#i cant feel negative emotions when i read this book

[starlitsequins]

my dad is reading the iliad for the first time and came to me after book 16 and we were on drastically different wavelengths...there i was all excited about him finally witnessing patroclus slaughtering everyone and there he was horrified at the violence...look sometimes you just have to let the aristeia take you and forget your morals

[theygender]

Does anyone have any good book recommendations that talk about transmisogyny in a way that would be entry level to like. A 50 year old cis lesbian

[m0chis-cafe]

Hello! This is my first time making a request, if it's okay, can I get a reader with Lillia, Rook, Vil and Leona who has recently been suffering from insomnia and anxiety about returning home (comfort in the end) Please? 😔🎀

i absolutely love this, i get horrible insomia. i gotchu♡

(edit: i ended up focusing on one more than the other in some, but both are mentioned. hope u still like it *mwah*)

reader suffering from insomnia and anxiety about returning home.. ⋆⑅˚₊

word count: 1.5k

warnings: mentioning of anxiety, and panic attacks (there will be major comfort though), sitting in laps, kissing, joking to help, mentioning of what happens in each of the characters books (i hope yall have read em before but js in case)

characters: leona, rook, vil, and lilia

leona kingscholar🦁

you paced the botanical gardens on campus, hands tangling in your hair s you thoughts went a million miles a second..

how am i going to get home?

how is my family.. god i miss them..

if im forced to stay here.. how do i even pass these crazy magic classes?

do the people here ive come to know even want me here or are they forced to cause i cant leave..

every new thought was another anxiety that just caused your breath to quicken. your thoughts were flooded with negatives.. if you had magic this is what youd assume a magic blot would feel like.. so much negative emotions piling into you all at once.

you eventually sat below a tree, knees curled to your chest as you tried to calm yourself down. it didnt help that you hadent slept in days, insomnia only getting worse since coming to nightraven.

yet no matter what you did your breaths wouldnt calm, your hands kept shaking, and you couldnt hear or see straight. you almost jumped right out of your skin as you felt hands grab your own that covered your face. looking up you saw brown hair and ears.. leona?

his voice made its way to you eventually, "herbavore? herbavore.. seriously c'mon your worrying me. ruggie said you ran off but i didnt think itd be this bad." he mumbled to himself before his hands slipped dwon to your biceps, "hey, listen to me." he spoke firmly.

your eyes eventually meet him, your breaths calmling slightly at his presence. taking large breaths through your lips as you looked up at him, arms shaking in his hold. "dont fall out on me now, we need you." he spoke lowly as he scopped you up with ease, placing you betwen his legs, "your alright now herbivore, whatevers going on in that head of yours, its gonna be alright, yea?" he placed a kiss on your forhead allowng you time to breath normally.

when your breaths calmed and body began to calm, you sighed and leaned more into his body, "thank you.. leona". he chuckled deeply, sloching more down the tree, letting you fall into his chest. "its fine kid, just glad your fine. did something happen?". your eyes widened before spilling, explaining your thoughts to him slowly, anxious to be a burden. when you ended he rolled his eyes and strted laughing.. at you?..

huh?

"you seriously think anyone here doesnt want you here? i think at this point those first years would fall apart without you, and as for finding your way home, crawley better. or ill personally kick his ass, alright herbavore?" you simply nodded your head and leaned into him smiling, "your really not as bad as they say you are.."

vil schoenheit🧺

vi had become obsessed with training for the dance competittion, day after day everyone was practicing for hours every day. you tried to be nothin bt supportive but your insomnia had only gotten worse with the recent stress of the compettition..

what will happen if we dont win?

everyone else looks so tired..

god im so tired.. when was the last time i slept multiple hours?

i wish i could just go home already..

you guys had gotten the first brea of the day, you sat against the wall between kalim and ace as they yapped about how excited they were to preform next week. listening to them had you distracted, your eyes fluttering closed.

a hand was placed on your shoulder, looking up you saw jamil crouched in front of you, "are you alright? you look terrible prefect" you heard ace and kalim repremand him for being so blunt, but you just shook your head trying to wake up, "im fine jamil.. just tired, thank you though"

he looked skeptical but quickly turned to make sure kalim was drinking water and taking a proper break. ace mumbled something under his breath that you barley couldnt catch before he stood up and walked towards vil who was with rook and epel, who were talking across the room.

you saw vil look down at ace with his arms crossed, he glanced at you as ace pointed a finger to you. vil abandoned his conversation with epel and rook, shooing away the others around you, "why wouldnt you say that you havent been sleeping, thats not proper conditions for you to be proforming in prefect."

"im fine vil-", he rolled his eyes and cut you off, "you look anything but, stand" he reached a hand down to you, pulling you up from the ground. your head swam with spots when you rose too quickly, stumbling into vil.

he wrapped his arms around your waist, holding you up, "poision.. is somethng truley wrong?" you looked up at him, eyes wide as he read you like a book. he quickly took your hand and dragged you out of the practice room and into the lounge at pomefiore.

he sat you down in one of the chairs and crouched in fron tof you, holding your face in his hands, "speak to me.." you sighed before explaining what had been happening, the stresses and not sleeping, the thoughts of never being able to go home.

he sighed and stood, sitting beside you and tugging you into his side, "i wish you would speak up when this happens, you know that id never wish to add to your burdens." he placed a kiss to your forhead before continuing, "we will find a way for you to go home, no matter how bitter sweet itll be, i do hope we find a way for you to go back and forth.. we would all miss you terribly here.. especially me." at his words you sighed and relaxed into his side, "ill find a way back, i could never just leave you guys.. especially you.

rook hunt🪶

you thought itd be easy to hide your emotions recently, but knowing rook he proably could already see through your mind..

i hope i can go home soon..

i wonder if time has passed back home and if my family is worried about me..

i need to stop stresing, i havent slept at all recently

these magic classes are getting harder with the lack of magic

you thought you kept a pretty good mask on arround others, yet as soon as you were walking from potions alone with rook he spoke up, "mon cheri.. have you been sleeping enough? your beauty is as blinding as always, alas you seem more tired than usual."

you shouldve known better than to try to keep something from him, he finds out everything sooner rathar than latter, "im alright, just worried about getting home, i guess its been affecting my sleep.."

"well theres no use in worrying cheri! i garuntee they will find a way to send you home! with that said i think a long rest for you is in place." he spoke cherfully as he laced your hands together and dragged you to pomefiore, you smiled at his actions and followed along.. he always here to look after me

lilia vanrough🦇

after dealing with blots from every other house, you thought hanging around diasmonia would be calming. yet as you sat in the lounge with silver, sebek, lilia, and malleus your thought still didnt stop running..

whos going to over-blot next?

will the next one be more powerful.. maybe too powerful..

i didnt have these struggles at home

even my sleep scheduals gotten worse.. late nights staying up with lilia and idia playing games have become much more often an occurance

im supposed to be relaxing, just breath..

your mind spaced out as you looked at the floor in front of you while stuck in thought. your hands tangled into your blazer sleeves as your breath quickened, your vision began to see spots before you felt a hand rest on top of your own in your lap.

"prefect, is something the matter?" your head snapped up and saw lilia who was sat beside you, a concerned look for once took over his boyish grin, "your not looking too good.. are you ill?" he placed a hand on you forhead attempting to asses if you were running a fever.

"im alright.. just missing home" you mumbled, offering him a small smile as you placed your head on his shoulder. he sighed, raisng your hand to press a kiss on the back of your hand, "well find a way for you to go back, i promise it my dear."

he wrapped an arm around your waist pulling you to lean more into him, "in the mean time, you havent been sleeping and its clear, get some rest prefect" his boyish grin returned as he pecked your cheek. he was right.. everything was gonna be ok.

you finally felt comfortble enough to fall into a deep sleep against him, with grim curled up into your lap mumbling about his dreams of tuna. surronded by people you became found of over you stay at nightraven, it wouldnt be bad to stay here, but you knew that there would be a way home.

