#i do not have it in me rn to tag every single cw in these; just heed em in the post itself

[quantum1mmortality]

oooooo I have so many ideas…

If you have a kid with curly, how does he react as a father? He gives me SUCH STRONG girl dad energy and I can’t tell you why. This man is a GIRL DAD. How is he as a parent? Does he cook? Can he help his kid with math homework? Is he a family man? I’m so curious to see your thoughts on this.

Prob like the 7th request I've gotten for dad/dilf Curly 😭😭 also to my very special anon who has been in my asks for a very special Jimmy request, give me a few days, it'll be out love 🪽(I'm busy asf rn)

Tw/cw; none!! All sfw this time :) see guys I can be family friendly when I want to be

Not proofread

I've actually gone over this in the tags of a different post, I do think Curly would be a girl dad. He'd want twin girls and you guys canNOT tell me different.

After you come home from the hospital, Curly would do literally everything for you and the new babies. He'd prepare healthy meals for you, he'd help clean and feed the babies, if one of them started crying in the middle of the night he'd insist on being the one to take care of it, etc.

Basically the bare minimum but is still praised because the bare minimum is hard to come by now.

I see Curly as the type of man to be raised by a single mom and having no father figure. Morbid? A bit, but it helped shape him into the super awesome sauce girl dad he is today.

Because of having an absent father, Curly would go above and beyond to make sure he's present in his children's lives. Any days he has off, he's spending time with you and your new baby girls. Oh, his daughter's are in a school play? He's calling off work and showing up with flowers and chocolates for both of them. Shit like that

Curly would come into work late or just take the day off completely if you needed extra help with the kids. He'd leave work early to pick them up from school if you couldn't. He WANTS to be there. And just remember guys, if he wanted to, he would.

Curly would also try to be home early so he could read them bedtime stories. Idk I just think that's cute.

Once they start growing up, he's getting more into their interests. Curly would be the type of dad to let his daughters put makeup on him and have them do his nails. He would happily walk into pony express as a well known captain and have nail polish everywhere on his hands BUT his nails.

And yes, he would help his kids with their homework. Something about Curly makes me think he took mathematics in college, and I can safely say he is breaking every generational curse by not making your children cry over their math homework.

BONUS CONTENT!!!; Curly would want older twin daughters (obviously, we just went over that) and a younger boy. He would want to name the boy Dallas, but I can't think of any names for the girls. He'd like the name Phoebe a lot, so probably that and maybe a name like Sophia for the other twin.

A/N; too many curly fics, must make master list

[bakugohoex]

“to my love, jean”

pairing: jean kirschtein x gender neutral reader

cw: valentines day post, angst, fluff, language

word count: 600+

a/n: we alone and sad, have fun reading this *sadistic smile rn*

summary: in which jean reads the valentines day letter you wrote for him.

↞ back to attack on titan masterlist

To my love, Jean,

Another year another valentine, it seems like as the years go on I get sappier and sappier when writing these. You better have kept my other ones, or I will kick that horse face of yours (even though I love it so much). I thought if we’re going all out this year that it’d be better for me to get even more cringier. So make sure you’re reading this whilst cuddling me or something so I can laugh at how gross I sound in this.

Even if I do joke around with you a lot and love pissing you off, I want you to know just how much I love you. I can’t believe that someone as handsome as you chose someone like me, you were always a bit of a cunt to others. But the way you looked at me, making me feel so special I knew from that moment that you were my forever love. I know, I know sap alert, I know we promised we wouldn’t go all out this year, but Sasha said to talk about feelings in the letter and the feeling I have is just unexplainable.

I don’t want to ramble on but, when I look at you I see my whole entire world. Every late night when we were scouts watching the stars, laying in the grass. So innocent of real titans, every small kiss you gave me when Levi wasn’t looking. The first time we saw the sea to the days we were forced to build tracks for Paradis, every single one of those moments with you I never thought of anything but our future together. You’re my entire world, my future even, I want everybody in the whole entire universe to know that you and I are together forever.

Okay, now that I’ve gotten the cringe out of the way, I can already imagine that stupid cocky grin you’re going to have when reading this all. God I love that stupid face of yours, my pretty boy, with those pretty eyes and pretty mouth that’s all mine.

You once promised me a life away from this all where we could get away from titans, have the happily ever after we deserved. I want you to know that I see that as well, every time I kill a titan I do it for you, do it for our future. I want a family with you, I want us to be happy without the worry of death around us, I want us to grow old together. I fucking love you so bloody much, its so hard to express my emotions on paper. But when I’m there whilst you read this I’ll be giving you so many kisses to make up for the lack of feelings.

But seriously, I don’t think I’d have survived this long without you, you’re really it for me. My one true love, the only man who I see a future with, I can’t wait to wrap my arms around that waist of yours. Feel your skin against my own as I give a million kisses to prove to you just how much I love you.

