#i didn't read over shit

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

hero/villain showdown but one of them has a spontaneous medical emergency and the battle gets put on hold while their archnemesis drives them to Urgent Care

[glitter-stained]

Jason flirting using lines and strategies from his favourite romance books. Except he doesn't use lines from Austen novels, because those are his feel good, idealistic romance stories that could never happen in real life because people don't get that kind of fancy love. You know what Jason bases his perception of his own romance on? Gothic romance. Shit like wuthering Heights. Jane Eyre. It's not realistic unless someone dies.

Jason: Be with me always -take any form- drive me mad!

Rose: does that mean you want me to carry on pegging you or-

****

Jason: *slips picture of Dick's friendgroup under the door with a little note scribbled on the back:* reader, I married him.

Dick: ...which one? Oh my god Jason which one? Get back here and tell it to my escrima sticks you coward!

****

Jason: whatever souls are made of, yours and mine are the same

Kyle: how insulting

****

Jason: if I ever die, would you lie in bed with me as I feel my forces leave me?

Rena: I will stay with you until you fall asleep.

[sergle]

I think if you're in a relationship that's anything less than ROCK FUCKING SOLID you should consider not messing with too many of your partners interests. You'll think ohh nooo I'm being a good partner engaging in the stuff they loveee we can bond over ittttt No. you don't want all your hobbies and shows and books covered in their stank.

[seventeendeer]

this isn't at all meant to be condescending or finger-waggy because 100% we all have blind spots like this, but I'm really, really hoping that the people who never found Gaiman's approach to his own fandom concerning in any way will take this all as a learning moment.

he was an older, hyper-famous author engaging directly and frequently with an online audience of largely vulnerable young marginalized people. he presented himself as cultured and worldly, and made himself approachable as someone to go to for advice, encouragement and "wisdom." his manner of speech was extremely pathos-heavy and clearly intended to be comforting and encouraging in exactly the way his target demographic needed it to be to swallow every word. the way he spoke about stories and creativity was designed to make young creative hopefuls feel special and important, while sweeping real analytical techniques under the rug - in hindsight, likely so no one would think too critically about the disturbing amount of patriarchal abuse played for cheap shock value and voyerism in his own body of works.

Gaiman saw a target demographic that was desperate for an older creative role model to tell them they were worth something, and he exploited that pain to twist a narrative around himself where he was king and any critique leveled at him or his works were the enemy.

to be clear, he could have been innocent. he could totally have been just an out-of-touch old man saying nice things to people because he wanted to be kind and he thought he was a lot smarter than he really was. red flags are warning signs, not a surefire way to tell if someone is actually "secretly shitty."

but if you used to look up to him, PLEASE take this moment to revisit the ideas you absorbed from him. did you take his words to heart because they seemed to have objective merit? or did you take them to heart because it felt good to believe what he said? do you still hold these values? does knowing he was intentionally manipulating his online audience make you less certain? do you need more information from a different source before deciding one way or another?

again, I'm just really, really hoping people on here will take a moment to reevaluate the ideas and opinions he's injected into tumblr fandom culture, because his reach is immense and he has absolutely been manipulating popular perception of relevant topics to gain further influence and control the narrative around both his own and Pratchett's legacy. please, please take this moment to notice what he's been doing - and next time someone tries to pull the same shit, hopefully we'll be able to apply what we've learned from experience.

[rmbunnie]

Okay so post-Seeing Red reread that comes with reading through Green Arrow 2001, I have 2 new things I've noticed and thought were interesting! This is the first, and the second will be here later on:

Ollie is kinda on his empathy A-game in this one? Like he's being a good dad, a good friend/colleague, it's impressive how much he isn't flying off the handle. I feel like all-in-all post-Mia-HIV-diagnosis, or maybe even post-City Walls, I can't pin down the shift exactly, he becomes much more self-aware in regards to his own temper and emotional shortcomings, and he doesn't like try to change that, but he does start avoiding situations that he knows he won't be able to handle with grace, (which feels like a much more natural progression for him and most characters in general than suddenly getting better and healing and no longer being flawed, but that's just my preference,) and he's doing his best with that in this one. All this to say, he:

keeps the conflict with Bruce to a minimum, except for when he's calling out his parenting style and rightfully upset by the possibility that Bruce only showed up in the first place to lure out Jason, and he and Mia were planned collateral. (It's worth noting that once he critiques Bruce's parenting, Bruce's knee-jerk response is to say pretty much "I know you're being mean and irrational because you're upset, but remember when Roy got addicted to heroin?" which, even disregarding the Roy part, he's kinda chalking any questioning of his parenting style up to Ollie just being upset, when like, that's a very valid critique of the situation. And I think context is added to his critique of Bruce's parenting style by acknowledging that a. that this comes after Bruce calling Jason "dirt in the gutter" and GA responding like "whatever you say," and b. Ollie is canonically aware that somehow, Jason ended up buried in rubble in his last fight with Bruce, meaning he has at least a rudimentary understanding of the Joker showdown (although I can't imagine he knows about the whole ultimatum part.) Several times throughout this run, Ollie alludes to Bruce being a difficult parent (mainly to Dick, via gossip from Roy,) but he doesn't know Jaybin well enough to even recognize him in Heaven, so I think it's entirely possible that when he says Bruce was a bad father to Jason, he's referring not only to Bruce's general closed-off and authoritarian approach to parenting, but specifically to recent, post-resurrection treatment of Jason, (maybe including the blowing up?) which would be VERY interesting.

