#i believe in the teenage faggots

[osamucide]

vomiting and crying over 119 in tags

[homophyte]

truly disquieted at how quickly some spaces have taken up the ‘anyone who talks about bigotry is a sad person and that they care about stupid pointless stuff shows how sad they are’ thing . i dunno about that one fellas

[humiliatemeplesse]

After your nephew overheard his parents talking about you being gay, he went and asked them if he could go spend the weekend with you because he really liked spending time with you and you hardly saw him around anymore. They said sure and he said he'd have his buds drop him off at your house after his soccer game after school Friday. You were surprised but happy about the request, you liked your nephew, he was a good kid, smart, a masculine straight confident jock like you wish you had been in school. After his friends dropped him after the match Friday, he just stormed in the door, no knock, no doorbell, he scared the shit out of you. You laughed and said hey buddy! He dropped his gym bag on the floor and said "pick it up you stupid faggot" and you were shocked and horrified. As you stood there not saying or doing anything, he punched you in the gut and you doubled over. "What didn't you understand faggot? Pick up my gym bag asshole." He was so angry and aggressive that your naturally sissy fag self did what he said, you didn't want to get punched again. "Follow me," he said and you did, into your bedroom. "I'll be sleeping here in the master bedroom, you can sleep in the guest room," he said. " Now put down my bag and get on the floor." You almost mindlessly did what he said, still stunned and afraid of him. He sat on the floor and kicked off his sneakers. "Sniff my stinking socks homo, I've been wearing the same pair all week at practice and at the match today, where by the way I scored the winning goal, I bet you wish you were like me you old fag, don't you?" he said and laughed. You hesitated, you couldn't believe what was happening. Then he slapped you across the face with his stinking socked foot. "Sniff it bitch," he said. You stuck your face into his socked sole and started sniffing as ordered. Ya, they smelled like he'd been wearing them for a week. He said "Now remember this, as you're pathetically sniffing your teenaged nephew's socked feet at his orders, you do whatever I tell you to do this weekend. Buy me and my buds beer. Pay for weed. We're gonna steam anything we want on your TV and computer and you're gonna pay for it. You're gonna go to the store and buy anything we want to eat. Got it bitch?" You instinctively said "Yes Sir." Everything he said he'd make you do happened that weekend, and that wasn't the only time he made you sniff his sweaty smelly dirty socked feet AND his buddy's. They all laughed at you. When he left Sunday evening he said "I'm going to start coming over here most weekends so get used to it faggot" and walked out the door into one of his buds cars who was picking him up.

[megabuild]

bit of a ramble below! tl:dr; i have insane person problems and realised that this blog isn't healthy for me so won't be coming back until i'm in a better place, i have no intent on deleting it but may password protect it in the coming days for my own peace of mind :P love yall!

the absolute basics on my situation is that i almost certainly have OCD, have been vocal about this likelihood in the past, and while i was aware i was susceptible to obsessions and compulsions irt online interactions and my posts on here i was not actually aware of how debilitating the effect this was having on my life was until i went completely cold turkey and blocked tumblr from all my devices. like genuinely night and day. i have so much more free time when i'm not spending it constantly name searching on every platform available and scrolling through my blog over and over to be sure that i didn't post a slur by accident lol. i'd rather not get into some of the stupider details of shit ive done in the name of perceived moral purity because that's nobody's business but trust me when i say it was like a weight got lifted off my fucking shoulders lol like i was having regular delusions about making a post so bad grian himself would say i should kill myself on stream and believing it was possible 😭 really good disorder guys i love having this

i have a lot to say about the way this community treats each other, both good and bad, but i think i'd rather hold off and make more informed and thought out posts on that when i'm not still reeling from all the bullshit life's been throwing at me. i do love and value this community so much, especially all the mutuals and friends i've made here. i've also been made extremely uncomfortable in the past by the easiness that people slip into very strange relationships not just with CCs but with their fellow bloggers. including me ! and i am a relatively small blogger in the vast scheme of things. this is no hate to anyone who's sent an anon or whatever, many of you are lovely people, but it's also like, well i have been literally stalked on this blog before so i feel i have justification for being a tad uncomfortable . again, a lot to be said on the celebritification of average people and the obsession on making sure one makes "Objectively Correct" choices when doing something as simple as watching a minecraft series and having opinions on it .. but alas, no brain for it right now, and also i would rather not risk the ire of twitter teenager #48 lest i be qrted by thumbnail artists telling me to lighten up and accept the steady decay of all that is good in this sphere in order to make room for more #Content. Sit down and eat your yaoibait you stupid faggot! sorry this is a serious post ignore that part

to any of my beloved oomfies you are free to message and ask for my discord though i am also being a bit difficult to reach over there rn my bad (and i may not get back to you quickly because as soon I post this I am logging straight the fuck back out).. i have made a separate tumblr account from this one which is less social media and more a little archive of images and art i like (and also is not related to mcyt at all, outside of maybe one or two art reblogs if i see something that really catches my eye) so if we've hung out and you don't exclusively post mcyt you might see me around in your notifs but i'd prefer not to be linked back here. any projects, fics, other blogs etc. i have been working on consider on pause for eternity, with the only exclusions being 3rd life miraheze (which i'm currently looking into options for but will certainly never go away! much love still to all our contributors who have worked tirelessly through wild life to update our various spreadsheets and tables) and aoyuer which i'm sort of picking up and taking away and hitting with hammers until it's sufficiently divided from mcyt and i can call it an oc story for real. peep my toyhouse if ye are so inclined and wont tell the adoptbrained callout squads over there that my oc once upon a time was lowkey rpf.

