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Joshua from cdta I do love him a teeney bit

( @missr3n3 's oc !! )

[devondespresso]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @museumgiftshoperaser

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

technically 2, but its a sfw and nsfw version of the same fic fhajklfjdalfjk

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

...6,357. i promise i write.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

just stranger things so far, but i have seriously thought about writing about Fender's gender from Robots (2005) and I promised my friend a Shark Tale fic for their birthday fjalhfdjkalfdj

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Never Again

Never Again (sfw)

fascinating statistics arent they

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

never gotten comments on ao3, i do reply to what i get on tumblr tho because it literally makes my day

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

(including my unposted work) Never Again, tho i think its more bittersweet than unrelenting angst

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

tho its technically not finished, We'll Be Alright (Steve Henderson AU) has a very happy ending

8. Do you get hate on fics?

no, thank god

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

im gonna say no? despite writing something spicy at the beginning of Never Again it was not a good time (for me or Nancy)

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

haven't yet, and while i wont write them off entirely itd have to have really strong potential for me to want to do it

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

no

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no, and i dont know how well id go. on the one hand im usually good at group stuff but im also an annoying perfectionist with my writing

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

platonically stobin 100%. i dont get nearly as attatched to the romantic ones so i kinda just bounce around the fandom. Really love a lot of the steve harrington rairpairs floating around, plus robin and vickie

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I dont realllly have a writing wip i know i wont finish cause i've just been posting those vague ideas instead of actually writing them becuase i know i wont. My only active wip is the steve henderson au and im hoping praying to god that i dont suddenly loose passion for it

16. What are your writing strengths?

dialogue probably, coming up with how different characters are saying things, what theyre saying, what they mean, all the little differences in their voices, I love it. that and having characters interact with the environment

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

overthinking and underthinking, stopping myself from making something happen or a character do something because theres this pull in my chest telling me its wrong. even just standard selfishness or saying something without the express intent of making sure it wont hurt someones feelings. i also start sentences with verbs djaldjdjaf

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

makes sense if characters are speaking multiple languages i guess. depends on pov and how limited it is to the pov character. like if the pov character doesnt speak spanish it'd be better to write "and they said something in spanish they didnt understand" instead of writing the spanish out assuming the audience doesnt know it either

19. First fandom you wrote for?

stranger things

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

definitely my steve henderson au. i wish it was shared already but at the same time i've editied and changed so much im glad i havnt officially yet. its helped me work through a lot and has even caused noticable improvement in my relationship with my family even if they dont know it exists. i cant promise itll be fully posted soon, but i am so exited for when i do

tagging @stobinesque @marvel-ous-m @eriquin @itsthestrangestthings @findafight @fag4dykestobin (no pressure ofc 💕)

[stinger-shot]

Rn I was supposed to be watching tfp for that thing I was doing but uh... I got distracted by rayman.

Am I writing this while I watch somone play through the first game? yes.

Is this the 100th time I'm watching this? Also yes.

But its odly comforting for me rn (not gonna go into detail because its a train wreck)

But anyway let me rant about the stupid limbless guy and his amazing games (expect the rabbids)

Anyway rayman 1 is definitely my favourite out of all of the main line games.

I like it and I don't know why, it's probably because of Mr dark BUT WHO CAN BLAME ME? HAVE YOU SEEN HIM!? he's generic with his actions but holy crap is he fucking hot.

I also really like the other villians! Sure they are a bit odd bit I still like them! Even the random enemies there is, they are all interesting

AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE MUSIC.

The music's so fun at times but also very creepy during specific levels...

I like rayman 2, I can't remember mutch because I've only watched a playthrough once... but its interesting and the villians are also good.

Rayman 3 is also very good! I havnt finished watching it yet but I like the characters and how they interact, sure somtimes it can be jarring but its also fucking hilarious.

Rayman origins sounds great from what I've heard but I can't say anything because I havnt actully played it yet, because I don't have anything to play it on sadly.

I have however, played legends because it was my first ps4 game I got (I don't have a ps4 anymore) I never played it when I first got it but I did get it on the switch a few years after and it's a good game like really good one of the best games ive ever played!

But anyway I'll shut up now, maybe I'll post more rayman stuff because it is technically one of my main fandoms but we'll see.

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

THE L GOT YASSIFIED N GHANDI IS AT 14TH ST UNION SQUARE!!!!!!?!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the L stawped being a cunt on the weekendz w it’s fuckin delays n got individual seats that don’t clap back when u sit down ! Altho i am a “clap back “ advocate (Let ur cheekz Speak if they must ) i do wonder why

why is it always so awkward to hit on someone on public transit ?

we sit across each other staring each other down n i wish u were clumsy enough.

to leave a bag or your phone or wallet on the seat so i could say something to you but nothing is scripted here on this island of a city. there are only real moments. and this includes the pain in the people watching cuz sometimes we just end up watching them live their lives so much so in admiration we watch them leave.

I wrote dat ab some rly long white person with a maroon jumpsuit. N i don’t hav the energy to post a misc connection on Queer craigslist /LEX soooooo. Whut eve.

Dis week i hav been severely depressed n isolative besides for the day that the pilgrims decided to say it wuz the day that wuz gonna b ab slaying n giving . i ate sum dead bird n made sure even their bone marrow life mattered n cartilage cuz post veganism n peta rites advocate type beat a life is a mf life . Hoe .

Mi boss at union square Market s@id she saw her nekked neighbur whilst walkin around the duck truck. whut wuld u do if ur nekkid neighbor came to ur place of werk n every1 sais he is a rly nice person but he had a big SSHLONG. Now i kno whut ima wish 4 on my wishlist. No this isn’t 4 other bitchez . Nor is it for sshlong reveal. I wish some1 wuld notice meh as the nekkid neighbur at the union Square holidey market.

I whuhz almost in luv w a gurl who luved big patty wattyz n raised awareness for autism via tiK tok last yr n also i hate lex now!!!!!!!!!!! 2 many ppl wanting to give out their used sheets n Service tops who dont wanna Host . But i do thoroughly enjoy when Ppl wanna give their free concert tickets out . So lex gonna b the new ticketmaster to me but anarchist - community fridge version Without the food . Smfh . Y it gotta take watching perks of being a wallflower to realize we regret picking the boy w the eyebrow piercing when we culdve picked the 1 who got hit by a car butt still ended up pullin up to bossa limpin .

Im in luv with club E n gave them my tiara cuz they r a tucking princess and cuz their music reminds meh of myspace era sheit. Also they name is ren like me TWOOOOOO. twinnem:-] <3

As car seat headrest sayz in its only seggs i think bc of his demisexual cusp of asexual self .

“

OK, so I've been reading all the sex blogs

And they all talk about how OK it is to be gay

And straight and bisexual and asexual

And have sex however you like

But I don't care about hundreds of hypothetical people

And their hypothetical sex deals

I care about me, and my sex deal!

What about my problems?

Baby, my body

Constantly betrays me

I try to betray it

I only hurt myself

Yeah, yeah

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? I like it

I can't tell you if I like it, I like it

What happens if I don't like it? It's only-

It's only sex

It's only

It's only sex

C'mon, sexual desire, speak! “

My brain is too fried from vyvanze dependence to decipher n explain it all right meow . I jus kno i luv those lyrics n i luv when post club - post party we all come back to mi lil floor mattress in mi tiny room n we kuddle puddle!!!!!!

Saw a Zyn nicotine ad omw to my lobotomy apt at callen lourde this mornin n i miss the dude who gav tht to meh while me werkin this japanese restaurant once n holy sheit i wuz shaking n shitting n crying my entire shift . I miss werking there cuz i made $400 a shift n lowkey I could get any vacation hours i wanted. Now im like a finance bro who goes to reggae bars in the city N gets pussy on hinge . v_v RIP!!!!!

i havnt been to saint vitus penus yet but thts Ok cuz i heard someone saw pee pee juice n eyeball juice on the bathroom mirror once n ill just stick to duffz if i wanna find a punk goth giorl to destroy my Third hole . Im crying a lot these days super fragile as well as today being a significant date for me N i missh ketamine so damn much butt i refuse to sniff anymore cuz i nvr kno how to dose w the diff german strainz n i always get sickie or khole n see myself on a train n being someone’s mutha . Weird!!!!!!!!!!’

Idek if i givin up on life or life givin up on meh but im just mf done . N i kno dis cuz im in my candle era yall . Where i lie n say i’m “running errands “ but sniffin diff candles at target n burglington ALONE . all dis for some mf seratonin biotch ????!!!????? Alsoo last randomo thot but i luv one of my good friendz from nyu n they were ganged up on bc of some DUMB RUMORS n i gots to say i kant stand a fucking bully or ppl who kant extend grace to others cuz it just feels v cliquey n stupid . Lik if we rly gonna believ rumors n gossip n not see someone’s character or try to understand i don’t see how ppl can b ok wit the ppl they hav to be with when they r alone with themselvez at nite . We r constantly evolving and it’s wrong to hold things against people esp in this age and this goes for me as well. I hope to receive the grace and love and empathy that I extend .

Soooooo many more fuckin thots n ramblingz like how i wish there was a poll i could start somewhere outside of instagram ab who wuld fuck G Eazy post halsey (Cmon , “tumblr girls”was an AMAZING song!!!!!!) N how much i luv egg by the garden but. Til nxt wk Babez.

Xx , ketaminechic NOT CHICK who doesn’t do ketamine anymore but kant put the energy into changing it then changing it on all platforms cuz omfGGGGGGGggg who cares that deeply ab this social media Bullsheit anywayzzz , Renny baby <3 :-] visit me at union square market Booth c20til Xmas eve !!!

[dapper-nahrwhale]

i want u to know that i saw ur dndads time loop post in the tag and now its living in my head rent free. the concept of one or more of the dads living through that last day over and over is. so good. no matter what they do lark always spills henrys blood and the apocalypse begins. the inherent angst of watching the world end over and over while trying desperately to stop it AH

Heheh yeah >:3 now you know how I feel with that living rent free in MY head. I keep tossing around who should keep living through that, and so fat its between sparrow or glenn or someones else. Dont want to do henry or lark cuz then they can stop the apocalypse and the time loops over (?)

