#i cant get over the adoption tweet

[forzaleclove]

*Leo jumping and running around*

Charles: sometimes I wonder what it would've been like if I had a cat

*Oscar sleeping peacefully on the couch*

Charles: ...I'm adopting this one

[sadisthetic]

alarmingly long hanahaki au jaya. i hurt jay quite a bit in this. this is a product of 4 straight days of insanity. im SO ILL. ABOUT JAYA. IF YOU MAKE IT TO THE END OF THIS. I COMMEND YOU. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME IN ADVANCE.

once again adapted from a twitter thread. its. like 165 tweets long. yeah. yeah. im lazy so its gonna be mostly copy pasted and lightly edited so if it sounds like im talking to myself I WAS. AND I WAS DOING IT FOR FOUR DAYS. 

anyways heres the start.

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so hanahaki.... jaya.... season 3...... jay is absolutely the guy who gets hanahaki theres absolutely no doubt about that like absolutely none. but the world building tho... how should i handle it.... i want it to be canon compliantish. and more importantly. when should i give him symptoms. what would be most interesting

sure. i could give him hanahaki after he find out about nyas perfect match. but haha

what if he get petals earlier tho.

he doesnt understand why at first, why jay starts coughing up petals, he and nya are dating and in love. there shouldnt be any reason for it. its not bad yet so he just ignores it really hard or thinks he mustve gotten a weird strain because theres now way he has normal hanahaki because theres No Way! haha

so when he hears the truth there in his parents trailer, the roots around his lungs constrict and he cant tell the pain apart from his heart breaking in two. his chest hurts so much and he sees cole and just goes ballistic

just imagine. what thats like for him. hes mad but its a secondary response to the heartbreak. hes had signs literally inside all along but to actually find out? like this? jay cant take it

haha. the double date would suck so much HAHA. he holds it in through the whole duration of the movie but when its over he vomits full flowers in the bathroom

ive been mulling over the worldbuilding of hanahaki in this au of mine. i thinking i want it to be a departure from the standard hanahaki worldbuilding thats in fics. just slightly. mostly regarding the fatality and maybe treatments........ i think i want jay to have hanahaki the whole time until skybound. and so i think im gonna have to make hanahaki nonlethal. but kinda like chronic pain. if you cant let go of that love

im partially adopting another fics worldbuilding but i like the idea you can recover on your own if you simply fall out of love. its easier and less damaging the earlier you give up on the love. the roots atrophy and fade and theres not that much scarring. you can easily recover

but you know...... its jay. hes not gonna let it go. he cant. he loves nya.... i think he hides his affliction tho... because he knows nya doesnt want to get back together. and he doesnt want to look you know.... pathetic? desperate? overly clingy?

“you still hasnt gotten over nya?” “dude come on.” “give it up.” he doesnt want to hear it from the others. because he doesnt want to. 

but also he wants to save face in front of nya. hes scared itll drive her even further away. his heart cant take more of that. this distance hurts enough

so for months.............. he suffers the pain of one sided love. quietly. pretending that nothing is wrong and that jay is okay with them just being friends. of course jay could choose to surgically remove the hanahaki.... but he doesnt want to do that

i think im gonna keep a bit of the amnesia worldbuilding standard fics have. but im not gonna have it so that artificially removing the hanahaki makes you forget the person you love. no.... just the love that you felt. i think jay doesnt want to lose his love for nya..... also not being able to fall in love with nya scares him. hes just that fucking attached to her. he has it bad man. dude has attachment issues. hes so clingy. 

anyways. jay chooses to suffer. because hes that badly in love

jay self medicates on over the counter cough suppressants thats meant for the cold and more normal sickness. works surprisingly well. not ideal tho. he also fills his pockets with cough drops and sometimes makes himself sick when he accidentally eats too much on bad days

he gets sick of them. the sweet icky taste and menthol nausea but he doesnt have that many better ways to deal. its just a temporary fix too. considering that coughing is his body's natural way to get rid of the petals. and hes just letting them sit in his lungs

periodically he has to stay hunched over a trashcan to clear out the petals and yes its an awful experience every time. it becomes routine. the petals scratch his throat on the way out and he gets into tea to soothe the irritation. he becomes a regular at mistake's

in general, his ability to breathe starts to decline and he gets winded so much more easily. the plants in his chest limit his airflow and also steals the oxygen from his lungs. his chest is tight always and aches like theres thick needles lodged in his chest. those are the roots

usually its manageable. but it becomes harder to fight. battles usually end up leaving him wheezing. one of the guys teases him about it. that hes slacking and getting out of shape. he sidesteps that convo tho and brushes them off. he certainly cant be honest

im a sadist so im gonna making him pass out after one fairly vigorous battle. one which he has to push himself harder to make it out alive. so hard that his lungs cant keep up with the rest of his body and even when he gets himself to a safe corner or clearing, no amount of breaths is enough and he just blacks out. he eventually comes to a worried face shaking him awake. ill figure out who and when this is set later. either way they just assume jay got knocked out even though they cant find any wounds. theyre relieved he seems fine

but that was very bad. super duper bad for jay tho. he cant let that happen again. but these kinds of things are out of his control tho. but he just has to deal.

things comes to a head in skybound. i think itll be most dramatic if nya finds out in the lighthouse. after she rescues them and they successfully flee. when they settle and in moment jay cant hide he coughs out a gross mass of petals

and nya has a slow step by step realization of the implications. but before all that happens tho. nadakhan. i dont think he knew jay had hanahaki when he first targeted him. maybe. this point might change

but as it is, for the thought i have, nadakhan learns when jays meds wears off, and hes not even able to pop in a cough drop his mouth. and he vomits a messy slurry of petals onto the wooden floorboards of the deck. its EXTREMELY FUNNY to nadakhan, he mocks jay for it! he has hanahaki! that is so tragic! to think jay has known his love was utterly unrequited and yet he tried so hard to win her back. but it was all a hopeless, desperate, pathetic endeavor. so nya truly doesnt love jay, hm? so shes single and free for the taking. no hard feelings, then, when they marry

up on the ship, he coughs up so many flowers. he doesnt get enough sleep from the persistent coughing. and passes out multiple times, for a collection of reasons. from being knocked out, exhaustion, apnea, running out of breath after several matches of scrap n tap

i think it would be really sad and pathetic if there one incident where he chokes on a flower. and he cant cough it out and he thinks gonna die for reals. a pirate helps him out only to add insult to injury (and to torment him more to pull a wish out of him, hes better off alive than dead)

when hes rescued by his friends, theres no flowers around so none of his friends suspect. jay manages to keep the petals in his mouth, catching them behind his teeth, and swallows them back in. he coughs pretty bad but they all think he just got really sick. he looks awful after all

but thats of course only up until the lighthouse. ive been contemplating about how nya handles it all...... how she feels......... what is the most satisfying route here is much more trickier to figure out than just a fixit skybound au....... 

feelings are trickier and much more loaded........ the revelation certainly isnt going to be an easy thing for nya to swallow..... but lighthouse talk has so much potential....... jay might be honest for once..... because he has to be.... forced to be!

ngl lighthouse part of skybound has been super elevated in my head by favorite skybound fic so my perceptions of it and my own take on it for this au is probably going to be influenced by that. not in the sense im copying scenes but in the sense of like. oh yeah writer IS right, lighthouse ep TOTALLY has the massive potential for big feels and honesty. and revealing trauma/hurt feels. anyways. let me talk a bit about nya and the little dilemma i have.....

so like...... nyas part in the story is so tricky to handle.... because she entirely determines the ending of this story. much more so than in the original canon.....

because the crux of this story is the love between nya and jay... the lack of thereof from nya and the undying love from jay. hanahaki. unrequited love. the story is not just about jay making mistakes and being flawed as a person and being tested as a person and learning and growing his mistakes

in this au, the focus is specifically on his love for nya and how hes willing to hang onto it for so long despite how much it literally hurts him. love hurts. its barely even worth it. but to jay it is. this story is driven by his love. however how it ends all depends on nya.....

and heres the thing.... i know the way the "romance" in skybound was resolved was..... whats the word..... forced? it was insufficiently developed.... i cant recall the exact word i wanna use but it was just. tacked on. nyas change of heart kinda came out of nowhere....

nyas line in the lighthouse before she pushed jay through the portal is honestly inconsistent with her characterization that season up to the point. shes really didnt seem like she loved jay back at all. its entirely because the writers didnt write in those feelings

it takes a bit of creative thinking and interpretation to make jays and nyas get together at the end of the season work. you have to fill in the gaps of the romance yourself if you want it and want it to make sense and have it be satisfying

what i do for my fix it interpretation of canon is that nya didnt actually stop loving jay entirely in s3 breakup arc. instead i choose to think is that nyas desire for independence simply grew stronger enough to eclipse her love for jay

also i like to think nya liked jay more casually than he loves her so it was easier to break off their relationship. if youve seen my dream divorce ot3 slowburn get together break up get together fic (concept) (that only exactly two people know what im talking about). and also string of fate au. ESPECIALLY IN STRING OF FATE AU. then you know. my take on them. ANYWAYS.

the problem i have for this au is that i cant do that. i cant use that same interpretation to have them get together again. it doesnt work. because in this au.........nya really did fall out of love for jay. and having them get together again just like canon isnt.......satisfying

its tricky..... because to make nya fall in love with jay now after she learns he has hanahaki..... if im not careful ill be doing the same thing that the writers are doing. writing a careless romance solely because i want them to be together

and i DO want them to be together again.... but it requires a considerate approach if i really do want it. here..... the situation is this..... nya finds out jays has truly been in love with her for months STILL. and its bad enough he got hanahaki. i think she might feel uncomfortable about that. its unwanted love you know? being the object of someones desires still after you long broke up with them. she has moved on but jay hasnt? its super awkward for her...... but also...............

jay knows that. nya isnt stupid. she realizes that jay knows that and thats exactly why he kept it from her in the first place....... shes also uncomfortable because... jay is suffering because of her. she broke it off with him but its not like she doesnt care about jay 

no she still does. jay is still someone important to her. hes not just some ex. hes still a friend.... and her heart aches seeing jay suffer. her heart twists realizing that jay has been suffering this whole time on his own and she had no idea.

and it was out of consideration for her. its not entirely her fault jay has hanahaki..... but also she does feel a little bit responsible. sure jay messed up a lot recently and all of it is because he wanted to get back together with her and she doesnt like that.... but also..

learning about it put some things into perspective for her. like shes uncomfortable but jay has been hurt and is genuinely hurting still and she doesnt want to hurt him more and she wants to be gentle. so she starts thinking first. before she proceeds to deal with feelings

and so she starts really thinking about it. she was mad. she was mad jay kept so many secrets from them and endangered them all. and that he was STILL attached to her after all this time. shes still a little mad about that but also its subsiding a bit now....

if she really thinks about it.... jay had been respecting their break and her boundaries up until recently. in fact she only found out now, months later. jay actually did do a pretty good job of hiding those feelings. and not only that... his hanahaki.

that. she doesnt fucking understand how jay kept that a secret. ITS HANAHAKI. HOW DID HE HIDE IT FROM EVERYONE. ITS THE MOST VISIBLE DISEASE. maybe she did notice jay smothering a cough or clearing his throat every so often but to think it was hanahaki this entire time......

....when did it start even...? she can only assume that it was around their breakup. they eventually have a talk. a really important one that jay cant run away from. it takes a bit for jay to be fully honest and tell her that he started spitting petals when they were still together

she becomes mortified by that fact. and what that means. and she gains a bit of perspective of how the perfect match debacle looked from jays perspective. she really was.... a terrible girlfriend during all that huh.... to nya it felt like a clean break..... but to jay.... it left him pretty raw. 

it didnt hit nya until know how much jay was hurt by the breakup even without considering the hanahaki. jay still loves her despite her cheating on him and making him fight over her because she couldnt decide? it seems that jay doesnt even care about that. doesnt even think she was a terrible girlfriend at the end of their relationship when she very much was. something is deeply wrong with jay (he loves her too much). jay hadnt been the best...... he had been really selfish and self centered. esp with the whole wish thing

but she comes to a realization that she was being really self centered too. its unfair for her to criticize jay for that when the very beginning of it all was because of nyas own selfishness. its unfair for jay to break up over something so stupid like a match making machine

of course part of it was still on jay. he should have still let go. you cant have a relationship in which only one person is in love. but.... she couldve gone about it in a better way. a way that wouldnt have hurt jay so much at the very least

he has apologized for everything involving nadakhan and keeping secrets.... maybe taking on more blame than he should.... nya owes jay an apology too. so at the very least she gives him a proper one. for her own faults

but she doesnt know how to fix jays hanahaki tho...... and to be honest? neither does jay. he tells her this. despite everything he didnt want to force her to love him. he didnt want to guilt her back into a relationship. he didnt want her to give him her pity also

thats part of the reason why he kept it a secret. he wanted to *win* her back. make himself more appealing so that nya would love him again. jay was super misguided in his approach and didnt understand why exactly nya broke up with him in the first place

but thats what he wanted... nyas genuine love. (im ignoring a tiny chip of canon for this. or im considering it a moment of weakness (jays dismay when he learns he cant wish for love). creative interpretation is that seeing his future in the mirror made him too hopeful and a bit desperate) anyways. jay is a hopeless romantic. who is extremely lovelorn. also hes chronically ill like literally. cut him a little slack

anyways anyways. i dont want nya to just get back together with him right after finding out about his hanahaki. its bad romance. it wont taste good. it wont be genuine......... 

as it is...... of course theres multiple options................ but they arent all happy. and i do feel like. a story like this does need a happy ending..... it would be too sad if it remains unresolved. im just gonna talk about the ends that kinda suck first

most unsatisfying but technically still very plausible end: a standstill. nya cant do anything to help. she wants to but she cant return jays love. jay understands but decides keep living with the hanahaki. the two of them keep living in this awkward status quo, knowing.

eventually jays hanahaki gets too much for him to handle and he either dies or nya/the others take matters into their own hands and without his consent, send him to surgery bc hes dying. unethical maybe but they want him to live

its super awkward after that.... but things return to normal and they all forget about it except for nya, where it lays heavy in her mind forever. if he dies its just tragedy. i dont want this kinda of end

a potential good neutral end however can be one in which jay tries his best to simply move on. try to process his one sided love into something... different somehow. because he accepts that nya has fallen out of love with him. he has long accepted that.

but they talk........... and a lot happens (being pushed into the portal, the rest of skybound). and jay has a realization too. nya may not love him in the same way.... it doesnt mean she doesnt love him. she still cares deeply.....

