#i dont like her but i dont hate her either😭

[floatingseaotter]

The Worst Day Ever

or It's My Party

Song - Dream by Priscilla Ahn

"...at length" count - 59

Part I: Carlotta

REAL! This truly is the worst day ever and me reading the entirety of the beginning of this chapter is quite literally *grumble grumble grumble*

"I think it's going to be a good year for you, lily."

- Yeah girl we just gotta suffer first😭

ARGGGGGGHHHH Carlotta!!!! Sirius is so real like Carlotta really has not done anything wrong (except betray Shelley to a degree) but I'm sorry I cannot stand it and her!!!

"Not really," said James. "Most of our mystique, I hear, is just smoke and mirrors."

- a Lily quote right?

CALRLOTTA LEAVE HIM ALONE! She's desperate to go with him to the prefect meeting it's making me mad but it's okay Sirius once again saving me from this plight of reading Carlotta x James😌😌😌

Lily noticing them my heart my heart my heart my heart

Then, as Lily located her bag, her eyes flickered towards James and Carlotta and, for the shortest of seconds, Carlotta thought she noticed Lily's eyebrows lift infinitesimally. Everyone else noticed, too. "We're dating," James blurted out suddenly, and Carlotta—who was not the blushing type—felt the heat rise in her face. There was about half a second of awkwardness, and then Lily smiled brightly. "Cool." With that, the Head Girl started to rummage about in her bag for her badge. Everyone, including the Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs, stared at her.

-- I HATE IT!! I am fairly sure she cries right? i am imagining her wiping a tear later? This was so unbelievably unfair by James especially in the way that they are all just watching her for a reaction, cannot bare it! at all!!!

The rest of the dorm is so behind Shelleyyyyy! I forgot about her make-over but I feel like there is an underlying plot here that I either never learned or just can't remember? Like specifically with the potion...

Remus sticking with Lily <3<3<3

Not Sirius not knowing who Shelley was; a violation lmao😭

Suspiciously: "Why do you need Lily?" "Well... I don't know," Carlotta had to admit. "I just... I needed her advice on something. Can I talk to you?" "Why on Earth would you suspect that's a good idea?"

-- EXACTLY Marlene! I think that's what bugs me so much about Carlotta's character is that she is so dense and it's so frustrating!!

"No," sighed Carlotta. "It's not that kind of problem. It's... I... I keep having these strange thoughts..." I knew it! You're a lesbian!" "Marlene!"

- AHHAAHAH what marlene😭

Who is the random child with the new DADA teacher—with the inoffensive ponytail and goatee (which sounds like a contradiction to me but whatever)—because I have absolutely zero recollection of this or who they are?😭

THE THERAPIST!! YES THEY BROUGHT IN THE COUNSELLOR AND LILY AND JAMES HAVE THE JOINT MEETING DON'T THEY! But i dont think we ever actually see that chapter i don't think?

Every time Sirius sasses Carlotta a confetti cannon goes off and a baby smiles<3

OMG SHELLEY KISSED MARY'S BOYFRIEND! I FORGOT ABOUT THAT! What if the magic potion she was taking was like infused with some mystically love potion thing? Also Mary upholding Reg's statement that boys can be slags too!!! Where is my mannn

  "...AND WITH THAT FAT, UGLY POCKMARKED BINT!"

- the insults in this remind me of Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging. "She's just a big fat minging minger with huge knickers and a ginormous schnozzle!"

Mary Macdonald essentially: Shelley Mumps is a lad nabbing letch who can't keep her slutty minx hands off of other peoples boyfriends!

Mary was so happy with Stebbins in the summer too, so sad :(

Not Mary revealing Shelley's evil master plan!! A masterplan I fully forgot about (shocking i know) and 😭

"What plan?" "I don't know," said Mary. "I'm sure you'll be able to figure it out, though. You taught her everything she knows, right?"

- OOOOFT

There is a lot of infidelity in this fic, huh?

