ghost stuff

a/n: i definitely have been watching far too many horror movies for my own good but i dont have a spencer reid to cuddle up with lmao anyway i hope you guys enjoy it !!! please please let me know what you thing :)

masterlist

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Spencer didn't understand. after all you guys see throughout the day, you want to come home and watch a horror movie. your whole lives were like one big horror movie.

but, regardless, he would walk to the ends of the earth for you (though he did not plan on telling you that), so watching a scary movie with you wouldn't be so bad. in fact, anything would be good with you. he would happily get a root canal if it meant spending more time with you.

he tried to convince himself: a scary movie is like halloween! and he loves halloween. reading about it. learning about it. but getting his adrenaline pumping via jump scare? hmmm..maybe not.

he didn't watch many horror films when he was a kid. his mom didn't do very well with them. and he liked his foreign films better. but watching the light in your eyes twinkle when you asked him to come over to watch together because you were scared to watch alone? how could he say no?

and you were beyond excited to have him over. even though you guys had already hung out outside of work before, you almost never got to pick the movies. truth be told that was because you went along with almost anything he said so you could get closer. and you planned on watching the movie at a friendly distance.

keyword: planned.

but it was now halfway through the movie and you were both cuddled up together in the corner of the couch. and from the beginning of the movie, anytime something remotely creepy happened, Spencer would lean over and whisper what a reasonable explanation could be. or tell you how statistically improbable the events of a certain scene was. and so you two drew closer and closer. and he convinced himself he was telling you the statistics and facts to make sure you dont get too scared; but really it was himself he was trying to calm down.

the movie was what it said it was; scary. but you had watched your fair share of horror movies, and though a couple of the jump scares got you, you were getting a little disinterested and distracted.

every time he leaned over (rather, now he was leaning down) and whispered something to you, you had to fight the urge to kiss him. not to mention. you were snuggled up to you're best friend who you were secretly crushing on and he was pulling you impossibly closer with every creepy scene that flashed on screen. and you were more exhausted than you knew. and Spencer was just so damn comfortable its like the guys arms were made to dream in!

so you started dozing off.

not Spencer.

he couldn't tell if his heart was beating from using you as his own personal teddy bear, or from the horrifying, ghastly scenes unfolding on screen. he didnt even notice you had fallen asleep until he leaned down, eyes glue to the screen, to whisper how unlikely the existence of ghosts was, and you didn't answer. he looked down and let himself audibly sigh. a smile cracking on his lips at the irony of you falling asleep during a horror movie.

one last jump scare had woken you up at the very end of the movie. not so much the jump scare, but the jerk of Spencer's entire body and the slight yelp he let out. and you found yourself feeling sad that Spencer was going to go home.

you told him he could stay if he was scared, to which he replied he was completely not scared (though his lie was very obvious). and having not watched most of the movie, you were able to fall back asleep in no time.

that was not the case for Spencer.

he was incredibly paranoid as he walked up the stairs, afraid an evil spirit would be waiting to scare him in his apartment. and when he lied down to sleep, every shadow that appeared in his room seemed to resemble a ghost. he tossed and turned petrified for about an hour before deciding he couldn't stay alone in his apartment.

so he found himself driving back to your apartment at about midnight to ask if he could sleep in the guest bedroom.

when he arrived at your door you let out a chuckle at his request, giving him a sort of "told you so" talking to as you made arrangements in the guest room so he'd be comfortable. and boy did this make him feel better. he was still very scared, but it wasn't nearly as bad because he knew you were just a room away. he opted to get a glass of water to try and calm down.

you, however, had just now started to be scared as images replayed in your head of things that go bump in the night. you tossed and turned trying not to look at the shadowy corners of your room, but you just couldn't fall back asleep. so you decided to make your way to the kitchen for some water, keeping your head down to avoid spooking yourself via the various oddly shaped nicknacks in your home.

Spencer stiffened as he felt a presence in the room, and he turned to see the shadowy figure of a woman, hobbling towards him, head trained on the floor. he couldn't scream, he couldn't run, he couldn't do anything but stare terrified at the figure.

you looked up as you neared the kitchen, letting out a blood curdling scream when you saw a tall shadow man standing in your kitchen.

Spencer could scream now that the figure began screaming. he let out a high pitched yelp as he stumbled along the wall looking for the light switch. he felt the need to protect you from the ghost, so in a fit of deranged manliness he let out a string of words that in or out of context is completely laughable.

"fuck off you spooky bitch!" the shadow man yelled, finally finding the light switch.

when the light flicked on the confusion and horror stopped. and instead you and Spencer stood equally spooked, in your fight or flight response.

"Spencer?" you croaked, lowering a raised fist. you planned on fighting a ghost?

"y/n?" he asked back equally confused.

"i was getting water what are you doing?" you asked, laughing slightly as you realized what he had yelled out.

"i was too," he chuckled, remembering what he had called out, "sorry for telling you to fuck off and calling you a spooky bitch."

"its ok, sorry for being 100% ready to punch you in the neck."

you two stood in a silence that wasn't exactly comfortable but not awkward either as you got a glass and filled it with water.

"hey do-" he began.

"could i-" you started at the same time.

"you go first," he chuckled, taking a sip of his water.

"i wont be mad if you say no, but could i sleep in the guest bed with you? my room has way too many spooky corners." you asked shyly.

"i was just about to ask that," he smiled.

you let out a relieved sigh before gulping down your water and heading to sleep in the guest room.

you two lied weirdly far at first but after mentioning how the coat hanger looked like a man with horns you two both reached for each other. falling asleep wrapped tightly in each others arms. hearts beating together quickly; but not because of fear.

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utra mega super cool taglist:

@mac99martin @imhreid @spencersmagic @hollydaisy23 @raelady1184 @a-broken-pact @padfootswife @hey-there-angels @star-stuff-in-the-cosmos @sonnydoesrandomshit @coffeereid-deactivated20210303 @averyhotchner @laurakirsten0502 @reidyoulikeabook @remariiana @spencerreid9

[peachhcs]

Love Languages

Pairings Luke Patterson x reader

Summary Luke asks the reader what love languages are. 

Warnings none but fluff :)

Word Count 1.8k (short I know but I'm working on it)

I haven’t really written on Tumblr before so don’t judge too harshly because there’s some insanely talented people on here who might judge hahaha. (hopefully not though) I don't know what the boy’s love languages are so I kind of just assumed based off of what we saw but I did see somewhere that someone said Luke’s was touch so I just went with it. 

Gif is not mine so credit to the owner! I don’t know if anyone has done this idea before but I kind of like it because it popped into my head last night. Anyways, enjoy!! :) p.s. I sort of left this on a cliff hanger but idk if i’m going to continue it or not hahaha

PART 2

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You were seated peacefully on the couch as you worked away on your laptop while listening to Julie and the guys practice a few songs for this weekend’s upcoming gig. You always loved listening to them practice, they sounded like absolute angels and you would never get tired of listening to them. However, Luke thought you should be doing your homework somewhere else because he didn’t want them to be distracting to you but truthfully, you really didn’t mind. If you were being honest, it actually helped you focus and the music didn’t let your brain wander. 

You glanced up at the group after realizing they had stopped playing. Julie met your eyes with a warm smile, already reading your mind,

“We’re just taking a break. I got to catch up on some homework.” Julie explained to her best friend. You nodded in response, smiling slightly as she went back to work. The boys were talking amongst themselves over by the piano, using hushed voices so whatever they were talking about you or Julie couldn’t hear. 

By some weird magical notion, you were able to see the boys even when they weren’t playing like Julie could. They haven’t been able to figure out why yet, though. Why you could see the guys but their other best friend, Flynn, couldn’t. Or why Luke’s parents couldn’t see him either but you still could. It was all just one big mystery they were all still unravelling. They had a theory that it had something to do with their unfinished business and the connections they all shared with one another, but that was yet to be explored with you and the boys. Julie and the boys sort of figured out how they were connected, but they hadn’t gotten that far with you yet. 

Julie made an attempt one time to suggest that maybe it was because you were so close with Luke ever since you guys met, the connection just helped you see all of them, but you chose to deny that theory. Especially when Julie threw the word feelings into the mix. Julie knew all too well about your “little”crush on the lead guitarist. There was no doubt that she caught on to it right away when the pair first met and hit off right away. From there, she proceeded to question you about it once they went back to her room. Of course you denied, denied, denied, but after awhile you finally gave in and agreed to your best friend’s observation. Julie saw all the looks that you two exchanged and she knew very well about the boys talking about you here and there. It was just a matter of time until one of you finally broke and admitted your stupid feelings for one another.

“Hey..Y/n?” The cautious voice made you glance up from your computer, first looking at Julie thinking it was her who called your name but then turning your head to the boys who were glancing at you with quizzical looks. 

“Yeah?” You ask glancing at Luke since he was the one who spoke up. You watch as the boys exchange a glance with one another and you push your eyebrow up in confusion. You meet eyes with Julie for a moment who was now looking between the boys and you just as confused as you were. 

“We have a question.” 

“Well, Luke does, but we’re curious too.” Alex cut in before you could respond. You chuckle slightly at their visible nervousness about what they wanted to ask. 

“Okay, shoot.” You gave them your full attention, pushing your computer screen down and a small smile sat content on your lips. Julie also gave them her full attention too, because she was equally as curious as to what they could possibly be asking you.

“What..what does love languages mean? We heard you and Julie talking about it yesterday..” Luke’s asks softly. Oh. That was what they were asking..Your face goes a little red at the thought of them hearing your conversation yesterday since it started out as band schedule and then led into your crush per usual. You glanced to Julie for help who only shook her head with a quick shrug.

“They asked you, not me. Take it away, sister.” Julie laughed and your face went even redder. It wasn’t an inappropriate question or anything, you just didn’t really know how to describe it. Or because it meant talking about feelings and relationships which was something you didn't really want to get into with them, especially Luke. 

“Uhh.. well.. I guess it’s a certain way somebody likes to express their love for someone. There’s different types of love languages like um, touch, words, gifts, spending time with that person, and doing nice things I guess..” You trail off slightly while scratching the back of your head, feeling a little flustered. 

“What do you think my love language is?” Alex asks excitedly, not really to you but just to anyone who would answer him. 

“I see yours being affirming words or something like spending time with them. You always love it when someone compliments you and reassures you if you’re having too much anxiety about something.” Julie cuts in with a smile and Alex points to her to say she was correct. Julie chuckles and you do too. 

“Reggie, yours would definitely be gifts or like spending time with people. You always like to hang around Ray and stuff.” You say glancing at Reggie who smiles warmly at your statement. 

“What about me?” You met eyes with Luke who was softly looking at you. You avoided Julie’s burning gaze into your head and Alex and Reggie’s small smirks as they waited for you to answer. You flushed again, looking to Julie for help who only shrugged. They both knew you knew the answer, that was what you guys had been talking about yesterday. 

“I’m..I’m not really sure..” You lied and you hated the small hint of disappointment in Luke’s eyes. You quickly looked away and started to reopen your laptop.

“Hey, I’m hungry, I’m gonna grab some snacks. Y/n do you wanna come with?” Julie asks making an escape for you to avoid the now awkward tension in the room.

“Yeah. Yeah.” You were quickly nodding your head and jumping up from your laptop. You didn’t even wait for Julie as you made a beeline for the garage doors and pushed them open, hurrying up the pathway to Julie’s house. 

Julie exchanged a knowing glance with the boys, reading Alex and Reggie’s glances before following after you saying you’d be back in a minute. You were pacing around on the patio when Julie finally got to you. She raised her eyebrows slightly trying to read your thoughts. 

“Y/n, why did you lie? That could have been the perfect opportunity to tell him how you feel.” Julie says and you shoot her a small glare. 

“Julie, he doesn’t like me like that. I just didn't want to embarrass myself but I guess I embarrassed myself even more by saying nothing.” You admit, slowing your pacing to look Julie in the eye. She lets out a small laugh.

“I don’t think you embarrassed yourself. You were just flustered which is understandable, but I say go for it. You never know what can happen. The Y/n I know doesn’t back down from a challenge either.” Julie puts a comforting arm on your shoulder and you were thankful for it. You squeeze her hand in response.

“Thanks. I don’t know, I guess I’ve just never felt this way about someone before..” You trail off and Julie squeezes your shoulder even tighter,

“Look, I get it, it’s scary, but you can do it. Think of this as me encouraging you to talk to him like you did for me and Nick. Just go for it. Have some confidence.” Julie winked at you and you chuckle at her actions. 

“There’s the Y/n I know. Now come on, we still need to get snacks. I gotta make my lie somewhat believable.” Julie nudged your side before making her way inside as you followed after he with a laugh. 

The two of you walk back into the garage a few moments later where the boys met your glances. Luke was now moved onto your spot on the couch while Alex and Reggie hung around by the piano still. You rolled your eyes that Luke took your spot but at least he was gracious enough to move your computer. You walked over to him where he smirked as you made an attempt to move him out of the way. 

“Get out of my spot.” You tease trying to move Luke out of the way again but he didn’t budge and instead kept holding that smirk on his lips. You rolled your eyes so you instead took a seat beside him and grabbed your laptop from the coffee table. 

“I’ll move if you tell me what you think my love language is.” Luke says and you quickly met his eyes. You glanced at Alex, Reggie, and Julie for a moment where they only shrugged. You huffed under her breath knowing you had no way out of this now. 

“I don’t know.” You say simply trying to get off of the topic but Luke kept pushing. He leaned in closer towards you and you could feel his breath on your neck. 

