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lieu10ant-a · 2 years ago

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new editor sucks, so remember i write on discord as well.

#ugly mobile post /#my patience is running out #with this fucking site #why must they make shit so annoying #i just want to write without having to fight the formatting #anyways #i did nothing my nights off #and i work tonight #so catch me on discord #if you don’t have it but want it #hmu!#simon also has a wire #ask for my other muses wire as well

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whotfelsewantedtobelynnyx · 8 months ago

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Headcanon that the real reason Carmilla was so preemptively over Alastor being back in town was because between Rosie (excited), Vox (it’s complicated), and the rest of the Overlords (massive gossips. See Zestial.), he’s been the topic of pretty much every conversation in their social circle for the past month.

Alastor: I’m sure you’ve all been wondering where I’ve been.

Carmilla: No. No, I haven’t. And if I have to hear one more word about it, I am going to lose my goddamn mind.

(the three different betting pools running simultaneously were what pushed her over the edge)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel carmilla #carmilla carmine #hazbin hotel rosie #hazbin hotel zestial #zestial morde #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel overlords #carmilla is SO DONE #Clara; poking her head in: Mom? did you see-#Carmilla: Yes.#Rosie; busting through her office door: CARMILLA!#Carmilla: I KNOW.#Zestial; sitting down next to her in bed that night: Didst thou-#Carmilla; covering her head with a pillow: YES! I HEARD ABOUT ALASTOR! VOX RAN UP AND DOWN THE STREETS IN FRONT OF MY OFFICE SINGING I #FOR LIKE AN HOUR #NOW LEAVE ME ALONE #Zestial says nothing else but quietly turns her cell phone ringer off when she’s not looking

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thedreadvampy · 5 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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peppermintmochafem · 17 days ago

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Hey how’d your date go? What’d you end up wearing?

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aww thank you for asking!!

Here's the look <3

MEN DNI

#At the advice of my friend who told me to wear quote a slutty top and fun pants which is silly bc I'm more a big sweater tiny skirt girl #This was pre hair and makeup dw #The date was nice v chill she bought me a couple drinks and I stayed the night at hers a little makeout cuddle times #We did have a cute makeout ses in the bar when we deciding to get more drinks and she did the Knee Thing and I was like oop time to go now!#asks #love letters only #💌 asks #That was sweet of you to ask!! How are you doing sweetheart??#🧎anon #omg forgot to tell u guys I got her number irl on public transportation like one stop before she got off it was v meet cute!#So I knew nothing about her v cute and fun I'm not an Apps girl #But the train was so full she offered to let me sit next to her which I declined but I was smiling at her and she made small talk!#And we had to reschedule a bunch so I thought she would give up but she was really trying!

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koachdal · 2 months ago

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Tissot Sprint, Aragon GP 2024

#marc’s times on lap 2-7 of the sprint would’ve still gotten him pole during qualifying lmao!#two of jorge's laps under pedro's q2 time too marc was onto something when he told jorge he'd probably have set a better time in q2 #if he hadn't crashed in the beginning #no one outside the top 3 did any 1’47 laps although enea as usual had great late race pace #marc had eased off by lap 8 as well with the almost 4 second lead he'd built by then #mm93 #motogp #aragon gp #finally wrote my proposal i'd been procrastinating yesterday night i have nothing to do all day today 🥳

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420jimmyuso · 10 months ago

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god forbid a man be a bit silly … god😒

#wwe #wwe raw #the judgment day #finn balor #monday night raw #raw #rhea ripley #free him he did nothing wrong #unrelated but finn looks so good in a hoodie #just had to get that off my chest #jds “what abt..” n pointing to finn like finn isnt the reason hes IN tjd 😒#i hate him so bad

