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Alright, I have finished Dishonored! Such an great game, and I loved my time with it! Everything about it felt extremely polished (wonderful atmosphere, tight controls, diverse stealth gameplay, interesting lore), but the level design in particular stood out to me. The levels are full of alternative paths and open many possibilities for the players to experiment around. The secrets and optional tasks are actually fun to find and complete, since they have actual impact on the mission as a whole. Every mission is filled to the brim with subtle enviromental storytelling, and you can find an insane amount of detail pretty much everywhere you go. You can discover so much about this world if you explore the game well-enough. It's honestly amazing.
I'm glad there's still DLC and a sequel for me to enjoy, otherwise I'd be feeling really empty right now xD
"Shall we gather for whiskey and cigars tonight?"
"Indeed. I believe so."
(that shit was driving me insane lol)
#i am disappointed at myself for fully upgrading possession and bend time only to never use them again xDD#maybe on the dlc...#(if i don't forget again)#but yeah that was a super fun game!#stealth games my beloved#also i did a low chaos run because that crypic âdark outcomeâ message scared me a bit xD#(and i'm used to non-lethal takedowns anyway ever since my mgs2 days)#i don't regret it though!#dishonored
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Okay so uhhh... visions came upon me and this was the result lol
Based on this absolute atrocity (affectionate... kind of)
[ID: A fourteen panel comic done in grayscale based on a Twitter thread from David Jenkins.
First panel: Neil Gaiman is surrounded by a crowd of fans, a bright spotlight is shining on top of him. One of the fans points a microphone in his direction and says "Mr. Gaiman! How would describe season two using only three words?"
Second panel: A close up shot of Neil, he smiles and says "Uhh... I'd say it's quiet, gentle, and romantic". "Romantic" is written in a flourished cursive font. There are little floating red hearts surrounding him.
Third panel: A shot of the crowd of fans saying "Awww" in unison, there are little hearts floating around. They find it adorable.
Fourth panel: A black screen titled "At David Jenkins' Twitter"
Fith panel: David Jenkins is sitting in table far away from the point of view, at the center of the image, a spotlight is shining on top of him. There is a crowd of fans forming a semi-circle around him, they are squished against one another, stoping at the little fence that is surrounding the table . A fan standing near the front says " I LOVE U... three words to describe season 2?"
Sixth panel: A close up shot of David Jenkins, he is sitting with both elbows proped up on the table, supporting his head with his hands. The harsh light is shining in on him, he looks serious and solemn. His head is tilted down but his eyes are looking directly at the camera, the whites of his eyes make a stark contrast against his shadowed figure. He says " Fucking sweet...".
Seventh panel: The shot is arranged in the same way as in fifth panel. David Jenkins is far away, sitting at his table , the fans are surrouding him in a semi-circle. The fan near the front replies "Give us one more word David"
Eight panel: A huge shock wave tilts the crowd back. All lights are out, except for the spotlight shining in on David Jenkins. David's arms are unnaturally elongated in a spider-like way, fiercely gripping the table with both hands.
Ninth panel: David lauches into the crowd. The point of view remains the same, but now his head is extremely close up the camera. He emphatically says "FUCKING"
Tenth panel: The scene is seen from the side, now we can see that David still remains sitting at his table, but his neck is extended in a long unnatural arch. He is directly looking at the fan from before, his head on top of them. The fan still has the microphone poiting in David's direction. A new spotlight is shining in on both of them. David says, "SWEET"
Eleventh panel: A close up shot of the crowd. The camera lies a little ways below David's head, only the bottom of it is visible. We see that the fan with the microphone is crouched and almost completely tilted back. The fan is looking directly at Jenkins. The crowd continues squished together, watching intently with shocked faces. David continues, saying "YOU"
Thirteenth panel: The shot is arranged in the same way as in the previous panel. David continues, saying "SLUTS". The letters are written in an emboldened font. The crowd is completely shocked, but also weirdly flattered, all of them are blushing.
