#i dont evn like doing this lol

[oedonchapeldweller]

if ur over the age of 20 and u havent seen lotr and ur like weirdly smug about it ur weird idk

[cleo1217]

God i hate bitches who like stare at you in the bathroom. I'm hitting my mixed berry vape and youre staring at me like every puff i exhale is going to wipe you out. what do you want from me.

[mrstellmeafuckingsecret]

not even joking fanon sirius doesnt even make me mad anymore (that's reserved for everyone else fanon <3) but he just makes me........... so sad.......... like bro is in a straight up abusive relationship with the man he idolizes more than anything. and he is IN this abusive relationship because of his HORRIFIC home life in which his parents use illegal torture methods on him weekly/daily and he severely lacks any healthy relationships around him, he also never gets any praise (because he's stupid&horrible&bad at everything) meaning he's just going around begging for validation and love? and it's just a joke? like he is literally willing to hurt himself like omg by bby??

(that one incorrect quote where remus kisses sirius' hand because he gets a papercut and sirius asks james to punch him in the face. how is that funny. i literally was so sad. wtf guys.)

and like he gets into this rsp after going through a TON of homophobia and hes like constantly made fun of because he happens to love his bf (who HATES him). everyone (namely his brother: well talk abt him dw) is like "you can do sm better than sirius lmao" and remus is like "yeah lol" like blatantly in front of sirius and sirius is sad and its a funny haha joke like GUYS ITS HORRIBLE

and like !!!! he has no support system!!! he has no friends !!!!! no one loves him !!!!!!! fuck love no one even likes him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hes constantly patronized and talked down to by everyone. his hobbies are taken over (pranks: remus remus remus, bikes: i dont actually know but ive seen a couple "remus on sirius' bike 💞" and sirius freaking out when like bfr guys) . his best friend. his BEST FRIEND. goes BEHIND HIS BACK. TO DATE. HIS NAZI YOUNGER BROTHER.

THE NAZI YOUNGER BROTHER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOM HE WAS CONSTANTLY COMPARED TO AND DEEMED LESS WORTHY HIS ENTIRE LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHO HE WA SALWAS THE SECOND OPTION TO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hes their parents favored son AND his bfs favored brother and now his BEST FRIENDS favored too???????? go away. fuck you.

and like . his younger brother whom sirius CONSTANTLY TOOK BEATINGS FOR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WITH NO REGARD FOR HIS OWN SAFETY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nad everyones like lmfao why is he overreacting ths is why no one loves him lets ignore him 💀💀💀

and like his brother btw tf like he s always th emartyr nd sirius is indebted to him bc its only because of regulus apparentl y that siriu s was able to escape like gsgnlksfskl

and the PRNAK!!!!!!!!!! omg sirius is like gone in ths universe ok theres no way it wasnt n accident he told snape that and then remus HATES HIM for MONTHS?????? kys he tried so hard

dont even get me on post azkaban "im sorry remus ☹️" "my brothers a hero 🥺"

ugh i cant even word thngs anymore. but like have these these made me REALLY sad.

im in tears. i cant believe you fucks took everything away from sirius and then left him w his trauma. and the fact that this isn t evn a fraction of whats going on, like ffuck you all

[chrliekclly]

if you ever want to talk about your thoughts on joyce .. Peeks over the corner of your blog. i love talking and hearing ppls thoughts on joyce sooo much even if they're different from my own!! and your analysis and stuff is always so well thought out

i hope u dont mind if i answer this publicly to take advantage of th request nd get my ideas out ther (also tyvm im happy u like my insane takes on these idiots, iv ben thinking abt them for almost 10 years)

i said a lot here so gnna 'read more' it

iv ben building trans charlie n my head fr, like i said, nearly 10 years. i used to view him as cis bcuz i always try to take as much frm th source material as i can wen i craft my HCs nd i had v personal (stupid) hangups insofar as him explicitly referring to his junk multiple times nd bottom surgery simply not being on my radar as a naive littl trans idiot deep in th sauce tht transmen oftn fall into w phallo being viewed so so poorly

evn still i leaned towards transmasc charlie nd always lovd moments tht let me imagine, for a moment, it being true, like his discomfort w taking off his shirt [hundred dollar baby, charlie kelly: king of the rats, the gang exploits the mortgage crisis, young charlie and mac deleted scenes, etc etc etc], or bonnie yelling abt ppl stealing her "charlie-girl" [the waitress is getting married] which i lovd to see as her accidentally misgendering him while drunk off her ass.

