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beautifulpersonpeach · 1 year ago

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Hello! Reading your comment about Gr@mmys, I thought of something that makes my head spin.

Was it what happened with J!m!n and F@CE that got us out of the OT7 utopia “seven exact and equal slices of the pie” for each member? I expected to see differences, problems or competitions during this stage but I feel that F@CE was a before and after, at least for me. Now, I could yell at my "me" from the last concert in Bus@n, how naive and overly positive I was being.

I understand the factors that made this reality. I don't know the internal agreements between them and their company. For me Jungk00k's debut only shed more light on topic (he's not the villain of the story, blaming him is just easy way out) Family = seven = equal. Wasn't that the driven narrative? From my place I see how the members go out of their way to demonstrate healthy competition among themselves but the label does not accompany them with their actions/decisions. Actions that make me see company as inexperienced. Did they really have no way to avoid these conflicts? Shouldn't they take care of every detail of career of the artists they represent?

This has nothing to do with the decisions of each member. Some armys force too much -members decide everything- speech and frankly to me it feels like a re-victimization and the removal of responsibility from their representatives. Even if we look at this as a team it seems like someone isn't doing their part. May I disagree? I'm a different person. If everyone says that BH is a great company, I will tell them that it should be even better. The company where my father works has often not fulfilled its duties as an employer, but he will tell you that it's the best job, and I proceed to respect it. Just like that i feel

Whose responsibility is it really that everything has gotten to this point? From company and its silences, from fandom that allowed solo stans to grow, from everyone? Is it just the natural course of things?

There is something in this chapter that gives me the feeling of improvisation. Or was I just too used to everything being calculated and perfect in the B/T/S world?

If you had to give a prognosis for the next chapter, what would it be?

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“Family = seven = equal. Wasn't that the driven narrative?”

No, actually.

Listen, I hear you and I get you completely. OT7 literally means love the members equally right? And that’s the agenda the company has been pushing and should show right? Well, not exactly. What I’m about to say is going to be very unpopular, but it’s genuinely what I think.

People have a very narrow idea of how many things can look, and when they run up against a reality that looks very different from how they expected it, many people don’t know how to deal with that very well. And oftentimes what happens is that they turn to vilifying whoever they think is responsible for preventing them from getting that imagined outcome. It never once crosses their minds that maybe they had the wrong assumptions to begin with. It’s always the thought of maybe someone is gaslighting them, rather than, you know, maybe they were just wrong. For that context and for that group’s actual goals.

There’s one post I wrote a long time ago that I think made me fairly popular with Jimin biases here, it’s the one where I talk about some of the ways Jimin contributed to BTS that might not seem obvious at first. I prefaced that post by saying many in the fandom underestimate Jimin not because they dislike him or anything, but because they have a narrow idea of what ‘meaningful contribution’ looks like for a group like BTS. All I did in that post was point out things that perhaps were not framed in the right way to show how much Jimin contributes to BTS that’s more than songwriting, producing, or others. It’s the same thinking in recognizing that while SeokJin isn’t the strongest dancer or vocalist, he’s served as the stable emotional support in the group, he serves as the key hinge in maintaining the uniformity in their choreography, and that without him in the group, the members would certainly clash very destructively. It’s not ‘equal contribution’ in the way a lot of people envision, but I think it’s perfect for BTS.

Granted all I’ve said so far is in terms of contributions, not rewards which is what you’re talking about. You’re saying the company should facilitate things so that each member is meant to get equal rewards each time. Well, that would be dandy and possible for the company. Maybe. But it’s also not weird, bad, nor does is spell sabotage for a company to allocate different resources and use different strategies after consulting with the members for their direct input, and to pursue asymmetrical results for BTS at certain times. The understanding is each member prioritized will vary in different years and eras. And I’m personally looking forward to all of it. Since July 2022, all the members have put forward a good first step with their debuts. Jungkook is the member getting a solid push now and I love that it’s him. I’m secretly hoping he tours a bit too, maybe solo or with vmin, and maybe/not go to the military before 2025. Who knows?

A lot of things didn’t work right for all the members' debuts. Jimin’s performance was impacted by far too many though, and many were issues the company simply needs to get their shit together on. Period. BTS makes a shit tonne of money for that company and the least they could do is go the extra mile and then some. I’m convinced HYBE already does this for BTS (recall how HYBE navigated extracting BTS from that Jamboree concert disaster, though public opinion was also on their side), but they could always do more. And I won’t stop anyone from saying that.

But for anyone who thinks what they’ve seen so far is Jungkook / BTS / HYBE betraying their trust or going back on their principles or whatever, I want to say that they’ve done no such thing. This time around your bias wasn’t prioritized the way you wanted. That’s it. Am I being naive and delusional by thinking the guys are literally taking turns for this kind of focus? Possibly. But I also know there’s a Pharrell collab somewhere in the vault. Rina Sawayama too (her Le Sserafim remix is really good. Please listen to it). And that the guys have very grand plans. All of them. They’re focused and driven and will always get what they ultimately want. Every member is like this. They've put too much skin in the game to walk away for less.

Or lol, maybe I'm just being a company stan. I just hope it's clear I'm not dismissing your concern or care for Jimin, Anon, it's that I disagree with your conclusion. But I know I'm in the minority here anyway.

“Whose responsibility is it really that everything has gotten to this point? “

The fandom, mostly. For reasons that are very obvious. Such as most of the fandom claiming they actually like the whole group and trust their bias, but rather kinda see the other members as background characters for their bias. Fandom is like a pressure cooker, so nobody ever really stays 'normal' if they move too far off-center - people who heavily biases a member in an unhealthy way will never remain an ARMY, for example, they’ll eventually break off into fringe parts; people who dislike a member, only grow to further hate the member. Neutral is rare.

If BigHit wanted to make another try for a Grammy this year, Seven would’ve likely been envisioned with all the members as a project to pursue, because a win for any of them is considered a win for the group. Especially considering the competition this year. And given BH already had a formula with the PET, they went with that same mediocre candy floss of a song that’s guaranteed to get the nomination chances, as in the past. Experience has taught the company Korean tracks will likely not be given fair consideration soon. So they went with Seven. Also, after that Billboard hit piece, Jimin’s chances with Like Crazy are close to zilch. If by some miracle he gets recognition, I hope he wins. But yeah, that debacle with Jimin is one in which the fandom (meaning his akgaes, biases, and the wider/whole fandom) bears some blame. But at the same time, Billboard has never been a friend to BTS and they were likely going to change the rules again anyway. And that’s something they can keep doing.

"If you had to give a prognosis for the next chapter, what would it be?"

I have no real idea, tbh. What I want more than anything, is for all seven of them to be able to continue putting out dope, interesting music that they take joy in. Seeing Bangtan have fun has extended my life by several years I'm sure. That's what I want for them in the prognosis. I'm sorry I'm taking your ask about a serious topic and going all sentimental on it Anon, but rather than chart placements that they don't really need to prove, I want BTS to still be comfortable making the music they want to make. More Arson, Dis-ease, All Day, Change Pt 2, Snooze, HUH?!, Amygdala, Like Crazy, SMF Pt 2, Rainy Days, Seven, The Astronaut.

I hope the people who remain in the fandom core are able to last and tough it out while the fandom regroups. Because even though there'll be chaos and the number of solos will likely triple, they won't ever leave. Nobody who comes in contact with BTS ever really moves on from them. They'll say they're taking breaks, calling it quits or whatever, but give them 6 months tops and they're back. I see it happen all the time. And it makes sense tbh. I mean, have you seen Jimin? After knowing someone like him exists, how can you just go back to your regular life pretending he's not real? Like his existence doesn't mandate you looking at him and caring for him and his art. At least, that's how Jimin makes me feel. And the other members to varying degrees.

If we disagree please don't send me follow-up asks on this topic. It likely won't be productive.

#bts #jimin #jikook #jungkook #yoongi #hoseok #seokjin #taehyung #namjoon #bts chapter 2 #bts army #bts fandom #army fandom #fandom behaviour #bang pd #bangtan

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adelheidvonschicksal · 6 months ago

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Like I'm really asking why gege introduces characters just to off them. I hate saying its bad writing but I'm seriously looking like, why though. I really feel he got inspired by Togashi and is trying to come up with some banging plot twists and mind fuckery but it isn't slapping the same. Like "He can't keep getting away with this!!"

It is bad writing! I can talk about it for hours. It's a shame cause Gege writes so extremely well but suffers from telling more than showing.

When Gege takes his time, he writes amazingly! He has great symbolism and wordplay, good characters, and good plot elements, but then rushes all of it. In his defense, it must be hard to write on a weekly schedule especially under such pressure and under a company. I did add a tldr at the end cause I have so much to say.

But I noticed since around the Zen’in and Maki chapters that Gege’s biggest struggle as a writer is writing build up. I’m not the best writer myself, but it’s such a huge problem in his writing.

To preface, he does have good build up in certain characters:

Geto and Gojo’s relationship and downfall is done so exceptionally beautifully. There’s a reason there’s so much discourse with their relationship and fandom tears about it. Itadori and Megumi’s relationship mimicking theirs is also done very well.

Miwa and Mechamaru, as side characters, also have the right level of relationship build-up for their roles in the story.

Gege can even write deaths very well.

Junpei’s death sets up Itadori’s first failure, Sukuna as a non-ally, and sets the tone for the show that the good guys can lose.

Nobara’s “death” was unneeded for Itadori’s collapse. But as a character, I do feel she was completely fleshed out and finished. She was a character who knew who she was and embraced that without failure or doubt. The only growth I could see for her character development was to gain more empathy for others and become more open minded (something she seemed to realize at her death). But that’s another discussion.

Nanami’s death (although sad) was probably the best-done death in the series. He’s a fully fleshed out character, we know his motivations and his regrets, we were attached to him just as much as Itadori. Then, Gege adds on the juxtaposition of Mei Mei and Ui Ui to his death.

Spoilers below cut.

Where he goes wrong:

Gege tried to recatch the feeling of losing Nanami in Hiromi; but we got so little of Hiromi, it didn’t make an impact like Nanami even though Hiromi’s introduction is really good, and we see that Itadori starts to look up to him.

Choso, I believe, got caught in between being an important character that fans love and being a character that probably would have the least consequences out of the people who got stuck in Sukuna’s domain (i.e. Itadori and Maki) to die. So, his death would actually matter to the fandom; but after so many deaths, it’s too late to make the fandom care, it only brings anger.

I have a feeling he’ll do the same with Todo now.

The most ironic part is that Gege probably had the best character development moment since the Culling Games by choosing NOT to kill a minor character.

In this case, I’m talking about Remi and Megumi.

If we look at the Culling Games as the arc developing Megumi before he gets taken by Sukuna; we notice that Megumi is entering his serious, cold-hearted era. He’s making the sacrifices necessary to save his sister.

In this case, we see Megumi repeatedly killing other humans without stopping to think or any remorse. We touch this subject with all of the first years.

Itadori: struggles with killing humans, becomes regretful about doing so, hates himself for killing humans because of Sukuna. Then, he eventually resolves to do what is necessary as a cog.

Nobara: resolves this with her Bus Riding analogy. She won’t get bent out of shape when it comes to protecting herself or over strangers.

Megumi: He has the exact same thought process as Nobara. He kills humans when they attack him. However, we are also aware Megumi tends to have more sympathy for strangers and enemies than Nobara even though he likes to act like he doesn't.

Despite Remi leading him into a trap, he comes to see that she isn’t that bright and is being taken advantage of. So, even though he doesn’t like her, he feels sorry enough for her that he protects her, tries to talk reason into her, and gets hurt in the process despite her initially betraying him.

It isn’t until she attacks him, that he officially marks her as “scum”.

Megumi later hunts Remi down as easy points in the Culling Games and because she’s someone who is an enemy. Remi even describes men as wolves as he hunts her down and is confused and panicking about the situation since she’s never had to think for herself.

I’ve seen these scenes used to describe him as not being a kid anymore and basically using it to downplay his depression over losing Tsumiki, the mahoraga and bum memes.

But Gege uses Remi as a way to still display Megumi’s stipulations over killing others and his connection to Tsumiki as someone who helped him develop his moral compass and keeps him grounded.

Did Remi attack him? Yes.

But she was no longer posing a threat and actively running away from him, making her a non-enemy again. Megumi deciding to let her live is actually a solidifying moment in Megumi’s character, his relationship with his sister, and re-establishes him as a character who despite being outwardly cruel and distant at times has empathy and kindness for people. It shows this holds true when he has no reason to be kind to them and even good reason to kill them. However, this is something a) Megumi would have probably regretted later or b) set him on a worse path. Most importantly, it confirms just how much Tsumiki's ideals and expectations of him as a person means to him, giving reason to why his soul becomes weak enough to possess towards the end of the arc.

This is actually such a good example of his writing once again being amazing. Gege is aware that choosing to let someone live, even minor unimportant characters, works just as well as choosing to let someone die in terms of character motivations and development. Something that he doesn't give to Itadori for some reason, other than maybe the slim chance Nobara might live.

However, because the culling games swaps to purely fights after this, it’s a missed opportunity to continue exploring Megumi’s downward spiral and relationship with his sister before losing her. Sure, it would've been nice to see Tsumiki as her own person as well, but Gege does a good job in making Megumi's feelings about her known like when Megumi only chooses to go with Gojo because of Tsumiki.

However, this makes his exploration Maki and Mai, another sibling dynamic, lackluster in comparison.

This issue probably bothers me the most in Maki’s story and the story of the Three Big Clans.

After Shibuya, Gege has a chance to world build without Gojo as the issue. After all, the issue with Gojo being sealed was the dismantling of Jujutsu society.

He missed the chance to expand on the big clans and jujutsu societal structure as a whole. He has touched on the clans and their love of bloodlines, but he has not touched on how they function with each other and jujutsu society as a whole especially as they try to power grab and go against each other with Gojo’s absence rather than solve the Kenjaku problem.

We have no idea about the Gojo clan except that Gojo is the leader and main political figure. Kamo’s clan was slaughtered very quickly. As well as the Zen’in and higher-ups.

The manga could’ve used an arc focused on the downfall of Shibuya and the consequences, but we go straight to the culling games with barely a mention on Nobara.

Now with Maki, Gege once again sets up his relationships and character structure beautifully Mai and Maki. Their ending is also very well done.

However, there’s a lack of interaction between those two plot points. Gege consistently gives us just enough to make inferences but very little else.

We don’t see the twins react to one another outside their initial meeting and Mai’s death. We understand both their motivations, but we get no further insight into their relationship or them having another discussion on their choices.

Imagine how much harder Mai’s death would’ve been if we had scenes with her together with Maki; the possible hope of them repairing their relationship. Even if they were still fighting and didn’t make up, Maki would receive more character development if it was shown that she would one day make things up to Mai and her failure to do so. Also, it seems like Mai suddenly knows everything about why twins are bad luck, and Gege once again exposition dumps us about this information. The fact that it isn’t until Maki kills her mother that she finally says “She was so happy to have Mai and Maki” also rings very hollow.

The same with Maki and Naoya. We know Naoya is an asshole, and that he made Maki’s life hell but due to our lack of insight to clans and chapters to absorb the new characters, it’s lackluster. Naoya could’ve easily been swapped out with any other jerky character; the same way random sumo wrestlers helped Maki unlock all her potential.

Choso and Itadori suffer from this as well due to the month time skip. We care about Choso, and we know how much Choso loves his brothers, but I personally feel like I didn’t see Itadori truly accept Choso as his brother due to that time skip. Yes, he calls him Aniki, but I didn’t really see where the connection came from on Itadori’s end other than Itadori sympathizing with Choso’s feelings and his guilt over the fate of his other brothers.

I’ll probably get a little backlash for this, but the same can be said for Megumi and Gojo. Yeah, dad Gojo memes and fandom art are cute. Some of the games and light novels let us know that Gojo legitimately cares about Megumi, but we don’t get opportunities to see Megumi return that affection. In Japanese, Megumi only speaks casual to Tsumiki, and it’s said in interviews that Tsumiki is the one that mostly took care of herself and Megumi.

In the long run, I feel like if it was between Itadori and Gojo dying, Megumi would care more on a personal if Itadori died despite knowing Itadori for only 3-4 months. I could be completely wrong, but Gege doesn’t give us the insight to know for a fact Megumi’s feelings towards Gojo. I’m sure he cares about Gojo, but dad is pushing it.

Even Sukuna is suffering from this. Gege wants a story about a powerful villain, but he fails to realize that you still have to make the reader’s either a) care about that villain or b) interested in the villain from a character analysis point of view.

However, all we learn about Sukuna has been through telling. We learn about his twin, we learn he was an unwanted child, we learn he was a god to humans.

The most we got of a flashback was Yorozu’s crush on him, and Sukuna was rejecting her so hard that we didn’t really get any insight on how Sukuna feels about his past. Gege doesn’t give us anything to work with to care about Sukuna. Sure, he’s hot; sure, he has fan theories and fanfic that build upon his character, but in the sense of the manga, I really don’t know why I should care about him other than power scaling and his character design is cool.

Don’t even get me started on the month time skip either.

Tldr; Gege likes to tell more than to show, and we just got to rely on taking his word for it because he’s the author. He sets up beautiful plot points; he’s an amazing author when he takes the time to build upon them, but more often than not he glosses over the build up for quick emotional shots.

#jjk #jjk leaks #jjk spoilers #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #jujutsu kaisen

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dangerliesbeforeyou · 4 months ago

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someone on twitter posted this chart that showed the average ratings for the inside no 9 episodes and i was FLABBERGASTED by the results of it... and like i didn't think my opinions on the eps were particularly Hot Takes but... now i'm not sure lol...

anyway prepare for a (very VERY long... i wrote over 4700 words what is WRONG with me lol?!?!) ranking list that no one asked for and no one wants lol

firstly check out the post i was talking about here (and potentially be equally as shocked at the results as i was lol)

ok so i will preface by saying i have seen most of the episodes twice, but some only the once atm... also, i kinda haphazardly put this list together so it's potentially subject to change lol

final thing is that i dont thing any of the episodes are BAD, even my least favourite are still good bits of telly, but ultimately i liked them less for whatever reason (which i'll go into because i love to ramble)...

i'll try not to do any spoilers in case anyone's reading this (lol) and hasn't seen the series (double lol)

also also we're going from my least to my most favourite because that builds suspense soooo.... here we go!