[poemnic-tarot]

Channeled Message from Your Soulmate’s Higher Self

(Disclaimer : This is a general reading please only take what resonate. For entertainment purposes only)

🧚🏻‍♀️ 💕 🍀 🌷 🌸 You are Loved 🌸 🌷 🍀 💕 🧚🏻‍♀️

Pile 1🌠 “Twin flames”

“I want to acknowledge your mastery of your own emotions. I love that you’ve learned not to control or shame your emotion but accept them for what they are. Your inner strength really shine through and it wasn’t easy so I want to congratulate you on that hard earned achievement, my love. Now your emotion can’t hold you back anymore from taking action. They do not dictate what you can or cannot do because frankly, there is nothing you can’t achieve in this world. You can basically manifest anything.

You are very intuitive and even psychic when we first met and I noticed that about you. I was surprised by how much you were able to pick up on. My feeling particularly because I was not that expressive. You’ve showed me how to balance between true inspired action and just doing things for the sake of doing it. It was hard for me to give something up or abandoned things I’ve started, even when I know it was passed due to do so. Leaving things,letting go of attachment is hard for me. I am the type to keep on reading a book or watching a movie till the end even when I am dead bored of them. There’s no reason for me to continue but there wasn’t a reason for me to leave either. So I’m stuck I guess, I’m very good at getting myself stuck, in the middle, hanging in- between staying or going. But you told me you found that endearing for some reason and gently took my hand and guide me out of my self- imposed prison. You have helped me heal my wound of abandonment, maybe that’s why it was hard to say goodbye to things and leave them, even though they do not serve me anymore.

I admire your sense of adventure, you are the most expressive person I’ve ever met. Even if you don’t know that about yourself. I feel quite a strong kinship with you, like this is not our first rodeo on this earth. Perhaps, we often have more adventures in our dreams, I know I do dreamt of you quite often. I just want to let you know that I love you, I love who are and who you were and who you are trying to become. Every versions of you amazed me cause your true strength alway shines through every time and I will alway recognised your bright essence anywhere.”

Love,

Your Soul Family

Signs: Rose, Lion/big cats, 111, Infinity, Pine trees,Crescent Moon

Love Quotes: "In the end, we all just want someone that chooses us over everyone else under any circumstances."

Song: I See the Light from Tangle

“….And at last I see the light

And it’s like the fog has lifted

And at last I see the light

And it’s like the sky is new

And it’s warm and real and bright

And the world has somehow shifted

All at once everything looks different

Now that I see you

Love Poem verse : Twin flames by @cant-find-my-name

…I recognised negative traits needed

To be discard,

When we met, I think I’ve found myself

The missing piece, part of my soul

Ah, you’re my Twin flames

When I met you I know

We’re one and the same

🧚🏻‍♀️ 💕 🍀 🌷 🌸 You are Loved 🌸 🌷 🍀 💕 🧚🏻‍♀️

Pile 2🍄 If Magic Was Real

"I hope you are taking time to fully sit in your emotions and grieve. It is okay to express your emotion, in fact, it is crucial if you need to cry or break down or just lose it emotionally. Give yourself that permission to do so. You might think that it's strong of you to keep it together for the sake of others or yourself. That it is so mature of you to do so but darling, there need to be a balance. You need to heal but you won't be able to heal if you won't let yourself feel all of your sadness. If you need to cry, cry it out I will be here with you. You are not alone in your sorrows. I would like to give this song to you, maybe it would help "Chiquitita by Cher". It seem you have broken a feather but don't worry, we will try to patch it up together.

I want to tell you that a renewal is coming to you. It was a hard chapter that you just experienced and I hate seeing you pretending to be fine. But your sad eyes is not fooling anyone. It is okay to be sad,to be angry, to let it all out ( in a healthy way not in a self destructive way please). I admired you for holding it together for this long, but more than anything, I want you to let go. Be vulnerable with yourself, I think that is the most beautiful thing. Witness the spectrum of human emotions, it is beautiful. It is time to rest in your nest for awhile until you’re able to fly again. Take all the time that you need, grieve all that there is, broken relationships, friendships, nostalgia. Whatever it is, I am alway there. Listen to music because I love sending you messages through these songs, it has really helped me through my hard time. So I’m hoping music could be a little comfort to you at this time. Take some time for yourself love, cause you definitely need it. Trust me that the sun will rise once more, and all that happened will just been a hard learned lesson and you’ve definitely learn a lot from it.

I know that the real you is not a sad person. You are the most vibrant, radiant, happiest soul I know. And sadness doesn’t suit you one bit, as well as pretending to be happy. You shine best when you are true to your feeling. Winter is over and I cannot wait to welcome you back into the season of spring.”

Love,

Your Soulmate

Signs: Black feathers, birds, 55, Tears drop

Love Quote : “He’s more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.”

Song : Chiquitita by Cher

Chiquitita, tell me the truth

I’m a shoulder you can cry on

Your best friend, I’m the one you must rely on

You were alway sure of yourself

Now, I see you’ve broken a feather

I hope we can patch it up together

Love Poem verse: If Magic Was Real by @cant-find-my-name

.. The world seem kind

When you’re around

To believe again

Is easy

When you’re with me

If Magic is real

It is where you’ll be

🧚🏻‍♀️ 💕 🍀 🌷 🌸 You are Loved 🌸 🌷 🍀 💕 🧚🏻‍♀️

Pile 3🫧 I’ll Never Forget

“You’re working so hard and so am I. We’re trying to do our own work, slowly building strong foundation for the future. Maybe out of fears than anything. This anxiety to keep on going, to do better and better, to improve, constantly striving for a better future. I get it, I feel it too, however, if we keep on going like this eventually our life forces will run out. And physically we can become ill and I really don’t want that for you. So I’m here to let you know that you can slow down, what you feared will not come true. Your deep, dark fears will not come alive. If you think you can’t stop because you think that the fears you feel will transpire. No, it will not, you’ve work hard enough. Outwardly and internally, I’ve watched you tried and tried and alway striving to do better. To be better, but honey, you are already enough for me. You alway will be, regardless of what you did or what you didn’t do or what you will do. I will alway believe that your existence alone is enough for me. To sooth my soul, to lift my spirit up. You don’t have to do anything for me, I am happy just to be with you, to exist with you, to be by your side and bath in your lovely presence

I know you have struggled from a lack mentality, I don’t know if you notice that about yourself. And that is nothing to be ashamed of , I‘m struggling with it too. I understand how you feel, no matter how much you have or how much you do, you just feel it’s never enough. True abundance come from the inside. And you are already enough with the proof that your heart beats for you, the blood flowing in your vein is proof that we meant to exist here as we are. No more, no less.

Please rest assured love, and take a break once in a while. Do something that’s not related to work. I want you to practice winding down, practice letting go and relaxing. No one ever teach us how to truly relax and it is a skill, it doesn’t come naturally to us and we can help each other relax. We can practice together, practice just existing without shame or guilt, or a pit in our stomach that things will go wrong if you don’t do anything. I want you to learned to have fun because when we’re together, it’ll become a skill that will help our relationship a lot. I want to have fun together with you and for you to tell me all about your adventures, your travels and your crazy journey. I can’t wait to just sit down and be with you. Take a vacation with you and have the time of our lives. You are my vacation home.”

Love from,

Your Honey bear

Signs : 88, Roses, Games, Festival, Spider, Designer brand

Love Quote : “I know from that first moment we met. It was not love at first sight exactly but familiarity. Like ‘oh hello’, it’s you. It’s going to be you.”

Song : Voyage by Kep1er

“The sound of waves surging in

Far beyond the horizon

Between the clouds, we going high

Follow me in my way

When the gentle breeze blows

Close your eyes and feel it

We arrived to an unfamiliar island

slowly open your eyes

Love Poem verse: I’ll Never Forget by @cant-find-my-name

Loneliness is a disease

But I think you’ve just cure me,

You make me so happy

I don’t recognise myself,

You warmed my hand

Around your coffee mug

And asked if I’m alright

Your voice sounded worried

And there’s concern sincerity’s in

Your eyes.