having grown out of my phallo issues (nd if ur reading this and u still view phallo super poorly, please do some research and grow too), ive in recent years fully subscribed to transmasc/nb charlie, and view his timeline something like this:

baby -> elementary: charlie refers to himself as a boy, doesnt "come out," simply has no idea he's afab. bonnie lets him dress however he wants and refers to him as asked. when charlie gets confused about his genitals, bonnie says his dick will grow in later lol, makes charlie wear a dress in public restrooms and tells him its just a game

middle: puberty hits and charlie gets confused and scared. bonnie puts him on blockers w.o explaining them ("my mom used to vaccinate me like every month" [the gang gets quarantined]) charlie goes on content and oblivious. STP acquired because hes "a late bloomer" and his dicks still not growing in?? weird. confides this in mac once, but he doesn't understand.

high: charlie finally registers that he's trans after forgetting theres a health class 1 day and not being able to skip it. throws him for a loop a bit but he becomes actively invested in his goals. he gets to start T and wants to have surgeries. "what guy hasnt done some extensive research on his own genitalia?" [mac is a serial killer]

college (aged): able to surgically transition (ty medicare) and continues on with life as we kno him now

joyce, imo, fits neatly into these views.

as a transmasc nb who came out young nd prefers to be seen as just A Guy by strangers, i grew up v vehemently against anything girly that might get me misgendered, but th more i began to 'pass,' th more @ home n my body i felt, th more and more comfortable i am w femininity, th more i wdnt mind putting on a dress, as long as th general public wd see me as "a man in women's clothes." n my mind, i prescribe something not exactly th same but v similar to charlie.

i see charlie "i dont really identify" kelly as afab and nb. i see joyce as a "character" he originally created to distance himself from the dysphoria of putting on a dress as a young trans boy, but that became part of him as the hard lines he drew in the sand as a child became blurry with age and self acceptance. charlie's comfort with himself allows joyce to evolve into a more solid persona, one he enjoys embodying and allowing to become a permanent facet of who he is. he's ok with being referred to as either. they're both him.

so maybe joyce comes out a bit more outside of the bathroom now.

[snailstrees]

some v5/site spoilers. just my general thoughts LOL

holy shit the new site absolutely FUCKS it feels so. Alive. also the new volume so far kicks butt i love that uni actually got her gamer speech back 🫡 🫡 not to mention the art in the epilogue like. Got damn ! that shading makes my brain itch. AND A NEW CHARACTER HELLO????? actuslly holy ahit thinking of it i think that's like. reboot bonez. like barry's original love interest

i saw the site on mobile and honestly its SO much more accessible now and refreshing. i will probably check it out on pc later though

im so glad we got pretty much Every Single Character in the cast page now even the minor ones because I've been ao curious about them and we knew jack shit of them unless you check tumblr every fucking day. so thats one hell of a good change. the animations and icons also help bring the characters more to life and DOES kc animate well. seriously I can't emphasize enough how much i loved the cast pages they were so fun to read and skim through !!!!

im also glad kc explained the backstory of hemera and barry so the fandom doesn't shit on them for no reason. in this economy we live in we get barely any characters who react to trauma in ways that are considered bad or harmful/through anger 💔

the content warning thingamajigs and saturation bar is also rly handy so i dont get a content warning every 2 seconds

