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creatuesfromthedeep · 1 year ago

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Rebuilding skyscrapers from broken glass and broken souls Ain't got no blueprint just a purpose and a wrecking ball

City of Ashes - Jhariah

Utopia

#flight rising #dragon share #fr ridgeback #cftd utopia #lineage thursday #i dont care if thats entirely a me thing #i have so many lineage dragons and i need to show them off

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mamawasatesttube · 21 days ago

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coming out as boring or whatever but i must admit. i don't actually find boomer-sitcom-esque "i hate my wife"/"my partner is annoying and naggy"/"its cute and quirky to shit on my partner" jokes funny even if you make them gay. sorry. but its my truth.

#rimi talks #i just find that so mean-spirited lmao like ???#and i DO have best friends who i tease and poke at a lot but not in this kind of way. like. man #if the relationship ur writing is supposed to be antagonistic and not entirely like. healthy? thats one thing #but if character A just keeps insulting character B even if they dont mean it. and theyre supposed to be best friends/lovers/whatever #sorry i do not actually find this cute or quirky or funny or endearing i just think that character A is an asshole #and okay. breaking my vague mode a bit. this is about tim drake why do people always characterize him as being a fucking ass to his friends #he loves them how many times does he need to go IM NOT BATMAN I HAVE FRIENDS for you people to comprehend that he loves them #and he's not so emotionally stunted that he can't express to people that he cares about them without insulting them what are you DOINGgGggG #like tim is not going to call kon and bart names by the time theyre besties. be for fucking real. read yj98 read robin 93 #dont speak to me or my son ever again. whatever. tim sweetie im sorry people dont characterize you correctly literally ever for some reason #i dont know what wizard cursed you in this way tim. very sorry it happened though

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numberonetribble · 2 months ago

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I got bit by the Sparkling bug and really wanted to give Bumblebee and Breakdown a child for my unnamed AU I'm working on but then I remembered I can't draw children :( big shout out to that post floating around here that's like "imagine a Sparkling but they come out full sized then what." traffic tickets and impound fees that's what

(pssst look at their knees)

#its my first time drawing a transformer can you tell #maccadam #tfe bumblebee #tfe breakdown #transformers #transformers oc #OKAY story time!!!!!!#I went with a 1971 corvette bc my grandfather used to race street cars in the 70s and was a mechanic and has a fleet of muscle cars #im going to make Jazz a Chevelle look out for that #BUT i went with F8 green bc my dads wife has a challenger that color green and Blue + Yellow makes green :3 #their pointy things are supposed to be a combo of Bees horns and Breakdowns side thingies #also i mixed in some of Bees Cyberverse design bc i like that #their pose is a reference to Fuck Cops meme #okay so i was screaming the entire time i was drawing them bc Hard but also not very precious with the doodles which was a lot of fun?#i used to love to draw but i gave it up bc i was so focused on how bad i was doing and not having fun with it #but this time i was just having fun with it and WOW i finished it???#so for the AU it's not REALLY earthspark its more me pulling verisons of characters i like and putting them into the Scenario #like Ratchet from tfp and Smokescreen are also there along with Skywarp and Ambulon and Prowl and Jazz and Hot Rod #oh just you wait i also gave Skwarp and Ambulon a sparkling thats a search and rescue plane but nobody cares about shipping those two!!!#jazz and prowl also get a sparkling dont worry #the timeline is very long though with lots of flashing back and forwards and other things that probably people wont like but this is for ME

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ophanstears · 3 months ago

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I know that Clover's gender is up to interpretation (the devs DID say so themselves) but I still feel weird when people make them exclusively male or female LOL Like it's TECHNICALLY fine??? but it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

more in tags as usual because I am a yapper. i am so sorry for having strong opinions about gender and representation. i am usually more fun than this 🥲🥲🥲🥲

