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the fact that I don't know shit about Auguste aside from what Laurent thinks of him which is evidently very biased but I still feel so strongly about him. what do i do with that
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Dear people in the gomens community, Just remember that you will be okay. We will be okay.
The Good Omens fandom is very comforting and we support each other. And the show, the book, and the fandom brings me comfort and joy. I know this is a tough time for us, but I just wanna say that we're all struggling and you're not alone. Whatever you're feeling is valid.
Keep enjoying yourself what makes you happy.
Keep drawing fan art.
Keep on writing fanfictions.
Keep making fan merchandise.
Keep doing whatever you're doing. You're doing great. :)
Please don't give up. Hang in there..❤️🩹
#good omens#I don't wanna keep dwelling on this any longer#Keep enjoying what makes you happy#i just wanted to spread a bit of positivity here#we got this#please take care of yourselves
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After some space to think and calm down, I've come to accept some on here are legitimately oblivious to their antisemitism. I got some messages from very caring people and some pointed out gaslighting that's been happening to me and it meant a lot to me to feel affirmed. I don't like using the word antisemite to anyone directly because I think it makes people defensive and resistant to growing. Growing up, most people have had to realize one way or another that racist thoughts or actions were conditioned into them by society around us and grow out of some line of ignorant thought. Same thing goes for antisemitism.
I've heard more than once "You can thank Zionists for how people treated you". I don't agree with shirking the responsibility of specific ignorant incidents onto an outside party. The person who was antisemitic to me did that, no one else and it's not excusable. Anyway I'll be back slowly, thank you to all who checked in on me.
#I'll slowly be responding to who I can but I appreciate every message a ton. I might not answer the anons because I don't want to publish#more on this tbh. I just want to move on and post my art as I always have focused on instead of publicly dwell on an upsetting topic#antisemitism#cw antisemitism#tw antisemitism#anyway. back to art#long text
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A little love letter to Din Djarin writers... 🤍
I love that some of you write him as soft and gentle while others focus on the darker, harsher parts of his personality. I love that he can be both a quiet, kind man caring for his child or an intimidating, terrifying bounty hunter who is a lean, mean killing machine... depending on what the fic warrants.
I love how you write him with other characters from The Mandalorian or even with those who would never cross paths with him in canon, from Star Wars or elsewhere. I love how you write him interacting with yourselves and us, and some of you even create your own original characters to exist a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away alongside him.
I love that some of you ship him with that one other special person, while others recognise how desirable he is and ship alllllll the ships. Not forgetting those of you which are here for none of those ships and/or even headcanon him as ace. I love that any of those options allow you to explore your own identities and sexualities through him.
I love that you can write the most tooth-rotting fluff or filthiest smut, and all of those things in between. Whether it's for general audiences or explicit and strictly 18+ ... all of your fics have an audience and someone out there who appreciates your writing.
I love how differently you can interpret him, but there are also so many common themes and tropes running through your writing. I love that there is room for all of your Dins here.
I love that he means so much to you and that all of us here hold him in our hearts a little bit. I love that we can all watch the same episodes and come to entirely different conclusions about him. I love how much we love him.
Getting to be a part of this wonderful community and interact with so many people who love the space tin can man as much as I do has truly been one of the best things that happened to me recently. I'm so glad I made this little blog... It reminded me just how good fandom can be. I am blown away by the number of talented people here!
So, I just wanted to take a moment to express some gratitude towards all of you! Thank you for writing your Dins and please don't ever stop. Finally.... last, but not least:
I love Din Djarin!!!