anyway this has already gotten far too long as i'm a chronic yapper and overexplainer but thank you very much for hanging out with me and talking about these stupid ass blocks. i have a handful of posts in the queue i wont be getting rid of and don't doubt i will come back to chat more shit in future but at the end of the day i'm here to have a fun time on the computer and i just was not having that anymore. i was having a scary and fucked up time on the computer, and life is too short to put yourself through that out of some butchered sense of responsibility to the niche follower base you've cultivated. if you also have ocd delete your blog as soon as it hits 1k like actually. if you worked in the askbox mines and are now facing redundancy then go follow my enemy thecoolerliauditore. or dont im not your boss anymore. im too busy homebrewing my 3ds. smooches mwahs !!!!!!!!!

[maximusblack-hp]

Ron Anderson X Male Reader

Warning: Homophobic Term and that’s about it.

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A moan came out of the teenager's lips as the other boy was sucking up his neck. They both have barely known each other for a month but Ron has been hooked unto the other boy when it got to Alexandria. It wasn’t often that people near his age showed up there.

When the other teen first got there Ron heard that they showed up with a younger teenager named Sophia. Apparently they lost the group they were with due to a herd. Ron doesn’t know much about what’s going on out there but he knows it's bad.

Ron isn’t completely sure how he got to this point with the other teen. He knows it should be wrong among boys. Back before the world went to shit his father would go on a drunk stupor about the neighbors being faggots.

Then again it’s practically the end of the world as far as he can tell. Ron doesn’t believe such things should matter anymore. Not that he would dare say that out loud. If he did he knew his father would kill him.

Before Ron could spiral even more he felt a stink of pain run through his shoulder. Ron then looked at the boy who went from sucking on his neck to then taking a small nip out of his shoulder.

Ron then asked him,”what was that for.” With a moan or two in between the sink the other teen started flickering his tongue over the now bleeding skin. Ron really wanted to question the other of where he learned to do this.

After another minute of taunting Ron’s sensitive skin the teenager backed away. The teen then said,“You were getting distracted,” with a slight haze in his eyes. How he could not when Ron’s moans were music to his year.

The teen then gave a peck to Ron's lips and said,”I must not be great at this if you still manage to get distracted.” The teen then moved his lips towards Ron’s left ear and said,”Next time I’ll give you more than a slight nip to your skin.”

Ron shivered a bit, not out of fear but from how sensitive he felt around the other boy. Seriously Ron was curious who the hell raised this guy. There is no valid reason for them to be this attractive. The more time goes on Ron questions if the other guy is actually a virgin like he said he was.

The teenager never did things like this with anyone else beside Ron. Though he’s heard a few stories about Merle Dixon’s past lover. The boy just figured that some things must apply regardless of genders.

Up to this day they are still guestioning how the fuck they are related to Merle. Not that it matters much now in the end of the world. Practically everyone is family at this point. Take Sophia and Carol for example. He sees them as his younger sister and mother figure.

[thehetrophobe]

Hey stRaIghT people 🙂, do you agree with this?

Because I do.

I know you Defaults think you're superior to us queers, you think you're the number one humans, the first class creations. Don't bother denying it, I see what your kind post when you're behind a screen in some dark secret attic.

You see, I like these kind of Defaults. The ones that don't hide their true selves under a mask. The ones that have the balls to say it.

My fellow queers are having a bit of a hard time believing me when I say it's high time we take the fight back to you guys. So when you display what it truly means to be a Default, it shows them I'm not saying any lies on this blog. You guys are naturally ugly and cruel. I'm not even trying to insult your race, I'm just stating facts.

Oh, come on, you're telling me this isn't something your kind pulls off...?

I'm not the only one anymore who really fuckin hates your guts now, thank goodness. You people have hurt a lot of my kind and those victims are pulling together, waiting, waiting, waiting... 🙂

So please go ahead and be yourself. Chase down that faggot, beat him up on the street, bully that dyke till she changes school, follow that tranny into the bathroom and beat them up. Erase gay characters from media, scream 'PEDOPHILE' into the face of a gay teacher. There's always one more queer to offend somewhere.

When the queer community finally opens their eyes and see that "Oh shit, these Defaults are exterminating us, we can't keep waving these pride flags forever," that's when the work begins.

I want you guys to feel shame, I want your teenagers to feel lonely and sad and (to quote Ursula) pathetic! You grew up with all these privileges, yet it wasn't enough. You felt the need to step on the minorities, to make them cry and wish they'd been born default. In a near future, I truly wish it will be your teenagers jumping off bridges someday because they feel something is wrong with them. That it will be them roaming the streets homeless because they'd been disowned. That it will be Default characters being removed from books and television.

God, what a bright future.

But like I said earlier, there is much work to be done.

