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#🌱Thank you<33🌱#I guess my latest vent art post made some of you guys worried. I'm sorry ;;n;; )#but I'm alright. well.. kind of? Like I haven't done anything to myself kind of alright?#maybe I should explain bit about my situation but at the same time I don't feel comfortable to open up too much#but simply said it's about doing art as a job and mental health#Things haven't been going well but I am getting help for my mental health#This is all what I will say for now about my situation#I apologize again that I made you guys worried#but I do warn that I might post more vent art if I get enough energy to draw#this is just one way how I deal with my emotions#but if you don't like vent art I suggest to block the words vent and vent art#I remember tumblr has this option somewhere??#and uhh.. I don't really know how to end this post but thank you everyone who has been sending support<33#I might not know how to reply to them but I have read them all and I'm very thankful for all the support what you guys have given me🌱#Thank you🌱#ask#anon#me talking
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Tetsuya wasn't expecting any sort of response from her since, after all, what she said wasn't wrong and he is aware of that fact. No matter what she says she'll be missing pieces, all she can do is judge based on what little she's been told and on what she sees, which in the grand picture it really doesn't count for much. Though perhaps it is enough for now to satisfy the emptiness she mentioned earlier, at least for now. So, to say that he's surprised when she responds to him is an understatement. To hear that the intention wasn't for him to have a heart comes as no surprise to him, he is sore for one after all, that should be a given at this point, but it is her following question which she presents to him that does leave him slightly without words to say to her. She speaks about manners of perspective something that, coincidentally, Kusanali has also mentioned to him in the past. Tetsuya remains uncharacteristically quiet, attentive to her every word. What his mother does is add substance behind the question she presents to him, as if guiding him towards the answer to it, but not precisely choosing nor providing the answer for him. In the end the yes or the no to it being up to him, after all. So... there wouldn't be a him at all, is what he's coming to understand and something that she took into consideration as well. But, even then...
Hearing her say the word mistake stings, but it doesn't intensify from that, it's just a little sting, as he still keeps his peace and listens to her... perspective of things all of those years back. He'll never be able to verify if this is truly how she felt because her memories of him aren't intact, but, he can see her digging, she digs deep, and in his silence he appreciates it. As he mentioned before, how should he know how she feels and how should she know how he feels. She is she and he is he. It is clear as day that her perspective wasn't one he's ever come to consider, it isn't one he thought of aside from the staple one: that she got rid of him because he was a disappointment, because he wasn't good enough. And though, perhaps, there is some truth in that, that he wasn't what she was hoping he'd be, her reasons for doing what she did entirely catch him off the field. She didn't want to control something that clearly showed her had a will of its own, something that could grow up, something that could learn, unlearn, think for itself, he wasn't empty or hollow, she didn't make a doll even if perhaps the materials she used were for that intent. She brought forth a being who had the potential to become a life of its own.
Tetsuya hesitates at first when she presents him with the question she initially presented him with. If he would have liked that she did that, that she took control of him and if it came to it potentially erase him of himself in the future to make him empty if there was a conflict of ideals. The answer to that is a clear no, of course not, he doesn't like being empty. Tetsuya doesn't like being hollow... hell, he even took the weight of his past life back just to feel like he owned something, so that it could fill the huge hollow gaps inside him. But even then, when it is clear to him that he wouldn't liked that, Tetsuya hesitates. He lowers his head slightly, furrowing his brows and staring at the floor in contemplation. Why does he hesitate when he knows the answer to that question is: no, I wouldn't have wanted that for me. His injured palm, tainted with his dried up blood, injury having healed a while ago now, instinctively and mindlessly moves back towards the feather stained with his blood to hold it gently as he searches for that answer. Of why he hesitates. It has to do with how he feels, how he can feel in such a raw way, he knows it has to do with that. It has to do with the fact that he doesn't see her as his creator first, he sees her as his mother first, creator second. "You couldn't have..." he feels some semblance of an answer at the tip of his tongue. "You couldn't have kept me by your side?" He asks, now looking back at her with less conflict. That's why he hesitates, because to him, in his head she is his mother first, she is his creator second, but mother first and foremost.