🧚🏻‍♀️ 💕 🍀 🌷 🌸 You are Loved 🌸 🌷 🍀 💕 🧚🏻‍♀️

Pile 4🌙Each Night

“Good evening, I hope to meet you again in our dream. I know you dreamed of me and questioned it. Believe in yourself my little star. Your dream is not lying to you. It is alright to hope, to wish, to believe in the impossible. Please don’t think that it’s ridiculous or childish to believe in true love, in soulmate and fairy tales. Because you’re not wrong to hope. Your soulmate exist and you know that but your fears trying to convince you otherwise. I am your soulmate and my message to you is to believe in me. I want to validate your feeling, your extraordinary senses. Your wish in that little star?, I heard it, the universe heard it too and we listen. To all of your wishes and it was not ridiculous of you to wish for love, true love. It is not unrealistic, or rose colour glasses. It is just something that you know you deserve and want to feel. We do not shame or guilt ourself for asking for more love.

I am alway with you, in your dream, in your waking life, in our past lives. That is why you can feel my presence so strongly. It is not just from your imagination. I want to assured you that, it is real. I am as real as the bark of a tree. I can feel you too but truthfully, my 3D self is not as intuitive as you. I tend to brush things off when they don’t make sense, so please don’t be like me.Things doesn’t need to make sense now,it will eventually come together. Unfolding naturally, beautifully. I know you see my signs everywhere and is questioning reality. You are not going mad, just a head up from me. We will meet soon, in a way that you won’t believe. I won’t either but we both know that we wish for this desperately. Earth has been achingly lonely for me. And knowing you exist have helped alleviate the ache a bit. I want you to take your time with life, don’t rush cause when we come together, we can continue this journey together in an even pace,step by step.

Love,

Yours

Signs : North Star, Dove, Diamond shape, Cocoon of a butterfly, 8910, 2020

Love Quotes: “He loves you very much” she said, but more than that, he cares for you. Sometimes love is not as important as truly caring for the other person.

Song : Surefire by John Legend

“Let me breath you in ‘till gravity bends

And we fall through the hole in the light

Make this our kingdom

Somewhere where good love conquers and not

Divides”

Love Poem verse : Each Night by @cant-find-my-name

Oh distance shore

I beg of you

Please no more,

Please don’t keep us apart

I can’t take it

This is destroying my heart,

We are one and it’s time to be

Together again

Next to each other

Hand in Hand

Feel you touch my skin

Smell your scent

I breathe you in………

🧚🏻‍♀️ 💕 🍀 🌷 🌸 You are Loved 🌸 🌷 🍀 💕 🧚🏻‍♀️

Thank you so much for reading!. If this resonate please leave a tip if you like. See you soon!

Check out more of my original poems at @cant-find-my-name .

[cowboybrunch]

writerblr interview tag!

thank you for the tags @tragedycoded (here) @sableglass (here) and @saturnine-saturneight (here) <3 ive been meaning to get to this one for a minute sooo let's get into it

Short stories, novels, or poems?

i started with poetry, so it has a special place in my heart. all of my short stories turn into beasts. is it a cop out answer to say all of the above?

What genre do you prefer reading?

it'd be easier to list what genres i don't like. when i say ill read anything, i mean ill read anything. lately i've been on a sci fi kick (thanks Pierce Brown) but i love a good modern trashy romance as much as the next guy (i read the booktok sludge so you dont have to!) im not really a nonfiction guy but hey, if anyone has some recs, ill give em a shot

Are you a planner or a write as I go kind of person?

def NOT a planner. usually when i start writing i have a vague idea of where we start and where we need to end up, but what happens along the way is a surprise for everyone involved

What music do you listen to while writing?

SILENCE. sometimes white noise. i cant focus with music, brain gets jumbled

Favorite books/movies?

of all time? oh god for books, probably This Is How You Lose the Time War or The Song of Achilles but The Locked Tomb series is def up there. not a novel but i've read Bluets by Maggie Nelson so many times i probably have it memorized by now favorite movie is Zoolander, easy answer. that movie owns. i can watch it on repeat and ill never get sick of it

Any current WIPs?

Dust to Dust is still alive but im taking a bit of a hiatus before hopping into the final bit (tag is here if you wanna see me ramble about it) Felix Wonder is the fun time brain break WIP of choice currently and im working on draft 3 of Burden of the Reluctant Death (we will get to the ending this time. we will)

Create a character description of yourself: 

Elusive, or pretends to be. Too much energy in too small a body. Refuses to sit properly in a chair. Prone to fits of melancholy remedied by sunlight. Easily excitable, but fussy. Same outfit every day: big sweater, little pants, fuzzy socks. Nails bitten bloody but at least her hair is clean (if a bit too long for summer)

Do you like incorporating actual people you know into your writing?

i could say no but that would make me a liar

Are you kill happy with your characters?

i was gonna make a joke but it would be spoilers soo. i write about grief. no way everyone makes it out alive

Coffee or Tea while writing?

coffee. i dont like tea (sorry sorry!)

Slow or fast writer?

im very much a burst writer so. flood or drought, no in between. lately i'd say SLOW but im just waiting for that spark u get me?

If you were in a fantasy world, what would you be?

this really isnt fantasy but i feel like i was destined to be the kind, slightly off-putting maintenance man in a haunted apartment building that says cryptic things like "don't take the east elevator on a full moon" and "the air conditioning has made that noise since the fire in 12B"

Most fav book cliche:

yea there's only one bed and ill eat it up every single time!!! also: "i didnt know where else to go" or basically any overdone romance trope you can think of. im here for it

Least favorite cliche:

if there's a cliche that i dont like, i havent found it yet

Favorite scene to write?

confession scenes of any kind! scenes where the big tough character breaks down. any kind of emotional revelation, positive or negative

Reason for writing?

words in head, need words out of head ok ok fine, serious answer. i feel like writing is both asking and answering the question, "have you felt like this before? has anyone ever felt like this before? am i alone?" and it's proof that you're not the first and only person to ever experience the things you're experiencing. even this made up guy in this pretend world understands rage and despair and joy and grief and love. the source is different but the result is the same. human connection, man. love it and! it's fun. im having fun

tag!!

@knightinbatteredarmor @friendlesscat @tildeathiwillwrite @glassonthewall @illarian-rambling

@mysticstarlightduck @dyrewrites @sarandipitywrites @oliolioxenfreewrites @xenascribbles

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hey Cas!

Pls help

So basically I write poems and I am about to get it published as a book of coolections of poems I hope lol

But that's beside the point

The thing is My Parents were like read us one of ur poems

And I read them a poem about exam stress and obviously it was negative

After I recited it they r like it's good but WHY DO U ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO NEGATIVE WHY CANT U BE MORE POSITIVE?

Like I get it U care abt me BUT THE POINT OF THE POEM IS SO THT OTHER TEENAGERS CAN RELATE TO IT!

They also are like THE PREFACE ISNT GOOD or U R REPEATING WORDS IN ABOUT THE AUTHOR

And THAT IS THE EXACT REASON WHY I don't want them to read my poems

Like the whole fucking point is to RELATE and us teenagers sometimes hv negative thoughts 🙃

BUT THEY R LIKE "U R CRAZY FOR BEING SO NEGATIVE" or they sometimes THINK IM CRAZY WHEN I LIP SYNC TO SONGS WHILE EXERCISING

Idk wtf to do

I feel like my poems aren't good enough

FOR ONCE I THOUGHT THT THEY WOULD BE HAPPY FOR ME AND PROUD OF ME

But

THEY JUST KEEP SCODIING ME

Sry for venting out but I LITERALLY hv no place to go

Tx <3

Hi hon! <3

I'm sorry that they're acting like that. I think it's hard for people who don't write to understand that writing is very personal and it takes a lot to share it with others. On top of that, a lot of people use writing to process emotions, so of course it'll be negative sometimes!

Congratulations on getting a poem published, that's amazing! <3

[fictionfixations]

book 7 part 4 spoilers

im having intrusive thoughts (theyre UNWELCOME. ive been hit by so many emotions i cant stop myself from actually crying rn ) now that i finished it okay so

if there are any typos or wrong words that dont make sense im SO sorry i usually sleep around this time (i wrote confused instead of convinced im SOBBING) so my brain is slowing down on me

whbat if. what if if

we encounter the dawn knight

and silver's ring starts glowing

and they accuse him of being a traitor because it seems weirdly familiar (or the knight accuses silver of being a thief? IDK)

LISTEN im still convinced that the dawn knight and silver are connected in some way. i just dont know how yet. aghhhhh

ALSO WHEN is the conversation about them mentioning 'hey you keep calling me father..' (could be brushed off as 'you remind me a lot of my father'. cue probably mixed feelings) or '..hey what was that about you calling yourself a zigvolt when we first met?'

i mean sharing LAST NAMES (edit: i said nicknames wtf? im so sorry) without being related is normal. although i dont know how normal it is in twisted wonderland.