Yours favourite person ever,

Y/n x

Jean collapsed as he read the letter, tears brimming his face as he read your words. The paper dampened as he finally looked up, the letter that never reached him. The letter he had missed out on, the one he had found in your stuff. The missed love and kisses that were a distant memory as he stood firm tears trickling down his face as he kneeled in the soil. He looked up, the cold air hitting his face as he looked at the grey stone, here lied his love, the woman who deserved peace and stability was gone in a matter of seconds. He was never getting you back, never getting the future he promised with you, never getting to kiss you one last time.

i’d really appreciate if you guys could leave a like, reblog or comment, thanks x

if you guys want to be a part of a tag list, just reply to any post and i’ll add you xx

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[angorwhosebabyisthis]

obligatory tag rant:

[violent sexism/misogyny; sexual harassment/assault/abuse; physical and emotional abuse, mostly gendered toward women; mentions of CSA/COCSA/grooming; victim-blaming; ableism; fatphobia; bodyshaming; just a bunch of nasty bullshit cw. lmao]

tell us how you really feel, moogle

i love how these books just yeet the mask like a frisbee and say about as explicitly as they can that vatborn aren't people lmao

[brain-go-brrrrr]

I wanna do these all at once cause ik I'm gonna forget ;-;

1. Hw - about 210lbs (95.3kg)

Sw - 186.4lbs (84.5kg)

Cw - 127.4lbs (57.8kg)

2. I'm 5'3 (160cm)

Fuckin HATE my height, can't control that but I can control my weight 😌

3. Love the ribs and thin lanky fingers

4. Biggest fear is gaining it ALL back and then some, I don't want to go back to a size xL when I'm now a small :/

5. I'm doing it for me. I originally wanted to eat healthier but most if the time I tried it didn't work and I gained. And once I started losing weight healthily, I felt powerful and could control my urges so I just kept cutting cals :)

6. I used to eat 2 bags of chips in a single sitting then have a bunch of greasy shit. I used to binge cause I had no friends so I was just filling time lol

7. Yes. Everyone in my family is CONCERNED abt how quickly I lost weight lol (about 60lbs in 5 months :/ )

8. Mostly just an hour of just dance (wii game) or 10k steps. Only cause im not as motivated anymore.

9. Mostly doctors saying I should've lost a bunch of weight as an 8 y/o lol,, but other than that, everyone ignored me when I was fatter

10. Pasta, excessive cheese, and macadamia nut cookies.

11. Don't have one ;-;

12. Cucumber, garlic hummus, tuna, low cal mayo, and pickles.

13. 👀

What do you think?

14. Ugw - 90lbs (40.8kg)

Idk? I've been losing close to 10lbs a month so maybe I'll shoot for Christmas? (Its August 2nd rn.)

15. Peskitarian. I have been for about 5-6 years? Tho I've stopped eating hot dogs and bologna and noticed I've gotten paler lol

16. I've wanted to lose weight since I was 10 lol (18 now) the beginning goal was to fit into cosplay costume pants, tho I don't cosplay anymore ;-;

17. 👁👄👁 maybe (undiagnosed as of now)

18. Pickles. 🤤🤤

19. Had to about 5 days ago, but by choice, about 2.5 months ago?

20. 500 cal max with intermittent fasting every so often lol

21. Idfk,, I wear a men's small but they're a bit big cause I only wear oversized clothes. Probably a women's small?

22. I'm at my lw :,) hope to not gain ;-;

23. Mostly just the cosplay community on tiktok only boosting the thin people who looked most like the characters :/

24. Idk i kinda just use them as tags? I mean, you shouldn't encourage someone to have an ed, but it'd be nice to have a community that knows what you're going through and can be there for you :,)

25. Never thrown up on purpose BUT I do over exercise whenever I have more than 500 cals lol

26. Death? Being smaller than my boyfriend? (I mean I already am. Hes taller and probably close to the same weight as me ;-;)

27. I have SO much food aggression. Whenever I'm around food and I have to eat, I pick apart my food and make it look unappealing

28. Idc. It'll probably just be easier to get skinny jeans lol

29. Not me! Idk,, my bf is really beautiful but beauty is subjective :)

30. Don't wanna do this part,, im done :,)

[pinkhairedjoon]

10 signs you’re reading a neusex/n-eusex production (aka a writing project/collab/rp)

(fr thank u sm @ayzrules for tagging me - this has been really fun to think about and just reflect on past projects!!! ily!!!)

1. a great, big, endgame romance/ship/pairing - (#Lucy/Johnny, Haya(!!), Mijoon, Wonyeon - there’s others, but I really don’t want to expose myself like this) I also don’t think I’ve worked on a single writing project in my life that doesn’t include some form of romance? And basically since 2015, my writing has all focused on three specific ships (literally spent probably over a year just writing Haya AUs and .... some of my best writing, if I’m being honest). I love really delving deep into two characters as individuals and then seeing their romance play out throughout different situations? Literally just the idea of two people finding each other over and over again in every universe warms my heart and no, you will not stop me.

2. celebrities disillusioned with fame - (Lucy, Holland, Belle, Harry, Saya, Mijoo, Thaís) I did not realize that I wrote this trope so much until doing this rn LOL but basically I write a lot of famous characters?? and they Don’t Like It - or really their relation to fame is distant, either achieved through family or circumstance (a few musicians too, another common character I use I guess lmaooo) and they struggle with the parameters of that. I think a lot of these characters went through really tumultuous shit as a result of the fame? and often times were just met with some wildly unwanted/unintended consequences... and man I just love to write Suffering™️.

