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aviradasa Ā· 3 days ago
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The lost boys main HCs
Paul
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Here are some paul hcs! I hope you enjoy! This is kinda short but i had fun writing it!
If you would like a part two going into more detail about him let me know. I'm gonna be responding to Dwayne's HCS, though. I hate the ones I posted. I'm also gonna be doing an HC/ one-shot series about each of the boys before they found each other/ became vampires, so stay tuned!!
Paul is a younger sibling. When he was alive he had 2 brothers and one twin sister.
He was 19 but going to turn 20 literally like a month before he died and despite how he acts he was the oldest when turned,
If you ask him his age though he will say 20 to fuck with you before pulling the ā€œNah I'm just jokingā€ card and telling you he was only 19
He does that mostly cause he's a little upset he wasn't able to hold out at least another month, so he likes to say what he could have been, but he doesn't wanna lie about his age.
He hates liars.
He also keeps track of every birthday he and the other boys have had since they turned cause he doesn't want to lose track of the years. It kinda keeps him sane a bit.
On a less depressing note
He is also one of the sassiest assholes you will ever meet. He does not think before he speaks and honestly, he doesn't give a damn
I mean y'all hear him when he said the whole ā€œ chill out girl šŸ™„šŸ˜’ā€ line you can't tell me he wasn't annoyed that star was ruining the fun
He also does not give a shit if he hurts someone's feeling with it especially if its someone he doesn't know or does not fuck with, he sees no point in trying to spare the feelings of anyone he doesn't care about
He can also be a bit flirty just in general as a joke or genuinely he is just like that and he dont care what gender it is he will make flirty jokes or comments regardless.šŸ¤£
He is an asshole, but he is quite loyal to the people he loves, surprisingly. But he loves them in his own way. Despite all the teasing, rude comments, cruel pranks, and injuries he may accidentally inflict, he doesn't fuck around with other people pulling that shit.
The definition of ā€œnobody can bully my family or friends but me.ā€
He can be nice sometimes. It depends on whether he's fully sober or not, and then it depends on what he did.
Drunk = steer clear he's gonna say or do some stupid shit that could result in either a fight with somebody random or not,or you all dying.
Stoned = yeah, you have a better chance of seeing him nice with this one. But still, be careful cause high also results in hunger, so don't get bit. he does bite. Remember that.
He also relaxes better after smoking, so he might just sit his ass down for a while, maybe watch a movie.
He's not a TV guy though usually. he finds it hard to focus on shows and movies so he either likes to smoke before watching or else he has to pause it every 20 minutes to get up, walk around, and bitch about loopholes and plot points for a few minutes before he can sit back down and continue it.
He just kinda avoids them for those reasons. He's more of a music guy. Because then he can get up, bounce around, have fun, and not miss anything in the song cause he can do other shit while listening.
The music he likes is rock and heavy metal; I will admit, though, that he is the kinda person to pull the ā€œOh, you know (random band), then name 3 songs.ā€
ā€œ (names 3 song)ā€.
ā€œOh shit cool, what's your favorite.ā€
He does that shit often, actually, but his saving grace is that if you know what your talking about, you now have a new friend to discuss your favorite bands with. šŸ˜­
He keeps his area of the cave a mess but he still knows where everything is. But it's not like a dirty mess; it's mostly just clutter.
He refuses to leave food containers or remains in his room overnight like he can not stand that shit if he's chilling out drawing or something, and he catches the lightest whiff of food smell from a container he finished off not even an hour ago he getting up and throwing it away.
Honestly, that goes for all the boys, to be fair. They don't care about being dirty themselves, but they don't want their spaces dirty if you get what I mean.
Also, he does not like people touching his stuff. Only a select few people can, and that is Laddie and the other boys maybe star once in awhile, and depending on whether you are a close friend or partner, you can, but everybody has to ask unless he says to grab it for him.
He just doesn't want his shit moved cause he's worried he won't be able to find it.
He's not worried about shit being broken cause he will just fix it. Unless it's CDs or records that he can't fix, he will be severely pissed.
But one specific thing you don't under any circumstance touch, grab or even breathe too close to is his sister's old music box. If that gets broken, he will kill you, no questions asked, and he won't feel bad about it, NOBODY would want to/ have the ability to stop him at that moment, so just please don't touch it.
Other than that, he doesn't care. He likes having people come to his space to hang out and keep him company. He also likes showing off all the cool shit he has.
Oh, and the him killing you thing reminds me.
He is scary as fuck when he kills/feeds cause his style is extremely animalistic. He doesn't just tear flesh away or rip a limb or two. He fucking MAULS his kills to the point that if you see the aftermath, you genuinely wonder if it was ever a human or not.
His kills are quick, violent, messy, and sadistic. Cause he genuinely does enjoy the kill, probably more than feeding.
He's an adrenaline junkie, a daredevil, and anything in between, so when it is time, he will find a target, and to be fair, he likes a good chase. So he will probably grab somebody, and when they fight back, he will purposely let them go and give them a head start so he can chase them down just to make the mauling more fun.
When he's done feeding, he is most of the time covered in blood, dirt, leaves, sand, sticks, you name it, and it's probably on him.
He cleans up as best he can before going back onto the boardwalk or heading into town of course. But if they have a late feeding and they have to get back to the cave in a hurry before sunrise. He will stay like that until the next day.
But by the time he wakes up, he hates the feeling of the stuff stuck to him, so he cleans up quickly just so he doesn't have to be uncomfortable lmao.
Anyway, that's it for now. He's just a funny, sarcastic, sadistic, flirty asshole. But we love him. Cause he's Paul.