The way this specific time loop au works I think is kinda like the movie palm springs, where one character accidentally brings someone else into the time loop that they've been stuck in for a long time, and havnt been able to get out of. I think it would start at the beginning of the day, when the pov character wakes up and end at the apocalypse or dies before it, then wakes up at the start of the same day.

(Also, one or more times, it could be sparrow who spills Henry's blood. Cuz hes the lord of chaos too. So theoretically it could work.)

I'm not planning on writing this right now, but if I keep having Thoughts abt it... i may have to...

I already have a title lol. It's the end of the world (again and again and again)

[miscellaneous--bones]

🖊 + Honeybee?

Honeybee!!!!! i love her and jack <3<3<3

she is a little plushie that i got from a goodwill forever ago and then jack was a fall decoration i got from my dad's mom :) i actually made her and jack's kid a while ago around the same time as gabriel but like. i dont like it so ill prolly remake it at some point lmao

i mentioned in the one post about her being a beekeeper! that holds true, she loves her bees and her favorite food is 100% toast with honey. i think she cries everytime she might have to kill off a queen or anything. also i wouldnt be surprised if she names her hives and painted their box with a cute little design or something because she just loves her bees so much??

not really sure yet but i might make jack mute? because his mouth is stitched? havnt decided but honeybee is like way attentive. they talk through either ''subtitles'' (a magical ability that lets your speech be seen as text and lets u turn ur thoughts into text with enough practice so you dont actually have to talk) or some sort of modified sign. even then tho its like that dynamic thats like likes to talk + likes to listen with these two and it works so well and they're the cutest fucken things istg

tiny wife <3<3<3

[snow-wind-and-all-we-will-find]

Hi! My names arthur and im working on improving my word and building my story, which currently has no name haha! I have a myriad of characters who ill try to list out and give brief descriptions of, aether is technically my main character and some of the characters who are up for question are dead in canon. But you can still ask them stuff, itll just be set before death.

When asking characters questions, rememeber to include the name, their age if theres diffrent ages, i dont mind repeated questions, but if you see the question try not to ask it again lol. If you cant find it with a quick scroll just ask it, although i dont know if this blog will even get that big.

Aether

He comes in three evolutions lol, technically, theres four but idk if i would count 7 year old aether.

Ages: 13 yo - colder, hasnt gotten used to emotions, there are two to this as well, pre-rev and then post-rev 13 yo aether, remember to specify lol.

16 yo- a bit more out there, still kinda disconnected and figuring things out, a bit more defensive

22 yo- lax, hes sorta figured shit out, hes not going to go grazy, hes just gonna be chill lol.

!The gaggle Ghosts!

Yurei

Her personality is very, ehhh, becuase i havnt done work with her, and i havnt completly figured out who she is fully yet, shes 18 yo when aether is 22 yo

18 yo- pretty oblivious, somehow still a bit cynical, very nice and sometimes motherly

Kakoku

Few thousand- mean, likes to bully yurei as he huants her, lowkey a simp for yurei but he wont admit that. Kinda cynical and likes to bring others down, generally a bully

Tamashi

19- emotionless, has to be a really strong emotion to make her emote, tends to stray away from other people, likes to be alone, blunt

Gunnar

A few thousand- sweet, warm and welcoming, tries to be very fatherly and a trusted figure, is very busy most of the tiime unfortunatly though.

!The greek gang!

Argus agapov

16- unstable, pretty baby, protective over friends and family

Mythos agapov

23- whore. He also loves his family, lowkey, hes a trad wife

Perceus

15/16- timid, intrested in posiosn and acids, generally quiet, likes to eat leaves, scaredy cat

Diogenes

14- germ of phobe, kind of a brat, more just a bitch, will yell at you if he sees your hands were dirty from gardening or something while you’re walking to the sink, other than that hes fine, picky eater

Herodotus

15- disorginized, trys his best, likes to write stuff down, helps plato with his writing and grammar in general, gullible, likes record data, has a nice typewriter with tha good clicky clack

Plato

8- sweet baby boi, loves his older brother (socrates), idolizes him even, not a good idea though. He writes down everything socrates does, sometimes he imitates his brother as well.

Socrates

17- dumb of ass, also just dumb, held back a grade, feral child, bites alot of people, soft aestechic but hed stab as a warning

Heracles

30- also dumb of ass, loves cars in that ‘mah babeh’ kinda way. Hates motorcycles, he thinks they’re ugly. Chaotic but he utilizes it to be the weird and cool uncle/cousin thing

Zeus

46- too tired for this shit, is a dad, went out to get milk, jk jk, dissapeared for a hot few years, probably got captured by some gang dunno, it happens. Very serious, would make the dumbest jokes with his brothers with a straight face

Hades

50- lowkey the neglected middle child, soft goth lookin ass, loves his kid, tries his best to raise his kid, sometimes gets help from esme

Poseidon

57- proud stay at home dad, buff but does the typically wifely duties, makes sure his children get enough love, nutrience and care

Lillith

54- very active, the money maker, kinda soft, both her and her husband poseidon are so just in love with their kids, dote on them constantly, very extroverted, always makes time for her kids

Esme

51- tired of zeus’ shit, does her best to make sure no one dies, still treats mythos as her ‘little baby boy, tired mom vibes.

!the Eden gang!

Eden is a fictional country that i slapped onto the globe. It is where aether is from, technically aether is apart of the eden gang as well. Everyone here, if they have an age option, the first age option is the age they are when aether is 13, and the second will be when aether is 16 unless stated otherwise

General kyelli

49- fatherly, thinks of most of the gang as his children, calls everyone ‘son’, as a general rule. If you ask for another nickname, he will do his best. Has a bad knee, and is kinda of bad at existing physically

52+- fatherly still, loves almonds, always has a bag of almonds, dont test him. Enjoys travel, might adopt people he meets along the way, still has pains but now he sees doctors, wants to stay active

Indigo

13- sweet, optimistic, always looks on the brightside and tries to see the good in others. Little heater, understands that sometimes fighting is the only option

Akrano

16- lively, very loose and relax, can get serious when needed though, always making jokes and trying to lighten up the mood

19- a bit more, mellow. Still quite lively and childish, but with two signifigant-others you have to settle down sometimes

Ekrano

16- lively, more stern than akrano and kinda worried, but ultimatly also very loose and bright

Lilliana

16- serious, seemingly colder towards everyone, gets along great with psycho-lops, makes him new eye-patches to pass time, actually just very monotone and blank most of the time, although she does care

19- she doesnt change much, she got a bit more expressive, likes babysitting howl

Psycho-lops

16 1/2- always looks determined, actually kinda scared of conflict, likes to help out with healing though, very proficient in it as well, sounds intimidating while talking about how cute puppies and kittens are

19/20- still the same, is considering studying medicine and medical practices to become a doctor.

Bark

17- bright, incredibly lively, loves to joke around and tease and sometimes bully the others, targets aether primarily, hangs out with his brother most of the time, he can fight for himself but he likes the backup, especcially since he is kinda glass-jawed, being that hes a twig

Bite

17- quiet, intense eyes, always sounds vaugly confused when he speaks, deep voice lol, likes to train, doesnt understand barks need to tease others, likes to read to the children

20- quiet, intense eyes still, more so nervous sounding, slightly paranoid, cluastrophobic and cant stand dusty places, usually in his house or at the docks, doesnt really go anywhere else

Hanelle

17- loud, headstrong, adamant about her opinions, gets along well with bark, she tries alot to be intimidating, not a twig, but not very big, pretty friendly and sociable

!the band of pirates!

Aklea

A few hundreds of years- kinda bored seeming, loves blood, technically cannibal, but not really since he isnt human, to an extent. Despite being fine on the ocean, he gets very car sick very easily. Actually quite nice, very easily triggerd into violence, especcially by something that could be used as a good murder weapon, blood makes him jittery and more lively

Nerone

21- calm, too calm, deals with akleas bullshit wonerfully, he just stands there, blank smile on his face as aklea beats the shit outta someone, unintrested in most anything, likes to draw, but hes a much better pastry chef.

!the shakespears!

Midem(pink boi)

33- lively, loves to work with kids, very creative, likes to make things, mainly art, mainly carvings. Often make little minitures of scenes from midens writing, loves his twin, does anything it takes to fund midens intrests. Very loving to those hes close to

Miden

33- calmer by alot lmao, pretty introverted but he can hold a long conversation without becoming too drained, enjoys writing and making stories, also makes plays for fun, runs off little sleep cuase he stays up so late to write, and gets up early to write.

!gods!

Gideon

9 billion- confused boomer, loves his ‘children’, hates to be hated, always tries to help in anyway he can, despite making them, always curious into what mortals are doing, loves the universe he created and does anything he can to protect it

Merik

7 million- sore loser, does get a little salty, ultimatly bounces back and becomes a very good sport, always will adopt tactics, whatever it takes to win within the rules, keeps most all of his trophies from random feats hes done

Ventus

5 billion - calm, straightforward, tends to disregard others and do things himself, likes to sit on cliffs and watch the ocean

Kyle

Hes been around since 776 bc- very loud, lively, bright, tries his best to educate people on proper form, workout regime i intesne, doesnt allow others to take it, makes custom workout regimes for free, owns a gym, dude bro but hes nice, baby

Horo-sha

Her age technicaly is not accurate, shes like, 2 billion? Since dima was made right after her death. But since her history still lives, ima count it

5 billion but older than ventus- bitter, violent, former god of justice, fucking dead haha, hates mortals, primarily humans

Dima

Also not super accurate, hed only be a few centuries of being an active god before being sealed, but since hes technically, concious and has cognitive function hes counted

3 billion- mean lol, likes blood and gets even more violent when it starts getting messy, ‘new’ god of justice, uh, pretty bad at it like the last one, but worse, will kill over slight misdeameanors, everythings a crime smh

!misc!

