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larry-ben-kenobi · 10 months

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I just cannot escape the yearning to die

Its almost been a decade and if I think about it it still brings my mental space into the molten core of the earth

I'm just so tired of being depressed im not depressed like I used to be, though, it just gets duller because I'm so damn used to it unless i let myself think about how much I don't want to be alive

Bleh. Ive said it for years and still true, if I could find 18 year old me id tell him to do the attempt better, rather than anything about how life is worth it. It's been eight years and honestly it only got worse. Was supposed to have done it when I was 14 probably, and never bothered anyone.

Hate being such a stereotypical zoomer freak about my own existence though.

#delete later #obviously #i dont know im jus #just tired of being tired of being alive #i dont even have horrible spiraling episodes anymore #i just dont have anything #almost miss crying and loathing what little i had and being so mad that the only feeling i had was despair and the strange hopelessness of #iunno loneliness in a communal sense too even #friends who kept me alive for years who we stopped really being in touch after covid #theyre all humans. doing good. and im glad #but im. actually worse than when they had to talk me down every three weekss #like im arguably worse #i was once very mad at one of them for getting me to promise to live until that next easter #after he spent a damn few hours trying to keep me going and vibing #so much effort from much better people just to have me waste years more oxygen

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mourninglamby · 11 months

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bugs under a rock

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#bruhhh i dont even know #im jus t a girl having fun tbh #morty smith #jerry smith #rick sanchez #beth smith #summer smith #rick and morty #rick and morty fanart #rnm fanart #fanart #art #my art #rnm

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cloudy-dayys · 2 months

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me and @7roaches on aggie

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reblogs > likes

#my art #mimi moo #utmv #fresh sans #nightmare sans #< our sonas technically but his is more unique n im jus straight up fresh lol #i love making fresh creepy n uncanny none of u hoes ever know what to do wit him #dont tag as nm x fresh ill slaughter you

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cashmoneyyysstuff · 2 months

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yall i have a confession to make….i fucking hate slowburn.

#THERE I SAID IT #IM SORRY #I just cant like when it gets too long atp MOVE ON WIT IT #like i get wanting to take ur time i guess #but wtf do you mean yall are makin out every chap #holding hands #youve met the ENTIRE FAMILY #AND yall said i love you #and somehow you still dont know what this feeling is/what you are ??? please.#cus like atp yall jus draggin it #i could talk about my hate for this trope for hours #i have another one i hate but i fear i would be burned at the stake for it so #im keepin that to myself😭#cash confesses #cash is sorry (no she aint)#cash speaks <3 #cash rants #cash rambles !#cash is about to ramble

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favorite-lie · 29 days

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recent art

#lies about art #the falses of abyss #okat i mputting this begind a lot of things i #i dont know if i want this to be noticed. but i certainly dont want rhis to be shared #tjis is the on;y social media shedoesnt chec k so this is my only place #im not safe #i dont know how much i can handle #i should jus tell up on her but she threatened me #i dont know what she can do to me if i do it #im scared #i feel lost #i just wanted to help her #i dont understand #im afraid to talk to anyone now #i treid to talk to my friends abotu it but now im scared #what if she sees it. she controls me #she can hurt me she already did #i cant call the police #i cant tell my family #im a coward #i just wanted to hel p #i need to work on everything #i need to finish the commissions #maybe then i can open mroe and i can do something #maybe she needs a little mroe help #i know she doesnt do that on purpose #or i want t o think so #i dont knwo i mso lost #it seems less likely day by day ic ant #ijust wwnate dto he lp

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shoezuki · 4 months

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Lesbianism.

Tryna decide if i should do they typical 'gepard is socially inept and doesnt realize his sister and nat are vibing' or like. Not doing that. Which tbh ill probably Not do that entirely bc the 'autistic guy is oblivious to everything around him in other peoples lives' type character is tired to me

#i think im goin more w like..... gep can See serval and nat got smthin goin on but if They dont talk bout it he wont talk bout #in the bones #so maybe hes more like. ppl think hes oblivious so serval will be like 'gep me n nat are dating' n hes jus like 'oh yeah i know.'#'what why havent u said anything' what am i sposed to say i mean u guys never brought it up. was i sposed to??

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year

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WWWOOOPS FORGOT I MADE THIS. drew this back at around when the hyperbolic time chamber training arc was just starting. remember that? huh? remember the hamspter??? ohhhhhhhh youll remember the haspter!!!! oh my god yknow what else i remember. williams overwhelming love for christmas. oh my god. spooky zombie boy loves the christmas.. literally the best possible thing for him...