OK gushing over let me talk about some neutral/negative things imo. these are not just related to the relaunch but just. the comic in general

alright so this is basically just nitpicking but there are So Many Fucking Lesbians. nothing wrong with being lesbian i am one myself LOL but literally more than half of the frmale-aligned cast is a lesbian which kinda sucks a bit because. yknow. wheres the representation for other identities

also yeah. all the other crit blogs u were right unis definitely getting really fucking babified. girl has no fuckin flaws or anger or anything of the sort shes just an innocent uwu cinammon roll . head in hands

and my biggest nitpick of all. Cuddles. yeah he's the big bad villain but. he's so cartoonishly evil man. like in his bio it basically states every single bad thing a human (anthry?) person can do and it's just so hard to take it seriously im sorry. like it blatsntly states something along the lines of "there's no trauma or anything of the sort that led to him being like this" and im like. girlypop. thats not how people work. people just don't wake up one day and go "o fuck yea im gonna start hurting animals and torturing people and driving them to suicide and feel good doing it because i want to!!!!!!!!!!" like. No. Not At All. It's just not how shit works yknow. someone HAS to have reason to do shit like this and enjoy it, and not because they're big villain of the narrative and/or because the creator said so. hell BOWSER has more depth than cuddles. bowser is a hopeless romant. he's power hungry and constsntly soing risky, dangerous, or just over the top shit because he wants peach to love him and because he wants to earn respect amongst his people. and he also has a soft a side, being a father and even sometimes helping his arch nemesis whenever someone stronger than him appears and he doesn't want to lose respect, and evn though he does this to feed his ego, he ends up accidentally helping others in the process

.......okay sorry i did not mean to go into that bowser rant i just really like him Oksy. but my point is that just bowser is a character from fucking nintendo and is really cartoonish and yet has more depth and reasoning than the main villain from a webcomic about medical malpractice and trauma. the way cuddles is written overall just gives off vibes of a kid who doesn't actually know how to write stories and assumes the villain has to be the Big Bad for no rhyme or reason

but. overall. i can tell kc and the z//cp staff worked their asses off to get this volume and site done and did they hit the nail right in the head. excited for whats to come

thank u for listening to my thoughts gamers

ps. sTOP LOOKING AT ME WITH THAT SHIT EATING GRIN DORITO HEAD

[chlorinecake]

I just saw what that anon said and I can really really relate I feel like there's no way I can like them cuz I'm black I feel like. Weird for having a crush on Ni-ki cuz I'm black and even though I know there's no chance anyway cause he probably doesn't date fans obviously lol It makes me ashamed especially because people are always saying "what if / he probably doesn't like black girls/people" and it makes me feel like I'm less beautiful because I'm black and even if he did date fans I mean I'm like SOOOO ugly like atrocious but it makes me feel like even if I was a little bit more pretty he wouldn't like me or would dismiss me cause I'm black or like I wouldn't be good enough or he'd be disgusted or disappointed or weirded out because I'm black and a fan /has a crush on him and besides him it makes me feel like enhypen wouldn't talk to me or treat me the same cuz I'm not Asian or white like I couldn't be a fan or wouldn't be as important or pretty or cool or even just they wouldnt want me as a fan or like me or even look my way cause im black its gotten so bad that people dont evn have to say that anymore (they do but they dont have too) for me to think that way. Like I know we all saw that pretty engene video with that girl with the glasses and i couldn't help but make it about race like thinking would they look at me like that or would I be ugly abd weird cause I'm black ? Or if she was black would they still think she's pretty? Or would they even put the camera on her if she was black ? Anyway I'm rambling but being black is something I struggle with even without people saying the group I like or the guy I have a crush on (Niki obviously) wouldn't like me or would hate me for being black . Or they would be uncomfortable or disgusted with me because I'm black so it's just hard to even see myself meeting them or *even to imagine myself in reader fanfics even if the reader's supposed to be black because I've convinced myself that the only way I'd be pretty or attractive or they'd be friends withe or date me in Ni-kis case is if I was white or Asian* (*just talking about from a fanfic standpoint for this one* but yeah) but yeah it sucks and

Okay, I REFUSE to sit here and let you talk down on yourself like that. I don’t care how true you may think it is, YOU ARE NOT UGLY, Mirah ~ You’re beautiful, from head to toe, melanated skin, curly hair and all. Black women are beautiful, it’s disgusting to me how society has brought some of us to a point where we feel insecure, undesirable, or unworthy of affection from others. My words might not do much to encourage you, because finding confidence (esp as a black girl) takes time. But I really urge you to understand that you can’t expect other ppl to accept you when you don’t even accept yourself. Wish I could give you the BIGGEST hug rn, bc this actually hurts to read :(

Another point, I’ve seen plenty videos of Enhypen (along with other kpop groups) connecting with colored fans in the same way they do with their supporters of a fairer complexion, but I won’t share any of those videos here bc I don’t want you to seek “proof” as a way for you to feel better abt yourself.