#din djarin#the mandalorian#din djarin fanfic#din djarin fanfiction#din djarin x reader#the mandalorian fanfiction#i got a uhhhh not nice anon a couple of days ago lol and i'm not posting it here (truly speaking to the wall) but i didn't want to dwell on#that and instead spread some love around!!! because anyone who is brave enough to put their writing out there is amazing to me#and especially a character as well known and beloved as din... that's far more impressive than sending anon bs lol#anyway i truly mean it i don't read as much as i'd like to because my brain can't take it when i'm focused on my own stuff sometimes but#you all ROCK and i don't want anyone to ever feel like they don't or their din is 'wrong' or OOC bc truly only favreau writes him#100% in character bc he made him lmao. all fanfic is by definition ooc BUT THATS another rant for another time
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My roommate is humming some melody to himself and I can hear him through the wall. I get to fall asleep to this safe, joyful, calm sound every night and in exchange, I wake him up with my own music.
He is better at reading Hebrew than I am, and we sit often together to read a page together, of the autobiography my grandmother sent me on Google docs. It is too much for me to read alone, but he sits and listens to me try, and he reads to me when I get tired.
We sit and study in the living room together, me doing my homework, him designing a synth for fun. He gifted me a shirt from his mother's charity and I wear it with pride. He taught me to cook a soup and we ate it together on the porch.
Sometimes, I get out of the shower, and hear him fiddling around on the piano in the living room. It's a wonderful thing.
There is no point to this post. No romance, I promise. I'm just soothed and calm and happy to have such a lovely roommate.
#cherry chatter#rambles#how do i tag this#idk#Feeling soft and grateful#song#drums#piano#guitar#musician#guitarist#acoustic guitar#jumblr#hebrew#hebrew langblr#judaism#learnhebrew#studyblr#studyspo#study aesthetic#student#university#study motivation#studying#study blog#student life#Pls don't ship us he has a gf#Who happens to be one of the few people who could probably beat my ass if she wanted to#Genuinely I just wanted to dwell in the joy of safety of hearing someone being relaxed
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Reposting a connverse I made in 2021. Well, specifically posting this again after editing a few stuff.
I had been so bothered with how I kept editing Steven until I made his silhouette floppy-looking. So I fixed it a bit.
And that this was suppose to be flipped in the first place (which was why Connie's nose piercing was on the right side on the original.)
#I think I chose to keep it flipped then because I recognized Connie's silhouette was much stronger and sometimes I wanted my stronger parts#on the left side of the image.#connverse#Steven Quartz Universe#Connie Maheswaran#SU#my shiz#repostober#I'll be deleting my uploads for repostober by the end of the year except this one.#Editing it despite me saying I am not going to do anything two years ago.#I saved a speed paint of this on Youtube and you can clearly see I kept editing Steven worse and worse. 😵#I got his legs fixxed into a better stance at least.#What I specifically had a problem now is Steven's arm and jacket.#Like I think I can make his torso look more sturdy.#But I don't wanna dwell on it too much.#Steven Universe#Eugh this was suppose to be a scheduled post. and it just disappeared while editing it. I'm guessing I accidentally pressed the 'post now'#button?#teal
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sometimes a family is you, your girlfriend, her husband who's also your boyfriend, your mutual son and his electric rat, a mr. mime, and a baby
#delia ketchum#professor burnet#professor kukui#anipoke#pokeani#pokemon sumo#millidrew#art#my post#imagine the profs in i <3 milfs shirt thanks#probably a long multi-year slow burn that's also a very fast burn#bc they co-parent as friends for years. they're just known as ash's parents/family#kukui and burnet are madly in love and everyone knows it so they wouldn't consider the idea of there being someone else for a long time#delia wouldn't want to leave her restaurant in pallet and obvs the profs are staying in alola for their work so there's physical distance#so they call a lot until they get closer and closer until their lives aren't just connected by their love of ash#but also their relationships with each other <3#like i imagine they'd call for baby advice abt lei forgetting its like 4am in kanto LMAO and delia reminiscences on raising ash#as a single teen mom w/ no support. and maybe they surprise her by visiting!!!#i don't know how long it'd take for her to see lei in person tho... i think delia would have to go to alola#and ofc delia has feelings about ash and his second family and them seeing him more than she sees him at first#but it works out in the end because she's still a part of it <3 and bc ash is like her and neither dwell on feelings for too long#they're too whimsical#ash is just happy his mom's happy. and naturally they're both oblivious to the romantic aspects AKSDKMA#this isn't inherently romantic but it's about family...intimacy...love that creeps up on you but feels totally natural...#also i think they should kiss
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Casually lurking in Sailor Moon fandom and when I see posts mentioning the Shitennou's knightly titles, I think the translation are off. I don't know if those are just fansubs being wonky, or if even the official ones are not entirely correct...