“I think you do..” Luke says and you meet his gaze again. You purse your lips together before glancing back at your computer for a moment. 

“Touch.” You say plainly and simply. You refused to meet Luke’s eyes as you furthered your answer, “I always noticing you touching Alex or Reggie in one way or another. Whether it’s something small or a hug or just a reason to touch them. It’s sweet.” You finish a small smile on your lips as you opened the tab you had been working on previously. A comfortable silence filled the room and you felt pretty content with your answer. It wasn't as bad or as embarrassing as you thought it would be. Luke was silent beside you and you were afraid to look at him so you just kept her gaze on your computer. 

You didn’t actually know if you could touch the boys, you just assumed you couldn’t because Julie was the only one with the real special powers. You had just been randomly gifted parts of them somehow. You all just walked around each other because the guys found it slightly weird to just walk through people they knew. Luke stared at you beside him and he wanted to at least try. If anything, his hand would just fall through like it did with everyone, so slowly and carefully, Luke reached out to turn your chin so you would look at him. The guys raised his eyebrow at his movements and then, he touched you. 

You felt his hand under your chin and you both did a double take. Luke quickly pulled his hand away in surprise that you actually felt that. The two of you exchanged a wondering and surprised glance. 

“We just touched..” 

[darth-does-stuff]

ok bit of that sweet sweet info on how they all met

ro and pat met in the 2nd grade

clung to each other like koalas and never let go lmao

people often thought they were dating or had crushes on each other, cause its like that even in elementary school and junior high

(id know sadly) ((people often thought me and one of my friends were dating/had crushes on each other and we werent and it was so annoying))

sometimes,,,especially in 5th grade,,, they just met up with one another and talked about how annoying crushes were,,,

cause like, people were always talking about crushes and how cute and ‘hot’ these people were

and they didnt understand

like, they still dont know the line between attraction and affection

(im not projecting shuddup)

so they just talked about how confusing it was,,,and they bonded over having no crushes, at least none that they knew of

and it was nice cause they could just vent knowing the other would have no judgement

im crying now its pure

ok dee and lo met in 4th grade

cause dee wasnt exactly popular cause of his heterochromia, and some even made fun of his freckles.

little kids can be mean man

and lo was pretty socially awkward

he just wasnt that outgoing, pretty introverted, and just didnt talk to people

cause, honestly? it was scary

so the two kinda bonded over being outcasts, as sad as that sounds

like they just noticed each other avoiding the other kids

and idk they just somehow interacted

and clicked

suddenly they werent lonely anymore

because they had a friend

one that understood them, understood loneliness, and was also a left brain boy-

so yeah its wholesome too

then vee and re met each other in 1st grade

they seemed like an unlikely pair

a chaos monger, even at age 6 (or whatever first grade age is i forgot lmao) and a kid frightened by many things

but remus was actually mindful of virgil’s fear and made him laugh

and virgil pulled remus out of trouble, but also understood him

so they just became friends

stuck up for one another, caused chaos together, and pulled each other out of trouble

jzkfjazfjkajf my heart

as for how each group came together to form one whole crew?

dee and ro met each other in 6th grade with theater club

they became friends due to their inner drama geek

and bonded

and, like people do, introduced their respective friends to each other

so those 4 formed a group

pat, ro, and dee actually bonded rather well, but since lo was never good at social interaction, he felt awkward

so one time in the middle of 6th grade, he just felt like it was all too much and he was just on the outskirts, he sat at a lunch table alone, where the three couldnt see him

re and v just notice this kid eatin lunch alone

like the gremlins they are, plop down and start making conversation

mostly remus, but virgil popped in sometimes

lo was startled, as one would be, but eventually warmed up to them, finding them actually pretty funny, and chaotic just like him

so he came out of his shell even more

eventually the other three find him, questioning as to why he didnt sit with them (more so concerned, not like jealous, because lo usually sits with them and they didnt want him to feel bad)

and lo just kinda mumbles he’ll tell them later

the three notice vee and re and are like ‘huh’

but then lunch bell rings and they gotta go to their respective classes

later lo explains his reasons, they explain that it wasnt the case and they were sorry for making him feel like that, while lo assures him that part of it was his own self’s fault, cause sometimes he overanalyzes stuff

but yeah v and re start slowly integrating themself into their group

and by the end of 6th grade

they were all a group

and you know what happened from there

chaos crew babey

[pluviophile-bookworm]

HSMTMTS 2x9: so dreaded, so exciting, 'Sword!' (yeah, I went there, I've been thinking about this scene - you know the one - since yesterday for some reason)

After two computer malfunctions and a very tough, very sleepless night, here I am with a third attempt to write this post. The universe is against me today. Is Mercury in retrograde or something? Ugh, I just want to get this over with already. And I haven't even managed to see half the episode yet. You better like this cursed post because it's taken me two hours at this point, and will probably take another to finish - and that is if nothing goes wrong this time. Please bear with me. This is my reaction to HSMTMTS 2x9, take 3. Let's hope and pray it's the last one.

I'm normally [unpopular opinion alert] a very spoiler-positive person (it's the combination of anxiety and ADHD and a bunch of other stuff, I suppose), but for this one I've been refraining from looking at the tag all morning, so by now I'm simply bursting with impatience. But before we dive in, I need to get some stuff off my chest.

Some pre-watch thoughts and feelings (let's see how well they will have aged by the end of the episode):

Seriously, what is with whoever writes this show? I know it's impossible, but I feel like they've been toying with my emotions specifically all season. Like:

Ah, so you were a Rini shipper last season? Great, now we'll make them obnoxious and borderline toxic to the point where you actually want them to break up, but then their old chemistry will be back just for the breakup scene so that you can cry your eyes out over the one couple you couldn't stand - even though you can't seem to relate to a single song from Sour, we'll make you feel like you do for a hot second. At least it will remind you that you loved Ricky.

So you say Redlyn own your heart and soul? Great, we'll make you dread something going wrong with them for a week straight, and mess up your sleep schedule beyond repair over it. You're welcome!

We heard you said Rodfini give you life? Perfect, how about a big Seblos fight? And would you like a side of questioning your choice to stan Carlos with that? Because what is life without a little anxiety, a bit of doubt of your ability to read people, and a pinch of existential dread, right?

Ah, so you claimed not to ship Portwell romantically, is that right? Brilliant, we'll make you ship them and then we'll use that to torture you, too.

You've been excited about ABF and Asher Angel guest-starring ever since they were announced? Magnificent! We'll make you hate ABF's character to the point where you can't even look at him, and we'll make you call him names you thought yourself incapable of uttering. And as for Asher, you'll be left waiting for him until the last third of the season, and then you'll dread the possibility of hating his character, too. Do you love us yet?

Oof! Right then, I've got that out of my system. Time to dive in.

Miss Jenn playing around with the backgrounds is, like, 90% of the people who had online school this year, and honestly, I love that for her.

Wait, why is Nini first on this call? Are they going through with the Rose thing? Cos like, the song is nice and all (and, might I add, much more to my taste than nearly all of Sour, don't @ me), but if they use it, it will get them disqualified. They’ve been told that! Gosh, please let me be wrong about this.

We get it, Carlito, rich and fancy and over-the-top is kind of your thing, but have you stopped for a second to think about how others will feel about this? Especially Seb, whom you claim to care about. Seriously, though, I love Carlos and would not hesitate to die for him, but I’m getting the feeling that, unlike my other favourite (you know the one), he wouldn’t do the same for me. Oh well, he’ll figure it out. He’s just a kid. Give him time.

Wait, Milky White? Is that an Into the Woods reference I smell? Cool! If I had a cow, I’d totally name her Milky White (or Gertrude, but don’t ask me why). I just hope they don’t have to, like, take her to the market and exchange her for magic beans, if you catch my drift.

Ahhhhh, Caswell cousins content! We love to see it!

‘You guys are watching, like, old old movies’ WTH, Nini (or is it Nina)? Scary Movie is literally younger than me. But what do you know about it, you 21st-century baby! Ugh, I don’t know why I’m being so hostile today... must be the lack of sleep. Hope it doesn’t influence my reactions to the episode so dramatically as to make me forget how much I love this series. Because I do.

Yay! Big Red is here! I can finally smile. And did Ash just say they’re soulmates? Because yes they are! Ahhh my heart is going to explode.

‘Nini, have you heard from [Ricky]?’ Yikes, awkward... but of course, Big Red can be counted on to save the day here, too.

Ok, so that was a cool cold open. Time for some nice in-person scenes, though. I did not spend all of three semesters doing online school just to have the characters of my favourite series do the same.

Wow, Gina is really embracing that French accent thing! And I really don’t want to think about, erm, ‘Napoleon over here’ right now, but I really think the fact that she’s doing it better than him will be another piece of evidence towards my theory of fake-French!Antoine... ugh, I said his name. Oh well. Back to Gina. Too bad the French thing didn’t work out for her.

Ahhhh, Portwell with Ash in the background! And Ash is going to paint EJ’s nails! I feel like he’s going to end up loving that, despite what he says right now. But seriously, I just love how comfortable these two are with each other. Can you blame me now for shipping them as friends? Well, I mean, it’s obvious they will be more than friends, and somehow, despite the amatonormativity of it all, I’m here for it.

Wait, was that Asher? That was Asher, I’m 100% sure of it. And Gina said ‘a sign’ and then looked at him, even from the back... what am I supposed to think and feel here? I’m confused. Moving on.

Ahh, poor Ricky being a burrito... good thing that breakup scene last time reminded me that I love him, because the entirety of the season before that was very good at making me forget that.

Wait, did she say ‘the Bean’? As in, that Bean? The infamous Bean? LOL.

‘So the only time you two talk to each other is to gossip about me’ Boy, did I feel that. I once got my hands on my dad’s mobile and I... kind of went through his texts with mum. Yep, all about me and my brother. At this point I feel like they’re only together because of us. But this is getting too personal. I’m here about the episode, not to rant about my family. Moving on.

Yikes, looks like Nini’s got writer’s block all over again. Am I supposed to feel sorry for her? Because I kind of don’t. I mean, no hate towards her, none at all, but that entire scene just felt awkward and unnecessary. And not just because it’s her first time going live. That I can understand. What I don’t understand is why the writers can’t seem to do anything creative and interesting with Nini. Olivia is being wasted there. Idk, that’s just how I feel. Again, no hate.

Ahhhhh it’s Asher! And well, he’s not Jonah, but I kind of really like him as Jack. I wonder if that will last.

So is it just me, or is anyone else not quite sure how to feel about Ricky’s mum? I mean, their interactions seem kind of awkward and strained, but that’s how it’s supposed to be given their recent history, and yet something just doesn’t sit quite right with me.

‘You there, Muse? It’s me, Nini!’ Ah, so it’s Nini again? I didn’t get the memo. Gosh, this episode is kind of really underwhelming. The most exciting thing so far (but not nearly as exciting in practice as it was in theory) – Asher and Sofia’s on-screen reunion. The second most exciting thing? The thought of Ash painting EJ’s nails. Everything else? Kind of ‘whatever’. Is this what I tossed and turned about all night? Totally not worth it. This episode better get, like, 300% better right this instant. It’s just not worth all the frustration and excitement and dread so far.

Looks like my prayers from just now have been heard! That improv scene was hilarious! Guess it was lucky that Miss Jenn had them do improv before this moment. But I need to know more of Jack’s backstory now.

Ok, so that was awkward! So Kourtney is talking to Howie again, I guess. And I guess I know now what Carlos did that was all public and no subtle. Still, what’s wrong with posting photos from your holiday? Guess I don’t exactly know yet what Carlos did to piss the others off so much.

Great, now I’m tempted to google butterfly faces. Good thing I’m not eating anymore. *** Ughhhhh this was a mistake! Please don’t ever look a butterfly in the face if you want to stay sane. Don’t be like me.

Ahhh the Duke sweater! ‘Is that your boyfriend’s?’ Well, not quite yet, it’s not... *screams in Portwell*

Oh, now we’re talking! But seriously, Ricky? The ‘my friends think’ card? Why don’t you just say ‘I think’? It’s clearly something you’ve thought about a lot. I feel like I’m going to love this scene or cry over it or both.

Ooh, therapy. It’s not just... basically the entire fandom... who says it now. Please tell me that means Ricky will be going to therapy at some point. Says the girl who is currently firmly refusing to go to therapy in favour of hyperfixating on HSMTMTS and getting back into the good old practice of having imaginary friends... yeah, I’m one to talk.

My, my, my! Seb has really had it now. I mean, it was about time, but... not quite like this. My heart is starting to do some weird stuff, I can feel it. I might need to lie down.

Ok, so as much as I envy North High for getting to see so many shows on BWay – basically living out my dream – stalking East High on Instagram and being shady about them taking a well-deserved break... just goes beyond all limits. I mean, if you’re so into Broadway shows, you should know as well as I do what happened the last time a certain founding father did not take a break. Maybe you’re the ones in need of a break here.

Nini on the call with the Caswell cousins, though... ‘I’m obsessed with both of you’ – first relatable thing she’s said or done all season. And EJ playing with old toys is pure gold.

Oh, so Jack’s dad is a pilot. Makes sense, I guess. I’m kind of intrigued by this guy. Just as long as he doesn’t try to come between Portwell before they’ve had the chance to happen, you know...