sends Mia away when he wants to talk one-on-one with Bruce about Jason's turn towards evil! I don't know how I didn't notice this one in my first readthrough, but after she accidentally says something rude about Jason's death and the topic of drug dealing comes up, Ollie asks Mia to talk to one of her contacts about the weapons deal that's going on (and makes a point of praising her in front of Bruce for her network of sources and good information-gathering skills,) and then immediately goes in and tries to press Bruce on how hard it must be to see Jason doing the things he's doing (where Bruce doubles-down on having no residual care towards Jason.) This doesn't mean anything in the larger plot of things, but I think it's really sweet that once she gets embarrassed saying something insensitive, Ollie kinda gives her something to do off to the side so the adults can talk about something personal she'd be out of the loop on. I wonder if part of the reasoning behind sending her away is so she wouldn't be psyched out by the failed sidekick talk and the general idea of a sidekick dying, turning evil (relative to this way he was before,) and consequentially being abandoned (at a surface level,) by his hero parent, as opposed to Bruce's cautionary tale approach to the whole Jason debacle. It happens right when Bruce starts claiming that Jason is like, morally lost. The idea that she would see herself in Jason before the gym fight and Ollie could predict that upsetting her feels like a stretch typing it out, but a very interesting one imo. Either way, it's for the best that Mia wasn't around to hear the "another piece of dirt in the gutter" remark, and Ollie seemed to plan for this.

Gives Bruce run of the case, even before Jason comes into play, just in an effort to be cooperative, and because “he’s visiting." I'm also moderately obsessed with "Try and wear something nice tomorrow!" Like yeah Brucie public appearance, I understand what it actually means, but yelling "wear that dress I like ;)" out into the night is crazyyyy.

Is just so cute with Mia, if there’s one thing Green Arrow 2001 makes Oliver it’s a girldad. That really shines in this storyline. His first reaction to Mia when she escapes/is let out of the gym is “are you hurt? Did he hurt you?” he’s hyping her up, he keeps talking about Bruce’s “wild child” taking “his girl,” he’s actually explaining things about Bruce's m.o. and disposition to her, just being a great father all in all. And not to cornplate, but he makes a little joke about hating pineapple on pizza to some goons and Mia agrees with him pretty close after the Winick issue where she says it’s her favorite to the Teen Titans (another point of contrast with Bruce in the Mia-Jason parallel this storyline centers on: Oliver takes Mia to join the titans specifically so she can have a support system, while Jason was established to interact with them only behind Bruce’s back, under the pretense that he’d be punished for working with them, and dies isolated from his peers) which reads like she’s lying just so she can keep agreeing with her dad?? Mia Dearden cutest of all time! They both eat the pizza anyways...

I'm biased, but I just think it's kinda sweet that he continuously refers to Jason as "kiddo," "this kid," "wild child," etc. Like even mid-fight. idk Ollie acknowledging his actual age just hits, king of actually understanding the parental relationship between a sidekick and the hero who adopts him while Bruce makes a point of referring to both Jason and Mia exclusively as partners, charges, etc. all comic. Like it's ROUGH his direct response to GA calling him a hell of a father is admitting he has failings as a "mentor," both emphasized in quotes and bolded. Jason's wrong in the Mia conversation specifically about their fathers being the same, not because they aren't genuinely disconnected from his and Mia's backgrounds, they are, but because Oliver is a genuinely active parent, unbeknownst to Jason. And it's a leap in logic to think Mia's in the same spot, but with his reference to go off of? It's just a really fucking tough example to work off of, that he's internalized as the standard. But in reality, Ollie's... kinda killing it?

[ragnarokhound]

thinking fondly of you<3 want to ditch the kids and go to a winery this weekend? (drink some red wine(supernova))

also thinking fondly about jaytim. specifically, about how oftentimes we think of them as a slow burn… but you know what might make them a fast burn (an explosion?)?

one of them gets kidnapped and everyone thinks they’re dead:( but then they’re alive

Always, love, I'm sure they'll be happy to spend some time with their favorite familial babysitters, I'll give them a call tonight🍷💥

And OUGH. Yes. SUCH a classic action hero hurt/comfort trope, I'm always here for mortal peril being the trigger that forces a couple to realize what they mean to each other and that they WANT to take that chance!!

I am reminded strongly of one of feyburner's comics that I love so much... in this comic they were hooking up beforehand and this is the scenario that like. Makes it emotionally REAL for Tim and i love that sooo much... but also OwO

thinking about The Scenario:

One of them is kidnapped. Due to inspo in part from feyburner's comic, I'm thinking Jason. But it's been so long/the method in which he was taken leads everyone to believe that Jason's dead. EVERYONE. Tim included. Thinking that he's dead hits Tim harder than expected. Why? It doesn't make sense. I didn't even like him that much, what the fuck.

But he goes after the bastards who did it twice as hard, ridden by this sharp grief he didn't know he would feel. He's on a warpath. He's chasing down leads, shaking down goons, snapping at everyone that it doesn't matter that Jason's already dead this is about justice this is about vengeance this is about preventing it from happening again-- and finally finds the Organization's big base. Their big HQ.