Aren't mothers supposed to do what they can to protect and keep their children safe? He's seen many mothers in his time. Good mothers, bad mothers, mothers who didn't want to be mothers, mothers who hated their children, mothers who loved their children to bits, mothers who would flip the world upside its head if it meant their children would be happy. If he had to put her in a box... what kind of mother would she had been to him, he wonders. Did it not hurt her when she let him go? He understands her logic and he hears it, he does, back then she probably didn't even perceive him as such a thing; a son, her son. He was an it to her, not a him, her creation, but an emotionally delusional part of him grasps on straws here still. He knows he won't get his answer, her memories aren't as they used to so he won't get them and yet still he asks, his composure being tested though not because of rage this time, no... it's some sort of sadness, an anguish and it makes his grip on the feather tighter. If he had a heart in his chest, he'd be holding it like his life depended on it because of the ache he's suddenly feeling. "You couldn't have just... kept me by your side?" His question almost sounds like a broken plea. "I... I suffered a lot you know? Since you left me..." She probably does, but he wants her to hear it, he needs her to hear it. "When you left me you probably weren't counting on me to wake up, but I did. I-I don't know why but I woke up. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know anything!" His voice progressively getting louder, but not out of ire, but because this hurt that he's suddenly feeling a rise of... he has to let it out or it's going to overwhelm him. "I had to learn so many things through experience alone and it wasn't easy for me!" There were people who took advantage of him, people who avoided him, people who manipulated him due to his ignorance, people he'd mindlessly follow along because they gave him some sense of being, they gave him a purpose, but...
He pauses for a moment, feeling his eyes sting, this being a tell-tale sign that he's about to cry and he doesn't want to cry. He doesn't want to cry anymore, he's done enough of that. He doesn't want to cry in front of her. "But," he sniffs, lowering his gaze after he's felt he's calmed down enough, "I also met good people," his family in Tatarasuna. "They tried to help me, they taught me how to behave, how to act, what was appropriate and what wasn't. They... showed me what it was like to be part of a family." How it was to live with one, learn from one, be loved by one. "But, that was a long time ago." They all got ripped away from him, something that fills him with rage and though he begged to get her help, never once properly getting an audience with her, the ones still at fault for what happened in Tatarasuna are the Fatui and that he will never forgive. Where is he going with this exactly? What is he trying to prove? To show? She's acknowledged him as his own self many years ago now, even before he was aware of such a thing, so it isn't that. He sighs. "Maybe things would have been different... if you had let me stay with you." Ah, so that's it.
Maybe things wouldn't have gone how they did in Tatarasuna if he was with her, maybe he wouldn't have had such a bad hand by fate if she kept him, perhaps... he would have turned out different if she made the decision to keep him with her. It's the if of it, the if that has him talking about this. And it is that if that makes him shed a couple of tears without his consent. His gaze still downcast, now he can definitely not get himself to look at her properly, not until he's calm again, his tears falling to the ground of this slumbering sanctuary of bygone memories for them both. Tetsuya sniffs, remaining silent the entire time she speaks and only taking a shy glance at her just in time to see her smile which only makes something in his chest jolt, his eyes held completely captive by that smile of hers and her words slowly registering in his head. He lets go of his feather, allowing it to dangle securely under his vision. He wipes and rubs his eyes with his knuckle, looking away in slight shame. At this time he doesn't have the energy to think about how the talk between her and Kusanali will go or if it's going to happen, but everything she says are like little shocks to his body, knocking him off his footing for even when she asks for his name, something so normal and commonplace, it is a surprise to him.
He takes a moment before he answers, he doesn't want to stay this mess that he is. He takes a deep breath and then exhales it slowly before answering. "T-Tetsuya," he responds, looking back at her properly at last. "My name is Tetsuya."
Closing chapters of the past regardless of how positive or negative the ending scenario may be is tantamount to living the present in full and advance towards the future. Not even gods are exempt from learning a lesson like that through losses, just like she had recently with Makoto's ultimate farewell. Sorrow inundated Ei no doubt, albeit it was not as painful as it was when in her losing vitality, her twin sister bid farewell to her within her realm of consciousness if only to have some strength left to say what her body no longer could. This time, it was a release and a breath of fresh air, it was a reminder that so long as the Sacred Sakura exists, so will she continue veiling over Inazuma and over her— such is her twin sister's strength even in death.
It must be the same for her creation— or should she better think of him as a son? While equal in origin, there is a stark difference betwixt him and Raiden Shogun and the one and only reason she can think at the time for her to discard him like she did in the distant past. As distant as years that must mount to centuries of sorrows and lack of understanding why it happened. Her release could have been taken as a blessing but also a curse for abandoning him like she must've done. Long lashes flutter to a brief close as she brings the extended hand to her chest in a moment's consideration.
While the reason of her abandonment may be clear, so it was her recklessness in not giving him the treatment he needed for the same reason that he is different from Raiden Shogun— special. ❝You were never intended to have one.❞ He was meant to be a puppet, an empty vessel where to place her consciousness. There would be no him, only her. Like she is Raiden Shogun, and Raiden Shogun is her. One factor impeded that from happening if not by force and oppression, if not by erasing the sign of identity and replace it with herself. Raiden Shogun was empty through and through, waiting to be filled with that which can only be described as Raiden Ei.
