#i dont even know. will ibe writing? i dont know im

[shenzuns]

update on that last post, my cat passed away today so i don’t. really know what to do. maybe this blog will go on hiatus, maybe i’ll just post stupid shit to help with the grieving. it’s not a must but kind words would be really nice

[ecstasyhighway]

YOU & I | an ellie williams fanfic series

this is a fic that will be posted and mostly updated on wattpad @ecstasyhighway this ff is heavily based off of you the netflix show and inspired by a ff on here which i cannot remember who wrote it but if yk lmk so i can give proper credit.

there is not smut in this little part here but its a filthy ah fic that will become darker as it goes on.

MEN DNI - 16+ i fear (im 17 so if u feel uncomfortable reading from a minor who will be 18 at the end of the year then u dont have to read this i really dgaf.)

ch 1 ch 2

silly story and more ff info under the cut

Ellie had seen you walking around the music store she worked at... her attention automatically shifted from the customer in front of her to you. Your hair, your curves, your eyes. Everything about you was just...

"hello? did you hear me?" the woman raised her voice slightly to get her attention,

Ellie snapped out of her thoughts and focused on the clearly irritated woman in front of her.

"yea my bad, what was that..?"

The lady rolled her eyes and started asking questions about guitar lessons for her son or daughter or some shit, she wasnt really paying attention to the nonsense floating from her mouth.

"yeah, im not the one you go to about that, uhhh my buddy Jesse is in the back, he can help you"

"thanks" and with that, she headed towards the back, muttering words under her breath.

Ellie's attention quickly turned back towards you. She examines you closely. Watching you grab a vinyl from the shelf, Call Me If You Get Lost, is what you had grabbed. Ellie wants to walk over to you, and talk to you but shes scared. What if she says the wrong thing? What if she freaks you out? What if you think shes a weirdo.. She turns away to stop looking at you, her cheeks are red and shes shaking, she is just so nervous and she's not even planning on talking to you... She puts her face in her hands and begins to calm herself down.

"Hi! hello"

A voice chimes from behind her, she turns around and a lump forms in her throat.

Its... you.

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YOU & I | ellie williams.

this is a DARK fanfic. Based heavily off of the show you on netflix and inspired by a fanfic I saw on tumblr. This story has adult themes, sexual themes, stalking, thoughts of killing (no actual killing just thoughts), themes of hate, ellie has slight mental issues (obv shes stalking) age gaps (only 3 years and they're adults). idgaf how old u are this is dark and you have been warned, i am not responsible for any type of reaction you may have to this as ive given you a warning. I will give warnings at the beginning of chapters that might be too dark. again you have been warned.

important - ellie might be a tad ooc, shy!ellie, switch!ellie if you squint. this is a lesbian ff.

MEN DNI I WILL FIND YOU.

reader is afab and 20

ellie is 23

modern au

jessie, dina, joel, tommy, maria, most of the main tlou cast is in this (not everyone will be mentioned or even really have a place in the story, just know they are present)

based in New York (obv)

i am not a professional writer, im simply a girl who writes shit when shes bored, do not expect me to have an upload schedule. I get drained v fast and i want to enjoy writing, its not a job with deadlines. so with that my grammar might be bad, spelling might be ass and if there is any math it will probably be wrong, it might be written in third, or first person i be fuckin up with that but yall will be fine.

YOU & I | ellie williams.

story created and written by @ecstasyhighway

tlou and the characters belongs to Neil Druckmann and Naughty Dog

the story of "YOU" belongs to Netflix

Story was ib by a ff i saw breifly but i don't remember who wrote it so, if yk pls lmk so i can give proper credit

THIS IS FICTION. DO NOT DO THIS SHIT IRL BRUH ITS ACTUALLY WEIRD ASF. AGAIN THIS IS PURELY FICTIONAL. thank yew

uhhhh yeah enjoy ig and i do appreciate any supportive criticism as i am not a professional writer and shit could just be wrong.

also im new to tumblr fanfic writing so yeah 😭.

[tokillamockingbird427]

listen, originally i was gonna post either this or a very angsty ask either next week or the week after since i posted an ask on monday already,but heres something i feel like elias may do :) (is it dad elias? probably, yea i think…)

contributing to the previous anons ask(not the rick roll one.. that shits funny im sorry lmao) about elias carrying hesh & logan in baby slings, i feel like he still does, but randomly, carries or hugs hesh, logan or even any of the ghosts to this day just not in baby slings of course. but the man targets logan.

why logan? well, the poor guys the youngest(son AND in the team, not to mention the second shortest besides kick, whos an inch or so shorter.), and is kinda light for a 6 foot guy(hes 170 ibs according to the wikis… i think half of that is pure muscle.), making him a perfect target for carrying/hugs. he doesn’t mind it… some days. some days he just accepts defeat and other days, this man SPRINTS away and does anything to not get carried or hugged. (i like to think he doesn’t really like physical affection. also think of this— merrick(i chose him and i dont even know why.. brains not working well rn) drinking coffee in the afternoon to then see logan SPRINTING away from an elias whos running after him and later tackles him to the ground or face plants into a wall cause logan made a sharp ass turn)

logans suffering does NOT end there though, cause elias’ tantics go onto hesh, then later keegan, and the list goes on…

(hesh on the other hand does not mind it at all and enjoys when his dad does that. feel like that man LOVES physical affection.)

(also regarding my last ask: dont worry about not responding to my ask on time ! i was pretty fucking tired writing that so dont worry, we all get tired :).also, i live in the est timezone if ur wondering if we are indeed living in the same timezone :))

—🎧 anon

Laughing at me being Rick Rolled, how dare! (Joking)

Elias for sure saw that post where it was like "One day your parents put you down and never picked you back up again." so he vowed to himself to pick his boys up at LEAST once a week if not more because that shit hurted him. INCLUDING the Ghosties. Even Merrick. Mark his fucking words.

Half the time when Logan runs he's playing, and the other half he's serious and will wail like an angry cat when he's caught. Elias will back off if he realizes Logan's serious but that's usually after he faceplants into a wall. He will then goes and takes out the affection on Hesh, who is entirely too happy about it. Big goofball.