Fourteenth panel: David Jenkins goes back to sitting at his table, in a movement similar to a metal spring coiling up again after being streched out. He is sitting far away from the camera, at the center of the image. The fans forming a semi-circle around him. They continue blushing, with some assorted murmurs of bafflement as in "oh my god", "dude what" and "why". /END ID]
#long neck david shall haunt me for eternity now#I don't regret creating him though#but he will also definetely appear in my nightmares#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmd s2#our flag mean death s2#david jenkins#ofmd meme#neil gaiman#good omens 2
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Heaven forgive me
Bonus without those heavenly bastards looming over them
#Ultrakill#Gabriel Ultrakill#Warrior Cats#Leafpool#wc#Starclan#<- Hellish tag combination#IF YOUR MAN IS: god's favoriteâ condemned by their faith for a mistakeâ & doesn't regret their heresy even though it leads to their death#That is NOT your man. That is LEAFPOOL WARRIORCATS#Anyway I don't have a bit for this one. This was originally a joke piece then I finished it. Now it's not a joke. Go my kitties#Hrokkall art#Eyestrain
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Do you play genshin impact or honkak a
Star rail?
I don't play Honkai, but I've just started looking into Genshin Impact's story (someone described Neuvillette's character to me and I was like. hmm. HMM.) I haven't gotten far yet -- really JUST started looking at it -- but I'm looking forward to more! :D
(I know almost nothing about these characters yet, I'm probably drawing them SUPER wrong, sorry)
#art#genshin impact#(another sorry to everyone in the tag) (i really don't know what i'm doing)#oh no i'm going to have to learn to draw even more complicated anime hair aren't i#man i would like to get into more things though#but alas there is too much stuff and not enough time#me: part of being a responsible adult is carefully thinking about and prioritizing my media consumption#also me: (watches the entire wownow thanksgiving movie) no regrets
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Read dungeon meshi up to vol.8 so far, so here you go Can't stop taking back the (vol.8) book and looking through the pages again and again and I'm wondering why does Mithrun just... grab Not even to use his magic, he just... grabs...
#dungeon meshi#mithrun#kabru#I know I don't have all the infos yet but yeah sir are you ok#does he even actually see anything#don't answer that I'll get to this when reading the rest#love him though I love elves so so so much whatever the story or media theyre automatically blorbos#and tbh the elven crew is part of why I started dungeon meshi#0 regrets everyting is fantastic from all the designs to the storytelling#going insane abt elf senshi as well#might draw more when I'm rested
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I made this during school so it's very lazily edited
alternatively, what actually happened in the Nibbleheim mako reactor
#zack fair#genesis rhapsodos#sephiroth#Crisis Core#ff7 crisis core#ff7#I don't know what I was thinking#Regret nothing though#I also started playing ever crisis
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didn't scroll tumblr for like a week cus i was hella busy and rereading @derinthescarletpescatarian curse words in what spare time i could wrangle from my schedule (great story, highly recommend btw) and i realise now that i haven't missed tumblr at all. maybe i will dip again
#i need a tag for my own rambles#queue has run out on my tlt liveblog though#and i still haven't actually started reading Nona the Ninth cus i got distracted by my harebrained idea to reread curse words#i don't regret it at all#i have some time tomorrow so maybe i will make a start on Nona then
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Dreamling: The Visual Novel
locked option from this post.
#why did I make this đ#I don't regret it though đ¤ˇââď¸#dreamling#the sandman#visual novel post
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You tried to steal my daughter so I'm stealing your mother! part 2
So I actually wasn't planning on a part 2 so soon but here it is LMAO Part 1!
Lucifer was⌠well, wallowing in pity, to say the least. In the hotel, of course, since he was trying guilt-trip Alastor into letting him spend time with you.
Alastor was obviously just going about his business, whilst Charlie was trying to comfort Lucifer.
It was pretty clear he was being a bit over-dramatic but he does it for one reason: to be able to spend time with you, without Alastor.
Ever since Lucifer told Al about you âsneaking outâ, Alastor hasnât left your side for a moment, until now, that is.
He was keeping an eye on Lucifer whilst he sent you to represent him in the Overlords meeting that day, since he was clearly unable to go.
Lucifer, sitting in a corner of the lobby, was now making sobbing noises, which only seemed to irritate Alastor (rightfully so)
âAlright, since I am obligated to⌠remove trash from the hotel premises, leaveâ Alastor turned to Lucifer and pointed at the door, to which the demon gasped in an over dramatic way.
