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sage-green-kitchen · 6 months

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If anyone can decipher the short hand in the margins of my books, I will just assume they are my soulmate

#i cant read that shit half the times #written at 3am #literature #books #light academia #chaotic academia #dark academia #books and reading #aesthetic #annotating books #soulmates

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seriouslagamorph · 3 months

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can the funnybunny enjoyers of the tadc fandom and the funnybunny enjoyers specifically stop making jax and pomni so painfully heterosexual for five seconds. looking at you ao3.

#the amazing digital circus #some people write really good fanfics about the two. and i read them constantly!! but we dont talk abt the rest of them...#making them fall into the “alpha male jax” and “submissive and scared pomni” type of shit.#EVEN GANGLE WOULDNT WRITE THAT.#pomni is not a cinnamon roll who is scared all the time. jax is not secretly nice. scared of being vulnerable? that could work #but SECRETLY NICE? HELL NAH #this sorta thing is why half of jax's fans dipped after watching the second episode #jax is a bitch!!! he can still care abt someone (for example kaufmo. or in this case pomni) while still being an ass.#pomni has a backbone! STOP WRITING HER LIKE A CARBON COPY OF GANGLE #even gangle talks back sometimes you think pomni won't?#the only reason pomni was so paranoid in the pilot was becuz she JUST GOT HERE. and she wants to LEAVE but CANT.#she is NOT LUIGI!11!1!!11 #well. maybe. luigi is brave. but thats not the point #funnybunny #pomni x jax #jax x pomni

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puppyeared · 2 years

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#ive literlly tried everything i laid down on the floor i cleared allm #my tabs ive cleaned my desk i drank water #WHY IT NO DO #I WAS LITERALLY FINE UNTIL READING WEEK STARTED WHAT HAPPENED TO THE GRIND #I know we shouldnt praise grind work culture but this is different i am literally in hell #spewing random shit out ofmy mouth hoping that will get it out. AND THE FURNAE IS GETTIJG FIXED THERES A WEIRDSMELL IN MY ROOM #cant i just open my head and shake it around a few times until soimething happens i hate it here #i want t draw but i also have to do my group project but i also have to do my coding project which i hate but i also h #also fuck group projects i like my teammates theyre cool but i dont want to drag them down just because my brain doesn work with me half th #time #even right now as im typing this out will not solve anything bro im literally gnna stare at this for a good 5 minutes and then do something #that is still NOT WORK #yapping #vent #idk if this is vent im just very very angry at myself

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mihai-florescu · 8 months

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pls don’t be dead. death is not poggers.

Not dead! Just overwhelmed by life, i really need to focus on uni but cant get myself to, interactions here feel too draining/ there are too many people and i dont have the energy to look at my dash or asks anymore, but i figured i should say something anyway. I'll answer some of the asks i had (but not all, im sorry) because if i dont it will make me feel bad and stress me out more, but the most sure way to reach me if there's anything important or just to chat is still through dms here, on discord, or anywhere else you follow me👍👍

#ask #anon #i just dont really have shit to say?#slash i cant make myself care about things or people rn i cant even get myself to care about school #which really should be my priority this semester. but is it? no. ive been reading so many es stories tho instead:)))#you win some you lose some idk #ive been trying to answer this ask for half an hour #time has been feeling weird and i dont know how to fix any of my issues but i think being slightly less online should be good

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todayisafridaynight · 10 months

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sorry if this is out of the blue guys but i think my brain just decided to convert me to being an adachi stan

#snap chats #again technically speaking #ANYWAY NO LISTEN THIS THE FUNNIEST THING EVER AND IM SO VERY CONFUSED #i havent had a dream that wasnt a nightmare about my mom in like Ever and the one time i do has got to be. The Coziest Shit #ive only ever had like one or three rgg dreams and half of them Vaguely had aoki in it so this is the funniest curve ever #you will read my dream summary we are at a sleepover motherfucker #do i even remember exactly what happened NO i just remember being in a lobby with some other bitches #and one of them Other Bitches included adachi. im pretty nanba was also there? iunno cant remember piss #point is i just hung out with adachi for like 80% of the shit. oh my god no i remember ichiban was there #and this is a significant detail for a thing adachi said to me BECAUSE ichiban was there and vaervLKjve #FUNNIEST DREAM OF MY LIFE but also the coziest one but also mr adachi... can we hang out again:(#blaming the fact i had my kirby plush for this one since it's round and soft like he was </3 #ok bye thats all i should be legally allowed to divulge bout my sicko dreams #it was just very funny waking up at the asscrack of dawn and being like Hang On....... What Was That.....#be yeah im an adachi stan now sorry team </3 maybe one day ill dream about one of my guys #tho i cant forget that period where i did just have ttm dreams for like. a week straight.... ok byebye fr now

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ghostwithaheartbeat · 7 months

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Day three of holding everyone’s laundry hostage until my father takes a shower.