And you are a part of it 😉

So go out there and show the queers your true selves. I won't have to lift a finger. That's like paying a pig to get dirty.

Until then, toodles.

Oh, and, fuck your race 🖕😅

[joeyclaire]

sorry about the election, here’s a fnaf politics au

republican president william afton is trying to win reelection against democratic utah governor michael afton

his approval rating is plummeting, mostly due to the swarm of child murderer allegations he keeps receiving

secretary of state emily, press secretary crying child, chief of staff elizabeth afton, secretary of defense vanessa

michael furiously bats back nepotism allegations, insisting his father spent much of michael’s life discouraging him from politics

first lady firstname afton stands by her husband no matter what. when michael wins she calls him and informs him she’s never been proud of him a day in her life

william’s policies include support of abortion because he wants more child murder

anti gay marriage UNTIL someone (michael) leaks screenshots of him and henry borderline sexting in the work group chat

as in writing wildly intense and passionate overly long messages in front of god and everyone which other people (michael) screenshot and make fun of behind their backs

michael’s policies include raising minimum wage, has a whole big deal about working a shitty job at fazbear’s and being a working class hero

the fnaf 4 bullies are michael’s advisors, they just talk shit all day

cc releases an autobiography with a notably short chapter on the nightmare gassing. he says it made him a stronger person.

(william reading over his shoulder as he types) “and then add that story about the time you were twelve and michael and his friends peer pressured you into smoking weed with them”

michael releases a book that’s a counter to cc’s. free me i only did some of that.

“okay yeah i DID peer pressure cc into smoking weed once but what he DIDN’T tell you is how he threw up on my lap and locked himself in the guest bathroom to cry for an hour straight”

cc’s account of the weed story appeals to conservatives because they care about weed. michael’s account appeals to conservatives because they care about elected officials sounding like a pussy

many years down the line elizabeth releases a tell-all interview detailing her side of the story. also all lies. she wasn’t even there for the weed incident.

cc cries reading michael’s book, including the parts that aren't even about him

elizabeth is obsessed with becoming a meme. very active on social media in an AOC kind of way. something of a miss piggy figure to a certain kind of leftist that enjoys pretending to support a republican politician.

against all odds, michael wins the presidency. william immediately gets to work on his assassination plan.

researching the most successful assassinations making a list of his most successful murders and what went wrong from his failed attempts.

all in on this until an advisor gently reminds him that if michael is killed then vice president bonnie bully will take over and william immediately blurts out “that faggot???” because he's already had to deal with bonnie bully being at his house all the damn time gaying up the place when michael was a teenager and now he's the vice president. of the united states. of america

vice president henry emily is current under a lot of fire for the fact that he doesn’t believe in the separation of church and state

[awsugar]

i am very definitely listening

k so its midnight and also this is pure mack brain power i havent had a substance in 4 days i went off my lexapro i havent been taking my vyvanse. im just thinking which apparently i am capable of doing.

anyway like i have thought about it in circles for all of time but the recent like higher quality revenge promo pics in which you can now CLEARLY see that franks shirt says pansy....god its sent me on one!!! and i think it all comes back to how i think Kids These Days these newer teenage my chem fans just do noooootttt understand what it was like in 2004!! TWO THOUSAND FOUR. if you were straight you were 1) homophobic or 2) minding your own business. straight male allies especially so public facing like this well it just was not really a thing especially in that scene! and im talking about the bands that they were playing shows with, not the bands they came to be associated with. and not to say they were/are homophobic but just like other people were not doing anything like this!!! so you have to think. which i have thought. like im just telling you they were not doing this! in 2004. pansy shirt pansy guitar homophobia is gay and not to mention the stage stuff. but also kissing on conan obrien was crazy but like the shirts the queer self identification! 8th grade, attention reader, homophobia is gay, calling himself "the faggot from mcr" knowing he was bullied and beat up.. at some point you have to think maybe we are not doing all of this as a sure of himself ally and maybe he really is just kissing boys and yes i have thought all of this forever but the shirt has really sent me on a renaissance of it. and i think people who were not born yet in the early 2000s or like too young to have been exposed to anything, they totally don't get it. how prevalent it was to be super vocally homophobic all the time, and how rarely anyone said anything to the people who were doing that. and how rare what mcr (and more specifically frank and gerard) were doing was......like i just wish i had the time energy and motivation to write a researtch paper on this topic. and i think the age difference and the lack of experience of this era is what leads to a large portion of people being ok with like labeling gerard and believing that he is queer while maintaining that they think frank is straight like girl he was doing too much for you to say that so assuredly!

[calciumdeficientt]

hello faggot u should give the world our hcs

HEEEEEEEEY i told you not to call me that in public……… but okay since you asked so nicely. ALSO… warning for some pretty heavy topics. These will be tagged accordingly and flagged up with this emoji: 🚨. Proceed with utmost caution my friends! <3

BIF/DERBY/JOHNNY HCS

HEARTBREAKING. The worst people you know are a throuple! It’s less of a love triangle and more of a weird love arrow with Derby as the focal point. You’re really innovative because you created a world in which dirtmoney and derbif can coexist in…. Relative harmony. You’re a fucking mastermind and Im glad to be the mouthpiece for your ideas.

