#i cant even bring any new skills BECAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY SKILLS

[mushroom-ooooooooooooooo]

me when im burnt out and have no way to combat it because my parents are convinced that forcing me into school will solve my problem when it has infact been doing the opposite for the last two years and is literally where the problem is stemming but nooo you need the socialization as if online school doesn't have other students and teachers you are in classes with and theres no way to contact other people when I in fact have a cellphone and my friends contact information but apparently thats not the same but also I only really talk to my friends in third period and at lunch and in every other class I am pretty much silent and not even getting energy from being around other people and I hate how much they think keeping me in an enviroment that drains me so much is going to help me in the longrun. Because it isnt.

[kings-highway]

How about..... kitadai? The possibility hit me one day and I feel like there are so few people out there who share my vision 😔 (for me, even better in a arankitadaisuga situation)

mhmhmhmhhmh 🤔

I actually have considered them a fair bit if we're being honest. Maybe not so much as some other rarepairs, especially because arankita is like.... top tier for me, buuuuuutttt...

I can defintely see where you're coming from with kitadai. First of all I can imagine them meeting at nationals before/after their game in the hallway, and having such a long, genuine conversation about sports, their hyper talented under classmen, life, everything. I feel like they'd get along right from the beginning.

I also think Daichi would find Kita SO PRETTY. Like painfully so. And Kita isn't the most nice person, he's definitely capable of smacking some people over the head when needed, so I imagine he's constantly having to whack Daichi and be like "darlin' if you stare at me any harder you're gonna cut a hole through me" and Daichi is embarassed but cant really defend himself

I also think Daichi could be very happy moving to Hyogo in the future to work on the farm with him. In the way that Kita gets his calm happy-ever-after I think Daichi would also really like staring wistfully out over rice fields. And Kita is hella impressed with not only his work ethic, but how quickly he learns new skills (or how he doesnt give up learning new skills)

They trade off who makes dinner in the evenings and then settle together to drink tea and eat dessert and Kita was not a big sweets person but Daichi is ravenous all the time and has brought home enough by now that Kita is a certified convert to all things sweet.

Their home life is so calm and well put together but they always make sure to throw watch parties for MSBY or Adlers games, duel-wielding the proud ex-captain "those are MY boys out there!!!"

I dont think these two are chemically capable of fighting. Absolutely they'd have flown to Paris to see the olympics together. Osamu came with them and it was weird on the plane.

[Arankitadaisuga is also one I havent thought much of! But I feel like its just this times 1000. Suga brings the most hetic energy of the bunch but with so many level heads used to dealing with much worse (twins) he doesnt get much reaction out of them. Aran and Suga would, sort of, be a problem together, though. Kita and Daichi come in from working on the farm and they're just covered in glue and paint for some reason. Aran points at Suga like "NO HE STARTED IT-" and Suga gives them the sweetest angel puppy eyes like "we were just gonna DIY a gift for you 🥺" and the puppy eyes melt Daichi immediately but Kita has no mercy and just shakes his head and steps over them to put his stuff away. For some reason Daichi ends up cleaning the mess up.]

Overall Ratings:

For me, Personal Interest: 4/10

Concept/Potential: 6.5/10

[basil-does-arttt]

DMC Questions Anon here!

As we all know today is the 23rd anniversary of the first Devil May Cry game, and the series as a whole. So I want to hear you talk about DMC 1, what you love about it, headcanons you have about it, alternate scenarios you want to share, anything DMC 1 you want to talk about.

Hello again! This is gonna be a long post i have a lot to say lol

DMC 1 was my introduction to the series way back when as a little kid, when i watched an older cousin play it and eventually tried it out myself. This was also the PS2 version, and i was gifted the disc + console as well at some point.

The Alastor cutscene stuck in my head for literal years after i first saw it as a kid, that and DMC 3's mission 20 arena. Every so often it'd pop into my head as a memory, untill recently when i decided to get back into DMC fully rather than just occasionally remembering it.

DMC 1 holds a very special place in my heart because of that, its a huge nostalgia thing for me and is my favourite game in the series.

I love the setting and tone of the game, its so unique compared to the others, of course all in thanks to DMC 1 starting out as RE4. That whole gothic castle, almost horror vibe is something you dont really expect from hack&slash games these days, and even though it made for some real clunky and annoying moments in game (cough cough Nelo 2 and Griffon 2 cough cough...) to me, the good far outweighs the bad.

Oh and the soundtrack! Its so good, every theme works so well in the scene it's used for, even the abient tracks. I will say however, the bg music got real messed up on the HD remaster which is very dissapointing. (it sounds flat and doesn't have any echoing anymore, specicially the divinity statue room and Phantom's church arena in the start of mission 3). It may not be noticable to some who have only played the HD release, but i noticed it immediately coming from the PS2 version oof. I guess i have to be greatful that a HD release exists in the first place though, and it is a very old game. Still.

The combat also, (and this might not be an opinion shared by everyone which is fine) i feel is the smoothest out of any Dante in any game. All the attacks are so responsive, and although you're limited, you can still style on enemies pretty easily.

Finally the bosses. Arguably the best lineup of any DMC game, every boss is fun in it's own way and brings something new to the table in terms of mechanics. Phantom is a lot of timing correctly, Nelo pushes your fighting style to be more agressive and direct, Griffon challenges your dodging skills, Nightmare is a puzzle solving boss, and Mundus is all three. The designs are also amazing, and most of the arenas are perfect. Griffon 2 and nelo 2 aren't so great arenas but their 3rd arenas more than make up for it.

Okay enough of me gushing about how much i love the mechanics, some HCs i have for it!!

1/ That motorcycle Trish bust the door down with (and then throws at Dante) wasn't hers, right? We see it in the into cutscene before it cuts to Dante at his desk. Well, its my HC that was Lady's bike (she was not happy).

2/ (aside from gameplay mechanic reasons) The reason Dante cant use DT at the start of the game, despite having awakened it in DMC 3, is because Dante wants to push away from embracing his demonic side even more so now after his brother has been "killed". He always disliked being part demon and preferred not to tap into his demonic abilities because of that, demons are evil creatures after all and Dante is far from that, but that hate is even further exemplified after Vergil fell into hell.