55) 1.4 Last Gasp

ok so i've not just put this one last because reece isn't in it lol (though that is part of the reason(ha) lmao). though i found the premise of this episode interesting, i think ultimately the characters and direction of the story felt a lot like something you would see in a sorta run-of-the-mill sitcom... which isn't necessarily a bad thing, just not really what i personally look for in an in9 ep lol...

54) 2.5 Nana's Party

another with a similar sorta vibe to the previous one, this is just slightly higher because i enjoyed the characters a bit more here lol... i think the 'twist' of this one was a little bit lame, though, if i'm being totally honest lol...

53) 5.3 Love's Great Adventure

i appreciated what this one was going for, and i think it built up the characters with each new day in a really believable way, but mostly i just found it Okay and not super memorable... i will say that i wish i could put this higher because the kid in this was genuinely adorable & his interactions with everyone were so sweet lol

52) 1.6 The Harrowing

a slightly disappointing episode for me, especially when the set up was SO good... and yes it was DEFINITELY let down by steve not being in it lol! i totally get why they wanted to try some eps without the both of them, but yeh it really felt like it was missing something for me...

the end was alright, but i kinda wish they'd gone further with it? i did enjoy the characters though and ofc helen mccrory is a goddamn LEDGE in it lol

51) 3.2 The Bill

this might be the first of my potentially Hot Takes(tm) lol... i thought it was just Fine lol... definitely some great interactions, and the premise is hilarious, but i wouldn't say it was one that stuck with me particularly? it kinda felt like a cut league of gentlemen gag which isn't a BAD thing, but because of that it didn't feel totally new/unique to in9... idk lol... great supporting cast, though, ofc!

50) 7.3 3 by 3

this one was definitely good fun, and lee mack is great in it, but it's not one i necessarily see myself watching again any time soon? i think part of this is because i didn't see this live, or witness all the Bus Episode(tm) fuckery so i think i am at a kinda disadvantage lol... but yeah mainly sad that neither steve nor reece are in it :(

49) 1.2 A Quiet Night In

another potentially Hot Take here lol... though i liked the whole idea of it being silent comedy, i think it was let down by a couple things. first, i kinda wish it had leaned more visually into the sorta slapstick/charlie chaplin era they were referencing (like i get they probably thought that it being in black and white would be a bit TOO on the nose, but idk... i kinda think it would've added to it? that might just be me though lol... i just like when things are in black and white lol)

honestly though? my main issue was the lame transphobic joke they made w/ oona chaplin's character lol... like even for 2014, the whole 'haha woman have penis = peak comedy' was a bit tired of a trope, coupled by what happens to her at the end of the episode? idk... rubbed me the wrong way and kinda stopped me from fully loving this episode lol

48) 5.1 The Referee's A Wanker (no i'm not censoring it like it does on the iplayer fuck that lol)

i'm kinda let down by being infinitely bored by anything football related with this one lol... like i liked some of the twists, and also the final twist (after my dad explained it to me because at first i was like huh what lol...), and the characters were fun, but yeh... not really much to say other than 'it was alright lol'

47) 4.5 And The Winner Is…

i actually did mostly enjoy this one lol! we're mostly getting to the ones now that i have minimal bad things to say about (which at number 47 out of 55 is p impressive lbr)

but yeh, the reveal of this was great, and i loved the individual characters (shout out to zoë wanamaker, she stole my heart lol <3) i suppose it's just kinda low because it wasn't that exciting lol? but yeh, a solid episode anyway lol

46) 8.5 Nine Lives Kat

i loved a lot about this one, the kinda russian doll style of reveals were really clever tbh! this is one that i've only seen once and i really do feel like i should watch this one again to get my full thoughts... so who knows, its ranking might change if i were to watch it again lol

also that kiss though 👀

45) 5.4 Misdirection

i loved the opening bit, plus the tension of this episode was fab! the twist was kinda predictable, which i don't consider a negative thing generally but it just means that it falls lower against episodes with more surprising twists lol... it's definitely one i wanna watch a few times since there's a lot of details you miss with just one!

44) 8.4 Love Is A Stranger

this one was probably the most black mirror-y feeling episode they've ever done (which is a compliment, btw, because i genuinely love black mirror lol) not just because of the technological elements, but also with the general tone and that twist! i actually kinda liked that steve and reece took more of a step back in this one, it let the other characters really shine imo!

43) 5.5 Thinking Out Loud

i feel kinda bad for putting this one so low since i think it's probably one of the most interesting both conceptually and stylistically, but... there are just so many good episodes what am i supposed to doooooooo?? (not much i can really say about this one without giving things away... i did really enjoy steve's american accent though lol!) 42) 7.4 Kid/Nap

i thought i was gonna kinda dislike this one when i started watching, the premise is pretty simple and i like the split screen stuff but was worried it was gonna come across as a bit gimmicky, but honestly? i had a lot of fun with it! some really brilliant twists and turns, and genuinely one of the funniest of the episodes imo! held together by the great performances and simple but effective story!

41) 8.6 The Last Weekend

this probably would have been higher if i had just based it on my first watch (which was before a certain other episode came out), but on second watch (and with the context of that other episode that has a similar sorta premise but, imo, done much better)

regardless, though, this is a pretty iconic and VERY memorable episode lol!

40) 1.5 The Understudy

ok so my very tiny complaint about this is i wish there were more of the surreal elements (kinda hard to describe but if you've seen the episode you know what i'm referring to lol)... anyway i generally really love things that are set around the theatre tbh and this one really highlights just how good they are as writers with a very limited setting and selection of characters!

but yeh... wish there were more of the surreal/strange moments if had dotted around!

39) 9.5 Curse Of The Ninth

i generally loved the spooky atmosphere of this one! another one that i feel i need to rewatch, i feel like the ending felt a bit abrupt on this one and i definitely kinda wish it had been slightly longer (just like an extra 5 minutes come ON lads) but overall i really liked it! it's my least favourite of series 9, which really shows how strong of a final series it was tbh lol!

38) 6.3 Lip Service

there's so much to like in this episode; great layers of comedy and tragedy, plus the twist really caught me off-guard lol! definitely one of the more complicated episodes (and yes, i also need to rewatch this one lol...) 37) 5.2 Death Be Not Proud

i first watched this one with literally no knowledge of psychoville, but even then i still enjoyed it (also jenna coleman!!! kinda wish we'd seen more of her since she kinda got overshadowed by the psychoville characters, but she's still great lol), though rewatching it once i had watched the other show definitely made a lot of the references make more sense lol

wish i could put it higher just because mr jelly!!!!! love that guy, but the overall story isn't the most interesting or unique compared to the others, but it's still great regardless lol

36) 9.4 Ctrl Alt Esc

another episode that has a similar concept to an episode i like more, which is sorta preventing this from being any higher, but regardless i adored the setting (i've never been to an escape room but i have a strong feeling i'd love them lol), and i think it did such a good job at making us understand the family dynamics really quickly and effectively! also one of steve's strongest performances, i gotta say! he plays these kinds of understated characters so well imo

35) 7.5 A Random Act Of Kindness

i really like the episodes of in9 that feel like almost love letters to a particular subject and how that relates to people and their relationships... curse of the ninth was about music and the act of creation, misdirection was magic and revenge, and this one is dedicated to science, regret and loss! i think i kinda wish it ended in a different way, but i don't think the ending took away any of the rest of my enjoyment of the episode lol

34) 6.6 Last Night Of The Proms

i was most shocked that based on the ratings this is apparently the least liked episode lol? it's arguably the most political of the in9 episodes so i don't know if that's why people are a bit torn about it? or the religious elements lol?

either way overall i really liked it! i think it did a good job of combining the absurd premise with the slight political commentary, plus i really enjoyed the characters (and loved the thick west country accents lol)

33) 2.6 Seance Time

there are so many great elements of this that i can't talk about cos i don't wanna give away any spoilers, but honestly this one has some great twists as well as some genuinely pretty intense moments! i can't explain it but i feel like this would be a really good episode for anyone who hasn't seen the show before to start with? i just feel like it has a perfect 'inside no 9' energy to it lol

32) 8.1 The Bones Of St Nicholas

this might be one of my favourite interpretations of a typical ghost story tbh! possibly genuinely one of the only episodes of the show that actually scared me a bit, ngl! the overall spooky atmosphere is just so great. plus simon callow!!!!!!!!

31) 6.1 Wuthering Heist

another of my potential Hot Takes since a lot of people didn't seem to like this one? i found it genuinely really funny, plus the whole commedia dell'arte + the breaking the fourth wall thing were such unique concepts to throw into one episode lol! i think maybe it's because there were so many slightly strange concepts that people felt it was a bit unfocused??? idk... the ending wasn't my favourite, but i just felt generally the episode felt like nothing i'd really seen before!

also gemma whelan (whose name i had to google oops... she's SUCH a familiar face to me but i don't think i ever learnt her name lol) was so good in this lol

30) 9.6 Plodding On

sorta hard to know where to put the finale tbh... i've only watched it the once through, so definitely need to watch it again at some point. at the same time it's basically a love letter to the rest of the show itself, so it's sorta difficult to judge based on its own merit lol...

that being said, i loved the drama and tension, plus all (well most, ahem) of the cameos from all the people who were in the show in the past were really lovely!

but yeh... definitely a weird one to try and rank... almost feel like i need to put it in it's own list pfft

29) 7.2 Mr King

one of the first truly Bat Shit episodes on my list so far lol! i love the setting and the kid actors in this were INCREDIBLE honestly! another one i don't wanna say much about it because it's kinda better to go in blind lol

only thing i'll say is: ok but whose dicks were those pictures of? they probably mentioned it in a behind the scenes episode or on twitter or smth but i've not seen anything and i'm kinda intrigued did they just.... find them online? did they ask staff? how does one find random pictures of penises(peni?) to use in your dark comedy show lol???

28) 9.1 Boo To A Goose

there's a lot to love about this episode, SO many absolutely incredible british actors (joel fry, susan wokoma, mark bonnar!!!!) plus drag queen steve!??! hELLO???? AND it's on a train!!!! the twist definitely felt reminiscent of a lot of other older horror media, but that didn't stop it being surprising or memorable!

27) 4.4 To Have And To Hold

1st thing: good for her.

2nd thing, this episode was SO good! i had no idea where it was gonna go with the story so the reveal was super shocking to me, plus nicola walker seriously KILLED with her performance ngl!

this is definitely a slow burn episode, so if at any point you're feeling like it's dragging i do implore you to stick with it!

26) 4.6 Tempting Fate

now, if we were ranking these on 'how cute reece looks' then this would be in the top 3 at least sorry not sorry... unfortunately we're NOT ranking them based on that criteria so it'll have to remain at 26th place lol

i really enjoyed the premise and characters of this one! i also especially liked how the hare from this episode is featured in every episode of the show which creates this really kinda insane idea that what if every single story is actually connected lol?!?!

25) 1.1 Sardines

i feel like i should put this one higher because it is pretty iconic first episode of the show, but there are just so many good episodes what am i supposed to DO?!!!!!!?!?

this is technically the episode i've seen the most, i believe, and i do still find so much to enjoy about it even though i've seen it like 3+ times at this point! so many great actors involved lol

side note, i had not actually heard of sardines as a game until i watched this and wasn't entirely sure if they'd just made it up pfft... anyway maybe it's just a northern thing or smth because i'm sure we didn't have this in the south pfft... just plain ol' hide and seek lol

24) 8.3 Paraskevidekatriaphobia

one of the most jarring twists (literally kinda feels like it comes out of nowhere, at least to me pfft), but i definitely still liked it! there was a nice bit of slapstick comedy in this which i appreciated! there were also a lot of superstitions in this that i wasn't familiar with (like the peacock feather one lol)

not really much else to say, it's just a really solid episode lol!

23) 7.1 Merrily Merrily

i did love that this one felt legit like a reunion between the (3) members of the league of gentlemen tbh they were obviously still playing characters, but their interactions just felt so natural and i really enjoyed it! plus diane motherfucking morgan is one of the funniest people alive i SWEAR to god lol! the pee scene made me cry with laughter ngl lol

i honestly think this one is kinda underrated? idk if it was because it was more emotional and character driven than some of the others? (which doesn't make sense since The most popular episode is an emotional, character driven one pfft... idk... people are strange)

22) 6.4 Hurry Up And Wait

so if we were ranking these based on 'how cute reece looks' then this would be RIGHT at the bottom because girl WHAT was that fucking wig?!?! thankfully we're NOT ranking it on that so this gets to be at 22nd lol

as said before, i really like films and shows that deal with theatre or actors, so it was really fun to see actors acting like complete divas lol i was a little worried that the mystery element was going to be another kinda lazy lame joke, but they actually went more of an interesting direction with it imo!

21) 2.3 The Trial Of Elizabeth Gadge

part of me kinda wished they'd done more historical episodes like this because I genuinely loved the setting! there's also a great load of humour in this one, which a pretty legendary couple of twists at the end that made me go like 'OHHHH!??!!' when i first watched it pfft

20) 3.4 Empty Orchestra

arguably the most wholesome episode of the entire show, and usually i wouldn't be a big fan of this kinda episode (like i said i didn't the bottom 2 eps because they felt too much like generic sitcoms lol), BUT there was something in the characters and the genuinely really uplifting and kinda sweet vibe of this one that i couldn't help but love lol!

it's also the closest we got to a musical episode which i'm STILL bummed we never got... like yeh i get logistically it's super hard to do but .... i wanted to hear them sing :((((((

19) 9.3 Mulberry Close

another case of 'there's another similar episode that i liked more' which is sorta why this isn't higher lol regardless, it's such a clever concept to be told entirely through the cctv footage, and the general story and collection of characters were super interesting! i haven't rewatched it yet so definitely need to give it another go lol!

18) 4.7 Dead Line

ok so i need y'all to know that i was watching this literally YEARS after the ep aired with me dad but we STILL got bamboozled by the show cutting out pfft... which might just be because we're dumb but i like to think it's also just because it's so well crafted! it is another one that you need to go in blind imo so please just check it out if you haven't!

recently watched a great video essay on yt where someone spoke about this episode (check it out here!)

17) 2.2 The 12 Days Of Christine

gasp 12 days of christine? not in the top 10???!?!

ok this is IS an amazing episode, and sheridan smith is honestly one of the most under-appreciated british actors imo

BUT idk i think on rewatch the impact of the twist had definitely lessened? like i remember coming up with all these theories on my first watch which were TOTALLY wrong lol... and yeh like there are definitely just other eps i like more... it's good! it's SO good! i still love it! i just... idk lol

16) 3.6 Private View

maybe it's the art nerd in me but i really did love this one lol! i liked the murder mystery vibe of this one with a group of people being invited to an mysterious location and as a viewer you spend the whole time desperately trying to figure out their connection lol!

i liked the small peter kay cameo, plus morgana robinson as a big brother celeb was so fucking funny lol! plus the twists were really mad and i loved them lol!

15) 2.1 La Couchette

very similar to the previous one, but i really did love the collection of kooky characters here lol plus as someone who has been in several hostels (not on a train, but hostels are hostels) i relate HEAVILY to being surrounded by just the strangest and loudest people you will ever meet pfft...

(shout out to the korean guy that came in at like 2am, showered (the shower was right next to the beds so we could hear everything) and he appeared to have everything he ever owned in paper bags which he rustled about for like 20 minutes... i really contemplated murder that night lemme tell you...)

uh anyway yeh this episode is great lol!

14) 6.2 Simon Says

we're onto my ultimate favourite episodes at this point btw lol

this episode is full of great twists and suspense, plus nick mohammed! i like the way they explored fandom culture in a way that didn't feel like it was being overtly mean to the idea of fandom itself (cough unlike sherlock cough and supernatural cough)!

also if we were ranking these episodes based on 'how cute steve looks' then this would be number 1 hands DOWN lol!

13) 1.3 Tom and Gerri

my highest rated series 1 epsiode! i'd actually forgotten about the twist of this one when i rewatched it recently, but i still really loved it tbh!

a great combination of horror with a really emotional through line, plus even at the end you're never really sure what is real or not lol...

12) 3.3 Riddle Of The Sphinx

this episode is SO fucked up and SO good lol!!! you never guess where the story is going next and it's just a wild experience lol! again, don't wanna say too much to give anything away but i will say i understand cryptic crosswords even LESS after watching this twice pfft...

11) 4.1 Zanzibar

if i had any skills i would write my review for this in imabic pentameter ... but alas i do not

this episode felt like such an amazing demonstration of reece and steve's writing prowess! it's funny, the story is absolutely mad with so many crazy twists, and a stellar cast! so worth a watch, especially if you like anything vaguely shakespearan and theatrical lol!

10) 6.5 How Do You Plead

another one where i had SO many theories of where the episode was going to go only to be completely wrong and the twist shook me and i LOVED it! there isn't really much to the story, but it's truly carried by the brilliant performances imo!

9) 3.1 The Devil Of Christmas

i've not really heard anyone talk about this episode much but i was so taken aback by how much i really loved it! jessica raine absolutely NAILS her performance as a 60s/70s actor, and the general film aesthetic and dialogue style is just perfect, and the reveals throughout the episode just add so SO much to the enjoyment of this!

i have a feeling this might actually go up in my rankings when i eventually rewatch it because there are just SO many interesting layers to it imo!

also i just realised i've included the two episodes derek jacobi was in back to back pfft.. wasn't on purpose but he is a legend lol!

8) 9.2 The Trolley Problem

highest rated 9th series episode woop woop!

i rewatched this one recently and realised it reminded me a lot of the story in Last Weekend, but just as i said in that review, i much preferred the way this story was handled to the other one!

