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necrotic-nephilim · 2 hours
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I started in DC by reading fanfics, but as I began to read actual comics, I started to be unable to read the actual fanfic that got me into it in the first place because it's so out of character.
But there are still some stories that I love to read because I love the found family trope so much, even if it isn't really accurate to the source material.
As a comics purist (sometimes), are there tropes that you like enough that you'll still enjoy a fic even if it's not accurate to canon?
oh my god this is SUCH a fun question. bc while i started with the comics, there were certain characters and/or character dynamics where i was exposed to the fanon before the canon (just bc it's hard to read everything when you start out just to read some fanfic) and so i've definitely experienced the fanon to canon transition. (*especially* with Jason Todd. i had only read 80s/90s stuff where he was already dead or the New-52 bc that was on-going when i got into comics and man. the fanon misunderstandings i had about him before i got frustrated and sat down to read all his pre-Flashpoint stuff were absolutely bonkers.) and aside from that, whilst i tend to prefer canon over fanon, i'm not past giving fanon its flowers for occasionally having really interesting insights. occasionally. so some of my fanon "guilty pleasure" tropes would probably be
Morally Grey Tim Drake - this is one where if you try to back it up with canon, i *will* get salty about it. of everyone in the Batfam aside from maybe Bruce and Cass, Tim has the *most* black and white morals. often his internal conflicts are routed in such an inability to compromise his moral views and it can cause him to clash with other characters. he's *very* stiff and rigid in his beliefs and is *rare* to compromise in even the smallest ways. i mean, DC has repeatedly used Tim Drake of Tomorrow/Savior/Gun Batman!Tim for a reason. it's to demonstrate that of everyone, Tim *cannot* have his morals compromised. there's no grey area for him. he's zero or a hundred, so if he tips over the edge of "too far" he tips *all the way*, and doing so is one of his worst fears, how he could go "too far" if he let himself. a couple panels out of context from Red Robin (2009) (which was a grief spiral for Tim to begin with) don't change that. now that said. if it's done *right*, i sort of love Tim being morally grey in fanfic. it takes a specific flavor for me, and it's incredibly important to include that mental spiral along with it, of him struggling to justify it. i don't have any interest in "Tim Drake is loosy goosy with Bruce's morals and has the highest kill count and no one knows teehee" bc it doesn't play with the interesting parts of making Tim morally grey, which are fracturing his psyche. but all in all, i think it's fun to put Tim in a morally grey area and i will read it in fanfic and i enjoy writing it a lot
Joker Junior!Tim Drake - i've not written it on this account (yet) but on my main ao3 account one of my biggest fics surrounds this concept. this is one of those "well *technically* it's canon but only in a specific very divorced from the comics universe and would not work at all in the main timeline" so, i categorize it as fanon in that 95% of fics exploring the concept are not doing so within the Batman Beyond universe, but the main timeline. i just love it. I'll take any excuse to whump Tim, but this concept is so fun. psychologically breaking Tim will always be my favorite pastime. there are so many ways to explore the long-term effects this could have on him, how it could affect the Batfam. i'm not a fan of it being used as a "gotcha" to Jason or Babs' trauma with the Joker to paint Tim as the Ultimate Victim, but it is fun to see how their relationships would be affected by being mutual victims of him. (i have a vague JayTim idea where TIm fully retires from being Robin after being Joker Junior and killing the Joker, making Steph Robin for most of his typical Robin era and Jason still tracks him down out of curiosity bc he wants to know what happened and all. very underbaked but i've got thoughts.)
Renegade/Apprentice of Slade!Dick Grayson - this is another one where yes, this happened *sort of* in canon, but i highly doubt most people writing Renegate!Dick have read or are actually pulling from Nightwing: Renegade. it's just an exploration fo the concept fo Dick being Slade's apprentice and i will always eat it up in any capacity. whether Dick grows up with Slade from a young age, or chooses Slade for whatever reason later in life. it's not anything that works in canon bc it compromises Dick morally (similar to the above with Tim) and therefore will always come across incredibly fanon in most fics. but i can't say i don't enjoy it. it's fun to make Dick a little morally fucked up and see what you can make him under Slade's tutelage.
Jason & Damian Meeting in the League -there's no world where i believe this could work in the canon comics. (maybe in the Young Justice cartoon i suppose, but even then i think it's iffy) i would go as far to say it's wildly unrealistic. i don't see a world where Ra's would let Jason anywhere *near* Damian, bc Jason was Talia's pet project that he didn't approve of. that all said, there's something very interesting about how they *could've* met and them potentially bonding during that timeframe. them being somewhat brotherly during this time because Jason sees Bruce in Damian and sort of latches onto the kid and Damian is full of wonder hearing real stories about Batman and Robin, then that getting violently ripped away by Jason leaving the League is fun to me. it's fun how that could affect them within the Batfam and all. it's super fanon to me, but i do not care. i will eat it up
Bad Dad Clark Kent/Good Dad Lex Luthor - i will admit as a late, i've been less and less kind to this particular fanon bc of everything i've argued with people about, *this* one seems the most pervasive as misunderstood fanon. i don't mind when fanon exists, my gripe is when ppl try to claim it's canon. and the *arguments* i've had over this with people who can never seem to cite an actual comic are... frustrating. but that said, i think there is something fun to this strictly in fanon. the duality of who you expect to accept Kon and who you expect to hurt him being flipped is just sort of fun for the occasional guilty pleasure fic. it can make Kon's internal conflict a bit more interesting. the same goes for the Jon favoritism from Clark, it's not a canon thing (and i rlly wish ppl understood how complicated the timeline of Kon and Jon is and any distance from Clark toward Kon isn't malice, it's that Kon is from a timeline that Clark does not remember in the current canon so Clark just straight up doesn't know the poor kid.) but it's sort of fun to give Kon that complex of being overlooked and forgotten sometimes. making Kon just a *bit* more Luthor than Kent will *always* appeal to me in fanfic, especially if he *knows* it's wrong but craves approval from anyone who will give it.
Good Dad Bruce Wayne - i'll die on the hill Bruce is canonically a shitty father. maybe not to the extreme some people write him as, but he's not great at it. that said, i enjoy it in fanfiction. sometimes, i just want silly fluff or hurt/comfort where Bruce finally gets it right and manages to comfort whatever Batkid is in the fic. one of my favorite fics of all time is hinged on Bruce being a good dad, so i think it's just fun to explore how good the relationships *could* be, if Bruce was slightly less of an asshole. i usually prefer him as an asshole, but there are times i want low stakes nonsense.