âTrash?! Perhaps you should see yourself out then?â
Alastor glared at him, slightly pointing his microphone at him before sighing âIâm quite sure Mother would love to know about you insulting her son~â
âNow hold on, you cannot do that! You started this!â
âYes and it matters not who began it, but who ended itâ
âYouâre evil!â
âYes, thank you!â Alastor replied happily, turning back to what he was doing beforehand.
âHey, we werenât done talking!â
âWerenât we?â
âNO?â
âThatâs unfortunate, I just so happen to be very busyâ
âYouâre literally just standing thereâ
âExactly! Iâm being productive by not wailing like a child!â
âIâm not-! Ok so maybe I was doing that, but I wouldnât have to if you just let me be around [Name]!â
âNot in a million yearsâ
âWell, actually-â
âDonât.â
And then you just so happened to return, in time to see the rest of their little argument! So fun.
At this point, Charlie had given up and left to talk with Angel and Husk at the hotel bar.
âWhat are you two arguing about this time?â You asked the two demons, who looked quite shocked to see you back so soon.
âAh, Mother! Is the meeting over?â
âIt is! It was quite boring, I must say. I have no idea how you do it, darlingâ
"Yes, can you believe I have to suffer through that each time?"
"It seems like such a hassle, you poor soul" Lucifer chimed in, naturally, rolling his eyes as he said this.
"Thank you for the compassion."
"Stop that, you two! I don't feel like getting caught in the crossfire of yet another one of your fights" you sighed, moving Alastor away from Lucifer. Sometimes you wondered how Alastor hasn't been murdered by him yet. Clearly some sort of miracle!
"Oh, but Mother! I cannot possibly allow this⌠scoundrel to take up much of your time!"
"Scoundrel?!" Lucifer screeched, it would be safe to assume he preferred 'Little bird' over 'scoundrel'⌠but it's not like Alastor cared much! He'd just go ahead and switch between the two.
"Yes, 'scoundrel'! When was the last time you were honest about something?"
"Earlier today before [Name] returned!"
"Are you referring to that insult?"
"Perhaps I am"
"You see, Mother? A true rat, right here! He admitted to insulting me!"
"You started it first though!"
You sighed again, joining Charlie, Angel and Husk at the bar. By this point, it's just the area everyone goes to when Lucifer and Alastor are arguing in the hotel.
"Don't ya deal with that on most days?" Angel asked, turning to you as you sat down on one of the stools.
"Surely it gets exhausting?" he added, surpringly pushing away a shot of some kind of alcohol that he was offered.
"Yes, however⌠I suppose I have Charlie to help. Although, she tends to be a bit unsuccessfulâŚ"
"I'm trying! They're like⌠like⌠ah! I don't know but they're something!"
You turned back to look at the two, the sight before you⌠less than pleasant: Alastor and Lucifer were fighting⌠kind of. They were essentially trying to push the other out the hotel⌠it wasn't necessarily too violent, rather childish instead.
"Absolute morons⌠hey, no! I'll be taking that back!" Angel shouted as Husk took the shot away from him.
"Absolutely not"
"Oh come on!"
"You shouldn't be drinking in the first place!" Charlie, of course, interrupted them, pointing a finger at Angel as he was now trying to reach over the counter.
"Then why offer it to me?!"
"To test your morale, of course" Husk poured out the contents of the shot glass and placed it somewhere off to the side.
"No! What a waste!" Angel Dust whined, now leaning on the counter in defeat, looking at the empty shot glass.
"UNLOCK THIS DOOR RIGHT THIS INSTANT!" Alastor could be heard, faintly shouting from outside the hotel. Somehow, Lucifer had managed to lock Al out. You wondered what would come of this predicament between them, though you were sure it would be nothing good.
You walked over to Lucifer "Luci-"
"Dear! Let's ignore this whole thing, yeah?" He grinned, putting his arm around your shoulder and side-hugging you, beginning to walk in the opposite direction from the front door.
"Okay wait, wait, wait!" You didn't allow him to simply walk away from the situation at hand. Him simply looking at you with the most innocent expression ever!
"I am not going to ignore that you locked my child out of the hotel!" your tone amused, as you exclaimed, turning back to face the door. Certainly, you weren't mad, it was quite a⌠silly situation, to say the least.
"It's fine! I'm sure he's capable enough demon to get back in"
"Yes, you would be correct about that" Alastor grinned, appearing right in between the two of you, lightly swatting Lucifer away from himself before dusting off himself (supposedly from Lucifer).