(don't get me wrong, they're VERY different just... sorta similar vibes lol)

anyway this is a very dark episode, both physically (it's set at night and i can't see a THING) and conceptually, but the way this combined the psychology elements with comedy is truly masterful!

7) 5.6 The Stakeout

ok so Funny Story about this one

i'd been on a big binge of in9 episodes a few years back and i got to this one and was about half way through when i realised i needed to take a break lol it didn't help that the episode itself is pretty slow burn, especially after watching some of the others that are a lot more fast paced lol... so basically, i paused it with the intention of returning in a few days or so except... then several years go by and i STILL hadn't seen the end of it pfft

anyway, finally watched it this year and it instantly got transported into my top 10 because that twist was SO iconic lol! it's so simple of a concept (steve and reece spend the entire time yapping in a police car) but it's so cleverly written!

6) 8.2 Mother's Ruin

i was a little bit surprised that this one had a lower rating than the rest of series 8 tbh? anyway i LOVED this one lol! the incense line make me laugh every time i hear it, and in general i loved the relationship between the brothers and everything surrounding their mother!

also as someone who recently watched the film reece was in called 'the cottage' (which also starred andy serkis), i can't help but think it was at least somewhat of an inspiration for this episode lol (they may have talked about this already btw but idk)

5) 7.6 Wise Owl

oof... this episode made me go Oof about 500 times after i watched it

it's a good oof... but it is an oof lol

i haven't rewatched it yet and i'm kinda nervous about doing it cos it did sorta emotionally devastate me lol

4) 4.3 Once Removed

in terms of how this story is told, i'd honestly say it was my ultimate favourite inside no 9 format! it's not something i've ever really seen before and it felt so interesting and built the story in such a unique way! also shout out to monica dolan (whose name i forget EVERY time idk why) who is honestly one of the best british actors ever yes i know i've said that about everyone on this list but shhhhhhhhhhh lol

also absolutely loved all the andrew lloyd webber stuff (which isn't a spoiler btw lol...)

3) 2.4 Cold Comfort

another one where i mentioned before that in Mulberry Close there's another episode with the concept of the story being exclusively filmed through cctv footage (deadline also does it but shhh)! i love that concept, especially with the multiple screens where you're constantly aware of things happening in the other booths which just keeps you on edge!

the reveal is super chilling and though i haven't rewatched it yet, i am honestly really excited to because i feel there were SO many things i missed on my first watch!

2) 4.2 Bernie Clifton's Dressing Room

oof part TWO lol... another one i haven't rewatched because it made me cry and i need at least another few months to recover from the first watch pfft... it is still funny btw! i think a lot of people talk about episodes like this and how sad they are, but it has a lot of great comedy in it which is i think part of why the emotionality hits so hard!

side note, i keep accidentally calling this 'bernie CLIFFORD'S dressing room' and i have no idea why lol... i don't think there's anyone called bernie clifford lol??? help?????

1) 3.5 Diddle Diddle Dumpling

trying to figure out my favourite episode was kinda hard, and i think any one of my top 15 could ultimately take this place, but honestly? rewatching this one i just was so overwhelmed with how beautifully crafted this episode is!

it also features my favourite performance by reece... a amazing combination of subtle moments with the bigger explosions of emotion, you instantly feel so much for his character tbh!

the twist isn't necessarily as shocking or intense as others, but there's something so heartbreaking when you realise it that changes the entire feeling of the episode... also mathew baynton is briefly there which i enjoyed lol!

i'm so sorry this post was so long lmao i'm sure no one will have read this far but if you HAVE then THANK you <3 i really love this show can u tell? WHY did it take me so long to get into it smh smh smh smh

anyway if you have read this far then let me know what your favourites were or just if you have general thoughts on my general thoughts u know? idk basically my ask box is always open if anyone wants to ramble about this show or whatever else lol

#inside no 9 #in9 #reece shearsmith #steve pemberton #long post #ranking list #ramblings #i literally spent several HOURS writing this yesterday lol...

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I've been thinking about Munroe and wondering what about season 6 could have been different if her supernatural trauma was related to the nogitsune and the oni instead like in the hospital attack. I think it would be make her hatred of the pack a bit more compelling because they, especially Scott, actually did choose to save and protect Stiles regardless of the danger to other people and they could do something interesting with Scott and Stiles' guilt over it all. I also feel like it would be more believable for her to have supporters if they were other survivors who saw what they thought was the sheriff's son do something terrible and then have it completely covered up.

Do you think that's something that would have worked? How do you think it would have played out?

I think that your musings are inadvertently neglecting a very key part of Tamora Monroe's story. Unless I am mistaken (and feel free to correct me if I am) you're arguing that if her trauma had been directly connected to something the pack chose to do rather than something that they failed to stop, it would have made more of an impact. I agree that it would have certainly made her hostility toward the pack more personal.

However, I consider the fact that it wasn't due to a specific decision is vitally important dimension to her story. As usual, I'm going to preface my remarks by making it clear that Monroe is a villain, and my exploration of her motivations should not be taken as approval of her actions in any way.

To me, the central premise to Tamora Monroe's story isn't that she experienced trauma. A lot of people in the show experienced trauma and reacted to it in ways both good and bad. No, Monroe's fury arises from the way the main characters reacted to her trauma. She may have completely recovered from the damage the Beast did to her. She may have mourned the friends she lost on that school bus. What she can't accept is how unimportant the reaction made her seem. Something terrible happened to her but it was a side effect, a background detail to a trap made by a monster for others she saw as monsters.

In a bit of clever meta-narrative (with a bit of clear social commentary thrown in), Monroe existed as a minor victim, an extra designed, as T. S. Eliot put it, "to swell a scene or two." Her words to Corey in Said the Spider to the Fly (6x11) establish not only things about Corey's character but also hers.

Tamora: Look, I understand the need to keep up, to be recognized or noticed. Everybody feels invisible sometimes.

What Monroe went through wasn't given any importance. The bodies in the school bus were bait and afterwards, they were carted away never to be mentioned or dealt with again. If she hadn't survived, no one would have given her a second thought.

But she did survive, and even though she did, she still wasn't given enough importance -- enough value -- to be told what really happened to her. She figured it out on her own, and that is where her anger comes from. Her life didn't matter. That type of dismissal can be enraging, and she takes out that rage on those who she sees as acting that way in Raw Talent (6x12).

Monroe: I'm sorry. I should've told you. It's wolfsbane.

When I first heard that line, I was confused. Why would she say that to a werewolf she was hunting? However, it's clear on reflection that this line speaks directly to her motivation. Wolfsbane is dangerous to werewolves, so she should have told Brett that there was wolfsbane in the lacrosse ball, just as the Beast was dangerous to her, and she should have been told about the Beast. She is claiming an eye for an eye.

Her speech to the Sheriff in Werewolves of London (6x17) is also worth analyzing.

Monroe: Understand each other. Do you wanna know what I understand, Sheriff? Do you wanna know what I see in your little show and tell?

She speaks passionately because this is what should have happened way back after she survived the Beast. She should have been allowed to understand what was happening. She should have been listened to, but she didn't have any power. Only now, when she has power, are the people responsible willing to talk. She'll say that exact thing to Scott in After Images (6x13). Now that they're listening, she's going to do the talking.

Monroe: I see a sheriff unable to control the violence in his own county. A county he's sworn to protect. I see the same sheriff in way over his head. And not ready to believe the truth that's been staring him in the face for years.

It's clear that she thought she feels that people like the Sheriff were operating under false premises. They were supposed to keep the monsters away from people who couldn't protect themselves.

Monroe: I was told I was the victim of a wild animal attack. A bear. I was lied to. You lied to protect them over us.

The attack itself doesn't matter as much as the disregard. She was treated as a second-class citizen as opposed to monsters who can heal from stab wounds in a matter of minutes and grow claws and fangs at will. She was made to feel invisible, powerless, and unimportant.

Until she wasn't. Until she had enough power and enough followers to make them treat her differently.

So, what pushed her into become the woman who callously ordered Edgar the Werecoyote disposed of as trash? Well, she wouldn't be the first woman in Teen Wolf manipulated and used by a particularly selfish man to further his own ends.

Gerard: Someone who has been doing this a lot longer than you, but also someone who recognizes raw talent when he sees it.

Gerard had obviously been studying Monroe and figured out what I argue up above. It's not the wounds, it's the lies. It's the ignorance. Notice how many times during Season 6B Gerard emphasizes Monroe's importance or emphasizes how much she needs to learn, or emphasizes that this is what happens when the supernatural is unchecked. He's honed in on her psychology and uses her as a tactical advantage, one he's more than willing to discard once she's outlived her usefulness. Just as he did with Kate. Just as he did with Allison back in Season 2. It's the same thing -- take their feelings and twist them into action.

Monroe fit into Teen Wolf perfectly.

#tamora monroe #sheriff stilinski #gerard argent #teen wolf meta

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Alchemy of Souls Part 2 (Eps 29-30): Analysis, Theories, Critique, and Thoughts

Hello Readers,

Let me preface this post by saying thank you to all the cast and crew for all of their hard work and dedication to this rather ambitious project. As for the Hong Sisters, I want to give them my sincerest gratitude for trying to do what other Kdrama writers have not done before. I am sure writing a 30 episodes fantasy kdrama was no easy task! I also want to tell them that I understand their sadness, disappointment, anger, and frustration when it came to not being able to tell the story they had initially planned. I definitely sensed all of these sentiments while watching Part 2. It is ok, Hong Sisters. I hope that in the future, the conditions will be right for you two to be able to tell the story you had intended.

For those who were super invested in AOS as I was, I know many were left completely disappointed by the way Part 2 ended. I was left feeling disheartened just because I had never gotten the ending for a Kdrama completely wrong before. Adding to this, my theories for Part 2 were almost completely wrong. I kept asking myself repeatedly how was it possible for me to get so many theories correct in Part 1, but not Part 2? While talking to my boyfriend the other night, he told me I should not be so hard on myself and that I really should be proud of the many theories I had gotten correct in Part 1. He also told me maybe it was not me or my analytical brain, but other external factors which may have contributed to why my theories were incorrect (i.e script changes, budget issues, etc). This was the moment when everything clicked in my head!

At the end of Part 1, I had thought Part 2 would be a continuation of Naksu's journey to discovering her true identity which was Jin Bu Yeon. However, this was where I made my first mistake. Part 2 was not a continuation of the her story. Rather it was a continuation of Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's story after she returned to her OG body (GYJ body) and died in Ep 1. This was why everything felt so soulless and unsatisfactory in Part 2.Do I think the Hong Sisters had intended for this to happen? No, not at all. This is why their writing in Part 2 paled in comparison to Part 1. The Hong Sisters' heart and soul were not in it when it came to writing Part 2. What they tried to do was make the best out of a really bad situation and they were really not happy about it.

Originally, they meant for Part 2 to be about Naksu discovering her true identity (Jin Bu Yeon), but a bunch of things happened behind the scenes which ultimately forced the Hong Sisters to completely rewrite Part 2. Just to be clear, the soul we followed in Part 1 was not the same soul shown in Part 2. They were two different souls. Part 1 was about Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's soul and Part 2 was Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul. For those who were rooting for Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's journey of self discovery, I would not bother watching Part 2 because her journey is currently in limbo.

And for those who have come here to argue with me by telling me I must be confused or lost, you can go elsewhere. No one is forcing you to read my post. I have proven time and again through my many correct theories for Part 1 that I did understand the Hong Sisters more so than most others.

Now for those who still want to stick around, good! Before we go down this rabbit hole, you all should be aware the events in Part 1 was still a soul switch not soul combination as others were led to believe in Part 2. I will explain more further down.

Anyways for those sticking around, it is time to put our thinking caps on! Time to analyze!

What Potentially Led To Part 2 Script Adjustments and FL Change?

Now, be aware that what I discuss here is highly speculative. So do not quote me or anything. This is just my impression and should not be taken as a matter of fact. Below is an AOS timeline. There may be some inaccuracies for the exact starting and ending date of Part 1 filming. However, everything else in red should be correct.

According to my Korean friend whose husband works in the Korean entertainment industry, the production budget is determined before filming starts and you are unable to request additional money later on. This means once the production budget is determined, the producers cannot exceed the initial budget. It works the same way in the US. Although in the US, exceptions can be made if a show or film holds great promise or if the producer is willing to receive less of their producer's fees.

Based on varying reports, the production cost for Part 1 (20 episodes) ranged from 35-40 billion won (28-32-million USD). For reference, the production cost for fantasy dramas like "Bulgasal" was around 31-40 billion won (25-32 million USD) for 16 episodes. From this, you can see the money for AOS was already stretched given there was a total of 20 episodes in Part 1. Something to point out is it is not clear whether the production budget was determined for all 30 episodes or broken up into two different production budgets (i.e 20 episodes and 10 episodes). I am thinking it was the former just because it would explain why the Hong Sisters had initially hired rookie actors/actresses over more seasoned actors/actresses. Rookies are usually paid less because they do not have as much experience in comparison to more senior actors/actresses. Therefore, by hiring rookies, they could save on money. Bear in mind this was a 30 episodes FANTASY drama so you have to save on money where you can so you can divert money towards CGI, set construction, costumes, larger filming crews, etc.

At the very beginning of AOS production there were a few very costly hiccups. Most notably, the OG FL rookie actress, Park Hae Eun, leaving at the very beginning of filming for Part 1. Luckily, the AOS production team managed to convince Jung So Min to play the FL role. Although this would eat into the production budget because Jung So Min was a seasoned actress, she would be able to give the show the stability it needed. And who knows, maybe the people who financed AOS would be more willing to provide additional money if the production team had hired a more seasoned actress.

I do want to point out that one of the production companies (High Quality; a CJ ENM subsidiary) left after Part 1. The reason for it is unknown. Was it because of this production company's departure that the AOS team were left unable to afford Jung So Min or was it because of Jung So Min's agency at the time did not allow her to sign onto Part 2 which led to High Quality's departure? I do not really know and can only speculate that it was the latter.

During the Part 1 press conference (June 14, 2022), the director said the Hong Sisters were currently working on Part 2 script (more like rewriting the entire script). Then on July 12th, rumors began to circulate the FL would be recasted for Part 2. Subsequently, Blossom Entertainment released the following two statements.

"We ask for your understanding that we arent able to tell you whether she'll be in part 2 or not because it would be a spoiler for Part 1." "She did not appear to get off, but originally signed a contract to appear in Part 1".

On August 2nd, it was announced Jung So Min would join a new agency. Following this announcement, AOS production team said on August 8th, there will be a one week hiatus "to enhance the level of completion for the second half" aka this means they needed time to edit Eps 17-20 so it could flow better with the narrative in Part 2. Who the hell knows what they had removed in those episodes. All I know is that Eps 18-19 felt weird.

Collectively, I think what ended up happening is that AOS production team was unable to get Jung So Min. They were forced to hire a rookie actress and not just any rookie actress, it had to be Go Youn Jung as to avoid even more controversy. This show did not need any more controversy. In turn, the Hong Sisters were forced to completely rewrite Part 2 while editing out things in Part 1.

If there is anyone to blame for the poor quality of Part 2, it's either Blossom or AOS production team and not the Hong Sisters nor Jung So Min herself. I am sure Jung So Min would have gladly sign onto Part 2 and taken a lesser fee, but was unable to because she was bound to whatever contract she signed with Blossom.

I am not even a screenwriter, but this just sounds super stressful. Like imagine if you had already planned to tell your story a certain way with the actress you want, but due to funding issues and actress availability, you had to completely rewrite your story in such a really short amount of time. The Hong Sisters were put in a difficult situation and were forced to make the best of it. Based on things were in Part 2, it seemed the Hong Sisters hated every minute of it. This was evident by the lack of pun filled and witty lines, double meanings, and tight writing. All the things that made Part 1 great and stereotypically Hong Sisters.

After reanalyzing everything from Part 2 and taking into consideration all the things that occurred outside of the show itself, I believe the Hong Sisters did manage to save the one character they intended to be the real star of this entire show which is Jin Bu Yeon/Naksu (meaning Naksu's real identity was Jin Bu Yeon). Continue reading below to see how the soul we saw in the majority of Part 2 was not Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon, but was actually Mu Deok/Cho Yeong, a soul I thought I though had gone back to her OG body and died.

Which Soul Did We See the Majority of Part 2?

Surprise surprise people..... it was "Mu Deok" whose real name was...drum roll please...Cho Yeong! Are you shocked? I mean this is what the majority of AOS fandom had been begging for during Part 1. Everyone was like OMG I want to know more about the real Mu Deok (because many thought she was the powerful Jin Bu Yeon lol) . And well, this is exactly what you got exactly in Part 2. As it turned out though, "Mu Deok" was really just Cho Yeong.... a damsel in distress who followed Jang Uk around like a lost puppy and a total superficial airhead. She was neither a powerful skillful mage nor a great shaman/divine priestess. Those qualities belonged to Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon who is currently a spirit lingering around waiting for Mu Deok/Cho Yeong to leave so she can finally have her own body, name, and face (JSM face) back.

