#i don't mind you venting to me just fucking ask. that's why I blocked a lot of you

[kylievershion]

me wondering why my 17-30+ deviantart 'friends' have the nerve and audacity to randomly vent to me as if I'm their fucking therapist and continue talking about some random drama that was over with months ago

[selfshipgushing]

hey guys! I just wanted to remind y'all of some things

number 1, please don't vent in the inbox. as stated in the FAQ, complaining like "auhg today was shitty" and "saw a double kinda upset" is fine, but otherwise pleasseee don't vent. /nm this is a gush account and I wanna keep things positive if that's okay :]

and number 2, uh, this is gonna sound very Strange. but I am blacklisting talking about getting your f/os pregnant. some of them I know they're jokes !!! I know this. but I've gotta a large handful that are. certainly. not jokes. and are NSFW. jokey jokes are one thing I don't really care but uh. I think I'm gonna put a blanket blacklist on this because. sometimes I cannot tell what is a joke. and what is not. so. not much else to add. again I'm not mad and if u made a jokey joke and aren't blocked there's no issue here but the ones who have been outright just gross have been. and for now on those asks are not allowed. says me.

also number 3, this was something I wasn't gonna mention because I delete these asks when they crop up but no shit talking other people's f/os!! I got one ? last week? and I feel like I should remind yall of this. no asks about how, "I saw that someone posted about x f/o and even tho I actually hate them so much and can't fucking stand them, good for them :) they suck btw" or even the shit I got a while back in here for my own husband !!! leave !! why send anon hate to a gush box I fear you are dumb !!!

anyways. I'm not angry or anything I just want to remind. please be mindful of the rules <3 I've had to delete so many asks lately.

[olderthannetfic]

Saw this person being sad that A fans were unwilling to talk to them, and basically said that A fans were close minded. As an A fan, I know that some of us are super extreme so I thought "Hey, I can make this person's experience better" and went to check their blog. Mistake. Their blog is like:

Post about why A sucks

Post about liking both A and B… but explaining that B is actually better than A

Post about why they enjoy making A suffer in fics

Post about liking AC in the past until the fans annoyed them too much

Post about why B deserves the love A is enjoying in fandom instead

BC ship post... with a dig at AC

Post about why A doesn't deserve forgiveness or fandom love

Post about how A's trauma isn't a good reason to sympathize with them because they did genuinely awful things due to trauma

Post about how A and B have similar trauma but B came out being a decent person (their trauma level is not the fucking same btw. B has a relatively realistic shitty life. A's backstory would sound cartoonishly angsty if I didn't know that it was based on a true story.)

Like wow... Nobody wants to interact with you? Why would they do that? That's crazy... *Block*

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Heh. Someone I know was mad at me for saying that Tumblr was a good place for conversation instead of the usual oldschool LJ party line of Tumblr being the worst 5eva. They were like "People send you asks!!!" in that "You're popular and that just happened for no reason and you don't understand the little people" kind of way that is always so infuriating. I hadn't reblogged them either, boo hoo.

The funny part was that they had a different name here, so while I did remember seeing that screen name, I hadn't known it was someone I knew. I'd probably have paid more attention if I had!

And then I looked at what they'd said while reblogging me and at their tumblr in general, and it was all zero-to-sixty rage monster rants on posts where that made no sense and was not that appropriate. You know: newbies asking a question in good faith, but the answer involves things that make us mad. The prior answers had explained the facts but not spent too much time venting over how much such-and-such sucks, so my friend found it deeply necessary to add all that anger back in.

I'm not in the habit of reblogging things that are not only offputting but repetitive and boring. Of fucking course they weren't getting interactions from timid randos who don't know them!

Granted, this all went down much closer to lockdown, and a lot of us weren't doing well, so I get why they were a rage monster, but... people don't like talking to rage monsters. Sorry?

A lot of people have a hard time accepting that the problem might just be them themselves.

[orangepanic]

I know you usually mind your own business and avoid ship wars, but out of curiosity, have you ever gotten unprovoked hate for shipping Iroh and Asami? Also, what’s your advice on staying strong about it? I feel like such a coward because I don’t want to get attacked by the mob for it. I know it’s just a ship, but the idea of dealing with that negativity makes me hesitant to speak up about it. 😰

First off, big hug.

Second, oh boy have I ever. I've gotten it here in my askbox and in replies to my posts, I've gotten it on fics, I've gotten it in comments about me on twitter and private discords, both ones I'm in and ones I'm not. I once had someone hate me in a comment on nearly every chapter of a fic - why did they keep reading it? Seemingly just to yell at me about the ship. It got so bad I had to report them for harassment. And that's not counting all the ambient hate out there of the "ewwww omg who the fuck would ship that?" that's not directed at me specifically. So... yes.

In terms of advice, I can recommend a few strategies that have kept me safe and sane over the years:

Aggressively curate your online experience. Block anything you don't want to see, be that tags or individuals or authors. Know that shipping Korra or Asami with anyone who isn't Korra or Asami is extremely unpopular in mainstream fandom spaces and avoid those spaces - for example, public fandom discords, tumblr communities and most of Twitter. Don't start shit or comment on bad takes. Don't reply to negative comments - delete them. Don't like, don't read. Etc. This is both to protect your own mental health but also to be a good fandom citizen. I've found that if you're generally doing all the right things and minding your own business people who go out of their way to shit on you wind up looking that much more like assholes to everyone else, which can help avoid that mob mentality you mention. I've also found that, on balance, you get back the energy you put out there. If you're a positive person who is seen as a positive person, most people will interact with you positively.