3. addiction (CW) [specifically in relation to drugs/alcohol] - (Holland, Saya, Thaís) I think this relates to 2 in that I have a lot of characters who rely on their addictions (specifically to drugs and alcohol) in order to deal with/distract themselves from the suffering that, I their creator, inflict on them? not to downplay addiction - I’ve been around it a lot before and I think a lot of times, myself included, people can come to rely on these vices as coping mechanisms in ways that can definitely escalate/impact ones life in a detrimental way. so I think that interpersonal relationship between one’s trauma and how they deal with that ultimately is something I tend to explore often? (thanks to my own trauma lmao) and it’s something I usually have my characters avoid until it ends up confronting them head on.

4. imagery related to space/moon/sun/stars/nature - (Haya, Holland, Mijoo, my old Nano novels that I try not to think about ever again) I just think I tend to be really unoriginal and there’s so many cheesy references in old Haya stories related to moon/sun/stars stuff. and Holland is a big one since she was an astrophysicist who would just have these rambling stream of consciousness discussions on matters related to space / astronomy but somehow tie it all back to things goin on in her life? but I think I always really like to set up certain imagery to be reoccurring so you feel like you’re witnessing all these little callbacks later down the line. for some reason these specific themes(?) are just the ones I’ve been known to reuse that immediately come to mind. (me and my damn moon tattoo smh).

5. a Bad Parent™️ - (Holland, Belle, Saya, Mijoo, Jiyeon, litcherally every single character I write lmao) tl;dr I have a Bad Parent™️ so I straight up write a character beefing with (always just one) of their parents. *insert John Mulaney we don’t have time to unpack all of that.gif here*

6. miscommunication/Just Plain Bad Communicating, Man - (Harry/Saya, Belle, Jiyeon/Jiwon, Thaís/Rio - pretty much everyone again lmao). Honestly I love creating very simple problems that could easily be solved if people actually communicated in a healthy manner ghfdjksl. 

7. the “Guy’s”/Cool Girl™️ - (Lucy, Belle, Saya, Jiyeon - the list goes on) I’m sorry I’m like this but I really just like making these badass girl characters who tend to be surrounded by a lot of men in their life and that’s made a very obvious influence on them? (I think Lucy, Belle, and Saya all in particular saw themselves mainly with males as friends/coworkers/main family figures in their life, and so they tend to think/act in a way some would not typically code as ‘female’, if that makes sense?)

8. Friends (occasionally first with Benefits/Sometimes Enemies) to Lovers - (Haya, Holland/Nate, Bellam, Zelle, Mijoon, Wonyeon - again, I could go on) I like Making Life Hard™️ so I’ve done the fwb trope a lot (Haya, Wonyeon) [tbh I’ve experienced that dynamic a lot in life so it’s something I think I fall back on? lmao] and I just.... I think there’s something really special in having a close relationship with someone before it turns romantic/sexual and just knowing that person so well and loving them despite and because of that.... 

9. Pet-Owners 🥺- (Haya, Mijoon, Jiyeon, Thaís) I mean this one’s a throw-away can you tell I’m running out of ideas?

10. There’s a Me in My Protagonist? More Likely Than You Think - (Lucy, Saya, Mijoo). I really do put a lot of my own traits into my protagonists (they all tend to be geminis after all) but I think that’s really a given? and just dealing with their growth as individuals often helps me come to terms with my own? IDK there’s something to this!!!

tagging anyone who wants to do this!!! @infateuation @digidream (lowkey.... idk many writing friends on tumblr I’m sorry!!!)

[yoitscro]

First thought: Homestuck^2 should've just been called Beyond Canon, and more people should call it that. 

The 2 was put on for chuckles; HS trending the day it was announced with it being a sequel spoke enough about how such a thing shant be underestimated, and why Homestuck is ABSOLUTELY more than just our small twitter crowd (and the scrap of us still on tumblr). I say that because remembering the Beyond Canon part slightly reassures me about the fact that this is a fanwork that will do some weird shit, and things I don't agree with, but isn't something that I have to subscribe to enjoying all the way with how I engage with Homestuck.

Homestuck 2 is not the canon continuation. Homestuck 2: Beyond Canon, is an OFFICIAL continuation.

Not having it on such an important stool and as the only content we all are only allowed to digest should come from both people who obsessively dislike it, and people who defensively support it. If a character says they kick babies then I can say, hey that's weird, maybe not great writing, but I can pretend they don't in my content, and i dont have to send threats or call people cishet white men for it! and, it's an absolutely great thing that we were all encouraged to create our own ideas without anyone who's influenced us to do so squinting their eyes when we actually go through with it. Glad I don't have to put this story up to the expectations of being a sequel to a 11 year, worldwide IP that's shooketh the internet landscape since it's merely optional, Death of the Author persists, and ideas aren't just dominated and revolved around the perspective of a 1% in this entire fanbase.

That said.

As an OFFICIAL continuation versus a canon one, HS2 is ok. It certainly has that fanfiction vibe, and a story it wants to tell. I can't really tell what that story is since we have like, 10 sub plots rn though. There's not a real a clear indicator on where the focus of main conflict is that connects all these stories together.

I thought that the prose in replacement of Vriska's battle was jarring, but not teeerribly surprising for the format HS2 is going for. It's more so using drawings to compliment text versus Homestuck's usual of panels being side by side with visual importance, or even itself being the one compliment. It sorta feels weird tho that it brought old fans back in with art just for them to get sneered at when they get a bit upset that there won't be main staples of art known to progress the story forward. 