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #VYNCENT SSOOOOOLLLL I STILL DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW YOUUUUU AND YKNIOW WHY?? YKNOW WHYYY???? BC WHEN I FIRST DREW EVERYONE:#I DIDNT LOOK AT ANY REFS. DREW EM STRAIGHT FROM OFF THE TOP O MY HEAD. AND WELL. IN MY HEAD SOMETIMES #I PICTURE THE CHARACTERS LOOKING SIMILAR TO THE PLAYERS IN SOME WAY. NOT THE BEST THING TO DO REALLY. BUT YOU SEE.#VYNCENT CAME OFF AS A VERY SOFT AND SWEET CHARACTER. BUT SEEMED TO CARRY ALOT OF STRENGTH. HES LIKE A BEAUTIFUL AND POWERFUL BULL TO ME.#SO I DRAW THE GUY REAL DENSE! BUT THEN YAKNOOOWW THE OFFICIAL ART CROSSES MY EYES N IM LIKE FFFYUUUUUCKKK HE DOESNT LOOK LIKE THAT!!!!!!#IM LIKE AAUGUHGH IM DRAWIN HIM WRONG!!! BUT THEN IM ALSO CRAAAZY STUBBORN N I AAALREADY ESTABLISHED THIS DESIGN FOR HIM AND I DONT WANNT #I DONT WANNA GO N JUS CHANGE IT AAAALL UP NOW!!CMAHHHNNN BUT I STILL GOTTA DO SOOOMETHIN!!#LEST HE BECOMES SO FAR REMOVED FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL HE FAILS TO BE RECOGNIZED!! ANYONE ELSE GO THRU THIS? GIMME UR TIPS #anyway AHH THE DEMON THAT DESPISES ART FROM MONTHS AGO!! just means im improving so so fastly and cool-like. tbh im so proud o my recents #bUT HEY THOUGH I FIGURED OUT THE QUEUEUE THING AHAHAH NOW I CAN GET ALL MY THOUGHTS N DRAWINS OUT IN A DAAAYYYY #CONSISTENT POSTING FOR A MONTH HERE I COME. DAILY UPLOADS FOR A WEEK. YEAAHH BABY!!! PREPARE FOR SHOTGGUN BLASDT!!!!!!#ALRIGHT ALright one more thing before i go im. SO IN LOVE WITH MY SHAPES HONESLY... they are not just one shape but so so many put together #fucked up innit??? im seeing soo many problems in this piece though but i rest easy knowing i captured my feelings in the moment.

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reggiestein · 2 years

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i always get nervous posting my art bc i feel like i draw him Different than how other ppl do but i guess that is a good thing kinda. peace and love. god bless🙏

#im in love with him btw. in case anyone didnt know #licorice cookie #cookie run #my art #i have more art but ^^ i stay silly #idk i feel weird posting my stuff online nowadays even though i literally need to if i wanna get a job making art😭#i used to post it all the time but being in a Fandom and feeling insecure abt the kinda different way i see media made me so sad and angry #im a lot better now but its... *sigh* yea guys it actually does help to interact with your friends irl and stay off of social media sorry #anyways omg i have so many ideas and stuff for my oc and licorie but i dont wanna be cringey!!!!!! i feel like nobody cares so i jus keep #it to myself but if anyone wants to see stuff i wouldnt mind it if u told me sumhow..

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rikukmb · 8 months

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weep woop random doodles cuz im bored

random doodles and sketches from today :3

caelus looks nothing like caelus but we deal with it

also keiji because man i love himge,,, hes a dude,,,, ALSO I KEEP THINKING ABOUT THE PLUSHIE I WANT IT SO BAD PLEASE GO FUND IT

tshirt design credit in the last pic goes to nyamofe :D

#oh how i wish my keiji art will one day be seen by daiji #keiji is jus a lil dude and i want to him be noticed by THE daily keiji #i love keiji hes just a dude #silly little man i love him #also i love that i keep saying im not sleep deprived and then when i draw myself i make it look like i dont even know what a bed is #honkai star rail #caelus #oc #doodle #yttd #keiji shinogi

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whalefill · 2 months

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I need to find an art website to post my stuff on and keep it separate from this blog cuz too many ppl I know irl know I have a tumblr its gittin scary in here ............

