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Imagine...
You were once Dutch's ex and he didn't pay attention to you. He loved you but didn't show it well as he was too busy prioritizing the gang. So you leave without him knowing and run into Colm O'Driscoll.
Dutch doesn't know you've become Colm's little spy until a few years later when you save Colm from a hanging and Dutch is surprised to find the rope shot and you there...
#i could actually write this#i kinda want to#i just might#fanfiction writer#fanfiction#fanfic writing#fanfic blog#fanfic#creative writing#dutch van der linde#dutch van der linde x reader#rdr2 dutch#dutch#dutch van der linde imagine#red dead redemption#red dead redemption 2#rdr#rdr 2#rdr fandom#rdr fanfiction#rdr imagine#van der linde gang#imagines
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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[insert poetic title here]
fun fact: this did not start out as isat fanart
(rambling in tags)
#I was actually doing some personal writing and when I read it over a few days later I could only hear it in loops voice#speaking of which#i totally recommend watching ShortOneGaming's playthrough of the game#their voices for the characters match so well in my mind i can't separate them XD#also i have no clue why but this took FOREVER#I had the thumbnailing and paneling done so quickly but my motivation to finish it just left me midway through the third page T-T#Even though this is one of the shorter comics I've made (AND NO COLOUR) it somehow took my like twice as long -3-#loop is so fun to draw!#well actually fun to colour would be more accurate lol#also did you know that a keyknife was an actual thing??#I wanted to check if their was an a visual asset of it in the game only to find out they're just everyday objects you can own???#maybe im just seriously out of the loop lol#and i know the buttons are wrong but i was already mostly finished inking by the time i realized so lets just say its a stylistic choice#isat fanart#isat spoilers#sasasaap spoilers#two hats spoilers#cw body horror#??? i think#comic#artists on tumblr#fanart#digital illustration#digital art#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time spoilers#my art#my comic
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sources: ophelia, act IV, scene V // traci brimhall, dear eros // unknown // suzanne scanlone, promising young women // destiny, fieldplates gauntlets // camille rankine, emergency management // fatima aamer bilal, being unwanted is a language // unknown
#the burden of being known#i miss when i could let people know me without feeling shame#the loneliness of growing up#web weaving#grief#web writing#poetry#web weave#word weaving#words words words#spilled words#spilled poetry#actually bpd#bpd#depressing shit
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unconditionally
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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Jason Todd doesn't know how to love softly. He can't. It's just not in his nature. He died trying to save his mom, despite the fact that she gave him up. That's not a quiet act of love. That’s akin to screaming it.
I love you! I love you! I love you! I will die because of it!
And even when he comes back, he still loves loudly. It's just that love and hate are intertwined. He loves so much that it hurts, and he can't stand it. He loves Bruce and the life he had for such little time, that it hurts and he hates it. He loathes it because he shouldn't care, and yet he does. After everything that's happened, he hasn't forgotten it all.
And then there's you, and he doesn't know what to do. He loves you in a way that hurts, but it feels right.
You feel right.
So it all falls naturally into place. He loves you so much that his body is stumbling to keep up with his heart. You look his way, and you send his thoughts running a mile a minute.
He's not screaming, 'I love you!' over rooftops, but he might as well. He opens doors for you and stands on the right side of the road. He fixes that strange whine in your car and stays up all night with you when you have to study. When you come home after a night out, he's holding your hair back while you're bent over the toilet—not saying anything, but he's there, grounding you. When you kiss him, he grapples you closer to him like you might simply vanish. His eyes crease around the corners when he sees you in the kitchen, humming to yourself. He throws his head back with booming laughter because you bring it out of him.
And when he's out for patrol, he's thinking of you, and it's cost him a few times. He glances down at his watch, and he knows exactly what you're doing at 10 PM. He knows your routine just as intimately as the touch of your fingertips against his skin.
He doesn't buy you flowers, because those die, and chocolates are gone within a week. Maybe less.
So, Jason Todd loves loudly in that private sort of way where only you feel it in all of its intensity. But he loves so loudly that it echoes, and those who know him can see it.
Jason Todd loves loudly because it lasts, and it's heard.
You hear it.
(wc: 425)
© harbours-lighthouse
#i could write so much more about him and the way he loves#the fact that he doesn't exist in my life is actually a hate crime#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd/reader#jason todd/you#red hood x reader#red hood x you#red hood/reader#red hood/you#jason todd#red hood#jason todd drabble#jason todd thoughts
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The whole genetics project of the Bene Gesserit may have been dubbed a failure because Paul wasn't a girl but there was nothing stopping Paul and Feyd-Ruatha acting on that sexual tension they had in both book and film.