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davestaresatthesun Ā· 9 days ago
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Doodes
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doomedclockworkdotmp3 Ā· 3 months ago
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heeyyy gaaanggg
the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.
#my art#digital art#digital painting#fanart#resident evil 7#ethan winters#goddd PLEAAASEEEE#i havent known if i was gonna post this or not multiple times in the process of drawin this. but ultimately i spent too much time on it to#NOT post it. embarrassment be damned#but at the same time what am i even doin yknow. what is this what is goin on pleaaseee PLEASEEEEE#I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT RESIDENT EVIL!!! I DONT KNOW N O T H I NG I KNOW LESS THAN NOTHING#HOW?? HOW DID I GET HERE??? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN???? i know exactly the answer to all those questions but it still boggles me how fast this#happened. usually it takes WEEKS if not MONTHS for me to start makin fanart. this was faaasttttt TOO FAST and im like. genuinely constantly#thinkin about this game. im ALWAYS thinkin about this game. part of why this took me so long to do is cause i always wanna play re7 or thin#about re7 in a strange and deranged way. ive actually genuinely been SICK WHAT HAPPENEDDDDDD#im losing it!! anyways this took me a looonggg ass time and i redrew it soo many timmmessss#i did like. 3 lineart passes. the album version i did 3 shading passes. i really struggled!! and ultimately i dont know how i feel about it#like i kinda resent it. for takin so long and makin me suffer so much#never again. never again will i spend that much time on a drawing. i HATE when drawins take a long time. i HATE that. it makes me madddd#ive been insane. ive been so insane. and im not gettin better like i cant sleep sometimes cause im thinkin about this game and this guy and#that gal like i think about them!! so! so much!! oh my god!!#in the time it took me to finish this ive done like 10 sketches for other pieces like. and ive had like 3 ideas ive written down.#and like 50 that i havent written or sketched.#IVE WRITTEN POETRY!! P O E T R Y !!!#i write the occasional poem when im feelin some kinda profound emotion but i NEVER write poetry about media SOBBING#anyways thats the post i think this is the beginnin of the end so lets hold hands and pray. ugh sorry if i get sick. im shakin.
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katabay Ā· 22 days ago
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hello! i'm an amateur/aspiring artist who enjoys your work a lot :D i was wondering where you get references for fashion in your medieval/arthuriana pieces?
museums! a lot have online collections to look at: the met is my go to a lot of the time, and the worcester art museum has the higgins armory collection currently. movies, shows, comics, if they have a costume aesthetic I really enjoy. dover publication has a couple of books collecting medieval fashion over the centuries I like to flip through.
nc wyeth's medieval illustrations, arthur rackham, and john william waterhouse too. medieval tapestries and manuscripts. 13th-16th italian fashion & art. lately I've been playing more with 4th-~11th century roman/byzantine influences! renfaire/medieval reeactment photos are a great visual resource too.
claire hummel's historical fashion resource doc is an excellent starting point and resource, additionally this collection of illustrators.
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deoidesign Ā· 3 months ago
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Someone killed my boss last night and he sent me this I'm so fired
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god I can't wait to make this comic.
#not me making a prelaunch link so I can share it on art of them that I do and then immediately being like hm#feels kind of weird to link a comic that doesnt exist yet#HAHAHAHAH#theres just no pleasing me#oh well I'll stick to my guns. I thought about it a long time#and doing things that feel weird is kind of the name of the game when it comes to making art#we were legion#zagan#this is so funny to me#its like not even that funny but#I love him. idk I think because I know what the comic is gonna be like stuff like this is 1 million times funnier to me#he sucks so bad and it would suck to read if he were the only one in the comic but because luciel is also there#then its just funny. cause juxtaposition#I love luciel too but theyre less good for standalone drawings and memes without comic context#so my brains like erm... theres nothing there....#also my tags are bugging out when I type them on the ocmputer idk how to explain whats happening but its kind of annoying#jumping around all over the place. makes it hard to read while I'm typing them. its fine#if theres typos its cause somethings going weird with my computer#lately when I've opened firefox its just shaking all over the place#til I alt tab out of it and back to it. I have straight up no idea why#and my internet has been bugging out. the LAN connection keeps flickering and then going out...??#YES I switched the ethernet cable connecting the modem and the router NO I dont know whats going on#I dont wanna deaaaaaal wiiiithhh customer serviceeee its fine. I'll do it later if switching the coax cable doesnt help#uh. anyways none of that matters cause I can still make my fuckin comics babeyyy#as long as I've got my comics. I'm good. though it is annoying when I cant look up references or spelling of words cause I do that constant#but its fine!#love I can draw without internet I dont even notice when it goes out sometimes aughajkghagj#anyways I'm super excited about this comic and if you're intereted theres a presave link now so#yeay#I'll post places other than webtoon but I'm just doing webtoon early so TTA readers can switch over easier
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sketchy-tour Ā· 1 year ago
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Me: "Man I already have so much on my plate. So much I wanna draw. So much I NEED to draw. So little time-"
The demons in my head: "WE SHOULD OPEN DRAWING PROMPT REQUESTS!!!"