Ivan

24- softspoken, from imperial russia, died young, he no longer feels his face is his own, has a mask that he likes better, has the sickness, but since he was human it killed him, can control it post mortem, is strong enough to be seen, but weak enough he can go invisible and go through solid objects.

More ocs will be added when i remember them, or create new ones, characters i dont really have built at all are not included

[dreaming-of-assclass]

Dont know if your still want asks, but what about more on Irina Cival War? Some points you want to talk about but havnt gotten to? Or maybe what about just stuff about the class 3-E teachers plus Aguri? What mischief is brought about by them?

I love the 3-E faculty so much. I’ll make a separate post for them in the future, someone please remind me UwU. Here’s one I made a while ago, though!

Oooh so about Civil War:

I’m currently still working out the “plot” and the order of the attacks, like who gets who out.

But someone else ( @heavenlyfury ) brought up the advantage that Red Team has in this version... like a massive advantage since Karma, Isogai, Hayami, and Nagisa are on the same team...against Irina.

Now is a good time to tackle this.

I think the concept of Civil War alone allows for an expansion on every individual’s abilities, and what they contribute to the class. Like in canon, we saw many of the students we formally deemed “average” to show their talents and surprise everyone.

In this AU, I don’t think Karma would take the reins alone as strongly as he did in canon. Like I don’t know if this makes sense, but it doesn’t hit him as personally? Karma just wants to guarantee his classmate’s safety, and recieve an acknowledgement that their trust was broken, as a collective whole.

I think Isogai would definitely be more of a leader this time around, like not just as a harmonious one. No, this man would go full commander, but still in a fair way, of course. He’s a cooperative person, but this whole thing hits close to home. He wouldn’t really get the chance to do his own personal attacks on anybody though. He would be more strategic and relegate people to different tasks, make plans, etc.

In this scenario, I feel like Nagisa and Sugino would be too upset to think as clearly as they did in canon. Neither of them are leader candidates in this AU, even though they certainly can be great leaders. They do take out a couple people each, and Nagisa does get to show off his assassin talent. But he is unable to progress because he gets taken out...by Kayano.

Now on the other team:

We have some aces here too. Don’t worry, they won’t be going down without a fight. The ones that come to my mind are Kataoka, Okano, Kayano, Kanzaki, Chiba, and Maehara.

A group of people who either specialize in close-combat, or long-range assasinations.

In this AU (aka my brain) Kanzaki and Okano especially get to show off their insane talent more. They’re not the cuties they are in canon, they’re way more badass and cutthroat. I really want to emphasize on Okano’s full-body strength and climbing capabilities, as well as the stealth potential with her. For Kanzaki, I just want her to go wild and show off her skills, especially the ones gained from video games.

Nakamura is also on this team, and we can’t forget, this girl is just as sharp and sly as Karma can be. She was his right-hand man in canon for a reason. Now in this AU, they’re going against each other and I love it. A battle of the wits. She definitely takes on the role of being strategist for their team.

Of course, Kataoka is leader. And she is a total badass, determined to lead her team to victory.

Oh, I almost forgot my girls Yada and Kurahashi! I absolutely would love to include a moment somewhere in this AU where they use their acting skills to dupe a member of the other team and get a kill in.

Before I forget to mention this, Kayano also gets a moment to show off some strength. But before she does, there might be a semi-emotional confrontation scene between her, Nagisa, and maybe Sugino. She’s the one to take them both out, I’m thinking.

And it’ll all end in a sniper showdown between Chiba and Hayami.

Basically, it seems as though there’s a big difference in strength between the teams, but there sorta isn’t. Both teams have their strengths, and they know how to cleverly use them. That said, the Blue Team is definitely still seen as underdogs in the beginning. But they quickly turn the tides around.

Hnnnn this AU is lacking the “big picture” kind of vibe that was in canon, and I feel kinda bad about that. There’s a lot more emphasis on inter-connected issues, and personal dynamics at hand. But I still love those a lot, and I think they deliver a different type of drama in writing, one that’s just as important in my opinion.

Thank you for the ask!!

[sasukemexican]

GREEN!!!!

HELLO THANK YOU

Green:

what’s your favorite thing to do outside?

gardening!!! barefoot! i havnt worn shoes outside while gardening since like. march. it makes me so happy i dunno why??? fuck shoes 2020!!! but over all gardening <33 la milpa is almost ready to be harvested <3 🌱 vamos hacer corondas and the melon and watermelon sprout is growing quickly and las calabaza vines are huge <3

do you like camping?

ive only been once (ok twice but the second time was with my father so it was stressful and horrendous so it dont count) anywayz ive been once and i loved it!! it was wif my brudr <33 and my cousins and tio y tia and grandma and ahhh very gud time i sat on a crawfish accidentally

what would you spend $1,000 on?

id buy tings for other people! im so cheap when it comes to buying tingz for myself like i absolutely cannot justify it, but id gladly buy like. the ps5 for my brudr or a bunch of stuffed animals for my best buddy and then buy myself a 60cent slushy lmaoo

what’s your job, or what do you want to do as your job?

im studying to be a mortician!! gonna take a while but i wILL be one, as for rn id kill for a simple fuckin. cashier job or something ANYTHING. i need monies

what’s your favorite article of clothing?

MY JEAN JACKET I GOT FROM THEO @shittyteen <3333 its so kool i need to post a pic sometime soon

[scourge-sympathiser]

the only thing i have about that AU where leafpool sends her kits to RiverClan is that: what will happen when they find out about the "kin of your kin" prophecy? because as far as they know they're not related to any clan cat

OOOH i didnt consider tht whn i waz first writting the post bcuz.. if im being honest i .... dont find the actual overarching prophecy plot of power of three all tht interesting.........

BUT it could be neat if like... i think it would be intresting if either jayfeather interpreted the prophacy as u gotta find those 3 OR he thinkz tht thy r relativez of the kittypet side of firestarz family... hell maybe thy didnt evn realize tht thy wernt riverclan born catz until thn [idk i still havnt decided if riverclan just kept hush n let the kitz think thy r clanborn or if thy would tell thm...]

& firestar likely forgot about the prophecy in the heat of the situation as it waz a while back he heard it... n once he did remember itz understandable 4 him 2 assume tht it would be the kitz if bramble & squirrel r trying 4!!

[kenazraventooth]

Oops... guess who has played n loved smile for me...? Yuup!

So i put my sona as flower kid! But I do have an idea for the being a habitician.. and ill be posting the as being at the habitat

Warning spoilers ahead! Im on mobil so the whole "keep reading" doesnt show up on the app. Which is dumb.

Kenaz (yay blatant self insert) 1st shows up after Trencil's 1st quest after the flowers are but in and can be seen sitting by him just a bit beyond the dusk flower. Kenaz just like the silent compainionship and flowers.

When talked to they are happy that flower kid has put the flowers in the courtyard, it makes it look nicer. Then asks if you can keep an eye out for something.

If no: "O-oh ok... I didn't mean to be a burden."

If yes: The player would be asked if they find an inhaler that it is theirs. They have looked everywhere for it and are getting nervous about not being able to breath if the PSA's get any spookier.

Player will then get asked "Youre probably woundering why I dont get a spare huh?"

If no: "Oh cool! It's a bit embrassing to explain anyhow."

If yes: "I only need it if I have to do a lot of running or if I get very scared... Luckly I dont have to run form much in here.. haha." Suggesting that they are running more form emtional issues rather then actual threats in the outside world

Fun fact about me: I thought the asthma kid having an attack when being very scared was just a joke rather then an actual thing until I meet my coworker who semi accidently scared me into an attack one day! (He ment to scare the hell out of me yes. He did not mean to give me an asthma attack tho.)

The inhaler is found between the two carla's stands in Ronbo's carnival. Its easy to find and pick up.

Kenaz is over joyed when you give back their inhaler, but when asked where you found it and motioning to the carnival Kenaz gets a bit sheepish and mentions that they must of dropped it when they got spooked by the game attendent carla while checking out the foritune teller stand. (And yes that carla always spooks me because I will forget they are there. Be looking for something only to be scared when they flail their arms >((( )

After giving back the inhaler Kenaz will give you a sunflower seed that has a blushing smile on it as a thank you. [Note this will not bring Kenaz to full joy]

Planting the sunflower seed will show a cute happy sunflower.

Bringing back the Sunflower will bring them to full joy as you actually took the time to grow it and give it to them... they will give you another seed incase you find joy in seeing the flower when you go to bed and wake up... just dont tell Dr. Habit that they are doing something to help cheer fokes up aswell. This is to suggest that, like flower kid, Kenaz likes to bring joy to the people around them but after Dr. Habit's passive agressive to out right mean comments they are to scared to do so.

If you thought it was the end... hehe your worng ;)

If (or should I say when) you punch Kenaz for Tim tams quest they will give you a stunded look and if they were full joy before the blue sparks will vanish. They will give "...." as the dailogue for the rest of that day. They next they will vanish.

Kenaz will appere in the lougue the next table over form tiff back in the simlar position when 1st meet and with a drink. Talking to them "Wh..what do you want?! Havnt you hurt me enough?! I thought you were my friend!"

If no: Kenaz's unicorn horn will light up with magic while Kenaz looks hateful "Magic can do a lot of things... but I dont think you want to find out what it will do to you." If you talk to them again you will be teleported in the acid pool in the boiler room. If you go back to try to talk to them again you will get "No! I dont want to talk to you again!" And you will be sent to the boiler room again. You wont beable to talk to kenaz again til the next day.

If yes: Kenaz will go silent for a moment and ask if your here to apologize.

If no: Kenaz will simply ask you to leave then.