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hella1975 · 2 months ago

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i fell over i fell onto the ground i wish i was sober i cant get up off the ground round round round round round round round round when i closed my eyes and i thought i was blind it’s the middle of the night and i’ll never be alright again and this wallpaper keeps going round the room it keeps going round the room it keeps going round the room and i follow it around the room and i follow it around the room keep smoking i love you keep smoking i love you keep smoking i still love you but i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die i don’t wanna die william let me out william william let me out william and i sat there on the steps considering death there were only seconds left of the night and i said hell is the sun burning forever at the centre of things a ball on fire at the centre of things a ball on fire at the centre of things a brain on fire at the centre of things a brain on fire at the centre of things i can’t turn this thing off it keeps following me used to be so human now it’s just a machine i cant turn this thing off it keeps following me when’d you say you were leaving when’d you really leave i can’t turn this thing off it keeps following me used to be so human now it’s just a machine i cant turn this thing off it keeps following me when’d you say you were leaving when’d you really leave welcome to the nevada museum of art audio guide we hope your experience will be hello my name is hojin stella jung im a senior at mcqueen high school my portfolio is a collection of paintings that were created during last summer and the first half of my senior year and it’s called the lady and i didn’t feel very well when i painted the first and i didn’t feel very well when i painted the last and it was intense it was an intense process and it was how i was trying to very hard personify that intensity but it’s hard to talk about her now because i think she wasn’t me at least that’s how i feel and im trying to figure out what to do now but she represents fervour in woman she is powerful yet fragile she dares yet averts her gaze and i love her at least i did and but now i feel lost and im unsure of what to think and feel most of the time but i did believe in her the lady and maybe there is a different form now that the intensity takes enter another item number followed by the pound sign or you can hang up and call back later

#no one listens to high to death like i do #this song is. about me in a terrible horrid way #I WISH I WAS SOBER IT’S THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND ILL NEVER BE ALRIGHT AGAIN BUT I DONT WANNA DIE #HELL IS THE SUN A BRAIN ON FIRE AT THE CENTRE OF THINGS I CANT TURN THIS THING OFF IT KEEPS FOLLOWING ME #IT’S HARD TO TALK ABOUT HER NOW BECAUSE I THINK SHE WASNT ME #AND I LOVE HER AT LEAST I DID BUT NOW I FEEL LOST AND IM UNSURE WHAT TO THINK AND FEEL MOST OF THE TIME. BUT I DID BELIEVE IN HER #i need to pull my brain out and smash it w hammers and start again w a shiny new brain w nothing wrong w it and everyone will love me #but that’ll never happen so I’ll keep staring at this wall for another 2 weeks #car seat headrest

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leham-n-daavocado · 4 months ago

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Just finished the third season of Bridgerton (it was an incredibly frustrating watch)...People have said that Penelope is named as such because of her nickname Pen and her being a writer... but has anyone thought of the reference to the Odyssey and Penelope being the wife of Odysseus? You know, she had to be loyal for 20 years while Odysseus gallivanted across the globe and was distracted/cheating on her Circe? I feel like it goes with the whole Polin narrative too. She's the one who had to wait for him to get a clue. And if you've read the Penguin version of the Odyssey, you know everyone is like omg! Odysseus, so amazing, the sacker of cities etc. Which parallels Colin's "glow up". Totally think it's more of a literary reference since the two of them are writers...

#bridgerton #bridgerton season 3 #colin bridgerton #penelope featherington #polin #don't know how much this works for the book #didn't read the books #I ranted at my sister for an hour straight about this season (behated)#wtf was the character arcs for any of the characters this season? a whole lot of nothing..#the writers literally set everything up and then did everything in their power to make the arcs pointless #soooo many crimes of telling instead of showing #bridgerton was never high art but season 1 and 2 landed character and the audience buying into the relationships and cheering for the coupl #disappointed #literally feel like I hated polin in what was supposed to be their season #colin vascilates wildly... and there are like two scenes where i recognize the character he was is season 1 and 2 #literally hated him for soooo much #really hate how the season wasn't about the couple but whistledown #and yet they couldn't show us WHY Penelope wants to keep being Whistledown besides telling us why so I just don't get why #they could not decide if whistledown is good or bad and settled on girlboss power!#but here i am like girl... you're ruining lives... you've ruined lives... it's just gossip #they literally screwed over all their characters for nothing #their scenes of intimacy don't land because they feel incredibly paint by numbers and often occur after intense confrontations #confrontations that do not logically make sense for sexy times #the mirror scene exists purely as plot so colin can later accuse Penelope of trapping him in marriage #like that's suuuuper ick #they made colin so incredibly ick i don't recognize him or want him with Penelope #even Penelope making the choice to be whistledown over her new family was insane and illogical based on how the plot developed #i watched the seaon twice to really pin down how I feel and ended up rewatching season 1 and 2 because season 3 part 2 pissed me off so muc #and it's sooo night and day #i just feel sad because i wanted to root for this couple too... but they made it unrootable

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widowshill · 6 months ago

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— But it's almost midnight. — Oh, that's the point! At the stroke of twelve, he turns into Dracula. C'mon, Vicki – he won't bite.