Lucifer, absolutely flabbergasted, looked at the entrance, the door being wide open and Charlie awkwardly waving, with a sheepish smile on her face.
"Charlie!"
"Yeees?"
"You let him in?!" Lucifer cried out, putting his hand on his chest. "My own child betrayed me!"
"I didn't betray you! ⌠Kind of"
"Yeah! Kind of!"
"Sorry! Aha..haâŚ" she chuckled, awkwardly side-stepping back to her room.
You waved to her as she entered the hallway and disappeared from sight. Having almost forgotten about Angel and Husk, you could see Angel recovering from a laughing fit, whilst Husk sat there amused, cleaning the shot glass from earlier.
"Well then, little bird, I would say it's time for you to leave!"
"I beg to differ! I haven't been here that long yet!"
"Certainly long enough for me" Alastor shrugged, pushing Lucifer towards the exit.
"Uhh, no, I'm not leaving that easily this time!"
"Ah, so irritating" Alastor sighed, taking your hand and leading you away from him again.
"I believe I'll be sticking around until I'm too busy with my duties to do so! Out of spite, of course~"
Okay⌠why don't you two calm down? Oh! I know! Why don't we spend some time together painting each others nails!"
"What?"
"Mother, I refuse-"
"It wasn't a request!"
@montis-posts @sleepdeprived-barelyalive here you go!
#I'm accidentally projecting onto Lucifer and making him over-dramatic help#I don't regret it though#hazbin hotel#reader insert#fem reader#alastor#alastor the radio demon#hazbin alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor x reader#hazbin lucifer#lucifer x reader#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel lucifer#hazbin charlie#charlie morningstar#hazbin hotel charlie#hazbin angel dust#angel dust#husker hazbin hotel#hazbin husk#hazbin hotel angel dust
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Odile patting Molly Epithet Erased on the head, you know why
have two bc i care them
#in stars and time#isat#epithet erased#molly blyndeff#isat odile#I've been trying to draw this for like... 5 days straight....#Thank you for making me obligated to draw this. honestly might not've if it wasnt an ask#anyways ya'll so hear me out. odile mother/grandma figure to molly#Honestly after thinking about it a little more Odile is actually quite different to Calliope based on descriptions alone? but#I think having a Dependable Trustworthy Adult in her life is. She needs it#We don't know a lot about Calliope and idk what parallels odile has with her; but I hope she reminds Molly of her mom at least a little bit#And for Odile's pov? I think she'd really really like Molly#She's more mature than most for her age and she's extremely observant and intelligent. Those are things Odile respect#Cue a dead mom joke though and odile very quickly goes to ''ok there's something wrong with this child''#I don't think I have the idea fleshed out enough in my head to say anything for sure? But Odile and Molly having a Talk about her home life#would be Extremely interesting#Oops! Rambled in tags again! Teehee!#also do you think odile will ask molly for her full name only for molly to hit her with the#''molly wolly doodle all the day blyndeff'' and odile instantly regrets it#validation for bonnie#edit: rearranged tags just in case#day 19#crossover
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In order to fully understand why it was so hard for Mike to express how deeply he loves El, and why his speech at the end of season 4 was one of the biggest, most important moments for his entire character, we need to look at not just who Mike is as a person, but also everything that has happened since he met her.
Every single time he opens up his heart to her, something horrible happens to her or she's taken away from him almost immediately afterwards.
1x08; he's an awkward little ball of feelings that are way too big for a boy so young. He makes a nervous attempt at confessing and asking her out on a date; when he can't find words that she'll understand, swoops in for a kiss instead. She lights up immediately and smiles. It's a brief moment of hope and pure happiness. Maybe they can have some semblance of a normal life and be normal kids after this is all over.
Minutes later, all hell breaks loose-- they're almost shot, El pushes herself too far until she can barely move, she's almost taken away by the Bad Men, the Demogorgon appears, and she uses the very last of her strength to sacrifice herself to save him and their friends.
He has to watch helplessly as she disappears.
He spends a year caught between believing she's dead and hoping she's still out there somewhere (but if she is alive then why won't she talk to him anymore...?). Kept silent under threat by the lab, he can't confide in anyone or even acknowledge her existence, not with anyone except those involved... but everyone else is keen on moving on and pretending it never happened. He can find some solidarity in Will, at least, who is in a similar kind of emotional turmoil... but it's not the same and it's not enough.