3/ When Trish split off to fly solo as a devil hunter, she kept the name "Devil Never Cry" for her business. People do often confuse her for Dante's "Devil May Cry" especially when the names are abbreviated. Dante finds it mildly annoying, Trish finds it hilarious. (Sometimes she'll direct clients to Dante out of pity too when they call her number asking for Devil May Cry rather than Devil Never Cry, instead of convincing them she's the right person. Dante however always sends them over to Trish if they've called the wrong number.)

4/ Dante probably knew Trish was trying to lure him to his death on Mallet island, but he went anyways to avenge his family's death. We know he'd been searching for Mundus ever since DMC 3 (it says so in DMC 5's "history of DMC" cutscene), and he knows that finding and killing Mundus wouldn't be nearly as easy as Trish made it seem. Wether he came back or not, he was going to kill Mundus, or at least try.

As for alternate scenarios, i dont have much in mind. Maybe it would be interesting to see a scenario where Trish never betrayed Dante, and instead she tried to help him during the nightmare fight. It still would've ended the same way for her, but maybe also Dante wouldn't have gotten so angry with her when he saved her.

Ugh i just love DMC 1 so much, like i said before it holds a special place in my heart. I hope that answers everything :> <3

[pamaizai]

Hey, what's your favorite Dont Starve Character(by Lucy from last post I would guess Woody) and why you preffer this character, also whats your least favorite one. And besides of that, any advices for a person that just starts to learn drawing? (like i sketch a bit from time to time with pencil or on secondhand graphics tablet (small wacoom one) for relax but i would like to draw more often and try to improve my skill from almost zero XD, and do you have any advice about shaky line in digital? Like sure I can use stabilizer setting, but if i put it too high i draw hella slow, and if its too small its too shaky(I use fire alpaca and medibang if it has anything to do with it).

I am playing as him since 2018 so even before he got his update. Why? well, he has Lucy- undestructible axe that you cant get rid of (you can actually abuse it bc by design its a flint axe and you can switch a 1% durability one into Lucy, giving other player the brand new) and i vibe a lot with him regarding his backstory. Also most friends i played with are Wendy, Willow, Wortox, Wickerbottom, Warly and Wx players- so we have fire and charcoal, attacker, healing, quickstart with backpacks, food making and a aguy who goes head first underground- but no real gatherers.

Before updates he was just a "chop chop" guy that could go insane if he did it too much (rel) so you had to balance it with planting and cutting down the trees. After his character refresh it he became ace of all trades- he can gather wood, stone, grass saplings as a beaver, he can kill hoardes of hounds and spiders and even the Deerclops as a moose, he can locate lunar island and discover the map as goose.

And after skilltree update he can even create a helmet and +15% speed walking cane- tho other perks regarding his wereforms i think make his character too easy, especially when you earn points by playing as him so you KNOW his weaknesses and learn how to work with them, to just turn them off (hunger and sanity).

He is useful in every situation in my eyes. And i like bringing 5 stacks of wood in first 3 days. Also i learned to kite treeguards :D

I dont really mind any characters. All of them are pretty balanced and dont have annoying drawbacks that makes me not want to touch them-i simply prefer Woodie. But i aint fond of one decision Klei made regarding Wortox, Wurt, Wormwood and Wanda, so all purchasable ones-not because of mechanics tho.

Why do they have ghost models corresponding to their equipped skins, but not other characters? I want wood themed Woodie transformations too q-q even Abigail has her own skins whyyyyy

Regarding drawing i dont really have good tips. The only ones that are coming to my mind is

breaking model into geometric shapes might help (thats how i draw most of the time and its visible in my sketches)

referencing instead of tracing, even badly referenced helps you more with drawing

using your own hands as a reference is enough XD and its not cheating to look out poses

the more you draw something the better you get at it

you can actually make black shadows work but it will make it seem flat, dark purple set on multiply is enough to me but it depends on artstyle i noticed

Those happened to me:

you may see a lot of mistakes in your own artwork more often than others so dont fret abt it. But if you really are anxious (like me) you can go back to look at it some time after finishing.

you dont have to draw everything in every style. Its no artschool here and you are mostly drawing for yourself anyway. Tho dont use it as an excuse to only draw one thing, try something new from time to time.

custom brushes are cool and dont be afraid to experiment with them. Who knows, it may become your go-to/default brush.

harder pencils dont erase that well but are good with details and leave a lighter mark, als you probably wont need a whole set of 'em i am using like 3 at most (5H, HB, H)

even tho i have a sketchbook on myself 24/7 i still end up drawing in notebooks because i think "its not good enough for a sketchbook"- no, SKETCHbook, its meant for doodling so do it there and you will have a way to track your progress (i myself have a whole DRAWER of papers that i sometimes look through and let me tell ya, seeing that progress is noice)

i knooow they may seem generic but everyone has a different way of drawing and some things may or may not work for them. and i never went to artschool im self taught tho i learned a lot by looking at other artists and watching speedpaints.

With Stabilization- I didnt really use FireAlpaca or Medibang, but I remember that when i was using my old One by Wacom tablet i did had it on like 7 in SAI, because my hand was trained well enough to not shake so much but i needed it to be more precise. I would try drawing a zig zag and waves on the lowest setting and then increase it until you can draw sharp edges and smooth curves at the same time, with line following your pen path as close as possible. The slower you draw lines the more precise it gets.

it might be a bit different in each program especially with different ranges of stabilization but it might be similar to what i have here.