On the flip side, let’s say that some ppl in the kpop industry DO have a prejudice (which I’m sure some do): your life and happiness isn’t dependent on their validation.

Let’s not even get started on how a lot of Ni-Ki’s favorite artists are black (Riki Jackson ? Bro would’ve never called himself that if he was racist)… but anyway, colored people like any other group of individuals can b really amazing once they get past their insecurities and embrace the way God made them. Jst know that u can always come to be if your struggling with something or just want to vent <3

[trashbins-stuff]

my 2024 art summary..

i was suppsoed to do it earlier today but i forgor and i dont ave my fone rn so i downloaded my art from toyhouse and edit them in whitebaord fox lolzz

me talking abt myart and why i chose these piece specifically vvv

january: okay i actuakly drew the piece/upload it on the VERY FIRST DAY OF 2024 aka 1/1, i..dont evne owed the ocs anymore </3 #regrettbh bakc then i stiluse one of my favourtie ibis defualt brush that i ALWAYS uses bc i didnt know alot abt other brushes back then, i honestly kinda proud of this one bc it was a scene art and i was ahving fun abck the, this piece was me trying to imitate the hfjone art style

february: i rlly like pink lols...i rlly love this oc heosntly lowkey kidna regreted not keeping him, i chose this because comapring to the january one it has more to it, this was me experimenting with stuff such as background, 2 lines on their limbs to indicate paws, i wasnt a pro persay bt i was trying and it was amazing! the effort and stuff :)

march: i got into oc trading and stuff bc my bf sprout introduced me to it, tand i always make sure i draw every oc i get form toehr ppl at least once like it was on top of my priorities, i rlly love this oc and sprout did too,i let him offer and it have been a while...shes been in my pending folder for 9 months what @moonsprout-sys KRKRKKRKR hurry your ass up/silly, anywya i picked this bc i started to draw more complex oc from the on it was like a trebuche that shoot me two complex ocs department

april: unlike the other three, this one is drew on a different brush (and unlike the other two, its GREEB), this was me experienmenting with brushes and other thing si could do with ym art! i rlly rlly love tht brush lol i use dit for almsot everyart, sorry fur da toyhouse watermakr btw oop, another thing u will notice abt is thai used the white line effect which is sooo cool yall

may: i picked this to show yall how abd but also different how i coloured back then, i didnt rlly have a direciton i just pick a colour and select random shade, like how most of the oc is in different shade of greeb wit some blue and purple, cuz my thought wa slike oooh greeeb ooohhh simialr to blue ooohh similar to ourple, like even the glove is jsut black blue lmaooo

june: diversityy, i sitll have no idea abt anything abt colouring but yk, i pciekd this bc it fits into the template

july: woahie JULY, OH-KAY, so i was kinda improving ont eh colouring here, like at least the greeb and black combo is okay, hot pink bc yes, orange bow, the rianbow woodnt look good on it own but it skind of fit with the shad eof the ronage bowm, my designing skill have improved too!! did u see what i did with the rianbow sock and tail>>?? cool right>?? well fang u :)))) i ver prou

august: aside form colouring i start toe xperiemient with LIGHTNING bc i LOVE LIGHTNING IN OTHE RPPL ART SM LIKE OMZ THATS SICK HOW DID U DO THAT and i started to look up totorutial! i was rlly proud of this peice abck then, its simple, but it was my first experienment and it was MINE that was ME like..I DREW THAT oughhh <3333

september: the abckgorund have return atfe rlike what...the past...seven months oop, as u can see..iveimporoved ;3333 the flower was kinda eh but i neevr got over how i made xer ear lokwye relaistic af..liek every else look like 2017 furry art/j but i totally nailed the ear

october: i rmemeber my qpp oscar said that this piece is rlly nice to loom at :DD i also used october to toy aorund with ym art style, expically the backgournd and such, i, too, am podu of this one

november: art for my friend lye! probably my best efforted peice of like the whole month, drew it while i was waiting for my friend yeon to finish praticing forour naitonal teachers day ceremony, it loo very ncie and cool and u should be proud of it

december: my friend tessa said this look like femtanyl and i forgor how tot ake ana ctaulyl compliment, why should i lower my standard why my friend could say tawesomthign slike this omfg best compliment ive ever received ever>??? love u tess :)

[moonshine-nightlight]

Hello! I Just wanted to let you know that I LOVED the published ver. of "Don't Shoot the Messenger". And I was so excited to hear that Dale and Sana's story might get published too.