Gotham Rogues Having Soft Spots for Robin(s) - just about every Rogue in Gotham has done something absolutely irredeemable, and most of them don't like or care about anyone in the Batfamily. but if there's a fic where one of the Robins inexplicably is sort of close with a Rogue and they have a cute silly relationship out of it? I'll eat it up i fear. Steph and the Riddler are besties? I'll believe it. Tim and Scarecrow get along pretty well? give me ten of these. Rogues protecting Robins just hits a spot. the unexpected nature of the relationship, as well as the fact they see each other regularly, can make a lot of good fodder.
#necrotic answerings#canon vs fanon#batfanon#batfamily#I was *going* to include “Janet and Jack Drake are bad parents”#then realized I don't really like that fanon anymore.#but I used to go *hard* for it even knowing it wasn't canon. it was all projection but still#nowadays I think the tragedy of Tim losing his parents the way he did is *far* worse if they loved him and were good to him.#I'm so serious about the Kon thing i've had *nasty* arguments where ppl got so rude to me telling me to “Google it”#like listen I get it. kon's canon backstory is currently difficult to understand#the timeline of the superboy mantle is a little confusing and most people have not read young justice (2019)#so for fanon it's far easier to simplify it as “clark just kinda sucks to kon” and i enjoy that#but the canon is also fun. it's fun when you consider how fucked up it is most people don't remember kon#and the timeline he remembers doesn't exist anymore.#also technically since they never killed off new-52!superboy on page there could be two superboys/kon-els running around rn. who knows.#i like to believe there is bc it's funny.#i have wanted to write a new-52!konkon/tim/kon sandwich#with the “is it selfcest or not” question#bc new-52!kon wasn't a clone of clark and lex.#so like. he's arguably a different character just sharing the name kon-el for some reason#also on the nightwing: renegade thing i know *damn* well most fanon-only fans haven't read it (no shade in that)#bc the fanon crowd despises devin grayson and she wrote it.#one day i'll write a meta about fandom treatment of devin grayson trust me.#this question was SO fun#i feel like i should have more answers?#if you'd asked me like six months ago this list would be three times as long#but the more i exist in this fandom somehow the saltier i get idk what's happening#so now i'm more and more attached to canon#but i will never begrudge someone for liking fanon#like i said my issue with it is the confusion of what is canon
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grimark · 1 month
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sometimes i'll slap down some rough colours on a drawing and then i will enter a shading fugue state like haha yesss scribbly lines go brrr. then i'll snap out of it and zoom out and be like well that looks worse, actually.
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weebsinstash · 1 year
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Alright bestie I’m on that shit again
So yandere Superman, right? Like obviously your fucked. The only other yandere in existence that might just be able to keep you from him is Batman, but even then he’d probably sooner work together just to ensure your safety- but that’s a prompt for another day.
Back to yan Superman, imagine you’re his darling and he is “keeping you safe”. But one day, you get snatched up by some organization that wants to use you as leverage or some shit, but you are just sobbing in relief at maybe being free- only to have Superman show up and do some not so super things to everyone who “stole” you
There are just so many casually horrifying things about Superman that people don't realize until you start like digging into his lore. "Oh he's super strong and a super fast flyer" actually he can do basically anything at those super speeds to the point he can literally even PROCESS THOUGHTS at near light-speed which means he has Absolutely Terrifying reaction times and can make plans and schemes on a dime, which, you know, can be even better utilized by him being intelligent. He has natural invulnerability so if you throw a punch at him too hard you could literally shatter the bones in your hand and he can't even control that, like you could literally hurt yourself with him on accident! He can see across INSANE DISTANCES and his x-ray vision doesn't have like a set range so he could do anything from, peep inside buildings to spy on you, to looking under your clothing for any bruises or injuries or even self harm marks, to peeking behind your hero disguise to learn your true identity, to seeing if there's anything inside your stomach and seeing if you're eating properly. Like jesus christ he literally found out Lois was pregnant from waking up one morning and suddenly hearing the heartbeat of the FETUS, there's literally nothing from him pulling that stereotypical "I know you're nervous or lying or afraid because I can literally hear your heartbeat increase" scary bullshit
And let's talk about Lois for a sec because my god her death was literally what kicked off the Injustice timeline? And there are other forms of Superman media where she just straight up dies naturally of cancer! Sure we could take the easy way and say "in this au Lois never existed or was just Clark's friend and he loved YOU" (which is my preferred default tbh bc, no competition for Reader lol) but I mean if you're going for that angst, that real whump, a yandere Clark Kent that just lost his wife/unborn child to either the Injustice incident or cancer, now overcome with grief? And in those cancer timelines they usually already have a son, Jonathan, and sometimes Jordan, and here's Clark thinking, well, his boy needs a mother, and he's got these weird feelings for you, and lil Jonny clearly has affection for you, maybe bring a bit of a platonic yan himself who sees you as either a big sister or even a secondary mom, so... be his wife maybe?
Like my god if Reader somehow helped him through the grief of losing Lois and managed to avoid "fully activating" Superman's anime villain arc, like he's going full fascist in the Injustice 2 Bad Ending, then some shit DEFINITELY goes down when Reader gets taken away. It just reactivates all his trauma. No! He can't lose anyone else! Jonathan can't lose anyone else! You're not just someone he loves, you're his FRIEND!
You're just huddled in whatever cell you've been kept in with your black eyes and bruises and knuckles bloodied from trying to fight back when you hear Clark's voice and you look up with excitement that just falls immediately off your face because holy shit did he just unlock that thumbprint scanner with a severed arm, and suddenly you're realizing there are other shades of red on his costume and dripping from his fingers
I can only imagine like, ngl I considered a sequel to my fic Doubt where Reader escapes the manor and runs into Supernan as the only other person who can protect you, so here we would have the inverse: you're the only one who knows about Clark's increasing instability and, while you still have your own freedom and autonomy, try to speak to Bruce about it, and now you have Batman Vs Superman: Competing For Your Heart Edition. I can only imagine what sort of unhinged reactions there would be if you think you've got Batman alone and you're beginning to cry all "Bruce I'm really worried about Clark, he isn't acting like himself, there's something wrong with him" and. Clark is like literally using his x-ray vision to read lips through the walls if he can't use his super hearing to outright eavesdrop.
Of course as you suggested, I'm always a slut for ideas with"oh shit I ran to this guy to help me and he's ALSO crazy, now they're teaming up and I'm in some weird shared/poly situation with TWO nutjobs". Lmao you go to Bruce concerned about Kal and Bruce goes to confront him and Clark just drops "did you know Y/N has been hiding self harm cuts under their hero suit also wow they smoke HELLA weed and im worried about their lungs and all the stuff they do when they're alone that no one else knows about 🥺" and suddenly here's Bruce " thanks i hate this actually :)" and there's a scheme concted to spy on you or move you elsewhere.