ALSO sebek also like doubled down like

baur: you dont have the signature scales

sebek: my mother has them!

baur: then why dont you?

sebek: ... (ashamed of his father. ashamed of his blood. poor baby. he really just ended up taking being called a 'human /neg'. to be fair i dont want to know reactions to a half-fae, because that would mean during the war between fae and humans, a fae got together with a human. and we know that that relationship was looked down upon even now in the future where the war is over, i think.)

(this book made me such a sebek apologist 😭)

like COME ON dont brush it off. i mean im going to cry for that conversation because its just going to be PAIN but like CMONNN????

where are the consequences?

then again this isnt real its just. a dream.

but...

also what if the dawn knight is silvers dad and lilia fucking idk kidnapped him and it started the war [although he'd be way too young in that case since this is 400 YEARS in the past] (but then theres the note lilia read him which means silver probably did get abandoned. .......or maybe lilia killed the dawn knight and his last words were giving his son over and that note about not wanting silver's eyes to cloud over in sorrow, and to instead be as clear as the jewel on the ring...)

or or or or

AHHH

i have. so many thoughts.

i STILL believe silver's at least related to the dawn knight. ...im just not sure how but i keep backtracking to son because yes.

and like itd also play into the 'fae stealing children' idea thingy. although i wonder if thats more offensive if that gets mentioned at all. if it was like some sort of propaganda bedtime story that humans told their children to make them terrified of fae and viewing them as monsters or something..

like

cuz

remember that merchant in the port town(?) area thing

first mistook us for monsters because of our masks (but thats fair)

realized we were like fae?? made a racket

this guard came over and the merchant accused US of threatening the guy to hand over his shit like what??? WE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WHAT ARE YOU ON ABOUT?? we dont even want your fucking spices or whatever wtf ???

i am also a believer that there's a huge misunderstanding between the fae and humans that caused this war.

but also.

i know twisted wonderland is very tragic and everything

but if the dawn knight and the ironclads kill malleus' mom im going to hate them so much. more than i already do [well i hate the ironclads, not the dawn knight, since one bad apple doesnt make them all bad apples]. (look they probably killed raverne but..... malleus' parents man. one is better then none. :( )

god

imagine though that the dawn knight is silvers dad (in whatever twisted time loophole age gap thing whatever the fuck even if it doesnt make sense)

and the dawn knights kills maleanor . . .? i. cant remember (OKAY maleanor is malleus' mom.? and maleficia is like grandma. i think... i. bro the overuse of mal is confusing me so bad sob)

just. imagine silver spiraling into a sort of self-hate. like. im the child of your enemy. my dad ("your dad is LILIA." says someone) killed malleus' parents...

and it probably feels worse then. idk. being a human in a land of fae. like so much more out of place

and so horrible

ahh im worried

..then again maleanor (i almost said maleficia oops) is super strong right? so she'd probably win.. (but also. its a lot harder to fight with something to protect. that being your precious little eggwhich you would probably die for to keep safe) ALSO SHE DIED SO LIKE ???

hhh i dont know what to think

JP SPoilers now

also really fucking worried because JP server's all the way in like idk pomefiore and im just like

how did you even get there. whAT? THIS ENDS?

like i know it'd have to end eventually but i just cant see an end in sight...

:((

i hope we can bring lilia with us. but there might be a chance he'll be made to fall into a deeper sleep where we cant assist since the whole point of his overblot was about lilia and wanting to keep him 'alive' and there

so.....

im just. sad.

[artist-emerald]

Trolls Artificial Invasion, Final Draft pt 3

Poppy begs for the Glitter King’s help in getting back to her world to stop an invasion of artificial Trolls who plan on taking over the world

The Glitter King agrees, but he must show her something very important before she goes. The Glitter King than gives poppy and old scrap book, one that belonged to Treble

Camera cuts back to the factory where all the Trolls are in a frenzy, with Viva and Branch holding Treble in a cocoon of their hair

Poppy’s voice shouts from the crowd to stop, they look, and she is standing right where the pile of glitter was

Branch and Viva immediately drop Treble and rush to hug her

She hugs them back, but turns back towards the villain, on the ground, beaten

Treble’s instrument being held by his artificial doppelganger so that he cant use it again

Poppy holds up the scrap book, and shows it to Treble

He is confused on to how she got that, and asks what use she has for it

Poppy looks him in the eyes, and asks him again “why? Why did you do this? All of this?”

Treble turns away in defiance, stating he doesn’t have to explain anything to anyone

Poppy opens the scrap book, and reads from it. The truth that Treble, could sing, could dance like all the other Trolls. But he couldn’t stand his own voice, or the movements of his body as he danced. Even when the other Trolls would only give him encouragement and positivity, he thought they looked down on him and pitied him

Poppy “You never loved yourself. And you clung to those feelings so hard and so long, that they eroded away whatever happiness you had inside you.”

Treble, “I told you that I’m not a Troll. I stopped being one a long time ago.”

Poppy gives the scrap book to Treble, “I don’t forgive you. You did awful things, but I would like to hear you sing.”

Everyone looked at Poppy confused

Viva whispered to Branch, asking what Poppy was doing

Branch responded that Poppy was trying to give him a chance to change

Treble, fearfully looking at all the eyes watching him, takes in a deep breath and begins to sing “How to Save a Life” from the Fray

After he finished singing, Poppy asks him how he feels

Treble responds, wiping tears from his eyes, that he feels like the most foolish Troll in the world, but his time has long passed

He turns towards his artificial self, and gives him a nod. Fake Treble nods back, and breaks the instrument

As the magic fades away from the instrument, Treble begins to slowly turn into salt crystals until there was nothing left but a pile of salt

All the artificial Trolls’ colors than slowly began to fade away as they slowly reverted back to their base components

Fake Poppy explained that the instrument’s magic was what powered them, and without it, their existence stops. But says that’s it’s probably for the best, because there cant be 2 Queen Poppys

The shack that the factory is in begins to sink into the bog, as the Trolls run and escape. They join in song about living in the moment, not holding back, and letting go of the bad vibes

As Branch and Poppy escape together, surrounded by explosions, they wind up proposing to each other, to which they say yes

Everyone heads back to their respective homes, and the camera cuts to weeks later at Branch and Poppy’s wedding

Everyone is there, the Glitter King’s head can be seen in the sky, giving them a thumbs up

End song, end credits

If you have made it this far, thank you so much for reading! I really wanted to put my idea in writing for what a rough idea for another Trolls movie could be. Main issues of course being the danger and threat of A.I., but to also touch on the dangers of holding on to negative emotions like self loathing.

Again, this is rough so there are parts that are sloppy, but the point comes across. I'm still getting back into the hang of actual writing.

I won't be going back to change anything! :p

[writingsofwesteros]

ok idk if this is just self induldgent or not but

a strong girl, born between jace and luke. always been quiet, a bit beyond her years in her diplomatic decision making and problem solving. she has the repuation of being the most level headed child to have blessed the targaryen family line. the type that, if lets say aegon were to try and be mean to her s children, she would be very quiet, fair, make no fuss, and maybe have a little cry in her room if it really hurt - no need to even respond back or cause a fuss, i can just see this sensitive, well-read little child being like “its okay mother, aegon just enjoys saying mean things to everyone” type vibe. she spends most of her time just reading in the library, can also see her favouring spending time with alicent cus, despite her young age, she is emoitonlly intelligent and can see something isnt quite sitting right with alicent. will overindulge her in a bit of love, grandma ali this, grandma Ali that - "will you please braid my hair grandma Ali? i wish to braid yours too, its beautiful, i wish i had your hair"

shes not very into physical touch of words of love, not her main course of hsowing care at all. but she will gladly let her mother cradle her sometimes when she feels her mother needs it.

OKAY ONTO THE MAIN THING NOW

when theyre all still children, i can see aegon being frustrated with her because of her personalitiy, problem talks about her in the same vein as he talks about Helena. but hes also desperate to get her care too, wants to invoke any kind of emotion out of her, as long as its directed at him, he loves it - hes always found it easier to get a reaction through hate or negativity than love or care, hence why hes always a bit more cruel and poking towards her.