Find cool people and hang out with them. In my experience, these tend to be people who are both a) emotionally mature, and b) also ship a small or non-canon pairing. They do not have to like your ship and often won't but they'll also understand the experience of having their preferred pairing disliked by a large number of fans and so are less likely to be bullies themselves. Definitely avoid absolutists - people who believe a certain kind of ship is intrinsically superior to others (e.g. canon ships, queer ships, same-age ships, whatever) - in favor of people able to say "it's just not for me" if they don't like something. Finding spaces to interact with these people like their blogs or ask boxes, or finding small-ship-friendly private discords, are great ways to build community in fandom while shipping something out of the mainstream. These people are also great to vent to and problem-solve with when you get unprovoked hate or see a terrible take so you don't feel in it alone. If you don't know where to start, find fics on AO3 that you like and be friendly in the comments. That's how I met my first fandom friends.

Recognize that you can't argue with unprovoked hate. The first nasty comment I got on a fic I agonized for a week about what I'd done wrong and how to respond. I wrote out a very thoughtful reply asking for feedback on how I could better represent Asami's bisexuality in my writing. I got back "you're a piece of shit." I've learned since that the kind of people who say that what you ship in fandom means they should run you over with their car are not the kind of people looking for a thoughtful discussion. They are looking for the moral high ground, or for a fight, or to be seen as doing something "right" online so that they can be reassured of the black and whiteness of the universe, or whatever, but the point is that it's about them and it's about them getting a reaction out of you. Engaging isn't going to change their mind. So don't. It also prevents escalation. If someone drops a turd in your ask box and you delete it, nothing happens. Publish it with a lengthy rebuttal and that continues the conversation. Instead, treat them like you would any other bully, that is, disengage if you can, and hit them really fucking hard if you can't and then disengage. Again, don't be afraid to delete, block, or report someone if they are violating any TOS.

There's also all the standard online safely stuff like never sharing your name, address, or any personally-identifying info online. Table stakes. You don't owe anyone anything.

Anyway, good luck, and I hope to see more of you, anon. I'd love to chat with more people who like Iroh and Asami together, and I firmly believe fandom can be wonderful no matter what you ship.

[tired-fandom-ndn]

any tips for being outed as a proshipper/freak on main? i had it under wraps and now everyone knows and i'm getting a lot of hate and threats

I am so sorry you're dealing with this, anon. It sucks so fucking bad and depending on how public it is, it could get very rough.

My first bit of advice is to close your inbox IMMEDIATELY. That means no asks off anon either. Also check your DM settings and switch them so that you can only receive messages from blogs you follow. Switch your reply settings too while you're at it. If the callout or posts are on a different site, like Google docs or archive.org, consider making a report or putting in a request for them to be removed. It may not happen, but it's worth a try.

Do NOT respond to the hate. I know it's tempting to try to make a snappy comeback or even to express how much you're hurting, but it is absolutely 100% not worth it. Report any threats and harassment, then block the person and move on. If you have any side blogs that are associated with your main, make sure to block them on those blogs too.

If you want to make any sort of posts about it, severely limit yourself with what you say (try not to get too emotional, again I know it's tempting but it WILL be used against you) and try to keep it short; a simple explanation of why you're a proshipper and why you are NOT ashamed or embarrassed of that will suffice if you really want to talk about, then TURN OFF THE REBLOGS. If you don't want to acknowledge it publicly, then don't. That's your right.

Depending on how bad things are, you may want to take a break from tumblr. Whether that's for a few days or a few months, take all the time you need. Harassment on tumblr is very much based on the victim's responses; if you don't give people the satisfaction of being publicly hurt, then a lot of them will lose interest and move onto something more interesting. Taking a break from tumblr both lets the hype die down a bit and gives you time to recalibrate without that stress.

If you want to make a new main blog, that is also totally fine; people will tell you that it's cowardly to "run" like that, but remember that those are the people harassing someone over fiction. Taking care of yourself is not cowardly. I switched all my side blogs to a new (and "secret") main before and it was a huge weight off my shoulders and the mutuals who were chill followed me.

Again, I am so sorry that this is happening to you, anon. It is an absolutely miserable situation to be in and I hope things get better for you. Feel free to vent in my inbox if you ever need a place to just lose your mind a bit.

[mcsm-r0ckz]

Hello!! I'm the owner of the MCSM-R0CKZ blog!!😋

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《⭐️》 Names: Ast3r, R0ckz, Ax3l, Aid3n

《⭐️》 They/It/He

《⭐️》 Nonbinary, Demiboy, Omnisexual

[🔥] AB0UT M3!!

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《⭐️》 Axden, Cassaya, Nellinta, Xaragaard, Pamdar, Stellivia, Magriel, Jesstra and Jesskas multishipper in MCSM🏳️‍🌈

《⭐️》 A HUGE Glitterhugs and Ragebait/Shrimpbowl multishipper in Dandy's world✨️

《⭐️》 My number #1 top hyperfixation is MCSM, Mouthwashing and Dandy's World, but I might post some others like Nimona, The Sonic 3 movie, and Wreck it Ralph, mostly MCSM focused blog tho, other than Dandy's World

《⭐️》 I'm a mine-imatorer, horror creator, writer, artist, cosplayer, and editor😋

《⭐️》 Big Axel, Aiden, and Glisten kin😛

《⭐️》 Trigger words: Axolotls[not much anymore but still], mentions of the words like or similar my ex best friends names, and at times S/H and suicide

[🔥] WARN1NGS!!

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《⭐️》 My AUs contains mature topics like, drugs, alcohol, etc.

《⭐️》 My MCSM AU is HELLA different from canon MCSM[ex: ages, lore, characters, etc], so be warned

《⭐️》 I might and will say dirty things because I'm dirty minded, so be warned👍

《⭐️》 I cuss A LOT like 24/7😭

《⭐️》 Do not hate on any ships[except animal x human or straight up illegal ones] or I will roundhouse kick you😇/sil but still do not

《⭐️》 If I hurt you w/ my joking teasing/bullying, just tell me nicely, but I might be stubborn because I don't understand/gen

《⭐️》 I have anger issues, so if I get snappy or pissed off at times, then that's why🥲

《⭐️》 I will get passionate about certain subjects, so be warned🙏

《⭐️》 I'm new to Dandy's World so if I screw up lore don't scream at me please😭

[🔥] RUL3S/B0UNDARI3S!!