#whenever ppl talk about clover being male it feels like they are unconsciously reinforcing gender roles???#vague sexist vibes yknow #this is such an innocent thing to complain about but i dont care!! i am a HATER!!!!!!#I think it bothers me so much because it reminds me of how Kris was treated and is STILL being treated. “well in my headcanon he is a boy”#again its technically fine!!! the devs said its cool and i wont hate anyone for it. but its still so weird yknow #especially cus most ppl reason them to be a boy because “well he likes guns and thats a boy thing!!!!!!”#“his design looks like a boy but his animations are like a girl”#“he is a cowBOY and he looks masculine so-” shut up i will stick your head down a toilet #many people think its an obvious fact that they are male.#whenever the cast calls Clover by he or a boy in fan content I can feel my entire face shrivel up #“THEY WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT!!!” aka the curse that keeps me from enjoying anything thats just made for fun #i think its a case of self-insertiritis... even though clover is their own separate person as is UTDR's tradition #bonus points if they make them a boy so they can ship them with kanako without being gay 🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨#🤨🤨🤨🤨bonus points if they make them female so they can ship them with flowey without being gay 🤨🤨🤨🤨#female clover is actually rare and not nearly as problematic. i can tolerate female clover because luckypatch is such a rare ship anyhow #this does not even mention the weird ships with martlet and ceroba. yeah its the monster girls only. and in those theyre also a boy #never starlo or dalv which thank god but. guess why. go figure #ive had people headcanon martlet knowing clover as a kid and dating them later? i do not need to explain why thats grooming LOL #the undertale yellow fandom on reddit. is so bad. god. do not go there #i know its filled to the brim with teens who have the media literacy skills of a wet piece of paper and their minds in the gutters 24/7 but #cmon.#the things they have done to ceroba and martlet. the curse of being women. girlypops i am SO sorry you do not deserve it #undertale #undertale yellow #uty #clover #ceroba #martlet

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claitea · 1 month ago

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i know i shouldnt dwell on stupid opinions like this but a while ago i saw someone complain that Applin was a boring concept bc its just a worm in an apple and i was FLOORED. this iirc was in response to smth about gen 1 designs being boring as well

its not just a worm its a Wyrm its a pun. that is a concept. maybe you don't like it personally but to say its objectively bad is certainly Something. not every pokemon has to be based on a myth or something else fantastical to be a good concept. you Need "boring" pokemon for the dex to feel complete, if Everything is Cool then nothing is actually cool

"gamefreak is running out of ideas" yeah there's a billion fish pokemon but they're all actually very different to each other, lanturn is an anglerfish and lumineon is a butterfly fish. say what you will abt gamefreak rn its probably warranted but imo the one thing they still do right 100% of the time is unique concepts for each pokemon. the execution can be debated but the fundamentals are always there

#clai speaks #does this make sense #i get so annoyed every time i see the ''they're running out of ideas!!!!'' thing parroted all the time i had to say SOMETHING #like yeah you're gonna find some pokemon boring. theres a thousand of them now with all different designs #theres no way all 1000 are going to cater to you specifically. impossible #but to then fault the ENTIRE THING. get mad at people when they like the mon you think is lazily designed or boring or whatever #sorry not every pokemon can have the lore relevance of cosmog or reshiram or ogerpon? i guess????#you Need some toned down concepts for a good creature collector. or any game with a vast array of enemies to fight #are you expecting to go to route 1 and find reality-bending dragons there?#honestlyyyyy i don't actually even think gen 1 designs are Boring. yeah they aren't at the same standard as modern mons #but for the time they were perfectly acceptable. its been almost 30 years yeah things will change #maybe i;m just mad bc i'm a huge fan of several ''boring'' mons. fearow is so bland but i love it a lot #all the regional birds actually. no 1 unfezant defender #idk i should stop here i'm rambling too much. point is. i just wish people would stop treating opinions as objective fact #you dont like applin. thats cool. others do tho stop being pushy about it ok #i realize now maybe its hypocritical to complain abt others having these opinions its just. the way they always present it irks me yknow???#ahhh whatever. i think i;m making myself mad now JHDBJHBHJF #guy cares too much about pokemon opinions pt 126736

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poisonousquinzel · 10 months ago

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"I'm nobody. I haven't done anything with my life like you have."

Todd Phillips, Scott Silver, Lady Gaga genuinely, lovingly, fuck you.

