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tamagotchikgs · 6 days ago

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the constant internal struggle of do i want 2 take T or do i just wish i were a cis man and ill be miserable either way

#but then ill never know until i do i it #i wont lose anything #but it is so much effort n i am already so tired #also why i steer clear of any trans realization media ive finally made it out of the aching crying clawing stage and i fear it BAJH.. ..#(emotionally)#my insecurities ruin everything #i wish i could just transition and be happy #but all i can think about is will i be uglier #will it make me even worse to the public #will it make my skin rough #im more nonbinary than anything anyways n i always have been #so i dont feel pressured to or anything #but its My wants #that. r so . hard to understand #i dream of just being some guy almost everyday #but then . can i be #would i be #i wish i could shapeshift more than anything #some days i want a body more feminine and others more masculine #but neither are what i have #because theyre both perfect & attractive in my head #and ill never be that #i would like to try hrt and see if it helps. if it makes me like myself or gives me a different perspective #but im scared HJHA.. . i cant even go to the doctor for my anxiety meds #and it makes it feel so Big #and im terrified because of that ill live my life wrong but knowing exactly what was wrong the entire time #and the regret will kill me. i have the privilege to know #but im not acting on it #i already wasted 23 years of my life stuck here . unable to do anything or be myself. will i ever get out will i ever change #will i ever be ok

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queerpyracy · 6 months ago

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genuinely irritated about the prevalence of brother-sister character designs where the brother has a huge nose and the sister has a tiny nose. 1) why are you a coward who hates the joy and beauty of women with big noses 2) have you looked at any real human siblings lately 3) why do you appear to think the nose is a secondary sex characteristic

#it makes me feel so crazy Why Do They Look Like That #big noses are not somehow more masc why are we pretending like they are #babbles

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justbackgroundnoise · 2 months ago

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Chappell Roan, a lesbian, went on a national broadcast tonight and performed a song about dating a closeted woman who refuses to acknowledge their relationship and denies the fact that she’s a lesbian. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that happening but here we are and it’s amazing.

As a lesbian woman, to have an artist go out and be so entirely herself in every way, to be so proud of her own sexuality and to perform a song like this and have it be broadcasted to millions of people…it makes me so emotional. All I have ever wanted as a queer woman is to have this sort of unabashed representation and we’re finally getting it in such an incredible way. What an era we are living in and all I can say is long may it continue and I am so proud to be a Chappell Roan fan.

#yes of course other sapphic artists have come before her but to have the platform she has is SO important #little teenage me truly could have never imagined this #it just makes me so proud to be her fan and proud to be a lesbian #Chappell Roan #vmas #I’m in my gay girl feelings tonight because seeing a proud lesbian pop artist shine is everything to me #many queer artists have paved the way for Chappell but this about being a lesbian and having lesbian representation in such a big way

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lotus-pear · 4 months ago

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learning to love

#they make me so fucking unwell i feel so ill whenever i think about them #it's OVER for me i'm done #teen skk is going on my fucking suicide note thanks for everything asagiri #something something your bloodied hand in mind something something by you i am forever undone #something something to the world we may be villains but to each other we're two halves of the same soul #head in my fucking hands #sry for getting all emo i rewatched pmmm yesterday and i've been feeling existential about everything #i actually listened to the pmmm ost while drawing it saved me i love you yuki kajiura😍 (i died)#nothing like a haunting latin chorus echoing through my empty head while i draw tragic yaoi 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#big shoutout to sis puella magica i had that one on loop for like two hours‼️#anyway enough about the doomed yuri anime back to skk #forget everything i said i actually hope they explode i'm sick of their asses #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #soukoku #skk #posting at ungodly hours again this is gonna catch up to me 💔#lotus draws

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valictini · 9 days ago

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I’ve already said it, I’ll say it again, Mal du Pays is such a visceral and clever word to describe Siffrin’s Sadness. When I first saw it in game it genuinely made me pause like. Yes, it translates to homesickness. But it has the literal word for country in it. “Country sickness”. For a guy whose core problem is that his childhood, his culture, his country is missing. One could argue it’s a twisted pun. I’m obsessed with it.