Ashlyn might need to stop swooning over Nini’s songwriting or Big Red might get jealous... I mean, I would not have pinned him as the jealous type before 2x7, but ever since then... I guess insecure + dating a girl like Ash = the jealous type. And although that looks good on him, I’d bet anything it doesn’t feel particularly pleasant on his side. So... wait, why am I talking about Big Red? He hasn’t even got anything to do with the scene at hand. But then again, there’s been so little Big Red content in this episode that I seem to be trying to make up for it. Still. Stay focused.

Ooh, so Big Red did edit that video! Is there anything my boy can’t do? Ok, now I feel like he’s even more criminally underappreciated than he was before. But let’s look at the video. I’m curious to see the whole thing because that sneak peek from yesterday simply hasn’t been enough.

That was... really, really cool! I love how they took the ‘when they go low, we go high’ line from last time and run with it. Now if only they were putting as much effort into BATB... North High wouldn’t know what hit them.

Hmmmm... I guess Gina and Jack could be what I originally wanted Portwell to be... really cool friends. Unless it’s one of those ‘airport magic’ things. Oh well. It probably is. Was that all we’re seeing of Asher here? I did not wait 2/3 of the season for this. Though it was nice.

Ooh, Ricky’s solo song... why is there more Rini chemistry in this song than there was in all the season? Not counting the breakup scene, of course. Also, I feel like it’s just as much about him and his mum as it is about Nini. Some say music is the best therapy. I think they might be right. And no, I’m not crying. You are.

The granola bar, though... this episode might have been very underwhelming in the first half, but... it delivered in the Portwell front, and the music was *chef’s kiss*, so I’m willing to let it slide that the advertised Seblos ‘big fight’ was not touched upon nearly enough. Maybe next week...

Ok, now that we’re done watching the episode, let’s see how my feelings from the beginning have aged:

The Rini breakup: apparently, along with reminding me that I love Ricky, it has rendered me unable to look at Nini. What’s up with that? If this is some sort of tactic along the lines of ‘Olivia might be leaving the show so we’re making you hate her character so that you won’t miss her’, it’s not really working. Because I don’t want to hate Nini. Believe me, I don’t.

Redlyn: ok, so there’s nothing wrong with them whatsoever - we even got a ‘soulmates’, which I loved - but first they’re being swept under the rug, and then the antis come at us with that ‘their relationship is underdeveloped’ nonsense. Individually, though, I liked them in this episode (even if there was a significant shortage of Big Red), and Ashlyn collaborating with Nini again was cool, but... what I really wanted to see was her painting EJ’s nails. Did she even get the chance to actually do it? Maybe next week.

Seblos: I’m still failing to understand exactly what Seb thinks Carlos did wrong (please enlighten me if you did catch that, I’m kind of slow), but he (Seb) does have reasons to be mad at him (Carlos)... and at other people, too. Still, if you want to have a fight between two people in a relationship, you could do much better than whatever this episode was. Maybe next week. I notice I’m saying that a lot. Guess I’m putting a lot of hopes on 2x10. I just pray it doesn’t disappoint.

Portwell: boy, am I happy that my frustration on this front did not age well! What I mean is, apparently they’ve decided to bless us, not torture us for once. Even a rather disappointing episode like this one had to have some sort of silver lining. And Portwell is it.

Asher as Jack: well, luckily I didn’t hate him, but... it’s kind of the opposite problem. I loved him and now they’re taking him away from me. Guess I just can’t win here. Oh well. At least he didn’t have the screen time to get in between Portwell...

All in all: 2x10, my hopes and prayers are with you!

[ga-yuu]

Ikemen Genjiden ‘Sweet Drunk tonight’ story event- Yoshitsune route summary

P.S: MC and Yoshitsune haven’t fallen in love yet....this event is before Yoshitsune’s main story.

Story starts by showing an open field where MC, I think she is resting, IDK. Anyways, she was on a three-day workshop with another doctor, so she could learn about some rare medicine or something. It was Yoritomo's suggestion to do so. Yoritomo also asked her if she needed a guard to be by her side, to 'protect' her. But she refused the offer. She was thinking of what gift she should buy for him when she returns, when she heard some footsteps behind her. Several men came towards her and starts to bully her. Actually they were trying to take her somewhere so they could assault her. MC tried to find someone who could help when suddenly they hear a voice saying them to get out of the way. When they all look at the direction from which the voice came, it was Yoshitsune. Those men tried to challenge Yoshitsune but he gave a threatening glare which was enough for those men to run away.

After those men ran away, Yoshitsune and MC looks at each other. MC starts to remember some scenes in the prologue when she first met Yoshitsune. She starts to think that since she is a threat to him because she made a contract with an ayakashi, he might kill her. Yoshitsune still kept his hand on his sword and kept looking at her without saying anything. Then they hear someone calling out to them. Yoshitsune thought there were more of those men and clutched his sword, but it was the villagers. The villagers told them that they saw what happened and that those men were actually thieves who always causes problems in their village. They asked both Yoshitsune and MC if they are staying here in the village for the night. Yoshitsune looks up and realizes that it's going to be night soon and then looked at MC. He tells her that he is going to rent a room for the night and orders her to come with him. MC was about to reject the offer thinking that his plan will be to kill her once they enter the room, but Yoshitsune quickly cut her off saying that he wouldn't take 'no' for an answer. MC was tries hard to think what was going on in his mind since she can't read his face but eventually agrees because she has no other choice.

Once they both entered their room, MC was scared and sat far away from him. He asks her what she was doing here in this village and tells her not to lie. MC didn’t have a reason to lie so she just told the truth. After hearing her story, Yoshitsune settles down saying that he will not kill her today. MC asks the same question back to him and he answers that he is here to use the hot springs. She asks if he is sick or anything and he replies that he has a wound to be recovered. Some samurais tried to attack Hiraizumi and he fought them, it was an injury from that time. Since he was the only one passing by then he fought them.MC asks him why didn’t he use his ayakhasi powers, because he can use his wind blades to kill all enemies at one go without even getting injured. Yoshitsune says that there were small number of people watching them so he didn’t want to disturb their work. Hearing his words, MC can clearly see how much the people of Hiraizumi means to him. Yoshitsune continues his story, where he says that those samurais were small in number so he finished their business quickly even before his vassals came for helping him. He also tells her that he didn’t realize he was injured because he didn’t feel the pain. MC asks if he was serious and Yoshitsune says that she sounds just like Benkei.  He tells her that it was not a big deal, and Benkei scolds him all the time. This hot springs trip was only to reassure Benkei. Even Yoichi told him that he could use some break. MC starts to understand his deep bond with his vassals and starts to think that he might not be scary according to what the other people say about him. 

Next she asks why she is brought here with him and he tells her that, those men have already seen MC’s face and there might be a chance that she will be attacked again if he left her alone. She asks why because they are enemies and he--

Y: “Because I’m planning to kill you on the battlefield. I have no intention of letting you die by the roadside today because of I incurred the hatred of men.”

Y: “we can sleep under the same roof. By tonight, I’ll be able to get rid of all my sins and get out of here.”

MC: “ are you.....going to kill those men tonight?”

Y: “Yes, I’ll find and destroy these men tonight.”

Out of curiosity she asks why he is putting himself in danger for a village that does not belong to him .

Y: “Those men’s fate is also brought about by his fate. Like you, the villagers may become embroiled in the scandal.” (basically he wants to say that, he wants to kill those men so no more problem like this happens anywhere)

Hearing his serious words and looking at his icy cold glare, MC couldn’t find out which is the real Yoshitsune. Whether he is the kind person that his people and vassals cherish or the cold blooded demon who is sitting in front of her.

MC: “ um, do you really have to kill them?”

Y:(0_0)” ........”

MC: “even if these men are criminals, there might be an another way. Like catching them alive and handing them over to the villagers.”

Y: “That’s not wise.Those men are guilty for a huge crime.”

MC: “but, what’s good in taking someone’s life? I will do everything I can to help you. So please, lets not kill them.”

Yoshitsune tells her not to be naive and not to take risk. But MC clutched her fists and looked straight at him saying that she is a doctor and as a doctor she can’t see people dying even if they are good or bad. And to why she is cooperating with Yoshitsune to catch those criminals is because, he saved her despite having an injury. After saying all this Yoshitsune’s reaction was like--

Y:(0_0)

MC after hearing the villager’s stories about what those men did to them, she really wanted to do something for the villagers. MC felt the temperature in the room starts to warm up and when she looked at Yoshitsune’s face, she could see that he didn’t have that icy glare now.

Y: “.....you do speak a lot, quite straightforward.”

Then he stood up and took his sword and looked down at her. He asks, since she decided to cooperate with him, if she is scared. MC told the truth that she is but tonight she decides to believe in Yoshitsune. They come up with a proper plan in how to catch them to take them by surprise. MC decides to take the role of bringing those men out in the open so Yoshitsune can attack them. Suddenly she felt a warm hand touching her cheeks. When she looks up--

Y: “ let’s fight together, MC.”

MC: “yes!”

Y: “You said you will believe me for the night, so I’ll protect you tonight no matter what. Even if we return to being enemies tomorrow.”

That night, MC and Yoshitsune got many info about those men from the villagers. The villagers were happy that they were helping them out. According to them, the reached the place were those men usually gather. MC found Yoshitsune in deep thought and questions him. He tells her that the villagers decided to reward them with wine as a gratitude for helping them out. Yoshitsune somehow feels funny about the thought of drinking with his enemy but before he could say something they reached the cabin where those men were hiding.

After finding them, things went according to their plan, where MC brought those men to the place where Yoshitsune told her to and those men didn’t see her face so they didn’t recognize it was MC. Yoshitsune defeats them and their hands and feet where tied. Yoshitsune ensures if MC is fine and she reassures him that she is. She could see a relief expression on his face. MC was happy that he kept his word about protecting her tonight and that raised the warm feeling inside her heart.

MC: “...you worked hard.”

Y:*smiles* “yeah, you too...”

Seeing a brief smile on his face for a second, she couldn’t help but her heart started to beat fasts.

Y: “I’m glad they are giving us alcohol.”

MC: “Why?”

Y:*smiles under the moonlight* “MC, I can talk to you bit more.”

Premium end:

Both of them return to their room where, the villagers give them their rewards- wine and some food. Those villagers thanked them once again for their help but Yoshitsune told them that they just did what they could. The villagers tells them to enjoy and leaves the room. Yoshitsune and MC were both surprised to see the food that they prepared, it was some new kind of dishes they haven’t seen before. Also the alcohol was special one because it was specially prepared by the villagers. Both of them poured liquor in each other’s glass. MC somehow feels this ‘pouring sake for the enemy’ thing awkward, and took a quick glance at Yoshitsune. Seeing his beautiful face and eye lashes lowered, she couldn’t help but admire how beautiful he looks. When she realized how much her heart was beating at that moment, she starts feeling nervous. However Yoshitsune started talking to break the awkwardness between them. He smiles,tells her not to be shy and its normal to pour sake for each other. She relaxes and they both started drinking the sake. While drinking the delicious sake, Yoshitsune tells her that he will be leaving tonight. MC, after hearing that, somehow felt lonely. Is because they joint hands together to defeat those men or something else, she don’t know.

MC: “Thank you again for today..”

Y: *smiles* “you don’t have to thank me.”

MC: “why?”

Y: “we fought together and they thanked you for it. That is more than enough for me.”

MC realizes that Yoshitsune is a type of person who likes to do things without anyone knowing and also doesn’t like to be thanked. MC couldn’t really figure out what was in his heart because his face completely lacks expression and his eyes were quite. MC realized that she was drunk and was staring at him.

MC: “I don’t know what to say....but I think you are a reckless person.”

Y: “how so?”

MC: “you don’t like to be hurt nor thanked. Its like you’re throwing yourself away like breathing.”

Y: “......”

Y: “this is how I live.”

MC starts to feel sad about what he is saying about himself. She got curious about what kind of lifestyle did he lived till now. He childhood and also his bond with Kurama, since he has known Yoshitsune for a long time.

Y: “why do you have that look?”

MC: “what look?”

Y:*comes closer* “you look sad.”

Yoshitsune’s face was so close enough for her to touch, but she instantly looked away. She starts to feel shy and moves away from him quickly.

Y: “why are you running? It gives me an animal instinct to chase you.”

MC: “animal? but Lord Yoshitsune....is a human right?”

Y: “Men can also be animals. If I say more.....even ayakashi is so.”

Y: “But sure humans sure are more complicated.”

Y:*sad face* “Even though they are the same race, they are divided into enemies and allies to kill and compete with each other.”

MC starts getting frustrated seeing his sad face and tells him to do something else than simply fighting. He says that he has nothing else to do other than fighting to his death, with an expressionless face. Then he smiles and tells her that he never say things like this to anyone else. MC realizes that he is again putting a lid on his feelings, and that she is not going to hear anymore from him. But she still tells him that he is a kind person according to her from looking at today’s events and she doesn’t want ‘sad things’ like this coming from his mouth. She tells him to value his life and not to throw away like its nothing. Yoshitsune gave a surprised look, with his beautiful round eyes wide open but then he smiles at her.

Y: “.....you’re beautiful”

He gently touches her cheeks.

Y: “I don’t why, but I want to touch you.”

And their sweet night starts which will be a secret only among them. Not to forget this story is before they released Yoshitsune’s story and the epilogue is full of fluff

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Benkei route

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HURT/COMFORT EXCHANGE PROMPTS:

This is a very sketchy list of prompts for the Hurt/Comfort exchange. Feel free to ignore/adapt these as you choose. My TPP prompts are in the signup itself, not in this letter; this just has Tolkien prompts. My Russingon prompts are all grouped together despite being split into two different requests in the signup. See my signup for DNWs/general likes/canon preferences.