I've even thought of "Reader oh nooOoooOo, that, giant monster or villain attack or whatever also coincidentally destroyed your shitty little apartment complex? You mean Clark 'accidently' got sent flying into your building or smacked some giant creature into it and now you don't have a place to live? And you're broke too? Oh no 🥺 Well, BATMAN has this nice big house with lots of room in for you to stay toooootally 'temporarily', we PROMISE uwu"
Batman is the one who can put a tracking chip injected into your skin or even disguised as a filling in one of your teeth, and Superman is the one who can zoom off to rescue you/retrieve you "faster than a speeding bullet". I think one of the only people who could bring them down together at that point would be like. Fucking DARKSEID and, Jesus no, you definitely don't want HIM treating you as a pet 😭 the evil Batman that was brainwashed by him in the Apokolips War movie was scary enough (and scary HOT, lmao, let him keep me as some sort of prize and the only luxury Darkseid will allow him as a reward for his obedience. Lord Batman goes from having a meeting talking about like enslaving people to returning to his quarters and railing tf outta you because he's still holding onto some slim vestiges of humanity where he cares about you but also using you as his personal anti stress fuck toy)
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itsjaywalkers · 6 months
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if you have any jegulus thoughts to share I'll give you £10 for them <3
babe you never have to pay me to talk about jegulus <3 if anything, you have to pay me to shut up about them bc they're always on my mind and i'm obsessed with them
anyways i don't know if any of this is gonna sound coherent bc it's 2am and i'm about to go to sleep (another 8 hours tomorrow at work. yay.) but i've been thinking of . canon compliant lately (bc i do wanna write some jegulus set on the canon universe) and how a lot of people tend to think that james would never fall for someone like regulus, especially bc of the sirius situation, or that even if he did, he'd never forgive him for . the dark mark or becoming a death eater
but i see james as the kind of character who's inherently attracted to darkness, not exactly to what he considers is Bad but to what's Wrong or Broken, as in, it can still be fixed. i think this is why he was so drawn to sirius, he's very morally grey regardless of his hatred for his family's values (which wasn't even a thing at the beginning imo, i'm sure james and the others had to correct sirius a lot and they were the ones who actually helped him realise how bigoted his relatives were). james has always had the perfect parents the perfect home the perfect childhood. ofc he couldn't help but be fascinated by the other side
i think that his interest in regulus was born out of this morbid desire of wanting to get close to what he viewed as Wrong. besides, he was sirius' little brother, and i'm sure that, if nothing else, sirius spoke well of him during his first year. there had to be some curiosity there
i also think that his hero complex played a part in it. james believed he could help, believed he could fix sirius' relationship with his brother for him, believed he could make regulus Good again
once the feelings shifted, though, i feel like it was . everything james thought love was but also . the complete opposite . it was beautiful, and genuine, and sincere, but it was also greedy, and painful, and ugly. james brought out the best in regulus while simultaneously breaking him from the inside, giving him what he had pretended he didn't want but reminding him at the same time that he could never have it, not really. it had an expiry date. james was never really his. and regulus brought out the worst in james, all that parts of him he had tried his best to bury, every trait he had thought he had left behind after growing up a little and maturing some. james is someone who sees everything very black or white, always moving on extremes, but being with regulus would teach him about all these shades of grey. and it'd scare him. it'd make him doubt if he's actually a good person
they're both doomed by the narrative, but for opposite reasons. james is so loved he has to die, and regulus is never loved enough, never cared for enough, so he also has to die
it's just as dangerous for the universe to care too much about you as it is for it to not care about you at all
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ratsoh-writes · 2 days
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A NEW MEMBER HAS JOIND YOUR CLUT!!
and yes I am that anon who asked you what hair color I should dye my hair
And i dont know why i decided to ask you 1 hour before my appointment like i already discussed about with myself and friends but to be honest I just wanted to send you something ANYTHING(ok this just made me realize that i am the worst at beginning new relationship...)
I asked my friend to choose between blue or purple, and she chose blue and as a good friend I dyed my hair purple—PURPLE :D (tbh was already planning to dye it that color BUT i just wanted to see which color she’d choose—same thing with you (i am not sorry))
Also you just made me realize I have never dyed my hair a natural color before... but tbh I was considering dyeing my hair brown in the future maybe after a few months when I get bored with my current hair color.
Also.. Ahem.... ahem...again i am realy disappointed in myself bc I was about to make stupid decision by LITERALLY dyieing my hair ORANGE, and no, I’m not talking about something like ginger hair.. I was about to dye my hair AN OBNOXIOUS SHADE OF ORANGE. Thanks to God my mom smacked some sense into me before it was too late. (OK i gotta be honest there is something attractive about bright colors they just grab my attention easily and orange is one of my favourite color soo🤷‍♀️)
Aside from that, I felt and still feel kind of shitty for not introducing myself or even saying "hi" in my previous ask, so hii! Even though it’s kind of late.
Also congratulations to myself for finally picking up the courage to send you whatvere is this not that I’m shy or anything it’s just my usual ✨️procrastinating self✨️ I have been following you for quite a long time. ok maybe not that long BUT I’ve been following you since April I think still call it long though because I’ve been fighting with myself for months about texting you, sending you something, or even just saying hi, until I randomly popped up out of nowhere and decided to ask you what hair color I should dye my hair
Also there is something important that i want to say and NEED to say... ahem, ahem... I ADORE the way you portray your characters especially papyrus definitely not because he is not so clearly my favorite skele
I also realized that i also say also a lot. ALSO Since I’m going to send you random stuff occasionally hope you are ready for that and since i am going to stick with being an anon for a while if not forever I should cho
And wow I just realized I wrote a whole paragraph that i had to delete some parts of the text to not make it long. But it isn't my fault that I talk alot. still tho i feel bad for you for reading all of this especially with how bad my english is (I am sure you already definitely could english tell is my second already language)
OK so back to the name.... tbh I don't trust myself with names sooo.....
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-hehe fart💨
Sjdhdhdhdhd anon you’re a perfect fit! We’re all welcoming you with open arms~ but please not fart anon 😭😭. What about gust? Cloud? Smoke?
Also are you the one asking about noir?
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starheirxero · 7 months
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The last laes episode was fucking wild-
I feel so bad for Lunar. I do definitely think, that Gemini's points were valid, but I do think they went a little too far with it?
Trauma is a lot more complicated than they think, and cannot simply be overcome, though they are very much in the right for calling him about his lack of process, considering his avoidence of dealing with his own problems!