2x9; he is finally reunited with El, and she runs into his arms like she missed him too. She tells him that all those nights he called out to her, she heard him; she was there reciprocating his feelings the whole time.
In a burst of emotions that he's been forced to suppress for an entire year, he lashes out at the reason they've been kept apart (Hopper), screaming and sobbing. It's a massive catharsis for him, and for once an adult is understanding enough to hold him and not punish him for it.
Minutes later, she is going to go headfirst into a pit of monsters, the place where Mike had just firsthand witnessed dozens of people (if not more) get ripped to shreds only hours earlier, and she is going to attempt to close the Gate-- a feat that he knows may take every ounce of her power, just like last time. He cries. He can't lose her again. She promises he won't, and before she can seal that promise with a kiss, they're pulled apart again.
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
3x1; all seems to be okay now. He and El are happily together, and he feels comfortable enough to be playful, romantic, and intimate with her. It's the most emotionally open we've ever seen Mike thus far.
For reasons he can't understand (bc there's no way Hopper explained himself beyond "I'm in charge so do as I say or else"), Hopper is angry about it and threatens to never allow him to see her again: the one thing he fears most.
He panics big time and fucks it up in the process by lying to her. During a frantic attempt to apologize while also abiding by Hopper's rules, he runs into her at the mall. He panics again-- if anyone finds her here, and knows that he was here too, it's all over, and Hopper surely won't hear reason. El dumps him cold on the spot, spurred on by Max and her rebellious attitude (and without any context of course). He isn't given much opportunity to respond. He knows he's in the wrong for lying to her, so what could he even say...?
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
It's a hard blow, and he retreats back into himself, unable to get any joy out of playing D&D (which he clearly hasn't lost interest in), back to the deadpan sarcasm and accidentally snapping a little too harshly at anyone whom he feels would take El's place.
3x6; no one seems to understand the danger El is putting herself in. Everyone is berating him for worrying about her safety. He's seen firsthand what these monsters do to people, he's seen firsthand how El pushes her abilities too far. No one is listening.
The words "I love her and I can't lose her again" burst out in his desperation, perhaps before he's even had a chance to realize how deep those feelings run, despite whatever protective walls he's tried to build around his heart to keep it from getting broken again.
Soon after, all hell breaks loose. El is nearly killed several times over, her leg is ripped open, she pushes herself so hard that she breaks herself and loses her powers completely. Her father is taken from her. She's shattered by all of this, and there's absolutely nothing he could do or say to make it better.
She tells him that when he admitted he loves her, she heard him, and indeed she loves him, too... But now she's leaving.
He has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
4x1; they've been apart for a few months, and write letters back and forth to each other. El's letters paint a picture of an ideal new life: she and the Byers family are doing well; she's starting school and it's going well; she's made new friends, she likes her new home, everything is going well. She seems to be thriving. She sounds happy, maybe even happier than she had been living in Hawkins. Maybe Max was right, maybe she's better off being her own person without him, and maybe the respectful thing to do is step back... It's a small insecurity that creeps up subconsciously. In his replies he holds back, afraid of clinging too hard.
Though there's little logic in it, he's afraid that if he tells her he loves her again, another disaster might strike and this lovely happy life she's finally found might get taken from her. After all, that's what always seems to happen when he does.
4x2; after months of waiting, they can finally see each other again. He wears her favorite colors, picks a handful of flowers for her, and falls happily back into step with how they used to be. Soon that same day, however, reality becomes clear and the facade crumbles. People he was told were her friends show up to torment and publicly humiliate her. She had been lying. She isn't happy here, she hasn't healed, she is right at the edge of a breaking point that he doesn't see coming at all. He can't believe she would lie to him, she's not the kind of person to lie... especially not about something like bullying, something that she was always so understanding about with him.
On that logicless subconscious level, he wonders if it's all his fault-- he should have known somehow, he should have been there for her. She protected him from his bullies, he should have protected her from hers. He tries to come to her rescue. She runs away from him.
He's helpless to save her, again.