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Fingon | Findekáno/Maedhros | Maitimo (hurt Maedhros) Fingon | Findekáno/Maedhros | Maitimo (hurt Fingon) Fingon | Findekáno/Maedhros | Maitimo (both hurt) the OTP <3 I just love em. Most of these are going to be hurt Maedhros, but hurt Fingon is ALSO very good, I love it when the expected dynamic is inverted. But the expected dynamic is expected because it’s VERY GOOD CONTENT, so go with that if you want to!!

Character discovers their friends have been defending them behind their back: Maedhros discovers Fingon has been fighting his battles for him, has mixed feelings about this

Character A reassures Character B they are still loved: this is the GOOD SHIT. fingon reassuring Mae he is still loved post-Thang ;-;

Experiencing Another's Pain Through Psychic Bond, Soul bond means A can feel B's pain even when B is trying to hide it: could work either way, but probably Mae having a flashback to Angband or his aches and pains getting to him, and Fingon can tell even when he tries to hide it

Body worship focusing on the scars and aftermath of trauma: Finno still finding Mae extremely sexy post-Thang

Careful Sex Because One Partner Is Injured/Ill: post-Thang first time? or maybe Fingon gets injured in a minor battle but is still very horny, lol

Carrying sick/hurt/exhausted character to bed: tiny but buff finno carrying his giant husband to bed!!!

Character A hurts Character B (at their request) during sex but Character A immediately regrets it: Fingon hurts Maedhros at Mae’s request, immediately regrets it - basically kink/boundary negotiation

Masochistic sub asks for more pain than they really want: the inverse of the above prompt

Character A is in despair and Character B offers hope: this is literally The Russingon Dynamic, i love it SO much!! bonus points if Finno literally shares his hope/estel with Maedhros through their soul bond

Character A made to live through/experience B's worst memory: more soul bond angst :)) Finno reliving one of Mae’s worst moments? or Mae realizing Just How Bad the Ice was?

Past Rape Accidental Reveal - Consensual Sex Causes Flashbacks To Previous Rape, Character A reveals they know something B has tried to hide and reassures B that it changes nothing: Maedhros tries to hide something that happened to him in Angband (probably sexual abuse but it could be something else), Finno had already figured it out and it didn’t mean change how he felt about Mae, but it still really bothered Mae - now Finno realizes how much it’s bothering Mae, and reassures him

Character believes they're (turning into) a monster: post-Thang orc Mae??? 👀

Character didn't want to be brought back to life: Mae committed himself to Everlasting Darkness, thought he was beyond forgiveness/redemption, killed himself so he would Cease To Be - but now he’s suddenly reborn and has to deal with that, with Finno’s help of course

Hurt A expects B to take advantage of them. Is stunned when B doesn't, Character expects to be punished but is unexpectedly comforted instead: post-Thang Mae in a fucked up mental state expects Finno to punish him for some minor indiscretion, but Finno comforts instead

Past Rape Accidental Reveal - Consensual Sex Causes Flashbacks To Previous Rape, panic attack during the first time they try to have sex after rape, Dissociating During Sex, Consensual Sex Causes Flashbacks To Previous Trauma, Character Should Safeword But Doesn't, Character has no sense of their own boundaries: post-Thang Mae struggling to understand consent and dealing with sexual trauma ;-;

Character increasingly bothered that their love interest walks so willingly into danger: Mae has a not-so-subtle death wish, Finno gets upset that he cares so little about himself

Character used to past traumatic sexual experiences is confused by genuinely loving partner: post-Thang Mae with Fingon. in this case, bonus points for them getting together for the first time AFTER Angband, so Mae only has bad sexual experiences before this...

Characters live together while one recovers from hurt: Maedhros lingers by Fingon’s side for longer than he really /needs/ to post-Thang

Coping with past rape through sex: this one probably makes more sense if they were already together before Angband, Mae learning to enjoy sex with Fingon again. Maybe Finno expects that Mae will only want to be on top given what happened in Angband, but actually Sauron liked to force Mae to be the top, so he prefers bottoming now?

dealing with grief by fucking: post-Bragollach Fingon is grieving but doesn’t want to think about it so he fucks his husband instead

edgeplay due to thin line between kink and trigger: post-Thang Maedhros figuring out his boundaries

Slow Burn - Soulbonding is the only way for A to save seriously injured B's life, healing energy transfer accidental soulbond: immediately post-Thang, Maedhros is bleeding out and Fingon soulbonds with him to save his life. could be that they were pining but not together before this, OR that they had a messy breakup and this comes at a really awkward stage in their relationship but now they’re basically married

Humor as way of dealing with pain/trauma: Mae with gallows humor that makes everyone uncomfortable...except for Fingon, who Gets It

Impact Play - inflicting pain until character breaks down in much-needed emotional catharsis: Maedhros deserves to get spanked until he can cry :)

just because they're immortal doesn't mean they can't suffer: HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA this is just. THE ENTIRE SILM. ESPECIALLY these two.

kink(s) as coping mechanism: Mae has now figured out what his boundaries are, and Finno has too, and now instead of it being scary they can just enjoy tying Mae up and hitting him and Finno being possessive

Loyal character loses object of their devotion; doesn't know what to do with their life now: fealty kink!!!! but post-Nirn :)))))))

Mutual pining during slow recovery from near-fatal injury: Russingon getting together post-Thang

Physically Injured Character Comforting Emotionally Distressed Character: Fingon is extremely upset about having cut Mae’s hand off, Mae comforts him

Slow gentle hesitant touches to help character who's used to rough or falsely-gentle touches: Finno helping Mae relearn to enjoy touch

Touch-Starved - Only seeks out touch from one trusted person: no one dares touch the infamously stoic Lord of Himring...except for Fingon, who drapes himself all over him whenever he visits...is Lord Maedhros just tolerating the prince for political reasons? but wait...is he leaning into the touch???

Touch-Starved Character Having Overwhelming Tender Long Foreplay First Time Sex: first time post-Thang, Fingon is incredibly gentle and loving which is really overwhelming for Mae (in a good way)

Accidental arousal while cuddling for comfort: mutual pining (probably in Valinor)

Being bathed while mutually pining: post-Thang pre-relationship, Finno is the only one Mae trusts to bathe him

Character A Confesses Feelings Because They Think Character B is Unconscious: Finno thinks Mae is unconscious post-Thang? OR recovery period time, they’re sharing a bed bc Finno passed out exhausted from a long day of tending to Mae and Mae confesses when he thinks Finno is asleep

Character A thinks they are unworthy of Character B: Maedhros thinks he’s not good enough for Fingon - bonus points if this is BEFORE Angband, and he’s always had self-worth issues

Character(s) ashamed of their sexual desires: very similar to the above, Maedhros has always had messed up ideas about what he Should Feel

Characters Are In Love But Duty Will Keep Them Apart Forever Until Something Makes Them Do It: idiots mutually pining <3 perhaps an arranged marriage situation??

Comforted with homemade meal: Mae’s love language is food, he makes something for hurt!Finno

Comforter tries to comfort with a homemade meal. It doesn't end well: Mae’s love language is food, so when he needs comfort Finno tries to make something for him, but Finno is a terrible cook

Comforter stunned by how much comfortee trusts them: Finno doesn’t understand how Maedhros can still love him after he cut Mae’s hand off

Comforting character is in denial about attraction to other character: MUTUAL. PINING. and repressed Mae :))

Delirious hurt character & comforter are hiding their relationship from other people present: post-Thang married-in-Valinor, Finno shows up with Mae on eagleback and it’s very hard to keep their relationship a secret when they’re upset like this and Mae is delirious with pain

Estranged Characters - Injured A shows Up on B's doorstep Saying "I didn't know where else to go": This would probably be some sort of AU (like a modern AU, idk) where Russingon broke up ages ago but suddenly Mae shows up on Finno’s doorstep and they have a long and awkward getting-back-together process :’)

Fate tries to keep them apart: is this not just canon? :(

Gentle Kissing: SOFT BOYS PLS

Hair Brushing: hair kink!!!!!

A has to listen to loved one B being slandered/insulted/mocked: Finno has to listen to people shittalking his husband, he can only hold it in so long before he goes off on them

pining character thinks object of their affection loves someone else, Nervous about confessing love - Misunderstands and thinks it's for someone else: GOD TIER MISCOMMUNICATION TROPE, i love this shit, especially if it’s Mae who messes up so bad Finno misinterprets and Mae is usually very eloquent but NOT WHEN IT COMES TO THIS

Pining character reveals their feelings while not quite lucid (hurt/drunk/etc.): a young drunk Finno confesses to Mae in Valinor? Mae confesses to Finno for the first time in the midst of his haze of pain post-Thang?

A protects B despite damage to their own reputation: Finno will stand up for Maedhros NO MATTER WHAT

Refusing to Leave Other Character's Side: Maedhros and Fingon stick together no matter what - possibly an AU where things go a bit better?

A rejects B despite the pining being mutual due to insecurity/outside circumstances: this is another EXCELLENT trope for these two, especially in mutual pining in Valinor - Maitimo wants Finno very badly but is convinced the politics of it will make it impossible, Finno keeps trying anyway until finally Mae loses his resolve

Secret Relationship Revealed - Consequences Are Disastrous/Deadly: ...and maybe Mae was RIGHT and when they get found out All Hell Breaks Loose

Committing a moral wrong for the sake of other character: Finno rushing into save Maedhros at Alqualondë :)))) and knowing he’d do it again even if he understood what was going on......

Curse Breaking: TRUE LOVE DEFEATS THE OATH

Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies doesn't mean Nobody Hurt: Finno survives the Nirn...at a Cost

Falling Asleep As A Sign Of Trust: Maedhros has trouble sleeping, but he can relax around Finno ;-;

Character has to learn new way of fighting following injury: Finno helping Mae to learn to fight with his left hand

Character Can Never Make Up For Murder: Maedhros and Fingon both grappling with being Kinslayers

Hurt character who believes they don’t deserve comfort begins to accept they do and accepts comfort: this is EVERYTHING i want,, Maedhros learning to love himself!!!!! AHHHHHH

Pining A saves B's life at great cost to themself then hides it from them: pre-relationship, Finno saves Mae from Thangorodrim but keeps nobly pining all on his lonesome despite Maedhros dropping every hint that he’s madly in love with Fingon

Sharing a bed with hurt character while mutually pining: delicious at any time, but especially if they’re sharing a bed during Mae’s recovery time post-Thang

Recovery from permanent loss of limb(s); love interest builds/brings a prosthetic for them: the Noldor are a crafty people, I bet you even Fingon was a bit of a smith! he makes a prosthetic for Mae :) OR he bugs Curufin to make one and delivers it to Mae

Waking from a happy dreamworld to a painful reality: soft fluffy Russingon.........except it was a dream and when Mae wakes up Finno is dead :)))))))))))

Waking up from nightmares while sharing a bed: Mae has a nightmare post-Thang, Finno comforts him

Helping hurt character to dress/undress: erotic undressing and scar reveals post-Thang? 👀

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Maedhros | Maitimo & Maglor | Makalaurë (both hurt) Maedhros | Maitimo & Sons of Fëanor (hurt Maedhros) Maedhros & Maglor & Elrond & Elros (hurt Maedhros & Maglor) Maedhros & Maglor & Elrond & Elros (hurt Elrond & Elros) I requested this with Kidnap Dads in mind, but there’s a few ideas I have for Maedhros + bros angst too :) Overall, please hurt Maedhros (and then comfort him) - even when E&E are the ones hurt, I imagine their guardians will be upset for them!

Anniversary of a traumatic experience: for Kidnap Dads, the anniversary of the attack on Sirion. for Mae + bros, anniversary of Fëanor’s death? or the Nírnaeth? or Mae’s capture? something like that.

Character discovers their friends have been defending them behind their back: shortly post-Thangorodrim, Mae discovers that his brothers have been defending him against people who no longer trust him because of his time in captivity

Character draws negative attention onto themself to protect another, Fighting to protect someone while injured yourself: Mae defending E&E from an outside threat!!

Character A reassures Character B they are still loved: Mae’s bros reassure him, or Mae and Mags reassure E&E

Memory issues make character forget details about their friends: post-Thangorodrim Mae with memory issues

Character draws negative attention onto themself to protect another, Character A claims they're Character B to save B from danger: Elrond or Elros pretend they are the other one so early-KD M&M will get mad at him instead of his brother (but M&M aren’t actually mad)

Character A is in despair and Character B offers hope: E&E & Maglor giving Maedhros hope in late-stage Beleriand!!!!

character A overhears sth that makes A think character B doesn't want/like A anymore (A is wrong): Maedhros overhears something that makes him think his brothers/the twins hate him?

Character A panics/overreacts over B's minor hurt/illness: M&M overreact to E&E’s minor ailment because elves don’t get sick but the twins are peredhil!

Character A sees Character B cry for the first time: E&E see Maedhros cry for the first time

Character A's parents disapprove of Character B: I know this is meant for like, romantic interests, but the image of E&E’s two sets of parents disapproving of each other is hilarious. Please don’t have either of them be Truly Awful Parents, but animosity/tension between them (much to E&E’s dismay) is excellent

Fix-it - Character survives canonical death, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies doesn't mean Nobody Hurt, Character expected to die but didn't and has no idea how to live anymore. Other helps & comforts: Maedhros lives AU!!!