The one thing that rubbed me wrong, is the way they call out his feelings towards Eclipse. Because yes, they contradict themselves, but that's not unusual for abuse victims. Eclipse is, in a way, still their brother, and a deep part still loves him, while another fears him. Yet another part just wants vengeance, because of how angry it all makes them.
There's also the whole "refusing to grow up" thing, which I feel is a lot more complicated!
-Stardust
YES!!! YES EXACTLY YOU GET ME ENTIRELY!!!
Like Gemini absolutely had valid points and a lot of those things were definitely what Lunar needed to hear (probably especially from Gemini since other character's delivery may have been too soft or too vague or maybe even too harsh).
But exactly what u said, there was like. some shade thrown towards them about their messy feelings towards Eclipse and I was just like hey man!! whadda hell!!
1) Like u said, that's not totally out of left field for abuse victims, and 2) tbh, if u ask me, having trauma with immediate family members is just kind of Like That?? Bc it's like yea they're family and you love them, but also damn they fucked you up bad, but also you want nothing more than to sink into their arms, but also you'd rather die than talk to them, but— etc etc in a sort of infinite loop. yk?
AND THE CHILDISHNESS THING YEAH. That's something I could make a whole post about, it works me soooo much but basically yea that is way more complicated than just "if ur not a kid then don't act like one and don't get mad if people treat you like a kid for acting like one" 😭😭😭
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a-tale-of-legends · 6 months
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Okay I had this idea for a while now and I have no clue if it would be canon at all but. I gotta share it, I gotta -
So some context: I saw a series of post where it was like. A what if the Paldea + kitakami gang grew apart bc the mc left or something. I should be very clear this isn't any shade to those posts at all, cause I actually think it's super interesting to explore! But my mind went " okay what if I did the opposite".
So in my head I was like " What if Luca for some reason went off the grid and lost contact with his friends. But his friends still remained friends despite of it". Cause ya know, I thought it showed that their friendship wasn't reliant on luca being there. Don't get me wrong, it was tough: Luca was what brought them all together and helped them so much. Him not being there was hard- they were moments where they all thought their friendship was over. But it didn't! Their friendship prevailed! And it lasted all the way up till adulthood. This does include Kiki and Carmine! They all keep in touch with each other and their lives. But Luca? Pretty much no contact.
Which gets me into the shit that fucks me over with this idea/au- Luca himself. Luca is. Not happy. Not in the slightest. He left to pursue a dream that probably wasn't even his, and he continued to drift along in an uncomfortable sea of dissatisfaction. After a while it lead to him getting increasingly anxious: his friends all could be living happy fulfilling lives while he's stuck in this sea of nothing. She should be happy. She should be fulfilled, but they're not and it haunts them. He's too afraid to call his friends. After it's been so long and when she essentially ghosted them for literal years, they probably wanted nothing to do with them, right? Life moves on, and so should he. What really fucks me over with this idea/au is that Luca is just so. Hollow. He isn't as bright as he used to be. That charming, infectious smile, the shining light in his eyes- they're gone. He's more nervous than anything, putting on a soft fake smile that gets him through the day. It's like he's an entirely different person now.
R.B finds him. Naturally. How and why doesn't matter, what matters is that she finds him and drags his ass back to Paldea so they can confront his friends. Luca is not excited by this. He misses them dearly yes, but he isn't ready to see them ( then when will he?), but R.B is having none of it. So they go home and the reactions....vary.
R.b was the one that found him, and the one that dragged him back home. But she was never angry. Stern yes, but not angry. In fact she was more than willing to help Luca. She kinda acts as a mediator for the group.
Nemona is the one that hugs him first, acting as if he never left, treating him like she always had. She literally tackled him into a hug when seeing him again. I do think there's a tiny bit of leftover resentment and sadness from Luca leaving- one of the first people who finally Got her left - she tries to keep it positive! Really! But it had hurt back then and it still hurts now- she's choosing to focus on the fact that her bestest rival is back. Hopefully for good.
Penny is bitter, and I think she deserves to be. She had a deep fear of team star leaving her, and back then she just accepted it. But now that she's older? Now with Luca, who changed her life for the better? Who just up and left? Yeah she's bitter. She wouldn't have even been there if it weren't for R.B and Nemona. Though deep down she kinda blames herself. She can hack into the league easy peasy, but finding a friend in the Internet was something she never considered. She wonders if things would be different if she brute forced her way to Luca before the ghosting got bad. But overall? She's bitter. And again, I think it's deserved.
Arven feels betrayed. He has been for a long time. He was already abandoned once by his biological parents, twice by the ai versions of said parents, and the one person who he cares for so much just. Left. So was it all for nothing? Was everything they did together for nothing? Cause that's what it feels like. Early on the feeling was particularly bad, but with the help of everyone around him( and R.B n him pretty much being each other's rock ) by the time Luca comes back he isn't angry. He's simply distant....but also holding out some hope. He calls Luca "bud" now, which is so weird.
Kieran and Luca probably had to break up when Luca decided to leave in the first place - and even if they didn't then, they definitely did when Luca started ghosting. So when Luca came back I imagined Kieran wanting to be petty. So petty. "Show him what he missed" petty. But then he actually saw Luca and it was nothing Kieran had imagined. He was confused. Why wasn't Luca smiling like he used to. Why was the light in his eyes gone? Seeing Luca again pretty much put a halt on Kieran's planned bravado, and just left him utterly confused. He doesn't know how to act around him
Carmine is very good at putting on an angry front. Mainly bc she is pissed on the behalf of her brother who had gotten his heart broken. But as always, underneath that raging flame is someone genuinely worried. R.B still had to hold her back from pouncing Luca though.
And that's everything! Keep in mind this idea/au is all of them as adults, if I didn't make that clear already lol. this isn't canon exactly but I do love me some angst. Also please no I see Luca as a masc pinkie pie lmao.
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the-wolfbats · 1 month
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Thoughts on The Sable Quean
This is definitely the least interesting of the books I've reread. Not the outright worst (Bellmaker) but I still have all these notes. 
Once again, there is a new chapter art style I totally forgot about. I like the shading but the eyes are lifeless on the creatures where it's not meant to be. One of the chapter art is an otter and it reminds me of the style of The Great Redwall Feast picture book that came out in 1996. 
The names are very interesting this time around. I like them. Tura, Tassy, and Thwissle should probably all be related being squirrels. 
We have a second family of hares who don't talk like the stock types or even fit Salamandastron naming conventions. Knowing that the cartographer in 23 was a hare maiden, hares were really shaping up to be more varied than they had been in literal decades in this series.  Ironic that Diggs is the best hare since Florian. 