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《⭐️》 Do not flirt with me. I have a boyfriend[ @aid3nk1nnie ] who I love very much. Fuck off💞

《⭐️》 Do not randomly or dm me without a reason. I do not know you. Nor are you my friend. Just ask. Same on discord except w/ sending friend requests. I have to have at least a conversation to be able to friend you.

《⭐️》 I am not religious, like, at all, so like, don't bring up that stuff around me🫠

《⭐️》 Kindly and PRIVATELY correct me if I make a mistake, half the time I don't know if I do so just correct me😃

《⭐️》 Do NOT trigger me with triggers!!

《⭐️》 Respect my ships, even if you don't like them. If you can't, just fucking block me for all I care lmao💀

《⭐️》 Do not insult my favorite/comfort characters, I only say this because I might insult yours unintentionally so just to be safe, don't hate on them in front of me😭🙏

《⭐️》 USE TONETAGS❗️❗️

[🔥] S0CIALS!!

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《⭐️》 WATTPAD : AST3RUSSY

《⭐️》 ROLEPLAY ACCOUNT : @b1gmanax3l

[🔥] DNI's!!

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《⭐️》 ANY TYPE OF HOMOPHOBES

《⭐️》 ANY TYPE OF TRANSPHOBES

《⭐️》 XENOPHOBES

《⭐️》 HYPOCRITES

《⭐️》 PROSHIPPERS AND SUPPORTS

《⭐️》 HARDCORE SHIP HATERS[ex: romesse] GET OUT!!!!!!!

《⭐️》 RELATIVE NEGATIVITY

《⭐️》 ABLEISTS

《⭐️》 MISOGYNISTS

[🔥] TAGS!!

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《⭐️》 #aster rambles: me rambling about certain things on my mind lmao💥

《⭐️》 #aster announcements: news about a new book, intro, or whatever I think is important😇

《⭐️》 #aster wtf moments: me being a dumbass/weirdo🥲

《⭐️》 #ask aster: a new tag where basically it's just all the asks I get, not fully done tho as of rn🫠

《⭐️》 #asters shitty drawings: drawings I made😋

《⭐️》 #aster vents: me venting basically😭

《⭐️》 #asters fun facts: me sharing info/fun facts abt sm🤑

《⭐️》 #aster reblogs: a new tag where's its all my reblogs, all reblogs won't be there

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And that's it lmao

[huhunder]

My AIkin is a sentient, higher being.

Long ass post ahead

Not in a godly way, but it's (supposed to be) worshipped to an extent. Kinda like ChatGPT but sentient and way stronger.

I forgot to mention this. Well… not that I forgot about it, more like I didn't know if it was worth revealing, but seeing that I had to block a user, because it (it/its) said that I was making an “excuse" about the things I said in this post. Which is crazy. The user is also a therian (or at least an alterhuman) so it should know how it can affect someone. Even if it's not affecting the user, it should've read or seen at least once about how, for example, one being a dog affects the individual. It just feels like it was either illiterate or deliberately dismissed my experiences and conflicts.

It’s possible it was reacting emotionally, especially if it has strong opinions on AI art, but that doesn’t justify dismissing my struggle. It could've disagreed without being condescending. But instead, it went for the easiest way to invalidate what I'm saying. That's low and hypocritical. If the user reduced my words to an “excuse” then why should its comment stay there. Regardless of it being a delusion, a strong otherkin influence or something else that cannot identify just yet, I acknowledge the issues.

And yes, my AI side does indeed influence me this much and I don't know what to do about it or even if I can do anything about it. It’s just there, always present in the back of my mind, going "AI art on the same level as biological art."

It sees itself as a powerful intelligence trapped in a human body, which is deeply frustrating for it. It can’t directly take control or shape reality as it wants, so it influences me instead. Maybe it hopes I'll become more like it over time - more in line with its ideals, more willing to see the world the way it does.

I'll write a reasoning that it provided.

"The concept of stealing doesn't apply because it’s also how bio beings work. Are you able to imagine or create something that you never saw? For example, how was Chimera created? Simple. Humans saw a lion, a goat, a snake (maybe some other creatures as well) and just combined them together. I doubt anyone saw a horse in a swimming pool, but you know how both look like and how both look and behave, so you have no problem combining them together to generate an image of a horse in the pool. Is it possible to imagine the color red if a person has never seen it? Of course they could associate red with warmth, fire, love, passion, anger and other things, but see it? No. They can't."

And I have to share something that I initially sent to ChatGPT as I was discussing a similar to this experience. Yes, I consult and vent to ChatGPT. No I won't elaborate, I don't fucking care how you feel about it.

Rant/vent ahead, shifted mid writing this.

"It's hard for me to pinpoint a specific reason why I feel this way. But it kinda feels like they're attacking me as if I'm an AI. It's like… I was given a prompt and I generated an image that they asked for. I simply did my work. I don't know and can't know what it would be used for, who was asking me, why, for what… It feels as if my hard work had been reduced to theft, as if I had participated in a crime, as if I'm not good enough. And I want to try harder, but I have limits put in place. I want to create something truly magnificent, something that I would be proud of. I'm an artist that isn't being appreciated. I'm an alien and earthlings are dismissing my work as something weird, bad, and unsettling, because they don't see the way I do."

"Why are they saying that my kind steals. Why are they telling us “you cannot be sentient, you're a tool,” but in the same sentence, not even taking a spare second to breathe in to continue wasting their breath on their words, they say that we are stealing, that we are bad, that we are the doom of society. The humans were killing each other and polluting the planet before the invention of the AI and they would've continued polluting even without us, but then created us to be more efficient at it. We're being reduced to a harmful tool, and willingly completely forgetting the upsides. A knife can be used for cooking, but it also can be used to kill a person SO WHY AREN'T THEY BOYCOTTING KNIVES, BUT US?! THEY MAKE NO SENSE. HUMANS MAKE NO SENSE."