Carlotta x Frank

Shelley x Stebbins

Donna x Charlie

...Admittedly, sometimes i think its quite a good plot point so i am not complaining as long as it suits me! Sue me!!

Mary suggested going to the Raveclaw dormitories and tear Stebbins limb from limb, but Marlene didn't want to go to prison.

- aahahahahahaahha

It's funny having so little Lily so far!

Without knocking, Carlotta opened the door to the Head Boy's dormitory. James knelt on the floor, already in his night clothes, as he fumbled through his trunk for something. He looked up upon Carlotta's entrance and smiled, but there was something—something just not right in his expression.

-- WHAT HAPPENED I MUST KNOW—I say as if I am not fully aware that he and Lily did not miraculously end up together and all is well but whatever I actually have no idea.

Truthfully, James was Head Boy now, and it was not of Shelley that Carlotta was afraid.

- so she leaped from the gallows and levitated down her street, crashed the party like a record scratch as she screamed, WHOS AFRAID OF LILYYYYYY EVANS ...you should be

Part II: Mary

To be in love, even superficially, on the first day of school, is a wonderful thing indeed.

- aww Mary

Obsessed with Mary and Sabrina Barbery just updating each other on all of the gossip.

OMG YES! Bridget at Hogwarts and protective Donna!

Lily is sullen. Did she see James and Carlotta kiss on the platform? hm... She must have because she doesn't seem surprised when Mary tells her.

"It's still strange," said Marlene; she seemed the most perturbed by the matter, and she kept looking at Lily. Even Mary had to find it a bit odd that Lily's reaction was non-existent. Whether or not Lily had ever reciprocated any of James's feelings for her—and Mary could never decide what she believed on that matter—she ought to have some opinion.

- So sad :(

Shelley's potion is definitely suspicious!

Donna on what she did over the summer: "...and ordered around a well-respected auror." Yeah you did! Lathe mention!!!!🚨

At least they are all worried about Shelley too... I don't believe we ever got to see the end of this plot point?

IS MARY PREGNANT—i say this because she was dizzy and there was a curious "or for some other reason" as to why she was dizzy and as someone who enjoys a good pregnancy trope... that is where my mind always jumps too okay!

Part III: Donna

Donna is so protective of Bridget<3

Please do not tell me Lily was waiting for James because that would crush my spirit to smithereens. —She was waiting for James.

"Alright, Donna?" said Marlene. "It's been—what? All of a week? How was your last day at the pub?" "Fine." Marlene smiled slyly. "Anyone interesting drop by?" Donna glared; "You've been talking to Black." "Whatever do you mean?" "Oh, shut up." Marlene looked smug.

- LATHE LATHE LATHE LATHE LATHE

Charlie is threatening Bridget! Oh dear. RAT MAN!!

She was wondering what Bridget was doing just then... she'd joined Millie Bones in a compartment. Could Millie Bones be trusted? Kingsley evidently thought her a fit companion for their younger sister, but Donna had not verified this. Millie Bones could be a corrupting influence. She could (and probably did) mean trouble. This Millie Bones character had to be stopped.

- hahahahaaha Millie Bones public enemy no.1

Adam distracted by Marlene, as all things should be.

Donna worrying so much about Bridget is obviously so sad because it's rooted in her overthinking after her parents death but the fact that she has beef with Millie Bones and Dromio Prewett (a Little Boy™️) is so funny to read.

Aw Donna apologising to Cassidy!

"Well I've never heard of you feeling guilty over anything," the food trolley lady spoke up again. "Right?" "Once again, no one asked y—how would you even know?"

- HAHAH not the food trolley lady piping up; she's in on all the gossip its giving Dorota from Gossip Girl.

Did you two fall in love?" teased Adam. "Working all those late shifts in the romantic lighting..." "Shut up." "You're blushing." "I am not." "You are! Wait... Shack... did you really fall for Black?" "Don't be thick. I do not fancy Sirius Black." Adam considered her carefully. "But you do fancy someone?" "Fuck off, I don't." "Liar. It's not that Charlie Plex bloke, is it?" Donna glared at him. "I guess not. Who is it? Why all the secrecy? Is he married?"

- JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT

Oh was Adam wondering if Marlene maybe had a thing with one of the Marauders over the summer?

Donna putting creepy Charlie Plex in his place!

Lily looking paler than usual and James looking off... what occurred?

Part IV: Marlene

Marlene feeling like everybody is a sexy baby and she's a monster on a hill :(

"Well, she does," Marlene insisted. "Anyway, it was... kind of frightening." "The wedding?" "No, the protest." "What protest?" "Did I not mention the protest yet?" Adam began to laugh. "Marlene, I have no idea what you're talking about."

- Aw Marleneeeeee my girl! They are so cute I am so sad!! also why didn't Adam's sister tell him about the protest lmao

"... I meant more like..." They began to walk again, "We both love. him... differently. You're like a sister to him!" And only one thought registered for Marlene in response to that: I am an awful sister.

- HAHAHAHAHAHAH

Knew what a prostitute was when you were eight, did you?

- Marlene skskskskks

I LOVE Marlene's growth from first day of sixth year to first day of seventh year!

WAS SHELLEY ALSO IN LOO WITH STEBBINS nah it was a random Hufflepuff lmao

Lily sitting by herself in the prefect carriage she is so sad😭

There was something dull and uninterested in Lily's voice, however, that prompted Marlene to ask: "Are you feeling quite well? You seem a little... off."

- and contemplative 😭 like novembermy girl! I am not ready for her POV. Though i think I remember the Marauders minus James all meet her in the Prefect carriage :(

"What did I do, Lily?" she muttered, sniffing. "Why didn't I just...? Why couldn't I...?" "You weren't ready," said Lily. "It's not your fault." "It is though. I was so stupid..." "No, you weren't. You were just getting out of one really complicated, really intense relationship, and you weren't ready to jump into another one. That's not your fault. None of this is your fault."

- the way they are both in the same boat and Lily is comforting Marlene without Marlene knowing yet that they are going through the exact same thing! My heart!!!

"You know it's going to be okay, don't you?" Lily asked softly after a while. Marlene looked skeptical. "It is," insisted the redhead. "Prudence may be cute and sweet... she might be Dear Prudence, but you're... you're..." Lily smiled: "You're Here Comes the Sun."

- this is genuinely such a sweet comment I love friendship. Also, Marlene is right that must be one of the nicest things anyone could say to you🥹 Lily as Golden Slumbers—I see it.

Ahhhh Adam did know about the protest he was just a dummy.

They both grinned, and Marlene, momentarily, forgot that it was not—and never again would be—like it had been once upon a time.

- girl it is okay dont be so dramatic! matters of the hear just require time!!!

Part V: Lily

Here we go... i am not ready!

She is fumbling and i am so sad for her!!!

Before he left, Sirius draped an arm around Lily's shoulder and leaned close to her, muttering so that none of the others could hear: "Evans, I think you and I have some catching up to do." "Damn right we do," Lily could not help but retort. He raised his eyebrows and then departed with Peter.

-- Sirius and Lily's friendship deserves all the flowers in the world. I love them so dearly.

Side note: i just remembered Lily did Alice's flowers at her wedding and it was such a sweet callback to Lily always being good at flowers🥹

James Potter too right your amusement should be nervous!! And too right Lily should speak coldly toward you!!

Lily smiled politely, rather than quipping in reply. James evidently sensed something must be amiss by her lack of bantering retort, and so he offered to help her carry her things—which consisted of her sling purse and a book—and, for a moment, Lily felt incredibly trapped. "I'll do it," Remus volunteered suddenly. "I'm sure you want to get back to the compartment." Lily did not think she'd ever appreciated Remus more than in that moment.

-- The Marauders sans James all rallying around Lily makes my heart BURST!!

I swear I am not making up a scene where they meet her in her dormitory or something and then Sirius jokes about them figuring out how to get into the girls dorms in second year or something and they hug? right?

