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anyone else hate long distance relationships and lack of consistent feelings on their part
#this is gonna be long in the tags sorry#and for the record. everything im going to say in here is on Me and not on my girlfriend and i know the solution is TALK TO HER#but can i have a minute to just. say it#okay. so im long distance with my girlfriend and we've been long distance (5hrs drive) the whole time#we've been together almost 9 months and in that time we've seen each other 4 times.#once in may once for halloween once for thanksgiving and today/yesterday for NYE#the longest trip of any of these was a tuesday night- sunday morning. so like. four full days of being together#but interspersed with family bc it was thanksgiving#okay. so just setting the stage#i love hanging out. i love hanging out on the couch or doing random shit like walkin around a town or grocery shopping with her#like i love being introduced to her friends and family as her partner and doing likewise to my people#like i love hanging out with her forever#but like. UGH my issue is like. any. kind of intimacy beyond literally like cuddling and holding hands?#like lack of consistency on my part. like okay sometimes kissing is fine and we're talking like a peck on the lips and then sometimes#im like. no i dont. want to do this. and obviously im not being Forced to if i asked her to not she would respect that!!#i like the Idea of kissing and sometimes i do enjoy a little peck but sometimes im like not. into it.#and then like. we've been together for a while we've Talked about sex and stuff but we have not had it yet. haven't gotten anywhere close#to it yet#like i like the idea of having sex with her but if i was faced with the reality of that right now i would freak out like just get. really#stressed? panic??? and there's no trauma in my past. i haven't ever had any kind of sex i have no trauma associated#with anything. like i would just. freak out a little. and we wouldn't have sex and that would be fine but. idk.#i dunno if i'm like. ace or something or it's just still too New of a relationship to do that? because despite being togehter for 9 months#when you've had literally less than two weeks of full days together in that time#it feels really fuckin new#i dunno man.#i'm just afraid that im just. idk not built for a relationship.#she was drunk and wanted to snuggle when we went to sleep last night and it stressed me out because i hate not being able to move when#im asleep. i told her this she gave me my room that was fine. but like man. i am never gonna want to snuggle like that#i still dont love kissing#like. for my house. okay i have very specific ideas of what i want my space to look like and feel like
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I guess all I’m trying to say is. Well, I won’t say the word “ableist” if that makes you guys upset, but maybe telling people who literally cut themselves to “take better care of your body” is a bit tone deaf.
#maybe vague goals that seem unattainable are counterintuitive cause they make people feel hopeless and like they can’t help themselves#maybe some people truely can’t help themselves and they have support needs that aren’t being met#I DUNNO MAN.#all my little words#self harm mention
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yknow i like. i think confessions blogs can be fun? but sometimes. i think maybe sometimes they turn into a place where people can just be vitriolic publicly under the guise of anonymity.
#basil blabbers#i dunno man.#i follow a few system confessions blogs. vvery different from. this case.#NO RBS ON THIS. ONE.
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Slenderman but he’s a doctor and he goes “test my hypotheses”
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MH FIANCE IS ASKING IF WE SHARE A BRAIN CELLE
-THE HABIT
LIKE YOU AND I? I WOULD AGREE. I FEEL AS THOUGH MANY HABITS SHARE ONE SINGULAR BRAINCELL.
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is this anything
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i need to. get off of this hellsite..? details in tags but oh. ohhhhh i’m. ohhh.
#the amount of prorq / pro transid / prop*r* shit is fucking. awful.#‘just block the tags!’ That’s not the problem.#the problem is a) the content existing in the first place#b) st@ff not giving even half of a flying fuck#and c) the amount of notes these posts have#i want to sleep at night knowing that there arent literal n*crophiles on this app#‘gray youre too sensitive’#‘gray there’s fucked up people like that on every site’#i dont think i have seen it as bad i have on here. and it’s not a dying community.#i fear for our littles#i fear for our middles#i fear for our trauma holders like me#i fear for those who seek out this content as a form of self harm#i fear that these people are slowly integrating themselves into the spaces where they desperately dont need to be#and. i KNOW these people get shit on online. i know that.#but they still exist.#i dunno man.#grayson.txt#ask to tag
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Bro I can't change my name at this point in my life but also my name feels so foreign to me. Bleh.