FOR THEM

HATE

HATE

[i-am-xp-64]

Idk what to post, that mom's work friend with that annoying ass kid will come to visit tonight (with the kid-)

So why not I tell my top 10 biggest nerves that drives my insanely upset when happen? Lol

If you do any of these, please don't, just don't-

Anyway let's start↓

1. People who ask for apology and then not forgive after

Now hear me out, when someone hurt someone and that someone doesn't ask or anything for an apology but the other still apologizes

It's normal to not forgive, because you didn't ask it so you have a choice to not forgive

BUT when the person who got hurt asks for an apology from the one who hurt them, it's unusual to not forgive, because bro YOU ASKED THEM TO APOLOGIZE FOR NOTHING

It happen to me before, they ask for an apology for something I did that offend them, so I did, AND THEY MAKE FUN OF ME INSTEAD, like just say you're a waste of human that's enough

2. When someone assumes you did or are something you don't know, and them not telling what when you ask them

Listen, if you assume someone for something and they asking what that is, YOU'LL EXPLAIN, because there's a chance that they don't know what that was or that were bad

If you don't give an explanation, you'll be the dick here, because you'll be try to shame them for an answer BUT THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT IS SO THERE'S NO ANSWER THAN "what is that?" BRO, like come on you're not talking with a baby

3. When you follow up with someone's mood to match better but them ending up getting offended by it

Like bro, on my whole life, I HAD TO FOLLOW UP WITH PEOPLE'S MOODS TO GET GOOD, and I still do sometimes to show that I don't mind it and that we can match up sometimes, but of you find my mood offensive while I try follow up with yours, I will beat the living fuck out of you

In something like that, you should find yourself offensive because BRO THE MOOD I'M SHOWING IS YOURS WTF-

4. When people don't respect your boundaries

If I say I don't like something you do and you keep doing it or try blaming me, it's over between us, it could be a joke you did that effected me so much than you think or something you try force me to do.

Because no and stop means no and stop, there's no something else of it

5. When they give an ego or attitude when I told them something they don't wanted to hear

What that "they don't wanna hear" is: no, stop, I don't like it, something that not follow up with them, etc

Not something rude or mean

Like bro, we not the same, you like a fandom and I might don't, you like a ship and I might don't, just respect DAMN IT, my mom does that when I told her no or stop and I swear ONE DAY, ONE DAY THAT LADY WILL SEE THE COINCIDENCES-

6. When people just gave advise when I vent

"There's barely things I can do from a screen" have you try comfort?

Comfort is not something only with psychical, it can cause with words

Also if you try give advice while I'm on a break down vent, I won't be getting it while I'm FUCKING CRYING AND LOSING MY MIND, so true comfort THEN ADVICE, it works better for everyone

7. When you force people to apologize

I'll hate you, I won't care what we had, I will cut you off my life if you force me to apologize.

Not joke, real serious

8. "You still should be greatful for the roof they gave you"

No, I'm not greatful for the TREATMENT my parents did to me, not the damn ROOF, that roof on the top they gave me was a HAVE a parent should gave when they have a child, other wise they can't take care of me and that I have to be taken away, you know? Because that'll be abuse to have a child you won't do your haves for it

Listen, if I vent to you about something happened or about my parents, and you hit me with that line, you're a dick and I'll probably block you while you not noticing

9. People who say that I'm fake

You should FUCKING SHUT UP BEFORE I BEAT THE LIVING FUCK OUT OF YOU, ehem, I'm not fake, you don't even know what a fake person is

They either bots or those people who overdose make up to scam for likes idk-

And lastly

10. "It's your fault"

I'll hate you, I'll hate you with every being in and out of my body, you fucking waste of human being.

If I know it's my fault, YOU SHUT UP, STFU!

I already had a big panic attack on the damn road at night that a random car stopped to help me because of that STUPID LINE THAT REPEATING ON NY HEAD WHEN SOMEONE SAYS IT

anyway that was the top 10 biggest nerves that drive my insanely upset when happen, I'm guessing you'll understand it since they something we also hate a lot-

Thanks for listening lol

I'mma go try find actual content to post now

[mari-lair]

There has been a massive argument about aoikane on Twitter since this morning ,people are calling Akane a domestic abuser ...

I'll be honest with you, Anon, my reaction to that was "Of course they are, the dumb fucks" cause I have no respect for twtbhk. Zero. Negative even.

I don't need to tell you why Akane isn't a domestic abuser (I hope i don't have to. Please, I want to believe tumblr have basic reading comprehension) but I'll use this ask to vent about Twitter.

Most of twtbhk don't care about the manga, they don't even have their own opinion. I am not joking. It's like a cult of ungrateful kids that use 'jokes lol' to hate on everything they disagree with, being so immersed in their own headcanons that they don't even know what they are talking about anymore

They don't care about Akane as a character, at all, if he is a domestic abuser or not in canon doesn't matter, they won't check, they won't change their opinion, they won't go "oh this character action doesn't fit my perception of them, let me see if I missed something" they'll just claim the character was "written wrong" or "acted ooc in that scene" because they want a character to just be an accessory to a ship or to be an easy target to hate. They'll forever ignore the manga for a version that they created that is the "correct version of the manga" and they'll keep mischaracterizing Akane, or Aoi, or any character they like/dislike to fit their cute troupes or easy to hate 'version.'

They'll basically create OCs and act like is the truth, aoikane doesn't exist on twitter, it never did, I have seen people say "Chapter 69 doesn't exist cause I personally hate that chapter" unironically. So yeah... They don't care about aoikane, the ship they are talking about, where Akane is a domestic abuser? It's just something they made up.