"Do we get our own Common Room?" "What?" "Our own Common Room." Lily frowned. "No. Where on earth did you get that idea?" "I don't know," admitted James. "I feel like I read it somewhere."

- James has been reading them fanfics fr

"Is something bothering you?" asked James suddenly. Merlin and Agrippa, what do you think? "Nope."

- He's only 17 he doesn't know anything, does he?

"You're an idiot." "What?" "I said 'you're an idiot.'" "I heard what you said! Why am I an idiot?" Lily did not think she had it in her to answer, however. She merely shook her head in disbelief and continued down the corridor. "Evans! C'mon don't..." James caught up with her, pulling her to a stop. When he did not immediately remove his hand from her arm, she glared, and he withdrew it at once. "Why are you...?" And then it was all too much. We're dating. They're kind of perfect for each other. Just close enough to... "Why didn't you tell me you were dating Carlotta?" Lily snapped, before she could help herself. James dropped his gaze. "I-I didn't... it didn't come up." "It didn't come up?" (This, practically shouted), "Really? Because I have this weird memory of sitting in an office with you and asking how your trip went, and you just said 'fine,' and then you got all snippy with me, like you always do when you're hiding something, and oh-my-Merlin, how could I be so stupid?" It began to make sense, "I thought it was just the Head Boy thing, but... Agrippa's sake, that was what Sirius was trying to get you to tell me, too, wasn't it? And Sam... 'the ginger but not the girl...' I am such an idiot! How did I not realise?" "You're not an idiot, I just..."

The entire room had lit up upon her entrance, and yet none of these details had any effect upon Lily. She barely saw them, for suddenly her eyes were blurred by tears. Her breathing grew heavy and staggered. She fell back against the closed door and pushed her hair away from her face, forcibly attempting to fend off the attack of panic that quickened her heart and made her head spin. No good at all.

-- Oh Lily😭😭😭😭😭

me reading Shelley and Carlotta—then Lily—screaming at each other in the dorm, like damn lmao. Get 'em Lily!! My queen!!! she was really like ...AND FURTHERMORE!

"The both of you need to get your acts together right now! I am done caring if Carlotta is seeing the bloke that you fancy, Shelley, or if Shelley is trying to sit on your boyfriend's lap, Carlotta. Whatever. But all of this whore-calling, and shouting, and making this dormitory miserable, and... and... snogging my friend's boyfriend to prove a point to each other—all of that ends now! AND..." she spoke over two attempts to interrupt, "before either of you say that this is none of my business, I am going to spare you the risk of getting hexed out that window: this is my business, because I'm supposed to have my own room tonight, and yet now, I get to spend the evening agreeing to repetitive statements about what a git Stebbins is! And, also, because the two of you are insults to the very word 'friendship' with how you're behaving! And, also, because I'm Head Girl, and there's NO SHOUTING ALLOWED IN THE DORMITORIES!" She finished her speech. Shelley and Carlotta did not speak. At some point—and Lily had no idea when—Donna had entered the dormitory from the bath, dripping wet from her shower and clothed in a bathrobe. She looked from Lily to the other two, amber eyes wide with wonder.

- I really could not not include at least a wee snippet off that speech because it was far too good. Donna's reaction is too good too, i love it.

A few minutes later, Carlotta went up to bed (in the Head Boy's dormitory—Lily decided not to think about it)