she cares about him a lot as a friend. that love is still worth something. its..... its more than what jay thought nya felt about him. it honestly felt like their relationship get demoted all the way down back to acquaintances, at best coworkers. not technically. they were still friends. but jay felt a yawning distance between them after the break up. its one part nya distancing herself from jay after that whole disaster. its also another part jay keeping his distance so that nya doesnt learn about his hanahaki

whatever talk between them was either just ninja business, surface level casual conversations, or small talk. it was awkward but only when they dwelled on it... (and jay did dwell on it) but in the lighthouse they actually talk Talked about things... about them. and jay learns

nya sacrifices herself to save jay in the lighthouse and he realizes that he still matters to her. the everpresent tightness in his chest doesnt leave but it.... loosens. and he breathes easier for the first time in a while

he still wishes that nya and him could get together romantically. but something about his feelings changes. he feels less lovelorn somehow. his heart still yearns a little. but somehow he feels more okay. he hurts less

and once time turns back and jay and nya share this secret and finally properly reconcile after everything is done. the pain in his chest abates more and more as time goes on. hes not sure if hes exactly cured. but he can live without hurting now somehow

he learns how to live with his unrequited love. and more importantly he doesnt need his love to be requited anymore. because love is love you know? she doesnt love him romantically but she does still love him. and thats still good

they were always a little mismatched in their feelings for each other anyways. jay isnt settling for lesser. nyas love for him now is just different not less. and jay accepts that. and hes content that they managed to fix them. their relationship. hes okay and happy

his own feelings... he doesnt know if they changed themselves also like nyas has. he doesnt feel like his love has changed. but the nature of it mightve become more ambiguous. and it doesnt matter anyways. he loves nya and that will never change

hmmmm i think this became less of a neutral end and more just an unrequited good end. and accidentally poured so much aro juice into it oh my god? i had a good requited end thought up kinda also before this end i just talked about the end first bc i wanted to talk about requited end last

i kinda came to really like good unrequited end........ im still gonna talk about good requited end tho. i kinda want opinions about which end is narratively the best..... even though i only have a confident audience of two

i think requited end is a bit more dramatic..... nya really doesnt know what to do. she broke it off with jay. she wants to fix him. she really wishes he didnt get hanahaki for *her* of all people....

whats so great about her anyways that he would live like this for months on end be just ok with it. she thinks if she was in jays shoes she would long moved on. she doesnt get what is worth the pain and risk

either way she doesnt want to date him out of pity. she distinctly has a feeling that wouldnt actually fix anything. and probably jay doesnt want that too. but also she cant fabricate love

she feels suffocated by just the prospect and it reminds nya about why she dumped jay in the first place. this whole thing reminds nya why she dumped him. jays love was always too much for her. smothering. of course he gets hanahaki. why is she even surprised. if anyone would, its jay. she doesnt want to resent him for it though. hes hurting because of it. and he spared it from nya up to this point and she only found out because jay couldnt help it. who knows how much longer he wouldve kept this secret

but as is. she doesnt know what to do. so they stay in the lighthouse awkwardly together. they were honest with each other but now what? .....actually. curing hanahaki can come later. they gotta focus on saving their friends and all of ninjago first before they can deal with them

HHMMMMMMMM....... i think despite knowing about how much jay love her.... she doesnt really... Get It. HOW he loves her i mean. quantity vs quality. when they were first dating, to her it was really casual. in my mind jay was first attracted to nya shallowly too

but then he fell deeper. more genuinely. and that contributed to a greater discrepancy between their level of affection. nya for the most part has been believing that jays obsession with her is because hes just too clingy and attached. and like he is. but.... its like the product of the intensity of the emotion you know? his love for her manifested in jay in a way that put nya off a little. contributed to the reason why nya dumped him all those months ago.... having a heart to heart gave her some perspective on what it has been like for jay but

thats different from Understanding you know? comprehending... seeing the depth... anyways... so jay had been acting too chivalrous up to that point right? and then nya learns about jays hanahaki and chalks up his behavior to him overcompensating...... a symptom even

nya thinks its just jay trying his best to win her back. she doesnt really have that many reasons to think otherwise. its whats consistent. this all happened because jay wanted them to get together again. whatever, she has decided that shes going to forgive jay for all that, needless acts of chivalry included. even tho. she really doesnt like that. calls it a force of habit and puts it aside. for more Important Things like taking care of jay and taking nadakhan Down

but then they get found and theyre scrambling fast to prepare for the attack and counterattack. they manage to fall into a frantic but familiar routine of collaborative repairs and fixes and asides from jays incessant coughing reminding nya that things are pretty awful.... its nice

she doesnt get to feel that way for long tho. their haven is raided and their prep wasnt enough, theyre struggling, theres way too many pirates and its just the two of them against what feels like an army and theyre on the way to losing and nadakhan is nowhere to be found

they try to stick together to have each others backs but they get separated anyways and they start doing even worse. im changing up the action scene btw. nya manages sweep a bunch of pirates away but doubloon is one of the ones that could actually put up a fight

meanwhile jay isnt fairing very well and maybe worse because he was already injured and also his hanahaki makes it really hard. he fights for his breath trying to hold his own. he gets fucking smashed by dogshank through the floor onto the stairwell below. all the air is knocked from him

and he legitimately cant breathe for a solid moment. hes wheezing and he coughs hard enough to vomit. he doesnt have his breath back when he looks up and sees nya panicking at the sight of him and shes distracted and jay sees doubloon take an opening

jay doesnt even breathe when he instantly fires a lightning bolt from prone towards doubloon. and hes already up and sprinting to nyas side to fill her blindspot.

hes on the cusp of an asthma attack, he can feel it, but he doesnt have the time to worry about it (as if he had any control over it) his chest is tight and his breaths are too shallow and it hurts but he pushes through it to protect nya. hes slipping though

assaulted from all sides, between doubloon and dogshank and all the pirates, jay knows theyre going to lose. mostly because of him. hes dragging the two of them down and why did he ever think the two of them had the chance and why did he ever think that nadakhan would even come (hes not gonna this turned into a full divergence now) and even if he wasnt flagging hard now, he can feel it his chest that hes going to pass out if this goes on for any longer and leave nya to fend for himself and get them both captured and he cant let that happen.

nya is at her wits fucking end she can feel them losing too and nya refuses to think about how at this rate both of them are going down, but she wont let them. but, among the harsh clangs of weapons, the rush of floods, and the cracks of lightning at jays fingertips,

through all this discord, at this proximity she can hear jays struggled breaths and its the most terrifying sound in the world. then suddenly shes shoved to the side and hears a crash and a cry and when nya looks jays sliced through by doubloons sword

then something glows by her feet and nya realizes what jay did. he broke the teapot. clutching at his wound, jay gives nya a strained smile. he says "sorry" and kicks her in before she can object. before the portal closes she watches jay take a stand only to be subdued

she lands in the junkyard with a bad tumble. she just lies in the dust and dirt in shock. it happened too fast. jay sacrificed himself for her? jay risked himself even though he was the one who needed protecting and got himself hurt to pull that stunt.

and now hes in their clutches again. rage begins to well up. why! why?! why did jay do that?! is he stupid! there had to be a better way, they couldve escaped together and regrouped! tears begin to well up as well. nya gets up and smashes a bunch of junk

jays parents come out after that. and nya realizes where she is for the first time and forces herself to calm down. she sorts out her feelings over ednas soup after shes pulled into the trailer..... 

at first she doesnt get it. shes too upset to think about it. she vents to jays parents about what he did. "why did he do that?" and it was meant to be a rhetorical question for herself but edna gives her an answer thats way too simple.

"because he loves you." 

and nya is hit with another rude realization. shes been having too many of those

jay..... loves her. deeply. truly loves her genuinely, more than he cares about himself. its not just lingering attachment. its a deeper, more sincere love than nya could ever fathomed. nya knew how much jay loved her. but at the same time she didnt. she didnt get how he loved her

she feels a way about that. all this time jay loved her this bad? bad enough to catch hanahaki, bad enough to keep his hanahaki, bad enough to hide it. bad enough to *wish* for her love, to suffer, ang to get hurt for her...

she thinks he loves her bad enough to die for her. she really feels a way about that. her heart starts beating fast. she doesnt want to put together why. she kinda wants to cry.

why was she so mean to him... sometimes he deserved the little things he had coming but why was she so harsh. why did she fall out of love with him..... well she knows but also.... she was really unfair to him huh. jay wasnt perfect and he was too much but... she doesnt know.

all she knows is she feels a lot of regrets right now.. and moved by jay what did for her... along with this third unplaceable feeling. 

(she started falling in love again)

its a slow gradual thing tho. nya doesnt place it immediately. she doesnt think she wanted to after she broke up with him herself. didnt even think it was possible.

but eventually nya feels very embarrassed by it when she realizes. because 1) oh my god shes falling in love with him after falling out of love and dumping him? is she shameless? and also 2) flustered because shes For Reals in love this time now beyond the casual kind of love she held for him before. this realizaton doesnt happen anytime soon. probs a good amount of time after everything resolves

so for narrative purposes i swapped jays and nyas roles for this last part of the story only. i think its safe to say jay is not treated kindly when he reboards the ship. in fact i think theyre even crueler for letting nya get away. before he was just roughed up to play with him

a form of coercion to get him to make his last wish. this time theyre taking it out on jay as punishment. nya assembles a rescue party like jay does in canon and somehow rescues jay and she hates the state that she finds him hes in

i think he'll be easier to rescue than nya because hes not like.... nadakhans bride. but wait..... WAIT NO IT COULD HARDER BECAUSE THEY COULD SET HIM UP AS BAIT FOR NYA TO COME GET HIM.... FUCK CURSE MY WHUMP DRIVEN BRAIN!!!!!!!!!! ITLL BE SO MUCH HARDER TO GET HIM LIKE THIS BUT— 

THE IMAGE OF JAY BEING TIED/STRUNG UP IN PLAIN VIEW.... fuck. figuring it out is too hard and i dont even need to figure it out for the romance do i like goddammit. fucking sequencing..... maybe they get their friends out of the sword first.... somehow.

as for how they beat nadakhan..... i havent thought up a good way. i dont think it should go the same way as canon. i want nya to actually have her agency and not take it away again after ive given it to her. 

i however dont know what jays wish should be. thats like so hard to figure out. this end is a significance divergence from canon. oh also jay has been thoroughly gagged so he cant say his wish. and also maybe because the pirates got sick of his coughing. nadakhans goal for torturing jay has changed.

he doesnt want him to break and submit and wish himself away anymore. he has better use in making sure nya comes to him. well he can still break him. its extra motivation. an incentive for nya to be a bit more faster and careless in her desperation to save him. he just shuts jay up also.

also im a sadist. anyways back to defeating nadakhan.... its a little tough ngl! for me and for nya! because this story has diverged so considerably. it cant have the same climax as canon. it just doesnt work. not even when theyre roleswapped

nya cant make a wish. she doesnt have anymore wishes. or hmm maybe she does have one left like jay does in this timeline but i dunno.... technically i could do that bc nya used up her wishes in only stupid ways so its not that hard of a change. 

it changes their game plan in the lighthouse just a bit but in this version nadakhan doesnt even show up so story wise its a nonfactor. they both couldve made a wish and stopped things. but they dont get the chance to do that.

but either way nya having a wish is an option, not something thats set in stone. also i think nya gets a hold of the venom. either jay had passed it to her when he pushed her into the portal or it stayed on his person and was confiscated and nya obtained it because clancee told her about it. which ever works. man is jay doing rough in this au. hes suffering so many consequences....i think as hes bound and helpless, hes gonna have a lot of thoughts... and a lot of regrets

he wishes he never kept secrets, he wishes he didnt make things worse.... i think he wishes nya doesnt come and rescue him. because if she does and she gets captured and nadakhan marries her for infinite wishes then itll all be his fault. again. because nya risked herself for him

so jay hopes nya doesnt come. he wants her to be safe even if it means hes forever captured. its better than the worst case scenario. 

but a tiny tiny tiny part of jay that is wishful does hope that he is rescued. because hes weak. he selfishly wants nya to save him

he shouldve learned by now that his desire for nya doesnt do him any good. but the part thats terrible and in love still wishes for better. he wants to be saved. he wants to be forgiven. he wants to fix things. he doesnt want to hurt anymore.

he thinks he can accept nya never loving him again. but he wants to stop aching in his chest. but he cant let go of his love. at this point its a part of who he is. so even though hes resigned to suffer and part of him foolishly hopes. he wishes

but jay doesnt get it. nya HAS forgiven him. she wishes she has never hurt jay like she did and if she could she would take it back. shes determined to fix things one way or any other. she has to save him or shes the worst. jay never deserved *all* of this.

once she saves him shes going to fix them. somehow.

and somehow they do. with a wish i cannot fucking figure out so SPARE ME. but i think... they dont go back in time. things arent undone and theres damage everywhere. so much repairs to be done. and theres a start to everything

i think i forgot to mention but at the end of unrequited good end, which honestly i think friendship end is a more fitting name, jay and nya hug at the end of skybound when time rolls back. no kiss. i think the same happens at the end of requited end too. time doesnt roll back but they have moment... hug.. but still no kiss. not yet. nya hasnt realized her feelings are changing. actually she might it takes a bit for them to develop. jay and nya start having a very honest relationship with each other tho

nya doesnt want to ignore jays hanahaki and jay comes to a similar conclusion as friendship/unrequited end. he realizes nya still cares for him A Lot as a friend, she cared so much she risked everything to walk into nadakhans trap guns blazin. and he doesnt want to jeopardize their friendship by distancing himself.

he wants things to be normal between them despite his hanahaki. and the funny thing is that... in this end, jays hanahaki gets somewhat more manageable too.... but its for a different reason in this au. lol. lol. because his feelings are becoming requited.

his hanahaki isnt suddenly gone one day because nyas feelings are so ambiguous tho. and when she does finally realize that shes fallen for jay. she actually goes into a bit of denial. for a mix of reasons. 

its not because nya doesnt want to cure jay of his hanahaki. she just didnt think thats a thing that can happen. falling in love again. she was also so very sure that she didnt have feelings for jay anymore before so its also a pride thing she has going on. subconsciously, she doesnt want to take things back because shes stubborn.

and its also one part nya feeling like shes doing jay a little bit dirty somehow (her brain making her overthink in a twisted way) and that she wouldve been toying with jays feelings if she returns them now. after all this time has passed.

is she that fickle? (its not her being fickle) and nya cant quite place why she has feelings for jay again. nya feels like jay probably deserves someone better than her, someone who hasnt hurt him so bad.

nya has trouble understanding herself so she thinks shes being flaky and worries her feelings are flaky also and she doesnt want to hurt jay again with such uncertain feelings. i am making nya feel so fucking complicated and conflicted. FEELINGS ARE OFTEN AS SUCH!!!

but despite nya's internal turmoil, her feelings for jay are very genuine. she might think they are arbitrary but thats not quite the case. well her love is arbitrary as any other love is. but anyways. she fell again because jay did win her over, not even when he was trying to.

his sincere love... his dedication. when nya saw it in a different light it was attractive to her. she appreciates that jay loves her the way he does now. also before (the breakup) her love for jay was a bit shallow. it was just that casual. but now what she feels for jay is more genuine. and more equal. eventually she sorts it out. there might be some of romantic drama to get her to get there though. a bit more accidental hurt.