Methodically he goes about tearing it down, one-man guerrilla style. As he moves through the complex, KO'ing goons, sabotaging weapons and computers, hell he might even rig this place to blow--

He picks up chatter about moving the 'livestock' and 'dealing with the troublemaker' and figures there must be human prisoners here. Possibly trafficking victims. He's been raising all kinds of hell, and security is just now going on alert as they find the evidence of his entry--

--when over one of the radios on the goons he just took out, Tim hears a very familiar and very alive voice taunting the Organization that he's out. They should have killed Jason when they had the chance.

Tim immediately factors Jason and the victims into his plans, gets in contact with Jason over the radio (full mission mode, no time for feelings or explanations yet) to work together on bringing this place down.

So by the time things are cleared up-- bad guys busted, victims rescued, base blown to smithereens-- Tim has been wildly coming to grips with the fact that Jason is alive after all and the confusing rush of emotions that's inspired in him, but Jason still has no idea that everyone thought he was dead.

So when Tim finally sees Jason in person, missing half his gear and still wearing the clothes he was snatched in, dirty and bloody and asking what took him so long-- he's not exactly thinking clearly, okay? Kissing him was a purely adrenaline/relief fueled action.

"Woah," Jason breathes once Tim gives him the chance. "What was that for?" "Thought you were dead," Tim muffles against the skin of Jason's throat. His pulse beats hard against Tim's cheek, his lips, sternly refuting the allegations. "Oh," Jason says, bowled over and bewildered. He's still holding Tim with an arm around his waist, his other hand cupping the back of his head, big and steady. "Well. I'm not." Tim squeezes tighter, his fists trembling in the back of Jason's shirt. Jason is solid, and warm, and alive-- and Tim might be in love with him. "Yeah," he apologizes. "Sorry. Had to check." Tim's clearly stumped him. "Huh." Tim doesn't let go. But neither does Jason. Jason clears his throat. "You know, I don't have the best track record with being alive after all," he says in a rambling tone so casual it makes Tim's chest hitch. "You maybe wanna... check again?"

[ai-the-broccoli]

enemies to lovers / but you'll never own my heart

@luzon-dove happy birthday, Quinn!! As a present, I decided to draw a piece fanart of your "blood in the walls of the yagami house" AU fic series, since I found it very well-written and full of super interesting ideas and concepts. I hope you like it!

[eightspringdays]

People who infantilize autistic coded characters are the weakest link in society's chain.

How are you gonna look at this mf

And then tell me he's too uwu to do anything. Open your eyes, expand your brain; he thinks of the MCnasty too. Let him say fuck !!!!

[vaguely-concerned]

ingellvar must have so many strange off-putting little personal habits in their day to day life that they don't even realize come across as weird, especially if they haven't ever dated outside of the watchers much. in rye's specific case I think lucanis has a capacity for such immaculate 'sure my life is already so fucking weird this might as well happen' energy that I believe he'd be able to roll with the punches admirably given the time, but it really would be a situation like

(what was going on there was that rook was placing down some experimental wards, by the way, it's what he does to calm down before bed and if he wakes during the night. what with the necropolis itself being a liminal space of lf sorts on a cosmic scale, watchers take the additional liminal space between wakefulness and dreaming extremely seriously b/c they know there are things drifting through that would just love to get their foot/tentacle/conceptual spores in that particular half-ajar door that should not be allowed inside. or outside, I suppose, depending on your point of view. rook and lucanis are also experimenting with whether solid wards can help any with lucanis' weird post-spite dreams even if they can't do anything for the more mundane ptsd ones. third reason because in my worldstate they still live in the lighthouse after the game: unless gently dissuaded wisps will sometimes drift by while you're asleep and hover over your face curiously as they sense your mind doing stuff in the fade, and no one likes waking up on an eldritch sneeze with a well-meaning yet terrified wisp zooming about the room. important watcher novice 101 lessons.

blessed mental image of rye cross-legged on the floor, barefoot in his PJs with his hair down and no makeup, peaceably tracing out elaborate geometric shapes that somehow make your eyes scared when you look at them* while lucanis sits on the bed and reads out loud to both him and spite and occasionally sneaks some carnal looks at rook's fully unleashed curly hair and bare wrists & throat...... okay I think I've found the thing that will help me through the day thank you for coming on this journey with me)

*what is the paint he's using made out of and why is it such a deeply unsettling colour? don't worry about it! :) patented mostly well-meaning yet also borderline condescending mortalitasi hand wave of 'don't worry your sweet little non-nevarran head about it we both know you don't actually want to know. do not ask questions lest you learn the answers, especially if you're going to be annoying at me and freak out about it. let the things man was not meant to know stay unknown. unknown by you I mean I'm built different'

[fairytwles]

LENA ANGEL BUSHWICK (the pastors daughter)

𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐚 𝐁𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥. Straight A's, head of the yearbook committee, avid attendee of her father's weekly sermon; her life was turning out just as her parents expected.

face claim: natalia dyer a yellowjackets oc!

WARNINGS + B4 READING INFO!