4x3; after a night to process everything that happened-- and deciding that the betrayal he feels from her lying to him is nothing compared to the turmoil she must be going through right now-- Mike approaches her in the gentlest way possible, wanting to listen and trying to understand. El, however, isn't receptive at all to his attempts at reassurance. She is at an all-time low, she's given up. She believes she is unlovable, irredeemable, a monster, just a thing that doesn't even have those superhuman abilities to compensate anymore. Mike can't believe what he's hearing-- doesn't she know that she's always been so much more than her powers? She's always been so much more than what she lacks in quote-unquote "normalcy"... None of those things matter, they have absolutely no bearing on whether she's worthy of being loved, because he loves her, completely regardless of any of these things. He always has...
El starts flinging his restrained words back at him, the products of his insecurity and trauma-induced fear. That fear takes hold yet again, and he stumbles, afraid of saying too much or not enough, because surely both could result in pushing her away-- she's retreating, hearing none of it; nothing he tries to say consoles her.
Moments later, local police come knocking. She's taken away in cuffs, and she's so broken inside that she won't even look at him when he chases the police car down the street and promises he'll get her out somehow...
Once again, he has to watch helplessly as she drives away.
4x8/4x9; after days of driving through the heat and dryness of southwest desert, having narrowly escaped being shot at with military-grade assault rifles, witnessing the death of and burying a man whose last words were that El is in danger... After watching dozens of people get mowed down by a sniper in a helicopter, and watching that same helicopter be smashed into the ground in a ball of flames...
There she is. Just as powerful and beautiful and alive as she's ever been. When he runs to her and embraces her, she looks at him like she can't believe he's real. She's beaming a smile right from her soul and it's like all the insecurity and self-doubt that have plagued them both just vanish from existence now that they're in each other's arms again.
Like always, however, the universe comes crashing down soon after. Max is marked for a gruesome death and all of Hawkins is in danger. They're miles away and helpless, and the only possible way for El to save everyone is if she goes in alone. She's stronger than ever, but so is her foe. Once again, she descends to face all the demons of hell on her own, and Mike can't do anything.
She's losing. She's choking. She's dying. He's helpless.
He must be cursed. He must be. Being with her, loving her, allowing himself to admit he loves her, it always brings only pain and suffering and loss. His heart is so full that it's aching, it's bursting out of his chest, and he can't contain it any longer.
She's going to die and it's going to be all his fault, because he fell in love, and it's cursed her.
Just before it all crumbles into utter despair, the earnest support from his oldest and dearest friend-- one who's always shared and understood his feelings of helplessness-- sparks a light of hope in him: "You're the Heart." You're not helpless. You can save her.
The words that come spilling out of Mike's mouth are truer than any he's ever dared to speak before, and it's the most terrified he's ever been, but he has enough courage for this moment. Despite all of the fears that have been building, stifling, choking him to death for years-- fears that the light of his life will inevitably disappear again, and there's nothing he can do to stop it-- despite it all, he pours out his heart to her.
He loves her. He's always loved her. He loves everything she ever was, is, and could be. He can't imagine a world without her in it. She saved him, in every way a person can be saved. And he needs her to live. He believes in her.
And it works. It's music to her ears.
#stranger things#mileven#mike x el#mike wheeler#mine#mileven fuels my soul#'you can only have 30 photos at a time in one post' alright fuck you tumblr#had to collage the first set to fit everything in lol#but ohhh godddd i am so emotional about this dude#he doesnt struggle to say it because he has doubts. its not about whether or not he has feelings for her.#it is 100000% his own personal struggle with himself and his traumas#grabbing screenshots for that last scene though. GOD i was in tears AGAIN#SOMEBODY give Finn every goddamn award under the sun for that performance#the way his VOICE BREAKS!! he sounds so SCARED and VULNERABLE but also so COMPLETELY EARNEST#'i don't know how to live without you' in particular#i will never get over this ever in my whole life tbh#it was so beautiful#also i need there to be more discussion about the parallels between mike's and hopper's internal struggles#because it is almost exactly the same.#the black hole analogy... 'they didnt need me. i needed them. i'm not cursed I am the curse'#like... biggest of ouches#okie dokie ive spat my bars and dropped the mic now its time for B E D#edit days later: i very much regret not brightening the images. goddamn its dark af here
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"Hancock has no regrets about becoming a ghoul"??
