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I love. I LOVE. Being at work and being like ???? Why am I so tired and angry????? Why is my brain being so gosh darn silley. Why do I want to rip and tear so so badly???? Well turns out. I've been overstimulated and exhausted and in pain and autistic the whole time.
#its been. a fucking weekend#and yeah#i kind of a little bit want to quit my job#i DONT because i LIKE MY JOB#however. objectively funny if someone could see me on the work computers#furiously typing into the indeed search bar like#“jobs where you work with animals instead of people:#i should have got like an animal degree. or done something there#instead im doomed to customer facing roles#i do usually like the job. to be clear#im just exhausted rn and could do with an actual break
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I'm not gonna put this on the other post cuz I don't really want it rebloggable but I do want to specify that like, yes I was being dramatic about Essek in terms of affect, but every part of that post is also quite literally a description of my experience with a creative field that is pretty centralized around a few locations and that has made it stringently difficult to enter and stay in the field. There are obviously monumentally different aspects around those circumstances, but like... look I left Los Angeles literally two weeks after the c2 finale with a very clear understanding that once I did, I was not going back, and that because of that, my career would never look like I'd wanted it to in any capacity, and in fact it was likely that it meant I would not work in the field I'd trained for ever again, and also knew it was the only choice that made sense if I wanted to, like, have a life. And I do! And it's great! And it still makes me very upset to think about for many reasons! So you can see why I have a lot of feelings about the whole situation.
#also to be clear i did not go into the field with some naivete about 'making it'#i started college in a time period where i distinctly recall having conversations with people like#'well it's gonna be hard for everyone to find a job so might as well go try to do what i want'#and lo and behold. it is in fact hard for everyone to find a job. most people i know do not work in the field their degree is in#and if they do they are not paid enough. frankly if they don't they're usually not paid enough either.#I'm sure most people reading this have the same experience but like. i would not even say i was naive about my job prospects at 17 lmfao#basically like. @ everyone like 'okay but this is literally exactly my experience' we are shaking hands#(and this def does apply to a lot of industries it really is fucking. rough. hell world.)#like! i do think a lot of people do not want to recognize that essek is. very relatable. to a decent amount of people.#way beyond the surface level. anyway I'll shut up now
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was really excited for sonic 3 at first but the more information that comes out about it the more nervous i get. we barely even know anything yet and they somehow keep making all the wrong decisions. Come on man.
#first the eggman fatphobia now theyre allegedly picking one of my least favorite fan castings for shadow#i knew they wouldnt pick an actual voice actor but i was hoping at the very least that it would be an idris elba knuckles situation#where they pick somebody no one expected but did a decent job and made it clear that they care about doing the character justice#not just. one of the most popular fancasts. that i happen to really not like#ughhh whatever man#if this is real (which the general assumption seems to be that it is because the site that reported it is usually reliable)#i guess ill give him a chance and actually hear what voice he puts on for shadow before deciding if its bad or not#but im not happy about this decision
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do i believe eddie brock is homosexual or even really into men. no. to be honest. however is he gay for that alien. one hundred fucking percent and it's canonical too
#at LEAST one time he has used he/him pronouns for the symbiote#and they are in love mike costa said so. that's his love. his darling.#so. man. hashtag homosexuality. gay stuff happening in there. can't attest to what's going on exactly but i know it's queer#eddie brock is into women and is also in a deep committed relationship with that slime from space#and when the space slime is around he really barely even looks at women. and the slime gets kinda peeved when he does#was gonna say 'looks at other women'. and you know what. yeah. when he looks at other women. except the symbiote is not a girl#my take on the symbiote is that it has No indentification with the human concept of gender. like i think it Gets it. it's picked it up#from living on earth all this time and seeing into people's heads. but it's like. not human.#same with curse words. it doesn't cuss usually. it knows the words and it could use them if it wants. but it doesn't really want#however. DISTINCT from that. i think the way that EDDIE BROCK sees/feels/interprets the symbiote is something more masculine#or at least more aligned with the male side of a gender binary.#partly because of self-identification with the thing that is literally a part of him. and partly cause he's gay for that thing#believer in. he/they/it symbiote. they/them for people who are speaking about it compassionately as if it's a being of its own.#it/its for people who do Not see it as its own person or whose perspective on it is heavily influenced by the fact that it's not human.#and he/him for eddie brock. for purposes not entirely clear to the rest of mankind but absolutely tied to something gay happening there#i have talked about the symbiote's pronouns so many times with so many people in different distinct conversations this week.#currently doing my job as the world's leading thinker on venom pronoun discourse (as in conversation and theorization. not argument)#venomposting#venom
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#ask to tag#favorites#I've been really super disproportionately tired lately#even beyond the usual debilitating fatigue from my severe chronic illness#so I'm putting myself back on my prednisone in the morning.#it is not a long term solution but it's what I've got.#I've got enough stocked up to take a fairly safe dose until I'm able to actually access a doctor back home in june#cuz I've been struggling physically since way back in july but it's getting to the point where I can't just tough it out anymore#yesterday I was having a lot of difficulty speaking#today I was having a lot of trouble moving at all#and it's not a typical acute flare that clears up after a day.#so like. not in a position to be completely immobilized just yet.#(once I get home our other partner can take care of me and it matters much less if I can't move)#(but my wife can't do that while she's still working this job and our other partner isn't here)#(so. need the temporary power up.)