Starting off strong, Derby Harrington is a trans man. So send those period cramps over, he will feel every single one of them. Obviously the news that Mr and Mrs Harrington were having two children, and neither of them boys, was enough to drive the final nail in the coffin of their already failing marriage. Married as teenage cousins, they tried desperately for a viable pregnancy. Both parties had had sons in the past, but none of them were legitimate heirs to their Oil fortune. A pair of twin girls would, essentially, ruin them.

Born in Brooklyn to parents that were already very much on the brink of divorce, Derby spent a good few weeks in the hospital’s NICU due to having an irregularly large heart and other health conditions (much to his parents' dismay; they really just wanted to get out of there and drop him off with the nanny at the house at that point like they’d done with his healthy twin sister). Instead, his mother was forced to stay with her sickly child while the other one was safely in the hands of their team of nannies.

His mum is a mistress to multiple rich men, she’s never made a living anywhere other than on her back with her legs open. His dad sends makes bank for their mansion through managing their oil company, and many, many well hidden offshore bank accounts. Derby tried disowning his mother for her infidelity but later on he couldn't really blame her as he followed in her footsteps and got messy on his own with Bif and Johnny.His parents divorced when he was about 6 or 7, and he was split from Dahlia. His father took her, wanting to stake his claim to the healthy twin early on in the hopes that he could raise her up to eventually take over the company, no real Harrington was sickly and weak, she seemed more purebred than Derby.

For most of his childhood, he was raised by a nanny that was close to his parents, meaning that he saw her as much more of a mother than his biological mum, Martha. 🚨🚨The nanny took advantage of him when he was barley 6 months old and continued to do so until he was 11 and was preparing to go upstate on a trip with his Father, swapping places with his sister for a month or so as per the legal custody ruling. Wanting to impress his father, he brought up that he casually had relations with her and his dad beat him severely and sent him back to go live with his mother and the nanny permanently, wanting nothing to do with it. Martha stepped in a little bit more to help him because she heard of what Henry (his dad) did but not out of the goodness of her heart, she just wanted more reason to hate her ex husband. Then he came out to her and she fired the nanny, fearing her as "competition" with her son. 🚨🚨

🚨🚨He was brainwashed into believing that whatever she did was okay because no one else could step in. Derby was basically isolated from the outside world and never had any other interactions besides the house’s menagerie of various exotic animals and some servants that didn't dare to intervene in fear they'd lose their jobs. Basically, his mother has a weird incestuous one sided relationship with derby and he doesn't really seem to notice because he's grown up around it all his life. Johnny pointed it out one time and was rightfully like "What the fuck that is not normal" and Derby spiraled and cut him off for a while, not knowing how to process that criticism from someone that he loved and trusted. He’d become so used to it, as it was consistent, repeated and normalised part of his development. It took a good amount of mental energy for him to put two and two together that what had happened to him was, in fact, sexual abuse. 🚨🚨

Derby and Bif had known each other since Bif was a little shrimp in 6th grade, and Derby was finally being allowed out of the house. Derby was still socially a girl but started to discover his true feelings with Bif's overwhelming support (Zoe is Bif’s twin sister who's amab, so he grew up supporting trans people). Then into their freshman year in Bullworth, Bif was working out every day and Derby was climbing to the top of the prep social hierarchy steadily, eventually leading to his total domination as a senior. Bif was always at his side, doting, supportive and devoted no matter how much the power got to Derby's head. He was the only prep who was brave enough to stand up and up and say no to Derby every once in a while, but that was only on rare occasions.

In sophomore year, the two idiots finally figured out they were deeply in love with each other and started dating behind closed doors (which was pretty one sided at the time).Rumours spread from the other preppies and went on from there that they were a thing, which turned out to be true. His dad was obviously not very happy when he transitioned because it was a "waste of a daughter" because he hoped that both of his twins would break the weird ass inbred family tradition. Despite this, derby is still somewhat attached to his dad since he was a role model for him as a kid and he's always trying to make up for the fact he's trans by promising to take up the oil business when he's older, and to run it a hell of a lot better than his cokehead sister.

Johnny comes into the picture in their Junior year, Derby had gotten a little bored of Bif’s tireless dedication and enthusiasm. He had his sights set on something exciting, an affair. Short, sweet and with no strings attached. He was more than aware of Johnny Vincent and his harlot girlfriend and h had to admit he’d grown to be a little attracted to the whimpering mutt. He was vaguely pretty to look at. They started seeing each other in secret, but nothing stays secret in Harrington House for long and Bif ended up finding out. Wanting to keep chivalry alive, he found out where Johnny Vincent was staying (which ended up being on the floor of those gross ass tenements in New Coventry) and formally challenged his crusty ass to a duel. Johnny wasn’t about that life, promptly said fuck that, and fought Bif then and there. Thus creating the 100 years beef between them, during which neither of them wanted anything to do with Derby.

Eventually, Derby wins them both back, puts them in a get-along shirt and they all live happily ever after with Derby at the center of the universe and those two gay idiots orbiting around him like he’s the sun.