At first I was really unsure about getting the book, as I didn't want to be disappointed if the changes made didn't translate well compared to the original. BUT YOU KNOCKED MY EXPECTATIONS RIGHT OUT OF THE WATER!! IT WAS SO GOOD!!

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I'm so excited for your future projects. And I wish you luck on your future publishing endeavours because I will be buying all future published books by you. And no one can stop me haha >:D

I also wanted to ask if there's a chance that any of your other previous works will also be published? Of course it's a huge effort of time and resources to publish something. But I do hold out hope that I might one day hold Heshi's story in my hands because truthfully it's such a comfort to me and I go back to it periodically to reread. I love that snakey boi. NO PRESSURE THO. If that's not in the cards, just the fact that it exists as a story is wonderful. Thank you so much for all the writing you do.

anyway, bye

@annjo-wolfe

hi! thanks so much! i really liked what DSM actually was and focused on my own edits and that of my editors just honing it to be the best version of itself - so i'm glad that came through and you liked it!

if ur interested in too much info about my self-publishing plans, pls see under the read more

Dale and Sana's story definitely will be self-published,its just a matter of when. it's also probably gonna get more tweaks than DSM due to the length and the way the story evolved over 2 years lol

thank you so much for your support and encouragement with publishing! i'm so happy people are excited about actually buying my stories lol

As for previous short stories that getting published, the answer is yes, i do have plans to publish them as well, they're just a lower priority for multiple reasons. firstly, me and everyone wants NWWD the most so its #1.

For 'Finally Woken' i actually already have the first 2 chapters converted to 3rd POV, however, its shorter than DSM and so would cost nearly as much to have edited but would sell for less (and amazon will try to tell me the spine is too narrow lol) so my current thoughts are to bundle it with 'Selfish' (helpfully already in 3rd person) and make a Naga Novella (called like 'Tangled Up in Tails' or something lol) with both of them in it so i can release it priced similarly to DSM.

For 'Sacrifice', i actually have plans to make that a 5 novella series about different forgotten deities returning to the same town, with 'Sacrifice' likely being offered as a cheaper, first book about a month or so before the second is published to get people into the series. the rest of the novellas would likely not go up on tumblr/AO3 at all and would only be published. i'd like to use this hypothetical series to see how that sort of model would work for me. i've planned out the 5 novellas to some extent but nothings really written yet besides 'Sacrifice'. as a complete project, its very low on my list after everything i'll b posting here and NWWD publishing, so since 'Sacrifice' is tied to that, its not likely to get published anytime soon.

For 'Snapped', i'd likely do something similar to 'Finally Woken' - write another short Sci-Fi/Alien story and bundle them together for publishing. However, i dont currently have anything written that would work so that's also a low priority evn if 'Snapped' is already 3rd POV.

I'm really excited to self-publish my work, but its expensive and what I've made from DSM has come nowhere close to covering my costs and likely won't. the only good thing is basically all the costs are up-front so its easy to jsut keep the books out there and making money when ppl buy it. i have a good job and am happy to spend my money to get my work out there and hope over time self-publishing will break-even, but that will take years at a minimum so it'll be slow going in the beginning.

my goal is to get everything self-published so it'll just be a matter of time - i too want to hold a copy of Heshi's story in my hands lol

thank you for all your support and giving me a chance to ramble about all my self-publishing plans!