It could be issue of a compatibility between tablet and program, but i checked for myself and it shouldnt be it, tho it doesnt really make it impossible.

hope i helped with artist part of ask ^^"

[swiftfootedachilles]

@mickeysgaymom OK SO WELCOME TO TODAYS INSTALLMENT OF ACHILLES THE PLAYWRIGHT. THE GANG FAKES A DEATH AGAIN!! this is long so under the cut it goes!!

one of the disappointments for me regarding s10&11 is that they totally dropped mickeys cartel storyline. like the only time its even alluded to is when mickeys being racist (toward the Mexican family living with the Gallaghers & him throwing a fucking tortilla on the ground to "make it look like Mexicans" robbed the bike shop...) but i cant imagine a drug cartel not even trying to track down someone that rolled on them. so yes i think it makes sense for mickey to fake his own death to lose some heat. obviously this would be similar to the frank plotline in s1e6&7. sorry if that sounds like ~recycling stories~ believe it or not different characters can experience the same things.

so anyway this would definitely need to be a lot more planned out and involving more people than s1. the cops would definitely need to be in on it. cue everyones fav corrupt cop: tony!!! yes i would 1000% bring tony back for this storyline. we need more than just rookie cop/bartender carl, and i imagine tony could be easily persuaded (bribed) to help out some old friends. i imagine hed gone up in rank since we last saw him in s6, which makes his cooperation even more important.

ok. phase 1: the plan. stage a murder scene somewhere mickey usually isnt at (it would be pretty odd if mickey got murdered in their apartment and then he showed back up a month later.) tony finds ian and breaks the news. im very sorry mr gallagher but i need you to come with me. theyve found a body in the Cap Sauers Holding Nature Preserve and we'd like you to come with us to identify the body. sorry ian but mickey knows youre a bad actor and didnt tell you ahead of him that his plan to get the cartel off his back included faking his death because the body cam footage wouldnt be believable at all!! bring ian and the rest of the immediate family to the precinct to meet a disguised mickey in the basement and get the dl on whats going on give statements

sorry for scaring you! i love you! no i couldnt have told you, mr play what cool, you wouldve blown the whole plan immediately! dont ask where i got the cadaver from! btw tell liam and carl i owe them big time

the story. some old friend of terrys heard the milkovich queer was moving back to the southside and wasnt too happy. him and his buddies grabbed mickey while he was walking to the L, drove him to a secluded area, and shot him with a pistol+silencer. liam an anonymous eyewitness called in the kidnapping this morning from a payphone. sandy's old fling a UIC criminology student was jogging in the reserve when she saw a shoe and what she believed to be fresh drag marks in the wet grass off the walking path. she followed it to find a gruesome scene. carl's old partner was one of the first on the scene and recognized him from the alibi. blah blah blah okay time to start phase 2.

phase 2: the funeral. this would be the most similar to s1, except with a cadaver instead of raw meat. the wake could be at the gallagher house like before (if they still own it) or they could p easily pay off a small funeral home to hold a little service. as silly funny goofy it would be to see mickey pretend to be dead like frank did, i imagine that if any cartel members did come, theyd want proof. it would be pretty suspicious if they went to cut off an ear and the body started gushing blood, so cadaver lookalike it is! makeup and maybe even prosthetics to make the body look believable. in my head, i imagine a scene of a couple cartel members coming to "pay their respects" only to find a closed casket wake. they try to "get one last look at our uhh old friend from jail" but the mourning family doesnt want to see mickeys injuries (they're scared shitless that mandy and debbies collective makeup skills arent believable enough) until a fight breaks out and the cartel guys knock over the casket. to their surprise, out rolls mickey milkovich with a hole in his head! awkward silence. debbies award winning acting skills save the day by leading the gallaghers and (very few) milkoviches in getting upset, crying and yelling at the men for "ruining a beautiful service to remember a beautiful man!!" the cartel guys awkwardly put "mickey" back in the casket and reset the scene, whispering in Spanish to each other, bickering about what the fuck they're gonna do now, before one of them decides to quickly cut off an ear, shoving it in his pocket, and closing the casket. they apologize and are forced out of the funeral home by a wave of screeching and kinda-shittily-fake-sobbing gallagher-milkoviches. the guys get their hands on crime scene photos and the body cam footage and decide yeah this bitch is dead. they have the body cremated and scattered in "mickeys favorite place" the lake for obvious reasons

phase 3: cleaning up the tracks. dont tell anyone who doesnt need to know. and DEFINITELY dont tell anyone who cant keep their mouths fucking shut. keep funeral VERY lowkey. if the wrong person hears about mickeys death and then sees him walking around totally alive later, things will get MESSY. no obituary in the paper, nothing posted on social media. take this shit to the GRAVE. NOBODY can know of this fake death plot.

as for the murder part of this? doesnt even go to trial. the idiot cops cant find the perps. just another example of negligent pigs unable to do their job. mickeys just gotta lay low and should probably finally get that last name changed. personally i love the idea of gallavich having a hyphenated last name but i think for the sake of mickeys safety, he should just drop the milkovich altogether.

ok thats pretty much it. end of episode. bye

[thueenz]

have any of u guys seen that cheeseball cat on tiktok/insta?? idk i dont use instagram. this one

i saw them months ago but they popped up again last night on my fyp and i want to talk about them so bad because theyre an occupied object as i like to call them (object with some kind of spirit in them, not to say haunted, just an object with some kind of 'being' or soul to it) and i find it endearing that a cheeseball cat i randomly saw one day is occupied. now we go under readmore

im pulling most of the screenshots from this video because its the one i saw last night so go watch if youre curious and to show the creator some love for their art!

if you have no idea who cheddar is they were not always a cheeseball, the creator bought them and painted them like this originally they looked like THIS

the being in them was present from the time of buying, they stick out like a sore thumb in this image specifically (likely because this is the day of buying and they havent settled into their surroundings at all)

luckily they dont seem to mind the fact that they were painted like a giant cheeseball at all. i cant say every being would take well to that, but if anything, they seem to like it. even if op and the fans on tiktok arent aware theyre 'there', they seem to enjoy the attention they get, and the individual love they have been given in the paint job. to be loved is to be changed or whateva. in all seriousness though they are fine with it, more than fine, which im glad lmao

theres plenty of beings in objects that are discontent with their situation, where the person theyre with either is not aware of them at all, or is misguided in their views towards beings in objects/uncaring/ even scared, but cheddar here seems perfectly happy. while others might shy away from attention, they seem to like the attention tiktok gets them.

i mean, they have their own little pedestal, special gift like baby cats that are custom painted, theyre special and named to the person theyre with, and people on tiktok love them. not a bad life if thats something you like! im really happy they feel so content, i get sad seeing beings that are unhappy on the internet but i cant rlly do anything about those cases so 😭

they really seem to like the person theyre with too, in this frame of them being picked up, their energy softens and brightens and makes my chest feel giddy and affectionate. theyre very cute i adore this cat i would give them a hug if theyd have me

i think they likely have a purpose or magical skill, but i cant pinpoint it further than 'they want to bring good into this persons life', which could cover a raaange of things.