Aemond - im not entirely sure. could see him maybe joining in with the boys if they begin teasing her, happy to not be the epicenter of bullying, and he also fits in and feels brothership - the only time he gets to feel that because otherwise, they bully him instead.

jace and Luke are just regular sibling relationships, half the time they tease each other, the other half theyre close etcetc.

aged up, to teens/late teens now. she`s still the same - soft, wise, level headed, a touch shyer now. can see the blacks return being a bit more joyous for alicent because her sweet little grand baby is back now :) she cant wait to see what thats going to be like :) probably wants to betroth her to Aegon/aemond so she can keep her in her vicinity, she really built bonds of love and trust as a child with her.

aegon definitely makes the quips he did as a child, but now theyre a bit more lecherous, flirty, suggestive. think the dinner scene and his commetn to baela, he definately mentions that if they were betrothed, he would waste a day, and she could find herself extremely.. satisfied in her marriage to him.

aemonds a starer. he stares. shes in the library? hes staring. shes in the garden or godwoods? hes staring. this boy is a bit of a silent puppy just hoping to be in the same area as her

can see alot of taunting and teasing over her not being married/fiance to anyone yet. like how its always mentioned that jace and luke are strong, theres many many things said about her being pure, untouched, a little wife. aemond wants to trace every little freckle on her exposed upper back and collarbone when he catches them.

could be cool if jace has been trying to get her to fancy him since she hit puberty, so the three of the boys have no choice but be in the same boat - trying to figure out the key to unlocking her heart, making her desire them, sexually and romantically. What does she find attractive and how can i become that??

(also very self indulgent, but i can see them getting jealous and a bit volitile if, lets say cregan stark <3333, ever ends up catching her eye somehow. like theyre trying so hard to pick out the formula of a man youd want, spying on all the books you read, trying to see if theyre romance and what kinda guy stars in them.. just for cregan stark to rock up and, he might not even mean to, but he gets your cheeks heating up a bit. gods theyd be so pissed) cregan stark is sihtric from last kingdom in my head<3)

Damn, I love all of this so much. Such beautiful thoughts.

I love how Aemond is a starer - that had me chuckling a little too much cause it's so true.

Sweet Alicent really deserves better and maybe this is a bridge for families to begin healing. (Daemon would always be a worry tho).

Don't get me started on Cregan Stark...I can't wait to see what season 2 brings for him. I love how he doesn't mean it but she's blushing and probably following him around a little bit

[caterpillarinacave]

"Send me a character" Henry

Three people actually asked for this one (and the first got eaten) so I'm gonna answer them all here.

Just an fyi this post is very long, please excuse grammar, rambling, spelling ect

favorite thing about them

Man, where do I start? 

Not to be sappy, but as far as characters go he means a lot to me. Ive talked about this before, but I was diagnosed as autistic at ten, after really struggling for a long time. As an autistic, traumatized, kid in my specific childhood situation there wasnt anywhere for me to fit in. I really, genuinely meant well, but I meant so well it was just annoying. For all my trying I could not manage a meaningful connection. Naturally, this made me a very lonely child.

 As all lonley children know, when you have no friends you get to make friends with fictional characters, which I had no problem doing. However, I couldnt actually relate to any of the characters. 

 When it comes to character representation in media I really had never seen a character that I related to, autistic or otherwise. “Normal” characters didnt experience the struggles that were such a big part of my life, and characters portrayed as autistic had no personality outside the autism. They were all either robotic or just children. Personally, as someone who is emotional, bright, and very animated, I couldnt relate at all to the stoic, robotic, characters, and I certainly wasnt relating to an oversized toddler. 

(Frankly, one of the reasons I think Henry is such an excellent rep is because CC didnt go in with the intention of making an autistic character, and therefore didnt fall into the pitfalls non-autistic creators usually do. The issues I have with the characters she intended to be autistic arent applicable to Henry, which I do have some theories about, but thats off topic. )

 I could always find characters I could connect to those around me. There were characters like my mom, like my little sister or older brother. I collected books with characters who had the same name as me, I bought stories set in towns like mine, then abandoned them for the same types of towns but twenty years ago so I could pretend that in some point in time, I might have had friends. 

Yes, I spent a lot of time crying in the corner and reading books under my desk. 

   However, when I read TID it was the first time I had ever, in my life, witnessed a character who I found both extremely relatable and incredibly cool. 

An example that tends to stick with me is this scene:

It might just be a random thing, but frankly it was a pretty big deal to me. The misunderstanding of an “obvious social cue”, the pride in thinking you had read the situation right, a person that you care about being mad at you when you were trying to help them, the “why didnt they just say so?” , the awful feeling when everyone else is looped in on a thing that makes no sense? These are things that I experienced daily, now, but more so when I was young. 

 I’d oftend respond in situations thinking I had it right. I could go over my answer with a fine tooth comb, find no issues with it, only to be met with a negative response because I had violated a rule that I didnt know existed.

 Its a terrible feeling. The people around you are so familiar with the “rules” they dont even realise they have them. They never can tell you what made your response inappropriate in this situation, but normal and fine in another. I spent so much time feeling so stupid, because I just cant figure these rules out. 

The characters I watched that suck at socializing sucked because they were rude, they didnt like people, they didnt want to socailze ect ect ect, as opposed to being genuinely, agonizingly confused. Everyone else I saw, everyone I wanted to be like had this talented, this knowledge, that is abosloutley unubtainble. 

 When I first read that scene I finally saw something that understood that feeling. Sure, it wasnt from Henry’s point of view, but it proved the situation that felt like a special torture just for me was something other people experienced. 

The general hostility from the rest of the shadowhunter world was also something I find somewhat… comforting? For me, even as talented, well adjusted, and promising as I may be, the majority of people still treat me with something from dismal to unease to downright cruelty. 

 Just like Henry could make amazing breakthroughs in science and still be snickered at by the rest of the world, I can make the honor roll, win competitions, excel at everything handed to me, and people still snort, poke, and call me stupid because of “basic” things I cant do. Its inevtible, and something I just cant change. 

 This a character that is interesting, talented, valued in society. He has an actual relationship, with someone he loves, who loves him just as much. He has layers outside of the ASD characterics, varied interests. He does get upset with people, he is passionate, good at multiple things, the lsit goes on and on. 

 And when I say this meant the world to little old me, it meant the world. 

For the first time I was seeing a character I related to, and they werent stupid, mean, or alone. 

 At the moment I’m really trying to learn to not hate myself, and to love my life. Some things wont ever change, and people will likely always treat me differently. However, I am trying to teach myself that ASD Its not a bad thing. I’m not flawed, I can be successful, I can have a social life, I can have a relationship, and theres nothing about me to “fix”. Autism isnt a bad word, my diagnoses are not the end of my life, and I am still a full complete person worthy of love and respect. 

Even when I was younger, and wasnt ready or able to find out how to love myself, or work on stop hating my ASD, I still reread TID again and again because of all the characters in the world I probably look up to Henry the most. 

 The thing is, even though its been years since I read those books, Henry is still the character I go back to to remind myself of those things. 

 This was a character that hated themselves just as much as hate myself, but had managed to move past that. He never “fixed” or “got rid of” the things that were difficult, the rest of the world didnt have a “oh we wont be mean” moment. He dealt with the issues ASD presents, moved past the self doubt, and was still the same character at the end of it all. 

 TID introduced the idea that maybe, just maybe, I could love myself, and I could be happy without destroying the things that made me me. And maybe, just maybe I wasnt as alone as I thought. 

 Over the years I’ve had more than my fair share of health issues, been to many specalists, and have spent my fair share of time holding back tears in a doctors office wondering if this is the end of my life. 

And every time I come home I go back to a character from a goofy, vaguely trashy romance novel that came out in the early 2000s and remind myself that my life is worth it. 

2. Least favorite thing about them

Clearly there's not much I dont like, but the things I do dislike stem back to how CC handles him as a character. He's one of those characters you can tell CC isn't super invested in. Theres massive potential in both him and Charlotte, and I wish that CC would just focus on them a little more. 