[xxbl00ds0akeds3raxx]

Hang in there girl, don't let him get to you. You're way stronger than you give yourself credit for, and you have always, always deserved much better than what life handed you... He isn't worth it. He will never see you as the full person you are. He wants you to be a perfect doll, and that is not a role you can ever pigeonhole yourself into, with all your strengths and flaws... you're a wonderful, kind, opinionated and strong person. Don't let him break you

-Camille M.

tysm camilee <3 sorry 4 not replying sooner i wasan't sure what to say;;

i am hanging in there!!! ^^ life is crazy lolz. i hate it. m so tired. i literally wish i didn't exist i think things wld be so much better im so sick of stressing every1 out w stupid decisions i make :((((( like im not evn trying 2 be emo~~ woaawww edgelord dont cut urself on that edge X_X!!

its just ever since my conception my existence has just been. a bother,,. i ruined my mum's life n i cant stop thinking abt what it cld've been like if i just. hhhh. didn't. happen. :)

i wish i knew her.

i wish she wld reach out 2 me and contact me likeu do w ur daughter,,,

ifeel like shes the only 1 who wld undrstand what im worried abt rn. but maybe thats just delusional thinking bc. i nvr rlly knew her so,,, lol. who evn knows what she understands.

ur rlly too sweet to me!!1. "wonderful, kind, opinionated and strong" is so much,,,, im not stronger than i give myself credit 4 i know my limits very well. & kylar, imean if he wants a perfect doll he literally has 1 of me . fkn life sized perfect replica w my measurements shes so perfect & if h e wants me to be her so bad icant fucking do it xDD i'll never b herrrrrr 〒▽〒

thank u again. its rlly nice to hear from u and i appreciate everything u say evn if it feels wrong :(

[alltomevibes]

y'all i watched lighter & princess in 4 days like !!!!! that show was ?? actually a 10 out of 10 for me, like i actually watched the bts and some of the actor's interviews because this show had me THAT BAD. idk what it was about lighter and princess fr, but everything about it hit my buttons. the female lead was inspiring and reminded me so much of myself (while she was abroad) before i got deeper into my faith and just seeing her rebel against her parents to go after what she wants was so !!!! i loved seeing her grow throughout everything and all the parallels and just how they loved each other like,,,,, pls dont touch me. and don't evne get me started on the male lead. yall. he simply had me captivated every scene, tho every time he got on a stage i lowkey had heart palpitations ngl. i had to skip one scene cause i alr knew it was gonna go bad lol, fast forwarded and him and his ex-bestfriend was having a whole talk in the bathroom and yeah. i skipped that scene for a reason. but every single character in this show was so well written like,,,, im ngl. i just. this was simply just a really good show and i really want to find something like this, but i cant. i love watching good dramas like this but i also dont because then i cant find any like it. the same thing happened to me w/ gogo squid, better days, my gf is an alien, and other dramas/movies. i'm have glad i didn;t know this show existed until this month because if i had to watch this while it was coming out, i wouldve exploded. like, the only con i had for the entire show - other than the view on ex-cons which was understandable from the female lead's perspective but slightly irritated me nontheless - was how the kiss scenes always looked like they were literally eating each other. i was going to look away regardless LOL but like. it was .1 away from cannabilism.

anyways. if anybody has any recs PLS let me know. i have a watch list up and i do need to add My Sweet Mobster to it, but i really want a romance thats giving lighter and princess vibes. idk. ig i just like deeply in love ml with rougher edges and smart fl who love their mans and still have it going on.

[celestie0]

that drabble was OH SO CUTE!!!! I AUDIBLY went “awww 🥺” when gojo brought her the cat, it was exactly as adorable as I pictured it would be. and him comforting her bc he “messed up” was so sweet. he’s an idiot but he’s trying and he wants so badly to get it right with her :’((( that line about him wanting to get at least one thing right even if messes up like ten times made me swoon, we love an honest but dedicated man 😭❤️ thanks for feeding us once again, take care queen!!

AW THANKS SO MUCHH my dear this is too sweet :””) picturing gojo w a tiny kitten was so cute idk i feel like he’s one of those dads that says they dont want a cat but then fall in love with it LOL

aw i know he is trying his best 😭 i keep telling myself i wont make the drabbles angsty on any way but damn the feels be sneaking up on me xD i think one of the sweetest things in a relationship is when a guy just tries to be better evn when their partner is maybe being a little difficult? i stand by kickoff reader bc he put her through a lot, whether intentional or not, but i think even if gojo doesnt really know what he’s doing at times, the fact he keeps trying shows that he’s in it for the long haul

sorry i didn’t mean to go into soliloquy there LOL my bad but YOURE SO SWEET FOR THIS ASK I JUST WANNA EAT YOU!! you take care as well my love!!!