I've also seen some posts say that "I don't understand what these means". The knightly titles are based on the image and properties associated with each gemstone in Japanese (so, if it has different meanings internationally, it's quite beside the point).
Jadeite: Knight of Resilience 忍耐 and Harmony 調和
忍耐 is often translated as "Patience" in fanworks. 忍耐 is better translated as "resilience", "perseverance", or "endurance". Even when colloquially used to say "be patient", the connotation of it is more along the lines of "endure this". The Harmony one is correct.
"Resilience" is because jadeite jade is the harder jade. "Harmony" because of its traditional usage in spiritual matters, so jade in general has the image of "peacefulness".
Nephrite: Knight of Wisdom 知恵 and Peace 安らぎ
This one makes me kind of laugh because of what Nephrite is like as a character/person. I almost always see 知恵 translated as "Intelligence". It's not wrong per se, but this term here refers to something deeper than just brain smarts, thus "wisdom". Things like wisdom that come from age, or innate perceptiveness, and so on.
安らぎ is peace, as in "inner peace". Basically, "serenity", though it's probably not a good idea to use this word in Sailor Moon for obvious reasons.
Nephrite being the native jade of China, it has been given very sagely meaning to it that persist even in Japanese symbolism. That's why it's like this, for somewhat similar reasons to jadeite's "harmony".
Kunzite: Knight of Virtue 純潔 and Benevolence 慈愛
純潔 can also mean Purity or Chastity. 慈愛 is sometimes translated as Affection, which is also not entirely wrong. It's just that the standard meaning is benevolence or mercy. "Affection" tends to be used in the context of parents and children. In this context probably not the best meaning to use.
This gemstone is associated with the Holy Mother Mary, of all things, that's why it's got very saintly imagery associated with it.
Zoisite: Knight of Purification 浄化 and Healing 癒し
The most straightforward one so I've never seen any wonky translation with this one. Those who are into healing crystals might already know this, but this title is based on the healing and purification qualities that a blue zoisite/tanzanite supposedly have.
#sailor moon#sailor moon crystal#is this a meta?#it's just wording/language issues IMO#But I dunno#sailor moon shitennou#shitennou#may it be useful for other people's fanworks if you see this#also I don't want to dwell on it but#nephrite being a soft jade also makes it have this fluffy imagery attached to it#Like “warm” and “gentle” and stuff#*Looks at the Sailor Moon character*#uh yeah no#unless you want to headcanon that he's much softer in the past life era#otherwise it's like ??????#same with kunzite TBH#because of the Mother Mary stuff#*looks at the Sailor Moon Kunzite*#totally not like that at all#I mean virtue and purity and benevolence doesn't mean not snarky#but the vibes is just
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honestly part of the reason i've been really looking forward to finally playing light fingers (aside from the obvious horrors and whatnot) is because it, alongside bag a legend, contains a Choice™ i to this day am Extremely Torn About Making. like i've known for ages that the Choice™ exists in this ambition and STILL i am undecided about it. this Choice™ is of course. well. let's just say that by the time this ambition ends, caeru may not be the only catboy around town
#the bag a legend choice if ur curious is actually just. straight-up the ending. im not sure which one my BaL PC will end up with#all the other ambitions ive been Reasonably Certain about which path im choosing (especially in the case of the scoundrel)#(i kind of immediately decided i wanted the robe and built their character backwards from there)#but bag a legend? i CANNOT choose. they're all equally appealing to me. and to my BaL PC as they exist in my head rn#but BaL is practically a world's away so we (and i) don't need to dwell on it atm. we've got plenty of time lmao#the same goes for This Choice™ in light fingers. i'll decide when i get to it.#a lot will just depend on how the rp and story stuff plays out leading up to that point#who knows. maybe by the time he gets there lark will have become the fingerking's second biggest stan (after louise of course)#part of the fun i get in cyoa games is equal parts meticulously plotting out a character journey and just#seeing where the character vibes take me as i go along. it's a bit chaotic but ultimately very fun#that's why i keep talking about future events as though this is an actual story and not made up oc rp stuff btw#im just really insane about thematics and arcs in my roleplaying games#yin-thoughts#fallen london