A brief digression. In AOS where soul shifting is possible, names and their associated alternative names can get rather confusing when combined with bodies and souls. It is like do you call someone by their soul or body name? Imagine if my alternative name was "Honey" and my soul was in a body whose alternative name was "Biscuit". What would people call me? "Honey" or "Biscuit"? Well, people would just see your outside appearance and call you "Biscuit" even though you were "Honey". Then you find out the body's real name is “Sarah” and the name of the body you were previously in was “Taylor”. Essentially, this is what happened in AOS. In Part 1, the soul inside was called "Naksu" (alternative name) and she lived in a body whose alternative name was "Mu Deok". Everyone in Part 1, called that soul "Mu Deok" instead of "Naksu". People called that soul by a body name instead of the soul name. For me, I kept calling her by her soul alternative name which was "Naksu". As for the what Naksu's true identity was? I ended up figuring out back in Part 1 that her true soul identity was actually "Jin Bu Yeon". All that happened in Part 1 was that she had finally returned in her OG body (but did not know it yet) and was on the path to discovering her real identity which was Jin Bu Yeon (not "Cho Yeong" as many viewers were led to believe). In doing so, her soul, body, face, real name would have finally become one aka Naksu soul=Jin Bu Yeon soul back in her OG body (Jin Bu Yeon body) and finally being called by her real name "Jin Bu Yeon" with her real face (JSM face). This journey would have finally came to its conclusion in Part 2. However, this journey got sidetracked REAL QUICK because the story in Part 2 got switched to being about the real Mu Deok's soul journey to discovering she was "Cho Yeong".....the anger I feel right now. For everyone who felt duped and angry by Part 2, I want you all to know, your feelings were definitely valid. Just imagine being the Hong Sisters who were forced to write this....they were probably like 1000x more pissed because they had worked so hard in Part 1 to set up certain things up only to have it never fully being shown. In this aspect, I can totally relate to the Hong Sisters. After all, I did end up having to delete numerous pages of stuff I had worked really hard on because of shit like plagiarists.

Before I go any further, I want you all to understand that the soul in the picture to the left IS NOT THE SAME SOUL in the picture to the right. I know we cannot see souls so that is why I have placed different color hearts as a way to help you all see this and to understand things better. The left red heart is Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's soul and the right pink heart is Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul. Got it? If you do not understand this concept then you can simply exit out of this post because I am tired of explaining things repeatedly.

Now, recall that the Cho Yeong body (GYJ body) to the left was burnt and gone. The body to the right is the Jin Bu Yeon body (JSM body) except with the face of GYJ (think of this like a mask). The reason why it looks this way is because Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul/energy is inside Jin Bu Yeon's body and her energy is being used to help Jin Bu Yeon's body (JSM body) to heal. Therefore, this is why the Jin Bu Yeon body (JSM body) has the GYJ face. It is suppose to represent that the soul inside Jin Bu Yeon's body is not the same soul we followed back in Part 1.

So, why did Master Lee bring back such a useless soul (Mu Deok/Cho Yeong soul)? Well, in an indirect way he was trying to help Naksu (whose soul was lingering around) to move on and become who she was all along which was Jin Bu Yeon, a mage/shaman/divine priestess tribrid. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon could never realize her destiny nor regain her shaman/divine powers if she could not discard her old life as "Naksu". Side note, Master Lee could have easily brought back Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's soul (since he had mastered Hwansu)....but like I said earlier, Hong Sisters had to completely rewrite Part 2 to somehow fit the appearance of Go Youn Jung.

A scene I want to revisit is the following below. Master Lee mentions two names during these scenes, "Jin Bu Yeon" and "Naksu". Keep in mind, Master Lee likes to change names to suit whoever he is speaking with. Often, characters and viewers tend to misinterpret what he means. For example, Mama Jin thinks Mu Deok=Jin Bu Yeon and Naksu=Cho Yeong. However, Master Lee knows it is Naksu=Jin Bu Yeon and Mu Deok=Cho Yeong...but he does not tell Mama Jin this.

I know this can be confusing. Just every time you see Master Lee mentioning "Naksu", he means Mu Deok=Cho Yeong, but characters and viewers interpret this as meaning Naksu=Cho Yeong. Why does he do this? To keep everyone else in the dark about the real truth which is that before Naksu became Naksu, she was originally Jin Bu Yeon.

If we redid this dialogue to make it more understandable, it would go like this "Cho Yeong (Mu Deok) did not take over this body using the alchemy of souls. Her soul was actually locked up inside this body." This statement is true. Mu Deok/Cho Yeong did not perform the Alchemy of Souls spell. It was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon who did it back in Ep 1.

After Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon had performed the Alchemy of Souls spell (Ep 1) and returned to her OG body (JSM body), she left Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul to return to her now dead OG body (GYJ body). However, Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul did not move onto the afterlife. Instead, she remained next to Jang Uk as an invisible spirit because they were fated for each other and were a pair. Master Lee saw Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's spirit lingering next to Jang Uk and this is why he told Kim Do Joon as much back in Ep 13. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon subconsciously trapped Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul and fed off of it until she had regained her full divine powers. Nom nom nom...soul food. Why did Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon do this? Because she was a soul who was willing to do anything to survive and accomplish a goal.

I know many will ask me when exactly did Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon swap with Mu Deok/Cho Yeong? I believe it was during the boat inccident. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon had tried to destroy the Ice Stone, but she somehow inadvertently swapped hers and Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's souls. Although, I would not doubt it was Master Lee who did it given how during that scene in Ep 19, it looked like there was someone watching from the shore. We may never find out if it was Master Lee or Jin Bu Yeon herself who did the swap just because the AOS team did edit those episodes.

Going back to Mu Deok/Cho Yeong, what did Master Lee erase from her? He erased Cho Yeong's memories from when she was a child to adult living in Jin Bu Yeon's body as "Mu Deok", the girl from Sari. Why did he do that? So that she would be willing to accept Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's memories as her own and not run wild. Side note, I still think Master Lee is probably Mage/Shaman Choi Cheol because he of how he was able to erase Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's memories. Who's to say he was not the same person who erased Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's childhood memories and changed it so she thought her childhood memories were Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's memories?

Although Master Lee was the one who erased Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's memories, it was actually Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon (mage/shaman/divine priestess) who planted her own memories inside Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's head. As Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon was remembering her real childhood memories (Jin Bu Yeon childhood memories; shown off screen because Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon is an invisible spirit right now and AOS team could not show JSM as an astral projection because of other crap), she began to become gain back even more of shaman/divine priestess powers which included abilities like transmitting her memories and changing a soul's memories, opening portals, jumping in and out of her own body, etc. Why did Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon do this? To give back the life she took from Mu Deok/Cho Yeong. Y'all lets take a moment to appreciate how freaking selfless Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon really was!!

Jin Mu...The Man Who Finally Recognized Naksu's True Identity

Throughout this show, I had felt Jin Mu was a pretty useless character. However, the real purpose of his storyline was to reveal something pretty important to viewers. He was one of the selected few who finally realized Naksu's real identity was Jin Bu Yeon. Let's take a look at some of the scenes below. In Ep 22, Jin Mu is confused as to why the Naksu face was called Jin Bu Yeon. This was the Hong Sisters' subtle way to let viewers know that back in Ep 1, the soul that was in the body known as "Naksu" was Jin Bu Yeon not Cho Yeong.

In Ep 23, Jin Mu says that even though the girl has Naksu's face, her energy is different than from the Naksu he knew. What does this tell you? That the soul currently residing in that body with the "Naksu" face is not the same soul Jin Mu and viewers had knew back in Ep 1. Jin Mu thought he was raising Cho Yeong to become Naksu, but in reality he ended up raising Jin Bu Yeon who became Naksu except he did not know this until later on.

Now the the person who summoned Jang Uk and CP to Gwido was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's spirit. Recall from earlier, I did say that as Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon began to remember more of Jin Bu Yeon memories, the more divine powers she would have. Therefore, she was the one who opened the portal for Jang Uk and CP. Why did she do this? So they could come rescue the useless soul that is currently residing in her body aka Mu Deok/Cho Yeong.

The soul who entered that body after the wraiths scene was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. Before that moment, it was just Mu Deok/Cho Yeong soul. How do I know this? Because of the personality differences. The main difference between Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon and Mu Deok/Cho Yeong is that one soul fights back regardless if they are physically weak while the other soul runs, but does not fight back and waits for someone to save her. I do understand though that it can be difficult to differentiate between the real deal or just someone who has someone else's memories. Mu Deok/Cho Yeong deep down is like cotton candy while with Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon is like hellfire!

It was during the scene below that Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon regain nearly all of her Jin Bu Yeon childhood memories which allowed her to enter her own body once more to take revenge on Jin Mu. This is literally one of the most important scenes that many viewers had overlooked. Look at what Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon says to Jin Mu. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon (not Mu Deok/Cho Yeong) tells him about finding the Ice Stone when she was a child as Jin Bu Yeon and then she called him "Danju" to indicate to him she was also his assassin...Naksu! It was at this fucking moment that Jin Mu knew he fucked up. Jin Mu finally realized that the soul he groom to become "Naksu" was not Cho Yeong, but was actually Jin Bu Yeon. BOOM LOOK WHO IS RIGHT! Me! Small victories! Collectively, this scene proved that Naksu's real identity was Jin Bu Yeon, not "Cho Yeong"!

Why Did Neither Seo Yul Nor Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon Never Tell Jang Uk About the Divination Bells?

After exiting Gwido, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon (not Mu Deok/Cho Yeong) meets up with Seo Yul. At this point, best boy Seo Yul has finally figured out Naksu's real identity was Jin Bu Yeon and that the soul from earlier in Part 2 was just Mu Deok/Cho Yeong and not actually Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon herself. Seo Yul disclosed all of the information about the divination bells only to her because he knew he was talking to Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon now and not Mu Deok/Cho Yeong. Seo Yul thought one of the biggest reasons Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon did not want to stay is because she felt guilty for killing her own father (Jin Woo Tak) and ruining her sister's wedding. And Seo Yul did not want her to feel guilty since it really was not her fault.

He also tells her all of this because he wanted her to stay.

However, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon said regardless of whether or not it was her fault, she still did perform the Alchemy of Souls spell which allowed her to be controlled by Jin Mu in the first place. If that was discovered, people would also eventually find out that she did kill an innocent person (Mu Deok/Cho Yeong) since she had forced Mu Deok/Cho Yeong to return to her OG body (GYJ body) to die in Ep 1. Anyways, both Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon and Seo Yul decide to not tell Jang Uk about the bells because they do not want to burst Jang Uk’s bubble of ignorance lol. They will continue to let him think he is married to the soul from Part 1 so he can be happy.

This is the thing about Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. She wanted the people she cared about to always remember her as Jin Bu Yeon, a kind and beautiful soul and not as someone who committed terrible acts while she was Naksu (soul shifter through using soul ejectors/AOS spell, forcing an innocent soul to return to their OG body and die, killing her own father, ruining her sister's wedding, killing her lover, etc.). I know this is not what the Hong Sisters had intended to happen to Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon.....BUT THIS STILL HURTS Y'ALL. I still think originally everything was suppose to framed so that all the blamed would be placed on both Jin Mu and Jang Uk, but again crap happened behind the scenes so the Hong Sisters had to rewrite stuff so that all the blame was placed on Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon instead.

Another rant. It was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon who was suppose to get a happy ending not fucking Jang Uk. If Jang Uk had died (it would have added to his character growth arc), then Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon could have been reunited with her family and marry a man who truly loved her, Seo Yul. This could have acted as a connecting point to the past. A marriage between Seo Yul and Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's would have symbolized something that was suppose to happen 203 years ago between Seo Gyeong and Jin Seol Ran. And she would finally get to fucking shine with all of her immense powers!!!! The reason why characters like Seo Yul, Mama Jin, Jin Cho Yeon, and Park Dang Gu had their stories either pushed to the side or made to be a villain is because their development had depended a lot on Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's story which I mean did not really happen in Part 2. Like the events of AOS story started with a Seo and Jin being torn apart so it would have made more sense that the story ended with a Seo and Jin finally being together (coming full circle). Instead, it ended with Jang/Cho being together and Seo/Jin still separated?! K...tell me the logic in that.

Who Did Jang Uk Marry In Part 2?

That idiot ended up marrying Mu Deok aka Cho Yeong. He really did not recognize that the soul he had fell in love with in Part 1 was not the same soul he met and married in Part 2. This is a marriage of two idiots honestly. All the while, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon was an invisible spirit who had to witness this whole wedding...how painful is that?! Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon was unable to do anything except watch. This was almost as bad as when the Little Mermaid (non Disney version) had to watch the Prince marry the Princess and the Little Mermaid was helpless to stop it.

Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's Final Goodbye To Jang Uk

So who was Master Lee referring to when he said "her"? He was referring to Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. What Master Lee meant was that he hoped Jang Uk and Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's love for each other would reach Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. And well, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon received that message loud and clear because she used her divine powers to summon Jang Uk through the yin and yang jade.

This was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's final attempt to get Jang Uk to recognize her. She allowed him to see her true self which is Jin Bu Yeon. And did he understand what she was communicating? Hell no. So then Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon went back into her body to literally spell it out for Jang Uk and motherfucker still did not understand. It was during this time that Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon finally realized that she and Jang Uk were never meant to be together from the start. It was really Mu Deok/Cho Yeong and Jang Uk who were meant to be together. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon severed this fate when she swapped back into her OG body (JSM body) and left the Mu Deok/Cho Yeong soul to swap back into her OG body (GYJ body) and die.

Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon tells Jang Uk he truly did not recognize her which is true. Jang Uk still thought she was Naksu as in Cho Yeong hence why he mentioned she killed him to avenge her father, Cho Chung. In reality, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's real father was Jin Woo Tak. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon chose to not tell Jang Uk about the bells because it would be futile. Jang Uk would have never believed she was Jin Bu Yeon regardless of what she showed or told him.

Jang Uk was seriously a lost cause. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon allowed him to see the innermost part of her soul AND HE STILL DID NOT FREAKING GET IT. What an idiot. Literally...how could he not tell the difference between the real soul and a soul who has someone else's memories. Good riddance Jang Uk, you truly did not deserve Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon to begin with. After witnessing how everything unfolded, Naksu chose to finally let go of Jang Uk so she could go on to becoming someone greater...her real authentic self....Jin Bu Yeon.

Naksu Finally Emerging as Her True Self..Jin Bu Yeon.. The Phoenix

Cue the entrance of Naksu now Jin Bu Yeon. The metaphorical egg had cracked wide open to reveal Jin Bu Yeon, the Phoenix. And next to Jin Bu Yeon is none other than loyal Seo Yul (the real man who saw Naksu for who she truly was....Jin Bu Yeon...a divine goddess). These scenes below of Seo Yul and Jin Bu Yeon are a call back to Seo Gyeong and Jin Seol Ran. The OG fated lovers and pair before there was ever a Jang Uk and Cho Yeong. Two pure souls reunited! Side note, for continuity purposes, they should have had Jung So Min during these crucial last few scenes.

If you noticed in Ep 7, Jin Seol Ran was always in the light while Seo Gyeong remained in the shadows. And this theme is depicted once again in EP 30 through Seo Yul's dark colored clothing and Jin Bu Yeon's light colored clothing. Jin Seol Ran had a lot of darkness in her, but Seo Gyeong embraced it all so she could shine like the bright star she was. And for Jin Seol Ran, Seo Gyeong was her light in the darkness.

Seo Yul stuck by Jin Bu Yeon's side until the very end. You will also notice that during the following scenes below, Jin Bu Yeon did not directly talk to the other characters. Rather, it was Seo Yul who was the one communicating her thoughts for her to the others. It makes me wonder if one of Jin Bu Yeon's divine powers was telepathy.

Now, let's take a moment to appreciate Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. This girl had to endure so much pain and sadness and in the end, she saved all of her friends as well as all of Daeho. And no one with the exception of Master Lee and Seo Yul, would have known any better. Side note, they could have included Jung So Min without the blindfold to show that the soul from Part 1 was the one who saved everyone, but like I said earlier….there were problems behind the scenes. Anyways, I will say it again....NAKSU/JIN BU YEON DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS!!!!! Once Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon remembered all of her memories (JBY childhood memories) and let go of her past life/pain/resentment, her energy changed from pink to white, symbolizing purity. Additionally, her powers could be glowing white because when she was Naksu, her powers did glow white, symbolizing mage powers. Point being, we got to see her mage and divine powers combined. I AM NOT CRYING RIGHT NOW...BUT REALLY I AM BAWLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hong Sisters if you are reading this (and I hope you are since I sent you a link to blog since early August), please have Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon come back for a Part 3. This time please have Jung So Min play her!!!

Naksu now Jin Bu Yeon's Final Gift to Jang Uk

So what was Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's final gift to the man who did not recognize nor really love her? The useless freaking idiot, Mu Deok/Cho Yeong, who could only see energy. Contrary to what Cho Yeong said, she does not have any other divine powers other than seeing energy. Meaning, she would not be able to cast spells nor Chisu, Tansu, or whatever else. The reason why Mu Deok/Cho Yeong would be unable to perform any divine acts of magic is because Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon only gave her the memories. Additionally, Mu Deok/Cho Yeong's soul is not a divine soul thus it does not have any divine powers whatsoever. If push came to shove, she would be flailing around screaming for Jang Uk to come save her.

Despite having Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's memories, some things could not properly be translated into Mu Deok/Cho Yeong such as the qualities which made Naksu/JIn Bu Yeon a truly unique soul (independence, motivation, ambition, fierceness, bravery, self sacrificing, etc). Mu Deok/Cho Yeong is like imitation crab meat of the real deal (Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon). As for Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's sword, she does not deserve it because she is not Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. She is just Mu Deok/Cho Yeong....a plain, stupid, superficial, foolishly kind, weak, and helpless soul. Additionally, did anyone notice how Mu Deok/Cho Yeong wore her hair in that ponytail hairstyle? This was similar to how she wore it as a child. In Part 1, Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon had ended up wearing her hair in a similar style as when she was a child (hair down with side braids).

If and when her and Jang Uk have kids, they would probably be powerless kids. Why? Because the King Star energy does not transfer to their offsprings. If it had, Seo Yul would have the King Star energy given that he is a descendant of the first King Star, Seo Gyeong. When it comes to Cho Yeong, she only has Cho clan energy so maybe at best their child would reach Chisu? Then again, their kids would have very lazy parents so maybe they would never ever make anything of themselves.

So yea...these two superficial and immature souls are definitely a match made in heaven! They were able to get the life they got due to others' hard work and sacrifice. And the truly sad part in all of this, is that they did not even realize it. Ignorance is bliss. That is the dark side to the seemingly bright "happy ending" of Alchemy of Souls Part 2.

Who Knew Naksu Was Really Jin Bu Yeon?