Fair eyelids open anew to reveal serene amethysts, a far cry from the tempests concealed within in a situation that called for thread if not clarified as soon as possible. ❝Answer me this: would you have been happier were I choose you over Raiden Shogun after you?❞ Her eyes rise to the beauty of the golden hour heavens that vault the Slumbering Court. ❝This place may be precursor for nostalgia and melancholy for you and I both. But it is for different reasons based on the manner you and I perceive reality and process it, on our live experiences.❞
Her gaze descends to look at him once again, the hand shut close by her bosom opens and she reveals the palm of her hand to him. ❝If you were to be me, there would be no other perception than mine based on the data I would've had to introduce in you to form your consciousness in such manner that it mirrors mine from 500 years ago.❞ She walks a few steps to one side, then comes to a halt and shakes her head.
❝What I sought is a vessel where to deposit my consciousness so I could discard the lifespan factor of my previous mortal body. For that to happen, it should be devoid of emotions by itself.❞ Amethyst eyes search nigh equivalent ones. ❝There was a mistake in the manner I created you, one that perhaps could count as a miracle. Before I could shape you completely to act as my vessel, something unexpected happened: while you mirrored every single thing I taught you, you started to display signs of cognition of your own that would soon develop in the ability to possess feelings.❞
❝I must've foreseen the possibility that, were I give you a chance to become my vessel, your growing self and mine would eventually conflict with one another. The result would be the necessity to negate your sense of self to make it work. Would you be content with that?❞
Her eyes narrow when he speaks of his past experiences however he wills to let her know, and more events that while vaguely, she is somehow aware that have occurred very recently. There is disappointment in the thought that after being given the Electro Gnosis it has now fell in the Fatui's hands— albeit it is to be expected also. Gnosis are signs of power over the mortal realm, source of power to Archons. However, she needs no power from a Gnosis nor she found utility to it in the way she wanted. La Signora struggled to negotiate with her to get it herself, considering Tsaritsa's plans it would be a matter of time until she would eventually have her Gnosis, too.
For the first time since they encountered one another at the doors of the Slumbering Court, the Narukami Ogosho closes her eyes as the corners of her lips lift in a smile. ❝At least it seems that someone else is giving you the kindness that I must've not given you, that's good.❞ At least that is what she can presume from the lack of constancy in the empty slots where memories of him should permeate her mind. If she kept in touch with him for a prolonged amount of time, that would reflect in a major amount of memories. ❝About what you did to Inazuma... currently, I am in no place to judge until I have all the information. It seems that I have much to talk with Nahida, to ask her about the full version— and to thank her.❞ For caring for you like I never did, but also for giving you the punishment you must deserve for your wrongdoings.
❝When the time comes I will reunite with her and have a lengthy conversation. Tell me... what is your name? You must have one, correct?❞
#hikarizora#in character.#act iii: wanderer.#wow i never thought i'd have the opportunity to have him cry#than k you for that yOU TOO ARE GONNA ME CR Y AWRAXA#i honestly thought the same thing and that's funny cause#that is exactly his argument as well but it's also like you said#she was in this really dark place at the time#it must have definitely been a lot at the time for her#i do apologize if this reply is like#slow on the pacin g#he has had this view of being abandoned for so long that#like being presented with /her/ point of view and how /she/#perceived her actions it is a load for sure#having it challenged from the one he wanted to#subconsciously hear it from the most after almost 500 years#he is trying to digest and process it
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The unmistakable sound of footsteps approaching begins to fill the air. Whoever is coming seems to have brought some company along…
They are getting closer… and closer… and closer…
…and closer…
……until..................
"Goooooood evenin'!!" Comes the loud greeting from a certain blond man. A big smile on his face and all.
"We beg your pardon for our prolonged absence. It was completely beyond our control..." Then adds the gentleman standing by his side, apologizing on behalf of both, offering a genuine smile along with the apology.
"...BUT! We're back!" And hopefully for good this time…
#[HI HIIIIIII~~ HOW'S EVERYONE DOING?? 8)]#[IDK IF ANYONE REMEMBERS ME OR MY MUSES ANYMORE?? BUT HELLOOO]#[one million years later but we're backkkkkk]#[i'd like to start by apologizing for completely disappearing for months without any announcement]#[life has been far from kind all this year so far and this has greatly and negatively impacted me emotionally]#[like..very VERY badly (harmful stuff and etc)]#[all to a point where i've had to take some time off from most social media]#[and which is also why i haven't checked or replied to any messages anywhere in a while]#[not that i'm the most social and most active person ever but you get what i mean here ;v;]#[the original plan was to come back here like a month or so ago but as you can guess i was unable to due to the same irl issues]#[i'm not gonna lie i'm still not doing well]#[but i wanted to come back or at least try to]#[since writing for these two and the ogre street guys always brings me joy and i also missed everyone here!]#[i'm still unsure if dropping threads will be the way to go for now or not#because i have no idea if my partners are still interested in any threads we had prior my unannounced hiatus]#[or if anyone's still interested in interacting with me and my muses again ;v;]#[so if we have ongoing threads i'll likely be jumping into your IMs over the course of the days to ask about it]#[i just need to check my thread tracker first because i can't remember what i owed last time ;;;;;;]#[as always: we can start new stuff any time in case you're no longer feeling whatever threads we had]#[and we can also start from scratch if that's best too]#[so no worries there!]#[enough blablah from me for now]#[i missed you all so much!]#[and to the new followers this blog somehow earned in my absence: Hi!! Thank you for following and I hope we can interact soon!!]#[hope everyone has been doing great during my absence!! <3]#;speedwagon says (( ic ))#;jonathan says (( ic ))#;ic#(??#;speedwagon withdraws coolly
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Any Eda, Raine, or Reada in that beautiful sketchbook of yours? And sorry about the bots stressing you out.