[buck-yyyy]

what do you think of boris’ sexuality? do you think he externalizes his internalized homophobia? this is a goldfinch ask !!

ohhhhh this is interesting. so sorry for answering this a couple weeks late!!

first of all—boris is 100% bisexual. he absolutely expresses attraction to both men and women throughout the book, that boy is BI.

the second part is wayyy harder. i think that it's really difficult to tell from what we know of him—since the book is obviously from theo's perspective, we can't quite get inside his head the same way we can with theo, so i'm just gonna list out some examples of his,,, varying queerness tolerance level, i guess lmao.

he's casual about suggesting that hobie may be gay, and has a very calm reaction compared to theo's immediate discomfort.

similar to theo, as a teenager, he never brings up the times they've had sex.

he's flippant about mentioning that theo is "the only boy [he's] ever been in bed with", and brushes it off as "[they] both needed girls".

that's.... it, i think. at least off the top of my head. so my conclusion, to be honest, isn't based on a whole lot of proof, as opposed simply to drawing from other aspects of his character.

from his casual usage of the N-word after spending time with kotku, who was "cool"; his conversion to islam, not because he believed in allah, but because the muslim people around him were good to him; and finally, his attempt to pretend to be jewish in order to work for mr. silver, it's really easy to point out that boris conforms to various environments with ease, something that he's had to be able to do because of how much he's moved around. he's not doing these things because of personal beliefs, ideas, or opinions, he's doing them because he's trying to blend in, or in some cases, seem "cool", whether it's intentional or not (depends on the situation). that doesn't mean that his actions are automatically morally good or even neutral, but it gives us an understanding of why he is the way he is, and why he's so different depending on where he is and what point of his life he's at.

i think from that, it would be easy to argue that perhaps boris himself has no personal issue with gay people, but he would most certainly display the same homophobia that was so typical at the time it was written: ie. he would be casual about someone he knows being gay, but he's also definitely described things as gay, or said the word faggot in a derogatory context.

i'm not entirely sure how to relate all of that back to his internalized homophobia, simply because we don't get to see what that's like for him, or if that's even a thought on his mind. i think i'd argue that, what with everything else that's happened/currently happening in his life, he doesn't care all that much. i doubt he would ever call himself bisexual, or pansexual, or any of that; we can assign those words to him because he's a book character, but it's also important to recognize that those weren't words he would've grown up using, and that would likely stick with him in ways that some younger people would interpret as queerphobic. he's simply boris, and if boris wants to kiss a man then boris wants to kiss a man and that's all the thought he'd devote to it.

so yeah. i suppose i believe that he's homophobic, but not because he hates gay people or himself for being gay. i also think that he would not devote any particularly meaningful amount of time to dissecting who he is in regards to his sexuality, simply because it's never been a particularly important part of his life or survival.

[stranger-rants]

i try not to stereotype but its always wild to me when antis say billy would call them a slur while openly having steve as their fave or being a st//eddie because like,,,,,,

steve is the rich jock in the 80s, his parents 100% have membership to the country club, im like 90% sure theyd support reagan considering their financial situation, his dad loves a good game or tennis or even badminton if he wants to be a bit spontaneous, they definitely shop at whatever the us version of waitrose is, his parents have their own person tailor and if their outfits arent at least $100 they wont be wearing them outside and that extends to steve, they have definitely either used a slur and/or done that weird talking around it the "oh you know, those people who prefer embroidered tea cosies" or whatever.

like i dont want to say that steve would just parrot whatever his parents say and would just internalise their opinions, because obviously thats not true on most cases. but at the same time, theres a lot of psychological studies showing that kids do learn from their parents.

and weve already seen steve calling someone a slur on screen. i cant remember if it was queer or faggot, but he was also parroting the rhetoric that gay men are predators who prey on young boys. like where the fuck else did he get that rhetoric from? and even if it wasnt his parents, steve seems to have believed it enough to remember it and parrot it back at jonathan.

id like to think that steve wouldnt call me a slur, especially post-s3 steve, but its fucking wild to me that the "billy would call me a slur" crowd entirely ignore the everything about steves character.

like im sorry buddy, but if pre-s3 steve saw me, a trans man with tits too large to bind who goes out of his way to look as queer as possible, im pretty sure hed call me a whole myriad of slurs. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ meanwhile i dont think billy would because hes a cis dude who purposefully presents more feminine. wed probably just have a chill conversation about judas priest or id introduce him to soda stereo.

and anyway its not like know if steve agrees with his parents or not since he never gets any development whatsoever now that hes relegated to group mom

Everyone learns from their parents in one way or another. Steve called Jonathan “Queer” which is what makes it so ironic that fans claim he’s such a great ally and/or that Billy would hate crime them. Quite honestly, given the amount of homophobic rants I have to hear from teenager boys on a regular basis in the year 2023, it wouldn’t shock me if any of the beloved male characters were homophobic. I don’t see Billy as being more or less understanding, but I do think Billy just doesn’t care enough about other people to be out there committing hate crimes. The only time Billy cares what other people say or do is when it puts him at risk

[randomfreakshii96]

love

this story is a little different, instead of a smut this is more of a love story. if you aren’t interested, then scroll. but i seen something similar to this on tiktok so i got inspired. the characters are all made up, so is the story.

i’ve been friends with leila for longer than i can remember. we hang out with eachother every day, going on walks or studying. we decided to go on a late night walk, so we snuck out. we lived on the same street, so we only had to walk a little before meeting with each other. we walked for about 20 minutes. this walk was different than the others though. it was as if i could feel the tension between us.

we went to a bench and sat down, watching the stars. “kiss me” i said. it slipped. i didn’t mean to, but i did. she stared at me. “i didn’t mean to say that- i’m so sorry.” to my surprise, she pulled me closer to her and kissed me. it seemed like the kiss went on forever, like the whole world has stopped and the only thing that was real, was us. the kiss didn’t last long enough though, as she pulled back after about i’m not even sure how long.