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The whole "humans are inherently awful and bad!" spiel is so tiring to me as a survivor of abuse because it comes off as abuse apologia. If humans are inherently awful, then why should it matter if you're abused - that's what humans do best! Like, genuinely, I think this mindset can harm abuse victims/survivors because they're being inundated with this idea that, well, how bad can their abuser be? All humans are horrific, why complain, why escape, and why try to resist it?
I really wish people would critically analyze where these ideas come from and where these lines of thinking can lead. Maybe it's a matter that I'm looking too deep into, but this very bleak ideology is not going to help in the long run, I think, and some of the first people who are going to be crushed by it are the people who are vulnerable or who are put in vulnerable positions in society.
#politics#abuse tw#abuse mention tw#i think a lot of these beliefs can influence your politics and how you view other people#honestly if i kept the mindset that humans are inherently abusive i would have just stayed with people who abused me. lol.#i think a lot of people who posit these things are genuinely in pain and i really really feel for them...#...a lot of these people may be in the earliest stages of healing where the world DOES feel scary...#...but i don't want that to be normalized in the sense that it *can be* harmful to dwell in...#...when the world feels like a hammer you're going to think you're a nail. and that's such a scary thing to be stuck in#i think it's different when people use this stuff to imply that abuse isn't real/isn't a big deal because abuse is the Nature of Humanity#i'm just frustrated that this is seen as... expected? necessary? fine? it's hard to describe#i've probably talked about this before but i don't care because this is important to me still even if i did
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Christian iconography? in my Merlin??
#it's more likely than you think#ok has anyone written meta about religion in merlin or#i don't mean based on historical facts#i mean literally based on merlin canon#because i'm fascinated#they didn't dwell too much on it (for understandable reasons)#but that scene where merlin talks to his mother and says “THE GODS will protect me”?#implying they're both polytheists#whereas arthur and gaius say things like “thank god”#i'm reading too much into things again probably#i just want to know if the writers gave it some thought even if it wasn't included in the show#i don't know shit about the introduction of christianity to britain but like#isn't it roughly around this time that it was gaining predominance over paganism (5th-ish century??)#so it's possible yeah? idk idk#i just wanna know if the writers thought about any of this#or if merlin mentioning “the gods” was just a random line#merlin#bbc merlin#ramblings#merlin meta#eta: pls read added meta in the reblogs! (not mine)
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you ever think about how di feisheng absolutely has a moment (several moments) of total fridge horror about how he spent ten years in the jianghu ICU cave in varying states of helpless/weakness
and he absolutely wouldn't have suspected a thing until it was way the fuck too late if saintess had decided to go full torture pool noncon wedding at like. any point in those ten fucking years.
just like. at full power, and knowing that saintess was working against him, she still managed to cripple him and attic wife him (wet edition). and he got out of that because li xiangyi and li xiangyi's disciple and kinda the entire baichuan court showed up to rescue his ass.
but prior to that, any point in that ten years of seclusion, he'd have been at less than 60% of his power, defended by... wuyan? maybe?? who was also presumably doing his own healing, and medicine demon (maybe) who is explicitly Not Good At Fighting.
and no one would be looking for him. no one would be coming to help. if anyone found out he was being held by her, it would be -- at best, it would be what the demon lord deserved.
