#i dont know. i just dont know. like i have to imagine they either just arent thinking. running on muscle memory. or are just too nervous

[riemanifests]

it's so hard. it's hard to fix the assumption that it's HARD. it's hard to persist when it's right in my face, mocking me. i can't pretend it doesn't exist, i've been at this for almost TWO YEARS. TWO YEARS. while i have manifested things in the past, for some reason it's different and difficult when its physical changes for whatever reason. i can manifest food, certain outcomes but i literally can't persist long enough to manifest appearance changes. i just affirmed for 3 hours straight and now i'm spiraling and i hate my life, why do people say it's so easy? "just affirm and persist" but i'm so stressed and overwhelmed and my mind goes wild while i try to affirm screaming at me, "you don't have that, are you stupid?" and i'm scared even if i keep affirming those 'thoughts' will catch up to me. i'm always focusing on the 3D, every time i stand up i take a mental note of the fact i feel shorter when i want to be taller or feel weaker when i want to be stronger. i can't break the loop, i've been trying for two years and i just can't seem to break the loop. i always end up spiralling and opening tumblr, hoping to find someone who felt the same way i did. but i feel totally lost, like i was just cursed to be ugly, chubby and not me. i haven't given up because i have belief one day it'll all click and i'll be able to live the life i've been dreaming of for so long.

i have too many thoughts on this and i know tumblr is going to character limit me but fuck man stop hating on yourself like that. the one person who's been by your side the one person who didn't fucking choose how they look, the one person who will always be there with you, is you, and look at what you are doing to that person? is it so hard to maybe think your mind isn't giving you an easy time because you keep judging yourself and just i dont like to see this in anyone this type of self talk and to force yourself to then manifest a difference babes is that dream body going to make the judgement go away? or will you find something else to criticize yourself on before you change it? take a break from manifestation and please try to show yourself self love. work through it don't pretend don't fake it actually work on it dont rush it either, that shit is more important than any other relationship in your life. your opinion and beliefs on yourself is more important than anyone else has on you, and you dont even have your own approval and you're conditioning yourself. i feel so sad because i go through this and i wouldnt wish this on anyone else. im sorry because i know its probably not what you wanted me to say but fuck bro you're not cursed like just imagine young you looking at you right now the way you're speaking about yourself. i know that society really damaged us with standards and we grew up with insecurities but you were not meant to have that. you were not meant to force yourself to be a different way. you were just meant to be you and live. this isnt me saying you cant manifest your dream body but god that self concept please do this for you. take a break and really build that relationship with yourself because you don't deserve that. you wouldnt dare speak to a friend that way i know that, so why the fuck you speak to yourself that way? you should treat yourself the best out of anybody more than anyone treats you. dont make this about your body make this about you and you and showing yourself unconditional love. who knows, maybe that will make it easier to then persist and then manifest changes. stop worrying about the loop because this is more serious than any fucking external thing, start showing yourself the love and respect you deserve. you wouldn't dare call me those things, would you? dont fucking do that yourself that breaks my heart man. im sorry but i dont believe that manifestation and the external should ever be more important than how you feel about yourself and how you're treating yourself, and it is no fucking excuse to be treating yourself that way either so. i wish you the best my love, i'm sorry and i know you can work on giving yourself the love you deserve no matter your looks. im not even going to bring up manifestation because you need you right now, not your dream body and it's your self talk + concept that needs to change first before you even worry about the body.

[tommygotwrittenoff]

i literally do not care about big emergencies on abc's 911. i want to see my characters talk to each other and have stories that are parallels to small, everyday (everyday for first responders) emergencies

[weaksspot]

long as i am loving you you’ll never be alone long as you keep wanting me around

[aerknight]

@naffeclipse orcas beach themselves to hunt seals orca!eclipse beaches themself to hunt y/n :)

[sieglinde-freud]

chrom and inigo as father and son are so very dear to me and i understand that parent supports in awakening are all generic so any patterns that i see are unintentional and just coincidence and blah blah blah but i dont care, they are so fascinating to me. because if you compare how they interact in inigo’s parent support versus lucina and chrom’s support theres a clear difference in attitude chrom has towards inigo and its not something that i would call malice or dislike but its something more like… a lack of faith? he essentially acts as if hes waiting for inigo’s misstep, as opposed to lucina who he whole heartedly trusts and supports. i think thats so interesting because when you go into the future past conversations (WHICH ARE NOT GENERIC. and also happen after the C-A supports), chrom tells inigo that he sees so much of himself in inigo, and they’re more alike than they think beyond just the surface level hair and face and. everything. and i think thats so fun because its true!! everything inigo faces in regards to his position as a prince—chrom does too! the older sister whos way better at the job than you, feeling anxiety over whether or not your personality/worldview makes you fit to lead, their brash attitudes, the mistakes that they make while figuring it out, its all there! and i think its that similarity that ticks chrom off in the initial support because wheras lucina represents everything he sees as successful, inigo carries with him the opposite: everything chrom doesnt like about himself. his uncertainties! and thats fucked up to take out on your kid, obviously, but like. to be fair chrom was suddenly handed an adult son from thin air at the age of like 25. but then he goes and he learns about him and realizes that where they share their flaws, they share strengths as well, giving chrom the wisdom to have that much more productive conversation in the dlc, encouraging inigo instead of pushing him down, because its everything that maybe chrom needed to hear at some point too. isnt it fucked up how none of this is canon like what the hell

