#i dont know if people generally would see them as dirty or whatevs.... i do get it if they would.

[autism-corner]

If a stranger wanted to give you a homemade pin, made from a tin bottlecap, would you accept?

[mackmp3]

☕how the writers delt with river song

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP THEY DID MY GIRL SO DIRTY there are so many. good river song moments. and there are so manythat make me want to tear a strip off steven moffat like every goddamn episode with her they have to make some obnoxious sex joke or some Honey Im Home type shit & i understand this is like. A Moffat Theme & i dont always hate it but goddddd its so reductive like there is so much!!!! that could be done with her character !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is overshadowed by haha what if she was sexy like STOPPPPPPPPPPPP.

like silence in the library was a really good character lead in & i like her!!! as a character !!!! even the overly flirtatiousness unfortunately that would work on me but even aside from that. she is a good character let down but the sheer pull-it-out-of-your-ass writing of her backstory. like?? she could regenerate cos she was conceived in the tardis okay thats really cool much weirder stuff has happened when it comes to tardises & making babies but then WE SeE THIS FOR LIKE. ONE OR TWO EPISODES BEFORE THEYRE LIKE WHOOPS THAT DOESNT WORK ACTUALLY COS SHE'S DEAD UHHH SHE BETTER UHMM IDK SAVE TH E DOCTOR OR SOMETHING WHATEVER> COS HER ENTIRE LIFE HAS TO REVOLVE AROUND HIM. HASHTAG MARRIAGE AMIRITE like even the fact that her entire life was shaped around him isnt a Bad Idea it just feels like no one considered the tragic impies (implications) of this, & simultaneously doing amy so dirty in the process as well like??? she loses baby mels & then discovers she was her (never previously mentioned) childhood friend but then she uhhhh dies & turns into this woman you already know and them????? barely eveer mention it again???? holy shit?????????????????????? amy & river is a freaking horror story but one that the writers seem imcapable of dealing with because sOMEONE is too busy making obnoxious jokes about married life

a lot of thsi is specific to the General Vibes of the eleven era stuff as well which was in general so so weird about women & while its not like twelve or any of teh other doctors are expemt from this eleven is a massive dick to people quite a bit & a lot of this falls on river b/c he is seemingly (iirc i havent seen some of this stuff for a while though it Haunts Me) almost careless? with her? like a sort of 'welllllll she's here now so it was all okay in the end :)' sort of attitude ignoring that she went through A Fuckton Of Stuff before she was even a concious human(mostly??) being

even the husbands of river song is tragically guilty of some of that stuff like. she's seen some wild shit & she should have known it was twelve wayyyyyy way way quicker. like i understand why she didnt for plot reasons but she is in fact very intellegent like. she's allowed to show that. unfortunatley sometimes women cant be smart & have their boobs out at that same time I GUESSSSSSSSS

also the nine & river audios from earlier this year? i really like archipelago i listened to that a couple of times & i thought it was really powerful but AGAIN the writers make river So Fucking Obsessed With Romance like. you'd let it go by that point. nine had literally just proved he's the most aro guy in the universe (good for him) and shes stillllllll flirting at him. which. imo she wouldnt do anymore because, shock horror, she does actually like him as a person & values his company and you would think you would be friends wit hthe guy YOU ARE GONG TO MARRY OR WHATEVER. NOT THAT THEIR MARRIAGE WAS PARTICULARLY ROMANTIC EITHERIM GONNA BE SO REAL. obviously sex is important to her & good for her but yikes. it doesnt need to be mentioned so often.

like its the whole 'inherent tragedy of waiting for a time traveller' stuff which i do eat up every time meeting her in silence of the library & knowong that there is so much more there - VERY COMPELLING !! really good character intro augahagaauuaajaaajahhahahahhhh but nooooo her Entire Fucking Goddman Life has to revolve around being manipulated & The Doctor AS WELL AS !! the completely uncalled for ohhhh im a PSYCHOPATH ( <- unfounded & demonstrably untrue lowkey this is saneism right. thats an ableism there yes? ) thing they alllwaysssss have her say like well!! shes not !! theres 'youre talking about commiting a murder'/'no im not, i'm actually commiting a murder' which i like & is funny & she would say that and then theres teh vauge oooohhhhh im so Freaky & I Have A Gun or whatevr like augsugsaihuahahaouoauauoouauoauoauoauuo

also twelve & river had freaky t4t bi4bi aroallo sex after the end of husbands of river song but no actual dw writer is enlightened enough to see that because they have to flatten her into The Doctors Wife & she would have had a far better dynamic with 12 than with 11 (not that i'm biased) i wish they got more time togetherrrrrrrrrrr also you should listen to the bekdel test (diary of river song audio with missy)

[nsfwarros1]

hiii i keep thinking about that drawing you posted a week or two ago with cas groping gortash on the couch while a servant tries to get his attention and i was wondering, what are the attitudes of everyone else around them to what is going on? do the servants, advisors, lords and ladies etc know this is a kink thing? i feel like it is super obvious it is a kink thing but maybe they don't know and just think he's getting fat? if they do know are they judgey about it?

it actually wasnt a servant it was literally a ruler of another city gortash is just unbearable and has more power❤️ sorry I just wanted to clarify that first🙏

but most people dont know or assume that its a kink thing actually, no! To me it’s just not exactly a common thing in the setting tbh, especially considering that *even if* it's usually kept insanely private. But aside from that most people also would not suspect Cas to be into that as he is fatphobic and generally judgmental (appearance wise) as hell to anyone else and also generally just assumed to be erm…. too pretty for that, if you get the sentiment. The leading theory ever since more people learned of the fact that Cas is a devil is actually that it’s some form of contract—Some people believe its just some mischief or Cas being sadistic as his part of the contract before claiming Gortash's soul, some others believe its actually Gortash that wanted a devil that serves and pampers him... there’s a few questionable theories flying around tbh😖 People that are close enough that they can overhear them talk about it (just dirty talk or whatever) like servants and such do kinda know its kink-related I suppose, but anyone that is in that position is also scared to death of them and absolutely won’t talk about or share it

So generally, there’s no general assumption about what it is but most people think that it’s not out of fetish reasons but rather that it has some other ulterior motive, like the contract etc. Some even think its Cas trying to fatten him up and then take his power but it’s been getting to a point where that seems… the most unrealistic theory as Cas can clearly dispose of him any time in his current state and with how much hes relying on Cas

As for their opinions… there’s a few hardcore Gortash bootlickers in the city that will somehow say that getting fat is just another form of showcasing his power cuz he can afford it but aside from that people don’t exactly respect his choices tbh—Not like most have the guts to bring it up. A lot of nobles from the city and Gortash’s old business partners think that it’s not a state a ruler should be in, but it’s also not like it *actually* affected his rule considering that Cas made up for it. The ones that do believe Cas had any hand in it see it as double the weakness in a way too, Gortash allowing someone else to even affect him in that way on top of just letting himself go like that. That's especially like... Banites that start to believe he's not fit to be the chosen anymore because he's so weak for Cas. Some also just think he’s just letting being rich and in power nd “nobility” get to his head tbh😭

[kit-williams]

Kit, I love reading all your writings. From the quality of what you've written, the posts of WIPS you've shared, and the overall general musings you've given about what you're working on, it is beyond clear that you're passionate and care about what you write.

From Perty and Penelope to Roland and Bäckerin, it's all genuinely so good. I see you post something and get beyond excited to get the chance to read it; even if it's a quick one of reply to build off another post.

THAT'S NOT EVEN GET INTO HUSBANDRY SENTIENCE! You helped kick off genuinely one of the most enjoyable pieces of collective fanfiction that I have read in such a long time; it's to the point where I point my friends to your page like, "Look at this! Look at how good it is!" And they agree because it really is! I used to gate fandoms, I thought my time in them was done, but you've made me actually want to interact with one again with this collective you've been encouraging.

You've done great work, and that's all well and good to say, but it's harder to make oneself believe that. As a fellow artist and writer, I also understand where you're coming from. Sometimes, you look at something you've made (especially as it gets older) and wonder if it was ever any good in the first place. The answer is yes, it was and still is. The truth of the matter is that as you grow as a writer, your expectations for yourself do as well. You see every mistake, every way it could have been better. That's natural. But to us, your audience, we see a wonderful piece every time. We go back and reread things you've written no matter how old because we love what you wrote.

It's okay to be self-critical, but know you never need to doubt your abilities. You've written wonderful things, and I can personally say I am very excited to read whatever you write next.