I will never forgive you. I hope every day your bones get softer and softer and then one day when you're not expecting it, I shall be there, and I will gnaw through your Achilles heel<3

#LIKE WHAT THE FUCK???? IVE NOT DONE ANYTHING WITH MY LIFE #SHES SUPPOSED TO BE A DOCTOR SHE SPENT OVER A DECADE IN FUCKING SCHOOL IM GONNA FIGHT #IM THROWING HANDS WITH EVERYONE INVOLVED THATS SO NASTY #idc i will not be acknowledging this as an actual Harley cause shes not. i dont fucking care.#the Only thing making her Harley is that they called her that. change her hair color and color scheme and bam PUNCHLINE #but no they decided to be stupid and insulting and ignorant.#this genuinely makes me so mad.#i watched the trailer and every time im like jfc okay its gonna suck they just release something absolutely worse #i will be spending my entire therapy session tomorrow ranting passionately about my hatred for todd phillips #i would fight him for a corn chip #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #baby im so sorry to be tagging you i know this aint you baby!!! you're better than this!! you deserve better #dc comics

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nintendont2502 · 6 months ago

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btw i will forever recommend just. refusing to engage in discourse. its free its easy and you literally arent missing anything LMAO - 99% of discourse on here is just on the most pointless petty shit that literally doesnt mean a single thing to anyone in real life (i am looking directly at you "pRo/AnTi" shippers), and the other 1% is genuinely important shit... that isnt going to be solved in any productive way by insulting '''the other side''' online. arguing with strangers online never changes anyones mind all youre doing is making yourself *and* your cause look annoying as hell :thumbsup: maybe chill out. find a hobby.

#dont even get me started on how apparently this entire fucking site has never heard of nuance in its life #im ngl dude i think if youre boiling down a complicated topic to 'well this is the good side (my side) and then the BAD EVIL SIDE'#and putting anyone who even slightly falls out of line with your beliefs on the evil side #like. thats not gonna be productive in the slightest right. you understand that right #if you wanna have meaningful nuanced discussions with people you actually know about serious topics then go for it!#just dont drag random strangers into it #if i have to see one more post with dumb bullshit acronyms that everyones expected to know that insults anyone who doesnt blindly agree wit #them i stg #'if you dont agree with this then clearly youre a [evil side] who hates [group] and does [bad thing]. theres no other logical explanation #for you possibly not agreeing with me'#and theyre talking about the most obscure insane discourse youve literally never heard of before thatll be flooding your dash for the next #month #had to unfollow a really good artist because they just kep reblogging the most aggressive 'every [evil side] sucks and hates [good side] an #doesnt care about them and wants to oppress them'#(said '[evil side]' wasnt even a moral stance it was literally just something you were born as. like. you get how thats fucked up right)#which uh. sucked! especially since i was part of that [evil side]#anyway midnight rant over tldr uhhh discourse stupid go get hobbies #and if i ever mention what discourse topic inspired this post ill probably get torn apart LMAOO #(hint: its one of the stupid pointless ones)#me.txt

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suffarustuffaru · 1 year ago

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hi i made a tier list of how homophobic rezero characters are

hello in the spirit of valentine's day and the very welcoming community here on rezero tumblr i decided to make this with the help of my lovely mutuals.

#anyway heres some fun little explanations if youd like to read:#otto has. so much internalized shit going on i dont even know where to begin. not as severe as like subaru fr and def not in the same way a #whatevers happening with ferris but like by the time u get to arc 8 hes a total shitshow LJSLDKF #like ottos. transphobic. canonically. with natsumi schwartz. and then hes def got More going on bc his attachment style is soo....#wilhelm and heinkel i think would def be homophobic outside of reinhard/reinhard related things but its funnier to describe it like that ok #and either way the main target of their homophobia is gonna be reinhard LMAO #oni elders suck ok. theyd all be homophobic #rams got a strong case of comphet rn but when she doesnt have comphet shes chillin with subarus gf and having wlw mlm hostility with subaru #and otto. the entire judges your taste tier is all insane teen girls or frufoo and patrasche (who DEFINITELY judge otto and subarus taste)#frufoo patrasche are like that one reddit post about that one guys dog being homophobic after seeing their owner get topped in gay sex #also als in that tier bc al.#alcor is technically subaru but he gets to be a tier lower than subaru bc. hes also not technically subaru its very complicated but #at least he doesnt have the entire boy drama subaru has LSJDF #reids iconic line is the ones where he calls julisuba boyfriends u know. its extremely iconic.#a dear mutual of mine has informed me tivey is in lol ok while his triplet siblings wouldnt know what being gay is which LKJDSLFSD thats #fucking funny i had to do it #id argue satella is in lol ok bc she lets subaru do almost anything ok. this includes being terribly into men. she knows shes got his heart #either way. and also elsa dont care unless it affects how ur guts taste #rems reaction is gonna be lol ok unless its subaru coming out to her. then shes gonna have some Mixed Feelings #rezero #re:zero #i forgot to add but u could def argue garf knows what being gay is bc his two older brothers are just Like That #but also neither of his brothers would be caught dead explaining what being gay is to him