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#dark shadows 1966 #victoria winters #roger collins #➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters.#vamp roger au tbt #➤ roger collins. ┊ I and my ghosts want a drink.#➤ victoria winters. ┊ because she’s lost and lonely. because she looks in shadows.#➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery.#art.#i always feel a little apprehensive about putting r/v things in the general tags bc i know that's not everyone's cup of tea but.#if r/v squicks you out and you don't have me blocked idk why lmakldfgfg. that's what we do here.#well! did you know that the moonflower is a highly poisonous and psychoactive flower that belongs to the nightshade family #and can cause respiratory depression arrhythmias fever delirium hallucinations psychosis and death if taken internally.#and they are night-blooming and pollinated by sphinx moths. much to think about.#scenes from the vamp roger au that i've been plotting with tortie and have only posted like one thing about but. anyway.#should be making violent love to you behind a palm tree etc. but the moonflowers in liz's greenhouse will have to do.#yeah yeah yeah we've all heard about his more famous triangular cousin but what about the real collins vampire huh.#who was here in 1966 draining years off another man's life. who spent ten years in a coffin (augusta) and came back wrong.#who knows nothing but a habitual; driving; consuming thirst.#who feeds on the youth and innocence of his governess – of his sister's hospitality – of the shelter of the collins blood.#who prefers; instead of living; to bury himself in the collins tomb.#who creates not biological sons but makes other men into monsters just like him.#also lou was really hot as a vampire for 0.5 seconds in hods.

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kaidanalenkosprmanager · 3 months ago

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THE BEST OF MASS EFFECT: VIRMIRE

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard and Cmdr. Dominik Shepard With: Lt. Kaidan Alenko, Gun. Chief Ashley Williams, Urdnot Wrex, and Tali'Zorah nar Rayya Ft. Special Guest Appearances by: Spec. Saren Arterius and Sovereign There is a realm of existence so far beyond your own, you cannot even imagine it... Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard #dominik shepard #kaidan alenko #ashley williams #urdnot wrex #tali’zorah vas normandy #mass effect #me #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #it’s been so long since i’ve made a BEST OF: lol but virmire called to me the other night #this isn’t really the same as the ME3 ones i’ve been breaking from tbf but also virmire is my favorite mission in ME1 #and tbf this is a BEST OF: ME in general #i might make a series but i'm not quite sure yet this was just something that popped into my head when i was playing a UNC the other night #but i did get to use both the kids this time!!! :D #my favorite mindoir twins :)#bc we love BOTH sheps in this house!!!#but this was a lot of fun! i got to do some more interesting stuff with the editing and the coloring than i usually do :)#i was also planning on using a vision shot? but those are so jittery (right word?) in gif form that i scrapped it tbf #also pls excuse soph looking different in literally every gif pack i release lmaooooo #this is the last iteration of her head i promise lmao (actual canon ME1 appearance i swear ignore everything else lol)#finally fixed that sculpt and gave her her piercings and i think she matches up with dom a lil better now :)#tbf dom also went through 50 other iterations of his sculpt but i never giffed those. those are just in a screenshot folder on my PC lmao #i was gonna say OG dom versus now dom isn't that far off but tbh dom did have a CC head at one point #i call that head dan now bc i don't associate it with him anymore it looks nothing like him LMAO #OG OG soph looked crazy different too tbf. and she was an adept at one point before i scrapped that entirely.#oh OG versions of my kids how different you looked and how much you have changed #but the kids are alright! and i'll stop screaming about them now. :)#i’ll stop using the tags to rant now even if it is the mira special™️ but have a good day wherever you are!! :D

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0vergrowngraveyard · 6 days ago

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i had a dream that would’ve been SUCH a good fic idea—it played out in my mind like a movie, almost every detail—but i don’t have the skill set to write ittttt

#graveyardtxt #the best way i can describe it is that during an alien attack—sonic and co lost and were taken back to their planet #they were held captive in some kind of lab. they had pretty shitty sleeping arrangements and were experimented on and tested almost daily #for as bad as they were treated. the location itself was actually really cool looking-#tails and espio were actually the main characters (along with amy as a sort of supporting character)#one of the most vivd scenes was sonic walked past their room and seeing amy looking on tails’s bed #only for tails to just walk into the room like “i’m fine you’re worrying about nothing’’ like okay little man where did you come from????#only for amy to tell him “tails never came back last night’’#also sonic was a fucking mess. his ass did not care remotely #near the end. tails and espio ended up secretly staying behind while everyone left #eventually amy returned to help them and when tails asked how sonic reacted to the info that he hadn’t returned to mobius #amy said that sonic just stared at her and run off #MY HEART DUDE. I DIDNT KNOW MY HEART COULD BE BROKEN LIKE THAT IN A DREAM #it sounds so lame when i explain it like this BUT IT WAS SO COOL AND I WISH I COULD DO IT JUSTICE AAAAAAAAAA #so upset dude i didn’t want it to enddddd #i gotta write this down in more detail

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brown-little-robin · 8 months ago

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what is UP everyone I just finished my very first one-shot fic EVER!!

