#i don't know why i chose to do this to myself

[mcflymemes]

AS SAID BY GALE DEKARIOS *  assorted dialogue from baldur's gate 3

is that... is that truly you? i thought i might never see you again.

i love you, more than i've ever loved anyone. and you've proven your love for me in more ways than even the greatest mathematicians would dare to count.

you licked a dead spider. dead spider. you licked it. that is something that happened.

i think we need to get you some air and perhaps have a long talk about unresolved childhood issues.

stop licking the damn thing!

i see the art of eloquence is alive and well.

i'm awed, impressed, and a little bit scared of you right now.

nothing like a brisk stroll through the forest to invigorate the spirit.

i've never wanted to kiss you more than i do now.

right now, i need nothing more than a kiss.

tell me you feel the same way. tell me you want what i want. please.

i'll always have you.

you really would prefer me as i am?

do you doubt me?

you put the stars to shame.

let's sit here another while - i want to drink you in.

there you are.

you led me down this path.

i don't know myself anymore.

all this... it's not who i am. around you, i'm not who i want to be.

you really are absolutely heartless, aren't you?

i was hoping you'd spare me a moment.

this seems as good a time as any for me to stop babbling on.

i think you're rather wonderful. and that's not a word i waste on anyone unworthy of it.

go. enjoy your evening.

i like that about you. it's one of your rarer qualities.

i promise we'll make it work, if you'll have me.

what are you doing? stand back! now!

i thought i meant more to you than a sacrificial lamb. clearly i was mistaken.

you've brought me right where i need to be. i have no right to ask more of you.

you're plotting something, aren't you?

i go where you go.

i'm telling you, this is a mistake.

don't worry too much. a handful of powerful spells go a long way.

hold on! it's not too late to settle this without bloodshed.

mercy is not your strong suit, is it?

well... so much for my previous sentiment.

the choice is yours. there's really no good decision to be made here.

i'll be delighted to see you try... from a safe distance.

how generous of you.

there has to be a way to stop this thing!

i have no desire to end your life. you know that.

i see the glint in your eyes. you've a strategy in mind. the same one as me, i'd wager.

well, now that we know what it is, i suggest we leave it well alone.

better be careful around here.

i'll miss you, friend. your companionship has been quite the education.

i won't lie. i miss our group.

don't worry, i'll handle matters from here.

i'm ready. are you?

we must discuss it privately.

have you lost your wits? you must not do this!

we can't afford to let that happen.

they say madness and genius are separated by but a hair's breadth. perhaps the same is true of madness and stupidity.

you make me sound like some preening peacock.

i'm taking notes. making observations.

you're adorable even when you're teasing me.

you know what, i think i've clearly had far too much wine. and you've had nowhere near enough.

don't worry about me. i'm quite content to enjoy the party from here.

don't let me drag you away.

that, my friend, must remain a secret.

i do hope you know what you're doing.

might be the wine talking.

why am i doing this?

i'm sorry it had to come to this.

i'm going to bed. perhaps this was all a mistake.

careful. you don't know what i'm about to ask.

kill me, and i'll destroy the city anyway.

i want it to be perfect.

stay with me a while, will you?

i'm in love with you.

i'm many things, but coy's not one of them.

listen, i need to speak to you.

i might need you to be more specific.

i regret many things in life.

we all have our burdens, one way or the other.

i am as honored as i am enamored.

i am not the only one who longs for you... yet you chose me.

my time is yours. what do you need?

tell me, what can i do for you?

you need me?

you look... comfortable.

[constantfragmentation]

Agreed.

Do I believe Vander blames himself, that he wronged Silco? Yes, I do. But he really doesn't do much beyond extended a weak olive branch to a trusted friend that he just tried to kill. It wasn't a fight that got out of hand, he tried to kill him.

I don't know about anyone else, but I'm sure as hell not going to seek my attempted murderer out afterwards to 'reconcile'. Yeah, no. Silco isn't going to the their special place in the mines, the Drop or anywhere else in FEAR he may run into his attacker and die the next time.