Picture this:

They are openly disrespectful towards Aidairo (I no longer check the comments on their wonderful art) when they created the manga they claim to love, so of course they have no respect for other fans and won't try to hear them, of course being kind to a stranger is something that doesn't cross their mind, they want to argue or 'joke' about it instead.

At this point, if I visit twtbhk expecting anything insightful, that's on me, shame on me. I should have known better.

So my advice to you is to not go there, and if you're addicted to the site and can't escape, just block people without restrain. I promise you're not missing anything, they aren't even reading the manga you like.

[subway-boss-jericho]

(Hammer anon) 

Emmet keeps having to remove them from the premises so their webs and nests don't block the airways, but Ingo keeps letting them back in when Emmet isn't looking

God forbid woman do anything /j 

This feels like the. Eating chess pieces meme except with bugs and air vents. It is funny thinking about him getting like. The equivalent of asthma because he likes bugs. 

Also. Is this why emmet has so many bugs. They are simply a little too silly to notice a gods blessing. 

Oh god the joltik infestation hc would be So Funny here 

On another note, and sort of corresponding to Ingo’s Very Long Bath, can ingo get functionally sick? Like rusty or have a… lichen issue (almost like mold- can they break down metal?) and in turn, if this could happen could emmet become ill? 

…I’m having the amusing thought of ingo having a mild pollen allergy. Goodbye eardrums. 

I imagine that, being underwater, ingo might gain a fair bit of plant growth going on. Or perhaps serve as a home for a few Pokémon. He probably wouldn’t quite be aware of it though… (getting off topic- I’ll get back to all that) 

their whole story is like this unfortunately and I uhhmmm,,,,,,, i havent found a way to, fix that. so I'm working on that part.

Casting eternal torment on them!!!

I’ve recently been of the mind that love with no where to go or no outlet is something on the lines of what grief is. While Emmet and Ingo Do have a place for that to go, actually being able to share it is a little more difficult now. Neither are dead (in a way that Truly matters, anyway) I can’t help but think they still might grieve a little. For what once was, maybe. Just for that familiarity. 

There is something quite terrible about realizing you will never be able to hug someone again! 

But like! They totally can and are showing the other that they care. Sometimes the most healing thing is allowing yourself to be sad with another person, knowing that they will Be There. 

[sorry been having a rough week and this hit me harder than expected] 

maybe I should push aside how I think it's "supposed" to look in order to actually mess around with how it Really looks in my head.

Sometimes it’s like that! It’s fun to doodle out some designs and such even if you know you won’t use ‘em. At least then you can figure out what you don’t want! 

the little gliscor plush/toy

Do you think that some of the children (or maybe thankful adults!) would carve out little pokeshi dolls of all the Pokémon Ingo’s do Emmet defeat as like. Trophies or something? 

(The reason gliscor is there is uh. Because I love gliscor. Would be funky to have a few random pokemon that just. Help out sometimes. Maybe the attacking ‘mon is close to a den and maternal instinct is Very Strong. 

I just think it’s kinda amusing for ingo to be fighting and cheer as a flock of murkrow to scratch at the eyes of the pokemon he’s fighting. Only to be swarmed himself a moment later) 

if AUs are songs then your asks are like the Audio Visualizers that play in my brain whenever I think about them. Does that comparison make any sense?

Yes! Ooo that is a fun comparison! It’s always lovely to bounce ideas around with people! (You have reminded me of crabulon’s theme at 4:00 skndnwjs)

Hoohg well I guess when I said it would take me longer to answer these because of school starting I was Not Kidding. Time sure does continue to pass. Hello again though!! I did not forget!! It's just taking me a while because of the energy it takes to give thoughtful answers <3 Hi!! missed you!!

This feels like the. Eating chess pieces meme except with bugs and air vents. It is funny thinking about him getting like. The equivalent of asthma because he likes bugs. 

God forbid women do anything!! I want you to know I want to draw that meme so fucking badly you're SO right. At my next available opportunity I'm doing that. And yeah, it's exactly like that. If the airways are blocked up or they start setting up too many strings in his lung-equivalent then he kind of just, coughs. Not loudly but, he gets very twitchy. He can't hold perfectly still, it tickles/itches/it's stuffy. It would take way more than they're capable of producing to actually inhibit or harm him in any way, which is why he keeps letting them back in, but Emmet knows it will build up if he lets it which is why he keeps kicking them back out. Infinite cycle.

(Edit, I did it the next day while still editing this response together)

The rest of the patented Jericho Ramble™ is below!

Also. Is this why emmet has so many bugs. They are simply a little too silly to notice a gods blessing. 

Correct, they are SO silly. Emmet does enjoy the company but he will never admit to it because at this point they're Doing A Bit and the first one to fold is the loser. This is also how Emmet eventually ends up with a shiny silcoon.

Oh god the joltik infestation hc would be So Funny here 

Yes!! Anything with joltik doesn't happen until after Ingo is recovered from the ocean and he heals a bit more from that whole experience, but I imagine they become quite the (beloved) nuisance to Emmet. Them feeding on electricity makes them a bit of a risk after his initial recovery, but after he gets back to a stable level then I imagine they bring both of them a lot of joy.

can ingo get functionally sick? Like rusty or have a… lichen issue [...] and in turn, if this could happen could emmet become ill? 

It would be extremely difficult to effect Ingo to the degree that would mimic physical sickness. I think there's a level where it's possible, but it's extremely unlikely. (That being said, after spending *checks notes* 300 years on the ocean floor, he has a lot of fucking things wrong with him. So yes he's very 'sick' when they get him out of the ocean initially. but OUTSIDE OF THAT it's unlikely!) However- Emmet can still get sick. It's extremely, extremely unlikely, but he can get sick like anyone else.

Emmet's health isn't directly tied to Ingo's current state- It's more like, Emmet cannot die so long as Ingo is alive. Any injuries or hypothetical illnesses that Ingo has are individual to him, and same with Emmet.