(all about my little bundle of an oc! she is very much still in development, haven't fleshed her out as much as i would like to yet, but she is the furthest i have gotten with an oc! 8 chapters actually! will probably update this time from time ◡̈ )

(this is a natalie x oc! story that is published on both ao3 and wattpad, though their relationship is not the center of attention, it's more about lena herself and how she survives out there ◡̈ also, this is a character whos story heavily surrounds religious trauma, if you arent comfortable with that i would recommend not reading this )

NAME MEANING

LENA - ray of light / torch ANGEL - heavenly messenger BUSHWICK - 'town in the woods'

FAMILY LIFE

"She'll graduate high school, maybe go to college, marry a nice boy from their church, Laura Lee will be her maid of honor, she'll become a pastor's wife, have some babies, be a homemaker, and then she'll die as Mrs. whoever, devoted wife and mother on her headstone.and honestly, that's how Lena sees her life too, she doesn't know any different, so why stray from the already violently forged path?" (prologue)

Lena Angel Bushwick was born to Pastor John and Nancy Bushwick on august 25th, 1979 and was their only child.

Lena grew up in a very strict household, with her being an only child, all eyes were on her 24/7, all the attention and expectations were on her. Every step she took, every breath she breathed, every skirt she wore, the Bushwick parents made sure she did with God in mind.

her mother always wanted more children, but was unable to have anymore, which only added onto the overwhelming amount of pressure Lena was under.

her mother was the main perpetrator for most of this, always snipping at lena for almost everything she did, wanting not only her daughter, but also her family to turn out just the way she pictured.

because of this, she distanced herself from her daughter, always keeping lena at an arms length, not wanting to care too much incase she forgot of God's role, not wanting to care too much so she would forget her religion, she plans on keeping her relationship with God first and foremost.

everything she did for Lena she did with her faith in mind.

her father, Pastor John Bushwick was not spared of this pressure and distance from his wife.

though a man of faith, John did not push like Nancy did, did not punish or obsess over appearances like Nancy did.

He knew of the pressure, the strictness, the distance Nancy put on his daughter, his only child, but he rarely ever intervened, not wanting to come in line with the wrath of his wife,

he knew it wasn't fair to lena, he knew he should intervene more, but instead, he abused the fact that he had an escape in his job, his ability to be out of the house, his ability to drink.

John Bushwick loves his wife, he loves his daughter, he loves his faith, so he'll never divorce, never intervene with the way his wife parents, it is the wife's responsibility over the children after all.

he regrets that mindset every day his child is gone.

CHILDHOOD + LAURA LEE

"Laura Lee, her saving grace, must've sensed her distress because all the sudden she grabs Lena's hand and squeezes tightly, her other hand gripping leonard with such ferocity that Lena has never seen before, she thinks Laura must be thinking the same thing she is, so she squeezes back." (chapter six)

Lena met Laura Lee when they were babies, laura’s family attending Lena’s fathers service. They clicked instantly, from crawling around in diapers to driving around in Lena’s car, they’ve been inseparable.

the two always go to Sunday mass together, sitting in the 2nd row, at the corner nearest the wall, "their spot" some would say.

the two were normally very attentive during church, both girls taking their faith very seriously, but sometimes they couldn’t help the giggles that escaped during mass.

they also attend sunday school together, always making sure to sit next to each other in class.

they were two peas in a pod, the only two who would, who could understand each other, other than god himself

their bond never lessened over the years, even once they got to high school

it got so bad that people started to assume they were sisters, in fact they started to introduce each other as sisters, in their mind, that's what they were, so why not.

when Laura joined the soccer team freshman year, she begged Lena to try out, and despite her obvious weariness of playing the sport herself, she obliged

safe to say she did not make the team.

not that it really bothered Lena, she never really wanted to play soccer anyway, by freshman year she was already laser-focused on the school's yearbook club... and it's not like her mother would've allowed her to play anyway, Nancy Bushwick always thought soccer was "too dirty" of a sport for a girl to play and was absolutely appalled when Laura Lee's parents allowed their daughter on the team.

despite their differing schedules throughout high school, the two still saw each other almost daily outside of classes, Lena made it a point to attend almost every single one of Laura's games,

Lena never really interacted with the rest of the yellowjackets other than when she had to for yearbook, it was never in a cynical way, though she can't lie and say she didn't feel a little bit of bitterness towards the soccer team.

its unwarranted, she knows that, she's prayed every night to try to get rid of the stupid jealousy that bubbles in her gut,

Laura was always the more outgoing one, though most at Wiskayok High were steered away from her due to her overwhelming devotion to her faith, the ones who weren't deterred by this always stayed, and that included the yellowjackets

Lena was never able to make friends that easily, always too shy, too unsure of herself, she felt as if everyone else got a "how-to book" on making friends and socializing that she never ended up reading, no matter how hard she tried.

that's the true reason of her distaste towards the soccer team, one that she hates herself for having

HIGHSCHOOL

"Lena is also very active with the making of the yearbook, being the editor-in-chief...she oversaw the entire operation, the pictures, the layout, the descriptions, all of it had to go past her before it could be finalized." (chapter one)

Lena Bushwick wasn't popular, nor was she "unpopular" she was sort of just... there.