Let's also not forget, the Felica reason is really stupid. He lost his head? The writing is so weak here. Silco and Vander's break seemed more profound than an accidental death of a mutual friend. People get hurt and die in revolts. They had to know there would be casualties or why bother with revolting against Enforcers, who are heavily armed?

Also, if we use a vague timeline between the Day of Ash, Silco recovering from extensive injuries mentally, emotionally and physically, to the point in Arcane S1E1, WHERE... Vander and Benzo make the comment of 'there are worse things than Enforcers out there" meaning Silco and immediately painting him as the big baddie in the first episode.

So, by the age of the kids supposedly on the Day of Ash and then in Ep1, Vander had YEARS to try and contact Silco. They lived in the Underground, know the same people. There's not exactly an infinite places to stay hidden. Vander and Benzo clearly know Silco is operating in the Undercity.

You can't tell me in all those YEARS, Vander couldn't have made the effort to actually contact Silco and clear shit up. He chose not to and continued painting his 'brother' as a bad guy. For someone who 'never forgave himself', he sure didn't make an effort to find his brother. His effort was the weakest ever.

Even his "I never forgave myself" is hollow. No, buddy, you should have been begging your brother's forgiveness for what you did to him. It's this pathetic attempt of Vander's is what I find insulting. We're supposed to go, "oh look he was sorry , if only Silco KNEW!". But it doesn't address the work needed to regain a person's trust and forgiveness.

Vander didn't put in the effort to deserve Silco's forgiveness. End of story.

The mutliverse episode just felt like a slap in the face in this respect. Silco's personality completely changes which makes ZERO sense. The young Silco and Timeline Silco in S2 don't make any sense compared the characterization of Silco in all of S1.

Young Silco HAD to have traits that build into what makes S1 Older Silco. The drowning isn't going to make those traits magically appear. It was always about the cause. Even if Vander apologized, his handling of the Underground and working with Enforcers is what pits Silco against him. THAT is the betrayal.

I don't think Vander's letter would have done much if we're going off S1 Silco explanation of the drowning and aftermath. Silco tried to see if he could get back the 'old Vander' but also knew it might not happen and had Plan B in the wings.

" I let a weak man die".

Silco decided that the cause was still the most important thing to him and learned not to trust anyone so willingly and blindly.

The Felicia angle is so weak. There is no build-up to this magical trio of friends. Silco doesn't seem to know her kids or vice versa. The kids seems to see Silco as an enemy most likely due to Vander and Benzo.

If Silco was a true friend, why doesn't he know the kids or vice versa? You'd think due to their age prior to the bridge, Silco would be a part of their lives and not just Vander?

S2 was such a disappointing mess. If they really wanted to explore these relationships, then they should have laid some of the groundwork in S1 but didn't. The fact it was dealt with in such a sloppy manner and expected fans to love it? That's what bugs me.

And the blatant character assassination of SO many characters in order to make their plot work.

All of S2 was poorly executed. Period.

y'all. y'all know the letter wasn't the apology right. it was the olive branch. "you know where to find me" was an invitation. he couldn't apologize in a letter. he wanted silco to meet him. yeah it was a shit apology. because it wasn't one. my word.

[rizzanon]

I had this for in my head for hours an I have to thank u bc most of the time people don't know about Jason actually waking up and crawling out of his grave, wandering around the goddamn city for weeks before they dumped him into the pit😭 I'm not a deep fan (as I joined the fandom literally last year and couldn't chect out most canon stuff myself) I always thought why do they chose to ignore it when they crave so much angst and just.. Forget about it. It's the perfect angst material because Jason wandered around gotham, in hospitals(I think) calling for Bruce fucking wayne but no one called him and he didn't even know at the time, I think we all know if someone gave in and called Bruce, he'd come over there less then an hour to get his son back.

