#i dont want to vent but im hashtag sad

[belovedcherie]

last day of hs ever was today :') or last exam to be precise

[pastelpousay]

Hadina thought I had

Hades: bitch are you depressed??

Rina: no!

Hades: *lifts a brow*

Rina: ……yes

Hades: come give your big blue boy a hug snoppy boopy bear

They kiss the end 💪🐺

[chiistarri]

this guy is warning me that im actually not over my excrush???? girl What

[sinningvin]

I’m so MAD because when I got the money the plush sold out and every has their wheatley plush EXCEPT ME and NOBODY FUCKING UNDERSTANDS HOW SAD I AM AND HOW DUMB I FEEL ALL THE TIME NOW

[callilouv]

overanalyzing everything i do would solve 99.99% of my problems methinks

[caruliaa]

AWFUL when u feel like all ur freind groups r falling apart. even worse when u can tell the seasonal depression is going to be awful this year so u prob not gonna have enough energy to do anything abt it

[vanityloves]

this isnt funny anymore.

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

Today’s mood :’)

[mothman-clarice-2]

It hasn't even been a full day and I already miss her desperately

I just wanna hold her again

[onyourzeus]

sorry, felt the need to vent i dont really have people to talk to about this kind kf things yk, people wouldnt really understand :( the few days has been hell, woth the streamers and kpop stans feud going on, everythings so fucked up. im kinda disappointed in her bc i liked her so much and she went and did that, it hurts so bad, and shes also jae's friend which doesnt help the case. unfollowed her everywhere for peace of mind, i just had to bc its getting too much. again so sorry for venting :(

hey, pls don’t apologize for venting ur feelings. i’m honestly ok with that and i hope writing things out this way gave you a sense of comfort in a way. :( i read through all your messages, and i sympathize with your sentiments. 

this is one of the reasons why i don’t stay long enough until the end of his streams anymore because it’s been a regular occurrence that every time he’s on there, shit hits the fan for reasons it shouldn’t. but ofc, he has to be involved and he has to atone for thy sins and it’s just too frustrating for me to handle. 

i didn’t know he mentioned he was thinking of leaving the group due to so much absurd hate thrown at him, and that makes me even angrier. 

angry at the world, at the kpop community if you will, and just angry at how we have come to normalize this kind of behavior towards artists with fame and influence. there’s so much cognitive dissonance going on in the kpop fandom: on one hand we vow to protect these “idols” and artists we love and adore from any misconceptions or unfounded hate towards their character, but on the other we criticize fans who put them on high pedestals, and give these artists a hard time with explaining their sides of the story. what is it, really? where does the line cross? 

in regards to her, i was so shocked that happened. i can’t even put it into words. do what you want as you have been doing it in your streams, but be a little smarter than that jfc. 

i think as stan twt becomes even more rampant everywhere, it’s just so difficult to maintain some peace n balance in the community, and there will always be those who believe they’re better than everyone else bec of this n that, therefore their accusations or opinions on certain artists make sense and should be believed. 

anyway, this has gone on for too long but i rly appreciate you sharing your feelings :( i absolutely agree in that i hope he has a stable support system amidst all of this bec this is too fucking much to handle by oneself. if he’s not careful, it’s truly gonna get to him and no amount of hashtags or defensive tweets rallying for him can make its way to his head. if i’m not mistaken, jae is one of the most recent artists in the realm of kpop that has made himself extremely accessible to modern/western fans compared to other idols in this generation, and as sad (and unjust, don’t get me wrong) as it is, these are just the challenges he faces because of that. 

[dontjudgememp3]

i can't find all these emojis on my phone so...ALL EMOJIS LET'S GO DO ALL THE EMOJIS

oh lordt okay [lady gaga voice] here we go! (the rest of my answers are after the jump, woo!)

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone? - i cant think of anything? i’m incapable of keeping shit to myself hashtag queen of venting

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be? - well i wish i had a dog so i could hug them 

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why? - squirtle because i identify strongly with those pictures of squirtle in sunglasses. also all of the hoenn region starts (torchic, mudkip and treecko) because they are beautiful brilliant angels and i love them

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like? - well, first of all it would be legal to eat the rich so jot that down

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had? - last night i had a dream that i went grocery shopping with zoe kravitz does that count

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend? - i like that my best friend (@gryffinddor) doesnt judge me for my bad decisions and that she supported me even when i used to caption everything with ‘me gusta’ and ‘THIS^^’ (on the real shes just an all round brilliant and beautiful person aw)

😘 talk about your crush or partner - well i dont have a crush or a partner so, next!