“how am i gonna tell my parents..” i say.

“we will figure it out. i love you, y/n.”

“i love you more, leila.”

we walked back to our houses, saying goodnight. the next day at school we skipped our first periods to meet at the field, hiding behind bleachers. we made out, holding each other while telling each other things about ourselves and laughing and giggling. we kept the relationship a secret, so nobody would tell my parents or bully us- especially her. i wouldn’t let anyone hurt her. she’s my safe space. she’s so fragile, i refuse to let anyone break her amazing spirit.

we proceeded to skip our first period every day, sometimes our second period too. eventually, we got called to the principals office. we both got suspended for 3 days for skipping so much. once i went home, my parents seemed disappointed.

“what’s going on with you?” my mom said. i can’t lie to her. i’ve never been able to. i completely broke down. i told her that i was gay, about me and leila, and the fact that she’s the one i’ve been skipping with. i told her it was all my idea to skip, not leila’s. while i was telling her all of this, she didn’t seem mad. after a moment of silence, she said- “ i know about leila, sweetie. i could tell that you liked her even before you knew it yourself. you didn’t have to sneak around me to see her. you can go to her house whenever you want. just no more skipping school again please.” i smiled and hugged her.

after grabbing a snack for leila and i both, i headed over to her house to surprise her. instead, i was the one suprised. on my way to her house, i heard someone yelling. i couldn’t make out what they were saying, but i heard one word very loud and clear. “faggot.” i ran to where the sound was coming from, and sure enough it was a group of teenage boys, with leila unconscious on the ground. her face was bruised, and she had blood coming out of her nose and mouth. i blacked out.

the next thing i remembered, i was being put in handcuffs and there were 3 different ambulance vehicles there. one, had leila on a stretcher, and the other two had 2 of the three boys on them. im assuming the third ran and called the cops. i was charged with domestic violence and attempted murder. my parents both visited me all of the time, telling me about my siblings and how leila was doing as well.

my mother told me that her parents left her in the house with an in home nurse, and that her and my dad visit every now and then. they said she has an in home nurse because she doesn’t speak or move herself. she’s awake they said, but they believe she’s half brain dead or something like that. the doctors said she’s okay, and her brain functions fine, it might just be a trauma response. she can eat, but everything else the nurse does for her. this makes me break down in tears almost every single time.

i don’t regret what i did not even for a second. i helped her. if i wouldn’t of been there, they would of killed her. i love her so much. as i’ve said before, i’d do anything for her. i meant it. i just miss her so much. it’s been 14 years so far, ill be getting out soon. good behavior, they had said.

>fast forward<

the day has finally came. i’m getting out of after about two hours of the checking out process, my mother was there to pick me up. my father passed away about a year ago, but my mother seemed to be doing okay. after about 30 minutes of driving-which i didn’t mind because i missed the look of the beautiful trees and animals as we drove on the roads- we were finally home.

i couldn’t wait to see leila. my mother said she probably wouldn’t remember me, but i hoped that wasn’t true. after cleaning up and setting up my room once again- my mom hadn’t changed a thing in there- i finally headed over to leila’s house. i walked slow. i was so scared of the fact that she might not remember me or that she would hate me considering i had just disappeared. i’m sure my mom or hers told her that i was arrested, but i told them not to tell her why.

finally, i was at the door. i stood there for a moment before knocking. the nurse had answered the door. “y/n? is that you?” i was confused. how did she know me? i asked her how she knew who i was. “you’re in almost every picture in her room. she doesn’t say anything but she stares at your picture all the time.” i couldn’t help but smile. “can i see her?” i say. “of course you can. follow me.” the nurse said. i followed her back to leila’s room.

i stood at the doorway for a moment, and the nurse walked away to give us privacy. leila was facing the other direction, looking at pictures of us just like the nurse said she did. i smiled, walking in and closing the door behind me. “leila? i don’t know if you remember me but-” her head shot straight in my direction, her expressions changing rapidly before she jumped up and hugged me. i was confused. i thought she was mentally gone? “i missed you. i was afraid that you weren’t going to come back to me” she said with a slight sadness in her voice. “of course i was, i love you. i’ve missed you so much baby. i thought you couldn’t move or speak?? how are you doing this?” i was still confused, but i was holding her in my arms now. that’s all that mattered.