(Timezone buddies, hells yeah. And don't worry about sending multiple asks a week, send em daily for all I care lol.)

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

august help rat and i are going absolutely feral over running minds au . i didnt even know anything abt fnaf before this but i have been CONVERTED homestly . i need to ficify it so bad . God . oh right thats why im here i was wondering if you have like any writing tips ?? because i have Zero Clue what im doing and you are By Far the best writer out of everyone i know Shoves microphone in your face whats your advice to someone who has like never written ever . actually i have an unrelated actually pretty decent quarter-ish of a fanfic sitting in my notes app but i barely remember how i Did That so it doesn't count i dont remember what wizardry i performed to materialize all those Words

OKAY OKAY OKAY ive figured it alllll out. its honestly not much but it's My process. LETS A GO

august's shitass guide to all things fanfiction and planning (which is near nonexistant!) 🔥

i will be using my current nano project for this because honestly this is the epitamy of writing i have right now and i love talkin about it. sooooo GOOOO

1: Bare Basics

the tagline. the who when what where why. why are u writing this fanfic. for me its the Talking: i want my angel and demon to talk about Feelings, so im gonna make them talk about FEELINGS. this is personal fulfillment. it might take a while to get there, but i want them to TALK. for you, i suppose would be for ford and michael to meet and go on whimscal adventures. basics!

2: How To Get There

so how are we making aziraphale and crowley talk. how are we getting ford and michael afton smushed together in the multiverse. you, of course, have told me how that works. now is it important enought to flesh that out before the rest or just needs to be explained in a quick flashback? your pick, but since my topic is so vague, i definitely need context before it. that, my friend, is up to you. nothing much more to it. if u dont know how to start a fic, just explain how we got to what's intriguing about it (the crossover :))

3: Notes.

now is where the process BEGINS. what happens in the story. i usually start with miscellanous bullet points--everything i want to happen, no matter the order it'll happen, in a little page. here's a picture of one of my pages ib my notebook, with things i want to happen in my titanic fic (handwriting reveal?!??!) (TEA, IF UR READING THIS SOMEHOW, DONT LOOK AT THE IMAGES🫵🫵🫵) (SORY FOR HURRIED SCRIBLES, I WAS TRYNA REMEMBER IT ALL)

there's literally no order. just stuff that need to be there, there. even if its as simple as the au coming to fruition, or even just one conversation, PUT IT THERE. its all the appeal. what you're doing this for. dontforget....

4: Outlines

now, before i tell you how to do this, there really isn't a way. here's a picture of my timeline for the fic mentioned earlier (not the titanic fic) (TEA AND OTHER READERS OF THE SERIES, ALSO DO NOT LOOK TYYYY ❤️❤️)

see? complicated as fuck. it doesnt have to be that way tho, obviously: each chapter or one shot could be as simple as "michael is fucking ZAPPED, and meets ford" it just has to be something to work with. (i, on the other hand, need extensive help. so. there's the thing above. theres eve more its just online)

there really isn't too much other than that in the planning department. understand why you're doing it, know how to get there, and PLAN. detail it out. idk if this is an adequet explanation actually. if u need more specifics i can try again, but is what i got. do what works for you, work at ur pace, and such like. it doesnt have to be at this level, or even close. have fucking fun, dude. if u need morehelp, pls ask, or even consult blogs that help out specifcally for that stuff. GOOD LUCK!!!!! <3

[kiriashini]

HUH I DONT HAVE PINNED POST?? Lemme fix that. INFO ABOUT ME! call me Kara or Kiriashini or Ashi or ur love or pookie or mootie or love or love or love or love. /j srry just kara or kiriashini is ok Im silly in a bad way Iguess. I'm kinda dumb. (not just kinda). I want to get friends and I love my mooties. I like to drwa listen to music read manga and I'm poorly educated .

Age : Ib (not like game, or character) Fandoms : Omori, Randal's friends (ranfren) , a bunch of anime's, john doe, visual novels abt psychos, hotel hazbin, helluva boss, hello charlotte, chainsaw man, onepunchman, mobpsycho100, goodnight punpun, nanbaka, johnnie guilbert and jake webber, watamote, mashle, Invader zim, project sekai, and much more I'm too lazy to write them all down.

(text is abt my nationality and stuff. I made selfdiagnosis with ADHD and ANger issues, I'm not sure if its true, just self diagnosis (u know its probably shit) ) nationality :tatar-bashkir (turkic thing I guess??) im a libra and introvertand hikkikomori (not a good thing im sorry) I have bad memory and I always forget many things im srryy I have many OCS :D

Aaahwmamhamhajgsjg I have twitter tiktok and telegram channel I usually use telegram for messages. dni : basic dni I'm bi and cisfemale she/her. But I dont mind "he/him" and "they/them" I dont rlly care abt pronouns.

favorite artists/groups (by music, if they did anything bad I dont even know their names, bcs I just listen to music without knowint information sorry) : Mindless self indulgence , 2rbina 2rista , ayesha erotica, 6arelyhuman, odetari, j-pop (?) , dadaroma, gulu-gulu, phonk, rory in early 20s .

(kinda outdated kinnlist) Oh no I think I wrote too much who s gonna read all that T_T

[violentviolette]

you've mentioned a few times that you have severe food allergens and I wanted to ask if you could expand on how that is or link educational sources since I'm planning to write about a character with food allergens but don't really know where to start in regards to research. thanks in advance !

