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Jack's self-sacrificing and self-harming acts are treated with love by Joke and his grandmother, with reminders that he needs to lean on others and reach out to them and to find support in other people while they also fight for him and his freedom.
Joke's self-sacrificing and self-harming acts are met by Jack's rejection, other people telling him to lie about it and a looming threat of losing everything he has that he doesn't feel like he's worthy of regardless.
(Jack knows he is loved and not alone and that his grandmother will always be there but Joke has never had that steady base and he doesn't think he should be loved and so he throws himself away every time he gets the chance and he'll do it a thousand times because better he suffers than anyone else and I just want the show to let someone else save him.)
Jack and Joke are both worthy of love and family and being together and their own habits of throwing themselves away should not define them and do not need to define them because they are so, so worthy of love.
#jack and joker#thai bl#i am struggling with this#jack feels stagnant#like the show decided he was the moral center and so he didn't need to grow besides stopping from sacrificing himself#like the show decided that Joke will do all the work because he messed up first#and that means that he always messes up#and that all the work is his#but i want to believe the show will give me the switch i wanted in every other show#that this will be the show that reverses the pursuer in the relationship#that this will be the show that lets Jack run after Joke#rather than making Joke chase forgiveness again#please#pretty please
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WIP Wednesday
a very small bit of the Wandering Stars sequel
#my writing#the lark and the crow#i am struggling with this#spring break save me#save me spring break
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Expertise can't help you here.
#dungeon meshi#kabru#laios touden#falin touden#Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have!#I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play.#I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks.#Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere.#Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios.#The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*.#This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those.#Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human.#Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her.#She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist.#The damsel was the dragon all along!#...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.
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Really quick doodles of a few scenes from the stream yesterday. Including combat flirting taunting, gale’s magnificently distracting shoes and.. whatever you wanna call gale agreeing to give 15 gold to astarion 😐😑😐😑😐 (that’s me blinking)
#bloodweave#astarion x gale#gale x astarion#bg3#baldur's gate 3#gale dekarios#astarion ancunin#they are so funny god help. thank you to whoever sat Neil next to Tim#my roommate turning to look directly at me whenever they were interacting lik bestie please stop I am trying to be normal. don’t look at me#my roommate also said Neil acting low-key obsessed with gale and I could only say wow he’s just like me fr fr.#if I didn’t still struggle with getting shadowhearts likeness you would get a drawing of her hugging bing bong too but alas …#anyway the stream was so fun#can’t wait til tomorrow hehe
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destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.
#art#digital art#my art 🦷#digital painting#supernatural#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#spn fanart#spn#destiel fanart#i am. so tired.#i tried my hardest to not half ass this and give up#i sorta accomplished that but not really#ill have some grace for myself tho cause i really struggled to make art this month :/#spn fanart is so theraputic tho#i missed making my visions for this show#it also just felt like the most low stakes thing to make#this looks way better *not* on mobile.. too lazy to edit this shit now
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the wandering painter, part one
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#artists on tumblr#illustration#animated illustration#animation#backgrounds#animated gifs#background illustration#myillust#landscape#plants#scenery#summer#hiii! just wanted to share an artwork i made that's super fresh from the oven ksfknsf#'the wandering painter' will be a series that consists of artworks that has elements that i struggle to draw and am trying to improve on!#ive always really struggled with the process of painting (for example) clouds fields grass grasslands flowers etc#despite the end result coming out satisfactory imo but i cant deny that it most of the time feels like a fluke#so this series would consist of my journey of improving how to draw said elements/areas more confidently :D#this artwork in particular - i studied and practiced how to paint/draw silver grass better along with grasses and clouds#i feel like im sorta getting the hang of it but theres definitely room to study and experiment how i can paint it better#so yeah! nonetheless i really hope you'll like this! and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead <3333