“i didn’t have anything to say. if i’m not speaking to you, i don’t want to speak. if i’m not looking at you, i don’t want to see. if im not moving with you i don’t want to move. and finally, if i’m not with you i don’t want to smile. i have no reason to.” the nurse heard her talking and ran into the room. “leila! you’re moving and talking! i’ll call your parents immediately! i can’t believe this!” the nurse ran out of the room to make the phone call.

i kissed my girl. she kissed me back. i want to stand there and hold her forever. i wrap her in my arms tighter, not wanting to let go of her ever again. after standing there for about 5 minutes in silence just enjoying the moment, she whispered in my ear. “i wasn’t unconscious, i’m so thankful for what you did for me y/n. i love you so much, and you are the person i want to spend the rest of my life with. i love you so much, and thank you.” my heart is so full of her, and now so are my arms. my heart always has been and now my arms forever will be, once again. “i told you princess, id do anything for you. you are my safe space. i cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you. i love you.”

[lasvegas07]

ok so i've been into slang of different languages recently and discovered that for some reason there isnt sufficient material on how german teenagers actually talk (aka me having found a new hyperfixstion)

So buckle up folks and get ready for my (very)incomplete list of actual german slang

(Please add your words if you think of more stuff and remember that it differs from state to state)

I'm from Baden-Württemberg so guess what you're getting some bawü specific phrases

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Dicka/digga- bro (very common,but also very informal)

Junge/alter -bro/boy -> "jungeeee " is an actual sentence that you use when you're very done with your life ,imagine a very weary sigh

chaya-slang for girl (but a bit derogatory and not very fine language or as we call it,a bit asi)

typ- guy

Para/flouz-money

grass-weed

kippe-cigarette

kiffen-to smoke weed

ficken-to fuck

Schwuchtel-faggot

fotze-cunt

scheiße-shit (my friends and I say scheiße with a soft s usually just cause scheiße when its pronounced how it should be sounds so harsh)

Ach du scheiße-oh shit

Labern-to talk (informal and has a negative tone) -> e.g you can say "laber nicht" to your friends if they tell you something you dont believe like nah dont bullshit me

nh/ge/gell-right?! (at the end of a sentence)

raff dich-get yourself together

bock haben-to want to do something

Schwänzen-to skip school

Gottlos-I honestly dont know how to translate this

Ehrenlos-something, someone did that was very low of them

einunddreißiger(31er)-betrayer

hurensohn/nuttensohn- son of a bitch but nuttensohn is way cruder

arsch-ass

Geben-to give but it sounds very sexual if you say for example ,I gave it (the book)to her;so please use the object here and not the objektpronomen

mäßig-type shit

auf den/auf xy basis- idk how to translate this but if you want to describe that something you did was done spontaneously for example you csn say „auf entspannt“/„auf entspannter basis“

die kann mich am arsch lecken- rude way of saying you dont care about someone

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Some grammar things:

When speaking we shorten our sentences

Siehst du das nicht?- siehste das net/nich?

Let's -Lass (xy)

In baden württemberg,people very often put the verb etwas tun =to do something,in sentences where they dont need it

=> ich tu das machen; this literally translates to I do making that

------text slang-----

trzdm-trotzdem

isso-ALSO USED VERY OFTEN IN SPOKEN GERMAN but it's like saying yess exactly

net/nd-nicht

wmd-what are u doing (haven't used this since the 7th grade so idk but it exists)

hs-hurensohn

Yeah that wraps it up ,if any of y'all have additions to make please add them

[caffeineandsociety]

The most insidious thing about intracommunity transphobia is how much it still relies on stereotypes of someone's AGAB - trans women and fems and other presumed-AMABs are scary, creepy, burgeoning, sex-obsessed perverts; trans men and mascs and other presumed-AFABs are frivolous, selfish, shallow airheads who just want attention and can't handle REAL problems and/or gross ugly creepy girlfailures who are lashing out and preying on other people because it's the only way to get control over their lives -

And very few people are willing to acknowledge this, because they will SAY "trans women are women, trans men are men, trans people are who they say they are" until they're blue in the face - or rather, until they come up with justifications for these stereotypes that fit into that framework.

It's not subtle misgendering and deep-seated queerphobia to immediately believe the worst of any trans girl who happens to like My Little Pony and Sailor Moon and exists in the general vicinity of teenagers; no, it's TOTALLY a one-off, pay no mind to the fact that the person in question has uncritically believed every single one of these claims that's crossed their social media feed. If anything, it's fighting the idea that women are all weak, powerless, delicate flowers who can never actually hurt anyone! Right?

It's not subtle misgendering and deep-seated queerphobia to write trans men and mascs' issues off as a lesser, "diet" transphobia that's never done anything worse than making people sad on the internet, that's not a persistent stereotype of women from both outside of AND within the queer community; it's just a means of trying to get men to stop talking over women, nor is it transphobia try to talk trans men and mascs out of transitioning because "testosterone is poison" - nor does that idea rebound back around to hurt pre- or non-HRT transfems for that matter - it's TOTALLY true that T will cause roid rage but ONLY in trans men and mascs for, uh, some reason. Absolutely none of this "sit down and shut up and let people insist you're just confused or be written off as a screeching predatory harpy who's an inherent danger to women and children" is a recycled lesbophobic stereotype, how dare the person calling out this behavior misgender trans men by implying as much!?

But of course, pointing this out is just "trying to have it both ways", trying to claim the authority presumed of a man AND the fragility presumed of a woman, right?