unfortunately i cant help with the actual medical side of information because i dont actually know whats wrong with me or why this is happening lol ive been to a few doctors but im still in the process of figuring out whats going on and its pretty slow going because i have state medical insurance and so the dr's i can see are kind of shit because they're so overwhelmed with patients

ive been diagnosed with ibs but that definitly is not correct, or at the very least is not all i have. i suspect i might have some kind of autoimmune issue or mast cell problem tho. been looking into MCAS but that's very hard to get diagnosed and tested for because there's not much information currently available and alot of drs dont even think it exists

i got deathly sick around 7 years ago and physically couldnt eat for about 4 months. i was living off 1 tablespoon of chicken broth and 3 saltine crackers a day and lowkey almost died a bit. i couldnt keep anything down and everything i tried to eat i immediately threw back up. genuinely thank god im fat and had excess weight i could afford to lose because i lost 70lbs in 4 months, which if i'd been an average weight would have literally killed me. eventually i started to be able to hold down more food again, but thats when the allergies started. at this point most things i eat cause either lower intestinal issues (cramping, severe stabbing pain, burning, nausea, bowel problems, ect) or they cause a really bad allergic reaction (itchy gums and mouth, stuffy/runny nose, itchy watery eyes, hives, general itching on my hands and arms, difficulty swalling, vertigo, and in really bad cases passing out). i also have severe acid reflux and my stomach is constantly full of acid, which has caused some diverticuli and intestinal bleeding cause my intestines are just kinda erroding. this has all also lead to me developing pollups in my intestines which are like, fucked up collections of pre-cancerous mutated cells, and i have to get those removed every 3 years now so they dont turn into actual cancer

id say if u want to go the route of it being purely an allergy then MCAS would be a decent one to start with as far as autoimmune disorders go. it stands for mast cell activation syndrom and it's when ur mast cells, which control ur immune system and are what produces histamines, go all fuckey and become hyperactive and view everything as a deadly allergen and respond in extreme ways to absolutely everything and anything

googling stuff like mastocytosis, mast cells, mcas, and other related searches should be a good place to start

[moxxbox]

Hellooo!! I just read ur rules bc i don't want to send anything wrong😭😭 can i have match up with TWST? I don't mind what character im gonna get tbh

Ah here some things about me?😭 i apologize this is my first time doing this!!

I like pink, cats,playing games like, corpse party or old otome ones, i love reading and im obssesed with being a Transplant surgeon ( i want to be one when i grow up) i love learning about psychology and many more that have to do with people mind + human body ( not in a dirty way😭😭) i like hello kitty. I love drawing due being an artist. I love sleeping im also pretty lazy i have zero motivation im just pushing myself to do things,,, i hate not being clean or my room not being clean, i hate toxic people, people that bully others or just being mean and i hate stalkers and dark, loud noises, fighting.

I am a girly girl that is obssesed with pink and things like that ( i go by she/her)

I also love cooking!

Im more like a peace person ( if someone saying something bad or anything im just blocking them) im doing this mosty for my health bc i get triggered easily. Um my hobbies are: reading,drawing, learning new languages.

I cant do sports bc i cant run due always hitting knee pain so i avoid any sports.

My personality ( from my friends POV) :

funny, calm and very respectful, kinda stupid bc i say stupid things , lazy , very energetic( only in chat)😭

For my pov: i dont really know my personality or to give an example of what is like, so im gonna write how is it easier to me, im stupid im gonna believe anything others tell me i have high trust issues, mommy issues..( these arent a personality ( i think) but i think i prove how dumb i am💀 ( i also i always go by logic in things)

Uh i cant focus on things i also always lose interest in things most of the time.

My ideal partner type is: a nice person that i can communicate with bc to keep a relationship u need to understand each other, someone that understand me and have some of my interest so we can share and enjoying or time together.

My love language is: able to read a person so i can be able to understand what is wrong so i can comfort them. ( i dont like physical affection im very uncomfy with those so i just give my advice even if they dont need it)

IM SO SORRY I FR HAVE TO IDEA WHAT TO SAY SO I HOPE THOSE ARE ENOUGH!! I ALSO APOLOGIZE MY ENGLISH😭 HAVE NICE DAY/ OR NIGHT ECT🫶

Bro ur English is fucking amazing omg<3 ALSO ANOTHER CORPSE PARTY PLAYER!!! Im still in my playthrough but it's so 🫨🤩funky(/POS)

So Anon I match you with...

Me☺️ (/j /p)ok ok but actually,

I match you with...

Idia Shroud

HELP IDK IT JUST IF I SMASHED YOU NOTH TOGETHER YOU'D BE A GOOD COUPLE! Cat lovers unite! Also like a date night of playing horror RPGs (I think that's what corpse party is considered...) Like Corpse Party, IB, Mad Father, etc... Idia honestly could most likely help with your studying to be a Transplant Surgeon, you could test psychology stuff on him if you asked😭. Would buy you Hello Kitty stuff!!! Would definitely want to see your art if your not shy to showing it! He'll do his best to keep rooms clean, even if he also is a tad bit lazy. Nowhere is dark with him due to his hair... He'll buy random stuff off the internet thinking, 'Oh, she'd like that!'. If you were in the position of Yuu(being transported to TWST from another world.) He'd fake you a doctor's note for Physical Education. He'd do his best to communicate but if he has difficulty verbalizing some things(which he will...) His emotions are easily noticable by his hair and face!

[userblaney]