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Hello miss Marker Bills can I help you…?
#keese draws#oc art#oc#lob corp oc#say hi to marker they’ve been another recent obsession of mine#they come from many hundreds of years ago (they got time warped very sad)#they aren’t particularly broken up abt it tho it all reminds them of the on field duty they used to do in their youth#honestly they’re mostly just dissapointed that the common language is one they’re already well versed in#the corp they worked for had a semi singularity that basically allowed them to catalogue every word that has been or will be#their main singularity involved transferring data to people through music#to be clear data is an unfitting term I just don’t know how else to word it#I guess you could say it transfers a persons experiences? or their state of existence?#like you could use it to transfer one’s knowledge to another but you could also use it to transfer someone’s muscle memory or specific#physical experiences as in like emulating the taste of something they ate or the experience of being drunk#within the corporation that owned this technology there were 5 main branches of experience gatherers who would be used as sources for music#they followed a latter like structure and from bottom to top they were the nose the skin the toungue the eye and the ear#marker spent most of their career there working as an eye but about a decade ago graduated to be an ear#well a decade from their timeframe ofc#this basically made their job to produce and listen to the music of the other branches to make a more central database#back as an eye their job mostly was about reading and learning shit and they are also the ones who usually handle the word semi singularity#so marker is very well versed in an absolute metric ton of languages#and they also just. know a Lot.#they were also pretty stupid rich before yknow getting displaced in time#again they don’t mind especially since the biggest benefit of their wealth from their perspective doesn’t apply now#aka the music the corp created was very sensitive to other sounds so they removed sound from their district#so it’s similar to t corp (I think it was them) where sound was a luxury that only the rich could afford#to most from their time period marker would come off as comically rich due to them being fully willing to speak out loud during casual talk#they joined lob corp simply because they wanted to work in a field vastly different from their old one#since they were rich they got to skip right past the tiers that more involved actually getting your hands dirty and after working as an ear#they found themself increasingly more and more intrigued in actually getting to experience these sorts of things first hand
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Ah, I am desperately, achingly homesick to the point of having difficulty breathing again
and it's two days before my period is due, approximately the time at which Effects usually start hitting me
which aligns more or less perfectly with the day my period started last month also being the day I burst into tears at work, in front of my coworkers, over how homesick I was
......this bodes ill
#me#dear period: please just trigger my temper like usual please. I know how to handle the anger. I'm used to it. it's what you've ALWAYS done#or even just hit me with a flash of inexplicable sadness that clears up in a couple of hours!#do NOT make me deal with the aching yearning weight in my chest bursting-into-tears-if-alone-with-my-thoughts-for-ten-seconds EVERY MONTH#UNTIL I FINISH MY JOB. IN EITHER MARCH OR AUGUST.#however I do have steak pie & cheddar mash for dinner tonight so. comfort food. also treated myself to a nice doughnut
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Update on the bubblegum infractor... or INFRACTORS. Turns out there's a group (likely a sindicate) of them doing this kind of shit around the district using a strange chewable mix where it's safe to mix it on any liquids but once dry, it becomes a somekind of poison. Thanks the people above for these layered gloves and gasmask, but wont change the fact that there's someone out there wanting to get rid of us.