people knew of her of course, being editor-in-chief of the school's yearbook made her a likely figure to run into,

the job put a name to the face, an excuse to talk to the meek religious girl with a camera stuck to her 24/7

she's come into contact with every group at Wiskayok high, the jocks, the preps, the nerds, the loners... they all know her name, they also all use that fact as a way to try to bribe the girl for good candids of them, a little extra time to get their "good side" so to say,

sometimes she would be asked to go over to the middle school, to help take some photos over there in her free time, which she always accepted

that's where she met her future protégé, javi martinez

she recognized the last name and soon connected the dots to Travis Martinez, Javi's older brother, who she's shared some classes with and often saw at Laura's games due to his father being the head coach

she was taking photos down at the middle school when the 8th grader came up to her, asking her about yearbook if he could join next year.

he was so genuine and shy that Lena immediately started spewing all the information that he would need, telling the boy that even though she would be graduated by the time he got to high school she would make sure he got in, always eager to get the younger kids into the club.

it was a refreshing change, talking to someone who was actually interested in what she did, which javi obviously was, in comparison to those she usually bumped into in highschool, the phrase "but lena! i thought we were friends?" from some random jocks were enough to make lena's eyes roll to the back of her skull permanently.

she was always kind to the other girls on Laura's soccer team although she never knew them that well, she gave them more grace than any of the other jocks she came in contact with.

she saw the girls from the team almost daily, walking down the halls, at lunch, she always had at least one class with one of them,

none of them really stood out to her, and not in a bad way, their paths just never crossed despite their connection to Laura Lee, and Lena was ok with that, she never felt the need to get close with any of the girls

except for one

Natalie Scatorccio.

the girl wouldn't leave her mind, not since the first time she saw her freshman year

she had nothing against natalie, but she so desperately wished that the blonde girl could be scrubbed from her memory, or at least, not at the forefront so often.

At Laura's games she would try to focus on her best friend, at the game in general, but every so often her eyes would glance towards #7 and her stupid blonde, almost white, dyed hair.

its like she sought the girl out, everytime she saw her in the halls, at games, at lunch, her eyes immediately managed to find the grunge-looking girl.

this never happened with any of the other girls on Laura's team, she was never unable to look away from vanessa palmer who shared science with her, or jackie taylor who shared math with her, it was only natalie.

she kept this close to her heart, not even telling laura lee of this weird infatuation she had with her teammate,

Lena would spend hours trying to wonder why the girl wouldn't leave her mind, why she couldn't stop thinking about her,

she came to the weary conclusion that she just wanted to be friends with the girl, that this was all this was, not even considering that more could be an option

THE WILDERNESS

"The end is coming, Lena can feel it, though her and Laura still pray in sync, for the comfort of one another more than anything.... as they get closer to the ground Lena’s hand tentatively leaves Laura Lee’s and the two girls put their hands over their heads, bracing themselves for the inevitable impact, though their prayer still falls from their lips." (chapter four)

the wilderness was the first time lena wasn't being watched over like a hawk by her mother along with the first time lena questioned her faith, questioned herself.

question why god would crash their plane, kill the flight crew, coach martinez and rachel goldman

its also the first time she allows herself to think of natalie scatorccio, allow herself to talk to natalie scatorccio, question why the girl won't leave her thoughts in a way she would've never allowed herself to think back home

Lena, alongside travis and javi martinez, was one of the only people out there not on the team, travis and javi had each other, lena had laura lee, and that's what kept her sane.

the wilderness was the first time she truly talked with the yellowjackets, allowed herself to get close to the rest of the team who seemed so far way from her the entirety of high school,

she knew javi of course, was getting somewhat close to natalie, a surprise to herself and everyone else who saw them, jackie taylor who was kind to her and made her feel like part of the team, and taissa turner, who didn't even act like she wasn't a part of the team in the first place.

i don't know how to summarize the rest of this without spoiling the entire book/ all my future plans, sorry divas this is all you're getting for wilderness storyline rn

WHERE TO READ + official story summary

𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐚 𝐁𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥. Straight A's, head of the yearbook committee, avid attendee of her father's weekly sermon; her life was turning out just as her parents expected, When Lena gets the opportunity to photograph the Yellowjackets Girl's Soccer Team during their highly anticipated nationals game, she jumps at the idea, the experience will help her exponentially with her future plans, and it'll allow her to get to go on a trip with her sister in everything but blood Laura Lee. She doesn't think of the grunge girl that she photographed last week for the team's yearbook page, no, not at all. Natalie Scatorccio is at the back of her mind.

Ao3: ANGEL by @ whirlydreamgirl

wattpad: 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐋 ʚ ɞ natalie scatorccio by @ sabsgoodgraces

a little more explanation!

I always adored Laura Lee as a character, as someone who grew up religious (though not religious anymore) and went to catholic school her entire life as a gay girl, I found myself relating so much to her (i know laura lee is not a canonical lesbian but look at the way she interacts with lottie.... she wants to kiss her so bad)

I also found the idea of how her faith would impact lottie's wilderness faith, if she would reject the idea (once it gets worse like the cannibalism, the hunts etc.) or if she would fall right into step with it. We obviously never see that because she died before it really even started, so i wanted to write a lil something about how i believe someone with immense faith would react to the wilderness (and i had to make it gay obviously, wheres the fun without it?)

I had the idea of Lena stored in the back of my brain and decided to make this story surrounding her and since then I've fallen in love with her.

pls pls pls ask me questions if you have any or just talk to me about her!!! i love this silly gal i made up

I always adored Laura Lee as a character, as someone who grew up religious (though not religious anymore) and went to catholic school her entire life as a gay girl, I found myself relating so much to her (i know laura lee is not a canonical lesbian but look at the way she interacts with lottie.... she wants to kiss her so bad) (I've also gotten comments saying that this would also make sense as a lena x laura lee story and though i agree to a certain extent i am also so deep into my lottielee bullshit i cannot see laura lee with anyone else)

I also found the idea of how her faith would impact lottie's wilderness faith, if she would reject the idea (once it gets worse like the cannabilism, the hunts etc.) or if she would fall right into step with it. We obviously never see that because she died before it really even started, so i wanted to write a lil something about how i believe someone with immense faith would react to the wilderness (and i had to make it gay obviously, wheres the fun without it?)

I had the idea of Lena stored in the back of my brain and decided to make this story surrounding her and since then I've fallen in love with her.

pls pls pls ask me questions if you have any or just talk to me about her!!! i love this silly gal i made up

if you actually ended up taking the time to read all of this thank you!! i kinda rambled on and I'm not sure if it all makes sense, this is my first time making an oc! introduction after all, i hope yall enjoyed learning about my silly closeted religious lesbian

[enjoyerofstories]

so glad i only interact with the fandom here because if i had to read some of the shit people are saying first hand i think i'd go batshit

[spectral-honey]

-bruce Wayne isn't at the circus when dicks parents are killed, and the court of owls take him and he becomes a talon.

-timmy sees him one night, out in the garden of a party looking up at a sky when dick is killing some guy on the roof. Watches him quadruple somersault kick some guy so hard his neck snaps.

-dick talon, sees Tim seeing him. And stalks the kid home, because he might need to get rid of the witness. Or at least report back to the owls about him.

-talon is in Tim's kitchen and he's going to kill him and Tim sees him, gets excited that for some inexplicable reason a gnarly looking dick Grayson is in his house, and offers him a Popsicle.

-talon, for reasons unknown to him, ends up eating a Popsicle.

-somehow, even though it means nothing to him, should mean nothing to him, being called dick Grayson makes talon not kill him.

-somehow, it doesn't get told to the owls.

-somehow, talon finds a way to see Tim again. Made easier when Tim realizes they could meet in the middle and starts hanging out on dark rooftops.

-tim brings him the picture of the two of them and dicks parents two adults, and dick talon looks at the picture for hours.

-the next time, Tim brings him a handful of camcorder videos pilfered from across the internet. Of the flying Graysons. Of dick, and of his... Parents.

-tim also brings him fruit snacks.

-tim doesn't get why Dick doesn't know this, doesn't get why Dick looks different, doesnt get or think too much about the guy he saw dick kill. He doesn't get why he doesnt speak much or know much or acts weird. He's just happy to see dick again, cause he still remembers the kind boy who offered to do a special trick for him, who cried over his parents bodies, who Tim cried over when his parents read in the paper that he'd disappeared.

-somehow (Batman), the owls are taken down, or at least scattered so talon dick doesn't go back there anymore. He shows up at Tim's door and Tim is happy to have him in the house when his parents are away, and shows dick the treehouse Tim and his dad built, told him he could stay there when his parents were home because no one went there because his dad had a business trip that he had to go to before they finished the ladder and now it was too hard for anyone to get up to.

-dick gets found out by Batman, eventually.

-cause an undead kid is living in his city. A talon type of undead kid. In a little boys treehouse.

-jason found him, actually.

-Jason's Bruce's sidekick, his first one and his first kid, but he isn't a robin, because that name came from dick.

-he stopped for a quick breather in some nice neighborhood with actual yards, saw a treehouse and thought "cool, a treehouse", went in and thought "oh, uncool, a talon with a tiny civilian hostage", saw shitty pictures taped to the wall of the kid looking silly and the talon disarmed and confused, and shitty drawings with colored pencils and crayons, and the talon and kid were sitting close to each other with a kid-proof tablet shared on their laps playing a matching game and thought "weird possibly cool turn of events. A tamed talon", and called Bruce.

-batman comes, and now the talon, the civilian kid, and Jason have made a circle and Jason's reading something to them from the tablet.

-its the Wikipedia page for robins, btw. Tim is a weird kid and talon apparently likes robins.

-batman sees danger, first, because the talons body is shaped by it. The talon is tensed, scanning Bruce for an opening to kill. The talon is too close to Jason, to the civilian, Batman sees so many different ways the talon end them before Batman could take a step.

-but the talon hasn't, is waiting. Waiting for Batman to move. For Batman to attack first.

-and Jason briefed Batman, said he didn't think the talon was a threat. Batman couldn't take his word on it, but he could investigate himself.

-he saw the pictures. The drawings, the tablet and the way the civilian and the talon lean close to each other, how talon has set himself between the civilian and jason and batman.

-he also sees the bedding tucked into a corner. The stack of nonperishable foods tucked behind it. The little scraps of paper with simple words- no, yes, food, tired, game. The gray of talons skin, the hollowness settled deeper than bones. That talon became-was forced to become what he is when he was young. little. precious.

-bruce makes a decision.

-dick argues with Jason about who was really older. He was born first, and just because he couldn't grow for a long time, bruce helped fix that, didn't mean anything. Jason's genetics were freaky, letting him grow taller than dick anyway.

-eventually, when much of his growth and healing is done, he does regain his legal identity and legal age.

-dick loves calling jason his little brother in public, where Jason can only object so much.

-dick also takes extreme joy telling society folk that he just ages well, when they fawn over how youthful and pretty he is.

-tim and dick were introduced to Jason's teen titan friends, using the same costume and codename, around the time dick was the same height as Tim. All the titans are convinced the two are some kind of bat-cloned devil twins until dick finally finishes growing and is like over a foot taller than Timmy.

-it becomes an inside joke for the Titans to confuse their mentors by introducing Tim and dick as twins still anyways.

-when Damian comes he tries to stab dick once and dick is literally like wow. Your form was so bad try being a better child assassin <3 jk tho maybe try defeating me without maiming or killing. As a little challenge. Bet u can't. I could do it and look at me I was an awesome child assassin.

-and so Damian embarks on a journey of learning that he doesn't even know is learning

So the rest of this was supposed to be in the tags but apparently Tumblr only lets you have 30 tags. Boo u whore :/ so here's a bunch of shit that was meant to be in the tags & therefore is formatted weird and not at all like the stuff above:

This all came from 1) the idea of Tim figuring out dicks identity as talon rather than as Robin and 2) the image of talon dick living like in a treehouse like. Like a birdhouse.

I imagine Tim is like, little, maybe 6 or 7 or something when he meets talon dick the first time

And then maybe dick escapes the court when Tim's 9 and Jason finds them when Jason's 13 and Tim's 10

And dick was stuck in an undead talon body at the age of like 9 so he's a little shorter than both of them for a while before Bruce is able to get help to let him age normally again

And they get him a couple growth spurts before they let his body work out the rest

And he ends up like 5'10 and he's like I swear I would've been taller if I hadn't been talon

But no dick actually you were always destined to be a short king <3

For reference I usually hc Jason as 6'0 or taller, dick as 5'10, and Tim as like 5'5

Jason is a behemoth and dick and Tim are short kings. Damian is the tallest when he grows up tho

I also imagine that dick is sort of figuring out who he is and isn't totally there for a long time with Tim, and some time after the court of owls falls he remembers enough about his parents that he tracks down and kills Tony zucco

And Tim's like why did you do that killing is bad :( and dick is like he's why my parents died and Tim is like oh okay :) but dick is like internally going killing is bad? 🤔 I'll have to think on this.

Also like in general I was thinking about a little Tim trying his best to work with dick who is traumatized and not used to expressing himself in regular or healthy ways and Tim being just a little kid so it's not like he knows a lot of things or how to do that so they end up with a modge podge of strange coping skills and communication styles

Hence when I mentioned the papers with words on it .. idk if that was clear lol

Also tho Tim teaching him things that dick take as like. Facts but they're just things Tim does

Like if you whisper in someone's ear it's a secret and you can't tell anyone

And one time dick whispers something in Jason's ear and Jason immediately turns and shouts it to Alfred

And dick is so betrayed

Also Tim telling his parents about his grey friend who lives in his treehouse and can bend his bones and they're like that's nice you have an imaginary friend Tim

I also started writing a version of this post where Timmy like figures out dick is talon and like sleuths after him but it was too unclear how Tim would uncover the fuckin court of owls best agent so I scrapped that

But like fanon Tim probably could

I think its closer to canon Tim that its just something that kind of happens to him tho lol

'i found out the bats secret identities because I happened to see Robin do a trick a boy once told me specifically only he and his family could do'

'i found out Jason was alive because he showed up at me and my friends clubhouse and tried to beat me to death'

[bitchfitch]

kisses

[necrotic-nephilim]

Do you have any more ideas about the dead dove vampire!dickxtim au you wrote a while ago? It's lived in my head ever since and I'd love to know more.

first of all thank you so much that's so sweet! second of all, i have SO many ideas you have no idea. that fic ate at my brain for like a month before i found the time to write it so i had plenty of ideas i didn't fully explore. i'm adding a read more just bc. that was one of my more fucked up fics so i don't want to subject anyone to a necro kink jumpscare

so one of the big ideas i've thought about with that fic is Tim dealing with the aftermath of it, right. bc he's of course going to hide it from everyone. the Batfam all just neds to hold onto the hope that they can save Dick somehow, and knowing what Dick did would kill any lingering hope that there's anything left of Dick Grayson in the walking husk that he's become. so Tim has to deal with the worst of it alone, probably not even mentioning he ran into Dick.

the fun part tho is that above everything else, Tim wouldn't be able to let go of Dick's comment about fantasizing about Tim before being a vampire. Tim knows the comment was made just to get in his head, but that doesn't stop it from working. he spends hours pouring over old footage of him and Dick training, hanging out, on patrol, anything he can find. just to like. try to find evidence of Dick's gaze lingering. it eats Tim alive not knowing one way or the other if it was a lie. if it's true, at least it makes it easier for Tim to move on from the memory of Dick. but not knowing is worse. and he never finds anything that satiates the question so like. that'd destroy Tim the most. (the real answer is that Dick genuinely didn't feel attraction to Tim before being a vampire, *but* Dick is convinced he did bc being a vampire fucked him up so badly that he's become his own unreliable narrator. so it's both true and untrue, and in the end, it doesn't matter either way bc Tim is fucked up by the thought of it and even if they "fixed" Dick by curing him, i think Dick's romantic feelings would linger in the horror of what he did.)