do Not read this im just so disgustingly overstimulated im going to crash out

that was the worst fireworks display i have EVER seen and im so fucking overstimulated and my brother is actually the worst fucking cunt ive ever had the displeasure of meeting and some how I am the only bilingual among my siblings. which isnt saying anything because they straight up dont even fucking talk except for when they are playing dress to impress next to my head when i try to do my homework since i have to share a room with them at eighteen .and i havent gad a productive conversation with them in genuinely 3 years and my mum is blaming ME. for the traffic because i broight up the idea of going to the fireworks display in the first place wirh friends but my uncle wanted to tag along and i might snap in a bit because i have not been not in host mode for a month now. these are my blood relatives nothing is gonna happen if i speak english in front of them or if i wear jeans instead of a traditional dress oh my fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk . i fucking hate my siblings ANDDDDDD MY SISTERS JUST COME INTO THE ROOM AND LEFT THE FUCKING DOOR OPEN AND WENT BACK DOWNSTAIRSSSSSS IM GOING TO THROW A BRICK AT HER HEAD. and i have so much fucking homework to do and i still need to write a cover letter because any "spare" (when im not in skl or outside. but im never outside bexause imnot fucking . ALLOWEDDDDDD) time that i have i have to be in the kitchen helping out because "that is my duty as a hostess" but my soblings havent lifted a FINGER and they are being praisdfor mediocrity. how the fuck do you want me to be a good student and a feminine person while treaatinf me like a fucking BITCH when i wear makeup and then also want me to ALWAYYYYYSSSSSS entertain my family and cook and clean for them AND my siblings . and you want me to get out of the jouse and get a job but you freak the fuck out when i actually attempt to do those things then you tell me i cant borrow money for a bus or taxi in the event where i actually do because i should have my own but you arent letting me and you keep all my bank statement and you read them and make me justify each purchase and. UGHHHHĤHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHi have a guy friend whos also bangladeshi brown and he said that he wouldnt wish being the eldest child And daughter in the bangla household on his worst enemy he was sooooo rigjt for that . and im not even a girl and the evil of jt . aka dysphoriais getting to me and eating me up but thats another issue . i fuvking hate my brother he doesnt attemp6 yo speak and my mum SCREAMED at me on the way home because i forgot the guy fawkes bullshit and i should tell my uncle the story of it in bangla but . idek it ib english . and then i told her that they arent mute . andthen shesaid . she doesnt expect them to know bangla they are too young . they are 14 and 10 or somthinf btw . at that age i had to take care of my siblings while we were home alone for weeks at a time and also take care of the house and cook for them because my parents were too busy having life threatening health problems or atte fing to those witj . that . and ive been sooòooooo nice about it . so nice about it . im nice to everyone even in school and online and at home but im literally going die and they are all calling me to eat the rice that . i made the Moment i got home from skl . along side the tea . wjen my fanily had just woken up and it was 12. and then they complain about the lack of time and MY laziness when i DARE to sleep in until 9am on a saturday 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 . yes i know my dad works with uber lare into the night and my uncle misses hisr jids and so does my grandma and my mum is struggling with her mum seeting such harsh expectations and balancing uni and i soumd like a brat but its doing by fucking head in my brain is soooo fucking tured. and i have mocks coming up and im not allowdd to tell my siblings to leave the room because theyll just tell my dad whow jll be mad at me . becasue i have no gokd qualities to excerise why am i even studying . im s ooooooo done bye

[lqfiles]

day 2874838 without checking lqfiles page… im losing the will to live…

jokes aside, its kind of sad that i cant send as many messages as i want to :( i’ll try to be more of a consistent anon but school here in Chile is ass, i have a seminar (i think thats how u say it in english) about circular economy and the impact of humans on natural resources and allat + chemistry test + english presentation + spanish essay + biology test this week. now im not even joking when i aay that sometimes i could js sitting in class and suddenly start thinking like hmmm i wonder if lqfiles is still on that break you spoke about, it sounds weird but trust me it isnt my intention 😪

now are u still on that break? i really hope u are and in case u aren’t, u must be doing a great job so far. sending prayers and love, hoping that safety surrounds you and danger refrains from making its way towards you and your loved ones ! <3

i know its disappointing… but i’ve only been able to read two chapters of pay the price 😞😞 IM REALLY SORRY but i still liked those two! sometimes i will read someone texting “istg” and instantly think of score that goal and it immediately makes me open your page and boom you’ve published six more chapters 🤣🤣🙏🏻 not funny, did not laugh, i’m aching to read them but if i open tumblr i will NOT close it and i can’t risk my grades since i really need the NEM rn (notas enseñanza media = high school grades i think) which basically determines whether i will get to the university i want or not based off the grades i’m currently getting 😟

HOWEVER i already had the two weeks filled w exams that i needed for this trimester so i can finally take a break !! i’ll make sure to read ptp and send as many messages as i can ! :D

p.d: whenever i get notis from your page i still get as happy as the first time i got them 🫶🏻🫶🏻 sending lots of love your way

- 🐣 anon, i almost forgot to put it lolz

IM TEARING UP OMG I MISSED SEEING YOU IB MY INBOX 😭😭😭😭 you’re still as cute as ever omg..

please don’t feel bad for not being active !!! i always encourage all of you to put your own personal life and everything else before my blog because i don’t want me or my work to be the thing holding you back from your full focus 😣 it seems like you’re in a stressful position tho :(( please take care and take enough breaks !!!! that sounds like a boring topic tbh lmao but i’m sure you’ll do well in all of those, i’ll be personally cheering you on i swear!! YOU’LL ACE THIS WEEKS TESTS AND THE UPCOMING ONES TOO‼️🔥

i truly don’t find it weird i find it sooo cute honestly like i never imagined ppl would think about me and my blog throughout their day other than when i post but to answer your question, i’m not </3 i did have the day off on monday tho so that was nice because that meant i had 4 days off in total (the weekend + monday and tuesday) so that made me happy :D you’re always so sweet i genuinely hope nothing but good fortune for you too i will personally pray for it :( <3

AGAIN, DONT FEEL BAD LMAOO put your own personal life first because that’s something i would do too, i’m currently not writing much either lol all these are chaps i managed to make in like a few days and had on my drafts lolll. DONT EGEN THINK OF PUTTING THIS FIRST WHEN THESE GRADES MATTER SO MUCH PLS.. i’d feel so guilty if you didn’t pass

THE IMPACT stg had, the way i always think of stg too whenever i type istg 😭😭😭😭 i’m happy you liked the two chaps tho and i hope that you’ll like the rest too when you have time :) i’m serious when i tell you i was literally thinking about you today or yesterday like i was thinking about your previous messages and was like “i hope they’re doing well..” i’m glad to see you again and and to know you still have my notifs on :) take care my love again i hope you sleep peacefully and i hope you eat well and gozar of good health!!!

[abadliarwithasaviourcomplex]

one of the biggest struggles of being an academically gifted kid when you were younger but being burnt out now is that you never learned how to actually study and you end up suffering a lot in higher classes. like me for example even when i was doing my IGCSEs i didn’t actually know how to study i just used to write notes and memorise them and then do past papers. when i found out that thats not how everyone else studies i was so confused. even now in IB i dont know a “proper” way to study and im really struggling because of it.