Also people who mock people for “having to read homestuck” knowing there’s language barriers and struggling focus from those who’ve been use to something that was never so dense, are ridiculous.

Personally this could be solved by knowing how old flashes worked, having way more artists on the team, maybe even an art director if not already, and noting that we're not asking for the next Cascade. Rome wasn't built in a day, but Rose Ride sure was, and Homestuck’s animation is absolutely not the same as a 12-24 framed 12 minute cartoon. That, or just snuff the illustrative art as a whole since it's very clear on where the focus is.

I’m sure you’re not here trying to see my opinions on how the outer workings are though, versus plot.

Uuuuh, let's see. Yiffy's still a name I don't care to use until I eventually get tired of any of my art that do not show up in tags. This is fine and not as offensive as people are saying it is. Minors who want to cosplay this character don't have to call themselves this character. Not wanting to be one letter away from accidentally entering a very NSFW space of twitter is fine. Also the lot of people call Tavros, Tavvy.

I hope Kanaya's anger at being cucked is actually seen versus being implied through fan guesses and another character having to say she was.

Roxy needs to be more of an involved character. Where are they during all this?

Jane should have a mention of her relations to HIC being a main/bad influence on her current parallels to Alternian dictatorship.

The PRE-RETCON GROUP should have a fun one-shot update for fans who like them, since they oughta be around if they fell through the ghost hole. Most of them. The sprites that aren't Jasprosesprite should also show up too, since they're around.

Aaaaaand I think we should be extra careful going into the future when it comes to the alien rebellion. It's weird that a lot of the writers are white and toy around with concepts that can be a not so great parallel to racism. Currently not great timing rn! If the characters are going to remain aracial, but with them still doing not much to reference other non-white earth cultures or getting new hair cuts that have different textures (looking at you, Rose), we shant make the species with actual biological benefits a racism commentary. the xeno joke at least had a play on words. If any writer has happened upon this then a, please don't get mad at me again haha, and b, consider having more black writers or directional assistance on your squad. You know who they are.

In the future. I casually want the ghost from the Dream Bubbles to be shown since it's a big elephant in the room to not have a single one of them in the bg despite a load of them appearing from the ghost whole. Don't gotta give them speaking lines, especially the dancestors. I personally don't know if I want that right now.

I also hope in the future that we don't get HS content that is only going to revolve around HS2, if it's optional enough to engage with without being the only option. That's why PQ could ended a bit better for me, and why I hope it's not the main thing that's keeping Hiveswap on the backburner. I don't think it's farfetched to consider that multiple HS content could come from more than just one team; to relieve work load, but to also strengthen the idea that Homestuck can be a various amount of perspectives when it comes to the ideas fans have. The most dedicated fans leading the direction of the story is not just a handful of them. If anything, at least acknowledge the massive ass fan projects going on once in awhile to showcase the different avenues.

"Hey Cro, you sure have bitched about this alot. Do you have anything good to say? Why don't you stop reading if you hate it so much!"

Not every comment needs to be golden, love. Again, some of these decisions I eck at, but ultimately they're just words on a computer that I'm not holding anyone at gun point to do, and I'm curious to see how the story handles itself going forward, since again, it's just a fanwork. Sometimes I wish to not only see where the plot goes, but to see a writer's craft in action.

Good Things:

The Art. Again, please have more artists. It'd help so much, especially since the main one is also double timing for VE. That said, HS2 sticks out to me because of the way the color composition is used. Aside from hair and other tiny things, I haven't seen black used a lot, which makes colors pop. It's really nice to look at. I hope we get more sharper styles of character in the future, since it builds on nostalgia and makes the trolls feel much less like they're from Repiton, but I can deal with it for the most part. I also like that one panel where the omega kids and vriska are talking in the dark room, and based on where they're standing, the text aligns. Tasty as hell.

Meat and Candy still do hold neat logic in the direction the stories go. Candy, while it could be more tasteless in some areas, is chaotic and too much of a good thing. Meat is having something a little more straightforward, though I'm not sure quite yet where it's going. I always found Candy to be the part of the epilogue that actually entertained me the most, from how much of a surreal Robot Chicken skit at 3am it felt. Sometimes the jokes slapped real nice and made me wonder, going in, how is this monkeys paw gonna play out and, hopefully, make people laugh or smirk like they got a good roast at themself?

The slightly episodic feel of each update is what I wanted from the Epilogues, so it's interesting to see that play out when it comes to switching different perspectives.

The bonus updates get points for featuring characters that a lot of us have been wanting to see for ages.

Hopefully this isn't unpopular, but I think the tension of Yiffy's introduction was nicely composed and written (ignoring some of the things I wish for Jane). It leaves you with enough want to see what'll happen next time. You could also say that despite her growling and making a lot of noise, it's not actually bad writing: I see it as the audience being forced to see her in the same perspective that Jane see's her; a dog. Upon no context we're seeing the same thing while knowing things are obviously off, and once we see this character in a new environment where their personality shines, it'll have a bigger impact her own character being humanized. So I like that.

Okay, I think that's all I got. I improv wrote most of this; hopefully I won't be taken out of context since I don’t think that HS2′s writing should ultimately be a judgement of the writers as people, nor treated as if they should hold the same unhealthy work environment that Andrew forced himself to do when writing the og comic. And I'm still like, donating to the patreon and everything, lol.