Not many. Literally there are only two people left alive who knows the real truth about Naksu and those people are feigning ignorance so that everyone else can heal and move on. The only reason why Jin Mu and Seo Yul knew the truth was because they had known Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon the longest in comparison to other characters. And Seo Yul had met Jin Bu Yeon before she even became “Naksu” in Danhyanggot.

Those who knew the real truth which is Naksu's soul=Jin Bu Yeon's soul:

Master Lee

Seo Yul

Jin Mu (right before he had the empty Ice Stone placed inside of him)

Those who think Naksu's soul=Cho Yeong's soul:

Mama Jin

Jang Uk

Those who think Jin Bu Yeon is just Jin Bu Yeon:

CP/The King

Park Jin

Kim Do Joon

Park Dang Gu

Heo Yun Ok

Jin Cho Yeon

What Happened to Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's Soul Afterwards?

Either she is in hibernation in her own body or lingering as a spirit next to her fated other half (Seo Yul) or back in the Ice Stone waiting to come out again. Do I think she is completely gone? Hell to the NO. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon is a survivor and a divine soul. She also still has unfinished business to attend to which is to destroy the Ice Stone. Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon should pluck out that damn Ice Stone out of Jang Uk’s chest. I will be patiently awaiting for that moment as well as when she retakes her sword!

And let's be real here, Mu Deok/Cho Yeong neither has the galls nor the powers to remove the Ice Stone out of Jang Uk's chest. That much is apparent. She does not have what it takes to do what is necessary for the greater good.

Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon also has the power of Hwansu (method of coming back to life..I just think of it as reaching nirvana or a full enlightenment). Meaning she could if she ever wanted to, float into a dead body. The Hong Sisters could then have that dead body have the face of Jin Bu Yeon (JSM) as to indicate the soul inside is Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. I mean that's the logic they used with the GYJ face anyways.

Let’s review all the things Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon managed to accomplish while she was around:

1. Discovered her real identity 2. Punished the man who ruined her life 3. Avenged her father 4. Gave her former lover someone else to love 5. Gave the soul whose life she stole a second chance filled with love, family, and friends....NO BUT REALLY FUCK MU DEOK/CHO YEONG. 6. Leave her real name untarnished by her horrible past

7. Save all of fucking Daeho because let’s be real here, without Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon and her divine powers, Jang Uk would have never been able to wake up big bird himself.

FUCKING PROUD OF YOU NAKSU/JIN BU YEON!! YOU ARE A BADASS BIRDY!!

Final Thoughts on Part 2

I am brain dead. It has been an emotional roller coaster. Was Part 2 worth watching? No. Was it the Hong Sisters' best work? Hell nah. Did the Hong Sisters want you to love Part 2? Hell no they did not. I will say though, they could have express their frustrations in other ways rather than taking it out on some female characters. Although I get it haha. They had planned for Jang Uk to either die or marry Heo Yun Ok and since that did not get to happen, they made her into a petty bitch. And with Soi...do you guys know what her story ended beautifully? It was because her character's story had paralleled Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon's story. Meaning that Naksu had grew up in a dark filthy world and the only brightness she ever saw was when Seo Yul had visited her in Danhyanggot. Also, with the whole foresight thing and the firebird situation…..umm if Jin Seol Ran had foreseen this a long time ago, why did she not have Seo Gyeong destroy the firebird back then? Furthermore, if Jin Bu Yeon was Jin Seol Ran with the gift of foresight, why would she allow herself to be used by Jin Mu to find the Ice Stone in the first place? I smell lies haha. Maybe Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon and Master Lee had worked together to deceive others with their goal being to help others to move on from Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon. Therefore, maybe Jin Bu Yeon was just Jin Bu Yeon and not a reincarnation of Jin Seol Ran. The Hong Sisters had done something similar in Hotel Del Luna. For example, the old lady deity had tricked Man Wol into believing Chan Sang was the reincarnation of Chung Myung when in fact he was not. Therefore, I would not put it pass the Hong Sisters to not pull the same trick again in AOS.

Potential for Part 3?

Hong Sisters, if you're reading this, since you used some stuff from my blog, might I suggest some titles for Part 3? How about "Alchemy of Souls: Reincarnation" or "Alchemy of Souls: Resurrection"?

Now I do not want to get your hopes up, but I really do feel there is a lot of potential for a Part 3 plot wise. However, this is wholly dependent on certain factors such as actor/actresses schedule availability and funding. The Hong Sisters would not have to do much in terms of writing other than some minor tweaks. I think they would still want to tell the story they had worked so hard on in the first place. Alchemy of Souls was suppose to be the pinnacle of the Hong Sister's career as kdrama writers but it ended up crashing into flames. I can only imagine the disappointment they must have felt to see their story ending this way.

Maybe one of the reasons the Hong Sisters had left some major plot holes is because they are hoping to eventually produce a Part 3. For example, the Ice Stone in Jang Uk's chest or the unoccupied leader positions of Cheonbugwan and Seoho Fortress. Sure, some would say their other dramas had some plot holes, but I would argue and say those dramas only had at most 3-4 minor plot holes. While in Part 2, there were so many major plot holes that if this were a boat, the boat would have already sank within one second of being in the waters.

How could things go if Part 3 were to happen? Well, it could start with Jang Uk's death. Sorry to all of those who were hoping to see more Jang Uk. I have been done with his stupid ass of a character since Part 1. Anyways, through his death, the Ice Stone would be used to fuel Jin Bu Yeon/Naksu's resurrection. As for Mu Deok/Cho Yeong since she is his shadow, her soul can leave with him too. Since the Ice Stone is back in the world, a new King Star should also rise to destroy the Ice Stone once and for all. Although the King Star isn't so much new, but more like old haha.

Building off of the logic of how fated lovers are always born in pairs, it would not be farfetched to think that when Jin Bu Yeon (the reincarnation of Jin Seol Ran) was born, her other half Seo Gyeong was also born/reincarnated too. And who might that be? Seo Yul. Part 3 could be about how after Jin Bu Yeon is revived, she could help Seo Yul to remember his Seo Gyeong memories which could enable him to have his King Star powers again. In doing so, it would explain why Seo Yul had coincidentally ran into Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon in Danyanggot of all places as well as why he kept having weird visions throughout Parts 1 and 2. Seo Yul also seemed to be a real old soul from an early age just like Jin Bu Yeon was. Something random is Seo Yul's final outfit in Part 2, they were nearly the same colors of Jin Bu Yeon's outfit when she was performing the firebird awakening ritual. Could it be that Jin Bu Yeon gave Seo Yul his Seo Gyeong memories back and this is why he decided to take over the Songrim position? Hmmmm.

So why would these two need to be at their best? To stop whoever or whatever enemy the Seo's were fighting along the borders. Maybe the enemies at Seoho Fortress are like the equivalent of Ice Walkers from Game of Thrones who are controlled by the ruler of the country next to Daeho. This would require a group effort from all the other characters like Jin Cho Yeon, Park Dang Gu, the King (sorry I still want to call him CP), and whoever the new leader of Cheonbugwan is. And we would finally get to see Jin Bu Yeon at her finest in action....a mage/shaman/divine priestess tribrid fighting the enemies to the west of the Daeho. And there could more scenes of Park Danggu being a bad ass archer and Jin Cho Yeon using the relics to assist in the fight against the enemies along the border. Somewhere in between all of that craziness, it’ll be great to see Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon having some much needed sister time with Jin Cho Yeon. She could even help babysit Dan and Gang haha.

Also, it’ll be great to have a scene with Naksu/Jin Bu Yeon Chisu her way to the top of the tree and see the moon (she said in P1 how she used to love going up the tree to look at the moon). Seo Yul can Chisu his way up there too and join her haha. With regards to the relics in Jinyowon, they could further explain why Seo Gyeong and Jin Seol Ran had created all these relics in the first place. I mean there was a mirror of longing, binding bracelet, fluffy, Gwiseo, and other countless relics. In Ep 7, they said the relics were created with sorcery….so did Seo Gyeong and Jin Seol Ran dabble in the dark arts or something? Why didn’t they destroy the relics in the first place if they knew they were dangerous? And remember Master Lee? They could even introduce the plot twist that he was really Master Choi Cheol, the first mage to perform the Alchemy of Souls and how he never really died inside of Gwido as many had thought.

And at the end of this long journey, Jin Bu Yeon/Jin Seol Ran would finally be reunited with her family and married to a man (Seo Yul/Seo Gyeong) who was as pure and kind as she was . A match some 200 years in the making! NOW THAT WOULD MAKE FOR AN EPIC ROMANCE.

OK THAT IS ALL I GOT OUT OF ME!! If you have any more questions, I will be more than happy to answer them. I am sure I have forgotten to talk about some things! Oh well!

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guess-whos-back · 1 year ago

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Let me preface this by saying, I LOVE BARBIE. I’ve loved Barbie for a long time and she is a quintessential part of my child hood. The first website I learned to go to was barbie.com, I learned how to sew to make my barbie little outfits out of scraps, my sister and I have had our own running plot with our barbies, and to me she has always been a symbol of confidence, femininity and fun.

So it is sad for me to say that I didnt really enjoy the Barbie movie. I thought the sets, sounds, acting was great! But i thought the plot was a cacophony of mixed messages. The story when examined in parts was good but made no sense as a whole narrative. Like did we address at all about the concerns America Ferrera’s daughter raised in the cafeteria about the current image of Barbie, we never had Ken apologise for taking over Barbie’s house and world, is this what we want young women to see, that its okay for a guy to take everything you love and then you apologise for making him feel insecure.

The best scene imo was the scene with the older lady and Barbie at the bus stop and barbie calling her beautiful was made pointless coz literally 20 mins later shes on the floor saying she’s the stereotypical barbie she has no skills and only her looks. The monologues to break the brainwashing were almost comical coz they felt very feminism 101 and a bad explanation of how they had no immunity to the brainwashing because they had never experienced it was stupid. And as a solution instead of showing any nuance on how patriarchy hurts not only women but men too and that we should always aspire for equality in the Barbie world we end with a weird supposed “mirror” image of our world where the Ken’s have to occupy lower level positions and maybe they’ll work their way up, what kinda message is that!?

And to top it all off, the ending after we’ve had barbie just come to terms with who she is and what she wants to do (ie be in the human world) instead of showing her going to do some work to rehabilitate her image for the younger audience who are maybe disenfranchised, no we end on a fucking gynaecologist joke.

tldr really good in parts but as a whole every movie in the animated Barbie cinematic universe has a better plot than this one

#barbie #My posts #barbie movie #spoilers #barbie movie spoilers #i really did want to like this movie

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riding-palominos-every-day · 1 year ago

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Okay so i saw one of your posts earlier about problems with wheelchair/disability accessible entrances and I was reading a bunch of people's comments on how they've had issues and it made me feel upset on your behalf because we should do better. People shouldn't have to worry whether they can get somewhere or if the bathroom is out of order or the stpid button hasnt been fixed and apparently no one has done anything about it or various other things And i thought id ask is there anything more that I as an individual can do? I try to listen to what people say they need and give them space if desired. I am definitely gonna start trying to pay more attention about possible issues and bring it to the people in charges attention, but that seems like not enough? No pressure absolutely cuz obviously you can't know what every person might need or want and it's not fair to ask that of someone I just thought you might have general suggestions or things that you have wished people did/said/knew?

For context this is the post: https://www.tumblr.com/whistlingstarlight/721296650605330432?source=share

Ok I've been unsure on how to answer this for a while but I think it's a very important thing to talk about

To preface I myself am not a wheelchair user, I reblogged that in solidarity with wheelchair users because I think it's an important issue. I'm not going to even try and speak for wheelchair users because it's not my place (however if anyone with experience has input please please please don't hesitate to share! I want this to be as informative as possible)

I use crutches when needed, and whilst I'm fully aware it's not the same thing I have also experienced issues regarding accessibility features. I do not want to speak for others, so I can only speak from personal experience.

Personally, I'd say that asking people if they need/want help is the best thing you can do. Most of the time I only need to use one crutch, but it's held in my dominant hand so even then it's a bit of a hassle. Holding the door open or offering a space in the priority seating on the bus can be very helpful.

And sometimes, it's all you can do. For example, my workplace claims to be disability-accessible. It's not. The door to the disability-access toilet slides open, but the door to get through to the toilets is a manual push/pull door, and quite a heavy one at that. So if you were in a wheelchair and needed the loo, even if you could manage the sliding door to the cubicle it would still be a hassle actually getting to or from the toilets. Also there's only really one table that's easily accessible, the aisles are very narrow.

So I think the safest answer I can give is: don't assume people automatically need help just because they're disabled, but you can politely offer help where it looks like it could be needed. Don't assume you know better than them, they know their own body and what they can and can't do.

Again, if anyone else wants to give their input please do so!

#thank you for this ask anon #it's a very important topic #disability access #disability #anon #asks

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yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit · 5 months ago

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So I am sitting here and having thoughts about how budgeting time/energy with a disability is a lot like budgeting money on welfare or a minimum wage part time job.

I'll preface this by saying: I have always had a kind of issue where I'm way more self-aware about really mundane things than anyone is willing to believe of someone who looks like a young woman and sounds like a 5 year old girl. And I am... off baseline, a little weird, my flags are beige and shrimp coloured. So when I assert that something is true about myself or my life, I get a lot of push back that's like "oh sweaty, everyone does that tho, which means you too." or "No one is really actually self aware about that kind of thing." or "You must not actually be doing things as strictly as you -think- you are." Right? And we'll get into an example here in a minute...

But I also like self-experimentation. You learn a lot testing things out for yourself. I'm never afraid to put my money where my mouth is and actually try something, even if I know it won't work, so I can document exactly how and why it's failing. I'd say I am open to surprised, but... and don't hate me for this... I am never generally surprised.

So back when I was working my first job, my second job, and later on welfare while disability faffed around... I'd get a lot of people trying to give me "budgeting advice" and I would be like "Actually, my money is going where it has to go, and 'budgeting' won't change anything"... and they'd give me one of those "Oh sweaty..." replies and shake their heads to themselves about me being self-destructively deluded.

So for years I kept a notebook of all the money I had coming in, and everything I spent it on, and how much went to savings. And every month I would get money, pay my rent, buy some food, pay for really basic necessities like soap or shampoo, very cheap and occasional makeup when I wore any [that I would use till it was gone regardless of expiry dates]... Any clothing I actually needed for work or practical reasons, and very occasional other misc things like crafting supplies or whatever, the bus if I needed it... And every month I would come in WAY under what they told me I should be spending, and the rest went to savings.

Because the amount they lay out for every person to spend on things like transportation, eating out, entertainment, makeup and that sort of thing is just money I was never spending. Even when I got comfortable buying books, media and art supplies, I was just never going to spend as much on that as most people my age were going to spend on makeup, clothes, fancy products, switching out their home decor, impulse shopping, taxis, fast food, movies, etc and so on.

So all the advice that when you keep a budget you see where you are spending money that you just don't have to and can cut back to have the things you really value... Didn't apply to me. Just as I was originally asserting, and yet until I had bank statements, I kept a monthly record of spending for just utter ages to prove that point on paper if anyone ever asked about it, because they did, because I was poor.

If anything, keeping track of things like that made me occasionally spend more, because I could see how "good" I just naturally was with money and how much it was defying expectations. Through my 20's I spent way more on art supplies than I otherwise would have because it was my only expense and around disabilities I had some free time on my hands.

But now, without a credit card for shopping online, even before the plague that was all of my extraneous spending. I have thrifted my clothes locally for my whole life 80% of the time or more because I just do not have a construct in my head about "new" clothes having more value or meaning anything. I disinfect my makeup with 70-90% alcohol and apply it using methods that avoid contaminating the container, so until the formula breaks down from age...? Also I stopped wearing makeup for gender reasons. I can't eat out at all anymore due to plague and food allergy reasons. I have never really enjoyed going to theaters that was something I did to have a social life. I have never gone to a club [a strip club once], I have been to a bar like 3 times [I grew up in one, my mom was a bar tender, waitress, and occasional bouncer her whole career].

And usually, when I want something nice, its cheaper and more engaging to make it for myself. I'm picky, I get to have what I want that way.

So in a post plaguapocalypse world, with no credit card to my name and none I can use for shopping online, where I can't even go out for coffee without it being added risk I don't need? I'm right back to spending like I did when my budget was 200$. I buy food, I buy little treats, I buy stuff I need at the hardware store when I need it, I buy soaps or whatever, no makeup, no new clothes I have clothes already, no going out, I walk everywhere due to plague reasons...

My bank statement looks like, 28th-ish onward: Get Chob, Get pension, Get tax money, pay rent, pay phone bill, pay internet bill, buy groceries, put rest in savings.

Every 3-4 ish months there's the added items of: Get more tax money, get random supplies at Walmart and the dollar store or hardware store, buy 100$ of alcohol mostly for mouth sanitizing.

Once a year: Top up account I use for buying things online from people who take paypal not backed by credit [currently buying games when they go on dirt cheap on steam], maybe buy a birthday present for myself?? Or seasonal treats? In the fall I do groceries for all winter, but then all winter I put everything into savings after my bills are paid.

I also don't buy gifts -or supplies to make gifts- for other people anymore because I have no friends and stopped talking to my mom :/

And most pre-prepared foods even from the grocery store have stuff in them I can't have due to MCS or allergies. Or they have too much iodine or whatever.

So my worker thought I might be doing a fraud when I started asking about what kinds of savings I am allowed to have, because we are in an economic crisis and the amount you get on a disability pension should not, by any means, be enough for a basic quality of life, let alone to save up, and my rent is 1000$... I asked about having an RDSP vs an LDSP and because I was able to save money at all she started grilling me about whether I had a job I wasn't reporting or other income and then insisted that in order to answer my general questions at all she needed a year of all my bank statement so she could "see what I was talking about"... When the question was whether an RDSP was exempt from the asset limit [it's not, apparently] and whether I had to claim the interest on my savings account as income [you don't]. Answering these questions did NOT -in fact- require bank statements, but I am starting to see why no one wants to ask questions.