Character isn't used to being loved and shown tenderness/affection: touch-starved Mae who hasn’t been properly loved since Fingon died ;-; (not for Maglor’s lack of trying but he also had a lot going on, and kids are better at getting through to Mae in any case)

Character taken prisoner; expects torture/humiliation; gets kind & honorable treatment: E&E expect the worst from M&M, but M&M immediately start being their dads

Character who can't offer much comfort does what little they can: Maedhros doing what he can to comfort E&E

Character who thinks they aren't well-liked is shown evidence that other people like them: E&E help Maedhros see how much the Fëanorian followers respect him

Character who's killed before comforts character forced to kill in self-defense: OH BOY this is a BIG OOF. I was specifically thinking of magical healing here, Maedhros and Maglor trying everything they can to keep Elrond and Elros from having to kill but then Elrond does have to kill something and he’s really beaten up about it, and Maedhros comforts him

Tolkien: Healing power blocked by killing: very similar to the above prompt - Maedhros used to be a healer but can’t anymore, still tries to teach Elrond; Elrond feels powerless because to heal he can’t fight

Characters know exactly how to hurt each other emotionally: Maglor and Maedhros being absolutely vicious to each other in KD era, E&E comfort them and get them to make up

Childhood Nightmare Turns Out To Be Very Real: E&E grew up hearing horror stories from Elwing about the Second Kinslaying, now it’s the Third Kinslaying

Comforted with homemade meal: Mae who loves to cook!!!! comfort food for the twins!! comfort food for his bros after an argument!!

Comforting Cuddle Piles: Mae is feeling down in Valinor and his bros all pile on top of him :’) or KD era would also be excellent

Curse Breaking: E&E are immune to curses, and help M&M defeat the Oath?

Family Feels - Fraught Sibling Relationship: This could go for any of Mae’s sibling relationships, but specifically early days KD era Mae and Maglor have been mean to each other for a long time since the Nirn, but now having the responsibility of E&E they have to work together again

Hostage Situations, Guilt-stricken character does good deeds to try and make up for past actions: Is this not M&M adopting E&E?

Hair Brushing: ELF HAIR TRADITIONS! bonus points if it’s different/not so important for humans/Sindar elves, but Valinorean elves like M&M place a huge emphasis on hair care

Having A Difficult Relationship With A Parental Figure: E&E looking back on their time with M&M and/or the abandonment they faced with Elwing and Eärendil (please no character bashing, but complicated feelings is good)

Hurt/sick character hides their own condition to allow less hurt/sick character to be treated: Maedhros hides his hurt so E&E can be taken care of first :)))

loss of voice: Maglor loses his voice, E&E & Maedhros care for him

music used to cause harm: Maglor teaching E&E songs of power!!!

musical healing: Maglor teaching Elrond magical/musical healing

Sibling unexpectedly cares/helps: Maglor expects no help with E&E from Maedhros, Maedhros immediately goes into dad mode anyway

Sleeping in the same bed because one character is too scared to sleep alone: E&E crawl into Mae’s bed after a nightmare when they usually go to Mags instead

Smaller/Weaker Character Tries to Shield Hurt Character With Their Body: M and/or M get hurt, E&E try to protect them despite being Baby

Unexpected Mercy - Character Who Believes They'll Be Tortured/Killed Begs Mercy For Another: Elrond begging M&M for Elros to be saved or vice versa

Traumatic discovery of biological parentage: this is the odd one out here, but it’s related I promise - Russingon baby Gil-galad realizes that Maedhros is his dad, is really upset by that, but E&E help him cope

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Finrod Felagund | Findaráto/Turgon of Gondolin (hurt Turgon) Aredhel & Turgon of Gondolin (hurt Turgon) These are mostly Turgoldo ship prompts, but there are a few sibling relationship ones too!

Aromantic character unsure how to comfort friend with relationship troubles: Aredhel having trouble comforting Turgon amidst his pre-marriage woes? Or even worse, her having trouble comforting him after Elenwë’s death

Pining after your best friend who just lost their significant other: FINROD @ TURGON

Anniversary of a traumatic experience: anniversary of Elenwë’s death :(

Accidental arousal while cuddling for comfort: Finrod and Turgon on the Ice, Finrod is Very Aware of his crush and is super embarrassed OR Turgon hates himself for getting aroused so soon after he lost Elenwë

after much pining & almost dying A (bloody & bruised) comes straight to B & kisses them in public: post-battle Turgon finally reciprocates Finrod’s love ;-;

Being Cared for by Their Unrequited Love Interest: Turgon being cared for by Finrod, he knows Finrod is in love with him and wishes he could reciprocate, OR Finrod thinks his love is unrequited but Turgon is really just horrible with feelings

Character A Confesses Feelings Because They Think Character B is Unconscious: I was thinking Finrod to Turgon here, but also the other way around would be 👀

Character A panics when B starts crying during/after first-time sex; B reassures/comforts A: Turgon gets very overwhelmed when losing his virginity? OR Turgon gets very overwhelmed (with guilt?) having sex for the first time after losing Elenwë? OR Finrod gets very overwhelmed because he never thought he’d actually have this with Turgon?

Survivor Guilt, Character blames self for what they went through: Turgon blaming himself for Elenwë’s death :))))

Character Finally gets a Hug: Turgon gets hugs despite trying to push people away ;-;

Character's lie has unintended terrible consequences on loved one: Turgon lies by omission about Aredhel’s death (he lets Fingon think she’s still alive)? Finrod pretends he’s over his crush on Turgon JUST when Turgon finally reciprocates?

Character(s) ashamed of their sexual desires: Turgon is massively repressed

Comfort focusing on little hurt because the big hurt is massive and unapproachable: Aredhel and/or Finrod dealing with some minor injury and not mentioning Elenwë’s death

Comforting character is in denial about attraction to other character: Turgon @ Finrod

Comforting someone who is dealing with grief and loss and has shut themselves off from everyone: Turgon is almost nonresponsive after Elenwë’s death, Finrod and Aredhel take turns caring for him and for Idril

Nearly losing someone reveals deeper feelings, First kiss after almost dying: Near-death experience leads Finrod to impulsively kiss Turgon!!

Hair Brushing: elf hair kink pleaaasseee, this is especially relevant to Finrod tbh

Trapped/Injured in a Cave-In, Snowed In - A gets hypothermia and pining B has to cuddle them back to health, Huddling For Warmth: on the Ice :))

Inexperienced Character is Afraid of Not Being Able to Sexually Please Experienced Partner: Turgon @ Finrod

Longing For Home: this is literally why Turgon built Gondolin to look like Tirion...probably Aredhel comforting him here

Losing beloved: Turgon losing Elenwë...and then maybe his reaction to losing Finrod too :(

Pining character reveals their feelings while not quite lucid (hurt/drunk/etc.): an injured Finrod blurts out his feelings for Turgon? a drunk Turgon confesses he loves Finrod? - either way they were Not Ready for that revelation

pining character thinks object of their affection loves someone else: Turgon misinterprets the situation with Bëor? Finrod bemoans his fate at Turgon and Elenwë’s wedding?

Typically stoic character breaks down and admits how ill they feel: Turgon keeps all his emotions locked up in his chest but he breaks down one day and Finrod and/or Aredhel are horrified at just how much he’s been repressing

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Gimli (Son of Glóin) & Legolas Greenleaf (hurt Legolas) Gimli (Son of Glóin) & Legolas Greenleaf (hurt Gimli) Gimli (Son of Glóin) & Legolas Greenleaf (both hurt) all Gigolas is good Gigolas, and you can quote me on that, but I nominated with the & symbol because my very favorite kind of Gigolas is queerplatonic Gigolas. would absolutely die of joy if you wrote that for me!

Character discovers their friends have been defending them behind their back: this is probably before they’re good friends - Gimli finds out Legolas has been defending him to elves or Legolas finds out Gimli has been defending him to some dwarves, basically “wait he really cares about me??”

Fighting to protect someone while injured yourself: battle buddies :)

A and B have a troubled past; forced to work together: enemies/rivals to friends!!!!

A and B have to work together to help injured mutual loved one C, A and B mourn death of person they both loved: Aragorn gets the short straw here, he’s either hurt and L&G have to help him before they’re really close, or it’s after Aragorn’s death and L&G are preparing to go to Valinor

Hair Brushing, Back rubs/hair stroking to help a character sleep: elf hair kink PLEASE, Gimli discovers that running his fingers through Leg’s hair will make him zonk out :’)

Character A Confesses Feelings Because They Think Character B is Unconscious: mmmm maybe Legolas to “unconscious” Gimli? And then Gimli cracks an eye open and is like “you really mean that, laddie?”

Character A doesn't know how to comfort Character B: cultural differences are intimidating

Character A falls asleep on B's shoulder: height difference :D especially if it’s Leg falling asleep on Gimli’s shoulder!

Character A thinks they're about to die and voices their feelings for B; but oops A survives: again I think this is probably Legolas confessing because he’s Dramatic

Character A's parents disapprove of Character B: this is the GOOD shit!! Thranduil disapproving of Gimli? Glóin disapproving of Legolas? excellent shit right there

Character comforts their platonic soulmate: OK so I am Particular about soulmates but in this scenario, let’s go with the soul-bond angle instead - Gimli getting used to a soul bond he never expected to have bc dwarf? Legolas instinctively comforting Gimli through a soul bond Gimli doesn’t know how to reciprocate with?

platonic cuddling for comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling: it’s just cute

Immortal Character A deals with B's mortality: Legolas in denial that Gimli is mortal, especially in Valinor (I don’t want Gimli dying fast in Valinor, but like...he will die eventually, you know?)

Neither comforter or comfortee will directly acknowledge that comforting is taking place: still in the transition from rivals to friends phase :)

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Kíli/Tauriel (hurt Tauriel) Kíli/Tauriel (hurt Kíli) Fíli & Kíli (hurt Kíli) Fíli & Kíli (hurt Fíli) Fíli & Kíli (both hurt) There’s a good mix of brotherly prompts and Kiliel prompts here - and quite a few where Fíli and Tauriel work together for Kíli’s sake!

Aromantic character unsure how to comfort friend with relationship troubles, Character A doesn't know how to comfort Character B: Fíli comforting Kíli about his hopeless love for Tauriel

Anniversary of a traumatic experience: anniversary of BOTFA/almost dying, anniversary of Kíli getting poisoned

Character discovers their friends have been defending them behind their back: Tauriel discovers that some dwarves (including but not only Kíli - Fíli, Bofur, Óin are good options since they were together in Laketown) have been defending her from other, more prejudiced dwarves

Fighting to protect someone while injured yourself: Kiliel in BOTFA?

A's unrequited pining found to be requited while B helps them recover from serious injury: the athelas scene!!

Aftermath of Tragedy/Catastrophe: Tauriel post-BOTFA (canonverse), Fíli and Kíli in an AU where Thorin dies, Kíli and Tauriel in an AU where Fíli and/or Thorin dies but Kíli lives

A and B have to work together to help injured mutual loved one C: Fíli and Tauriel don’t always get along but they work together for Kíli’s sake :) - this could also work with the athelas scene

Being bathed while mutually pining: Tauriel bathing a sick Kíli? Kíli bathing an injured Tauriel? Bonus points for them both being very 👀 about each other’s bodies and how elves/dwarves are different than expected

Character A Confesses Feelings Because They Think Character B is Unconscious: Tauriel post-athelas scene confessing to Kíli after he’s already said his “she walks in starlight” thing

Character A panics/overreacts over B's minor hurt/illness: little Fíli overreacting about Kíli’s injury/illness? Kíli overreacting about Tauriel because he doesn’t know how lef healing works, or vice versa?

Character A realizes their love for character B when B is hurt/sick: the athelas scene!

Character A thinks they're about to die and voices their feelings for B; but oops A survives: Everyone Lives AU where Kíli confesses everything more plainly before he dies, but then survives

Character A's parents disapprove of Character B: Dís and Tauriel angst!!

Character won't stop getting up no matter how many times they get hit: Kíli protecting Tauriel! Tauriel protecting Kíli! Fíli protecting Kíli! Kíli protecting Fíli! Or heck, even Tauriel protecting Fíli for Kíli’s sake, or Fíli protecting Tauriel for Kíli’s sake!

Dying Character Comforts Already-Grieving Comfortee: Kíli dies in Tauriel’s arms 😭

Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies doesn't mean Nobody Hurt: please hurt Fíli very badly (I have a fic where he loses a hand, something along those lines) but Kíli is there for him and unwaveringly supportive

Fake Dating While Mutually Pining & One Partner Gets Hurt: Kiliel fake dating AU!!!

First kiss after almost dying: Kíli and Tauriel finally get to kiss and it’s super emotional! ooh maybe Kiss of Life, where Tauriel’s kiss brings Kíli back?

Fix-it - Character survives canonical death: kind of basic for this fandom, but I’m a sucker for it anyway. Maybe for this exchange, just one of the Durins lives and the others have to deal with it (with Tauriel there making things complicated, especially if it’s not Kíli who lives...)

Hair Brushing: hair is very important to both elves and dwarves, Kiliel miscommunication about this :D

Immortal Character A deals with B's mortality: Tauriel dealing with Kíli aging

Refusing to Leave Other Character's Side: Kíli standing with Tauriel despite Thorin threatening to exile him? Or just “I belong with my brother” 

[purplesurveys]

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survey by tigerfan1205

Name 5 people that are very important to you. Other than my dad, mom, and Angela, I can’t think of anyone else. Andi’s a very close friend but they’re not necessarily I’d-take-a-bullet-for-them levels yet.