This is also the second recent book (at least off the top of my head) where otters have other roles at Redwall other than warrior , Skipper or fisher or random citizen (Fumbril here and Toran in Loamhedge)
I thought the Flitchaye were tiny squirrels but they're tiny weasles?
As soon as I saw the names of Buckler's brother and sister in law, I realized I had been mistaken the ending of this book for the ending of Eulalia. So I don't remember anything about that book. I've started it again and I remember really liking Maudie, but that's another post.
Is this the first mention of cauliflower?
Does anyone else want to hear The Bellringers Burial? 
liars. If I believed ye, I’d finish both of ye right now just t’save any poor beast the misery an’ shame of havin’ the like of you as fathers. Is quite possibly the best drag in any redwall book.
There's more species and social class specific quirks. 
The river’ogs are another concept that's rare, but allus welcome. Trajidia is the best. 
Chapter 9’s art is the tapestry of Martin. It shows the Late Rose, something I don't remember any other book mentioning, but it's possible I simply missed it. I remember it being a stained glass window but maybe that's a TV thing. I know it's an actual rose on the grounds but it's mentioned rarely after Martin the warrior 
This one leans harder into the socialization aspect of fretful females and fighting males than nearly every other book in the series. The only exception is Flib. 
though I recall, your voice sounded rather different.” the rest of the scene plays out and confirms; while animals are possessed by Martin, he also changes their voices to his own. Kind of creepy. 
I'd rather hear about the adventures of Oakheart and Marjoram as children than the rest of the story. 
Forgot that it took 16 books to get a second fighting mole (I consider Arula one) and the first capital Warrior in the series ever. 
And 21 books to have a female badger get the prophetic dreams to go to Salamandastron. Also I knew the name Ambrivina but I forgot who had it. 
Three animals are killed and it seems to be rushed through by the narrative. Lessens the impact. 
This entire concept just has no steam behind it. The children are missing but there's been little to no established outside communities in mossflower in the series so where did these children come from? Are they all orphans?
Some characters are so uninteresting that we’re constantly reminded of their relationship in proximity to the main characters bc they have nothing else. It's very bad regarding Clarinna and Clerun. I will say the scenes with Clarinna and Buckler in the end are very endearing. 
Vilaya has a title and a maid but nothing makes her special besides being the third female antagonist and also a sable I guess. 
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#ttpd analysis day seven - Fresh Out The Slammer
this track is one of the most poignant ones to me in the album. it holds a few different emotions, initially hope, then at the end there’s this sort of sadness like the narrator is telling themselves it’ll work simply because it has to. there’s an already weary foreboding in it. like be careful what you wish for. anyway -
the first verse is FULL of callbacks to previous lyrics that help paint a picture:
Another summer, takin' cover / I've loved you three summers now
Rollin' thunder, he don't understand me / called the rain to end our days of wild
Splintered back in winter, silent dinners, bitter / this has a mix of evermore x tolerate it references, even the dinner scene in the ATW short film can be pictured
He was with her in dreams / okay so this lyric i’ve seen some discussion about. to me, it’s a direct reference to sometimes I wonder, when you sleep, are you ever dreaming of me? basically, the narrator once wondered that about the muse, and now the muse is thinking/dreaming about someone else. it could be a different person than the narrator, or even an idealized version of the narrator (like the toy version in MBBHFT). but basically this means that at this point they were checked out of the relationship. in a positive (at the time?) outcome she later says I’m the girl of his American dreams so it sounds like they both have someone else they’re connecting to
Gray and blue and fights and tunnels / blew things out of proportion now you’re blue x I turned around before I hit the tunnel
Handcuffed to the spell I was under / in that lavender haze
For just one hour of sunshine / And now I see daylight, I only see daylight this also references the line in So Long, London a moment of warm sun
Years of labor, locks and ceilings / gold cage, hostage to my feelings x staring at the ceiling with you x drew a map on your bedroom ceiling
In the shade of how he was feelin' / I love this lyric, but basically it’s a general reference to the blue/blues/depression
Camera flashes, welcome bashes / motion capture put me in a bad light
Get the matches, toss the ashes off the ledge / dear reader burn all the files, desert all your past lives
Swirled you into all of my poems / this is another lyric i simply love, it reminds me so much of “I can write you out the way I wrote you in”
okay so all of that brings us to the final verse which, production wise, slows down. it’s like we sped through the past events and arrived at the present. it reminds me so much of folklore, to the house where you still wait up and that porch light gleams / you'd be standin' in my front porch light, and I knew you'd come back to me. the next lyric is where the production slows to almost a stop, like you’re frozen in time there too. the children’s swings makes me think of seven, but the imaginary rings feels like a reference to invisible string. now before y’all come at me, i feel this especially bc of the swirled you into all of my poems like, works can be inspired from different experienced and different people, and i think over time, looking back, they can take on different meanings too depending on the eyes and ears taking it in. i love how she sings the ending but there is such an uneasy sadness considering how hopeful the song starts off. it’s kind of like throughout the song she’s excitedly telling everyone it’s gonna be all right and then at the end she’s trying to convince herself of that
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https://www.tumblr.com/dearweirdme/727362861289144320/httpswwwtumblrcomdearweirdme7272030984461680?source=share and this is why I keep saying that hybe truly doesn't care about tae's image and wellbeing, it's all about closeting, silencing him and punishment for his boldness, the tn thing is obviously a pr stunt I saw ppl who believed it bc of gh pics doubting it after the Paris walk , like it was so obviously staged and everything following by jn own staff was made to maximize the rumor not to kill it, that's textbook definition of pr ( and yes offense to that anon: you should buy a brain if you think those badly edited pictures are real and that a company and an artist would just simply allow to have their real private lives violated for a year without doing anything at all and if you think any company would allow such a bad roll out for a real relationship, that would only harm their own partners and make ppl not to take them and their relationship seriously, it only makes sense when you look it through the lens of blantly keeping the speculation by not confirming nor denying bc that's what maximizes the attention, literally mediaplay) but Tae has too many ppl that already hated him in a very organized way way before those rumors (jokers created and still fed by the company) and they will always want to think the worst about him to pay attention and apply common sense, and the company knows that and they still didn't care, they didn't care about the negative repercussions he'll have to deal with and they haven't made any strategy to deal with that, they keep feeding jokers bc their priority is protecting jk from his real gay rumors now that he is under scooter wing ( no one takes jikook seriously besides their own shippers and there's nothing to dig up there, it's your typical kpop fs ship with lots of company content ) and also protecting him from pjms and jokers who would turn of him for being more successful than jm by giving them content and showing them as close (they were already doing that and pjms are still furious), jk is the member they have invested the most and his relationship with Tae has always been a risky thing that could make their investments go to hell, I do think there must be something on it for Tae for him to accept too ( I believe a lot of coercion too) but ultimately this serves many purposes and shutting Tae up must be one of the upsides for hybe and they'll keep it like that bc they don't care and have never cared about Tae being hated massively and having his image tarnished, he isn't the priority, their money is.