I mean, think about that for a second, we are being given so little compared to the cost of living that our workers think it should be entirely impossible to save up any money at all, or to financially plan for the future, without doing fraud. Even asking questions gets you audited. But that's slightly off-topic.

And it isn't something I am doing because I think I don't deserve nice things, or out of some sense of moral obligation... I just don't -enjoy- going out, and have little interest in the clothes and makeup or fancy products that are available. I am easily overstimulated and smells bother me and I like to sit alone at home and build something, or create something digital or do a little craft, have some damn crops in the ground somewhere that I have the outdoor space to tend to preferably so I can eat fresh veggies.

And I resist spending any money I saved up on things like fancy furniture because I am trying to have enough to live in a house... But I could probably stand to start replacing my furniture [Now is the worst time to do it though so I think I will wait till the cost of real wood comes down]... I'm just easily satisfied and particular, peculiar, and not very social and I 0% buy into constructs that would compel me to feel like I "need" makeup, or clothes or body products etc... Also I am not trying to attract anyone, and advertisements don't really work on me. My autistic gay swag insulates me from spending money.

And I had a perfectly good sense of this when I was a teen, and then later when I was in my 20s. I heard the way other people talked about spending money and things they "needed" and I knew that wasn't me.

And as far as money on crafting supplies goes... Everyone needs a hobby and that is part of a basic quality of life. It's cheaper than going out. I don't take vacations or have a car, etc... I don't date.

And if you were ever at my side while I bought some new clothes or spent on something I didn't have to or that you couldn't understand the necessity in, there is a very good chance it's because spending money/shopping is a 'social activity', I had wanted/needed those things for a while anyway, or I had a craft in mind for them, and I did that with you there instead of spending money "going out", and I never actually spend that way when I am alone, you just happened to take me physically to a place to buy things that I don't normally bother going to on my own. I have -had, anyway- a very limited social circle and wasn't going back there with anyone else either.

So you might ask "why don't you have mad savings then!" Well, 1. I keep being forced to move by circumstances, 2. I keep having to pick up the slack in various ways and with various supplies for roommates, or having to support someone other than myself, 3. I keep picking up the slack on bills for roommates and family members, 4. having your life turned upside down by bad relationships and bad roomies on a constant basis is generally expensive, 5. The cost of living is utterly balls to the wall out of line and I am on a pension, 6. Not for nothing, but there are things you buy when disabled that you wouldn't otherwise need to get or maintain, like canes, carts, shower chairs, etc... and 7. I do, actually, once again, have quite decent savings, despite it all.

And I want to stipulate again, I do not think it is HUMANE to expect other people to be like this, no matter how poor or disabled, if this is not their natural inclination.

So, I'll say again: The money is going where it needs to go, and nowhere else, and budgeting does nothing, for me personally, because there isn't anything that I could possibly make myself more self-aware about.

Maybe that's different for 99.9% of people! I encourage other people to not only have a budget, but keep track of what they -actually- spent on! It's good practice! I did it for years! The worst you find out is that you don't need it! Or that you did IG...

But the thing is, when you have a very limited resource, and set things it HAS to go towards with no exception, and either no room in the budget for anything else, or no interest in anything else... The resource goes where it needs to go and that's it. Writing it out on paper changes nothing.

That's true of the poor who spend all their money on food and bills.

That's true of the disabled who spend all their time and energy on just maintaining their environment and whatever limited hobbies they need to stay sane [or at least functional].

The only time a planner or bullet journal help me is when I have enough energy/constitution to be doing more than the bare minimum of maintenance and cleaning, or when I at least don't have to spend all my extra energy on extra organizing because of another move.

And that's the hard truth of time management for some disabled people, even those of us who also happen to have adhd or autism... Basically, what needs to get done is going to get done and nothing else, and writing it down doesn't necessarily change anything.

Some of use will benefit from "time budgeting" some of us just won't. I encourage you to experiment with time management methods because if you find something that does help you, it tends to unburden your whole life a little... I benefit from a really scratchy bullet journal when I actually have some energy and good health to spread around.

But I find that a lot of able bodied people, and even otherwise abled ahdhers or autistics have it in their heads that disabled people -or otherwise disabled people- lack time and energy in a day because they aren't being aware enough of how they are spending it, or aren't managing the symptoms of adhd+ as well as they could be, like it's 'just' unmanaged time-blindness or something... And they just straight up overlook that management isn't always the issue, a lack of energy or physical health sometimes is, and that -yes- some people are perfectly self-aware about how their time and energy is being spent, even with adhd.

Sometimes when you stack physical disabilities on top of neurodivergence, it renders some neurological symptoms 100% beside the point. If depression is making me feel tired and not like cleaning sometimes, it doesn't really matter if I am gauging whether I clean by how physically hard it is to move my limbs without pain, and gratefully rushing to clean my house whenever I can without it feeling like I am damaging my own body by doing it, for example.

This also goes for this weird new brand of aggression I keep seeing where some ADHDers seem to think that people in my position are talking about time management or "time blindness" issues like it's 'some unique thing that only we personally experience' "oh silly you" when actually we are describing how our OTHER DISABILITIES -do- Uniquely pile on top of time-blindness or actively make time blindness irrelevant. Me not being aware of how long it takes to shower and get ready genuinely doesn't impact anything or fucking matter, when it takes me 2-12 TIMES longer than everyone else to do those things, randomly, by no predictable pattern or schedule, because of my other disabilities. Not being aware of how long it "should" take to walk somewhere doesn't ever matter when it genuinely DOES take you up to 2 hours to walk there. You have to set that 2 hours aside for it regardless of whatever effort you could theoretically put into timing yourself or constructing better "time awareness". I might have time blindness but I also have "genuinely takes me 12 times longer to do everything" disorder [chronic fatigue, and 7 or more other physical disabilities].

I don't think I am uniquely experiencing time blindness, I think you are overlooking how it impacts someone's planning when an appointment and recovering from it GENUINELY DOES take up the whole day, even when that is the only thing they are doing and they are being perfectly efficient about it.

The thing is, keep track of it on paper or not, I am going to get through what I get through and the rest just isn't getting done yet. Budgeting the time I have in a day is a lot like budgeting for having 200$ left after bills. I shouldn't -have- to show my work on paper endlessly for anyone to believe me, or believe I know myself and my own life.

Sometimes operating at 100% efficiency and inhuman effectiveness with disability or poverty looks like you are only half-assing everything.

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eienoah · 6 months ago

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May 24 - Kinkakuji

Today was an even shorter day compared to two days ago. We woke up kind of early. I think I can’t even remember all that well to be honest. I ended up taking a nap at around four till about eight thirty so I’m already forgetting some of the stuff we did today. Anyways, we visited Kinkakuji this morning on our first full bus expedition of the trip and probably our last. Taking a bus is actually a lot more convenient than trains in my opinion just because of the flat fare and how little people were actually on them. Anyways, we got to Kinkakuji relatively early but it still had plenty of people walking all around. There were so many tourists gathered to see it that the whole corridor for walking was pretty much full. The temple was cool but it felt almost more yellow than gold. I was talking to our guide who was explaining to me about how there was a different temple called Ginkakuji or the silver pavilion. I honestly would rather go see that just because I like places with less people and the sheer amount of tourists was crazy today. I stopped midway through the walk to buy a hello kitty charm and by the time I looked up everyone was gone. I had to essentially run through the place to catch up to everyone but it took a good ten minutes to find someone. Me and our guide got stuck talking to some foreigners about the ice cream vending machines but I think they thought I lived in Japan my whole life because they were asking me what Japan was like pre covid. After Kinkakuji was Daitokuji which was only a 20 minute walk away. It was complete opposites to Kinkakuji in the amount of people. I saw about 6 tourists throughout the whole thing and it was amazing. We got an explanation on some of the sekitei or rock gardens and got to sit and meditate for a while. It was amazing. I just wish I wasn’t coughing as much as I was today otherwise I would’ve had a better time. After we broke for the day the usual group headed to a place called The Burger which gave us all a little taste of home. I got an Oklahoma style burger which I’ve been craving for the past week. The whole restaurant was Texas/Vegas themed which was really funny to see in Japan but it was pretty good so I was super content. After getting back to the hotel via bus I promptly took a quick shower and passed out for one of the best naps I have taken in a long while and I’m about to go right back to bed now.

Academic connection

Learning about the burning and restoration of Kinkakuji had my expectations more gravitated towards a more slightly broken image in my head. In all reality the restoration was seamless and looked amazing. I would have never been able to tell the building had burned down had I not read about it. It was kind of astounding thinking of the context that the building had as a preface. It really did seem to draw people in with its lustrous golden figure which was a sight to behold on its own. I could see how it could even go to drive some crazy. Past that we see Daitokuji which is known for its sekitei and elements of zen buddhism. The sekitei were wonderful to see and the guide lady told us what each little garden was trying to express. My favorite was a piece that she completely skipped over which was a little rock fashioned almost in the shape of a bowl that was holding water. There were bugs that would occasionally pass by and land for a sip of water or something but it was interesting to say the least. The gardens felt incredibly peaceful especially in the time when everyone was just not speaking. There was also a little part of the tour where the guide was explaining what I think was a poem to us which expressed kanji in a way I have never seen before. Buddhist teachings really can be clever with their expressions.

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frozenjokes · 11 months ago

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To Keep // 2

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cw: brief mention of suicide attempt in Encounter 2 - Addition

Encounter One

A note from future Cub: Despite Scar and the vex sharing his body being separate entities, for simplicity, both will be referred to as Scar in these entries.

It took a week of searching before I caught a trace of his magic. It wasn’t a surprise no one else had found him in the couple of days before the beginning of the tenth season; when it came to vex, no one has the experience I do. Scar was careful. I suspect he either has limited access to his power, or that he uses it sparingly; only to cover his tracks. Even after a whole month, he seems to be extremely diligent in leaving little to no trace of his presence on the island. I did not know him well enough before to know if this behavior is typical of Scar or if he is being influenced by the vex. However, it should be noted that his former crew talk about him as if he was reckless, unlike now.

I spent quite a while following whatever trace of Scar I could find. It seemed like he spent a lot of his early days traveling, though he never wanders too close to the island’s edges. Maybe he’s afraid of being spotted by passing ships? Seems a bit irrational, but to each their own. Regardless, he seemed to settle eventually, as evidenced by the magic traces becoming more and more common. Though, I didn’t get the chance to actually see where he had camped out before being attacked and killed.

Now, maybe it was stupid of me to not be more careful. Scar clearly did not want to be found, but I suppose I didn’t realize how defensive he would be. I will be more careful in the future. To be honest, I’m very disappointed I didn’t even get to see him. However, I didn’t learn nothing.

Given that our contact was so short, it was difficult to know for sure, but I believe Scar could touch me. I expected him to use a weapon if he did attack, but after a lot of thought, I believe I was bitten. Scar should not have been able to bite me. I also thought I felt his hands- or maybe just his nails- on my back, another thing that should not be possible. But it was quick. Too quick. I will be returning as soon as possible to see if I can find some answers. This time I’ll bring a bat or something. I’ve found success against vex with those in the past.

Encounter Two

To preface, I believe my head was still foggy after my previous regeneration, and as a result, my judgment was.. lacking. A note for future Cub, for when he inevitably thinks going out to do something dangerous immediately after a regeneration is a good idea:

You dumb fuck, Scar is much bigger than a vex, regardless of his behavior. The bat was a horrible idea. Stop sabotaging your future research.

With that being said, I did not learn much. I hurried back to the last place I saw Scar, but given my use of firework rockets (another reckless decision), I’m sure he heard me. I did try to keep my distance, seeing if I could spot him from the sky, but these forests were untouched, so I couldn’t even see through the treeline.

Needless to say, it was not long after I landed that Scar attacked, again from behind. At the very least, I was ready enough to turn around. I swung the bat, but I was slow, and it was very quickly ripped out of my hands. At this point, I attempted to turn around and fly out of his reach so I could see him better, but was pulled down. At that point, it was over. A complete waste. Maybe the first time, he had thought he’d scared me off, but now, he’ll know I plan on coming back. I was lucky in the first place he hadn’t moved, but he’s sure to be gone by the time I make it back out there. I didn’t even get a good look at his face. Stupid.

However, there were a couple things I noticed.

It was clear this time that only parts of Scar could make contact with me. When he pulled me to the ground, I felt very clearly his fingers, but not his hands. I felt his teeth, but not his face. There’s a presence, like a phantom feeling, but nothing concrete. Very odd.

I also find it weird that Scar has not used any weapons. Even vex use swords, and I remember Scar having one the first time we met. Did he lose it? Does he just prefer to kill with his hands? Maybe he just wasn’t ready for me to come back. Maybe I’ll ask Cleo the next time they visit the island. I can probably find out without raising any suspicions. I’m going to take some time before I look for Scar again anyway. I'd like to have an actual plan.

Encounter 2 - Addition

Cleo ended up visiting this weekend to work on her starter base, so I did end up asking if she knew about any of Scar’s weapons in the name of a future museum. Unsurprisingly, I got told that was a horrible idea, but after a little pushing, they told me they had taken his weapons before arriving at the island to keep him from hurting himself. When their boat was destroyed, his sword and other weapons were lost.

I may have pushed my luck by asking more about Scar’s ‘possession,’ but I think Cleo was more uncomfortable talking about the event than she was concerned about the reason I was asking. She told me Scar’s threat of suicide was intended to destroy Mumbo and Pearl because of their heightened connection at the time, and she only noticed odd behavior after she had knocked him out. The feeling of being watched, little movements, and quiet talking. I didn’t push for anything else. Given those were the events leading up to her death, they couldn’t be pleasant to recount. (A note for any future, human readers: Cleo is undead, but not a ghost like the rest of us, as she failed to return after her death off the coast of the island. Her form is more akin to that of a zombie.)

It is interesting however, that Scar was unconscious when this took place. Maybe he’s unconscious now, and has been for weeks. He might even be dead. It is also interesting to note Scar is most likely weaponless now. The use of his teeth is probably out of necessity, rather than an attempt at intimidation.

Encounter 3

There was no trace of Scar at his old settlement, which was no surprise. While I had thought it would be a good place to start in tracking him, he had done quite the thorough job of confusing his trail as much as possible. Not only that, but the place was full of traps, which I am a bit embarrassed to admit caused quite a few severe injuries and more than one death. See, to track magic traces, it’s easiest to sense by blocking out other distractions; visual, auditory, or otherwise. I do a lot of walking around with my eyes closed, perhaps against my better judgment. Unfortunately, it slowed me down quite a bit. If that was Scar’s goal, he did a damn good job. Maybe if I can get a word in before he kills me next time, I can appeal to his ego. I'm not above flattery.

However, after my thorough search of his old place, it took quite a bit of time to find where he had run off to. Part of the time sink was Scar being very good at hiding, but I took a lot more care to stay undetected as well. I wanted to see him this time, really see him. I ended up getting my wish, though I was not counting on Scar being covered in blood. Thinking back, there was probably a reason he didn’t notice me for so long. His focus was on the pig.

I knew I was getting close, but hearing the distress of the animal caught my attention. I hadn’t actually considered what/if Scar ate, and while I doubted I’d actually see him hunting , that thought was exciting. Turns out it was my lucky day. When I finally found him, he was crouched over the hog, breathing heavily. Breathing. He was alive. Though, physically, he didn’t look like it. His clothes were in tatters, his hair matted, and he was awfully skinny, almost emaciated. The scars that rippled across his body had turned the same blue color as his vex wings; ghost-like. His fingers, which now curled into claws, were colored similarly. While I am sure he is alive, I can’t say it wasn’t a debate for me during my regeneration. Maybe the vex doesn’t know how to care for a human body?

Scar stared at the pig for a long time. It had been pretty thoroughly maimed, but I don’t think he was particularly bothered. He looked.. confused, maybe. Honestly, I’m still not sure what he was thinking. I got too comfortable in his stillness, but in my defense, I think anyone would jump if the person you were watching started yelling out of nowhere. Scar, however, didn’t seem to notice the leaves I rustled backing into the treetops. He was focused on this pig, his eyes wide and terrified.

“What am I supposed to do with this?” he shrieked, which I remember so clearly because I gasped. I don’t know exactly why, but I just hadn’t expected him to speak. His head snapped up at the sound, and we stared at each other for a long moment. Now, I should have run. I should have flown above the treeline where Scar couldn’t reach. And while I could make excuses about his speed and ferocity, I must emphasize the abject terror of a man covered in blood, vaulting himself up a tree with inhuman speed for the sole purpose of catching and ending you. I froze. I admit, I think this is the first time in years I was truly afraid of something.

It was exhilarating.

Scar threw me from the tree; we must have fallen at least eight feet, him on top of me, before crashing into the ground. That alone was probably enough to send me back to Spawn, but Scar wasted no time tearing through me. I must have looked as frightened as I felt; I remember hearing laughing, but I was pretty dazed at the time. I wonder if he enjoyed it. Part of me hopes so. I think before I died, I wished him luck with the pig.

I’ve gotten distracted, no doubt in part to the mind fog after regeneration. Note: Continue this tomorrow. Summarize what you’ve learned.

Encounter 3 - Addition

I am not the type of person to linger. I would like this to be clear. I am not the type to feel lonely, and if I do, it is not usually the lack of human connection. There’s an annoying little thing about vex; they prefer to be together in small groups, an evolutionary thing no doubt for security’s sake. They get anxious, alone too long. I am not immune to the feeling, but usually, I can dispel it with a couple captured vex to keep in my room.

It’s not working.

I am passionate about my work. I’ve been known to get lost in it, to neglect my needs, few as there are. I don’t believe this feeling is anything relevant to my research. Anyone would be distracted. Best it be documented anyway. This is stupid.

Encounter 3 - Addition 2

I do not linger. I wonder if Scar does?

#cw: animal death #cw: violence #cw: blood #tw: suicide mention #hermitcraft #gtws #goodtimeswithscar #cubfan135 #cubfan #zombiecleo #boatemghostsau

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tin-wufborf · 1 year ago

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Before I start my rewatch…another hunter-hating thought.

