#i don't even know what all is broken

[dyrewrites]

There's some weird sync problem with my google drive files and I lost a whole bunch of editing because it decided an older file was more relevant to save.

So I'm going to scream, cry, and possibly lug my computer however many thousands of miles is required to throw it into the ocean.

You know, if anyone needs me.

[naamahdarling]

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[lover-of-mine]

Fought 'til you tethered me, swept under surfaces, never enough of it...

[warpedpuppeteer]

Do you ever cry when you think about how Eddie was probably a gentle soul when he was younger? Shy and quiet, loves to listen to people talk with sparkles in his eyes and a sweet shy smile that made his dimple pop, loved helping his abuela and mom and sisters at home. Then everything was destroyed when toxic masculinity was forced onto him and Eddie has never since been allowed the chance to ever be as soft or as gentle as he was before? How this poor little baby was sent off to war, breaking him in ways he couldn't even imagine. How since then all he's done is be afraid and confused and angry and frustrated.

Because nothing feels right even when he did all the things he was told he should do.

Be a man when I'm not around son. Be a man and marry her. Be a man and provide for your family. Be a man and kill for your country. Be a man and forget about your PTSD. Be a man and take care of your child. Be a man, be a man, be a man.

And he did! He did all of it like everyone told him to! But then why isn't he better? Why is he still broken??

But he's not. He's healing. All the cracks in his soul are being filled with gold. Like kintsugi. He's learning how to be whole again. He's found the 118, a family not of blood who loves him the way he deserves. He's found Buck, who accepts him as he is; all his flaws and imperfections; everything that makes him Eddie.

It's a slow process and sometimes it's painful but he'll get there. Eddie Diaz is not broken. He's a piece of art, beautiful and loved, his scars lined in gold.

He will learn to be gentle again; to himself most of all. He will learn to be soft; to ask for things. He will learn to be honest; to express his needs. He will learn to be Eddie once more, slowly.

[pardonmydelays]

ok look, i don't normally do that because i just don't ship real people but since everyone is talking about this lately... i just read the forest fic for the first time ever.

[dye-it-rouge-et-noir]

"For particularly important things, it's always more reassuring to write them down like this." - Zhang Beihai

[ID in alt text]

[longagoitwastuesday]

I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

[demonbarberofbeepbeep]

morning toddheads

[qu4kerider]

“You've changed.”

ARCANE S02E03 & STAR WARS: EPISODE III - REVENGE OF THE SITH

[big-tiddy-goth-ghoulfriend]

I will never not be upset that my limited-edition time-gated "I was there at the end" magnus archives t-shirt just fucking fell apart when I washed it. I mean, the shirt is fine. But the design is a bunch of really thin lines. So literally the very first time I washed it, like half of the design came off. I've now worn it (and washed it) three times and you can't even tell what it used to be.

I don't even wear it anymore because I don't want to destroy the design to the point that you can't read it. This is what it's supposed to look like, btw:

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

'and bubby's all in the back singing "kiss the girl"'

next time i'm staring at your lips

with that awkward silence

(it's funny how the distance

and the kissing feels like an eternity

in two opposite ways),

maybe i'll actually get the guts

and the throat on top of it

to proposition you for a kiss.

it's kinda cute that i'm rendered mute,

'but the point is probably moot.'

do you think if i post some bikini pics

that it's enough to get wet with the dick?

how come i need a cheerleader, two liter

of stomach acid on pause,

to muster the breath to breathe with you?

when i hazard a look down,

as subtle as my broken neck,

i can see you're packing,

and i guess i am too;

checking my bag'd only reveal i'm a fag.

not outed at the outing,

not cooked at the cookout —

either way, i'm still gay.

i came prepared; i came, prepared.

unused condoms in the trash

because i'm all cautious just like that.

i wish you would've taken more of an initiative,

taken my worries, more of me, and inching in....

but given your incentive, sense,

that's an even bigger ask, isn't it?

i asked you for something a bit (a bit)

more normal, i guess,

and you, smiling so big,

said 'yeah, of course!

(can't you see?)'

'i can't stop staring.'

i'm laying down the ground work,

betting on getting better,

low-balling in hopes you'll

take it all on the spot,

but we both saw how far we got.

next time i get down on the floor,

i will make sure to four for the fores.

- ellie revenge

[freakattack]

[puellaphantasia]

Tso Lan figure bought from CNcreations on Etsy

[capricioussun]

ohhh glitchfell???

Glitchfell!!! It's funny you mention that specifically, because originally it had just been to separate Dos specifically, but I've actually been developing it on its own on the back burner...

Dos is still sort of the star of the show, since, well, he’s the reason it's glitchfell. Dos is [REDACTED]. However, his creator made a fatal flaw when trying to fix a previous mistake and it completely fucked Dos' code. At first, it was just minor glitching and stat instability. But as he got older, and the attempts to fix the mistake only continued making it worse (sort of), by the time he was a young teen, the glitching was causing problems in the Main Code, so when a particularly bad episode hit, he unintentionally collapsed the timeline and threw himself to a "neighboring" au.

...or so he thought (and how I'd initially written it lol).

But I've been working with, at least an alternate "timeline", where the au didn't actually collapse when Dos was thrown. Rather, it became corrupted. It wasn't too bad at first, more like Glitchedswap, where there were new tics here and there, but things could continue on as normal.

Unfortunately though, a tree cannot grow from a severely damaged trunk. At least not well. The damage was done, and as time went on, the corruptions only continuously worsened. There's a good likelihood it would have collapsed on its own by the time Dos met Void, there's just no way an au like that could sustain itself after a point, but it's incredibly interesting to think about how far it could've fallen before that point, and if it's possible anyone from it could've been saved before then...

Or if anyone would've put them out of their misery before it got so bad.

[mewkwota]

To keep something very clear:

My Castlevania works are not related to Netflixvania at all.

I strongly dislike that adaptation, and am very uncomfortable with the thought of what I draw for this series being grouped alongside it. Moreso, I am not interested in any discussion on NFCV period, please keep that topic to your own spaces and away from mine.

While I cannot stop you from interpreting my work as you wish, I can keep you from looking at it if I were to find out.

Thanks for your understanding.

[bandzboy]

this is honestly very upseting