#i dont really know how to trigger tag this

[theokusgallery]

This is a MASSIVE hot take, but I would trust Arsenic to watch my drink.

As long as I'm not threatening Sunny or his relationship with Sunny I wouldn't be assassinated, right? And he doesn't really have any other reason to do anything else with my drink. Plus, who is gonna approach this massive dude to specifically mess with a drink he's holding?

How doomed would I be if I asked him to hold my drink? How would he watch Sunny's drink if they were at a bar?

Oh wow. Okay, that's probably gonna be a long one (obvious TW for talk of drinks being roofied, and talk of SA)

Giving him your drink is kind of a gamble. Pre-Sunny relationship, it depends on his mood. If he feels like he can do something funny by putting something in someone's drink, he absolutely fucking will. He's not going to assault the person in any way, but if he feels like stealing money for them, or if he thinks it's too funny they decided to trust him with their drink of all people and he just NEEDS to take advantage of that just for the hell of it, then they're in for a bad time. But you're right in that he won't let anyone else do anything with it.

When he's already in love with Sunny though? He's more likely to just steal it from them and drink it. He'll probably still get the "what if" thoughts, but he won't act on it, if only because Sunny's there and, you know, he's Nick's very own precious little doll and if he's going to drug someone, it's probably going to be Sunny. Again, not for anything untowards, but he likes the idea of putting Sunny in his debt by getting him home safely (and maybe staying there with him under the guise of making sure he's okay in the morning). In late-stage Arsunny relationship, he won't even need to, so no real danger here. I feel like the act of sliding something into your drink would count as cheating to him at this point. Again with the "Sunny is his only special guy" thing.

Luckily, Sunny doesn't go to bars. He'd much rather drink comfortably in his own home. Which doesn't mean that Nick won't do anything with his drink there,

(Let it be known that the fact he won't assault neither a stranger nor Sunny isn't because he's morally above doing that. It's just not something he's interested in doing. Not a morality issue)

[fantomeeee]

cw: implied self harm

[volfoss]

it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.

[killjoy-prince]

Trying on the cosplays imma wear to a con in a month and getting excited that ill be cosplaying said characters in a month

[yourinaudiblename]

I’ve become afraid of death. which is actually improvement for someone who was suicidal but also. scary :(

this is all your faults /pos /pos /pos-

[bunnyboy-juice]

honestly. being able to be honest with my loved ones about when i am Mentally Unwell but also Dont Want To Talk About It has done wonders for my mental health

[fortunatefires]

I was nervous about posting my weight loss on tumblr because it's where my ED started. But I'm recovered and I'm finally able to lose weight in a healthy way.

[solar--spectrum]

We got so high the only memories of a very long complex important conversation (one-sided entirely more of a rant) between CB and 🐙 look like... this

See more rant in the comments ☆ I lost control!

[solarisii]

.vent.

[ace-apple]

every time someone talks about qcellbits relapse as "giving into his urges" or some shit in that vain an angel loses its wings a fairy dies etc etc

[swift-kwikster]

Can you put TW's on your pregnant Sam posts it's triggering my tokophobia I'm not trying to be rude it's just annoying i keep seeing it in my feed despite blocking tags such as mpreg or t-preg

Hey of course I'll trigger tag it as pregnancy, I'm really sorry they kept popping up for you. Don't call trans men pregnancy mpreg ever though, at least don't do that when talking to me please. Same with 't-preg', would appreciate if that term isn't used when speaking with me either.

If you're only triggered by trans pregnancy, then please block this blog. No hard feelings with that. I'm not gonna trigger tag trans pregnancy specifically. You can't control your triggers and I respect that, please protect yourself. However this is my blog as well and I'm not gonna treat trans pregnancy as another category on here, on here it's the same as if it was cis people going through that too so I'm only gonna use the one tag. If this is from dysphoria, I'm really sorry. Just block and curate your online experiences when it comes to how people go about their own bodies. Not mad at you, just offering advice and being honest.