Why don’t people ever call the fucking cops on hunters in Teen Wolf?

I want to preface this by stating outright that, in real life, I am not at all a fan of The Law and will only call them as a last fucking resort because I am Black and like living, but this shit has always pissed me off so much about this show, especially in the case of Stiles being abducted off of the lacrosse field by Gerard. This was such a human fucking crime that was committed, but everyone was so goddamned concerned about keeping the normies out of shit that they completely overlooked the totally valid option of using human tactics to fight the humans. Like, seriously, why are we out here acting like human problems do not require human solutions? Did it occur to no one that because everyone had to keep werewolves a secret, INCLUDING THE HUNTERS, they could have weaponized that shit against the hunters in the same way the hunters turned it on the werewolves constantly? If no one knows that the people being victimized by the hunters are anything other than human, then you can very easily prey upon that ignorance and use it to your advantage. Call. The. Cops. The hunters absolutely used the fact that werewolves healed and had to keep themselves a secret against the werewolves all the damn time, but like…I don’t get why no one was ever struck with the idea that that shit works in reverse because, if the mundane human authorities are out here thinking everyone involved is also human, then there’s no universe in which it’s just okay to chase people through the forest at night and shoot at them or to kidnap children and attach them to car batteries and shit. Or like, even that one time when Chris & Co. snatched Stiles and Jackson out of a hospital hallway and started throwing them around in an empty room. Because that’s a super normal thing for a group of adult men to do to teenage boys. The whole time that was happening, I was like, “Okay, but like, scream for help because this is illegal and your dad, the County Sheriff, is presumably right down the hall”? Could you even imagine Chris trying to explain that away without being able to be like “but werewolves”? Because even if he wanted to throw werewolves under the bus to protect his own evil hide, he absolutely could not because he had no one there who could prove that he wasn’t a raving psycho who thought werewolves were real. Because you know Stiles would immediately be like “Papa, please help, the crazy man is saying crazy man things”.

I just have such a fucking problem with the writers of Teen Wolf shoehorning in this absolutely idiotic rhetoric that every problem that occurs on the show simply has to be handled only by “those in the know” because of this strange idea that it will somehow expose the supernatural to the town. Meanwhile, you have Scott out here doing Olympic-level gymnastics floor routines on the lacrosse field after previously being known to practically the entire town as a severe asthmatic who could barely walk let alone run, like that wasn’t a super obvious sign of something hinky going on. It should absolutely go without saying that turning the hunters in to the proper authorities for doing crazy-ass human shit like destroying property and/or unloading full-blown automatic/assault weapons in populated areas and/or assaulting people (minors, at that) and/or full-blown fucking kidnapping people poses no risk at all in revealing the whole werewolf thing because these things are just mundanely illegal. Like, remove the fact that the people who were on the receiving ends of these actions are werewolves, this stuff is just regular-ass illegal. Even if none of the kidnappees have any evidence of physical injuries because of werewolf healing, it’s still not going to be a good look for the hunters when the cops bust into their torture chamber to find seemingly innocent people strung up and hooked up to car batteries and shit. Like, hello?! Would you do the same thing if the situation didn’t involve werewolves but you still knew exactly where someone was being held illegally? No, I don’t think you would.

Moral of the story: I hate hunters in Teen Wolf because they’re just a roving band of dumb little self-important psychos, and I really feel like they were infecting others with their idiocy because holy shit, the ease with which we could have been rid of them by the end of season 1 is wildly overlooked.

#thoughts #my thoughts #a rant #teen wolf #hunters #the argents #idk if you can tell but I have no respect for hunters in this universe #I can't stand when fandoms enforce a lack of common sense for their characters #like come the fuck on

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shinjaeha · 3 years ago

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bad buddy ep 11 (thoughts)

i have never...NEVER in my life been more heartbroken by an episode of a tv show. like heartbroken doesn’t even cover it tbh. i’m so glad that this airs every friday night bc it incapacitated me the whole weekend...there’s NO WAY i could have gone to work after that ep. i just stayed up the whole night and spent all of saturday rewatching it over and over again and crying my eyes out.

i’m not even exaggerating. i don’t think i have ever cried so much in my LIFE. i’ve watched movies/tv shows where characters have died and still not been as devastated. after everything that happened, it just hit me like a train.

i know i was just saying last ep that i thought ep 10 was my fave, but i really think this one has taken its spot. i know the ending/preview has made this ep somewhat polarising, but all it did for me was make me love it even more than before. i felt every single thing that pat and pran were feeling down to my core, and it hurts like hell, but that, to me, is the power of a good piece of media.

that’s prob also why this is the toughest ep for me to write about. it just destroyed me so much emotionally.

i’m gonna preface this by saying that i DO think that pat and pran broke up with one another at the end of this ep (this is my current stance on things, but who knows, i could be completely wrong since i know bbs previews can be misleading...the only way we’ll know for sure how everything plays out is on friday). everything i write here is under the assumption that the break up really did happen.

i know so many of us had a knee jerk reaction to the end (believe me, i did too). but the more i rewatch the ep, the more clear it becomes to me that they ended things. plus, i don’t think that pran would go back to lying to his parents about this (he couldn’t even lie to uncle tong when they were running away). not when a lie was what started the whole family feud in the first place. besides, what would that achieve except making their parents even angrier at the both of them if they were discovered again? they’d just be living in constant fear like before...only it would be even worse now bc their parents would most def have them on a tighter leash than previously.

i don’t think pran would lie to his friends about it either (ep 12 preview) since there wouldn’t be a point to that. remember how upset wai got that pran never told him about pat in the first place? it doesn’t make sense to me that they would backtrack on that and make pran lie to his friends all over again. unless this is some kind of fake out like what they did with the ep 9 preview with korn...

not to mention, in ep 10 they publicly declared their love for one another in the ‘proposal’ scene. why would they go back into hiding again? it would just be a rehash of ep 7 all over again, which wouldn’t make sense to me narratively (esp with only one more ep left to go).

and most importantly, it would give the emotional resonance of what happened at the end of ep 11 much less impact if the break up wasn’t real. there’s a reason so many of us have been hit so hard by it. it seems sudden, but upon every rewatch, it makes more and more sense to me. this is the kind of ep that NEEDS a rewatch (multiple ones at that imo) bc things only really start clicking into place once the ending has given us context, like one of those movies with a plot twist that only gets better when you rewatch it from start to end again with the ending in mind.

take the very first scene in the bus, that already gives us a lot of the information that we need to know on where the two of them stand. pran KNOWS they’ll need to go back at some point, and he knows that his mum will never forgive pat’s dad (he doesn’t believe there is any hope of reconciliation). pat, on the other hand, isn’t ready to accept this yet. he’s still in denial, ready to escape it all and start a new life with pran (as he too believes that reconciliation between their parents is not on the cards). this ep is very clear in showing us that, although pat might be ready and willing to leave his family for pran, that’s not something that pran is able to do. it just takes a bit longer for pat to accept since he wants it so badly. pran, to his credit, is also trying really hard not to burst pat’s bubble since he wants to spend as much time with him as he can while he still has the chance. in the end, this whole trip is really just them running on borrowed time.

i don’t think this necessarily means that they KNEW they were going to break up here, but it feels like it’s already implied in the narrative (since going home is essentially code for ending things...and the fact that they aren’t on the same page about this from the beginning alludes to how this will play out). i really think this trip was them trying to make things work, but realising that they both won’t ever TRULY be happy even if they were to stay there together just the two of them (particularly pran, as he would miss his mother way too much).

i mentioned in my last post that pat is the hopeful, idealistic one and pran is more of a pessimist and a realist, and it’s never been more evident than in this ep.

but it also shows the depth of their love despite all their differences, and it’s one of my fave things about this ep as a whole.

i will never be over how pat’s always trying to comfort pran as best he can without showing him how torn up he is inside too :((( always trying to lighten the atmosphere when he sees pran's mind start to wander towards the worst of the ‘what if’ scenarios.

they played basketball in the novel...based on pat’s aim, i can see why that was changed to rugby 😭but i really do appreciate how light these next few scenes are after the intensity of ep 10′s ending/the beginning of this ep.

the sim card scene omg. pran knows pat SO well 😂 pran’s so good at figuring out pat’s tricks (and being the one to trick pat instead). it kind of reminds me of how he tricked pat in the line id scene in ep 1.

but i realise now that this also seems like it’s foreshadowing that they can’t truly let go of their pasts and escape. in the same way they’re unable to discard their sim cards, they’re still connected to their families and can’t break those ties completely.

the last time they were in this village, they were denying that they liked each other (even though they very clearly did)...now they’re shouting about how much they like each other at the top of their lungs. it’s the relationship development for me!! :’)

it must be so freeing for them to come back to the first place where they didn’t have to hide their relationship (at least when pran’s friends weren’t around). to come back to the place where their past history doesn’t matter bc no one knows and no one cares. i love that when pran told uncle tong the truth, he didn’t lecture them about it, just offered them support and a place to stay. he’s so great.

pat is still set on this being more of long term stay at this point, so it’s interesting to me that he’s the one that brings up that this is a honeymoon for them. calling it a honeymoon, though romantic, means that it eventually has to come to an end. it’s like he already knows deep down what the outcome will be, but he can’t admit it out loud yet. pran has already accepted this (it’s why he wonders if their parents are looking for them). pat hasn’t, so he pushes those thoughts away, refusing to talk about anything but the two of them for now. that’s why he makes pran play the game with him. he doesn’t want pran to dwell on those thoughts either...wants him to live in the present with him (but pran is an over thinker, and the game is only temporary...he can’t help but think about and miss his parents no matter how hard he tries to stay in the moment with pat).

i think it’s fairly obvious how junior’s struggle with going back home with his mother mirrors pat and pran’s struggle with going back home to their parents too.

the fishing montage scene is so cute though. just the two of them having fun. they’re GLOWING..i guess that what love does to you, huh. also, whoever styled the both of them in this scene did an a+++++ job js. the lack of buttons on pat’s shirt is giving his sleeveless look a run for its money 😂

the cooking scene reminds me of the conversation they had with junior in the truck in ep 6. pat’s talking about pran with junior indirectly again, only now it’s no longer about his ‘friend’, but his ‘lover’ instead. adorable.

but here we get yet another instance of pran missing his mother as he talks to junior about what a good cook she is while making her special sauce for them :(

pat making pran play the guitar again bc he knows pran misses it (despite him constantly saying he’s quit) though. i love that he reinforced their honeymoon rules here to let him know that this is a safe space. he can do what he wants without having to suppress his feelings the way pran is so used too ;;; and how could pran ever turn pat down?? (impossible).

something i find interesting about the scene when they’re talking to junior about how he wants to stay in the village (despite his mum’s objections), is that pat says “don’t believe everything she says, adults aren’t always right”. this indicates to me that they know that their parents are in the wrong in regards to their relationship (and it was wrong of them to pitt both of them against one another from the start). pat would, of course, feel especially strongly about this seeing as his father was DEFINITELY the one in the wrong in terms of the scholarship situation. but i do think it shows that they know their parents are wrong about this in general...and in the end, they didn’t end things bc they thought their parents were in the right in any way.

likewise, in the next scene when pran and junior’s mother are talking, when she mentions that he won’t have a future in the village and she’s glad that her mother didn’t allow her to stay in the village when she was young too, i don’t think that necessarily means that she’s right. i think it just implies that most parents want the best for their children. it doesn’t mean that it’ll always turn out that way, but parents are human too. they make mistakes, get clouded by their own judgement, which sometimes leads to them forgetting that their children are individuals with their own feelings and agency too.

that’s not to excuse any of the trauma or pain that they can give their children when their actions are too controlling (eg. pran’s mum). but, in the end, most parents think that what they’re doing is what’s best for their child’s future. it’s obviously not always the case, but i also kind of get it.

no child needs to forgive their parents for any trauma that’s been inflicted on them, but there are some that do, and those feelings are valid too. pran clearly loves his mother very, very much, and that’s something i understand down to the depths of my soul. just bc someone has hurt you doesn’t mean you automatically stop loving them.

on top of that, pran’s prob feeling especially guilty after their fight. he didn’t know about the whole scholarship issue before their fight, and he hasn’t seen his mother since finding out about it.

and honestly, they’re both still so incredibly young, and still very much financially (and emotionally) dependent on their parents. independence is something that they need to learn, and it’s something that comes with growth and experience.

when he asks junior’s mum if she feels lonely when he’s here, it’s the closest he can get to asking his mum the same question. the poor boy just really misses her :(((

back to pat and pran again and, as always, i’m in love with the way that pat tries to lighten the mood whenever he sees pran get too in over his head. they’re the perfect balance to one another. pat brings the levity, whilst pran keeps him grounded. they really challenge each other in the best ways.

pat is actually SO resourceful. he can charm his way into anything 😂 he’s just so spontaneous. i’m too much like pran...i could never.

love shot scene and pat making pran burp with him is hilarious, like pat is the ONLY person that can make pran do things like this (remember when pran was more than ready to eat that wonton that pat spat out of his mouth just bc pat challenged him to in ep 2?? they’re too competitive for their own good omg).

let’s talk about the way pat stares as pran here, heart eyes on display for everyone to see, as he looks longingly at the stage where the busker’s playing guitar. pat is whipped, enamoured, smitten, enraptured, captivated by pran...just every descriptor you can think of when it comes to love...that’s pat 😭 he. is. in. love.

pran’s happiness has always been pat’s top priority, which is why i should have seen what was coming from this one scene alone...

they get away with their differing stances on this trip for a little bit, but sooner or later they have to confront it. it’s been obvious since the start that the both of them have felt differently about what this trip means (to pran it’s only temporary, to pat he’s still thinking of it in the long term), so it was only a matter of time before they ended up butting heads about it.

to pat, seeing pran want to contact his mother reads like pran doesn’t want to be there (with him). so it hurts pat to feel like he’s alone in this...like he’s the only one that wants to be there.

this is clearly not the case bc pran loves him, he’s just torn bc he misses his mum and wants to talk to her. but they both know what that means for their ‘honeymoon’. they know that the minute they talk about their parents/bring up going home, then they’ll have to start thinking about what that means for their relationship (and it’s unspoken, but they both know EXACTLY what it means).

pat is trying so hard to make pran feel as accommodated and happy as he can while they’re in the village (eg. constantly cheering him up, getting him to play the guitar, getting them a permanent job). he wants for pran to be content, living here in the moment with just him, but it’s just not enough. it’s something that takes him a while to realise/admit, but being here in the long term will never make pran completely happy no matter how hard he tries. and it’s only once pat realises/admits this, that he knows that means they have to go back home.

he’s still not quite there yet though, hence the reason he gets mad.

okay, but when pat was about to throw that can onto the beach i had the same reaction as pran like sir, this is a ZERO WASTE VILLAGE what are you doing?????

i do love a sulky pat though :’) we don’t get to see him like this very often...and i love it when pran’s the one trying to make up with pat. the parallel pran mentions about how pat was the one that was trying to make up with him the last time they were there is actually so apt and adorable.

imo one of the best things about pat and pran’s relationship is that they can never stay mad at each other for longer than an entire scene. i was a little worried at this point bc, in so many other dramas, this would have been the moment where they had their big blow up and broken up with each other...instead it ends up being a misdirect. just this minor clash of heads due to their differences that’s easily dealt with. their fights are always resolved so cleanly. they get mad, cool off, and then talk to one another instead of letting things fester and build up into something bigger. it’s SO satisfying to watch them deal with things bc of how high the level of communication is between the two of them.

i know i was just talking about how pran wants to go home, but that doesn’t mean that he doesn’t want to stay too. he really, really loves pat. he would do anything he can to make sure pat is happy too. that’s what is so beautiful about their relationship. the reciprocity and care. he knows how much it means to pat that they stay here and take the job...and he wants to prolong their time together for as long as he can as well. so even though he misses his mum, he swallows down that feeling for now bc he knows that taking the job will make pat happy.

“i can be anywhere as long as i have you” 😭 pran doesn’t express his love in words all that much (more in actions), so it really does hit different when he vocalises his feelings like this to pat.

they’re honestly so. cute. it makes this ep hurt so much more.

oh god, okay. KISS SCENE. this scene is so outstanding to me in every way.

my fave part of this whole ep is basically when this scene starts until the very end. it’s just spectacular, and my heart is already in knots even just THINKING about the last two parts of this ep.

when they talk about their aspirations before the kiss, this is really important bc i think it’s at this point where pat starts realising that the both of them can’t stay here if pran wants to achieve his goals. notice how pran’s answers (interior designer and musician) require him to finish his studies (and also likely require financial support from his parents), but pat’s don’t (if he just wants to work in his own family’s business).

for pat, he could never be the reason for pran giving up on his dreams. pran’s mum’s future was ruined by pat’s dad, and he doesn’t want to echo what his father did to pran’s mother. he already feels guilty enough by association for what his dad did. it’s the clearest thing in the world to me that he would never, ever take that away from pran. especially knowing how much damage and trauma that caused both their families. all it did was lead to anger and resentment, and he won’t let history repeat itself. he loves pran way too much for that, and one of the things he wants most in life is to see pran succeed in whatever he does.

this scene feels like it’s pat slowly coming to the realisation that they can’t put off going home any longer. he knows that he has to let pran go BECAUSE he loves him. pat’s monologue on why he likes pran is just so thoughtful and sweet. with the end in mind, something about it reads to me like it’s already a goodbye of sorts. like he’s reminiscing on everything they’ve experienced (good and bad), and coming to terms with how much pran means to him. making sure pran knows it. the emotions are so bare.

and then, of course, the KISS. this kiss is sooooooo beautiful and languid. compare it to their rooftop kiss in ep 5, when there were a mix of built up emotions erupting out of them. back then, it was still more of a test on pat’s part, and it was desperation and franticness on pran’s part. like he was trying to hold onto the moment before it escaped him.

this kiss is a world of difference from that one. this kiss is a kiss between two people who are madly in love with one another. unlike rooftop kiss, it’s deliberate. the way it goes from slow and sweet at first, like they’re taking their time, to hungry and wanton after they take that breath and look at each other?? like they’re gonna make the most of all the time they have left just the two of them. they’re gonna make every second count.

i also love how authentically drunk the both of them look. despite all their differences, this is something they both align on completely. they feel the exact same way...full of love. pure love. and their flushed faces (esp pran’s!!) just show how drunk they are on the alcohol, as well as how intoxicated they are by their love for each other. the openness of it all just makes my heart twist every time i watch this scene.

but it’s in the little details, like how pran’s always the first one to open his eyes during their kisses, that also remind me of how he’s always thinking ahead. while pat, with his eyes closed, is always thinking in the now. this is one thing that hasn’t changed, just like in their ep 5 rooftop kiss.

i REALLY like that pulled away shot we get of them just before the kiss scene ends, where they’re the only ones lit up surrounded by the darkness. it perfectly encapsulates their entire situation. their love for each other being the only beacon of light amongst all the forces around them threatening to darken it.

i truly still cannot BELIEVE that we got a scene of them spooning in bed. the one thing i wanted most was for this show to have a scene of them cuddling, and then they gave me the softest, sweetest scene in the whole world!!!!!!!!!!

and just the fact that it was pran that was snuggling into pat?? sniffing him (you know he loves pat’s smell just as much as pat loves his, he’s just much better at hiding it), and then kissing the nape of his neck?? this is too much for me 😭 i’m as down bad as pran. i can’t believe he got energiser bunny pat tired out...must have been a wild night.

but in all seriousness, i love the simplicity of this scene. just two people in love...nothing more, nothing less. pran asking pat whether he was good in bed, and then asking him to rank him out of ten, is so cute (and SO on brand for how competitive the both of them are...i should have known this would be the case even in sex). pat teasing him a little before giving him the ten, and pran looking SO smug about it...i love them more than words could ever describe.