theyre not malicious at all, they seem very content and friendly and i wouldnt feel uncomfortable around them at all in person so no worry of that. a bit intense before settling into their new life, but not bad. sometimes beings are just a bit intense lol. theyre not haunted by any human spirit, i can't say where they came from, or when, but i don't think they were ever 'alive' either animal or human.

i ♥️ cheddar and their sweet little cheese throne

[red-dyed-sarumane]

quastion i think uve talked abt before but i wanna hear u talk abt it again if thats the case. which magu girl do you think would be fun as a sinner a la limbus company. like who do u think would be the best fit...

the only 2 ive talked about are the girlies bc u made the best art of them in the limbus spirte style but why dont i just go thru all of them to amuse no one but myself.

honestly with shoushitsu's perceived emotional distance it might be fun to see her as one. she has her own desires & is willing to act on them Clearly given she's alive in the series but the fact that she can bury that to seemingly deal with the problem unbiased (impossible but shes doing it better than anyone else) would make her an interesting sinner. everyone would see her as the normal one or the slightly annoying one until it would get to her canto & open a whole new perspective on her. she strikes me as being similar to faust, if just a little.

kyuuyaku i dont think would be the best candidate for a sinner. she has the motivation but the whole dying repeatedly & watching everything crumble with her is clearly getting to her. she's a fighter in the fact she wont give up but i dont think she has what it takes to do any abnormality suppression. i also think at some point if not right away the whole dante bringing her back to life thing is going to trigger some sort of panic attack or similar.

touhikou would also make a good sinner. she's willing to fight. she's willing to go off on her own if that's what it takes to get her answers. between kannagi & kyuuyaku being in the same time as her it seems to me she's dealt with both sides, praying & research, and decided neither of them were enough & she'd find her own way. she'd be good at suppression & likely the job in general, with the one problem being she also would end up disagreeing with the other sinners as she works with them, but due to contracts she cant just leave this time. she would be a fun sinner.

tenshi. WORST pick for a sinner. whats she gonna do. cry and make them feel bad????? girl's not saving anyone she's getting smushed by the first abno she meets. she would never be able to handle any ego or corrosion thereof. she's like u said she would be one of the cool npcs that gets killed before the end of the chapter. much like how she does in the series.

apoptosis is my other choice for good sinner. theres something so so wrong with her her ego skills would be So Something & with how she melts down in canon i bet shes prone to ego corrosions. shes also just so fucking awful she would have no problem fighting everyone and anyone like vergilus would have to scare her into behaving shes that bad i think. i dont even think her canto would be that deep i think shes just Like This.

maximizer could go either way. shes full of ..... idk if its whimsy exactly but shes at least pretending to be very lax which could either lead to a very dramatic canto reveal or very lackluster one. she'd see fighting & ego stuff as just part of the job & wouldn't have any real problems with it i think.

kanon could be interesting given shes willing to lie to manipulate others. like yeah she regrets that but its a thing that happened. she did in fact go that far. i think that could be a very interesting reveal if her canto was later; everyone working with her having no real problem with her, shes just there, and then suddenly everyone finds out its because of her influence & direction people got killed permanently & her outward way of handling it was just 'well that wasnt the goal sorry that happened'. like maximizer i dont think shed have any real problem with fighting anything given its in her contract, its probably just inconvenient for her.

ashura would also be a good sinner bc theres a lot going on with her itd be fun to explore in this setting. the whole controlled by external forces theme & all. but bc of that she might not be considered to become a sinner in the first place since she lacks her own motivations or at the very least wont act on them. i think she's bitter enough tho they should let her fight things i want to see her ego corrosions.

laboratory would be a bad choice for sinner too i think. shes a do as shes told oops i forgot to be a person type chara. she'd be one of the branches like research workers that gets killed mid chapter or like shrenne not a sinner. i dont think she has any fight in her anyway.

yamete. realistically i think she'd be in the same company as labo & end up getting killed slightly after her after spending all her energy fighting to keep labo alive & failing. that said in series it seems like she does have a lot of her own motivations and ambitions her downfall was purely buying into the "just do ur job" rhetoric she was pushed. she's bitter & she's biting as she goes down so i think itd be fun to give her a sinner role anyway.

kannagi i think would be a bad sinner on the basis of she's not really willing to fight for want she wants. she IS acting of her own will & has her own desires but she's so non confrontational about it, at least from what i can understand, that she would be like. useless functionally as a sinner. she can be an npc for funsies tho.

[cosmicdream222]

im literally kicking myself in the foot for not doing something more worthwhile with my existance... i never knew of manifesting until recent years and while society likes to say its never too late sometimes it feels like that is it too late cause to learn any skill you have to have already learnt the techniques then have good practice abilities on top of it, like you cant just waltz into a sport for instance and take a gold medal you have to do it step by step but to do that again im fucking regretting so much rn cant i just bash my head into a wall and slowly die? or music for instance cant just pick an instrument and be good at it right off the bat again shouldve just fucking picked something and stuck with it

also i never had the likes of tiktok or anything internet for entertainment when i was a kid so in a way it shouldve been perfect chance to really do smth but as always situations got in the way and im regretting existing a lot rn. like why so many ppl so good at their niches or whatever it is they choose to do and theres so much more available now than there was back then but i cant seem to pick a single damned thing that i could realistically do at my age and still feel accomplished bc id just end up feeling behind or regretting not doing it sooner

sorry for ranting abt myself there just if only there was time machine or a literal realistic way of shifting to another damned reality cause this aint it like why im wasting so much of it doing fck all? it should be shameful honestly but like at the same time its kind of impossible with current economy being so crappy

for instance if u want to own a business (which i would do if i could even afford one with my own money but then u got to ha e the job and the know how on running it) seriously my ancestors had so many more things that were successful in their lives and some did have businesses bc shops were affordable back then, education used to be affordable too and housing etc etc. id be more inclinced to then have a family of my own if that were the case but it is not soooooooooooooo then its like even if you want a bog standard job it can still take months just to get something basic. i once did manage to manifest a free bus ride and my teacher not coming to college for a few days but thats abt it. other than that lifes kinda average sadly its not the 1950s and elvis is still dead asf.............. not fair

the other thing that puzzles me and sorry for making this so long but if we are supposed to have had past lives a) why havent we known about it before now and b) how come some celebs dont reincarnate or do the celebs that pass away just get a free pass to heaven and decide to stay put? (in which case i wont blame them but its also not fair that i have to still exist... or fail to exist i should say)