  There are so many little lines that allude to something much deeper, something that could be explored if Cassie would just do it. Talk about that romance, talk about the disabilities, talk about the way society treats them both, talk about the falling in love, talk about the disabilities, talk about the relationships with the rest of the TID cast, talk about the disabilites, talk about the grief, talk about the guilt, talk about the war, talk about what happend in the family lines, talk about it all. Oh, and talk about the disabilites Cassie. Do it. 

3. favorite line:

Yeah, this is the part that took my so long to write, I had to hunt around to pick just one. So, since I got three asks, you get three lines. 

“Really, how could we have been so stupid?

Well, I’m not surprised about me,” said Henry. “But honestly Charlotte, you ought to have known better.” - Clockwork Prince

“Youre marrying your fathers friend on the council? Which one?” - Clockwork Princess

“That ba-bad man," he finished, with a quick glance at Cecily who rolled her eyes... -Clockwork Princess

4. brOTP

Oh, Magnus Bane definitely. I feel like people gloss over how much they cared about eachother. Magnus was probably the first person to share any of his interests, and the first not Charlotte person who didnt instantly dismiss him. For Magnus that was the first time he had met a shadowhunter who genuinely thought outside the box. Try as he might it seems like shadowhunters just dont like Henry, whereas downworlds think hes the best. 

OTP

Charlotte and Henry. They invented romance. Relationship goals. Would die for them. 

nOTP

Anyone who isnt Charlotte. 

random headcanon

Since this question has been asked three times you all get three headcanns:

My man is tall. And has upperbody strength. A lot of it. He might be about 0% body fat, but hes got muscle.

Several times Henry was sent to find teen Will and retrieve him from his dangerous stupidity. Will’s attempts at defiance where swiftly nixed when Henry just tossed him over his shoulder and left. 

Jessamine is throwing a tantrum because she doesnt want to be out on patrol, and Will throwing a tantrum because he can? Non-issue, hell carry them both to the carriage. Charlotte said be back at midnight, they will be back at midnight, teen angst be damned.

Literally only gets stronger as he gets older.

(All yall with fucked up bodies know the more your legs dont work the more upper body strength you get. Its only logical. If youve got enough upper body strength and someone to hold onto, you can hold yourself basically upright, which works great until whoeverse holding you gets distracted and stops holding you up. Then your going down the USSR in the 90s.

Yeah, Will and his short little attention span were not the best person to hold onto.)

–

The little kids love him. I mean, come on. He has so many glittery things in his pockets. So much to do. Knows fun stories, knows funny words. Funny hair. He lets them fuck around with his pocket watches. Fun chair. Easy to climb all over. Is not talking about the boring things with some of the adults. Gives great gifts. Happy to listen to you talk, actually remembers what you said. Unbothered by everything. Christophers was clinging to him from two years old on. 

–

He has two scars on his side where the automaton had grabbed him during the battle of Cadair Idris. 

 The Silent Brothers were really busy trying ot keep him from, you know, dying, and didnt really get to it. By the time they would have he was sick of them, took the rune and left the scar. To him its just one of many, many random scars. 

8. unpopular opinion

Cassie dropped the ball big time in TLH with him. 

   She did for most of the TID cast, tbh. She really has to mess with characters to make the TLH storyline make sense, and as much as I do love TLH its hard to enjoy when your going “they would not do that”. Its a pretty good example of how Cassie doesnt care about all her characters equally, and is willing to toss them away in favor of the main cast. For example, she keeps Will (and usually Tessa) very in character. With some work she could have done that with the rest of the TID cast, but she really. Doesnt. 

When you look at it from a TID standpoint its very clear how much she cares about each person, and which one she doesnt really give a shit about anymore. Alas, Henry is on the lower end  of that spectrum, along with a bunch of other characters. Hand them over CC ill give them the love they deserve.  

9. song i associate with them

Once again, got a playlist in the works, but one the one that comes to mind is Zoned Out In My Youth by Unlike Pluto. Also Ed Sheeran is a Henry x Charlotte artist. Just listen to Afterglow. 

10. favorite picture of them

How do I even pick. I spent hours picking. This has been the choice of my life. It has also reminded me we need more fanart of him. Someone with talent should get on that.

Anyway, take two, couldnt pick:

(Excuse me??? They are so cute? Peak romance <3<3<3 pretty hair<3 Anyway the flower pin? The ring? The tie tack/clip? Beautiful stunning amazing I love him<3)

[figs-and-cigs]

you can ignore this ask if you want but do you have any good resources for being in a polyamorous relationship with someone with bpd? im also disabled with fibromyalgia and sometimes it hurts too much to even cuddle and they give me that space but it makes them miserable and i just have no clue what to do and your one post from months ago about relationships says reading is important but i dont know what to read or where to start and i dont want to run into misinformation that will make my relationships worse (also to clarify i dont have bpd, im pretty sure i have aspd so its still cluster b but i dont think i understand much about bpd other than the symptoms, idk how to help them heal) (also we cant afford therapists rn rip)

Unfortunately when it comes to books about BPD (or any cluster B pd) and relationships I've yet to find any that are worth recommending. The closest I've come is watching Crazy Ex Girlfriend on Netflix with my partner and regularly pausing it to talk about how my symptoms relate or differ. (And even then the show is dramatized but at least it's funny!)

For myself I had to learn that I am 100% responsible for my mental and physical health issues. I'm the only one who can truly understand myself and my needs - and with that I'm the only one who can clearly express to others how they can help. The best thing my partner(s) can do it make it clear that they are a safe place to communicate - and when.

Today my primary and I had a kid free day and I had expected we would spend it doing things together. Instead, I woke up midday and he spent all of his time tending to his garden - even long after I woke up. I felt immense rejection! While my initial impulse was to pout and behave negatively - I had enough coping skills to recognize that my partner was not ignoring me (he was doing things he likes to do in his free time like a normal person!), and to busy myself with things I enjoy. When he finally took some time to sit I communicated I was feeling a little ignored because I expected the day to go differently (how could he know this? He can't read my mind.) I then asked to watch a movie (solution to connect for a bit today). His response was empathetic and without judgement. Hug, kiss, movie time.

I have to remember that as partners we can't read each other's minds nor solve each other's problems. There has to be a good balance between recognizing our own autonomy/responsibility and collaboration. Which only works through communication.

In short, your partner is the only one who can help you understand them.

Things that have helped in lieu of therapy. Polysecure is a book high on my recommendation list. I've personally found a lot of help and support in groups like Codependents Anonymous and Emotions Anonymous. Dialectical Behavior Therapy skills can be learned online and there are some fantastic workbooks (DBT was created for BPD). I also really like the Emotional Freedom Technique and Somatic Therapy skills.

I think those of us with Fibro and Chronic Pain issues end up in a lot of similar situations where our partner(s) feel rejected when we can't be physical. No matter how much validation or words of affirmation we might give. I like putting my legs on someone's lap or hand holding when full cuddling is too much. When touching at all is too much sharing a weighted blanket (or giving them one) or a big stuffed animal has been a decent workaround.

Hope something in all of that helps. I appreciate you reaching out!

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This kind of stuff depresses me. I'm really struggling not to be depressed by all this general negative vibe over Darklina that would have been spoiled this season, as well as those complaining about the ending.

Literally, these same people are complaining about the ending of the books, but now the ending of the series when it's great? An arc of Alina's corruption in perspective! Even this person wanted 1 and now they complain about it? I don't understand. For me, Alina's behavior this season made sense with this scene but for some it's... I don't know, it seems like they see it as blasphemy?

Everyone is entitled to their own opinion at the end of the day, but I do get where you are coming from as there is alot of negativity in the tags about darklina, or more precisely the writers and producers attitudes to darklina and how they were written this season, it seems to me like some wished that Alina had shown more emotion and compassion towards Aleks, the negativity can get you down. As I've said before I didn't mind how they wrote Alina this season because for one, I think it made sense for her character at this stage of her journey as she is feeling very hurt and betrayed so of course she isn't going to be feeling all compassionate towards Aleks, she hasn't had enough time to process everything. I think sometimes people forget that the show and the books are on different timelines. In the books Alina was more compassionate towards Aleks at the end but more time had passed for her, she had two whole books where she had time to process what her relationship with the darkling was and to except that in some ways they were the same. She had more time for that reflection. In the show they condensed the two books into one and so things happen at a much faster pace and not as much time has passed. She didn't spend as much time connecting with Aleks through the tether as Book Alina did. The other reason I am not that mad at it is because to me its very obviously not the end of darklina's story, he'll come back in season three and I think that is when Alina will have that self reflection and we'll see her express more emotion towards Aleks as her anger fades.