THE FOREHEAD KISS. i could genuinely cry about it for days (and literally have).

they really tried to scare us with pat waking up without pran being there and i wasn’t fooled for a second bc i knew pran would never just up and leave pat like that...like no way, it would never happen.

the morning after scene is when i think it all clicks into place for pat fr. the moment he sees pran with the guitar turning to look at him, blinding smile on his face...THAT’S when pat knows what he has to do. this is the only way he ever wants pran to look/feel. he loves pran’s face when he loses, but he loves it the most when he wins, and we all know pat’s stance on this (”when i have a lover, i always let my lover win”). the first time i saw this, i noticed how wistful pat looked, and i couldn’t place why he looked so sad here. it made so much more sense to me after i rewatched it bc this was the moment he knew they had to go back home. i know p’aof has said that this is his fave scene in this ep and i can totally understand why. it makes my heart ache in the most breathtaking way possible.

as junior’s whole journey in general mirrors what pat and pran are going through, when he chooses to go back to bangkok with his mother, i don’t think it’s a surprise to anyone. we know that pat and pran will follow suit too now that pat’s accepted that they can’t stay in the village forever. and pat seeing pran’s longing face as he watches both mother and son leave, further emphasises to me that pat has already made his decision. for pran’s sake, he can’t and won’t prolong this any longer.

i think most of us have established at this point that the red shirt scene is the two of them breaking up. imo the genius of this scene is that, while i could tell something was up the first time i watched it (there’s this melancholy feeling tied to pat’s words even though he’s smiling and saying such lovely things...and pran is literally crying), i only pieced things together after the ending was revealed and i rewatched this ep again. like even when i hadn’t fully understood what had happened, the second i saw pran tear up, i was tearing up too...so by the time i DID understand what was happening, i was a complete mess. even now, though i’ve rewatched this scene countless times already, it still gives me a lump in my throat. it still feels like someone is squeezing my chest.

there’s just so much sacrifice in this ep. pran sacrifices his feelings/desire to go back home for pat. by agreeing to the permanent job (and proving that he means it by being proactive in getting the uniforms for the both of them), it’s all to make pat happy (even if being here doesn’t truly make pran happy himself). he’s doing this bc he loves pat. he misses his mum too, sure, but those two things aren’t mutually exclusive.

but pat’s perceptive, we know this. and he’s been picking up all the signs that pran’s unhappy, big and small. and, like i’m constantly reiterating in every one of these posts, pat can’t stand to see pran sad...therefore he knows that he needs to sacrifice their honeymoon/time together so the both of them can go back home and pran can see his parents again.

pat knows that by forcing pran to stay in the village with him, pran will do it bc that’s just who he is, always putting the feelings of the people that he cares about first...but in forcing him to do that, pat would just be acting like everyone else in pran’s life. imposing the same expectations on him that pran’s had to grow up with his entire life. all it does is lead to pran suppressing his true feelings as usual, and keep any resentment he might have within him growing more with each passing day. and pat is the last person in the world that would do that to pran bc he knows all too well what that’s like.

there are so many dramas/movies that TELL me that two characters are in love, but this one SHOWS it to me. in every look, action, word...pat and pran are deeply in love with each other (have only fallen more in love with each other during this trip), and i believe it completely. that’s why this scene, this breakup, hurts so immensely.

to me, this is what true love is. it’s not toxicity or stupid misunderstandings for no reason, it’s just two people that are always willing to make sacrifices and put the other person and their feelings first. two people that are always willing to compromise. to communicate. this is love in its healthiest form. the both of them are so consistent in their emotional maturity.

and specifically, what i love so much about this break up is that neither of them even need to say the words out loud. it’s in between the lines just like the lyrics of pran’s song for pat (”but you and i know the meaning between the lines”). they weren’t on the same page at the beginning, but now they finally see eye to eye...and it’s not a “let’s break up”, but a “thank you for trying to make a silly guy like me happy. thank you for never leaving me. thank you for fighting alongside me. thank you for making me happy.” (thank you for loving and supporting me, you’ve done well and i love you) sort of a break up. it’s pat making sure that pran knows just how much he loves and appreciates him. and there’s something that’s simultaneously more beautiful and heartbreaking to me about their end being framed this way than if it had been made more explicit than this. it’s this heartbreak that permeates through everything.

“from two people who can’t be friends, without knowing it, we become two people who can’t be just friends. i wrote this song for him” i’ll be thinking about this until the end of time. these words will live on within me FOREVER ;;;;

pat declared his love publicly for pran in ep 10, and pran’s dedication at the beginning, as well as finally finishing and singing the song that he wrote for pat, is pran’s own way of publicly declaring his love for pat. it’s quieter, but it’s on brand for pran (whilst last ep’s declaration was def more pat’s style). like pat wanted, he gets to experience pran’s first step in his career as a musician with this performance (whether he decides to pursue it later down the track or not)...and it’s a song crafted specifically for HIM. pran wrote a song about their entire journey up until this point. if i were pat, i would feel so incredibly touched too. it’s esp significant bc pat has always been there to encourage and support pran in his music, so to have two songs composed by pran in his honour is so profoundly heartfelt and meaningful.

it was sooooooo masterful of them to have made the intro the chorus this whole time. i’m kind of annoyed that it was spoiled for me before watching this ep bc it would have absolutely blown my MIND if i had found out while watching pran perform 😭like the fact that we’ve been hearing “our song” literally every single ep????? it gives SO MUCH more meaning to the intro. like it really is their song...it’s been threaded through this entire series since the start, and now every time i rewatch eps, i’ll be reminded of that. genius. also, it’s just such a great song?? it makes me emotional every time i hear it now.

THE DAMN MONTAGE. if there’s something that will break down ALL my defences, it’s a montage...esp one showing the growth of their love since they were kids :((( this wave of nostalgia hitting me as though I’M the one that’s lived through all of these moments...like they’re telling my own love story through these scenes.

oh god, i’m just glad that at least inkpaa are happy (they only had like 3 seconds of screen time but my poor, battered heart NEEDED that...and more importantly, i NEED them to remain happy for all of ep 12 too PLS). and waikorn?? idk why but i’m never expecting them until their scenes together come up again 😂 it really does show how far everyone has come since the beginning though...like so many things have changed.

i like how they use uncle tong’s environmental activism to represent pat/pran’s relationship. i think it’s clever of the writers to intertwine that with their story. when p’tong says “you might think that one man can’t change the world, but i want you to know that this world can’t change someone like me either”, it mostly just proves to me that, even with everything pat and pran have gone through (and will go through in the future), their love will remain unchanged. at this point in time, it feels futile to them bc of everything opposing their love (pat’s earlier “i don’t think one man can change the world”), but i really do think that that will change with time. right now, they’re both so young, they both have so much growing to do...but eventually, there’ll come a time where they’ll be able to properly fight for that unchanged love...bc if there’s one thing this ep made me sure of, it’s that they won’t stop loving each other despite the forces around them (their parents) pulling them apart. they’re just not quite there yet, but i believe it’s all part of their character/relationship development, and they’ll get to a point where they understand p’tong’s words fully and why he keeps trying even when things seem impossible.

i mentioned before how pat and pran’s love felt like a beacon of light in the darkness, and i think this break up might have dimmed it, but it’ll never be fully extinguished. this is actually one of the reasons i’m almost completely certain we’re getting a happy ending. i know we’re worried, but pat and pran have always found each other. fate has always brought them together, so i just know that fate will bring them together again once more.

i really, really love the editing during this whole sequence tbh. from the song and the montage playing, to p’tong’s words, to the alternate ending scenario, then back to reality again. it. broke. me. into. pieces.

seeing the two of them standing there all happy (during the 'what if’ scenes) juxtaposed with the reality of their situation????? that HURT. i had a feeling that the beach scene in ep 6 was going to come back in play at some point since it felt like it was left open for a reason, and we finally got to see why. all those imagined scenarios are something that they want so much but that they just can’t have right now :(((

you know what hurt me the most though?? pat’s stayed so strong and positive this whole time in pran’s presence, never letting pran see him cry, EXCEPT this scene at the end bc he just can’t hide his devastation anymore. pran’s very likely been anticipating the end since the beginning (perks of being an over thinker), so he’s more prepared for it than pat is. pat, on the other hand, has never thought about them coming to an end until this ep. all that foreshadowing was right, he IS the heartbroken one...

actually when pat started crying here, this was when it hit me what had happened. obviously, the ep 12 preview kind of confirmed it for me, but this was the moment where everything clicked into place for me. it’s like i was waiting for the other shoe to drop this entire ep...and then it did.

my personality is too much like pran’s, always expecting the worst so when it happens i’m prepared. when i watched this for the first time, despite all the sweet scenes, it always felt to me like there was a cloud hanging over them. this perpetual feeling of bittersweetness in the air...and i couldn’t place why until the very end when i saw pat’s tears, his “let’s go home” and pran’s “good luck, buddy”...THEN the final puzzle piece finally slid into place. and THEN i burst into tears.

the brief scene when pran finished playing and we saw a tear slide down pat’s face as he smiled just hammered what happened into place for me even more.

(it always gets me that when they first left for their trip, pran was the one that was bawling his eyes out...now that they’re back, it’s pat that has tears rolling down his face)...

so. the ending/ep 12 preview has obviously divided opinion on this ep and i completely understand why, esp if you were sure this one was going to be a happy one...and that pat and pran were gonna beat the odds and fight their parents. however, i think i was personally always a bit doubtful that would happen. in the tags of my last post, i mentioned that i thought something was going to go down at the end of this ep (and go down it did)...it just didn’t happen as dramatically as i thought it would (though it ended up being a lot more painful than i expected).

and i think it’s just a very personal thing. it makes you think about what you would do if you were in their position...and for me, when it comes down to it, i think i would do exactly what pat and pran did. i already mentioned that i’m too much like pran, and it’s true. personally, i don’t think i would ever be able to give up my family for someone i loved, no matter how much i loved them.

does that make what their parents are doing to them okay? absolutely not. do they deserve so, so, SO much better than this? 1000%. but i also understand this decision. there’s a discussion to be had for filial piety, which is obviously something that’s very ingrained in asian society (and is way too nuanced and complicated for me to even begin getting into)...and, yes, it can be toxic. but it’s not an easy thing to shake away when it’s a way of thinking you’ve grown up with your whole life. their parents fucked up, but it doesn’t surprise me at all that pran still loves and prioritises them. it’s also just consistent with his character, and how he puts his friends and family first before his own feelings. it’s consistent with pat’s character too, as he would never force pran to fight his own feelings. and they both know that currently (esp considering that pran’s mother only just revealed the truth about the scholarship in the previous ep), everything is still very raw. there’s really no hope for reconciliation...at least for the foreseeable future.

since pat’s dad is the main reason both their families are in this mess in the first place, it makes sense that he’s less forgiving of him than pran (whose mum was the one that was initially wronged). it’s easy to question why pran isn’t choosing to fight for their love, but based on how he broke down in the last ep after his fight with his mother, i don’t think he would have been able to bear fighting with his parents anymore about pat in his current state. he can’t even tell his mother that he’s still playing the guitar. he’s just nowhere near ready to handle the constant opposition that they’re sure to get. not to mention, the support of his family is something that he needs. pat would have paa at the very least, but pran is an only child and has no one else but his parents.

i don’t think that means that pran loves pat any less, but they have different priorities and ways of thinking. we know that pran is realistic and always thinking about the future, whilst pat is impulsive and prefers dealing with things in the present instead of thinking ahead. pat might feel that love is enough for them now, but pran knows that it isn’t. not in the position they’re both in atm. sometimes love just isn’t enough, especially if the timing isn’t right. they’ll both never be completely happy if they’re constantly at war with their parents, and esp if they’re still dependent on them as they so clearly still are.

most relationships, no matter how healthy, are heavily influenced by external factors and the environment around them. people that are madly in love with each other break up all the time bc of things they can’t control. pat and pran both know this, and i think that’s why they made the choice to break up. instead of letting their parents break down their relationship, and growing resentful at each other for it, they chose to end things when they were most in love BECAUSE they were in love. like a good memory. that means nothing can mar it or turn it toxic. and i don’t think either of them want to be the reasons that their relationships with their parents are fractured either.

this is the most painful type of breakup imo bc it’s mutual and done in love. it’s done with the both of them knowing what it means and accepting the heartbreak. it doesn’t need to be dramatic bc that would mean more energy spent on fighting/arguing, and less time spent just loving one another. they didn’t choose to make this a fight/disagreement, which is so different from all the other events that have happened to them that WERE dramatic (their relationship being revealed on stage by wai, their parents finding out about them and the fallout). it just further highlights to me how different their relationship is to all the other ones on the show. other than the external factors, their relationship has always been relatively drama free, and above all, loving. i mean even from the get go, they were supposed to be enemies, but they never truly were.

would it have been nice if pat and pran had run away together? had decided to defy their parents and fight for their love right then and there? yes. but this is honestly the most realistic scenario to me. i know that BLs are an escape, and that most of them have that very specific BL fantasy element to them (bad buddy is also no exception to this bc we can see those elements in parts of it as well), but there’s always been a sense of realism weaved into all of p’aof’s BL dramas...there are always parts that feel so authentic and real, like his own signature, so the direction the narrative took here isn’t really a huge shock to me in the end.

i’ve seen some people say that this is them letting their parents win, but i personally don’t see this as the case at all. i see it more as them giving in for now, picking their battles, and building up their strength to a point where they are better able to fight for their love and win for real (their parents are the final boss, after all). by not choosing each other now, they’re choosing each other and their futures first. also, goodbye doesn’t mean goodbye forever...and this is DEFINITELY not goodbye forever. at least this time they got to give each other a proper send off, and it wasn’t an abrupt transfer like the last time they parted.

which is why i actually don’t mind that there seems to be a time skip in the next ep?? i don’t tend to like time skips very much, but i can kind of see the purpose of one here. it means that they’ll have matured more, established themselves in their respective careers (so they won’t feel like they’re getting in the way of one another’s dreams anymore), and they won’t be as dependant on their parents once they’re older.

besides, the LONGING????? they’ll have had years to yearn for each other (and i love yearning). all of those factors make me feel like they’ll be in a much stronger position to resume their relationship and beat all the odds against them.

of all the eps on the show, THIS is the most beautiful one imo. the power of this ep is that it seems happy and sweet on the surface, but by the end you realise that it’s been an infamous cursed ep 11 all along, only you don’t know it until it’s over. the ending puts the whole ep into perspective. it’s like you’re watching it with two different lenses, and the rewatch is what recontextualises everything. it’s like p’aof subverted the ep 11 trope by making this a break up ep so subtle we didn’t even REALISE it was a break up. i think that’s why i love this ep so much, aside from how beautiful the romance is. i love when a show can throw me off and make me rethink everything i had thought initially (i love a good plot twist). and this was just so exquisite in its heartbreak bc it focussed more on their relationship and love than the actual break up itself.

also, if anything, the fact that this ended as angsty as it did has just further convinced me that we’re getting a happy ending (not to mention, it’s a p’aof drama so that makes me even more certain). yet, even though i think pat and pran will be fine at the end of this, it STILL leaves me with a gaping hole in my chest every time i rewatch it. amazing.

anyway, i think i’m finally done. my emotional stability is def still riding on ep 12...i can’t believe there’s only one more ep left and bad buddy will be over. i’m genuinely distraught over it and idk what i’m going to do with myself once this show is done... 😭

#bad buddy #not this almost being 8k jesus........#this has NO business being so long but i also wrote so many notes about this ep it confused the hell out of me #bc my mind was just SO scattered after watching (and rewatching) this #this is genuinely the most difficult recap/thoughts post i've ever written so pls excuse how messy it is...#like i just feel like i got my thoughts out esp poorly this time bc i'm still so !!!!!!!! about this ep (and i cried so much writing this)#like you don't understand how much i loved this ep okay #regardless of what happens in ep 12 (happy or sad) i'm gonna be sobbing my eyes out...i don't want to let this drama go...#the withdrawal is real and it isn't even over yet :(#text

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