I really hope you feel better soon, be kind to yourself.

- Tired College Anon

I never came back to tumblr to make what I've made. Sentience was never a thought I had... but it evolved so much further than what I thought it would be... I never saw myself doing anything more than just posting my silly D&D crossover idea and then Roland came into existence.

As for Husbandry Sentience... I really do try to understand the characters that I have been so graciously been allow to help make or to take to interact with my boys and girls. I never had made something like this before... honestly Sentience is just an AU of an AU... and then how much I feel honored to see people making AUs of my AU like the mer fics... making a collaborative fic beyond just my ask box people was not on my bingo card guys (gn)...

And then I was convinced, guided, somehow some way this beautiful community I had suddenly found myself in told me they wanted to see my take on Canon Characters far more fleshed out then old Ovary Thief Tyberos

I hate talking about myself because I dont feel like what I accomplish is much to write home about because its just this is my standard. What I give to you all is just my normal... my normal quick and dirty only occasionally beta read/reviewed before I post it... its me not trying me not worrying

I should feel better soon... everyone has been so unbelievably kind... everyone has been so nice and supportive

[trainingdummyrabbit]

[SURFS INSIDE OF THE ASKBOX AGAIN] hello i am Here to ask about what the Hell do magpie and luci have going on. Considering the whole Thing. magpie's watch being important to him and how luci is associated with the backwards clock. That Kind of Ordeal ^<^

hai . i am so capable of being normal about this. lie.

ok so im once again going to be At It, some mix btwn scattered notes and infodumping and me just saying words You Get It. i have Not been talking abt them as much as i think abt them, theyre another dynamic that haunts me to death. you understand. anyway; ~28 paragraphs.

so first i should Probably actually go over magpie as a character bc i. somehow. dont think i have. at all. so ^_^

magpie, our funny little manager, is introduced mostly as a negligible character. honestly? he just kind of sucked. shows up to be really annoying before dipping again, yapping just because he can, mostly. hes set up entirely to be some 'rich completely-inept asshole climbing the corporate ladder,' acting like hes So In Touch With Everyone (but still blatantly comes across as a complete and total narc). this is on purpose. magpie is a liar.

none of that is true, and he simply plays up the role so that people dont really suspect anything of him. actually, hes not supposed to be the manager at all. at his core, hes actually just. some guy from the backstreets people hire to do misc dirty work-- delivering information, just so happening to mess up in places that takes attention away from someone else, poking his nose places it doesnt belong-- hes got the look and charisma of someone who can be trusted, and he plays it up Hard. multiple times.

he has several different presentations he cycles through to get people to see him a certain way. he is Very Good at his job. he Hates his job. so much so, in fact, that after a particularly. messy. instance, he dropped off the map entirely to figure out some way-- any way at all-- to regain some sort of stability. (to stop the inevitability of harm even a little bit, even just once. (to make up for it all, maybe.))

so. yeah! magpie lies. a lot. he doesnt really care for status or the company as a whole at all-- originally it was just t cause problems for people he views as In Power, but like… fuck dude theres a LOT of people who Just Work Here, and if he went through with just Causing Problems like he thought he was going to, well. oof. so. change of plans! honestly now hes just trying to find some way to Get Everyone The Fuck Out Of Here.

he plays the part, and he snoops. he pretends not to notice shit he Definitely shouldnt be allowing (but like… if it makes shit easier for them, then yknow..) and pretty much just… lets people treat him however. because ultimately his act is Annoying and Untrustworthy yes, but also Completely Nonthreatening. people will let him get away with a LOT of shit with the excuse that he is "kinda stupid" and "doesnt know what hes doing." and well, yknow. whatever works! there is no way this can backfire <33

. so his thing with luci.

luci also generally sticks to her role as just kinda. yknow. Managerial Guide. at least to start out with. shes just figuring shit out yknow. and honestly, nobody really catches onto her being like… Conscious. except for Magpie. because he would always make dumb little quips and jokes at her out of habit-- yknow, like one talks to a particularly unruly printer or something-- and then she would respond in kind. like… snarking back enough to be like Okay Theres No Way Someone Just Programmed That In There Right. and not just that, she'd return with her Own little quips and questions, then act as though she didn't.

magpie originally takes this as a kind of "haha ok thats kind of fucked, at least thats something Super Illegal against these guys we can use if we need to" but then. unfortunately. the thing about magpie is that, against his own instincts, he cares for people. a Lot. he doesnt much enjoy watching people in danger-- and most certainly doesnt want to cause any of that Himself, he's over that.

which is to say: he Instantly gets attached. he cant really say it, but he counts her as as much of a person as anyone else is pretty much instantly, despite him knowing he really really shouldnt be doing that this is so stupid he cant just jump to conclusions like that and if anyone finds out theyre all So Dead. but he cant :( he cant help it… hes just a lil guy and luci is very obviously doing a horrible fucking job at hiding the fact that shes like… conscious. and he has a role to play up too, so its not like he can Do anything, especially since shes part of the damn facility's system and can probably get into contact with important people really easily..

so for a while, its just. luci thinking shes doing a great job at slinking around and playing the manager for a fool the whole time, and magpie fully aware but pretending not to notice and trying to just make things passively easier for her to figure herself out without anyone noticing. its insufferable. because theyre both Correct and Entirely Wrong about each other.

luci completely falls for his Dumb Manager facade and plays the part accordingly, playing around with him because its convenient and kind of funny, she also happens to be the only one who catches on that he is Not Supposed To Fucking Be Here, but plays along because, again, convenient. easy enough scapegoat if she needs it. meanwhile magpie clocks onto her Instantly, but Completely misses the fact that she isnt just innocently futzing around like he thinks she is. he somehow completely trusts her, so much so that despite being the only person who could possibly figure out her Scheming he just. completely rules it out. i really have to reiterate, they are So fucking insufferable.

it isnt until past halfway through th fucking game that luci catches on that magpie's front is . well, a front. and she is genuinely insulted she never caught on. its so fucking funny. and then things get kinda complicated bc like… [waves hands around] story events…..

luci kinda functions as a sorta "final boss" for the whole thing, in heavy quotes. ihavent decided exactly how itll go yet, but. waves hand around. the point is that shes kind of directly responsible for a LOT of people dying, and also kind of for directly threatening Them as well. but the thing is, she hinges Immensely deeply on the idea of Relevancy. because her own nature is so fickle and fragile, shes insistent on making a strong Impression of herself-- as this is what she feels like will root her into reality. something much like how abnormalities function-- ideas dont really ever die, and neither do they. and Thats what she wants more than anything.

so. while it wasnt exactly her entire Goal from the start, if she can cement herself as a Villain, then sure. whatever. it could be fun! and she plays it up. as she is wont to do.

that whole thing is important because of th fact that like.. the only person who Doesnt immediately believe that image of her IS magpie. like… yeah hes kinda had th rug pulled out from under him completely (and its kind of true that if he'd been a little more observant that he could have literally stopped all of this.. he tries not to think about it too hard.) but he also just… god, despite everything he still hates the idea of having to do anything to her.

it takes him a while to figure out why, but its because he's ALSO immediately able to call out her bluff. AGAIN. due to being pretty much the only person that talks to her directly (and.. genuinely ??? kind of??) he can tell when she is intentionally hiding something. she is very deliberately playing up the Idea of what a villain Is, goading everyone on, but he knows damn well what shes about. the issue is that it isnt wholly untrue either.

its like. yeah she intentionally hurt a lot of people, and will probably keep doing that if someone doesnt Do something about her (like everyone else wants to do…) but also… well to put it bluntly, again, she wants little more than simply to be able to Live.

shes purposefully putting herself into a role in order to get what she wants, confident that she can do whatever she wants with no consequence, and treats the entire thing as a weird little game. she doesnt really hold any malice in her heart, she just. she's just desperate and deeply, deeply confused.

shes not good, but shes not evil either. she is JUST stupid. she doesnt know what shes doing and will do just about anything to hide that fact because she hates the feeling of not having control over these things. something she Also tries to hide. honestly hes not really sure if she even notices it herself.

at this point luci has literally never had to deal with the consequences for her actions so this is quite literally the Peak of her hubris arc. to put it in a way, shes convinced she understands how the story goes and can change it how she wants, and she Does Not and Cannot. her arc is essentially trying to assign narrative significance to things in the hopes that it Fulfills something in her. it does not. instead she just has a bunch of problems she caused herself. oops. oh well <33 and its not like magpie doesnt try!! unfortunately its a little hard to talk someone down when theyre Actively Trying To Kill You, and also when theyve completely resigned themself to this sort of Only One Of Us Can Survive ultimatum.