#w corp clerk rambles#w corp#project moon#Now i have to ask the guys at the labs about what's in the mix#Because it can't be any different than your usual poisons#right?#Won't change the fact that we are tryng to do our jobs and people yet likes to be... you know#But it's the city. there's too many bloddthirsty bastards out there#((im considering in tagging my main blog in the blog's description to clear up some confusion but idk#((may delete the OOC tag later
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#it's quite a while that i do a really long rant here#but i really need to get all the shit out from my mind and clear everything inside my brain#and yeah it's actually related with yesterday's race actually#i mean we all always saying that never let sports ruin or dictate our own emotions and other phrases that related with this#but in a serious matter it really really exhausted my mind and honestly yesterday is the peak of it#and the fact is before the race start i was feeling so happy that srg wins mpl malaysia for 2nd time#and i say to myself that whatever happens during the race i should be happy that my fav esports team wins another title this year#but yeah....the race happens and it all just chaos...i mean not that usual chaos but i feel it's even worse#especially after the race#like seriously i should have stay away from any social medias for a while today#because i know how awful the vibes and environment there (and here as well tbh)#but yeah 🥲🥲🥲#like i really expecting that f1 is the only sports out of other sports that i'm getting into with#that i really feel mentally drained and doesn't makes me feel any joy by enjoying it at some point#but yesterday...that's the peak of it#i'm just getting more and more tired of the whole thing happens in f1#and the real life 'job' (more like uni life) doesn't even help me brighten up my mood either#where during app development my group is having a really though situation to going back from the start#in which we had some conflicting on some of the solutions are as same as other one group#and forreal all my groupmates were just fed up thinking about how to came up with new ideas#so yeah it's just this past few hours are just mentally emotionally physically drained out#like i really need to take a break for a while but idk i'm sure#i'll starting to get more and more tasks and assignment for the next few days *sigh*#nahhhhhh i know it's really long rant but i just want to be in a good headspace rn
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Though I do love the details we've been given about Joe and Jack in the books, I do have to point out some differences.
To me, Jack and Joe are two sides of the same coin. Despite having a 2-year difference in age, they're almost as similar as identical twins can get to be. Appearance-wise, Joe does look a little older than Reacher, but they look so similar, in general, that they often get mistaken by one another. Their voices are also very similar; Reacher is just more deadpan about his tone, and Joe makes sure to show much more emotion with his own.
Which leads me to the point of physical prowess and intelligence. They're pretty much the same, with Reacher being much more versed in physical prowess and techniques than Joe, who likes to keep things civil, using his mind instead. This doesn't mean Joe cannot be very violent, or that Reacher is not incredibly smart. They're almost equals, but they prioritize and lean towards different things.
This is why I love the series, because it doesn't shy away from their flaws/handicaps. The dynamic between these two siblings works best when they are juxtapositions of each other, just as awesome but with different flavors. That's what I try to portray with them.