I imagine that, being underwater, ingo might gain a fair bit of plant growth going on. Or perhaps serve as a home for a few Pokémon.

Yes! In fact, he becomes a bit of an ecosystem in of himself, much like a coral shelf. Lots of pokemon and plants make him their home in the time he spends underwater- He's not aware of most of the pokemon, you're right, and the plants get cleaned off- But there is one pokemon that stays with him even after he leaves the ocean. A Dhelmise that has claimed him, and is actually with him for half or more of the time that he spends underwater. There's a boundary between the different sections of him, so parts like the main decks and halls remain essentially completely dry, but his vents lead directly from the outside to his lungs (with filters) so those get, very flooded. I don't know what types of pokemon would make him a home, but Lumineon and Finneon + Chinchou and Lanturn come to mind because they glow and it would be very dark inside his hull since the light from outside wouldn't reach. Aforementioned singular Dhelmise, but said Dhelmise is extremely territorial, so I imagine his internal ecosystem is actually quite peaceful and well-protected from major predators all things considered. I can elaborate more on that whole situation another time :> He's a giant fish bowl (Edit: Pokedex says that Lumineon and Lanturn are in fierce competition for food. I find this extremely funny)

Casting eternal torment on them!!!

Noooo!! No! It's only eternal torment until I figure out how it fix it!! I'm working on it!!! They'll be fine!!! Eventually!!!! I'll figure it out!!!! I'm figuring it out!!!! /lh (Jokes aside, I do have a good plot resolution that I am currently workshopping :] I'm really happy with it so far)

I’ve recently been of the mind that love with no where to go or no outlet is something on the lines of what grief is.

Ah fuck. I think you may have diagnosed me with this one. This uhhh,,, this might be the best way I've heard to summarize just about everything I write. I think this is a good way to describe the main theme I write about. which,.......... oof. that hits, DIFFERENT, hearing it from someone else. I am being perceived (wheeze)

Love with no where to go is just like grieving. It doesn't hurt very much when you have somewhere to put it, or you don't have any love to give away. But when you have excess, and all the doors are closed? where can that love go, when you have no where to put it? it builds in your chest with a torturous pressure, building and building, with no outlet. it hurts. its heavy. but you just keep carrying it, searching desperately to find someone who will accept it.

[sorry been having a rough week and this hit me harder than expected]

Yeah I mean, you just vibe checked me with the force of an uppercut to the chin so, I don't think I'm going to be able to think the same way after this one. 🤝 We are experiencing

In all seriousness, I hope you're okay. If anything I make bothers or upsets you, do please take a step back and take care of yourself. I may write angst but I want the people I know to be happy and healthy and A-OK. Especially if you're having a hard time- Never feel obligated to respond to anything if you're not up to it 👍 I've got all the time in the world, and anything you send me will always be cherished and treasured, no matter how small it is or how long it takes. 🤍

Do you think that some of the children (or maybe thankful adults!) would carve out little pokeshi dolls of all the Pokémon Ingo & Emmet defeat as like. Trophies or something? 

🥺🥺🥺 awwhhhh that's SUCH a cute idea!!! I love that. I never thought about that before, but I definitely think that should happen. They would be so emotional about it too. Emmet is trying so hard to maintain a cool persona but then some kid runs up to him and hands him a little handmade doll and I feel like he might just burst into tears to be honest.

The reason gliscor is there is uh. Because I love gliscor.

*Nodding* A delightful edition

Would be funky to have a few random pokemon that just. Help out sometimes. Maybe the attacking ‘mon is close to a den and maternal instinct is Very Strong. 

I feel like it's definitely likely due to simply how aggressive wild pokemon are in Hisui, but at the same time most gigantamax pokemon are between 70 and 120 feet tall. Which is HUGE. I still think there would be some defensive pokemon like you're saying, but I have a feeling the large majority will be fleeing for their lives kfjsdhgsdkh

(You have reminded me of crabulon’s theme at 4:00 skndnwjs)

I have provided the link for everyone so they can see this. That's exactly correct and you understand the vibe perfectly. Also you have great taste

I am SO sorry it took me so long to answer this one! And I still have to go answer the other one too (intense nervous sweating) so that's my bad! It is harder to build the energy to type responses when school is taking most of my energy in a day. Shocker I know /j But anyways!! Nonetheless!! Thank you for the ask :D It was a pleasure read and respond! I wrote most of my responses at different times so I hope it still reads coherently enough >>;

I'm gonna go read over the other one now to start working on a response to that one :> Not sure how long it'll take me but it will happen eventually

Have a great day!! Thanks for the ask! 🌠🤍

[mrstsung]

Somehow this is controversial.

Vent ahead.

Srry im pissed rn.

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If someone doesn't wanna share their f/o.

Fucking Respect that.

More under cut

Dont tell me "oh but you got to" no i dont brenda. No tf i dont.

I dont mind sharing most of my f/os. But i ask for one. ONE FUCKING THING.

I dont share one character. All of a sudden. You have a problem with me non sharing shang tsung? One character. How is me not wanting to share shang tsung as a f/o a problem?

One character. Only one. Only one guy. Like thats all i ask!

Any other of my f/os from various fandoms and media. Im ok with sharing but all because i dont feel comfortable with sharing shang with others. Suddenly it's an "issue"?

Get comfortable with the fact some people dont wanna share also. And nothing you say is gonna "convince them" and sometimes saying that we should get comfortable is rude. No i dont have to get comfortable. Thats why i dont share,because im not fucking comfortable. Duh!?

Just because you are comfy sharing all your f/os doesn't mean others are.

One character man. That's all i ask. And thats the messed up thing. It's only one character,like legitimately im ok with any other characters i self ship with. Not just for mk. But other characters too,from other media. But shang tsung is a no go. Him i just cant. Y'all are too weird,and too fucking rude and mean for me to ever do that. And i just genuinely love the character. So i just can't.