Just. Fuck. On the one hand, I need to reiterate, as I always do, that queer people are NOT the primary source of queerphobia - these root ideas aren't born within the queer community, and in fact despite the loud minority, ARE less common here than within cishet society, however much it may sometimes feel otherwise because we're basically each other's captive audience.

On the other hand, we have to look at what's happening here. When this happens as an intracommunity thing, it REALLY fucking sucks because 1) someone who will double down into infinity on any of these ideas does, indeed, have basically a captive audience that they're free to abuse, and 2) it's all predicated on the idea that the MOMENT you come out as queer, you're totally incapable of holding queerphobic ideas, or at the very least you can't REALLY HURT people with them. "What, you're really accusing me, a flaming faggot/a whole lesbian/an actual trans person, of being queerphobic?" says the guy who insists on sticking to the narrative that most gay trans men are obnoxious screeching yaoi fangirl chasers who just want to trick him into straight sex disguised with one degree of abstraction; or the girl who's constantly trying to get her trans girlfriend to quiet down and stop asserting herself, flinching in terror the moment she shows the slightest negative emotion, despite never having acted this way with her cis exes; or the person who immediately pivoted from seeing their nonbinary friend as totally fitting into their "women and nonbinary people" community to seeing them as a creepy predator trying to invade the space the moment they found out they had a deep voice and facial hair. While these are NOT things that all queer people do, they ARE things that most if not all queer people will be on the receiving end of at some point or another if they spend enough time in the community, and that's a problem! Especially since people who have a queer-positive- and feminist-sounding justification, and especially who think of themselves as incapable of doing this kind of harm, are sometimes even capable of justifying saying and doing shit that, coming from anyone else, would be blatantly obvious as a hate crime.

And once again, in conclusion, I must repeat, this is not an identity-linked issue, because guess what - assuming it is is part of the problem!

[bottlehawk]

i just saw your responses to anon. so wait are you like saying you're into problematic stuff or not. sorry i can't read tone very well...

okay so if you look through my blog you can see that i am like the biggest teenage girl-man blogger faggot in the world. the general cadence and word-choices of every single sentence on this account painfully recalls the image of a butch tumblrina teeheeing kicking its feet back and forth going slay-queen while sipping a nonbinary soy milk frappuccino in an eco-friendly tumbler with a "BELIEVE WOMEN" etsy sticker on the base. i literally say shit like "autism girl-queen winz" unironically and trigger-tag scopophobia and blood and weed and make trans swag headcanons for almost every homestuck character that would probably make 2017 r/homestuck explode. what i'm saying is that when you see like my fifth post in a row about rose lalonde steven universe style autism moment i want to ask what particularly compels you to think that the persona occupying this blog is into like. incest or something lol

[louistomlinsonhasanicebum]

I'm miserably depressed and I had a horrible day at work and I have no friends. So fuck it, I'm going to post to my tumblr. I need an outlet. I work, come home at night, listen to music, smoke pot and browse my tumblr tags.

I used to LiveJournal all the time when I was a teenager. It actually got me in trouble at school with my schoolmates; there was a girl in the grade above me who had the same Good Charlotte shirt as me and I was complaining about it on lj, lol. I think she commented on the post and called me out for it. But of course I didn't learn my lesson and continued to post to livejournal publicly. Once a girl IMed me on AIM to tell me some people in the computer lab at school were reading my livejournal and talking shit about me. I was MORTIFIED. I should have been in therapy when I was like 14 but my home life was really really bad and a whole fucking story... so I still used LiveJournal, because it was an outlet and I didn't have a lot of friends and was seriously depressed. I mean obviously I wasn't talking shit about my schoolmates anymore, at least not publicly. I have always very much related to Harriet the Spy and I love that movie with all my heart. It was understandably one of my favorite movies when I was little, along with Matilda.

I grew up in a very small town with very small-minded people who told me my brother was a faggot and disgusting because he's gay and that he's going to hell. So.

I went to a wedding this summer and was sat at a table with really cool people who don't live in the same area as me. It made me realize I'm really fucking lonely.

Stream of consciousness, feeling sorry for myself I guess and still need therapy. Haha. I never truly grew out of my fangirl phase and I KNOW there are other old farts on tumblr geeking out over Louis Tomlinson like I am!! I'VE SEEN Y'ALL! Message me please and be my friend oh my god I need friends so badly. Therapy is expensive lol I can't afford it be my friend so I don't need therapy 😚

When I wasn't into Good Charlotte anymore I moved on to River Phoenix, and John Frusciante. Random, right? Wait, Pirates of the Caribbean was like my favorite movie in 2003; I asked for it for Christmas, got a VHS copy (we didn't have a DVD player!) and literally watched it every night for like a month. I had a short-lived obsession with Johnny Depp. This was twenty years ago people so we didn't know he was a piece of shit. I don't like him anymore; I remember thinking "Gee, I wonder what Johnny Depp is up to nowadays" in 2018 and googling like johnny depp interview or something, and found his very recent Rolling Stone article... yikes. I especially never liked him since then. Very incriminating.

Well anyway... um... I can't believe LiveJournal still exists, I've been lurking on tumblr since 2010 at least and I need friends. Please be my friend.