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sonknuxadow · 2 months ago

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i hate that the sonic movies get more advertising and attention from the general public than other sonic media does for a number of reasons but one thing that is particularly annoying to me right now is that because of this when a new sonic game or comic or cartoon or literally anything else that im actually excited for happens nobody seems to notice or care that it exists but now that the big new sonic thing (sonic 3) is something that im not really looking forward to at all im constantly being asked and told about it.. like come onnnnn

#talking about irl interactions not online. in case thats not already obvious #like. i know nobody has actual bad intentions . most of these people do not know enough about the games #to know that the movie is looking like its going to completely butcher the plot of sa2 and that im mad about it #and i dont think anyone irl really knows all the details of my increasingly strained relationship with the scu either #they just know that i love sonic . or even that i liked the first 2 movies depending on who they are . and a new sonic movie is coming out #and im not upset they try to talk to me about sonic i LOVE talking about sonic #but its so frustrating that people seem to only care when the scu is involved. even if they dont actually watch the movies anyway???#and it doesnt end at people only bringing up sonic when its the scu #ive also had many conversations where i mention a game or comic or something and the person im talking to makes it about the movies #like (*mentions i like sonic* ''have you seen the movies''. or *mentions a new sonic thing* ''is it related to the movies'' etc)#like come onnnn we were talking about the games can we talk about the games in a way that doesnt involve the movies for Once #again i know nobody has bad intentions so i feel kinda bad for being annoyed #and its not entirely their fault since a video game or comic is inherently going to be less known than a big movie . but goddddd #this happened a bit with the knuckles series too but not to the same extent that its happening wiht sonic 3

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minivirgo · 3 months ago

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i think i'm just fundamentally evil and broken ?

#went on a walk #it's so sad outside #i listened to the latest mitski album twice and i was on the verge of tears the entire time #i guess i thought time did heal old wounds but maybe ignoring and avoiding the wounds is not the same as healing them #im having thoughts and feelings that im so ashamed of #i dont feel like theres anyone i can tell this to im just afraid it'll change how they perceive me forever #im not even sure how to explain things to myself #am i normal am i wrong #all i want is to curl up into my bed and have someone take care of me #but i can't do that i need to grow up and there are things to do and i can't have everything i want always #i'll try and work on this assignement for thirty or forty five minutes or something and then ill allow myself to curl up into a ball and cr #or maybe i'll knit and watch something and get myself busy bc thats what i do #i just avoid the uncomfortable parts of myself thinking theyll go away or something #it's the greed #it's the greed.

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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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faaun · 8 months ago

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i feel rly sad and conflicted abt one of my best friends on earth but idk who to ask for advice bc i usually would have consulted her in this situation lmao

#shes cool and i dont want to lose her and i know Logically i love her but atm i feel so strange towards her #and idk what to do abt it bc i know in the past ive like...over-communicated a lot and over the last few yrs ive been trying to not do that #bc thats an anxious impulse i think .so like . self control #AND IMPORTANTLY . i may actually be the problem here ?? ok again i love her i dont want to lose her etc but basically ive noticed a pattern #which is that whenever she gets a bf/a man (even fwb) in her life she basically stops talking to me and the limited interactions we do have #become abt him. and while i support her it is acc too much. like we barely talked while she was w her ex bf until he became abusive and #then we talked a lottt like all our convos understandably were abt him . and then when they broke up we kept hanging out so i didnt rly see #the pattern there but still she seemed to centre men a lot in her life like sbe was excited to not date and find herself and then #immediately afterwards started seeing this other guy with whom shes basically in a relationship now #hes nice and all but like . HES ALL SHE TALKS ABT . actually we barely talk atp but when we do its abt him #she sends me reels sometimes but its all abt being jealous abt him etc . and shes bi but she said she doesnt like the idea of dating women #bc theyre scary . and i thought she was kidding in the ohhh women r so beautiful that theyre intimidating way but no she was being entirely #fr . she explained jts bc she was bullied by a girl in the past but like...bro ur ex bf literally abused you like surely you see men are #capable of just as much harm? but obvs who she dates is her own choice . but anyway she has consistently made plans w me then cancelled the #like an hr before . or asked to call me and then proceeded to not do so . when i ask her to meet/call its the same she just doesnt respond #or she cancels ? and while i understand anxiety sucks it feels SO WEIRD STILL . maybe im the problem slightly too bc ik i have no right to #feel this way but it rubs me the wrong way that ik she has so much time to spend w him/calls him all the time despite meeting him just a fe #months ago whereas i just have to like ...be ok w not actually having talked to her for a long time #its gotten to the point where when she says do you wanna meet/call i automatically respond yes and then just assume it doesnt happen . like #there have been several times over the past few months i double booked plans over when we were supposed to call/meet bc i was sure she #wouldnt show up and ive been right each time #like she sends me texts that she misses me or im her best friend etc etc occasionally and then acts rly . contrary to that ?#ive talked to her abt the issue w cancelling on me twice btw. when i was still dating the situationship person she would get sooo mad at #them for not respecting my time and shed tell me i deserve better etc etc and then like . she doesnt seem to respect my time at all #anyway she said she understand and she admits to like...being flaky etc but does nothing abt it #and its not like i can tell her to stop caring so much abt men bc we sorta had convos like that b4 she got This involved w this guy #and apparently it did nothing and the last thing i want is to police her relationships or get in her way #its just AUSHD AUGH #anyway i rly miss her it just doesnt feel the same at all anymore