EXACTLY OMG. i will NOT stop talking about how jason wasn’t revived by the lazarus pit in the comics. originally, at least. the effects of the lazarus pit has not been consistent over the years so i can understand why some people think that the lazarus pit could revive the dead.

because of superboy prime’s punch that altered some parts of reality (honestly even i don’t know how to explain this phenomenon lol 💀💀), jason got revived, and that reality-altering punch caused him to wake up in his grave a few months after his death. jason literally had to DIG HIMSELF out of his grave. this scene will always be so to me because bruce literally installed sensors to alert him when someone broke into the graves, but he didn’t program it to alert him if someone broke out of the graves:

LITERALLY SOBBING 😭 i could talk about this much more but i’m pretty such you guys don’t want another yap session 💀

but to add on about why no one was able to connect jason and bruce together when the people who found him brought him to a hospital to recover, it’s explained in the same comic from the one above so yeahh

[neutron-stars-collision]

In all honestly, I don't like the ugly comments and have lost a lot of respect for you because of them. And no, I don't expect you to care about that, but I do expect you to care about why it happened.

Yes, your comments are nowhere near some of the hate that gets thrown around, but they are very similar to the comments about Nicola and Luke "not being attractive enough to be the leads" or about them just being "ugly" in general. So unless you are advocating those comments as well, you are being hypocritical whether you believe it or not, and you shouldn't be surprised that people don't like it. They shouldn't like it. Not because you are insulting Jake - he'll likely never know - but because you are insulting people who have similar features to him or people who do find him attractive. You make it sound like there is something wrong with them. You are insulting anyone who has ever been called ugly and made to feel like they deserve less because of it ("she can do better"). You don't think he's attractive? That's fine. Neither do I, particularly. We all have different tastes. But you make it sound like it's a personal flaw that makes him beneath Nicola.

So, no you are not as bad as the people who have said vile things about Antonia or the people who say these comments directly to their target, but that doesn't give you a free pass to"be a hater too sometimes". You are not bullying anyone, but you are insulting them for no reason other than appearance. We, as a fandom, should be better than this.

I understand your point of view. And well, I never expected people to like the comments, quite the contrary to be honest.

But at some point, I think I’ve figured that being “the better person” than the haters isn’t doing shit so I might as well give those weird Jake fans a taste of their own medicine and just speak my mind. The pettiness came from being tired of Jakolas putting down Luke to glorify a random man who doesn’t even look good enough to evoke such admiration as they seem to treat him with.

It also came from the fact that I’m shook Nicola is with a man like this as yes, she could do much better. Both in terms of looks and status. Age too, really. I don’t know about you but I think many of us had the experience of being disappointed by a man our friends chose to date. This is such a situation for me.

Finally, I don’t really believe in being nice and respectful for the sake of it as this fandom has already shown that’s not enough. Being quiet didn’t work so I might as well allow myself to be petty once a few months on my personal blog. No one else has to like it but my tumblr is a place I’m fully myself. No censorship or unspoken things left.

[wrongonthecusp]

they're a family 🧡🤍🤎

[lotus-pear]

mourning black and the death of ideals

[the-way-astray]

i'm making an official stria birthday. it's 04/04/04, or april 4th, 2004. that would put me at a bit over twenty and a half years old

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

[bat-the-misfit]

i don't listen to enhypen but my favorite member is the guy from this gif

[loumauve]

the goddamn toast water post just made me utter "history is fucking real" in the most solemn and serious tone of voice, out loud, to myself, in the goddamn bathtub

[teamcavota]

already first day of classes tomorrow

[moralchampion]

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[ourceliumnetwork]

it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such

[joshooop]

The first thing I ever quasi render, and it's Dio.

I've managed to disappoint even myself.

[czolgosz]

i have had another leon czolgosz dream, several in fact .. !!! a startling resurgance...

[butchlifeguard]

getting dry ass responses from my ex on the way home but when i got home my dad's friend saw me on tv and texted him 'omg is there anything yr daughter can't do?' i know that's right ‼️