My dude, I understand where you’re coming from and I have been where you are. But you say you wish there was a way to travel back in time or shift realities - there IS a way to shift realities, travel back in time, and live whatever kind of life you want. Seriously. That is the whole reason I created this blog!! So please read through all the information I’ve collected instead of just complaining ok? 😭

All of that stuff you mentioned about your current reality is an illusion. Time is an illusion. It does not matter what you’ve done in the past. The economy does not matter. Your present circumstances do not matter. Past lives only exist if you believe they do.

Look around tumblr at void, loa and shifting success stories. I have shared many of my favorites. People in very difficult circumstances have regularly completely change their lives overnight, wake up in new houses, shift to alternate realities, change their genders, change their ages, bring people back from the dead, to say the very least.

None of it matters because we live in the literal matrix - a VR simulation - and you can have anything you want NOW.

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

sooo ive been thinkin 'bout kurons new body...... since its almost uncannily new and doesnt even have any scars or blemishes, does that also go deeper? like- what about his muscle memory? can he fight? write? swim?

hes alive and well and healthy but also. cant walk down the stairs lol

ALSO: since this body is Like That... did he even have an immune system?? or did have a period early on when he would constantly get sick

or maybe lance forseen all of this and managed to figure it out? i wouldnt put it past him tbh

Oh definately! Like i imagine his body would be able to do things like walk, sit, eat, and other such things within a few hours to days (like imagine how baby horses start walking right after birth, apparently it is bacause human babies dont have that well developed brain when born) but more complex things like writing and fighting skills? Nah, he's going to be needing a lot of practice. Part of it is because it is fairly new body but also because it's been years since Kuron had a physical body so he's very out of practice and hurts easily.

As for immune system, of course Lance made sure Kuron's new body is up to date with his vaccines before even transferring his soul in there. Can you imagine how embarrassing it would have been to bring a guy back from death fully functional only to have something preventable like tetanus doing him in a week late? Lance would never, he's a responsibly necromancer thank you very much

[nerves-nebula]

what made your first year of college so much worse than the second?

godddd where do i even start. Complaining goes under the cut cuz it’s too damn long.

8 hour studios 3 times a week that start at 8 AM and only break for lunch. one of the professors expected us to stand the entire time we were drawing and only sit when we went on break. plus homework for those studios, because each studio was a different foundational class. and on the days when you dont have those studios you got other foundational classes like art history and literature or something. you've got homework for all of these classes too and tests and everything.

and each studio being a different class is a huge issue and really frustrating as well. the classes are drawing, design and, like, basically a 3D class, right? where you use power tools and carve stuff and all that. But imagine you go to this school for painting or to make clothes, then the three foundational classes might just really bore and frustrate you. because you don't really feel like they're helping you gain any skills in your preferred major.

so you have all these artistic kids who want to do their best, being forced to do things they hate and being told it's to make us "more well rounded." (which dont get me wrong i understand, but that doesnt make it suck any less)

so all the art you make is painful to create, and you don't even like the result. but we knew what we signed up for, and the point is to last past first year so you can get into your major. thats the point for me, at least. so you just get what you can done, but i cant imagine what I would've done if i'd fallen behind even once.

And then my own personal hell- being in a new place and not knowing what to do or who to talk to or how to communicate ! So i was constantly stressed out in like a social way. idk if i vented about this here but i fell over in a fit of anxiety and hyperventilation in class multiple times first year. I straight up fell over at least twice and i had crying fits multiple times (with varying degrees of how quiet I was being, sometimes they don't even notice :D)

I was incredibly emotionally isolated and cried myself to sleep like every night. my only social interactions were at work because I'm very bad at socializing properly and making friends in class, and i was always too tired to go to any events. LUCKY for me I met a really cool friend while doing some student work and it was really nice and chill.

ANYWAY BACK TO THE STRESS. to give an example of the situation: our first homework for drawing class was to make this big ink master copy of a van gogh sketch, and it didn't have to be perfect, or even GOOD tbh, but regardless it took forever. and i spilled my ink on it which nearly led to a breakdown but instead i just laughed cause otherwise I'd go insane. the amount of podcasts and audiobooks i burned through that year just to keep myself sane was mind-numbing. i listened to, no joke, ALL of Well There's Your Problem, and i went back and listened to a lot of them more than once.

i was really lucky though, cause some other students had first projects that were like "bring in 50 drawings by next class" or "make a chair out of only cardboard that you can sit on without it collapsing" or something. and i never had a teacher that bad.

actually, my second semester design professor was really REALLY chill. He let me sleep in class if i finished the work so I spent a few hours in his class just chilling and sleeping fitfully (as in I was so stressed i would gasp and mutter myself awake, which really alarmed my classmates but i never got close enough to them to explain myself soooo they prolly just think something is wrong with me. which it is! oh well)

i can only speak for myself but i was basically working any moment i wasn't sleeping, eating, shitting, or showering. somehow other people made time to befriend each other and hang out and like, go to parties??? i dont know how. Frankly I don't even remember how i did what i did either, specifically I reached out to my college's mental health services and got on some medication for anxiety. I also somehow managed to write an essay for our student published thingy about how I wanted to kms and felt unsupported by mental health professionals lmao.

I have NO IDEA how i did any of that because this year i kept falling asleep for five hours in the middle of the day. my theory is that I got more done because I physically HAD TO STAY AWAKE. I COULD NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO FAIL.