I do think it is a bit weird when people who complained about the book ending also complain about the show changing the ending but as I said before people are entitled to feel however they feel about a piece of media, if they didn't like the show ending either then that's ok, not everyone is going to have the same opinion, I happen to love the show ending and I am really excited to see Alina's corruption arc in season 3. I will say if you are getting depressed by the negativity in the tag then try not to engage with it, if its a blog that you know you don't share the same opinion as, or as you are reading the post you can see its going the negative way, then just scroll past, focus on the positive, its ok to have a different opinion from someone even if you ship the same ship, I don't always agree with everything a fellow darklina says. Just remember to be respectful to each other.

[kpopspicystories]

Tickets part 1

Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5

Summary: You’ve been depressed for years and decide to take an opportunity to be someone else for one day.

I was sitting there, gazing at my apple during my lunchbreak. Thinking about what to do with my life and where to go from here. Until now I just made choices based on my intuition and emotions. Yet seem so empty & hallow, to be honest I think I’m going through a midlife crises. A co-worker of mine approached me and I directly stopped gazing at my apple when she calls my name and asks me if I have plans for this weekend. These days the only thing I’m doing during my weekends are reading books and watching Netflix. I seem to be so uninspired. I tell her that I don’t have any plans why the question. She tells me she has concert tickets to Ateez and that her friend bailed on her. She wondered if I wanted to go with her. I told her that I was too old for concerts in general and that I don’t know if I would be in the mood to go by that time. I had these mood swings that decided my life up till now. Alisa looked at me with begging eyes and asked me once again if I could please join her, she didn’t want to go alone. As I looked at her, I wondered if this wasn’t an opportunity to for once do something totally different and just go. I told her that I wasn’t sure but I would try to be open to the idea.

She tells me the date and time and that we should meet before so we could eat something and go, she has V.I.P. tickets after all so we don’t have to stay in line for long and can get some food and drinks before the concert. After a while I get a an excited feeling as to what to wear and how it would be like to have an activity with a friend after quite some time. This was way to long ago and I couldn’t tell if this was positive or negative at this time. After a long day at work I was finally off, Luckily I finished all my work and can go home with a relieved feeling that nothing from today will haunt me tomorrow. I’m bad at remembering things so for me this would be a nightmare to backtrack step by step the day before and see what is open and what is been handled. I take the bus home, I stop by a local 7/11 around my block because I already know I’m not in the mood to cook or buy groceries. After standing in the aisle for about 10 minutes I could finally decide out of all the shitty things available what to pick, ramen it is!

I check out and walk home when I arrive home I just dive on the coach and turn on the TV. Nothing in particular just for some background noise. I look at my bag with ramen on my table and feel I don’t have the strength to prepare them. I look at the ceiling and wonder what the concert would be like, she didn’t even ask me for money? I don’t know but the tickets were probably expensive. I continue staring and decide it was time to head to bed on a Friday evening, again I was feeling empty and uninspired.

The next morning I wake up, I look at my phone and see the time 12PM. I’ve slept in and I feel relieved in some way. I walk towards the kitchen and make myself coffee, I stare at my coffeemaker until I hear my phone vibrate on the kitchen table. Who’s calling me? I wonder. I grabbed my phone and saw it was Alisa. ‘’Hi Alisa! I just woke up.’’ I answered looking still a bit dazed. She tells me to meet her at Soho for early dinner at 4.30 afterwards we can go, the doors open for V.I.P.s at 6PM. I agree and hang up, after the call I lowkey panicked. Why, I don’t have a clue. Probably because of the whole ordeal of getting an outfit that I feel good yet comfortable in would be a challenge, I haven’t done that in a long time. I mean the whole putting effort in an outfit has been a while for me. But I have challenged myself therefor I will do what needs to be done. I enjoyed my coffee on the couch turning the TV on and watched a couple of Ateez music video’s. They seem cool and I like the music so far, I cant believe I said yes to this whole thing without checking if this group would match my vibe in the first place. I started to smile and for some reason I found it funny. I looked at the clock 12.45, I decide without looking in my closet first to go to the mall and find myself a new outfit. I hurriedly took a shower, grabbed a track suit and put it on and stepped out. Took the bus to the mall and started to look at stores, I looked around a bit overwhelmed. How was this a good idea at such a short notice and not only that but also not knowing what to get in the first place. No ideas, no nothing. I look around and hope for inspiration. Until I find a store with a doll in the front wearing leather pants and a see through shirt with a flashy bra underneath. Wauw! That’s out there, coincidentally I have boots that would match this outfit perfectly. I walked inside and grabbed the exact same outfit in my size and look for the nearest fitting room. I put everything on and look in the mirror.

What. The. Actual. Fuck. I look… I look fierce! I can’t believe it. It just vibed well but yet this was not what I really was looking for. I wanted ‘’good and comfortable’’. This is more fierce and sexy!

After looking for a while in the mirror I decided to call Alisa and ask her what she would wear.

Black skirt, mesh top and boots! She responded. I asked her if she would have anything see through on and she replied with that the mesh top is shredded and a bit sexy. I was a bit relieved she said that and told her what kind of outfit I found at the mall but I wasn’t sure. She asked for a picture so I sent it to her. And sure enough after a couple of seconds she replies ‘’IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BUY THAT I WILL!’’. I have found my answer, I’m going to go for it. I put my track suit back on and check out. I walk towards a lunch bar and fetch myself a sandwich. I eat if on my way back home. I look at my phone and it’s 2PM. Okay! I really have to get ready, I may have my outfit but I don’t know what to do with my hair and make-up! I panic and quickly trust google with some suggestions I enter to see what happens and If I can execute the look that might look good with the outfit. I finally found the entire look after 15minutes of contemplating, the question now will be how good will I do my hair and make-up like the pictures I selected is my worry right now.

I hurriedly put my outfit on and start with my make-up, nude lip and smokey eyes. This has really been a while for me. I used to be good in putting on make-up but after the last couple of years I’ve stopped really putting in the effort and went with what would be the bare minimum and somehow in someway presentable at least for work in my private time I would go all bare.

After a while of doing my make-up and really focusing on the photo I get the feel for it and it starts coming together. It looks good! I start doing my hair, I look at the time and only have half an hour! I hurriedly grabbed my curling iron and start curling my hair and put in two halfway ponytails. I look around and think to myself I really cant copy the picture fully. I don’t have glitter for the parting!

Of course I don’t have glitter…. After the periods I’ve had I’m lucky to have a full fridge and my head on my shoulders! I look in the mirror and yet have a satisfied feeling. I look good and also kind of slutty at the same time. I start cackling when suddenly the doorbell rings. It’s Alisa! I open the door and give her a smile. ‘’Wauw, you look great!!! I’ve never seen you like this!’’ I ask her what she thinks and she stares ‘’You look incredible!’’ she asks me how she looks and I tell her ‘’Beautiful as always!’’

I grab my coat and bag and we head out to soho, Alisa made reservations and we’ll be having sushi and cocktails. After a full meal and a lot of cocktails later we head out to the venue to line up. I look around and inside I wanted to laugh some don’t have coats on and some have their coats open and I can see the fierceness coming through. I’m glad we are not the only ones deciding to go full on sexy for this concert. I’m relieved and as I feel that way I feel stared at from the right side of my direction. As I look who’s eyes are glaring at me, I see a handsome guy with half long hair, beautiful eyes and tall figure.

[gwizztheslayer]

“Taking Over” by G-Wizz, The Slayer, featuring Ace Mclein, is a powerful track that delves into the artist’s internal struggles and the fight against dark, invasive thoughts. The song is a raw and honest portrayal of mental health challenges, with lyrics that express the artist’s battle with demons and the impact of trauma on his life.

The track stands out for its candidness and the vulnerability it reveals. G-Wizz, The Slayer, discusses the influence of negative forces in his life, symbolized by monsters and evil spirits that he feels are taking over his mind and soul. He talks about trying to be good but being held back by his demons, suggesting a journey through personal hells that others have never experienced.