not in my traditional sketchbook, but i do have this raeda piece i never got around to finishing 🥺 plus an owl beast doodle
#my art#myart#the owl house#raeda#toh#tysm btw!!!!!#as for the bots they actually stopped!#i was getting 100+ per day#which was like. not normal? most ppl get like 3? and i was worried my acct was getting targeted or something#i was worried my acct would be flagged for buying followers or smth idk#so i emailed support asking if they had any idea if/why my acct was being targeted#and if there was anything i could do#first they didn’t read the email and just sent me an automated response informing me that i could just block and report 100+ accts per day#and when i replied again i got a passive aggressive response from a real person that boiled down to ‘we don’t know why you’re#being targeted’#which was rlly all i was asking?? 😭#but anyway shortly after that i stopped getting any at all#i am free!#and i apologize to whichever staff member i annoyed by asking lmao#calamitycoyote-reblogs
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some kel sketches i'm working on
#hi#i wanted to sketch some scenes from one of my AUs so that's what these are#i still have a lot more to do. spent most of yesterday making pose refs for all of em#sorry all i've been posting lately is drawing stuff. that's just what i've been focused on ig#also apologies to anyone who has sent me an ask/tagged me in something/left a reply on one of my posts in the last like. 2 months#& i didn't reply. uh.#i'm not ignoring you i have just been feeling very. lie face down in the dirt. recently. so. yea.#i'll try to respond eventually. hopefully.#oh! i went to the thrift store yesterday. found pom poko & howl's moving castle!#very exciting adds to my collection.#n e way. i'm gonna go draw now. bye#artwip#rainyrambles
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#thriller bark#ch473#ik this is not on the same post i had my little enstars tag ramble on#and i've said before idk how many of you read these (though evidently enough of you do i see you#people who prev tags my silly comments. and reply to me as well hiiii)#but i will not apologize for like. being silly doing life updates in the tags#i've been told one of my charm points is that i'm very passionate about things i like#idk how to flirt i just let my autism flare up til my girlfriend kisses me /j <- mostly cuz we're ldr#augh speaking of my gf.... she's coming to visit me in june for a wedding for my friend#she's my +1 i'm excited to see her we're gonna go on a cute date the day after#oh i'm excited i havent seen her since january 2023 before we even got together lmao#okay. now that i got that out of the way i should finish queuing this chapter before i go to sleep
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You're the first person i've encountered here/on twt who ships the SH polycule 😭 everywhere I go it's nuclear family this girl dad blade that
I know anon, I know. It's dire for us out there.
It's not even that I don't think they're found family. They very much are. It's that found family doesn't mean found father found mother and found children, and yet it's apparently all people can come up with for some reason. And not only does it limit how you can appreciate their relationship, but I'm also really not a fan of the resulting constant infantilization of Silver Wolf and now Firefly by... Most people at this point. You don't have to ship the four of them together, but I sure would appreciate if people didn't treat these two like Blade and Kafka's teenage daughters just because they have short models.
I can't tell you how grateful I am that Firefly called them all her partners in 2.3. Not her allies, not her teammates, her partners. And that Jade, from her outsider point of view, called their relationship "strong and intimate". They all love each other so deeply, it's everything to me.
This ship may be so tiny you might as well call it a raft but believe me when I say I'm sailing it as far as it can go.
#anon#ask#answer#whoops this got away from me#apologies for being a hater in this reply anon i'm just tired of ALL the stellaron hunter content being nuclear family like you said#very tired of short women being treated as kids as soon as they're short#but THAT ASIDE#i'm so happy to find someone else who ships them all too#i'll be honest at this point i thought i was the only one#well me and my friends i infected with my brain worms#(sorry guys i love you i swear)#hsr#stellaron hunters#obviously you don't have to ship them#but that said#boy do i ever#they're found family and they also kiss. and fuck. these aren't mutually exclusive.#i love them so much#one day i'll have a proper ot4 tag#today is not yet that day#kafbladefirewolf
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Hi!