Hi anon!
I don’t really agree about the company protecting Jk more by playing into Jkk. There has not actually been much Jkk-ing this year I think. Jkkrs themselves were in scrambles because they got so little, some even jumping ship because of it. I think there has actually been more real Tkk moments than real Jkk moments since solo era started.
But I do think your mention of Jkkrs is an interesting one, because Jkkrs do play a part in the whole Taennie rumor mill. They keep the rumors going and they emphasize those every chance they get. I wonder if the company took that into account when this pr-stunt was concocted. They ofcourse took into account Tkkrs, and Army as a whole.. but would they have considered Jkkrs? Possibly not. Maybe things did get out of hand a bit and that’s why Tae seemed to leave ship after Paris so fast.
Companies are all about money, but the money is where the artist is. If Tae does well the company does well. Though Tae gets hate, I think for the most part he is very loved. If they keep the Taennie moments away (by backlisting questions, no linking them, no sightings, maybe some shade by Tae himself) things should settle soon enough. Right now things seem a bit more tense, because there is anticipation. I think we’ll get a taste of what it’s going to be like real soon. Jennie won’t be a topic. Maybe she’ll be linked to someone new soon, and than it’s going to be over.
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facelessxchurch · 2 years
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Alright, now that we got the basic unbiased info established and out of the way, here are my personal thoughts:
First Impression: That cover is ugly as Hell. It has the same pale blue I disliked about the HBL cover but has swapped the ugly neon yellow with a somehow even uglier neon green. And randomly threw in a neon magenta for the secular title.
This is visual vomit, my eyes feel assaulted and I am sickened to my core.
Regarding the story, I'm very unhappy that it's set after UtE. For all I'm concerned the last book ruined the universe and made Val too OP for there to even be a chance for any story set in that time period to be even remotely good.
The title is so fucking generic too.
The Artwork: I don't like it, especially not the cover. I know I said I really wanted an SP comic, but I said that under the assumption Todor Hristov (the Grimoire comic artist) or someone with a similar style would be drawing it. Instead we get this.
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It's this cheap classic American comics style which I despise so much and not the more 'painterly' European graphic novel style I much prefer. This is ironic bc the main artist is from Northern Ireland. I do get that Landy likes this style bc he's probably nostalgic for it, but quite frankly, the classic comic style is a big part of the reason why I never really got into comics.
I would have loved to see how Todor Hristov draws the nasties, but I dread to see how THIS artist would draw them.
While this is mostly a personal taste thing I also see a few things I would say are art sins. Like the shading on the lower part of the hair. Why would you cross hatch/texture shade there. The shading lines should go with the flow of the hair like it was done for the top part of the hair. One eye brow is thicker than the other. And the way the nose is shaded makes it look like the face is looking to the viewers left while the nose seems to be pointing towards the right?? The nose shading is super weird in general. No idea what's going on there.
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And I dislike the way the skull was stylised. Too long upper jaw, to short lower jaw. And why is his jaw so wide??
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Considering that Landy is writing this and he's going full control freak on it again, the art is the only thing an SP comic would have going for it. And so far, I don't like what I'm seeing.
They could have at least put more effort into the cover art considering that's what makes people pick up a comic in the first place :/ (comic cover art is often not done by those that illustrate the actual comic)
Regarding the TheBookSeller Article (there is alot to unpack here)
" The 144-page, full-colour graphic novel Bad Magic will be a completely new “self-contained story” which builds its own distinct lore separate to that presented in the book series."
I'm ok with the selfcontained part. But why does it have different lore from the main series?? It's not only set in the same universe it's the same goddamn characters!
"The author explained: “I didn’t want it to be just for the hardcore [Skulduggery] reader or even the casual reader. You can pick it up even if you’ve never read a Skulduggery book."
Yet ANOTHER entry to the series. A sure sign that things are going well regarding this IP. (sarcasm)
"Introducing a graphic novel to the universe was then a “natural fit” for a Skulduggery story and tied with HarperCollins’ desire “to lead the market and do different, new, exciting things”."
"Bad Magic arrives when graphic novels, spearheaded by Alice Oseman’s record-breaking Heartstopper series, are becoming increasingly popular [...] Yet the timing is, in part, due to luck: “We sort of loved to say that it was a clever plan, but it also ended up being serendipitous,” says Lake. Landy concurs: “The new emphasis that is now on graphic novels ever since Heartstopper is fortuitous; it’s not the impetus [for Bad Magic], it’s not how it started.” 
"Bad Magic will undoubtedly tap into the pool of Skulduggery readers while hoping to entice new ones and appeal to the growing graphic novel audience."
Landy might have been wanting to do an SP graphic novel for a long time, but I'm sure that the reason HC greenlight it as bc comics are currently THE thing. In their minds anyways.
Seems like HC wants to use the current trendy thing to breath new life into Landy's dying IP.
"Readership has always been at the centre of Landy’s ethos: he will always add an extra element, such as an extra chapter or a deleted scene, to every new edition of his books."
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Oh please, if he respected his fanbase his writing in phase 2 wouldn't have been so goddamn lazy. Every fight scene that was meant to be one of the big ones was either vaguely described or not at all. The pandering is half assed and ill-informed and releasing the Grimoire in the state it was in was an insult to his readers. Not even the bootlikers could bother faking liking it.
And adding 'something extra' to new editions is the exception, not the rule. Plus, I know examples of deleted scenes/What-Could-Have-Been, but I'm not aware of him adding new chapters to books?? Do they mean the short stories?
"Unlike other prequels which act as an opening into the world, Hell Breaks Loose requires the reader to have already read the entire series. [...]“If you’re a fan, even though it’s not book 16, you need to read it.”"
That's in direct contradiction to how HBL is marketed as entry point for new readers tho.
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"It [HBL] definitely hinges on reading all 15 books, because it deals with a piece of the series’ history, [...] The novel promises to reveal two things “that will blow the fans’ minds"
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"Bad Magic and Hell Breaks Loose are the first steps in an extensive publishing plan for the Skulduggery universe. “The excitement doesn’t stop after 2023,” Lake notes, with plans for the 20th anniversary of the first book in 2027 and into 2028. A redesign of the backlist can be expected, alongside “very, very, very secret things”."