The collaboration with Ace Mclein adds depth to the song, with both artists contributing to a narrative that many can relate to—struggling to overcome personal adversities and the feeling of being overwhelmed by life’s darker aspects. The production, also handled by G-Wizz, The Slayer, complements the lyrics with a haunting and immersive sound that enhances the theme of the song.

Overall, “Taking Over” is not just a song but an expression of resilience and determination to fight against the odds, making it a resonant anthem for those facing their own battles.

Taking Over (Ft. Ace Mclein) (Prod. G-Wizz, The Slayer)

Featuring Ace Mclein (@acemclein)

Produced by G-Wizz, The Slayer

Mixed by G-Wizz, The Slayer

Mastered by G-Wizz, The Slayer

Cover by G-Wizz, The Slayer

Published by Dreams Of Colour

“Taking Over” is a compelling track that delves into the artist’s struggles with dark thoughts and the relentless battle to overcome them. Produced by G-Wizz, The Slayer, this song features poignant lyrics and dynamic performances by both G-Wizz, The Slayer and Ace Mclein, offering listeners a raw and honest portrayal of mental health challenges.

Through introspective lyrics and emotive delivery, “Taking Over” sheds light on the artist’s personal journey through darkness and adversity. G-Wizz, The Slayer’s raw authenticity and vulnerability resonate deeply, inviting listeners to confront their own inner demons and find strength in resilience..."

By Lanzen Tate

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LYRICS

G-WIZZ THE SLAYER

(Verse 1)

Aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye

Yeah, uh, I feel them takin' over

I cant sleep at night, monsters in my bed Every night takin' over

Evil spirits straight from hell I don't know, but they be takin' over

I be, I've been going through some shit that I don't know

I've been figuring it out as I go

I'm done fucking round with these trifling hoes

I got way too much shit going on right now

I got triple nine problems and none of it is a hound

I've been hustling stacking my papers straight up from the ground

I admit it I been down but I'm up right now Money is the mission I can't get distracted by bitches I hope you get the picture

I'm trying to live better But sometimes the devil get me and that's when I act a menace I get it

Yeah I pray that God forgive me for every time that I pushed my limits me I'm just a fucking sinner

Yeah I'm trying to get it together But lately the life that I'm living got me fucking livid I'm so I'm so fed up

Yeah sometimes these bottled emotions that I have might get out

I might spaz the fuck the hell out

Yeah Nobody's safe around me when I aire some shit out

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[yarrowleef]

ok i'm finally trying again to make myself finish DotC (cause i got an audio book app that lets me listen on 1.8 speed, def makes it easier) and ok i get the first battle is tragic and all but the whiplash from the fight to the gathering is. so funny. nothing brings a group together like murdering each others friends and family. not even rly a struggling period, we're good with casual friendly teasing convos after a meer couple weeks like it was just an embarrassing whoopsy-doodle wasn’t it funny how i murdered ur mom last week lmao

like i'd get it more if the whole incident wasn’t more or less entirely clear sky's fault as the primary instigator and aggressor, it's not like it was a "both sides were being equally unreasonable so thats why we must forgive and not hold grudges uwu" situation but aight

[lou-struck]

Honey, I Shrunk The Devildom 2

Obey Me! x MC!

Featuring Satan, Asmo, Beel, and Belphie.

Part: 1 Here

~Another magic troupe lol, here’s how I think the Obey Me Men would respond to being magically shrunk down.

Satan~

While waiting for you to stop by his room to pick up the next book in a series he recommended, Satan accidentally knocks a cursed book off one of his shelves.

The Letters seem to fly off the page surrounding the Avatar of Wrath and shrinking him down to the size of a Toothpick. He tries to change himself back to normal with no success, it seems that even his powers have been affected by the curse as he begins to feel angry and distressed in his current situation.

Normally he reads when his negative emotions are getting the better of him but he is so small and so weak he is unable to even open one of his books in the first place.

His tiny voice screams out a series of curses and profanities as he tries in vain to find something to do.

You stumble across the shrunken demon a few minutes later about ready to inflict some serious damage on some lingering dust bunnies. Scooping him into your cupped hands you try to soothe him. but he still has a deep look of agitation on his tiny face.

"I can’t believe you of all people have to see me like this.” he sighs as you gently pet his blond head with your fingertips. He seems to relax at the contact. If he could you have a feeling he would purr for you.

He asks you if you could read a couple of chapters for him since he is unable to do so himself. You only get a few pages in until he is napping in your hold waiting for the spell to wear off.

Asmodeus- 

All too eager to spray the new bottle of perfume he got from the cutest little boutique in Majolish, Asmodeus neglected to read to possible side effects of using the substance on a being as powerful as himself.

Curiously he presses the pump and the container seems to be taken over by his power releasing a heavy cloud of perfume surrounding the demon completely.

Once the pink cloud of rosy fragrance dissipates Asmo looks around the room and is surprised to see everything towers above him as he is as tall as a tube of lipstick. Walking over to his full sized mirror he thinks he looks absolutely adorable. 

He just cant wait for you to see him…

And you do, the moment you step into his bedroom you hear an adorable little squeal as Asmo flies into your field of view riding a Butterfly?

Yes, Asmodeus charmed a butterfly to do his bidding to make a grand entrance.

“Mc, look at me. Arent I the cutest thing in all three realms.” he says landing in your outstretched hands. With a nod he clings to you climbing up your sleeve to perch on your shoulder until the effects of the perfume wears off.

The rose secnted Avatar of Lust feels a bit mischievous as he feels just for quicky your shoulders tense up when he perches on them. You are reacting so cute how can he not have a bit of fun with you? Whispering a plethora of dirty thoughts into your ear, he giggles at the way little shivers go through your body.

He lets out a little giggle, “Awe Mc, you’re so cute. Even when I’m small like this I still have a big effect on you.”

Beezelbub~

Despite living for thousands of years, Beel needs to understand that he shouldn't eat things just because there is the phrase ‘Eat Me’ written on it in white icing. 

Even if they are delicious-looking cookies.

As soon as the Avatar of Gluttony eats the first one he feels strange.

Why are the cookies and plates getting bigger?

He doesn't realize that he was the one getting smaller and smaller by the second until he is clinging to the edge of the counter not wanting to fall onto the floor below.

It’s then when you stumble across him and gently help him into your hands. He looks at you with a look of confusion on his tiny face and he cocks his head to the side. 

“Mc, I don't think you should eat one of those cookies,” he says looking wistfully back to the platter. With a nod, you take him from the kitchen away from the tempting treats in fear that he would shrink to an even smaller size.

A deep vibration in your hands makes you look down at the demon who has a pitiful expression on his face. “I’m hungry.” he whimpers. Your heart breaks for him but aside from the cursed cookies there is not a crumb of food left in the house, you have no choice but to take him out to eat at Hell's Kitchen.

Unwrapping a Cheeseburger for him you wonder how the demon even would start eating this, but Beel’s tiny hands have a mind of their own as they begin shoveling pieces of the dish into his mouth with no sign of stopping.

Belphegor~

Having slept through Lucifer’s lecture about staying away from the cursed vase in the parlor Belphie picks it up to examine the ornate patterns imprinted in the blown glass. The vase begins to feel very heavy in his grasp setting it down he realizes that he is getting smaller and smaller until the table towers over him like a treetop.

Irritates the goes to reach for his DDD only to remember he left it on the table above him. He mumbles out of a series of curses as his little legs carry him through the hallway of the house of lamination until he can’t walk any longer.

Tiredness hits him like a brick as he half-consciously looks for somewhere safe to rest his head. He stumbles across something warm and fluffy. Wrapping himself up in it he closes his eyes to rest.

You find him curled up on one of your fuzzy socks that fell out of your hamper on the way back from the Laundry room almost dying from his cuteness.

Funsized Belphie is definitely the cutest you have seen in the Avatar of Sloth. Taking him back to the safety of your room you place his makeshift bed on your desk while you keep yourself busy with homework.

As he sleeps you try to make him a more comfortable bed but as soon as your index finger gets close to him he grabs it and holds it tightly as if it is his new favorite body pillow. You aren't going anywhere for a while, at least not until he turns back to his normal size.