Do you have any recommendations for resources on Inuit names in the mid 19th century? I’m working on a post-canon The Terror fic and I want names for OCs.
Ii, sure thing! I don't know of any Inuit name databases in modern standardized orthography, specifically, but I have some resources!
Most important is to keep dialect, orthography, and the kinship system in mind. If your OCs are Ugřuliŋmiut, Qikiqtarmiut, Natchiliŋmiut, or any other speakers of what may possibly be termed a Nattilingmiutut (sub)dialect, I'd suggest hewing toward phonetically modern Natchiliŋmiutut in the way that I think the book ᐊᒡᓗ | Aglu | The Breathing Hole does for its Inuktut starting from Act One in 1535 onward, resulting in intervocalic [h] rather than [s] and so on, as this way one can more closely rely on available resources that reflect today's modern language. If one uses modern standardized orthography, then try to standardize all the names alike into the same qaliujaaqpait, for example by representing the voiced velar nasal [ŋ] phoneme with either /ŋ/ or /ng/ throughout all names; otherwise, keep period-typical spelling for all the names, and note that you may need to “de-update” names from modern standardized spelling so that they meet the same nonstandard standard. “Aglukkaq” is spelled in modern standardized orthography; “Aglooka” is in period-typical nonstandardized orthography. Modern standardized orthographies for Inuit languages are highly phonemic, meaning that the spelling systems more consistently correlate to the languages' phonemes, and usage of modern standardized orthography in the historical setting could imply that the POV character is better able to discern how the language actually sounds. Kinship terms would be usual in place of speaking a relative's name, and people adopted into a community would be given kinship terms or, with a name, the kinship terms that correspond to their namesake. Inuit names are all functionally unisex!
Inuit naming is a brief article by Peter Irniq. He mentions the -nnuaq and -nnuałłuk postbases as the Natchiliŋmiutut ones preferred over other Canadian dialects' -kuluk.
Janet Tamalik McGrath's master's thesis Conversations with Nattilingmiut elders on conflict and change: Naalattiarahuarnira touches on the kinship system's traditional usage.
I highly recommend going through The Netsilik Eskimos: Social Life and Spiritual Culture by Knud Rasmussen, wherein his census record as many names as he could in his own orthography, influenced by his fluency in Kalaallisut. The name “Orpingalik” from his orthography may be modernized to “Uqpiŋalik;” “Qaqortingneq” to “Qakuqti’niq;” “Uvlúnuaq” to “Uplunnuaq;” “mane·lAq” to “Maniilaq;” “kiɳmiArtɔq” to “Kiŋmiaqtuq;” et cetera.
Modern Inuktut language surnames are all derived from traditional given names, so looking at prominent Inuit figures, and at who is portrayed and credited in media such as on IsumaTV, can yield great results! Though note that some names will be dialect-specific, and many surname spellings predate standardization. Thus, surnames such as Louie Kamookak's and Sammy Kogvik's would be standardized to “Qamukkaaq” and “Qurvik” respectively.
The Natchilingmiut Uqauhingit | Natchilingmiutut Dictionary is indispensable, both for with which to double-check one's spelling, and for the nouns therein that may make for suitable names! Common nouns like tuktu “caribou,” ujarak “rock,” and kuplu “thumb” are all solid choices. If one is feeling daring, one may even combine a verb root with the intransitive indicative mood singular verb ending +ř/tuq (+řuq after vowels, +tuq after consonants) to make a noun participle. Postbases like -nnuaq (noun-to-noun; “the small Noun”) and -’ř/-rřuaq (noun-to-noun; “the big Noun”) may additionally be incorporated so long as one is confident of one's grammatical synthesizing.
To that aim, the sites uqausiit.ca and tusaalanga.ca are really very wonderful, uqausiit being a dictionary, tuhaalaŋa having a glossary with more than a few audio entries, and both holding extremely useful grammar basics on several central Canadian Inuit language varieties that include Natchiliŋmiutut! Other great sites I recommend are inuktitutcomputing.ca (grammar and some Natchiliŋmiutut in the dictionary); inuinnaqtun.ca (closely related language Inuinnaqtun resources); and inupiaqonline.com (Alaskan Iñupiatun language dictionary)! The Inuktitut Magazine archive is available online for free as well!
Everyone should also read Aglu, because I hath saith. One should cry for Aŋu’řuaq, that good bear. (Natchiliŋmiutut translation included!)
Any mistakes herein are mine; if spotted, feel free to please correct! (A variant by the qakuqhi- in the dictionary may be Qakuqhi’niq…and perhaps Qakuqhinniq would furthermore be the better standardization as I am unsure as to whose precise subdialects assimilate the latter [t] in what I presume is the ∓tit- morpheme into /’/ versus /n/, and so on…) I do hope this is helpful!