I was so stressed out the first year that I often couldn't sleep without hugging my giant elephant stuffed animal or using it as a comforting weight on top of me. one morning i woke up hyperventilating and went to go cut a huge role of paper at like 6 AM because i was so worried about forgetting to cut the paper before i left before class at 8 AM.

so yeah, my theory is that since second year wasn't that insanely stressful, all those hours i spent eking out any artistic joy possible (making owl house comics, writing that essay, and painting my clothing) just to make sure i didn't kms were replaced instead with me just falling asleep at inopportune times, because I wasn't as scared that I wouldn't have time for my work.

OH MY GOD AND FIRST YEAR I GOT PUT IN TWO CONSECUTIVE GROUP PROJECTS WITH THIS ABSOLUTE MONSTER- but that could be its entire own post. suffice it to say that he had been reported multiple times for various things and one of my classmates recognized who i was talking about just from me vaguely complaining about how much i hated him.

anyway im sure there's even more that i forgot about but to be honest i think i've explained enough.

[oofuri2003]

if abe shun went to kasukabe (which is seeming more and more likely given that he's one year younger than abe takaya but not at nishiura yet), do you think we're ever going to get an abe vs abe game? probably wouldn't happen until the suzuki brothers graduate barring some twist

HMMMM.... I've already fully convinced myself shun went to kasukabe and if that does end up being true....i have a feeling the answer will end up somehow, at some point, being yes, just because the abes explicitly bring up the idea of them playing against each other during new years....HOW itll go down I'm not sure? The suzuki twins are the main battery but they DID sub a different pitcher in during their game against musashino - maybe in a game against nishiura they would start with (or sub in) a different battery at some point and shun would be part of said battery! That or we will be forced to wait til takaya is a third year/the suzukis graduate if we take what takaya himself and the abe parents were saying to heart about kasukabe having a zillion players and shun's odds of even being on the bench being very low. We also dont really have any sense of what shun's skill level is either so i cant tell if he'd be a first year that could squeeze his way onto the bench or not! I'd really like to see it tho!!! I want to see shun play some baseball! And i think it'd be fun for them to be up against each other lol another dynamic we've never seen....

[ask-octoberotto]

Heya this is Neith from another verse. I was prompted to speak with you about (P)NH(C) virus. Which, I suppose, means... literaly everything about it? It started in OsCorp labs, that I was told, but what was it meant to do? What it did/does when not stopped? What was attempted to stop/heal it? What is affected (type of) population and is there a pre-exposure vaccine? If you know how to send files across the borders, that may be a great time to use that skill, any byte of info is nice. I and my benefactors want only good, I so swear.

And in the other news, I have a list of terms to ask about also, because umm. Pax became quite angry when questioned about those, and it seems like she doesnt know anything despite all of them being globe-span things. I quote, “your experiences are not universal”. Which, if true, means fundamental differences I cant reconcile with on the spot. Anyways, the list follows: Admiral(person, "A" capitalised); Aretes(the organisation); Dragonhearts(the organisation); Greatest biologist of Earth; Plural Plagues(or any event matching that name); Hellhole(in context of Washington, and any others); Hydra(the organisation); North Sentinel Island; OsCorp biology division; Top Alley House(the place). I dont demand the full dissertation on each, I just want to realise whats different and how much so. - Neith

Oh. Christ. Ok, you’re.. quite lucky I’m not too swamped with work. I don’t have the time to fulfill everything that you’ve requested from me (I’m… not doing an actual dissertation for a tumblr ask, sorry) but I will try to answer as best as I can regardless. This gets long so I’m putting it under a read more.

So, firstly, I will have to firmly ask that you to please refrain from agitating Pax any further. One of the prominent symptoms of severe Post NH virus Condition (PNHC) comes in the form of increased irritation/aggression along with emotional deregulation and to keep triggering that is to make an individual more hostile and more likely to.. uh.. respond with violence.. 

Though I doubt you’ll experience much of this aside from some harsh words from her, but as her doctor, I have to ask you leave her be for now so she doesn’t either bring herself or others harm. We really don’t need a situation to evolve because of this big misunderstanding. Also if you’re wondering why Ez is able to visit her, it’s because she trusts them deeply and Ez is unable to be notably harmed by Pax. Speaking with Ez does her a lot of good!

Anyway, you can find more specifics on the symptoms here on NH virus and here on the resulting PNHC, but generally speaking, when one gets infected with the Noctis Hectica (NH) Virus, it generally has a massively negative impact on the brain.. In some ways, it functions somewhat similar to a form of rabies, though there are key differences between the two retroviruses. The most notable being the physiological changes brought on by an infection of NH, with one of the biggest indicators being the changes to the eyes. Even in early stages, the eyes are usually one of the first things to be heavily altered, as patients tend to experience severe photophobia/eye pain, a rapid development of choroidal tapetum cellulosum, and loss of eye pigmentation, turning the previous eye color to a silvery-white color.

At the moment, two different vaccines have been developed, by yours truly, pre-exposure and post-exposure vaccines. We’re.. still trying to do drug discovery for the treatment of PNHC but so far, there seems to be no cure for it. This is more something that one has to manage with medication and other treatments such as therapy for years, possibly lifelong in the severe cases. It’s a very debilitating condition and those who are affected often need at least some level of support to manage it.

Most infected tend to be human but other animals (usually mammals but there was a jump to reptiles at a point) that have been reported to either carry or show symptoms of NH virus. Also I’d love to send more detailed documentation to you but.. that’s not my decision to make. Because I work with the Bioterrorism Security Assessment Alliance (BSAA) there are some things I am not allowed to disclose and quite frankly? I don’t really want to entrust this sensitive information to an organization I’ve never even heard of. And neither would my superiors.

Which speaking of… I’m afraid Pax is correct with her repeated statement to you. I don’t really know how else to put this to you but, what may be true to your dimension, is not inherently true to another. To assume that it is… extremely shortsighted at best and kind of arrogant at worst, considering you’ve been told twice (now thrice) that it wasn’t the case and yet you don’t seem to really get it.

I.. I understand it’s not something that’s easy to accept and I understand it’s a big adjustment to learn about the multiverse. But you need to listen to me when I say we literally do not have any these other organizations aside from OsCorp, which was a biotechnology company until very recently when they developed the NH virus and ended up causing a massive outbreak in the city of Baltimore, leading to hundreds of thousands of deaths (estimates are approx. 492,000 known deaths) and causalities (50,631) and disappearances (about 28,500 still unaccounted for) related to the Baltimore Incident as of 2082.