[ria-starstruck]

and also "putting everyone in a simulation will make it all ok 👍" and also "let's park next to this random system's sun" and also "we can't live on our own planet because of our own folly" and so on

[rocker-socks]

TOA x DC AU where Apollo and Meg end up in Gotham but instead of just going "damn this is crazy" they end up getting involved in all the rogues personal lives to an uncomfortable degree while trying to also find a way home.

Meg gets to give Apollo several crash courses in "homeless urchin and How Not To Die" including but not limited to: trusty vs untrustworthy desperation, ACAB and Avoid That Weird Billionaire Who Is Asking Us Questions.

Meanwhile Wonder Woman and Shazam hear suspected Meta with healing and music powers going by the name Apollo and have the custody battle of the ages before there even officially is one. Batman just wants them out of his city

[skunkes]

who's your type you think..? what kinda person would you see urself wifh

ummmm so i really dont know considering i keep thinking my standards are just super high but they're actually so incredibly non-existent that I cried seeing somebody's partner remember the name of one of their many many ocs the other day.

like ohhh someone you're with would care to remember such a thing...? I quite literally couldn't imagine... my realistic daydreams barely go beyond "you will end up with somebody that hates you 🫶" much less "a partner is a person you share interests with and cares about the little things and um...is nice." A guy like al (personality wise) has always just been the vision of unrealistic idealized romanticized relationship for me. I never thought it could be real. (And then apparently it can be but it's incredibly rare.)

Its less "i havent found someone that looks EXACTLY like xyz" and more I just havent rarely find people I click with enough to be friends, much less anything More. And THEN I'd have to consider oh, would they even make a good partner? But we haven't even made it through that first step lmao (my closest friends are not guys) so all i have is "uhh someone who is nice and i can actually have daily conversations with I guess" (<- literally just a friend)

[yarrowleef-babbles]

been hearing rumors that the "i'm always straight" lines may have been cut from the GN and IF that is true, I expect everyone will be super mad about that--and ngl i'd mourn the loss of it too because it has become iconic to me

But. i can't believe i'm playing devils advocate for this, BUT it is not entirely unreasonable for an adaptation of this work to decide it does not want to reference Ronan's sexuality yet......coming to terms with his sexuality is (one) part of his arc in the 2nd book. Adam Parrish being ~the 2nd secret he doesn't want to admit to himself~ , Ronan's catholic guilt homoerotic nightmares and the like, all characterize his sexuality as something he might vaguely be aware of but seriously struggles to openly admit. I don't think he even uses the word gay or any other word to describe himself in the whole series? (unless I'm forgetting something?)

So, idk, it's not unreasonable to want the (hypothetical) audience to also not be aware of it until Ronan is forced to directly grapple with his identity next book.

i think this is one of those things that has become very dear to the fandom over time, but if i look at it objectively without my feelings, i just.....i do understand why someone could conceivably decide that this off-handed bitchy "he's gay btw" joke is not of dire importance for the sanctity of the story 😭 in the 'pros don't outweigh the cons' sort of way....

[triglycercule]

mtt mediveal au where horror and dust are rulers of 2 rival kingdoms and killer is an assassin or whatever the hell both of them coincidentally hired to kill the other. this is actually just an excuse to see how badly i can misspell medviel until i get it right by sheer luck

[yuwuta]

twin aus are fun bc sukuna is sooooo ugly and yuuji is soooooooo pretty and beautiful and lovely <3 completely understand why sukuna ends up the deliquent loser twin bc why would anybody choose him when <3yuuji<3 is right there

[looking4thatqueersubtext]

im so fucking sick of seeing jude depicted as a thin ass woman like NO.

it's stated multiple times through out the books that not only is she muscular because of all her swordfighting training but she also doesn't have that thin frame and that is exactly what sets her apart from the fae (and part of what makes her beautiful to cardan like hellooooo?). she has curves and muscle and scars. all of that is so so so important to her character.

[salad-storm]

I hated you (I loved you too)

Funnily enough been thinking about tenken again. Homoerotic friendships will be the downfall for us all I fear !!

[hauntingblue]

Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO

[skitskatdacat63]

It's just still brainrotting me so badly, LIKE WHAT IS GOING ON HERE!?!?!?!?!

[cestacruz]

Drawing the messiest sketches is actually so good for my brain