i had the tangential thought that jay might tell nya that his hanahaki is getting better causing her to go "on no". jays finally letting go of his feelings over for her and nya doesnt want to mess that up. hes finally recovering when she catching feelings again?

of course this would happen to her. shes glad but shes wistful she missed her chance at having a boyfriend who truly cares about her like jay does.... serves her right. .... nya is an idiot lol... jays is getting better bc of her skdjhtrglksdj. anyways

eventually... they talk. and sort it all out. all the hurt and feelings and love. nya opens up and confesses and jay cries about it lol. because this is all he had ever wanted ever since he fell in love with nya. the elation he feels is unparalleled. and tightness in his chest finally vanishes all together and he feels better than he has in ages. of course he says yes. he tells nya things to erase her doubts. and it took a lot of trouble to get here but theyre here now. together again for reals. and neither of them can believe it. 

they hold hands. and they finally kiss

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I THINK. THATS THE END OF REQUITED END. WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT MY THOUGHTS FOR THIS END WERE INITIALLY MUCH SHORTER, SHORTER THAN, UNREQUITED/FRIENDSHIP END? ON GOD. WHAT HAPPENED. ITS BECAUSE I FELT LIKE REQUITED END REALLY NEEDED FULLY BEAT OUT DEVELOPMENT. OR ELSE I COULDNT BE SATISFIED WITH IT. IM A LITTLE EMBARRASSED BY WHAT I CAME UP WITH FEELS KINDA SAPPY BUT I CANT TELL IF IT IS. IM ARO. THIS ISNT MY HOME TURF. BUT I WANTED REQUITED END TO BE ACTUALLY VIABLE WITHOUT FEELING FORCED.... I WANTED TO BE AS SATISFIED WITH THIS AS I AM FOR UNREQUITED END. AND ENDED UP NEEDING TO PUT IN 100 TIMES THE WORK SDJKTUFHIGTLSDKJ. I THINK I ACCOMPLISHED WHAT I WANTED THO...... I THINK ITS OKAY..........

okay. im finally picking flowers. ive been thinking about it a bit while i wrote this whole thing. it wasnt a priority. but i do wanna pick some flowers that fit this story....

had the thought that depending on the end of this au (... i have aus within my au huh....) jay actually has different flowers. different meanings and symbolism.

i want jays primary flower to be an anemone for the record. “forsaken love”. nods. thats pretty representative of jays love for like. 3 seasons. also.... shares a name with the ocean animal. water... small connection with nya... not directly representative of her but it does a little. anemone has a few other meanings as well and i think those can fit too depending on the end. but the primary meaning im using is forsaken love (apparently its specifically the red and pink ones that mean this. please do note all these flower language resources are pretty inconsistent from each other)

tragic death end- anemone (specifically red- also means death), red poppy (remembrance in death), red spider lily (am i going too ham with the death flowers? yes. would jay see this as an ill omen? definitely. however. symbolism. also this bouquet is just So red. with blood lol)

tragic lost love (surgery) end- anemone, yellow chrysanthemums (broken/slighted love), black dahlia (betrayal), narcissus (unrequited love, selfishness), rue (regret), i would add forget me nots if i didnt think it doesnt fit with the colors

friendship/unrequited end- anemone, yellow rose (bros the meaning of the yellow rose is so fucking loaded LMAO. friendship, infidelity (nya), undying love? the wiki sure lists a lot), dandelion (overcoming hardship, growth, hope, and healing, friendship)

requited end- anemone, sea lavender (remembrance/memory, sympathy, i love you), sea holly (independence (nya) and attraction (jay)). okay so i dunno if a bouquet of these would look good together per se but.... ocean theme.... and also i wanted the flowers to rep both jay and nya in meanings.... since this is the end in which theyre together after all....

flower language is fucking hard. but i cant NOT put sincere thought into it. its fucking hanahaki i feel like i Gotta. btw these arent 100% set in stone i might change my mind about them? but i do really like anemone tho.... and tangential thought hgtjbnfjkghl sea holly would be fucking AWFUL for jay to cough up. esp when he starts spitting full flowers. those look like they hurt. just like what its like to love nya (lol). flower that would definitely make him cough blood

anyways..... if you made it to the end of this..... thank you.... this post is literally over 7600 words. thats like a long one shot. this is more like a fic outline tho. anyways anyways.... madness legit descended upon me while i wrote this all. i hope you enjoyed. i did this for my self satisfaction but if other people enjoyed this also i kinda wanna know

holds up a glass. cheers to jays suffering and heartbreak

(og thread here)

[luca-pink]

okay i have legit no idea who to rant to cause its cringe and embarrassing - So I’m watching an interview with Dream and I cant help but relate to him so much, he is the sort of person who just says shit and that’s legitimately why i started posting here, i have a tendency to say shit without thinking and accidentally making people feel bad or just simply saying something really inappropriate for certain situations. So i decided when i really need to get my thoughts out and i think it could not go over well i post it here. its super therapeutic for me. Dream wasnt like that for a while, he got criticism and he just said whatever on twitter and he just dug himself deeper. So many people hate him or think hes a bad person and i do agree he definitely has not handled things well in the past but as someone who has been in that situation I will always be the first to apologise and try and fix what ive done and i think Dream seems to do that too. I dont watch his content but i do watch some people adjacent to him so i see what that community is up to.

When i was first diagnosed with adhd they said you have MILD inattentive type adhd and at the time that made sense but as i have learned more about adhd and what can be a result of it i cant even tell you how much it impacts my life. As i mentioned im rash i dont think before i speak, i struggle with motivation (which is also due to not being in a great headspace but the adhd definitely doesnt help)

OKAY REAL QUICK IM GOING TO DO THE MOST ADHD THING EVER BUT MY MOTHER IS ON THE PHONE TO A VET AND WE MIGHT BE ADOPTING A KITTEN OML (ill tell that story later)

and i just thinking sometimes people dont see how much something like that can affect someone.

Dream has said he dropped out of irl school at the start of highschool, i have been “homeschooled” since i started secondary school, i could go on but what im trying to say is that you may not like someone or agree with them but that doesn’t mean they cant correct their actions, from what ive seen he always tries to go back and reflect and research the topic he has been criticised for and from my perspective he has genuinely improved a lot (you can tell by the amounts of tweets he makes these days :) )

This isnt a dream stan raving about how amazing of a person he is, this is a person who can relate and can see the humanity behind mistakes.

ANYWAYS PLEASE DONT SEND ME NO LONGER LIVING THREATS THANK YOU!

[gingeraleluke]

𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗯𝗼𝘅𝗲𝗿 ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ᴏɴᴇ

𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: underground boxer!vinnie x fem!influencer!reader (social media + real life AU)

𝘀𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝘀𝗶𝘀: in which a girl in a leather jacket is the sister of a boxer whose new opponent gets under her skin.

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: swearing, arguing, slight sexual harassment, drug use, drug addiction, mention of vomit

𝗔/𝗡: readers brother in this is blonde and white! you can interpret it as your biological brother or adopted, it’s open ended for you! while some things are inserted, this is still a reader insert fic.

THIS IS BASICALLY AN OC FIC BUT WITH YOUR NAME!!

thank you to @obliviatevamps for the idea :)

next chapter

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𝐼𝑁𝑇𝑅𝑂𝐷𝑈𝐶𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁

𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗸 𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗻 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗴𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝗼𝘅𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗯𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗴𝗲. 𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗶𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝗰𝗸𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝘀 𝗮𝗻 𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗴𝗿𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗯𝗼𝘅𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲. 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘀𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗮 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹.

𝗛 𝗔 𝗩 𝗢 𝗞 𝗩𝗦 𝗛 𝗔 𝗖 𝗞 𝗘 𝗥

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Y/N:

INSTAGRAM: @ Y/NPICS 720K FOLLOWERS

TWITTER: @ Y/N 500K FOLLOWERS

TIKTOK: @ Y/N 1M FOLLOWERS

DRAKE:

INSTAGRAM: @ DRAKEHAVOK 59.8K FOLLOWERS

TWITTER: @ DRAKEHAVOK 20K FOLLOWERS

VINNIE:

INSTAGRAM: @ VINNIEHACKER 700K FOLLOWERS

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9:50 AM

𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣

new tweet from y/n

@ 𝙔/𝙉

big day today guys!! might get a huge sponsorship so wish me luck! :)

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11:25 AM

𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙛𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣

new tweet from y/n

@ Y/N

never fucking mind :(

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replies

@ userone: :( no queen what happened??

@ usertwo: ayo what

@ moriahhh: ?? call me

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“no, martha. it’s over! i fucked it up.” y/n hurriedly ran down the stairs, her clear heels clicking with each step. she could hear the roaring from the clouds from outside, even through the static of the phone. “benji was right, okay? i cant fucking do this shit, i’m just not ready for it i guess…” her anger seeped into sadness as her phone vibrated against her cheek. “fuck, i gotta go.” she hung up without saying goodbye and shoved her phone in the pocket of her ripped jeans, the papers in her arms untidy and crinkling under her arm.

“shit… shit.” she ran as fast as she could in her heels, pushing the glass door to the exit forcefully and was immediately met with rain and high winds.

curse the parking lot for being full.

she had to park her car almost a block away on the busy street and as if that wasn’t bad enough, a storm was now clearly brewing.

she tried her best to avoid the mud puddles in the cracks of the side walk and felt like an idiot walking by the passing cars. a huge gust of wind almost knocked her off her feet, and a few of the papers in her arm slipped out and into the atmosphere, flying away and being carried by the breeze.

“UGHH.” she audible groaned and said ‘fuck it,’ before letting all the papers go. the documents were useless anyway so it was pointless chasing after them, she just hoped mother nature wouldn’t be too mad at her. it is just paper anyway.

once she reached her range rover, she pulled out her phone and opened the text messages she received.

Bruno:

Okay, seriously please hurry. Idk what’s up with him

Are you on your way?

Helloooo??

He just fucking threw up on my shoes get here asap

jesus christ

“why does this shit happen to me…” she started angrily typing away.

yes, i will be there soon. sorry.

after she hit send, she got a notification from instagram, and instead of swiping up, she accidentally opened it.

@ vinniehacker is now following you!

the notification took her to his page and when she saw how many followers he had, her jaw dropped.

he was hot.

definitely not y/n’s type though. the more she looked through his pictures the more he reminded her of her ex. he must have just been famous for being pretty. he had almost as many followers as she had but he wasn’t verified like she was. clicking on a shirtless pic, she ran her eyes down his chest. a spider tattooed right in the center of his build and little tattoos scattered here and there. she scrolled back to the top of his page and hit the follow back button. she thought nothing of it. just a kinda cute guy who she had no intention of ever talking to.

definitely not my type. she thought before driving away.

as y/n walked into the gym, she was met with her usual wolf whistles from men, despite how awful she looked from the weather.

she walked up to the tall brunette, “alright where is he?”

“damn, y/n! no hello? it’s been a while-“ he starts laughing as he towers over her, placing down the weight he was previously holding and trailing his eyes down her body.

“roman, shut the fuck up, where is he?”

“he’s in the back with bruno. you should’a saw it, your brother is a mess.”

“yeah wonder whose fault that is.” she walked by roman, shoving him with her shoulder as she passed. she wasn’t in the mood for his bullshit. it’s not like she ever likes taking to him, but she especially didn’t right now.

she reached the back and walked by a bunch of shirtless boxers, each of them dripping in sweat. she hated being there. she always felt so teeny around men, like she was a mere mortal yet they were gods. it pissed her off how she felt this way, knowing that she was just as powerful as a man, yet still had that tremble in her step whenever she was near one, and this janky and highly illegal gym was soaking with testosterone that she didn’t want to dip her feet in.

“oh, god.” she was met with the sight of Bruno cleaning his shoes from her brothers sickness.

“yeah, oh god!” he was clearly fuming and y/n could already feel the stress start to pile on her shoulders.

“i’m starting to think that I shouldn’t help him anymore! i mean, how the hell am i supposed to help him accelerate through heavy weight opponents when the fucker is a lightweight?! did you give him something?”

y/n shifted her weight to her other foot, standing their awkwardly in heels. she wore a white tee with slightly teared jeans and a light blue plaid blazer. it was nothing like her usual wear, and she felt almost naked without her iconic leather jacket. it was a staple in her style and when her fans saw her mirror selfie on instagram this morning, comments were flooding with questions about where he jacket was. she wanted to look nice for her first ever business meeting, but clearly things didn’t go as planned. “no! he didn’t drink a sip last night, i was sure of it.”

“yeah, well…” he sighs and stands up before walking down the hallway. “you gotta take him to the doctors or something- somethings wrong with him.”

y/n kissed her teeth and nodded, following him.

“drake! your sister is here.”

“ughh whyyy?” he groaned while getting up from a weight bench.

“i don’t know, drake, why am i here?” y/n had her teeth clenched and stared him down, she was irritated.

he locked eyes with his younger sister, and his face immediately faltered, his eyes going soft.

bruno walked away, leaving the siblings standing there, arms crossed.

drake shook his head and turned towards the door to the basement.

“no, no, no, where are you going?” y/n yelled, fed up with his shit.

“chill, i just have to put my gloves up.” she slightly frowned and followed drake down the basement stairs, after watching him undo the lock with his key.

“make sure you give bruno his key back….” her shoes balanced on the creaky steps as drake reached up to pull the chain and turn the light on. he was tall and it dangled right next to his head and the light seeping from under the crack of the door made it not hard to find.

“actually, i don’t have to!” the blonde turned to look back at his sister as she heard a clicking noise and his face was suddenly illuminated. he had a huge grin on his face and waited for y/n’s reply.

“wait. you got in?”

he gave her a small smile before turning around and continuing down the stairs. “technically no. i haven’t been accepted yet, but i find out later tonight! i’m sure they’ll say yes, i mean look at me.” y/n snorted and replied “don’t get your hopes up.”

“hey!”

she chuckled as they reached the bottom of the stairs.

“okay, hurry up. I want to go home and eat, i’m starving and missed lunch…”

“calm down!” he walked through the basement, a huge ring in the center of it and lockers towards the back. this was where the fights took place. she had been there quite often and gotten used to the weird smell from watching her brother fight in the small stands.

as she made her way towards the lockers, she saw a huge, no, GIGANTIC sign on the wall that said in big capital letters,

H A C K E R

“the hell is this?” she pointed towards it and looked over to see drake rummaging around in his locker.

“oh, that? that’s the guy i’m trying to fight.”

“hacker?”

“yep.” he slammed his locker before looking through the pocket in his pink hoodie. “fuck, i gotta go to romans tonight.”

y/n furrowed her eyebrows and scrunched her nose, “what? why?!”

“i’m outta the stuff. i gotta pick up a new cart.”

“okay hello??” he started walking by her and towards the stairs. “you got sick today for the fifth time in the past month. you said it wouldn’t affect your work-“

“and it hasn’t.”

“bullshit!” she stomped up the stairs following him out the front door.

once they reached his car, she continued talking.