Ah, so this is the rebranding Landy was talking about. So all new covers will be a fucking eye sore. Great. Amazing. Can't wait to bleach my eyes out.
I thought it was finally over with phase 2 but they have plans at least 5 years into the future. How are they still going?? Globally phase 2 is a complete failure. Despite multiple attempts SP never became popular in America and I know that at least Bulgaria stopped translating and in Germany the book stores have like 2 SP books max when there used to be big displays for every release. And the fandom is pretty much on life support. Half of it hates Landy's guts anyways.
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1 6 9 16 forrr anyone from ironbloods?
THANK YOU ILY
1. what do they carry on them at all times?
kiraan: this hand crafted beaded bracelet anjali made for him. it says "kiki" and is different shades of pink
anjali: a necklace with a butterfly made out of different colored wires and beads that kiraan crafted for her<3 also earrings to ward off cold from shiban
xiǎo hé: red thread woven between his braids. it's the last thing he has connecting him to his little sister, since that's what she'd always decorate his hair with, no matter the style.
zofia: a locket from her sister and a charm she'd snagged out of shiban's father's trophy room on a dare. she has it attached to her sword
laithe: charms each of their siblings made them !! they're all attached to their waist and they like to think the charms give them good luck
shiban: a ring that zofia had made him out of flowers (he'd used magic to preserve it), and eventually a leather bracelet from anjali
eden: an embroidered scarf from their sister. they'd considered ruining or burning it far too many times, but it hurt too much to leave behind
6. do they own anything that would make them embarrassed if someone else knew/saw?
kiraan: he has a secret, fond love for superheros so his part of his shared room with anjali is DECKED OUT in drawn posters, old comic books, and fanart
anjali: she doesn't really get embarrassed about anything? she's upfront. what she likes is what she likes and the same goes for what she owns
xiǎo hé: an old stuffed animal that helps him fall asleep and chases off nightmares
zofia: has a bunch of little figurines that she loves to collect which goes against her yk pirate demeanor so she gets flustered when people find out
laithe: not really but they do draw a bunch and sometimes that includes studies of the people they're with so if said people ever saw those drawings they might die (even though said drawings are nothing bad)
shiban: lots of plants surprisingly my guy has a secret greenhouse
eden: they don't get embarrassed
9. what color dominates their wardrobe, if any?
kiraan: lots of black and green
anjali: PINK
xiǎo hé: black and silver he needs a wardrobe change I know
zofia: purple!!
laithe: varieties of browns and blues
shiban: white
eden: yellow surprisingly
16. what scents do they enjoy? (either to wear or for things like candles or incense)
(i took liberties with this question bc it isn't necessarily wearings or things you can stuff in a candle)
kiraan: lavender:) he's such a lavender guy and I cannot blame him
anjali: the smell of chai. it reminds her of her dad<3
xiǎo hé: rain / how the earth smells right after it rains
zofia: campfire smoke
laithe: any flower tbh but they really really love the smell of tulips
shiban: yk how the air smells crisp right after it snows? that
eden: coffee WHFHSJ
send me oc questions!!
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robotslenderman · 2 years
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I might have posted about this already but I can't find the post.
Something my psych is working on with me is allowing me to express myself in non-verbal ways around my parents and desensitising myself to their inevitable "ew, Dusty's being weird again" microexpressions. We spent a couple of sessions talking about clothing, and letting me wear weird shit and learning to deal with the microexpressions, but decided it wouldn't work bc buying a new wardrobe in my country is expensive as shit.
But just after our last session I realised that there was something I could do that was similiar: paint my room a colour I wanted! As a child I always wanted it to be purple but my parents never let me. At best I'd get this pathetic pastel colour. Ew. No real purple, no royal purple, which is my favourite shade. Generally I got stupid boring pale colours. When I repainted my room in my early 20s I didn't even consider going for the purple my parents always hated, I went for an off-white that wouldn't clash with any of my prints... but there was the slightest purple tinge to it.
So Sunday I went to Bunnings and got a bunch of purple colour cards (I think they're called paint chips in the US? The blocks of cardboard that are as close as possible to the actual paint colour) but I also picked up a couple of shades of another colour. This colour is also bright and bold, none of that washed out crap, and complements the other features of my room well so even if I decided purple didn't work it was still a nice, bright colour that had some fucking personality. Incidentally, it's the favourite colour of a queer neurodivergent coworker of mine who I don't speak to on a personal level, but am on very good terms with, and she supported me through a sexual harassment issue that spooked me so much I almost noped out of that job before I'd even consider reporting it. She helped make me feel safe enough to report it, encouraged me to do so, and was there every step of the way.
...
Monday she didn't come to work. Last couple of weeks she'd been going home early some days so when one of the bosses (I have two, it's complicated) said she was sick all week I thought, okay, she's clearly Going Through Some Stuff and needs to take a mental health week, she mentioned she's had a history of being under a psychiatric hold before, she's been showing warning signs , she'll feel better after she's had some time off, it's just a preventative thing, she'll be okay.
Then yesterday there was a meeting and grandboss said she was in hospital. And I'm thinking oh shit oh shit it's clearly really bad but at least she got help before --
aaaaaand then he says there was an "incident" that landed her in the hospital and klaxons are fully blaring.
They kept things no more specific than that, for all the coworkers know she got stabbed or something, but then my
stupid
fucking
manager
decided that now was a GREAT TIME to start talking about the importance of taking mental health seriously and as well meaning as she genuinely was clearly did not spend TWO SECONDS TO THINK ABOUT THE IMPLICATIONS OF DISCUSSING MENTAL HEALTH WHEN WE'VE JUST BEEN TOLD THAT A COWORKER IS IN HOSPITAL FOR UNDISCLOSED REASONS, YOU COULD HAVE LITERALLY TALKED ABOUT THIS AT ANY OTHER TIME BUT NO YOU HAD TO DO IT RIGHT FUCKING NOW DIDN'T YOU?!?!!!!
so now there's no fucking way my coworkers didn't rub two fucking braincells together and come to the obvious fucking conclusion that my coworker tried to fucking kill herself and has psychiatric issues, THANKS YOU FUCKING IDIOT.
