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nyctra · 1 year ago

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put that thing back where it came from or so help me!!

#totally a better use of an hour n 20 minutes than sleeping! definitely!#but it needed out #i am so tired my head is killing me #i haven't animated in 10000 years but i found the frame tool in photoshop go me #who needs neck bones? she sure don't #The Butterflies

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thelifelessgirl · 2 years ago

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Everyone gets tired of me at some point.

Then eventually they’ll leave.

They all do.

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autoboros · 7 months ago

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Twilight Zone but casual

#have i ever mentioned their group name is twilight zone. i think i have #im so fucking tired I've done literally nothing but draw today. since 8 am. my head kills me and i am burning out #splatoon 3 #splatoon #art #splatoon idols #splatoon oc #OC// Ray

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tamagotchikgs · 10 days ago

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the constant internal struggle of do i want 2 take T or do i just wish i were a cis man and ill be miserable either way

#but then ill never know until i do i it #i wont lose anything #but it is so much effort n i am already so tired #also why i steer clear of any trans realization media ive finally made it out of the aching crying clawing stage and i fear it BAJH.. ..#(emotionally)#my insecurities ruin everything #i wish i could just transition and be happy #but all i can think about is will i be uglier #will it make me even worse to the public #will it make my skin rough #im more nonbinary than anything anyways n i always have been #so i dont feel pressured to or anything #but its My wants #that. r so . hard to understand #i dream of just being some guy almost everyday #but then . can i be #would i be #i wish i could shapeshift more than anything #some days i want a body more feminine and others more masculine #but neither are what i have #because theyre both perfect & attractive in my head #and ill never be that #i would like to try hrt and see if it helps. if it makes me like myself or gives me a different perspective #but im scared HJHA.. . i cant even go to the doctor for my anxiety meds #and it makes it feel so Big #and im terrified because of that ill live my life wrong but knowing exactly what was wrong the entire time #and the regret will kill me. i have the privilege to know #but im not acting on it #i already wasted 23 years of my life stuck here . unable to do anything or be myself. will i ever get out will i ever change #will i ever be ok

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maureen-doolittle · 1 month ago

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able-bodied people need to STOP

stop asking me if I'm feeling better when I'm hacking my lungs out directly in front of you!

stop expressing your surprise that I don't heal as quickly as you!

stop asking me "and there's really nothing doctors can do?" when I have TOLD YOU DIRECTLY that this is a genetic condition!

stop telling me how "sorry you are" when I keep trying to change the damn subject!

fucking enough!!!

#ableism #chronic illness #disability #i am so. damn. tired. of able-bodied people.#the condition i have fucking killed my aunt!#it terrifies me that it takes me a MONTH to get over a head cold!#it frustrates the shit out of me that this fucks up my teaching schedule!#and that i can't do what i normally would in the classroom!#PLEASE. just listen. when i tell you what will support me #and stop asking about a cure for a genetic condition #fucking hell #a day in mah life

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doerot · 6 months ago

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I’m gonna be so for real right now I’m about to start crying over my chicken game…

#2 years of progress gone.#I can’t even think about the rest of it that might be lost if I can’t figure out how to get it to work #also my head has been killing me for the last 4 hours I am so incredibly tired

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tacocat7997 · 6 months ago

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taco im drawing your guy rn (elliot)

holy shit <- might explode

#taco talks #ask #friend :P #literally i think your elliot art might kill me #probably heading to sleep rn because i am so so tired and sleepy #i will dream of my pixelated husband <333

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thevaudevillescene · 4 days ago

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vibe check in

#my head is killing me and i’m so tired.#i have work tonight and i just KNOW my one coworker is going to come up and be like ‘are you mad at me because of how i voted 🥺’#don’t ask questions you don’t want to hear the answer to.#she made the most disgusting statements the other night and i’m still reeling. am i mad at you? i don’t even want to fucking look at you.#asks #kitwilsonsass