#also all my relatives exclusively refer to me as vic and i hate it. for real being called that makes me feel uncomfortable and i KNOW for a#fact theyre only doing it so they can ignore my transness.#sigh. Sigh.#idk man. it's something ive been thinking about for. god nearly a year at this point but like#i dunno. changing your name is hard.#and it's not like im unused to my name feeling wrong for both trans and system reasons so its not like. unbearable or anything i guess but#i dunno man.#sigh.#.txt
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It's Man Do I Love That Twink John Silver Saturday
#black sails#still need to finish this amazing show#when im less like. in agonizing pain.#i dunno man.#fucking sucks#any of my fellow cripples relate?#emmetts yelling again#john silver#him and his love hate relationship with his crutches is whole ass mood
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Kinda wanna check out blazar, kinda also like wow 3 shows a week is a Lot and if I Start Something Else my brain will kill me
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#i dunno man.#it's weird having to share a space with someone who hurt you and people you love pretty bad#like i understand it's petty of me to want this person to never interact in fandom spaces i'm in ever again#and it's like#''i hate your guts. i want nothing to do with you. i hope you're miserable. you still sound how i remember you sound. i wish you didn't end#up the way you did. i wish i wasn't so pissed every time i saw you.''#there's no quantifying the damage you've done and i'm sure it feels bigger than it was but you were cruel and unkind and i can never tell u#how do you reconcile that...#my posts
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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
#yeehaw#1k#5k#10k#posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference#edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense#also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags#1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now#he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic#2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign#like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock#3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing#it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is#extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once#it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life#i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about#Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect#if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it#aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week
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When I was young I spent so much time wadding my hair into a ball and shoving it up into a hat and now my hair is reaching some length again and I didn't realize just how much it would make me want to throw up
#i dunno man.#i always manage to convince myself i dont experience dysphoria#and then i cut my hair and i feel a huge rush of relief and it makes me wonder#personal#happy pride#i guess
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still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)
anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#calling dibs on skeleton kisses as the name of my band#man scully is just a delightful little weirdo and i'm enjoying him immensely#(i'm going with scully until we get something official just because it makes me think of x-files)#(スカリー is also how the agent's name is transliterated and i don't know if it was intentional but i love it as a bonus reference)#(i want to believe™)#gosh though#'no one at school likes me because i won't shut up about halloween and jack skellington' i'm feeling VERY attacked right now twst#look scully your people are out there#just get on the forums and -- oh wait you're probably from like the 1800s or something#(my theory is that he's from the past and there's just some Book Magic going on to bring us together)#(LOOK they made a point of saying that the book fair has been held annually for a super long time)#a hot topic goth born before hot topic was invented...so sad 😔#i dunno i could be wrong but that feels like a good working theory for now#if it wasn't for mal sensing twsty ~magic~ on him i would think he's like. a christmas elf who's going to kidnap jack in a reverse-nmbc#(not ruling that out though because it would be amazing)#god all the sprites in this event look AMAZING. loving the desaturated colors and the extra drawn-on lines 😍#i'm genuinely kinda sad that we aren't gonna get to see every character like this#who knows...maybe halloweentown will be imperiled again next year...#come back and destroy my keys again please#(that said i'm doing weirdly well so far?)#(i promised i'd save for sebek and just do cursory pulls to get the SRs and not hope for the SSRs)#(...but then leona jumpscared me four coffins in anyway. halloween magic is REAL)
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Missed these freaks badly
#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#chilshi#pots n picks#man i dunno if i wanna fandom tag all of em ill just do chilchuck and senshi for now lol#chilchuck tims#senshi of izganda#art cabinet#sorry mithrun sorry falin sorry marcille yuor wonderful i love you. kisses and love
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Leo learns something about himself 🏳️⚧️
Based roughly on this old post.
Bonus:
[Leo is taking the fact that he was born biologically female simultaneously very well and also not so well but overall he’s mostly coping with the fact that it was Draxum that just essentially gave him the turtle equivalent of ‘The Talk’.]
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#trans leonardo#trans leo#rottmnt headcanons#turtle art tag#rise draxum#happy pride everyone~#if you’re wondering why there’s no backgrounds that’s because my files got messed up so just blankness in the bg sorry#but yeah!#this is forever and always my fav headcanon for Leo it makes too much sense to me#I wanted to make sure I got it done in time for pride haha#I don’t know if it’s obvious by the end but Draxum ran off because he was for once doing something nice for Leo#that being leading him somewhere else not in front of everyone so Leo can process the fact that he was born female in peace haha#(but he also just - wanted to avoid the ensuing awkward Talk as long as he could lol)#“how would Leo NOT know’’ he had an inkling but never thought much of it because he’s a teenage turtle mutant with no access to healthcare#also yeah that’s splinter’s hand at the end there I just KNOW he’d want those pics#also also - Leo here can technically be trans or even intersex in some way too#both is good#making this made me remember why I never do color#at least for comics#it just takes sooo long#but it was fun and worth it for my fave hc#this is like the first time I’ve drawn Draxum and man he’s kinda hard to draw#also their sizes are just 1 2 and 3 because Draxum had a simple system in place for sizing his subjects#(aka I was too lazy to think of anything else to put there)#also dunno if anyone noticed but look at Raph’s paper and look at his baby’s self’s photo
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