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itskennyphresh · 9 hours ago

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#I don’t want to be alive #i’m tired of existing #32 years on this earth is more than enough #I need it to END

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ash-unhinged444 · 5 months ago

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Rant?

Can we just talk about how attachment issues and like fear of abandonment ALMOST ALWAYS FUCKS YOU IN THE ASS?

Like

Literally, it bends you over and fucks you. Over and over.

You sit here and you think ‘oh hey. Maybe this time it will be different…’

Then you get that pit in your stomach? You know the one..

Then ? You’re awake when you should be asleep and you wanna cry but you can’t because if you would’ve listened to the voice inside you, then you wouldn’t be in this position yeah? DUMB ASS. You are a dumb ass who obviously doesn’t listen.

And then you just repeat the same cycle and same shit over and over and over expecting a different result(:

STUPID.

#this is a girlblog #lgbtq+#tw selfhate #self hatered #i don’t want to be alive #welp #that lasted about as long as I thought it would.#tw depressing thoughts #i want to disappear

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vacantgodling · 8 months ago

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gender dysphoria is BAD today boys :)

#i want to rip my skin off #i don’t want to be ALIVE #haven’t felt this bad in AWHILE #talking

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piercedbritt · 2 years ago

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I dont want to let you in any further.

Just leave me alone already.

I will not create another obsession.

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sludgepudge · 14 days ago

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*taps mic* anyone else in here feelin real suicidal tonight?

#i don’t want to be alive #literally would rather be dead #kms #pills or a gun

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kamajisplace · 1 year ago

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DID WE COME FOR ME TODAY SPECIFICALLY I did not ask or want to be accosted by all these mf thilbo memories today but god damn, no sleep for me THANKS TUMBLR

Thranduil [to Tauriel]: What do you know of love? Nothing! What you feel for that dwarf is not real. You think it is love? Are you ready to die for it?

And immediately after that Bilbo runs to Ravenhill to warn Thorin. Runs through the fire of war and the horror of surrounding death.

Because his feel for this dwarf is REAL. Because this is LOVE. And he is READY TO DIE for it.

#hobbit #the hobbit #bilbo #bilbo baggins #bagginshield #ihobbit #thorin #thorin oakenshield #thilbo #get out #get out this is the saddest fucking scene ever #“look thorin the eagles are coming #I don’t want to be alive

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myrainbowtornadoworld · 1 year ago

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I want to be alive

#I say to myself while rocking back and forth #trying to convince myself I’m fine #please let me be fine #I don’t want to be alive #i don’t want to feel like this anymore #d3pression #d3pressing #su1c1d3 #su1cide #su1c1d4l #su1c1dal #suic1de #depr3ssion

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rystiel · 9 months ago

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i keep seeing people say the doctor shouldn’t have feelings for rogue because he’s married to river…? river song… who has also married multiple people… one of the most polyamorous characters in the show…?

#i think the only issue river would have is that she wasn’t there to witness it #ngl #plus when has the doctor ever been strictly monogamous???#even when he was infatuated with rose he still had feelings for other people too #madame de pompadour anyone ??? hello?? 😭#and river’s been gone for multiple regens now… is the doctor meant to never have a relationship ever again or what #gonna be real i think if rogue was a woman i’d be seeing less Ummm He Has A Wife The Doctor Wouldn’t Cheat Like This takes #i really don’t think the doctor & river were ever strictly only with each other bro like they’ve always had a more open relationship anyway #🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️#doctor who #15th doctor #rogue doctor who #river song #timerogue #dndoctor #yowzah #twiver #ehhh yeah.#y’know ????#also as people have mentioned she’s dead #i didn’t make that part of my post bc timey wimey whatever people still want her to return somehow #so if she *was* alive and the doctor wasn’t literally a widow… she’d have no problem with rogue 😭😭#keepin this post ambiguous for u river return truthers

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aclockworkreader · 1 month ago

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a bit of a personal ramble because fuck it, i’m posting whatever i want on here:

the past couple years have been some of the most difficult of my life. my mom being unexpectedly hospitalized twice, the worst creative burnout of my career, the grief of reading the news about palestine every day, deep rooted anxieties about not being good enough resurfacing at an all time high, and realizing i was unhappy around people i thought i’d love forever. without getting too dark, i’d never felt more hopeless.

but even through all of that, even with the state of the world right now and the impending doom of waking up each day, i think this might be the most fearless i’ve felt in a very long time.

i just want to be alive and create and build community and share a space where we all still feel hope for our world. and that’s what i’m going to do, through the fear, through all the shit of life, i’ll be here.