[runs away]

edit: i was going to put the cw as another positive thing for the comic...but...yeaaaah.

[bma-2020]

Ppl who deserve more attention bc they’re amazing and wonderful and geniuses and should be given all the love and attention, like what are you doing if youre not giving them attention, OC edition bc i’m gonna be here all day no matter what, it’s only 10 pm and i’ve only been awake the last three hours bc its c/omic c/on and ya girl cant chill ever, like at all, also one of these ppl can get a pop today at a hot t/opic if they wanna and slightly edit it to be his OC, at least I think, I don’t watch the show his fc stars in, brains been dead for a few hours but whos surprised.

@strxnzo here’s whats up, I’m Italian, only part, but I am and I’m made fun of for it constantly, but you know what’s awesome, Italian representation from someone good at everything, aka not A/riana G/rande, and that’s sophie. Sophie is fantastic, Eliza is incredible, i love you sm, you’re beautiful, you’re a beautiful writer, where is your own fanbase you should be more famous than H/BO

@gracemxrked You are so clever, you’re so passionate about everything you love and everything you do it’s absolutely beautiful. Your OCs are so clearly crafted from a realm of pure love and devotion to your art and it’s so inspiring and so beautiful and I adore you so much. You deserve the utmost world, your OCs deserve all of the attention, you’re so incredible and I love you. 

@aquamedic You have such an amazing level of creativity, it just flows through all of your body veins, all of your brain squiggles, you’re just pure creativity and it’s beautiful. Your muse is beautiful, you’re beautiful, you’re super smart. For C/omic C/on one of the exclusive pops is I think of that one DC char the actor you use is one of them, i dont know 100% bc i dint remember the name but the look is similar i think i watch none of thr cw shows at all so im not 100% on it, it’s at H/ot T/opic, what I do is I get pops that look kind of like my muse and just say it’s my muse so if you do the same thing the option is right there now, it’s awesome, you’re awesome, you deserve nice things

@streetxcat You’re so incredible and so genius, I just I adore you so much. You n your twinny who is also tagged here somewhere probably right below you you’re just incredible, your relationship is goals worthy, like I love watching you two talk to each other, you’re so cute together and youre so creative and so clever, cat is such an amazing lil bab who has been through so much and bad things have happened to her but she’s so beautiful and wonderful and well written she deserves all the good things in life and everything, I owe you a reply n i love you so much 

@famebounded you’re so awesome, you’re just so smart and so clever, you’re so artistic, your drawing talent that I know you must have worked years to achieve because you’re so amazing at it is just you’re so amazing and you’ve done so well and continue to do so well, you’re able ot art and able to write and just so many amazing things all at once and like, I can kind of art and kind of write but you’re like amazing and can do everything amazingly and only ever get better everytime I actually read something on the dash which everyone knows I do like never but when I do and when its yours or anyone elses it’s just y’all are so talented and amazing like how do y’all exist being so talented and smart and amazing and incredible it just it must be tiring being so incredible idk how y’all do it and you’re so nice, I owe you a relpy over on pikachu too i know i’m so slow and awful but you deserve the best and i strive to give back the best, it was partially written this morning but lappy restarted so i’m sorry it’ll probably be posted friday because im awful but you’re amazing and i love you, you nad everyone elses here your passion is just incredible and amazing i love you

there are so many over amazing ocs i follow and wanna write with or do write with and honestly i feel really bad because at some point writing this i forgot every single persons name, but i do love you guys so much. i’m very heavily medicated at the moment and probably wont remember posting this but i just saw a few of you on my dash and was just so filled with adoration and love and adoration you’re just all so beautiful and amazing, i need to sleep soon cause i gotta drive over to fashion island tomorrow for c/omic c/on shopping cause its the only b&n near me that’s stocked and driving there is vaguely cheaper than ordering it online cause I get the in store discount that I dont get online since its my sisters acct, btu i just, i love you guys, im crying bc i llove you all so much, you all deserve only good amazing wonderful thinsg, lappy is freezing rn bc i’m trying to make screeencaps for someone and it hates my screencapping binges bc screencaps are so much space and i have so little space and always forget to empty the recycle bin before doing things, you’e all so wonderful and i love all of you and even if youre not mentioned i still love you you deserve great things always have good thoughts abt yourself and even in moments you dont just know youre amazing and wonderful and deserve good things and goodnight

[yeoldontknow]

11 Questions Tag

tagged by @chanyeolingss @kpopfanfictrash and @yeol-stole-my-soul <3333

Rules: 1. post the rules 2. answer the questions given to you by the tagger. 3. write 11 questions of your own 4. tag 11 people

ALRIGHT so i was tagged 3 times with 11 different questions each time so im going to answer all 33 of these and then write 11 of my own LORDY. HERE WE GO

also putting this under a cut cause 33 questions will be a lot

from @chanyeolingss

If you had the chance to do something illegal and get away with it, would you? this entirely depends on what the illegal thing is? like, would i ever cause a person bodily harm? probably not. something less insane and petty? probably. like if i knew i could steal a tv and get away with it, i probably would. 