If yes: Kenaz will ask why you punched them. When showed Tim Tam's photo Kenaz will say "Oh. I see. You really out to cheer everyone up huh... I never did understand why hurting others in any way makes people happy." There will be a silence and the blue sparks will come back "Thank you... I'll be down here for a bit, but I promise it wont be for to long.... I rather not be like the ["two" if Parsley is down there. "Her" if its just jerafina]

Kenaz will be back in the loungue again the next day. Happy as before.

Kenaz will actually appere after your conforntation with Dr. Habit.

Bad ending: Kenaz will be by the gates looking towards martha. They stop you for a moment giving you that sollum face just like Dr Habit had "He didnt deserve that." Its all that kenaz will say.

Good ending: Kenaz will be with Kamal. "He cant be to far gone! I cant... I wont believe it! Please... help me just make one more creature happy..." this is clearly driected at kamal. (I just thought it would of been nice for him to be hesitating weather or not he could... try again with dr. habit. Leaving it vague for a friendship or a relationship and having flower kid giving that things can be worked out and bounds can be mended but you wont know unless you tried)

Fun facts!

When using the microphone on Trencil so Trevor can hear the vampire admission Kenaz's sprite will switch to a silent laughing pose for a bit. If spoken to "Poor Trencil... Dont worry ill make sure he wont get swamped by tge soon adoring fans."

Kenaz's sprite will switch to a spook pose when ever Marv apperes form his pond... keep making Marv appere will make Kenaz move over by Dallas for a day. When spoken to kenaz mentions they cant take being spooked for a bit and thought they dont care for the "photo girl"s babbling they dont mind painting stuff with dallas for the day.

Kenaz's collage image is a bush (and yes i mean bush) of static with sunflowers on it.

Photos!

Dallas: "Nice guy! He's fun to doodle with form time to time"

Jerafina: "I would like her more if she drank less."

Kamal: "I think hes as sweet ask his cramal teeth!<3"

Lulia: "I cant stand her. So self centered."

Millie, Tim Tam, Putunia: "Brat *hiss*"

????????: "I.... Uh... I....oh! You shouldnt just uh... going around showing people this... the photo girl wouldnt like it.."

Nat: "I wish she would come down and hang out with her father and I more... She seems nice"

Randy: "I hope he was able to get a new jar of pickles. I beat his last one open on him but Dr.Habit made him shower and change cloths.... What? I wasnt sure how else to open it and cover him with pickle juice!" (And yes I didn't know there was another way while playing the game until I looked on the wiki... sorry Randy :( )

Tiff: "...................I miss her lovly voice and she has such a lovly face... I could... I... Wh-Wha-What?! St-Stop loo-looking at me li-lik-like that!"

Trencil: "The most chill floating cape you will ever see :)"

Trevor: "For a kid that says hes a werewolf he doesnt smell much of a dog *chuckles*"

Paintings:

Super hero: "Hm... I always wounder if they are really the good guys..."

Werewolf: HISSSSSSSS

Floral: "Thats lovly... but not my kind of flowers. Fits you wounderfully tho!"

Habits 1st dairy page: Kenaz will look stunned and then sad (wont loose blue sparks) "I thought I had gotten rid of this... I wasnt sure if Dr. Habit would really want people to know this when I found it. Listen flower kid. I dont think hes as scary when hes in his right mind... But its clear that hes not there right now. If you have to fight him... please only use as much as nessary. Kindness goes far more then violence ever will... by the way... have you seen the art gallery? Makes you wounder why some people are ever allowed to have parents huh." Kenaz will continue to look sad if you talk to them again they will go on "Nothing messes with kids more then psyical or metal abuse... huh flower kid?" This isnt a nood or shake question just something to ponder on.

Ah... I didnt mean for this to be so long but i simply love this game and love dr. habit. I wasnt sure what to make of him until i actually meet him in game. I think him with a little smile and his hair tied up is just so adorable and my heart goes out to him, and any other adult thats had neglectful and abusive parents. Making friends is hard espically when no one ever shows you how to make ones who are truly... dear true friends.

[nivks]

i feel like #followforevers and online love letters etc etc havnt really been a thing in 2018 but u know what. thats dumb. 2019 is better and were all gonna be emotional and loving towards the people that make us feel emotions speciffically - Love! so heres a #followforever emo loveletter ashdfg gahwahh OKAY EDIT: kjhsdf i finished writing this mess and its SO LONG i am SO OSRRY i cant even SPELL im so sorry whatever im gonna post it still cos maybe hopefully simething i have to say mihgt make someone smile. just skip to ur namee. happy 2019 kids! nick WILL become a dad!.

@harryfeatjack @rightgirl @happilygryles @rocketmommy @19-million-memories @drugsnotwar @ithadmefromhello @spyro2018 @acuzena @carswinky @shiftylinguini @bourgeoix @hiatusniall @julesg @itsallaboutzarry @ihavea1dbloghelp okay we might have been close but you dont post much anymore, we might be new mutuals or like?? might just have that special follow and love from afar type thing happening but you all do make my dash a happier place and i hope 2019 is incredible for u all and u are all amazing people who do brighten my day. thanks for making 2018 better!! love u. 

@chantillystars Miss Starsadrift, lover of my hart. ur so fucking BRIGHT andsweet and u always make me laugh and ur always there when im crying and u light up whatever place youre in and i know that for a fact cos when we went on holidays together you honest to god were like. the brightest and beautifulestestest in the whole street. youre also an excellent cook and the kitchen we were in was just shit. love ur snaps and msgs and how much you love gardens and flowersand sunshine. glad youve been working on feeling better about Life and its been helping cos u deserve it alllll <3<3 love u like u love yoongi. 2018 wouldve been terrible without u. @clipsandstuff your tags at times make me crack up and your love for nick is so warm and iv followed ur blog for years and youre always so consistently lovely and i hope 2019 treats u well <3 @ladsfm you barely ever have time to be on anymore but youre like. out there. living your life and i see u on instagram and ur so incredible and SMART and beaiutful and then whenever i text you a #nickupdate or more specifically a #harrynickupdate your all caps replies always make me smile so big also you are quite possibly the most lovely person iv met i lvoe you! @lordendsavior i made my url dikolasgrimshaw. for you. for me a bit too but you were that final little push. the voice of reason that said yeah! do it! thats how much i love you. akjsg anyway JOANNA you are somehow so lovely and kind but like Real at the same time and u have a way of saying your opinions that makes me wish i knew how to fucking get my thoughts out as put together? as you. idk everytime i see you like giving advice and stuff im always like YUORE SO good you really are just! so good for this world and the people you talk to. i hope everyone knows how lucky they are that gets to talk to you and stuff ily. @cashewdani your tags. iv been following your blog since like? 2013? and i have no idea what your look like and im only guessing where youre from and what youre name even is but pretty much every post you make has incredible tags and has inspired me to watch movies/tv shows that i use to skip over and you are alawys so fucking delightful to see on my dash and i feel like everytime i see you posting it brings a smile to my face. also youre writing is incredible and i feel like iv seen you posting about new jobs and new living places so i hope 2019 is super amzing for you cos you deserve it! @yourghostcat <3<3<3<3<3 gamZE you are! you ar so bright and loving and warm and sweet and gentle and FUNNY and i feel liek every single time we talk im alawys just like ‘i love you gmze’ but honselty i DO and i hope u know youre super important and im so glad i know you. every single on of youre edits are beautiful and all the work u put into them is so appreciated and ur so talented! i hope 2019 is so good to you <3 @sehunchis u barely go here anymore but im including you anyway whocares KELLY i love you. your love for vivi?? feel that. love for vivi and sehun togeth? fukcing Feel that. youre so funny and rly smart and thoughtful and u make ppl so happy by just being there and i miss being in new york with you but seeing ur tweets still makes me smile just as biggggggg lvoe you. @lollipop-popsx youre so damn funny whenever youre done with anons purposely trying to start shit but you are so so lovely to everyone else and u pretty mch always come across as genuinely happy and caring and i rly hope that you have a super amazing 2019 love uou. @fullstopmgnt again u dont go hre anymore but just in case! i LOVE you and im so GLAD ur doing better and feeling better and working on getting even better im proud of you my lovely. miss u i WILL see you soon i have gifts for youuu @meliora i was gonna say i got to hug you TWICE this year but dunkirk came out in two thousand and seventeen im a fool whatever i got to hug you ONCE this year and while thats not really a lot its still!! im so happy i got to meet u cos ur SO FUKCING lovely and beaituful and warm as a person and so chill and have such good taste in music and hair colours and i know theres been some tough times this year for you but you deserve the fucking world so i hope 2019s nothin but great stuff ILY @baaatgurl bby gir lover darling MARIE light of my life. u are! incredible and i feel like whenever we meet up im laughing and smiling constantly and even when were not together i can like. listen to audio messages u send me and even when im sad i know i got something to smile about cos ur right there! u mean a lot to me and im so so so happy we met on this dumbass website in like 2013 youre so so so important. shits been tough but 2019s gonna be The Year and 2020? were leaving australia together. @cptkirked finish the walking dead. ALJHFGLDS okay FOR REAL first of all thankyou for making me watch love actually WAIT did i tell you! when u and me watched it and my brother was like ‘that movies terrible’ HE TXT ME LIKE 2WEEKS AGO and was like ‘just rewatched love actually. i get you both now. was good movie.’ ghhhhhahh i think ur relaly great and u always make me laugh and from your tweets i feel like youve had an up and down year so i rly hope 2019s good for you in every single way cos u really deserve it. love u. @nightandstarlight milesssss we havnt talked too mcyh this year but knowin youre out there living youre life! just happy. thankyou for alays been sweet and kind and positive and making me smile. hope 2019 is beautulf for you. @plaintoast TAELOr i know 2018 has definyely had highs and lows for you but 2019 IWLL be great and u deserve honeslty SO MYCH happiness and i hope u get all of it. u are so soft and lovely i lvoe u truly. @gettingdizzy giggled when i saw your url just then dont know why. SAVANAH do u have any idea how incredble u are? ur so important and ur texts like 90% of the time make me laugh and the other 10% i wanna like fight someone on your behalf. ur smile is 100/10 and i can not wait till the day we get to MEEt. ur gonna fuckign graduate this year and finish school and 2019s really gonna be your year and i love u so mcuh. @twelvegrimmyplace LIZ! LIGHT OF MY life. u are one of hte most beautiful and funniest and ur so fucking Good and lovely and always make me smile. u also make me laugh a lot and i lvoe ur tags and ur love for nick and nick and m/esh and nick and Glasses is the reason why 2019 has to be a good year. thankyou for ebing you. love you. @erinsbreakfast cheesed real hard with my smile then as i typed your url. thankyou for always making me smile big time and making me LAUGH and thanks for loving nick the way u do. ur super sweet and super beautful and i hope 2019 is everything u dream it to be. ur incredible and i voel you. @silveredsound YOU are BEAUTUFUL and always alawys making me smile with your tags and posts and ur heavenly pictures of Harry Styles and Harry Styles’ Hair in HQ and ur thoughts about nick gshaw. thankyou for being you and i hope u know how amazing u are. i love you. happy 2019 darling. also thnakyou for the gift that was TOWEL FIC. ur a hero. and ur wrtiing is!!!!!! stuff of dreams ur so talented hoenslty @magog83 ur literally the hero that goes above and beyond for the whole nick fandom and we will never be able to thankyou enough. you are increbible and amazing and lovely and you deserve so mych happiness and good things. thaknyou for so mych youre BEAUTIFUL. @junkshop-disco every single cow i pass by in my day to day life i automtically name mabel. ur posts make me smile and ur so lovely and kind. you are so fucking talented. i hope 2019s super super lovely fro you. @kilimiria !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mariE!!!!!!!! do u KNOw how big i smile whenever i see i have msgs from you? okay i know it takes me forever to reply a lot of the time but like literally msgs from you can turn my whole day from shit to the happiest of days. thanks for existing and being you na dmaking me smile u are sososo lovely and funny and beaitufl and i hope 2019 gives you the entire world. i lveo you. @apopstarontheradio thakns for making me smile a lot this year and being funny! and kind and lovely and having a big heart. hope 2019 beings u nothin but happiness loverlyyyy @thegreenaubergine i love YOu you make me laugh and make me smile and ur so so sweet and so lvoely i really relaly hope 2019 is great for you!!!!!! @hinickgrimshaw everytime i see u posting amd ur tags i feel like. ur just really great and amzing. sounds lame typing it out auhfhahhhhh BASICALLY everytime i see you saying things and read ur tags on nick posts im just like ‘youre SO good i trust everythignu say.’ youre so so lovely and u make me smile and im pretty sure i have a screenshot of a post u made once cos it made me smile on a bad day. anwyay i hope 2019 is GREAT for u and i think ur fucking incredible and ur love for nick is so soft. @writsgrimmyblog i smiled at your url like you could see it or someting kjhasdk WRIT u are. so organised and smart and FUNNY and beautiful and LVOELY and i am soossoso lucky to know you. youre nick thoughts and posts are a joy to read and ur writing is incredible and u made grimmy appreciation fest happen whcoh was!!!!!!! i Love you. 2019 better be the best for you <3 @fapfapfashion ayhhhh!!!!!!! ZHENya. i thnk i first saw you when u started leaving anon msgs for joanna you ARE so so so soft and kind i love you so much. you ALWAS make me laugh and you have some of the best tags and i hope everyone that knows you in real life knows how lucky they are to know youuu LOVE you a lot. hope 2019s super freakin amzing. @blueskybuzz77 youre so sweet and lovely and i hope so much good happens fro you in 2018 also u make me laigh and u deserve the WOrld LOVE you @fantofirehazard ur lovely and super sweet nad ur tags make me laugh and  i hope 2019 is increible for you because you deserve it a lot <3 