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astro-g0re Ā· 1 month ago
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Genuinely AI and character ai will never replace the absolute joy and excitement of planning out a whole plot and story with potential reactions, ideas, concept, and art with the other person
The people only using character ai really don't know the soul and fun that comes with doing actual roleplay that stays consistent and won't repeat the same sentence/motion a million times over
#also actual roleplaying to me is genuinely so fun if done right#i will always fight and stand by roleplay#especially since its my way to cope project and sometimes enjoy things i never see#also it improves my writing and art a lot because i will get so invested in scenes that I detail them out or even draw it#plus if you really want you can loosely go off what happens in the roleplay to make into a fanfic for others to enjoy (with permission ofc)#roleplay at least for me keeps my mind active and creative too#cai and all that other rp ai bullshit is all the same where it has it all laid out for you to where it basically limits what you wanna do#ive tried to understand and honestly i dont get it#the characters are never accurate its always bland and there's no fun when you don't come up with ideas with another actual person#hell even characterizing the way you want isn't the same with ai bs because you can't really personalize those characters#sorry for the rant i just really like roleplaying#also before anyone argues about it: as long as they're cool with what you want in an rp and you communicate it you can do whatever you want#we're all freaks here and another freak isn't going to judge you unless you're actively breaking their boundaries or making them uncomfy#trust me there's some people i know that will rp anything as long as its not one or two specific things#and theyre really chill and cool btw#like every interaction and relationship with any being: communication is important and the key
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todayisafridaynight Ā· 1 year ago
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i was playing about dropping Fifty Drawings onto everyone's dashboard this week but the unfortunate reality is i am in fact being assaulted with images
#snap chats#this is what happens when i go on three hour walks i guess#might abandon some but i will spitball the ones on the forefront of my brain..#more for my sake so i dont fuckin forget cause I Am Starting To Forget Already dont read if. you dont want spoilers ???#not y7 spoilers. or i mean i GUESS there'll be y7 spoilers but i mean for my psts. i guess. only i care about that ANYWAY#i wanna draw a comic of aoki getting SOME kind of butterfly memorabilia or something with him and butterflies#i Was having a chortle with myself about Like A Butterfly but i was also like... Yk Butterflies Still Are About Rebirth#lame as hell ik but shut up anyway next one i wanted to do was Troubled Teen Jo getting in a scrap with arakawa#idk if i want this to be AFTER arakawa's become a father or not.. im still chewing on exactly what i want the direction of it to be..#i have an IDEAAAA just.. nothing concrete yet..#and then the one i wanted to see if i could do tonight was Beach Day With The Arakawas :) Cause IDK <:)#i really dont know.. for some reason i just got visions of them three at the beach.. maybe its cause of tonbi idk...#though the more i thought about that idea the longer it got and the more i was like 'maybe i can turn this into a fic instead'#a terrible sentence cause generally i never get anything done when i say that but it'd fr be too long to make a comic of#so at least for now maybe ill make a short fic.. just tryna figure if i want a jo or arakawa pov#i always think of jo's pov so i wanna challenge myself with arakawa. i always focus on jo and his pov of 'becoming a father'#but sometimes i also really wanna explore arakawa's pov on jo becoming another parental figure for masato. or smthn like that idk#ANYWAY LET ME COOK. im not a good chef but i can at least cook an egg lemme see what i got...#bye bye for now ill be in the kitchen (google docs) if anyone needs me..
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jonny-b-meowborn Ā· 2 years ago
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I really miss doing art and I think at this point I've mostly recovered from being overworked with my diploma, I wish I had a desk* so I could draw without having to hold my laptop on my lap and completely busting my spine and knees and wrists
*I do have a desk that belongs to me but my brother keeps occupying it, and if I leave the room for literally more than five minutes while my laptop is on said desk, he will remove it and put his own laptop on the desk
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a-simple-spiders-oc-dump Ā· 3 months ago
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the sillies
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holytrickster Ā· 1 year ago
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sitting there like has my art gotten better over time or do I just add way too much unnecessary detail now
#but lineart becomes honestly really meditative for me at times especially if im adding texture to something#i will say at least i dont pick such ugly colors anymore. i used to always have reslly bright colors and then i thought it was too much#and overcorrected imo so everything was desaturated and boring#oh i also used to color in the lines for like every single color on the character? idk how to describe it but it was tedious#i like it on other people's art but i dont have the patience and i dont like how it looks when my lines are ā€œcleanerā€#sometimes i do miss how i used to not care if what i drew was ā€œcringyā€#but i think im coming back out of that considering all i draw is like. gay shit and elves and various iterations of myself and also my ocs#i should redraw some really really old art after what im working on maybe#i almost started working on a redraw of when i drew yavanna in likr 2017-18 but i dont like the design i gave her at all#minus the weird branch ears those were cool#mostly im just frustrated it still takes me hours to draw lol. i dont know why i get insecure about it or about art in general#i guess bc no one in my family really does so they have this idea im good at it#and i wanna grab them and shake them sometimes and explain all the reasons im actually not and all the mistakes i regularly make#i dont know if that makes any sense and i dont know why i struggle to just take the compliment#i guess because i know im not good enough at it for it to be a job? except thats not it either because ive almost always wanted to write#its very dumb and weird. especially considering i dont really draw for other people. i mean i like when people like my art but unless its#for somebody specific im not necessarily going to take it very hard at all if its not to their taste. i just do it because i enjoy it#and because there are things i only know how to express through writing or drawing. and when one doesnt work sometimes its the other#maybe i just get frustrated i cant be good at everything#its not realistic but i always end up wanting to do so many things and getting frustrated when i dont pick them up right away#because OF COURSE i dont#ok where was i going with this#its nearly 2am and my head is pounding again i dont even know what day this makes it. at least a week?#i dont know
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pup-pee Ā· 6 months ago
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the sneepies sneepers even
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I WANT 2 DRAW A WHOLE COMIC OF THEIR BED TIME ROUTINE BUT 4 NOW ALL I AHVE IS THIS DOODLE
because of @pup-pee now i have to imagine kon going to bed with a cap/bonnet to protect his hair, while bart has an untamed lionā€™s mane. kon spends an hour doing a hair and skincare routine before going to bed, while bart, krypto, and dox are literally eating and running around until the last minute before bedtime. no, bart does not comb his hair. kon wants to cry. bart just yaps into konboyā€™s chest until he passes out. burrito snorkmimimi commences.