#the terror amc#linguistics#inuit languages#languages#inuktitut#natchiliŋmiutut#my posts#answered asks#asks#or no; maybe it should be qakuqtinniq as the standard because otherwise#where is the phoneme that knud was hearing at the end of qakuqhi- i wonder?#i call the netsilik hunter aŋutimmarik#the other shaman: niunnuaq#but there are many names out there! namesake matters more than meaning#names being like inherited souls unto themselves; aspects of which are imparted#breath-soul. soul-soul. name-soul. together complete a human#i really do apologize that among my top replies are “modernize some yourself” but the dictionaries really do help
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On the topic of How Do You Handle XYZ Comment, I've always wondered how you handle terrible responses on your toh takes. Like I know the toh fandom doesn't lack piss on the poor reading comprehension and they also really enjoy wildly out of touch takes, but I've never seen any comments on your princess luz stuff of that nature. I'm sure they must be there but maybe I'm too early? But anyway, how do you tend to deal with the "acktually shipping luz and Hunter is incest" and the "ur not a real lesbian because putting amity in a poly ship is lesbian erasure" and the "as a white person kinda sus you make the poc woman an empress" kind of responses? Ones that are technically not hate and maybe if you squint could be from people who aren't inherently trying to do bad but just lack the maturity needed to engage with the internet at large?
this ask made me giggle. honestly, i haven't received as much pushback as you might expect! way less pushback than i expected. in the princess AU, i've gotten a LOT more "this is actually too grotesque for me to stomach" comments than "this is problematic" comments, which is fine. horror-thriller isn't for everyone, those comments do not upset me.
i have had a Few run-ins with bad faith people, whom i mostly block. there's one prolific commenter in toh tumblr fandom who would repeatedly write angry essays on my humor meta posts -- essays that were all about how belos is too evil to be sympathetic and/or about how hunter is a soft gentle boy who shouldn't be jokingly referred to as evil. then they'd go "i can't help my active and conscious decision to type a bunch of rude fucking words and then my active and conscious decision to send those rude fucking words because i'm autistic :(((" around the fourth or fifth time this happened, i was fucking done with that nonsense and finally blocked them. shoulda done it after the first comment tbh!! no more autism exceptions.
as for the rest of it, my main management strategy is to simply.... preempt the bad faith comments?
i had a LOT more unpleasant and conflict-filled fandom experiences when i was in the raven cycle fandom. that was my first exposure to "you can't ship multi-gender polycules if anyone involved is gay" and "queerplatonic het relationships are just heteronormativity shipping that you're trying to get away with." having dealt with those takes before, i've found a few different ways to disarm bad faith readers before they get started.
first is to be super open and honest about my interests. i talk about what i find compelling in different relationships All The Damn Time. it's really hard for anyone to accuse me of only wanting hunter to fuck amity if they've seen, like.... anything i've said about hunter and amity.
same with hunter and luz. the only negative reactions i've really gotten to how they're written in the princess AU is like.... two people being squicked by camila thinking they're romantically involved. i REALLY expected more pushback on the touchyfeely bed sharing stuff, but from what i remember, there's never been Any....? not even from people who consider them siblings.
i expected a lot of pushback on how mean hunter and amity are to each other, since it's taken So much farther than the canon. but it turns out that there's a very large overlap between people who like dark horror AUs and people who like hunter and amity murdering each other. (in a fluffy fic i don't think this characterization would fly Nearly as easily.)
i find that being funny really disarms people, too. when you look at any of my toh meta posts that could be controversial, they're basically all funny. people are a lot more willing to listen to what you have to say if you make them laugh, and it's harder for them to get angry at you.
and then the last thing is that i think i'm in sort of a privileged position in toh fandom. i've written a lot of controversial subjects and relationships and characterizations.... but i've also written some WILDLY popular mainstream fic. and people who like the mainstream fic don't really want to beef with me about differing niche opinions, bc there's a level of respect there. which they might not have for a writer they don't like.
but anyway. when things Do happen, i almost always just block and move on. there are so many people here who get what i'm talking about that there's no need for me to try to convert people who don't, you know??
#also the 'making a character of color an empress is problematic' thing made me laugh aloud#as for THAT... i don't think i've ever been accused of racism in how i write luz (or camila or raine or darius or hennessy for that matter)#i'm obviously imperfect and have blind spots as a white writer. but i also like to think i do my due diligence#at the Very Least i have Black and latine friends willing to sensitivity read for me & i've gone to native spanish speakers for camila's#dialogue. etc. if anyone has a take that's THAT bad faith about how i write women of color i'm just gonna uh.....#assume that what they really mean is that they want me to write white boys exclusively.#and well. i will not be doing that!#replies#toh#princess luz au#long post#if there are typos in this i apologize. i was out again all day and i am Le Tired
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you showed up on my tumblr i used to follow u on twt and i just wanted to say that one time i said smthn mean abt ur art to your fucking face and you probably already forgot it cause it was over 4 years ago but i never got over the fact that i did that and i am so fucking sorry dude omg
Please I woke up to this and laughed please I wanna know what you could've possibly said.