[pascal-oswell]

hi!! i’m OJ

my pronouns are she/her, i’m a 24 yo lesbian who likes video games. and other stuff. ENG/FR are good with me. cutting this off bc i’m not good at making things short

stuff i like a lot rn

project moon!!! (lc, lor, dd and limbus) i esp like angela (!!!!!), binah,faust, outis, moses, angebinah and inferno pink/dantefaust :] my fav abnos are scorched girl and today’s shy look

pathologic!!! u should def try out pathologic 2. and pathologic hd if you hate yourself (affectionate)

other stuff i like

i play cookie run kingdom (sighs) and i like moon rabbit cookie a lot :]

also currently playing darkest dungeon and deadly premonition origins splatoon 3 has taken over.

i like splatoon. and minecraft. i play toontown sometimes too. and sadly dbd but im trying to get better

rpg maker horror games :] big ones are yume nikki, .flow, ib, hello charlotte but i like a lot of others

u won’t see me talk about anime a lot but know that cat’s eye is my one comfort anime since childhood and if u know about it i love love u

musicals!! love heathers (movie too) a lot.

love houseki no kuni. these rocks are going through some shit

general stuff

i write sometimes!!! my ao3 is Echoe. mostly writing pm stuff rn:)

but mostly i just reblog stuff. i don’t post a lot myself bc i’m not used to it but i try bc i wanna interact with people :] i talk in tags a lot though nevermind im in my chatty era i guess

talking is a bit scary but i do like talking about my interests so feel free to send me asks about them :]

i don’t have a dni/byf i block people very liberally anyway. (sorry about that btw i can and WILL block people to clear out search results)

i’m also on twitty. i talk even less there though. wouldn’t recommend. twitter is terrifying to me

i tag my own posts #blabla if u dont want to hear anything from me ever

[kanohivolitakk]

Any and/or all of the barraki for the headcanon meme! Mantax or Ehlek especially, please.

Ohohohoo thank you so much. This sounds really fun!

I admit the Barraki are kinda weird for me since I do like them a lot (as my occassional ramblings and my fanproject desires may attest to), but at the same time they kinda do fall to the typical villain writing trappings of the series. As such, headcanons can be a rather tricky thing, given the limitations of canon. Doesn't mean Im not going to try though, haha.

I'm going to do Ehlek since he is one of my personal favorites and he's the one you asked for (don't really have any Mantax headcanons, sorry >A<) +As much as I love him I rarely talk about him.

Realistic

Just like how most surface dwellers see hi species as alien, Ehlek (and by extension his species as whole) have a general detestment for the surface dwellers due to seeing them as fundamentally different from themselves. This "others different=bad" mindset was caused by their distrustful nature, and seeing anything strange as potentially dangerous.

(I think this is practically canon but I like it a lot tbh)

Unrealistic but hilarious

He makes hissing noises when angry but they're more cute than actually threatening.

Heartcrushing

While Ehlek always had anger issues, his paranoia and distrust issues of others* was a result of being constantly used as a political pawn/tool,(metaphorically) tossed around and betrayed by those closest to him. This all went to the point that he only really trusts his generals, and even then he has severe fears they will abandon and leave him.

Just *points* this boy can fit so much abandoment and trust issues into him.

*I do like the idea that his species is moderately distrustful by nature (or possibly more culture based dunno) but I do feel that he has passed the general distrust level and is now onto outright trust issues.

Unrealistic but I refuse to believe in canon and substitute it with my own

This is kinda walking between the fine line of headcanon and portrayal but man if I'm not a huge fan of making him more sympathetic and/or tragic character, and giving him an incredibly sad backstory.

I'm a huge fan of sympathetic/tragic villains in general, and I'm also a fan of giving a villain group at least one more sympathetic member (though there are exceptions, I dont think you could make any of the Piraka sympathetic ib all honesty). As I really like the whole dynamic where one of the antagonists is less malicious compared to the rest creates interesting friction.

So for some reason I really like the idea that one of the Barraki would be the token sympathetic/tragic villain. Idk why, theyre freaking imperialistic conquerors for Petes sake. But for some reason the idea has stuck in my head. Perhaps its a desire to flesh them out, perhaps its me wanting to make them more than just Piraka 2.0. I dont know honestly why. It just did.

As for why Ehlek??? Well, it was partially a progress of elimination. Pridaks the most "battle hungry conqureor" of the bunch and being the "big bad leader" he was out. Kalmah feels too cruel, Mantax too secretive and edgy loner. Takadox could work and originally I wanted to give him a more sympathetic backstory but those ideas were shot down by me not only feeling I made his backstory/characterization too much of a Nidhiki clone but also because I wondered if a more sympathetic interpretation fit well with the "Takadox is a manchild" interpretation thats pretty popular here (as well as somewhat upported by canon). Really the only other valid choice is Carpar, and even then...Idk. I like it but dunno.

But it wasn't that Ehlek being the last one left was my only reason to make him more sympathetic. Because honestly Ehleks characterization already feels somewhat different from other Bionicle villains. What I mean is how he is driven by his emotions, primarly his anger. Sure, there are other angry villains too, Pridak is a prime example. But the main difference I see with Pridak and Ehlek is that Pridaks anger, while stemming from deep seated grudgeful nature, feels temperamental and petty. Ehleks meanwhile feels way rawer and personal, like his own emotions were hurt in a deep way beyond "this guys an angry grudgeful jerk". So since he feels so different I feel it makes sene to make him more different too.

Theres also the fact that characters with anger issues make me have protective instinct towards them and Ehlek definitely is case where this is true.

As for a headcanon, related to the above I really dig the idea of him being the "prince" of his realm, originally starting as a genuinely good if not naive person, genuinely wanting to change the world for the better, but as a result of being tossed around like a political hot potato and having his naivety and innocence been used, he became more and more embitterened until he essentially broke mentally and became incredibly disteustful. His innocence was completely taken away from him and he became incredibly bitter and jaded towards the world, both his own and especially the surface world, which he saw as pure evil due to his own experiences.

Send me a characters name to receive four different headcanons

[leafcabbage]

While I’m here still (sorry for the spam!) I just wanted to say thank you? Back when I was a kid and this whole thing was new, I remember thinking after having bad days in succession with good days that I was failing, and the people around me thought that too.