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bunnihearted · 8 months ago

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#need to clear my head;#im in such a bad mood. my face is in a perpetual angry state. im just so so bitter nd pessimistic rn #trying not to get stuck in negative chaos thought spirals nd to just take it as it come #nd be patient bc recovery takes time i know. but i havent been able to feel healthy or functional for 7 months nd i am so tired #i cant help but worry abt my health nd what kinda diet i can have nd how to work all of that out.#like the removal of the gallbladder dont ensure a good digestive system. they remove it bc it can irrepairably hurt u #also im so so stressed out abt school nd my courses. i already had to drop one last week. nd it isnt looking like i'll be able to pass my #eng class.. it just isnt looking like it's realistic at all :/ i personally dont mind if i fail. but i can get issues w my wellfare hmm #bc like im still feeling rough nd u only get sick leave for one week after surgery.. so i have to go on thursday nd friday but im gnna #be in pain plus be so hungry nd be unable to concentrate idk #idk idk!! im already willing to take out loans to finish my upper secondary school.. but i have to make it work w timing nd stuff so im not #sitting here unable to pay rent or the bills or food lmao. so idk have to fix it somehow #nd the pressure of this country rapidly declining state is stressing me tf out!! having nazi conservative rightists in the ruling is just #dreadful!!!! for many reasons but atm idek if i can do distance classes like i wanted to ://#i just.. wanna be able to go for my long walks. go to the gym. eat normally. have coffee. study nd finish highschool.#then apply for whatever program i can nd move to another calmer city. prob eventually find a path to move to another country. like norway..#im thinking too much but my thoughts are spinning nd killing me like i cant stop it im so scared nd anxious lmao 💀#im also trying to be brave and write to the psych clinic for personality disorders nd be upset nd 'beg' them for help ksksksks.#but like... the thing abt having avpd is that i kinda dont wanna bc im scared of the possibility of them helping me lol #im just in a low place nd bad headspace and it's just getring worse nd im getting more nd more tired #i dont have much more energy to keep it together nd pretend like im ok or like i have hope lmaoooo idk what to do #anyway... idk idk guess i just gotta .. keep crawling forward anyway i can

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 17 days ago

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#'well you cant win em all.' okay but i would like to win at least one!! (not my quote i swear ive seen it on tumblr just cant find it)#like i would kill for just one win. i would pay a crisp $10 to anyone that could provide a single win for me #today was yet another fucking loss and that was all i had lined up. like theres nothing set up to possibly be a win in the future #ive got nothing there. so weve ended on a loss and thats all i have for the foreseeable future #i counted all the wins and losses in recent memory. ive got like 13+ losses and about 1 win #i tried to count up all of my wins but truly i managed like. one.#even some things that i didnt know could become losses! like did you know you can just be refused an adhd reassessment?#like you can say 'id like to pay $160 for you to fuck up a diagnosis again' and they can actually say #'youre not even worth the trouble to misdiagnose so go fuck yourself'#but they can! i didnt know that #and then you can have the audacity to tey to hope for something and think youll get it. like hope a little too hard #truly shouldve lesrned my lesson after twelve losses in a row not to get my hopes up #but i did! i made plans! i was gonna buy a cute water bottle specifically for that job. snd take myself out to dinner if i got it #can you guess what happened? when i had the audacity to hope and plan for a job that i was so passionate about and wanted so much?#(i didnt get it. the job ive been posting about. didnt get it)#didnt get the apartment in the city i love and miss either. didnt get an adhd reassessment (which is still wild to me)#and i tried to frame them as better in my head. 'this is a chance to tey a different job youd be better at! this is a chance to save money!'#nope its just another shitty thing in a long line of shitty things and im just getting tired of it. im so fucking tired of it #i am back where i vowed id never come back to and i cant escape in any way shape or fucking form #just needed to vent because saying all this in my head wasnt helping. saying it here doesnt help either but whatever

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ballercollective · 2 months ago

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Im going to kill like 10 different people if i hear another peep about payjay because oj ans paper interact in the trailoR IM GONNA LOSE ITTTT IM GONNA GO FERAL STOPPPPPPPP

#ii neg #payjay neg #URGHHHHH FUCK I HATE PAYJAY SO MUCHHHHHHHH #sorry mooties who love payjay.... but like.... i fucking hate it with my entire being..... block me unfollow me do whatever #idm #its just i am SICK and TIRED of everyone saying payjay or thinking payjay because THEY INTERACT LIKE TWICE IN THE TRAILOR #i am gonna CRY #love what you love it just makes me mad and angry and i just . i cant stand payjay rn. it infuriates me that it is THE MOST POPULAR SHIP #IT WOULD NOT WORK IN CANON!!!! OJ HAS LITERALLY USED PAPER MULTIPLE TIMES FOR HIS OWN GAIN #he also left him on that cactus in s1ep10 [even if he told him to.. wtf at least try to take him with you????]#dude paper did EVERYTHING for oj and what did oj do? give him some hugs and be like “thanks paper! i forgive you!!” and then go be ableist??#dude. bro.#oj triggered paper multiple times [s1ep11. s1ep13 [TWICE].]#he LITERALLY used him to win in the penultimate poll [even if paper said “nice idea!” how could he have known that he would be ok with it??]#dude. ok. i need to sit down.#i am geeking out #i am NOT ok rn i need to. i need to go do stuff.#ughhhh im sorry for the rantttt i just. i am VERY passionate about this #tldr fuck you oj and if i see payjay i will kill myself 40 times in my head over it #ghhhhgh

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moneygoblin04 · 4 months ago

