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moonshadow-thoughts · 10 months ago

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Another fun thing to find out in your late 20s is that you fucked up your career chances because you didn't know what to do with your life untill now.

#🙃🙃🙃#I don't know if I want to scream or cry #thoughts #my thoughts #introvert #introverted #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #textpost #writing #career #job

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jedi-bird · 2 years ago

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Mother in law called me fat today. I'm literally done helping anyone in this family ever again.

#the amount of anger and rage I'm trying to suppress this afternoon is phenomenal #i keep having to remind myself that i can't fit an old woman and that we live in the house she owns #i literally just walked away trying not to scream #but of course I'm being too sensitive because 'she's an old lady and can say whatever she wants'#like yes i know I've gained a lot of weight in the last 15 years #I've had numerous health issues some of which have bedridden me for months at a time #there's been a pandemic that kept me confined to the house #I'm on medications that all have weight gain as their top side effect #i had surgery which probably saved my life but kept be inactive for months #I'm starting to lose weight very slowly now but I'm never going to be back to what i used to be #15 years ago i was at an unhealthy weight and felt sick all the time #i was also severely anemic and used to pass out a lot #normally something like this wouldn't have hit so hard but after the dream this morning I'm in a bad place mentally #i don't know if i want to scream or cry #I'm seriously done helping and she's on her own from now on

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frenchublog · 10 months ago

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🏹💘...!

#spuffy #btvs fanart #spike #spike btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #spike x buffy #my art #please don't repost #happy valentines day now time for me to disappear for 2 months #screaming at them : stop it #screenshot studies bc why not #proportions ? i don't know her #drawing these while listening to the patapon ost #buffy crying and being sad immediately after being brought back to life can yall please hear me out i have a vision #number one is i wanted to draw the fat ghibli tears #sarah michelle gellar #james marsters

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screechingfromthevoid · 18 days ago

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not to be like that but also I feel like I was right when it came to "Dorian knows Orym is in love with him"

When I watch the confession and Orym word vomits out "ihavefeelingsforyou" Dorian does not act shocked. Dorian does not act bashful or oblivious. He goes on to say that hes wanted a moment alone with him for days.

Dorian hears Orym's love confession and he goes on his own monologue about how much he loves Orym. Because it was never a question whether or not Orym loved him.

The question has always been "Does Orym know I love him too?" That's why he spends so much money on him. That's why he defends Orym's need for the sword. That's why he's always healing Orym in battle and gets pissed when is not given credit. He has been trying to show Orym that he loves him through his love language.

(Dorian said words of affirmation was his love language and yeah totally. And I totally believe that Orym's is acts of service with a secondary gift receiving)

Idk I've just been thinking about that small moment between them for a while.

#silver sending stones #orym of the air ashari #dorian storm #dorym #It's not too long under the read more it's JUST too long for me to not want to clog up the tag with it #na na i was right #truly though dorian didn't seem surprised #he wasn't even surprised that orym seemed to think dorian didnt have feelings back #like? dorian might not have been in love before but hes very good at reading people it seems #so yeah i think hes known at least since he left that orym felt the same way #or hes always known and before it was a “i don't know what to do with that” then it became “oh shit hes the one with the dead husband”#then it became “no time”#screaming crying throwing up

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shima-draws · 2 months ago

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Worst feeling ever is when you go to reread a fic you really like and find out it's been deleted. Even WORSE worst feeling ever is checking the author's profile and finding out they've deleted all of their fics entirely

#NO!! NO!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!#Collapses to my knees how could this happen...why...#😭😭😭#This is the exact reason why I never delete any of my fics #I just orphan them if I don't want to be associated with them anymore. That way people can still at least READ them #If they want to #AO3 authors please please PLEASE never delete just orphan that way your username gets detached #And nobody will know you wrote it but it's still THERE #Crying screaming throwing up.#At the very least I saved one (1) of their fics. Idk I had a psychic sense and went 'I should save this one'#And thank GOD I did. Aghh #Wayback Machine doesn't even have any records...I'm going to cry #Lies down #I'll miss them forever and ever. They'll probably never know but I want them to know this.#Shima speaks