BC I feel like i should remember this so it probably went over my head you ever did it at all. I WANT TO KNOW SO BADLY... PLEASE...
#if it was like in person irl#there is a chance i just straight up didn't hear you ngl#ask#I WANT TO KNOW HOWWW#this is probably a 100% a vocaloid fan for sure#past or present. but 4ish years ago i had my tbhk midlife crisis#please.#i mean i'll acknowledge it right fuckign now my art was not that great back then and it's onlyl after i started seriously working to improv#but please i want to know.#pspspspspssps#i promise insults do not get .e me. probabyl bci dont get them at first#WHAT COULD IT POSSIBLY HAVE BEEN TO LAST 4 YEARS IN YOUR HEAD THOUGH#LIKE THE MOST I CAN REMEMBER WAS GETTING UPSET OVER LIKE. real intense stuff from people who definitely 100% never would apologize#stares into the distance#reply soon anon please. please i want to know#“to your fucking face” made me laugh an unnecessary amount#its so funny to me
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UHM. RUH ROH..
#WHY DOES HE ALWAYS FIND IT#This is like that one drawing I did#where everyone commented “save a horse#and then HE REPLIED#and I was so embarrassed#if he’s aware of DITD#I do formally apologize#leaf chatter
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I've always wondered if you happened to have a discord? If not have you ever considered making one?
i do have one! however i use it very sparingly because 1) new people (especially groups) scare me & 2) brain's been fucking weird for a hot minute and i barely talk to people i'm already friends with let alone strangers
#so i say this So Neutrally and Impersonally#please don't ask me to join your group chat lmao#i promise you i will appear Once and then ill never open it again bc ill get nervous and awkward and guilty#its too much stress!#Also dont ask to chat there same rules apply Sorry Sorry#like... the Only exception is if we've already been chatting but that very rarely happens bc#again! my brain's fucked and i have the mental constitution of a wet cat!#rambles from the bog#i havent opened discord in. a while#when life gets stressful enough i just Shut Down and huddle into a proverbial corner with a blanket over my head#there are like. two people on discord i have / want to actively talk to#and one of em is an irl friend ahaha#so if you were thinking of sending me an invite or something: Thank You For Thinking Of Me! Please Don't.#i think... i think this generally extends to dms too#abrupt dms frighten me. so do random @s. apologies im a Very nervous person <3#and then even when i Do chat over dms or somethin with someone i can see myself befriending#i often forget to reply for a while and then it gets to the point where its been so long and i feel so guilty#that i Cant Bring Myself To#sigh. anyway. long story short Yes i have a discord
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thinking about the whole twt scam situation ™ again ough
#monolith mumbles#gonna rant for a min#like main situation sorted fine#then boom 27 yr old mutual of op comes crawling out the woodworks#i did ask a silly question which i apologized for twice and reiterated TWICE. and they then kept yapping and arguing 💀#like erm i think calling an autistic person braindead at ur big age is weird actually#''omfg are you braindead this is a common scam get it through your thick skulls'' first im a tumblr main. second it clearly isnt common#enough considering op got scammed💀#and i still think im justified being put off that nobody (excluding op) noticed the glaring differences in the accounts 💀 and how it was#up for 10+ hours with no one noticing 💀#along with that they tried to frame it like i thought op had it out for me then said i wasnt important enough for someone to target me#because my twt acc has like 300 followers which. clearly i was because the scammer used my art💀#again twenty fucking seven. 27 DOING ALL THIS#after my final reply i ignored my twt main for like 2 days. which someone else replied saying something that started with#''all this happened because you'' then i just blocked them today before reading the rest. and just blocked everyone involved#like if ur mutual is 27 behaving like this i do nawt want to have any interaction with you at all soz. i also didn't get any priv apologies#instead they were pushing how they were innocent and not accusing anyone of being guilty which. its like you were a min ago#u were accusing ME💀 go d#me miffed about not getting priv apologies is me being petty but im 5'4 im never the bigger person so#I'll stay petty actually#anyway blocked all of them for my own piece hope op gets $60 back somehow but i also want 0 interaction based on their oomf
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sometimes i lurk on the 'for you' part of dumblr and i just saw a non-moot's post saying sorry for all the people waiting for them to reply. guess what number was apparently So Much they had to make a public apology
#19. the number was 19 drafts#cue in the tiktok audio: oo fancy pants mcgee over here#u dont know me but i am genuinely so impressed#please take ishtar and do my (40ish) drafts#and lets not even mention the asks#some people are writing like its their job and i am so so so jealous#you will never get a public apology out of me. if u love me u just accept that me replying to you relies on the moon the stars and#some strange russian roulette happening inside my head between all my current and past hyperfixations#out.