Paul could have taken Feyd as a third Consort. Just imagine Paul with his Empress Irulan and his wife Chani sitting at his side and Feyd just sprawled on the dais steps just wearing something scandalous like

You were right Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohiam, wasted potential.
#I mean Paul could have taken Feyd as a third consort#The Imperial Quad#Irulan could write Chani could be Paul's actual spouse#Feyd could just lounge around Arrakeen or Kaitan just looking pretty and doing whatever he wanted#Feyd would get jealous of course#dune#paul atreides#dune 2021#dune memes#dune messiah#frank herbert#children of dune#chapterhouse: dune#duncan idaho#god emperor of dune#feyd rautha#paul x feyd rautha#feyd rautha harkonnen#house harkonnen#house atriedes#house corrino#frank herbert's dune#reverend mother mohaim#Reverend Mother Gaius Helen Mohiam#Bene Gesserit#dune part two#dune part ii#Dune 2
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MAN I WAS ALREADY NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME MAKING THIS BUT THEN I NEEDED TO CHANGE SOMETHING AND THIS PROMPT CAME UP WHEN I TRIED TO SAVE IT YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK I'll JUST DIE
HERE IT IS WITHOUT THE PROMPT IF ANYONE CARES
#ok so yeah after it came up i did edit it a bit so that it'd make more sense since you know.... yooyhun doesnt have a .png extension#um so i was sobbing like a baby while making this actually#shaky lines? that was me trying to draw while my vision blurry af#thats.... that's literally yoojin's baby#im so fucking destroyed bro#they could never make me hate you yoohyun#you were doing the best that you could#actually sobbing as im writing this holy shit#how do you expect me to be nonchalant when they're like this#sctir#han yoohyun#han yoojin#tsctir#so basically the point is i never draw yoohyun for my mental wellbeing actually#its insane#my s class hunters#the s classes that i raised#s classes that i raised#tsctir spoilers#myart
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My page for @sheikahzine; about Impaz's duty to her village, empty of people and full of memories.
[id in alt text]
#legend of zelda#loz#twilight princess#loz tp#i'm still reeling that someone sent me an ask about this one.. that they took the time to find my tumblr and tell me they liked it#it really meant a lot; thank you to anyone that stops to leave comments like that. they make me happy#but yeah! here's the usual symbolism ramble:#i thought it'd be cool to have the 'spirits' flowing one way and the cats walking through them the other way#to kinda show the difference in life inhabiting the village in the past and present#link's face is covered because impaz was just waiting for 'the hero' so his clothes are what matters; not his face#and it (hopefully) gives a surreal and intangible sense to 'the hero' she could only hope would actually show up#you can feel free to interpret the glowy blue sheikah as ghosts or just as memories of the past! i couldn't decide either way#the one on the bottom left is oot impa since she's implied to be the village founder. so i guess she would be a ghost actually?#fan art#my art#project stuff#and ahhh the book-- everyone's stuff is so beautiful!!#especially the writing. some of the fics made me really tear up and some were so fun and clever. i really love them#a lot of them captured the sheer burden of the role of the sheikah; all of the time and grief and doubt#i know i always say this stuff about every project but. the people i get to work with in these are truly so skilled every time
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That was long. Keeping this short. Not sure about this one. Thank you to @/runecatwrites for this [Click] analysis post as it was pretty helpful for the Wild and Wars dialogue (though I think the analysis is better).