#mysterious lotus casebook#waters words#di feisheng#look is di feisheng someone prone to fridge horror? no.#I honestly think he's a man who tries very hard not to dwell on how things *might* have gone#good or bad#because otherwise like. he'd never do anything ever again if he focused on how things could have been different#but also. there are some things you return to even if you don't want to#fears that you have to remind yourself didn't happen. cant happen now.#(extra special bonus horror in the tags:#how much did he spend the ten years terrified that di fortress would try again.#that he'd wake from healing and feel the ringing of the bell in his bones)
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Could you tell us some about Phil’s vedic astrology?
So, a bit of a difficult question, because I do better with specifics... By that, I mean, when it came to Dan's chart, I was looking solely at his branding, and his fame, and that was the point. With Phil, I'm not sure what exactly it is that people would like me to talk about. A specific subject would be good to analyse, perhaps.
That said, if I look at Phil's chart, certain things do pop out to me, and those are interesting... So, lets discuss Phil's status as a niche icon, I think, because that is what his entire chart points to... This post is going to be even more technical than Dan's chart, because with Dan, I was only looking at Dan's branding, and the one single placement that impacted it (a lot I left out in that essay bc I could go on forever). Meanwhile, Phil's chart has more things going on, and I can't point to one single placement for one subject...
Once more, a disclaimer about how I'm uninterested in discussing whether astrology is real or not, and I'm mostly looking at the patterns and pointing out what could be coincidences.
So, Phil's first house contains Saturn and Venus, in the sign of Scorpio. These planets don't generally tend to do very well in the first house, because both of these planets are inherently related to those outside of you. As in, Saturn relates to society and community, while Venus relates to lovers and partners. These planets are friendly to each other as well, because Saturn exalts in Libra, which is ruled by Venus.
In a sense, Phil's chart is very Saturn led, with his Moon, Mercury, and Sun in the sign of Capricorn, and Jupiter in Aquarius (both signs ruled by Saturn). His Saturn is ruled by Mars in pisces, which is ruled by Jupiter, and his Saturn, Mars, and Jupiter sort of loop back to each other, making these influences strongest in his chart.
Saturn and Mars are malefic planets, both related to struggles and pain, so Phil has an extremely high tolerance for a lot of the problematic things that occur in his life. Because Jupiter, the planet of wisdom and optimism is also involved in this loop, he tends to take hardships as lessons, and tends to zoom past them.
Saturn is related to people who are marginalized, outcast, and somehow not accepted by the rest of society. A lot of times, it can indicate being part of a community that is somehow ostracized. The gay community is one of these communities. In the modern world, Saturn often presents as extremely alternative.
Saturn is often associated with ugliness in the ancient texts, but almost every beauty icon in the modern world has very strong Saturn placements. So, that is something that should be taken with a pinch of salt. What is more accurate to say is that Saturn gives people an unconventional look, which can be shocking to the eyes. They have something to offer that the rest of the world does not, something different. They tend to be trendsetters in their field, people who change the game.
Something I find very interesting that Phil has said is that he never related to the emo look, but that he had the emo look because he wanted to attract emo boys. This relates very much to his Saturn and Venus in the first house. I personally would interpret Venus in first house as him being attracted to people who he relates to, but because of Saturn (which numbs down ego and personal emotion, because it is about the other), he wasn't fully able to feel the way he felt.
Phil's first house is ruled by Mars in Pisces, in the 5th house, which is sitting with Rahu. This particular placement feels more to him like him, than other placements, because a Martian sign in first house is quite good. This makes him someone who gets attention (rahu) for his creativity (5th house). Phil's Rahu mahadasha (great rahu phase) was from 1993 to 2011. During this time is when I suspect baby Phil's habit of lying for attention really came into the picture, like when he lied about having a very cool twin brother (Rahu rules glamour and fakeness, which, in babies, can come across as lying to look more glamourous).