Just,,, drdi!Ranboo’s support system acknowledging that chronic illness is, in fact, chronic and they’ll always need help and love won’t cure it and that the help they’ll need will increase and looking after him?? That line in the last chapter of winter break, where Tubbo avoids telling Ranboo that the situation isn’t forever? Hit in the f a c e./pos

So yeah. Thank you. Drink some water and stay safe, okay? I’ll just be here :]

DONT BE SORRY TO SPAM I LOVE THIS I LOVE INTERACTING WITH YOU ALL

im gonna open with two things: im terrible at writing when it comes to actually talking to people and im going to get just a tiny bit personal. you're going to get some [real name] instead of cabbage. incredible. yknow i have an old lady name maybe i should just start using random old lady names. today i will be.... Dorothy. (apparently my name was very popular in the 1930s so that's the decade i shall use)

ANYWAYS!

first off, the fact that this fic has been so... positive? for you? i dont know exactly how to say what im trying to say but i hope you get the idea. it's one of my goals that people can look at this story and no matter who they relate to, see that things can be good. things can be okay. even when they aren't okay, there can be hope. i already said it, but there's too much bullshit about living sad lives and stuff because of a disability or chronic illness or mental illness or whatever. ranboo isn't going to get better. there will be no miraculous recovery, there's no miracle cure. they have a severe tbi, drug resistant epilepsy, permanent physical damage to their entire body, chronic pain, etc. that's not gonna get healed by jesus or some shit. years of pushing themself past their limits is catching up with them. tommy and tubbo, at the point we are at in the story, aren't entirely aware of the extent of what ranboo is living with, but once they are, nothing will change about how much they care and how much they love ranboo and how willing they are to help and be there. another message i hope im getting across in the story is that help is not a bad thing to need! help =/= failure. and that's something ranboo is only starting to learn.

i think it's really important to tell stories of unconditional love through things that are hard, in relationships that are lasting, and we havent gotten it yet but its important to me that everyone supports everyone in it too, there's no one character always being the one struggling, i think that's also a shitty narrative.

some of this is for me. without going too into it, my brain? funky. i take epilepsy medication for bipolar, which is a fun fact i share constantly because its so funny to me. im also autistic but that is a surprise to absolutely no one. and part of life is finding out that some people are gonna support you and some aren't. ive found my lifelong support system. ive found people willing to adjust to my communication style and where i do and dont get "normal" things. people who will support me through manic episode and still acknowledge that being in that position can be hard. i really want to avoid any "babying" in this fic, clear communication on stuff like this is important. but yeah, im sure not gettin' rid of the good ol' bipolar or autism, so its something people who plan to be with me their whole lives have to accept, and ive found the people who do. i want that to be ranboo's story.

my biggest struggle in life is my IBS though-

jk jk, but thank you for this message, i really appreciate it, and i love hearing people's thoughts on the fic, it helps me make it better and realize what parts actually impact people :]

i hope you're staying safe as well!!

[amazingphilza]

DSMP!OC HEADCANNONS

i dunno if ppl on here make dsmp!ocs for themselves outside art but here’s my long list of headcannons?? idk what to call this, but assume all names have c! before it ofc :]

,, this is kinda messy & probably has a lot of plot holes but i just needed a space to write out all my thoughts LOL

also cw / ment of manipulation & ib: dsmp wiki <3

character origin :

previous life was the l’mantree :D

allegedly planted by schlatt, we will never know who’s my canonical parent(s)

reborn as a dryad after niki burns the l’mantree

i think being a dryad would fit especially since they’re typically nymphs of oak trees :]

appearance :

my character’s mc skin has long light brown hair & is seen wearing a flower crown with petals that are around the color of a pale violet and navy blue

clothing would consist of black shoes & a long light grey sweater that falls down to the legs and covers most of the hands which adorned with 2 black stripes on the upper arms

lore / history :

since my past life was the l’mantree, i would’ve known the ins and outs of the history when l’manburg was still standing, up until niki burned the tree

after witnessing everything, i’d hold a grudge on niki (+ allies?) and loyal to wilbur since he’s the whole person that made a meaning of the land of l’manburg

however i’d still be on edge w any side because i could sympathize with everyone to some extent after seeing some sort of distress from everyone at some point

i think seeing both sides of the spectrum when l’manburg/manburg still stood could change my perspective of some other characters

but at the same time, not everything was completely centered in l’manburg so i wouldn’t know the whole story of everyone’s character

i’m currently writing this just after tommy has left the prison & mostly everyone is treating him differently, so i’d try to befriend him by not showing that i dont care about his past & trauma but also not being fully faithful about our friendship ahaha,,,

he seems like the type that needs someone to see through his past history but tommy would definitely disapprove of my character visiting dream at the prison (i would do it anyway :))

vowing my current life to wilbur, i would help dream escape to revive wilbur & follow along with their plans of chaos

i don’t fully support dream but he is the only way to wilbur, making me comply with dream’s decisions

“growing up” in my past life and witnessing endless conflict, it is the only thing i know and understand; chaos

but i think during the process of helping dream & wilbur i’d keep my connection with them secret, being the person to obtain all the inside information they need

i could see myself as a type of equilibrium like ranboo but in a bad way, i don’t know how to explain it

but i would try befriending ranboo since he seems like he is involved in many things and would know a lot, despite his short term memory

unfortunately i’m not sure how much his character actually knows since i haven’t been able to watch his pov that much but i’m sure there’s a lot in his memory book...

to blend in as a normal person within the rest of the characters, i’d surround myself with connor a lot

not only because he needs more lore, connor is one of the “normal” citizens of the smp so i believe being with him doesn’t bring as much attention to myself, unlike people that’s related to the egg and their noticeable features after associating themselves with the egg

he is currently only on bad terms with techno which is rly good when comparing that to other characters and their relationships with other people

connor could probably sense my real intentions eventually & tell everyone else that i’m not who i say i am but if that’s my flaw & my downfall is caused by connor, so be it! sorry dream & wilbur

i feel like for being a young dryad, i’d still fool around with dream/wilbur & help give tommy an small “advantage” to defeating the two ?

like yes i’m supposed to be on your side but where’s the fun if tommy can’t do anything to begin with?