What do you do to calm down? i listen to music and sit in my room. i light candles. im big into aroma therapy and so i tend to always have lavender or vanilla scents in my space. i pet my cat and make him sit with me. purring kitties lower my anxiety like, a lot. other times i take a bath. If you wanted to, what new name would you give yourself? when i was a kid i hated my name because the spelling always seemed gross to me. for the longest time i wanted to be named Aurelia. im good now tho lmao ive shortened my name on my own to just kat and it suits me Do you use markers, pencils or crayons when coloring/drawing? pencils Of the places you’ve been, which was the worst? honestly i reallllyyy didnt like amsterdam. nothing about that trip made me happy. like im grateful i took the tour of anne frank’s house, but like it wasnt really enjoyment it was just this overwhelming feeling of emotion and trauma. it was beautiful and i wouldnt trade that experience for the world. but everything else was awful. the people i was with was a big problem so id like to go back with a better group and try again.  What’s your favorite Disney movie? always a cross between mulan and beauty and the best Which celebrity do you identify with? i feel like im emma thompson 100% of the time What is your favorite season? autumn, without question the best season What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? my first ever ever ever job was for this newspaper in the town where i grew up. our family friend worked for them and got me the job but it was only supposed to be for 5 days. i had a garbage bin filled with newspapers and i had to hand them out to people. i was only getting paid based on the amount of bins i emptied. i hated every single moment of it. 

What’s the pettiest thing you’ve ever done? im not really a petty person tbh its just that if you fall out of my good favor you will not be allowed back in. my trust once lost is lost forever Do you prefer talking on the phone or texting/messaging? please dont call me unless you need help lmao texting is fine

from @kpopfanfictrash

1) If you could have one superpower, what would it be? my god i want so many but right now its a tie between controlling an element (either fire or water) or the ability to understand every language

2) What was your favorite TV show growing up? when i was a kid there was a show called roswell that aired on what used to be The WB and is now The CW lmao it was awful but i made my mother let me stay up to watch it every monday. i still adore this show even though i KNOW its objectively awful but i own all 3 seasons and regularly watch them when im feeling sad lmao

3) What’s the next trip you’re taking or want to take? IN LESS THAN A FEW WEEKS, I WILL BE IN ST LOUIS WITH @kpopfanfictrash, @the-porcelain-doll-xo, @igot7bangtanbaes and @rudeboywonho <33333

4) What is your biggest pet peeve? when im walking behind someone and they are smoking in my face AND passive aggression please just tell me wtf is wrong so we can move on

5) Tell me one weird habit you have lmfao god i cant believe im admitting this to the world BUT when im stuck and need to think hard on something i hold my boobs pls leave me lmao

6) If your life were a movie, what genre would it be? (comedy, drama, teen horror… LOL) id be in one of those teen comedies. probably john hughes with a DOPE soundtrack

7) Who is one person you find inspirational (real or imagined)? my mother

8) What one thing would you save first from your home, in a fire? my cat lmao but if you mean non living thing my phone

9) What physical feature do you first notice on a person? ears and smile are usually within the same moment

10) What is the strangest thing you have ever eaten? i cant say ive eaten anything strange. when i was in france i had escargot and adored it

11) One thing I would not guess about you by looking at you. ive played violin since i was 7

from @yeol-stole-my-soul

1) What are you wearing rn :))) What’s your go-to outfit? my pajamas jeans, band tee, combat boots - my standard

2) If you could tell your bias one thing, what would it be? i can i tell him a lot of things in one breath? ok here goes: chanyeol, i respect the living shit out of you, but please make sure you take care of yourself like i know its easy to assume your problems are a burden and that no one really will notice your tells but the ones who care about you the most will never think of you as a burden and want to make sure you keep smiling - also please remember to eat well and sleep and hydrate, because if you dont you will get sick and the last thing i could handle on this earth is seeing you unwell or injured because you pressured yourself too much - trust me i do the same thing and that is why i am openly telling you that the people who really love you will understand if you step back so you can regroup 

*coughs, wheezes* i love you so fucking much park chanyeol please take care of you

*gasping* your verse in chill saved my life

*dies*

3) If you found yourself as a character in a story, what role would you probably play (ex. the villain, the hero/ine, the sidekick, the crazy old man…) and why? i know for a fact id be the witty side kick who unwittingly solves every problem just because shes observant and doesnt have martyr vibes

4) Do you sleep with socks on or socks off at night?? socks off what kind of demon leaves them on???? dont trust that type wtf

5) Which meme most accurately describes you?

this image is me at any given time of day

6) What do you want your last words to be? oh for fucks sake

7) Describe your ideal date(?) i’m adding the question mark to pretend this is a question somewhere we can talk - theres a place in NYC thats a bar but also an arcade filled with old old games like the original tekken and street fighter. i like going there for chill vibes and then likely walking along the water pier in central park at sunset. its really quiet in that part of the city and on a date i really just want to talk, get to know you, figure out your energy. if its the weekend id happily head to the IFC center for a midnight showing of a classic and then depart at 3AM feeling like ive actually connected with someone who challenges me intellectually and culturally 

8) If you could switch lives/bodies with one person for a day, who would it be and why? zhang yixing so i could make sure he sleeps

9) If you had to spend 24 hours in a television show, which one would you choose and why? And would you survive lolol? i want to be in parks and recreation so i can flirt with ben the entire show and make leslie angry and then by the end be best friends with leslie and anne and then become a recurring character

10) What’s your favorite quote? ‘But from each crime are born bullets that will one day seek out in you where the heart lies.’ - Pablo Neruda