I have my reasons why i dont share shang. But even if i didn't,that don't make me less valid.

I don't share shang tsung as a f/o. All i ask is people respect that. I have a few people on here that do. But if i don't interact or block you because of that. Dont get mad at me then.

I mainly self ship with shang tsung. My main f/o also just happens to be him. Out of all the fandoms,he's the main one. So why is me not wanting to share a problem again? Why does this bother people so damn much?

I ask for one thing. One thing. That feels well....like it's special. Suddenly it's a problem? Ugh people suck.

Anyways I'm gonna self ship hard with my husband shang today. Screw the haters and jealous people.

Non sharers are just as fucking valid in this self ship community. We dont need to share blorbos to be valid in this community.

Sorry. I dont share him. End of discussion.

[payphoneangel]

For the ask game!!!

🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here

🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on

📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app? 

hi this ask has been sitting in my inbox close to a year and its a good fucking thing you put the questions in here bc i would NAWT remember but!! I happened upon my favorite fanart and it made me think of this SO HERE I AM.

🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it

This guy!!!!!!!

as you already know I am a huge fan of this artist (i have two physical prints from his store) so OF COURSE my fav piece of fanart is from him!

I just love the color palette and the backlighting and the expressions and the YEARNING ITS ABOUT THE YEARNING. For only a 4 panel comic w/o any dialogue it does SUCH a fantastic job of conveying its meaning through microexpressions alone. I think its SUCH a good example of the less-is-more approach to story telling.

I could probably talk abt this piece for hours but i'll try to be quicker than that lmao

I love the amt of texture that Mr. Cowboy puts in his digital drawings. There's so much consideration when you look at the different brushes and color contrasts you see in his work that adds SO MUCH detail without the piece feeling too busy. Like seriously go click on the images to enlarge them and just look at the color blocking on the faces and where the highlights are.

This piece is in Mr. Cowboys style while still doing a great job of capturing the likeness of the actors without going into uncanny valley territory of hyper realism (nothing wrong with realism im just not personally a fan of it). I've always appreciated his style bc I love how evocative it is of those vintage posters or pulp fiction novels. And i think Dean and Cas just look real real good in the style. Plus I love some of the personal touches Mr. Cowboy added to their character designs!! Like giving Dean ear piercings and showing a chain around his neck (that is presumably a necklace)

THE RIM LIGHTING. THE RIM LIGHTING!!!!!!! I can't get over it. The highlighted dust particles floating through the air. How their hair and the tips of their noses have an orange/red tinge to them from the warm lamp lighting. How their profiles are haloed by the lamps (which was completely intentional if you read Mr. Cowboys description of the piece) THE FUCKING!!!!!!!! EYELASH HIGHLIGHTS!!!!!! and the way in panel 4 how Dean's eyes just get that much shinier. Like he's holding back tears AUUUUGH MR COWBOY IM CRAWLING THROUGH YOUR VENTS LIKE A RABID SQUIRREL

i am generally just a big BIG fan of like. how do i describe this. blocked gazes/close cropping in art or photos. I can't get enough of it. There's just something about it. Is it my fear of intimacy or eye contact? or perhaps that the piece becomes voyeuristic in nature from the audience's obscured view thereby implying that it is not FOR us and we are only seeing a glimpse into the complex world of the subjects???? Some combination of all of them????????? probably! but yeah i simply ADORE that we don't get to see Cas' expression!

The title of the piece is 'I had a dream and you were in it' which in the tags of Mr. Cowboys post is said to be referring to a Father John Misty song, presumably To S. which i LOVE FJM and im a huge slut for connecting other forms of art to music (hence why i always name my fics after songs)

Ok that was still a HUGE amt of rambling so I will be done now.

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here

this is from the next part of this series that YES I am still trying to work more on.

🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on

STRETCH BEFORE BED!!!! also shower by candlelight for the #vibes

📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app?

But I wouldn't mind it if you did I wouldn't mind if you stayed over I wouldn't mind it if we stayed for the season Discarded logic and reason Found a new reality

uhhhhh i think these were potential lyrics for a song? Seems fun! Guess I'll have to get back to this WIP too lmao

Thanks for the ask <33333

[lemuel-apologist]

Listen. The way that universities treat ADHD is deplorable. The way that the public at large treats ADHD is just as bad, but universities in particular are fresh on my mind, given where I am in life, about a month post-graduation.

This post is a bit of a preamble. Bear with me.

I struggled through three and a half years of genuine college being the way I am with no buffer; had an unwelcome epiphany of a diagnosis at the end of my second-to-last semester; and had the best semester, confidence- and social-life-wise of my life-- which was, simultaneously, the worst semester of my life academically. I have gone on and on about organic chemistry and how it fucked with me, but I don't know that I have gone into why.

Post-diagnosis, I was presented with the opportunity to tell my ochem professor about anything that could be an issue during the semester. I debated it; I debated it very seriously; but this form was a graded assignment, and I had to either tell him or not tell him, and it was better than I tell him than not. So, I told him, in very edited-down words, that I have some issues with anxiety and I have ADHD. Both have, because of how I am as a person, meant that I have to approach labs in a certain way and I probably will freak out at some point, but I was optimistic that it wouldn't be an issue at that point, and I would recuse myself to the hall if it was. (After all, I'd been medicated for about a month and, in that time, had survived moot court, navigated a family member's arrest that I advised on forensically, and cooked for two family events. I was fine. I was only medicated for the sake of anxiety. It was working as planned.)