[angelcloves]

reading over it again i might have overhyped todays request upload but it still deals with things that might not be nice to see so exercise caution

[qeyond]

Youtube | Spotify

CW abuse/trauma/ptsd. It's a pretty raw song (both in lyrics and the way Black Dresses preforms their songs) so listen at your own discretion.

This song really speaks so honestly to the deeply self-destructive spiralling for B, in my opinion. Speaking politeness through your gritted teeth with a lying softness, boiling over, letting it out, feeling it on your bared, snarling teeth, breathing out smoke, "is it me? am I the problem? am I the evil monster?", "its always been me", spitting up blood, biting the hand that feeds and ripping them the fuck to shreds to be left alone.

Lyrics under the cut.

Why thank you for your opinion What you think is so important So let's talk this out i love it You're so funny i hope you're doing well Thank god for the tongue in your mouth I'm so happy i'm so lucky I get to do whatever i can be myself But you know what? I have zero tolerance for Bad little shitheads Who only seem to fuck around

Same shit different day You need to fuck off you need to go away I don't wanna talk about it That's all that I came to say Get out of my space You worthless fucking fuckface

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are?

Hey bitch, what the fuck's going on? Is this how you wanna spend the Last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years your legacy Your legacy your legacy your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the fucking evil monster terror Scared you can be the evil monster It was always you it was always you It was always you it was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you Thought were common sense Just a little further One day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter Your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by Your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a Name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from The touch of it everything all the time is a Message that I shouldn't be Who the fuck are you? Stay the fuck away from me

I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me Memories are killing me Memories are killing me it hurts

[wehavecometoanend--maybe]

i know my sister is reliable because she'll be the only one who'll go "did u lose weight?! girl, have u been not eating enough again?!" instead of "you lost weight? that looks good! :)" like everyone else who feels the need to comment

[winglssdemon]

Making a blanket statement of 'no one can lose weight without starving themselves' veers into some serious 90s fad diet culture bullshit. Like sure, you might think you're just saying that trying to lose weight is worthless BUT there will be people who hear that and then starve themselves to try and lose weight which is extremely dangerous.

There are safe, healthy, and sustainable ways to work on weight loss IF that is a needed thing for some people. Please do not think starving yourself is the only answer and don't let anyone else tell you so.

[sollux-captor]

im feeling so many ways abt late a5a2 homestuck (i just finished it actually) but the sufferer hit way different.

homestuck late a5a2 spoilers incoming!!!

adding this after writing way too much shit that im not fucking deleting: vent cw too

ok so my main thing that made me feel something (a rarity, like almost unheard of /gen /srs) was the signless' story. something about it just envoked feelings within me, i dont even know how to describe them

something about this fucking frame just made me feel... idk what. dread? pity? genuinely idk. obviously its not the whole "ouuuu tied up so hawttt" bullshit, idk i think the story combined with the music and imagery just made it to the farthest pits of my soul, and this point was the breaking/overwhelming point.

i almost want to sit thru all of it again just to try and figure it out. i want to feel that again to understand it. obviously if i read it again i wont feel anything cuz thoughts, emotions, and feelings are a rare experience for me.

i feel like the story felt like a metaphor for my life, not to get all emo and dark and edgy or whatever about it, im being completely level-headed and genuine with this.

fuck thats what it feels like's happening inside of me. i feel my compassion and love for others depleting, as its been for years, with the cards ive been dealt (not getting into that right now). ive been conscious of an eternal rage slowly growing inside of me, and these past few years i feel like the ratio of compassion vs. rage within me is leaning in a way that im just barely able to see how bad and scary it is. ive been subjected to a life of suffering in almost every place i could imagine, yet i always tried to stay a loving, caring person for the few individuals who bring about some light in this darkness.

yet i can see it happening before my very eyes. i see i am no longer who i once was, im worse, im violent and enraged all the time and its getting worse and harder contain with every passing day. its scary being able to watch yourself rot away into a bottomless pot of boiling rage.

torture and execution has always been the metephor ive used when describing how i live and feel inside. i think to see something so deep within me and something so relatable in front of me, written and drawn out as a story, i think that broke me.