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I think my copy of the game is broken they've been doing this for 30 minutes
Crop of the Biolizard edit I did bc it makes me laugh:
#art#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#shadow the hedgehog#rouge the bat#their dynamic is so funny to me like hello what episode of Untucked is this#I am rotating them in a 2 bed 1 bath apartment in my mind#Also very proud of how this turned out I think I'm finally finding a comic rendering style that doesn't make me want to rip my hair out#Simplify baybee it's a comic not an illustration you can get a little crazy with it#Spoiler alert. Getting looser with lineart and better at colour schemes and simplifying shading. Is good actually.#It's so much easier to eyeball what a colour would look like in a setting instead of colourpicking the OG palette and struggling with...#...like 9 overlay and multiply and soft/hard light layers#Approximating colour genuinely looks better than forcing local colour into the piece. As long as the values are still there it works out#comic
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#tmg#🐸‼️.txt#its been a tough year for a lotta people ‚ ik ive had my fair share of struggles. BUT!!!#we have made it#i hope the new year is warm for u all i am hugging u all
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Freedom for Sudan! 🇸🇩
Freedom for The Congo! 🇨🇩
Freedom for Armenia! 🇦🇲
From River To The Sea, Palestine Will Be Free! 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸
#free palestine#''I am also Palestinian''#from river to the sea palestine will be free#genocide#colonization#imperialism#colonialism#liberation#DRC#congo#Islamphobia#Middle East#Africa#sudan#black power#Armenia#social justice#freedom struggle#holocaust#anti Zionism#racial justice#decolonization#desi tag#Indonesia#Iraq#Iran#Algeria#Latin America#China#Mexico
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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 5 - I Finally Finished the 2.2 Main Quest Edition
[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 4] [Pt. 6]
#hsr#hsr incorrect quotes#hsr memes#hsr textpost#honkai star rail#honkai star rail meme#honkai star rail memes#hsr meme#hsr spoilers#hsr 2.2 spoilers#aventurine#sunday#hsr sunday#robin#hsr robin#stelle#hsr trailblazer#acheron#black swan#misha#hsr misha#hsr gallagher#gallagher#boothill#if these memes don't make it obvious enough. i have finally completed the 2.2 main quest. and i am feeling. so many things about it /pos#11/10 i couldn't be more pleased. but i also don't have it in me to articulate any of it so here. have more memes instead#was fighting for my life to figure out the alt text for the 2nd one tbh. my struggle saga continues#let's see if any of these have been done yet. bc after posting these i always fuckign stumble on 1 or 2 that have been :/#and i feel bad. like i've stolen the idea? but i literally only see them after the fact!! sigh. there's nothing new under the sun etc etc
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i swear all writers are mentally ill. y'all keep putting your "beloved" characters through the most traumatic experiences ever just to feel something.
#your honor#i am guilty#writing#writeblr#writers on tumblr#writers#writer#writing community#creative writing#writerblr#writer things#writers block#writers life#writers and poets#writerscommunity#ao3 writer#writer stuff#writing funny#on writing#write#writing meme#writing memes#writing struggles#writing problems#writing humor#writer problems#writing is hard#queer writers
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Actually, the bars aren't so bad anymore.
Think you can fix him? Read about his care instructions over at Tiger Tiger)
#Tiger Tiger#ludovica bonnaire#rakkatak ann#I thought I liked him (in a way he has a great design and is an effective antagonist) and *then* he licked the spit.#Now I need to create a lab to study him in. My god. He gives me hives. I need to see more of him NOW.#Something is wrong with him and it fascinates me.#He is everything I like in an antagonist. A little bit stupid and unintentionally funny while being a genuine threat.#I call him rat man they way I want to see him skitter around on the floor.#Call him rat man the way he might need a little cheerio snack and some enrichment.#I am so...so tired and I am struggling to keep the jokes train going.#Please continue to read Tiger Tiger! Every new reader fuels my energy gauge.#Sorry I've been missing so many days of posting. I'll try to make up with some extra posts this week!