#IGNORE KONS EYEBROWS I RLLY DIDNT WANT 2 FILL USUING THIS BRUSH SKFJSK#he will like tweezer them in the morning or smth <33#i dont do backgroundss#i drew 2 technically 2day#y did i doo thaattt#welcome back 2 sasha needs 2 learn 2 use referances#AAAAA#ANYWAYS THOUGHTS BUT I THINK BART WOULD JUST B HAVING A TIME WHILE KON IS DOING HIS STUFF#like he has climbed & falled from the shower curtains sm u dont even know#i wanna say its a bathtub shower bc those r fun#so bart has definitely falled in2 the tub#sometimes he just brings food in2 the bathroom & kon sonewhat loses it#which is kinda what i drew but not#yk like when jr bored u eat food? that but bart doesnt want 2 leave kon bc clingy#that dog picture has no thoughts i just wanted 2 fill the space#the toilet has a bidet#yeah the toilet has lore deal w/it#i just thing theyre so silly & i rlly like thinking sbout them living 2getherrr#BC THEY WOULD JUST HAVE SUCH TEHY WOJLD JYSG IT WOULD JUST AAAAAA#i alos am in firm belief that they would fall asleep ANYWHERE#there r regular pillowforts & yes kon sacrifice so that he can b cuddled by bart its just how it is#bc does he want 2 sleep on the floor where theres prolly alot of dog hair? no. but bart does#kart#puppee art#i cant 4get tags sjjdkdos#also i have kon some details jist lottle 1s bc i decoded 2#this was fun 2 draw#btw ik nothing about hygiene im trying 2 teach myself BC ITS NEVER 2 L8 WOOO so like dont kill me thnxxx <333#me doing research about bonnets/caps bc man ik nothing about them skdjkss but now that ik a little i think that 1nce kon found HIS 1 he#never let it go. if the house is burning hes grabbing it
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sweet1delusi0ns Ā· 7 months ago
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Haikyuu boys n cuddles ā”€ā”€ā˜†*:惻ļ¾Ÿ
Team ! karasuno
Characters: Hinata, Kageyama, Tsukishima, Yamaguchi, Nishinoya, Daichi, Sugawara, Tanaka
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Hinataāœæ
He will do anything to spend all day with you cuddling but bro has places to be yk
But he still tries to cuddle as much as possible even in public. If heā€™s on break and your there he will cuddle up to you in front of everyone, he donā€™t care! Unless your the one cuddling up to him then he will start blushinggg
But mostly yā€™all cuddle at one of your houses. Heā€™s so awake and hyper that he canā€™t stay still but two minutes into the cuddle sesh heā€™s gone. He drools all over you but you donā€™t care, and youā€™ll gladly kiss him awake when itā€™s time to go
He mainly clings onto your side, like he just clamps himself onto your waist or arm and will just stay there! He also likes being held by you but thatā€™s only for special occasions
Kageyamaāœæ
He doesnā€™t beg and whine for cuddles but he will be pissed if he doesnā€™t get cuddles when he wants. He expects you to read his mind; ā€œhow was I supposed to know you wanted to cuddle you didnā€™t say anything?ā€ ā€œI DONT KNOW!ā€
But once he does get them he is very pleased with himself, he feel like he wins since he didnā€™t have to ask even though he was pouting the whole day which is basically the same-
He normally big spoons you while his face is like (Ā¬ā—”Ā¬). If you catch a glimpse of his dumb smirk you tease him which makes him hide in your hair instead~
Heā€™s scared of cuddling anywhere public in any way- he wants cuddles to be private and special! He like just being with you and no one else ok!
Tsukishimaāœæ
He thinks heā€™s so smart trying to make cuddling ā€˜your ideaā€™ even though you didnā€™t even say anything at all. Like random he just walks up to you; ā€œfineee since you wanna whine so much I guess we could cuddle.ā€ You didnā€™t even say anything before he spoke up he was just to shy to admit he wanted to cuddle
He big spoons you but what he really loves is resting his head on your chest and wrapping his arms around you, You play with his hair and call him ā€˜your babyā€™ and at that point he doesnā€™t even try to stop it. He will deny it later thošŸ‘
The only cuddling he really does PDA wise is letting you rest on him. He doesnā€™t care abt all the teasing his gunna get if your tired he doesnā€™t care he will be a pillow. Again he will deny it later even though there were witnesses
Yamaguchiāœæ
Never will he ever ask to cuddle, itā€™s way too embarrassing to ask you heā€™d rather just curl into a ball on top of you and wait for you to acknowledgeļæ¼ him, he always lays on top of you even if heā€™s bigger or smaller than you he doesnā€™t care. He draws shapes on your arms while he waits for attention, he also likes when you pat his head-
Once you finally engage with him he was just start TALKINGG, about anything! When heā€™s comfortable he talks! About his day n such and sometimes he goes ā€œoh do you wanna say something? No? Okā€¦blah blah blahhhā€ you donā€™t mind his yapping at all though
If you try hugging him in public or pulling him in he will just look away timidly and softly push off, hopeing no one sees his red face~
Nishinoyaāœæ
He tries cuddling you literally everywhere. He canā€™t go one second without a cuddle- he could be in the middle of shopping or something and he will just stop, turn around and cling onto you, then after a minute he will get off and act like nothing happened
If you guys r just hanging out at your house and yā€™all decide to cuddle uhm, your going to have to pick the position cuz he can not make up his mind- honestly he just sprawls out and letā€™s you do whatever, normally you just hold him which heā€™s chill with
Also if you donā€™t give him nose kisses or play with his hair while cuddling heā€™s gunna be madddd!