“are you fucking stupid? drake why do you think you got sick in the first place?”

he shrugged, opening the trunk to his car and putting his work bag in it.

“i dunno. germs?”

y/n rolled her eyes, “it’s that shit romans been giving you. he’s milking you dry!”

“nah it’s safe, trust me.” he ran his hand through his blonde locks.

y/n gave up. it wasn’t worth the argument.

“fine! but the next time you get sick at the gym, i’m not helping you.”

“fine!”

he opened the door to the car and immediately shut it.

“i need your car.”

oh my fucking god.

“im sorry what? fuck you, no it’s my car! use yours!”

“come on!! mines a piece of junk and you know it.”

“well maybe if you got yourself a real job instead of living off of your little sister than you would have a nice one like me.”

drake just looked at her, waiting for her to cave in. y/n felt her stomach start to growl.

“fine.” she handed him the keys as he walked to her car and sat in the front seat. “but you owe me! you’ve been treating me like shit recently..” he just nodded.

“wait!”

he stuck his head out the window, his blonde hair draped over his face. “what?”

“wh-what about dinner?”

drakes face became confused as he wondered what she was talking about.

“what about it?”

“well… it’s your turn to cook tonight and i had a bad da-“

he turned on the engine, cutting her off.

“just order pizza or something!” he shouted.

y/n looked down at the ground and just nodded, her feet still killing her. she watched her older brother back out and drive away before she got in his piece of shit car and made her way to their shared apartment.

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7:06 PM

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

new tweet from y/n

@ Y/N

just ate a whole pizza. feeling angry and kinda want to punch someone 😃

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replies

@ userone: OMGG PUNCH ME PLEASE IM BEGGING 😩

@ usertwo: I VOLUNTEER PLEASE

@ userthree: RUN ME OVER

@ usedfour: why are you angry? who am i killing 🥰

7:16 PM

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻

new tweet from drake

@ DRAKEHAVOK

i have the best sister in the world :)

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after eating her last slice of pizza, y/n muted her television which was playing reruns of friends. she could feel the vibration of her phone ripple through the couch, and she picked it up to see Moriah was calling her.

“hey.” she picked up her soda and started drinking it.

“y/n, did you see what drake said?”

“what? no? i was busy watching friends, why what did he do?”

“check twitter.”

moriah was a local graphic designer that y/n met two years ago. they immediately hit it off and have been inseparable ever since. it was nice having a girl friend. while she loved her other two besties, zach and quinn, (who she calls ‘the gays’ since they are the cutest couple ever), she needs that girl talk sometimes and despite how feminine zach is, he just didn’t fully get it.

when she saw drakes tweet, she immediately rolled her eyes and typed a reply;

quote tweets

@ y/n: suck my nuts

she watched as hundreds of people started to reply and retweet. honestly, she didn’t care at this point. her brother was being a dick and he knows it.

“i cant fucking believe him.” moriah said over the phone.

“i can.”

“anyways… are you coming with the gays and i to that pool party thing in the hills?”

“umm yeah i think so? i don’t know, zach asked me if i wanted to be in his vlog for friday so i’m guessing yes. why did quinn ask you?” y/n started fiddling with her hands.

her phone buzzed.

“hold that thought, i got a text.”

“ok.”

y/n couldn’t contain the scoff she made when she saw the notification.

“what?”

“mo, guess who texted me…”

“drake?”

“yup!”

Drake 🐼

hey, i’m staying at romans tonight so….

do you need your car for tomorrow??

“what did he say?”

“he said he’s spending the night at romans…”

she could hear mo laugh on the other end. “yeah i know, my brothers a fucking joke.”

are you staying because you’re wasted?

nope

promise?

yep

do you need your car or not?

“why does he have your car?”

“i don’t know, probably because he likes to piss me off.” y/n grabbed a hair tie and put her hair up before typing, while mo went on about her day.

i guess not.

just don’t fucking wreck it or i stg

lol

the two girls stayed on the phone for a while, gossiping about tiktoker drama, when y/n got a call from her brother.

“ugh, it’s drake i gotta go.”

“okay!” she chirped, chewing something she was eating, “just let me know when you want to meet up.”

“okay. love you, bye.”

she answered the phone and could hear cheering coming from the speaker, pulling the phone away from her ear at the noise

the fuck?

“oh my god, y/n!”

“yeah? what?”

incoherent voices and more screaming muffled whatever the fuck her brother was telling her.

“drake, i can’t hear you.”

“oh? fuck hold on!”

drake walked into another room and started speaking.

“check the gyms new post!”

“what wh-“

“just do it!!” and with that he hung up.

when y/n pulled up the instagram and saw the most recent post, her eyes went wide.

holy shit

“DRAKE HAVOK WILL BE FIGHTING WITH VINNIE HACKER”

the picture was of her brothers face and some other guy who she assumed was vinnie and had a huge vs in the middle of them.

that must be what the whole hacker thing was about..

he looked familiar. she found herself staring at the picture, but not looking at drakes face, just vinnies. studying every inch of his pixelated face. his name sounded familiar too.

the picture was only posted six minutes ago, which explains why drake called.

he must be so excited

her phone buzzed with a new instagram dm.

when she saw who the message was from, her heart dropped. she connected the dots.

it’s him

she opened the dm to see that the man her brother was scheduled to fight, was the guy she was thirsting over earlier.

oh fuck.

her heart was racing as she read the message.

vinnie:

your brother will be dead by the time i’m done with him.

[a03bkdk]

no quirks bkdk fic rec list (p 2)

thirsty gay wingman fic by lalazee

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Oct 11, 2019 "Thinkin abt besties-since-birth BkDk goin to college together, Dk begrudgingly bein Bkg's wingman w/chicks & lamenting his big gay crush. One nite, Bkg cant get laid, hes drunk in a shitty mood, so Dk propositions him, which turns into the best night ever & the WORST consequences."

My tweet got 366 likes & 66 reblogs, so that was more than enough reason to write about it.

romeo and romeo by supercrunch

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There’s a nasally howl from the neighbour’s place. Izuku looks up – it’s the very loud, very blond guy living in the unit opposite. They’re technically in separate blocks but their balconies are close enough they can see into each other’s living rooms. He’s dancing around in his pyjamas. Yodelling at the top of his lungs off-key, swinging his Pomeranian around by the armpits like a furry ragdoll. “You’re a dog! You’re a fluffy little yellow dog and you’re a pain in the ass but you’re still my favourite shit-stain, yeah!”

Izuku bursts out laughing. The neighbour’s head whips around. He yelps when he sees him, tossing the dog on the couch and scrambling out of view to hide in the hall.

Izuku drops the watering can and runs back inside to find his phone.Small Might: Guys. I've decided i have a crush on my neighbour.

(quarantine baking: a balcony romance)

mechanical bull by warschach

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Katsuki has a track record of bad choices, it's a condition, but Izuku might be the one choice that's right.

battle of the bands by roadtripwithlucifer

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'The rules are simple. Battle of the Bands. Local bands send in a single track to the radio station, and ten tracks are selected. Over the coming month, the songs play on the station and listeners vote on the top five. The top 5 play a live concert as part of a music festival, then the top 3 at a larger, indoor venue. The top two have the honor of opening on the first stop of All Might’s retirement tour – here. In Izuku’s home town. And finally, the winner gets the ultimate prize. Getting to spend the rest of the tour, forty cities, across the country as All Might’s opener. Three months. Same tour bus. Shoulder to shoulder with the greatest musicians the world has ever known.'Izuku Midoriya is a broke college student presented with the opportunity of a lifetime. But winning isn't gonna be easy, especially when one band's aggressive blonde frontman seems to be dead-set on making Izuku's life a living hell.

oh my god! they were roomates! by phatye

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“Don’t go through my shit, and if there’s a tie on the door, then fuck off!” Katsuki growled. “...what?” he asked. Katsuki glared at him. “This is fucking college, and I plan on getting laid a lot! I don’t need some nerd cockblocking me! And what is with all the fucking toys here!” Katsuki had moved over to his shelves. “Are you a fucking child or something?!” This was not what he was expecting.

shades of blue by young_crone

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Echoes filtered down the white hall as he descended the stairs toward the locker rooms, reverberating from the pool. A whistle, the sound of breaking water. He swiped the towel over his face, paused. The sliver of cerulean catching the sinking sun pouring through the skylights, the red and white lane buoys, the burn of chlorine.Izuku ran a hand through his curls, snagging on a knot. The clock on the wall reminded him how late it was. A minute wouldn't hurt. He worried his lip. Just a glimpse.

k-9 by warschach

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Izuku takes in a stray on one rainy night, except it's not a dog, it's a dog shifter who goes by the name, Katsuki. After the initial wave of panic and embarrassment, Izuku thinks his new pet/roommate is pretty cute.

sucker punch by warschach

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But, whatever, Disney Boy over there was—

Prettying up real damn good that Katsuki got kind of distracted—totally understandable, like god those CGI pine eyes—and didn’t see the straight path he made for the metal trash bin in the center of the area until he was tipping forward and waist deep in discarded bottles, plates, balled up tissues sticky with he prayed was chocolate ice cream and nacho cheese.

Mina howled behind the gate. “Look, Katsuki returned to his home.”

(or Katsuki works security at Six Flags and moonlights as a derby dude and continuously looks uncool around Izuku)

may I take your order, dipshit? by supercrunch

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So, like, maybe Bakugou wasn’t really the best choice for this whole pizza delivery shindig.

(Midoriya in love, Bakugou in denial, and way, way too much cheese.

A BakuDeku romance in thirty minutes or less. )

raise me so high (your sins become my pedestal) by stardust_painter

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After his boyfriend cheats on him, Izuku wants to do something stupid. The question is how stupid does he want to be.

The answer is very stupid apparently.

eye for an eye or whatever by tobiyos

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“I’ll make it up to you!” Izuku says brightly, lifting his head from Katsuki’s lap.

Katsuki’s eyes narrow but he isn’t still pushing Izuku away so. Progress. “Fuck are you gonna do to make it up to me?”

“Hmm…” Izuku says quietly, tapping at his chin. “Oh! You’re still a virgin, right?”

Katsuki chokes on his own spit and promptly renews his efforts of pushing Izuku away by the forehead. “Fuck off,” he wheezes, “get out of my room.”

leap of faith by ladyofsnails

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Midoriya Izuku is just a random kid who loves art, analyzes everything, and is obsessed with the (in)famous hero Mighty Spider. He's got a loving mother, a great uncle, and maybe not too many friends that aren't those two but he's working on it.

And then a random cute boy shows up at his school, a spider bites him, he meets his hero under the worst possible conditions, and it all goes to hell. Now he's got villains on his tail, a promise to keep to a dead guy, and a washed-up hobo as his mentor.

Here goes nothing.

green is the warmest color by gloriousporpoise

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“Woah, someone call the fire department,” Eijirou says, elbowing Katsuki squarely in the ribs. “That guy is smokin.’”

“I literally hate you.”

Here’s the thing, though. Eijirou’s a certified dumbass, but his current observation isn’t even a little bit wrong, much to Katsuki’s displeasure.

“Think you can get his number?”

Or, Bakugou is a painter without a muse.

you and i collide by ethereals

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And not that Bakugou’s the type to sexualize a potentially dead body; especially one that he just accidentally murdered, but the man has some pretty solid DSL’s. He would hit it, with more than just his car.

OR

in which rich fratboy! bakugou is a badass who accidentally hits poor med student!izuku with his car and chaos ensues therefore.

97.6 FM by jamjars

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Izuku can’t stop listening to the radio host with the deep voice who sounds like he’s stuck in 2010. It’s a harmless crush. That is until he starts calling into the show under the pseudonym Deku.

Or Radio Host! Baugou x Listener! Midoriya

give me that sweet love by xsxuxgxax

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Things Katsuki needs to excel at: be hot, be clever and pretend to be nice, let Izuku kiss him publicly, let Izuku fuck him privately…

(sugar baby katsuki and sugar daddy izuku pretty much)

dance with me by astralchaos

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Mina pulled up a video of a young man, seemingly teen, dancing to a popular new hit, and Izuku felt his heart drop to his stomach. His skin prickled and felt clammy as he started sweating nervously, not daring to move or make a noise. His eyes were glued to the screen but he didn’t see anything – his brain was too busy going into overdrive and freaking out.

Because Mina was showing him a video of himself. The one he uploaded last night.

How on Earth did she find this? He had barely a few thousand views, he wasn’t popular, and it’s not like he was even any good, especially compared to her or Kacchan–

“That move was sexy as hell,” Kacchan said, and that was when Izuku realized that his childhood friend – his longtime crush – also leaned in to watch the video Mina was showing him.

puppies puppies by Esselle

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"So after doing all that," Katsuki says, "you're just going to settle here? Tatting up wannabe bad boys?"

"You think all guys who have a lot of tattoos are wannabes?" Midoriya asks, so smoothly that it throws Katsuki.

"Wh—no, I mean—maybe!" Katsuki says. "You'd know best, wouldn't you? Are you a bad boy?"

The words are out of his mouth before he even realizes it, and he regrets them immediately. There's a figurative list of things that one should never do, and probably high up on it is asking dark-haired sailors with ocean green eyes and black swirls of ink all across their barely concealed muscles if they are bad boys.

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Katsuki thinks he has everything he needs in life: a successful pet shop, an occasionally reliable assistant, and the unconditional love of the twenty puppies he’s raising for adoption. But when the tattoo parlor next door hires Midoriya Izuku, a hot sailor with an affinity for dogs, it makes Katsuki wonder if he might need something more.

Like… a piece of that ass. Maybe. He’s figuring it the hell out as he goes.

im gonna make a part 3 later ergaegrggjnjuvuh

[indig0g0]

ART THEFT ALERT - ASK-THE-SHARPS

Okay so... normally I don’t like. DO callouts, but someone came to me about this, because he wasn’t sure what to do and if he would even be taken seriously if he DID say anything, so I’m organizing this FOR him. Please bear with me, this is going to be very long.

So, I’d been notified that ask-the-sharps has been engaging in like. Actual art theft? Like outright tracing other’s art and also wholesale “i am passing this entire artwork of someone else off as my own” art theft.

But also seeing as Altar is SELLING commissions, it should probably be noted that… He’s tracing? Thats important. Even one of the drawings in his commission sheet is traced. 

And he’s not even stealing from small name artists either, he’s been tracing artwork of artists like princecanary and thewickwheat and reiki-kun (on devART)

Now i would like to not that wickwheat DOES allow referencing of her art as long as it’s used only privately (a link to her TOS/FAQ) (princecanary and reiki-kun do not) but she REQUIRES CREDIT for the referencing, EVEN IN PRIVATE, which Altar did NOT do And of course, I would never make such claims without proof so here we go! I am going to link all images separately at the end in a drive if you would like to see them more fully.

So it’s worth noting, most of the discord screenshots are not mine, they were given to me by a friend to use for this post, because he’s not comfortable making the post himself at this time, but will not be censored because he’s okay with it being public.