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anantaru · 6 months ago

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guys my entire night is literally made, i am so happy and screaming and so grateful 😭💗 @nkogneatho is literally my pookie patootie i love you so much pasi you don't even know 🌸 you're amazing and have the kindest soul, thank you so much for this 💗

#my first selfship art i don't even know what to do guys like i want to scream but i want to look at it more and then scream and cry and kiss #KISS IT ENDLESSLY #FOREVER #، 𐚁̸ —￤artwork by villagers ⋆

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quixotin · 1 month ago

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(spoilers ahead) s3 finale legend of vox machina 10000/10 BUT

feel like they could've milked those last 3 episodes for at least double the run time.

It felt rushed compared to the rest of the season. I mean, each individual quest could've lasted just as much as the arc that led to Percy's death, but alas, Amazon and its season standardization is here to kill creativity and the arts.

The fact they rushed to tie up all the loose ends killed the emotional payoff they had set with earlier stakes. For example, Percy's revival and his reunion with Vex. Even Keyleth's declaration to Vax. Which btw, looking back, it's sad they put Vaxleth on the backburner. I'm a Perc'ahlia stan first and human second, but Vaxleth felt almost as a sidequest compared to how pivotal Perc'ahlia was to the season. I guess Vaxleth will have its moment to shine in the sun once...... the thing happens, but idk, I wish they had let us savor the moment a bit more for both ships.

I just wish, ya know, they'd given us a bit more brainrot.

Anyway both ships got to fuck this season and Vex still graced that pathetic, smitten sod with the best tits in Exandria ia so it's still a 1000/10 😌😌😌

Also! I gotta say I'm intrigued with how Percy will end up with Cabal's Ruin. I don’t watch the live play (shh don’t judge me i have a short attention span) but as far as I understood, the last fight with Ripley is where Percy would have gotten it?? I guess they're saving that for the Vecna arc.

Anyway, I still love it lol and I'm glad they did bring back best boy no mercival percival because his existence holds my sanity with the thinnest mf thread 😌 and when i tell you i was at the edge of my seat when we were halfway through the finale and there was still no sight of my favorite dumbest nerd.

girl i stopped breathing for a sec there

#the legend of vox machina #tlovm spoilers #tlovm season 3 #tlovm s3 #tlovm season 3 spoilers #percahlia #perc'ahlia #vaxleth #percival de rolo #percival fredrickstein von musel klossowski de rolo iii #percy de rolo #percy de blorbo #vex'ahlia #vexahlia #vax'ildan #vaxildan #keyleth #keyleth of the air ashari #scanlan shorthalt #pike trickfoot #grog #girl when i tell you i was SCREAMING at the screen where percy was nowhere to be found #like no. bring him back give him to me #also!!! i am 😃 concerned😃 for Vax's wellbeing from here on out #yess i know what happens #no I do not know when but i will cry and be emotionally scarred for life #also i truly hope they don't stop balancing the plot and comedy with the ships now that they got togeter #because that would truly SUCK #i want to see them kiss on the mouth amazon #also the way percival de rolo the third has me on an absolute chokehold right now. literal convert.

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talesoftheesun · 4 months ago

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I refuse to acknowledge anything that happened in this volume. none of this happened. must've just been a heat induced fever dream. nope. no way.