i honestly don’t know if wilbur was revived he’d actually be his vassal but let’s assume that happens, but either way i’m with wilbur on his decisions

but ya dream seems like the type to punish me for helping tommy and send me to the afterlife to learn & become smarter like wilbur had done or smth

in the end, i just want to give tommy bits and pieces that tease him from ending all the wars and problems he has been faced with

like here’s some info about dream and wilbur but it won’t be no where close to enough

but who knows, ghostbur said ‘villains are just heroes that aren’t convinced yet’ & maybe tommy could eventually grow on me & change my ways,,

maybe me fooling around & teasing tommy with answers he’s been searching for is a way to mask that i want to be a good person

ok but imagine after knowing so much about dream/wilbur, the revive book, & the afterlife & then i switch sides,,,

surely if tommy can’t put and end to them, dream would make sure i’m gone for good instead

but also if me & connor are in good terms & he’s canonically a necromancer & can bring ppl back to life,,,,

personality :

to all besides dream & wilbur, i’d try to act passive and friendly on the outside to get on everyone’s good side

however under the mask i am more mischievous & strive to cause more problems for everyone on the server from the inside out

in a way, i’ve taken up some of dream’s manipulative personality but still very understanding

i’d like to think of my character as a good listener,, trying to do less talking than others so i do not open up about my true self and intentions

i’ve seen rumors about schlatt & mexican dream also being revived along with wilbur & i feel like i’d have some soft spot for schlatt & pick up a few things from his own character, not sure what though

schlatt planted l’mantree theory, dad!schlatt au part 2 !! /j

because of my character’s closed off and quiet personality, i feel like i’d be pretty analytical

i would know how to slip between the cracks with some characters & notice the smallest things to make them question themselves

maybe my character is good at holding their composure, and not that susceptible to being “emotional” in a way so it’s easier to face people

like i understand when a situation is sad, etc but i can’t show emotion towards how i feel about it (i don’t know if that makes sense but ya!)

i wanna try to elaborate more,, like imagine my character before tommy visits the prison, i would be unfazed from when i found out he died to the point he’s released and we find out he’s been revived

everything is a constant blur hehe

i just can’t fully process everything i guess? i dunno if that’s helpful but yeah!

in the end though, my moral compass has been very tainted; despite wanting to show my loyalty, it can be slightly easy to sway me, making me internally feel guilty to other people

but me trying to get on everyone’s good side to impress wilbur/dream to seem useful to them would ruin me before i would even realize that i’m another “pawn”

we know damn well dream is faking it till he “makes it” but yk,,

but i’d be stuck in this kind of dilemma of not knowing what thoughts are my own or just something trickled down from wilbur or dream

there’s like maybe something that clicks in my head like “maybe i wanna think for myself for once” or smth

like who am i really?

powers , bonuses , etc :

since dryads can technically manipulate plants in some ways, theoretically i could control the blood vines to some extent ???

i’m pretty sure dryads can communicate with plants so i could understand what the blood vines are saying as well

maybe i could get a good sense of what the egg is all about and stuff

assuming that i understood anything that was happening with the egg in the first place but anyway—

i guess similar to ranboo like how he can’t really be around water without some type of amour or something, it would make sense for me to primarily reside in a type a forest or be near one ?? who knows

seems a bit morbid in a way because of the whole history but if i can somehow easily get rid of the blood vines without it affecting me (if there is still some there) i think it would be kinda pretty to build a tree base in the middle of the l’manburg crator (iskall tease)

like it can show a sign of some rebirth, not the same government repeated once again but a new era in general

you know how you see like destruction years after it the disaster or smth happened and it gets all overgrown with plants and stuff? ya that’s what i’m going for in my head (mumbo jumbo s7 tease)

i know it’s covered in glass already but i dunno, some broken glass and a giant tree emerging from the whole thing and all the rubble seems cool

i’m not a good builder but i have the vision LMAO

omg puffy is like a sheep human hybrid im pretty sure & like there’s a specific type of dryad that are a protector of sheep & other animals?? i’m not exactly sure but that seems like an interesting element to incorporate somehow

also glatt randomly planting a oak sapling in quackity’s lore stream yes pls feed my nonexistent dsmp character lore /j

i honestly dunno how to incorporate the fact dryads can turn shapeshift into trees when trying to escape something but i read something that if a dryad stays in a tree form for too long they’ll forget who they are and stay stuck as a tree?? which like woah that’s cool & some material but at the same time what—

since everyone’s backstory is kinda a mess, mr beast parent tease bc he planted a bunch of trees /hj

i have realized wilbur saying like “the whole reason i built this nation is gone” & blowing up everything or whatever is kinda a plot hole in like ‘why would i follow wilbur if/when he’s revived when he said this?’ but i’d like to think he was the one that made some meaning of the area lmanburg was on, which includes the lmantree

like he was the one that started everything and created that sentiment of that land, and however he views it now is how i would see it now

he gave meaning to my past life and now in my current life, i feel this obligation to repay him for it

not really lore bc i think it was cc!tommy talking to cc!ranboo about his height & age when he first joined but yk it would funny to make my dsmp character than his just to slightly spite him anyway

canonically 6’4 dryad yes . /hj

also i have no idea anything about hannah and her lore but we do be flower buddies :D

also omg like this isn’t at all important but the way ranboo can pick up grass blocks will just have me at awe, i dunno seems in theme with the forest/plant stuff

and i remember reading like there was something about dryads and apples but i can’t remember but i’d give tommy a bunch of apples /hj

apples am i right chat,,,,,

i’ll just have infinite apples in my inventory, like kill me in game, not like losing lives kinda deal but just in general and boom stacks of apples

“bee i get you’re half tree but do you just poop apples out like they’re nothing??” “girls don’t poop” /j

ok but like no matter how many streams i watch i cant grasp where everything is but omg but no if i was new to the server & stuff, canonically & not, i would feel my character to be the curious kind to explore everywhere

like besides a mini tour from some other person in the server, since my character only knows things in the bounds of lmanburg, i’d go off exploring different places like pogtopia, the sewers, showchester, etc

i feel like my character would be really into history, like they would have questions about what happened to lmanburg after the last war? what was life like before wilbur? what was the whole history about the antarctic empire? i dunno but reading a bunch of books from a library seems really interesting

oh but in theory, me and tubbo are loosely related if you wanna count schlatt as my “dad” because he supposedly planted the lmantree ???