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... on a more light-hearted note, imagine a phineas and ferb scenario except neglected! reader is the gifted child that is overlooked by platonic! batfamily, building all sorts of insane contraptions mysteriously disappear for unknown reasons and damian is the only one in the family seeing this shit happen, slowly losing his mind trying to bust his sibling to bruce or his siblings (etc.) only to find that giant robot/waterpark/space rollecoaster is no longer there. once again he looks like a resentful brother trying to incriminate his only blood sibling, whom he seems to have a vendetta against.
i mean, can you blame them? you're just sorta there. just doing your own thing, going to school, hanging out with friends, keeping to yourself. it's embarrassing to admit, but they often forget you live at the manor. you're one of the teenagers to exist. so when damian comes running to dick, saying "look! look! i finally busted them. the cameras caught-" only for the magically corrupted footage to show him 3 minutes of you hanging out under a tree, cut, hanging out under a tree again, let's say dick is... confused.
or when he removed jason from a mission, guiding him at full speed back to the manor, where you were home alone and working on a weather-changing machine because you wanted to have winter snow during summer, except they arrive to find you eating cereal on the kitchen counter. no machine to be seen.
eventually they just dismiss it as damian being petty and acting his age for once. it's the whole being bruce wayne's only blood child and heir to the wayne legacy that you kinda got in the middle of by existing and stuff, they're sure. i mean, you? doing all that? the very idea is so absurd it doesn't even trigger their suspicions. you're the civilian among civilians, every time they look your way you're doing homework or watching funny orange cat compilation videos on youtube.
whether damian's failures to expose you are absurdly coincidental or you just know how to avoid the batfamily's watchful eye is up for debate. well, it's for the best, either way. there’s a 104 days of summer vacation and you're basking in being left alone by the family, and bruce would be livid if he found out about the things you've been doing behind his back, so...
just... hope they don't find out, okay?
#i KNOW it's unrealistic considering it's batman & co we're talking about.#but consider. for the hilarity of it all.#the reader in this scenario is either oblivious + insanely luck or manipulative + insanely lucky#also hello?? i am struggling with my drafts but the vampire reader x batfam fic is coming along#point if you can guess which clan she'll belong to. it'll be pretty of obvious in chapter 1#yandere batman#yandere batfamily#yandere batfam#yandere batfamily x reader#yandere batfam x reader#yandere bruce wayne#yandere#Yandere x reader
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Hazbin Hotel is a mess, pacing-wise, but I missed a good animated musical with just the Worst People so here are some of my Worsties :D
#hazbin hotel#sir pentious#rosie#velvette#valentino#carmilla carmine#sketches#i need to draw them together but the vees are a polycule who make each other's lives worse#alastor being aroace instantly makes him so much funnier#he's great#and charlie is a sweetie#i am struggling with the earless/noseless style#i just cave and add them
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i think the reason why selfshipping can be so difficult for others is the mere fact that they think they don't deserve it. or don't deserve their f/o to love them unconditionally, or be there for them, or offer support and guidance, or be their crutch.
selfshipping is hard for those who are always the giver and never the receiver. you feel uncomfortable about selfshipping or thinking about scenarios with your f/o. or how you have no idea what to add to your selfship, what lore to even do, because you don't think you should do something like this for yourself.
but you do deserve this. you deserve to feel loved and cared for by your f/os, you deserve to create the most silliest of scenarios, you deserve to be so canon-divergent and self indulgent with your selfships. you deserve to love yourself, you deserve to receive love and care, you deserve to receive these things even if it may feel uncomfortable to.
you deserve to do things for yourself. it may take time for you to be fully yourself while doing so, but you got this! i believe in you. i believe we can overcome this together. <3
#this post is so self indulgent because i am Struggling#actually writing this made me tear up#selfship#self ship#selfshipping#self shipping#selfship community#self ship community#selfship positivity#self ship positivity#selfship reminder#selfship reminders#self ship reminder#self ship reminders
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I haven't seen anyone do this yet but redrawing them in their Intro poses has been on my mind since i first watched the show (first pic looks better if you zoom in somehow)
#also i experimented and struggled with the lighting idk charles looks weird once again but I am very happy overall#dbda#dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#payneland#dbda fanart#savedeadboydetectives
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