Do you like eating chocolate covered cherries or strawberries? I don’t like fruits, so no. I like chocolate-covered unhealthy stuff though, hahah.

What does your 9th text say in your outbox? Ughhhh I remember this tab being in my old cellphones but I can’t quite remember if this is referring to texts I’ve sent, or my drafts. Anyway, my phone doesn’t store text drafts and I can no longer recall my 9th last sent text.

Ever had a really scary dream? Tell me about it. I’ve had loads of nightmares but my least favorites have always been the ones where someone I love is shot and they had to pass away in my arms. Out of all my scary dreams, those are the ones that send me crying in my sleep/as soon as I wake up.

Where is the coolest place you've been on vacation? Vigan was great because it really felt like visiting a 17th-century town. Singapore and Shanghai were also fun because it felt cool going to places much richer than ours and getting to interact with technologies that we will never get to have here HAHA

Would you rather have salad or french fries for a side dish? Erm, unless the salad has spicy tuna in it, fries all the way please.

Ever been to California? Did you like it? No. Idk, it’s not the first place on my list if I am to visit the US though. Places in the East Coast and the Midwest personally appeal more to me - and I’m fully aware it’s because they’re well-known for being passionate wrestling hubs.

What's your favorite thing about the town you live in? I live right smack on the boundary between the more urban sprawl of Manila and the quieter, more peaceful and quaint mountain part of my city. It’s very easy to access either depending on what I’m in the mood for.

Do you like Mexican food? What's your favorite dish to eat? It’s great, but not my top favorite cuisine. My favorite dishes would have to be fajitas and chimichangas.

Favorite kind of pizza is? Quattro formaggi all the wayyyy. You’ll never see me ordering anything else.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? If so, how long have you been dating? No.

Any brothers or sisters? Do they make you mad? I have one of each. My sister will sometimes piss me off, but it dies down quick. My brother did something unforgivable to me two years ago so that’s how long I have been constantly mad at him.

Are you nosy? Eh, sometimes? For the most part I know my place though. I let people share the amount they’re willing to, and very rarely do I try to pry.

Ever been to a bar? What was it like? Sure, had my fair share of favorites too when going out was still a normal thing. For me, bars are the best if I’m with the right mix of people. If I’m in a crowd I’m not necessarily close with, it can definitely dampen the experience as I will only be feeling awkward. The people in the bar will sometimes be a factor too – I will most likely feel annoyed if I’m somewhere that’s clearly populated by high schoolers or college freshies as they can get super rambunctious and loud.

Are you old enough to drink? Yes, have been for the last 4 (almost 5) years.

What's your favorite kind of flower? I enjoy looking at peonies.

Would you rather have pasta or chicken? Right now, probs chicken - preferably chicken wings because that sounds the most fucking yummmmmm rn. We’ve been having pasta a bit too much at home so it would’t hurt to skip it for now.

Have you ever dated someone, but made them not tell anyone about it? Yeah. Gabie and I got back together in our final months of high school. We were about to graduate and it was crucial we kept our record clean so that the school won’t strip us of our diploma and prohibit us from marching (it was Catholic school, sooo homophobia and stuff). Because of that, we had to keep it secret for about a month and a half. As soon as I got home from the ceremony and my family dinner, I shared the news on social media. So I didn’t exactly make her keep it secret - it was a mutual understanding.

What's the meanest thing you have done to a friend? I honestly can’t recall a time i deliberately set out to be an ass to someone I considered a friend. The one thing I can recall was accidentally misgendering Andi when I was still getting used to their pronouns, but I didn’t do it on purpose.

Have you ever kissed anybody with the name starting with a C or R? No. Those are my initials though, ha.

Why did you and your last ex break up? She wasn’t ready, she wasn’t down for commitment, and she felt suffocated having only been in a relationship throughout her late teen and early adult years. She really made herself sound like such a victim and she made it sound like commitment is the biggest sin, and so I blamed myself a lot during the first few months of our breakup; but I’ve since made a conscious effort to turn my mindset around and convince myself that I’m not at fault. Bye gaslighters.

Have you ever had a really bad fight with a best friend? Angela and I only had petty fights and our last one was in like 5th grade. Gab and I got into heavy arguments, but only when we were in a relationship and never as friends.

Do you like spaghetti? It’s okay. I like other types of pasta better.

Which color: orange or red? Red.

Do you know any songs by Katy Perry? Do you like her music? She’s...popular lmao, so yeah I know a good number of her songs. She’s in the middle for me; some songs I really enjoy, like E.T., Dark Horse, and Thinking of You (a personal fave); and there are some that didn’t grow on me as much, like Wide Awake and that awful Christmas song she recently released.

Ever had a near death experience? I suppose. My almost-car crash is the event I always cite.

Which number: 5 or 19? 19, for no reason whatsoever.

What's your favorite song by Taylor Swift? Why is that your favorite? Wildest Dreams; it meant a lot to me on a personal level for a time; right now it’s kinda doing it again for me. From her newest album, I really like dorothea also because it’s a bit relevant to my life at the moment.

Pick one: apples or oranges? I guess oranges. I don’t like fruits but I’m more likely to take a liking to orange-flavored stuff, like juice or chewy candies.

Do you know anybody named George or Bob? I don’t think so.

What do you like better, being single or in a relationship? Why is that? I like being in a relationship; commitment comes easy to me and I love looking out for a significant other, supporting them in their dreams, and generally just having someone to focus on, build a future with, and spoil. Being single hasn’t been bad and I guess I won’t mind if I never found someone; but in the grand scheme of things it’s really nice to be able to love someone.

Are you close with your mother? Not really but our relationship isn’t as strained as it used to be.

Have you ever dated someone named Kyle? Nope.

If you still go to school, who sits next to you in your fifth period? I can’t remember the last time I had five classes in a day, lol.

Who was the last person to ring your doorbell/knock on your door? I think it was my mom, earlier this morning when she arrived back home from her daily jog.

Does anything on you itch right now? Yeah actually; the opposite elbow got itchy just now.

If the last person you kissed came to your house now, what would you say? “Aren’t you supposed to be at work?”

If your ex called you crying, what would it most likely be about? I have no clue, and she would never do that so I literally can’t imagine even a hypothetical reason for this. It has to be a super serious situation, likeeeeeee idk, maybe a death. *knocks on wood aggressively*

Who was the best kisser out of all the people you have kissed? I’ve only kissed one person, so can’t compare.

Name everyone you have texted today. This media guy celebrating his birthday today so I had to ask him for his details so we could send him a gift, as well as the contact person for the cake shop that we got in touch with to order said gift for the birthday celebrant.

Who was the last person you spoke to for over 5 minutes over the telephone? Maybe my grandma when she called a few months ago.

How many times have you went to the bathroom today? Around three times total, I think.

Who do you currently live with? My dad, mom, Nina, my brother, Kimi, and Cooper.

What do you like better: sour or sweet candy? Sweeeeeeet. No sour anything for me, thanks.

Have you ever been told that you have an annoying laugh? No but I hope this isn’t an actual thing people say to other people. They can think others’ laugh is annoying, but I think it’s one of those things that you can just try to get over and is unnecessary to raise lol.

[devintrinidad]

Oh yeah! How can 1146 and 3803 have so many cute moments in one chapter together. I think this might be a new record.

I really liked the scene where Rod cell asked about 1146 and 3803’s close relationship too. Not only was it cute and amusing, but it really showed a lot if character insight too.

3803 checks 1146’s reaction after being asked that question. She looks caught off guard, but otherwise pretty calm and not really flustered at all. It seemed more like she was a little curious about how 1146 felt about it before doing anything else. I like to think 3803 is aware 1146 isn’t as socially comfortable in a lot of areas as her so she’s trying to look after him. Again I love this new take charge 3803 within the dynamic. She’s always had that in her, but it’s more apparent now that she’s coming off as more comfirtable/confident with herself. She’s the one who answers first and again she looks very cool about it. She gives a very honest and easy answer she knows 1146 will be comfortable with and one that’s the truth. A big part of their relationship is/has been 3803 asking 1146 for information and him teaching her about the body. Overall 3803 takes charge and comes off as very confident, be it about her relationship with 1146 and how to control the (social) situation. 

1146 on the other hand is the total opposite. His expression when he looks at 3803 seems to scream anxiety and nervousness. It’s like he’s asking ‘what do we do/say?! IDK!’ to 3803 and he has no idea how to respond to Rod Cell about them. Even more peculiar/funny, after 3803 answers Rod Cell the situation could have ended so easily right then and there. Instead 1146 at first denies 3803’s answer only to end up essentially repeating what she said. He disagreed and agreed with her at the same time. Unlike 3803 who’s facing Rod Cell and staring him in the eyes while she talks like a polite person. 1146 is covering his face with his hat and looking away. He’s so flustered and awkward he’s just making a normal comment directed at them a little more strange and suspicious then it has to be. 1146 is so off balance and shy over Rod Cell asking about why he’s so close to 3803 he literally can’t face the situation and can only fumble and awkwardly give the best answer he can - when he could have just let 3803 handle everything (now Rod Cell definitely has more reason to believe it’s more then 3803’s answer stated, lol). 

I’m glad my 1146 would be super shy about his feeling fur 3803 semi hc is now canon fact. =D it actually makes me consider more about the romantic possibilities more between them. I think 3803 is even more aware then I initially thought (or offscreen became aware) that there might be something between them then just friendship. But she cares about 1146’s comfort level and wouldn’t push it. My idea now is 3803 does know 1146 has a crush on her or at least she’s aware of the possibility of it. Maybe she’s aware that she might or does reciprocate. But again she’s not doing anything to make 1146 uncomfortable so she won’t push talking about it (which kills my hc if 3803 did have feelings for 1146 she’d confess first. Now she won’t because 1146 is clearly not ready to confront that development yet). Also I personally believe 3803 herself isn’t interested in pursuing anyone. She loves her job and likes focusing on that. If she did start dating, it’d only be because someone pursued her a lot and let her know they are dead serious about her. 

Poor 1146. He goes from scary perfect one man army warrior to a awkward duck who can only toddle after 3803 in shy awkwardness when his feelings about her pop up. He totally wants something more with her but he’s no where near knowing how to process or go about it. XD Poor guy. 

But yes those are my thoughts and some added new hcs about their romance. As I’ve said before, 1146 definitely has it REAL bad for her. I think that’s pretty close to, if not outright, canon right now. 3803 is still harder to peg but she’s also maybe showing a little more hints she could be interested (if only 1146 got off his butt and showed the same confidence). Lol I just love how things are reversed between them with 3803 being the more confident take the lead one while 1146 flusters and follows along. 

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That image of 1146 as a lovely little duckling haunts me, hahaha. But, in allies seriousness, I love the fact that it’s 3803 we need to have more confirmation of instead of 1146. If there is going to be more overt romance in CAW (which, we all wish, but I hope they don't delve too deep into), I hope 1146 is the one that acts more emotional and less realistic that 3803. At this point in her character development, I think she wants to focus more on her job while 1146 is trying to work on his interpersonal relationships with other cells. 

This a direct mirror of how they were at the beginning of the series.

I am living for all of these developments and I am desperately craving for more!

[dolansmith]

Thoughts on the “Trisha Drama”

I’m going to preface this with my previous thoughts of both sides. I didn’t know who Trisha was until after I found out about the vlog squad about a year ago. I didn’t mind her, i thought she brought out an interesting perspective to the group. Then I thought she was literally off her rocker. 

I loved the vlog squad bc I found them in a really difficult time in my life and they kept me from getting too deep into a depression. While I saw some of their mistakes, I saw the best in them all and hoped for change or at least some kind of accountability. 

This is gonna be really long and idk if anyone is even gonna read this/care lol but Im just so frustrated with a lot of the people that are into the vs. Like after really looking into everything that happened, I felt kind of ashamed to be backing the vs bc they’re doing some fucked up stuff tbh. 

So lets do a basic rundown of mistakes made. 

Mistakes in their public relationship:    -Trisha: made sexual jokes about jason’s friends, started arguments about her insecurities instead of starting a conversation.     -Jason: made sexual jokes about girl’s a decade younger than trisha (and 2 and a half decades younger than him), would complain about having to go do things trisha liked doing and would pout the whole time  (i.e. disneyland and a couple of the hamilton viewings), would egg on trishas insecurities, literally dumped her on a daily basis and call her crazy when she voiced said insecurities and then would basically get back together within an hour and practically give everyone whiplash, also talked about her weight and eating habits CONSTANTLY (fucking dick)    -David: inputted himself in their relationship, recorded their fights and encouraged their toxic behavior to both his friends and his audience

Mistakes in the “official” breakup:    -Trisha: talking about jason’s ex and kids, comparing david to ted bundy (a lil wild but tbh not that big of a deal bc no one actually believed thats what she meant but anyway), the brandon thing (we’ll come back to this)    -Jason: continuing to make jokes about fucking a 19/20 year old despite his gf saying she didn’t like it, not putting an end to David “pressuring him” to making said jokes, the brandon thing    -David: ignoring his “friend” when she said not to put something in his vlog, putting his image and career first

Mistakes after:    -Trisha: constantly going on rants about david and Jason.    -Jason: staying in contact with trisha secretly. (ill get back to this too)    -David: putting his image above all else. 