The last of my father’s beloved white socks have fallen to the filth. There is little hope, and even less in terms of rest. The battle is ongoing, and it feels often that I am fighting alone. Morale is low; my ally in this conflict, mother, is injured. I long for the days when I can rest. When this war will cease, and all will be clean again. The dishes done, the people bathed, the laundry washed and folded. Alas. We know the struggle will never end.

I am Sisyphus, and my father’s horrid stench and apathy are forever my boulder.

My father is a war profiteer, and I am a hapless young recruit greeting a doomed mission.

Last shower date: December 25th, 2023

#collective tag #it spoke #i’m venting #but like… only half serious #god I am so so so so tired.#I’m so pissed man #at just. everything #this house is falling apart around me and It’s like I can’t do anything #I have begged and begged and begged this fucking man to take a goddamn shower.#I cry about this #because he just doesn’t fucking care #I CANT DO EVERYTHING!!!!!#NOT FOREVER #huge ass ants everywhere? sure. fuck it. why not #piles and piles of laundry? okay. I can do that.#not paying the mortgage until our shit gets shut down and mom and I yell at you?#cooking halfassed meals that are only barely tolerable to you and inedible to everyone else #and then complaining when we don’t eat them despite how much we’ve all told you?#and leaving the whole kitchen to rot?#PISSING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY AND NOT CHANGING YOUR PANTS BECAUSE YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT AND NEVER SHOWERING FOR MONTHS ON END?#I’m just… words cannot describe how tired I am right now.#mom has a broken foot too so I also have to take care of her even more than normal #how did baby me handle this all the time on top of school?#‘yeah sure i can take care of two fucked up angry disabled adults on top of my crippling childhood trauma and schoolwork!’#—>#‘I swear to fucking god I will telepathically make my heart stop beating by sheer force of fucking will if I hear you call for me again’#deepest apologies to any poor soul that reads this #i really just needed to cry and scream and cry harder again until I throw up #and maybe a hug

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ozymoron · 4 months

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starting to think this website is bad for my mental health.....

#⚠️#personal #everytime i come on here and read a post thats discourse its like entering a boss battle against my ocd #like fuck! not again!!#i dont know the answer and my brains yelling at me if i dont reblog fast enough im a bad person and i cant scroll by either causr thatll #make me a bad person whos ignoring what seems to be an obvious problem and now im FUCKED!!!#yeah maybe i could just unfollow discourse people but theyre half the people i follow and also some of my mutuals and like #its not like i dont care about issues its just hard to engage with anything on here when my own mind keeps yelling at me im a horrible #person for not reblogging whatever new queer discourse post has appeared on my dash #its exhausting!#i wish spaces online were more ocd friendly! but they never will be! cause social media thrives off reactionary aggressive shit like #''reblog this or youre a TERRIBLE PERSON'' and even when the op isnt saying that and is like calmly explaining things or at least from what #i can gather from their tone over the internet which is hard to judge that voice is still in my head like people on here will label you a #shitty person for not reblogging certain posts and that scares me and my ocd so bad!#i do care its just hard to want to engage with anything when everyones so angry all the time #yeah people can be justified in that anger but still for people like me who struggle with moral ocd its hard #ive been considering jsut not reblogging discourse but i want to show solidarity with people this discourse is about #i want to show i care cause i do its just hard like #i feel like half the shit i reblog on here is a compulsion #yeah maybe i should spend less time on here but even when im trying to do that i still scroll on my dash for maybe like 5 minutes and ive #already been hit with like 20 different discourse posts #i jsut came on here for gotham fan content idk man

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limielle · 11 months

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idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"

#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game”#do u know where im going w this like #it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation #ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see #on twt especially #is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion”#and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being #like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like #idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also #has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves #a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests #of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ?#and i have seen a LOT of like #'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot #but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid'#like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k???#just words #SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good #without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot #and now i have lots of icarus feelings again #WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry

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arsenicflame · 4 months

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one of the things that really pisses me off about fandom (in general but it seems 10x worse in the ofmd fandom in specific) is some peoples determination to jump to the worst possible interpretation of any scene with a character they dont like in it. its suddenly not reasonable to read the silly jokey scene as it was indended, we have to assume X character is acting in bad faith because why would he not. if you substituted it with any other person you would not see these readings, but because its someone they dont like we can't possibly read it any other way. im all for reading into the text of the show and analysing and extrapolating from it, but some of the takes i have seen seem so out of left field from the actual show that it feels hard to assume the people writing them are doing it for any reason other than blind hatred of a character.