which is to say luci keeps collecting death flags and well. oops <333 which kind of ends with magpie being literally the only person who knows that luci was ever anything other than that Antagonistic Presence she insisted on being (because she would rather have committed fully to that than to ever reveal that maybe, just a little, she was terrified of what would happen otherwise..)

but most importantly, luci ends up being Another Person that magpie couldn't help. its not like he couldve DONE anything, she would've refused anything and everything regardless, its just. man. god. ugh. that… that sucked. its not like he has a horrible track record of repeatedly failing to save people or anything… lol lmao………

so hey, the watch, right?

its something he got from one of his little jobs. last one he ever took, actually. he'd never say it was really a Moral way to make it day to day, but like, what Was, right? nothing was Really moral, everyone just kinda did what they had to; so like, no need to worry about it right? no time for all that. but then you pay a little too much attention, slip up a little, get to know someone a little too much; learn they're pretty much exactly like you are. someone with wants and hopes, little preferences and stories they get excited to share.

and then you get the guy killed. part of the plan from the start, of course, but like... he was Right There. its different when you have to look em in the eyes when you do it, yknow?

magpie's key running emotion is Guilt. he spent so long trying to avoid facing the reality of who he was and what he was doing, but unfortunately it catches up to him Big Time. he's just deceptively good at acting as though that isn't the case. no time to slow down, after all. he couldnt Afford to do anything else. honestly? his entire stunt with lcorp wasnt even something he Thought about too hard. it was stupid and impulsive and he knows it, but now he's Here, and he Has to do something. it has to be something, he can't just let it go. can't just let them go. (some part of him hopes that at the very least when it Does all backfire on him, at least it'd help somebody in the process...)

the watch is a reminder. something kind of absentmindedly tossed at him by the guy who put him on the job as a little something extra, (or in other words, something they didnt bother to want to deal with.) and then it turns out, it was just some petty fuckoff disagreement between them that started th whole thing! but its cool because he gives you the dead guy's watch "to sell for at least a little extra, as a tip." right. of course. yeah, that's... yeah, thanks. great!

he cleaned it and fixed it up and he keeps it as a memento. a little "hey dont fuck up again ok buddy?" a little "you could literally die at any time so like just remember that ok buddy?" ... an "at least let me honor this somehow before karma comes back and inevitably kicks my ass." equal parts reminder and weight to bear. sentimental piece and confession of guilt.

luci's ordeal with backwards clock is a mostly out-of-narrative subject-- assigning her abnos to thematically tie with for funsies. the clock is, wouldnt you guess it, linked with her experience with regret. its... very, very complicated to explain, especially because of the fact that 1) shes already so goddamn hard to decipher and 2) she is Also fully incapable of processing it for what it is.

which... kind of brings me to the whole Thing. magpie is plainly, fully aware that trusting luci in the way that he is is by all means a horrible, horrible idea. she's made it abundantly, repeatedly clear she will simply do whatever benefits her most at any given point. but all magpie can really see is someone struggling just a few paces behind him, exactly somewhere he has been, something he remembers incredibly clearly. as stupid as it may be, he wants to help her. he wants her to be able to find herself, confront what she refuses to acknowledge, give her a fighting chance.

he cant stand the idea of letting someone slip through his fingers like that. it's... its complicated, but its something he wants to stand by. luci just doesnt get it. she still holds a grudge towards him after everything, an odd caution knowing that he just. knows things about her. has seen her for what she is, further than she can bear to acknowledge herself, as bad of a job as she's doing hiding it. luci will continue to refuse any opening he gives to her, but he will continue to offer the option, time and time again.

. anyway heres some images.

[ilynpilled]

Hey! So I'm from the Jaime/Lannister side of the fandom but wanted to ask your opinion on where you think GRRM is going with Dany. I don't mean spell out her endgame or anything, but what messages do you think he is trying to impart through her character? I see so much Dark!Dany! theory shaped by the show that has just never really resonated with how I read her in the books. I see her more as a figure who will try to be Queen of Westeros, but will ultimately end up abdicating or even sacrificing herself during the LN because finding "home" is more important to her than ruling... but that is not based on much other than gut feeling. What do you think?

yeah idrgaf about the show tbh. i think it fundamentally misunderstood key themes that the books were exploring. corrupted/mad dany feels so deeply cynical to me. people have been reiterating this: she is a subversive messiah figure & she is given a narrative that is so often reserved for the “male hero”. the gender commentary in that would fall flat on its face to me if she becomes mad fascist female ruler like bffr. yeah, she will get darker come winds, like everyone else she will have to make choices and will face moral dilemmas because she is resolved to continue combatting the institution of slavery. she knows she will not be able to do it without dirtying her hands in some way. i think grrm is gonna explore the concept of necessary force and the question of when it is more moral to take a stand and draw blood: is it justified to cut off and burn something at the root, especially if the alternative is allowing the cancer to exist and continue to spread? the institution of slavery is a wound that cannot just be covered up with a bandaid. like this is a very important aspect of abolition. the only way i can see the idea of “madness” be relevant is in a more subversive john brown paralleling way with how people thought that man was insane bc he wanted to end slavery lmfao. if terrible people think you are mad for attempting to make radical changes that harm them that is a good sign. also would hate her becoming an aerys parallel like in the show like that is cringe bio essentialism territory, again, antithetical to the themes prevalent in these books. d&d’s #subversive #dark #unexpected ending was unironically the equivalent of:

do not want her ‘idealism’ to be completely robbed from her at any point either really. im not opposed to tragedy but i dont think id vibe with it being too cynical in this instance. this series is about earned romanticism. its heroes are the dreamers yada yada. it is about a dream of spring. i always thought she represented hope in some way. she is gonna be the flame during TLN, literally and metaphorically imo. i do think there are thematic and more abstract aspects to lightbringer, like yeah humanity uniting over an ideal for a better future & it can be about hope or whatever, which is why multiple characters have some kind of flaming sword foreshadowing, but a main one is gonna be dany and her dragons. like on top of all the pretty overt foreshadowing, like let us think about the logistics here, what is gonna do more damage to the others?? three magic nukes or some convenient dues ex machina magical flaming toothpick we forge out of murdering a woman? i also do not want to instantly write her off as a doomed martyr either though. i see the appeal in the tragedy of the kind girl who wanted a home dying without ever getting to live in the one she created but still leaving it for millions upon millions of people present and future… but also idk i am just not crazy about martyrdom as a trope unless it is executed very well. i like when characters survive for a cause rather than die for it. dany always kept persevering, not just for herself, but others: her children and her people, so i like when altruism is framed in that way. also i might be a little bitter if she is the only one to die from the new generation or whatever like in the show

[juni-ravenhall]

therapy went okay today. i dont really like her but we did the EMDR thing and that was fine since it was guided and not much related to her personality. i found out an interesting thing about the mind-safe-space because of that. (mine is an all-wooden cabin of the type we stayed at over yule as a kid twice or thrice - just without all the crazy people in it. its dark outside the window, deep snow and stars in the sky. you could see a tomte slowly walking past in the distance with a lantern, if you watch quietly.)

first she told me to feel where exactly i am in this cabin, which i havent really done before. i would *put* myself somewhere, not feel "where do i end up if i just ask myself without assumptions". the answer was in the kids bedroom, in the bottom part of a bunk bed, with clean soft bedding in warm yule-y colours like red and green. its a small room mostly just fitting the beds on each side. there are our travel bags on the floor. you can close the door if you need to, which feels safer. (i usually put myself on the wooden couch/bench in the main room where i can look out the window, and then i talk to my fictional guardian or whatever to call it, together on the couch.)

then she told me to focus on senses in my mindspace, which i also havent done before. it smells strongly like wood of course, its almost all wood in this cabin (that sort of medium orangey colour). but then i could feel the press of the pencil to the crappy drawing paper. that soft and grainy kind of kids drawing paper that your pencil pushes into and creates dents. a thick pad of it. and a regular kids pencil, which ive barely used in my adult life in favour of pens and mechanical pencils. so the feeling of a dulled pencil pressing into the soft crappy paper, and the scritch scritch sound of it. i could see the pencil pressing into the paper really clearly in front of me and hear the scratching loudly in my ears. at this point i got teary, partially because the memory of childhood drawing in that cabin and what it felt like, which made me emotional, and partially just out of the stress and illness im under in general atm.