@grimshaw @brckhmptn i would die for you.

[soccialcreature]

tag game!

I was tagged by the littest @miraculousgems <3 <3 <3

Nickname: i let 3 people in the world call me meg bcuz some ppl just dont say it right

Gender: female

Sign: capricorn 

Height: 5′4″? i think?

Time right now: 1:09 PM

Birthday: January 17th, 2002

Favorite bands: Jeremy Shada’s band Make Out Monday is actually super lit and i lov their music. The Lonely Island, if that counts, still never fails to make me laugh. Jonas Brothers. Still

Favorite solo artists: Troye Sivan! Alvaro Soler... Erin McCarley... Kelly Clarkson... Camilla Gallardo

Song stuck in my head: do vines count?

Last show I watched: Voltron, unfortunately. WAIT NO NVM UHHHH THAT SHOWWWW W THE PPL UGHHHH WHAT WHAT IS I was at a friends house and we watched that show/

When did I create my blog: uhhhhhhh

What do I post: Ya fandom stuff

Do I have other blogs: no rip

Do I get asks: a bit yeah. 

Instruments: piano, ukelele, and i used to play violin so i guess if u gave me a violin i cud play it but idk

Following: 2635 HAHAHAHA WTF I FOLLOW SO MNY PPL HAHAHA

Followers: 1502, for some fucking reason. i need to sift thru them tho i havnt done that in a while so. shout out to all u porn blogs following me hope ur enjoying all the voltron

Average hours of sleep: i do p good on sleep so like 8

What I’m wearing: uhhhhhh my cheer outfit rip

Dream job: screenwriter 

Dream trip: oh god uh. theres this rly cute place in Morocco that i saw pics of one time and never forgot 

Favorite food: sushi? idk

Favorite song: refer to fav artists/ bands

Last book I read: Kite Runner. for school

Top three fictional universes I wanna join: .i agree w millie def ATLA/LOK. and thats all i can come up w

millie already tagged susan and i guess i shud be a good sister and tag @impulsivebeetle . i’ll also tag @selfiealien and @storiesaremylife and @gayromanticsubplots (i see u rbing my stuff and putting tags. thanx b lov ya)

[diaryofsecrecy]

It has been the most exhausting year of my entire life and I will be surprised if I ever top it...

Brent was having a hard time adjusting to the altitude when we 1st came out here, (July 8th 2020) But as time went on he got better as expected. Then suddenly he got worse and worse, Eventually he lost the job that he got because he was calling out so often throwing up and experiencing extreme nausea.  Because of covid, the doctors were booked for weeks (new patient) so it was just kind of a waiting game until we finally decided to just go to the ER.  They did a full blood panel and decided that he needs to see a GI doctor because everything else is normal. So, That was booked 2 weeks out and he was sent home with nausea medication for one week...

Of course we were going to try to buy or rent so I was freaking out about money and working as much as I possibly could... But then I too had to go to the emergency Room because I had extreme abdominal pain resulting in an emergency appendectomy😖

The day after my surgery, I am home, when my dad comes in with my older sister.

To my knowledge, my older sister was diagnosed paranoid schizofrantic. She has been Homeless for the last 11 years,  And on drugs.  She recently was beaten so badly that she was left with several brain injuries on top of it all, And while she was healing at the hospital somehow they didn't notice her walk out.  We were just about to get her placed somewhere safe...And they lost her.

Anyhow dad walks in with my sister who I guess called him from a coffee shop when they told her that she couldn't sleep there anymore (after a month of being missing again) Dad had to go back to work so then it was me & her for the next 2 days, As you can imagine, not the rest I needed post surgery... then, I had to go back into the hospital because something wasn't right. I was there for 3 more days, 2 days alone because ben was so sick that it was worse with him being there than me sitting by myself in pain and nausea of my own.

Fast forward a few more months, tragic accidents led to 2 separate deaths of my parents dogs. Both events I happen to be present, so get blamed & am no longer welcome at mom & dads.

(Still healing from sugury, brent still very sick)

We get an apartment, and I start working as a nanny for my aunt twice a week while working at Massage Envy the other 5 days.

At this point, I am tired. I am horney, and lonely, and Absolutely. Fucking. Miserable.

I am begging ben to keep up with drs. but he has lost hope of getting better, and I have no way of helping him when I am already worn too thin.

After 9, Long, long months, he eventually, with my consistent pushing, nagging, most likely not always kind remarks, he finds out his hormones are completely off, which I knew would be the case, his dick hadnt worked for the last 3 years properly..

Anyway. He blames his addiction medication rather than continuing dr. Appointments... he gets on testosterone with an outside company(pay out of pocket kind of subscription company...rather than checking insurance, or figuring out what causes low testosterone and fixing that first). I was working and had no influence in any of those choices that effect us both as they have for at least 2 years. He hasnt touched me for so, so, long.

Month 3 of his medication that seems to be working (only reason I know is there was a ton of porn in my google history, he had declined all advances, except the rare, 3 times he allowed a blowjob then left immediately after for the gym or literally anything else rather than make it romantic at all.)

Month 4, he forgets to make a payment at all, so now we owe $250 rather than the normal $100. His meds get sent, then FedEx loses the package all together so, he is sick and I am house sitting in a dream home, alone for 2 weeks straight that originally was going to be our getaway to focus on Us.

At this point, brent and I havnt slept in the same bed for 2 months. At first cause he says I'm mean and he wants to not be near me, but now its cause hes "more comfortable out in the living room..."

A month ago when we last had a conversation about our relationship he said he wants space and a break from me all together. I'm too much.

I am the problem..?

When trying to understand what he means, he shuts down the connvo, saying he cant talk about it anymore. It's been 30 days since we have made any verbal progress. Our fighting has stopped though, and I'll tell you why...

Rewind 1 week before house sitting;

1 week after brent and I had an awful fight where he told me we should take a break, I stay at my parents & My mom offers for me to join them at a graduation party of a kid I used to babysit.