[magicalwarriordiamondheart]

hi, i was wondering will the game be proofread/edited for the full release? you post a lot of screenshots that havent had the text proofread, and a lot of vn creators dont end up having their stuff edited so i just wanted to make sure!

I would like that yes. Most screenshots end up being posted pretty much immediately after the artwork is coded in so they do get caught fairly quickly. But I do want to point out though that, the game is made pretty much entirely by myself and I'm also disabled. The "team" so to speak is just me and my family lol. So hiring outside help and getting commissions is entirely on my hands as well.

Most (E)VN creators are in a very similar position, they're working solo or have very small teams. They might be very very young or are students. There's quite a few who don't speak English natively and are doing the translation work themself as well. And a lot of devs just don't have the funds to hire anyone to help.

I'm in a good enough position right now that I can afford to hire people to help me out of pocket. Maybe not all at once lol, but I can do it. But not all VN creators are able to do that at all.

It seems like a bare minimum thing, I know, but it's something that people should keep in mind. Not that I think people should just, lower their standards entirely lol, but I do feel a need to defend my fellow creators since I've been watching the community for years at this point. Theres often a lot of circumstances that come up that end up contributing. the EVN scene is entirely composed of indies from all sorts of backgrounds and all ages.

[dojae-huh]

yes ofcrs....I do think the bunny tatto have to do smthng with dy, considering how ty is...the way he didnt mentioned or explain the reason behind it also makes a definitive conclusion...mayb dy didnt want him to let the world knw abt it evn tho they r best frnds...u knw how dy behave sometimes...he can announce that he brought couple rings nd even said it himself that they r togthr when ty went to hiatus....nd ofcrs ty wont cross the line if dy didnt want it...

The thing about ty is he wants some things or ppl that he loves dearly to commemorate...if he tattoos ruby for the memory then I am sure the bunny is dy..I dont really ship them but sometimes I do really think , there must have be a milli second that ty would want do in his life forever..like it would be heaven if he get dy....I am not trying to convey my word into them as a ship or real...I dont quite follow their interactions, but whenever it happens u knw , y dont they...like that....I nd may be the reason ty was very loud about saying I love u to dy nd he is ma fav whenever he got chances, even the bts of mv shootings dont knw how many times he shouted dy's name..like dy himself asked the staff that y does he love me that much?? Just wondering what is he going to do without him....haha...joking tho...

nd the thing about jae is he can only just watch it..haha....poor boy... whenever dotae happens he must have something to add on it...like when dy said ty is cute baggy Jean's audio live , nd mark said he got touched by dys confession, then jae said Aah i was looking at them ,they cant meet the eyes.. nd during fact check smini mark said the song ( I think its loves a beauty) ty wrote it thinking about dy, then jae said like ty said not to mention it...like he cant sit still ...for latest con, when dotae having their moment,ty talking about their love nd 11 yrs of friendship then jae said should we give you some private time on the back?? Hahaha....like u knw not jealousy but something that makes him jump from the seat...may b he couldn't get out of that teenage boy jae within him....haha..nd really sorry for changing the topic...

So my conclusion as a an observer (ofcrs not good as u) I am srsly sure about that tatto related with do nd ofcrs there is a clear reason behind him giving the whale painting for his bday..(ofcrs I dont knw the reason tho) ...nd dont knw how he will survive without his team on military...I am gonna miss him so much...

I actually do think Taeyong is that dependant on Do and did have a more than a minute long thought of wanting him forever, lol. He said it directly to Do afterall. And he doesn't care about Jaehyun's wrath.