It baffles me when some people think Hancock has zero regrets about becoming a ghoul. Absolutely none at all apparently. Like yeah, he plays it up when you first meet him before he's a companion, but let's be real he plays up pretty much everything in regards to the whole "sexy king of the zombies" image he projects.
It takes travelling with you away from Goodneighbor to give him some time to be introspective for him to finally realize that him becoming a ghoul was just another escape route from himself again. He's got several lines of dialogue that literally reiterate this. It's a key point of his character:
Hell, running from myself is what made me into⌠into a damn Ghoul.
Well, I mean, I didn't always look this good. The drug that did this to me, that made me a Ghoul, I knew what it was going to do.
I just couldn't stand looking at the bastard I saw in the mirror anymore.
The coward who'd let all those Ghouls from Diamond City die. Who was too scared to protect his fellow drifters from Vic and his boys.
If I took it, I'd never have to look at him again. I could put that all behind me. I'd be free. Didn't seem like a choice at all. Turns out it was just me running from somethin' else in my life.
I mean, after reaching max affinity with you, he realizes that maybe it wasn't such a bad thing after all (because he's finally got an honest friend he can be open with now). He now feels comfortable where he is - but to imply that he doesn't have at least the tiniest amount of regret? Heck, if you go onto romance him (or attempt to), he stops referring to himself as handsome and literally starts calling himself ugly, which naturally goes entirely against the image he projects:
Why don't we just agree to keep it friendly for now or till they find a cure for ugly? Heh.
You don't want to wake up to this mug every morning. Never wish that on anyone I cared for.
You sure you want to be stuck with this ugly mug?
(You could even say he implies it beforehand with another line of dialogue elsewhere in-game when he says "I'd be mad too if I was that ugly." But that's a stretch I guess.)
Combine that with the fact that 99% of ghouls donât choose to become ghouls. Hancock did. But he didn't do it for a fun experience. He was already in a bad place when he became a ghoul. He didn't turn to be cool and edgy like he pretended he did when first getting to know him.
He lost his appearance, any connections to his old identity and old friends/people he mightâve been associated with (for better or worse), and in return gained hostility from bigots towards him for merely existing, from an overwhelming majority of the Commonwealth population that hates ghouls. There's the Institute and Brotherhood who want to kill anyone like him on top of that. Plenty of people out there who think he and other ghouls are monsters for just being alive.
Not only that, but something which adds onto this is the fact that he's a client of the Memory Den, and they're very selective with their customers. And what's the whole point of the Memory Den? Reliving past memories. Irma's terminal entry about Hancock, as well as the other two ghoul clients Kent and Daisy, all imply the memories they go back to relive are primarily from their human days. (The one on Hancock straight up says "if you thought he was handsome and dangerous now, you should've seen him before he turned ghoul.")
I genuinely refuse to believe that Hancock has never had any regret whatsoever about becoming a ghoul. The man who's spent a decent chunk of his life running from his own problems instead of confronting them, has NO regrets about taking a drug that alters his entire being and functionality on a biological level and will force him to outlive everyone he knows? This man is FULL of regrets!
#I tried writing this out months ago initially. I don't believe it was ever posted#every main aspect of his character is about how he regrets his actions#that doesn't mean he'll hate himself forever though#fallout#fallout 4#hancock#john hancock#I wrote the word regret too many times and it doesn't look real anymore
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The funniest thing about All For The Game was figuring out who the love interest was because I swear to everything holy to me that I did mental gymnastics on the olympics level.
Because at first I thought it was Kevin. My first argument was "Oh yeah, people dig the tall, dark and traumatized Male Lead shit nowadays". And Kevin and Neil knew each other as kids? AND got traumatized TOGETHER? I was convinced it was going to be some dramatic ass reveal and some bonding afterwards or something because this was love interest material right here ( which I now know to be because Neil, Andrew and Kevin were intially supposed to end up in a poly relationship ).
Then Neil revealed that he did not swing and I was like "Cool, my dude is on the aromantic or asexual spectrum or even both, I respect that because who even needs a relationship anyway, he'll just stay hot, rich and single".
On the other hand I suspected Andrew and Kevin to have a thing for each other because they had the certain energy around them which even Neil noticed.