The grandboss was a witness but I sat on it for a couple of hours thinking, if I'd just tried to kill myself and my boss strongly implied that it happened to my coworkers, what would I want my coworkers to do about it and decided that the answer to that was "raise hell" and then emailed my grandboss going "so hey that thing boss said during the meeting that you saw? WHAT THE FUCK, THAT WAS NOT OKAY????" but like, professionally, and also somewhat meekly because "raise hell" is something I'm still practicing and I barely have a spine right now so I considered it a victory that I said anything at all and wouldn't allow myself to not say something so I compromised by basically being like "I'll trust your judgment on this if I'm overreacting" (which I am already kicking myself about)
He did not reply that day, or for the first three hours of my shift which I spent feeling completely fucking unhinged because my brain had decided to give me a delayed reaction to yesterday's news and on the brink of a total fucking meltdown, especially because I was in sensory hell as the phones would not stop ringing and I had two urgent issues to deal with that took far too fucking long to deal with do you know how fucking pants-shitting it is to get technical issues on a study that involves someone in critical condition and every single IT person you ring about it is like "WELL THAT SURE IS A PROBLEM YOU HAVE, GOOD LUCK LOL" and then it takes two hours to fix bc the only guy who will actually fucking help you just dips halfway into giving you support bc he has a meeting???!? WHAT PART OF URGENT BRAIN SCAN DO THEY NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND?????
THE MEDICAL SYSTEM, LADIES AND GENTLEFOLK, IS RUN ON DUCT TAPE AND A PRAYER AND RELIES ON A WHOLE LOT OF PEOPLE WHO DO NOT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU EVEN WHEN YOU ARE ACTIVELY DYING
anyway between several hours of that and feeling the delayed reaction to yesterday's news start kicking in I was like
youtube
I was the most senior person in the office today (the fuck????) so my coworkers were asking for my help every five seconds on top of the sensory overload, boss nagging me because I dropped a single ball out of all the stuff I had in the air (please excuse me if I didn't look at a chatroom while I was FRANTICALLY REFRESHING FOR TWO HOURS WAITING FOR THAT BRAIN SCAN TO COME IN. YOU KNOW, THE ONE THAT WAS A MEDICAL EMERGENCY???), delayed freakout and this technical issue bullshit and while I love it when my coworkers ask for help today I was not in a good place AT ALL to cope with that so
I just fucking left.
I went home told boss "nope I can't cope with this, I'm taking the rest of today off", then continued to have a meltdown into the afternoon so asked if she was comfortable with me taking the week off (bc all my coworkers must be p damn upset with what happened to my hospitalised coworker too so I can't pretend I'm the only one affected). she said yes but gave me a small bit of good news that coworker isn't as bad off as I thought, but that still doesn't mean much because it takes a LOT to get a psychiatric hold.
Then I came home and stress cleaned and stress painted. and then got distracted briefly when my mother got a tick and I had to go out and buy some different tweezers because normal flat tweezers are useless for ticks and do you have any idea how fucking hard it is to yank those fuckers out they are stronger than fucking Hercules
anyway I'm still neurotic and off my fucking rocker but at least I've made cleaning progress and painted some bits of the wall with the paint samples.
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I don't know if this is like, a weird thing to send an ask about, but I am so relieved to find someone else who doesn't like akeshu TuT I feel like one of the only ones,,,
(this is @illulamati btw im just on anon bc tumblr is stupid and wont let me choose which blog I ask from. Not that you know me but still)
@illulamati You're all good lol
And yeah, I get that. It's like *the* most prominent P5 (and Persona in general) ship. Like, I get the enemies to lovers vibe, but I could really never get into it. It's just this thing where I can't bring myself to ship two people where one was actively trying to murder the other one - it just doesn't sit right for me. (I'm also notoriously bad at multishipping, and I've shipped Shukita for way way longer than I've ever even considered Akeshu as a ship, so that also definitely plays a role for me)
And like, I mean no shade to the people who do ship it - I genuinely don't care what other people ship and I'm not trying to start drama or be hateful or anything - it's just that weird thing where it's everywhere and my mild aversion to it has just gotten worse and worse because of how much I see it around. I have the tag blocked on here, but I still do come across it quite often.
But yeah, I do definitely get what you're saying where it feels like there's no one who doesn't ship it lol. There definitely are a few people around though
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interstitial-magica · 3 months
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nobody follows me here anymore so it's probably the safest place to vent lmao.
realizing that a lot of the disconnect when it comes to how i interact with art/fiction and how other people - even people i consider friends - interact with it stems from like.... them treating it as homework. that's the best way i can describe it i think. y'know. first the assignment was "look for the most Ideologically Pure piece of art to interact with and then as soon as it depicts anything a darker shade of gray than #FAFAFA burn it to the ground and immediately start looking for a replacement" and now it's more "if a work of art/fiction tackles (x) dark subject matter, criticizing it at all is Sex-Negative Puritanical Anti behavior that makes you a cop/class traitor/queerphobe/tenderqueer pansy/[insert attack of character of choice here], and we don't want to be that, so we must avoid saying Uncouth Things and actively retraumatize ourselves even if the work is dogshit or even could simply be improved upon."
and then, of course, because they've been treating it as a homework assignment this whole time, they come up to Me assuming that i have Also been treating it as a homework assignment, like "oh man, i'm so glad we're done with the Old Assignment and have collectively agreed it was stupid, i know it was really bad for both of us - but now we can move onto the New Assignment!" and like. well. sure. you can do that. but i was not aware that this was a homework assignment. i was just experiencing art. not to make myself sound like dull and uncurious or anything - if something gets recommended to me i Am going to check it out. the only thing that changes is whether i check it out expecting it to suck donkey balls or expecting it to be good. sometimes i'm right and sometimes i'm wrong. sometimes i learn something new about myself or the world around me and sometimes i have previous beliefs reinforced, both positive and negative. and i enjoy talking about all of these experiences (or at least i Would enjoy talking about them if i found anyone who feels the same way) because that's just what interacting with art/fiction Is. it's not a fuckin' homework assignment, at least not past k-12. and it never Was one for me.
not to Unironically find moral superiority in being a hater but is there just no place for this kind of dissection anymore? am i just expected to be an eternal asskisser and cast aside the boundaries it took me fucking Decades to set up the same way i was expected to immediately cast aside anything that spoke to my darker feelings as a youth bc it was ugly? is the only explanation for these feelings really just. ignorance? is that the only way people see me? how.... dismal! i don't want to lose friends over this but if this is what i'm losing them over then maybe it's for the best! i just wanna look at some fuckin guts and wires in peace! damn!!!
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icharchivist · 5 years
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sometimes you see shitposts that suddenly make a thing you listen ways more funny than it should be and therefore right now listening to the first hpm’s song, Ramuda’s “please dry your tears, ‘cause your sleeping smiling face is so cute”, there’s always a little gremlin voice in my head to tell me “Ramuda had to specify sleeping to remind everyone He Fucks” and well i guess it’s working as a reminder but i feel like Daisu walking on Ramuda in We Only Want To Party With You now, and it is terrible.
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