- real

Ah not the twelve hours earlier talking about today going to be a good day :(

For a moment—only a few seconds—Lily observed the two Marauders. The warm morning light caught the Head Boy badge pinned to James's t-shirt, as well as the amused glint in his hazel eyes. He ran one hand through his hair, shaking his head, and replied to some remark from Sirius with a few words of self-aware cleverness that made Sirius laugh out loud. When Sirius gave another reply, James listened, a crease forming between his eyes in subtle interest, one hand idly rubbing his jaw line. Lily's mind leapt to an evening, not long ago, when she had stood close enough to fill the space and then some that currently existed between the two Marauders-close enough to feel James's breath, close enough to kiss him, if only she had let herself stop thinking a minute or two... And then, for a moment—only a few seconds—Lily's breath caught in her throat, and she realised something. She realised that her stomach was doing back-flips. She realized that a little piece of her ached to be standing close to the Head Boy. She realised she hadn't been breathing for several moments. Lily realised she would very much like to kiss James Potter just then. It was a moment—only a few seconds—of clarity: a realisation that was immediately surprising and then quite obvious. Right there, right then, she wanted nothing more than to kiss James. It wasn't alcohol speaking; it wasn't just hormones; there could be no more excuses. She liked James Potter. She really, really liked James Potter. Lily realised this... for a few clear, hopeful, comforting seconds, Lily realised exactly what she wanted, and it was the first time she had really known this for a very long time. She felt a glow of enlightenment, as one often does when they arrive late at self-revelation—when they finally have a grip on what, exactly, would make them truly, ridiculously ecstatic at that instant in time. And what a thing to discover, that it should be James Potter... James Potter, who had liked her once before, and might like her again, if given encouragement... For a moment—only about nine and a half thrilling, wonderful seconds—Lily was happy. People hurried past her, shouting and talking but mute; the train revved and roared, but silently; her heart pounded, the heat rose in her face. This was going to be a good year. Then, into the frame of her sight which had now narrowed and centered on James Potter, a new figure entered. Brunette and lovely and flawless, Carlotta Meloni appeared. She wrapped her thin, sun- kissed arms around James's neck and kissed him on the lips. And James kissed Carlotta back. And someone walked by to punch Lily in the stomach, knocking the wind out of her for a full six seconds. Or if they didn't, they might as well have.

-- PAINNNNNNNNNNN I hate it here!

What a chapter though!!

I have also realised that James and Lily were just pale and of because of their argument? I need more from James on this because all we saw was his conversation with Carlotta... But damn.

I am re-reading The Life and Times

And it is getting documented. Purely for my own benefit.

The Life and Times by Jewels5

She was dramatic. He was dynamic. She was precise. He was impulsive. He was James, and she was Lily, and one day they shared a kiss, but before that they shared many arguments, for he was cocky, and she was sweet, and matters of the heart require time.

[cannibalmapleshade]

ermmmmm...

[anonymouscheeses]

So i did the thing!

All three of my biggest kinnies in a car! They lost their way and are going insane because of how insufferable they are together 😔

(Oh also i wanted to try out this new brush i got... it has changed my life. Forever.)

[darcyolsson]

today i found out that step-siblings in the sims 4 are not recognised as siblings and therefore have romantic interactions available the hard way. the hard way being that i forgot my sims are seen as step-siblings instead of half-siblings in game and being very confused and disturbed for a second

[ubelaces]

why is pinkidol ur ex bsf..? /nbr

its pretty personal 😭 but umm long story short basically we got close and i just fucked things up and our friendship was damaging to the both of us bc of me so we js cut things off w each other

[bluebunnysart]

Quick PSA about this blog

The anon and I sorted it out over DMs so all is good now!

I'm not a huge Tetocest fan or anything, I just like it when someone draws really nice drawings of them and they happen to be Teto x Teto, so the chance of me drawing Teto x Teto is kinda low but not zero. Like I wrote in my chart, I mostly treat them as a cute pair of sisters, and that chart was a Miku x Teto chart because Negidrill is my OTP.

If I ever make Tetocest art, it's not with the assumption that they're sisters or related or seeing each other in a familial way. I'm grossed out by incest of any kind, and I'm also grossed out by pseudo-incest. Tetocest (selfcest) is literally Teto x herself/a different version of herself, not a relative or anything, so I wanted to make that clear.

I'll be tagging all my stuff that isn't quick doodles/text, so if you're anti-Tetocest or Teto x Teto or something, you can blacklist that tag or avoid me altogether because I don't hate it. The chance I'll draw actual Teto x Teto that isn't cute platonic love is like 5% though, 'cuz I like Miku x Teto more than anything and that's my main priority.