We were sitting in the back of the dining room, out of the way, when I saw someone i slightly recognized in the hallway. Not sure from where, but he was the kind of guy that you couldnt stop looking at. He was clearly into fitness, his shirt couldnt hide the muscular features he had been perfecting either, despite him dressing nothing out of the ordinary. He had beautiful ink crawling up his leg, an artform that would only mean something to someone who is more spiritually awake. But more noticable about anything was that smile.

God that smile. His face was scruffy, as if he had been away, but regardless, the smile he had influenced his entire ora. His eyes smiled, his walk... smiled. He had some kind of thing about him that was a physical draw I had never known for myself before. Dont get me wrong, i have been woo'd by many men so far in my life, from all stages in life, but This one was just, different. He was making his way around the room, & I could hear his voice over my mom who's talking beside me. I had literally been blocked out by my ever wondering thoughts of this random stranger whom felt familiar.

Then, he was there, at our table?

He was so easy to talk to, not even sure how we started now, but all I know is I was not nervous despite my very physical attraction to him.

He spoke of traveling, and adventures hes been on. This guy had a whole other life in the military at one point and now was traveling, working for a company that sends him around the US.

This guy had Hope's and dreams and somehow we got to talking about that kind of thing at a graduation party?

When I left that day, I thought about him. Not just him specifically, but men like him. Had I chosen Brent wrongfully? Does brent even like who I am anymore, what does he want going forward in his own life? How do I even fit into that? He understands my need for adventure but his actions say that he doesnt want to come along. My mind was loopy after that because for the first real time I questioned, what if there was someone who wanted to see the world,  Who liked my sad music, and my emotions being in everything I do? What if there was a women more interested in the simple home life, having a couple dogs and living a small, comfortable life? Are we doing one another a disservice by occupying oneanother's lives? How could I ever bring that up with Brent at all without making him feel so inadiquite after a year of terrible sickness and defeat?

Well, when I went to that big, gorgeous dream home the following week to house sit for 2 weeks... begging him to come see me, I grew weak from overthinking. I cried, I cried so much the first 3 days.

I cried from a place of such sadness, anger, bitterness, defeat, they were so strong. My mind was cloudy, drunk, stoned, tired.... I found myself writing a suicide letter.

My plan was to disappear, I knew I'd find a firearm in the home & allow someone to find my remains eventually in the hills where I'd walk far enough.

I prepared by cleaning the litterbox, laying out several bowls of water for the dog and cat, and watered all the plants heavily. I transfered brent all the money in my bank accounts, and as I waited for the sheets to come out of the dryer I balled my eyes out, reading the last conversations I had had with my family members. I thought to myself how the kids would take it, what different life choices they would make having been close with someone before their passing. At this point, I needed something, but I needed it from someone who doesnt know me in my life right now, but the me that was worth saving. The me I still recognized.

I called an old friend from 2nd grade. Hadnt talked to her in years and years, didnt known her life, her schedual, her name(which had been changed). But she talked me down. She saved my fucking life. It took a person who knew my soul years ago, to remind me I am not alone.

I dont blame my parents, or who I thought would be my future husband. I had talked with my aunt earlier that day and she couldnt see it either. I had become this fake shell of a person and it took considering an actual murder of myself to make me see that if I continued this path, I would die eventually and nobody in my life would ever see me preparing for it.

That night, I invited a complete stranger over and we fucked like rabbits. 4 times. He got to do things he'd never done before, and I begged him to. Sounds cold, sounds unapologetically disgusting that I'd do something like that, but quite frankly, I FUCKING needed it. I needed someone to see me, even if he didnt see my current life nor care about me as a person... he saw, touched, kissed, sucked and ate me up. For the first time in at least 2 years, i felt satisfaction when I walked him to the door and watched his car drive away.

It was like a sigh of relief, an inch I could not reach for the longest time, gone. Finally.

The following days, brent began putting in more effort. It has been 3 weeks and I'd say he has been kinder to me than he had in a while (probably the lack of testosterone) but also, I havnt seen much of him in general. From his point of view, it is all fine. Hes getting the space he needed, I'm being nicer since I quit massage Envy, and things are looking up....

But that is because he doesnt See Me.

My suisidal thoughts subsided after my long conversation with Scout. & that night I called my cousin as well, and learned he too had been in my shoes before. He said something that stuck with me.

If everyone has an expiration date on their life already, and we don't know when it is, you're to the point that you're life is so invaluable that youd kill yourself than flee your life and make one you want. Dont care about the people youd hurt, because suicide is just as careless as abandoning them all indefinitely.

He was so right, it put things into perspective, gave me a freedom I felt I was waiting to gain permission for.

Five days later, I noticed He had written me 5 before, on the day I had truly planned to end my current life..

He had written me at 12am, what would someone like him, a gorgeous, beefed out, big thinker, high energy, go getter be doing messaging me, a tired women who was 300lbs a year ago, (still working on getting to a normal size) and completely at a crossroads with existance.

I entertained the connvo a tad, and honestly forgot about it for a few days as I figured no way he could be serious.

He triple messaged me, and asked for my personal contact info to have real conversation?

Hesitantly, and wildly excited to even just flirt for a moment with someone who is literally everything I fantasize when I'm alone everynight....

Our conversation immediately took off. In directions I hadnt expected at all what so ever. He told me he had to admit he felt drawn to me, like he had known me in another life. That he doesnt expect me to get it, but I did. We talked about things that only my sister and I can relate to on a spirituality standard and it changed me in that instant. Suddenly i realize, I wasn't broken, I was just misunderstood. & that there are people in this world that See Me even when I am not trying. Not many, and it takes a specific Kind of person, but they do exist and when you meet them, you cant ignore it. It is as if they stain you with remembrance.

As the sexually hungry humans we are, not only did we find that morality, values, future goals coexist, but also our importance of intimacy. Not just lust and sex, well, yes that too, uff did those conversations get so, fucking, hot, but the interactions of intimacy and how they make a person whole.

I opened up to him about Brent, and where I am at in life, asking he please oversee my unfaithfulness, but that I am loyal at heart. He says with such pain in his voice how he too in a parallel position simultaneously, however, he married her 7 years ago.

Ugh.

So now I get to choose. Do I chose mortality, say no, brent and the other women deserve to understand the severity of sex, love and passion, and if they chose not to then we will leave before we act on our mutual attraction....? Or, do we say hell with it and give in to serendipity moments that our hearts crave so badly, take on the consequences and move forward. Sigh. If only there was a guideline for complicated.

Last night, as the 5 nights before, we talked for hours on the phone. His voice makes me smile every, damn, time. Perhaps because it's new and exciting, or maybe I just love to hear him go on his tangents of loving yourself despite the bad in life. I Want him. I want him when I wake, &when I go to sleep. I do not want a life without him& it saddens me to know our timing is incorrect. He asked her for a divorce a year ago, but has sat comfortably as I have despite the horror because weve both been too busy, too tired, too... afraid that life will always be lonely. Last night, he said to me, Elise, I love you. I avoided it several times but when he said it two more times, I couldnt keep it any longer to myself, Jackson, I really do Love you as well. It's scary, and faster than I'd ever say it to anyone. But I know it to be true because I Feel it. I want his love so badly. I want him to live life along side of me because with a person like him, I'd be a better me.

I am absolutely terrified. My life, my home, my family, dogs, my 5 year relationship, the unborn children brent and I have named, and the houses we'd have... all gone?

Running away with a man who says hes going to leave his wife is absolutely stupid. I'd be an idiot to think I am enough to get him through that fear of change, yet he gives me strength to want to try, so maybe I do, Him?

Ugh my brain being pulled in many ways. My heart having been in pieces so many times now doesnt know who to go to or why. I know for certain I love Brent, is this a self gratifying moment To push me back to him? Is this the devil bringing two lost people together to ruin four people at once?or is this Fate. Fate that has seen both of us individually loosing ourselves in a life we didnt want and has brought us together to lean on one another, temporarily not?

Suppose time will tell.

Last two days he has been working a ton, and told me that tomorrow he has something he needs to talk to me about.

I assume it isnt good. I assume it is the first put off of many, because, I know I want to do the same. Part of me says I should block him right now, because lust, and attraction, both mentally and physically like that couldnt make a women addicted and that's a no good addiction when he has a women in his house with his last name. 😔

[saltynemo]

Rainstorm PT.2

WHATADO Everybody, its your boi Nemo back at it again with another fanfiction. Omg, guys, ILY SO MUCH. The amount of likes I got on Break-Up was freakin amazing! But before I posted that fanfic, Rainstorm was super popular. It took me a long time to write this one, so I hope you enjoy.

Summery: Tyler and Y/n go to Disney World to spend quality time together and outside! All of the sudden, it starts to rain...

Type: Fluff

Warnings: VERY LITTLE Dirty talk, Storms, Lots of flirty jokes and kissing, I think that's about it

Requested?: Nope

Word Count: 3.4k (3,402 words)

PT.1

So without further a do, P-P-P-P-PLAY IT

Latley, it has been very rainy in Y/s/n. Ever since that one storm I feared (were Tyler had to calm me down with his amazing voice), It has been non stop raining. Its been about 2 weeks since he got off his tour. We mostly have been cuddling or playing video games. Since it has been raining outside, we havnt been able to go out.