Daichiāœæ
He gives you hugs n love but cuddling is rare but when it does happen it lasts HOURS. Like 4 full hours Iā€™m being Fr. He holds you close to his chest and just stays there, he doesnā€™t even fall asleep heā€™s fully awake and he remembers every moment!
He waits all day for you both to have free time so you could just talk and cuddle and he will get impatient in you take too long, heā€™s been waiting all day ofc heā€™s gunna get impatient; ā€œy/n hurry up!!!ā€ ā€œBe PATIENT!ā€ ā€œUGHHHā€
When yā€™all cuddle he always hides his face in your hair or neck and he gets cold like really easily so when he starts getting a little cold he tightens his arms around you hoping for you to bring warmth to him
Sugawaraāœæ
He is obsessed with cuddles but if he asked for them all the time he would feel like heā€™s bothering you, WHICH HES NOT!
He tries to figure out if your busy in any way ; ā€œsooo y/n, you doing anything?ā€ ā€œUhm no?ā€ ā€œCoolā€¦coolā€¦ā€ ā€œā€¦do you wanna cuddle~!ā€ ā€œYeahā€ you can tell what he wants without him having to ask which he loves
He cuddles by tucking under your chin and basically hiding in the neck, when you cuddle itā€™s nap time for him so you have a sleeping boy hiding in your neck while softly snoring, you comment about his snoring later and he got embarrassed šŸ˜”
Tanakaāœæ
He normally only cuddles late at night when heā€™s still hype asf and needs to calm down, so he just throws himself onto you-
He obviously uses your chest as a pillow so he wraps his hands round your waist as well, you could feel him nuzzling into your chest while he whispers something about you being so hot (as usual)
On a serious note he finds is so cute when you drag your thumb over his cheeks in an attempt to calm him down, he always grabs your hand and kisses it before actually calming down.
This should NOT have taken this long but I had shit to do forgive mešŸ˜‹
Btw: not proof read cuz Iā€™m lazyšŸ¤ž
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blue-jisungs Ā· 1 year ago
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making up with them after a fight ā™”
author's note. minhoā€™s one is so relatable to me i hate it sm :(( like idk sometimes i donā€™t wanna be touched but i have struggles wording it out and im afraid ill hurt someone w my reactionā€¦ <\\3 sighā€¦ yeah, can u tell itā€™s self indulgent?
warnings. yn falls asleep in a bathtub,, pls dont do that!!!, cursing, lmk if i missed anything
this is a continuation to fighting with them!!
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ā”†å½” CHAN [ ģ°¬ ]
you woke up in your and chrisā€™ bed, which made your stomach turn. he must have brought you here.
suddenly sitting up, you noticed your boyfriend is absent. did he leaveā€¦?
jumping out of the bed you rushed to living room and were relieved to see him in the kitchen.
however, guilt washed over you upon seeing him soā€¦ lifeless, hurt.
ā€œhiā€ you whispered, clutching your shirt. chan looked at you and smiled softly, nodding his head.
ā€œmorning. thereā€™s some coffee for you, breakfast will be done in a few minutesā€ he hummed and returned his gaze to the pan.
ā€œchan, listenā€¦ iā€™m sorry i snapped at you yesterday. yes, i was tired butā€¦ā€ you hesitated, voice cracking ā€œthatā€™s not an excuse, reallyā€
ā€œiā€™m just worried, y/nā€ he said and his features softened.
ā€œi know, i knowā€ you hung your head low, afraid that tears will escape any second ā€œitā€™s justā€¦ work has been shit lately and itā€™s draining me emotionally and physicallyā€¦ and i justā€¦ā€
ā€œhey, hey. itā€™s okay. i understand it. thatā€™s why iā€™m here, right? to help you. but to help you, i need to know firstā€ chan walked up to you, wrapping his arms around you. this warm, secure hug made you feel at ease ā€œbut i wonā€™t be able to know if we donā€™t talkā€
ā€œi knowā€¦ iā€™m so, so sorry. for snapping and for acting like an assholeā€¦ iā€™m sorry channieā€ you cried, pouring your heart out.
ā€œi forgive you, y/n. i already did. letā€™s just treat this as a lesson, okay?ā€ chan soothed you gently ā€œlet it out, baby. iā€™m hereā€
ā”†å½” MINHO [ ėƼķ˜ø ]
you and minho became distant. you began touching and kissing him less, head overflowing with worries each time when physical contact involved. eventually, you stopped. you just greeted him in the morning or after work.
and minho hated this.
he knew it was his fault because he snapped you. and if he didnā€™t do anything about it, your relationship might be on a thread... if it wasn't already.
so one day, when you woke upā€¦ you felt a soft kiss being pressed to your arm. you smiled gently to yourself, trying to remain calm. what is he schemingā€¦?
"y/nnieā€¦ iā€™m sorry"
you turned around, frowning. linoā€™s eyes softened but there was a glint of sadness in them.
"i snapped at you when i had a bad day already. andā€¦ it was one of those days when i just donā€™t want to be touched, even by you. it- it sounds so idiotic but i promise you, itā€™s not your faultā€¦" minho started and you bit your lip. your hands ached to cup his face andā€“ "i can see youā€™re thinking about it. itā€™s fine, iā€™m fine. no, actually iā€™m not. i missed your touch and kisses so so much. and i feel like an idiot because iā€™ve brought it on me but above allā€¦ā€
he hesitated and tapped your finger. you nodded, granting him permission to hold you. in an instant, he shuffled closer and wrapped his arms tightly around you.