Now these things aren’t in order except in order that they were brought to my attention The first thing I was told about was Altar tracing and passing off as his own, an auction design that Reiki-Kun made and sold on patreon

It’s worth noting, this trace over is done in Altar’s “style” of coloring. This could not have been made by someone else. My friend is a patreon of Reiki, and was suspicious! And he was right! This was a design he saw posted by Reiki!

(Original adopt listing) When confronted about it, Altar played it off as “someone sold me this?”

My friend was still suspicious but he was willing to let it go, but he brought it to another friend, who brough it to me and another friend and we were able to find the character’s toyhou.se.

the character’s toyhouse // this is a link to the ownership log

This character has never been sold to anyone BUT the person who bought it.In fact, the designer has a masterlist of designs they’ve sold FOR this reason! masterlist link // Reiki’s TOS

MORE UNDER CUT! WAY MORE. SO MUCH MORE.

My friend has since reached out to the artist to notify them of the theft

which is why I’m including this first and foremost. (the link is the masterlink link above!) So this was already very suspect! But believe it or not! It gets worse!

Altar has been sharing “art” of his characters which is clearly and notably traced

Original tweet link

Original post Please note that the name is edited out of the original sheet presumably to keep people from looking her up, but he… keeps the name anyway?

Original post This one was someone else’s COMMISSION done by the original artist! The signature is removed!

Original post! Another commission! With the signature EDITED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!!! Implying that Altar MADE THIS.

Theres genuinely so many of these stolen that I cant show their originals so I’m just linking those I could find. )i could not find the first couple but here’s the rest in order. (Headlock) (shoulder pads) (bloody sketch) (could not find this one) (Crossed arms) (punch)

These don’t belong to wickwheat, but a friend of wickwheat’s who did not have a tracing/referencing TOS that i could find, except that they should ASK to use their art, presumably with credit (which was not given)

Orignal post This one he traced from the smaller reference, if we were wondering, of Jane’s oc. And in these screenshots claimed as his own art.

The original post, please note it IS at the bottom. There were several others I was shown that were clearly traced or otherwise stolen but I couldn’t source the artist and therefore couldn’t prove it.

However, during my digging I WAS able to find more instances of tracing.

One instance of which is from two of my friends, Apollo and Wren, who are still IN the fantroll community, which he uses IN his COMMISSION EXAMPLES. This is a collaborative base that they made together.

Altar’s commission post

First set Second Set Third Set Fourth Set

Original

I contacted one of them as the other was asleep, and asked if either of them had ever released the base and lo. Neither of them had.

So as Wren (abyssalsphynx) so eloquently put… not only is he stealing from big name artists he’s… profiting off the traced work of other fantrollers? I also found more instances of him tracing from princecanary WHICH HE HAS POSTED TO HIS BLOG AND TOYHOU.SE AS MAIN REFERENCES

I took screenshots of everything just in case he deletes or makes things otherwise inaccessible

This one I was only able to find a pinterest shot because Princecanary has deleted so much/hidden it because of…. Theft. Funny right? But it’s clearly princecanary’s art, and princecanary’s comic (Gentleman Town) characters.

The character’s toyhouse

Character’s toyhou.se Princecanary’s original tweet

This one literally took me two minutes to find, I was FLOORED. I’m almost positive there’s more instances of art theft, I just. Literally only have so much brain power to go digging, because he’s obviously shameless enough to steal from so many artists, I can only imagine there’s more that I couldn’t identify.

In conclusion I’m just… Why would you? Do all of this? Except laziness? Your own art, or at least what we used to SEE of it wasn’t like bad???? So why profit off of someone else’s art work?

And buyer beware because like. this is fucked up.

Anyway here’s all the screenshots and such.

[tortilla-of-courage]

Describing it as being like home is actually pretty accurate yeah.

And YES! I am totally willing to talk about my modern AU.

I've been calling it the Adoption AU because Time ends up adopting all of the boys. It mostly started as, I saw an edit for a tweet someone did with Wars and Wild that involved Taco Bell (cannot remember the blog or post for the life of me though), and so I wrote a thing about Warriors sneaking out of his university dorm to pick up Wild, who snuck out the window despite his broken arm, and then got extorted by Legend in exchange for silence at 3am.

This was followed by a fic where Groose decided spray painting a public building was a good idea and got himself and Sky arrested, set earlier in the timeline.

So then I made a timeline. Twilight is Time and Malon's biological son, and he found Wild on the side of the road one day (Wild's backstory involves a bad car wreck and an underground hospital, but no conspiracy bullshit. Yet). Wild has no memory, so they keep him. Wild brings home Legend, who was told his uncle died at school before a holiday. They then also keep Legend. Malon finds Four in her barn one morning for complicated reasons, and they keep him too. Twilight finds Warriors, who is in his class, hiding in an alley one day after he ran away from an abusive home and brings him home too. SS Impa (who I've nicknamed Shield because there are enough prominent Impas here that they should get nicknames too) is a social worker who's trying to find Sky a home and has run out of options, and turns to Time, who has a record of successfully housing 'unhousable' youths, and asks if he can take one more. He can. Wild finds Hyrule and brings him home because 'Rule needs a shower even more than Wild does. Hyrule stays. Wind's grandma ends up with Wind and his sister but can't financially take care of both and so Wind ends up with the boys and everyone is +1 Grandma.

Twilight has a fic detailing how he knows Midna and Dusk and I ended up shooting him (oops) but at least their social project gets handed in on time.

Then I started hashing out Time's backstory and suddenly this AU had plot. And organized crime. And a conspiracy. And secret societies.

The summarized version is that the gems from OoT are like, Idk what they do yet. Haven't gotten to a point where I need to figure that out yet. But they are Important and have to be carefully guarded. The Great Deku Tree (just called Deku because he's not a tree here) was Time's foster father before Ganondorf killed him. Also, Ganondorf is Deku's half brother. Because. However Time 'stole' the Emerald and he and Navi ran until OoT Impa (Sage) and Lullaby found them. So Time got adopted into Lullaby's family. Ruto inherited the Sapphire from her mother who also died from mysterious circumstances, and Darunia has the Ruby. Lullaby got the Ocarina from her late paternal grandmother.

Then Ganon finds them and tries to steal the Emerald from Time, so Lullaby goes looking for help and thus finds the sages. Saria is an anonymous hacker who uses the screen name 'Kokiri'. Time reveals he didn't steal the Emerald, he was Deku's heir, and then Navi goes missing. Time is home worried enough that he's physically sick, and Ganon decides to try and attack the home. Only Lullaby's family is Olde Money, and they live in a big, old manor, so Lullaby as Sheik decides to play 'Home Alone' with the secret passages in the walls and they piss off Ganon because when did that brat get a sheikah bodyguard??? Sage and Rottla (Lullaby's mother, who is fully sheikah as well) rush home from a thing and Kokiri is running a play by play watching the security cameras.

I pull in my headcanon that Time was killed in the Downfall Timeline by getting impaled on Ganon's tusk and Ganondorf stabs him with the tusk of a mounted boar head and then Sheik shows up to protect his brother, and then Mama gets home and is not happy to find this man in her home attacking her kids. Time is fine, but Navi stays missing. (She's alive tho.)

Also, Time's foster dad was the last leader of a secret society known as The Order of The Lost Woods, and Time learns this upon meeting Tatl, who gets him sucked into another event that would probably make a good action movie. I have thought too much about the Order and it's hierarchy, but what's important here is that Time ends up with a standing job offer and Tatl and he remain friends and we find out how I fit FD into this AU. It's not pretty. This is where Time loses his eye too.

The AoC came out and I added that Link in as Wild's twin brother and he shows up during the main plot.

Which starts with Twi getting kidnapped. (I'm not really meaner to him than the others, I swear, he's just the most logical choice to be Time's heir. Which he is. He doesn't know this though.)

So he's kidnapped by Ganondorf, who broke out of jail, Zant, who shot Twi in highschool, and Ghirahim, who has some history with Sky I haven't fleshed out yet and a very public rivalry with Warriors over twitter. About six weeks later Sage finds him in an abandoned warehouse (because of course) with a shackle on his left arm and a lot of new injuries. He ends up fine, but he tells Time later in the hospital what happened and he's both message and messenger and Time is this close to just committing murder. Tatl talks him down.

Somewhere here is the half finished fic where I introduce AoC Link as Luke/Knight, and this is as far as I've plotted thus far.

Other tidbits: Wild and Lullaby/Sheik are both genderfluid, Lullaby/Sheik married Ruto, Wild has a very popular YouTube channel, Twi does drag racing sometimes, Sky has a pet bird, Four has DID to explain how the Colours are here too, and Wolfie exists in the form of a random wolf-dog Wild found and brought home that Legend somehow convinced half the family was Twilight. Also, Warriors has somehow befriended an entire sorority and he doesn't know how this happened.

This... got long. As you can see I have a lot of thoughts about the Adoption AU. It's gotten a bit away from me, I'll admit. This went from 'Wild does stunts on his motorbike and keeps breaking bones but somehow not the bike' to 'Twilight got kidnapped and Time is the target of a mafia that Ganon runs and also maybe killed a man once' and I don't know how that happened. Also, this is the condensed version of the summary. My actual summary/outline is much, much longer than this. So if there's any detail you want more on, feel free to say so and I'll happily go into more detail (there are so many things I didn't even mention....)

And yes, Robbie having a bong is very important to my best friend, for some reason. He has one in a modern AU and he probably invented one in canon. I happen to agree that this makes sense for his character, if anyone would invent a bong in LoZ it's Robbie (this is such an anticlimactic end to this ask after the stuff about the modern AU...)

Also, sorry for the long ass ask. I genuinely don't know how to condense the Adoption Au down any further. There's a lot of important plot beats to cover, and I still skipped things.

-Attllhak

oh my GOD???? if you ever write and post this somewhere id love to read it, the level of "crazy" conspiracy/action movie elements implemented sound sosososo cool, from Ganondorf being Deku's half brother to trying to "send a message" via Twi and- just- all of this is SO good.i sat here and reread this ask like 3 times as if that would magically spawn more info about it ahaha

there's so much to unpack here but it's honestly so worth it i love every single detail!!! i can imagine the actual outline being way longer, nad honestly that just makes me the more excited/curious about all that might be missing from this ask - i cant believe it started with Wild and Wars going to Taco Bell of all things

also i can totally see Robbie making a bong, no matter the setting or AU. fits him a lot I'd say

and dont worry about long asks!! i adore opening up my askbox to see one ask take over the entire thing, it makes me really happy aha

[haltyoubillowychickenwing]

Kaitlin Bennett and Liberty Hangout

Kaitlin Bennett is considered the internet’s most hated conservative, lets talk about why.

Bennett Is a twenty-five-year-old white cisgender heterosexual female who is a strict catholic. She rose to fame in 2018 when her graduation photo included an AR-10 rifle. This was a means of activism and advocating for her rights to bare arms.

She gets clout and content from infiltrating spaces that are meant for activists who happen to have different beliefs than her. She interviews them and posts said interviews on youtube and on her website. I watch these videos and feel great shame for the amount of politically uneducated people. However, I doubt that they accurately represent the intelligence of the left due to editing.

In this photo, she is dressed as Elizabeth Warren, a woman who ran for president in the 2016 election. Bennett is joined by a black man dressed as a white cowboy. To explain Bennett’s costume, Warren had lied about being native american to get a scholarship for college. They ask, “if my costume is not okay, then what makes what Warren did ok?”

Bennett was using this controversial costume to make a point. I am white so I don’t know wether this would be offensive to native americans though I can say I wouldnt consider this cultural appropriation because it is not Bennett adopting the culture of native americans. This does, however, feed into the stereotypes and generalization of native americans, which is something Warren did not do. Regardless, Bennett’s action is a strong method of raising awareness for the injustice Elizabeth Warren has done for the native american people.

The black man’s name is Joel Patrick and he uses his costume to ask if it’s offensive to white people. His costume includes white powder with light foundation for makeup, and a stereotypical cowboy outfit. Theres a point in the video where Patrick asks a white woman if his costume is offensive. The woman says it would be different if it was a white person doing blackface. When asked why, the woman refers to white privilege and how her ethnicity has not faced the issues other ethnicities have. How I would put it is the depiction isn’t offensive because it doesn’t depict white people in a bad way. At the beginning of the video. Patrick introduces himself as Tom, Woody from Toy Story’s grandfather in non-negative way. This is not a canon character, however, it does draw the line between what I would consider a good reason to portray oneself as a race that is not their own and a bad one. If Patrick was dressed as any cowboy, things would be different. This is because it implies that all cowboys are white or that only white people can be cowboys.

This next picture is what really gets me though.

These are her “Columbus Day” twitter posts. Take a look.

These are screenshots from Bennett’s twitter page about how she celebrates “Columbus Day”. One thanks Christopher Columbus for civilizing the west, and the other shows her wearing some native american inspired makeup. I dont feel comfortable speaking out about the makeup since i’m not a native american but I can certainly mention the horrific depiction of native americans. It nearly compares them to animals that needed to be tamed. It is so unfortunate that she cant see the damage colonizers caused or the civility of native americans.

Next I’d like to talk about her twitter specifically the concept of her having a twitter page and what she uses it for. Through her tweets she has made it clear that she does not believe masks help us, that she does not believe she should get the covid vaccine, that she believes pride is about broadcasting gay sex to children, and that a case in which a white woman was killed by the police should’ve been as big of a deal as the death of George Floyd.

Bennett does not believe trans people exist. She believes only in XY or XX chromosomes. She also fails to recognize the possibility of someone being intersex. She refers to crocheted packers (for ftm trans kids) as something to “shove down that pants of an innocent young girl to make it look like she has a penis bulge” while there have been tweets about this specific size of packer and how it seems to be for infants (it is smaller than a chapstick), i’d like to argue a point of if a child is wearing a diaper, it wouldnt serve its supposed purpose. If I knew I was trans as a kid, I would’ve loved to have one of these as a reminder that even though I look like a girl, I’m a boy and I have a penis. If your child can understand the concept of being transgender, then they can understand if they’re transgender or questioning. It hurts me to see someone so concerned about livelihood of youth be so ignorant of one major cause of suicide all over the world.

She seems to have something against all liberals and somehow still calls them snowflakes. Her ignorance disturbs me. I feel bad for her and her stereotypical 50s household where she doesn’t cook and clean because she wants to, but because she thinks it’ll make for a stable household. Her views on women and how she calls herself a feminist is disappointing too. Maybe Ill add to this post tmr if it gets a lot of notes, but for now, please see my sources and visit these websites.