she asked me to name a (positive) word for my safespace and its obviously just "wood".

she asked me to continue feeling what it feels like in my body when im there in the bed drawing. i feel the drawing sounds intensely. im 12ish, its quiet and smells like wood, its dark outside the window and the deep snow, the yule-y bedding is clean and comfortable, our bags with our gameboys and comic magazines and clothes and snacks are on the floor, there are some holiday decorations here and there, i can smell the paper and the pencil along with the wood, the air is so different than our dirty house, all the furniture and floors and walls somehow feel loving and almost like a hug instead of feeling weird and uncomfortable, i can hear and feel and see the scratches of my pencil pressing into the paper, im drawing something inspired by lord of the rings, im listening to "mo ghaol mo ghràdh" on my portable CD player.

i cried for a bit bc it was really overwhelming feeling the drawing so strongly. it raised a lot of thoughts for me like, i havent drawn with a regular pencil since such a long time and therefore havent experienced those sensations. a pen is not the same. decent quality paper is not the same as that shit paper.

after this she said to imagine a situation that makes me feel bothered (i took this to mean things like mildly triggering but not as bad as a full on panic attack), and to feel how i feel in my body in that situation. the answer was i felt sort of tense in my arms as if im about to move them because i have to "do something about it", and ofc kinda tense overall. (im a problem solver, so it makes sense about the moving arms thing, but i didnt know i felt that.)

then to go back to the safe space and feel that in my body again, and compare the two situations and how it feels different. obviously in my safe space i feel less tense (not not-tense, just better) and notably i dont feel like i have to solve anything, i dont have to do anything with my arms. i just exist. then she asked me to do the same thing again with another bothering situation and it felt the same that time too.

after that i think we were done for today, she asked me how i feel but i didnt really know. it was interesting but i didnt feel relieved or anything like that in general, i still feel like shit bc none of my problems went away. but it did feel nice to feel slightly more calm in the safespace and i felt very strongly about the drawing thing. it felt like something i didnt know i missed (and art is a struggle for me as an adult because im so apathetic that its not fun to draw anymore and i barely feel anything about it 99% of the time, unlike back then).

after i left i decided to go past a toy shop and buy a nostalgic pencil, pencil sharpener, eraser and drawing pad, so i have the full set to try doodling in the same way as in childhood. there was a problem in that those super crappy kids paper are hard to find in sweden nowadays. i went in 3 different shops that have kids art supplies and none of them had it. so i had to settle for a better quality paper, sadly, but i will keep my eye out for really crappy paper. my goal is to just doodle whatever i want in there and not share it with anyone unless i really really want to, and to mostly doodle the type of stuff i did as a kid. not strictly, if i want to draw current ocs or whatever thats fine, but i want to try to reconnect stronger with that safespace feeling by drawing in the way and themes of that time period.

since i love girly 90s-y2k things so much, i picked a lipstick-shaped eraser with synthetic cherry scent (we had these when i was a kid), a pencil sharpener shaped like a juice box (its purple with grapes on it), one of those pencils you dont sharpen with short nibs you switch out?- with strawberries on it, and for the regular pencil i went for one with constellations theme, dark blue with golden stars and names of constellations on it, its pretty.

[kidfoundonstreets]

i'm glad to hear you enjoyed the coffin of andy and leyley, as well as no-good noelle! sorry for only just getting back to you on this—it completely slipped my mind until now

i agree that it was definitely a delight to see the improvements in tcoaal compared to earlier games, and yes! it was very much made in rpgmaker. i'm ALWAYS a massive sucker for comic panel-styled cgs

and i think what andrew meant by discarding andy and leyley to die in the coffin was him essentially. swearing to drop the power imbalance he and ashley once had as children and instead have the both of them stand on equal footing? i'm not sure, but that's what it read to me.

as for the parasite thing—who knows? nemlei apparently did go through with making a continuation to this game, so maybe we'll learn more about it there. the fact they're siblings roughly around the same age is also so tastefully fucked up by the way because like… how do i explain it. siblings usually live together ever since childhood so they have more time to affect each other growing up, and there's ALSO this general """agreement""" that family should always be your no. 1 priority when it comes to the people you choose to keep in your life or whatever, so it's like. yeah

(this is NOT meant in a weird way btw i'm a youngest sibling with two older sisters myself)

anyways yule nogoodnoelle is built different and i would drench him in milk until he's sopping wet before slamming him against the wall. real. 💯

DONT WORTRY ABOUT IT!! i apologize for the laytre response as well :3

discussing this with you is v fun i love hearing your thoughts on it,,

the equal footing makes a lot more sense! it literally says in the description of the game "co-dependency" and discarding how it's been for years is just so. well took a couple murders to get to that moment but yk (it was also mentioned i think they've had these types of arguments before and i find that interesting though im sure its never gone this far) anyway it also reminds me of a song called Evelyn Evelyn. don't know how well that works though. i need to stop getting off track

stuck with eachother and moving towards something that doesn't have the other as a doormat or the other as the boss . i don't know how possible that is for them but if there is a continuation id love to see it <3

heyy youngest kids gang. the "agreement" of family being no.1 priority and the same ages.. i didnt even think of thst but aaa. "your priority should be me!" as the rules say aswell its also like andy since the start his personality wasnt stronger than leyleys anyway he ended up as the quick go to (you live with him, it feels like obligation, he's as bendable as a rubber band) and i guess there's a line of friendship and family that is hard to clear unless you get rid of all the formalities and morals- which is also like. not only are your lives centered around your family now it also could be centered around a stranger,, but once that person is gone it'll forever have a gaping hole you can't get rid of unless theyre back. because youve known them so long. adapting to everything especially the tough situations that argumens and misunderstandings make your bond stronger

i dont know what im saying or what that means but i will eat your ideas ok

that's one of the most perfect descriptions of yule you get it you literally do. playing ivys route made me feel dirty after goig throigh all of yules bullshit (i would willingly click play on him again while insulting him)

[justanotherdayhsusu]

Apologies

Warning mention of grooming, sexualizing minors, and nsfw

the grooming allegations.

honestly I didn’t even know my interaction was considered grooming. I never had that intention or even planned to do that. I just didn’t know boundaries or even heard of it. I grew up in an environment where everyone just made dirty jokes and even talk about what they think without filters. Hell even my family openly talked about their sex life.

I also have a hard time trying to understand what is okay and what isn’t in social situations. It’s been a problem I had even when I was a kid.

I wanted to come as a friendly person. So I thought mimicking what my mom does and any other caring person would do would help. I even mimic what I’ve seen people would like to hear. I just didn’t know that it would be taken as grooming.

but that’s not an excuse. And I’m sorry. I didn’t want to make anyone uncomfortable or even feel threatened by me. But I did.

I know that my interaction is going to affect the person for the rest of their life. And I’m sorry. If you don’t believe me and still are angry at me that’s valid! You have every right to be angry at me and not forgive me. But I’m still going to say I’m sorry. As I am truly sorry.

I’ve been working on learning boundaries and how to interact with others. I’ve been going through group therapy and even talk to my therapist about this. I’m not saying I’m all better and that I’m going back online. No i actually plan on staying away from social media in general. And if I do come back it’s going to be in nsfw spaces. I will also go for websites that is adults only. And won’t go to like tiktok,x,tumblr or any website that is targeted to minors.

meaning I won’t use this account to post art or interact with people.

Sexualizing minors

honestly I thought this was about Percy but no it was about Janice. I was confused as I didn’t draw Janice in any nsfw or even drew her sexually. Up until someone confronted me about it.

I remember the post I made about being happy about not caring that people where shipping Panny with Janice . And a lot of people got mad about it and I really didn’t understand. My mind can’t connect things that are obvious. And sometimes I don’t really understand others point of view. It takes me a while to try and understand it.