"iā€™m sorry i made you feel like that. i canā€™t even imagine how you must have felt, thinking if ill snap at you today tooā€¦ im soā€¦ fuckingā€¦ sorryā€¦ " minhoā€™s voice broke off and you felt his body shiver.
"itā€™s okay, min. i forgive you, donā€™t feel guilty. just tell me next time, okay? i understand that on some days youā€™re feeling like you donā€™t want to be touched, i respect that" you hummed into his skin, drawing shapes "just tell me"
"i will" minho smiled softly, heart warming because of your words, kindness, and touch.
ā”†å½” CHANGBIN [ ģ°½ė¹ˆ ]
with a shaking hand you dialed changbinā€™s number, looking at the droplets falling in front of you. he picked up instantly.
"hello, baby?" he asked, concern in his voice. you took a deep breath, trying to control your breaking voice slightly at least.
"youā€¦ um, you were rightā€¦" you mumbled, sniffling.
silence fell and you were expecting an 'i told you so' or 'see?' but none of that happened.
"iā€™m sorry, pretty. i swear, next time i see them somewhere iā€™ll talk to them. iā€™ll pick you up, hm?" changbin asked and even though you knew he didnā€™t see, you nodded. your heart felt light that you didnā€™t fight again.
"iā€¦ um, iā€™m sorry. for being so defensive about them butā€¦ i was in the wrongā€¦" a soft sigh left your lips and you heard a loud 'yah!' causing you to move your phone away for a bit.
"donā€™t apologize. iā€™m the one who should say sorry, truly. i just didnā€™t want you to get hurt again butā€¦ i took it to far, i said some messed up shit. sorry" chanbinā€™s voice was gentle and then suddenly you heard a honk. eyes widening, you saw his car "also i may or may not have already been waiting hereā€¦"
"dumbassā€ you scoffed, wiping your tears and going to his car with a smile.
ā”†å½” HYUNJIN [ ķ˜„ģ§„ ]
hyunjin entered the house, frowning upon the silence. your shoes were on the floor, dirty dishes in the sink, some miscellaneous items scattered around the living room.
"y/n?" he called out. no answer.
you werenā€™t in the bedroom either. hyunjin, growing anxious, opened the bathroom door.
he saw you sleeping in the tub, head almost barely above the water.
"yah, dumbass!" he yelped and dragged you a bit up, safe enough but still in the water. your eyes opened lazily, gaze unfocused.
"huh?" you blinked at him and saw genuine worry on his face.
"you fell asleep in the tub, y/n. i got so scared" he sighed, tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear. he noticed your eye bags and it hit him like a truck: sure, dancing is his profession and he gets tired. but you, as a cleaning lady move as much as him and have to deal with other - usually assholes - people. you must be exhausted, even more than him.
then his gaze shifted to various scratches and bruises on your arms. you noticed it and smiled softly.
"itā€™s nothing, you know how clumsy i am. today i knocked over a broom and it hit my armā€¦ it was kinda funny actually" you grinned but only saw sadness behind his eyes "hyune?"
"iā€¦ the thing i said the other dayā€¦ i donā€™t mean it. i donā€™t think youā€™re just a cleaning lady, i shouldnā€™t say anything like this. and, itā€™s a bit stupid, but i realized just nowā€¦ that at the end of the day, youā€™re probably as tired as me" he mumbled, voice small. you nodded, grabbing his hand.
"i wonā€™t lie, what you said hurt me. butā€¦ i get it, you were tired and i got on your nervesā€“" you started.
"but i shouldnā€™t have bursted like that. let me take care of you now, hm? do you want me to wash your hair?" hyunjin asked, a cute smile finally blooming on his lips. you nodded energetically, causing him to giggle and place a tender kiss atop your head before proceeding to wash your hair.
ā”†å½” JISUNG [ ģ§€ģ„± ]
when he left the party, glad to finally be outā€¦ someone grabbed his arm. he turned around and saw beomgyu.
"what?" jisung grunted, looking at the stranger.
"dude, i donā€™t know whatā€™s your problem but me and y/n were literally talking about you" beomgyu said, letting go of his arm "besides, iā€™m taken"
jisung wanted to snarl 'so what?' but the sudden reality hit him: he threw a tantrum like a spoiled brat and almost went home without you. beomgyu scanned his face suspiciously, seeing the gears turn in jisungā€™s head.
"y/n loves you, i can see it in the way her face lits up when she speaks about you" beomgyu said and shrugged, adding before leaving "thought iā€™d just let you know"
jisung went back, looking for you. it turned out you stayed outside, gazing into the sky.
"um, hi" he mumbled, sitting down next to you. you didnā€™t reply "iā€™mā€¦ sorry"
"that was fast" you teased, bitterness shining through your voice.
"beomgyu walked up to me. i acted like an idiot, i know. i was justā€¦ jealous, i guess" jisung murmured almost incoherently, shy about his feelings. you turned around and sent him a sky smirk.
"you were what?"
jisung rolled his eyes playfully.
"i was jealous, are you happy?" he repeated louder.
"itā€™s fine. justā€¦ donā€™t yell at me. and let me finish, for godā€™s sake. if you listened what i had to say, youā€™d know that we were discussing which guitar i should buy you as a gift" you explained and saw his eyes widen. you couldnā€™t possibly stay mad any longer at this boba-eyed quokka.