Rahu gives a sort of temporary fame and virality, and the fame given by Rahu doesn't usually last for too long. However, there is a way that fame can last for a longer time, and that is through Saturn, the planet of time, community, and public reputation.
I'm going to guess that 2004 to 2005 (his ketu antardasha, sub ketu phase within the greater rahu phase) was a difficult time for Phil, because he lost a lot of what he built, maybe he was exposed in a way he didn't want to be, but it was also a time when he learnt to be more true to himself, which is something that he took with him when his next phase of life (venus antardasha) started. I suspect this was the time when he was outed to his friends.
Phil's Venus antardasha was from 2005 to 2008, which is around the time where he established his aesthetic, based on what he was attracted to. To actually feel like himself, Phil always will have to figure out what he's attracted to, and become that person. When he does this, he finds that the kind of people who he wanted in his life were just flocking to him without him doing anything about it.
Phil made his youtube account during his Venus antardasha, and his Venus is sitting with Saturn, their qualities intermingling. Anything that he does in pursuit of love or relationships is likely to last for a long time for Phil. He won't be able to do casual relationships, whether with people, or with work, they'll fizzle out almost immediately unless its meant to last.
Saturn's downside, to a large extent, comes from the fact that... People with strong Saturn associated with the self, are often not treated like full people, but rather, as icons. A lot of times, because Saturn is such a stoic planet, people do not feel as attached to Saturn. Parasociality is hard to build with a planet like Saturn. Saturn tends to show up most as a planet that rules servants. It is associated with fame, because, in many ways, celebrities provide a service to society, through sharing their talent.
Saturn as a planet of service is interesting, because something that Phil would do with his fame as a young youtuber was to be a strong part of the community, collaborate a lot, and even with youtubers who weren't as big a deal as he was. Showing off his creativity with his videos is one aspect, but another, bigger aspect, was the community he was part of, and he was sort of a pillar in that community. He would encourage other youtubers, and give them exposure (like he did with Dan, LOL).
However, Saturn becomes such a part of the community that, outside of their field of interest (where they garner a LOT of respect and appreciation), they tend to become just another face in the crowd. A lot of what is special about them is taken away by the masses they serve, and there usually isn't enough personality left to keep an audience hooked. The 7 second challenge, and the toilet tag are prime examples of this, kind of. Popular concepts invented by Phil, but taken by so many people that it can't be traced back to him.
Something to think about is that with Phil, it's not JUST that he is creative. I mean, of course he is, but actually, his bigger strength is timing, and keeping up with the current trends, and the need of the hour. His Rahu in 5th house is very prominent, and is what makes him creative, however, his real strength is Ketu in the 11th house of community, which gives him a sort of intuition with what the audience will be most receptive to. 11th house is also associated with Saturn, btw.
Saturn does create icons, but it creates niche icons. Icons to people in the know, sort of. The inspiration for a lot of those people who gain much more popularity than they do. To gain mainstream popularity, what you need is not just Saturn, but strong Sun (which is being EXTREMELY good at doing something conventional) or strong Moon (very good branding, gets the audience invested in you as a person). Phil has a weaker Moon, and an okay Sun, however, Dan has a very very strong Moon. So, a lot of the mainstream flowers that Phil gets in the public are also due to Dan standing up for him in the public eye.
Right now, Phil is not in his icon era (maybe a bit. His Mars and Rahu antardasha will be going from 2024 to 2027, and that will make him go viral A LOT). He was from 1993 to 2011 (yeah, he was an iconic baby, ig. His creativity made him very popular with people who knew him), and will be again in 2027 (Saturn Mahadasha, where he will be known more for himself, and maybe for his relationship. which is lowkey the same thing to him).