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syn4k · 1 year ago

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just watched the animator vs animation series and i think its great. thank goodness this series' characters include exclusively stick figures otherwise id have a much harder time making fanart of them

#ray's tag #animator vs animation #keys' art #ava fanart #i was watching this and i was like damn this is so good it makes me want to draw but i cant draw well enough #and then i went THATS BULLSHIT this is the animated series that consists entirely of STICK FIGURES. you can draw Stick Figures bro #and it turns out i could!#however bad they may look. i dont care. i made a thing :] proud of myself #the fucking stick figures

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cator99 · 4 months ago

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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care

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itsalwaysdark · 5 months ago

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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And #make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not #saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was #going to say #like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so #bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the #winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000 #other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but #i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its #been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody #responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple #muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it #but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like #im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good #solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start #all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the #punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4 #im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but #even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think #avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is #like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they #hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be #the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO #difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15 #minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case #it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel #stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and #tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i #tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction #like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint

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dewgongs · 3 months ago

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ughh why do i have to have njghtmares about them

#in it i was fighting w him over text and then hetm gangsd uep on me #sorry uemin so tired #i have been having a hard time being labelled a quote unquote cheater when i very strongly feel like thats not what happened #and it bothers me knowing that they get to justify their side and avoid responsibility by calling me that #when again. we were literally broken up when i sent that text to the wrong chat #and to be even more fair to me it was the lightest thing of all time it was playful kissies and lovings #like all of this is so wack. like to be labelled that while doing something so small while we werent even together #the drawing stuff is literally normal . ive done that with my kther friends before i even met sable. you are ridiculous #like it just aggrivates me because thats such a sticky smear to put on somebody especially when thats not even what happened #its so overblown and i think thats on purpose to have one last thing to justify your side #and ignore the fact that he was not the best partner to me and stressed me tf out all the time #like how am i a cheater when i played by your rules the whole time we were together #because of how insecure you are. uou let your insecurity become your reality #and i realized how much more taken care of i was with angelo and how naturally we flow together #its so natural to talk to him he is what i have needed. i would be foolish not to pick prince charming #over someone who i felt only fed me stress and anxiety and worry about everything including potential addiction issues #knowing theyre bipolar. knowing they have bpd. participating in dangerous behavior all the time #i feel like calling me a cheater when thats not what fuckin happened is just to handwave away wtf you did wrong the entire time #if i actually cheated id have been slobbering on angels meat the whole time like im sorry #id have been doing spins on it and gagging on it every night but the thing is i didnt #i stayed loyal to you while with you and confided in them as friends while you continuously demanded time from me #that wasnt organic and it was forced half of the time . god i hated playing shit with your stupid ass #so fucking monotone always wanting to do the same shit no variety and always getting upset and throwing tantrums over the smallest things #n then when that behavior once again gets put on me and i get more fucking stressed yeah i turn to my other friends #that arent anything like the other friendgroup because they dont do shit about anything and dont really gaf about snything #except for their own problems #and i confide in the other group because they actually show that they care about me. they relieve stress for me like friends are supposed 2

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