I open my eyes, expecting to see Tyler next to my side. But I woke up to his matted pillow and bed sheets un-tucked. I shrugged and went to look outside. To my shock, I saw blue sky with no clouds! Not even a little drabble of rain clouds or anything. My face lit up with excitment, knowing me and Tyler can go somewhere special. I let my inner child out and ran to the kitchen. I saw Tyler behind the kitchen counter, stirring his coffee with a straw, slightly dancing to soft music playing. "Hey Tyler!" "Oh-Hey Y/n. Your up...late" Tyler replied giving a smile. "Hey! Guess what" I said, leaning over the counter to look at him. "Whats up" He asked, sipping his coffee. "Its not raining" I simply said. I saw Tyler get a burst of excitment, almost spilling his coffee. He quickly put his mug down and raced over to the front door window. I jogged after him, waiting to see his face. He opened the blinds and his eyes widened. A big grin appeared on his face. I stood next to him and rubbed his back. "You know what that means..." Tyler said, raising a brow. I smiled uncontrollably, knowing the answer. "Disney World!" I cheered. Tyler showed off a goofy smile, picking me up. I rapped my legs around his waist imediatly, grinning like a goofball. We stared into eachothers eyes for a little bit, just enjoying our features. "I love you, Y/n...you know that right" Tyler said, smiling lightly. I smiled back, "I know you do. But do you know I love you?" I said, raising my eyebrows. He grinned at my comment. I lightly pecked his lips and he put me down. "What time is it, babe?" I asked him. "12:00. We should probably get ready" He replied, racing up stairs. I saw what he was doing; he was trying to get to the shower first. I laughed as I raced up the stairs after him. "Hahahaha" Tyler laughed, reaching for the bathroom door knob. "You would let me go first if you loved me" I said slyley. Tyler stopped imediatly, turning over to me. "Dont do that to me" He said in a seriouse tone. "Just saying" I said, sitting on the side of the bed. "Y/n..I love you with all my heart. I cant even put it into words" He said, walking over to me. I looked up at him, loving his face and expressions. "But showers are more important" Tyler said, quickly rushing back to the shower. I scoffed at him, not wanting that answer. I waited for him to take his shower, scrolling through Instagram. All of the sudden, I heard one my favorite song playing in the bathroom. It was muffled, but I could still make out the musical notes and lyrics. "Your the best Ty!" I yelled to him through the shower. "Oh! Well imagine..as im pacing the pews in a church corridor and I cant help but to hear-" Tyler begins to sing in the shower. "No I cant help but to hear an exchanging of words..." I chime in [(no pun intended)]. I lightly danced to the muffled voice of Brendon Urie as Tyler sang along with me. ~ After about 30 minutes of him taking up the hot water, he finally turned off the shower. "Finally dude!" I yell to him outside the door. He didnt respond, but I could tell him rolled his eyes. I waited patiently outside while he dried off. He stepped out of the shower with a towl around his waist. He had a spair mini towl to dry his hair off. "Take your time man, not like were in a rush to go to Dinsey World or anything" I say in a sarcastic tone. "Sorry Y/n, hot water just feels so good" He replies, smiling and walking twords our closet. He grabbed a Texas shirt with some gym shorts and went back to the bathroom to change. I slapped my thigh loudly, signalling him to hurry up. Tyler opened the door and rolled his eyes. "Your turn, just let me freshen up" He says, grabbing some deoderent. "Hurry up, I wanna take a shower" I say, lightly pushing him. He chuckled, grabbing some things and heading out the door. I closed the door, taking off all my clothes and hopping into the shower. The cold water hit me like a slap. I fled back to the sides of the shower, avoiding the water. I chuckled to myself, and occasionally checked the water to see if it warmed up. Took about 10 minutes for me to adjust to the below freezing tempetares. ~ After about only 20 minutes in the shower, I jumped out and grabbed a towl. I wrapped it around my freezing body, trying to warm up. I adjusted the towl around my chest and walked out, shivering. Tyler looked up at me with a worried expression, "You alright babe?" He stood up from the bed. "You took all the hot water ding bat" I replied, giving him a stern look. "Sorry babe, come here" He said, wrapping his arms around me from behind. I instantly felt warm in his hug, leaning my head on his chest. "Thank you, Joseph" I said, walking back to the bathroom to change. "And by the way, I got your clothes wet" I added, closing the door. Before i closed it, I saw him look down at his damp Texas shirt, groaning and pacing around. I laughed it off, and changed. I was going to wear a Mickey Mouse tank top with some black jeans I had. I opened the door, letting Tyler know I changed. I was putting some makeup on, but not too much; since we were going to be outside. I saw Tyler come into the bathroom and lean on the counter. He stared at me while I was putting on my makeup. I glanced at him, "Its rude to stare, you know?" "Your just so beautifle, Y/n" He replies, resting his head on his hand. I chuckled it off and roll my eyes. "Stop, Ty" I say, putting my makeup kit away. "Look at me, Y/n" Tyler said in a seriouse tone. I turned to look at him and his pretty face. "Repeat after me" He says, holding up his right hand. I laughed and held my right hand up as well. "I, Y/n" Tyler begins to say. "I, Y/n" I repeat. "Am the most beautifle person in the world" I roll my eyes at his comment but continue repeating. "Am the most beautifle person in the world" "And if anyone else says so" "And if anyone else says so" "Is wrong" Tyler finishes. "Is wrong" I breathe out, putting my right hand down. Tyler kisses my forhead. I lightly laugh at him and press my forhead againts his. "Lets get going shall we?" Tyler says, pulling my hand to the door. I turn off the bathroom lights and we head out ~ Since Tyler's car was in the repair shop, we called a Taxi. He dialed up the number and we waited a couple blocks down from our house. I remembered I grabbed two Mickey Mouse hats before we left, just for fun. Tyler was on his phone, checking instagram. I quietly pulled the hat from my bag and place it on his head. He laughed and held the hat on his head. Tyler put his phone away and grabbed the second hat from my bag. He placed it on my head and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer to him[(cringe cringe cringe)]. "This is going to be so fun" I giggled, pressing my head againts his chest. "Yea, It is. Were finally going to be outside-instead of just playing Mario Kart" He replied, hugging me tighter. Finally, we saw a bright yellow cab pull up. I pulled away from Tyler, grabbing my bag. "So wheres your destina-" The driver said tiredly. Before he could finish his sentance, his eyes popped out of his head. "Tyler Robert Joseph" He breathed out. Me and Tyler both giggled to eachother, noticing the drivers excitement. "Sorry-just I dont get alot of celeberties in my cab" The driver added, nervously smiling. "Its ok, we get it alot" I said, smiling brightly. Tyler opened the backseat door for me, gesturing me to get inside. "Thanks Ty" Tyler nodded in response, heading to the other side to get in with me. "So-um, where you guys heading to?" The driver asked. "Disney World. I thought Id take Y/n somewhere magical" Tyler said, hopping in the car. I giggled at his comment. "Nice! And by the way, the names Jack" The driver replied. "We will be there in about...45 minutes. So make your self comfortable" He said, smiling. Me and Tyler both smiled back. Jack revved up the engine and started driving towards our destination. All 3 of us in the car made small chit chat, talking about Tylers band and what not.

*25 MINUTE TIME SKIP brought to you by Tylers thicc booty*

We were 15 minutes from Disney World, so the car got quiet. "Do you mind if I put on Twenty One Pilots? Im just making sure if you dont mind listening to your own music." Jack asked. "Yea i dont mind. Dont want to upset a fan anyway" Tyler replied, smiling to me. "Thanks" He replies, turning on the radio. He slides in a disc. I didnt recognize it as a TOP CD, so I figured it was home-made. The very first song to play was Tear In My Heart-my favorite song. Tyler smiled brightly, looking over to me. Jack looked back, seeing our expressions. I was smiling like a goofball at Tyler. "I made this song about you, you know" He said, stroking a strand of hair from my face. I giggled at him and placed my head on his shoulder. "You guys are the cutest, do me a favor and stay together" Jack said, looking back at us once more. "We plan on doing that" I giggled. The rest of the car ride was amazing music playing in the car, and me resting on Tylers shoulder. I knew today was going to be great. ~ "Where here!" Jack said, parking next to the sidewalk. "Thanks, Jack! It was nice meeting you" Tyler said, getting out of the cab. "Dont thank me! Just ask for my name when you call another Taxi-It would be amazing meeting you again" He replied, smiling brightly. "We sure will! Cya later, Jack" I called out, hopping out of the taxi. Jack pulled back into traffic and drove away. "He was nice" Tyler said, patting my head. I giggled and stared up to him. He looked back down to me, looking deeply into my eyes. "This is going to so fun" Tyler says, kissing me. The kiss was passionet from my point of veiw, and it was amazing. I pulled away from him, smiling. I kissed his nose, making him chuckle to himself. "You have a thing for doing that" He comments. "Lets go get tickets, before we waist the day waiting in line" I say, tugging his hand. We both walk, hand n' hand, to the ticket booth.

Once we get to the line, to my suprise; it wasnt that long! Only about 5 people were infront of us. So it only took 10 minutes for the like to shrink, making me excited. "Two tickets please" Tyler said, pulling out his wallet from our bag. "That will be-" The girl said, staring at Tyler for a minute. We giggled at her, making her snap back to reality. "S-sorry, just that-I dont see alot of people like you alot" She said, grabbing his card. "Its fine, we already had our taxi driver rave about us" I said, smiling at Tyler; making Tyler grin back. "Here you go! Have an awesome day" The girl said, handing Tyler the two tickets and his card. "Thank you, you too" He replied, stuffing his card back into his wallet. Tyler handed me my ticket.

We made it past through security easily, making the day go smoothly. We had a couple of people stop us for pictures and what not-but it was fun! The smell of popcorn and magic was spread out through the air, making the whole expirence better. Tyler begged me to go on a wet ride [(wink wink)] with him, and I just had to give in. We bought a locker and put our backpack and phones in it. Of course-we didnt bring a spair set of clothes so that sucked. "Cmon, Y/n! The lines gonna get longer!" Tyler said, jumping up and down. "Okay okay, honey! Let me just lock our safe" I replied, rolling my eyes. I had to laugh at his child like behavior, it was just the cutest. I closed our locker and raced after Tyler, who has already got in line. We adjusted the strap to our hats, so they wont go flying off. "This is gonna be fun" I said, sarcasticly. "Yea, were gonna get so wet" Tyler said, adding a wink at the end. "Behave Ty" I said, laughing. Tyler laughed aswell, "All-rhino" He replied, making me laugh harder.