Now we’re going to get into some uncomfortable hot takes. I’m gonna get a whole lotta hate from stans but tbh idc anymore

The Brandon Thing (I’ve done some digging since her video exploding at Jeff): 

   -Brandon began a relationship with a high schooler. She was underage the first time they had sex. There’s receipts and timelines set up. I’d recommend Petty Paige’s Youtube video on it for specifics.     -Lot’s of vs fans say she only brought it up when her and Jason ended so that meant she didn’t really care, but I’d like to point out that she has stated (on more than one occasion) that she voiced her thoughts on this multiple times to the group in Private and no one cared. Y’all are always going on about how she should say whatever she has to say in private but when she does and is ignored, what then? Just a thought.     -Let’s also bring the rest of the vs up in this. How come none of them ever said anything? They’re the ones still out here tolerating him. Pretty hypocritical. I’m not gonna aim anything at the girls bc none of them have Brandon in their videos but the guys? Jeff, Jason, David, Todd and I think Scott too, have all had Brandon in at least one video. They’re out here talking shit about Trisha amongst each other but are friends with a predator? Lmao Okay, cool. 

Jason Keeping in Contact for months: 

   -This was dumb.     -As someone who has suffered from mental health issues and has been in a mental hospital and suffered from attachment AND abandonment issues, Trisha would’ve been better off had Jason ended things and kept them that way. Instead, he ended their public relationship and friendship. He kept her a secret from even his “friends” and then dragged on their “friendship” for months. For what? He should’ve just given her her things and closure and kept it pushing.     -On that, why did he keep her belongings for so long and refuse to give it back until she said something public about it? He ignored her calls and texts about her very expensive things for weeks. Then she made a video calling him out on it, and she got her stuff back.    -I’m seeing a pattern here, aren’t you?

The Jeff Thing (did some digging on him too...by digging i mean google):

   -This one makes my blood boil for several reasons. ESPECIALLY AFTER TODAYS VIDEO. It rlly put everything into perspective omg.     -The starbucks story that Trisha told was the same everywhere: ‘I saw Jeff at Starbucks and said hey. He ignored me and was such a pussy he left his order at the counter after having paid.’ His masculinity is SO FRAGILE that he twisted it into ‘I’m not gonna be fake with someone who fucked over my friend. Can’t fuck them up either tho lol’ and ‘i’m not gonna make shit easy on you, i’m gonna make them feel weird’. What a baby lmfao    -His assault joke rubbed me the wrong way. I know Jeff’s schtick is the whole “I was in jail for a few months and I was a drug dealer I’m big and scary” blah blah blah. Listen, I’ve met men that have been in jail longer (he was in for only 4 months he once said I think) and had worse upbringings than he did and HAD to do some of the shit Jeff was doing (which lemme remind yall, was on his own accord). The men that I know that have lived similar and worse lifestyles than Jeff, would never and I REPEAT NEVER, make a joke about assaulting a Woman over “fucking my friend over”, when the situation was what it was. Which was: an exposé, basically. That’s some petty shit, it’s for the birds. (Also, Todd and Jay’s jokes about the assault joke? Ain’t it. They were just as bad as Jeff’s original joke.)    -Do y’all know what Jeff’s been to jail for? He tried to assault someone that worked at a 7-Eleven after he and his dumbass friends were fucking around in the store and got yelled at and ended up assaulting a woman walking by.     -He also talked about her mental health issues. Maybe he wasn’t talking about her specifically, but it was REAL specific. He said that it was crazy that a “psychopath” that’s been in a mental hospital still had a platform on youtube. That they shouldn’t have one. Trisha made a really good point of, “some could say the same about your time in jail.” Because they could. And mental health can be managed. So can your outrageous anger issues, Jeff. This was really ignorant on his part.     -I also want to remind everyone about the time he said he didn’t understand how men could be sexually harassed. That all you had to do was say no.    -He says he likes to “make things awkward” and make everything a joke when really he’s just being ignorant and doesn’t want to get real hate when he gets inevitably called out

Trisha’s “Dirt”:

   -Trisha doesn’t know anything that the rest of us don’t. We’re just all IGNORING it. Why? Bc David’s charming and Todd and Jeff are pretty? Ridiculous. This is the last vlog squad post i’m going to make because I’m done. So the following is going to be a rundown on the “dirt” on them that made me come to the decision that I wouldn’t be supporting them anymore. I’ll also put my own thoughts and comments underneath in case y’all are curious. Staying silent about these situations is the same as complacency.     -Brandon Calvillo: Covered this but to reiterate, he dated a high schooler and slept with her/dated her knowing her age. He then lied about it in a video to cover his tracks.           *I am well aware that she was months from being 18. This doesn’t make it okay. What does a 26 year old have in common with a 17 year old? And just because this is the first girl we know about, doesn’t mean she’s the first at all or even the last.     -Durte Dom: He was accused of assault at vidcon.            *This hasn’t been confirmed. But it also hasn’t even been discussed. This girl is getting hate from vs stans and the vs have stayed silent. I can understand not wanting to show attention to people who make accusations for clout, but assault is serious and should at the Very Least be acknowledged privately or legally bc it could be considered slander. Don’t let your fans (or your friend’s fans) do your dirty work.      -Jeff Wittek: He has major anger issues. Makes jokes about assaulting women after actually having assaulted one in the past (accidentally but doesnt take away from what he did) and has made jokes about sexual harassment against men not being viable             *tbh he has a “pretty white boy complex”. Meaning he knows that he can say and do what he wants and most people will let it slide bc he’s a pretty white boy. No education needed.     -Jason Nash: Is friend’s with a predator, is quite possibly setting an awful example to his kids, namely his daughter.          *Listen. I’m a feminist, a woman should be able to decide what to do with her body after she turns 18. But being groomed and hit on by grown ass men when you’re barely legal, ain’t it. If you want to and feel ready, there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it BUT 9.9 times out of 10, that fucks a woman up in the future. One day, she is going to see her dad hitting on a 19/20 year old Tana and see that her dad’s  26 year old best friend dated a 17/18 year old and lied about specifics and might think that’s normal and how men should treat her. I won’t support that shit.

And as for all the other member’s of the vs, they either don’t care enough about what their friends or friends’ friends are doing, or they’re not bothering to even consider it’s happening and that isn’t cool either. 

Be better. 

As for Trisha, she’s had her own faults and fuckups, no doubt about it. I’m not a big fan of her content but i FELT for her. Her name has been dragged through the mud because of this more than anything else and it doesn’t sit right with me when her only real fuckup in THIS situation was bringing the ex and kids into it the way she did. Everything else either could have been avoided or she had a right to say to the public since they put everything about the relationship out in the open as much as she did. If Jason and David had reached out and admitted their own mistakes and asked her to stop talking about them online the way she was, she probably would’ve chilled out. What happened, what they and their fans (us) have done has been nothing short of traumatizing, no doubt. The way these 30 year old boys (Jeff, Todd, Scott and Jay) are reacting to her? They’re the real joke if we’re being honest.

Note: I’d also like to say that if you do still support them and have differing views than I do, I’ll respect you and your views no matter what. Everyones entitled to their opinion and thoughts. These are just mine. 

[empressofevil]

I'm fucking sick of this bullshit. I'm absolutely and utterly done hearing people say "its happening for you, not to you." Yeah, its happening FOR me? Here's some behind-the-scenes: I'm fucking miserable.

I've had depression my entire life. The first time I thought about killing myself, I was 2 and it was Halloween. My entire life has been a fucking mess. My parents were abusive and neglectful. I've never once felt loved in my entire 26 years of life. My parents used to remind me often that no one could or would ever love me. I spent my childhood directly in the middle of my parents' fights, trying to protect and defend my mom. I'm the youngest, and I've been hit for defending my older siblings. My siblings have never defended me.

I didn't date in high school, mostly because tbh I never once met a guy who wasn't borderline psychotic, racist, or in some other way not datable. I did get stalked though, and a friend I had had since I was 10 tried to sexually assault me at a party. That was my gift for trying to talk him out if suicide, I guess. I dated for the first time at 19 and wound up in a supremely emotionally and financially abusive relationship. I remember knowing it was bad 2 years before I left: partly because I was terrified of him - he never hit me, but boy did he talk about murdering people a lot - and partly because I felt like, because I was so strong and he was so weak, I owed him something. I only decided to leave after he found me crying under the coffee table and told me I was making things awkward and he had stuff to do. I thought about all the times I held him when he cried and realized I've never once been held while I cried. I've never once had someone see my emotions and not reject me, tell me I'm inconvenient or scary. They usually don't even have the guts to tell me I'm WRONG and, given some of the genuine assholes I've dealt with in my life, that really suggests to me I probably wasn't. They just didn't want to deal with it.

And that's the thing... I can be as good and kind and smart or whatever as anyone, but no one ever wants to deal with me. No one ever wants to hold me when I cry, but everyone wants me to hold them all the goddamn time.

I'm alone. I've always been alone. I've been waiting 26 years to not be alone, and I can't hear "this is all for your highest good" anymore. I really can't see how isolating someone for 26 years and filling their life with abuse is for their highest good. I've been drowning in this misery for as long as I have memories, and whenever I ask for a life raft or for someone to just acknowledge I'm sinking, they tell me to get fucked. Sometimes literally! I've literally been told to go fuck myself and die after saying I felt suicidal! By my own family, of course! I've had "friends" tell me it's straight up not true! And when I cut away all of the people who are straight up toxic or I just don't feel connected to anymore, there's no one left. I did it and there's no one left. I've never minded more time to myself, but 26 years is a long fucking time for no one to hold you when you cry. 26 years is a long time for people to tell you you're too much, annoying, not worth their time, etc. It's even worse when they tell you you're amazing, the best, everything they want in a friend, lover, wife, whatever, but that they just... Honestly don't know how to not treat you like shit? I've had people tell me that! "I just don't remember to ask how you are for some reason" when they do it for others. People who pride themselves on being good listeners turn around and completely ignore what I'm saying and talk over me.

I've always felt like an oddball. I am a fucking weirdo, I'm not unaware of it. I talk to animals and believe in magic and I went through a phase of digging holes when I was 8. I've had rough years. I'm not perfect and I've never been perfect, but goddamn do I try. Fuck me if I don't straight up ask people "why are you treating me like this when you don't treat others like this" and they go "gosh gee idk, I really enjoyed having you as a friend, you were always there for me and so supportive." Fuck me if I'm not just the universes punching bag and no amount of positivity or optimism ever changes that. Nothing matters.

I'm fucking done.

[feministshawnmendes]

Give in

A/n: okay so this is my first time writing about Shawn and the last time I wrote fanfiction was when I was thirteen but I got inspired to write some angst & this was the result. I have a lot more written but Idk if I’ll publish the rest.

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It had been well over a year yet every time y/n caught the smallest glimpse of him, she felt her heart ache. For what? She wasn’t quite sure. She wasn’t sure if it was from the loss of everything, if it was because of the memories that came crashing back. She wasn’t sure if it was from remembering the fights that they’d had - the dark things they’d shouted at each other. She wasn’t sure if it was because she missed the way they used to be. Maybe it was anger, yearning, and sadness all wrapped into one. Maybe it was because she wanted to hold onto something like they hadn’t been able to.

Every time she watched her bright eyed five year old squeal with excitement as he ran from her car up to his dad’s front door, her heart sank. Maybe it was because the way her son put his small hand on her shoulder when she had clearly had a long day of work reminded her of him. The way he always just knew. Everything her little boy did reminded her of him and the hard part was that it was all the good parts that he’d gotten from Shawn. The way he effortlessly cared for people, the way he always seemed to smile even if he was sad, the way everyone was drawn to him because of his kindness that seemed to be second nature. He looked mostly like her - with his dark Hispanic hair and olive toned skin. But everything that was so pure and perfect about him came from Shawn. He was, in every way, the most perfect little boy and watching him run into his Dad’s arms every other weekend felt like losing him in some small way even if she knew he’d be back by the end of the following week. Still, she smiled through it every time as she watched her little boy fly into Shawn’s arms, his Dad scooping him up and waving - as he always did - goodbye to her.

The divorce had in many ways been harder on y/n and Shawn than on Adrian. Shawn was always on the road for most of Adrian’s short life - so when he moved out it wasn’t hard for Adrian to adjust. He saw his dad equally - if not more - than he had before. Shawn still brought Adrian along with him to shows when he could - making sure that he was out of school and keeping up with any homework he had been assigned over breaks. She hated it in so many ways. How Shawn had been able to effortlessly transition after everything. He’d always been like that. So quick to adapt to whatever life demanded of him. It didn’t mean it wasn’t hard for him - she knew the inner demons he always struggled with, never feeling like he measured up. But from the outside it seemed like he’d been able to balance himself out again and here she was, trying her hardest not to let her feelings get the better of her as she dropped Adrian off to him, just the sight of him enough to set her over the edge.

“Yeah I’m dropping him off now. I should be there in about ten minutes,” Y/N said into her phone as she looked up to see Adrian and Shawn waving at her. She waved back, blowing a kiss to Adrian who caught it in his tiny palm. That little boy had her whole heart. Shawn set Adrian down, bending down to tell him something.

“Okay see ya soon,” Y/N’s friend Grace said from the other line, quickly hanging up. Y/N threw her phone in the passenger seat, looking up one last time before getting ready to pull out of the driveway. Shawn had ushered Adrian inside, quickly looking over to Y/N. She expected him to wave one last time like he always did with his normal killawat smile plastered on his face. He still smiled at her the same way he always had - again, it had always been in his nature to be as kind as he could and it always killed her. Instead, Shawn closed the door behind him and jogged down his driveway over to her.