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back? - you may be petty punk but being honest...im just as petty and would definitely be rude back

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!) - oh jeez okay I like my eyes, I enjoy my own sense of humor and I enjoy being tall as heck

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it? - i’m really scared of octop*s tbh and i guess i’ll try and overcome it by watching The Handmaiden a bunch

🎁 what never fails to make you happy? - bipharah.tumblr.com/tagged/rainy-days i stock it with good, joyful content 

💙 what annoys you about some people? - ignorance and being judgemental.

😤 do you get angry easily? - not really? I get frustrated but not outright angry

🐇 what do you always daydream about? - living my best Gay life

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change? - the ignorance, the judgement and the general lack of compassion

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry? - ya didnt send me any names ya goof!

✈️ what is your dream city and why? - idk about dream cities but I really really want to go back to Paris. I love it there and wanna experience it as an adult

☕️ talk about your ideal day - i get to stay in bed and watch a bunch of netflix. my imaginary gf is real and next to me and there is a dog snoozin on ur feet

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert? - OH big introvert

💧 when was the last time you cried? - idk about a full blub but i genuinely teared up yesterday looking at the photos of yr dogs

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment - There’s Nothing Holding Me Back by Shawn Mendes, Down by Fifth Harmony, Sweater Weather by The Neighbourhood, Winter by Pvris and Bad 4 Us by Superfruit

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why? - i’d be able to teleport. I just wanna visit all of my friends all of the time. like, I just want that to be easy

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say? - no one cares that yr a wuhluhwuh ya big gaymo, dont worry about it

💚 who are you jealous of and why? - i’m jealous of people living fulfilling lives with loved ones and partners and careless attitudes. god i wish that were me.jpg

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why? - bravery. i’m not an idiot, i don’t think i’m totally hideous, i’m not an asshole and i’m not struggling financially either. just wish i had a bit more courage to get shit done.

🙊 what are you ashamed of? - i’m ashamed of my lack of courage lmao. everything would be grand if i would just take more leaps and didn’t worry so often. it’s embarrassing 

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn? - I studied German for a bit so I know some of that but I’d like to be fluent. I also want to finish learning Korea and start learning Mandarin and Spanish

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be? - i wanna be friends to lovers trope with fareeha amari please and thank you

☁️ talk about your dream universe. - whomst on earth has a dream universe, goodness gracious

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today? - the day is nearly done but tomorrow i’m going to say some affirmations to myself. self-care is kindness am i right

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why? - i would turn into an elephant. they live in a matriarchy and thats #goals

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike - the tories can eat shit. they were the first people that came to mind, so!

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately - what doesnt make me anxious these days hahahahaahah, fuck.

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now? - i wanted to be a writer. now that i’m a writer i want to be a better paid writer

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods? - in this house we appreciate DOUGHNUTS

🍑 what are you obsessed with? - my current obsession is ovw. but i’ve been obsessed since launch so that ain’t new!

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed? - one time i was so stressed that i started losing my hair so uh, that.

😪 what are you sick of? - me, self-sabotaging my own dam self!

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker? - oh heck no

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have? - that wynonna earp is a good show, actually

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person? - yes, i think so.

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies? - does spending an exorbitant amount of time on tumblr count as a hobby 

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself? - There’s Nothing Holding Me Back by Shawn Mendes bc I couldn’t remember what it was called

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it? - I’m not always so open about my thoughts, feelings and fears. I guess I’m improving it by just being more straightforward?

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored? - i can’t draw for shit my dude, so I don’t doodle

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams? - it’s the anxiety

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you? - intj. I have no idea if it suits me tbqh

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite! - okay well i can’t do this one

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why? - normani kordei x 1000. because i love and appreciate her and she’s just good people

🐴 opinion on __? - can’t do this one either!

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person? - me, whomst cries at dogs? being emotional? its more likely than you think!

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them. - honestly i’m too lazy to go and find three books i’m sorry

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help? - focus too much on work/use my rainy days tag. and it works sometimes!

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad? - i remind myself that being sad is unproductive and try and shut that shit down

🌍 which country do you live in? - england

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words - tall, gay loser

🐵 which quotes changed you? - no quotes have changed me oops

💭 do you keep a diary? - no i do not

💫 who inspires you? - my mother

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why? - i refuse to answer this question because i don’t wanna get haunted

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like? - smart, preppy and includes a lot of blue

🎬 what are some of your favourite films? - Carol, The Handmaiden, Up, Imagine Me and You and White Chicks

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory? - playing mario party 8 on a gamecube with my cousins i miss when we all had time for that

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why? - i would meet normani and say thx for following me on twitter bbs