We waited in line for about 10 minutes, before I felt eyes on me. I looked around to see a tall, wide guy with a Twenty One Pilots shirt. He quickly looked away, trying to find something else to stare at. I nudged Tyler, pointing the guy out to him, "He looks like he wants a picture" I whisper to him. He quietly laughs and walks over to the guy. I watch them closley, giggling to myself. Tyler tapped on the guys shoulder, "Hey, I like your shirt, looks good on you" he says, chuckling. The tall guy is hysterical, tripping over the words flying out of his mouth. Tyler takes a quick picture and races back up to me. We laugh to eachother while we wait for our log to roll up. "Ok, all abourd" The directer of the ride says. Me and Tyler sit together at the very front row. I held his hand, nervous for what the ride will be like. "Y/n, chill...its a wet ride, we wont do flips or anything like that. We wont do that till tonight" Tyler whispers in my ear. "Tyler, I said behave, or youll sleep on the couch tonight" I chuckle, lightly pushing him. I squeeze the fluffy bars as the ride starts to move. It went slow at first, only increasing speed a couple of times. I thought it was going to be alright, till I saw the big hill. My stomach did a flip as we started climbing it. Tyler held my hand tight as we escilated. Once we reached the very top, the log stopped imidieatly. I waited nervously as the ride started nudging off the edge. "Here we go!" Tyler said, raising his hands up and screaming. The log dropped over the edge, going a hundred miles per hour. I screamed aswell and put my hands up, still holding Tylers hand. We raced around every corner and hill, making the expirience thrilling.

Once the ride reached to an end, I hopped-not as much hopped but wabbled-off the ride with shakey legs. I tried walking, but I was dizzy for some reason. "Come here, Y/n" Tyler said, reaching over to me. With out warning he picked me up bridal style and carried me. Why was Tyler being so romantic all of the sudden? Weird. He carried me to where the lockers were and set me down. "You didnt have to do that you know" I said, rolling my eyes. "Sorry I overwhelm you with my love and affection" Tyler replied, kissing my forhead. I giggled at him and unlocked our safe. I grabbed my backpack and flung it around my shoulder, while handing Tyler his phone. He grabbed it and handed me mine. For the rest of the time we were at Disney World, we walked around and visited attractions. I begged Tyler to take a picture with Goofy and Mickey Mouse. Tyler really didnt want to, but Goofy insisted. I snapped a quick picture of them both. Tyler stuck his tounge out at Mickey before we went back on our trail.

We were walking near one of our favorite rides, when all of the sudden, it started to drizzle. We looked up to see clear skys and only one big, nasty rain cloud. "How about we do one last ride, before we get kicked out." Tyler said, patting my back. "Lets do it" I cheered, running to the big, towering rollercoaster. Tyler ran after me, laughing. The line wasnt long at all, so we got on right away. "Last ride, so lets make it last!" I said, holding Tylers hand. He kissed my hand as the ride started. The cold rain slapped my face as we started speeding up. Once again, another big tower. "Wooo" Tyler screamed, rasing his hand. "We arnt going that fast, honey. Calm down" I chuckled, nudging him. He laughed and put his hand down. Once we reached the very top, the ride-of course-stopped. After about 10 seconds of anticipation, the rain started coming down harder and harder. It was pouring rain at this point, making me squint my eyes. The wind caused the coaster to nudge, making the ride go at a hundred miles per hour. Me and Tyler screamed, raising our hands, as we decended. The rain hit my face, and the wind made me shiver. It was the best ride I have ever been on.

The cart came to the end of the ride and stopped. The attendant told us to leave Disney World ASAP, because of the rain. Me and Tyler hopped out of the ride and held hands, running through the park. We were holding our hats and laughing, jumping in puddles and splashing eachother. I almost slipped and fell, but Tyler caught me. He held me up so I was facing towards him. It was like a cliche romantic movie. Our hair matted againts our face, our eyes tired, and our body close to eachother. And just to top off the 'movie' he held his hands on my face and kissed me. I held his hands while moving into the kiss. The feeling of rain drops, splashing on my forhead made the moment all better-for some reason. All was perfect, till I heard a voice. "Cmon you teenagers, cant you see its raining? You gotta leave" A security guard said. We pulled away and Tyler gave a quick smile before grabbing my hand. We once again, ran through the park, trying to find the exit; all while kicking water onto eachother and laughing. Both of our clothes were soaked and clutching onto our bodies..I was suprised our hats werent gone.

We finally found the sidewalk where we were dropped off by Jack. I pointed out a bench with a sun roof over it. We raced towards it, getting under it and sitting down. Tyler pulled out his phone and dialed the Taxi number. "Request for Jack, we can tell him all about it" I requested. "Anything for you" Tyler replied, putting the phone to his ear. "Yea, I would like 1 taxi please. And can you call 'Jack' to our location-if hes avalible of course?" He said, whiping rain water off of his eyes. "Thank you" He added, clicking the 'Hang Up' button. I leaned my head againts Tylers shoulder, tired from today. He rubbed one of my hands, making me close my eyes. I started to dose off, thinking about Tyler. "Cmon, Y/n. Our taxis here" He said, patting my thigh. I opened my eyes to see an excited face. I didnt recognize it at first, but then I saw it was Jack. "Hey guys! Glad to see you again! Hop in" He said, waving his hand. Me and Tyler smiled at him, getting up. He led me to the car, opening the door for me. I crashed into the seat. Tyler closed the door and jogged to the other side, getting in as well. "Im guessing home?" Jack asked, looking back to us. "Yea, thank you" Tyler said, telling him the adress. Jack punched it into his GPS and started driving. I layed my head down on Tylers lap, getting comfortable. Tyler kissing my head and petted my hair, making me close my eyes. "I love you Y/n. Forever and always" "I love you too, Joseph. Always and forever" I replied before dosing off to sleep.

(I hope you liked it and are begging for more, unless I just suck idk lol. But I hoped you enjoyed some of it and cya next time :D)

[chaitanyak]

Finally Got A Smart Watch https://ift.tt/2T1lLkh

So after years of fighting the urge to get a smart watch.. I finally had one gifted to me by my lovely wife! Not that I had anything against them.. its just that none of the options I'd looked like seemed worth the hefty price tag.. and Fitbit was a brand I never looked at seriously since all their products were pretty expensive and a lot didn't even have screens back them. The only smart watch I ever took into serious consideration was the Pebble.. especially after a cousin got it off the original kickstarter and gave me rave reviews of it. But then the company sort of fizzled out. Also sometime then, I stopped wearing wrist watches.. finding them redundant since I was walking around looking at my smartphone all the time, and it had a clock visible on almost every screen. Years later along comes the Fitbit Versa and its Lite version. I got the latter. Both are roughly a third the cost of every other smart watch out there. Now while this is a Fitbit.. I'm not a fitness fanatic, so am mostly using it as a smartwatch and only really look at the health stats.. just because it makes it look interesting.

At this point there are only 4 features of this device that truly interest me and keep me occupied all day. - The clock faces. I change this once or twice a day. The clock face library is pretty vast, but there is no way to sort them so you can browse free/paid. you have to click on each thumbnail.. go to its page and realise that its a paid clock face. Its very frustrating. Also there is no favorites or bookmarking system.. so when you change a face.. and want to get one of your old favorites back.. you have to go search for it again.

I wound up with an evernote doc with screenshots of the watch faces I like and would want to use again and again. (the watch can only store one face. to change faces, you have to use the fitbit app on the paired phone) There is one awesome and free face called "Maker" that will let you customise the hell out of it and create your own watch face.. I haven't had the time to try it yet. Will do so and post about it soon.

That said, whenever I go for a swim, I change it to a bold high conrast watch face that i can check quickly through wet goggles or underwater.. yes the Versa Lite is swim-proof upto 50meters. My other favorites are the scifi looking watch faces.. especially the Star Trek LCARS themed ones. - The heart rate monitor and resultant metrics. Have only had it for a week so will blog about this when I have at least a month of logged fitness data to look at.

- Notifications and replyingI really enjoy responding to  whatsap/text messages with a handful of preset messages or emoji without picking up my smartphone. - Apps.. haven't found any that have really impressed me.. but then its essentially a watch.. I don't really even know what my expectations are in terms of apps that run on my wrist. Its fun looking at weather predictions on my wrist though.. and triggering my phones camera from the watch.. the IFTTT webhooks app might get a dedicated blog post.. if I get it to work. Also theres something called Fitbit Labs that I hear has an app that will pause Netflix when I fall asleep during a binge night! That said these existing features are enough to make me love this device, and why I would recommend this to anyone looking for a smartwatch. This is all you really need in a smart wristwatch in my humble opinion. The rest can be handled by your smartphone. Costlier smartphones by Apple, Motorola, Samsung etc.. come with essentially these features.. and of course a few more.. but are priced exponentially more. Now to brass tacks.. The features missing in the Versa Lite are: - Swim lap tracking  I'm not an Olympic swimmer, so dont care. The Versa Lite doesnt count laps.. but is waterproof, and has been recording workout metrics from my swims.. some people online have claimed that the phone app will start logging that data as swim data. I have yet to verify this. Will post an update if I do. - On-screen guided workouts Your phone can do that.. and will be easier to look at. Most workouts I've ever done.. kept both my hands busy.. and it was just easier to put my phone on the floor or a bench and look at it like that. - Stores and plays music My phone is with me all the time, depending on your workout/sport this might be useful I suppose. Also isn't everyone just streaming nowadays? - Contactless payments with Fitbit Pay Interesting, but not available in my country anyway - Can count how many floors you’ve climbed yes, this one does sound interesting. I do climb steps everyday, and having a tracker for that is intriguing.. - The Versa costs a little more Not that much more, so if you need those features, get it.

The features I find glaringly missing: - Turn navigation with gmaps. This would have been great for bikers or even hiking through a city.. without having to have your smart phone out in view of muggers. - A proper IFTTT app. There are atleast 3 ways of getting this done via IFTTT's webhooks.. but I still havnt figured that out yet. would have been so much sipler to just have a dedicated app.