I didn’t ship the whole Panny x Janice thing. In fact I just mentioned being happy in not hurting anymore. People have been taking Panny and doing whatever the hell they want with her. Even if I go out of my way to ask them to stop.

people have been shipping Panny with a child oc, or other characters. Some have made nsfw of her and send it to me. Which made me really uncomfortable. It hurt badly to see this. So when I saw that I stopped caring I was just happy. So happy to not cry and feel this emotional pain on my chest. I was happy. To not be tormented by this. I know it sounds silly how something like this can affected me so badly to the point of messing with my mental health.

but I was really attached to Panny. She was a comfort character of mine that helped me understand what a happy relationship could look like. And make ridiculous storylines.

and in my train of thought. I thought if I worked with the person that made this Percy’s x Panny x Janice thing it would help me to become immune? I dont know if thats the word. But something that just makes me not be so bothered by it.

but I will make it clear. I don’t draw any nsfw of minors or make a grown up version just to make nsfw of them. I am extremely picky and cautious on what characters I draw nsfw of. I even go out of my way to make sure the characters are 19 or older.

Percy doesn’t have a canonical age. And I’ve have imagined him to be an adult since I was 13.

I’m also very strict with characters that aren’t cannon. Just to avoid making any author of that character doesn’t get uncomfortable like I have when people made nsfw of Panny.

but I’m not going to lie and say I’m a saint. I have drawn nsfw of wiki characters. But after that experience I had. I stopped. And if I do draw those things with the wiki characters I won’t post them. I will only post them if I knew the admins are comfortable with that sort of things

But this is the internet. Not everyone is going to respect you. Not everyone is going to listen. I needed that thick skin that many other popular creators have.

Even if you make boundaries people will go out of their way and purposely disrespect that.

and again I am sorry that I’ve hurt you and your trust.

I’m not planning to come back to social media or post my art. And if I do then it will be nsfw spaces that is specifically only for adults. As I enjoy making nsfw. Plus I would prefer to be in a space where people are comfortable with talking about that sort of things. And I like to meet people around my age.

and if you’re still mad and don’t forgive me that’s valid. Like I said you have The right to be mad at me. And I won’t force you to forgive me. Thats for you to decide. Not me.

I’ve just wanted to make an apology post. For months I wanted to make a apology post.

Another thing. I’ve once gotten into a discoed group cha And got blocked. And honestly that’s the best Thing to ever happen to me. My mental health wasn’t great and I was extremely chronically online. And being blocked gave me the push that I needed to get my shit together.

I’ve only had TikTok but deleted it when someone spam my comments with pedo. Causing me to have a mental breakdown. Honestly it’s ridiculous how I handled that situation. I wished I could have handled that maturely but I didn’t. And I’m sorry.

I’m not planning to use this account. I made sure to not remember the password to this account or have any access to it. As I really don’t want to come back to this account obsessing over something that I have no control over.

[fruitwanderer]

So!! Clothes!! This will include a whole lotta headcannons

3rd Life, it takes place in the fall and into early winter in a place that experiences both of those seasons not quite vividly but definetly notiecably. So at the start the clothes aren't light persay, but they do have easily removable layers because it would still be warm enough rhat physical labour would leave you hot. And as you move further on the pants start getting heavier, nights spent mending holes and adding linings. Wool jackets pieced together, the works. By the end everything is thick but mobile, and requires under layers. This one i have like no thoughts on really unless we want to get into individuals but that feels excessive for my first inbox ramble to you.

Last life is winter, very early spring. Early spring as in the snow is melting and wet and iced over and dirty and disgusting. The clothes are heavy, and everyone is wearing gloves. Everything is furlined and made of wool (good water proofing which in the snow is a neccessity). People like Scar wear spikes on their shoes for grip (if you dont live in a snowy enviorment, look it up, its a thing, and theyre sick af), j name scar because mountains are colder, are probably always snowing, and damn icy. Well trodden paths are probably slick as all hell as well, so in general boots are built tall, thick, and with traction. Hoods and hats become a neccessity against the wind, but with the hoods already being easy to grab and choke someone with nobody dared risk a scarf to wear. Last life was ruthless. Clothes may be bulky but handholds and easy grips are minimized, too thick to easily grab. Everythings tucked in or tapers at the end. This is also generally where people started wearing their hair either aggresively short or long enough to be pulled up tight and secure easily. The comforts of their other servers may have deluded them into thinking things like this couldnt be used against them in 3rd life, but those beliefs dont last long.

Now I don't have many thoughts on double life, but, this is spring into summer. The begginning is wet and muddy and the shoes are boots that reflect this start. They initially namelt wore wool sweaters (mild water proofing, few hand holds, spring can be quite chilly) but as summer rolled in they swapped to tshirts jn a much lighter material. Pants likely ended up being made of the same material. Some people prioritized camoflauge wgere they could in this series as well.

Limited life is summer back into fall and people have begun to grow comfortable in these games. Hair and hand holds might not be present again, but clothes are loose, and like the clockers, fashion statements are begginning to take priority with bright flashy colors and pieces of clothes that are mildly impractical (unbuttoned shirts are not convienent for chasing someone down). This is a reflection of how they were more careless when it came to dying.

Now much unlike the life series your clothing does not inhibit your success on empires or hermitcraft nearly as much. Where you have to think about the practicallity and how others can ise clothes against you in the life series, as long as you can move and do in your outfit of choice on either hc or esmp you can wear it.

In hermitcraft theres a large variety in outfits. Some hermirts wearing big dresses and extravagent outfits that have got to make life some level harder. But you'll also just see a guy in cargo shorts and a branded tshirt. It reflects the freedom of safety. Now they generally do take into account where thwyre living when outside, their bases would be well insulated and climate controlled meaning inside it is a reasonable temperature to wear whatwver they want.

Empires s1 should probably be a second ask but whatever. I'll just keep it to the kingdoms i know

Rivendell is cold, wet, and constantly snowy. Mountain life, man. Wool as an export makes sense, because again, ir's warm, can be used to make clothes, and is mostly waterproof. And if i know sheep they can be fairly resilient and at this point they also likely can climate control their barns to an extent. So the people of rivendell tend to wear one thick outerlayer and a thinner (probably imported) base layer for aesthetics. The royalty (scott) tend to wear several outer layer sweaters, a cloak (typically short) damn thick pants, and medium boots. The several layers are due to the fact that travel is fast, and diplomatic issues come up and are dealt with in the same day so he often needs to be prepared to handle any given climate. The more layers he removes in his hoise when you visit him as someone of another empire shows how much he respects and trudts you (more=more less=less). Rivendell exporting wool, a material widely used will mean their fashion likely influences several kingdoms, but due to how harsh their climate is it is rare fashion is noticeably impacted by others, that goes far more into language and cuisine. (attached below is an example of scott)

Pearls empire (gilded hycanthia i believe) is a much more mild climate as it is the food/farming empire. The traditional clothing is far less present than it used to be as it both saw a huve influx of immigrants from several other empires within "recent" memories, is an export everyone relies on so takes influence from nearlt every empire as their climate allows it far easier, and rheir culture. This is the empire where tou will see the leather accessories of grimlands paired with the light dresses of katherines empire on the same person and no one is confused. But traditional clothing is still extremely present in bith rhe royalty and at festivals (a huve part of their culture). The traditional fem garb included what i believe is a hoop skirt, a plain or striped dress (typically longsleeved) over it, and then a second dress (typically tanktop) over that that could be tied up into a very large pocket in the belt that kept everything together. The second layer came in handy with both harvesting and planting. The layers were lights and the skirts could be utilized to create a breeze around your legs and cool you down on hot days. The masc clothing utilized knee length trousers and loose shirts. They also had a sash belt that acted similarly to the 2nd skirt of the fem counterpart. (Attsched below is a couple dancing at a festival, the lady on the left is in entirrly traditional clothed, where as the lady on the right is acknowledging her familys heritage in the grimlands through no longsleeves and leather gloves)

The grimlands climate has very little to do with their clothes. Most of this empire is accessible without ever going outside and the work they do is hot. So leather is a neccessarry part of their fashion and while their smocjs arent apart of their fashion, theyre always heavily personalized. Tall leather gloves, goggles, tight clothing that is generall fire resistant (leather pants become super popular every other generation or so) are all grimlands staples. Theres very little influence on workdays from other empires, but sometimes on off days, you'll see outside influence run rampant. Thisll be on days such as holidays that are not nearly as serious a buisness as in pearls empire.

I have far more tjoughts but my energy just dropped. Feel free to ask questions or whatwver, no im jot actually super educated, this all mostly bsed but its fascinating to me, and this juat seems logical.