#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #isat siffrin #isat mal du pays #isat fanart #my art #in stars and time spoilers #isat headcanon #not done yapping: like you meet mdp at a point where the Big Problem is the loops and siffrin's fear of being abandonned by the party #and then Mal du Pays shows up and it hits you #thats the core of every fucking issue Siffrin has #his country and how it fucked everything for him #his bad memory making him forget too much and making him feel like a horrible friend and making him think that surely #hell also be forgotten #because hes a bad friend and a mess and is missing half of his fucking life #he holds onto the party with everything he has but also feels an infinite amount of shame about it because Hes A Bad Friend #hea so scared to forget whats important to him just like he forgot his past #just #ough

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nova-rpv · 3 months ago

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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright #here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really #im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting #the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one #like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans #and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall #it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf #i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear #also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #nov.aart #nov.junk

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introspectivememories · 2 months ago

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was it casual when i sat in your lap in public? was it casual when i said "recently my heart is crying because you're leaving"? was it casual when we decided how your last name would fit with mine? ("yuki tsunoda-gasly" / "no tsunoda, only gasly" / "yuki gasly?") was it casual when we sang adele's "someone like you" together at your going away party? was it casual when i knew it was you just by touching your ass? was it casual when i knew it was you by smell alone? was it casual when "will you miss me?" / "for 2-3 minutes maybe" / "i'll take that. even if it's just 2-3 minutes, i'll take that"? was it casual when that bus was completely empty and we still sat right next to each other, all the way in the back? was it casual when i picked you up multiple times so you could dunk a basketball? was it casual when i begged to come over to your house multiple time and then you finally let me and we cooked fried rice together? was it casual when we played christmas twister together and i said "your big eggplant is touching my ass"? was it casual when we were pressed up against each other on a scooter going two miles per hour? was it casual when-

#edit: tinytauris fact checked my post and they sang 'hello' not someone like you & it was 'your big monster' not eggplant #everyday i think about the fact that yukierre should've been what lestappen is now #i should be able to go on the yukierre tag on ao3 and it should say 'showing 1-20 of 6745'#they were genuinely so fuckingg weird about each otherrrrrr #im being so serious when i say that if they ever came out as gay/bi/whatever i really wouldnt be surprised #literally just 'okay?? fork spotted in kitchen cmon now' moment #anyway i think about that moment on the bus soooo often #will you miss me? / maybe for 2-3 minutes / ill take that then. even if it's just for 2-3 minutes ill take that #hwat the FUCK #i was going 'gay gay homosexual' everytime i saw them together #yukierre #yuki tsunoda #pierre gasly #also im like 90% sure that everyting i worte down actually happened but if i wrote smth down that didnt happen #and my yukierre infested brain just conjured up please let me know #also ive had this is in my drafts foreverrrr (re: since july) so if this has already been done im so sorry #i always feel like such a loser making posts about driver relationships lol #like 'oh look at that weirdo that got too invested in people she doesn't even know'#whatever im getting to introspective now #1k

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Conceal, don't feel, don't let it show.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #lan xichen #You can practically hear LXC's emotions vacuum sealing back into his body when LWJ tells him about wanting to bring someone back to Gusu.#This *is* a confession of both having feelings for someone else and also and admittance of terror at such feelings.#And honestly - can you blame LXC? Knowing how to respond to people in emotional turmoil like this is a skill that few manage to master.#There is a part of him that is so genuinely happy that his brother has fallen for someone!#And there is a part that acknowledges that LWJ needs to come to his own conclusions about this all.#Hence the extremely restrained reactions! He is so in his brother's corner that he's accidently clipped through the wall into another room.#Sadly that's how it goes sometimes...We want to be there for people in the best way. We give them space and hope for the best.#But space can leave someone isolated and alone. It heals some emotions but it makes others fester.#The fact that LWJ is at the point he's open about what he's feeling (even a little bit) means that it's a Big Deal.#LCX is just as bad with his own emotions. He only knows how to keep things in his own heart down.#There isn't anything he could have said. There *were* better things to say but does he have the capacity? No.

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otaku553 · 2 months ago

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Fire (part 4)

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(Spade Pirate Sabo AU Masterpost)

We're finally here!!!!!! BABY'S FIRST FIRE FIST!!!!!

MASSIVE THANK YOU TO @where-does-the-heart-lie for writing the broad strokes of this 4 chapter arc!!!! it's been absolutely amazing having you as both a beta reader and a sounding board for comic ideas! thanks for being here since pretty much the very beginning :DDD

I've had this chapter sketched out since 2 months ago...... at long last it can see the day of light......