#;; REACHER ;; headcanons.#;; JOE ;; headcanons.#I've always said it but I don't like the overly perfect characters which is why i usually don't like op characters#series reacher is op but well-balanced somehow which is something that people usually fail at doing#that's why I really love him -- he's not perfect and the series doesn't shy away from showing those flaws#or calling him out for it -- he's not always right and he is not always wrong#really recommend the series cause they did such a great job balancing reacher's opness with important flaws/handicaps#it's much more clear in the show that in the books I feel
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What a good episode. Maaaaaan
#I can't even start I'd be here forever#It did take me in fact like one hour total to watch it lmoa. It sooooo good!!! The animation is very good#(albeit it's awfully low on brightness at times. But such seems to be the sin of lot of recent media unfortunately)#but I'm not even going to dwell on that. The plot / storytelling is so good. Sooooo god. I adore this arc.#Love the symbolism. I've been saying this for almost two years now (is it really been that long ever since these episodes came out... ) but#I want to write an analysis on the op & ed so baddd. The emphasis on the twilight this episode!!#Like the sun was setting on the detective agency. I love love love the hd. They're so cool in this episode and they're so cool in general.#I ADORE Jouno. I don't feel particularly strongly for sue/giku yet their scenes are so cute and funny. I see why people ship them.#Even Tetchou I don't usually care much about is so !!!!! I love all the hd so much fr!!!!!!!!!!#I love love love Jouno. Like much like it is for Akutagawa I'm very weak for characters that aren't really good people.#But they're still trying to be a better person than they were. And oftentimes they end up doing a terrible job!!#But the fact alone that they're //trying// has me ougheueueueu. Here in this episode you can see Jouno–#sliping very easily in his cruel / sadistic habits. But he is trying to be a person that cares for others! He made good actions in the past#and he will again in the future even though right now he's acting like this! Because improvement isn't linear! I love him tonsss#And DON'T get me started on the ada. Yosano's “Welcome” scene. I love women. I love women. Yosano please one chance#KENJI'S SCENE God I needed this. How could I forget the way this literllyyyyy rewinded my brain when I read the manga for the first time.#That scene is so deep and poignant and so so meaningful I. Oughhh#I am going to run out of tags am I not#Kyouka saving Atsushi!!!!!!! That scene is one of my all time favourites. It makes me soft to remember when the s4 trailer dropped–#I was so overjoyed for that bit of them holding hands :') Rightfully so!!! It's so cute.#Her coming back to save Atsushi. The “don't worry– I didn't kill them” direct towards Atsushi–#that is so so Akutagawa and it sends me insane hhhhhhgggggggggg#Kunikida!!!!! His “I'm not leaving anyone behind”!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not precisely Kunikida's first fan but aaaaaahhh he makes me feel–#so much for him in this scene!!!!! Mmmhhh one last note would be. It bugs me a little how the ada is defined terrorist by the military–#forces starting this episode? I don't have space to elaborate properly but. An action to be considered terrorism must have clear political–#orientation and goal. Violence alone isn't enought to be defined terrorism. It's an incorrect use of the word#Up to the next episode!!! Can't wait to see more Atsushi 🥰🥰#random rambles#It's late now and probably most are asleep rn... Then I'll be queing my posts for tomorrow probably
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no one take this the wrong way i'm just saying like. sometimes i really get edgeworth's whole faking his death and fleeing to europe for a year thing. like what if i just left the country for a while with no notice. thinking about it.
#chatter#to be clear i do usually read the faking his death part as like#pretty extreme suicidal thoughts and getting real close to action#I AM SAFE I AM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING#just like. what if i left hte country. what if i quit my job and left the country. you know?
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This is super random, but I've recently been watching more German movies (I really enjoyed the performances of some Downfall actors and wanted to see some of their other works), and like what the hell is it with 2000s German movies that there's way too often one entirely random scene with someone having their bare ass out😭😂
Of course it doesn't happen in every movie but still often enough that it's somehow noticeable? I'm not sure if it's more of a time or a country dependent thing, but at least in my perception I just don't feel like this occurs as often in more recent movies and series especially in those from the US (like, I feel I'd have noticed if it did because I'd probably be lowkey annoyed by it😂)
#or maybe the things I tend to be interested are just more targeted at all ages that's why I rarely don't come across it usually idk#I mean in some instances it it's actually sorta plot relevant (like in the final scenes of Napola for example) but in others it's so random#and I'm like ... couldn't you just have lifted the camera angle a couple degrees so we only see that guy from the waist up?#I just feel a little bad for the actors tbh😅 esp in those unnecessary scenes. I mean I guess they knew what they signed up for but still#this is all meant to be /lh to be clear - for the most part I find this literally just hilarious because it's such a random thing#not sure if my asexuality has to do with my perception either. I find it silly and roll my eyes at it but I'm not genuinely bothered by it#but aside from that watching movies because of specific actors can actually be kinda funny#because it makes you take a look at media you'd never have considered otherwise (which can be hit or miss)#like for example now I've watched some of the most random movies ever just because Justus von Dohnányi is in them#(<- he has my recommendation btw. not all of them were even good but I think he's genuinely fun to watch and also kinda adorable tbh)#it's also funny when you watch sth because of one actor and then another one you remember from elsewhere just randomly appears there too#like once I was like 'hey isn't that the guy who played Hewel in Downfall? oh and the one who played that one drunk guy is here too lol'#also idk why but I feel like Thomas Kretschmann is somehow everywhere lmao#I mean it's probably bc he's in a lot of international productions too but still. tbf he doesn't look bad at all#those two and André Hennicke are generally the ones I'm most interested in. maybe Rolf Kanies too#but tbh I feel like he just hasn't been in as many things? idk why though he was so good in Downfall#anyway I think I'm yapping way too much. I just like watching things and talking about them#and seeing actors having fun with their job while also being good at it is just really cool tbh#selnia talks
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I : majored in english, has a masters degree in it, studying philosophy, and have been an English teacher/Junior translator for almost a decade now.