#this is very long sorry! but it has to be presented this way.#linked universe#lu wild#lu warriors#lu hyrule#lu legend#comic#sorry if you don't like this one writing simultaneous and interacting plots is very hard! Even though they only impact#one another three times#it got a little weird actually haha anime eyes are very had to draw actually! Especially for me as I never really draw actual eyeballs#also if you've never played zelda 2 you really do not know just how much falling you do in the game.#like we all know of the fact that hyrule walks through walls but he also will just fall through the floor??#dropping from high heights is nothing new for him (and honestly you could make the argument that he doesn't take fall damage lol even when#considering legend and the other 2d boys)
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Posted to Twitter for the first time in 5 years /silly DSFGNFGB So here’s my atttempt at a more finished piece, inspired by Doc’s newest episode :D
Actually recorded a short timelapse for this one too, so that’s below the cut :D
#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#docm77 fanart#docm77#docm#hermitcraft season 10#hermitcraft s10#mcyt#mcyt fanart#hermitblr#art escapades#no clue if there’s a real chance that he could choose it for a thumbnail but I wanted to try my hand at it anyways :D#been a while since I’ve set out to do a quick polished piece and I’m really really happy with it :DD#THE WAY I STARTED COLORING HIM WITH FLESHTONE ETGJSFGBKDGGBJ ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I’VE DRAWN ACTUAL HERMITCRAFT DOC#THE TIMELAPSE IS SO FUNNY#IGNORE THE STUPID NOTES I WAS WRITING TO THE DISCORD CALL EHGSGKBD I WAS MUTED AT THE COFFEE SHOP AND COULDN’T TALK TO MY FRIENDS#WHILE I WAS SHARING MY SCREEN WITH THEM ETJGSFGDFHN#Stupid little bug mannerisms /aff @myself
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everybody moved on i stayed here

#i tried to find Sometjing of this to rb but nothing in my tags and stupid fucking search function so#have a screenshot original post i GUESS#refraining from doing a spam of this video just thinking about dan Thigh for Reasons but#i can still yap in the tags about it#this video still feels like a fever dream#i could write fucking essays on it and the journeys of their lives and how it all led to this moment#of phil actually almost dying and them having this private relaxed holiday to themselves immediately after#and what it means at this point in their lives and how it is possibly the Loudest thing they’ve ever shared about their relationship#even after tour and everything#i think about this holiday every day im so serious#ok sorry back to it#dnp#dan and phil#phan#dannie
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"It's not fair. It's not fucking fair. It should have been me."
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel abel#hazbin hotel cain#cain hazbin hotel#abel hazbin hotel#this is nothing like what cain actually is like with how i write him but#i could not get this out of my head#my art
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He watches him like a ghost
#or like a mother bird#i could write essays on merlins devotion to arthur i fear#but i'm too tired to form any comprehensible thought tonight except holding up a picture of them and crying#the tragedy of bbc merlin strikes yet again#Merlin devotion borders on obsessive if we think too hard#actually no it IS obsessive who are we kidding#which is why i think i really enjoy dark! merthur Au's#by s5 he was not far from reaching that point#but oOH the way they care for each other#merlin#bbc merlin#merthur#merthur fanart#merlin fanart#merlin art#merthur art#bbc merlin fanart#ps. shoutout if you recognise the reference used for this pose!#sketch#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon
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Gravity falls httyd au, is that anything? Transcript under the cut, more thoughts in the tags
Texts says “red” “very protective of Stan, messes with him a lot” “doing much better than in canon bc he isn’t alone + has someone to take care of”
#I have about zero ideas for actual plot#I was thinking fords dragon would be a stormcutter based off his journals#unsure of a name tho#Mabel would have a gronckle named waddles ofc#and for dipper I was thinking a terrible terror#his struggle to accept his dragon being so little and weak would be a parallel to his struggles with manliness#bill I haven’t decided#he’ll either be a character like drago bludvist#wanting to take over the world with an army of dragons and humans#but for a party instead of dragos motivations#or he’ll be a dragon like the red death#but able to telepathically communicate#actually yeah I like that more#hes stuck somehwere (magically?) and he wants ford to free him like in canon#I think Stan would lose a leg like hiccup would#i had no idea for a plot when I started writing these tags but now I do lol#gf#beetlart#hmm au name…#dragon falls au#eh could be better#gravity falls#gravity falls stan#stan pines#stanley pines#httyd au#art#gravity falls au
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cw: spoilers for sylus' beyond cloudfall myth
you don't know just how cruel you are. don’t understand the gravity of the ruin you’ve inflicted upon him. because of you, love is something devastating for sylus.
maybe it was naive to once wish for you to stay by his side until the end of time… but how could he have known just what it would entail?
he saw you in his dreams down in the abyss, visions of gentle touches and a melody that would come to haunt him through lifetimes.
heartless beast, you've tormented him before he even met you. then cursed him before he left. never to die unless it be by your hand, never to be free from you.
wicked creature, hiding behind the facade of an angel. shining like an evening star in the haze of his mind when he slowly lost himself.
beloved sorceress, his undoing. the one who wanted his eye but clawed out his still beating heart instead.
it’s horrible, painfully laughable, that you can look at him without the weight of the past. without the knowledge of what you are to him. of what he is to you.
your dragon.
your sylus.
don’t you remember that you’re the one who gave him that name?
#lnds#love and deepspace#love and deepspace sylus#l&ds sylus#l&ds sylus x reader#sylus#sylus x reader#sylus angst#lads sylus#lads sylus x reader#sylus qin#qin che#i was supposed to write something filthy about dragon sylus yet here we are *sigh*#i may be a smut girlie but i am an angst fan first and foremost#as an insane person i actually think sylus' myth could have been sadder so here i am doing so
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