#is my homework done NO #did I go to the studio today NO #but yesterday I got to bed 45 minutes earlier than I have been (oh glorious Sleep highly recommend) and today I was POSSESSED #with the spirit of Shigeo Kageyama's mother #I kid you not: I came up with this fanfic idea at 12:15 last night right as I drifted off to sleep #and I got up ate breakfast and banged this whole fanfic out in 4 hours. what HAPPENED to me man #me???? FINISHING a fic??? in ONE GO????#MORE LIKELY THAN YOU THINK (APPARENTLY)#my homework will be fine btw #I am using the remaining time in my day (since I'm not going to the studio... sigh... I do feel bad about that actually)#to Clean My Room and get up to speed on my russian fairy tales class #nothing is due tonight anyway and having a clean room will put me in a better headspace to do more schoolwork next week!#MP100 happened to me...... Category 7 MP100 Moment

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faaun · 8 months ago

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pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

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iniziare · 3 months ago

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Tag drop: Jingliu

#tag drop #jingliu. [ and so i wield my blade to the very end. until the “stars” have been cut down from the sky. this oath: i will never forsake. ]#jingliu: ic. [ trapped in childhood nightmares; she tore off a spread of black silk from the edge of her skirt and covered her eyes. ]#jingliu: inquiries. [ ice waves as sharp as knives spreading like transient flowers in the air. freezing all and everyone they contact. ]#jingliu: countenance. [ when you live to be a thousand years. each day is carrying the weight of a mountain through an interminable maze. ]#jingliu: introspection. [ why do you wield a sword? / this is like asking a poet why they wrote poems. this is the only way for me. ]#jingliu: meta. [ this sword in my hand... naught but a needle compared with the heavenly bodies. how can i use it to cut open a star? ]#jingliu: little notes. [ this is the first time she understands “wanting to live”. before now; she was simply someone ready to die. ]#jingliu: wishes. [ unsheathing this sword without merit is to blaspheme the divine will of the reignbow arbiter; and invite calamity. ]#jingliu: etc. [ to the xianzhou; i am but an abandoned pawn: a wandering swordmaster. ]#jingliu: the sword. [ if a day comes that the quivers run empty; and starskiffs crash who will protect you and i then; or the xianzhou? ]#jingliu: florephemeral sword. [ a sword: 3 feet; 7 inches in length. weighing nothing. and it glowed as if a sliver of moonlight. ]#jingliu: shattered sword. [ a sword: 5 feet in length. weighing 3000 catties. unyielding: mirroring the defiance; hubris of its creator. ]#jingliu: cangchang. [ when devoured; we had to face the truth that our lives were but a grain of sand in the river of time. ]#jingliu: hcq. [ their faces still linger before my eyes like a bygone dream. yet dream will eventually fade. like clouds from the sky. ]#jingliu: memories. [ given the choice between staring at the abyss with a troubled mind and marching blindly: i choose the latter. ]#jingliu: jing yuan. [ in an endless night; there is nothing closer than the bright moon. always hanging in the sky. ]#jingliu: imbibitor lunae. [ even after your rebirth. your techniques haven't changed. / when i move it's like… / … like you never forgot. ]#jingliu: baiheng. [ the things that we said and did together have all been shrouded in a layer of mist. a mist i cannot see through. ]#jingliu: yingxing. [ some are born with unparalleled foresight; intelligence; but make the ill-advised choices at destiny's crossroads. ]#jingliu: blade. [ that broken sword... you don't want to let go of the past. do you; blade? ]#jingliu: yanqing. [ that move was a token of my appreciation; young man. we were fated to meet this day and in days to come. ]#jingliu: v. youth. [ you can use this to vanquish those that took everything from us. ]#jingliu: v. sword champion. [ she knows it all. swords are a part of her body: the intake and release of her breath as she walks. ]#jingliu: v. traitor. [ and i will suffer my eternal punishment. that is the only way to keep the memory of the pain from fading away. ]

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phneltwrites · 3 months ago

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to other writers. Spread the self-love~ 🫶🏻

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it's tempting to pick the long fics because they took the most work and have the most Stuff in them (themes, narrative experimentation, whatever) so i want to think a little more widely about the stuff i've written.