#THE FACT WE DON'T EVEN GET TO BE UPSET #STOP WRITING SUCH SPINELESS MC'S I'M SICK AND TIRED OF BEING FORCED TO BE TIMID AND A DOORMAT #AND YOU GOTTA PAY 17 GEMS TO REMIND HIM OF HOW COMPATIBLE WE ARE???#I don't even want any of these li's anymore bro #it's all same dialogue different name so there's no defending ANYONE #I didn't even get to say goodbye to chen but then if you stick with chen he's gonna do that weird thing with uma #and in the dressing room??? not matter what you say your li says you don't know him as well as yall thought #damned if you do damned if you don't #I HATE IT HERE #LET MY MC JUST FUCKING WALK PLS I'M DONE #insert quen blackwell screaming crying gif #litg #litg s9 #love island the game #sun.txt

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cxlandine · 7 months ago

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we're really going to get a moment of truth next episode because when freshman year kristen died she went to heaven, but daybreak went to hell. freshman year kristen's only problem was trying to convert people, she was never bigoted or hurt anyone so of course she'd get into heaven. daybreak was a hardcore believer in helio but he was a bigot and a part of a cult plot to bring about the apocalypse, so of course he went to hell.

buddy has had some moments that make him seem evil/bigoted and if he was involved knowingly in the rat grinders plot then he'd be going to hell. helio might suck but he doesn't get to bring whoever he wants into heaven and even if he did he wouldn't bring buddy if he'd been plotting to revive ankarna. but if buddy is actually a good kid? if he had the same beliefs as freshman year kristen, if he thought helio loved everyone and didn't think religion was the basis of morality?

#screaming crying etc #ik gorgug went to hell by mistake according to gortholax but he also said it was orc heaven so #i don't even know what i'm hoping for next episode #because i love buddy but i don't want him to just copy kristen's arc and personality #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #d20 #fantasy high junior year spoilers #kristen applebees #d20 buddy dawn

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slytherin-syon · 1 year ago

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i made the mistake of listening to the pjo musical while also being on a spy x family kick and came to the horrifying realization that Damian is so Annabeth-coded, particularly combining their ambitions with the trauma of being seen as invisible and their determination to prove themselves....

so, here is a damian-centric amv to the song "My Grand Plan"

#honestly so many lines in here just scream DAMIAN DESMOND #'if you don't go go you'll never know if you'll ever be good enough'#'my grand plan' nerd damian #'you better wise up cause ill rise up bring on any challenge' ambitious boy~#'so me i tend to stand my ground i find i never can give in' determined boy 😭#and most importantly 'and someday soon i swear i dont know how or when but i PROMISE YOU I'LL NEVER BE INVISIBLE AGAIN'#'someone will notice me...'#THIS LINE JUST MAKES ME CRY FOR THE LONELY AND SAD BOY DAMIAN IS AND HOW ALL HE WANTS IS TO HAVE ALL HIS HARD WORK TO BE APPRECIATED #damian desmond #damianya #spy x family #spy x fam #damian spy x family #my grand plan #lightning thief musical #pjo musical

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sinclarify · 3 months ago

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its always 'ily' and never 'iwytltm. yepambm. twnc. yatmipitwtm. aicrstltiilwyb, btnoe, noe, tiwgthf. awglftfowtrm.'

#dead boy detectives #charles rowland #edwin payne #payneland #i want you to listen to me. you #are my best mate.#that will never change. you are the most important person in the world to me.#and i can't really say that #like #that i'm in love with you back #but there's no one else #no one else #that i would go to hell for.#and we've got literally forever to figure out what the rest means.#SCREAMING AND CRYING AND THROWING UP #they love each other so much it makes me physically ill #“charles doesn't love edwin” he literally loves edwin with all of his heart and if you can't see that past a romantic lens then #i don't know what to say to you #they're my roman empire #was it casual when you put yourself through the terrors of hell just to save me #was it casual when you said you have forever to figure things out alongside me #IM ILLL #IM SHAKING