It's right to be careful with "wishful thinking", no need to describe how fans in general like to overthink and imagine absolutely unrealistic rainbow scenarios. However, in the end it comes to the individual under scrutinity. Taeyong wrote a whole song about his dog and talked about her as his only friend in high school in Lost boys. I love animals, I dedicated my life to them as a zoologist and animal artist, and even for me it is hard to imagine such dedication for a small old pet. Tae is very grateful to his sister, he said his home where his mom is, he loves his nephew, he talks about Baekhyun's support non-stop, he can't let go of his favourite dongsaeng Jaehyun, he supports his friends like Johnny or Yuta (when JohnDo had a fall out, Tae tried to pay Johnny attention a lot before cameras, smooth out the situation), he sacrificed a lot for his group, endured bullying accusations not wanting to drag into it the person involved - he is emotional and clings to the people he formed bonds with.

That being said, Tae changed in the last two years, noticeably matured, he spends more and more time with his producer friends and managers, in the city as well. He started to live alone. He is aiming for emotional independance. So he will probably be able to go through the military ok. Plus conscripts can now use mobile phones any time, so he won't be cut off from his friends and family.

Heh, Jaehyunie. Yes, he needs to include himself. And who can blame him. His friendship with Tae is complicated.

The whale for Tae is positive mental health. He compared his inner demons with sharks, and the whale is a big kind calm creature swimming in the blue sea/sky. Maybe it's him at times as well.

"Now the size of my heart is only a real whale

The shark in my mind is no longer there"

He probably talked more about whales in some of his lives, but can't find the info right now.

[abandonedsdjfhcvndfbv]

Oomfs i wiould not be surprised if they softed me. Ok but TBH everytime i feel this way about a person i also dont care about them enough to realize when they do softblock me so like i end up just probably not evne noticing lol

[alliumdykes]

Btw.. I have something I'm gonna do, would you prefer I drew your furry sona or do you have another??

For reasons :))

I dont have any other characters that i use to represent myself other then Sailor, like evn my minecraft skin is a fish wearing a mask with sailors face on it lol

[jwowwsboobs]

orchid chamomile n papyrus:)

⭐️orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

SO tough cuz there r so many that r perfect…i think right now in this moment its downbound train by bruce springsteen or pawn shop blues by lana well technically lizzy grant but lana. downbound train cuz its so raw n real n the melody is so perfect 4 th song the subtleties in the production the roughness of springsteens voice the story of the song how simple th song sounds but how emotional n powerful. literally perfect. i mean tht whole album is but tht song is perfect right now 2 me. of pawn shop blues im thinking of a specific version of it found here <3 but idk 4 how long … her vocal performance is just so beautiful like the melody is so pretty n works so well w the guitar n the emotions r so real n the lyrics r sooo real 2 me i just think it’s perfect

⭐️camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

i think i was more outgoing n more trusting like 5-14 which LOL i mean i am still pretty trusting unfortunately but im definitely not as outgoing. im a lot meaner n more cynical now definitely but im also more confident thn i was even 2 years ago. i was definitely a lot more trouble 4 my parents i fought w them a lot evn as a little kid but i’ve mellowed n theyve like chilled out too. i dont really remember what i was like when i was younger tho so this is a lot of guesswork...i guess ive changed in a lot of ways but really i do feel like the same pissed off n lonely little girl i was 2 years ago, 4 years ago, 8 years ago, 16 years ago even if i dont really remember those times very well

⭐️papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

the first song that came up was streets of philadelphia by bruce springsteen which i listened 2 on repeat while writing my poem abt alice of neon angels…bruce springsteen 2 me seems like an artist that alice would maybe not love but def respect n would b an influence on his writing. 2 ME. i don’t care if this is actually true of him or not like not my interest not my care. but so when i was writing the poem i put the bruce springsteen best songs on shuffle n this was the first song that came up n i just put it on repeat cuz It was perfect 4 the feeling I was trying 2 capture 4 the poem n it just really really seemed like alice.

2nd song the came up was doechii’s booty drop n that is what i’ve been listening 2 2 get hype n feel like 10000000 bucks. luv doechii so much!! It reminds me of my friend cecelia who i love n miss dearly cuz she moved n we hunt been able 2 hang out <\3

n i was gonna do another one but the song the came up made me mad so i am not going 2 talk abt it LOL but the one after that was my head hurts my feet stink and i dont love jesus by jimmy buffett ... tht song just reminds me of my uncle n summer n i love the melody so much like its so catchy ... n i have a much deeper appreciation 4 what hes singing abt now tht ive been thru horrible hangovers LOL