*the videos wont link properly so just search ���college students have no morals’ on youtube for the video where Bennett desides that college student have no morals because they support trans people, ‘Elizabeth Warren goes to college’ on youtube for the elizabeth warren video, and ‘what the heck is this liberty’ on youtube for the packer video (all on her youtube channel, liberty hangout)*

Liberty Hangout on Youtube

Joel Patrick on Twitter

Kaitlin Bennett on Twitter (links are broken, ill fix later)

[kohakhearts]

dug up the tweets from last month that inspired harry potter and the custody battle’s primary plot of: the custody battle sjdfghjfghjdk

severitus AND dogfather sirius...but where snape and sirius are like beating the shit out of each other whenever harrys not looking but as soon as he turns around theyre like :) and harrys suspicious but hes not going to say anything...not to THEM anyway...klgfjgkfl

harry: so remus whats the deal with severus and sirius remus: well. harry. thats a great question. harry: ??? remus: anyway bye harry see u later harry: ?????????????

remus "hasnt confronted anyone about anything in his life" lupin is really just like out here like. dada prof and snapes like lupin if you dont enrol black in some puppy obedience lessons soon i will kill him myself meanwhile sirius is like so how mad do you think harry would be if we staged an "accident" to break snape's stupid nose anyway? and remus is just. sittign there. like [superscript] ~oh ok~. anyway. i have been having au ideas. i dont have time for it but they can still fester in my silly little brain

to be clear thats clearly a euphemism he is saying put a leash on your stupid dog before he gets harry hurt doing something stupid sirius insists he doesnt do stupid things. meanwhile hes like ok harry lets see how high we can fly on brooms til we pass out

continues to imagine an au where somehow remus and snape are profs at the same time as harry knows sirius isnt a serial killer like idk how itd work because i like to think sirius would still be wanted by the ministry but . and also severitus. and remus not being a shady weirdo but like still firmly third year. so harrys 13. i dont remember what happens in this book nor do i care but the version of it in my head is pretty good

the real kicker here is like snape “im not going to tell him directly lupin is a werewolf but i will be extremely obvious because harry is stupid and needs big hints” (harry still isnt getting it) but sirius would not keep that secret for two fucking seconds around harry

you know what i can just dump this totally implausible au into my pile for The Rewrite™ 2.0. it doesnt have to be good if its self-indulgent. plus i can do whatever and the plot will still make more sense than the canon 👍🏼

and now my notes. are like this

sirius is like i came because i saw x about you but i cant petition for your custody until my name is cleared

-> harry: well thats okay, since snape is going to adopt me

-> sirius: SNAPE?????

JKSDJHFKGJHFKFJHGFKDJ??//// i also have a note Somewhere thats like “harry doesnt even care that snape and sirius want to murder each other hes just pleased they both love him enough to fight over him” LMAO. this is so chaotic book 3 is the goat like this paired with harry being like a little bit Actually insane . and everything else going on there. help. i love it so much

[slntthrpy]

The start of nothing.

I’m started this because i want to write, and its something i would write on Twitter but its too dangerous do it on there because people will start to message or comment. As if their comments arent bullshit. I wrote something along the lines that I am in the worse battle with my myself. And someone wrote, “don’t be too hard on yourself, take it day by day” like come on. That’s so much bullshit. Those words mean nothing to me they actually make me annoyed. This is why i don’t like to talk to people because i always hate what they say back to me. This is why I’m starting this. Because i was to spill my emotions and my thoughts without stupid ass comments. No one on earth understands me. No one not even myself tbh. But today i realized something. I realized that I am in the worse battle, with myself and i have been for so many years. Maybe my whole life i don’t even know. I always remember being unhappy and i just have happy moments. It’s literally me against me.

Do i need medicine

Ew i don’t want that. But also ew at myself bc I’m tired of feeling like this. So ew at myself too

Will i only be able to be ok with meds

What kind of life is that

So does that mean I’m not normal. It’s past 1am and i should be talking to him but I’m so miserable rn

I don’t feel like pretending to be happy

When i just want to be gone

Vanished

Like just simply not exist

But i have to pretend to be normal, for him

Yup, always pleasing people. Always doin shit for people

I am not a happy people pleaser

I want to be pleased but hell no not in this life. Ha that’s funny 

I cant even have my own fucking left overs bc someone has to eat off my plate, never fucking questioned who’s food it was or why its warm and just sitting there at the table. No- like a animal he just eats my fucking food. This shit enraged me so much

With two other people at the table who saw me eating it never thought it would be a good idea to mention shit to him. Literally just laugh as me and tell me I’m out of dinner. No one does shit for me. And yet i cant even eat the food what i chose at a restaurant that a random ass person made for me. Bc lord knows food is never made for me. Nothing ever

I am a server, a fucking care taker

And I’m nothing

I can honestly say that i was happier when i was married. I promise to god i was. And i know as I’m typing this god is looking at me and just rolling his eyes. Like i tweeted one time. “when you think you have it hard and it just get harder” I mean this. When you think you have a bad or unhappy life aka my marriage so you leave and start a new life but that new life turns out worse. 

You’re everyone bitch. 

You have no money

No job

No independence

Sole care taker of my child and two other children who aren’t mine. 

You’re are pregnant 

PREGNANT

Yes

I’m the ultimate idiot

And i feel so bad for Lila and the baby

They have a mother like me. I’m sorry

You didn’t choose to live and i didn’t know what i was getting myself into.

I don’t have the guts to abort or put up for adoption

But i am just not qualified for this. I’m not ok to do this right now and maybe i never would be. 

When it be ok to just be gone from this earth

Like honestly 

I want to ball up and do nothing but i cant.

I have to take care of a baby and i really don’t want to . She tossing in her crib and I want to walk away 

The worse part of being depressed or whatever you call this, this activated postpartum depression, one of the things that kills me is taking care of my baby. It’s hard for me, it’s tough as hell. And i don’t get help from the dad. I live with him and we are together but he does nothing. His life is absolutely the same with or without her........there is 1 couple, two parents but only one parent takes care of the baby. If it was two parents and we were not together, my life without a doubt would be easier. working isn’t hard for me. Paying my own rents paying my own bills isn’t hard for me. Parenting all by self is hard for me. So if her dads take her 50 % of the time and help me pay day care and her stuff. That to me sounds like the life! Why bc

I have to take care of myself, i go to work

Raise my kids half of the time and her dad raises her half of the time

I take care of me and her. 

Not another man, his kids and then myself which i don’t take care of myself tbh

See how being with a man well this man is more work for me

More misery for me

His life is coo as fuck

If i leave, he has to find some to babysit his kids. All 3 of them. HAHA plus still pay for everything he is still currently paying for like rents, bills. Literally nothing of that changes. He literally gets more responsibility that’s all. So why is it that he doesn’t feel like he’s responsible for his kids now

Bc he fucking comfortable 

He mom and sister are worried bc he’s gaining weight and say he might be depressed and say he needs a hobby. I could cry bc that’s so funny. His hobby needs to be to take care of his fucking kids! 

I’m slowly dying and he’s living life.

Like a painful death. 

You would think having kids would stop you from wanting to kill yourself. He even told me that when i had just gave birth. Why would you want to be away from that. 

Sorry but my thoughts haven’t changed. I still want to kill myself. Escape this shit

[ranger-jedi-knight]

A New Hero Chap 2

Link to AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/20887313/chapters/49933430

Ok, so here’s chapter 2! So the first few chaps are going to be short and pretty quick. Once Mari is….I think 14 maybe…..it’ll stop being years between them. I just kinda want a brief little thing going up to when Hawkmoth comes in. Ok? I hope that made sense. Also, if ya want to go to my mess of a Tumblr its @ranger-gothamite!! Just thought I’d tell ya in case ya wanted to visit it! Anyways, I hope you enjoy it!! 

When summer came, Mari was excited. She could spend every day with the Wayne’s. Her parents would even visit a couple of times during summer. She beamed up at Dick who gave her a hug. Jason smiled at her and rubbed her hair once more. “Hey, pixie-pop. You excited for another summer with us?” he asked and Mari nodded excitedly.

“Yes! I had so much fun last summer!” she beamed up at him and both Dick and Tim laughed at that.

“I’m glad you had fun,” Dick said. Mari turned to the last brother and smiled at him. Damian nodded back. They all then went into the manor and Alfred smiled at her.

“Hello, Mari,” he greeted.

“Grandpa!” she shouted and Alfred chuckled at that. Alfred was only her godfather, but he didn’t mind being called grandpa by her. He bent down and picked the 11-year-old up and hugged her. He then set her down once more before grabbing her hand and walking to the manor with the boys behind her.

“It’s good to see you again. I hope you have fun this summer too,” he said with a smile that Mari returned.

“I know I will!! Mari replied and Alfred’s smile grew as he led her inside.

~~~~~~~~~~~~(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mari clapped happily as Dick finished showing her some new acrobatic moves he did her age. “Think you can be able to do that?” he asked and Mari nodded and Dick chuckled. Mari went over to him and Dick gave pointers as she went through the movements. He laughed as she did the movements and stumbled.

She laughed as well. They went through the routine until she was able to go through it without stumbling or tripping. Jason came up behind Dick and placed his bent arm on Dick’s shoulder. “Have fun, pixie-pop?” he asked and Mari beamed up at him and nodded. “Now, ready to learn how to disable a gun?” While they wouldn’t show her how to shoot, they knew it would benefit her to know how to disarm them. Especially since they were in Gotham and someone was bound to try mugging her.

“Yes!” she replied for both questions and Jason smirked as he moved his arm off Dick. “Later Dick!” Dick looked wary but nodded and left to do some other things. Jason smiled as he led her over to his stash of weapons. “That’s a lot,” she pointed at looking up at Jason. Jason shrugged with a smirk

“Gotta be prepared,” Jason remarked before helping her onto a seat. He then showed her how to disarm the guns quickly but safely.

~~~~~~~~~~~~(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tim was showing her puzzles and riddles. He wanted her to think creatively with what she knows. And with every lesson, she was getting better. She had fun with Tim as they solved puzzles. Bruce had Damian spar with her. With either him or one of his brothers supervising of course.

They trained every day for an hour or so before she did something else. They went between training and doing fun stuff. Alfred came by and took her to the kitchen. They made macaroons together which had Mari laughing delightedly. Alfred was smiling at Mari as they made the treats together.

They soon finished the treats and Alfred started lunch. Once lunch was ready they ate. Afterwards, he brought out the macaroons they made and everyone ate them happily. “These are delicious,” Dick said and Alfred and Mari smiled at him.

“Thank you, Master Dick. Marinette helped make them,” he said and Dick beamed at the little girl.

“Good job!” he said and Mari smiled excitedly.

“Are we gonna make more treats grandpa?” she asked and Alfred nodded agreement.

“Of course,” he agreed.

“How’s it with Chloe? She seemed to quite the pain last we talked,” Jason asked and Mari frowned.

“She’s mean. But she’s getting better!” Mari said and everyone smiled at her. Though Damian wasn’t smiling. He just looked less annoyed at the thought.

“That’s good!” Dick replied and Mari nodded.

~~~~~~~~~~~~(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mari giggled and kicked her legs from her spot atop Jason. He held onto her legs loosely. He chuckled as he kept her from falling down. “How’d you like the movie, pixie-pop?” he asked and he heard her laugh.

“It was awesome!” she said excitedly and Jason smiled at that.

“What part did you like the most?”

“I really liked it when Holley and Finn help keep Mater and Lightning safe!” she answered.

“That was a good part,” Jason agreed as they walked. Dick was laughing beside him while Tim grumbled in front of Dick. “What, Timbo, do you not agree with pixie-pop?” Jason asked and Tim glanced up.

“Why did I have to come? Damian got out of it,” Tim asked and Dick smirked.

“You wanted to. Don’t lie,” Dick replied and Mari laughed as Tim shrunk down and grumbled his agreement softly. They continued down the street back up to the manor. Mari laughed and giggled as they went. “You excited to go home next week?” Mari nodded.

“Yeah! I cant wait to see Nino and Kim again!” she replied and Dick nodded.

“I imagine they’re excited to see you too,” Dick replied and Mari beamed at him.

~~~~~~~~~~~~(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧~~~~~~~~~~~~

Mari held Alfred’s and Dick’s hand as they left the manor and went to the portal. Master Fu was with her parents and waving with a smile.”Grandpa!” Mari shouted excitedly and let go of Dick’s hand to wave excitedly. “Goodbye! I had fun this summer!” Mari said as she hugged each Wayne tightly.

“I’m glad you had fun this summer, Mari,” Damian said as Mari hugged him.

“Of course I would! I was with my friends!” Mari said and Damian flustered at that. Mari waved once more with a smile before running over to the portal. She ran through it and hugged her parents then Master Fu. “Until next time!” Mari shouted before the portal closed.

Over everything @why-is-this-happening

The Wayne’s adopted another one. Just saw Dick, Jason, and Tim with a little girl walking from the theater. #lostwaynefound #hegotanotherone #brucehasaproblem

Ok, so here’s the next chap!! I hope you enjoy it!! Again, just a reminder, these first few chaps will be short. And, these end tweets are either inspired by or made by my awesome Discord friends!!! Until the next update!! -Love Willa <3<3<3<3

[bookishbea]

Black Friday Reaction

Okay so I’ll be live tweeting Black Friday but none of it will have any sense to it but it’ll just be my reactions

1. The Paul thing is really bothering me

2. I really love the mention of the other characters

3. If Jane is mention is the story about the mom mentioned some more

4. Is the delivery man ted (cause he’s also a sleazeball

5. It’s weird seeing Cory not play a pure bean

6. I love California MIA

7. The little sister (Im sorry I’m bad at names) I self project as autistic and she something else idk

8. Did anyone else noticed Robert’s Australian accent come out?

9. Like I said this is out of order so yeah but I personally think the second song in the show was very shocking as I’m not used to very serious starkid songs

10. When Robert gestures smoking i think its lowkey a refrence to the smoke club

11. I have a crush on lex

12. I love Lauren’s charecter so much

13. I love the name linda becuase it could be like a karen without using that name

14. Not to get poltical but i choose to belive they made an antivax joke

15. Also the marvel nerd in me loves the name becky barnes

16. I know its probaly not on purpose but joeys charecters costume in line looks like the homeless guy’s one

17. Jaimey is great as always

18. The conversation is so cringe i love it

19. I kinda hope torture porn is a fanfic refrence (i know most people would want me to say spies are forever but nope)

20. I love Lauren but shouldnt her accent be included when she sings

21. I love Jeff’s reaction

22. I may get some hate for this but what was bothering me in tgwdlm and i notice in starkid is lack of fan comments in the captions

23. As a theatre fan i love the toy zone song (i am not sure if thats the right name) espcially the do wop becuase it reminds me of older musicals

24. Also since i watched tgwdlm and black friday a day apart its weird to come from songs happening because they are infected to songs happening cause its a musical

25. i love the love the line we are not relaibly to anyone who dies becuase they clearly show in the trailer that someone will die (this is not a spoiler if you watch the trailer for Black Friday)

26. I love Corey but when he dances i notice a bulge (i am not a perv he makes it very obvious)

27. So i rewinded it to make sure i wanst going crazy and realized something as lex says the pepper spray line. She would be good as janis ian