11) Where THE FUCK is Waldo?? his house, wondering why the fuck people keep assuming he would be anywhere else

11 new questions:

1. if you could learn any language, which would you want to learn and why? 2. you’ve moved into your dream house. CONGRATS! what does it look like and where is it? 3. i’m buying you a drink. what are you having? 4. welcome to NYC! let me take you my favourite record shop. whats that record you have in your hand?  5. pitch me an idea for a tv show - in 6 sentences 6. i’m sorry but you’re dead. what does the afterlife look like? 7. thanks for hanging out with me tonight! lets put on a movie. what are we watching? 8. i know, i know. dating my friends is odd but i love you so why shouldnt this be a date? 9. i’ve taken you to the strand in NYC. its a 4 storey book store that is filled with miles worth of books. we are on the 4th floor, which is the floor for old and rare books. which book are you looking for? 10. i got my vacation time booked! ok. lets decide. where are we going? really! why do you want to go? 11. SHIT! i didnt know you could sing!! we’re starting a band. what are we called?

tagging: @yeolology @kpopandlock @kollectionn @kimnamwho @imdifferentshadesofpurple @oh-beyond @pikayeollie @the-porcelain-doll-xo  @daegusoftboys @baebae-goodnight @igot7bangtanbaes

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cw: ??? Paranoia, parents, down talk, uh suicide and death comes up, it’s A Lot? Oh specific mention of Cancer. I’m suddenly exhausted and struggling to tag. Also, typos. Read this @ ur own risk, there’s a disclaimer inside re: that and if you mention this post to me I’ll be upset. Especially as I’m going to try and forget I made myself internet-vulnerable by posting it. G’night tumblr.

My like, negative monologue and paranoia found their way back to me with strenght instead of being mostly hushed whispers instead of weird moments or almost more like, speaking in faint images, vague feelings - they weren’t real and sharp and present and it’s been to the point where until recently with the flare up i was pretty soundly thinking some of my diagnosis must be wrong or i was weirdly in super recovery, and if everything felt like, still off, weird? That’s just real life? If BPD like goes away, somehow, magically, I would just feel less.

Everything would be. Less.

Also it’s just weird because I’m comparing all my friendships and shit to my ex who was my FP and close friend and then gf and then ex but like keyword in some of that if FP so everything was more constant and intense so no wonder other friendships don’t match it, fuck, will other romantic relationships?

Like I’m still not bothered too much, I am ultimately okay with being single I think but also like.

I dunno!

But like friends. friends friends friends.

I’m struggling what to do with any of all of them and if you’re a friend I talk to with any goddamn regularity see your way out of this tumblr post. Or like proceed at ur own risk I’m not trying to @ any of y’all I’m just like. verbalizing (textualizing? sure. whatever!) my paranoia and struggles in Friendship TM rn so like please either don’t read this or don’t make it weird because it’s not you it’s me 

God god like i I just can’t find the fucking balance and I think it’s partly because I am constantly bouncing between trying to invest more (too much) into friendships or isolating, or not having the energy, or trying to do both, or all three, I need so badly to be liked but also why thr fuck do you all like me

I’m fake, I’ve got so much imposter syndrome I can’t fucking see straight. Some of my friends think I’m cool and kind of goth??? Think I don’t like people (oh shit), that I’m like, tough, but I’m a fucking goddamn powder puff who is constantly on the verge or crying or emptiness or undesired anger which i then feel guilty about and channel into anger at myself. I hate myself so much that it’s normal, that until something pushes it it can kind of just become background noise and isn’t that sad? Isn’t that sad. I act and say that I don’t, insist I’m cooler and better and sometimes think I do but it’s because I feel so goddamn bad about myself but I know that won’t make me more likeable, saying it won’t make things good, just makes things back and awkward so I have to like fumbling try and like myself or at least fake it.

I’m not cool. I’m fat and ugly and broke and can’t keep a job or do anything right or get my shit together even if i’m goddamn trying.

I try and forget my mother so that missing her will stop. I can’t miss her if I forget her. She won’t exist to forget. I won’t think about her, so I won’t have to miss her, even if every fucking cell in my body carries her, from her genetics and everything that entails (death, mostly, likely from colon cancer) to her finger prints on my brain neurons (my mental illnesses aren’t something to lay at her grave and blame her for but her finger prints and markers are in all of them, I am my mother in so many ways I hoped I wouldn’t be).

I try and forget my father so I won’t miss him either. He’s just a disappointment or a hurt when he’s around, just something else to feel bad about (I can’t make him happy, i’m too gay, too fat, too much like my mother, too much like the sister he’s always abused and treated wrong). He’s not worth the energy.

I try to just... put on a face and exist minimally around my family because they aren’t perfect but they try and do a lot and I love them and I will never be truly one of my aunt and uncles children, a sibling to my cousins, my uncle won’t just give me casual affectionate contact and i’m too hold and don’t have the history to crawl into my aunts bed and just cry with her about how awful and broken I feel and they love me so much even if I’m not quite these things so why isn’t it fucking enough?

my ex is an essay i don’t want to do because every time i fucking reach some further progress and closure i lose it and I hate it, I hate it, I hate how part of me still aches and misses her but do I miss her or just the idea of her, what she represented?

That someone could love me, that someone could get me?