ā”†å½” FELIX [ ķ•„ė¦­ģŠ¤ ]
there was a doorbell echoing through the living room and you sent your friend a puzzled look. she shrugged and went to open the door.
"ohā€¦ y/n, itā€™s felix" she turned around and sent you a pitiful look. you just sighed, nodding. she let him in, scanning him head to toe threateningly, and left to her bedroom to give you some privacy.
"how did you know iā€™m here?" you asked, eyes avoiding his.
"(friend name) added a picture to the story that youā€™re hereā€¦ soā€¦ umā€¦ i grabbed those and flew"
finally looking up, you noticed the bouquet of your favorite flowers in his hand. felix handed you them and sat down next to you on the couch, hesitantly tapping his fingers on his thigh. he wanted to hold your hand but wasnā€™t sure if you wanted to right now.
"iā€™m a bad boyfriend, arenā€™t i? even seungmin knew you were fired" he sighed with a sad smile "iā€™m so sorry. thereā€™s nothing that couldā€¦ be an excuse"
you took his hand in yours, humming in thought.
"will you work on it? i missed you. i know work is busy but at least talk to me, eat breakfasts with meā€¦ if we donā€™t work it out, iā€™m afraidā€“" your voice broke, not even wanting to say those words.
felix hugged you tightly, holding you as close as possible.
"i know. i will work on it, i promise. iā€™ll try to clear my schedule and we can go on a trip to jeju maybe?" he mumbled into your shoulder.
he just got a last chance and he wasnā€™t going to blow it.
ā”†å½” SEUNGMIN [ ģŠ¹ėƼ ]
returning home after three days, you entered the house only to see seungmin sleeping on the couch. the place was neatly cleaned, not even a single dirty spot in sight.
"oh, youā€™re back" seungmin murmured drowsily, leaning on his elbows "how was the stay?"
"good. why are you sleeping in the couch?" you asked, walking up to the fridge to put in the food your mom gave you. to your surprise, it was full with fresh groceries.
"iā€¦ uh, couldnā€™t really sleep well without you. i also have a thought about what i said andā€¦ listen, y/n, iā€™m sorry" he said "i really like your parents, i really do. i was just tired andā€¦ i donā€™t know what itā€™s like, thatā€™s true. i didnā€™t consider your and their feelingsā€¦ and i just hope your parents donā€™t hate me now because iā€™ll cry"
"i think they love you more than me at this point, my mom kept asking about you" you smiled softly, relieved to hear that you made wrong assumptions.
"just tell me a bit earlier if weā€™re going next time, okay?" he asked and you nodded with a happy grin "besides, it was lonely here without you"
ā”†å½” JEONGIN [ ģ •ģø ]
"dude, what the fuck?" changbin asked, standing frozen. jeongin frowned "you were supposed to text eunjeong only to get the info about the cake, nothing more!"
that was true ā€“ they wanted to make you a surprise party because you passed your exams and eunjeong works in one of the best bakeries in the town, so they figured itā€™d be the best to text her.
"i got distractedā€¦ i didnā€™t know y/n would make such a fuss out of it" jeongin grunted and opened his phone to see your location on 'my friends'. he bit his lip, sudden realization hitting him like a ton of bricks. if he found out you were texting your exā€¦ he wouldnā€™t be pleased about it either.
"what are you waiting for? go after her! and donā€™t spoil the surprise, too!" changbin pushed him out of the dorm.
in no time jeongin caught up with you, grabbing your hand. you turned around, wet stains on your cheeks. he felt a sharp sting in his heart upon realizing itā€™s his fault.
"listenā€¦ i didnā€™t mean any of that. but i need you to trust me" jeongin said, squeezing your hand. you hesitated.
"why? i trust you i justā€¦ donā€™t trust her" you mumbled, wiping your cheek.
"i know, iā€™m sorry. youā€™ll see soon, okay? can you forgive me? i love you so much, i just didnā€™t think it would hurt you that way" he added shyly. nodding softly, you tightened your lips into a line.
"okayā€¦" you hummed.
hopefully the cake will be delicious enough to regain at least a piece of your trust.
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Ok so how does one MAKE a tabletop game because this is something I want to try!! Are there good references out there for non-d20 systems or how to balance mechanics yourself?
oooh, hell yeah! honestly the big thing is to just do it, unlike board and video games the gap between idea and execution in ttrpgs is incredibly narrow, so if youve got an idea just start writing stuff down and see where it starts pulling you, where it feels like something's missing, find what excites you and what you feel isn't working. but that's not very specific, so let's get into it!
first off, read games! read weird games! there's tons of free ttrpgs on itch, lots of people sharing their work here and on other social media, there's 200 word rpgs here and here, and lots of system reference documents written specifically for people looking to hack games. reading other games is a great way to enrich your work whether you're building systems from scratch or working in an existing framework, because every game you read will show you a new way of approaching design problems.
on that note, draw inspiration outside of ttrpgs too! i pull a lot from video, board, and card games in my work, as well as poetry, novels, movies, etc etc etc. im autistic, and ive spent a lot of my life thinking about and dissecting unwritten social rules, so that's another big source of material for me. take your passions, whatever they may be, and put them in your work!
next up, think about the core of your game, sometimes called the minimum viable product. this is whatever the fundamental idea at the heart of your work is, and it's important to keep in mind because it keeps you from spiraling down unnecessary tangents. the core of your game can change, don't get me wrong! in fact, it likely will. what you want to do isn't prevent your work from growing and changing, but have a point of light you can always refer back to and ask "is what im doing important to this game?" you might be surprised by what you find isn't actually as important as you thought at first, and what turns out to be vital to the experience you're going for.