Oooo? 👀👀👀

Tbh clothing is always a fun thing to mess with when it comes to headcanons and gets overlooked so, so often just ;o;

This all actually kinda reminds me of our Nether headcanons related to its different creatures and, to some extent, cultures. Along with gear that non-nether creatures have to wear because of the whole lava, fire, and low oxygen thing. We might ramble about those another time, rn our brain is full of Warrior Cats OC thoughts 😔

Also mini note: We haven't watched Empires s1 and heavily procrastinate on watching it. Absolutely on our list of things to watch and we love to hear or see headcanons about it, just know we don't know all context ;o;

[swiftfootedachilles]

I love the Ghost Hunters AU and I really want more of Salem. Especially Salem with the Milkovich siblings.

🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 thank you. ive always wanted a black cat named either princess or salem and i thought it would make sense since its a ghost hunter au (even tho i skipped over all the ghost stuff so my post wasnt a million words long) with terry not around i feel like the milkoviches would love playing with animals. Salem is a very adventurous, people-loving cat! you know, the kind of cat people say were a dog in their past life. of course she loves the gallaghers too! even carl makes a point to be nice to her (after, when she was a kitten, ian beat him up for making a joke) but the milkoviches dont really get to show affection ever, so they love getting to play with her and scratch her lil belly and give her treats they stole from the pet store. they all adore her but ofc after ian and mickey get together and he comes over to the gallaghers a shitton, mickey becomes her 2nd dad. he goes to the top of her favorite people list. nobody else plays with her the way he does! hes not afraid to get a little rough, but he knows whats signs to look out for when a cat is not playing/irritated. shes still young and she loves playing!! imagine toddlers who like getting thrown around because its fun, shes like that. she gets kicked out and put in a different room when they fuck, and she uses this time to get in as much trouble as possible, knock shit over, and annoy anyone else in the house. ALSO she LOVES liam!! they literally grow up together and fiona teaches him how to treat animals so by the time hes like 5, she moves from sleeping with ian to sleeping with liam

i imagined ian and mandy meeting at the same time, so when salem is 2 that would be s3 ish. when he first found her, ian had just started his job and scrounged up every penny he could find to take her to a low cost clinic to get spayed and vaxxed. other than being skinny and dehydrated (and ofc separated from her mom as a kitten) she was in surprisingly good shape! now shes so used to being spoiled by everyone! ian LOVES taking care of others and being of service so he really found a home in Salem, treating her like his kid and giving her the best life possible. i definitely think once he gets diagnosed with BD, he pays (with mostly mickeys money lbr) for her to be his emotional support animal and takes her to as many pet friendly places at possible!

like i said she becomes kinda the mascot of the ghost hunting youtube channel they eventually start. its not something they see as a career or anything, they do it as a hobby, but they gain decent attraction and make extra money on the side from ads and a few brand deals. ofc Salem is the reason everyone watches the channel 🙄 she's in pretty much every video, and they chose her as their icon bc 1. black cat spooky duh 2. she brought them together 🥺 3. she really does show up A LOT in videos, especially when they're not urban exploring/hunting and at home recording the historical backgrounds and debriefings for each location. also yes they do urban exploring as well, thats mainly mickey and mickey and whatever milkovich wants to tag along and graffiti an abandoned building. imagine a combination of The Watcher and Dan Bell (omfg now im imagining them doing Another Dirty Room???? 😭 they would be so offended at paying money for rooms worse than their own back in the southside) but with less production value

ok omg i wrote so much im gonna stop now before i go off the rails again. how did i fall in love with this random ass au from a trope generator. reminder that i accidentally deleted the og post so it wont turn up in searches unless youre on my blog or the blog of anyone else who rbed it :)

[whilomm]

how much people "hide it" varies wildly from area to area and person to person and even moment to moment. some places are pretty goddamn hostile yeah, but some places including those yall think of as dirty backwaters a lotta people may not give a shit or might be outright accepting! surprisingly enough, rural areas and the people living in them arent a fuckin monolith! whodathunk it?

also i feel like part of its also gonna be like, if youre in a small town living there day by day you can get a sense of how out you can be around which people, and also the sense of familiarity lends itself to more acceptance sometimes (a queer stranger driving thru town vs oh yeah thats jessie's kid ive known them since they were born). like, if you drive thru and you dont know anyone of course its gonna feel scarier.

if you aint from here, you arent gonna know how this place works and whos chill vs. whos actually really cool vs. who sucks but also wont push the issue vs. who is a violent cunt vs. who genuinely has no idea that youre visibly queer because they just think of you as "jessies kid who dresses weird but theyre polite"

and hey guess what. sometimes there are out and visibly queer people even in places where it genuinely would be safer to hide it :0 sometimes queer people look around and see that the people around them are cunts and say "cool i dont give a shit".

ive spent like 8 years living in the city (austin tx to be specific) so when i go back home i have a lotta anxiety about "looking queer", but also an element of that is like. im not in this community daily anymore, i dont feel like i know people and people don't know me, but like. walking around i also see other visibly queer people who live here and theyre perfectly fine and no ones bothering them. it might be because of general acceptance, it might be because other people are homophobic but also would rather do some small town gossip behind their back than be outright confrontational, it might be because no one in the walmart knows the difference between a "punk rock look" and someone looking queer as hell. whatever! either way, im looking at a fellow queer being very visibly out in this town of 1.5k!

every month someone makes a post like “wow, I can’t believe there are gay rednecks. can’t believe there are gay people living in the rural Midwest or Deep South.” kill the classist in your brain

[sonderastrology]

🌙🌈✨Astrology Notes✨☄️🌟

*Based on things I’ve noticed about different placements as a Leo sun/Virgo moon/Capricorn rising... these notes may not resonate for everyone but that’s just the way the cookie crumbles baby* MADE BY SONDERASTROLOGY

🧿I see the people I’m close with more as their moon sign with a dash of their sun, almost as if the placements were reversed. This is because the moon sign is sort of hidden at first whereas the sun sign is the core energy. When you befriend or love someone, the moon sign (emotions, mental processes) is slowly uncovered and in my opinion, takes over the general energy of the sun. Of course, all signs, houses, and aspects are important... this is just the way I look at it idk.

🧿Everyone needs a best friend with the same rising sign as your moon sign... they just *get* you.

🧿Also having friends with the same mars sign as you is so important! They can hype you up like no other and vice versa.. your vibes just click.

🧿I’ve noticed that people with opposite sun signs but rising signs in the same element take AMAZING pictures together. For example; A Pisces sun w a Leo rising and a Virgo sun w a Sagittarius rising would make eachother look bomb in photos.

🧿Pisces, cancer, Virgo, and libra placements are proned to being stalked and hit on by weird men... I’ve seen it too many times, protect yourselves!!!

🧿People always tell me that they were intimidated by me at first or even “scared”, and that I give off a bitchy vibe. My placements that indicate this?Capricorn rising (Uranus, Neptune, Lilith in 1st house), Leo venus and Virgo moon in my 8th house, Scorpio MC, Scorpio and Pluto in my 11th house. Other placements that can have this effect: Aries, Scorpio, Aquarius, and Earth signs in personal planets/MC/Rising signs. Personal planets aspecting mars, Pluto, saturn, sometimes Neptune, and Lilith. Mars/Aries, Saturn/Capricorn Pluto/Scorpio in the 1st, 2nd, 7th, 10th, 11th house. 8th house placements and Chart Ruler in the 8th, 10th, and maybe 12th house. There’s definitely a whole lot more placements not just these.

🧿Aquarius/Air dominant people (esp mixed with fire) along with an array of other placements I’m sure, have a VERY hard time with forced structure and routine... it brings out their rebellious nature.My best friend from high school is an Aquarius Sun Gemini Moon (with an Aries mars), and she DESPISED going to school for 7 hours a day, she just couldn’t do it. She would skip school all the time and eventually enrolled in night school. Same went for my other friend who was a Sag sun Gemini moon, both of them would act TF out in class. They’d fight with teachers, the principle, other students... and I really believe it was due to the forced schedules and the power dynamic between teachers and students in high school. The Aquarius sun person is my best friend today, and she’s one of the smartest people I know. Just because you weren’t “good” at school does NOT mean you aren’t smart. Fuck the system is an air sign BRAND.

🧿I’ve noticed A LOT of Gemini sun, moon, and rising people have light shades of hair... mostly blonde or dirty blonde.