i mean could make sense but it seems like a stretch

also if my character ever got close to schlatt, i’m not sure if this is canon, but i swear one time he mentioned how the whole dsmp sever is just a game/server in a game & he’s the only one that knows that ??? but like imagine if i found that out canonically,,,,,

big existential crisis pls

and i’m not 100% sure how dryad shifting works with like going from female to tree form and stuff but if i’m able to morph into different girls on the server & act as them,,,, the about of problems that can cause in the lore omg

lemme frame niki real quick and get inside information /j

oh ya and like hey bee do you support the government then? yes but no. whatever my “fav” person is canonically (assuming this is based in the beginning of this whole hc) whatever wilbur thinks, i think. head empty. but subject to change as the dsmp storyline progresses and stuff :]

ngl i wanna throw in some like random lore that doesn’t make sense to throw people off but i can’t think of anything

not actually really lore related but my choice of stream music like how ranboo has his undertale stuff that makes everyone cry, i will have in love with a ghost

yup i like in love with a ghost sm & i’m pretty sure their music is like not dmca too which yay but yk theoretically never gonna stream on the dsmp but still a fun aspect to think of bc i love listening to music & it’s very impactful to a story & associating something to it makes it more meaningful :D

like i could imagine the chill pop lofi piano stuff fits witha few lore streams of like exploring the whole smp before my character would really go out with being this lost villain in a way?

tubbo’s gangnam style who?

like i feel like i made my character bad/evil so they could have potential to get better in the future

on one hand, i’ll end up w dream and/or wilbur for the rest of my life, which is okay but i could also switch to be with tommy or even disregard all of them and be with techno/phil or quackity & potentially schlatt even who knows

also i cant wait for more connor lore tho, like as much as i tried to make my character give him more content i wanna see how everything goes with him having connections to schlatt & stuff

anyway i would’ve made concept art for my character but i honestly don’t rly like my art currently but who knows LMAO

and lastly if u read all of this ily /p

i might update this later when there’s more lore but ya

[taetaespeaches]

hi liv! how are you? i hope you had a good time camping! i just wanted to say thanks for writing because im a little stressed because i over committed myself this summer and i feel like im not going to be able to get everything done but your writing helps to calm me down sometimes (for context: i had a STEM camp program thing for all of july, i have to read 2 books for ib english next year, i have to do around 50hrs of research for a 4000 word essay i need to have a draft for by the start of the school year, im taking next year’s physics so i wont have to do it later, i’m volunteering with 3 charity/non profit orgs, and to top it all off my family is travelling for all of august). so as you can tell im feeling a wee bit overwhelmed and im sorry for ranting (just needed to get it all out) but thank you for helping me through it even if u dont know!

Hi lovely!! I'm ok! I did have a good time, it was nice. Oh gosh you're SO busy :( I hope things slow down soon love, that's too much. I'm really happy that my writing can help you out in any sort of way. You're so sweet to tell me that, I'm sending you <3

[ajaegerpilot]

okay that 3-month thing or 90-day thing about grief is bullshit. i don’t know what was supposed to happen at the 90-day mark but it didn’t happen. 3 months hurts just as much as 2 months, in the exact same way. It didn’t change. 1 month sucked the worst, and I don’t know what was supposed to happen between day 30 and day 90, but it didn’t happen. i don’t mind crying in the car every other day for the rest of my life, i just thought something would happen. and i don’t know what that is or what i want it to be.

it was my dad’s birthday on the 24th. i never got him presents (he never wanted them love you dad if i ever get kids imma tell them the same thing) but i remember last year for xmas i wanted to give him tea because our shitty GP was telling us that my dad’s cancer might be IBS. anyway, if you have IBS, I’m not saying you have cancer but like just know that IBS is not a specific thing and if someone is diagnosing you with IBS they are saying they don’t know what the fuck is wrong with you. they’re essentially saying you have Problems Disorder, and you shouldn’t feel satisfied necessarily with that diagnosis as you would with other diagnoses. anyway I think by the time xmas rolled around we knew it was cancer and he didn’t like tea (wanted to give him decaf tea bc of the IBS) so I gave the teas to my aunt and sister.

maybe things have changed and i’ve just been treading water with school too much to notice. on my run the other day i saw a sticker on a car which said fuck cancer but the ‘ck’ was like, in the shape of a breast cancer ribbon. and i was like hell yeah im not going to take a picture of this car bc thats creepy but yeah. because i didnt take a pic of it ive been like trying to remember it by writing it down in my journal and here (honestly I should’ve just taken the fucking photo).. there is just something galvanizing about knowing that other people have experienced the same stuff. on one hand its very important to me that everyone know just how important and special my dad was to me. my best fucking friend. no one will ever understand me in the way he understood me. and i’m not saying this in a defeating way as to say that I don’t have other people I love and who love me and that I won’t make more relationships with people I love in significant ways. It’s just true that he wasn’t important to me because he was my dad, but because he was a good person, and he was my good friend, and I will never again get to talk to him and he will never again experience life.

but also i’m not the only person who has ever suffered loss like that, even if it is different from mine (and of course it would be, because people are different and death is different but there is this commonality to loss that makes me feel less alone). like i feel that its so important that people know that I loved and love him SO MUCH. but it also makes me feel better that I’m not the only person who has lost someone. and that I’m not the only person that lost him, that he meant a lot to others as well. i dont know maybe it just makes me feel more connected to this world knowing that I’m not alone in this feeling. like if i was unique in feeling like this? in having lost someone that mattered this much to me? that would be a lot worse. like obviously i don’t want other people to go through this, but knowing that loss and death isn’t uncommon and is in fact this thing that we have to take along with love and life. idk for awhile there last year I kind of internalized that my sorrow was unique because our relationship was unique, and that made me feel really isolated and despairing. but i can accept now that our relationship was special and that my sorrow is well-placed but also that it is something I share with so many other people.