next up, once you start working, don't throw things away. if youre working in a word processor or google docs, it can help to have a section at the bottom of your document that you copy anything youd otherwise delete into. i do the same with my Affinity documents, ill have a few pages i dont export to store all my scraps. i know other folks who keep a dedicated scraps document that they use across projects. whatever works for you! the reason you do this is twofold: it makes it easier to cut things if you know you can always put it back later if you change your mind, and it gives you a lot of raw material that you can pull from in the future. months or years from now, you might find yourself looking to fill a gap in a new design and realize that some cool toy you set aside is exactly what you were looking for.
lastly, i wanna strongly encourage you to practice finishing things. that's often the hardest part for people, cuz we have a lot more experience starting projects than finishing them. here id like to once again direct you to 200 word rpgs, because that strict limit means you wind up with a finished first draft really quickly, and the rest of it is polishing and editing. once you've finished some bite-sized projects, you'll have a better idea of what it entails, what parts you're good at and what parts you struggle with, when to keep working and when to cut yourself off. i find it really helpful to add arbitrary limitations and deadlines on my work because that helps me push myself to finish something when otherwise i'd just keep adding and tweaking, but you'll find what works best for you!
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noellefan101 Ā· 7 months ago
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Quiet Love
Characters: Xiao, Heizou, Cyno, Wanderer, Albedo x mute!reader
Summary: You're mute, and cant talk? not a problem for your partner, they can find other ways to communicate, and honestly wouldn't have it any other way.
Warnings: mute reader, kissing, most of them dont know sign language bc i said so and it makes this more interesting, idk man
Note: i feel like i accidentally made both the char and reader mute in some of them, I've tried to fix it though, so im sorry for that (and i also messed up some other shit im just missing brain cells nĀ“ down bad) -love you
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Xiao
Whom talks with you in touches and small notes.
He had seen no problem in your absence of speaking, he likes the quiet nights that you shared with him. The sounds of nature taking over your ears, it was nice, just standing beside you and looking out to the views of Liyue. he reaches out to hold your hand, though still not accustomed to the feeling, he does it anyway. and as his hand lightly squeezes yours, he feels your own squeezing his back, as if saying 'I love you'. your quiet conversations are sweet and only for you two to know about.
He leaves notes scattered around, as you do too. ones with little messages of your schedule and plans. ones written with more love than any other person could comprehend. notes shared between you and him. notes saying 'i loved that dish, could we make it again' and a reply under, 'of course, i'll do anything for you'. it seems simple and dumb, but a nice way to talk to each other anyway.
Heizou
Who likes when you just listen to him, and let him do anything he kind of wants to since you can't talk back, but he also loves when you just draw your thoughts on paper.
He loves to talk, but mostly loves when he gets to talk to you since you always listen to him so closely. he loves when he can just drag you to to places, but of course he's nice about it (kind of) and ask you if you wanna go to that new ramen shop that opened in the outskirts of Inazuma City, which he kind of answers for you because of course you do! in which you smile at (smile at him or else...)
He likes your little drawings, and especially when its a little puzzle he has to solve so he can understand what you're saying and loves to guess wrong purpose so he can get a reaction out of you. and even has a special sketchbook, that he keeps on him at all times. he also sometimes goes trough it and just smiles at all your little drawings. remembering the time that you drew it, and all the cute little faces you made when he teased you for how bad it looked.
Cyno
Who helps you talk with small drawings in the sand and learned sign language so he could communicate with you properly.
He's often out in the desert, and from time to time takes you with him. which makes it easy to express yourself when all you need is a stick, sometimes his spear if he lets you, and sand which is already in front of you at all times. the little drawings that symbol your love, so many hearts all over the sand it would be hard to count how many times you drew them. he gave you his cape at night when you were extra cold? you drew a heart around his feet as a 'thank u, i love you', in which he cutely (your words) responded with, "i love you too" right after.
Whom learned sign language just because he felt like you were left out a little, but also learned the wrong one at first so you had to help him and learn him some signs as well. but the first thing you learned him was how to say "i love you", but didn't tell him what it meant so you could do it without him noticing just for a little while longer.
Wanderer
Who hates being touched, but makes you touch his shoulder when you need something and gifts you a book so you can write to him when needed
He, despite hating when people touch him, he cant think of many other ways you could get his attention, so he wants you to touch him when you need him. it doesn't matter if he had an extra bad day, its the best way to get his attention, so touch him all you want. it is you after all, the love of his life, he would let you do whatever you wanted to do, just tap his shoulder and give him a few signs or point at something, anything you want you'll get.
Others would say that he would be annoyed at you for pushing a book up to his face every hour or so, but he surprisingly he doesn't get annoyed at all and "tolerates" you pretty well. in fact he loves when you just stand there and write in your little book, he thinks its adorable when you glare at him as a sign to wait for you to finish.
Albedo
Who is normally very quiet but when he's with you he loves to talk, but of course, he loves the times when it's just you and him sitting together in silence
He could be seen as quite shy if you didnt know him well, but when around you he was the complete opposite, talking about everything he did that day, was currently doing, what plans he had ext. he loves when you just listen to him, but if you ever tried pointing at smt to ask like yk 'whats this?' he would be overjoyed and you wouldn't be able to make him shut up for hours about that one thing.
He looked at you when you had put your hand in front of his sketchbook, you looked at him sweetly before kissing his cheek, catching him by surprise. he put down his sketchbook and kissed you back on your forehead. it was just a quiet moment between you two and you wouldn't have it any other way.
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