🧿I’ve met 4 people born on the 28th of the month and all of them are incredibly beautiful... no matter what sign. Same goes for July Leo’s although I’ve noticed that they’re more arrogant and self centered than August Leo’s who are more generous and outgoing

🧿Your Jupiter sign can help you work with law of attraction and manifestation more effectively. If you have Jupiter in an air sign, try manifesting things by; writing it down, saying it out loud, visualization, and meditation. If you have Jupiter in a fire sign; manifest under the sun, write out a plan even if it’s unrealistic. If you want money, hold even a penny or a dollar and act as if it’s the amount you want. Act as if everything you want is already yours. If you have Jupiter in an earth sign; manifest while doing yoga or on a walk. Manifest outside or read/listen to positive affirmations. Jupiter in a water sign; manifest using crystals and rocks with guidance from tarot. Manifest through the arts and hobbies; draw what you want or make a song. Something where you can use your creativity. *All of these methods for manifestation are effective for all of the signs I just think that certain ways can help certain signs more*

🧿Based off of people I’ve met, air risings aren’t as friendly and bubbly as you’d think they’d be when you first meet them. Even their vibe seems nervous and closed off at first; standing with arms crossed, shoulders inward, I dont know just sort of shy. Once they open up a bit more then their weird side comes out and they become more goofy and carefree. I think air signs of all placements struggle deeply with anxiety even though they are often portrayed as outgoing and quirky, which they are but a thin viel covers it. No matter what, air placements keep an open mind and I’ve always felt like I could be myself around them.

🧿Libra placements are known for disliking confrontational disputes but I’ve noticed that these are the same people to whisper nasty things under their breathe when you start to walk away from an argument... they have you whip back around like “do you have something to say?!”

🧿I’ve seen this before and imo it’s true! Signs in the 8th house rule addictions... I saw someone post that having a water sign in the 8th house could indicate addictions to liquid, more specifically; caffeine and alcohol. Being addicted to something is in other words creating a bond with it- water signs are naturally bonded with liquid so it makes sense that their prone to being addicted to them. Water signs occupying the 8th house might always drink water or have water with them. Since the 8th house also rules finances to an extent, most of their money might go to coffee, drinks, beach vacations etc. For fire signs over the 8th house, they could be addicted and/or spend a lot of money on smoking, spicy foods, or anything that gives them a rush; rollercoasters, haunted houses, skydiving or even drugs like esctacy/cocaine... anything that gives them that thrill or lights a match in their stomach. Earth signs in the 8th house may be addicted to physical things; money, work, food, looks,... things that give them value or that call on their senses and ego. They could hoard/collect items such as coins, cars, beauty products, etc., or generational items passed down... due to bonding with things that they can bulid/see/show off overtime. They are very attached to the physical because as an earth sign it feeds their ego and value, like a tree growing in soil. Money could mostly go to eating, gambling, plastic surgery, materialistic stuff. They could be addicted to buying things and selling them for a higher price. Air signs occupying the 8th house could point to spending a lot of money on or being addicted to technology or all things ‘relevant’. These individuals might be addicted to their phones/social media and the attention they get from it. These people are always posting stories throughout the day or online shopping or even just browsing different apps. They’re addicted to getting information via books, the internet, and through talking to other people... oftentimes these individuals are very good at making money through the internet (depending on other placements ofc). They may spend a lot of money on books, new gadgets, music, tattoos and puzzles. These people are addicted to all things new! They have a thirst for knowledge and experiences and will seek it out effectively. 🧿When I look at a person’s birth chart, whatever gender, I especially pay close attention to their Mars sign and house. To me, Mars represents the overall energy and vibe a person gives off and the house placement is where it’s most naturally acted out. For example ; Aries Mars in the 6th house. Aries Mars person would give off a hyper, motivated, impulsive energy. Physically this could manifest as shaking their leg while sitting, quick movements,standing/walking instead of sitting down, gives off a more to the point and carefree attitude (keep in mind all of this is affected by many other aspects and placements in a chart). Being in the 6th house, ruling day to day routine, health, how we act at work, etc., this means that the Aries Mars characteristics are more prominent during work and day to day rituals (quicker to learn, effectively performing daily tasks, gets shit done, or they could get into arguments at work easily, constantly rush around, might be stubborn about seeing a doctor/health professional, might be more prone to getting headaches at work or in general) again, depending on the rest of the chart

[vyladromeave]

this is kind of several questions, but i’m having mcd brainrot, you know? anyways, i always felt weird about how hands-on zane was with the whole alexis affair, and just generally how he was handled as a villain. it feels like he could have been a bigger baddie than he was. what would you change about the way he was written in season 1? do you think the jury of nine could have been used better too?

LITERALLY. Zane is at his scariest when he is loud threats when one-on-one, and this like quiet malevolence in public. Like when he is using the fact that he has this crazy big reputation that he can say whatever he wants when you're alone with him because he knows nobody will believe you later. That's when Zane is the scariest.

When he starts doing stuff hands-on it really loses that silent threat factor. And also makes no sense considering he has to keep that reputation up to somewhat make use of that ability. When it comes to the Alexis affair, the conversation he has with Aphmau in Molly and Dale's house where he threatens them in front of Aphmau because he knows they would never believe her later........ that was the scariest part of that affair. not what he did to alexis. The house scene was terrifying. If I was writing S1 i would love to lean more into the quiet threats, the getting other people to do his dirty work. He has so much power at his disposal let him use it??? He works well as the big mastermind. He has ties to people everywhere. let him pull those strings its what he's good at.

(And actually now that I'm thinking about it this is also why Zane being a Shadowknight in S3 just Does Not Work lol. hes not scary when he's doing stuff hands on most of the time he's just not. sorry. hes a little pathetic whelp of a man. not my fault.)

And the Jury is absolutely underused lol we still dont even know who most of the members ARE. thats one of the things im happy with in rebirth is that it seems like jess tried to give them a bigger role right from the beginning which i appreciate. Like uhhhhh im a big katie fan and we see a lot of her After the jury but not a lot of her Before. and I would love to explore what that whole experience was like for her and why she hated it so bad.

[charleezard]

I'm going to go by points here.

Are you ok? I'm not being condescending, I'm genuinely asking. Because you sound really angry, which is ok because you're allowed to feel angry. But i just wanted to check in.

Israel is by definition not commiting a genocide, I'm sorry. Genocide is a word that has a meaning and you can't just ignore the meaning of a word. You can say Israel is killing people, many people, that would be correct. But that alone doesn't make a genocide.

You're putting words in my mouth that i never used. I never called Palestinians or Palestine of Gaza "dirty". Ever. So you dont get to accuse me of that. Also whether Palestinians do or do not support queer rights should not dictate whether they live or die. Period. Don't be here telling me you know what i think, because you clearly don't.

Stop being rude to me I'm not going to your blog being rude to you.

Are you Jewish? Because if you're not you don't get to decide what is and isn't antisemitic. Sorry. Listen to Jewish voices on the subjects of antisemitism instead of deciding all by yourself what you want the word to mean.

I'm making antisemitism worse because I'm generalizing Israel's actions to all Jewish people? Damn that's a pretty big accusation. "People only hate you because you make yourself so hateable, surely it can't be anyone else's fault". Like ok, you're blaming the huge rise in global antisemitism on a post made by a convert on hellsite dot com. Makes sense.

Nazi rallies should be stopped. I'm with you on that one. But many of the protests "against genocide" were being violent towards Jewish students. That's not an opinion, that's a fact. It happened.

As someone who has been in activist spaces for a while, a word of wisdom: you can't go down the civil disobedience route expecting no consequences. You choose to go down that path, there is a chance the police will get involved and you will be arrested. Regardless of how fair or unfair your actions are, you break the law in protest, you still broke the law, you can be arrested for that. Like I said, I'm not saying it's fair or not fair, I'm stating a fact about the law.

"a sizeable chunk are jewish" imma need sources for that my friend.

Never heard of NioN so I can't comment on them. JVP, which is what im guessing you meant, which stands for Jewish Voices for Peace, are surprisingly not Jewish. Do they have a couple of token Jews? Sure. Are they run by Jewish people? No. Do they represent Jewish values and beliefs? No (see for example the tea cup mikveh or that really weird "seder" they held). They're a joke. And don't take my word for it, the Jewish community at large thinks that, you can go ask.

I don't usually respond to these types of interactions with my posts, because i can do whatever i want in my blog. So if you decide to reply or reblog this with more stuff like this, I will simply ignore it. If you'd like to have a conversation about this, you can come into my DMs when you're a bit calmer, and without being rude. I will listen. Then we can have an actual talk about this without having to tell each other to fuck off. Thank you.

I guess, I hope you have a good day? Or night? I don't wish you anything bad. I hope you have a nice warm shower if you can, drink some tea or hot chocolate, read a really good book.