Though the situation is mainly secured by now, the Outbreak did a lot of damage to the city and surrounding neighborhoods and resulted in most of the population of Baltimore being either injured or killed as a result. Those responsible have also died during the outbreak but there are a few fugitives still at large, namely the former CEO of OsCorp, Nora Veronica Osborn. Hopefully, the BSAA will find her and she will be held responsible for the amount deaths and destruction her company has caused.

If the other organizations/persons/etc. mentioned existed as prevalently as you say it should in our dimension, I would know. Aside from being the guy who developed the first vaccines for the NH virus (and currently the only person who was not involved with OsCorp that is a leading expert on this virus as I studied it.. far too closely while was trapped in Baltimore), I am virologist and immunologist who has studied many different viral agents over the years, especially viruses that are tied to biological warfare such as the much older Tyrant Virus (T-Virus) and its variants.

So in short? Pax said it best: your experiences are not universal.

What is true in your universe may not even exist in another. Hope this clears everything up and no, I do not want to repeat myself anymore than I have to.

Have a nice day.

- 🔬

[nightfallsystem-moved]

i know its easier said than done but you *really* do not have any sort of obligation to be good at or constantly improving at your hobbies. you deserve to do the things that you love, no matter if youre bad at them or not, or putting in the work to become better at them or just doing them for fun without any concern

ik this is the era of monetizing your hobbies and putting it all in social media and starting a small business or whatever the hell but thats literally just capitalism worming into our brains and it can go fuck itself. the word amateur has such negative connotations today, but it originally came from the french word for love, and i think thats still how it should be !!

i abandoned my hobbies too for a really long time and it made me feel so empty but ive been slowly coming back to them and ive realized that it was at least partially bc i was forcing myself to put in too much damn effort. i did not have that amount of effort in me, still dont, and thats ok ! like esp w art in my case, ive realized that being messy and loose w it and doing silly doodles brings me oodles more joy than forcing myself to create clean finished pieces, getting dissapointed w my skills, or just doing Nothing At All

its hard, but please try to give yourself some grace. pick an old hobby back up with no expectations, or try something new with the intention of having fun first and foremost, maybe even with the express purpose of being bad at it ! youre allowed to be, you dont owe the world a thing

i really appreciate it im srory but i cannot be helped thouh . but this means a lot to me so thank you. i am a lost cause unfrotuanteyl

it just sucks bcuz like. i try so hard to be good for months and then my friends literally do 50x better than me after just pickng up thh game so its like extremely discouraging because i want to be better because hhthhats what i really want to do it sems fun but thats legit never ever going to fucking happen so hwhhahts the point if i cant acheieve hhwhat i want to achieve

and ntehres also my anxiety and that wont ever be cured or at least lessened ever so i physically cant have any new hobbies anymore...

i feel empty as hell after abandoning almost every hobby i have but i think i just need to get over it and grow up i have art andn studying i should be happy anyway

[certified-bed-rotter22]

I am such a fucking useless bitch I can't do anything and I will always end up a disappointment for everything one I can't think of one fucking person who is not disappointed in me like at this point I just expect everyone to think like that if me i can't take it anymore and idk why the fuck I am never able to change it that think I am such a nice and nice girl but NO I AM A MANIPULATING AND CONTROLLING BITCH

i can't do the shit I actually enjoyed it just feels like a fucking burden and my art skills are degrading day by day and I can't bring my self to practice because they are proof that now I am good for nothing

I am not good in studies,or with people, I am not good in any other skills and the only thing that made me worth anything besides a fucking fat bitch was my art and now that is going away too

Kids fucking younger than me arw making careers WHICH I WANTED and I can do nothing but fucking binge eating about it I can do absolutely nothing NOTHING and when anyone compliments my art I don't even feel validated now I just feel fucking gross like I am a fucking fraud that I am showing someone else's art and calling it mine

And now my exams are coming up and I haven't studied shit and my mom is not making anything any easier I just want to cry and fuck everything else and I don't want to do this anymore I just can't I just want to die every fucking day and see if anyone even fucking cares no one likes me anymore because everyone now sees me for what I truly am and I bet they feel disgusted to think they once thought I was "good" or "nice" and I feel disgusted to make new friends because they too will eventually know what I am really like and will leave me for good I just want to end it all

The only things that were holding me back were my dreams of becoming a comic artist and traveling with my best friend when we both become adults but now I feel like I am loosing both of them and I cant deal with that I want to just die before I loose anyone of them I can't like like that I really can't and for once she is not completely stressed and overwhelmed by her family her dad and school her life is finnally good she has a nice boyfriend friends that really like her and her studies are actually going well she is even overcoming her social anxiety

I can't ruin everything for her by dragging her down with me i know I will not make it i know I can't do shit and I know I will always be a fucking disappointment but she actually has a will she is not as tainted as mentioned and she is actually a good person she doesn't need me to live her life and she will never find someone like me and I fucking hope she never does cause she is too good to deserve a shitty person like me and I think she has realised that now

Maybe I should just end it all jump of a building I can go anytime I want pretend I am going for classes and just jump off a building with my body weight i don't think I can survive I don't deserve to anyway

And even if I speak up about my sh or my ed they will never believe me why would they? I am so fucking overweight they will think I just want attention and my sh is not even that bad and anything I say will be 'cringe' and attention seeking why would they care I am just the ugly friend who is obviously jealous of her pretty friends and act like a good friend but in reality she is just jealous no opinion of mine is considered serious ofc cuz my brain is now filled with fat and shrinked and every physical activity I can't do is because I am too far and because I am dumb ppl are nice to me my face but I can hear their loud whispers saying

OMG how does she even get clothes her size she must have them tailored

She probably never moves around and eats fastfood every day

What is all that hair it is so weird she should do lazer removal then her confidence will be more