But??? I'm an overthinker. I overthink a lot and I analyze shit and I'm good at it and there was NO WAY there was nothing going between Andrew and Neil because I noticed the fucking build up from the get go. Their scenes together increased? Truth for a truth? Their moments on the roof? Neil asking and Andrew doing everything he asks? Neil putting Andrews hands under his shirt and Andrew letting Neil touch him? Neil going to the Ravens for Andrew? My alarms were blaring and my brain was working overtime and I figured out pretty soon that the both of them were endgame. At this point it wasn't even a question of 'if' but 'when'.
Yeah, suffice to say that Andrew, the man, the myth, the legend, still managed to come in like a wrecking ball and utterly annihilate all of my expectations with the iconic "That doesn't mean I wouldn't blow you" line. I remember I was on the phone with my sister and I fucking screeched because I expected it to happen just not at that moment.
... It was definitely an experience.
#aftg#neil josten#andrew minyard#kevin day#andreil#aftg neil#aftg andrew#aftg kevin#aftg andreil#all for the game#the foxhole court#aftg trilogy#aftg shitpost#This was an emotional rollercoaster#That I was thrown into because my sister promised me that the fandom had great fanfiction#I don't regret anything though
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panda panda circus circus
#Panda Circus#Daniel Mullins Games#Pony Island#<- Does that tag apply??? No idea.#Found a slightly quicker way to do this. Emphasis on slightly though it... doesn't work 100% of the way </3#The process was blocking out the sections with the lasso tool and then using the dithering brushes I have instead of just.#Doing it pixel-by-pixel. Then I added random black and white pixels everywhere for weirdness because it looked too uniform otherwise.#Anyway pro tip don't do this when you have a migraine. You will regret it. Quickly.#Hrokkall Art
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Drew Stanarrator at 11:19pm. I have school tomorrow
#I don't regret staying up for this even though I know for a fact that I'm gonna feel like shit when I wake up tomorrow at 6:50 :)#stanarrator#stannarrator#stanley x narrator#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp#tspud#narrator tsp#stanley tsp#mine đ#tsp achromatic loop au
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"Mano po."
Pagmamano (Tagalog) - "honouring-gesture;" a sign of respect towards elders
A continuation of sorts, of this other drawing I made of the Feänorians, which was roughly inspired by Filipino culture. I originally planned on completing this for @nolofinweanweek, specifically the first prompt about how Fingolfin and Feänor's families got along, but life got in the way and I didn't finish it in time. More background/my long rambles under the cut:
Pagmamano - touching the back of an elder's hand on one's forehead - is not restricted to family, but it's usually done in the context of elder family members. I have many memories of attending family reunions and being told to follow the other kids to "mano po" a grandfather, aunt, or uncle. While Elves don't have elderly relatives, per se, I thought this image was too fun not to draw. Also, I love envisioning Feänor as that cool uncle who gives the most amazing gifts but like, the kids are intimidated by him, so they have to be told (and supervised) by their parents to line up and greet him properly. Fingolfin's just standing there making sure his kids all greet their uncle. (Maedhros, presumably having already finished his greetings, is sidetracking Fingon.)
All this to say, I think that these guys didn't have the perfect relationship. But. You can't convince me FinwÍ didn't get the whole family together from time to time on some sort of family reunion camping trip. And Feänor just has to begrudgingly tolerate it because he can't say no to his dad. While the kids, obviously, have a great time.
#are any of the characters' ages canon accurate?? probably not. i did 0 amount of research#in my mind maedhros is quite a bit older than the other kids though i don't know if there's a canon basis for that#but it's more Fun This Way!! so#drawing this type of silm fanart is my guilty pleasure#it took me 6 hours to color this thing#and i don't regret it at all#i love spending too much time overanalyzing the feanor fingolfin finarfin relationship and developing headcanons that will#eventually make me sad Because Canon Happened#sorry if i don't tag all the characters because it can't fit under the tag limit lol#the kids in front:#argon#aredhel#fingon#maedhros#turgon#on the left there is:#finarfin#(with sons)#(feanor's kids in the boat. you can probably tell which one is with the giant dog and which one is lugging around a guitar)#grandpa finwe with galadriel#on the right: anaire and nerdanel making fun of everyone else#uhhh the ambarussa are somewhere there (i forgot to draw them shh)#and finally of course you have the Dads#feanor#fingolfin#about to start the spicy drama in the fam reunion#clarisse doodles#tolkien#the silmarillion#elves
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