28. I love the touch money part its so cute even if its not supposed to be

29. Jaime plays a perv really well

30. I love Jon’s charecter its hilarious

31. Also i love jon and lauren interactions so it was cool seeing them together not as paul and emma

32. I love seeing more of Jon because although hes reaally good at playing paul paul doesnt have any flavor and its cool seeing jon do something diffrent

33. Jeff’s fuck you

34. Okay I was right it was the homeless guy and i bet the money is paul’s money

35. And this is not a sterotpye as i am jewish myself but i bet Laurens charecter is jewish

36. Its sad that the price thing is true

37. So i am a theatre fan and do not watch got but that music kinda reminds me of got

38. Cant tell if jeff’s charecter is gay and a perv or just a perv (i realzie this could be mmisinterpreted as homophobic i just mean to say that jamie’s charecter just seems like a full out perv where as i cant tell with jeff’s)

39. Obviously you shouldnt be that insane but i do like the lines about how you are in charge of life and dont care about what others think. its goood life advice

39. Looks like Paul’s boss got his wish

40. They are all idiots for holding up the doll when everyone wants to get it

41. Corey’s charecter is like shit, money isnt that imporant

42. Becky why are you a part of this you have moral high ground (yes i am ignorning the fact that cast usually join in dance numbers even if their charecter isnt a part of it)

43. Shouldnt tom get ptsd (see above)

44. Lex you already have one (see above)

45. So i may be overthinking things but how curt says never should settle is in the tune of spies are forever

46. Is it just me or did anyone else notice when the security guard comes in the tune of show me your hands comes in

47. I dont know why but i do love soft bullies because hes like hey im punching you but only for the kid

48. Some may say its schizo or something hannah has but its anxiery or something from how shes expressing it

49. I feel like hannah has a superpower and can tell whats happening

50. Maybe webby is actually wiggly

51. Baby (both hannah and robert)

52. Please tell me my babies not dead

53. Jon’s eee is adorable and silly

54. Wait hes alive

55. Wait no hes dead, im sad liek starkid is supposed to be fun and happy this is the darkest star kid yet. Even oregon deaths were silly

56. I love starkid but this is making me anxious i cant tell if its good anxious or bad anxious

57. Also i relate to the black and white thing not fully but liek whenever i dont feel well sometimes my brain is overstimulating but only in my head its very hard to explain 

58. Also i think sometimes kids on the spectrum and im not an expert but i do have it kind of make a friend in their head and i do that too sometimes just to give me advice

59. Also i hope they dont get rid of the black and white as sometimes people go more crazy without the figurative voice in their head

60. Like i said this is going to be random order so i like that emma adopted paul;s Okay and no im not making a tfios refrence

61. Poor Tim

62. Poor becky but even less

63. i thought they were supposed to be mad at g-d but in this and tgwdlm they like g-d

64. I cant tell the other pins on joey’s jacket but the first two i notice are mr wiggly and paul

65. I love Lauren’s acting you can see the very sublte sadness in her

66. Lauren and Joey together ahhhh

67. I know its probaly not a big deal but they should give a seziure warning before the tv scene

68. Did they reuse curts spies are forever outfit

69. Really starkid the obama refrence seriously, i cant tell if im mad or laughing 

70. How did Bob get one

71. I do realize they are talking irl but i cant help but wonder if the nazis were a spies are forever refrence

72. Does wiggly have a special power or something 

73. I think its similar to the metero the closer you are the more power it has over you

74. The starkid special effects we all know and love

75. Also is that mcnamara

76. Also maybe shooting it (the doll) does the same thing that shooting the affceted does. Give them no power

77. I cant tell what the music reminds me of exactly but the tune does kinda refrence a diffrent star kid song

78. Jeff looks so proud of himself for the peeps line

79. I love the purposeful i presume reuse of lines

80. Is peip like men in black

81. Also hatchetfield kind of reminds me of night vale

82. Is the black and white like the upside down?

83. I wonder if the point was purposeful since someone was filming or just choreographed

84. Yes Jon Singing!!!!!

85. I love the act two opener

86. Did his parents really name him christmas?!?

87. Oh hes literally related to santa

88. I love lauren and joey as eleves

89. Noel another christmas name

90. Isnt the little dance move like a genie move or something

91. Its so cute that she insitincitvely went to their seats

92. Also carving is goals

93. Even though its a penis its still goals

94. I know what you are, say it, santa clause

95. Tom dont yell at your girl

96. Poor Tom

97. But also dont make this about you

98. They probaly werent the head of the school since they were nice, i am sorry but thats true

99. Yass girl fight his ass

100. Also the theatre kid in me is picturing all that jazz

101. he ran into my knife he ran into my knife ten times

102. Yes Becky’s husband (i forget the name sue me) is bad but i feel like becky is more sinister then we realize

103. Becky’s line even if it isnt meant to be is so funny

104. The girl who plays Becky could play Barbara

105. I love how Joey and Lauren look into the camera

106. Jamie saying santa awww such a pure bean

107. The person in the wiggly onsie is goals

108. Matrix glasses for the win

109. Is wilbur a refrence to Charelots Web?

110. Its a cult a cult of wiggly

111. I feel like Sherman young is around 30-40

112. I love how its mommy to sound less pervy

113. Oh wait never mind Linda is mom

114. Shit thats fucked up they killed him

115. I am right a jew no non jew says mensch

116. To quote jared klienman kinky (shoe kiss scene)

117. Also i love this song the adore song

118. Why does them picking up Lauren give me Draco vibes

119. Wait he isnt dead?? im so confused

120. Wait he is dead???

121. Also ethan is creepy now

122. But Roberts expressions are goals

123. Robert your proffesor hidgens is showing

124. What the how does he know her name

125. Savage Wiggly

126. Wiggly is more funny than scary

127. But my poor baby dont be scared

128. What the fuck tom

129. Also poor baby number two

130. At first you think becky is made about him hurting a child but no its about the doll

131. What the fuck Becky

132. Also I wonder if thats the same serum that Hidgens used

133. Tom yelling at the audince is hilarious

134. Also Becky singing is giving me little shop vibes

135. Becky are you drunk or something you so stupid

136. But yayy my baby doesnt get hurt

137. More starkid special effects

138. Also the lighting nod to tgwdlm

139. Also why did they take my baby (see i told you random)

140. So the perv is wiggly

141. Also if he can appear in regular formation on earth why does he need to be the doll

142. Oh wait never mind he explains it

143. Joey talking to the audience and making them hold the apple is goals

144. I love Joey’s song

145. MIA = Missing in Action = Made in America

146. Wait im wrong Joey cant be Wiggly unless he has super powers he cant be in two places at once

147. I know they dont mean sex but still wtf

148. Lauren looks so done i cant

149. Seziure warning after mr presidnet leaves the black and white

150. Unless it was purposeful they should have hidden the dolls better backstage

151. Wait didnt hannah say something about two doors earlier?

152. Seriously Sherman ponies

153. I love the going back line

154. My poor baby lex

155. No Lex dont die not you too

156. Haha throwback to tgwdlm

157. Yes baby you got the gun

158. Also die perv die

159. Eagle screeching is goals

160. Yes lex use that logic

161. Also it makes sense only the adults can be brainwashed

162. There were only adults no children, scary (not sarcastic i promise)

163. Seriously starkid Fortnight

164. Thats why you should never fully grow up

165. Woah what Lex says is deep

166. Yessss Tom

167. Wait Tom dont hold the gun

168. Wait is Charolette alive or just a reuse of costume, if so why would they have jaimie wear it

169. No dont take her magic hat

170. Haha stupid hats cant be magic only dolls obviously

171. Does lauren say something like fucking knife in another show too?

172. Lauren screaming gives me my father will hear about this vibes

173. Also give my baby her hat back

174. Yass Lauren get it girl (i do realize shes playing the villian but still)

175. Yass Robert get it

176. Even though shes a viilain i dont like seeing Lauren get killed

177. But also how did they get the bullet wound on her so quick im impressed

178. Haha the way Gary stops everything to talk to gerald is goals

179. Like hes like oh shit money

180. And then hes like oh wait i have to pretend to care

181. I love how exagerated their dying is

182. Thats an impressive quick change

183. Yess Emma Hidgens

184. But also no hell fuck up again

185. Also Paul interupting is goals

186. Haha hannah you go girl

187. First off I love the song

188. Song off Hannah’s voice

189. Is paul scared normal or because of the hive

190. Wait all the tgwdlm charecters are back like nothing happened im confused

191. Haha the Hatchfield band is back

[kennyswifu-blog]

Corpse Park chapter 1

Craig: oh IM SORRY! It’s not MY FAULT you guys are PIECES OF SHi-

Thomas; THATS IT MR. YOU ARE GROUNDED!

Craig: CANT DO THAT! I’m 18 THOMAS im not your kid! I don’t even LOOK LIKE YOU AND MOM! I’m probably adopted!

Thomas: IF YOUR NOT OUR OUR KID THEN GET OUUT!

Craig: whatever, I’m seriously tired of this

Tweeks POV

I’m In so much trouble! My parents are going to find out AND KILL ME GAHHHH, TOO MUCH PRESSURE x<

Tweek: if they find out me and Craig..... and Clyde, Token, Kenny, Kyle, Stan, and cartman, that we drank last night?! Oh no- AH GAGGGG

Tweek parents: tweek, sweetie, come down stairs

Tweet: GAH THEY KNOW-

tweeks mom: know what?

Tweek: that- um I’m gay! And that I love them a lot

Tweeks mom: oh yes we know that.

Tweek then starts to calm down after awhile and then soon got a call by Craig.

Craig: hey- I was kicked out of my h-house a-and- ca-can I c-c-come o-over?

Tweek: Craig! Are you ok AHHH

Craig: y-y-yes h-h-hone-ey.....

Tweak: ok Craig...... are you sure?

Craig: y-YES (not a yell though like a crying loud sounds?¿?)

Tweak: ok- and let me ask- ok?

Craig: ok- thanks H-Honey <3 love you-

Tweak: love you to-

Craig hanged up before hearing tweak. He waits for a response.

Craig POV

I wonder why it’s taking so long for tweak just to ask his parents.... I might as well go to the cabin that we broke cartmans electronics. Hah, memories.... hmmmm... I wonder how he’s been, he never talks to me anymore after-..... what I did...... I wonder if he’ll ever forgive me for what- uh.... mistake I made, it wasn’t even tweaks fault but he gets punished for being my boyfriend....

After Stan moved away to the farm, Kyle has been pretty lonely..... Kyle tried dating him to get them closer but- it made it worse..... Wendy found out and tried kicking his ASS. Of course she failed cause she’s a weak bitch- i mean “lady” well it’s not my fault, she is one. Poor Kyle just wanted Stan to understand he wants to just be “closer” hah just made it rhyme-

*ring*

Message from ❤️tweak❤️. Hey sweetie, for some reason they said no- but we can go and hang out at the abandoned cabin with everyone else?

Craig: I’m already a step ahead of you! Meet you there at 12:20? Or sooner? It’s only 11:59 right now, so do whatever floats your boat, cowboy!

Tweak: gee.... you sound like a dad.... ARE YOU PREGNANT?!? Wait.... AM I PREGNANT!??!???! AHHH THIS IS TO MUCH PRESSURE!!!!!

Craig: Lol, we cant be pregnant! We’re guys...... cya later honey

Tweak: ok.... bye!

Tweaks POV

Craig and I been together since 4th grade. And we’re in high school, it’s a big deal for us! Clyde and Bebe, broke up.... oh token and nikole are doing bad- Kyle and Stan never are going to be “something” Kyle and cartman- lets just say..... cartman will always have a flat heart after it.....

FLASHBACK———>

“Kahl, I must tell you the truth..... I’ve been- UG- I’m in love with you ok!” Kyle had the meanest face expression ever..... “are you fucking serious?! You made Stan HATE ME! And you made everyone think I WAS SOMETHING BAD!!!! AND YOU CALLED MY MOM A BIG FAT BITCH, AND YOU MAKE FUN OF ME FOR BEING A JEW!?! And WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY IS kalh I love you nynynyny, SEROUSLY FUCK YOU!” Cartman froze and let’s just say after that the hospital was needed there at the scene

END OF FLASHBACK————>

I must say, I’m happy Craig isn’t like that- I must say, he’s good to be around...... when you get under his skin...... he’s a real lover.....

Later......

I started sneaking out after my parents died after drinking to much. Not really though just passes out- anyways....

Craig: when will u be here I’m bored X(

Tweak: on my way! Just hold on. I waited till my parent passes out after all that bear.

After awile everyone got their

Clyde: u say we play this game, it takes you to a world of nightmares making your darkest dreams come true...

Token: it sounds fun and might be fake-

Kenny: UNLESS WE TRY IT, token, we won’t know? Anyways is it possible we can die there

Clyde: oh you bet your sweet ass!

Kenny: LIT AND don’t say that.... I know I’m thick but I get it- you guys have fun dying.

Clyde: you not playing pussy?

Kenny: oh I am, I just can’t die.

Clyde: loser, still with that?

Kenny: because it’s true!

Clyde: sure thing partner

Stan: lets just start

Kyle: yea it might be fun to see FATASS CARTMAN SUFFER!

Cartman: shut up ye FUKin a Jew! I’m not fat I’m big boned....

Kyle: whateve-

Stan: OMG SHUT UPPP-

Kenny: why did they come? Who invited these losers?

Token: lets just do this already.

Tweak: oh GAH OH GOD NO?!

Craig: it’s ok honey it’s not real.

Tweak: GAH you sure- IT SEEMS DANGEROUS!!!!

Craig: honey- please?

Tweak: if it works IM BEING YOUR WORSE NIGHTMARE! AHHH

Craig: ok honey.

Clyde: the ritual need blood from all of us. We put it on the door only a minute from 3, then you will see, they night will become decay? Only one will know the right way out, just be quite and don’t shout, survive till 6, with all your sticks and don’t forget the blood.... so collect sticks and put blood on the door ok..... wait decay? Like what? Zombies BLEEHHH.

Craig; your an idiot... lets just do it

They all collected sticks and came back with 6 to open the gate to hell. Tweek almost threw up from fear but overcame it with a hug and kiss from Craig.... after it was done at first nothing happened but were they wrong? Yes, they were. The room turned dark, darker than black, and they got sleepy, maybe to sleepy and woke up 6 days late....

A dark land of fog, nothing here but us... what happened that night and are they in the world?

Find out next episode..... #southpark #horror #risk

[transcendent-paras]

Basic Info on My Paracosm

Don’t interact if you are not a MaDDer or an immersive daydreamer

I’m using paracosm lightly cause it’s like... mirrored thisverse? mirrored and slightly to the left with my paras added in, you know? I went from having paracosms with whole galaxies and gods and languages to thisverse 2.0.

Background/About Me: I'm a closeted trans male. Recently I’ve been hyperfocusing on music - specifically "alternative" music like punk, metalcore, rock, emo, etc  as well as kpop - and it's affected my paracosm. My current paracosm is a Trans punk rock band focusing on one band named Transcendent, and has Incorporated many of the bands I listen to into it. 