My grandma : there is our future doctor <3
#i still to this day don't know if she's in denial or thinks what i'm doing is a hobby#it gets funnier every time#especially today#i was like 'mimma i just came back from work i'm so tired' and she was like 'i make food right now for our future doctor'#like ???????#grandma i love your food pls don't give it to someone else#who doctor ? doctor who ?#me ??????#that is so NOT my career#my already existing one that i fought my entire bloodline for put aside#i can never be a good doctor let alone willingly choose it#1) i suck at biology and science and those pure memorization shit#2) i'm really sensitive to blood or injuries i might faint at just the mention of certain stuff (surgeries are crossed off i would DIE)#3) it's just not meant to be and that's okay#as a society we can't survive with one or two careers all of them are important in their own way#an exercise i would usually tell my students to do at this topic#is everytime you feel like someone's job is useless to close your eyes and imagine a world without it#if i managed to convince them hurray to them#if i didn't i ask them to imagine someone they care for work hard then get told their job is useless#(that on usually does the trick)#the thing is even if you're stuck with a job you hate or can't find a better one#there's still some impotance to that job in a way like they offer service or blah blah#yet it will suffocate you because it's not the career you were meant to have#that summed up means the work environment/pressure/nature are what we really define as useless because they can be unfair#but not the work itself#when we delete those previous stuff off the definition all careers are equally important#i hope i was clear#and i also hope my grandma remembers that too#story time
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the route setters for this bouldering final really just said fuck short people
#RIP ai mori you were nerfed by those jumps#I feel like they usually do a good job of evening the odds in terms of heigh but#women’s bouldering final#climbing#Innsbruck#clear advantage to being tall tonite#women’s climbing#bouldering
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if im being honest and allowing myself to vent a bit about it ... another red flag was when the DM went 'wow i love the detail of your backstory but idk what i can do with it tho ):'
#[static]#it immediately made me feel bad for trying to make a character work with the aesthetic she had given us tbh#i could already tell she didnt seem to be super character story driven so i just made a pretty simple drifter-type#for a post-apocalyptic setting n such and made a group that tied into the whole over-arching premise#i also literally just did bullet points cuz i could tell she wasn't gonna want to read one of the backstories i usually do#and as someone who has mostly dm'd in the past i did my v best to make a character that was super easy for the dm to incorporate in any way#like a solid reason for being there a reason for wanting to adventure with strangers a reason for seeing the mission through no matter what#made a whole small faction and connected them to the overarching theme and plot in multiple ways#wrote down lore and npcs she could use for the faction if she didnt want to make up her own#like all the works and all i got was two sentences back about it ... one of them being like 'cool but i dont like the extra details'#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh#ok im done yelling now i just need to vent for a second#i feel bad for feeling kinda bummed about the experience because this is the first time i got to play at a physical table in years#and i know how hard it is to DM#but also when you come to the table with zero notes for the first session its ... probably gonna be disappointing jkfghdf#i DID have fun however because the party banter was hilarious and it was fun getting to hang out with ppl!#but communication between DM and players was not great#also let me be clear she did like that i made so many connections and hooks into the story and it helped her a lot#she was NOT interested in my character's past like ... jobs or npcs#but also u could just Not say anything about it and just be like 'sweet cool thanks for the info' LMAo
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