Bad Thing Twice (Not Me, Todd/Black). Ohh I love Not Me so much. What a fantastic show about a group of people taking down the biggest billionaire in Thailand. The main romance is great, the gang is fantastic, it's beautiful to watch... and then right at the end the most perfect best friends to enemies ship appears. otp of two guys who keep trying to kill each other over ideological differences but can't because they love each other so much. So then I wrote 64k to take that friends to enemies and add on a ...to lovers. One of my faves because I got to get into some themes that I love, like how and when to compromise, what to do when the love is real but the situation is hard. Also because I don't see anything glamorous or admirable in being rich and I wanted to wallow a bit in how much money fucks things up.

Say All That You're Feeling (MDZS, wlw wangxian). lesbians!! Genuinely the process for writing this was just coming up with a big list of all the things that I thought would be hot. lwj woodworking. wwx making leather bracelets and then playing with the leather bracelet on lwj's wrist. But then ALSO this fic is about comphet. Stage 2 comphet. Stage 1 is 'is it possible to like girls???' Stage 2 is learning to be ok with experiencing attraction. It's scary to be horny! It's vulnerable. And there's so much baggage around unwanted attraction and being predatory but like. it's beautiful and fun. We all know a useless lesbian who is like 'idk if that was a date or just friends' and I'm always like WELL did YOU say if it was one or the other?? and they never do. Useless. But also we've all been there so this is like, a fond and generous read on that situation (i hope)

Retrieved from Impossibility (Leverage, Eliot/Parker/Hardison). Possibly the most Me fic I've ever written. Android Eliot desperately clinging to his humanity, Parker's fierce sense of what's okay and not, and Hardison being so smart and caring and also into robots. I love books about cognition and humanity and agency and I also am very weak to a trope about heisting a person so they can be free, so.

Falling Til Four in the Morning (MDZS, wangxian). I sure do love a hyperspecific AU. Like this, technically, is a coffee shop AU, however it's set in the 90s and wwx aspires to dotcom and lwj works in radio. I researched so much for this fic and nothing makes me feel better than people in the comments say it captured the vibe of the era. In case anyone reading this has read that fic and wondered: wwx disassociated himself from the Jiangs because he was doing AIDS activism and it was communicated to him that he was shaming them.

Standing in Sharpening Wind (Game of Thrones, Jon/Tormund). A fave cause I think the setting comes through clearly, which is always something I'm working on. I feel cold in the spaces in the sentences. I can't believe I never had any fic writing inclination for this show until the end of S8 pissed me off SO bad. Not even the point of this fic but Brienne/Sansa forever I can't believe that show fucked me so bad. uhh anyway yeah north of the wall vibes, some culture clash stuff, Tormund pining like an idiot, lots of fun for me to write

#i almost put toast fic (earthquake) on here #but i had to turn off comments on that fic #and the response was the final thing that broke my fannishness for mdzs #some people were SO mad at lwj #cause he clearly communicated that it was a one night stand #like i guess it's good that i got people so into wwx's head?#but his complex is not lwj's responsibility #Lwj Did Nothing Wrong #so it can't be a favourite #but im soso grateful many people liked it!#writing thoughts #ask meme

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waldenstationed · 4 months ago

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i know i know i keep yapping about my new bf but literally i cried this morning because he made an effort to make me laugh after i told him that i had a bunch of night terrors last night by crawling over my legs, out of bed and falling on the floor, and then proceeded to tell me that he was going to have a glass of milk but then didn't because "i figured you wanted to use the last of the milk for your latte this morning, so it's in the fridge waiting for you-"

and idk, i haven't felt that SEEN by a partner in forever, what the actual fuck

#ooc.#delete.#i thought today was going to be a rough one because i was going to let it drag on but idk.#that helped me have a different mentality.#i was going to just throw my hair up and put on something simple and easy like sweatpants because i didn't want to dress up for work today.#but then i was like: yeah but when i do dress up i feel so good so im gonna.#so i curled my hair did my makeup real nice and put on my favorite dress with new heels and I CAN CONFIRM IT DOES FEEL GOOD.#idk i am jsut v proud and v happy and v grateful and i wanted to share <3 #also my night terrors were nothing terrible i just thought that aliens were taking over earth and wiping us all off the face of the earth <#NFJDSKNFJASDKFDNASFJDKASFNS.#edit: also the milk thing seems so small but having been with someone who greedily ate my leftovers that iw as going to take with me to #lunch for work??? it felt nice that my partner looked at something and THOUGHT OF ME !!!!!!!!!!!! and proceeded to let me have something #that he knows would make me happy: aka my lattes that i make for myself (and him) in the mornings.

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