#i am still embarrassed

[eddiethehunted]

rereading my own smut makes me wanna rip my teeth out. like it’s good im good at it but im so embarrassed don’t look at me

[simonoliverseville]

“Is it safe to return? Has everyone forgotten about my physics blunder?”

[ginnyweatherby]

help 😫

[topsyturvy-turtely]

Ok, out with it! I have a warrant. 🥴

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 74. Are you ticklish? 78. Have you ever done drugs?

LOL well only because you got the warrant😜

22: have you ever got in trouble with the law?

not really? i mean almost... *heavy sigh* alright... so the thing was... i was doing a year abroad in the USA but i extended it for 6 more months. i then was in cananda for a few days and when i wanted to cross the border into the US again... they didn't let me. there was a whole foofaraw about it and they asked me a question and... i panicked... and... i lied (about sth very minor) and so the LYING (because i am an absolute IDIOT SERIOUSLY wtf were you thinking past me????) almost got me in trouble. my passport and visa btw were perfectly fine, they were just a$$holes

but long story short: they gave me a stern look and shook their head at my idiocy as they let me walk out the border office or whatever. still was pretty terrifying (not my highest point of life ngl)

(i also probably didn't look like a terrorist or sth so that might have helped)

okay mooooving on from this horrible story 💀

30: how many pillows do you sleep with?

3. one biggish one, but that's flat without my little cat-pillow that i got when i was 2, and a big long one to cuddle with 🤓

74: are you ticklish?

i'll kick you in the face if you dare to try it 💩

78: have you ever done drugs?

i meaaan... alcohol? also maybe 🍃

get to know me uncomfortably well <- submit asks:)

what a weird combination of questions but alright, weirdo smartin' xD

[supernowa-art]

they're exhausting<3

[writeouswriter]

My followers: And is this “writing” you’ve been “working on” in the room with us right now?

[tubbytarchia]

Missed drawing these two too

Bonuses

[alexxuun]

I need to know if other artists also experience this. Every time I tried, I have to hide my face and take +2 psychic damage.

[fisherrprince]

Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,

[egophiliac]

his magic is so PINK and FLUFFY and PRETTY! I love it!

I'm ready to process the Diasomnias now, buckle up

[surreal-duck]

Tuesday is chuu day! (x)

[trauma-bot]

she stays silly!<3

another drawing i made over a month ago. i wanted a phone wallpaper of my special girl ♥

[andhumanslovedstories]

I’m genuinely surprised how much I love nursing. Every shift, I get to meet and help so many people. I’m float pool so I go to the whole hospital, but I’ve also been floating for a while so everywhere is familiar. Sometimes it’s hard for me to walk through the hospital because I know so many people I pass, and we keep stopping to chat. I float to seventeen different units. That’s crazy! I know so much about the hospital! Every night I’m somewhere else, working with a different team and a different group of patients. The constant novelty and familiarity of floating is delicious.

And I love my patients! I know this all sounds so goody two shoes, but I love that I get to help so many people in so many ways. I only get them for one night, so I try to give them my best. I love tucking people in with warm blankets, I love explaining what I’m assessing to a patient with a new diagnosis, I love having heart to hearts with patients at three am when they can’t sleep, I love making people hurt less and stop throwing up. And you can be a real scamp about it. I love stealing snacks from other floors. I love when a patient is like “god I’d love some chocolate” and I get to be like “sir I know the location of every candy drawer in the hospital, I can get you some chocolate.” Or like figuring out like a cheat code for alleviating symptoms. When someone’s like “wow this heating pack rules” and then falls asleep instantly? It feels good and it’s fun. I have a lot of fun figuring out how to cheer up my patients in minor little stupid ways.

I never have to wonder if my job contributes value to the world. When I go home at the end of my shift, I can always think of something I did that makes me feel proud. That rules! It’s so fun to be proud of yourself! It’s so fun to know that what you do matters and that you are doing it well. And if I don’t feel proud, I have a drive home to think about why and I get a chance to do better next shift. And that’s good too. There are nights where I can feel the way I let someone down, and I have to sit with that, and I have to learn from it.

(And I don’t want to sound like I’m crushing it always super-nurse style, like I’m completely immune to ableism and the other -isms, or that I’m never lazy or callous or checked out. I’m new and I’m learning and I’m human and I’m tired and I’m not always living up to the person I hope to be. But I do get a lot of opportunities to make up for it and try again. That feels good.)

And I love teaching new nurses! I love having to constantly keep studying so I can be in a position to teach anyone anything. I love watching people get better at stuff. And I love that as I’ve gotten more confident as a nurse and a person who trains new nurses that I’ve started coaching more and more on the soft skills of nurses. Those are really hard! We should get as much practice with therapeutic communication as we do with Foley catheters!

Also where I work pays good, and I’ve got great job security, dude, I can buy so many stupid little trinkets. I was so nervous when I decided to go to nursing school that I was fucking up my life and other people’s plans for a job I wouldn’t even end up liking. I’d literally never worked something remotely close to healthcare when I decided to go to nursing school. I’d been in a hospital like once. I feel like this big life change shouldn’t have worked out nearly as well as it has, but hey it’s really fuckin cool it did

[taikk0]

now, listen........................

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[laurents-secret-diary]

oh damen we're really in it now.mp4