#even if they have no way to find my tumblr #jus how it is being closeted. u think about it #pls recommend ones 2 me if u know any btw #i know of cara (??) but not many others #NOT deviantart or instagram or twitter i am talking strictly anti AI policy websites #deviantart used to be like a brother to me. it truly went down the shitter #ok im done yapping. michelle if you see the he/him in my bio just dont worry about that ok you keep that to yourself.#keysmash

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dvnieldraws · 6 months

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oc brainrot oc brainrot (original, twd!ttrpg ocs)

#my art #artists on tumblr #art #digital art #artist #character artist #original character #original art #my ocs #zombie ttrpg #they mean so much to me #rio is jus so. SCREAMS #bennys age is smtg a lil confusing to even me skdhksj but hes rios brother #benny in my head is just such. a complicated guy. like. INDUNNOOO im just spiraling abt them n their siblinghood #if ur in this game w me n ur not sam uhhh. hi. im sane j #ur chars would not know anything about benny other than his name lol #i dunno if he'll show up but ooooo #i dont know how to put it into words they just mean. so much to me #sorry for original art!

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kdramamilfs · 1 day

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Perfect Family (2024), episode 11

#perfect family #perfect family kbs #kdrama #kdramaedit #kdramasource #kdramaspace #kdramadaily #park ju hyun #yoon se ah #kim byung chul #my post #*m.gif #looked into the comments on asianwiki.......... im sorry you guys dont know how to have fun. i for one immensely enjoyed this drama #(up to the time jump. sorry. those last 40 mins were so boring to me)#loooved the shots of them in the burned house. fu.cked up!

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sketchesandnonesense · 25 days

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I'll just put this here

#to be FAIR it was gift money n fun money n the comms im waiting on were v spaced out but i still feel dumb #like if i talk about 'o I have 4 comms I'm waiting on' i feel like 'oh god im gonna get judged #bc i have anxiety u see #also tho the comms im getting are Partially to compare product quality so I know for future Gifts For Others where to go #bc i gotta find the right price/quality/timeframe ratio #esp. timeframe bc i dont wanna order somethin for someone's bday n it takes like. A Year. and/or the artist jus Dissappears #becca whines

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sharkfund · 1 month

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Thank u brave soldiers in the oneyplays community for calling out sum of the crazy shit going on in oneyredacted. Lets try to SAVE these people 🙏🙏 praise the Lord

#maybe this will incite some guilt into these people's tortured souls idk #“its a fantasy!!” hey man we dont have to post everything. hey man? its not normal. bottom line #liking PISS is abnormal. wanting to overpower a real man without his consent is PSYCHOTIC #And you are fucking stupid as hell #say u dgaf all u want u little freaks i know it eats u up inside. i know ur mind is so tormented by ur own sick thoughts and its eating u up #i know it u know it but ur so delusioned u dont wanna admit it. jus wait. jus waitttt bro #im praying for ur recovery??? like please go do smthn else man get ts out of ur dome. u got potential maybe. for Something

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chompe-diem · 3 months

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NEW SEASON OF ADVENTURING ACADEMY IF MURPH ISN'T THERE I'M TEARING SOMETHING UP WITH MY TEETH. MURPH DM CONTENT

#brian murphy #i dont think u understand #jus how many 'murph in adventuring academy' posts i have in my drafts #that i refrain from posting to seem less insane #i need it i neeeed it. if they dont bring him bsck im going to be upset #they have brought other ppl back. there is a precedent #HELL ZAC'S ON THE GODDAMN PREVIEW PIC. ru kidding me #if u bring back lou zac aabria matt etc and not murph i am going to be.#i am going to be. well i am mostly going to be sad about it #not much of a threat i know but yeah

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liverpool-enjoyer · 11 months

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ooooh man oh man the Asexual Angst™️ is hitting HARD tonight 😭😭

#WHY COULDNT I HAVE BEEN ACE AND ARO #MY LIFE WOULDA BEEN SM EASIER #BRO DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD ITS GONNA BE TO FIND A GUY THAT DOESNT WANNA BONE??? 😭😭#like im sitting here thinking a what the ideal scenario would be #n like the thought of telling my hypothetical boyfriend 'hey i dont wanna have sex ever' n him being ok w that???#like i literally cant fathom it #even in my IMAGINATION i cant think of a guy being ok w that #sigh..#jus. why me #how come everyone else gets to like #be in a relationship n stuff #n my irl friends are like 'oh youll find someone!!'#best friend saying that doesnt make it TRUE #like whatre the fuckin odds #could i not jus have been allo #ngl this ace thing kinda sucks #like truly honestly think abt it #could you honestly imaginr a guy being cool w not having sex for the rest a his life???#exactly #why did i get the asexual heteromantic combo #its ace but with Horrific Yearning #i think ive come to terms with it atp #but like damn...#shit sucks #doomed by the narrative to never know the (romantic) touch of a man ✌️🤪#hey God if You could jus like #make me not asexual overnight #thatd be appreciated #n like im not even depressed while typing this. jus resigned #asexual

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