This might be an unpopular opinion, or not, and it likely will get me hate but idk it's been on my mind.

The concept of "pinkwashing" makes no sense. In fact I'd even say it's built upon a foundation of antisemitism. It borders on conspiracy theory.

You're making an assumption that Israel celebrates LGBTQ+ pride, is queer friendly, promotes queer rights, only and/or primarily as a way to manipulate and distract innocent gullible people.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that Israel and the Israeli government are perfect and can do no wrong, I also criticize them when necessary. But even when we're pointing out things we think they do wrong, can't we also admit that maybe, just maybe, they do some things right as well? Why are you viewing a country celebrating queer rights and being welcoming to queer people as a bad thing? Even in a country you don't like, a country you view as doing many things wrong, there are still queer people who deserve rights and acceptance and celebration, and I don't think that should EVER be viewed as a bad thing.

And to continue my first point. The fact you see everything done by Israel (which, even if you don't want to admit it, we know you view just as a stand in for Jewish people) as some sneaky, evil, manipulative thing, and never as maybe something done with genuine and good intentions tells us a lot about how you view Jewish people. It really does and you can cry and scream you're not antisemitic but you're not the one who gets to decide that. You most likely are and need to deconstruct a lot of that subconscious internal biases that society gave you. So maybe next time you see a Pride event in Israel and feel like screaming "Pinkwashing", stop a little, and think to yourself what you really mean by that

[thunderheadfred]

🦈Kirishima HC’s🦈

Absolutely no one asked for this i just like him a lot

He’s an adult in all of these. 20s-30s at least. Some NSFW because I’m a big perv. Minors do not interact. Shoo.

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General:

He is in the dictionary under Himbo, right next to Kronk.

Works part-time as a fitness instructor before making a name for himself as a pro hero. Most of his clients are middle-aged women, because he makes people feel safe. Before long, word gets around and he amasses this like. Loyal army of jacked housewives and older ladies who are his biggest possible fans. They mother-hen him like crazy.

Has a large and complicated extended family. Lots of cousins. You will never learn all their names, don’t even try. I have no idea if his parents have canon occupations but no matter what Horikoshi says, they actually own a mountain onsen. Kirishima went to the city by himself to go to middle/high school, his family is all off in the country somewhere and he gets homesick a lot but never admits it. He’s broke for a long time even after making it as a pro hero, because he sends most of his money back home.

He’s a dog dad. You cannot, WILL not convince me otherwise. Big dogs. Small dogs. Fancy dogs. Ugly dogs. He has a whole pack. He calls them all baby, sweetie, pupper, the worst and most embarrassing baby talk. Tells them about his day. All of his furniture is wrecked. He’s an active member in online dog groups, where he is careful to use a pseudonym and never show his face, but eventually people are going to figure out that Red Riot’s dogs look an awful lot like this one user’s....

He’s in a casual taiko group, always on the o-daiko. Loves participating in festivals and parades. He has never, ever, not once, worn a shirt while drumming. Probably has been gifted at least one antique taiko drum for his hero work, and he keeps it in his house but is too afraid to play it because it’s scary valuable “uhh it’s definitely haunted”

Regularly goes out drinking. Socially and responsibly, like clockwork, always with the same people. He’s a goddamned lightweight, and no one understands why. Will mope if he has to miss a night out at the izakaya.

So he’s clean, but sloppy. House looks like a tornado ripped through it, and nothing he owns matches. Not a single thing. I mentioned the dogs.

Will absolutely use “manly” as a replacement for “awesome,” and will constantly tell you how manly you are. Your actual gender is a non-issue. If you hang out with him for more than five minutes you’re manly as hell now.

He cries a lot? Sometimes it’s for show but he gets genuinely misty-eyed over the dumbest things. Do NOT show him pictures of puppies.

He’s good at braiding hair. His or yours. When his hair isn’t hardened, he likes doing all kinds of wacky stuff with it. He usually keeps it long enough for braids, ponies, buns, quirk-assisted faux-hawks, whatever. Mina has given him many bad ideas. He will definitely steal your hair bands and accessories, if you use them.

His fridge is just like, meat and beer. He will, if forced, consume perhaps one single vegetable. Unfortunately, his B.O. reflects this. God bless him - he showers and bathes daily, because he works out a lot and is just generally hygienic. But don’t ever touch his socks barehanded.

He wears the cheapest, most predictable cologne you can imagine, the kind that comes in an aerosol can and punches a hole in the ozone every time he sprays his pits. It smells stupidly good on him. How. so fucking manly. you kind of hate him for getting away with it.

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And now, the 🌶 Spicy Ones 🌶

Does not date or hook up much; wants a serious relationship.

Has a tough time getting dates, weirdly. He’s still secretly insecure, but mostly he’s got rocks for brains and never knows how to flirt. He ends up friendzoning most of the people interested in him, because he is, in fact, a little too chivalrous for his own good and can never make the first move. He’s an emotional open book, but clueless romantically. I recommend being extremely straightforward. Draw him a map if you have to.

Is afraid to kiss you too deeply because of the teeth. Will take a lot of gentle encouragement to get him comfortable, but once he knows you’re safe, he’s going to be kissing you all the time. Like, too much. People are gawking, Kiri, for God’s sake.

He radiates massive doses of husband/dad energy. Will immediately marry the hell out of you. If you are capable of and willing to have his children, you are going to get extremely pregnant. Very quickly. Not necessarily a breeding kink (though why not), he just really wants to start a family with you.

He’s Big. Just huge. Tall and broad, and also... his dick is a summit and you will need to prepare for the climb. He’s had problems in the past because no, not everybody wants ALL THAT inside them. That said, if you can handle it? Woof.

Hard as a rock is No Joke with this man. Can and WILL use his quirk on his dick. If you don’t think that’s the first thing he mastered as a teenager I dont know what to tell you. Ever used a glass dildo? Well buckle up cuz it’s like if a massive glass dildo whispered sweet nothings in your ear and held you close in big strong arms and fucked you till you cried. It’s a sometimes thing. Otherwise you’d simply pass away.

He loves your brains. Your smarts and wit are a huge turn on, and he gets a boner when you use a word he doesn’t know. He also loves fucking your brains completely out, so that you cant use any words at all.

He’s a devout church-going body-worshipper. He’s so jacked that’s it’s constantly intimidating, like, how dare you stand next to this chiseled statue of a man?! but whether you love power-lifting with him or would rather die than exercise, he’s gonna treat you like the prettiest fucking piece of cake on planet earth.

Size kink ahoy; he gets his big grabby mitts on you... and you psychologically lose three feet. Doesn’t matter how tall or small or fat or thin you are, you are getting groped, squeezed, and manhandled. You didn’t even know it was possible to get thrown around like that; always onto something soft.

Not dominant. Not unless you ask very, very nicely. had a brief pushy phase at the peak of his teenage manliness obsession, unconsciously trying to be more like Bakugou, but he quickly realized controlling people wasn’t really him. It certainly isn’t very manly. Doesn’t want any toxic masculinity in his love life, even as roleplay.

That said, he can and will be a soft dom, if that’s what you want. After some practice, he’d get pretty good at it too. But his natural sexual groove is goofy, a bit awkward. Usually finds a non-sexual excuse to touch you at first; prepare to get tickled a lot. If you sit in his lap it’s all over.

If you get dominant with him, even a little, he’s gonna turn to putty in your hands. Go ahead and boss that big dumb puppy around. Nothing turns him on like seeing you get exactly what you want.

You’ll have morning wood pressed up against your ass. Every damn day. He might hump and grope you in his sleep, moaning a little. Usually it just wears off. If you wake him up to fuck, he’ll have no idea what’s going on but will be like “hell yeah i guess this is happening”

Gives oral like a starving man. Has absolutely zero reservations, because he knows his tongue and hands can’t hurt you. Will be as loud and messy as possible. If you get embarrassed or shy about it, he’s going to mumble sweet talk directly into your junk until your teeth fall out.

He’s vocal in bed. Growly. A moaning groaning disaster. He says the sweetest, gentlest things... has the cleanest dirty talk you’ve ever heard, but tenderness filtered through his bourbon-barrel chest comes out all dark and rumbly, especially when he’s close. you feel his “I love you” in your bones

He thinks making his partner cum is the manliest thing he can do. Any orgasm is good, but if you cum untouched on his dick, he’ll be riding that high for days