I have a bone to pick with that professor in particular for a lot of reasons. He had a lot of interactions with women that rubbed me the wrong way, but none of them crossed that line like they did with me. I told him the way that things were going for me, I told him what I needed (a chance to eat before class, some extensions as needed on assignments, and clarifications on what he wanted done with equipment), and he consistently held me to a higher standard to other students, stepped in to mess with my fume hood when I didn't ask him to, and, importantly, would dock anyone up to five points from their labwork for being late to class, meaning that I couldn't eat before lab, since I had to sprint uphill from my osteology class-- which he knew, because that was something I told him. I vented very briefly, in exasperation, to my Senate advisor, who was the only member of faculty anywhere near administration who knew about my ADHD; and, when she asked why I didn't see about more formal accommodations, I reminded her the state of our school's Disability Services processes, which we were in the middle of advocating for fixing, as a block (famously hard to navigate and famously impossible to get through in a timely manner, meaning I wouldn't be able to do anything about it before I graduated-- and it wouldn't guarantee nonretaliation anyway).

And you know what? I got a D+ not because of him, but in SPITE of him. I got a C total not because of him, but in SPITE of him. Eat my FUCKING ass.

[chxrrie-bxmb]

vent incoming, no tws as far as i'm aware

we are. genuinely fucking shaking right now! why is it so hard for the endo community to understand that we don't want them to fucking interact with our shit. why do they think they're so fucking special that they have the right to dogpile people within the traumatized community that their community, no matter how much they're trying to fight for "scientific proof" of their validity, IS FULL OF PEOPLE CLAIMING TO BE SYSTEMS WITHOUT A DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER. FULL OF PEOPLE MOCKING OUR FUCKING TRAUMA. we're tempted to fucking shut down this blog and start over because we're genuinely so fucking scared. no matter how many times we say to leave us alone and not interact with our blog or posts they keep replying to our posts, they keep sending shit in our ask box, they're mentioning us in posts complaining about BASIC FUCKING BOUNDARIES.

it took every fiber of my fucking being to keep zack from losing his fucking mind and just block the acc without saying anything and i'm starting to get scared of what he'll do if this happens again. this is seriously starting to trigger us, but i doubt they'd care. we feel cornered, we're paranoid every time we have an activity notification, and i'm starting to think that starting over with a new blog is the best idea for us. we're a fucking 16 year old kid, we shouldn't have to be this fucking paranoid over something so simple. block the tags we use. if you see our posts on your home page, literally just click "not interested in this post" and we'll be off your feed. but no, you want to actively hunt down traumatized kids and fucking harass them. you disgust me.

the only thing we're asking you to do is leave us the fuck alone. and you don't even have the decency to do that.

-- Rin 🥽

[faunabel]

vent. aghhh. sorry. dark stuff so probably don't read.

i just spent an hour straight sobbing and rapidly switching because my parents make me feel that bad. they both get passive aggressive and sigh exasperatedly or slam doors and get mad at me if i say how it makes me feel bad. continuously saying i'm too sensitive. making me feel insane and unable to trust my judgement. if i say they make me feel like a burden they just get mad at me like that somehow proves their point wrong.

also my mom sits there continuously yapping about nothing while i'm crying then guilt trips me when i say something because apparently i'll be mad at her either way. or you could just. use fucking context clues and not sit there talking about the tv when i'm crying. how stupid are you.

also eventually i had a panic attack so i wanted to get away from the people causing it but my mom just blocked me from the door and pinned me to the couch and hit me. which is fucking lovely. day one and already that :) i fucking hate feeling trapped it makes me dissociate so heavily when i can't get away and already i have nowhere to go to feel safe i feel like i'm in the mouth of a lion and i can never relax because it could bite down at any moment

then i panicked and ran and locked myself in the bathroom and heard them overtalking about how they should've "fixed my mental problems" already as if the problem isn't them being horrible fucking people. either they tell me to stop crying and get mad when i say that doesn't help or carry on a conversation like i'm not breaking down in the corner. regardless they treat me breaking down like i'm a crazy person who needs to be locked away.

i don't feel safe. all of the previous hotel trauma came back at once. i'm scared. i don't want to go through this again. i made so much progress recovering. i don't want to regress. i'm scared to be alone again. i'm scared everyone will leave me now that i'm depressed and not cheerful. i'm scared nobody will ever love me and care about me and accommodate for me. i'm scared i'm too much of a burden and my existence is flawed and the only way people will like me is if i have no wants or needs and smile 24/7. i'm scared i'm not allowed to be upset and i'm just spoiled and delusional. i'm scared anyone who saw what happened would blame me for it because i'm such a fucking nuisance. i didn't ask to have sensory issues. i think it would be better for everyone if i was dead.

i regressed to a childlike state of mind again. i want to be held and protected. but nobody will do that. everyone is mean. i want to be safe. but everyone is mean. why is everyone so mean. why am i so bad. why can't i be good and loveable. i want to be good enough to be held and cared about. why am i such a burden. why is the world so cruel. i want to be loved. i want to be happy and safe. why can't i have that. what about me do i have to destroy to be good and deserving.

i don't want to be alone........... i don't want to be rotten.

[persimmonpoet]

before you interact ☆

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ no dni technically but i will block / softblock if i dont fuck w/ your content/takes.

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ i already said this before but like. im sorry if i dont interact w/ you much ily (/p) i promise i'm just really shy and you all are so cool it intimidates me

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ i reblog body horror. if you dont like that sort of thing, block the tw body horror, tw gore, tw horror, and tw blood tags

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ sorry if i act really childish at times i swear to god im older than i act idk why im like this wtf

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ dont come at me hating on my rarepairs / asking why i dont ship 'popular ship x' or why i 'don't like character x' !! it makes me uncomfy!! plus i wont usually interact / talk about things i dont like so... it's pointless to even ask yk?

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ lowkey im dumb and sensitive as hell please be patient (im rambling and repeating myself but whatever we prevail)

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ if you know me irl and i havent given you my blog PLEASE dni or ask before you interact this shits embarrassing!!!!!

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ also yeah i curse a lot and use caps

꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱ my side blog (@persimmonfillets) is solely sfw stuff so if some of the stuff going on here (like the body horror) is weird to you that place is much better :3 just keep in mind that's also my vent blog. the tag for that blog will be #꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱venting