#i didn’t want to hold out hope …….
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unless it turns out that this is some barkrock-specific ability, and assuming that what lydia did with her devil is what needs to happen with cassandra and the red light, i NEED gorgug to be the one to take the rage and contain it. his whole thing is that his rage isn’t anger, it’s protection. taking cassandra’s rage, or whatever it is affecting her, is the ultimate protection, but it also forces him to grapple with his rage and the idea that anger isn’t a bad thing
#as soon as zac made the connection between cassandra and what happened with lydia i was BEGGING for this to happen#obviously there’s fuckery going on rn but i can’t imagine this is the last we’ll see of this whole deal#it could still happen#i’m holding out hope#PLEASE i want to see it so badly#it didn’t work with the initiative order and they didn’t have a gem today but this WILL come back around#fantasy high#fhjy#d20#dimension 20
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my mom (a north carolina voter in a swing county): if i knew you weren’t going to talk to me if i voted for trump i would have voted for kamala
#please excuse me while i kill myself. for many reasons#i was foolishly holding out hope that she hadn’t….#she doesn’t care about politics at all she just votes how my stepdad votes 🙄#but it’s also like. yes i wish i HAD told her to vote kamala but i didn’t for two reasons#because 1. it’s not like she doesn’t know my stance on this and we didn’t have a big fight last trump election?? oh how quickly they forget#2. maybe i wanted her to actually make the right choice herself and prove that she has a moral backbone#my mom who knows jack shit about politics trying to make excuses to me: i just didn’t like what happened while biden was in office#me: what happened? on example please#(she had none)
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gege akutami can do no wrong in my eyes. we have a bond that transcends parasocialism i am that man’s KNIGHT . not a whiteknight i will actually live and die by my sword just to know i’ve served him well
#🥹🥹🥹#dash . dash . i am so happy dash#i’m literally abt to cry#i didn’t want to hold out hope …….#i should never have doubted him . my sweet pea. my soul#one thing i know if nothing else is that akutami will always aim to make ME happy even if it pisses off the whole fandom#and i can only thank him for it 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️#HEHE IM ACTUALLY SOOOO HAPPY IM SO GIDDY I FEEL LIKE A SCHOOLGIRL WITH A CRUSH#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#arination . we won#ari noises ✩
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Celebrating the birthday boy 💝
Kurusu Kazuki | May 16
#y’all I’m like really really happy with how this turned out#I wanted to draw them being intimate and playful#like just genuinely happy to be holding each other#I hope it comes across that way 🥹#fun fact: kazuki’s undies are pink because the first time Rei tried to do the laundry himself… well you can guess what happened#Rei was mildly depressed that he’d screwed up so Kazuki felt like he couldn’t get too mad#anyway he didn’t have the heart to throw out the pink undies… and secretly they’re now his favorite pair#kazurei#kazurei fanart#buddy daddies#buddy daddies fanart#kurusu kazuki#suwa rei#still hate drawing kazuki’s hair btw#karlyboy art#< new art tag!
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So what's the lore with Juniper n their relationship with Vitimir n Hettie?
WELL for both, their relationships go back to their school days! Although the difference being that Juniper and Hettie went to St. Epiderm together, while Vitimir went to a different school (Glandus at the time he met Juniper).
I’ve briefly touched on how Juniper and Vitimir met here, so that explains their first meeting. To reiterate, Vitimir was a shy kid that didn’t really have any friends growing up (aside from bugs/whatever little creatures they spent their time around) and was bullied frequently, so that single positive interaction with Juniper, though small, really stuck with him and he never forgot it. Juniper didn’t forget it either, but being the sociable type meeting and talking to lots of different people, that moment sorta blended in with the rest of their memories. So fast forward to them both working as Coven Heads at the same time, Vitimir immediately recognizes Juniper. Despite Juniper changing a lot since his child self, that one good memory left such a big impact on Vitimir as a kid that he still held that soft spot for them. So of course, when Juniper eventually approached him on their own time, Vitimir already had this layer of vulnerability. Even though they might not have recognized him, from Vitimir’s perspective, there was that sense of familiarity and comfort; Juniper might have changed, but that kind kid was still in him. Now that they have the chance, Vitimir wants to actually get to know this one person who had plagued so many of their thoughts as a kid. And the rest is history!!
As for Hettie! Again, she and Juniper attended St. Epiderm together. Hettie was just as terrifying as a kid as she is now. She was everything- a jock, a princess, a bully, a weird girl, whatever you can think of. Though she’s very open about who she is, everyone around her was always so intimidated by the fact that she was unpredictable (and the fact that she’s both the smartest AND strongest person you’d ever meet is terrifying enough on its own). Most everyone- except for Juniper. To Juniper, Hettie was always such a character. She’s always been so confident and unapologetic, able to command people’s attention without even saying a word. Her unpredictability made everything she did so interesting. Juniper so deeply admired this about Hettie. And the fact that she’s 100% his type only drew them closer to her. Hettie was Juniper’s first ever crush, and that love Juniper had for her never faded. Though as kids, they weren’t in the same social circles, they did cross paths a lot, whether it was through Sonia (Scooter Crane’s daughter and childhood best friend to Juniper, who was also in the Healing Track), or Juniper getting injured for whatever ridiculous reasons. At this age, Hettie didn’t reciprocate her feelings (yet), but she had a fondness for Juniper because he was so different from the other kids for the fact alone that they had a (very obvious) crush on her. And while their crush may have caused them to do embarrassing things, and foolishly being used as her own guinea pig from time to time to practice her magic on, Hettie had cared about Juniper. To her, he always made life more fun and interesting. Fast forward to them as Coven Heads- Hettie has grown a stronger affection for Juniper. He’s changed over the years, but he still makes life so much more fun and interesting. Perhaps now, Hettie admires Juniper for the same exact reasons they always have her. They’re still a bit pathetic around her, but Hettie finds it endearing. Not to mention, Juniper still makes for a good doll to experiment on, and she takes good care of her favorite dolls ;-)
#ask#juniper jazz#vitimir#hettie cutburn#junimir#medical mirror#I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION I tried my best to make it sound coherent and not ramble on about certain things 🙏#tried to talk about hettie more bc i don’t think I’ve explained much of the medical mirror stuff publicly yet#or. anything tbh 😭😭#BUT I MEAN I GOTTA GET EVERYONE ON THE SAME PAGE EVENTUALLY SO THIS IS A START 🙏🙏#I can always expand on anything else if anyone wants me to and is curious :3c#you KNOW how much I love yapping about my stupid peacock I didn’t put all my blood sweat and tears into him for nothin 🫰#ALSO!! FUN LIL THING I WAS GOING TO MENTION BUT DECIDED NOT TO IN THE END BC IT WOULDVE BEEN TOO MUCH-#long story short lets just say hettie chose to hang out w juniper during the night of a school dance 🤭#THAT’S ALL I’LL SAY FOR NOW ABOUT THAT i have Art Ideas for that i -really- want to get to one day#okay i gotta stfu now i told myself i was gonna hold back on the yapping 😭😭😭#OKAY WAIT ONE LAST THING-#idk if anyone actually cares but reminder that I’ve got both junimir and med. mirror playlists if you wanna get a better idea of them!!#theyre not perfect but theyre still fun Okay I’ll shut up for real fr now ✌️
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Me telling my mom what comes after we’re done with Bridge to the Turnabout went like this:
“It’s the end of the Phoenix Wright trilogy! Then we start on Apollo Justice!”
“What, so Phoenix isn’t in it anymore?”
(Well, about that…) “I mean, it’s called Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney! Apollo’s the main character.”
“But, Phoenix isn’t the defense attorney anymore?”
(WELL, ABOUT THAT.)
#ace attorney#did she have to phrase it like that???#(And no she does not know whatsoever she’s not in The Tags#I didn’t even want to tell her Phoenix is there so she’s not looking for him)#also this happened and I drafted it before we finished but we since have and I am.#bridge to the turnabout may be my favorite case now. wow.#not as much was spoiled for me as I expected#but when I asked her if she had a favorite character she said …several… and then went through almost everybody major#also I made the choice to just speedrun explain JfA rather than play it#look I know Edgeworth has great stuff there and it’s pearl and franziska’s intro but#I didn’t like watching the other cases enough to be willing to hold out#and I refuse to subject her to turnabout big top#I’m hoping the hook of the first case doesn’t sour her for AJAA but for me it was intriguing so maybe??#also don’t know how she’ll like no gumshoe and Edgeworth
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blurry wife this. party wig that. but we dont talk enough about Dean Jr. no one wanted Dean Jr either, right????? because Dean had two(+) juniors and one of them (thee canonically biological one) was killed BY SAM. the irony.
i get it, sure, but i don’t like it
#i was debating queuing this for the 19th but i cant hold it in#i’ll self-rb it then instead#im just thinking of all the injustices#written a paragraph comparing it to hp like imagine hp couldn’t cope without dumbledore and just unalived himself#right in front on ron and hermoine but then youre forced to sit through a fifteen minute montage of ron and some blurry chick living happily#ever after like no one cares what just happend to hp this is good media right yeah right okay cool#LIKE WHAT#but i’ll save that for now#destiel#spn 15x20#give sam a kid since wanting to get out of the life for 30+ years sure fine its not even with eileen whatever but to CALL IT DEAN#when you didn’t save him. you REPLACED HIM. literally call the kid ANYTHING else#it makes me so unwell#(jk about the good media and not needing eileen. thats meant to be heavy sarcasm i hope you understand. im not okay about any fof this)
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thank god chappell roan didn’t release good luck babe in summer 22!
#i unfortunately had a homoerotic female friendship that ended abruptly and tragically#she was my best friend for YEARS like we met when we were 11#i knew i was queer pretty early on but it’s so painfully obvious in hindsight how badly she was repressing everything#we fell asleep together she liked every guy i liked she was invested in every female situationship i had#like it was so painfully obvious what we were but we were just an undefined weird tension homoerotic pair of besties!#she always wanted to know every detail of my sex life w women refused to hear about the men i was w#she would hold me when we watched movies she wanted to do everything w me and she hated me after we graduated hs!#last conversation was on her birthday haven’t spoken to her once since#this song has sent me into a 3 day spiral session if you can’t tell 😭#never fully gotten over her but i see her post w her new friends at her school 6 hours away like cool cool okay#you’re going to ignore i ever existed instead of confronting your feelings okay! don’t know why she wants nothing to do w me anymore tho#crazy stuff it’s been a year and a half since we stopped being friends but i think about her a lot and i wonder if she thinks about me#i have 2 playlists about her she still follows me on spotify but she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday#at the end of the day i hope she figures everything out. you’re nothing more than his wife and all that#this song THIS SONG SHE WONT LEAVE MY MIND#probably delete later. we’ll see cause all my friends are sick of hearing me talk about her but i can’t stop she’s been in my mind since#this song dropped so thanks chappell 🥹🥹🫡#🪺
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That feeling (or the lack thereof) when the thing that has consumed your every waking moment for the past 7-8 months is suddenly ripped from your hands, leaving you feeling a complex kind of loneliness that you don’t know how to share with anyone (nor do you desire to)
#don’t mind me#I’m just 24 and suddenly I need to quit my job because I literally work for a cult#but the cult wasn’t even the major issue#I wanted to quit a long time ago but I didn’t because I was holding out hope that maybe he would change his mind#he acted as if he HAD changed his mind#I feel like the adult world has chewed me up and spit me out
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I never thought anyone was going to show up and try to “fix” me, but being told no one’s trying to do that, that doesn’t happen and won’t, idk that still stung something extra
#I’m not holding out hoping for that#my cats accept me broken#but that did make me feel worse#I didn’t even want to come with and this is my ride home. Thanks.
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Kihrin: wait, are you guys still upset with me for killing myself and letting my souls be consumed by the corrupted god of rage and destruction because I thought the only way to solve this was to do it all by myself and also die in the process?
Janel and Teraeth:
#a chorus of dragons#kihrin is so stupid. i hope they hold this over his head forever and ever and ever#i just finished the book. this post has been brewing since the scene where they finally get to sit down and talk but i didn’t want to post#it because i was sososo scared of this not ending well#everything’s fine now though! my faith in a happy ending has been restored.#i feel like i need to reread the entire book now honestly specifically for kalindra because holy shit what we find out towards the very end#sure explains a Lot about how she was acting all book… like yeah i’d be a little out of my mind and nasty under those circumstances too shit
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Cup of China 2023 - Adam Siao Him Fa and Shoma Uno during the men’s victory ceremony
#this photo is everything to me I want to frame it put it on my wall stare at it forever#i’ve been lowkey hoping for something like this the whole off season watching adam’s ig and following him posting about his training#I love this boy and I love that he’s the kind of person who keeps quiet and works hard to get what he wants (like shoma)#and I do love his skating - his two programs were my favorite last season after shoma’s#but he really clicked for me at worlds on that first monday of practice (ik I will never shut up about this sorry)#was it the last group of men? it was pretty late and adam went in the group after shoma#and I was already shaky after seeing shoma practice with my very eyes#the way shoma practices is really like a machine - relentless and single-minded and unstoppable#and that night he was really hitting it (and popping a lot of jumps but he was still not holding back)#I think it was the night shoma did more jumping passes than the rest of the other men put together#and then adam’s group came out#and I ended up being unable to look away from adam because I saw much of the same qualities in him#and it went through my mind that of all the guys I’d seen there he was the one that reminded me the most of shoma#(lol it’s always shoma in the end isn’t it)#(and I love that shoma had already recognized his qualities too)#(I was so devastated when worlds went the way they did for adam sdghjkk)#but last season he still didn’t have what it took to fight at the same level with the guys at the top - or the consistency#that’s why this win feels so precious and meaningful#adam kept it together and delivered once more - it wasn’t just another one-time win in france#and to do it like that! tired from back to back assignments jetlagged and with boot issues!! On bad ice!!!#he knew that if shoma went clean it would have been hard or impossible for him to win#but he went for it with all he had and fought hard - i teared up towards the end because I was so worried he’d let his sp mistake get to hi#can’t wait for gpf but no matter how adam does there I’m so proud of him 😭#this was hard for me to watch because I also wanted shoma to win but I think Adam needed it more and it ended up being a deserved win#and I think it will motivate shoma for nhk and I’m so here for it! or literally: will be so there for it afsghjjfghgdh aaaaaaaaahhh#adam siao him fa#shoma uno
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#lord god in heaven is the photo quality supposed to be that bad in preview#coughs anyway!!!#this is the last time i draw a background ever <3#that was the longest four hours of my life bcs i don’t do backgrounds and it was awful <3#pollen#hope y’all enjoy my offering of babygirl#husky and his white cat shizun#erha#2ha#ranwan#(implied)#who else would be holding his hand. god?#ignore the fact that i didn’t draw his hands for a reason also <3 (hand horrible)#i drew this while being driven around and ended up w severe carsickness. who knew thag someone w carsickness would feel worse drawing in a c#i tried drawing him w reference this time bcs he deserves the effort. i’ll do it for you#also it took me literally ages to realize he had a ponytail and not the half up/half down hairstyle#cried for an hour when i found that out <3#anywayyyy! enjoy#i used a color filter bcs i wanted the dramatics and forgor that it doesn’t look good w/o extra effects so just think of it as a stylistic d#decision and not a mistake. simply close ur eyes
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is your mom ok?
Hopefully 🤞
#she just got home a little bit ago#I’m sure she’s exhausted#both my parents didn’t seem too happy when they got home#I tried to greet them but they kinda brushed me off#I just want to hug them and hold them for hours and take all the sickness out of them#I’ll take it I don’t care#I just want them to be healthy and happy#thank you for checking in lovely 💖#really really really hoping the meds they gave my mom will help the pain and help her heal and recover faster#ask#lovely mutuals
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#insights#we are watching the world trend into horror and western leftists are applauding#normally i love western leftists. we are so quick to stand against what we perceive to be injustice#but two days ago a close friend of mine for many years retweeted that video of the concordia student screaming ‘you fucking kike’#the next day another friend retweets a post saying that hamas should have killed more#that rape isn’t rape when it’s against colonizers#so many of my friends agreeing that it’s okay to dehumanize people you don’t like#i am no expert in what qualifies as deserving of respect but i was raised to believe that every human being deserves basic respect.#i’m not sympathetic to the israeli government at all and i hope they face repercussions for the crimes they’ve committed#but i am so so scared that so many people are watching ‘death to the jews’ trend worldwide and saying ‘they deserved it’#it went from anti-colonialism to anti-semitism and there is a REAL lack of acknowledgement of that#meanwhile palestinians still suffer and all of this global hatred and insistence on black and white isn’t helping#jewish people everywhere had a right to be paranoid because they’ve seen this before and the left just laughed it off#probably now the same people who are holding pitchforks and thinking that hatred will solve injustice#i want a free palestine and for anti-semitism to not exist because these are compatible ideas#if you see anti-semitism or anti-arab sentiments please do call it out.#i didn’t make this into a textpost because i was afraid it would get passed around in a bad way#i’m sure somebody will still read this and scream ‘ISRAEL SYMPATHIZER!’#honestly we should all criticize the israeli government (as so many israelis do)#but there are also a lot of free thinkers going ‘jews control the narrative / the world’ like that isn’t some of the pre-holocaust thinking#and they refuse to acknowledge it.#anyways i’m terrified for the world and for humanity and its strange urge to destroy itself
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Sometimes I think, would it be better if Spamton died with someone he knew around. Or would he prefer to do it alone
I think Spamton dreads dying alone. If that was the case then I think he would’ve given up a long time ago. A lot of his dialogue alludes to having thoughts about wanting to end himself and projecting a lot of his self loathing on to others but I don’t think it is necessarily a desire to be dead or die alone (whether he thinks he deserves it or not) but rather more of wanting whatever torment he’s been going through to end. I mean he gets really excited at the idea of joining the fun gang, he was looking for a new beginning not a proper ending.
If Spamton could choose who he had to die around I feel like he wouldn’t want people he knew personally. There would be so much he didn’t get to say, so much the others wouldn’t have time to tell him. The Addisons and him could never have a proper reconciliation, him and Swatch could never clear up whatever went down and he can’t get any closure, never knowing if Mike was safe. Imagine trying to ease into the light when the shadows of your past are blocking it. If anything, I feel like it would create unnecessary stress for him as he would want so bad to feel like he was around people that made him feel safe in his final moments but that just isn’t true. Not to mention the others having to deal with the fact the last time they saw him it was when they abandoned him and the next being him dying of almost direct correlation to it.
However, with people Spamton doesn’t really know I feel like it’d be easier, almost peaceful for him in a way. They wouldn’t have any preconceived ideas or feelings, nothing to get off their chest to ring in his head as he goes out. It would be shallow comfort but he would find that favorable to the intimacy of someone closer that would be intertwined with turmoil. It’s the act of care from a stranger, someone oblivious to his crimes that would bring him ease in my mind, the idea that someone could and did care about him again even if they had no idea who he was in the moment. It was something he craved for years, part of a lot of his motivations and I feel like he’d be more at peace dying around someone who pities him than someone that has guilty or unfinished business with him.
TLDR; I feel like Spamton needs to not be alone physically in death but emotionally I think he would like to keep things distance. In his last moments he’d understand that he is not going to get that closure he needs and would rather face dead with dignity rather than panic at what is left unresolved.
#in my mind Spam doesn’t want to die. it it’s the case it seems the easiest way#I mean when he’s beat in the normal route it’s not disbelief or a tantrum as he hangs strung up#it’s somber acceptance and a sort of hope he can finally find peace serving a lightener#peace if not having to fight for himself and a hope for Kris to do better than him#what would he have said to the Addisons who had left him and he had pushed away#an apology without an explanation would’ve meant nothing them taking his glasses just a reminder that’s he’s gone again#and an insult that he just ended back up as an accessory to their group#swatch would pity him and hold remorse but was also linked with him being on the street what do you say in that situation#how do explain that your duty came above your personal relationship when it was part of what led to this moment#how do you tell a dying man you didn’t know what the knife would be used for as he lays bleeding out from the stab wound#if I brought Jevil into this I feel like that would somehow work as Jevil would mock him but again wish him luck as he passes into whatever#he believes heaven to be#something about spam and death has to be impersonal to me he is so aimed towards life and living#that death needs to be distant in every aspect for him to accept it#spamton#deltarune#utdr#ask#anon#undertale#spamton g spamton#death mention#suicide mention#this one was a little more serious#deltarune headcanon#deltarune analysis
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