#vague bc im not trying to start shit i just. am so tired of this!!!!!!#also a rant because i have seen 3 posts with just the most godawful takes in them im tired!!!!! im not even seeking it out #like if you want to read that line as racist then i guess i cant stop you #but have you considered the half a dozen more straightforward readings i could come up with in the time it takes you to say its racist #but thats just me #nyxtalks #i feel like i should put a critical or canyon tag on this or whatever so its blacklist friendly but also i dont want it to get picked up #im not trying to get into arguments over this im just trying to let out the shit thats eating at me #im fully down to hear good breakdowns of the text. im not here to pretend izzy did 0 things wrong #and i can acknowledge i read some of his actions from a good faith leaning angle.#idk its just. an incredibly frustrating thing to see #and dont get me wrong. ive seen it in other fandoms too. i can think of one in particular with super heavy bashing fics #from both sides in a way that felt. unfair to the narrative #AND. i see it with ed too. i see so many fics that are just so mean to ed out of nowhere.#and i hate it there too #i dont know #ill probably delete this later #(maybe this is just me keeping my mind busy)

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toastsnaffler · 4 months

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oh wow just saw flatmate messaged saying another friend passed smth on like oh okay. I didn't realise he went too u didn't say. in fact none of u said anything to me so that's great

#he lives hours away thats a lot of travel just for drinks #when she asked me she said it was her + one other person. going out for drinks in evening.#but clearly she took the day off work bc ghosts dont do laundry. so it was a whole day trip. so why tell me it was just drinks #unless she just wanted a good excuse for me not to come. okay 👍#i cant even make myself mad abt it like fair enough man. i get it.#and if last weekend is anything to go off she probably wont ask me at all in the future #well as long as they have fun it doesnt matter i guess. im tired of feeling like im just intruding in everyones lives #and everyone fucking lying like what u say doesnt line up with how u act i can tell its not real im not that fucking stupid #ive dealt with this so many times before average autistic experience im tired of naively believing ppl and then the rug being pulled #sorry for being the way i am and for wanting things and for trying to take up space i give up its not worth it anyway #at least this is giving me smth to feel shit abt instead of just formless malaise. makes it easier to deal with that way #anyway. just need to get my shit enough together to leave the house by 3 so i can pick up this stuff for work #and i can do most of my other chores tmr so thats fine #i hate how much fucking time i waste feeling awful. no wonder other ppl have time to watch n read n create n whatever so much more than me #half of my fucking life is spent in my head trying and failing to emotionally regulate im so so sick of it #i wish i never had to think a single thought again and maybe id be happy #jesus fucking christ. well i need to leave my room soon bc i need to pee im not depressed enough to piss in a bucket just yet #hope i never get to that stage again amen uni was pretty fucking dire #.vent #hate weekends so fucking much what a waste of free time

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vitamin-zeeth · 4 months

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For my English course this year I wrote an essay on the debate of fine art vs contemporary art and I haven't reread it since I sent it in I wanna see if I can find this shit cause I have no clue what I ended up stating as my opinion

#it was crazy how many people i mentioned it to immediately started shitting on contemporary art #like id explain what i meant by fine and contemporary art and the majority of people would instantly talk about how ridiculous #they thought contemporary art was and how it wasnt real art and shit #my english teacher told me i actually changed his mind about the subject and like ultimately all i did was fairly compare the two #i didnt favour either one i gave them both pretty much equal time i think lots of people just havent actually considered contemporary art #at any length before yk they just go well this is art cause its pretty and theyve painted a thing and i know what it is #and this is pretentious bullshit because i dont think its pretty and i cant tell what its supposed to be by looking at it #i went to a modern art museum recently with my family and there wasthis one exhibition that was an indoor garden thing #and they all kinda went whats the point of that its just plants it doesnt even make a picture and moved on pretty fast #but all the plants had little signs next to them explaining what they were and why they were significant and oh my god #it had a kind of motif of the hanging gardens of babylon but it was mostly about war specifically palestine and the effects the war has had #fuck man. i spent a solid hour in there that shit really fucked me up. i love art.#there was another room filled with traditional south american stuff i think it was?#there was this fascinating film and all these coolpaintings and models but there was also a tiny little boom you could read #and it was of mayan love charms and holy shit Tumblr wouldve loved those i think i have a picture of my favourite page #it was like 'i want to join myself to him. i want this man to be my other half'#mmmm. anyway #tag essay #i love love love talking about art i could sit and talk about art for literally hours #wet floor sign

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anotheruntitledsong · 6 months

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i did like the hidden palace but (SPOILER if anyone hasn't read it?) i'm genuinely so annoyed at how Arbeely is handled like... I wish i could be sad but i'm just fucking irritated. I was overly invested in him and that's def why but i just feel like they did him dirty