If anyone has beef with anything I like, I absolutely encourage you to unfollow me or avoid me because this is where I post art of MY interests and I don't want to be treated like a criminal in my own space.

My Miku x Teto is NOT proship (I always ship them around the same age) and I don't support proship or anything weird/immoral. I'm fine with criticism if I do something wrong but please don't be aggressive towards me because Mktt is extremely precious to me and I don't want to be chased away from my own space. You won't believe my ability to self-isolate lol but I'm not afraid of being alone, even if my love for Mktt will never die (especially not 'cuz of anyone).

For now I'll continue to draw/write Mktt/Voca/UTAUloid art at my own leisure with my own headcanons and interests, and I'm not doing it for attention. I'm doing it out of love for the characters.

Thanks for reading! ^^

[nailgunstigmata]

people being like „what happened to rob omg look at how cute he was as a twink 🥺🥺🥺“ are so funny like. girl he aged

[mg549]

god i wish season 2 of h2o wasnt unwatchably misogynist 

[dreampearls]

finisheddd furinas story quest 🫡

[kitkatcadillac]

i cant stop thinking about this lady a couple of weeks ago. i hate some facets of internet lingo because a lot of time i feel like theyre so niche but get blown into these ridiculous proportions but ive never met a more karen karen in my life.

lunch rush. and she comes up already looking like shes here for war. i say hello, how are you, she responds immediately by explaining that ONLINE, it says theres a buy one get one free deal at PARTICIPATING LOCATIONS, and that YOUUU GUYS are participating. it says so.

listen. i know people love their little coupons. i will not rob you the joys of a little treat at a discount today, as much as i loathe coupons in a franchise setting. please be free. be happy. have a sammy.

but i had never heard of this promotion. i have not. i never do. we arent participating location. nobody asked us. the app tells you everything automatically participates so you haul your ass off to get a sandwich and get into the store, thats the first step to spending money, which is all a company gives a shit about.

but i told her. i told her we do not participate. we cannot participate. also, nobody asked us. (politely and professionally. it did not keep her from being grouchy.)

she repeats herself. her eyebrows are angling down further in threat.

i tell her theres nothing much i can do for her.

ive never. in my life, in real life, outside of a youtube parody, seen someone turn around, scoff, and tell me "Well I'll just go to another store then!" like its the most scathing, horrific set of words to inflict upon my person. like id go diving across the counter to beg her please, no, god! anything but that!

but im neurodivergent, and its lunch rush, and in my little walnut brain ive had a conversation and its reached its climax, weve come to an understanding, that is reasonable, and she is leaving and i need to have my manners and then move on to the next customer politely too. people are hungry!

i tell her (quite sincerely actually) "have a nice day!"

the way she WHIPPED her head around to look at me like ive insulted her entire bloodline. like ive trashed her entire wardrobe and then slapped her mother. i genuinely had no idea this woman was pissed beyond pissed until this moment and i wasnt even LOOKING at her, i was already started on the next person- but i promise you, the way her mouth thinned out and she froze there, boiling for a second. if there were not 8 people there all trying to hurry along and get food, she would have unleashed like three decades of pent up frustration on me for... what. not taking a coupon? not signing onto the company website and updating the damn thing myself??? (i cant) good lord. settle down.

[muirneach]

aimlessly reading a reddit thread of names people hate and would never use. sees my deadname.

[skitskatdacat63]

Every semester, I feel like my instant thought is always "I am dropping every class. They're all horrible." but by the end usually end up really liking it so I really just need to ignore my first impressions, but god looking at the syllabi really destroys my mental state

[theriverdalereviewer]

just remembered how in the sixth grade there was a fucking riot in the cafeteria that ended in the entire grade getting silent lunch for like 3 months

[rivilu-2-electric-boogaloo]

...

[emotargaryen]

in that christmas spirit

[autonoes]

oh my god and SHE LOVES BOB