NO I DON'T FUCKING NEED YOU FUXKING OPINIONS YOU THINK I AM DUMB? BLIND? I KNOW I AM FAT AND YOU DONT KNOE ME YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW I WALK 12000 STEPS EVERY FUCKING DAY JUST TO LOOSE THIS FUXKING DISGUSTING FAT YOU DONT FUCKING KNOW I COMPARE EVERYONE SINGLE PERSON I SEE IF THEY ARE FATTER OR THINNER THAT ME YOU DON'T KNOW ABOUT THE NUMBER OF BREAKDOWNS I HAD OVER THIS FUCKING FAT HOW EVERY SINGLE FAMILY MEMBER WANTS TO TELL ME THE SAME SHIR OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I WANNA DIE BUT DESPITE KNOWING ME NOT MORE THAN 5 SECONDS YOU HAVE THE FUXKING NERV TO TELL ME THAT I SHOULD WALK MORE WHAT THE FUXK DO YOU KNOW YOU DONT EVEN KNOE MY FUXKING NAME JUST BECAUSE I WAS NICE ENOUGH TO HOLD THE LIFT FOR YOU DOES NOT MEAN U CAN TELL ME ANYTHING YOU CAN'T U JSUT CANT U I DONT WANNTHEAR THIS SAME SHIT AGAIN A D AGIN

Fuck you and everyone

[suw4]

hii, im the anon from the last ask, happy new year!! i wanted to say that i really like the way u write and how you draw, i really admire you :)) hope everything gets better!! i was just kinda worried(? because you haven't posted in a while

ohh hello again! happy new years to you too! thank you for the compliments! that really means a lot since i havent been writing. im more active on my art account.

the reason im on hiatus for writing is that i feel like my writing hasnt been top tier. like it isnt meeting my expectations. i feel like my skills has gotten worst so im taking some time off. i cant even bring myself to continue my other books on wattpad. dont get me wrong though!! i want to finish them but i just couldnt.

i really loved writing. i want to come back to writing again. so im hoping one day my love for it comes back.

dont you worry though. im still here. lurking around. ive been coming back and forth on my drafts--seeing if i have that sudden fling to write. thank you for looking out for me ♡♡. that's the first time a in a while that i heard from any from my followers or anyone who reads my stuff. so thank you again.

in another note, i hope you're doing great, anon!! really, love you.

[wixenburr]

Im not extremely into martial arts but i have handled many weapons, felt their weight, and learned to use them so i shall elaborate on this. Honestly i think my simple understanding will make it easier to explain.. so here we go. Bo, Tonfa, Guns, & a bit of hand to hand info:

Firstly, any weapon that is club-like is going to pack a hell of a punch. Its not being smacked with sticks, no no, these are especially weighted and made to be heavy and sturdy. They hit HARD.

The bo can be a little unwieldy in my opinion because of how long it is you know? So it like gets everywhere lol. but when you have exceptional control over it, it is absolutely a very painful weapon. I remember sparring with the bo; every clack against your sparring partners bo sent a jolt up my arms into my bones. It takes a lot of finger strength and control. And hitting ur fingers or someone with them? Ohhh man. That hurts like a motherfucker.

I dont have a ton of experience with escrima sticks, but i have used tonfas! Tonfas are essentially enhanced elbow strikes and punches. Elbow strikes in the first place are HEAVY if you do them right. And with a tonfa omg easily break bone and ribs. Dont even get me started on headshots- do you KNOW how fragile you are?? I do. Im taking anatomy & brain. You are easily squished.

Now guns; i have the most experience with these. Firstly, keep in mind some guns are heavier than others, and have bigger recoil which makes for bigger impact and bullets usually. In general, once you get the hang of your weapon its not too hard to aim and fire. Getting a new gun any time means you have to recalibrate and see how it aims; break it in before you really use it.

I doubt Jason is out there using Desert Eagles every chance he gets lol, but if he were it would also be an effective force to- well. Pistol whip. Smack a bitch in the face and break their cheek n teeth probably. Tho thats not to say any other guns cant also do that; theyre all metal weapons. Heavy enough to swing and do damage.

Keep in mind there are different types of bullets. Armor piercing bullets, bullets designed to shatter under ur skin and cause more damage, bullets designed to just be big and blow you apart with their force, etc.

Anyway tho...

Lets be real

The bats could probably take 99% of people out with a simple butterfly kick. Or even just grab your hand and put you in a Z-Lock/wrist lock or armbar. Literally just grabbing your hand and bringing you down just like that.

Idk if you've ever done hand to hand sparring before, but when i was little it was STRESSFUL. I wont lie; i cried sometimes. Its a lot of violence and stimuli coming at you all at once and when you are against a skilled opponent they can literally love tap you into submission. Imagine a flurry of hard taps against the side of your head, your torso, a flat punch to the sternum, and worst of all a sudden hard kick to the head!

It takes a lot of training to get used to being in a fighting mindset, and the everyday person- even thug- are far from that. You have to think INCREDIBLY fast to keep up with someone well trained, and even then you can Easily be overwhelmed. Keep in mind, even when you are blocking punches ane kicks with say, your forearm, they still HURT. Or if you manage to sidestep/push the hit away with its own force, it is STILL another point of violence and stress aimed straight at you.

All that to say. Yes. The bats. Are scary. Fighting is scary. Depending on your personality and tolerance to violence, it can be even worse. So.... gl ig.

Edit: @froggibus mentioned nun-chucks!!! I was gonna mention these because I've used them as well but no bats do but... okay nun-chucks fucking suck to learn. Its a PAIN. They are two sticks connected by a chain or rope and you hold one and have to articulate/swing the other. Its like you swing it around to gain momentum and a bigger impact (As long as you dont hit YOURSELF ohh my goodness) and then BAM! Snap it out and you git a hard, impactful hit! But then you have to orient them again! Part of that is swinging it to gently tap your own hips on either side- that was a big exercise for me. Tap- two horizontal spins to the other hip Tap- and back and forth.

Watching people actually use a bo staff has made me realise how scary fighting red Robin would be if you were a goon or not trained to the same level. Like I don’t think I conceptualised how much it would hurt to be hit with a bo staff until I saw people twirling those thing and don’t multiple consecutive hits.

Saw a dude (who had a Robin jacket which was cool) add a flip after multiple swings and I can only imagine how much that would hurt if he actually hit someone. Not just the massive arc of a metal pole but a flip as well?!?

I don’t know much about fighting so it’s not until I actually see people with these skills that it hits me how it would actually be