#spade pirate sabo au #sabo #portgas d ace #one piece au #sabo: fuck around and find out huh? yeah sure i can do that #i feel like over the past month or so of making halftone comics ive just forgotten how to draw fire #also for the color. you can thank loopey's fishbowl comic for being so gorgeous that it inspired me to color again #just this though. going forward i think im going to save color for the big things lmao

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apuff · 3 months ago

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LOOK ALIVE SUNSHINE

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cactuslester · 20 days ago

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dan & phil + fate

HAPPY 15TH PHANNIVERSARY! <333

#i so rarely make gifs these days but i had to for 15 years phannie day of course #i hope these look at least a little cohesive #i will forever be so enamored by dan not believing in fate #but the love he feels for phil is so much it feels like there has Got to be some big universal force at work #warms my little skeptic (skeptical about fate not skeptical about dnp of course) heart #dnp #dan and phil #phan #daniel howell #phil lester #amazingphil #danisnotonfire #<-he is never escaping this #dpgdaily #DPGPhanniversary #cactuslestergifs

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bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months ago

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soon it'll be dawn again

transcript under the cut ⏬

page 01

Fig: no way? - you're still up?

Riz: Wh– yes?

Riz: Why'd I not be.

page 02

Fig: I me~~ean - that took.

Fig: whole day.

Riz: Yeah?

Fig: 'm beat.

Riz: you should sleep.

page 03

Fig: nah. my guy's still up

Fig: I wanna hang out.

page 04

Riz: That's really nice.

Fig: Hah! - Nobody ever expects an Archdevil rockstar to be nice.

Riz: … yeah. - 's just budget work tho. (the stuff I'm working on) - I've heard it's boring.

page 05

Fig: yeah, but you do it…

Riz: It keeps things going, right? - Nothing happens if nobody sits down and - does the thing.

Fig: That's right… - though. Yeah.

page 06

Fig: sometimes it's someone else who - doesn't want the same thing to happen.

Riz: … - mm.

page 07

Riz (off screen): …It took me a long time to get that not everyone likes doing what I do. - 's probably because you guys are so nice– - or. - kind.

Riz (off screen): to anyone too, not just. - the people you /love/.

page 08

Riz: that's not how it is elsewhere. - The world's– not. hostile. - but 's not like it's kind.

Riz: So I'm doing as much as I can now…

page 09

Fig: Hey.

Riz: ?

Fig: Go dig some dirt with me.

page 10

Riz: [blank speech bubble] - oh you meant like - actual dirt. (not incriminating information)

Fig: o yea.

Fig: there's clay in the backyard soil. - sometimes when I'm sun deficient or something I go touch dirt for a bit.

page 11

Fig: here u go

page 12

Riz: uh

Fig: now we make a thing! - 'm pretty good at freehanding a bowl.

Fig: I'll show u

page 13

Fig: just– yep, flatten that out as evenly as u can, then–! - actually ur nails'd be so good at cutting out the strip. [larger than usual space] wait. - wait. wait u can carve patterns with them! we HAVE to try

Riz: uh - What. do I carve?

Fig: anything!!!

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Fig: and– yep just seal the inside uh. seam?

Fig: yep that works - okay time's up! all contestant hands up

Riz: [blank speech bubble] - okay - wh. what's next?

Fig: haha - watch this.

(sound effect text): FWOO—MP

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Riz: WH– DON'T JUST DO THAT???

Fig: Now it's fired!

Riz: THAT WAS NOT SAFE

Fig: (actually it's just dry. if u add water rn it'll dissolve)

Fig: ok catch!

Riz: [blank speech bubble] - careful!!

Fig: dw no need haha

page 16

Riz (thought bubble): oh - it's warm…

Fig: now I want you to throw this.

page 17

Fig: u gotta do it - c'mon

page 18

Riz: wh– - It's like 3AM right now

Fig: oh it's not /fired/ fired it's not gonna make a loud noise

Riz: And then just? leave a pile out here?

Fig: pour water over it & it'll be gone I told u

Riz: but

page 19

Fig (off screen): RIz.

page 20

Fig: I've done all this before.

Fig: Can you trust that at least?

page 21

Riz: no, I– - I do. - I trust you.

page 23

Riz: okay what happens now

(sound effect text): glob

page 24

Fig: we do it again!

page 25

Riz: wh. [larger than usual space] What do you mean. (this clay's too wet also)

Fig: see! you're already learning

Fig: [blank speech bubble] - there are flows that are futile to fight. - The world changes.

Fig: Things change.

page 26

Fig: I've learned my lessons with "forevers". - But - as an artist

Fig: I can give you one thing: - You can always do it again.

page 27

Fig: most of everything depends on the rest of the world, - but this. - making new. - that's yours as long as you want it.

page 28

Fig: So?

page 29

Riz: Yeah. - Yeah! - let's make another one.