#tldr #i’m getting my personality back #i know i don’t owe anyone an explanation #but if you’ve been wondering why i’ve been so absent from youtube this is why #it’s been a very bad time #but i truly do feel so much better now #and i miss you all so much #and i’m so grateful to have our community #and i never want to take it for granted #i’m excited to try new things #share new projects with you!!#sorry i’m getting really sappy #but i love you all deeply #and it feels so good to feel alive again #a clockwork ramble #that’s gonna be my new tag

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artby-mld · 4 months ago

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As the World Caves In

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ash-unhinged444 · 5 months ago

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You’re gonna sit here. And say something . WORD FOR WORD

Then

ILL SAY ‘I’m sorry I guess I should do - - and -‘

AND THEN YOURE GONNA SIT HERE SND SAY

‘I didn’t say that’

IM

Fucking

Sorry

WHAT?!

Am I going balls to the wall insane?!!! Or did you just fucking gaslight me? AS IF IM STUPID

#toxic relationship #toxic family #i don’t want to be alive #personal #mine #thoughts #rant #I’m done #dead #killmeplesde

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lazylittledragon · 9 months ago

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does anyone else experience the adhd-created nightmare of having to choose between having a healthy daily routine and getting anything done at all

#ramble #i can either eat 3 balanced meals a day or get a decent amount of work done #once i start i’m there for 10 minutes or 12 hours with no in between #this is what hell is #does anyone want to give me thousands of pounds for a diagnosis so i don’t have to choose between earning money and keeping myself alive

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deadsouls-is-canon · 2 months ago

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Universally known criminal mastermind, family patriarch, construction magnate, and all around badass, Majima Goro, everyone 🧟‍♂️🧖🏻‍♂️

#rgg #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza dead souls #majima goro #it’s a good thing he’s so pretty because he is breathtakingly stupid #I want to live here please don’t make me move on to Yakuza 5 now that I’ve finished Dead Souls #Majima gets THIS close to getting blown by Daigo Dojima in drag #Akiyama pilots a murdercoptor #Ryuji is alive and sweet talks every hostess like the smooth motherfucker he is #Kiryu gets mistaken for a Majima boy #Hana is there #this game has everything #game of the year every year #j original

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vigilskeep · 4 months ago

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the lucanis romance pacing is kind of objectively terrible, no idea what the writing thought process was, but it’s so funny in-world that it basically circles around to a win for me

#veilguard spoilers #further spoilers for it ahead:#so you almost kiss and then he walks away. which does not lock in the romance #then he makes a dessert—for the whole party to be clear—that is meant to go with rook’s favourite drink they mentioned earlier in the game #and if you respond to this positively. you are now locked into an exclusive romance #you do NOT get that kiss. you do NOT talk about the relationship. you don’t even talk about IF you’re in a relationship #and then there is a massive yawning void of content through a huge part of the game #including his personal quest which has to my memory basically no acknowledgement of the romance at all #it’s kind of hysterical #the party is for sure talking like we’re in a relationship #i think maybe THEY had to experience the dessert thing—again it was for the whole party though at least the conversation wasnt in front of #them thank god—and THEY made assumptions?? which is why we’re exclusive. bc everyone else thinks we’re dating. LMAO #lucanis is truly the worst man at this alive and sol finds it excruciating how bad they want him about it #what else is new.

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julietwiskey1 · 3 months ago

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I genuinely believe that Jinx is still alive. The final shot was of an airship leaving, similar to the first shot of Powder (after the bridge scene) watching an airship go overhead. Powders first spoken line was “one day, I’m gonna ride in one of those things.”

Pair this with Caitlyn holding Jinx’s bomb fragment while looking at ducts leading out of the hexgate. Along with the last memory shown with Jinx being from Vanders POV and not Jinx’s. I think Warwick must of let her go or something, seeing Powder again in the monkey bomb. Whatever was left of Vander let her go.

#jinx arcane #arcane #arcane s2 spoilers #I don’t think this is denial #genuinely not at all #if it’s what the writers wanted #or a demand from riot #I don’t know #but she is alive

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pansyfemme · 16 days ago

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maybe things will feel easier soon

#i am in the hospital again 👍 but i am safe and figuring out how to heal #i don’t want to disclose much more than that but shit’s been rough #but im alive after all and thats good

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