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This week kinda fucking sucks

#idk #maybe it won't feel as bad once im out of it #maybe im just stuck in my head #my great grandma passed away at the beginning of the week #her funeral is over the next two days #ive overall been upset over various things all week #im sore #im tired #my head is fucking killing me #im pissed #im sad #im alone #one of my favorite coworkers had his last day today #good for him i guess #my cousins birthday was this week #by the time i could get there it was so late it was like i missed it #ended up driving home at 2 am #i haven't really given myself a proper break this week either #only just realizing it #any free time has been immediately filled either by myself or someone else #my game night with my friends is most likely not happening this week #and to top it off #three for three on plans with my favorite person being destroyed by fun surprises #having a great time #can't wait for next week #here's hoping it's not worse #im done ranting for now #sorry to those who have to see me like this

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thelifelessgirl · 2 years ago

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You hate when people see you cry because you want to be that strong person.

At the same time, though, you hate how nobody notices how torn apart and broken you are.

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highwaydiamonds · 2 years ago

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#journaling #art journaling #i've done couple spreads/pages from these affirmation cards i got last year with a set of stickers & planner thing i purchased #they weren't designed for this but i've used a couple of them that way #i feel like this is a very simplified - not exactly sanitized - but not NOT sanitized either version of how i've felt about things lately #there's been rather a lot of 'the suck" but i a working to try and keep my head up #oh - and because of the shiny surface the rectangle in the top left - is an image of hokusai's the great wave #i am so full of FEELING - i don't know where to put it all. it's like a spill running in too many directions #i don't know how to organize them or say them all without spreading some kind of infection around- triggering/dumping on other people #and maybe i am also simply tired on top of everything else - smh - but i am tryong to sit with these waves #to remind myself that i need to do what i can to mitigate things - that i know what some of these things ARE - even if i don't like them #and that i CAN do them - regardless #and the stuff i cannot change - that i don't have to absorb it all - that i can see it - and name it and admit it sucks and try and let go #and if - let go- isn't quite right then it's more do what i can to keep going anyway - then that's what i need to keep trying to do #i feel like i keep coming back to the mountain goats' lyrics from This Year:#There will be feasting and dancing in jerusalem next year - and i am gonna make it through this year if it kills me #embrace the suck

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winterrose42 · 9 months ago

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Whatever happens i hope the entirety of the medical system and every other established bullshit broken system run by people whi think theyre entitled to other peoples worth burn to the ground as painfully as possibly and the people effected get to mount their heads on sticks before being given contracts to be involved in the rebuilding process so its actually fucking fair and works

Rapidly losibg vacation time i cannot just simply go to work after just fuck all bullshit

#winter speaks #i am so tired #that is the last phone call i am ever fucking making to anyone in the meducal industry ever the fuck again #if anything serious ever happens i think id honestly rather jhst wait n see if it kills me rather than get one more #blown off fuck you from people who went to school for years and years to help people and end up with the solution to everything #jusy being the mosy basic tests they can scrape by orderibg to shutbthe patient up long enough for insurance to kivk in #fuckij hate the system we libe in hate being percieved female hate that this is just how the fuck it is and now i just #have to play dr fuckin google and see if i can scrape uo enough energy to fix mg damn self bc god forbid #the medical industry to anything but wring you dry and yeet you to the curb as soon as theyre bored #fucking god damn son of bitch shit fucking sgupid ass bullshit #theres not enough floortume in the eorld for this i want to put my head through concrete #i have chronic issues please dear god help me. ha bet you fuckin loser eat shit n die but live long enough yo pay me #fuck

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bigmeansweatydyke · 1 year ago

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google search how to stop being so autistic because i'm apparently ruining my friendships by acting like an asshole and having no idea and i'm already so fucking exhausted

#my post #vent #like i don't think people get it lol #how fucking exhausting it is to have a million programs open in my head every time i have a fucking conversation #how i leave every fucking conversation wondering if everyone thinks i'm a massive dick #and it turns out that wow i was right to think that! just when i think i'm doing better apparently no i'm not!#it feels like the rules change every second and i don't know how everyone can just fucking GET it #like i'm trying i'm really fucking trying and apparently i'm not trying hard enough even though i'm so fucking tired #saw someone discuss this #how she feels the constant processing and the feeling over never being able to catch up is why autistic people kill themselves #and honestly yeah i agree because how the fuck am i supposed to fucking live like this #i dunno i'm just. tired #being like this just makes me want to not speak to anyone #hell maybe people would prefer it that way #i don't blame them i just wish people would understand it's so goddamn fucking hard and i'm so tired all the time #idk i'm being a lil bitch right now and i don't know what to do i just needed to vomit this out #peace and love and back to our regularly scheduled programming

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