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #riz gukgak #figueroth faeth #technically no spoilers in this comic but listen. I Will be gloating in tags. I will Never Shut Up #for the record!! this was fully conceptualized and sketched Before the finales. I started sketching this after the boat fight #and when murph closed riz's arc this season with ''maybe it's okay to change and welcome new things'' I pogged irl #I am simply the best at reading comprehension what can I say! (<- grown ass man with roughly the same perspective on teenhood as the player #fucked up that this became so long (almost 30 squares lol) that it took me this long to finish #lmao I say all that but. genuinely I am delirious and my feelings abt riz's arc this season are so big... I was getting psychic backlash #for a While lol. it was scary!!#had to sit down and do therapy on my own ass for a bit. the teenage apocalyticisation is real. that word isnt tho Im pretty sure #truly anything you do at that age feels like that's it that's all you've got going on forever. and its not true! its simply not true #you'll be okay my guy. you love your friends so so much but also there will be more to love out there #this one goes out to fellow aroaces and also folks leaving somewhere theyve called home for a long time #nothing lasts forever but that means new things come by too! ur ability to make new is infinite!!#there's no magnum opus people leave but new people come by too etc. I am too sleepy to remember what I wanted to say uhhh #well. thank u for looking at my art. I think thats the one pack it n ship it boys

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eggwishing · 1 month ago

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sans looking at ice or something

#sans #undertale #finished this…… :] for my design class. a little rough around the edges. but i think it’s pretty nice #i’m friends with everyone at my table in that class & they all wanted to see how it turned out. one of the #m literally had their jaw drop #i wanted to don a giant pink tutu and twirl around in circles so fast it’d create a tornado that could shred the entire building #wowie…. cool people think my art is cool… feels pretty nice!!!#i want to make cool music soon too. i’m having so much fun. but a big hurdle is figuring out how to get a good drumbeat #if anyone reading this is familiar with music… can you dm me with some tips... and like dumb them down for me please. i was born yesterday!#beepbox’s drums are so hard to decode

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buglaur · 5 months ago

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the farmhouse kitchen 🌱🍎

:D!!

#ts4 #sims 4 #stardew valley #sdv #ts4 blender #farmer isn't home you know what that means #charlie in the house!!!!#i love shane and his ugly crocs #i'm still obsessed with stardew. think about it every minute #isometric rooms are so much fun to make i feel like a big kid decorating a dollhouse #this is unedited i'm not bothered to open photoshop #edits

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cj-the-random-artist · 5 months ago

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Here's a Cult of the Lamb comic that I scripted on a whim and then spent. Actual time on.

I hope y'all like this cuz it was fun to make and. I spent actual time on it lmfao

(Also for the "brought Narinder back" line. I started a new save and I swear between my two saves he's died three times. This guy. Goodness gracious.)

#cult of the lamb #cult of the lamb fanart #cotl #cotl fanart #cotl narinder #cotl lamb #not gonna tag the other bishops or sozo cuz theyre in it for like. 1 panel so i dont think that counts #see this is what happens when i get stressed out and have big feelings. i make stuff lmfao #but yea this was fun. and yea its 'angst' or whatever but its not sposed to be taken super seriously or anything #(unless u want to. i cant tell u what to do ig lmfao)#but yea this was fun. enjoy this thing that i spent actual time on.

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emmcfrxst · 4 months ago

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jason todd swears like a sailor whenever you ride him. the visual of your body on top of his, the feeling of your hands on his chest and your cunt fluttering around him, the sweet sounds of your moans and mewls— everything about getting ridden makes jason’s dick hard and turns his brain to mush

#won’t stop swearing. moans loud. keeps calling you pet names and praising you. waxes poetry about how pretty you look riding his cock.#the thought of it alone makes him feral. has made him hard on patrol more than once (he becomes even more brutal towards the criminals when #he’s in this mindset. he’s fighting off the adrenaline that the thought of you naked above him is making him feel)#he has come home early more than once with blood on his clothes and his dick hard in his pants telling you he needs you #he still needs clear vocally expressed consent before he does so much as breathe you in because as wound up as he may be he can’t stay hard #and aroused if you don’t want him back. your consent is crucial to him and he makes sure to ask for it multiple times even during sex #because nothing matters more to him than knowing you’re as into whatever you’re doing as he is #and the vocal admission of you wanting him (physically but also mentally and emotionally and psychologically) is a big part of his drive #jason todd x reader #jason todd smut #jason todd imagine #red hood imagine #dc imagine

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