But like. Ha, the more you know me, the less you know me, right?

I think it’s a lot like that.

Everyone leaves eventually.

Like my friends, fuck, like everyone is good and fine and I’m the goddamn problem ultimately?

Because my brain just cooks shit up like

Don’t respond to them.

? I’m tired so I will later but-

Don’t, all they do is x. They only talk to you about x. When have they talked to you about anything else, they don’t deserve you, they only want want you can do for them and don’t actually care about you, fuck them, fuck this, this always happens--

or well shit you can be more attentive and still just get same shit different angle,

You now y is just using you to ease their own loneliness and depression.

I am 99% that’s like most human interaction, we’re all supposed to try and help one another-

They don’t actually LIKE you, not really, they don’t know you and how garbage you really are. They wouldn’t like that Logan. They’ll go when you stop being useful, stop being enough, the first time you mess up, and you will, you try so hard, so goddamn hard but you will

I want someone to like the garbage parts of me but also I don’t, because, I can’t even like those parts, why the fuck should they, why, why, people will go if I show those parts or want me to change them and I want to change them too but also some shit doesn’t change and some shit is just me, maybe some of this isn’t just garabage or stuff to learn or unlearn, some part sof me just suck, though who even knows which ones, which parts are real, because i’m so fucking fake you can poke holes through me, at least half of my happiness is even fake but if I don’t at least try and fake it it won’t exist and people won’t want tp interact and i’ll be a drain and i can’t have that, I can’t stand owing people or being a burden even if that’s all I ever do, i don’t understand human interaction and friendships and i hate how i can’t disappear - a few weeks or months - and come back without it being a thing, but also i want people to worry, not to Worry but to give a shit but also WHY SHOULD THEY and I expend all this energy on friendships but sometimes I’m not sure why, if i even want them, but i also know i need friends and like friends and am a friendly person and just

i hate. this. Being so many different pieces and conflicting feelins and reactions and i just want to start over. I want to die and have another playthrough. I want to run away and cut ties with everyone and just... live a different life.

Guess I’m actively suicidal again for the first time in awhile. That’s sort of new.

I think I’m finally tired. I’m... going to post this and try and forget I did.

It will feel like too much of a backstep to just delete it, but I can’t edit this either.

if you read this: none of this is @ or about you, again, this is my bullshit brain and me struggling. You’re good friends, some of you are even wonderful friends, I do. Love you. As much as I can love anyone. Which is a lot sometimes, and other times it’s.

Not? I dunno. I’m broken, I don’t know what to tell you.

Also like don’t talk to me about it because I can’t handle that and will very seriously get mad. 

i’m going to sleep.

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*  KNOWING YOUR PARTNER CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST, DON’T REBLOG.  

*  BASICS.  

NAME / ALIAS :   stellaaaa PRONOUNS :   she / her SEXUALITY :   demi TAKEN OR SINGLE :   single

*  THREE FACTS.

ONE :  i largely forgot b.ucky b.arnes existed until last year. i watched tfa in probably 2011 and wasn’t paying attention to anything apparently, and it took five years before i went  ‘hey i’m way behind on the cap movies i wonder if the new ones are good...’  tws and cw and a couple days of emotional crisis later, there i was with a new blog and here i am now TWO :  i’ve never read a single comic and i don’t have access to any rn unfortunately but i ship bucky/nat quite a lot honestly THREE :  my Tired grumpy fighty son deserves peace and love and kindness, thank u and goodnight

*  EXPERIENCE.

HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?) :   writing in general / rp after a fashion?  roughly 14 years ( more than half my life lol )   on tumblr?  around 4 years maybe, i forget. the first couple months were Wild and best left unremembered probably PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED :   chatrooms, private messages, a forum once, mostly here tho BEST EXPERIENCE :  nnnnnn every experience has its ups and downs. i have / have had  [ stops to count on fingers ]  6 or 7 blogs here over the years and there’s been good and bad times on all of them. but i’m happy here, even if fandom in general can be Exhausting sometimes. the people i’m close with still make being here enjoyable though, and i love my muse so i deal

*  MUSE PREFERENCES.  

FEMALE OR MALE :  male apparently but i can do both FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT :  i enjoy nearly anything except smut it’s just not my thing. it all depends on the muses, my relationship with the other mun, and the situation, honestly. some genres work better with certain people and muses than others. PLOTS OR MEMES :  both. yet again, it depends on the ooc relationship. i write way more comfortably if i know the other mun, and i have some idea of what we’re doing / what we want out of interacting. i love plotted things bc i love details and story and character development. memes can be good ice-breakers and they can also be fun spontaneous side-threads for established relationships. BEST TIME TO WRITE :  any time i’m not exhausted / stressed or being pestered by things in my offline life thanks ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S) :  hmmmmmmmmmmmm bucky and i both worry about our close friends and family and are extremely loyal to them. we both appreciate dry humor and sass, though he’s a lot freer actually sassing people than i am. i’d venture that he’s a lot calmer and more resilient than i am --- i tend to go to pieces and hide in a hole quite easily. but then he’s had a lot more terrible life experience than me. we’re both trying to Do Good though so i guess yeah, there are a fair number of ways we’re similar.

TAGGED BY :  @hittcr sort of TAGGING :  anybody idk i just realized i wasn’t sure if i’d done one of these over here so