i'm really just. in love with Dick's feelings toward Tim in the fic. the most difficult part of the fic was figuring out how to end it, bc sure as a sexual fantasy Dick is obsessed with killing Tim, but he's also deeply in love with Tim, so it's difficult to follow through on. Dick wants to make Tim a vampire more than anything, but he is genuinely worried about how well it'd take for Tim. the fic doesn't really go into who's on Dick's side as a vampire, but i personally believe he's turned most of the Titans. probably some of his own rogues as well, i could see him turning Slade. i can't explain why, those are just the vibes.

it is important to me just how much of Dick's feelings for Tim are based in him not wanting Tim to live under Bruce's thumb. like the whole vampire brain has convinced Dick that Bruce is somehow the villain in this, and it was Bruce's control keeping Dick from being the person he wanted to be. it's a very warped reality and if i continued the fic i'd love for the second part to be from Dick's perspective just to have fun with the unreliable narrator of it.

back to the porn tho. Dick would seek TIm out again. probably in Tim's own apartment, just bc he wants to destroy every safe space Tim has. getting into Tim's head is an important part of breaking TIm down. the fear of Tim fighting back against being a vampire is one that Dick is trying to figure out how to manage and his current plan is to break Tim mentally. it's why he brings up wanting to sleep with TIm before being a vampire. he *knows* it's gonna fuck up Tim. and the more he puts these little cracks in Tim's psyche, the more he's sure he's breaking Tim down enough to be able to turn him. so going to Tim's apartment and proving that at any point, Dick can easily find Tim and fuck him. always holding the threat of killing Tim over his head. and Dick knows Tim didn't tell anyone when days pass after their first meeting and no Bat comes after him so like. Dick really just pushes the limits. i think he would brand Tim just bc he can. i also got a comment on the fic that mentioned Dick stabbing Tim and fucking the wound and i canNOT get that image out of my head either-

and the necro/snuff kink just. Dick playing the long game, so it takes maybe months of stalking Tim, going after him. sometimes he fucks Tim, sometimes he just fights and taunts him. and all the talk about killing Tim fucks with Tim's head a little bit. i think it'd be fun if it killed Tim's ability to have vanilla/normal sex with someone else, like Kon. it's hard for Tim to understand anyone being attracted to him in a way that doesn't involve him being a dead body. i don't think he develops the kink fully, but he does end up convincing himself being a corpse is the only way he's attractive bc of all the things Dick has said to him. it all plays into Dick psychologically breaking Tim.

i am a lover of fucked up/unhappy endings so. for me. the ending would be Dick following through on his plan to kill Tim and turn him. it'd take months for Dick to work up the courage bc TIm was absolutely right when he pointed out that Dick was too scared to actually follow through on his fantasy. Dick tries, multiple times. he convinces himself no less than five times that this is going to be the one. this'll be the time he really does it. but just as Tim starts to die, Dick panics. i think it's especially fun if once Dick even gives Tim CPR bc of his cold feet. so Tim does "die" for a second and has to brutally come back while Dick is buried inside of him.

but when Dick does it, his fears manifest in that Tim does *not* take being a vampire well. he's constantly trying to kill himself (in the time it takes for Dick to break Tim, Tim probably does figure out what poison can kill a vampire) and Dick ends up having to keep Tim locked up so Tim doesn't kill himself. would truly love to try to write Tim as mentally shattered as possible. part of him loves Dick, but he's fighting himself so hard he's not even sure if it's the vampire side that loves Dick or the human side. he's kept like a human pet, bc Dick is convinced he'll get Tim to accept it sooner or later. just a very fun, very fucked up sort of ending. i say this about all the fics i write but this one specifically i do *really* want to continue someday. i know exactly the direction i'd take it, and it could turn into a pretty long fic with a lot of fucked up porn, a lot of unrequited love, and an eventual mind break for Tim.

[adhd-merlin]

Christian iconography? in my Merlin??

[mooblybloom]

I was reading a Robin x beast Boy fanfic because I recently found out I actually really like the ship cause it's kind of adorable but anyway off topic

And I thought of a very sad headcanon which makes no sense because the thing I'm reading is very fluffy

The fluffy inspiration

But anyway the head cannon

Garfield Logan or beast Boy has frequent nightmares due to this he has insomnia The little time he does get sleep it's constantly plagued with images of the past and anxieties of the future in these bouts of nightmarish fever he shifts into any animal to defend himself within the dream but it happens in real life and he finds himself swinging at the walls of his room in the Titan Tower and every time he wakes up he sees the scratches and thinks about how it would worry the team so he finds himself repairing the drywall with spackle in the sometimes late night or maybe even early light of the morning but the drywall looks out of place so he paints the wall over, covers it in murals of twisting vines and pretty flowers and all kinds of things some are sloppy and some are elegant but it fits his personality perfectly so whenever there's a new doodle on his walls it means there is a new scratch that has been repaired not that the team knows that. So from his team's point of view he just really likes art and has a knack for painting but from his point of view it's hastily covering up secrets so he can keep the fragile sense of calm in the tower

And wow you guys I did not mean to be so wax poetic about this shit this was supposed to be a simple little headcanon it was not it is full of trauma