Original Paras: 

Parame - Michè Valentino: Lead singer, Pianist, Song writer. Trans male in his 20s, adopted by a family in the UK and has two older brothers. His middle brother is highkey based off  the kpop group *XO’s (to avoid this coming up in the tags) leader Su*o, and he is also in a band very similar to *XO. Michè fell in love with one of *XO’s members but because of the large age gap it was unrequited. Eventually Michè went to study abroad and moved to New York city and met his best friend and later boyfriend Ashley Nolans. Shortly after high school Ashley and Michè moved in together.

Ashley Nolans: Backing vocalist and screams/growls, Lead guitarist. A year older than Michè, he is a former myspace & later instagram drag king when he saw a drag queen at a mall. Slowly he realized he identified as a trans male instead of a drag king. His family was supportive of his whole journey and let him do what he felt comfortable doing, though they did manage his myspace since he was very young. Michè moved to Ashley’s high school and they were in the same music class. Ashley took Michè to his first pride parade. Ashley is slightly insecure that Michè will leave him for the *XO member he had a crush on, but Ashley never brings it up or lashes out/acts on it.

Nikki Archer: Bass Guitarist, Composer. Nikki is agender and has always identified as such even with out knowing anything about gender identities as a child. Their uncle took them to many rock and punk concerts growing up, and bought them their first bass for their 13th birthday, that Nikki still has but has retired it so it doesn’t get damaged on tour. Nikki’s uncle is the most understanding member of the family about their gender, but their parents try to be accepting and not ignorant. Nikki and Emilynn were Vice President and President of their high school’s LGBT Club. Though they went to the same school as Ashley they never met him and graduated before Michè started going there. Nikki and Emilynn dated for a while in high school but decided they were better as close platonic friends.

Emilynn Kay: Drummer, Leader. Emilynn is the oldest member, 5 years older than Michè and is a trans woman. She grew up in the south originally and not only had to deal with racism as a poc, but didn’t even dream of coming out to anyone besides her parents. Eventually her parents decided it would be best for her if they moved. When they moved up to New York she was able to dress the way she wanted and easily took her gender in stride. Of course she had harsher comments and bullying than white trans kids or cis black kids at her school she never changed who she was to fit in. She did percussion in the marching band and acted in theater often. She naturally took on a motherly role to other LGBT kids in the school, especially but not limited to younger trans kids, and they voted for her to be president of the club. She met Michè and Ashley at a pride parade very nervous to admit to being trans and she took them under her wing. When she realized she had a group of trans friends who all were into the same type of music and could play instruments she suggested forming a band.

Alexandria Woods: Rhythm Guitarist, Violinist, Newest Member. Alexandria realized at the start of high school she identified more feminine than masculine and after research felt Demi-girl described her the most. Her friends in high school helped her express herself while remaining closeted, especially from her parents. Her family were for the most part very kind and she got along with them on every issue except for gender. Meanwhile Alexandria also had a youtube channel that she posted guitar and violin covers on, gaining a respectable fan base on various platforms. Michè discovered her when she did a cover of a Transcendent song and he followed her on twitter. One day when she was 16, a cousin discovered one of her skirts in her closet and outted her to her parents, getting her kicked out and they have not spoken since. Alexandria made a tweet that she would have to put a pause on covers until she could find a place to live, and Michè swooped in asking if she need a place to live. After living with Michè and Ashley for a while, the band had a meeting and agreed that Alexandria would be a perfect fit in the band. The fans and later the members joke that Alexandria is Michè and Ashley’s daughter. Fans immediately loved Alexandria as a member of the band, especially since many of them had know of her in vlogs with the band and members retweeting her covers often.

Celebrity paras (censored so it doesnt show in tumblrs search results, if you cant figure out the * feel free to pm me or ask me off anon!): 

*XO: Originally in a past paracosm they were as themselves and a slightly different parame was just friends with them, but over time i latched onto the leader Su*o and started to see him as a brother figure. Not wanting to do culture appropriation I warped them from kpop to western music and made it so Michè was adopted by Su*o’s family. Nearly everything about them is the same including names and achievements, past members, and music. Because I actually know Korean there is no language barrier in music so it doesn’t bother me that they are supposed to be a uk based band and they sing in korean in thisverse, but in paracosm it is ‘in english’. The member that Michè is in love with is Ch****ol

Bl*ck Veil Br*d*s: Ashley and Michè bonded over a love for the band, and later got Emilynn and Nikki into them. Transcendent went from playing basement shows to being signed under Republic Records and it’s subsidiary Lava records, the same labels as B*B. Since they do a similar style music under the same label they crossed paths a few times in company, at warped tour, and eventually Transcendent did a few opening sets for B*B. They became close, and have talked about doing some sort of collaboration. 

P*l*y* R*y*l*: Alexandria really looked up to them, and was beyond ecstatic meeting them backstage at warped tour. The two bands have hung out a few times and they are very supportive of each other on social media. 

Other bands here and there that show up occasionally: P**rc* the v**l, f*ll*ng in r*v*rs* (michè has gotten into verbal arguments with r*nn*e a few times but they don’t hate eachother), my ch*****l romance, as ** is, sh*n*e (kpop).

Transcendent’s Music: 

Respect Existence - First album: Overall theme of the album is celebrating differences and who you are, with elements of punk rock, speed metal, and experimental rock. Usually when daydreaming about this era I listen to B*B’s album Set The World on Fire and P*V’s Collide With The Sky which is sort of the instrumental vibe I picture this album being. After this was released they were sighed under lava records

Who came first - Album: cover album dedicated to bands that influenced Transcendent’s music style. First album with Alexandria. Most recent album, and brought them further into the limelight, being a more recognizable alternative band. 

I’m Not Okay (originally by m*r)

Misery Business (originally by param***)

But It’s Better If You Do (originally by p!*td)

I Don’t Care (originally by f*b)

21 Guns (originally by gr**n d*y)

Bulls In The Bronx (originally by p*v) 

If You Can’t Hang (originally by s*s)

Don’t Feel Quite Right (originally by p*l*y* r*y*l*)

The Drug In Me Is You (originally by f*r)

10 Miles Wide (originally by es****e the f**e)

Can You Feel My Heart (originally by b**h)

The Legacy (originally by b*b)

Expect Resistance - Upcoming album: companion piece to Respect Existence (not a repackage album). Not only does it celebrate your differences but also a call to action to be unapologetically you and to ‘form a resistance’ against those who hold you back. I usually listen to B*B’s album vale and Agai*** me!’s song teenage anarchist when thinking about this time. My paras are trying to see if they can get any collaborations with different artists, Michè especially wants to have his brother on one of the songs.

[ithisatanytime]

 i remember her bemusement when she saw all of my life documents, birth certificate, GED “diploma” fit easily into a manila envelope, while she had a literal suitcase full of documents. she was adopted from korea by her teacher parents and they afforded her a comfortable life where she was a priority, remember they literally choose her and adoption agencies dont give adorable korean babies to just anyone. i tried to explain it away by just saying we were poor growing up, but the issue was deeper than that, we werent a priority, it was just a given growing up that we couldnt afford college, and we were heading towards an uncertain future, not only did we not know where we were gonna be living day to day a lot of the time, with the streets beign a very real possibility that we were constantly struggling to avoid, but my sister and i just werent a priority, and i cant recall even a single conversation i ever had with my mother or one of her boyfriends concerning our future, it just never came up because it wasnt a priority, and i had to fight tooth and nail too attend college even though i had secured the funding myself via pell grant. to be fair, we are hard to understand even for another poor person, and too her credit she was wonderful, she was self aware and intelligent enough to recognize that as best as she could (though we never talked about it) and all along the way, she tried harder than any woman i had ever been with to keep her promises despite being completely out of love with me, and in fact being repulsed by me on some level (thank you hormonal birth control) she would even listen to my insane sounding gibberish about birth control and just give me another week for her hormones to right themselves, (love doesnt really work that way, once the spell is broken its over)

 SY if you ever read this im really sorry and i hope to christ this isnt embarrassing for you, i treid to be fair, and to leave out comprimising details, i just wanted to talk about something deeply importatn to me, and i felt enough time had passed that it was ok, so long as i left out incriminating details, i behaved just as irrationally if not more so with my anger and jealousy, and i am constantly blown away you put up with me for as long as you did. i angrily forced you to stop calling me because i was watching you slip away slowly and its one of the most intensely painful experiences of my life (again not your fault) i literally couldnt take it anymore, i saw you make some innocuous tweet, like you were just enjoying life while i was wrecked over you, and some twitter guy with the name of that cat from the aristocrats that you talked about liked the tweet, the irrational jealousy was instant, and it hurts so bad, i lost my mind, i had to say anythign to get you to stop talking to me, so i coudl try to stop caring, i still love you so much, and i miss you all the time, constantly want to tell you funny jokes, etc, but all the jealousy is gone. i hope you are happy (i know you are, and you deserve it) but i kind of hoped you got back with that indian guy, i think hed make you happiest in the long term. but its none of my fucking business. it just i still love you and another girl (this fucks with me so bad) and she kind of did something similar with me, so i identified with him a little bit. men love differently than women, they either dont fucking care at all really or they love them for life. i know this is weird as shit, but can you imagine loving someone for years and never telling anyone? it eats at me. but i dont want you back you know, obviously that would never work, i have so many issues. i just worry about you sometimes and think about you all the time.

[airoasis]

Ted Cruz Is OBSESSED With AOC

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Ted Cruz Is OBSESSED With AOC

>> Ted Cruz is trying to trick every body into thinking that he’s in prefer of making birth control low cost and to be had over-the-counter. And this was once clear in his response to a tweet that came from AOC. Now this all started with AOC tweeting, delivery manage must be over-the-counter, move it on. Now she adopted that up with a subsequent tweet that mentioned, it must be free, too, like in the UK.Now when it came to the primary tweet, Ted Cruz spoke back to it and said, I agree. Might be, in addition to the laws, we are already engaged on collectively to ban members of Congress from becoming lobbyists, we are able to workforce up here as good. A easy, clean invoice making birth manipulate to be had over-the-counter, interested? So he is not to be trusted, correct? In the beginning I notion, what’s he looking to do? Is he just seeking to latch on to her popularity, bear in mind he was a Tea party candidate. He’s to be despised by way of progressives in every single place the arena, correct, so here is- >> Does he have eyeliner in that photograph? >> I do not know, i do not wanna look at his face. >> okay, ok. >> So here is what we all know, now Republicans have without a doubt supported putting beginning manipulate over-the-counter, you wanna comprehend why? >> can’t wait. >> on account that then it is now not blanketed by means of wellbeing insurance. When you do it that method, it becomes a client product. And so if you are now not competent to afford it, then you’re not in a position to find the money for it. It can be now not protected by wellness coverage since it’s now a client product. That is truely whatever that Republicans have been seeking to do in the back of the scenes in an extraordinarily difficult approach considering the cheap Care Act made birth manage free.>> that’s why Ocasio-Cortez added it must be free. >> exactly. >> Now Cruz is not gonna conform to that. >> No. >> So he is definitely doing two matters right here. One is the trick that Ana’s referring to, why? Cuz they don’t want you to take contraception and then whilst you get pregnant later, they are gonna say, well, i don’t care. You gotta carry the child to term. Now if they have been in favor of contraception, you can have much less abortions within the nation. Theoretically, that will have to make them completely happy, however they’re like, no, we’re religious fundamentalists. And being the American Taliban that we’re, even though 99% of yankee ladies use beginning control, we don’t want them to. And we would like them to take heed to the 1%, which genuinely within the case of the Republicans kinda is sensible. The 1% of theological mullahs that we’ve in this nation, and the 1% that are the richest people in the country, both means, that is who Ted Cruz serves.And then the 2d part of it’s, yeah, hes thirsty. So whenever Occasio-Cortez is doing something, individuals pay concentration. So hes like, me too, me too, me too, me too! Now, seem, that being mentioned, if he comes and concurs with us, I consistently take sure for an answer. So I cant stand Ted Cruz, I consider thats abundantly clear. But if they work collectively to ban lawmakers from doing eyeliner like that, or becoming lobbyists, i’m wholly in want of that. I’ll take sure for an reply. If he needs us to move on his path and say, now, remember how terrible contraception is so we should not make it free, then no deal. >> simply proceed with warning. And finally, I just wanna note that there is an effort by means of Democrats in Congress to do the correct factor relating to contraception. Very curious to see if Ted Cruz signs on to this.I might most commonly wager no. So Senator Murray, representative Ayana Pressley, and Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez, and others offered the Affordability in entry Act. The invoice will not make birth manage over-the-counter. Handiest the FDA can do this. But it might ensure that if the FDA does act, delivery manage would remain covered via coverage, to prevent a state of affairs where the treatment turns into easier to get but more difficult to pay for. >> look, it can be a part of our health care protection, it can be apparent. And if the Republicans get their way, satirically, we’ll have much more abortions within the country. >> And one more thing, you know why it’s part of healthcare insurance policy and why Obama wanted to comprise it within the inexpensive Care Act? Due to the fact, and the quantity could have extended seeing that, but again then, the federal govt was spending $eleven billion a 12 months on sudden pregnancies.And so it can be part of maintaining the cost of health care down, offering free birth control to ensure that individuals can take control of their bodies and no longer get pregnant if they don’t wish to. >> No, I’ve acquired a different factor cuz i might love to cite to Bible. So have you learnt why devout zealots like Ted Cruz think you should not do birth manipulate? Is it when you consider that he mentioned that, speak about start manage drugs within the Bible, most likely now not. Do they speak about condoms, definitely now not. No, there was once one passage and that’s about how you mustn’t spill your seed.That is the same passage they use to justify being against masturbation. Good success with that. Ok, the only thing much less standard than seeking to ban contraception. Anyway, it can be considering the fact that Onan was once having intercourse together with his brother’s spouse as God commanded. His brother had died and God stated, you must have intercourse with your useless brother’s spouse. Curious option. >> Gigidy. >> okay, however Onan clearly felt responsible, so he pulled out. So this is in the Bible. You can not say i’m saying whatever soiled. It’s in the Bible, ok? >> Do they train this in Sunday school? >> well, they teach you to not be an Onanist, k? So he pulled out and his seed spilled on the bottom. And God was once tremendous indignant. He’s like I advised you to have sex together with your brother’s spouse and ensure you get her pregnant.>> Why did God want that, what used to be the point? >> So again within the day that they had these historic traditions about if your brother dies you have to take his family and in essence preserve them. But at the same time, safety was once partly having sex together with his ex-wife. He did not have to do that, to preserve her, right? But it’s in the Bible. And so all of this anti-masturbation and anti-contraception stuff comes from that bizarre component of the Bible that was once just a passing reference. >> we now have heard you inform this shellfish part of the Bible a billion instances. How come you do not tell this part of the Bible? >> good, I just did, mission accomplished. .