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coconut530 · 6 months ago

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#Sleep Token #Youtube #i don't #i don't cry from music often #and i guess i still haven't considering what this was #but the intro monologue to this performance #made me burst into tears in under 60 seconds just now #first it was slow #just teared up a little bit... i didn't even realize what it was saying.. much less that it was from HIM #and then he said something and it was full on sobbing #I'd go check again to tell you what it was but I just pulled myself back together and I can't like do that again #what the frick...#like vessel doesn't talk during performances ever bc y'know he's possessed by whatever gave him some of the coolest music in existence #so this monologue like touches all the more... he's SPEAKING to US #THANKING US #for listening to the music that he -in this case- put so much of his pain into #he knows we're thankful for them #but he's also thankful for us #and then like as the song goes on he just pounds those keys and screams those lyrics and the vesselette has to go check on him at the end #like frick if that doesn't mess you up... aguuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhh #...#I just wanted to see what a live performance of bloodsport was and apparently I clicked on the worst one bc nowhere else does this play #sleep token thank you

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bubacorn · 2 months ago

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#i want to scream into the ether #my thesis supervisor wrote and outlined what is expected and fuck i'm unprepared #like #i just want to cry and wallow in 'i can't do it'#i don't feel enough for this #i know i'll do it #mostly because i don't have a choice #and i know i can do it #but it's terrifying #and i'm really scared #because i can't not do it #it's literally my only job #i'm being overdramatic i'm aware #but i really want a hug and to be allowed to able to feel like a failure for a bit #but let's lock this away #i say as i vent on the internet #might delete like 3 minutes from now when the embarrassment hits #yeah anyway. it's chill

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forcebookish · 2 months ago

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why are so many phoomvicha posts about forcebook "fiNALLy" showing off their acting chops y'all are so annoying

#1. screaming and crying isn't the be all end all of acting #2. topmew and guncher have both had acting-intensive scenes??? that they performed beautifully?#3. the best acting in the episode were in the quiet vulnerable moments but i know you're not talking about those #(phoom's timidity when they kissed; both of them unable to hold back tears as phoom danced “sadness”; vicha smiling as phoom cried)#like i want to see them in more dramatic roles too but don't throw their other performances under the bus #fb #ppts liveblog

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masterfuldoodler · 2 months ago

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girlbossed too hard.... unless...

#like a lot of stuff about kh. one thing being its sprawling plot. love it all fitting together like that #anyway wanted to write a story like that. here i am with my ocs. and now im worried ive made it too confusing #1. maybe it's just because I haven't finished fixing plot holes? 2. maybe it's bc im not telling it in the right order? (random comics)#3. maybe it's because I assume ppl know more than they probably remember? 4. maybe im bad at explaining it?#anyway I talk to ppl about it and they're like ???? about things so now im like hm. i done messed up #problem is. it all makes perfect sense in my head #nomura is this how you felt? is this just the consequences of my actions??#anyway rip me. doomed to pain and suffering since the days of my youth #wanna get better at talking and expressing things but ACK. so hard!!!!#august rambles #text #you may be thinking huh?? you're expressing something rn. and yes. you see. my disease is so annoying. it is not consistent #sometimes I think about it enough i think about ways to talk about it. sometimes I think about it enough and it soaks into my life so...#someone else goes 'hey whats that?' and i go 'oh tiny info about it' as if secretly the person knew everything else because uh #i thought about it so hard. it must be common knowledge??? i don't know things other people don't??#anyway screaming crying i feel like I'm not expressing this right. doomed.

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kenanthefallendemon · 6 days ago

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I want to leave this worthless world forever...

Hey everyone

I have something to ask for you all and please be honest

Do you guys honestly think there's hope in this worthless world

Because I honestly don't

The reason why is because I have honestly lost ALL hope in this worthless world

They say that life is beautiful or life is what you make of it

And me personally

Life isn't beautiful, life is horrible

And when I make of life, I make it terrible

Because I'm nothing but an worthless, useless burden suffering with suicidal thoughts and endless voices telling me to kill myself, not to mention struggling with depression and suffering in silence

In other words, please comment below if there is still hope

Because believe me when I honestly say...

Unlike everyone else, I honestly want to drown myself in gasoline and light myself ablaze and leave this worthless world forever...

And believe me when I say...

I NEVER want to come back to this dumb, stupid, pathetic planet again...

I honestly don't...

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