Right now, he is in his Jupiter mahadasha, which is Jupiter in Aquarius, in 4th house. Jupiter gives wisdom and luck, but doesn't really relate to fame in the same way, and in the 4H, it gives a blessed home life. Unfortunately, his Jupiter and 4H is the sign of Aquarius, which relates heavily to the public, just as Saturn does. Not the best sign for a house that is about comfort, home, and emotional security. During his Jupiter Mahadasha, Phil has dealt a lot with the concept of the public, the private life, striking that balance, and creating his boundaries. The public feels entitled to his private life, and they show it. Phil cannot be away from the public life, the way Dan sometimes can, and he knows it. But, navigating his private life along with his work is something he's been dealing with, and will be dealing with until 2027.
#sorry that this isn't as well organized#it's hard to fully express what I want to express here bc there's so much to talk about#fun fact: Phil's chart is far more edgy than Dan's chart#which is very funny bc of his reputation as the wholesome side of Dan and Phil#But in general I've noticed that people with strong malefic influence in their chart don't like dwelling too much on the bad stuff#because if you do that u will be bogged down#and the malefics... have their perks#the perks are money fame and respect#dan and phil#dnp#phan#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#danisnotonfire#phil lester#vedic astrology#astrology#saturn
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Zenos, who is relying on vague advice about "love languages" after hearing his boyfriend mention a cheesy obscure eroge a single time while he was in the room
#Eorzea Academy#Academia Eorzea#Zenos yae Galvus#Au Ra Xaela#zenoswol#wolzenos#codysenshiart#Eorzea Academy ArkheZenos is just various antics with Zenos parroting relationship advice extremely literally#because he's of the mind that intimate activities don't make sense to dwell on when they physically excite each other enough in battle#but he does think it's fair to compromise somehow since Arkhe drops everything to fight him all the time so he sought the advice#he'll not say a single word to Arkhe when he listens to what Arkhe expresses interest in and manages to get the best editions of it all#the shiniest and newest and rarest that're impossible to find#and he never once reveals how he gets the stuff because it's not important to him#he was told you can give gifts to your special someone to show your appreciation of them and he's doing just that#and yes he gets 99% of the stuff in super shady ways this is Zenos we're talking about he'd do whatever he wanted to get the stuff#his whole thing when expressing his feelings in other ways that aren't combat-oriented boils down to ''I don't get it but whatever''
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anything is possible if you block out the real world and retreat into the expansive catalog of elaborate fantasies you've developed over the years as a coping mechanism
#i can be literally anything i want#and there's always (fake) people who like and love and want me#plus i love going through my archives and picking an older reality i haven't played with in a while#been doing that a lot lately it's nice to play out my current take on like. 12 year old me's idealizations#everyone should daydream more#i literally wake up early and spend hours awake in bed daydreaming#and i do it during every single moment of downtime at school + often during actual teaching momentsoops#and it keeps me up at night for hours#but it's ok because i can be happy and perfect in my head and pretend i don't exist as a miserable thing that can't fit into its own skin#why would you dwell on the suffering inherent to survival when you could be living the lives of your dreams#pigeon coos#and also gay people who love me don't exist in real life but i can make as many as i want in my head and they're all perfect for me
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ive missed u & ur art sm 🥺 I adore it sm :^)
Ahh, thank you!! ;-;
I'm actually so positively overwhelmed with the response and everyone is so kind! Thank you all so so much ❤
Sending you warm hugs! 🫂
#ask#just a warning#i'm going to dwell more into multi fandom stuff now!#i apologise for the inconvenience!#i'm working 9 hours a day and it's just too much for me to care for other ppl opinions about “right” or “wrong” fandoms and what not#i don't want to come off rude#but i just wanna draw and share my art with others#and if i'm lucky enough other people will like my art enough to stick around#once again - THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT#it means the world to me#wishing everyone a wonderful day#:]
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