After the divorce, Shawn and Y/N had managed to co-parent pretty successfully without much contact with one another. Partially due to the fact that they mostly communicated through assistants and lawyers about pick up and drop off times/locations. Before she had met Shawn, Y/N had started her own media and marketing company - a brave and scary endeavor that had panned out well - especially in a place like LA with tons of potential clients. That’s what had sparked their meeting, really. After seeing a campaign Y/N’s company had run for a new sportswear brand and seeing the massive success of it, Shawn’s manager Andrew had called Y/N up and asked her team to deal with the media and promo for Shawn’s next tour. Part of her wonders what would have happened if Andrew hadn’t reached out, how different her life would be.

Y/N had managed to find a happy medium with her work and home life once her and Shawn had married and had Adrian - being CEO meant she made her own schedule but after the divorce she’d thrown herself back into her work and used assistants and lawyers as a way to cut off contact with Shawn. It’s not like they never talked - they would exchange pleasantries at parent-teacher conferences, they’d say hi in passing after Adrian’s concerts at school. Y/N would call Shawn if Adrian had forgotten cuddles - his baby blanket - at home to let him know she was bringing it over. But the contact was minimal - mostly because that’s how Y/N wanted it.

So watching him jog down to her car, his curls perfectly managed as always, sent her stomach lurching as she turned her car off and rolled down her window. She was suddenly very aware of how she looked. It’d been a full week at work and she was on her way to a yoga class with her friends - her hair in a messy braid and her face completely free of makeup. She had always had to try so hard to feel even a little bit adequate. For Shawn, it was always so easy.

“Hey,” he said in a hesitant tone as he approached the car. She hated this. Hated it. Hated it. Hated it. She smiled as she watched him bend down and lean into the car.

“Hey what’s up?” She said, trying to make it seem casual. Trying to make it seem normal. It was the first time he’d heard her voice in a while, the closest he’d been to her in God knows how long. His cheeks burned red as she stared up at him.

“I Uh - How is...how are you?” He asked, licking his lips nervously as her hesitant eyes flickered across his face, her eyebrows furrowing as she leaned back in her seat, her hands sliding off the steering wheel and into her lap.

“Um...not bad. I’m running late for a yoga class - is that - is there something you...is that why you came down here?” She was bad at this. She knew she was and it shouldn’t have felt awkward. She’d shared so many intimate moments with Shawn. They’d had a kid together for God’s sake. But after so long - just having him be so close felt so intimate. It reminded her of when they’d spent time together for the first time - they both were so unsure and overly cautious.

“Oh no - I mean that’s not the only reason,” he laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. “I have something I want to talk to you about but I’ll let you go to your yoga class. Are you busy on Monday?”

She stared at him, trying to process what he could possibly want to talk about.

“I uh - let me...” she swallowed nervously, turning away from him and reaching over to grab her phone from the passenger seat. She unlocked her phone, instinctively her hand going up to her mouth as she bit the nail on her thumb as she scrolled through her calendar. It was a bad habit that she could never seem to break. Her eyes stuck to her screen, the familiar feeling of knowing Shawn’s eyes were on her making her skin warm. “Uh it looks like I have a quarterly meeting with my ads team at nine but that’s pretty much it.”

“Okay,” he started. She didn’t want to look back up at him. It felt like too much. Everything having to do with him felt like too much. But hearing the hesitation in his voice, she knew she was being cold. She locked her phone and threw it back on the seat beside her, looking back up at him. He was silent for a moment, his eyes flickering across her face. He’d missed being this close to her. Missed the way no matter how much she tried to tame them her baby hairs always managed to wildly frame her face, escaping whatever braid she’d tried to tuck them into. He smiled, remembering how he’d always brush them away from her face. His fingers twitched, wanting to do the same thing now but her concerned eyes brought him back.

“Is it something serious?” She asked when he didn’t say anything, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear. Shawn’s eyes widened and he shook his head.

“Oh no. I mean no, not really. I just wanted to go over something with you.”

“Oh - okay. Sounds good.” She smiled. She told herself it’d be okay. She’d gone through a lot over the past year. One small conversation with Shawn - no matter what it was about - wouldn’t kill her. Shawn smiled back, this time with that brilliant smile that always used to make her melt. The one he’d give her when he was about to lean in for a kiss or trace her smile with his thumb or reach for her hand. The one that made her feel so good and loved by him. She hated that he could still do it to her after everything that had happened. She felt her throat go dry and she had to look away from him.

“Great. Um...I was thinking we could meet at alchemist since it’s close to the office. Does noon work?”

She nodded. All she wanted to do was get away from him. This was why she’d avoided him so much. As much as she had tried to hate Shawn after the divorce, she just couldn’t. Yeah she was mad at him and frustrated with everything but she could never hate him. Not completely. He made it too hard to. Being around him just reminded her how much of a mistake she had made. How was she so dumb? So blinded by her own insecurity?

“Cool. Have fun at Yoga” He laughed airily, still leaning against her car. Everything he did reminded her of the time they’d spent together. Looking up at him and seeing his easy smile reminded her of all the times he had walked her to her car after a date at the beginning of their relationship. He’d say goodbye and kiss her and open the car door for her. He’d kiss her again, leaning down into her open car window to do so. Then they’d stay like that, him leaning down just inches away from her face and he’d distract her to keep her with him just a little bit longer. “Did you hear back from your mom?” he’d ask. “Did you finally hire a new intern, by the way?” he’d say. And it worked every time. She’d ramble for a little bit and he’d soak up every minute he had with her. He’d kiss her again and say goodbye another couple times before she finally scolded him to get to bed and stop distracting her. It felt so cliche and predictable, how much they couldn’t get enough of each other but they were so in love that they didn’t care.

“Have fun with Adrian,” She smiled. She really was trying. “He’s in a new Motown phase right now. So he’ll probably be asking you to play lots of Stevie Wonder this week.”

“Haha. The kid’s got good taste,” Shawn chuckled. She nodded, looking at her watch. Shawn stood up, running his hand through his hair. “Well. I’ll see ya Monday, Y/N”

She nodded, managing another smile before starting her car as Shawn gave one last small wave before he turned and headed into his house. She pulled out of the driveway far quicker than she should have but her heart felt like it was going to explode. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Why? WHY? She drove to yoga, said hi to her friends, made it through an hour of working out, got into her car, sped home, and cried as soon as she had sat down in front of her TV. She hated him. Hated the way that she could be fine and then as soon as he smiled at her, she wasn’t. Hated that he still made her feel the way he used to, even if they’d only interacted for a minute. She hated that after everything she still wasn’t over him. She wanted to hate him like she should have but she couldn’t. She still, foolishly, loved him.

[izzy-b-hands]

“You can call me whenever you want… Even if you don’t have a reason to.” Elliot and Darlene? I LOVED your fic about her buying him that ugly unicorn ❤️ I also super ❤️ YOU 😊 Enjoy your days off!

Ahhh thank you!!! You’re too sweet!!!! I’ve fallen in love with writing these two, happy, despite whatever circumstances. Sam, where is my side series that’s just two siblings having fun and being happy. Sam, I expect answers. Sam, I am not even half joking. 

While we wait for Sam to unfortunately never answer my cries on this, I have fic :) It’s short, and just kind of a brief snapshot of cute sibling interaction, but I think it’s still pretty good lol. ngl Elliot is lucky to have a sister like Darlene, idk what that’s like but I’m gonna experience it vicariously via fic. 

He called, and then promptly hung up before she could answer, three times in a row, before she caught it, just as his finger was about to hit ‘end call.’

“What the fuck? Are you okay? Did you know you called me like a shit ton within the past two minutes-” 

“Not that much. Just three times,” Elliot interrupted. 

“Okay, fine, only three times,” Darlene’s sarcasm was dripping through the speaker of the phone. “So, what happened? Something must have for you to do that.” 

This was the hard part. That for anyone else probably wasn’t difficult, but felt like the worst and strangest thing for him in the moment. 

“I’m good. Just...wanted to talk. But you’re busy, and this is weird, so we’ll talk later or something, b-” 

“Don’t you dare hang up on me!” Darlene is loud enough he has to move the phone away from his ear. “Sorry...just...I mean, you know you can call me whenever you want...even if you don’t have a reason to. You know that, right?” 

“Yeah.” 

“Did you just call me because you want to talk?” 

He nods, then remembers that Darlene can’t see him. “Yeah. We haven’t talked at all this week and...” 

“You can say you missed me. It’s okay! That you missed me and that you wanted some quality, sisterly advice-” 

“I didn’t call with a problem that needs advice,” he smiles. It still feels weird, but it could be worse, he’s sure. 

“The advice is dispensed as it comes to me regardless of whether you currently have a problem; save it for use with any future problems,” Darlene chirps. He can hear her smiling.

“Okay. What’s the advice for this hour then?” 

“Relax your shoulders. You hunch over and hold your tension there and that’s why your back hurts all the time. And don’t lie to me, I know it does,” she hums. 

He leans back on the couch and relaxes as instructed. “How did you...” 

“You literally exist hunched over, anyone could tell. But anyway; what do you wanna talk about?”  

And suddenly, another roadblock. What does he want to talk about? Anything that isn’t everything else going on, that isn’t about fighting for the world and feeling like a step in any direction is a wrong one, that isn’t stressful or scary or-

“Dude! Are you still there?” 

“Yeah, I’m here. I just...don’t really know, I guess. Knew I wanted to talk to you, and that’s as far as I got,” he mumbles. Suddenly it’s right back to embarrassment and awkwardness again, in a heartbeat. How the hell do other people call and talk to their siblings every day?

“You’re at home, right?” 

“Yeah, why?” 

“Stay put. I am bringing over dinner and our favorite movies, and then you’ll have plenty to talk about,” the sound of Darlene’s keys being grabbed jingled in the background.

“You don’t have to do that-” 

“I’m doing it for both of us, so shush. I’ve missed you too, so it’s sibling bonding time now,” Darlene interrupts. “I’m ready to listen to you talk about every single movie I’ve got here for at least an hour, so you better be ready to talk.” 

He nods. “I think I am. Thank you.” 

“You’re welcome, but you don’t have to thank me. Most of the time, I like hanging out with you. You just need to call me like this more often. I can come over more, we can talk each other’s ear off about random shit. You can relax for an hour or two and not be constantly worried about all the stuff you always worry about.” 

“I don’t always worry.” 

“We’re talking, not arguing tonight, so I’m gonna ignore that. Doesn’t matter anyway, cause we’re gonna have a good night: good food, good movies, no worries. And don’t clench your jaw, I can see you doing it right now. That’s bad for your teeth or something.” 

He shakes his head, but realizes his jaw does hurt as he relaxes it. “Anymore wise sisterly advice before you get here?” 

“Yeah. Start calling me more often. See you soon.” 

As he moves his backpack from the couch and tries to ensure the living area looks as presentable as possible, he thinks on that. Even if it takes him three tries again, he might have to take her up on that. It almost feels irresponsible, wanting a break from it all.

But it’s only for a night, and Darlene’s smile that greets him as he opens the door for her makes it feel like the right decision. 

[perenial]

khsdfbjjhk how did you and your gf start the long dating thing??? i wanna tell my best friend that i like him so damn much but also i dont wanna ruin the easy comradery and friendship we've got and like, since we live on different coasts, it's hard to uh, really gauge what his reaction may be u know? any advice you have on this would be s u p e r

okay first of all I love talking about rose @macfoundhispride so thank u for an excuse to post sappy shit on main

I’ve written out the whole story here but tl;dr it was totally spontaneous when I asked rose out - I was going on a hunch and thought “hey, if I’m wrong, then this’ll just be an awkward-funny thing to look back on”. I wasn’t worried about ruining our friendship bc….honestly?? I was v v sure about what I was doing. I knew she had a massive nerd crush, and I was 99% sure it was on me. the 1% chance that it wasn’t just. didn’t occur to me (which is actually wild if u know me bc my ocd makes even the slightest possibilities into Big Fucking Deals)

the biggest advice I can give u is communication, which is kinda obvious but seriously the most important part of a ldr. I’ve heard of straight people having difficulties with ldrs bc they don’t integrate their partner(s) into their daily lives like u would in a regular relationship. tell ur partner(s) about what u had for lunch!! tell them about the cool dog u saw on the street!! tell them about ur anxieties and dreams and frustrations and all the minutiae that people talk about one-on-one - just because it’s over text or skype or whatever doesn’t make that connection less meaningful. 

slightly related to that is flexibility: allow urself to go with the flow of the relationship. this person might be the love of ur life, or maybe it won’t work. I’ve been in both long distance situations, and while the latter sucks, ur life goes on. look at ur life and think about how open u are to change - would u be happy to pack up and move across country in a few years if this works? would u be okay if it doesn’t? think about ur friends/family, work, hobbies, etc. - can u see urself being flexible with those things?

that being said, listen to ur intuition and let logic and reason take a back seat for a moment. yes, it’ll lead u into some batshit weird scenarios. no, I can’t guarantee everything will work the way u want it to. but gut feelings are felt for a reason, good or bad; acknowledging how u feel means being honest to urself, which is rly the best thing u can do for urself. 

if all else fails, send an anon. if he’s on tunglr. or a curiouscat if he’s on twitter. idk what ur situation is but anons are how I got around the scary parts of asking rose out.

I hope some of this helps, and that things go well for u and ur (potential) bf!!