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lmao i asked bc, as you said in your tags, there was a certain way that it comes across as with how you’re talking about it, so i genuinely wondered bc i was gonna listen to it as well. i’ve been reading plenty of comments about it as well that mostly just lean on “aoty” “soty” “best album ever” and i get that these are (hopefully) exaggerated claims by stans, but i was seriously yet to see a decent comment about its musicality. it’s either about his face in the mv or his voice or the aesthetic of the mv. nothing on the lyricism or the instrumentations or its creativity or depth, so i was hesitant. i get liking it, but i doubt its being “the best”, so when i saw that your comments were the same, i began to wonder if this is another case of exaggerated praises and it’s just... meh at best. nothing new and all that. i am still gonna listen to it on my own ofc but, i guess, since i’m not really his fan, i’m not all excited. amazing debuts usually create tractions of their own, and i don’t hear much for this, but i ain’t judging based on that ofc. anyway, no need to feel attacked. as i said, i was genuinely curious so i asked. i’m well aware that i have ears. i was just genuinely curious about what you actually thought about it, what with your unhinged tags and whatnot. that’s all.
hard to gain traction when ur company announces ur album 2 weeks before it drops!
i was thrown by your wording and i still kind of am but i don't listen to music i don't enjoy and that's across the board for any artist bc....why would i do that lol and maybe ur not in the right circle being a casual fan/non-fan bc I've seen most ppl talk abt the musicality along with everything else 🤔
ik u said u were genuinely asking and i appreciate the explanation but im picking up on an overall unimpressed tone ("hopefully exaggerated" "doubt it being the best" ?) and it feels like u've made up ur mind about jaehyun and his music and ur asking me to give u a reason to change ur mind/care/be impressed but that's not my job ur free to make ur own opinion to me it seems ur going in with a half formed one already but it's music so like it or leave it either way is okay! ur under no obligation!
I'm sorry if being a kpop stan (im assuming...?) has made u feel disillusioned by solo releases tho i understand bc ppl are often overhyped by fans but jaehyun is a music enjoyer who did his homework and worked with artists he himself is a fan of and the payoff is really good music
overall ur ask is very uninformed which if ur not a fan is understandable but as a native english speaker myself listening to an album that is almost entirely in english from a nonnative speaker i have to say the lyrics are very well done they make sense create good metaphor and aren't superficially about balling or making a lot of money (i loathe to hear this often in eng versions of kpop songs lol) and jaehyun is credited as a lyricist on almost every song afaik
the production value is solid "can't get you" has an entire band accompaniment (the trumpet >>>>>) he wrote/worked on "flamin hot lemon" with emotional oranges (one of my fave artists actually <3) so that one is Excellent in every regard esp for a song inspired by cheetos lmao I've said numerous times that none of the songs sound like they were created with the intent of 30 secs going viral on tiktok (a very important differentiation for me) and one of my favorites parts about the title track "smoke" is the outro it's soooo good there's an unexpected bit of piano that he adlibs along with >>>> and the ballad "completely" has a Gorgeous piano backing to it (the lyrics on this one are also so beautiful)
my excitement about the release may have overwhelmed me so i might not have broken down each song beat by beat but rest assured i'm not wasting time on music i don't enjoy
in summation the album is good and on a separate unrelated note he just happens to be really hot ❤️
#i think ppl having commentary on everything else is valid considering he had a part in all of it#theres a lot of discussion about the aesthetic and mv etc etc bc he was in creative control#and it was well done#i dont think theres anything wrong with having that conversation bc it's art it should be all encompassing there should be a stunning visua#u can listen to music for so many reasons so i encourage conversations like that! ppl are excited!#and that doesn't deminish or take away from the quality of the songs#listen to the music u want to listen to u don't have to like or even listen to jaehyuns album but i did and i liked it for the music itself#replies#u caught me before i'd gone to sleep and now right when i woke up with this so i apologize if it's incoherent#i hope u do listen to it and enjoy it but if not thats okay ❤️
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🖕 for Cosmo’s father if ur still doing those lol. I’m super bored rn and have no writing energy.
🖕 - hed been perticularly loud about how the godparenting system is flawed, in general he liked doing protests, he got kicked out often, really passionate about his moral compass yknow
#cupid.exe#couldnt think of anything so this one was made on the spot sorry anon...... i dont have anything abt his dad made up in my head :(#also dont apologize i love doing these forever and ever (i suck at making headcanons)#sorry for taking so long to reply i am the avoider and forgetter . idk#i like to imagine this was before mama cosma was rlly possessive over cosmo.. definatly died after that#i
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